`WouldyougivemetheTime?'saidthesergeant,addressinghimselftoMrPumblechook,astoamanwhoseappreciativepowersjustifiedtheinferencethathewasequaltothetime。
`It'sjustgonehalf-pasttwo。'
`That'snotsobad,'saidthesergeant,reflecting;`evenifIwasforcedtohaltherenightwohours,that'lldo。Howfarmightyoucallyourselvesfromthemarshes,hereabouts?Notaboveamile,Ireckon?'
`Justamile,'saidMrsJoe。
`That'lldo。Webegintocloseinupon'emaboutdusk。Alittlebeforedusk,myordersare。That'lldo。'
`Convicts,sergeant?'askedMrWopsle,inamatter-of-courseway。
`Ay!'returnedthesergeant,`two。They'reprettywellknowntobeoutonthemarshesstill,andtheywon'ttrytogetclearof'embeforedusk。
Anybodyhereseenanythingofanysuchgame?'
Everybody,myselfexcepted,saidno,withconfidence。Nobodythoughtofme。
`Well!'saidthesergeant,`they'llfindthemselvestrappedinacircle,Iexpect,soonerthantheycounton。Now,blacksmith!Ifyou'reready,hisMajestytheKingis。'
Joehadgothiscoatandwaistcoatandcravatoff,andhisleatherapronon,andpassedintotheforge。Oneofthesoldiersopeneditswoodenwindows,anotherlightenedthefire,anotherturnedtoatthebellows,thereststoodroundtheblaze,whichwassoonroaring。ThenJoebegantohammerandclink,hammerandclink,andwealllookedon。
Theinterestoftheimpendingpursuitnotonlyabsorbedthegeneralattention,butevenmademysisterliberal。Shedrewapitcherofbeerfromthecask,forthesoldiers,andinvitedthesergeanttotakeaglassofbrandy。ButMrPumblechooksaid,sharply,`Givehimwine,Mum。I'llengagethere'snoTarinthat:'so,thesergeantthankedhimandsaidthatashepreferredhisdrinkwithouttar,hewouldtakewine,ifitwasequallyconvenient。Whenitwasgivenhim,hedrankhisMajesty'shealthandComplimentsoftheSeason,andtookitallatamouthfulandsmackedhislips。
`Goodstuff,eh,sergeant?'saidMrPumblechook。
`I'lltellyousomething,'returnedthesergeant;`Isuspectthatstuff'sofyourproviding。'
Mr。Pumblechook,withafatsortoflaugh,said,`Ay,ay?Why?'
`Because,'returnedthesergeant,clappinghimontheshoulder,`you'reamanthatknowswhat'swhat。'
`D'yethinkso?'saidMrPumblechook,withhisformerlaugh。`Haveanotherglass!'
`Withyou。Hobandnob,'returnedthesergeant。`Thetopofminetothefootofyours-thefootofyourstothetopofmine-Ringonce,ringtwice-thebesttuneontheMusicalGlasses!Yourhealth。Mayyouliveathousandyears,andneverbeaworsejudgeoftherightsortthanyouareatthepresentmomentofyourlife!'
Thesergeanttossedoffhisglassagainandseemedquitereadyforanotherglass。InoticedthatMrPumblechookinhishospitalityappearedtoforgetthathehadmadeapresentofthewine,buttookthebottlefromMrsJoeandhadallthecreditofhandingitaboutinagushofjoviality。EvenIgotsome。Andhewassoveryfreeofthewinethatheevencalledfortheotherbottle,andhandedthataboutwiththesameliberality,whenthefirstwasgone。
AsIwatchedthemwhiletheyallstoodclusteringabouttheforge,enjoyingthemselvessomuch,Ithoughtwhatterriblegoodsauceforadinnermyfugitivefriendonthemarsheswas。Theyhadnotenjoyedthemselvesaquartersomuch,beforetheentertainmentwasbrightenedwiththeexcitementhefurnished。Andnow,whentheywereallinlivelyanticipationof`thetwovillains'beingtaken,andwhenthebellowsseemedtoroarforthefugitives,thefiretoflareforthem,thesmoketohurryawayinpursuitofthem,Joetohammerandclinkforthem,andallthemurkyshadowsonthewalltoshakeattheminmenaceastheblazeroseandsankandthered-hotsparksdroppedanddied,thepaleafter-noonoutside,almostseemedinmypityingyoungfancytohaveturnedpaleontheiraccount,poorwretches。
Atlast,Joe'sjobwasdone,andtheringingandroaringstopped。AsJoegotonhiscoat,hemusteredcouragetoproposethatsomeofusshouldgodownwiththesoldiersandseewhatcameofthehunt。MrPumblechookandMrHubbledeclined,onthepleaofapipeandladies'society;butMrWopslesaidhewouldgo,ifJoewould。Joesaidhewasagreeable,andwouldtakeme,ifMrsJoeapproved。Wenevershouldhavegotleavetogo,Iamsure,butforMrsJoe'scuriositytoknowallaboutitandhowitended。Asitwas,shemerelystipulated,`Ifyoubringtheboybackwithhisheadblowntobitsbyamusket,don'tlooktometoputittogetheragain。'
Thesergeanttookapoliteleaveoftheladies,andpartedfromMrPumblechookasfromacomrade;thoughIdoubtifhewerequiteasfullysensibleofthatgentleman'smeritsunderaridconditions,aswhensomethingmoistwasgoing。Hismenresumedtheirmusketsandfellin。MrWopsle,Joe,andI,receivedstrictchargetokeepintherear,andtospeaknowordafterwereachedthemarshes。Whenwewerealloutintherawairandweresteadilymovingtowardsourbusiness,ItreasonablywhisperedtoJoe,`Ihope,Joe,weshan'tfindthem。'andJoewhisperedtome,`I'dgiveashillingiftheyhadcutandrun,Pip。'
Wewerejoinedbynostragglersfromthevillage,fortheweatherwascoldandthreatening,thewaydreary,thefootinghad,darknesscomingon,andthepeoplehadgoodfiresin-doorsandwerekeepingtheday。A
fewfaceshurriedtoglowingwindowsandlookedafterus,butnonecameout。Wepassedthefinger-post,andheldstraightontothechurchyard。
There,wewerestoppedafewminutesbyasignalfromthesergeant'shand,whiletwoorthreeofhismendispersedthemselvesamongthegraves,andalsoexaminedtheporch。Theycameinagainwithoutfindinganything,andthenwestruckoutontheopenmarshes,throughthegateatthesideofthechurchyard。Abittersleetcamerattlingagainstushereontheeastwind,andJoetookmeonhisback。
NowthatweareoutuponthedismalwildernesswheretheylittlethoughtIhadbeenwithineightorninehoursandhadseenbothmenhiding,Iconsideredforthefirsttime,withgreatdread,ifweshouldcomeuponthem,wouldmyparticularconvictsupposethatitwasIwhohadbroughtthesoldiersthere?HehadaskedmeifIwasadeceivingimp,andhehadsaidIshouldbeafierceyounghoundifIjoinedthehuntagainsthim。WouldhebelievethatIwasbothimpandhoundintreacherousearnest,andhadbetrayedhim?
Itwasofnouseaskingmyselfthisquestionnow。ThereIwas,onJoe'sback,andtherewasJoebeneathme,chargingattheditcheslikeahunter,andstimulatingMrWopslenottotumbleonhisRomannose,andtokeepupwithus。Thesoldierswereinfrontofus,extendingintoaprettywidelinewithanintervalbetweenmanandman。WeweretakingthecourseI
hadbegunwith,andfromwhichIhaddivergedinthemist。Eitherthemistwasnotoutagainyet,orthewindhaddispelledit。Underthelowredglareofsunset,thebeacon,andthegibbet,andthemoundoftheBattery,andtheoppositeshoreoftheriver,wereplain,thoughallofawateryleadcolour。
WithmyheartthumpinglikeablacksmithatJoe'sbroadshoulder,I
lookedallaboutforanysignoftheconvicts。Icouldseenone,Icouldhearnone。MrWopslehadgreatlyalarmedmemorethanonce,byhisblowingandhardbreathing;butIknewthesoundsbythistime,andcoulddissociatethemfromtheobjectofpursuit。Igotadreadfulstart,whenIthoughtIheardthefilestillgoing;butitwasonlyasheepbell。Thesheepstoppedintheireatingandlookedtimidlyatus;andthecattle,theirheadsturnedfromthewindandsleet,staredangrilyasiftheyheldusresponsibleforbothannoyances;but,exceptthesethings,andtheshudderofthedyingdayineverybladeofgrass,therewasnobreakinthebleakstillnessofthemarshes。
ThesoldiersweremovingoninthedirectionoftheoldBattery,andweweremovingonalittlewaybehindthem,when,allofasudden,weallstopped。For,therehadreachedusonthewingsofthewindandrain,alongshout。Itwasrepeated。Itwasatadistancetowardstheeast,butitwaslongandloud。Nay,thereseemedtobetwoormoreshoutsraisedtogether-ifonemightjudgefromaconfusioninthesound。
Tothiseffectthesergeantandthenearestmenwerespeakingundertheirbreath,whenJoeandIcameup。Afteranothermoment'slistening,Joewhowasagoodjudgeagreed,andMrWopslewhowasabadjudge
agreed。Thesergeant,adecisiveman,orderedthatthesoundshouldnotbeanswered,butthatthecourseshouldbechanged,andthathismenshouldmaketowardsit`atthedouble。'SoweslantedtotherightwheretheEastwas,andJoepoundedawaysowonderfully,thatIhadtoholdontighttokeepmyseat。
Itwasarunindeednow,andwhatJoecalled,intheonlytwowordshespokeallthetime,`aWinder。'Downbanksandupbanks,andovergates,andsplashingintodykes,andbreakingamongcoarserushes:nomancaredwherehewent。Aswecamenearertotheshouting,itbecamemoreandmoreapparentthatitwasmadebymorethanonevoice。Sometimes,itseemedtostopaltogether,andthenthesoldiersstopped。Whenitbrokeoutagain,thesoldiersmadeforitatagreaterratethanever,andweafterthem。
Afterawhile,wehadsorunitdown,thatwecouldhearonevoicecalling`Murder!'andanothervoice,`Convicts!Runaways!Guard!Thiswayfortherunawayconvicts!'Thenbothvoiceswouldseemtobestifledinastruggle,andthenwouldbreakoutagain。Andwhenithadcometothis,thesoldiersranlikedeer,andJoetoo。
Thesergeantraninfirst,whenwehadrunthenoisequitedown,andtwoofhismenranincloseuponhim。Theirpieceswerecockedandlevelledwhenweallranin。
`Herearebothmen!'pantedthesergeant,strugglingatthebottomofaditch。`Surrender,youtwo!andconfoundyoufortwowildbeasts!Comeasunder!'
Waterwassplashing,andmudwasflying,andoathswerebeingsworn,andblowswerebeingstruck,whensomemoremenwentdownintotheditchtohelpthesergeant,anddraggedout,separately,myconvictandtheotherone。Bothwerebleedingandpantingandexecratingandstruggling;butofcourseIknewthembothdirectly。
`Mind!'saidmyconvict,wipingbloodfromhisfacewithhisraggedsleeves,andshakingtornhairfromhisfingers:`Itookhim!Igivehimuptoyou!Mindthat!'
`It'snotmuchtobeparticularabout,'aidthesergeant;`it'lldoyousmallgood,myman,beinginthesameplightyourself。Handcuffsthere!'
`Idon'texpectittodomeanygood。Idon'twantittodomemoregoodthanitdoesnow,'saidmyconvict,withagreedylaugh。`Itookhim。
Heknowsit。That'senoughforme。'
Theotherconvictwaslividtolookat,and,inadditiontotheoldbruisedleftsideofhisface,seemedtobebruisedandtornallover。
Hecouldnotsomuchasgethisbreathtospeak,untiltheywerebothseparatelyhandcuffed,butleaneduponasoldiertokeephimselffromfalling。
`Takenotice,guard-hetriedtomurderme,'werehisfirstwords。
`Triedtomurderhim?'saidmyconvict,disdainfully。`Try,andnotdoit?Itookhim,andgiv'himup;that'swhatIdone。Inotonlypreventedhimgettingoffthemarshes,butIdraggedhimhere-draggedhimthisfaronhiswayback。He'sagentleman,ifyouplease,thisvillain。Now,theHulkshasgotitsgentlemanagain,throughme。Murderhim?Worthmywhile,too,tomurderhim,whenIcoulddoworseanddraghimback!'
Theotheronestillgasped,`Hetried-hetried-to-murderme。Bear-bearwitness。'
`Lookeehere!'saidmyconvicttothesergeant。`Single-handedIgotclearoftheprison-ship;ImadeadashandIdoneit。Icouldha'gotclearofthesedeath-coldflatslikewise-lookatmyleg:youwon'tfindmuchirononit-ifIhadn'tmadediscoverythathewashere。Lethimgofree?LethimprofitbythemeansasIfoundout?
Lethimmakeatoolofmeafreshandagain?Oncemore?No,no,no。
IfIhaddiedatthebottomthere;'andhemadeanemphaticswingattheditchwithhismanacledhands;`I'dhaveheldtohimwiththatgrip,thatyoushouldhavebeensafetofindhiminmyhold。'
Theotherfugitive,whowasevidentlyinextremehorrorofhiscompanion,repeated,`Hetriedtomurderme。Ishouldhavebeenadeadmanifyouhadnotcomeup。'
`Helies!'saidmyconvict,withfierceenergy。`He'saliarborn,andhe'lldiealiar。Lookathisface;ain'titwrittenthere?Lethimturnthoseeyesofhisonme。Idefyhimtodoit。'
Theother,withaneffortatascornfulsmile-whichcouldnot,however,collectthenervousworkingofhismouthintoanysetexpression-lookedatthesoldiers,andlookedaboutatthemarshesandatthesky,butcertainlydidnotlookatthespeaker。
`Doyouseehim?'pursuedmyconvict。`Doyouseewhatavillainheis?Doyouseethosegrovellingandwanderingeyes?That'showhelookedwhenweweretriedtogether。Heneverlookedatme。'
Theother,alwaysworkingandworkinghisdrylipsandturninghiseyesrestlesslyabouthimfarandnear,didatlastturnthemforamomentonthespeaker,withthewords,`Youarenotmuchtolookat,'andwithahalf-tauntingglanceattheboundhands。Atthatpoint,myconvictbecamesofranticallyexasperated,thathewouldhaverusheduponhimbutfortheinterpositionofthesoldiers。`Didn'tItellyou,'saidtheotherconvictthen,`thathewouldmurderme,ifhecould?'Andanyonecouldseethatheshookwithfear,andthattherebrokeoutuponhislips,curiouswhiteflakes,likethinsnow。
`Enoughofthisparley,'saidthesergeant。`Lightthosetorches。'
Asoneofthesoldiers,whocarriedabasketinlieuofagun,wentdownonhiskneetoopenit,myconvictlookedroundhimforthefirsttime,andsawme。IhadalightedfromJoe'sbackonthebrinkoftheditchwhenwecameup,andhadnotmovedsince。Ilookedathimeagerlywhenhelookedatme,andslightlymovedmyhandsandshookmyhead。Ihadbeenwaitingforhimtoseeme,thatImighttrytoassurehimofmyinnocence。
Itwasnotatallexpressedtomethatheevencomprehendedmyintention,forhegavemealookthatIdidnotunderstand,anditallpassedinamoment。Butifhehadlookedatmeforanhourorforaday,Icouldnothaverememberedhisfaceeverafterwards,ashavingbeenmoreattentive。
Thesoldierwiththebasketsoongotalight,andlightedthreeorfourtorches,andtookonehimselfanddistributedtheothers。Ithadbeenalmostdarkbefore,butnowitseemedquitedark,andsoonafterwardsverydark。
Beforewedepartedfromthatspot,foursoldiersstandinginaring,firedtwiceintotheair。Presentlywesawothertorcheskindledatsomedistancebehindus,andothersonthemarshesontheoppositebankoftheriver。
`Allright,'saidthesergeant。`March。'
Wehadnotgonefarwhenthreecannonwerefiredaheadofuswithasoundthatseemedtoburstsomethinginsidemyear。`Youareexpectedonboard,'saidthesergeanttomyconvict;`theyknowyouarecoming。Don'tstraggle,myman。Closeuphere。'
Thetwowerekeptapart,andeachwalkedsurroundedbyaseparateguard。
IhadholdofJoe'shandnow,andJoecarriedoneofthetorches。MrWopslehadbeenforgoingback,butJoewasresolvedtoseeitout,sowewentonwiththeparty。Therewasareasonablygoodpathnow,mostlyontheedgeoftheriver,withadivergencehereandtherewhereadykecame,withaminiaturewindmillonitandamuddysluice-gate。WhenIlookedround,Icouldseetheotherlightscominginafterus。Thetorcheswecarried,droppedgreatblotchesoftheuponthetrack,andIcouldseethose,too,lyingsmokingandflaring。Icouldseenothingelsebutblackdarkness。Ourlightswarmedtheairaboutuswiththeirpitchyblaze,andthetwoprisonersseemedrathertolikethat,astheylimpedalonginthemidstofthemuskets。Wecouldnotgofast,becauseoftheirlameness;
andtheyweresospent,thattwoorthreetimeswehadtohaltwhiletheyrested。
Afteranhourorsoofthistravelling,wecametoaroughwoodenhutandalanding-place。Therewasaguardinthehut,andtheychallenged,andthesergeantanswered。Then,wewentintothehutwheretherewasasmelloftobaccoandwhitewash,andabrightfire,andalamp,andastandofmuskets,andadrum,andalowwoodenbedstead,likeanovergrownmanglewithoutthemachinery,capableofholdingaboutadozensoldiersallatonce。Threeorfoursoldierswholayuponitintheirgreat-coats,werenotmuchinterestedinus,butjustliftedtheirheadsandtookasleepystare,andthenlaydownagain。Thesergeantmadesomekindofreport,andsomeentryinabook,andthentheconvictwhomIcalltheotherconvictwasdraftedoffwithhisguard,togoonboardfirst。
Myconvictneverlookedatme,exceptthatonce。Whilewestoodinthehut,hestoodbeforethefirelookingthoughtfullyatit,orputtinguphisfeetbyturnsuponthehob,andlookingthoughtfullyatthemasifhepitiedthemfortheirrecentadventures。Suddenly,heturnedtothesergeant,andremarked:
`Iwishtosaysomethingrespectingthisescape。Itmaypreventsomepersonslayingundersuspicionalongerme。'
`Youcansaywhatyoulike,'returnedthesergeant,standingcoollylookingathimwithhisarmsfolded,`butyouhavenocalltosayithere。
You'llhaveopportunityenoughtosayaboutit,andhearaboutit,beforeit'sdonewith,youknow。'
`Iknow,butthisisanotherpint,aseparatematter。Amancan'tstarve;
atleastIcan't。Itooksomewittles,upatthewillageoveryonder-wherethechurchstandsa'mostoutonthemarshes。'
`Youmeanstole,'saidthesergeant。
`AndI'lltellyouwherefrom。Fromtheblacksmith's。'
`Halloa!'saidthesergeant,staringatJoe。
`Halloa,Pip!'saidJoe,staringatme。
`Itwassomebrokenwittles-that'swhatitwas-andadramofliquor,andapie。'
`Haveyouhappenedtomisssuchanarticlesasapie,blacksmith?'askedthesergeant,confidentially。
`Mywifedid,attheverymomentwhenyoucamein。Don'tyouknow,Pip?'
`So,'saidmyconvict,turninghiseyesonJoeinamoodymanner,andwithouttheleastglanceatme;`soyou'retheblacksmith,areyou?ThanI'msorrytosay,I'veeatyourpie。'
`Godknowsyou'rewelcometoit-sofarasitwasevermine,'returnedJoe,withasavingremembranceofMrsJoe。`Wedon'tknowwhatyouhavedone,butwewouldn'thaveyoustarvedtodeathforit,poormiserablefellow-creatur-Wouldus,Pip?'
ThesomethingthatIhadnoticedbefore,clickedintheman'sthroatagain,andheturnedhisback。Theboathadreturned,andhisguardwereready,sowefollowedhimtothelanding-placemadeofroughstakesandstones,andsawhimputintotheboat,whichwasrowedbyacrewofconvictslikehimself。Nooneseemedsurprisedtoseehim,orinterestedinseeinghim,orgladtoseehim,orsorrytoseehim,orspokeaword,exceptthatsomebodyintheboatgrowledasiftodogs,`Giveway,you!'whichwasthesignalforthedipoftheoars。Bythelightoftorches,wewastheblackHulklyingoutalittlewayfromthemudoftheshore,likeawickedNoah'sark。Cribbedandbarredandmooredbymassiverustychains,theprison-shipseemedinmyyoungeyestobeironedliketheprisoners。Wesawtheboatgoalongside,andwesawhimtakenupthesideanddisappear。
Then,theendsofthetorcheswereflunghissingintothewater,andwentout,asifitwerealloverwithhim。
Chapter6
MYstateofmindregardingthepilferingfromwhichIhadbeensounexpectedlyexonerated,didnotimpelmetofrankdisclosure;butIhopeithadsomedregsofgoodatthebottomofit。
IdonotrecallthatIfeltanytendernessofconscienceinreferencetoMrsJoe,whenthefearofbeingfoundoutwasliftedoffme。ButIlovedJoe-perhapsfornobetterreasoninthoseearlydaysthanbecausethedearfellowletmelovehim-and,astohim,myinnerselfwasnotsoeasilycomposed。ItwasmuchuponmymindparticularlywhenIfirstsawhimlookingaboutforhisfilethatIoughttotellJoethewholetruth。
YetIdidnot,andforthereasonthatImistrustedthatifIdid,hewouldthinkmeworsethanIwas。ThefearoflosingJoe'sconfidence,andofthenceforthsittinginthechimney-corneratnightstaringdrearilyatmyforeverlostcompanionandfriend,tiedupmytongue。ImorbidlyrepresentedtomyselfthatifJoeknewit,Ineverafterwardscouldseehimatthefiresidefeelinghisfairwhisker,withoutthinkingthathewasmeditatingonit。That,ifJoeknewit,Ineverafterwardscouldseehimglance,howevercasually,atyesterday'smeatorpuddingwhenitcameonto-day'stable,withoutthinkingthathewasdebatingwhetherIhadbeeninthepantry。
That,ifJoeknewit,andatanysubsequentperiodofourjointdomesticliferemarkedthathisbeerwasflatorthick,theconvictionthathesuspectedTarinit,wouldbringarushofbloodtomyface。Inaword,IwastoocowardlytodowhatIknewtoberight,asIhadbeentoocowardlytoavoiddoingwhatIknewtobewrong。Ihadhadnointercoursewiththeworldatthattime,andIimitatednoneofitsmanyinhabitantswhoactinthismanner。Quiteanuntaughtgenius,Imadethediscoveryofthelineofactionformyself。
AsIwassleepybeforewewerefarawayfromtheprison-ship,Joetookmeonhisbackagainandcarriedmehome。Hemusthavehadatiresomejourneyofit,forMrWopsle,beingknockedup,wasinsuchaverybadtemperthatiftheChurchhadbeenthrownopen,hewouldprobablyhaveexcommunicatedthewholeexpedition,beginningwithJoeandmyself。Inhislaycapacity,hepersistedinsittingdowninthedamptosuchaninsaneextent,thatwhenhiscoatwastakenofftobedriedatthekitchenfire,thecircumstantialevidenceonhistrouserswouldhavehangedhimifithadbeenacapitaloffence。
Bythattime,Iwasstaggeringonthekitchenfloorlikealittledrunkard,throughhavingbeennewlysetuponmyfeet,andthroughhavingbeenfastasleep,andthroughwakingintheheatandlightsandnoiseoftongues。
AsIcametomyselfwiththeaidofaheavythumpbetweentheshoulders,andtherestorativeexclamation`Yah!Wasthereeversuchaboyasthis!'
frommysister,IfoundJoetellingthenabouttheconvict'sconfession,andallthevisitorssuggestingdifferentwaysbywhichhehadgotintothepantry。MrPumblechookmadeout,aftercarefullysurveyingthepremises,thathehadfirstgotupontheroofoftheforge,andhadthengotupontheroofofthehouse,andhadthenlethimselfdownthekitchenchimneybyaropemadeofhisbeddingcutintostrips;andasMrPumblechookwasverypositiveanddrovehisownchaise-cart-overeverybody-itwasagreedthatitmustbeso。MrWopsle,indeed,wildlycriedout`No!'withthefeeblemaliceofatriedman;but,ashehadnotheory,andnocoaton,hewasunanimouslysetatnought-nottomentionhissmokinghardbehind,ashestoodwithhisbacktothekitchenfiretodrawthedampout:whichwasnotcalculatedtoinspireconfidence。
ThiswasallIheardthatnightbeforemysisterclutchedme,asaslumberousoffencetothecompany'seyesight,andassistedmeuptobedwithsuchastronghandthatIseemedtohavefiftybootson,andtobedanglingthemallagainsttheedgesofthestairs。Mystateofmind,asIhavedescribedit,beganbeforeIwasupinthemorning,andlastedlongafterthesubjecthaddiedout,andhadceasedtobementionedsavingonexceptionaloccasions。
Chapter7
ATthetimewhenIstoodinthechurchyard,readingthefamilytombstones,Ihadjustenoughlearningtobeabletospellthemout。Myconstructionevenoftheirsimplemeaningwasnotverycorrect,forIread`wifeoftheAbove'asacomplimentaryreferencetomyfather'sexaltationtoabetterworld;andifanyoneofmydeceasedrelationshadbeenreferredtoas`Below,'IhavenodoubtIshouldhaveformedtheworstopinionsofthatmemberofthefamily。Neither,weremynotionsofthetheologicalpositionstowhichmyCatechismboundme,atallaccurate;for,IhavealivelyremembrancethatIsupposedmydeclarationthatIwasto`walkinthesameallthedaysofmylife,'laidmeunderanobligationalwaystogothroughthevillagefromourhouseinoneparticulardirection,andnevertovaryitbyturningdownbythewheelwright'sorupbythemill。
WhenIwasoldenough,IwastobeapprenticedtoJoe,anduntilIcouldassumethatdignityIwasnottobewhatMrsJoecalled`Pompeyed,'orasIrenderitpampered。Therefore,Iwasnotonlyodd-boyabouttheforge,butifanyneighbourhappenedtowantanextraboytofrightenbirds,orpickupstones,ordoanysuchjob,Iwasfavouredwiththeemployment。
Inorder,however,thatoursuperiorpositionmightnotbecompromisedthereby,amoney-boxwaskeptonthekitchenmantel-shelf,intowhichitwaspubliclymadeknownthatallmyearningsweredropped。IhaveanimpressionthattheyweretobecontributedeventuallytowardstheliquidationoftheNationalDebt,butIknowIhadnohopeofanypersonalparticipationinthetreasure。
MrWopsle'sgreat-auntkeptaneveningschoolinthevillage;thatistosay,shewasaridiculousoldwomanoflimitedmeansandunlimitedinfirmity,whousedtogotosleepfromsixtoseveneveryevening,inthesocietyofyouthwhopaidtwopenceperweekeach,fortheimprovingopportunityofseeingherdoit。Sherentedasmallcottage,andMrWopslehadtheroomup-stairs,wherewestudentsusedtooverhearhimreadingaloudinamostdignifiedandterrificmanner,andoccasionallybumpingontheceiling。
TherewasafictionthatMrWopsle`examined'thescholars,onceaquarter。
Whathedidonthoseoccasionswastoturnuphiscuffs,stickuphishair,andgiveusMarkAntony'sorationoverthebodyofCaesar。ThiswasalwaysfollowedbyCollins'sOdeonthePassions,whereinIparticularlyveneratedMrWopsleasRevenge,throwinghisblood-stainedswordinthunderdown,andtakingtheWar-denouncingtrumpetwithawitheringlook。Itwasnotwithmethen,asitwasinlaterlife,whenIfellintothesocietyofthePassions,andcomparedthemwithCollinsandWopsle,rathertothedisadvantageofbothgentlemen。
Mr。Wopsle'sgreat-aunt,besideskeepingthisEducationalInstitution,kept-inthesameroom-alittlegeneralshop。Shehadnoideawhatstockshehad,orwhatthepriceofanythinginitwas;buttherewasalittlegreasymemorandum-bookkeptinadrawer,whichservedasaCatalogueofPrices,andbythisoracleBiddyarrangedalltheshoptransaction。BiddywasMrWopsle'sgreat-aunt'sgranddaughter;Iconfessmyselfquietunequaltotheworkingoutoftheproblem,whatrelationshewastoMrWopsle。
Shewasanorphanlikemyself;likeme,too,hadbeenbroughtupbyhand。
Shewasmostnoticeable,Ithought,inrespectofherextremities;for,herhairalwayswantedbrushing,herhandsalwayswantedwashing,andhershoesalwayswantedmendingandpullingupatheel。Thisdescriptionmustbereceivedwithaweek-daylimitation。OnSundays,shewenttochurchelaborated。
Muchofmyunassistedself,andmorebythehelpofBiddythanofMrWopsle'sgreat-aunt,Istruggledthroughthealphabetasifithadbeenabramble-bush;gettingconsiderablyworriedandscratchedbyeveryletter。
Afterthat,Ifellamongthosethieves,theninefigures,whoseemedeveryeveningtodosomethingnewtodisguisethemselvesandbafflerecognition。
But,atlastIbegan,inapurblindgropingway,toread,write,andcipher,ontheverysmallestscale。
Onenight,Iwassittinginthechimney-cornerwithmyslate,expendinggreateffortsontheproductionofalettertoJoe。Ithinkitmusthavebeenafullyyearafterourhuntuponthemarshes,foritwasalongtimeafter,anditwaswinterandahardfrost。Withanalphabetonthehearthatmyfeetforreference,Icontrivedinanhourortwotoprintandsmearthisepistle:`MIDEERJOiOPEURKRWITEWELLiOPEiSHALSONBHABELL
42TEEDGEUJOANTHENWESHORLBSOGLODDANWENiMPRENGTD2UJOWOT
LARXANBLEVEMEINFXNPIP。'TherewasnoindispensablenecessityformycommunicatingwithJoebyletter,inasmuchashesatbesidemeandwewerealone。But,Ideliveredthiswrittencommunicationslateandallwithmyownhand,andJoereceiveditasamiracleoferudition。
`Isay,Pip,oldchap!'criedJoe,openinghisblueeyeswide,`whatascholaryouare!An'tyou?'
`Ishouldliketobe,'saidI,glancingattheslateasheheldit:
withamisgivingthatthewritingwasratherhilly。
`Why,here'saJ,'saidJoe,`andaOequaltoanythink!Here'saJ
andaO,Pip,andaJ-O,Joe。'
IhadneverheardJoereadaloudtoanygreaterextentthanthismonosyllable,andIhadobservedatchurchlastSundaywhenIaccidentallyheldourPrayer-Bookupsidedown,thatitseemedtosuithisconveniencequiteaswellasifithadbeenright。WishingtoembracethepresentoccasionoffindingoutwhetherinteachingJoe,Ishouldhavetobeginquiteatthebeginning,Isaid,`Ah!Butreadtherest,Jo。'
`Therest,eh,Pip?'saidJoe,lookingatitwithaslowlysearchingeye,`One,two,three。Why,here'sthreeJs,andthreeOs,andthreeJ-O,Joesinit,Pip!'
IleanedoverJoe,and,withtheaidofmyforefinger,readhimthewholeletter。
`Astonishing!'saidJoe,whenIhadfinished。`YouAREascholar。'
`HowdoyouspellGargery,Joe?'Iaskedhim,withamodestpatronage。
`Idon'tspellitatall,'saidJoe。
`Butsupposingyoudid?'
`Itcan'tbesupposed,'saidJoe。`Tho'I'moncommonfondofreading,too。'
`Areyou,Joe?'
`On-common。Giveme,'saidJoe,`agoodbook,oragoodnewspaper,andsitmedownaforeagoodfire,andIasknobetter。Lord!'hecontinued,afterrubbinghiskneesalittle,`whenyoudocometoaJandaO,andsaysyou,"Here,atlast,isaJ-O,Joe,"howinterestingreadingis!'
Iderivedfromthislast,thatJoe'seducation,likeSteam,wasyetinitsinfancy,Pursuingthesubject,Iinquired:
`Didn'tyouevergotoschool,Joe,whenyouwereaslittleasme?'
`No,Pip。'
`Whydidn'tyouevergotoschool,Joe,whenyouwereaslittleasme?'
`Well,Pip,'saidJoe,takingupthepoker,andsettlinghimselftohisusualoccupationwhenhewasthoughtful,ofslowlyrakingthefirebetweenthelowerbars:`I'lltellyou。Myfather,Pip,heweregiventodrink,andwhenhewereovertookwithdrink,hehammeredawayatmymother,mostonmerciful。Itwerea'mosttheonlyhammeringhedid,indeed,'xceptingatmyself。Andhehammeredatmewithawigouronlytobeequalledbythewigourwithwhichhedidn'thammerathisanwil-You'relisteningandunderstanding,Pip?'
`Yes,Joe。'
`'Consequence,mymotherandmeweranawayfrommyfather,severaltimes;andthenmymothershe'dgoouttowork,andshe'dsay,"Joe,"she'dsay,"now,pleaseGod,youshallhavesomeschooling,child,"andshe'dputmetoschool。Butmyfatherwerethatgoodinhishartthathecouldn'tabeartobewithoutus。So,he'dcomewithamosttremenjouscrowdandmakesucharowatthedoorsofthehouseswherewewas,thattheyusedtobeobligatedtohavenomoretodowithusandtogiveusuptohim。
Andthenhetookushomeandhammeredus。Which,yousee,Pip,'saidJoe,pausinginhismeditativerakingofthefire,andlookingatme,`wereadrawbackonmylearning。'
`Certainly,poorJoe!'
`Thoughmindyou,Pip,'saidJoe,withajudicialtouchortwoofthepokeronthetopbar,`renderinguntoalltheirdoo,andmaintainingequaljusticebetwixtmanandman,myfatherwerethatgoodinhishart,don'tyousee?'
Ididn'tsee;butIdidn'tsayso。
`Well!'Joepursued,`somebodymustkeepthepotabiling,Pip,orthepotwon'tbile,don'tyouknow?'
Isawthat,andsaidso。
`'Consequence,myfatherdidn'tmakeobjectionstomygoingtowork;
soIwenttoworktoworkatmypresentcalling,whichwerehistoo,ifhewouldhavefollowedit,andIworkedtolerablehard,Iassureyou,Pip。IntimeIwereabletokeephim,andIkepthimtillhewentoffinapurplelepticfit。AnditweremyintentionstohavehadputuponhistombstonethatWhatsume'erthefailingsonhispart,Rememberreaderhewerethatgoodinhishart。'
Joerecitedthiscoupletwithsuchmanifestprideandcarefulperspicuity,thatIaskedhimifhehadmadeithimself。
`Imadeit,'saidJoe,`myownself。Imadeitinamoment。Itwaslikestrikingoutahorseshoecomplete,inasingleblow。Ineverwassomuchsurprisedinallmylife-couldn'tcreditmyowned-totellyouthetruth,hardlybelieveditweremyowned。AsIwassaying,Pip,itweremyintentionstohavehaditcutoverhim;butpoetrycostsmoney,cutithowyouwill,smallorlarge,anditwerenotdone。Nottomentionbearers,allthemoneythatcouldbesparedwerewantedformymother。
Shewereinpoorelth,andquitebroke。Sheweren'tlongoffollowing,poorsoul,andhershareofpeacecomeroundatlast。'
Joe'sblueeyesturnedalittlewatery;herubbed,firstoneofthem,andthentheother,inamostuncongenialanduncomfortablemanner,withtheroundknobonthetopofthepoker。
`Itwerebutlonesomethen,'saidJoe,`livingherealone,andIgotacquaintedwithyoursister。Now,Pip;'Joelookedfirmlyatme,asifheknewIwasnotgoingtoagreewithhim;`yoursisterisafinefigureofawoman。'
Icouldnothelplookingatthefire,inanobviousstateofdoubt。
`Whateverfamilyopinions,orwhatevertheworld'sopinions,onthatsubjectmaybe,Pip,yoursisteris,'Joetappedthetopbarwiththepokeraftereverywordfollowing,`a-fine-figure-of-a-woman!'
Icouldthinkofnothingbettertosaythan`Iamgladyouthinkso,Joe。'
`SoamI,'returnedJoe,catchingmeup。`IamgladIthinkso,Pip。AlittlerednessoralittlematterofBone,hereorthere,whatdoesitsignifytoMe?'
Isagaciouslyobserved,ifitdidn'tsignifytohim,towhomdiditsignify?
`Certainly!'assentedJoe。`That'sit。You'reright,oldchap!WhenI
gotacquaintedwithyoursister,itwerethetalkhowshewasbringingyouupbyhand。Verykindofhertoo,allthefolkssaid,andIsaid,alongwithallthefolks。Astoyou,'Joepursuedwithacountenanceexpressiveofseeingsomethingverynastyindeed:`ifyoucouldhavebeenawarehowsmallandflabbyandmeanyouwas,dearme,you'dhaveformedthemostcontemptibleopinionsofyourself!'
Notexactlyrelishingthis,Isaid,`Nevermindme,Joe。'
`ButIdidmindyou,Pip,'hereturnedwithtendersimplicity。`WhenIofferedtoyoursistertokeepcompany,andtobeaskedinchurchatsuchtimesasshewaswillingandreadytocometotheforge,Isaidtoher,"Andbringthepoorlittlechild。Godblessthepoorlittlechild,"
Isaidtoyoursister,"there'sroomforhimattheforge!"'
Ibrokeoutcryingandbeggingpardon,andhuggedJoeroundtheneck:
whodroppedthepokertohugme,andtosay,`Everthebestoffriends;
an'tus,Pip?Don'tcry,oldchap!'
Whenthislittleinterruptionwasover,Joeresumed:
`Well,yousee,Pip,andhereweare!That'saboutwhereitlights;
hereweare!Now,whenyoutakemeinhandinmylearning,PipandItellyoubeforehandIamawfuldull,mostawfuldull,MrsJoemustn'tseetoomuchofwhatwe'reupto。Itmustbedone,asImaysay,onthesly。Andwhyonthesly?I'lltellyouwhy,Pip。'
Hehadtakenupthepokeragain;withoutwhich,Idoubtifhecouldhaveproceededinhisdemonstration。
`Yoursisterisgiventogovernment。'
`Giventogovernment,Joe?'Iwasstartled,forIhadsomeshadowyideaandIamafraidImustadd,hopethatJoehaddivorcedherinafavouroftheLordsoftheAdmiralty,orTreasury。
`Giventogovernment,'saidJoe。`WhichImeantersaythegovernmentofyouandmyself。'
`Oh!'
`Andshean'toverpartialtohavingscholarsonthepremises,'Joecontinued,`andinparticklerwouldnotbeoverpartialtomybeingascholar,forfearasImightrise。Likeasortorrebel,don'tyousee?'
Iwasgoingtoretortwithaninquiry,andhadgotasfaras`Why——'
whenJoestoppedme。
`Stayabit。Iknowwhatyou'rea-goingtosay,Pip;stayabit!Idon'tdenythatyoursistercomestheMo-guloverus,nowandagain。Idon'tdenythatshedothrowusback-falls,andthatshedodropdownuponusheavy。AtsuchtimesaswhenyoursisterisontheRam-page,Pip,'Joesankhisvoicetoawhisperandglancedatthedoor,`candourcompelsfurtoadmitthatsheisaBuster。'
Joepronouncedthisword,asifitbeganwithatleasttwelvecapitalBs。
`Whydon'tIrise?ThatwereyourobservationwhenIbrokeitoff,Pip?'
`Yes,Joe。'
`Well,'saidJoe,passingthepokerintohislefthand,thathemightfeelhiswhisker;andIhadnohopeofhimwheneverhetooktothatplacidoccupation;`yoursister'samaster-mind。Amaster-mind。'
`What'sthat?'Iasked,insomehopeofbringinghimtoastand。But,JoewasreadierwithhisdefinitionthanIhadexcepted,andcompletelystoppedmebyarguingcircularly,andansweringwithafixedlook,`Her。'
`AndIan'tamaster-mind,'Joeresumed,whenhehadunfixedhislook,andgotbacktohiswhisker。`Andlastofall,Pip-andthisIwanttosayveryseroustoyou,oldchap-Iseesomuchinmypoormother,ofawomandrudgingandslavingandbreakingherhonesthartandnevergettingnopeaceinhermortaldays,thatI'mdeadafeerdofgoingwronginthewayofnotdoingwhat'srightbyawoman,andI'dfurratherofthetwogowrongthet'otherway,andbealittleill-conweniencedmyself。Iwishitwasonlymethatgotputout,Pip;Iwishtherewarn'tnoTicklerforyou,oldchap;IwishIcouldtakeitallonmyself;butthisistheup-and-down-and-straightonit,Pip,andIhopeyou'lloverlookshortcomings。'
YoungasIwas,IbelievethatIdatedanewadmirationofJoefromthatnight。Wewereequalsafterwards,aswehadbeenbefore;but,afterwardsatquiettimeswhenIsatlookingatJoeandthinkingabouthim,IhadanewsensationoffeelingconsciousthatIwaslookinguptoJoeinmyheart。
`However,'saidJoe,risingtoreplenishthefire;`here'stheDutch-clockaworkinghimselfuptobeingequaltostrikeEightof'em,andshe'snotcomehomeyet!IhopeUnclePumblechook'smaremayn'thavesetafore-footonapieceo'ice,andgonedown。'
MrsJoemadeoccasionaltripswithUnclePumblechookonmarket-days,toassisthiminbuyingsuchhouseholdstuffsandgoodsasrequiredawoman'sjudgment;UnclePumblechookbeingabachelorandreposingnoconfidencesinhisdomesticservant。Thiswasmarket-day,andMrsJoewasoutononeoftheseexpeditions。
Joemadethefireandsweptthehearth,andthenwewenttothedoortolistenforthechaise-cart。Itwasadrycoldnight,andthewindblewkeenly,andthefrostwaswhiteandhard。Amanwoulddieto-nightoflyingoutonthemarshes,Ithought。AndthenIlookedatthestars,andconsideredhowawfulifwouldbeforamantoturnhisfaceuptothemashefrozetodeath,andseenohelporpityinalltheglitteringmultitude。
`Herecomesthemare,'saidJoe,`ringinglikeapealofbells!'
Thesoundofherironshoesuponthehardroadwasquitemusical,asshecamealongatamuchbriskertrotthanusual。Wegotachairout,readyforMrsJoe'salighting,andstirredupthefirethattheymightseeabrightwindow,andtookafinalsurveyofthekitchenthatnothingmightbeoutofitsplace。Whenwehadcompletedthesepreparations,theydroveup,wrappedtotheeyes。MrsJoewassoonlanded,andUnclePumblechookwassoondowntoo,coveringthemarewithacloth,andweweresoonallinthekitchen,carryingsomuchcoldairinwithusthatitseemedtodrivealltheheatoutofthefire。
`Now,'saidMrsJoe,unwrappingherselfwithhasteandexcitement,andthrowingherbonnetbackonhershoulderswhereithungbythestrings:
`ifthisboyan'tgratefulthisnight,heneverwillbe!'
Ilookedasgratefulasanyboypossiblycould,whowaswhollyuninformedwhyheoughttoassumethatexpression。
`It'sonlytobehoped,'saidmysister,`thathewon'tbePomp-eyed。
ButIhavemyfears。'
`Shean'tinthatline,Mum,'saidMrPumblechook。`Sheknowsbetter。'
She?IlookedatJoe,makingthemotionwithmylipsandeyebrows,`She?'
Joelookedatme,makingthemotionwithhislipsandeyebrows,`She?'Mysistercatchinghimintheact,hedrewthebackofhishandacrosshisnosewithhisusualconciliatoryaironsuchoccasions,andlookedather。
`Well?'saidmysister,inhersnappishway。`Whatareyoustaringat?
Isthehousea-fire?'
`-Whichsomeindividual,'Joepolitelyhinted,`mentioned-she。'
`Andsheisashe,Isuppose?'saidmysister。`UnlessyoucallMissHavishamahe。AndIdoubtifevenyou'llgosofarasthat。'
`MissHavisham,uptown?'saidJoe。
`IsthereanyMissHavishamdowntown?'returnedmysister。
`Shewantsthisboytogoandplaythere。Andofcoursehe'sgoing。
Andhehadbetterplaythere,'saidmysister,shakingherheadatmeasanencouragementtobeextremelylightandsportive,`orI'llworkhim。'
IhadheardofMissHavishamuptown-everybodyformilesround,hadheardofMissHavishamuptown-asanimmenselyrichandgrimladywholivedinalargeanddismalhousebarricadedagainstrobbers,andwholedalifeofseclusion。
`Welltobesure!'saidJoe,astounded。`IwonderhowshecometoknowPip!'
`Noodle!'criedmysister。`Whosaidsheknewhim?'
`-Whichsomeindividual,'Joeagainpolitelyhinted,`mentionedthatshewantedhimtogoandplaythere。'
`Andcouldn'tsheaskUnclePumblechookifheknewofaboytogoandplaythere?Isn'titjustbarelypossiblethatUnclePumblechookmaybeatenantofhers,andthathemaysometimes-wewon'tsayquarterlyorhalf-yearly,forthatwouldberequiringtoomuchofyou-butsometimes-gotheretopayhisrent?Andcouldn'tshethenaskUnclePumblechookifheknewofaboytogoandplaythere?Andcouldn'tUnclePumblechook,beingalwaysconsiderateandthoughtfulforus-thoughyoumaynotthinkit,Joseph,'inatoneofthedeepestreproach,asifhewerethemostcallousofnephews,`thenmentionthisboy,standingPrancinghere'-whichIsolemnlydeclareIwasnotdoing-`thatIhaveforeverbeenawillingslaveto?'
`Goodagain!'criedUnclePumblechook。`Wellput!Prettilypointed!
Goodindeed!NowJoseph,youknowthecase。'
`No,Joseph,'saidmysister,stillinareproachfulmanner,whileJoeapologeticallydrewthebackofhishandacrossandacrosshisnose,`youdonotyet-thoughyoumaynotthinkit-knowthecase。Youmayconsiderthatyoudo,butyoudonot,Joseph。ForyoudonotknowthatUnclePumblechook,beingsensiblethatforanythingwecantell,thisboy'sfortunemaybemadebyhisgoingtoMissHavisham's,hasofferedtotakehimintotownto-nightinhisownchaise-cart,andtokeephimto-night,andtotakehimwithhisownhandstoMissHavisham'sto-morrowmorning。AndLor-a-mussyme!'criedmysister,castingoffherbonnetinsuddendesperation,`hereIstandtalkingtomereMooncalfs,withUnclePumblechookwaiting,andthemarecatchingcoldatthedoor,andtheboygrimedwithcrockanddirtfromthehairofhisheadtothesoleofhisfoot!'
Withthat,shepounceduponme,likeaneagleonalamb,andmyfacewassqueezedintowoodenbowlsinsinks,andmyheadwasputundertapsofwater-butts,andIwassoaped,andkneaded,andtowelled,andthumped,andharrowed,andrasped,untilIreallywasquitebesidemyself。ImayhereremarkthatIsupposemyselftobebetteracquaintedthananylivingauthority,withtheridgyeffectofawedding-ring,passingunsympatheticallyoverthehumancountenance。
Whenmyablutionswerecompleted,Iwasputintocleanlinenofthestiffestcharacter,likeayoungpenitentintosackcloth,andwastrussedupinmytightestandfearfullestsuit。IwasthendeliveredovertoMrPumblechook,whoformallyreceivedmeasifheweretheSheriff,andwholetoffuponmethespeechthatIknewhehadbeendyingtomakeallalong:
`Boy,beforevergratefultoallfriends,butespeciallyuntothemwhichbroughtyouupbyhand!'
`Good-bye,Joe!'
`Godblessyou,Pip,oldchap!'
Ihadneverpartedfromhisbefore,andwhatwithmyfeelingsandwhatwithsoap-suds,Icouldatfirstseenostarsfromthechaise-cart。Buttheytwinkledoutonebyone,withoutthrowinganylightonthequestionswhyonearthIwasgoingtoplayatMissHavisham's,andwhatonearthIwasexpectedtoplayat。
Chapter8
MRPUMBLECHOOK'SpremisesintheHigh-streetofthemarkettown,wereofapeppercornyandfarinaceouscharacter,asthepremisesofacorn-chandlerandseedsmanshouldbe。Itappearedtomethathemustbeaveryhappymanindeed,tohavesomanylittledrawersinhisshop;andIwonderedwhenIpeepedintooneortwoonthelowertiers,andsawthetied-upbrownpaperpacketsinside,whethertheflower-seedsandbulbseverwantedofafinedaytobreakoutofthosejails,andbloom。
ItwasintheearlymorningaftermyarrivalthatIentertainedthisspeculation。Onthepreviousnight,Ihadbeensentstraighttobedinanatticwithaslopingroof,whichwassolowinthecornerwherethebedsteadwas,thatIcalculatedthetilesasbeingwithinafootofmyeyebrows。Inthesameearlymorning,Idiscoveredasingularaffinitybetweenseedsandcorduroys。MrPumblechookworecorduroys,andsodidhisshopman;
andsomehow,therewasageneralairandflavouraboutthecorduroys,somuchinthenatureofseeds,andageneralairandflavourabouttheseeds,somuchinthenatureofcorduroys,thatIhardlyknewwhichwaswhich。
ThesameopportunityservedmefornoticingthatMrPumblechookappearedtoconducthisbusinessbylookingacrossthestreetatthesaddler,whoappearedtotransacthisbusinessbykeepinghiseyeonthecoach-maker,whoappearedtogetoninlifebyputtinghishandsinhispocketsandcontemplatingthebaker,whoinhisturnfoldedhisarmsandstaredatthegrocer,whostoodathisdoorandyawnedatthechemist。Thewatch-maker,alwaysporingoveralittledeskwithamagnifyingglassathiseye,andalwaysinspectedbyagroupofsmock-frocksporingoverhimthroughtheglassofhisshop-window,seemedtobeabouttheonlypersonintheHigh-streetwhosetradeengagedhisattention。
MrPumblechookandIbreakfastedateighto'clockintheparlourbehindtheshop,whiletheshopmantookhismugofteaandhunchofbread-and-butteronasackofpeasinthefrontpremises。IconsideredMrPumblechookwretchedcompany。Besidesbeingpossessedbymysister'sideathatamortifyingandpenitentialcharacteroughttobeimpartedtomydiet-besidesgivingmeasmuchcrumbaspossibleincombinationwithaslittlebutter,andputtingsuchaquantityofwarmwaterintomymilkthatitwouldhavebeenmorecandidtohaveleftthemilkoutaltogether-hisconversationconsistedofnothingbutarithmetic。OnmypolitelybiddinghimGoodmorning,hesaid,pompously,`Seventimesnine,boy?'AndhowshouldIbeabletoanswer,dodgedinthatway,inastrangeplace,onanemptystomach!
Iwashungry,butbeforeIhadswallowedamorsel,hebeganarunningsumthatlastedallthroughthebreakfast。`Seven?'`Andfour?'`Andeight?'
`Andsix?'`Andtwo?'`Andten?'Andsoon。Andaftereachfigurewasdisposedof,itwasasmuchasIcoulddotogetabiteorasup,beforethenextcame;whilehesatathiseaseguessingnothing,andeatingbaconandhotroll,inifImaybeallowedtheexpressionagorgingandgormandisingmanner。
ForsuchreasonsIwasverygladwhenteno'clockcameandwestartedforMissHavisham's;thoughIwasnotatallatmyeaseregardingthemannerinwhichIshouldacquitmyselfunderthatlady'sroof。WithinaquarterofanhourwecametoMissHavisham'shouse,whichwasofoldbrick,anddismal,andhadagreatmanyironbarstoit。Someofthewindowshadbeenwalledup;ofthosethatremained,allthelowerwererustilybarred。Therewasacourt-yardinfront,andthatwasbarred;so,wehadtowait,afterringingthebell,untilsomeoneshouldcometoopenit。Whilewewaitedatthegate,IpeepedineventhenMrPumblechooksaid,`Andfourteen?'
butIpretendednottohearhim,andsawthatatthesideofhousetherewasalargebrewery。Nobrewingwasgoingoninit,andnoneseemedtohavegoneonforalonglongtime。
Awindowwasraised,andaclearvoicedemanded`Whatname?'Towhichmyconductorreplied,`Pumblechook。'Thevoicereturned,`Quiteright,'
andthewindowwasshutagain,andayoungladycameacrossthecourt-yard,withkeysinherhand。
`This,'saidMrPumblechook,`isPip。'
`ThisisPip,isit?'returnedtheyounglady,whowasveryprettyandseemedveryproud;`comein,Pip。'
MrPumblechookwascominginalso,whenshestoppedhimwiththegate。
`Oh!'shesaid。`DidyouwishtoseeMissHavisham?'
`IfMissHavishamwishedtoseeme,'returnedMrPumblechook,discomfited。
`Ah!'saidthegirl;`butyouseeshedon't。'
Shesaiditsofinally,andinsuchanundiscussibleway,thatMrPumblechook,thoughinaconditionofruffleddignity,couldnotprotest。Butheeyedmeseverely-asifIhaddoneanythingtohim!-anddepartedwiththewordsreproachfullydelivered:`Boy!Letyourbehaviourherebeacredituntothemwhichbroughtyouupbyhand!'Iwasnotfreefromapprehensionthathewouldcomebacktopropoundthroughthegate,`Andsixteen?'Buthedidn't。
Myyoungconductresslockedthegate,andwewentacrossthecourt-yard。
Itwaspavedandclean,butgrasswasgrowingineverycrevice。Thebrewerybuildingshadalittlelaneofcommunicationwithit,andthewoodengatesofthatlanestoodopen,andallthebrewerybeyond,stoodopen,awaytothehighenclosingwall;andallwasemptyanddisused。Thecoldwindseemedtoblowcolderthere,thanoutsidethegate;anditmadeashrillnoiseinhowlinginandoutattheopensidesofthebrewery,likethenoiseofwindintheriggingofashipatsea。
Shesawmelookingatit,andshesaid,`Youcoulddrinkwithouthurtallthestrongbeerthat'sbrewedtherenow,boy。'
`IshouldthinkIcould,miss'saidI,inashyway。
`Betternottrytobrewbeertherenow,oritwouldturnoutsour,boy;
don'tyouthinkso?'
`Itlookslikeit,miss。'
`Notthatanybodymeanstotry,'sheadded,`forthat'salldonewith,andtheplacewillstandasidleasitis,tillitfalls。Astostrongbeer,there'senoughofitinthecellarsalready,todrowntheManorHouse。'
`Isthatthenameofthishouse,miss?'
`Oneofitsnames,boy。'
`Ithasmorethanone,then,miss?'
`Onemore。ItsothernamewasSatis;whichisGreek,orLatin,orHebrew,orallthree-orallonetome-forenough。'
`EnoughHouse,'saidI;`that'sacuriousname,miss。'
`Yes,'shereplied;`butitmeantmorethanitsaid。Itmeant,whenitwasgiven,thatwhoeverhadthishouse,couldwantnothingelse。Theymusthavebeeneasilysatisfiedinthosedays,Ishouldthink。Butdon'tloiter,boy。'
Thoughshecalledme`boy'sooften,andwithacarelessnessthatwasfarfromcomplimentary,shewasofaboutmyownage。SheseemedmucholderthanI,ofcourse,beingagirl,andbeautifulandself-possessed;andshewasanscornfulofmeasifshehadbeenone-and-twenty,andaqueen。
Wewentintothehousebyasidedoor-thegreatfrontentrancehadtwochainsacrossitoutside-andthefirstthingInoticedwas,thatthepassageswerealldark,andthatshehadleftacandleburningthere。
Shetookitup,andwewentthroughmorepassagesandupastaircase,andstillitwasalldark,andonlythecandlelightedus。
Atlastwecametothedoorofaroom,andshesaid,`Goin。'
Ianswered,moreinshynessthanpoliteness,`Afteryou,miss。'
Tothis,shereturned:`Don'tberidiculous,boy;Iamnotgoingin。'
Andscornfullywalkedaway,and-whatwasworse-tookthecandlewithher。
Thiswasveryuncomfortable,andIwashalfafraid。However,theonlythingtobedonebeingtoknockatthedoor,Iknocked,andwastoldfromwithintoenter。Ientered,therefore,andfoundmyselfinaprettylargeroom,welllightedwithwaxcandles。Noglimpseofdaylightwastobeseeninit。Itwasadressing-room,asIsupposedfromthefurniture,thoughmuchofitwasofformsandusesthenquiteunknowntome。Butprominentinitwasadrapedtablewithagildedlooking-glass,andthatImadeoutatfirstsighttobeafinelady'sdressing-table。
WhetherIshouldhavemadeoutthisobjectsosoon,iftherehadbeennofineladysittingatit,Icannotsay。Inanarm-chair,withanelbowrestingonthetableandherheadleaningonthathand,satthestrangestladyIhaveeverseen,orshalleversee。
Shewasdressedinrichmaterials-satins,andlace,andsilks-allofwhite。Hershoeswerewhite。Andshehadalongwhileveildependentfromherhair,andshehadbridalflowersinherhair,butherhairwaswhite。Somebrightjewelssparkledonherneckandonherhands,andsomeotherjewelslaysparklingonthetable。Dresses,lesssplendidthanthedressshewore,andhalf-packedtrunks,werescatteredabout。Shehadnotquitefinisheddressing,forshehadbutoneshoeon-theotherwasonthetablenearherhand-herveilwasbuthalfarranged,herwatchandchainwerenotputon,andsomelaceforherbosomlaywiththosetrinkets,andwithherhandkerchief,andgloves,andsomeflowers,andaprayer-book,allconfusedlyheapedaboutthelooking-glass。
ItwasnotinthefirstfewmomentstheIsawallthesethings,thoughIsawmoreoftheminthefirstmomentsthanmightbesupposed。But,I
sawthateverythingwithinmyviewwhichoughttobewhite,hadbeenwhitelongago,andhadlostitslustre,andwasfadedandyellow。Isawthatthebridewithinthebridaldresshadwitheredlikethedress,andliketheflowers,andhadnobrightnessleftbutthebrightnessofhersunkeneyes。Isawthatthedresshadbeenputupontheroundedfigureofayoungwoman,andthatthefigureuponwhichitnowhungloose,hadshrunktoskinandbone。Once,IhadbeentakentoseesomeghastlywaxworkattheFair,representingIknownotwhatimpossiblepersonagelyinginstate。
Once,Ihadbeentakentooneofouroldmarshchurchestoseeaskeletonintheashesofarichdress,thathadbeendugoutofavaultunderthechurchpavement。Now,waxworkandskeletonseemedtohavedarkeyesthatmovedandlookedatme。Ishouldhavecriedout,ifIcould。
`Whoisit?'saidtheladyatthetable。
`Pip,ma'am。'
`Pip?'
`MrPumblechook'sboy,ma'am。Come-toplay。'
`Comenearer;letmelookatyou。Comeclose。'
ItwaswhenIstoodbeforeher,avoidinghereyes,thatItooknoteofthesurroundingobjectsindetail,andsawthatherwatchhadstoppedattwentyminutestonine,andthataclockintheroomhadstoppedattwentyminutestonine。
`Lookatme,'saidMissHavisham。`Youarenotafraidofawomanwhohasneverseenthesunsinceyouwereborn?'
IregardtostatethatIwasnotafraidoftellingtheenormousliecomprehendedintheanswer`No。'
`DoyouknowwhatItouchhere?'shesaid,layingherhands,oneupontheother,onherleftside。
`Yes,ma'am。'Itmademethinkoftheyoungman。
`WhatdoItouch?'
`Yourheart。'
`Broken!'
Sheutteredthewordwithaneagerlook,andwithstrongemphasis,andwithaweirdsmilethathadakindofboastinit。Afterwards,shekeptherhandsthereforalittlewhile,andslowlytookthemawayasiftheywereheavy。
`Iamtired,'saidMissHavisham。`Iwantdiversion,andIhavedonewithmenandwomen。Play。'
Ithinkitwillbeconcededbymymostdisputatiousreader,thatshecouldhardlyhavedirectedanunfortunateboytodoanythinginthewideworldmoredifficulttobedoneunderthecircumstances。
`Isometimeshavesickfancies,'shewenton,`andIhaveasickfancythatIwanttoseesomeplay。Therethere!'withanimpatientmovementofthefingersofherrighthand;`play,play,play!'
Foramoment,withthefearofmysister'sworkingmebeforemyeyes,IhadadesperateideaofstartingroundtheroomintheassumedcharacterofMrPumblechook'schaise-cart。But,IfeltmyselfsounequaltotheperformancethatIgaveitup,andstoodlookingatMissHavishaminwhatIsupposeshetookforadoggedmanner,inasmuchasshesaid,whenwehadtakenagoodlookateachother:
`Areyousullenandobstinate?'
`No,ma'am,Iamverysorryforyou,andverysorryIcan'tplayjustnow。IfyoucomplainofmeIshallgetintotroublewithmysister,soIwoulddoitifIcould;butit'ssonewhere,andsostrange,andsofine-andmelancholy——'Istopped,fearingImightsaytoomuch,orhadalreadysaidit,andwetookanotherlookateachother。
Beforeshespokeagain,sheturnedhereyesfromme,andlookedatthedressshewore,andatthedressing-table,andfinallyatherselfinthelooking-glass。
`Sonewtohim,'shemuttered,`sooldtome;sostrangetohim,sofamiliartome;somelancholytobothofus!CallEstella。'
Asshewasstilllookingatthereflectionofherself,Ithoughtshewasstilltalkingtoherself,andkeptquiet。
`CallEstella,'sherepeated,flashingalookatme。`Youcandothat。
CallEstella。Atthedoor。'
Tostandinthedarkinamysteriouspassageofanunknownhouse,bawlingEstellatoascornfulyoungladyneithervisiblenorresponsive,andfeelingitadreadfullibertysotoroarouthername,wasalmostasbadasplayingtoorder。But,sheansweredatlast,andherlightcamealongthedarkpassagelikeastar。
MissHavishambeckonedhertocomeclose,andtookupajewelfromthetable,andtrieditseffectuponherfairyoungbosomandagainstherprettybrownhair。`Yourown,oneday,mydear,andyouwilluseitwell。Letmeseeyouplaycardswiththisboy。'
`Withthisboy?Why,heisacommonlabouring-boy!'
IthoughtIoverheardMissHavishamanswer-onlyitseemedsounlikely-`Well?Youcanbreakhisheart。'
`Whatdoyouplay,boy?'askedEstellaofmyself,withthegreatestdisdain。
`Nothingbutbeggarmyneighbour,miss。'
`Beggarhim,'saidMissHavishamtoEstella。Sowesatdowntocards。
ItwasthenIbegantounderstandthateverythingintheroomhadstopped,likethewatchandtheclock,alongtimeago。InoticedthatMissHavishamputdownthejewelexactlyonthespotformwhichshehadtakenitup。
AsEstelladealtthecards,Iglancedatthedressing-tableagain,andsawthattheshoeuponit,oncewhite,nowyellow,hadneverbeenworn。
Iglanceddownatthefootfromwhichtheshoewasabsent,andsawthatthesilkstockingonit,oncewhite,nowyellow,hadbeentroddenragged。
Withoutthisarrestofeverything,thisstandingstillofallthepaledecayedobjects,noteventhewitheredbridaldressonthecollapsedfromcouldhavelookedsolikegrave-clothes,orthelongveilsolikeashroud。
Soshesat,corpse-like,asweplayedatcards;thefrillingsandtrimmingsonherbridaldress,lookinglikeearthypaper。Iknewnothingthen,ofthediscoveriesthatareoccasionallymadeofbodiesburiedinancienttimes,whichfalltopowderinthemomentofbeingdistinctlyseen;but,Ihaveoftenthoughtsince,thatshemusthavelookedasiftheadmissionofthenaturallightofdaywouldhavestruckhertodust。
`Hecallstheknaves,Jacks,thisboy!'saidEstellawithdisdain,beforeourfirstgamewasout。`Andwhatcoarsehandshehas!Andwhatthickboots!'
Ihadneverthoughtofbeingashamedofmyhandsbefore;butIbegantoconsiderthemaveryindifferentpair。Hercontemptformewassostrong,thatitbecameinfectious,andIcaughtit。