"Youchargemetowriteaboutmyself。WhatcanIsayonthatprecioustopic?Myhealthisprettygood。Myspiritsarenotalwaysalike。Nothinghappenstome。Ihopeandexpectlittleinthisworld,andamthankfulthatIdonotdespondandsuffermore。Thankyouforinquiringafterouroldservant;sheisprettywell;thelittleshawl,etc。,pleasedhermuch。Papalikewise,Iamgladtosay,isprettywell;withhisandmykindestregardstoyouandMr。Gaskell——Believemesincerelyandaffectionatelyyours,C。BRONTE。"
Beforetheautumnwasfaradvanced,theusualeffectsofhersolitarylife,andoftheunhealthysituationofHaworthParsonage,begantoappearintheformofsickheadaches,andmiserable,starting,wakefulnights。Shedoesnotdwellonthisinherletters;butthereisanabsenceofallcheerfulnessoftone,andanoccasionalsentenceforcedoutofher,whichimplyfarmorethanmanywordscouldsay。TherewasillnessallthroughtheParsonagehousehold——takingitsaccustomedformsoflingeringinfluenzaandlowfever;sheherselfwasoutwardlythestrongestofthefamily,andalldomesticexertionfellforatimeuponhershoulders。
TOW。S。WILLIAMS,ESQ。
"Sept。26th。
"AsIlaiddownyourletter,afterreadingwithinterestthegraphicaccountitgivesofaverystrikingscene,Icouldnothelpfeelingwithrenewedforceatruth,triteenough,yeteverimpressive;viz。,thatitisgoodtobeattractedoutofourselves——tobeforcedtotakeanearviewofthesufferings,theprivations,theefforts,thedifficultiesofothers。Ifweourselvesliveinfulnessofcontent,itiswelltoberemindedthatthousandsofourfellow-creaturesundergoadifferentlot;
itiswelltohavesleepysympathiesexcited,andlethargicselfishnessshakenup。If,ontheotherhand,webecontendingwiththespecialgrief,——theintimatetrial,——thepeculiarbitternesswithwhichGodhasseenfittomingleourowncupofexistence,——itisverygoodtoknowthatourovercastlotisnotsingular;itstillstherepiningwordandthought,——itrousestheflaggingstrength,tohaveitvividlysetbeforeusthattherearecountlessafflictionsintheworld,eachperhapsrivalling——somesurpassing——theprivatepainoverwhichwearetooproneexclusivelytosorrow。
"Allthosecrowdedemigrantshadtheirtroubles,——theiruntowardcausesofbanishment;you,thelooker-on,had’yourwishesandregrets,’——youranxieties,alloyingyourhomehappinessanddomesticbliss;andtheparallelmightbepursuedfurther,andstillitwouldbetrue,——stillthesame;athorninthefleshforeach;someburden,someconflictforall。
"Howfarthisstateofthingsissusceptibleofameliorationfromchangesinpublicinstitutions,——alterationsinnationalhabits,——mayandoughttobeearnestlyconsidered:butthisisaproblemnoteasilysolved。Theevils,asyoupointthemout,aregreat,real,andmostobvious;theremedyisobscureandvague;
yetforsuchdifficultiesasspringfromover-competition,emigrationmustbegood;thenewlifeinanewcountrymustgiveanewleaseofhope;thewiderfield,lessthicklypeopled,mustopenanewpathforendeavour。ButIalwaysthinkgreatphysicalpowersofexertionandenduranceoughttoaccompanysuchastep……IamtrulygladtohearthatanORIGINALwriterhasfalleninyourway。Originalityisthepearlofgreatpriceinliterature,——therarest,themostpreciousclaimbywhichanauthorcanberecommended。Arenotyourpublishingprospectsforthecomingseasontolerablyrichandsatisfactory?Youinquireafter’CurrerBell。’Itseemstomethattheabsenceofhisnamefromyourlistofannouncementswillleavenoblank,andthathemayatleastsparehimselfthedisquietudeofthinkingheiswantedwhenitiscertainlynothislottoappear。
"PerhapsCurrerBellhashissecretmoanaboutthesematters;butifso,hewillkeepittohimself。Itisanaffairaboutwhichnowordsneedbewasted,fornowordscanmakeachange:itisbetweenhimandhisposition,hisfacultiesandhisfate。"
MyhusbandandIwereanxiousthatsheshouldpayusavisitbeforethewinterhadsetcompletelyin;andshethuswrote,decliningourinvitation:——
"Nov。6th。
"Ifanybodywouldtemptmefromhome,youwould;but,justnow,fromhomeImustnot,willnotgo。IfeelgreatlybetteratpresentthanIdidthreeweeksago。Foramonthorsixweeksabouttheequinoxautumnalorvernalisaperiodoftheyearwhich,Ihavenoticed,strangelytriesme。Sometimesthestrainfallsonthemental,sometimesonthephysicalpartofme;Iamillwithneuralgicheadache,orIamgroundtothedustwithdeepdejectionofspiritsnot,however,suchdejectionbutIcankeepittomyself。Thatwearytimehas,Ithinkandtrust,gotoverforthisyear。Itwastheanniversaryofmypoorbrother’sdeath,andofmysister’sfailinghealth:Ineedsaynomore。
"AstorunningawayfromhomeeverytimeIhaveabattleofthissorttofight,itwouldnotdobesides,the’weird’wouldfollow。
Astoshakingitoff,thatcannotbe。IhavedeclinedtogotoMrs——,toMissMartineau,andnowIdeclinetogotoyou。ButlistendonotthinkthatIthrowyourkindnessaway;orthatitfailsofdoingthegoodyoudesire。Onthecontrary,thefeelingexpressedinyourletter,——provedbyyourinvitation——goesRIGHT
HOMEwhereyouwouldhaveittogo,andhealsasyouwouldhaveittoheal。
"YourdescriptionofFrederikaBremertalliesexactlywithoneI
readsomewhere,inIknownotwhatbook。IlaughedoutwhenIgottothementionofFrederika’sspecialaccomplishment,givenbyyouwithadistinctsimplicitythat,tomytaste,iswhattheFrenchwouldcall’impayable。’Wheredoyoufindtheforeignerwhoiswithoutsomelittledrawbackofthisdescription?Itisapity。"
AvisitfromMissWooleratthisperioddidMissBrontemuchgoodforthetime。Shespeaksofherguest’scompanyasbeingverypleasant,"likegoodwine,"bothtoherfatherandtoherself。ButMissWoolercouldnotremainwithherlong;andthenagainthemonotonyofherlifereturneduponherinallitsforce;theonlyeventsofherdaysandweeksconsistinginthesmallchangeswhichoccasionallettersbrought。Itmustberememberedthatherhealthwasoftensuchastopreventherstirringoutofthehouseininclementorwintryweather。Shewasliabletosorethroat,anddepressingpainatthechest,anddifficultyofbreathing,ontheleastexposuretocold。
Aletterfromherlatevisitortouchedandgratifiedhermuch;itwassimplyexpressiveofgratitudeforattentionandkindnessshowntoher,butitwoundupbysayingthatshehadnotformanyyearsexperiencedsomuchenjoymentasduringthetendayspassedatHaworth。ThislittlesentencecalledoutawholesomesensationofmodestpleasureinMissBronte’smind;andshesays,"itdidmegood。"
Ifind,inalettertoadistantfriend,writtenaboutthistime,aretrospectofhervisittoLondon。Itistooampletobeconsideredasamererepetitionofwhatshehadsaidbefore;and,besides,itshowsthatherfirstimpressionsofwhatshesawandheardwerenotcrudeandtransitory,butstoodthetestsoftimeandafter-thought。
"Ispentafewweeksintownlastsummer,asyouhaveheard;andwasmuchinterestedbymanythingsIheardandsawthere。WhatnowchieflydwellsinmymemoryareMr。Thackeray’slectures,MademoiselleRachel’sacting,D’Aubigne’s,Melville’s,andMaurice’spreaching,andtheCrystalPalace。
"Mr。Thackeray’slecturesyouwillhaveseenmentionedandcommentedoninthepapers;theywereveryinteresting。Icouldnotalwayscoincidewiththesentimentsexpressed,ortheopinionsbroached;butIadmiredthegentlemanlikeease,thequiethumour,thetaste,thetalent,thesimplicity,andtheoriginalityofthelecturer。
"Rachel’sactingtransfixedmewithwonder,enchainedmewithinterest,andthrilledmewithhorror。ThetremendousforcewithwhichsheexpressestheveryworstpassionsintheirstrongestessenceformsanexhibitionasexcitingasthebullfightsofSpain,andthegladiatorialcombatsofoldRome,anditseemedtomenotonewhitmoremoralthanthesepoisonedstimulantstopopularferocity。Itisscarcelyhumannaturethatsheshowsyou;
itissomethingwilderandworse;thefeelingsandfuryofafiend。Thegreatgiftofgeniussheundoubtedlyhas;but,Ifear,sheratherabusesitthanturnsittogoodaccount。
"WithallthethreepreachersIwasgreatlypleased。Melvilleseemedtomethemosteloquent,Mauricethemostinearnest;hadIthechoice,itisMauricewhoseministryIshouldfrequent。
"OntheCrystalPalaceIneednotcomment。Youmustalreadyhaveheardtoomuchofit。Itstruckmeatthefirstwithonlyavaguesortofwonderandadmiration;buthavingonedaytheprivilegeofgoingoveritincompanywithaneminentcountrymanofyours,SirDavidBrewster,andhearing,inhisfriendlyScotchaccent,hislucidexplanationofmanythingsthathadbeentomebeforeasealedbook,Ibeganalittlebettertocomprehendit,oratleastasmallpartofit:whetheritsfinalresultswillequalexpectation,Iknownot。"
Herincreasingindispositionsubduedheratlast,inspiteofallhereffortsofreasonandwill。Shetriedtoforgetoppressiverecollectionsinwriting。Herpublisherswereimportunateforanewbookfromherpen。"Villette"wasbegun,butshelackedpowertocontinueit。
"Itisnotatalllikely"shesays"thatmybookwillbereadyatthetimeyoumention。Ifmyhealthisspared,Ishallgetonwithitasfastasisconsistentwithitsbeingdone,ifnotWELL,yetaswellasIcandoit。NOTONEWHITFASTER。Whenthemoodleavesmeithasleftmenow,withoutvouchsafingsomuchasawordoramessagewhenitwillreturnIputbytheMS。andwaittillitcomesbackagain。Godknows,Isometimeshavetowaitlong——VERYlongitseemstome。Meantime,ifImightmakearequesttoyou,itwouldbethis。Pleasetosaynothingaboutmybooktillitiswritten,andinyourhands。Youmaynotlikeit。
Iamnotmyselfelatedwithitasfarasitisgone,andauthors,youneednotbetold,arealwaystenderlyindulgent,evenblindlypartialtotheirown。Evenifitshouldturnoutreasonablywell,stillIregarditasruintotheprosperityofanephemeralbooklikeanovel,tobemuchtalkedofbeforehand,asifitweresomethinggreat。Peopleareapttoconceive,oratleasttoprofess,exaggeratedexpectation,suchasnoperformancecanrealise;thenensuedisappointmentandtheduerevenge,detraction,andfailure。IfwhenIwrite,Iweretothinkofthecriticswho,Iknow,arewaitingforCurrerBell,ready’tobreakallhisbonesoreverhecomestothebottomoftheden,’myhandwouldfallparalysedonmydesk。However,Icanbutdomybest,andthenmufflemyheadinthemantleofPatience,andsitdownatherfeetandwait。"
The"mood"herespokenofdidnotgooff;ithadaphysicalorigin。Indigestion,nausea,headache,sleeplessness,——allcombinedtoproducemiserabledepressionofspirits。Alittleeventwhichoccurredaboutthistime,didnottendtocheerher。
ItwasthedeathofpooroldfaithfulKeeper,Emily’sdog。HehadcometotheParsonageinthefiercestrengthofhisyouth。SullenandferocioushehadmetwithhismasterintheindomitableEmily。Likemostdogsofhiskind,hefeared,respected,anddeeplylovedherwhosubduedhim。Hehadmournedherwiththepatheticfidelityofhisnature,fallingintooldageafterherdeath。Andnow,hersurvivingsisterwrote:"PooroldKeeperdiedlastMondaymorning,afterbeingillonenight;hewentgentlytosleep;welaidhisoldfaithfulheadinthegarden。Flossythe’fatcurly-haireddog’isdull,andmisseshim。Therewassomethingverysadinlosingtheolddog;yetIamgladhemetanaturalfate。Peoplekepthintingheoughttobeputaway,whichneitherpapanorIlikedtothinkof。"
WhenMissBrontewrotethis,onDecember8th,shewassufferingfromabadcold,andpaininherside。Herillnessincreased,andonDecember17th,she——sopatient,silent,andenduringofsuffering——soafraidofanyunselfishtaxingofothers——hadtocalltoherfriendforhelp:
"Icannotatpresentgotoseeyou,butIwouldbegratefulifyoucouldcomeandseeme,evenwereitonlyforafewdays。Tospeaktruth,Ihaveputonbutapoortimeofitduringthismonthpast。Ikepthopingtobebetter,butwasatlastobligedtohaverecoursetoamedicalman。SometimesIhavefeltveryweakandlow,andlongedmuchforsociety,butcouldnotpersuademyselftocommittheselfishactofaskingyoumerelyformyownrelief。Thedoctorspeaksencouragingly,butasyetIgetnobetter。Astheillnesshasbeencomingonforalongtime,itcannot,Isuppose,beexpectedtodisappearallatonce。Iamnotconfinedtobed,butIamweak,——havehadnoappetiteforaboutthreeweeks——andmynightsareverybad。Iamwellawaremyselfthatextremeandcontinuousdepressionofspiritshashadmuchtodowiththeoriginoftheillness;andIknowalittlecheerfulsocietywoulddomemoregoodthangallonsofmedicine。IfyouCANcome,comeonFriday。Writeto-morrowandsaywhetherthisbepossible,andwhattimeyouwillbeatKeighley,thatImaysendthegig。Idonotaskyoutostaylong;afewdaysisallI
request。"
Ofcourse,herfriendwent;andacertainamountofbenefitwasderivedfromhersociety,alwayssogratefultoMissBronte。Buttheevilwasnowtoodeep-rootedtobemorethanpalliatedforatimeby"thelittlecheerfulsociety"forwhichshesotouchinglybesought。
Arelapsecameonbeforelong。Shewasveryill,andtheremediesemployedtookanunusualeffectonherpeculiarsensitivenessofconstitution。Mr。Brontewasmiserablyanxiousaboutthestateofhisonlyremainingchild,forshewasreducedtothelastdegreeofweakness,asshehadbeenunabletoswallowfoodforaboveaweekbefore。Sherallied,andderivedhersolesustenancefromhalf-a-tea-cupofliquid,administeredbytea-spoonfuls,inthecourseoftheday。Yetshekeptoutofbed,forherfather’ssake,andstruggledinsolitarypatiencethroughherworsthours。
Whenshewasrecovering,herspiritsneededsupport,andthensheyieldedtoherfriend’sentreatythatshewouldvisither。AllthetimethatMissBronte’sillnesshadlasted,Miss——hadbeendesirousofcomingtoher;butsherefusedtoavailherselfofthiskindness,saying,that"itwasenoughtoburdenherself;
thatitwouldbemiserytoannoyanother;"and,evenatherworsttime,shetellsherfriend,withhumorousglee,howcoollyshehadmanagedtocaptureoneofMiss——’sletterstoMr。Bronte,whichshesuspectedwasofakindtoaggravatehisalarmabouthisdaughter’sstate,"andatonceconjecturingitstenor,madeitscontentsherown。"
Happilyforallparties,Mr。Brontewaswonderfullywellthiswinter;goodsleep,goodspirits,andanexcellentsteadyappetite,allseemedtomarkvigour;andinsuchastateofhealth,Charlottecouldleavehimtospendaweekwithherfriend,withoutanygreatanxiety。
Shebenefitedgreatlybythekindattentionsandcheerfulsocietyofthefamilywithwhomshewenttostay。Theydidnotcareforherintheleastas"CurrerBell,"buthadknownandlovedherforyearsasCharlotteBronte。Tothemherinvalidweaknesswasonlyafreshclaimupontheirtenderregard,fromthesolitarywoman,whomtheyhadfirstknownasalittle,motherlessschool-girl。
MissBrontewrotetomeaboutthistime,andtoldmesomethingofwhatshehadsuffered。
"Feb。6th,1852。
"Certainly,thepastwinterhasbeentomeastrangetime;hadI
theprospectbeforemeoflivingitoveragain,myprayermustnecessarilybe,’Letthiscuppassfromme。’Thatdepressionofspirits,whichIthoughtwasgonebywhenIwrotelast,camebackagainwithaheavyrecoil;internalcongestionensued,andtheninflammation。Ihadseverepaininmyrightside,frequentburningandachinginmychest;sleepalmostforsookme,orwouldnevercome,exceptaccompaniedbyghastlydreams;appetitevanished,andslowfeverwasmycontinualcompanion。ItwassometimebeforeIcouldbringmyselftohaverecoursetomedicaladvice。Ithoughtmylungswereaffected,andcouldfeelnoconfidenceinthepowerofmedicine。When,atlast,however,adoctorwasconsulted,hedeclaredmylungsandchestsound,andascribedallmysufferingstoderangementoftheliver,onwhichorganitseemstheinflammationhadfallen。Thisinformationwasagreatrelieftomydearfather,aswellastomyself;butIhadsubsequentlyrathersharpmedicaldisciplinetoundergo,andwasmuchreduced。Thoughnotyetwell,itiswithdeepthankfulnessthatIcansay,IamGREATLYBETTER。Mysleep,appetite,andstrengthseemallreturning。"
Itwasagreatinteresttohertobeallowedanear]yreadingofEsmond;andsheexpressedherthoughtsonthesubject,inacriticisinglettertoMr。Smith,whohadgivenherthisprivilege。
"Feb。14th,1852。
"MydearSir,——IthasbeenagreatdelighttometoreadMr。
Thackeray’swork;andIsoseldomnowexpressmysenseofkindnessthat,foronce,youmustpermitme,withoutrebuke,tothankyouforapleasuresorareandspecial。YetIamnotgoingtopraiseeitherMr。Thackerayorhisbook。Ihaveread,enjoyed,beeninterested,and,afterall,feelfullasmuchireandsorrowasgratitudeandadmiration。Andstillonecanneverlaydownabookofhiswithoutthelasttwofeelingshavingtheirpart,bethesubjectortreatmentwhatitmay。Inthefirsthalfofthebook,whatchieflystruckmewasthewonderfulmannerinwhichthewriterthrowshimselfintothespiritandlettersofthetimeswhereofhetreats;theallusions,theillustrations,thestyle,allseemtomesomasterlyintheirexactkeeping,theirharmoniousconsistency,theirnice,naturaltruth,theirpureexemptionfromexaggeration。Nosecond-rateimitatorcanwriteinthatway;nocoarsescene-paintercancharmuswithanallusionsodelicateandperfect。Butwhatbittersatire,whatrelentlessdissectionofdiseasedsubjects!Well,andthis,too,isright,orwouldberight,ifthesavagesurgeondidnotseemsofiercelypleasedwithhiswork。Thackeraylikestodissectanulcerorananeurism;hehaspleasureinputtinghiscruelknifeorprobeintoquivering,livingflesh。Thackeraywouldnotlikealltheworldtobegood;nogreatsatiristwouldlikesocietytobeperfect。
"Asusual,heisunjusttowomen;quiteunjust。ThereishardlyanypunishmenthedoesnotdeserveformakingLadyCastlewoodpeepthroughakeyhole,listenatadoor,andbejealousofaboyandamilkmaid。ManyotherthingsInoticedthat,formypart,grievedandexasperatedmeasIread;butthen,again,camepassagessotrue,sodeeplythought,sotenderlyfelt,onecouldnothelpforgivingandadmiring……
ButIwishhecouldbetoldnottocaremuchfordwellingonthepoliticalorreligiousintriguesofthetimes。Thackeray,inhisheart,doesnotvaluepoliticalorreligiousintriguesofanyageordate。Helikestoshowushumannatureathome,ashehimselfdailyseesit;hiswonderfulobservantfacultylikestobeinaction。Inhimthisfacultyisasortofcaptainandleader;andifeveranypassageinhiswritingslacksinterest,itiswhenthismaster-facultyisforatimethrustintoasubordinateposition。Ithinksuchisthecaseintheformerhalfofthepresentvolume。Towardsthemiddle,hethrowsoffrestraint,becomeshimself,andisstrongtotheclose。Everythingnowdependsonthesecondandthirdvolumes。If,inpithandinterest,theyfallshortofthefirst,atruesuccesscannotensue。Ifthecontinuationbeanimprovementuponthecommencement,ifthestreamgatherforceasitrolls,Thackeraywilltriumph。Somepeoplehavebeeninthehabitofterminghimthesecondwriteroftheday;itjustdependsonhimselfwhetherornotthesecriticsshallbejustifiedintheiraward。Heneednotbethesecond。Godmadehimsecondtonoman。IfIwerehe,I
wouldshowmyselfasIam,notascriticsreportme;atanyrate,Iwoulddomybest。Mr。Thackerayiseasyandindolent,andseldomcarestodohisbest。Thankyouoncemore;andbelievemeyourssincerely,C。BRONTE。"
MissBronte’shealthcontinuedsuch,thatshecouldnotapplyherselftowritingasshewished,formanyweeksaftertheseriousattackfromwhichshehadsuffered。Therewasnotverymuchtocheerherinthefeweventsthattouchedherinterestsduringthistime。SheheardinMarchofthedeathofafriend’srelationintheColonies;andweseesomethingofwhatwasthecorrodingdreadatherheart。
"ThenewsofE——’sdeathcametomelastweekinaletterfromM——;alongletter,whichwrungmyheartso,initssimple,strong,truthfulemotion,Ihaveonlyventuredtoreaditonce。
Itrippeduphalf-scarredwoundswithterribleforce。Thedeath-bedwasjustthesame,——breathfailing,etc。Shefearssheshallnow,inherdrearysolitude,becomea’stern,harsh,selfishwoman。’Thisfearstruckhome;againandagainhaveI
feltitformyself,andwhatisMYpositiontoM——’s?MayGodhelpher,asGodonlycanhelp!"
Againandagain,herfriendurgedhertoleavehome;norwerevariousinvitationswantingtoenablehertodothis,whentheseconstitutionalaccessesoflowspiritspreyedtoomuchuponherinhersolitude。Butshewouldnotallowherselfanysuchindulgence,unlessitbecameabsolutelynecessaryfromthestateofherhealth。Shedreadedtheperpetualrecoursetosuchstimulantsaschangeofsceneandsociety,becauseofthereactionthatwassuretofollow。Asfarasshecouldsee,herlifewasordainedtobelonely,andshemustsubduehernaturetoherlife,and,ifpossible,bringthetwointoharmony。Whenshecouldemployherselfinfiction,allwascomparativelywell。Thecharacterswerehercompanionsinthequiethours,whichshespentutterlyalone,unableoftentostiroutofdoorsformanydaystogether。Theinterestsofthepersonsinhernovelssuppliedthelackofinterestinherownlife;andMemoryandImaginationfoundtheirappropriatework,andceasedtopreyuponhervitals。Buttoofrequentlyshecouldnotwrite,couldnotseeherpeople,norhearthemspeak;agreatmistofhead-achehadblottedthemout;theywerenon-existenttoher。
Thiswasthecaseallthroughthepresentspring;andanxiousasherpublisherswereforitscompletion,Villettestoodstill。
Evenherletterstoherfriendarescarceandbrief。HereandthereIfindasentenceinthemwhichcanbeextracted,andwhichisworthpreserving。
"M——’sletterisveryinteresting;itshowsamindonecannotbuttrulyadmire。Compareitsserenetrustingstrength,withpoor——’svacillatingdependence。Whenthelatterwasinherfirstburstofhappiness,IneverrememberthefeelingfindingventinexpressionsofgratitudetoGod。Therewasalwaysacontinuedclaimuponyoursympathyinthemistrustanddoubtshefeltofherownbliss。M——believes;herfaithisgratefulandatpeace;yetwhilehappyinherself,howthoughtfulsheisforothers!"
"March23rd,1852。
"Yousay,dearE——,thatyouoftenwishIwouldchatonpaper,asyoudo。HowcanI?Wherearemymaterials?Ismylifefertileinsubjectsofchat?WhatcallersdoIsee?WhatvisitsdoIpay?
No,youmustchat,andImustlisten,andsay’Yes,’and’No,’
and’Thankyou!’forfiveminutes’recreation……
"Iamamusedattheinterestyoutakeinpolitics。Don’texpecttorouseme;tome,allministriesandalloppositionsseemtobeprettymuchalike。D’IsraeliwasfactiousasleaderoftheOpposition;LordJohnRussellisgoingtobefactious,nowthathehassteppedintoD’Israeli’sshoes。LordDerby’s’Christianloveandspirit,’isworththreehalf-pencefarthing。"
ToW。S。WILLIAMS,ESQ。
"March25th,1852。
"MydearSir,——Mr。Smithintimatedashorttimesince,thathehadsomethoughtsofpublishingareprintofShirley。Havingrevisedthework,Inowenclosetheerrata。Ihavelikewisesentoffto-day,perrail,areturn-boxofCornhillbooks。
"Ihavelatelyreadwithgreatpleasure,’TheTwoFamilies。’Thiswork,itseems,shouldhavereachedmeinJanuary;butowingtoamistake,itwasdetainedattheDeadLetterOffice,andlaytherenearlytwomonths。Ilikedthecommencementverymuch;thecloseseemedtomescarcelyequalto’RoseDouglas。’Ithoughttheauthoresscommittedamistakeinshiftingthemaininterestfromthetwopersonagesonwhomitfirstrests——viz。,BenWilsonandMary——toothercharactersofquiteinferiorconception。HadshemadeBenandMaryherheroandheroine,andcontinuedthedevelopmentoftheirfortunesandcharactersinthesametruthfulnaturalveininwhichshecommencesit,anexcellent,evenanoriginal,bookmighthavebeentheresult。AsforLiliasandRonald,theyaremereromanticfigments,withnothingofthegenuineScottishpeasantaboutthem;theydonotevenspeaktheCaledoniandialect;theypalaverlikeafineladyandgentleman。
"IoughtlongsincetohaveacknowledgedthegratificationwithwhichIreadMissKavanagh’s’WomenofChristianity。’Hercharityandonthewholeherimpartialityareverybeautiful。Shetouches,indeed,withtoogentleahandthethemeofElizabethofHungary;and,inherownmind,sheevidentlymisconstruesthefactofProtestantcharitiesSEEMINGtobefewerthanCatholic。
Sheforgets,ordoesnotknow,thatProtestantismisaquietercreedthanRomanism;asitdoesnotclotheitspriesthoodinscarlet,soneitherdoesitsetupitsgoodwomenforsaints,canonisetheirnames,andproclaimtheirgoodworks。Intherecordsofman,theiralmsgivingwillnotperhapsbefoundregistered,butHeavenhasitsaccountaswellasearth。
"Withkindregardstoyourselfandfamily,who,Itrust,haveallsafelyweatheredtheroughwinterlatelypast,aswellastheeastwinds,whicharestillnippingourspringinYorkshire,——I
am,mydearSir,yourssincerely,C。BRONTE。"
"April3rd,1852。
"MydearSir,——Theboxarrivedquitesafely,andIverymuchthankyouforthecontents,whicharemostkindlyselected。
"AsyouwishedmetosaywhatIthoughtof’TheSchoolforFathers,’Ihastenedtoreadit。Thebookseemstomeclever,interesting,veryamusing,andlikelytopleasegenerally。Thereisameritinthechoiceofground,whichisnotyettoohackneyed;thecomparativefreshnessofsubject,character,andepochgivethetaleacertainattractiveness。Thereisalso,I
think,agraphicrenderingofsituations,andalivelytalentfordescribingwhateverisvisibleandtangible——whattheeyemeetsonthesurfaceofthings。Thehumourappearstomesuchaswouldanswerwellonthestage;mostofthescenesseemtodemanddramaticaccessoriestogivethemtheirfulleffect。ButIthinkonecannotwithjusticebestowhigherpraisethanthis。Tospeakcandidly,Ifelt,inreadingthetale,awondroushollownessinthemoralandsentiment;astrangedilettanteshallownessinthepurposeandfeeling。Afterall,’Jack’isnotmuchbetterthana’TonyLumpkin,’andthereisnoverygreatbreadthofchoicebetweentheclownheISandthefophisfatherwouldhavemadehim。ThegrosslymateriallifeoftheoldEnglishfox-hunter,andthefrivolousexistenceofthefinegentlemanpresentextremes,eachinitswaysorepugnant,thatonefeelshalfinclinedtosmilewhencalledupontosentimentaliseoverthelotofayouthforcedtopassfromonetotheother;tornfromthestables,tobeusheredperhapsintotheball-room。Jackdiesmournfullyindeed,andyouaresorryforthepoorfellow’suntimelyend;butyoucannotforgetthat,ifhehadnotbeenthrustintothewayofColonelPenruddock’sweapon,hemightpossiblyhavebrokenhisneckinafox-hunt。ThecharacterofSirThomasWarrenisexcellent;consistentthroughout。ThatofMr。Addisonnotbad,butsketchy,amereoutline——wantingcolourandfinish。Theman’sportraitisthere,andhiscostume,andfragmentaryanecdotesofhislife;butwhereistheman’snature——soulandself?Isaynothingaboutthefemalecharacters——notoneword;onlythatLydiaseemstomelikeaprettylittleactress,prettilydressedgracefullyappearinganddisappearing,andreappearinginagenteelcomedy,assumingthepropersentimentsofherpartwithallduetactandnaivete,and——thatisall。
"Yourdescriptionofthemodelmanofbusinessistrueenough,I
doubtnot;butwewillnotfearthatsocietywilleverbebroughtquitetothisstandard;humannaturebadasitishas,afterall,elementsthatforbidit。Buttheverytendencytosuchaconsummation——themarkedtendency,Ifear,oftheday——produces,nodoubt,cruelsuffering。Yet,whentheevilofcompetitionpassesacertainlimit,mustitnotintimeworkitsowncure?I
supposeitwill,butthenthroughsomeconvulsedcrisis,shatteringallarounditlikeanearthquake。Meantime,forhowmanyislifemadeastruggle;enjoymentandrestcurtailed;
labourterriblyenhancedbeyondalmostwhatnaturecanbearI
oftenthinkthatthisworldwouldbethemostterribleofenigmas,wereitnotforthefirmbeliefthatthereisaworldtocome,whereconscientiouseffortandpatientpainwillmeettheirreward——Believeme,mydearSir,sincerelyyours,C。BRONTE。"
AlettertoheroldBrusselsschoolfellowgivesashortretrospectofthedrearywintershehadpassedthrough。
"Haworth,April12th,1852。
"……Istruggledthroughthewinter,andtheearlypartofthespring,oftenwithgreatdifficulty。MyfriendstayedwithmeafewdaysintheearlypartofJanuary;shecouldnotbesparedlonger。Iwasbetterduringhervisit,buthadarelapsesoonaftersheleftme,whichreducedmystrengthverymuch。Itcannotbedeniedthatthesolitudeofmypositionfearfullyaggravateditsotherevils。Somelongstormydaysandnightstherewere,whenIfeltsuchacravingforsupportandcompanionshipasI
cannotexpress。Sleepless,Ilayawakenightafternight,weakandunabletooccupymyself。Isatinmychairdayafterday,thesaddestmemoriesmyonlycompany。ItwasatimeIshallneverforget;butGodsentit,anditmusthavebeenforthebest。
"Iambetternow;andverygratefuldoIfeelfortherestorationoftolerablehealth;but,asiftherewasalwaystobesomeaffliction,papa,whoenjoyedwonderfulhealthduringthewholewinter,isailingwithhisspringattackofbronchitis。I
earnestlytrustitmaypassoverinthecomparativelyamelioratedforminwhichithashithertoshownitself。
"Letmenotforgettoansweryourquestionaboutthecataract。
TellyourpapathatMYfatherwasseventyatthetimeheunderwentanoperation;hewasmostreluctanttotrytheexperiment;couldnotbelievethat,athisage,andwithhiswantofrobuststrength,itwouldsucceed。Iwasobligedtobeverydecidedinthematter,andtoactentirelyonmyownresponsibility。Nearlysixyearshavenowelapsedsincethecataractwasextracteditwasnotmerelydepressed;hehasneveronceduringthattimeregrettedthestep,andadayseldompassesthathedoesnotexpressgratitudeandpleasureattherestorationofthatinestimableprivilegeofvisionwhoselossheonceknew。"
IhadgivenMissBronte;inoneofmyletters,anoutlineofthestoryonwhichIwasthenengaged,andinreplyshesays:——
"ThesketchyougiveofyourworkrespectingwhichIam,ofcourse,dumbseemstomeverynoble;anditspurposemaybeasusefulinpracticalresultasitishighandjustintheoreticaltendency。Suchabookmayrestorehopeandenergytomanywhothoughttheyhadforfeitedtheirrighttoboth;andopenaclearcourseforhonourableefforttosomewhodeemedthattheyandallhonourhadpartedcompanyinthisworld。
"Yet——hearmyprotest!
"Whyshouldshedie?Whyarewetoshutupthebookweeping?
"Myheartfailsmealreadyatthethoughtofthepangitwillhavetoundergo。Andyetyoumustfollowtheimpulseofyourowninspiration。IfTHATcommandstheslayingofthevictim,nobystanderhasarighttoputouthishandtostaythesacrificialknife:butIholdyouasternpriestessinthesematters。"
Asthemilderweathercameon,herhealthimproved,andherpowerofwritingincreased。Shesetherselfwithredoubledvigourtotheworkbeforeher;anddeniedherselfpleasureforthepurposeofsteadylabour。Henceshewritestoherfriend:——
"May11th。
"DearE——,——Imustadheretomyresolutionofneithervisitingnorbeingvisitedatpresent。StayyouquietlyatB。,tillyougotoS。,asIshallstayatHaworth;assincereafarewellcanbetakenwiththeheartaswiththelips,andperhapslesspainful。Iamgladtheweatherischanged;thereturnofthesouth-westwindsuitsme;butIhopeyouhavenocausetoregretthedepartureofyourfavouriteeastwind。Whatyousayabout——doesnotsurpriseme;IhavehadmanylittlenoteswhereofIansweraboutoneinthreebreathingthesamespirit,——selfandchildthesoleall-absorbingtopics,onwhichthechangesarerungeventoweariness。ButIsupposeonemustnotheedit,orthinkthecasesingular。Nor,Iamafraid,mustoneexpecthertoimprove。IreadinaFrenchbooklately,asentencetothiseffect,that’marriagemightbedefinedasthestateoftwo-foldselfishness。’Letthesinglethereforetakecomfort。ThankyouforMary’sletter。SheDOESseemmosthappy;
andIcannottellyouhowmuchmorereal,lasting,andbetter-warrantedherhappinessseemsthanever——’sdid。I
thinksomuchofitisinherself,andherownserene,pure,trusting,religiousnature——’salwaysgivesmetheideaofavacillating,unsteadyrapture,entirelydependentoncircumstanceswithalltheirfluctuations。IfMarylivestobeamother,youwillthenseeagreaterdifference。
"Iwishyou,dearE。,allhealthandenjoymentinyourvisit;
and,asfarasonecanjudgeatpresent,thereseemsafairprospectofthewishbeingrealised——Yourssincerely,"C。BRONTE。"
CHAPTERXI。
ThereaderwillrememberthatAnneBrontehadbeeninterredinthechurchyardoftheOldChurchatScarborough。Charlottehadleftdirectionsforatombstonetobeplacedoverher;butmanyatimeduringthesolitudeofthepastwinter,hersad,anxiousthoughtshadrevisitedthesceneofthatlastgreatsorrow,andshehadwonderedwhetheralldecentserviceshadbeenrenderedtothememoryofthedead,untilatlastshecametoasilentresolutiontogoandseeforherselfwhetherthestoneandinscriptionwereinasatisfactorystateofpreservation。
"CliffeHouse,Filey,June6th,1852。
"DearE——,——IamatFileyutterlyalone。Donotbeangry,thestepisright。Iconsideredit,andresolvedonitwithduedeliberation。Changeofairwasnecessary;therewerereasonswhyIshouldNOTgotothesouth,andwhyIshouldcomehere。OnFridayIwenttoScarborough,visitedthechurchyardandstone。
Itmustberefacedandrelettered;therearefiveerrors。Igavethenecessarydirections。THATduty,then,isdone;longhasitlainheavyonmymind;andthatwasapilgrimageIfeltIcouldonlymakealone。
"IaminouroldlodgingsatMrs。Smith’s;not,however,inthesamerooms,butinlessexpensiveapartments。Theyseemedgladtoseeme,rememberedyouandmeverywell,and,seemingly,withgreatgoodwill。Thedaughterwhousedtowaitonusisjustmarried。Fileyseemstomemuchaltered;morelodging-houses——someofthemveryhandsome——havebeenbuilt;theseahasallitsoldgrandeur。Iwalkonthesandsagooddeal,andtryNOTtofeeldesolateandmelancholy。Howsorelymyheartlongsforyou,Ineednotsay。Ihavebathedonce;itseemedtodomegood。Imay,perhaps,stayhereafortnight。Thereareasyetscarcelyanyvisitors。ALadyWenlockisstayingatthelargehouseofwhichyouusedsovigilantlytoobservetheinmates。OnedayIsetoutwithintenttotrudgetoFileyBridge,butwasfrightenedbackbytwocows。Imeantotryagainsomemorning。I
leftpapawell。Ihavebeenagooddealtroubledwithheadache,andwithsomepaininthesidesinceIcamehere,butIfeelthatthishasbeenowingtothecoldwind,forverycoldhasitbeentilllately;atpresentIfeelbetter。ShallIsendthepaperstoyouasusualWriteagaindirectly,andtellmethis,andanythingandeverythingelsethatcomesintoyourmind——Believeme,yoursfaithfully,"C。BRONTE。"
"Filey,June16th,1852。
"DearE——,——Bequiteeasyaboutme。IreallythinkIambetterformystayatFiley;thatIhavederivedmorebenefitfromitthanIdaredtoanticipate。Ibelieve,couldIstayheretwomonths,andenjoysomethinglikesocialcheerfulnessaswellasexerciseandgoodair,myhealthwouldbequiterenewed。This,however,cannotpossiblybe;butIammostthankfulforthegoodreceived。Istayhereanotherweek。
"Ireturn——’sletter。Iamsorryforher:Ibelieveshesuffers;butIdonotmuchlikeherstyleofexpressingherself……Griefaswellasjoymanifestsitselfinmostdifferentwaysindifferentpeople;andIdoubtnotsheissincereandinearnestwhenshetalksofher’precious,saintedfather;’butI
couldwishsheusedsimplerlanguage。"
SoonafterherreturnfromFiley,shewasalarmedbyaveryseriousandsharpattackofillnesswithwhichMr。Brontewasseized。Therewassomefear,forafewdays,thathissightwaspermanentlylost,andhisspiritssankpainfullyunderthisdread。
"Thisprostrationofspirits,"writeshisdaughter,"whichaccompaniesanythinglikearelapseisalmostthemostdifficultpointtomanage。DearE——,youaretenderlykindinofferingyoursociety;butrestverytranquilwhereyouare;befullyassuredthatitisnotnow,norunderpresentcircumstances,thatIfeelthelackeitherofsocietyoroccupation;mytimeisprettywellfilledup,andmythoughtsappropriated……I
cannotpermitmyselftocommentmuchonthechiefcontentsofyourlast;adviceisnotnecessary:asfarasIcanjudge,youseemhithertoenabledtotakethesetrialsinagoodandwisespirit。Icanonlypraythatsuchcombinedstrengthandresignationmaybecontinuedtoyou。Submission,courage,exertion,whenpracticable——theseseemtobetheweaponswithwhichwemustfightlife’slongbattle。"
Isupposethat,duringtheverytimewhenherthoughtswerethusfullyoccupiedwithanxietyforherfather,shereceivedsomeletterfromherpublishers,makinginquiryastotheprogressoftheworkwhichtheyknewshehadinhand,asIfindthefollowinglettertoMr。Williams,bearingreferencetosomeofMessrs。
SmithandElder’sproposedarrangements。
"ToW。S。WILLIAMS,ESQ。
"July28th,1852。
"MydearSir,——Isitincontemplationtopublishtheneweditionof’Shirley’soon?Woulditnotbebettertodeferitforatime?
Inreferencetoapartofyourletter,permitmetoexpressthiswish,——andItrustindoingso,Ishallnotberegardedassteppingoutofmypositionasanauthor,andencroachingonthearrangementsofbusiness,——viz。:thatnoannouncementofanewworkbytheauthorof’JaneEyre’shallbemadetilltheMS。ofsuchworkisactuallyinmypublisher’shands。Perhapswearenoneofusjustifiedinspeakingverydecidedlywherethefutureisconcerned;butforsometoomuchcautioninsuchcalculationscanscarcelybeobserved:amongstthisnumberImustclassmyself。Nor,indoingso,canIassumeanapologetictone。Hedoesrightwhodoeshisbest。
"LastautumnIgotonforatimequickly。Iventuredtolookforwardtospringastheperiodofpublication:myhealthgaveway;Ipassedsuchawinteras,havingbeenonceexperienced,willneverbeforgotten。Thespringprovedlittlebetterthanaprotractionoftrial。Thewarmweatherandavisittotheseahavedonememuchgoodphysically;butasyetIhaverecoveredneitherelasticityofanimalspirits,norflowofthepowerofcomposition。Andifitwereotherwise,thedifferencewouldbeofnoavail;mytimeandthoughtsareatpresenttakenupwithcloseattendanceonmyfather,whosehealthisjustnowinaverycriticalstate,theheatoftheweatherhavingproduceddeterminationofbloodtothehead——Iam,yourssincerely,C。BRONTE。"
BeforetheendofAugust,Mr。Bronte’sconvalescencebecamequiteestablished,andhewasanxioustoresumehisdutiesforsometimebeforehiscarefuldaughterwouldpermithim。
OnSeptemberthe14ththe"greatduke"died。Hehadbeen,aswehaveseen,herherofromchildhood;butIfindnofurtherreferencetohimatthistimethanwhatisgiveninthefollowingextractfromalettertoherfriend:——
"Idohopeandbelievethechangesyouhavebeenhavingthissummerwilldoyoupermanentgood,notwithstandingthepainwithwhichtheyhavebeentoooftenmingled。YetIfeelgladthatyouaresooncominghome;andIreallymustnottrustmyselftosayhowmuchIwishthetimewerecomewhen,withoutletorhindrance,IcouldoncemorewelcomeyoutoHaworth。ButohI
don’tgeton;Ifeelfretted——incapable——sometimesverylow。
However,atpresent,thesubjectmustnotbedweltupon;itpressesmetoohardly——nearly——andpainfully。LessthanevercanItasteorknowpleasuretillthisworkiswoundup。AndyetI
oftensitupinbedatnight,thinkingofandwishingforyou。
ThankyoufortheTimes;whatitsaidonthemightyandmournfulsubjectwaswellsaid。Allatoncethewholenationseemstotakeajustviewofthatgreatcharacter。TherewasareviewtooofanAmericanbook,whichIwasgladtosee。Read’UncleTom’sCabin’:
probably,though,youhavereadit。
"Papa’shealthcontinuessatisfactory,thankGod!Asforme,mywretchedliverhasbeendisorderedagainoflate,butIhopeitisnowgoingtobeonbetterbehaviour;ithindersmeinworking——depressesbothpowerandtoneoffeeling。Imustexpectthisderangementfromtimetotime。"
Haworthwasinanunhealthystate,asusual;andbothMissBronteandTabbysufferedseverelyfromtheprevailingepidemics。Theformerwaslonginshakingofftheeffectsofthisillness。Invainsheresolvedagainstallowingherselfanysocietyorchangeofsceneuntilshehadaccomplishedherlabour。Shewastooilltowrite;andwithillnesscameontheoldheavinessofheart,recollectionsofthepast,andanticipationsofthefuture。AtlastMr。Bronteexpressedsostrongawishthatherfriendshouldbeaskedtovisither,andshefeltsomelittlerefreshmentsoabsolutelynecessary,thatonOctoberthe9thshebeggedhertocometoHaworth,justforasingleweek。
"IthoughtIwouldpersistindenyingmyselftillIhaddonemywork,butIfinditwon’tdo;thematterrefusestoprogress,andthisexcessivesolitudepressestooheavily;soletmeseeyourdearface,E。,justforonerevivingweek。"
Butshewouldonlyacceptofthecompanyofherfriendfortheexacttimespecified。ShethuswritestoMissWooleronOctoberthe21st:——
"E——hasonlybeenmycompaniononelittleweek。Iwouldnothaveheranylonger,forIamdisgustedwithmyselfandmydelays;andconsideritwasaweakyieldingtotemptationinmetosendforheratall;butintruth,myspiritsweregettinglow——prostratesometimes——andshehasdonemeinexpressiblegood。
IwonderwhenIshallseeyouatHaworthagain;bothmyfatherandtheservantshaveagainandagaininsinuatedadistinctwishthatyoushouldberequestedtocomeinthecourseofthesummerandautumn,butIhavealwaysturnedratheradeafear;’notyet,’wasmythought,’Iwantfirsttobefree;’workfirst,thenpleasure。"
Miss——’svisithaddonehermuchgood。Pleasantcompanionshipduringthedayproduced,forthetime,theunusualblessingofcalmreposeatnight;andafterherfriend’sdepartureshewaswellenoughto"falltobusiness,"andwriteaway,almostincessantly,atherstoryofVillette,nowdrawingtoaconclusion。ThefollowinglettertoMr。Smith,seemstohaveaccompaniedthefirstpartoftheMS。
"Oct。30th,1852。
"MydearSir,——Youmustnotifyhonestlywhatyouthinkof’Villette’whenyouhavereadit。IcanhardlytellyouhowI
hungertohearsomeopinionbesidesmyown,andhowIhavesometimesdesponded,andalmostdespaired,becausetherewasnoonetowhomtoreadaline,orofwhomtoaskacounsel。’JaneEyre’wasnotwrittenundersuchcircumstances,norweretwo-thirdsof’Shirley’。Igotsomiserableaboutit,Icouldbearnoallusiontothebook。Itisnotfinishedyet;butnowIhope。
Astotheanonymouspublication,Ihavethistosay:Ifthewithholdingoftheauthor’snameshouldtendmateriallytoinjurethepublisher’sinterest,tointerferewithbooksellers’orders,etc。,Iwouldnotpressthepoint;butifnosuchdetrimentiscontingent,Ishouldbemostthankfulfortheshelteringshadowofanincognito。Iseemtodreadtheadvertisements——thelarge-lettered’CurrerBell’sNewNovel,’or’NewWork,bytheAuthorofJaneEyre。’These,however,Ifeelwellenough,arethetranscendentalismsofaretiredwretch;soyoumustspeakfrankly……Ishallbegladtosee’ColonelEsmond。’Myobjectiontothesecondvolumelayhere:Ithoughtitcontaineddecidedlytoomuchhistory——toolittlestory。"
Inanotherletter,referringto"Esmond,"sheusesthefollowingwords:——
"Thethirdvolumeseemedtometopossessthemostsparkle,impetus,andinterest。Ofthefirstandsecondmyjudgmentwas,thatpartsofthemwereadmirable;buttherewasthefaultofcontainingtoomuchHistory——toolittlestory。Iholdthataworkoffictionoughttobeaworkofcreation:thattheREALshouldbesparinglyintroducedinpagesdedicatedtotheIDEAL。Plainhouseholdbreadisafarmorewholesomeandnecessarythingthancake;yetwhowouldliketoseethebrownloafplacedonthetablefordessert?Inthesecondvolume,theauthorgivesusanamplesupplyofexcellentbrownbread;inhisthird,onlysuchaportionasgivessubstance,likethecrumbsofbreadinawell-made,nottoorich,plum-pudding。"
HerlettertoMr。Smith,containingtheallusionto’Esmond,’
whichremindedmeofthequotationjustgivencontinues:——
"Youwillseethat’Villette’touchesonnomatterofpublicinterest。Icannotwritebookshandlingthetopicsoftheday;itisofnousetrying。NorcanIwriteabookforitsmoral。NorcanItakeupaphilanthropicscheme,thoughIhonourphilanthropy;andvoluntarilyandsincerelyveilmyfacebeforesuchamightysubjectasthathandledinMrs。BeecherStowe’swork,’UncleTom’sCabin。’Tomanagethesegreatmattersrightly,theymustbelongandpracticallystudied——theirbearingsknownintimately,andtheirevilsfeltgenuinely;theymustnotbetakenupasabusinessmatter,andatradingspeculation。I
doubtnot,Mrs。Stowehadfelttheironofslaveryenterintoherheart,fromchildhoodupwards,longbeforesheeverthoughtofwritingbooks。Thefeelingthroughoutherworkissincere,andnotgotup。Remembertobeanhonestcriticof’Villette,’andtellMr。Williamstobeunsparing:notthatIamlikelytoalteranything,butIwanttoknowhisimpressionsandyours。"
ToG。SMITH,ESQ。
"Nov。3rd。
"MydearSir,——Ifeelverygratefulforyourletter;itrelievedmemuch,forIwasagooddealharassedbydoubtsastohow’Villette’mightappearinothereyesthanmyown。Ifeelinsomedegreeauthorisedtorelyonyourfavourableimpressions,becauseyouarequiterightwhereyouhintdisapprobation。YouhaveexactlyhittwopointsatleastwhereIwasconsciousofdefect;——thediscrepancy,thewantofperfectharmony,betweenGraham’sboyhoodandmanhood,——theangularabruptnessofhischangeofsentimenttowardsMissFanshawe。Youmustremember,though,thatinsecrethehadforsometimeappreciatedthatyoungladyatasomewhatdepressedstandard——heldheraLITTLE
lowerthantheangels。Butstillthereaderoughttohavebeenbettermadetofeelthispreparationtowardsachangeofmood。Astothepublishingarrangement,IleavethemtoCornhill。Thereis,undoubtedly,acertainforceinwhatyousayabouttheinexpediencyofaffectingamysterywhichcannotbesustained;soyoumustactasyouthinkisforthebest。Isubmit,also,totheadvertisementsinlargeletters,butunderprotest,andwithakindofostrich-longingforconcealment。Mostofthethirdvolumeisgiventothedevelopmentofthe’crabbedProfessor’s’
character。LucymustnotmarryDr。John;heisfartooyouthful,handsome,bright-spirited,andsweet-tempered;heisa’curleddarling’ofNatureandofFortune,andmustdrawaprizeinlife’slottery。Hiswifemustbeyoung,rich,pretty;hemustbemadeveryhappyindeed。IfLucymarriesanybody,itmustbetheProfessor——amaninwhomthereismuchtoforgive,muchto’putupwith。’ButIamnotlenientlydisposedtowardsMissFROSTfromthebeginning,Inevermeanttoappointherlinesinpleasantplaces。Theconclusionofthisthirdvolumeisstillamatterofsomeanxiety:Icanbutdomybest,however。Itwouldspeedilybefinished,couldIwardoffcertainobnoxiousheadaches,which,wheneverIgetintothespiritofmywork,areapttoseizeandprostrateme……
"ColonelHenryEsmondisjustarrived。HelooksveryantiqueanddistinguishedinhisQueenAnne’sgarb;theperiwig,sword,lace,andrufflesareverywellrepresentedbytheold’Spectator’
type。"
Inreferencetoasentencetowardsthecloseofthisletter,I
maymentionwhatshetoldme;thatMr。Brontewasanxiousthathernewtaleshouldendwell,ashedislikednovelswhichleftamelancholyimpressionuponthemind;andherequestedhertomakeherheroandheroineliketheheroesandheroinesinfairy-tales"marry,andliveveryhappilyeverafter。"ButtheideaofM。PaulEmanuel’sdeathatseawasstampedonherimaginationtillitassumedthedistinctforceofreality;andshecouldnomorealterherfictitiousendingthaniftheyhadbeenfactswhichshewasrelating。Allshecoulddoincompliancewithherfather’swishwassotoveilthefateinoracularwords,astoleaveittothecharacteranddiscernmentofherreaderstointerprethermeaning。
ToW。S。WILLIAMS,ESQ。
"Nov。6th,1852。
"MydearSir,——Imustnotdelaythankingyouforyourkindletter,withitscandidandablecommentaryon’Villette。’WithmanyofyourstricturesIconcur。Thethirdvolumemay,perhaps,doawaywithsomeoftheobjections;othersstillremaininforce。Idonotthinktheinterestculminatesanywheretothedegreeyouwouldwish。Whatclimaxthereisdoesnotcomeontillneartheconclusion;andeventhen,Idoubtwhethertheregularnovel-readerwillconsiderthe’agonypiledsufficientlyhigh’astheAmericanssay,orthecoloursdashedontothecanvaswiththeproperamountofdaring。Still,Ifear,theymustbesatisfiedwithwhatisoffered:mypaletteaffordsnobrightertints;werettoattempttodeepenthereds,orburnishtheyellows,Ishouldbutbotch。
"UnlessIammistaken,theemotionofthebookwillbefoundtobekeptthroughoutintolerablesubjection。Astothenameoftheheroine,Icanhardlyexpresswhatsubtletyofthoughtmademedecideupongivingheracoldname;but,atfirst,Icalledher’LucySnowe’speltwithan’e’;whichSnoweIafterwardschangedto’Frost。’Subsequently,Iratherregrettedthechange,andwishedit’Snowe’again。Ifnottoolate,IshouldlikethealterationtobemadenowthroughouttheMS。ACOLDnameshemusthave;partly,perhaps,onthe’lucusanonlucendo’principle——
partlyonthatofthe’fitnessofthings,’forshehasaboutheranexternalcoldness。
"Yousaythatshemaybethoughtmorbidandweak,unlessthehistoryofherlifebemorefullygiven。Iconsiderthatsheisbothmorbidandweakattimes;hercharactersetsupnopretensionstounmixedstrength,andanybodylivingherlifewouldnecessarilybecomemorbid。Itwasnoimpetusofhealthyfeelingwhichurgedhertotheconfessional,forinstance;itwasthesemi-deliriumofsolitarygriefandsickness。If,however,thebookdoesnotexpressallthis,theremustbeagreatfaultsomewhere。Imightexplainawayafewotherpoints,butitwouldbetoomuchlikedrawingapictureandthenwritingunderneaththenameoftheobjectintendedtoberepresented。Weknowwhatsortofapencilthatiswhichneedsanallyinthepen。
"Thankingyouagainfortheclearnessandfulnesswithwhichyouhaverespondedtomyrequestforastatementofimpressions,I
am,mydearSir,yoursverysincerely,"C。BRONTE。"
"ItrusttheworkwillbeseeninMS。bynooneexceptMr。Smithandyourself。"
"Nov。10th,1852。
"MydearSir,——Ionlywishedthepublicationof’Shirley’tobedelayedtill’Villette’wasnearlyready;sothattherecannowbenoobjectiontoitsbeingissuedwheneveryouthinkfit。AboutputtingtheMS。intotype,Icanonlysaythat,shouldIbeabletoproceedwiththethirdvolumeatmyaveragerateofcomposition,andwithnomorethantheaverageamountofinterruptions,Ishouldhopetohaveitreadyinaboutthreeweeks。Ileaveittoyoutodecidewhetheritwouldbebettertodelaytheprintingthatspaceoftime,ortocommenceitimmediately。Itwouldcertainlybemoresatisfactoryifyouweretoseethethirdvolumebeforeprintingthefirstandthesecond;
yet,ifdelayislikelytoproveinjurious,Idonotthinkitisindispensable。Ihavereadthethirdvolumeof’Esmond。’Ifounditbothentertainingandexcitingtome;itseemstopossessanimpetusandexcitementbeyondtheothertwo,——thatmovementandbrilliancyitspredecessorssometimeswanted,neverfailshere。
Incertainpassages,IthoughtThackerayusedallhispowers;
theirgrand,seriousforceyieldedaprofoundsatisfaction。’Atlastheputsforthhisstrength,’Icouldnothelpsayingtomyself。NocharacterinthebookstrikesmeasmoremasterlythanthatofBeatrix;itsconceptionisfresh,anditsdelineationvivid。Itispeculiar;ithasimpressionsofanewkind——new,atleast,tome。Beatrixisnot,inherself,allbad。Somuchdoesshesometimesrevealofwhatisgoodandgreatastosuggestthisfeeling——youwouldthinkshewasurgedbyafate。Youwouldthinkthatsomeantiquedoompressesonherhouse,andthatonceinsomanygenerationsitsbrightestornamentwastobecomeitsgreatestdisgrace。Attimes,whatisgoodinherstrugglesagainstthisterribledestiny,buttheFateconquers。Beatrixcannotbeanhonestwomanandagoodman’swife。She’tries,andsheCANNOT。’Proud,beautiful,andsullied,shewasbornwhatshebecomes,aking’smistress。IknownotwhetheryouhaveseenthenoticeintheLeader;Ireaditjustafterconcludingthebook。
CanIbewrongindeemingitanoticetame,cold,andinsufficient?Withallitsprofessedfriendliness,itproducedonmeamostdishearteningimpression。Surely,anothersortofjusticethanthiswillberenderedto’Esmond’fromotherquarters。OneacuteremarkofthecriticistotheeffectthatBlancheAmoryandBeatrixareidentical——sketchedfromthesameoriginal!TometheyareaboutasidenticalasaweazelandaroyaltigressofBengal;boththelatterarequadrupeds,——boththeformer,women。ButImustnottakeupeitheryourtimeormyownwithfurtherremarks。Believemeyourssincerely,"C。BRONTE。"
OnaSaturday,alittlelaterinthismonth,MissBrontecompleted’Villette,’andsentitofftoherpublishers。"IsaidmyprayerswhenIhaddoneit。Whetheritiswellorilldone,I
don’tknow;D。V。,Iwillnowtryandwaittheissuequietly。Thebook,Ithink,willnotbeconsideredpretentious;norisitofacharactertoexcitehostility。"
Asherlabourwasended,shefeltatlibertytoallowherselfalittlechange。TherewereseveralfriendsanxioustoseeherandwelcomehertotheirhomesMissMartineau,Mrs。Smith,andherownfaithfulE。Withthelast,inthesameletterasthatinwhichsheannouncedthecompletionof’Villette,’sheofferedtospendaweek。Shebegan,also,toconsiderwhetheritmightnotbewelltoavailherselfofMrs。Smith’skindinvitation,withaviewtotheconvenienceofbeingonthespottocorrecttheproofs。
Thefollowingletterisgiven,notmerelyonaccountofherowncriticismson’Villette,’butbecauseitshowshowshehadlearnedtomagnifythemeaningoftrifles,asalldowholiveaself-containedandsolitarylife。Mr。Smithhadbeenunabletowritebythesamepostasthatwhichbroughtthemoneyfor’Villette,’andsheconsequentlyreceiveditwithoutaline。Thefriendwithwhomshewasstayingsays,thatsheimmediatelyfanciedtherewassomedisappointmentabout’Villette,’orthatsomewordoractofhershadgivenoffence;andhadnottheSundayintervened,andsoallowedtimeforMr。Smith’slettertomakeitsappearance,shewouldcertainlyhavecrosseditonherwaytoLondon。
"Dec。6th,1852。
"MydearSir,——Thereceiptshavereachedmesafely。IreceivedthefirstonSaturday,enclosedinacoverwithoutaline,andhadmadeupmymindtotakethetrainonMonday,andgouptoLondontoseewhatwasthematter,andwhathadstruckmypublishermute。OnSundaymorningyourlettercame,andyouhavethusbeensparedthevisitationoftheunannouncedandunsummonedapparitionofCurrerBellinCornhill。Inexplicabledelaysshouldbeavoidedwhenpossible,fortheyareapttourgethosesubjectedtotheirharassmenttosuddenandimpulsivesteps。I
mustpronounceyourightagain,inyourcomplaintofthetransferofinterestinthethirdvolume,fromonesetofcharacterstoanother。Itisnotpleasant,anditwillprobablybefoundasunwelcometothereader,asitwas,inasense,compulsoryuponthewriter。Thespiritofromancewouldhaveindicatedanothercourse,farmorefloweryandinviting;itwouldhavefashionedaparamounthero,keptfaithfullywithhim,andmadehimsupremelyworshipful;heshouldhavebeenanidol,andnotamute,unrespondingidoleither;butthiswouldhavebeenunlikerealLIFE——inconsistentwithtruth——atvariancewithprobability。I
greatlyapprehend,however,thattheweakestcharacterinthebookistheoneIaimedatmakingthemostbeautiful;and,ifthisbethecase,thefaultliesinitswantingthegermofthereal——initsbeingpurelyimaginary。Ifeltthatthischaracterlackedsubstance;Ifearthatthereaderwillfeelthesame。
UnionwithitresemblestoomuchthefateofIxion,whowasmatedwithacloud。ThechildhoodofPaulinais,however,Ithink,prettywellimagined,buther……"theremainderofthisinterestingsentenceistornofftheletter。"AbriefvisittoLondonbecomesthusmorepracticable,andifyourmotherwillkindlywrite,whenshehastime,andnameadayafterChristmaswhichwillsuither,Ishallhavepleasure,papa’shealthpermitting,inavailingmyselfofherinvitation。IwishIcouldcomeintimetocorrectsomeatleastoftheproofs;itwouldsavetrouble。"
CHAPTERXII。
Thedifficultythatpresenteditselfmoststronglytome,whenI
firsthadthehonourofbeingrequestedtowritethisbiography,washowIcouldshowwhatanoble,true,andtenderwomanCharlotteBrontereallywas,withoutminglingupwithherlifetoomuchofthepersonalhistoryofhernearestandmostintimatefriends。Aftermuchconsiderationofthispoint,Icametotheresolutionofwritingtruly,ifIwroteatall;ofwithholdingnothing,thoughsomethings,fromtheirverynature,couldnotbespokenofsofullyasothers。
Oneofthedeepestinterestsofherlifecentresnaturallyroundhermarriage,andtheprecedingcircumstances;butmorethanallothereventsbecauseofmorerecentdate,andconcerninganotherasintimatelyasherself,itrequiresdelicatehandlingonmypart,lestIintrudetooroughlyonwhatismostsacredtomemory。YetIhavetworeasons,whichseemtomegoodandvalidones,forgivingsomeparticularsofthecourseofeventswhichledtoherfewmonthsofweddedlife——thatshortspellofexceedinghappiness。ThefirstismydesiretocallattentiontothefactthatMr。Nichollswasonewhohadseenheralmostdailyforyears;seenherasadaughter,asister,amistressandafriend。Hewasnotamantobeattractedbyanykindofliteraryfame。Iimaginethatthis,byitself,wouldratherrepelhimwhenhesawitinthepossessionofawoman。Hewasagrave,reserved,conscientiousman,withadeepsenseofreligion,andofhisdutiesasoneofitsministers。
Insilencehehadwatchedher,andlovedherlong。Theloveofsuchaman——adailyspectatorofhermanneroflifeforyears——isagreattestimonytohercharacterasawoman。
HowdeephisaffectionwasIscarcelydaretotell,evenifI
couldinwords。Shedidnotknow——shehadhardlybeguntosuspect——thatshewastheobjectofanypeculiarregardonhispart,when,inthisveryDecember,hecameoneeveningtotea。
Aftertea,shereturnedfromthestudytoherownsitting-room,aswashercustom,leavingherfatherandhiscuratetogether。
Presentlysheheardthestudy-dooropen,andexpectedtohearthesucceedingclashofthefrontdoor。Instead,cameatap;and,"likelightning,itflasheduponmewhatwascoming。Heentered。