"Quiteso——parties——youareveryright,"saidtheprince。"IwasreadingabookaboutNapoleonandtheWaterloocampaignonlytheotherday,byCharasse,inwhichtheauthordoesnotattempttoconcealhisjoyatNapoleon’sdiscomfitureateverypage。Wellnow,Idon’tlikethat;itsmellsof’party,’youknow。Youarequiteright。AndwereyoumuchoccupiedwithyourserviceunderNapoleon?"
Thegeneralwasinecstasies,fortheprince’sremarks,made,astheyevidentlywere,inallseriousnessandsimplicity,quitedissipatedthelastrelicsofhissuspicion。
"IknowCharasse’sbook!Oh!Iwassoangrywithhiswork!I
wrotetohimandsaid——Iforgetwhat,atthismoment。YouaskwhetherIwasverybusyundertheEmperor?Ohno!Iwascalled’page,’buthardlytookmydutyseriously。Besides,NapoleonverysoonlosthopeofconciliatingtheRussians,andhewouldhaveforgottenallaboutmehadhenotlovedme——forpersonalreasons——
Idon’tmindsayingsonow。Myheartwasgreatlydrawntohim,too。Mydutieswerelight。ImerelyhadtobeatthepalaceoccasionallytoescorttheEmperoroutriding,andthatwasaboutall。Irodeveryfairlywell。Heusedtohavearidebeforedinner,andhissuiteonthoseoccasionsweregenerallyDavoust,myself,andRoustan。"
"Constant?"saidtheprince,suddenly,andquiteinvoluntarily。
"No;Constantwasawaythen,takingalettertotheEmpressJosephine。Insteadofhimtherewerealwaysacoupleoforderlies——andthatwasall,excepting,ofcourse,thegeneralsandmarshalswhomNapoleonalwaystookwithhimfortheinspectionofvariouslocalities,andforthesakeofconsultationgenerally。Iremembertherewasone——Davoust——nearlyalwayswithhim——abigmanwithspectacles。Theyusedtoargueandquarrelsometimes。OncetheywereintheEmperor’sstudytogether——justthosetwoandmyself——Iwasunobserved——andtheyargued,andtheEmperorseemedtobeagreeingtosomethingunderprotest。Suddenlyhiseyefellonmeandanideaseemedtoflashacrosshim。
"’Child,’hesaid,abruptly。’IfIweretorecognizetheRussianorthodoxreligionandemancipatetheserfs,doyouthinkRussiawouldcomeovertome?’"
"’Never!’Icried,indignantly。"
"TheEmperorwasmuchstruck。"
"’IntheflashingeyesofthispatrioticchildIreadandacceptthefiatoftheRussianpeople。Enough,Davoust,itismerephantasyonourpart。Come,let’shearyourotherproject。’"
"’Yes,butthatwasagreatidea,"saidtheprince,clearlyinterested。"YouascribeittoDavoust,doyou?"
"Well,atallevents,theywereconsultingtogetheratthetime。
Ofcourseitwastheideaofaneagle,andmusthaveoriginatedwithNapoleon;buttheotherprojectwasgoodtoo——itwasthe’Conseildulion!’asNapoleoncalledit。ThisprojectconsistedinaproposaltooccupytheKremlinwiththewholearmy;toarmandfortifyitscientifically,tokillasmanyhorsesascouldbegot,andsalttheirflesh,andspendthewinterthere;andinspringtofighttheirwayout。Napoleonlikedtheidea——itattractedhim。WeroderoundtheKremlinwallseveryday,andNapoleonusedtogiveorderswheretheyweretobepatched,wherebuiltup,wherepulleddownandsoon。Allwasdecidedatlast。
Theywerealonetogether——thosetwoandmyself。
"Napoleonwaswalkingupanddownwithfoldedarms。Icouldnottakemyeyesoffhisface——myheartbeatloudlyandpainfully。
"’I’moff,’saidDavoust。’Whereto?’askedNapoleon。
"’Tosalthorse-flesh,’saidDavoust。Napoleonshuddered——hisfatewasbeingdecided。
"’Child,’headdressedmesuddenly,’whatdoyouthinkofourplan?’Ofcourseheonlyappliedtomeasasortoftoss-up,youknow。IturnedtoDavoustandaddressedmyreplytohim。Isaid,asthoughinspired:
"’Escape,general!Gohome!——’
"Theprojectwasabandoned;Davoustshruggedhisshouldersandwentout,whisperingtohimself——’Bah,ildevientsuperstitieux!’
Nextmorningtheordertoretreatwasgiven。"
"Allthisismostinteresting,"saidtheprince,verysoftly,"ifitreallywasso——thatis,Imean——"hehastenedtocorrecthimself。
"Oh,mydearprince,"criedthegeneral,whowasnowsointoxicatedwithhisownnarrativethatheprobablycouldnothavepulledupatthemostpatentindiscretion。
"Yousay,ifitreallywasso!’Therewasmore——muchmore,I
assureyou!Thesearemerelyafewlittlepoliticalacts。ItellyouIwastheeye-witnessofthenightlysorrowandgroaningsofthegreatman,andofthatnoonecanspeakbutmyself。Towardstheendheweptnomore,thoughhecontinuedtoemitanoccasionalgroan;buthisfacegrewmoreovercastdaybyday,asthoughEternitywerewrappingitsgloomymantleabouthim。
Occasionallywepassedwholehoursofsilencetogetheratnight,Roustansnoringinthenextroom——thatfellowsleptlikeapig。
’Buthe’sloyaltomeandmydynasty,’saidNapoleonofhim。
"Sometimesitwasverypainfultome,andoncehecaughtmewithtearsinmyeyes。Helookedatmekindly。’Youaresorryforme,’
hesaid,’you,mychild,andperhapsoneotherchild——myson,theKingofRome——maygrieveforme。Alltheresthateme;andmybrothersarethefirsttobetraymeinmisfortune。’Isobbedandthrewmyselfintohisarms。Hecouldnotresistme——heburstintotears,andourtearsmingledaswefoldedeachotherinacloseembrace。
"’Write,oh,writealettertotheEmpressJosephine!’Icried,sobbing。Napoleonstarted,reflected,andsaid,’Youremindmeofathirdheartwhichlovesme。Thankyou,myfriend;’andthenandtherehesatdownandwrotethatlettertoJosephine,withwhichConstantwassentoffnextday。"
"Youdidagoodaction,"saidtheprince,"forinthemidstofhisangryfeelingsyouinsinuatedakindthoughtintohisheart。"
"Justso,prince,justso。Howwellyoubringoutthatfact!
Becauseyourownheartisgood!"criedtheecstaticoldgentleman,and,strangelyenough,realtearsglistenedinhiseyes。"Yes,prince,itwasawonderfulspectacle。And,doyouknow,IallbutwentofftoParis,andshouldassuredlyhavesharedhissolitaryexilewithhim;but,alas,ourdestinieswereotherwiseordered!Weparted,hetohisisland,whereIamsurehethoughtoftheweepingchildwhohadembracedhimsoaffectionatelyatpartinginMoscow;andIwassentofftothecadetcorps,whereIfoundnothingbutroughnessandharshdiscipline。Alas,myhappydaysweredone!
"’Idonotwishtodepriveyourmotherofyou,and,therefore,I
willnotaskyoutogowithme,’hesaid,themorningofhisdeparture,’butIshouldliketodosomethingforyou。’Hewasmountinghishorseashespoke。’Writesomethinginmysister’salbumforme,’Isaidrathertimidly,forhewasinastateofgreatdejectionatthemoment。Heturned,calledforapen,tookthealbum。’Howoldisyoursister?’heasked,holdingthepeninhishand。’Threeyearsold,’Isaid。’Ah,petitefillealors!’
andhewroteinthealbum:
’Nementesjamais!
NAPOLEONvotreamisincere。’
"Suchadvice,andatsuchamoment,youmustallow,prince,was——"
"Yes,quiteso;veryremarkable。"
"Thispageofthealbum,framedingold,hungonthewallofmysister’sdrawing-roomallherlife,inthemostconspicuousplace,tillthedayofherdeath;whereitisnow,Ireallydon’tknow。
Heavens!it’stwoo’clock!HOWIhavekeptyou,prince!Itisreallymostunpardonableofme。
Thegeneralrose。
"Oh,notintheleast,"saidtheprince。"Onthecontrary,I
havebeensomuchinterested,I’mreallyverymuchobligedtoyou。"
"Prince,",saidthegeneral,pressinghishand,andlookingathimwithflashingeyes,andanexpressionasthoughhewereundertheinfluenceofasuddenthoughtwhichhadcomeuponhimwithstunningforce。"Prince,youaresokind,sosimple-minded,thatsometimesIreallyfeelsorryforyou!Igazeatyouwithafeelingofrealaffection。Oh,Heavenblessyou!Mayyourlifeblossomandfructifyinlove。Mineisover。Forgiveme,forgiveme!"
Helefttheroomquickly,coveringhisfacewithhishands。
Theprincecouldnotdoubtthesincerityofhisagitation。Heunderstood,too,thattheoldmanhadlefttheroomintoxicatedwithhisownsuccess。Thegeneralbelongedtothatclassofliars,who,inspiteoftheirtransportsoflying,invariablysuspectthattheyarenotbelieved。Onthisoccasion,whenherecoveredfromhisexaltation,hewouldprobablysuspectMuishkinofpityinghim,andfeelinsulted。
"HaveIbeenactingrightlyinallowinghimtodevelopsuchvastresourcesofimagination?"theprinceaskedhimself。Buthisanswerwasafitofviolentlaughterwhichlastedtenwholeminutes。Hetriedtoreproachhimselfforthelaughingfit,buteventuallyconcludedthatheneedn’tdoso,sinceinspiteofithewastrulysorryfortheoldman。Thesameeveninghereceivedastrangeletter,shortbutdecided。Thegeneralinformedhimthattheymustpartforever;thathewasgrateful,butthatevenfromhimhecouldnotaccept"signsofsympathywhichwerehumiliatingtothedignityofamanalreadymiserableenough。"
WhentheprinceheardthattheoldmanhadgonetoNinaAlexandrovna,though,hefeltalmosteasyonhisaccount。
Wehaveseen,however,thatthegeneralpaidavisittoLizabethaProkofievnaandcausedtroublethere,thefinalupshotbeingthathefrightenedMrs。Epanchin,andangeredherbybitterhintsastohissonGania。
Hehadbeenturnedoutindisgrace,eventually,andthiswasthecauseofhisbadnightandquarrelsomeday,whichendedinhissuddendepartureintothestreetinaconditionapproachinginsanity,asrecordedbefore。
Coliadidnotunderstandtheposition。Hetriedseveritywithhisfather,astheystoodinthestreetafterthelatterhadcursedthehousehold,hopingtobringhimroundthatway。
"Well,wherearewetogotonow,father?"heasked。"Youdon’twanttogototheprince’s;youhavequarrelledwithLebedeff;
youhavenomoney;Ineverhaveany;andhereweareinthemiddleoftheroad,inanicesortofmess。"
"Bettertobeofamessthaninamess!Iremembermakingajokesomethinglikethatatthemessineighteenhundredandforty——
forty——Iforget。’Whereismyyouth,whereismygoldenyouth?’
Whowasitsaidthat,Colia?"
"ItwasGogol,inDeadSouls,father,"criedColia,glancingathiminsomealarm。
"’DeadSouls,’yes,ofcourse,dead。WhenIdie,Colia,youmustengraveonmytomb:
"’HereliesaDeadSoul,Shamepursuesme。’
"Whosaidthat,Colia?"
"Idon’tknow,father。"
"TherewasnoEropegoff?EroshkaEropegoff?"hecried,suddenly,stoppingintheroadinafrenzy。"NoEropegoff!Andmyownsontosayit!Eropegoffwasintheplaceofabrothertomeforelevenmonths。Ifoughtaduelforhim。Hewasmarriedafterwards,andthenkilledonthefieldofbattle。Thebulletstruckthecrossonmybreastandglancedoffstraightintohistemple。’I’llneverforgetyou,’hecried,andexpired。Iservedmycountrywellandhonestly,Colia,butshame,shamehaspursuedme!YouandNinawillcometomygrave,Colia;poorNina,I
alwaysusedtocallherNinaintheolddays,andhowsheloved……Nina,Nina,oh,Nina。WhathaveIeverdonetodeserveyourforgivenessandlong-suffering?Oh,Colia,yourmotherhasanangelicspirit,anangelicspirit,Colia!"
"Iknowthat,father。Lookhere,dearoldfather,comebackhome!
Let’sgobacktomother。Look,sheranafteruswhenwecameout。
Whathaveyoustoppedherfor,justasthoughyoudidn’ttakeinwhatIsaid?Whyareyoucrying,father?"
PoorColiacriedhimself,andkissedtheoldman’shands"Youkissmyhands,MINE?"
"Yes,yes,yours,yours!Whatistheretosurpriseanyoneinthat?
Come,come,youmustn’tgoonlikethis,cryinginthemiddleoftheroad;andyouageneraltoo,amilitaryman!Come,let’sgoback。"
"Godblessyou,dearboy,forbeingrespectfultoadisgracedman。Yes,toapoordisgracedoldfellow,yourfather。Youshallhavesuchasonyourself;leroideRome。Oh,cursesonthishouse!"
"Come,come,whatdoesallthismean?"criedColiabesidehimselfatlast。"Whatisit?Whathashappenedtoyou?Whydon’tyouwishtocomebackhome?Whyhaveyougoneoutofyourmind,likethis?"
"I’llexplainit,I’llexplainalltoyou。Don’tshout!Youshallhear。LeroideRome。Oh,Iamsad,Iammelancholy!
"’Nurse,whereisyourtomb?’"
"Whosaidthat,Colia?"
"Idon’tknow,Idon’tknowwhosaidit。Comehomeatonce;comeon!I’llpunchGania’sheadmyself,ifyoulike——onlycome。Oh,whereareyouofftoagain?"Thegeneralwasdragginghimawaytowardsthedoorahousenear。Hesatdownonthestep,stillholdingColiabythehand。
"Benddown——benddownyourear。I’lltellyouall——disgrace——benddown,I’lltellyouinyourear。"
"Whatareyoudreamingof?"saidpoor,frightenedColia,stoopingdowntowardstheoldman,allthesame。
"LeroideRome,"whisperedthegeneral,tremblingallover。
"What?WhatDOyoumean?WhatroideRome?"
"I-I,"thegeneralcontinuedtowhisper,clingingmoreandmoretightlytotheboy’sshoulder。"I——wish——totellyou——all——Maria——
MariaPetrovna——Su——Su——Su……"
Coliabrokeloose,seizedhisfatherbytheshoulders,andstaredintohiseyeswithfrenziedgaze。Theoldmanhadgrownlivid——
hislipswereshaking,convulsionswerepassingoverhisfeatures。SuddenlyheleantoverandbegantosinkslowlyintoColia’sarms。
"He’sgotastroke!"criedColia,loudly,realizingwhatwasthematteratlast。
V。
INpointoffact,Variahadratherexaggeratedthecertaintyofhernewsastotheprince’sbetrothaltoAglaya。Verylikely,withtheperspicacityofhersex,shegaveoutasanaccomplishedfactwhatshefeltwasprettysuretobecomeafactinafewdays。PerhapsshecouldnotresistthesatisfactionofpouringonelastdropofbitternessintoherbrotherGania’scup,inspiteofherloveforhim。Atallevents,shehadbeenunabletoobtainanydefinitenewsfromtheEpanchingirls——themostshecouldgetoutofthembeinghintsandsurmises,andsoon。
PerhapsAglaya’ssistershadmerelybeenpumpingVariafornewswhilepretendingtoimpartinformation;orperhaps,again,theyhadbeenunabletoresistthefemininegratificationofteasingafriend——for,afterallthistime,theycouldscarcelyhavehelpeddiviningtheaimofherfrequentvisits。
Ontheotherhand,theprince,althoughhehadtoldLebedeff,——asweknow,thatnothinghadhappened,andthathehadnothingtoimpart,——theprincemayhavebeeninerror。Somethingstrangeseemedtohavehappened,withoutanythingdefinitehavingactuallyhappened。Variahadguessedthatwithhertruefeminineinstinct。
HoworwhyitcameaboutthateveryoneattheEpanchins’becameimbuedwithoneconviction——thatsomethingveryimportanthadhappenedtoAglaya,andthatherfatewasinprocessofsettlement——itwouldbeverydifficulttoexplain。Butnosoonerhadthisideatakenroot,thanallatoncedeclaredthattheyhadseenandobserveditlongago;thattheyhadremarkeditatthetimeofthe"poorknight"joke,andevenbefore,thoughtheyhadbeenunwillingtobelieveinsuchnonsense。
Sosaidthesisters。Ofcourse,LizabethaProkofievnahadforeseenitlongbeforetherest;her"hearthadbeensore"foralongwhile,shedeclared,anditwasnowsosorethatsheappearedtobequiteoverwhelmed,andtheverythoughtoftheprincebecamedistastefultoher。
Therewasaquestiontobedecided——mostimportant,butmostdifficult;somuchso,thatMrs。Epanchindidnotevenseehowtoputitintowords。Wouldtheprincedoornot?Wasallthisgoodorbad?Ifgoodwhichmightbethecase,ofcourse,WHYgood?
Ifbadwhichwashardlydoubtful,WHEREIN,especially,bad?
Eventhegeneral,thepaterfamilias,thoughastonishedatfirst,suddenlydeclaredthat,"uponhishonour,hereallybelievedhehadfanciedsomethingofthekind,afterall。Atfirst,itseemedanewidea,andthen,somehow,itlookedasfamiliaraspossible。"Hiswifefrownedhimdownthere。Thiswasinthemorning;butintheevening,alonewithhiswife,hehadgiventongueagain。
"Well,really,youknow"——silence——"ofcourse,youknowallthisisverystrange,iftrue,whichIcannotdeny;but"——
silence——"But,ontheotherhand,ifonelooksthingsintheface,youknow——uponmyhonour,theprinceisararegoodfellow——
and——and——and——well,hisname,youknow——yourfamilyname——allthislookswell,andperpetuatesthenameandtitleandallthat——
whichatthismomentisnotstandingsohighasitmight——fromonepointofview——don’tyouknow?Theworld,theworldistheworld,ofcourse——andpeoplewilltalk——and——and——theprincehasproperty,youknow——ifitisnotverylarge——andthenhe——he——"
Continuedsilence,andcollapseofthegeneral。
Hearingthesewordsfromherhusband,LizabethaProkofievnawasdrivenbesideherself。
Accordingtoheropinion,thewholethinghadbeenonehuge,fantastical,absurd,unpardonablemistake。"Firstofall,thisprinceisanidiot,and,secondly,heisafool——knowsnothingoftheworld,andhasnoplaceinit。Whomcanhebeshownto?Wherecanyoutakehimto?WhatwilloldBielokonskisay?WeneverthoughtofsuchahusbandasTHATforourAglaya!"
Ofcourse,thelastargumentwasthechiefone。Thematernalhearttrembledwithindignationtothinkofsuchanabsurdity,althoughinthatheartthereroseanothervoice,whichsaid:"AndWHYisnottheprincesuchahusbandasyouwouldhavedesiredforAglaya?"ItwasthisvoicewhichannoyedLizabethaProkofievnamorethananythingelse。
Forsomereasonorother,thesisterslikedtheideaoftheprince。Theydidnotevenconsideritverystrange;inaword,theymightbeexpectedatanymomenttorangethemselvesstronglyonhisside。Butbothofthemdecidedtosaynothingeitherway。
IthadalwaysbeennoticedinthefamilythatthestrongerMrs。
Epanchin’soppositionwastoanyproject,thenearershewas,inreality,togivingin。
Alexandra,however,founditdifficulttokeepabsolutesilenceonthesubject。Longsinceholding,asshedid,thepostof"confidentialadvisertomamma,"shewasnowperpetuallycalledincouncil,andaskedheropinion,andespeciallyherassistance,inordertorecollect"howonearthallthishappened?"Whydidnooneseeit?Whydidnoonesayanythingaboutit?Whatdidallthatwretched"poorknight"jokemean?Whywasshe,LizabethaProkofievna,driventothink,andforesee,andworryforeverybody,whiletheyallsuckedtheirthumbs,andcountedthecrowsinthegarden,anddidnothing?Atfirst,Alexandrahadbeenverycareful,andhadmerelyrepliedthatperhapsherfather’sremarkwasnotsofarout:that,intheeyesoftheworld,probablythechoiceoftheprinceasahusbandforoneoftheEpanchingirlswouldbeconsideredaverywiseone。Warmingup,however,sheaddedthattheprincewasbynomeansafool,andneverhadbeen;andthatasto"placeintheworld,"nooneknewwhatthepositionofarespectablepersoninRussiawouldimplyinafewyears——whetheritwoulddependonsuccessesinthegovernmentservice,ontheoldsystem,orwhat。
ToallthishermotherrepliedthatAlexandrawasafreethinker,andthatallthiswasduetothat"cursedwoman’srightsquestion。"
Halfanhourafterthisconversation,shewentofftotown,andthencetotheKammennyOstrof,["StoneIsland,"asuburbandparkofSt。Petersburg]toseePrincessBielokonski,whohadjustarrivedfromMoscowonashortvisit。TheprincesswasAglaya’sgodmother。
"OldBielokonski"listenedtoallthefeveredanddespairinglamentationsofLizabethaProkofievnawithouttheleastemotion;
thetearsofthissorrowfulmotherdidnotevokeansweringsighs——
infact,shelaughedather。Shewasadreadfulolddespot,thisprincess;shecouldnotallowequalityinanything,noteveninfriendshipoftheoldeststanding,andsheinsistedontreatingMrs。Epanchinasherprotegee,asshehadbeenthirty-fiveyearsago。ShecouldneverputupwiththeindependenceandenergyofLizabetha’scharacter。Sheobservedthat,asusual,thewholefamilyhadgonemuchtoofarahead,andhadconvertedaflyintoanelephant;that,sofarasshehadheardtheirstory,shewaspersuadedthatnothingofanyseriousnesshadoccurred;thatitwouldsurelybebettertowaituntilsomethingDIDhappen;thattheprince,inheropinion,wasaverydecentyoungfellow,thoughperhapsalittleeccentric,throughillness,andnotquiteasweightyintheworldasonecouldwish。Theworstfeaturewas,shesaid,NastasiaPhilipovna。
LizabethaProkofievnawellunderstoodthattheoldladywasangryatthefailureofEvgeniePavlovitch——herownrecommendation。ShereturnedhometoPavlofskinaworsehumourthanwhensheleft,andofcourseeverybodyinthehousesuffered。Shepitchedintoeveryone,because,shedeclared,theyhad’gonemad。’Whywerethingsalwaysmismanagedinherhouse?Whyhadeverybodybeeninsuchafrantichurryinthismatter?Sofarasshecouldsee,nothingwhateverhadhappened。Surelytheyhadbetterwaitandseewhatwastohappen,insteadofmakingmountainsoutofmolehills。
Andsotheconclusionofthematterwasthatitwouldbefarbettertotakeitquietly,andwaitcoollytoseewhatwouldturnup。But,alas!peacedidnotreignformorethantenminutes。ThefirstblowdealttoitspowerwasincertainnewscommunicatedtoLizabethaProkofievnaastoeventswhichbadhappenedduringhertriptoseetheprincess。ThistriphadtakenplacethedayafterthatonwhichtheprincehadturnedupattheEpanchinsatnearlyoneo’clockatnight,thinkingitwasnine。
Thesistersrepliedcandidlyandfullyenoughtotheirmother’simpatientquestionsonherreturn。Theysaid,inthefirstplace,thatnothingparticularhadhappenedsinceherdeparture;thattheprincehadbeen,andthatAglayahadkepthimwaitingalongwhilebeforesheappeared——halfanhour,atleast;thatshehadthencomein,andimmediatelyaskedtheprincetohaveagameofchess;thattheprincedidnotknowthegame,andAglayahadbeatenhimeasily;thatshehadbeeninawonderfullymerrymood,andhadlaughedattheprince,andchaffedhimsounmercifullythatonewasquitesorrytoseehiswretchedexpression。
Shehadthenaskedhimtoplaycards——thegamecalled"littlefools。"Atthisgamethetableswereturnedcompletely,fortheprincehadshownhimselfamasteratit。Aglayahadcheatedandchangedcards,andstolenothers,inthemostbare-facedway,but,inspiteofeverythingtheprincehadbeatenherhopelesslyfivetimesrunning,andshehadbeenleft"littlefool"eachtime。
Aglayathenlosthertemper,andbegantosaysuchawfulthingstotheprincethathelaughednomore,butgrewdreadfullypale,especiallywhenshesaidthatsheshouldnotremaininthehousewithhim,andthatheoughttobeashamedofcomingtotheirhouseatall,especiallyatnight,"AFTERALLTHATHADHAPPENED。"
Sosaying,shehadlefttheroom,bangingthedoorafterher,andtheprincewentoff,lookingasthoughhewereonhiswaytoafuneral,inspiteofalltheirattemptsatconsolation。
Suddenly,aquarterofanhouraftertheprince’sdeparture,Aglayahadrushedoutofherroominsuchahurrythatshehadnotevenwipedhereyes,whichwerefulloftears。ShecamebackbecauseColiahadbroughtahedgehog。Everybodycameintoseethehedgehog。InanswertotheirquestionsColiaexplainedthatthehedgehogwasnothis,andthathehadleftanotherboy,KostiaLebedeff,waitingforhimoutside。Kostiawastooshytocomein,becausehewascarryingahatchet;theyhadboughtthehedgehogandthehatchetfromapeasantwhomtheyhadmetontheroad。Hehadofferedtosellthemthehedgehog,andtheyhadpaidfiftycopecksforit;andthehatchethadsotakentheirfancythattheyhadmadeuptheirmindstobuyitoftheirownaccord。
Onhearingthis,AglayaurgedColiatosellherthehedgehog;sheevencalledhim"dearColia,"intryingtocoaxhim。Herefusedforalongtime,butatlasthecouldholdoutnomore,andwenttofetchKostiaLebedeff。Thelatterappeared,carryinghishatchet,andcoveredwithconfusion。Thenitcameoutthatthehedgehogwasnottheirs,butthepropertyofaschoolmate,onePetroff,whohadgiventhemsomemoneytobuySchlosser’sHistoryforhim,fromanotherschoolfellowwhoatthatmomentwasdriventoraisingmoneybythesaleofhisbooks。ColiaandKostiawereabouttomakethispurchasefortheirfriendwhenchancebroughtthehedgehogtotheirnotice,andtheyhadsuccumbedtothetemptationofbuyingit。TheywerenowtakingPetroffthehedgehogandhatchetwhichtheyhadboughtwithhismoney,insteadofSchiosser’sHistory。ButAglayasoentreatedthemthatatlasttheyconsentedtosellherthehedgehog。Assoonasshehadgotpossessionofit,sheputitinawickerbasketwithColia’shelp,andcovereditwithanapkin。ThenshesaidtoColia:"Goandtakethishedgehogtotheprincefromme,andaskhimtoacceptitasatokenofmyprofoundrespect。"Coliajoyfullypromisedtodotheerrand,buthedemandedexplanations。
"Whatdoesthehedgehogmean?Whatisthemeaningofsuchapresent?"Aglayarepliedthatitwasnoneofhisbusiness。"Iamsurethatthereissomeallegoryaboutit,"Coliapersisted。
Aglayagrewangry,andcalledhim"asillyboy。""IfIdidnotrespectallwomeninyourperson,"repliedColia,"andifmyownprincipleswouldpermitit,Iwouldsoonprovetoyou,thatI
knowhowtoanswersuchaninsult!"But,intheend,Coliawentoffwiththehedgehogingreatdelight,followedbyKostiaLebedeff。Aglaya’sannoyancewassoonover,andseeingthatColiawasswingingthehedgehog’sbasketviolentlytoandfro,shecalledouttohimfromtheverandah,asiftheyhadneverquarrelled:"Colia,dear,pleasetakecarenottodrophim!"
Coliaappearedtohavenogrudgeagainsther,either,forhestopped,andansweredmostcordially:"No,Iwillnotdrophim!
Don’tbeafraid,AglayaIvanovna!"Afterwhichhewentonhisway。Aglayaburstoutlaughingandranuptoherroom,highlydelighted。Hergoodspiritslastedthewholeday。
AllthisfilledpoorLizabetha’smindwithchaoticconfusion。
Whatonearthdiditallmean?Themostdisturbingfeaturewasthehedgehog。Whatwasthesymbolicsignificationofahedgehog?
Whatdidtheyunderstandbyit?Whatunderlayit?Wasitacrypticmessage?
PoorGeneralEpanchin"puthisfootinit"byansweringtheabovequestionsinhisownway。Hesaidtherewasnocrypticmessageatall。Asforthehedgehog,itwasjustahedgehog,whichmeantnothing——unless,indeed,itwasapledgeoffriendship,——thesignofforgettingofoffencesandsoon。Atallevents,itwasajoke,and,ofcourse,amostpardonableandinnocentone。
Wemayaswellremarkthatthegeneralhadguessedperfectlyaccurately。
Theprince,returninghomefromtheinterviewwithAglaya,hadsatgloomyanddepressedforhalfanhour。HewasalmostindespairwhenColiaarrivedwiththehedgehog。
Thentheskyclearedinamoment。Theprinceseemedtoarisefromthedead;heaskedColiaallaboutit,madehimrepeatthestoryoverandoveragain,andlaughedandshookhandswiththeboysinhisdelight。
ItseemedcleartotheprincethatAglayaforgavehim,andthathemightgothereagainthisveryevening;andinhiseyesthatwasnotonlythemainthing,buteverythingintheworld。
"Whatchildrenwearestill,Colia!"hecriedatlast,enthusiastically,——"andhowdelightfulitisthatwecanbechildrenstill!"
"Simply——mydearprince,——simplysheisinlovewithyou,——that’sthewholeofthesecret!"repliedColia,withauthority。
Theprinceblushed,butthistimehesaidnothing。Coliaburstoutlaughingandclappedhishands。Aminutelatertheprincelaughedtoo,andfromthismomentuntiltheeveninghelookedathiswatcheveryotherminutetoseehowmuchtimehehadtowaitbeforeeveningcame。
Butthesituationwasbecomingrapidlycritical。
Mrs。Epanchincouldbearhersuspensenolonger,andinspiteoftheoppositionofhusbandanddaughters,shesentforAglaya,determinedtogetastraightforwardansweroutofher,onceforall。
"Otherwise,"sheobservedhysterically,"Ishalldiebeforeevening。"
Itwasonlynowthateveryonerealizedtowhataridiculousdead-
lockthewholematterhadbeenbrought。Exceptingfeignedsurprise,indignation,laughter,andjeering——bothattheprinceandateveryonewhoaskedherquestions,——nothingcouldbegotoutofAglaya。
LizabethaProkofievnawenttobedandonlyroseagainintimefortea,whentheprincemightbeexpected。
Sheawaitedhimintremblingagitation;andwhenheatlastarrivedshenearlywentoffintohysterics。
Muishkinhimselfcameinverytimidly。Heseemedtofeelhisway,andlookedineachperson’seyesinaquestioningway,——forAglayawasabsent,whichfactalarmedhimatonce。
Thiseveningtherewerenostrangerspresent——noonebuttheimmediatemembersofthefamily。PrinceS。wasstillintown,occupiedwiththeaffairsofEvgeniePavlovitch’suncle。
"IwishatleastHEwouldcomeandsaysomething!"complainedpoorLizabethaProkofievna。
Thegeneralsatstillwithamostpreoccupiedair。Thesisterswerelookingveryseriousanddidnotspeakaword,andLizabethaProkofievnadidnotknowhowtocommencetheconversation。
Atlengthsheplungedintoanenergeticandhostilecriticismofrailways,andglaredattheprincedefiantly。
AlasAglayastilldidnotcome——andtheprincewasquitelost。Hehadthegreatestdifficultyinexpressinghisopinionthatrailwaysweremostusefulinstitutions,——andinthemiddleofhisspeechAdelaidalaughed,whichthrewhimintoastillworsestateofconfusion。
AtthismomentinmarchedAglaya,ascalmandcollectedascouldbe。Shegavetheprinceaceremoniousbowandsolemnlytookupaprominentpositionnearthebigroundtable。Shelookedattheprincequestioningly。
Allpresentrealizedthatthemomentforthesettlementofperplexitieshadarrived。
"Didyougetmyhedgehog?"sheinquired,firmlyandalmostangrily。
Yes,Igotit,"saidtheprince,blushing。
"Tellusnow,atonce,whatyoumadeofthepresent?Imusthaveyouanswerthisquestionformother’ssake;sheneedspacifying,andsodoalltherestofthefamily!"
"Lookhere,Aglaya——"beganthegeneral。
"This——thisisgoingbeyondalllimits!"saidLizabethaProkofievna,suddenlyalarmed。
"Itisnotintheleastbeyondalllimits,mamma!"saidherdaughter,firmly。"Isenttheprinceahedgehogthismorning,andIwishtohearhisopinionofit。Goon,prince。"
"What——whatsortofopinion,AglayaIvanovna?"
"Aboutthehedgehog。"
"Thatis——IsupposeyouwishtoknowhowIreceivedthehedgehog,AglayaIvanovna,——or,Ishouldsay,howIregardedyoursendinghimtome?Inthatcase,Imaytellyou——inaword——thatI——infact——"
Hepaused,breathless。
"Come——youhaven’ttoldusmuch!"saidAglaya,afterwaitingsomefiveseconds。"Verywell,Iamreadytodropthehedgehog,ifyoulike;butIamanxioustobeabletoclearupthisaccumulationofmisunderstandings。Allowmetoaskyou,prince,——Iwishtohearfromyou,personally——areyoumakingmeanoffer,ornot?"
"Graciousheavens!"exclaimedLizabethaProkofievna。Theprincestarted。Thegeneralstiffenedinhischair;thesistersfrowned。
"Don’tdeceivemenow,prince——tellthetruth。Allthesepeoplepersecutemewithastoundingquestions——aboutyou。Isthereanygroundforallthesequestions,ornot?Come!"
"Ihavenotaskedyoutomarrymeyet,AglayaIvanovna,"saidtheprince,becomingsuddenlyanimated;"butyouknowyourselfhowmuchIloveyouandtrustyou。"
"No——Iaskedyouthis——answerthis!Doyouintendtoaskformyband,ornot?"
"Yes——Idoaskforit!"saidtheprince,moredeadthanalivenow。
Therewasageneralstirintheroom。
"No——no——mydeargirl,"beganthegeneral。"Youcannotproceedlikethis,Aglaya,ifthat’showthematterstands。It’simpossible。Prince,forgiveit,mydearfellow,but——LizabethaProkofievna!"——heappealedtohisspouseforhelp——"youmustreally——"
"NotI——notI!Iretirefromallresponsibility,"saidLizabethaProkofievna,withawaveofthehand。
"Allowmetospeak,please,mamma,"saidAglaya。"IthinkIoughttohavesomethingtosayinthematter。Animportantmomentofmydestinyisabouttobedecided"——thisishowAglayaexpressedherself——"andIwishtofindouthowthematterstands,formyownsake,thoughIamgladyouareallhere。Allowmetoaskyou,prince,sinceyoucherishthoseintentions,howyouconsiderthatyouwillprovideformyhappiness?"
"I——Idon’tquiteknowhowtoansweryourquestion,AglayaIvanovna。Whatistheretosaytosuchaquestion?And——andmustIanswer?"
"Ithinkyouareratheroverwhelmedandoutofbreath。Havealittlerest,andtrytorecoveryourself。Takeaglassofwater,or——butthey’llgiveyousometeadirectly。"
"Iloveyou,AglayaIvanovna,——Iloveyouverymuch。Iloveonlyyou——and——pleasedon’tjestaboutit,forIdoloveyouverymuch。"
"Well,thismatterisimportant。Wearenotchildren——wemustlookintoitthoroughly。Nowthen,kindlytellme——whatdoesyourfortuneconsistof?"
"No——Aglaya——come,enoughofthis,youmustn’tbehavelikethis,"
saidherfather,indismay。
"It’sdisgraceful,"saidLizabethaProkofievnainaloudwhisper。
"She’smad——quite!"saidAlexandra。
"Fortune——money——doyoumean?"askedtheprinceinsomesurprise。
"Justso。"
"Ihavenow——let’ssee——Ihaveahundredandthirty-fivethousandroubles,"saidtheprince,blushingviolently。
"Isthatall,really?"saidAglaya,candidly,withouttheslightestshowofconfusion。"However,it’snotsobad,especiallyifmanagedwitheconomy。Doyouintendtoserve?"
"I——Iintendedtotryforacertificateasprivatetutor。"
"Verygood。Thatwouldincreaseourincomenicely。HaveyouanyintentionofbeingaKammer-junker?"
"AKammer-junker?Ihadnotthoughtofit,but——"
Butherethetwosisterscouldrestrainthemselvesnolonger,andbothofthemburstintoirrepressiblelaughter。
AdelaidahadlongsincedetectedinAglaya’sfeaturesthegatheringsignsofanapproachingstormoflaughter,whichsherestrainedwithamazingself-control。
Aglayalookedmenacinglyatherlaughingsisters,butcouldnotcontainherselfanylonger,andthenextminuteshetoohadburstintoanirrepressible,andalmosthysterical,fitofmirth。Atlengthshejumpedup,andranoutoftheroom。
"Iknewitwasallajoke!"criedAdelaida。"Ifeltiteversince——sincethehedgehog。"
"No,no!Icannotallowthis,——thisisalittletoomuch,"criedLizabethaProkofievna,explodingwithrage,andsherosefromherseatandfollowedAglayaoutoftheroomasquicklyasshecould。
Thetwosistershurriedlywentafterher。
Theprinceandthegeneralweretheonlytwopersonsleftintheroom。
"It’s——it’sreally——nowcouldyouhaveimaginedanythinglikeit,LefNicolaievitch?"criedthegeneral。Hewasevidentlysomuchagitatedthathehardlyknewwhathewishedtosay。"Seriouslynow,seriouslyImean——"
"IonlyseethatAglayaIvanovnaislaughingatme,"saidthepoorprince,sadly。
"Waitabit,myboy,I’lljustgo——youstayhere,youknow。Butdojustexplain,ifyoucan,LefNicolaievitch,howintheworldhasallthiscomeabout?Andwhatdoesitallmean?Youmustunderstand,mydearfellow;Iamafather,yousee,andIoughttobeallowedtounderstandthematter——doexplain,Ibegyou!"
"IloveAglayaIvanovna——sheknowsit,——andIthinkshemusthavelongknownit。"
Thegeneralshruggedhisshoulders。
"Strange——it’sstrange,"hesaid,"andyouloveherverymuch?"
"Yes,verymuch。"
"Well——it’sallmoststrangetome。Thatis——mydearfellow,itissuchasurprise——suchablow——that……Yousee,itisnotyourfinancialpositionthoughIshouldnotobjectifyouwereabitricher——Iamthinkingofmydaughter’shappiness,ofcourse,andthethingis——areyouabletogiveherthehappinessshedeserves?Andthen——isallthisajokeonherpart,orissheinearnest?Idon’tmeanonyourside,butonhers。"
AtthismomentAlexandra’svoicewasheardoutsidethedoor,callingout"Papa!"
"Waitformehere,myboy——willyou?Justwaitandthinkitallover,andI’llcomebackdirectly,"hesaidhurriedly,andmadeoffwithwhatlookedliketherapidityofalarminresponsetoAlexandra’scall。
Hefoundthemotheranddaughterlockedinoneanother’sarms,minglingtheirtears。
Thesewerethetearsofjoyandpeaceandreconciliation。Aglayawaskissinghermother’slipsandcheeksandhands;theywerehuggingeachotherinthemostardentway。
"There,lookathernow——IvanFedorovitch!Heresheis——allofher!ThisisourREALAglayaatlast!"saidLizabethaProkofievna。
Aglayaraisedherhappy,tearfulfacefromhermother’sbreast,glancedatherfather,andburstoutlaughing。Shesprangathimandhuggedhimtoo,andkissedhimoverandoveragain。Shethenrushedbacktohermotherandhidherfaceinthematernalbosom,andthereindulgedinmoretears。Hermothercoveredherwithacornerofhershawl。
"Oh,youcruellittlegirl!Howwillyoutreatusallnext,I
wonder?"shesaid,butshespokewitharingofjoyinhervoice,andasthoughshebreathedatlastwithouttheoppressionwhichshehadfeltsolong。
"Cruel?"sobbedAglaya。"Yes,IAMcruel,andworthless,andspoiled——tellfatherso,——oh,hereheis——IforgotFather,listen!"Shelaughedthroughhertears。
"Mydarling,mylittleidol,"criedthegeneral,kissingandfondlingherhandsAglayadidnotdrawthemaway;"soyoulovethisyoungman,doyou?"
"No,no,no,can’tBEARhim,Ican’tBEARyouryoungman!"criedAglaya,raisingherhead。"AndifyoudaresaythatONCEmore,papa——I’mserious,youknow,I’m,——doyouhearme——I’mserious!"
Shecertainlydidseemtobeseriousenough。Shehadflushedupalloverandhereyeswereblazing。
Thegeneralfelttroubledandremainedsilent,whileLizabethaProkofievnatelegraphedtohimfrombehindAglayatoasknoquestions。
"Ifthat’sthecase,darling——then,ofcourse,youshalldoexactlyasyoulike。Heiswaitingalonedownstairs。Hadn’tI
betterhinttohimgentlythathecango?"ThegeneraltelegraphedtoLizabethaProkofievnainhisturn。
"No,no,youneedn’tdoanythingofthesort;youmustn’thintgentlyatall。I’llgodownmyselfdirectly。Iwishtoapologizetothisyoungman,becauseIhurthisfeelings。"
"Yes,SERIOUSLY,"saidthegeneral,gravely。
"Well,you’dbetterstayhere,allofyou,foralittle,andI’llgodowntohimalonetobeginwith。I’lljustgoinandthenyoucanfollowmealmostatonce。That’sthebestway。"
Shehadalmostreachedthedoorwhensheturnedroundagain。
"Ishalllaugh——IknowIshall;Ishalldieoflaughing,"shesaid,lugubriously。
However,sheturnedandrandowntotheprinceasfastasherfeetcouldcarryher。
"Well,whatdoesitallmean?Whatdoyoumakeofit?"askedthegeneralofhisspouse,hurriedly。
"Ihardlydaresay,"saidLizabetha,ashurriedly,"butIthinkit’sasplainasanythingcanbe。"
"Ithinksotoo,asclearasday;sheloveshim。"
"Loveshim?Sheisheadoverearsinlove,that’swhatsheis,"
putinAlexandra。
"Well,Godblessher,Godblessher,ifsuchisherdestiny,"
saidLizabetha,crossingherselfdevoutly。
"H’mdestinyitis,"saidthegeneral,"andthere’snogettingoutofdestiny。"
Withthesewordstheyallmovedofftowardsthedrawing-room,whereanothersurpriseawaitedthem。Aglayahadnotonlynotlaughed,asshehadfeared,buthadgonetotheprincerathertimidly,andsaidtohim:
"Forgiveasilly,horrid,spoiltgirl"——shetookhishandhere——
"andbequiteassuredthatweallofusesteemyoubeyondallwords。AndifIdaredtoturnyourbeautiful,admirablesimplicitytoridicule,forgivemeasyouwouldalittlechilditsmischief。Forgivemeallmyabsurdityofjustnow,which,ofcourse,meantnothing,andcouldnothavetheslightestconsequence。"Shespokethesewordswithgreatemphasis。
Herfather,mother,andsisterscameintotheroomandweremuchstruckwiththelastwords,whichtheyjustcaughtastheyentered——"absurditywhichofcoursemeantnothing"——andstillmoresowiththeemphasiswithwhichAglayahadspoken。
Theyexchangedglancesquestioningly,buttheprincedidnotseemtohaveunderstoodthemeaningofAglaya’swords;hewasinthehighestheavenofdelight。
"Whydoyouspeakso?"hemurmured。"Whydoyouaskmyforgiveness?"
Hewishedtoaddthathewasunworthyofbeingaskedforforgivenessbyher,butpaused。PerhapshedidunderstandAglaya’ssentenceabout"absurditywhichmeantnothing,"andlikethestrangefellowthathewas,rejoicedinthewords。
UndoubtedlythefactthathemightnowcomeandseeAglayaasmuchashepleasedagainwasquiteenoughtomakehimperfectlyhappy;thathemightcomeandspeaktoher,andseeher,andsitbyher,andwalkwithher——whoknows,butthatallthiswasquiteenoughtosatisfyhimforthewholeofhislife,andthathewoulddesirenomoretotheendoftime?
LizabethaProkofievnafeltthatthismightbethecase,andshedidn’tlikeit;thoughveryprobablyshecouldnothaveputtheideaintowords。
Itwouldbedifficulttodescribetheanimationandhighspiritswhichdistinguishedtheprincefortherestoftheevening。
Hewassohappythat"itmadeonefeelhappytolookathim,"asAglaya’ssistersexpresseditafterwards。Hetalked,andtoldstoriesjustashehaddoneoncebefore,andneversince,namelyontheveryfirstmorningofhisacquaintancewiththeEpanchins,sixmonthsago。SincehisreturntoPetersburgfromMoscow,hehadbeenremarkablysilent,andhadtoldPrinceS。ononeoccasion,beforeeveryone,thathedidnotthinkhimselfjustifiedindegradinganythoughtbyhisunworthywords。
Butthiseveninghedidnearlyallthetalkinghimself,andtoldstoriesbythedozen,whileheansweredallquestionsputtohimclearly,gladly,andwithanyamountofdetail。
Therewasnothing,however,oflove-makinginhistalk。Hisideaswereallofthemostseriouskind;somewereevenmysticalandprofound。
Heairedhisownviewsonvariousmatters,someofhismostprivateopinionsandobservations,manyofwhichwouldhaveseemedratherfunny,sohishearersagreedafterwards,hadtheynotbeensowellexpressed。
Thegenerallikedserioussubjectsofconversation;butbothheandLizabethaProkofievnafeltthattheywerehavingalittletoomuchofagoodthingtonight,andastheeveningadvanced,theybothgrewmoreorlessmelancholy;buttowardsnight,theprincefelltotellingfunnystories,andwasalwaysthefirsttoburstoutlaughinghimself,whichheinvariablydidsojoyouslyandsimplythattherestlaughedjustasmuchathimasathisstories。
AsforAglaya,shehardlysaidawordalltheevening;butshelistenedwithallherearstoLefNicolaievitch’stalk,andscarcelytookhereyesoffhim。
"Shelookedathim,andstaredandstared,andhungoneverywordhesaid,"saidLizabethaafterwards,toherhusband,"andyet,tellherthatsheloveshim,andsheisfurious!"
"What’stobedone?It’sfate,"saidthegeneral,shrugginghisshoulders,and,foralongwhileafter,hecontinuedtorepeat:
"It’sfate,it’sfate!"
WemayaddthattoabusinessmanlikeGeneralEpanchinthepresentpositionofaffairswasmostunsatisfactory。Hehatedtheuncertaintyinwhichtheyhadbeen,perforce,left。However,hedecidedtosaynomoreaboutit,andmerelytolookon,andtakehistimeandtunefromLizabethaProkofievna。
Thehappystateinwhichthefamilyhadspenttheevening,asjustrecorded,wasnotofverylongduration。NextdayAglayaquarrelledwiththeprinceagain,andsoshecontinuedtobehaveforthenextfewdays。Forwholehoursatatimesheridiculedandchaffedthewretchedman,andmadehimalmostalaughing-
stock。
Itistruethattheyusedtositinthelittlesummer-housetogetherforanhourortwoatatime,veryoften,butitwasobservedthatontheseoccasionstheprincewouldreadthepaper,orsomebook,aloudtoAglaya。
"Doyouknow,"Aglayasaidtohimonce,interruptingthereading,"I’veremarkedthatyouaredreadfullybadlyeducated。Youneverknowanythingthoroughly,ifoneasksyou;neitheranyone’sname,nordates,norabouttreatiesandsoon。It’sagreatpity,youknow!"
"ItoldyouIhadnothadmuchofaneducation,"repliedtheprince。
"HowamItorespectyou,ifthat’sthecase?Readonnow。No——
don’t!Stopreading!"
Andoncemore,thatsameevening,Aglayamystifiedthemall。
PrinceS。hadreturned,andAglayawasparticularlyamiabletohim,andaskedagreatdealafterEvgeniePavlovitch。Muishkinhadnotcomeinasyet。
SuddenlyPrinceS。hintedsomethingabout"anewandapproachingchangeinthefamily。"HewasledtothisremarkbyacommunicationinadvertentlymadetohimbyLizabethaProkofievna,thatAdelaida’smarriagemustbepostponedalittlelonger,inorderthatthetwoweddingsmightcomeofftogether。
ItisimpossibletodescribeAglaya’sirritation。Sheflaredup,andsaidsomeindignantwordsabout"allthesesillyinsinuations。"Sheaddedthat"shehadnointentionsasyetofreplacinganybody’smistress。"
Thesewordspainfullyimpressedthewholeparty;butespeciallyherparents。LizabethaProkofievnasummonedasecretcounciloftwo,andinsisteduponthegeneral’sdemandingfromtheprinceafullexplanationofhisrelationswithNastasiaPhilipovna。ThegeneralarguedthatitwasonlyawhimofAglaya’s;andthat,hadnotPrinceS。unfortunatelymadethatremark,whichhadconfusedthechildandmadeherblush,sheneverwouldhavesaidwhatshedid;andthathewassureAglayaknewwellthatanythingshemighthaveheardoftheprinceandNastasiaPhilipovnawasmerelythefabricationofmalicioustongues,andthatthewomanwasgoingtomarryRogojin。HeinsistedthattheprincehadnothingwhatevertodowithNastasiaPhilipovna,sofarasanyliaisonwasconcerned;and,ifthetruthweretobetoldaboutit,headded,neverhadhad。
Meanwhilenothingputtheprinceout,andhecontinuedtobeintheseventhheavenofbliss。Ofcoursehecouldnotfailtoobservesomeimpatienceandill-temperinAglayanowandthen;
buthebelievedinsomethingelse,andnothingcouldnowshakehisconviction。Besides,Aglaya’sfrownsneverlastedlong;theydisappearedofthemselves。
Perhapshewastooeasyinhismind。SothoughtHippolyte,atallevents,whomethimintheparkoneday。
"Didn’tItellyouthetruthnow,whenIsaidyouwereinlove?"
hesaid,cominguptoMuishkinofhisownaccord,andstoppinghim。
Theprincegavehimhishandandcongratulatedhimupon"lookingsowell。"
Hippolytehimselfseemedtobehopefulabouthisstateofhealth,asisoftenthecasewithconsumptives。
Hehadapproachedtheprincewiththeintentionoftalkingsarcasticallyabouthishappyexpressionofface,butverysoonforgothisintentionandbegantotalkabouthimself。Hebegancomplainingabouteverything,disconnectedlyandendlessly,aswashiswont。
"Youwouldn’tbelieve,"heconcluded,"howirritatingtheyallarethere。Theyaresuchwretchedlysmall,vain,egotistical,COMMONPLACEpeople!Wouldyoubelieveit,theyinvitedmethereundertheexpressconditionthatIshoulddiequickly,andtheyareallaswildaspossiblewithmefornothavingdiedyet,andforbeing,onthecontrary,agooddealbetter!Isn’titacomedy?Idon’tmindbettingthatyoudon’tbelieveme!"
Theprincesaidnothing。
"Isometimesthinkofcomingovertoyouagain,"saidHippolyte,carelessly。"SoyouDON’Tthinkthemcapableofinvitingamanontheconditionthatheistolooksharpanddie?"
"Icertainlythoughttheyinvitedyouwithquiteotherviews。"
"Ho,ho!youarenotnearlysosimpleastheytrytomakeyouout!Thisisnotthetimeforit,orIwouldtellyouathingortwoaboutthatbeauty,Gania,andhishopes。Youarebeingundermined,pitilesslyundermined,and——anditisreallymelancholytoseeyousocalmaboutit。Butalas!it’syournature——youcan’thelpit!"
"Myword!whatathingtobemelancholyabout!Why,doyouthinkIshouldbeanyhappierifIweretofeeldisturbedabouttheexcavationsyoutellmeof?"
"Itisbettertobeunhappyandknowtheworst,thantobehappyinafool’sparadise!Isupposeyoudon’tbelievethatyouhavearivalinthatquarter?"
"Yourinsinuationsastorivalryarerathercynical,Hippolyte。
I’msorrytosayIhavenorighttoansweryou!AsforGania,I
putittoyou,CANanymanhaveahappymindafterpassingthroughwhathehashadtosuffer?Ithinkthatisthebestwaytolookatit。Hewillchangeyet,hehaslotsoftimebeforehim,andlifeisrich;besides——besides……"theprincehesitated。"Astobeingundermined,Idon’tknowwhatintheworldyouaredrivingat,Hippolyte。Ithinkwehadbetterdropthesubject!"
"Verywell,we’lldropitforawhile。Youcan’tlookatanythingbutinyourexalted,generousway。Youmustputoutyourfingerandtouchathingbeforeyou’llbelieveit,eh?Ha!ha!ha!I
supposeyoudespisemedreadfully,prince,eh?Whatdoyouthink?"
"Why?Becauseyouhavesufferedmorethanwehave?"
"No;becauseIamunworthyofmysufferings,ifyoulike!"
"WhoeverCANsufferisworthytosuffer,Ishouldthink。AglayaIvanovnawishedtoseeyou,aftershehadreadyourconfession,but——"
"Shepostponedthepleasure——Isee——Iquiteunderstand!"saidHippolyte,hurriedly,asthoughhewishedtobanishthesubject。
"Ihear——theytellme——thatyoureadherallthatnonsensealoud?
Stupid@boshitwas——writtenindelirium。AndIcan’tunderstandhowanyonecanbesoIwon’tsayCRUEL,becausethewordwouldbehumiliatingtomyself,butwe’llsaychildishlyvainandrevengeful,astoREPROACHmewiththisconfession,anduseitasaweaponagainstme。Don’tbeafraid,I’mnotreferringtoyourself。"
"Oh,butI’msorryyourepudiatetheconfession,Hippolyte——itissincere;and,doyouknow,eventheabsurdpartsofit——andthesearemany"hereHippolytefrownedsavagely"are,asitwere,redeemedbysuffering——foritmusthavecostyousomethingtoadmitwhatyoutheresay——greattorture,perhaps,forallIknow。
Yourmotivemusthavebeenaverynobleoneallthrough。Whatevermayhaveappearedtothecontrary,Igiveyoumyword,Iseethismoreplainlyeveryday。Idonotjudgeyou;Imerelysaythistohaveitoffmymind,andIamonlysorrythatIdidnotsayitallTHEN——"
Hippolyteflushedhotly。Hehadthoughtatfirstthattheprincewas"humbugging"him;butonlookingathisfacehesawthathewasabsolutelyserious,andhadnothoughtofanydeception。
Hippolytebeamedwithgratification。
"AndyetImustdie,"hesaid,andalmostadded:"amanlikeme@
"AndimaginehowthatGaniaannoysme!Hehasdevelopedtheidea——orpretendstobelieve——thatinallprobabilitythreeorfourotherswhoheardmyconfessionwilldiebeforeIdo。There’sanideaforyou——andallthisbywayofCONSOLINGme!Ha!ha!ha!Inthefirstplacetheyhaven’tdiedyet;andinthesecond,iftheyDIDdie——allofthem——whatwouldbethesatisfactiontomeinthat?Hejudgesmebyhimself。Buthegoesfurther,heactuallypitchesintomebecause,ashedeclares,’anydecentfellow’
woulddiequietly,andthat’allthis’ismereegotismonmypart。Hedoesn’tseewhatrefinementofegotismitisonhisownpart——andatthesametime,whatox-likecoarseness!HaveyoueverreadofthedeathofoneStepanGleboff,intheeighteenthcentury?Ireadofityesterdaybychance。"
"Whowashe?"
HewasimpaledonastakeinthetimeofPeter。"
"Iknow,Iknow!Helaytherefifteenhoursinthehardfrost,anddiedwiththemostextraordinaryfortitude——Iknow——whatofhim?"
"OnlythatGodgivesthatsortofdyingtosome,andnottoothers。Perhapsyouthink,though,thatIcouldnotdielikeGleboff?"
"Notatall!"saidtheprince,blushing。"Iwasonlygoingtosaythatyou——notthatyoucouldnotbelikeGleboff——butthatyouwouldhavebeenmorelike@
"Iguesswhatyoumean——IshouldbeanOsterman,notaGleboff——
eh?Isthatwhatyoumeant?"
"WhatOsterman?"askedtheprinceinsomesurprise。
"Why,Osterman——thediplomatist。Peter’sOsterman,"mutteredHippolyte,confused。Therewasamoment’spauseofmutualconfusion。
Oh,no,no!"saidtheprinceatlast,"thatwasnotwhatIwasgoingtosay——ohno!Idon’tthinkyouwouldeverhavebeenlikeOsterman。"
Hippolytefrownedgloomily。
"I’lltellyouwhyIdrawtheconclusion,"explainedtheprince,evidentlydesirousofclearingupthematteralittle。"Because,thoughIoftenthinkoverthemenofthosetimes,Icannotforthelifeofmeimaginethemtobelikeourselves。Itreallyappearstomethattheywereofanotherracealtogetherthanourselvesoftoday。Atthattimepeopleseemedtosticksotooneidea;now,theyaremorenervous,moresensitive,moreenlightened——peopleoftwoorthreeideasatonce——asitwere。
Themanoftodayisabroaderman,sotospeak——andIdeclareI
believethatiswhatpreventshimfrombeingsoself-containedandindependentabeingashisbrotherofthoseearlierdays。Ofcoursemyremarkwasonlymadeunderthisimpression,andnotintheleast@
"Iquiteunderstand。Youaretryingtocomfortmeforthenaivenesswithwhichyoudisagreedwithme——eh?Ha!ha!ha!Youarearegularchild,prince!However,Icannothelpseeingthatyoualwaystreatmelike——likeafragilechinacup。Nevermind,nevermind,I’mnotabitangry!Atalleventswehavehadaveryfunnytalk。Doyouknow,allthingsconsidered,IshouldliketobesomethingbetterthanOsterman!Iwouldn’ttakethetroubletorisefromthedeadtobeanOsterman。However,IseeImustmakearrangementstodiesoon,orImyself。Well——leavemenow!Aurevoir。Lookhere——beforeyougo,justgivemeyouropinion:howdoyouthinkIoughttodie,now?Imean——thebest,themostvirtuousway?Tellme!"
"Youshouldpassusbyandforgiveusourhappiness,"saidtheprinceinalowvoice。
"Ha!ha!ha!Ithoughtso。IthoughtIshouldhearsomethinglikethat。Well,youare——youreallyare——ohdearme!Eloquence,eloquence!Good-bye!"
VI。
AstotheeveningpartyattheEpanchins’atwhichPrincessBielokonskiwastobepresent,Variahadreportedwithaccuracy;
thoughshehadperhapsexpressedherselftoostrongly。
Thethingwasdecidedinahurryandwithacertainamountofquiteunnecessaryexcitement,doubtlessbecause"nothingcouldbedoneinthishouselikeanywhereelse。"
TheimpatienceofLizabethaProkofievna"togetthingssettled"
explainedagooddeal,aswellastheanxietyofbothparentsforthehappinessoftheirbeloveddaughter。Besides,PrincessBielokonskiwasgoingawaysoon,andtheyhopedthatshewouldtakeaninterestintheprince。Theywereanxiousthatheshouldentersocietyundertheauspicesofthislady,whosepatronagewasthebestofrecommendationsforanyyoungman。
Evenifthereseemssomethingstrangeaboutthematch,thegeneralandhiswifesaidtoeachother,the"world"willacceptAglaya’sfiancewithoutanyquestionifheisunderthepatronageoftheprincess。Inanycase,theprincewouldhavetobe"shown"
soonerorlater;thatis,introducedintosociety,ofwhichhehad,sofar,nottheleastidea。Moreover,itwasonlyaquestionofasmallgatheringofafewintimatefriends。BesidesPrincessBielokonski,onlyoneotherladywasexpected,thewifeofahighdignitary。EvgeniePavlovitch,whowastoescorttheprincess,wastheonlyyoungman。
Muishkinwastoldoftheprincess’svisitthreedaysbeforehand,butnothingwassaidtohimaboutthepartyuntilthenightbeforeitwastotakeplace。
Hecouldnothelpobservingtheexcitedandagitatedconditionofallmembersofthefamily,andfromcertainhintsdroppedinconversationhegatheredthattheywereallanxiousastotheimpressionheshouldmakeupontheprincess。ButtheEpanchins,oneandall,believedthatMuishkin,inhissimplicityofmind,wasquiteincapableofrealizingthattheycouldbefeelinganyanxietyonhisaccount,andforthisreasontheyalllookedathimwithdreadanduneasiness。
Inpointoffact,hedidattachmarvellouslylittleimportancetotheapproachingevent。Hewasoccupiedwithaltogetherdifferentthoughts。Aglayawasgrowinghourlymorecapriciousandgloomy,andthisdistressedhim。WhentheytoldhimthatEvgeniePavlovitchwasexpected,heevincedgreatdelight,andsaidthathehadlongwishedtoseehim——andsomehowthesewordsdidnotpleaseanyone。
Aglayalefttheroominafitofirritation,anditwasnotuntillateintheevening,pasteleven,whentheprincewastakinghisdeparture,thatshesaidawordortwotohim,privately,assheaccompaniedhimasfarasthefrontdoor。
"Ishouldlikeyou,"shesaid,"nottocomeheretomorrowuntilevening,whentheguestsareallassembled。Youknowtherearetobeguests,don’tyou?"
Shespokeimpatientlyandwithseverity;thiswasthefirstallusionshehadmadetothepartyoftomorrow。
Shehatedtheideaofit,everyonesawthat;andshewouldprobablyhavelikedtoquarrelaboutitwithherparents,butprideandmodestypreventedherfrombroachingthesubject。
TheprincejumpedtotheconclusionthatAglaya,too,wasnervousabouthim,andtheimpressionhewouldmake,andthatshedidnotliketoadmitheranxiety;andthisthoughtalarmedhim。
"Yes,Iaminvited,"hereplied。
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