首页 >出版文学> The Idiot>第17章

第17章

  TheprincegazedaffectionatelyatColia,who,ofcourse,hadcomeinsolelyforthepurposeoftalkingaboutthis"giganticthought。"
  "Butitisnotanyoneparticularthought,only;itisthegeneralcircumstancesofthecase。IfVoltairehadwrittenthisnow,orRousseau,Ishouldhavejustreaditandthoughtitremarkable,butshouldnothavebeensoIMPRESSEDbyit。Butamanwhoknowsforcertainthathehasbuttenminutestoliveandcantalklikethat——why——it’s——it’sPRIDE,thatis!Itisreallyamostextraordinary,exaltedassertionofpersonaldignity,it’s——it’sDEFIANT!WhataGIGANTICstrengthofwill,eh?Andtoaccuseafellowlikethatofnotputtinginthecaponpurpose;
  it’sbaseandmean!Youknowhedeceiveduslastnight,thecunningrascal。Ineverpackedhisbagforhim,andIneversawhispistol。Hepackedithimself。Butheputmeoffmyguardlikethat,yousee。Verasaysyouaregoingtolethimstayon;I
  swearthere’snodanger,especiallyaswearealwayswithhim。"
  "Whowasbyhimatnight?"
  "I,andBurdovsky,andKostiaLebedeff。Kellerstayedalittlewhile,andthenwentovertoLebedeff’stosleep。FerdishenkosleptatLebedeff’s,too;buthewentawayatseveno’clock。MyfatherisalwaysatLebedeff’s;buthehasgoneoutjustnow。I
  daresayLebedeffwillbecominginheredirectly;hehasbeenlookingforyou;Idon’tknowwhathewants。Shallwelethiminornot,ifyouareasleep?I’mgoingtohaveanap,too。By-the-
  by,suchacuriousthinghappened。Burdovskywokemeatseven,andImetmyfatherjustoutsidetheroom,sodrunk,hedidn’tevenknowme。Hestoodbeforemelikealog,andwhenherecoveredhimself,askedhurriedlyhowHippolytewas。’Yes,’hesaid,whenItoldhim,’that’sallverywell,butIREALLYcametowarnyouthatyoumustbeverycarefulwhatyousaybeforeFerdishenko。’Doyoufollowme,prince?"
  "Yes。Isitreallyso?However,it’sallthesametous,ofcourse。"
  "Ofcourseitis;wearenotasecretsociety;andthatbeingthecase,itisallthemorecuriousthatthegeneralshouldhavebeenonhiswaytowakemeupinordertotellmethis。"
  "Ferdishenkohasgone,yousay?"
  "Yes,hewentatseveno’clock。Hecameintotheroomonhiswayout;Iwaswatchingjustthen。Hesaidhewasgoingtospend’therestofthenight’atWilkin’s;there’satipsyfellow,afriendofhis,ofthatname。Well,I’moff。Oh,here’sLebedeffhimself!
  Theprincewantstogotosleep,LukianTimofeyovitch,soyoumayjustgoawayagain。"
  "Onemoment,mydearprince,justone。Imustabsolutelyspeaktoyouaboutsomethingwhichismostgrave,"saidLebedeff,mysteriouslyandsolemnly,enteringtheroomwithabowandlookingextremelyimportant。Hehadbutjustreturned,andcarriedhishatinhishand。Helookedpreoccupiedandmostunusuallydignified。
  Theprincebeggedhimtotakeachair。
  "Ihearyouhavecalledtwice;Isupposeyouarestillworriedaboutyesterday’saffair。"
  "What,aboutthatboy,youmean?Ohdearno,yesterdaymyideaswerealittle——well——mixed。Today,Iassureyou,Ishallnotopposeintheslightestdegreeanysuggestionsitmaypleaseyoutomake。"
  "What’supwithyouthismorning,Lebedeff?Youlooksoimportantanddignified,andyouchooseyourwordssocarefully,"saidtheprince,smiling。
  "NicolaiArdalionovitch!"saidLebedeff,inamostamiabletoneofvoice,addressingtheboy。"AsIhaveacommunicationtomaketotheprincewhichconcernsonlymyself——"
  "Ofcourse,ofcourse,notmyaffair。Allright,"saidColia,andawayhewent。
  "Ilovethatboyforhisperception,"saidLebedeff,lookingafterhim。"Mydearprince,"hecontinued,"Ihavehadaterriblemisfortune,eitherlastnightorearlythismorning。Icannottelltheexacttime。"
  "Whatisit?"
  "Ihavelostfourhundredroublesoutofmysidepocket!They’regone!"saidLebedeff,withasoursmile。
  "You’velostfourhundredroubles?Oh!I’msorryforthat。"
  "Yes,itisseriousforapoormanwholivesbyhistoil。"
  "Ofcourse,ofcourse!Howwasit?"
  "Oh,thewineistoblame,ofcourse。Iconfesstoyou,prince,asIwouldtoProvidenceitself。YesterdayIreceivedfourhundredroublesfromadebtorataboutfiveintheafternoon,andcamedownherebytrain。Ihadmypurseinmypocket。WhenI
  changed,Iputthemoneyintothepocketofmyplainclothes,intendingtokeepitbyme,asIexpectedtohaveanapplicantforitintheevening。"
  "It’struethen,Lebedeff,thatyouadvertisetolendmoneyongoldorsilverarticles?"
  "Yes,throughanagent。Myownnamedoesn’tappear。Ihavealargefamily,yousee,andatasmallpercentage——"
  "Quiteso,quiteso。Ionlyaskedforinformation——excusethequestion。Goon。"
  "Well,meanwhilethatsickboywasbroughthere,andthoseguestscamein,andwehadtea,and——well,wemademerry——tomyruin!
  Hearingofyourbirthdayafterwards,andexcitedwiththecircumstancesoftheevening,Iranupstairsandchangedmyplainclothesoncemoreformyuniform[CivilServiceclerksinRussiawearuniform。]——youmusthavenoticedIhadmyuniformonalltheevening?Well,Iforgotthemoneyinthepocketofmyoldcoat——
  youknowwhenGodwillruinamanhefirstofallbereaveshimofhissenses——anditwasonlythismorningathalf-pastseventhatIwokeupandgrabbedatmycoatpocket,firstthing。Thepocketwasempty——thepursegone,andnotatracetobefound!"
  "Dearme!Thisisveryunpleasant!"
  "Unpleasant!Indeeditis。Youhavefoundaveryappropriateexpression,"saidLebedeff,politely,butwithsarcasm。
  "Butwhat’stobedone?It’saseriousmatter,"saidtheprince,thoughtfully。"Don’tyouthinkyoumayhavedroppeditoutofyourpocketwhilstintoxicated?"
  "Certainly。Anythingispossiblewhenoneisintoxicated,asyouneatlyexpressit,prince。Butconsider——ifI,intoxicatedornot,droppedanobjectoutofmypocketontotheground,thatobjectoughttoremainontheground。Whereistheobject,then?"
  "Didn’tyouputitawayinsomedrawer,perhaps?"
  "I’velookedeverywhere,andturnedouteverything。"
  "Iconfessthisdisturbsmeagooddeal。Someonemusthavepickeditup,then。"
  "Ortakenitoutofmypocket——twoalternatives。"
  "Itisverydistressing,becauseWHO——?That’sthequestion!"
  "Mostundoubtedly,excellentprince,youhavehitit——thatistheveryquestion。Howwonderfullyyouexpresstheexactsituationinafewwords!"
  "Come,come,Lebedeff,nosarcasm!It’saserious——"
  "Sarcasm!"criedLebedeff,wringinghishands。
  "Allright,allright,I’mnotangry。I’monlyputoutaboutthis。Whomdoyoususpect?"
  "Thatisaverydifficultandcomplicatedquestion。Icannotsuspecttheservant,forshewasinthekitchenthewholeevening,nordoIsuspectanyofmychildren。"
  "Ishouldthinknot。Goon。"
  "Thenitmustbeoneoftheguests。"
  "Issuchathingpossible?"
  "Absolutelyandutterlyimpossible——andyet,soitmustbe。ButonethingIamsureof,ifitbeatheft,itwascommitted,notintheeveningwhenwewerealltogether,buteitheratnightorearlyinthemorning;therefore,byoneofthosewhoslepthere。
  BurdovskyandColiaIexcept,ofcourse。Theydidnotevencomeintomyroom。"
  "Yes,oreveniftheyhad!Butwhodidsleepwithyou?""Fourofus,includingmyself,intworooms。Thegeneral,myself,Keller,andFerdishenko。Oneofusfouritmusthavebeen。Idon’tsuspectmyself,thoughsuchcaseshavebeenknown。"
  "Oh!DOgoon,Lebedeff!Don’tdragitoutso。"
  "Well,therearethreeleft,then——Kellerfirstly。Heisadrunkardtobeginwith,andaliberalinthesenseofotherpeople’spockets,otherwisewithmoreoftheancientknightabouthimthanofthemodernliberal。Hewaswiththesickmanatfirst,butcameoverafterwardsbecausetherewasnoplacetoliedownintheroomandthefloorwassohard。"
  "Yoususpecthim?"
  "IDIDsuspecthim。WhenIwokeupathalf-pastsevenandtoremyhairindespairformylossandcarelessness,Iawokethegeneral,whowassleepingthesleepofinnocencenearme。TakingintoconsiderationthesuddendisappearanceofFerdishenko,whichwassuspiciousinitself,wedecidedtosearchKeller,whowaslyingtheresleepinglikeatop。Well,wesearchedhisclothesthoroughly,andnotafarthingdidwefind;infact,hispocketsallhadholesinthem。Wefoundadirtyhandkerchief,andalove-
  letterfromsomescullery-maid。Thegeneraldecidedthathewasinnocent。Weawokehimforfurtherinquiries,andhadthegreatestdifficultyinmakinghimunderstandwhatwasup。Heopenedhismouthandstared——helookedsostupidandsoabsurdlyinnocent。Itwasn’tKeller。"
  "Oh,I’msoglad!"saidtheprince,joyfully。"Iwassoafraid。"
  "Afraid!Thenyouhadsomegroundsforsupposinghemightbetheculprit?"saidLebedeff,frowning。
  "Ohno——notabit!ItwasfoolishofmetosayIwasafraid!
  Don’trepeatitplease,Lebedeff,don’ttellanyoneIsaidthat!"
  "Mydearprince!yourwordslieinthelowestdepthofmyheart——
  itistheirtomb!"saidLebedeff,solemnly,pressinghishattotheregionofhisheart。
  "Thanks;verywell。ThenIsupposeit’sFerdishenko;thatis,I
  mean,yoususpectFerdishenko?"
  "Whomelse?"saidLebedeff,softly,gazingintentlyintotheprincesface。
  "Ofcourse——quiteso,whomelse?Butwhataretheproofs?"
  "Wehaveevidence。Inthefirstplace,hismysteriousdisappearanceatseveno’clock,orevenearlier。"
  "Iknow,Coliatoldmethathehadsaidhewasoffto——Iforgetthename,somefriendofhis,tofinishthenight。"
  "H’m!thenColiahasspokentoyoualready?"
  "Notaboutthetheft。"
  "Hedoesnotknowofit;Ihavekeptitasecret。Verywell,FerdishenkowentofftoWilkin’s。Thatisnotsocuriousinitself,butheretheevidenceopensoutfurther。Helefthisaddress,yousee,whenhewent。Nowprince,consider,whydidheleavehisaddress?WhydoyousupposehewentoutofhiswaytotellColiathathehadgonetoWilkin’s?WhocaredtoknowthathewasgoingtoWilkin’s?No,no!prince,thisisfinesse,thieves’finesse!Thisisasgoodassaying,’There,howcanIbeathiefwhenIleavemyaddress?I’mnotconcealingmymovementsasathiefwould。’Doyouunderstand,prince?"
  "Ohyes,butthatisnotenough。"
  "Secondproof。Thescentturnsouttobefalse,andtheaddressgivenisasham。Anhourafter——thatisatabouteight,IwenttoWilkin’smyself,andtherewasnotraceofFerdishenko。Themaiddidtellme,certainly,thatanhourorsosincesomeonehadbeenhammeringatthedoor,andhadsmashedthebell;shesaidshewouldnotopenthedoorbecauseshedidn’twanttowakehermaster;probablyshewastoolazytogetupherself。Suchphenomenaaremetwithoccasionally!"
  "Butisthatallyourevidence?Itisnotenough!"
  "Well,prince,whomarewetosuspect,then?Consider!"saidLebedeffwithalmostservileamiability,smilingattheprince。
  Therewasalookofcunninginhiseyes,however。
  "Youshouldsearchyourroomandallthecupboardsagain,"saidtheprince,afteramomentortwoofsilentreflection。
  "ButIhavedoneso,mydearprince!"saidLebedeff,moresweetlythanever。
  "H’m!whymustyouneedsgoupandchangeyourcoatlikethat?"
  askedtheprince,bangingthetablewithhisfist,inannoyance。
  "Oh,don’tbesoworriedonmyaccount,prince!IassureyouIamnotworthit!Atleast,notIalone。ButIseeyouaresufferingonbehalfofthecriminaltoo,forwretchedFerdishenko,infact!"
  "Ofcourseyouhavegivenmeadisagreeableenoughthingtothinkabout,"saidtheprince,irritably,"butwhatareyougoingtodo,sinceyouaresosureitwasFerdishenko?"
  "ButwhoelseCOULDitbe,myverydearprince?"repeatedLebedeff,assweetassugaragain。"Ifyoudon’twishmetosuspectMr。Burdovsky?"
  "Ofcoursenot。"
  "Northegeneral?Ha,ha,ha!"
  "Nonsense!"saidtheprince,angrily,turningrounduponhim。
  "Quiteso,nonsense!Ha,ha,ha!dearme!Hedidamuseme,didthegeneral!WewentoffonthehotscenttoWilkin’stogether,youknow;butImustfirstobservethatthegeneralwasevenmorethunderstruckthanImyselfthismorning,whenIawokehimafterdiscoveringthetheft;somuchsothathisveryfacechanged——hegrewredandthenpale,andatlengthflewintoaparoxysmofsuchnoblewraththatIassureyouIwasquitesurprised!Heisamostgenerous-heartedman!Hetellsliesbythethousands,I
  know,butitismerelyaweakness;heisamanofthehighestfeelings;asimple-mindedmantoo,andamanwhocarriestheconvictionofinnocenceinhisveryappearance。Ilovethatman,sir;Imayhavetoldyousobefore;itisaweaknessofmine。
  Well——hesuddenlystoppedinthemiddleoftheroad,openedouthiscoatandbaredhisbreast。"Searchme,"hesays,"yousearchedKeller;whydon’tyousearchmetoo?Itisonlyfair!"
  sayshe。Andallthewhilehislegsandhandsweretremblingwithanger,andheaswhiteasasheetallover!SoIsaidtohim,"Nonsense,general;ifanybodybutyourselfhadsaidthattome,I’dhavetakenmyhead,myownhead,andputitonalargedishandcarrieditroundtoanyonewhosuspectedyou;andIshouldhavesaid:’There,youseethathead?It’smyhead,andI’llgobailwiththatheadforhim!Yes,andwalkthroughthefireforhim,too。There,’saysI,’that’showI’danswerforyou,general!’Thenheembracedme,inthemiddleofthestreet,andhuggedmesotightcryingovermeallthewhilethatIcoughedfittochoke!’Youaretheonefriendlefttomeamidallmymisfortunes,’sayshe。Oh,he’samanofsentiment,that!Hewentontotellmeastoryofhowhehadbeenaccused,orsuspected,ofstealingfivehundredthousandroublesonce,asayoungman;
  andhow,theverynextday,hehadrushedintoaburning,blazinghouseandsavedtheverycountwhosuspectedhim,andNinaAlexandrovnawhowasthenayounggirl,fromafierydeath。Thecountembracedhim,andthatwashowhecametomarryNinaAlexandrovna,hesaid。Asforthemoney,itwasfoundamongtheruinsnextdayinanEnglishironboxwithasecretlock;ithadgotunderthefloorsomehow,andifithadnotbeenforthefireitwouldneverhavebeenfound!Thewholethingis,ofcourse,anabsolutefabrication,thoughwhenhespokeofNinaAlexandrovnahewept!She’sagrandwoman,isNinaAlexandrovna,thoughsheisveryangrywithme!"
  "Areyouacquaintedwithher?"
  "Well,hardlyatall。IwishIwere,ifonlyforthesakeofjustifyingmyselfinhereyes。NinaAlexandrovnahasagrudgeagainstmefor,asshethinks,encouragingherhusbandindrinking;whereasinrealityInotonlydonotencouragehim,butIactuallykeephimoutofharm’sway,andoutofbadcompany。
  Besides,he’smyfriend,prince,sothatIshallnotlosesightofhim,again。Wherehegoes,Igo。He’squitegivenupvisitingthecaptain’swidow,thoughsometimeshethinkssadlyofher,especiallyinthemorning,whenhe’sputtingonhisboots。I
  don’tknowwhyit’satthattime。Buthehasnomoney,andit’snousehisgoingtoseeherwithout。Hasheborrowedanymoneyfromyou,prince?"
  "No,hehasnot。"
  "Ah,he’sashamedto!HeMEANTtoaskyou,Iknow,forhesaidso。Isupposehethinksthatasyougavehimsomeonceyouremember,youwouldprobablyrefuseifheaskedyouagain。"
  "Doyouevergivehimmoney?"
  "Prince!Money!WhyIwouldgivethatmannotonlymymoney,butmyverylife,ifhewantedit。Well,perhapsthat’sexaggeration;
  notlife,we’llsay,butsomeillness,aboilorabadcough,oranythingofthatsort,Iwouldstandwithpleasure,forhissake;
  forIconsiderhimagreatmanfallen——money,indeed!"
  "H’m,thenyouDOgivehimmoney?"
  "N-no,Ihavenevergivenhimmoney,andheknowswellthatI
  willnevergivehimany;becauseIamanxioustokeephimoutofintemperateways。Heisgoingtotownwithmenow;foryoumustknowIamofftoPetersburgafterFerdishenko,whilethescentishot;I’mcertainheisthere。Ishallletthegeneralgooneway,whileIgotheother;wehavesoarrangedmattersinordertopopoutuponFerdishenko,yousee,fromdifferentsides。ButIamgoingtofollowthatnaughtyoldgeneralandcatchhim,Iknowwhere,atacertainwidow’shouse;forIthinkitwillbeagoodlesson,toputhimtoshamebycatchinghimwiththewidow。"
  "Oh,Lebedeff,don’t,don’tmakeanyscandalaboutit!"saidtheprince,muchagitated,andspeakinginalowvoice。
  "Notfortheworld,notfortheworld!Imerelywishtomakehimashamedofhimself。Oh,prince,greatthoughthismisfortunebetomyself,Icannothelpthinkingofhismorals!Ihaveagreatfavourtoaskofyou,esteemedprince;Iconfessthatitisthechiefobjectofmyvisit。YouknowtheIvolgins,youhaveevenlivedintheirhouse;soifyouwouldlendmeyourhelp,honouredprince,inthegeneral’sowninterestandforhisgood。"
  Lebedeffclaspedhishandsinsupplication。
  "Whathelpdoyouwantfromme?YoumaybecertainthatIammostanxioustounderstandyou,Lebedeff。"
  "Ifeltsureofthat,orIshouldnothavecometoyou。WemightmanageitwiththehelpofNinaAlexandrovna,sothathemightbecloselywatchedinhisownhouse。UnfortunatelyIamnotonterms……otherwise……butNicolaiArdalionovitch,whoadoresyouwithallhisyouthfulsoul,mighthelp,too。"
  "No,no!HeavenforbidthatweshouldbringNinaAlexandrovnaintothisbusiness!OrColia,either。ButperhapsIhavenotyetquiteunderstoodyou,Lebedeff?"
  Lebedeffmadeanimpatientmovement。
  "Butthereisnothingtounderstand!Sympathyandtenderness,thatisall——thatisallourpoorinvalidrequires!Youwillpermitmetoconsiderhimaninvalid?"
  "Yes,itshowsdelicacyandintelligenceonyourpart。"
  "Iwillexplainmyideabyapracticalexample,tomakeitclearer。Youknowthesortofmanheis。Atpresenthisonlyfailingisthatheiscrazyaboutthatcaptain’swidow,andhecannotgotoherwithoutmoney,andImeantocatchhimatherhousetoday——forhisowngood;butsupposingitwasnotonlythewidow,butthathehadcommittedarealcrime,oratleastsomeverydishonourableactionofwhichheis,ofcourse,incapable,Irepeatthateveninthatcase,ifheweretreatedwithwhatI
  maycallgeneroustenderness,onecouldgetatthewholetruth,forheisverysoft-hearted!Believeme,hewouldbetrayhimselfbeforefivedayswereout;hewouldburstintotears,andmakeacleanbreastofthematter;especiallyifmanagedwithtact,andifyouandhisfamilywatchedhiseverystep,sotospeak。Oh,mydearprince,"Lebedeffaddedmostemphatically,"Idonotpositivelyassertthathehas……Iamready,asthesayingis,toshedmylastdropofbloodforhimthisinstant;butyouwilladmitthatdebauchery,drunkenness,andthecaptain’swidow,allthesetogethermayleadhimveryfar。"
  "Iam,ofcourse,quitereadytoaddmyeffortstoyoursinsuchacase,"saidtheprince,rising;"butIconfess,Lebedeff,thatIamterriblyperplexed。Tellme,doyoustillthink……
  plainly,yousayyourselfthatyoususpectMr。Ferdishenko?"
  Lebedeffclaspedhishandsoncemore。
  "Why,whoelsecouldIpossiblysuspect?Whoelse,mostoutspokenprince?"hereplied,withanunctuoussmile。
  Muishkinfrowned,androsefromhisseat。
  "Yousee,Lebedeff,amistakeherewouldbeadreadfulthing。
  ThisFerdishenko,Iwouldnotsayawordagainsthim,ofcourse;
  but,whoknows?Perhapsitreallywashe?Imeanhereallydoesseemtobeamorelikelymanthan……thananyother。"
  Lebedeffstrainedhiseyesandearstotakeinwhattheprincewassaying。Thelatterwasfrowningmoreandmore,andwalkingexcitedlyupanddown,tryingnottolookatLebedeff。
  "Yousee,"hesaid,"IwasgiventounderstandthatFerdishenkowasthatsortofman,——thatonecan’tsayeverythingbeforehim。
  Onehastotakecarenottosaytoomuch,youunderstand?Isaythistoprovethathereallyis,sotospeak,morelikelytohavedonethisthananyoneelse,eh?Youunderstand?Theimportantthingis,nottomakeamistake。"
  "AndwhotoldyouthisaboutFerdishenko?"
  "Oh,Iwastold。OfcourseIdon’taltogetherbelieveit。IamverysorrythatIshouldhavehadtosaythis,becauseIassureyouIdon’tbelieveitmyself;itisallnonsense,ofcourse。Itwasstupidofmetosayanythingaboutit。"
  "Yousee,itisveryimportant,itismostimportanttoknowwhereyougotthisreportfrom,"saidLebedeff,excitedly。Hehadrisenfromhisseat,andwastryingtokeepstepwiththeprince,runningafterhim,upanddown。"Becauselookhere,prince,I
  don’tmindtellingyounowthatasweweregoingalongtoWilkin’sthismorning,aftertellingmewhatyouknowaboutthefire,andsavingthecountandallthat,thegeneralwaspleasedtodropcertainhintstothesameeffectaboutFerdishenko,butsovaguelyandclumsilythatIthoughtbettertoputafewquestionstohimonthematter,withtheresultthatIfoundthewholethingwasaninventionofhisexcellency’sownmind。Ofcourse,heonlylieswiththebestintentions;still,helies。
  But,suchbeingthecase,wherecouldyouhaveheardthesamereport?Itwastheinspirationofthemomentwithhim,youunderstand,sowhocouldhavetoldYOU?Itisanimportantquestion,yousee!"
  "ItwasColiatoldme,andhisfathertoldHIMataboutsixthismorning。Theymetatthethreshold,whenColiawasleavingtheroomforsomethingorother。"TheprincetoldLebedeffallthatColiahadmadeknowntohimself,indetail。
  "Therenow,that’swhatwemaycallSCENT!"saidLebedeff,rubbinghishandsandlaughingsilently。"Ithoughtitmustbeso,yousee。Thegeneralinterruptedhisinnocentslumbers,atsixo’clock,inordertogoandwakehisbelovedson,andwarnhimofthedreadfuldangerofcompanionshipwithFerdishenko。
  Dearme!whatadreadfullydangerousmanFerdishenkomustbe,andwhattouchingpaternalsolicitude,onthepartofhisexcellency,ha!ha!ha!"
  "Listen,Lebedeff,"begantheprince,quiteoverwhelmed;"DOactquietly——don’tmakeascandal,Lebedeff,Iaskyou——Ientreatyou!Noonemustknow——NOONE,mind!Inthatcaseonly,Iwillhelpyou。"
  "Beassured,mosthonourable,mostworthyofprinces——beassuredthatthewholemattershallbeburiedwithinmyheart!"criedLebedeff,inaparoxysmofexaltation。"I’dgiveeverydropofmyblood……Illustriousprince,Iamapoorwretchinsoulandspirit,butasktheveriestscoundrelwhetherhewouldprefertodealwithonelikehimself,orwithanoble-heartedmanlikeyou,andthereisnodoubtastohischoice!He’llanswerthatheprefersthenoble-heartedman——andthereyouhavethetriumphofvirtue!Aurevoir,honouredprince!YouandItogether——softly!
  softly!"
  X。
  THEprinceunderstoodatlastwhyheshiveredwithdreadeverytimehethoughtofthethreelettersinhispocket,andwhyhehadputoffreadingthemuntiltheevening。
  Whenhefellintoaheavysleeponthesofaontheverandah,withouthavinghadthecouragetoopenasingleoneofthethreeenvelopes,heagaindreamedapainfuldream,andoncemorethatpoor,"sinful"womanappearedtohim。Againshegazedathimwithtearssparklingonherlonglashes,andbeckonedhimafterher;
  andagainheawoke,asbefore,withthepictureofherfacehauntinghim。
  Helongedtogetupandgotoheratonce——butheCOULDNOT。Atlength,almostindespair,heunfoldedtheletters,andbegantoreadthem。
  Theseletters,too,werelikeadream。Wesometimeshavestrange,impossibledreams,contrarytoallthelawsofnature。Whenweawakewerememberthemandwonderattheirstrangeness。Youremember,perhaps,thatyouwereinfullpossessionofyourreasonduringthissuccessionoffantasticimages;eventhatyouactedwithextraordinarylogicandcunningwhilesurroundedbymurdererswhohidtheirintentionsandmadegreatdemonstrationsoffriendship,whilewaitingforanopportunitytocutyourthroat。Yourememberhowyouescapedthembysomeingeniousstratagem;thenyoudoubtediftheywerereallydeceived,orwhethertheywereonlypretendingnottoknowyourhiding-place;
  thenyouthoughtofanotherplanandhoodwinkedthemonceagain。
  Yourememberallthisquiteclearly,buthowisitthatyourreasoncalmlyacceptedallthemanifestabsurditiesandimpossibilitiesthatcrowdedintoyourdream?Oneofthemurdererssuddenlychangedintoawomanbeforeyourveryeyes;
  thenthewomanwastransformedintoahideous,cunninglittledwarf;andyoubelievedit,andaccepteditallalmostasamatterofcourse——whileatthesametimeyourintelligenceseemedunusuallykeen,andaccomplishedmiraclesofcunning,sagacity,andlogic!Whyisitthatwhenyouawaketotheworldofrealitiesyounearlyalwaysfeel,sometimesveryvividly,thatthevanisheddreamhascarriedwithitsomeenigmawhichyouhavefailedtosolve?Yousmileattheextravaganceofyourdream,andyetyoufeelthatthistissueofabsurditycontainedsomerealidea,somethingthatbelongstoyourtruelife,——somethingthatexists,andhasalwaysexisted,inyourheart。Yousearchyourdreamforsomeprophecythatyouwereexpecting。Ithasleftadeepimpressionuponyou,joyfulorcruel,butwhatitmeans,orwhathasbeenpredictedtoyouinit,youcanneitherunderstandnorremember。
  Thereadingoftheselettersproducedsomesucheffectupontheprince。Hefelt,beforeheevenopenedtheenvelopes,thattheveryfactoftheirexistencewaslikeanightmare。Howcouldsheeverhavemadeuphermindtowritetoher?heaskedhimself。Howcouldshewriteaboutthatatall?Andhowcouldsuchawildideahaveenteredherhead?Andyet,thestrangestpartofthematterwas,thatwhilehereadtheletters,hehimselfalmostbelievedinthepossibility,andeveninthejustification,oftheideahehadthoughtsowild。Ofcourseitwasamaddream,anightmare,andyettherewassomethingcruellyrealaboutit。Forhourshewashauntedbywhathehadread。Severalpassagesreturnedagainandagaintohismind,andashebroodedoverthem,hefeltinclinedtosaytohimselfthathehadforeseenandknownallthatwaswrittenhere;itevenseemedtohimthathehadreadthewholeofthissometimeorother,long,longago;andallthathadtormentedandgrievedhimuptonowwastobefoundintheseold,longsinceread,letters。
  "Whenyouopenthisletter"sothefirstbegan,"lookfirstatthesignature。Thesignaturewilltellyouall,sothatIneedexplainnothing,norattempttojustifymyself。WereIinanywayonafootingwithyou,youmightbeoffendedatmyaudacity;butwhoamI,andwhoareyou?Weareatsuchextremes,andIamsofarremovedfromyou,thatIcouldnotoffendyouifIwishedtodoso。"
  Fartheron,inanotherplace,shewrote:"Donotconsidermywordsasthesicklyecstasiesofadiseasedmind,butyouare,inmyopinion——perfection!Ihaveseenyou——Iseeyoueveryday。I
  donotjudgeyou;IhavenotweighedyouinthescalesofReasonandfoundyouPerfection——itissimplyanarticleoffaith。ButI
  mustconfessonesinagainstyou——Iloveyou。Oneshouldnotloveperfection。Oneshouldonlylookonitasperfection——yetIaminlovewithyou。Thoughloveequalizes,donotfear。Ihavenotloweredyoutomylevel,eveninmymostsecretthoughts。Ihavewritten’Donotfear,’asifyoucouldfear。IwouldkissyourfootprintsifIcould;but,oh!Iamnotputtingmyselfonalevelwithyou!——Lookatthesignature——quick,lookatthesignature!"
  "However,observe"shewroteinanotheroftheletters,"thatalthoughIcoupleyouwithhim,yetIhavenotonceaskedyouwhetheryoulovehim。Hefellinlovewithyou,thoughhesawyoubutonce。Hespokeofyouasof’thelight。’Thesearehisownwords——Iheardhimusethem。ButIunderstoodwithouthissayingitthatyouwereallthatlightistohim。Ilivednearhimforawholemonth,andIunderstoodthenthatyou,too,mustlovehim。
  Ithinkofyouandhimasone。"
  "Whatwasthematteryesterday?"shewroteonanothersheet。"I
  passedbyyou,andyouseemedtometoBLUSH。Perhapsitwasonlymyfancy。IfIweretobringyoutothemostloathsomeden,andshowyoutherevelationofundisguisedvice——youshouldnotblush。Youcanneverfeelthesenseofpersonalaffront。Youmayhateallwhoaremean,orbase,orunworthy——butnotforyourself——onlyforthosewhomtheywrong。NoonecanwrongYOU。
  Doyouknow,Ithinkyououghttoloveme——foryouarethesameinmyeyesasinhis-youareaslight。Anangelcannothate,perhapscannotlove,either。Ioftenaskmyself——isitpossibletoloveeverybody?Indeeditisnot;itisnotinnature。
  Abstractloveofhumanityisnearlyalwaysloveofself。Butyouaredifferent。Youcannothelplovingall,sinceyoucancomparewithnone,andareaboveallpersonaloffenceoranger。Oh!howbitteritwouldbetometoknowthatyoufeltangerorshameonmyaccount,forthatwouldbeyourfall——youwouldbecomecomparableatoncewithsuchasme。
  "Yesterday,afterseeingyou,Iwenthomeandthoughtoutapicture。
  "ArtistsalwaysdrawtheSaviourasanactorinoneoftheGospelstories。Ishoulddodifferently。IshouldrepresentChristalone——thedisciplesdidleaveHimaloneoccasionally。IshouldpaintonelittlechildleftwithHim。ThischildhasbeenplayingaboutnearHim,andhadprobablyjustbeentellingtheSavioursomethinginitsprettybabyprattle。Christhadlistenedtoit,butwasnowmusing——onehandreposingonthechild’sbrighthead。
  Hiseyeshaveafar-awayexpression。Thought,greatastheUniverse,isinthem——Hisfaceissad。ThelittleoneleansitselbowuponChrist’sknee,andwithitscheekrestingonitshand,gazesupatHim,ponderingaschildrensometimesdoponder。Thesunissetting。Thereyouhavemypicture。
  "Youareinnocent——andinyourinnocenceliesallyourperfection——oh,rememberthat!Whatismypassiontoyou?——youareminenow;Ishallbenearyouallmylife——Ishallnotlivelong!"
  Atlength,inthelastletterofall,hefound:
  "ForHeaven’ssake,don’tmisunderstandme!DonotthinkthatI
  humiliatemyselfbywritingthustoyou,orthatIbelongtothatclassofpeoplewhotakeasatisfactioninhumiliatingthemselves——frompride。Ihavemyconsolation,thoughitwouldbedifficulttoexplainit——butIdonothumiliatemyself。
  "WhydoIwishtouniteyoutwo?Foryoursakesormyown?Formyownsake,naturally。Alltheproblemsofmylifewouldthusbesolved;Ihavethoughtsoforalongtime。IknowthatoncewhenyoursisterAdelaidasawmyportraitshesaidthatsuchbeautycouldoverthrowtheworld。ButIhaverenouncedtheworld。YouthinkitstrangethatIshouldsayso,foryousawmedeckedwithlaceanddiamonds,inthecompanyofdrunkardsandwastrels。Takenonoticeofthat;IknowthatIhavealmostceasedtoexist。Godknowswhatitisdwellingwithinmenow——itisnotmyself。Icanseeiteverydayintwodreadfuleyeswhicharealwayslookingatme,evenwhennotpresent。Theseeyesaresilentnow,theysaynothing;butIknowtheirsecret。Hishouseisgloomy,andthereisasecretinit。Iamconvincedthatinsomeboxhehasarazorhidden,tiedroundwithsilk,justliketheonethatMoscowmurdererhad。Thismanalsolivedwithhismother,andhadarazorhiddenaway,tiedroundwithwhitesilk,andwiththisrazorheintendedtocutathroat。
  "AllthewhileIwasintheirhouseIfeltsurethatsomewherebeneaththefloortherewashiddenawaysomedreadfulcorpse,wrappedinoil-cloth,perhapsburiedtherebyhisfather,whoknows?JustasintheMoscowcase。Icouldhaveshownyoutheveryspot!
  "Heisalwayssilent,butIknowwellthathelovesmesomuchthathemusthateme。Myweddingandyoursaretobeonthesameday;soIhavearrangedwithhim。Ihavenosecretsfromhim。I
  wouldkillhimfromveryfright,buthewillkillmefirst。Hehasjustburstoutlaughing,andsaysthatIamraving。HeknowsIamwritingtoyou。"
  Therewasmuchmoreofthisdeliriouswanderingintheletters——
  oneofthemwasverylong。
  Atlasttheprincecameoutofthedark,gloomypark,inwhichhehadwanderedaboutforhoursjustasyesterday。Thebrightnightseemedtohimtobelighterthanever。"Itmustbequiteearly,"
  hethought。Hehadforgottenhiswatch。Therewasasoundofdistantmusicsomewhere。"Ah,"hethought,"theVauxhall!Theywon’tbetheretoday,ofcourse!"Atthismomenthenoticedthathewasclosetotheirhouse;hehadfeltthathemustgravitatetothisspoteventually,and,withabeatingheart,hemountedtheverandahsteps。
  Noonemethim;theverandahwasempty,andnearlypitchdark。Heopenedthedoorintotheroom,butit,too,wasdarkandempty。
  Hestoodinthemiddleoftheroominperplexity。Suddenlythedooropened,andincameAlexandra,candleinhand。Seeingtheprinceshestoppedbeforehiminsurprise,lookingathimquestioningly。
  Itwasclearthatshehadbeenmerelypassingthroughtheroomfromdoortodoor,andhadnothadtheremotestnotionthatshewouldmeetanyone。
  "Howdidyoucomehere?"sheasked,atlast。
  "I-I——camein——"
  "Mammaisnotverywell,norisAglaya。Adelaidahasgonetobed,andIamjustgoing。Wewerealonethewholeevening。FatherandPrinceS。havegonetotown。"
  "Ihavecometoyou——now——to——"
  "Doyouknowwhattimeitis?"
  "N——no!"
  "Half-pasttwelve。Wearealwaysinbedbyone。"
  "I-Ithoughtitwashalf-pastnine!"
  "Nevermind!"shelaughed,"butwhydidn’tyoucomeearlier?
  Perhapsyouwereexpected!"
  "Ithought"hestammered,makingforthedoor。
  "Aurevoir!Ishallamusethemallwiththisstorytomorrow!"
  Hewalkedalongtheroadtowardshisownhouse。Hisheartwasbeating,histhoughtswereconfused,everythingaroundseemedtobepartofadream。
  Andsuddenly,justastwicealreadyhehadawakedfromsleepwiththesamevision,thatveryapparitionnowseemedtoriseupbeforehim。Thewomanappearedtostepoutfromthepark,andstandinthepathinfrontofhim,asthoughshehadbeenwaitingforhimthere。
  Heshudderedandstopped;sheseizedhishandandpresseditfrenziedly。
  No,thiswasnoapparition!
  Thereshestoodatlast,facetofacewithhim,forthefirsttimesincetheirparting。
  Shesaidsomething,buthelookedsilentlybackather。Hisheartachedwithanguish。Oh!neverwouldhebanishtherecollectionofthismeetingwithher,andheneverremembereditbutwiththesamepainandagonyofmind。
  Shewentonherkneesbeforehim——thereintheopenroad——likeamadwoman。Heretreatedastep,butshecaughthishandandkissedit,and,justasinhisdream,thetearsweresparklingonherlong,beautifullashes。
  "Getup!"hesaid,inafrightenedwhisper,raisingher。"Getupatonce!"
  "Areyouhappy——areyouhappy?"sheasked。"Saythisoneword。
  Areyouhappynow?Today,thismoment?Haveyoujustbeenwithher?Whatdidshesay?"
  Shedidnotrisefromherknees;shewouldnotlistentohim;sheputherquestionshurriedly,asthoughshewerepursued。
  "Iamgoingawaytomorrow,asyoubademe——Iwon’twrite——sothatthisisthelasttimeIshallseeyou,thelasttime!ThisisreallytheLASTTIME!"
  "Oh,becalm——becalm!Getup!"heentreated,indespair。
  Shegazedthirstilyathimandclutchedhishands。
  "Good-bye!"shesaidatlast,androseandlefthim,veryquickly。
  TheprincenoticedthatRogojinhadsuddenlyappearedatherside,andhadtakenherarmandwasleadingheraway。
  "Waitaminute,prince,"shoutedthelatter,ashewent。"Ishallbebackinfiveminutes。"
  Hereappearedinfiveminutesashehadsaid。Theprincewaswaitingforhim。
  "I’veputherinthecarriage,"hesaid;"ithasbeenwaitingroundthecornertheresinceteno’clock。SheexpectedthatyouwouldbewithTHEMalltheevening。Itoldherexactlywhatyouwroteme。Shewon’twritetothegirlanymore,shepromises;andtomorrowshewillbeoff,asyouwish。Shedesiredtoseeyouforthelasttime,althoughyourefused,sowe’vebeensittingandwaitingonthatbenchtillyoushouldpassonyourwayhome。"
  "Didshebringyouwithherofherownaccord?"
  "Ofcourseshedid!"saidRogojin,showinghisteeth;"andIsawformyselfwhatIknewbefore。You’vereadherletters,I
  suppose?"
  "Didyoureadthem?"askedtheprince,struckbythethought。
  "Ofcourse——sheshowedthemtomeherself。Youarethinkingoftherazor,eh?Ha,ha,ha!"
  "Oh,sheismad!"criedtheprince,wringinghishands。"Whoknows?Perhapssheisnotsomadafterall,"saidRogojin,softly,asthoughthinkingaloud。
  Theprincemadenoreply。
  "Well,good-bye,"saidRogojin。"I’mofftomorrowtoo,youknow。
  Remembermekindly!By-the-by,"headded,turningroundsharplyagain,"didyouanswerherquestionjustnow?Areyouhappy,ornot?"
  "No,no,no!"criedtheprince,withunspeakablesadness。
  "Ha,ha!Ineversupposedyouwouldsay’yes,’"criedRogojin,laughingsardonically。
  Andhedisappeared,withoutlookingroundagain。
  PARTIV
  I。
  AWEEKhadelapsedsincetherendezvousofourtwofriendsonthegreenbenchinthepark,when,onefinemorningatabouthalf-
  pastteno’clock,VarvaraArdalionovna,otherwiseMrs。Ptitsin,whohadbeenouttovisitafriend,returnedhomeinastateofconsiderablementaldepression。
  Therearecertainpeopleofwhomitisdifficulttosayanythingwhichwillatoncethrowthemintorelief——inotherwords,describethemgraphicallyintheirtypicalcharacteristics。Thesearetheywhoaregenerallyknownas"commonplacepeople,"andthisclasscomprises,ofcourse,theimmensemajorityofmankind。
  Authors,asarule,attempttoselectandportraytypesrarelymetwithintheirentirety,butthesetypesareneverthelessmorerealthanreallifeitself。
  "Podkoleosin"[AcharacterinGogol’scomedy,TheWedding。]wasperhapsanexaggeration,buthewasbynomeansanon-existentcharacter;onthecontrary,howmanyintelligentpeople,afterhearingofthisPodkoleosinfromGogol,immediatelybegantofindthatscoresoftheirfriendswereexactlylikehim!Theyknew,perhaps,beforeGogoltoldthem,thattheirfriendswerelikePodkoleosin,buttheydidnotknowwhatnametogivethem。Inreallife,youngfellowsseldomjumpoutofthewindowjustbeforetheirweddings,becausesuchafeat,nottospeakofitsotheraspects,mustbeadecidedlyunpleasantmodeofescape;andyetthereareplentyofbridegrooms,intelligentfellowstoo,whowouldbereadytoconfessthemselvesPodkoleosinsinthedepthsoftheirconsciousness,justbeforemarriage。Nordoeseveryhusbandfeelboundtorepeatateverystep,"Tul’asvoulu,GeorgesDandin!"likeanothertypicalpersonage;andyethowmanymillionsandbillionsofGeorgesDandinsthereareinreallifewhofeelinclinedtoutterthissoul-drawncryaftertheirhoneymoon,ifnotthedayafterthewedding!Therefore,withoutenteringintoanymoreseriousexaminationofthequestion,I
  willcontentmyselfwithremarkingthatinreallifetypicalcharactersare"watereddown,"sotospeak;andalltheseDandinsandPodkoleosinsactuallyexistamonguseveryday,butinadilutedform。Iwilljustadd,however,thatGeorgesDandinmighthaveexistedexactlyasMolierepresentedhim,andprobablydoesexistnowandthen,thoughrarely;andsoIwillendthisscientificexamination,whichisbeginningtolooklikeanewspapercriticism。Butforallthis,thequestionremains,——
  whatarethenoveliststodowithcommonplacepeople,andhowaretheytobepresentedtothereaderinsuchaformastobeintheleastdegreeinteresting?Theycannotbeleftoutaltogether,forcommonplacepeoplemeetoneateveryturnoflife,andtoleavethemoutwouldbetodestroythewholerealityandprobabilityofthestory。Tofillanovelwithtypicalcharactersonly,orwithmerelystrangeanduncommonpeople,wouldrenderthebookunrealandimprobable,andwouldverylikelydestroytheinterest。Inmyopinion,thedutyofthenovelististoseekoutpointsofinterestandinstructioneveninthecharactersofcommonplacepeople。
  Forinstance,whenthewholeessenceofanordinaryperson’snatureliesinhisperpetualandunchangeablecommonplaceness;
  andwheninspiteofallhisendeavourstodosomethingoutofthecommon,thispersonends,eventually,byremaininginhisunbrokenlineofroutine。Ithinksuchanindividualreallydoesbecomeatypeofhisown——atypeofcommonplacenesswhichwillnotfortheworld,ifitcanhelpit,becontented,butstrainsandyearnstobesomethingoriginalandindependent,withouttheslightestpossibilityofbeingso。Tothisclassofcommonplacepeoplebelongseveralcharactersinthisnovel;——
  characterswhich——Iadmit——Ihavenotdrawnveryvividlyuptonowformyreader’sbenefit。
  Suchwere,forinstance,VarvaraArdalionovnaPtitsin,herhusband,andherbrother,Gania。
  Thereisnothingsoannoyingastobefairlyrich,ofafairlygoodfamily,pleasingpresence,averageeducation,tobe"notstupid,"kind-hearted,andyettohavenotalentatall,nooriginality,notasingleideaofone’sown——tobe,infact,"justlikeeveryoneelse。"
  Ofsuchpeopletherearecountlessnumbersinthisworld——farmoreeventhanappear。Theycanbedividedintotwoclassesasallmencan——thatis,thoseoflimitedintellect,andthosewhoaremuchcleverer。Theformeroftheseclassesisthehappier。
  Toacommonplacemanoflimitedintellect,forinstance,nothingissimplerthantoimaginehimselfanoriginalcharacter,andtorevelinthatbeliefwithouttheslightestmisgiving。
  Manyofouryoungwomenhavethoughtfittocuttheirhairshort,putonbluespectacles,andcallthemselvesNihilists。Bydoingthistheyhavebeenabletopersuadethemselves,withoutfurthertrouble,thattheyhaveacquirednewconvictionsoftheirown。
  Somemenhavebutfeltsomelittlequalmofkindnesstowardstheirfellow-men,andthefacthasbeenquiteenoughtopersuadethemthattheystandaloneinthevanofenlightenmentandthatnoonehassuchhumanitarianfeelingsasthey。Othershavebuttoreadanideaofsomebodyelse’s,andtheycanimmediatelyassimilateitandbelievethatitwasachildoftheirownbrain。
  The"impudenceofignorance,"ifImayusetheexpression,isdevelopedtoawonderfulextentinsuchcases;——unlikelyasitappears,itismetwithateveryturn。
  ThisconfidenceofastupidmaninhisowntalentshasbeenwonderfullydepictedbyGogolintheamazingcharacterofPirogoff。Pirogoffhasnottheslightestdoubtofhisowngenius,——nay,ofhisSUPERIORITYofgenius,——socertainisheofitthatheneverquestionsit。HowmanyPirogoffshavetherenotbeenamongourwriters——scholars——propagandists?Isay"havebeen,"butindeedthereareplentyofthematthisveryday。
  Ourfriend,Gania,belongedtotheotherclass——tothe"muchcleverer"persons,thoughhewasfromheadtofootpermeatedandsaturatedwiththelongingtobeoriginal。Thisclass,asIhavesaidabove,isfarlesshappy。Forthe"clevercommonplace"
  person,thoughhemaypossiblyimaginehimselfamanofgeniusandoriginality,nonethelesshaswithinhisheartthedeathlesswormofsuspicionanddoubt;andthisdoubtsometimesbringsaclevermantodespair。Asarule,however,nothingtragichappens;——hisliverbecomesalittledamagedinthecourseoftime,nothingmoreserious。Suchmendonotgiveuptheiraspirationsafteroriginalitywithoutaseverestruggle,——andtherehavebeenmenwho,thoughgoodfellowsinthemselves,andevenbenefactorstohumanity,havesunktothelevelofbasecriminalsforthesakeoforiginality。
  Ganiawasabeginner,asitwere,uponthisroad。Adeepandunchangeableconsciousnessofhisownlackoftalent,combinedwithavastlongingtobeabletopersuadehimselfthathewasoriginal,hadrankledinhisheart,evenfromchildhood。
  Heseemedtohavebeenbornwithoverwroughtnerves,andinhispassionatedesiretoexcel,hewasoftenledtothebrinkofsomerashstep;andyet,havingresolveduponsuchastep,whenthemomentarrived,heinvariablyprovedtoosensibletotakeit。Hewasready,inthesameway,todoabaseactioninordertoobtainhiswished-forobject;andyet,whenthemomentcametodoit,hefoundthathewastoohonestforanygreatbaseness。Notthatheobjectedtoactsofpettymeanness——hewasalwaysreadyforTHEM。Helookedwithhateandloathingonthepovertyanddownfallofhisfamily,andtreatedhismotherwithhaughtycontempt,althoughheknewthathiswholefuturedependedonhercharacterandreputation。
  Aglayahadsimplyfrightenedhim;yethedidnotgiveupallthoughtsofher——thoughheneverseriouslyhopedthatshewouldcondescendtohim。Atthetimeofhis"adventure"withNastasiaPhilipovnahehadcometotheconclusionthatmoneywashisonlyhope——moneyshoulddoallforhim。
  AtthemomentwhenhelostAglaya,andafterthescenewithNastasia,hehadfeltsolowinhisowneyesthatheactuallybroughtthemoneybacktotheprince。Ofthisreturningofthemoneygiventohimbyamadwomanwhohadreceiveditfromamadman,hehadoftenrepentedsince——thoughheneverceasedtobeproudofhisaction。DuringtheshorttimethatMuishkinremainedinPetersburgGaniahadhadtimetocometohatehimforhissympathy,thoughtheprincetoldhimthatitwas"noteveryonewhowouldhaveactedsonobly"astoreturnthemoney。Hehadlongpondered,too,overhisrelationswithAglaya,andhadpersuadedhimselfthatwithsuchastrange,childish,innocentcharacterashers,thingsmighthaveendedverydifferently。
  Remorsethenseizedhim;hethrewuphispost,andburiedhimselfinself-tormentandreproach。
  HelivedatPtitsin’s,andopenlyshowedcontemptforthelatter,thoughhealwayslistenedtohisadvice,andwassensibleenoughtoaskforitwhenhewantedit。GavrilaArdalionovitchwasangrywithPtitsinbecausethelatterdidnotcaretobecomeaRothschild。"IfyouaretobeaJew,"hesaid,"doitproperly——
  squeezepeoplerightandleft,showsomecharacter;betheKingoftheJewswhileyouareaboutit。"
  Ptitsinwasquietandnoteasilyoffended——heonlylaughed。ButononeoccasionheexplainedseriouslytoGaniathathewasnoJew,thathedidnothingdishonest,thathecouldnothelpthemarketpriceofmoney,that,thankstohisaccuratehabits,hehadalreadyagoodfootingandwasrespected,andthathisbusinesswasflourishing。
  "Ishan’teverbeaRothschild,andthereisnoreasonwhyI
  should,"headded,smiling;"butIshallhaveahouseintheLiteynaya,perhapstwo,andthatwillbeenoughforme。""WhoknowsbutwhatImayhavethree!"heconcludedtohimself;butthisdream,cherishedinwardly,heneverconfidedtoasoul。
  Naturelovesandfavourssuchpeople。Ptitsinwillcertainlyhavehisreward,notthreehouses,butfour,preciselybecausefromchildhooduphehadrealizedthathewouldneverbeaRothschild。
  ThatwillbethelimitofPtitsin’sfortune,and,comewhatmay,hewillneverhavemorethanfourhouses。
  VarvaraArdalionovnawasnotlikeherbrother。Shetoo,hadpassionatedesires,buttheywerepersistentratherthanimpetuous。Herplanswereaswiseashermethodsofcarryingthemout。Nodoubtshealsobelongedtothecategoryofordinarypeoplewhodreamofbeingoriginal,butshesoondiscoveredthatshehadnotagrainoftrueoriginality,andshedidnotletittroublehertoomuch。Perhapsacertainkindofpridecametoherhelp。ShemadeherfirstconcessiontothedemandsofpracticallifewithgreatresolutionwhensheconsentedtomarryPtitsin。
  However,whenshemarriedshedidnotsaytoherself,"Nevermindameanactionifitleadstotheendinview,"asherbrotherwouldcertainlyhavesaidinsuchacase;itisquiteprobablethathemayhavesaiditwhenheexpressedhiselder-brotherlysatisfactionatherdecision。Farfromthis;VarvaraArdalionovnadidnotmarryuntilshefeltconvincedthatherfuturehusbandwasunassuming,agreeable,almostcultured,andthatnothingonearthwouldtempthimtoareallydishonourabledeed。Astosmallmeannesses,suchtriflesdidnottroubleher。Indeed,whoisfreefromthem?Itisabsurdtoexpecttheideal!Besides,sheknewthathermarriagewouldprovidearefugeforallherfamily。
  SeeingGaniaunhappy,shewasanxioustohelphim,inspiteoftheirformerdisputesandmisunderstandings。Ptitsin,inafriendlyway,wouldpresshisbrother-in-lawtoenterthearmy。
  "Youknow,"hesaidsometimes,jokingly,"youdespisegeneralsandgeneraldom,butyouwillseethat’they’willallendbybeinggeneralsintheirturn。Youwillseeitifyoulivelongenough!"
  "ButwhyshouldtheysupposethatIdespisegenerals?"Ganiathoughtsarcasticallytohimself。
  Toserveherbrother’sinterests,VarvaraArdalionovnawasconstantlyattheEpanchins’house,helpedbythefactthatinchildhoodsheandGaniahadplayedwithGeneralIvanFedorovitch’sdaughters。Itwouldhavebeeninconsistentwithhercharacterifinthesevisitsshehadbeenpursuingachimera;herprojectwasnotchimericalatall;shewasbuildingonafirmbasis——onherknowledgeofthecharacteroftheEpanchinfamily,especiallyAglaya,whomshestudiedclosely。AllVarvara’seffortsweredirectedtowardsbringingAglayaandGaniatogether。
  Perhapssheachievedsomeresult;perhaps,also,shemadethemistakeofdependingtoomuchuponherbrother,andexpectingmorefromhimthanhewouldeverbecapableofgiving。Howeverthismaybe,hermanoeuvreswereskilfulenough。ForweeksatatimeshewouldnevermentionGania。Herattitudewasmodestbutdignified,andshewasalwaysextremelytruthfulandsincere。
  Examiningthedepthsofherconscience,shefoundnothingtoreproachherselfwith,andthisstillfurtherstrengthenedherinherdesigns。ButVarvaraArdalionovnasometimesremarkedthatshefeltspiteful;thattherewasagooddealofvanityinher,perhapsevenofwoundedvanity。Shenoticedthisatcertaintimesmorethanatothers,andespeciallyafterhervisitstotheEpanchins。
  Today,asIhavesaid,shereturnedfromtheirhousewithaheavyfeelingofdejection。Therewasasensationofbitterness,asortofmockingcontempt,mingledwithit。
  Arrivedatherownhouse,Variaheardaconsiderablecommotiongoingonintheupperstorey,anddistinguishedthevoicesofherfatherandbrother。OnenteringthesalonshefoundGaniapacingupanddownatfranticspeed,palewithrageandalmosttearinghishair。Shefrowned,andsubsidedontothesofawithatiredair,andwithouttakingthetroubletoremoveherhat。Sheverywellknewthatifshekeptquietandaskedherbrothernothingabouthisreasonfortearingupanddowntheroom,hiswrathwouldfalluponherhead。Soshehastenedtoputthequestion:
  "Theoldstory,eh?"
  "Oldstory?No!Heavenknowswhat’supnow——Idon’t!Fatherhassimplygonemad;mother’sinfloodsoftears。Uponmyword,Varia,Imustkickhimoutofthehouse;orelsegomyself,"headded,probablyrememberingthathecouldnotwellturnpeopleoutofahousewhichwasnothisown。
  "Youmustmakeallowances,"murmuredVaria。
  "Makeallowances?Forwhom?Him——theoldblackguard?No,no,Varia——thatwon’tdo!Itwon’tdo,Itellyou!Andlookattheswaggeroftheman!He’salltoblamehimself,andyetheputsonsomuch’side’thatyou’dthink——myword!——’It’stoomuchtroubletogothroughthegate,youmustbreakthefenceforme!’
  That’sthesortofairheputson;butwhat’sthematterwithyou,Varia?Whatacuriousexpressionyouhave!"
  "I’mallright,"saidVaria,inatonethatsoundedasthoughshewereallwrong。
  Ganialookedmoreintentlyather。
  "You’vebeenTHERE?"heasked,suddenly。
  "Yes。"
  "Didyoufindoutanything?"
  "Nothingunexpected。Idiscoveredthatit’salltrue。Myhusbandwaswiserthaneitherofus。Justashesuspectedfromthebeginning,soithasfallenout。Whereishe?"
  "Out。Well——whathashappened?——goon。"
  "Theprinceisformallyengagedtoher——that’ssettled。Theeldersisterstoldmeaboutit。Aglayahasagreed。Theydon’tattempttoconcealitanylonger;youknowhowmysteriousandsecrettheyhaveallbeenuptonow。Adelaida’sweddingisputoffagain,sothatbothcanbemarriedononeday。Isn’tthatdelightfullyromantic?Somebodyoughttowriteapoemonit。Sitdownandwriteanodeinsteadoftearingupanddownlikethat。ThiseveningPrincessBielokonskiistoarrive;shecomesjustintime——theyhaveapartytonight。HeistobepresentedtooldBielokonski,thoughIbelieveheknowsheralready;probablytheengagementwillbeopenlyannounced。Theyareonlyafraidthathemayknocksomethingdown,ortripoversomethingwhenhecomesintotheroom。Itwouldbejustlikehim。"
  Ganialistenedattentively,buttohissister’sastonishmenthewasbynomeanssoimpressedbythisnewswhichshould,shethought,havebeensoimportanttohimasshehadexpected。
  "Well,itwasclearenoughallalong,"hesaid,afteramoment’sreflection。"Sothat’stheend,"headded,withadisagreeablesmile,continuingtowalkupanddowntheroom,butmuchslowerthanbefore,andglancingslylyintohissister’sface。
  "It’sagoodthingthatyoutakeitphilosophically,atallevents,"saidVaria。"I’mreallyverygladofit。"
  "Yes,it’soffourhands——offYOURS,Ishouldsay。"
  "IthinkIhaveservedyoufaithfully。IneverevenaskedyouwhathappinessyouexpectedtofindwithAglaya。"
  "DidIeverexpecttofindhappinesswithAglaya?"
  "Come,come,don’toverdoyourphilosophy。Ofcourseyoudid。Nowit’sallover,andagoodthing,too;pairoffoolsthatwehavebeen!IconfessIhaveneverbeenabletolookatitseriously。I
  busiedmyselfinitforyoursake,thinkingthattherewasnoknowingwhatmighthappenwithafunnygirllikethattodealwith。Therewereninetytoonechancesagainstit。TothismomentIcan’tmakeoutwhyyouwishedforit。"
  "H’m!now,Isuppose,youandyourhusbandwillneverwearyofeggingmeontoworkagain。You’llbeginyourlecturesaboutperseveranceandstrengthofwill,andallthat。Iknowitallbyheart,"saidGania,laughing。
  "He’sgotsomenewideainhishead,"thoughtVaria。"Aretheypleasedoverthere——theparents?"askedGania,suddenly。
  "N——no,Idon’tthinktheyare。Youcanjudgeforyourself。I
  thinkthegeneralispleasedenough;hermotherisalittleuneasy。ShealwaysloathedtheideaoftheprinceasaHUSBAND;
  everybodyknowsthat。"
  "Ofcourse,naturally。Thebridegroomisanimpossibleandridiculousone。Imean,hasSHEgivenherformalconsent?"
  "Shehasnotsaid’no,’uptonow,andthat’sall。Itwassuretobesowithher。Youknowwhatsheislike。Youknowhowabsurdlyshysheis。Yourememberhowsheusedtohideinacupboardasachild,soastoavoidseeingvisitors,forhoursatatime。Sheisjustthesamenow;but,doyouknow,Ithinkthereissomethingseriousinthematter,evenfromherside;Ifeelit,somehow。Shelaughsattheprince,theysay,frommorntonightinordertohideherrealfeelings;butyoumaybesureshefindsoccasiontosaysomethingorothertohimonthesly,forhehimselfisinastateofradianthappiness。Hewalksintheclouds;theysayheisextremelyfunnyjustnow;Ihearditfromthemselves。Theyseemedtobelaughingatmeintheirsleeves——
  thoseeldergirls——Idon’tknowwhy。"
  Ganiahadbeguntofrown,andprobablyVariaaddedthislastsentenceinordertoprobehisthought。However,atthismoment,thenoisebeganagainupstairs。
  "I’llturnhimout!"shoutedGania,gladoftheopportunityofventinghisvexation。"Ishalljustturnhimout——wecan’thavethis。"
  "Yes,andthenhe’llgoabouttheplaceanddisgraceusashedidyesterday。"
  "How’ashedidyesterday’?Whatdoyoumean?Whatdidhedoyesterday?"askedGania,inalarm。
  "Why,goodnessme,don’tyouknow?"Variastoppedshort。
  "What?Youdon’tmeantosaythathewentthereyesterday!"criedGania,flushingredwithshameandanger。"Goodheavens,Varia!
  Speak!Youhavejustbeenthere。WAShethereornot,QUICK?"AndGaniarushedforthedoor。Variafollowedandcaughthimbybothhands。
  "Whatareyoudoing?Whereareyougoingto?Youcan’tlethimgonow;ifyoudohe’llgoanddosomethingworse。"
  "Whatdidhedothere?Whatdidhesay?""Theycouldn’ttellmethemselves;theycouldn’tmakeheadortailofit;buthefrightenedthemall。Hecametoseethegeneral,whowasnotathome;soheaskedforLizabethaProkofievna。Firstofall,hebeggedherforsomeplace,orsituation,forworkofsomekind,andthenhebegantocomplainaboutUS,aboutmeandmyhusband,andyou,especiallyYOU;hesaidalotofthings。"
  "Oh!couldn’tyoufindout?"mutteredGania,tremblinghysterically。
  "No——nothingmorethanthat。Why,theycouldn’tunderstandhimthemselves;andverylikelydidn’ttellmeall。"
  Ganiaseizedhisheadwithbothhandsandtotteredtothewindow;
  Variasatdownattheotherwindow。
  "Funnygirl,Aglaya,"sheobserved,afterapause。"Whensheleftmeshesaid,’Givemyspecialandpersonalrespectstoyourparents;Ishallcertainlyfindanopportunitytoseeyourfatheroneday,’andsoseriousoverit。She’sastrangecreature。"
  "Wasn’tshejoking?Shewasspeakingsarcastically!""Notabitofit;that’sjustthestrangepartofit。"
  "Doessheknowaboutfather,doyouthink——ornot?"
  "ThattheydoNOTknowaboutitinthehouseisquitecertain,therestofthem,Imean;butyouhavegivenmeanidea。Aglayaperhapsknows。Shealone,though,ifanyone;forthesisterswereasastonishedasIwastohearherspeaksoseriously。Ifsheknows,theprincemusthavetoldher。"
  "Oh!it’snotagreatmattertoguesswhotoldher。Athief!A
  thiefinourfamily,andtheheadofthefamily,too!"
  "Oh!nonsense!"criedVaria,angrily。"Thatwasnothingbutadrunkard’stale。Nonsense!Why,whoinventedthewholething