TheprincegazedaffectionatelyatColia,who,ofcourse,hadcomeinsolelyforthepurposeoftalkingaboutthis"giganticthought。"
"Butitisnotanyoneparticularthought,only;itisthegeneralcircumstancesofthecase。IfVoltairehadwrittenthisnow,orRousseau,Ishouldhavejustreaditandthoughtitremarkable,butshouldnothavebeensoIMPRESSEDbyit。Butamanwhoknowsforcertainthathehasbuttenminutestoliveandcantalklikethat——why——it’s——it’sPRIDE,thatis!Itisreallyamostextraordinary,exaltedassertionofpersonaldignity,it’s——it’sDEFIANT!WhataGIGANTICstrengthofwill,eh?Andtoaccuseafellowlikethatofnotputtinginthecaponpurpose;
it’sbaseandmean!Youknowhedeceiveduslastnight,thecunningrascal。Ineverpackedhisbagforhim,andIneversawhispistol。Hepackedithimself。Butheputmeoffmyguardlikethat,yousee。Verasaysyouaregoingtolethimstayon;I
swearthere’snodanger,especiallyaswearealwayswithhim。"
"Whowasbyhimatnight?"
"I,andBurdovsky,andKostiaLebedeff。Kellerstayedalittlewhile,andthenwentovertoLebedeff’stosleep。FerdishenkosleptatLebedeff’s,too;buthewentawayatseveno’clock。MyfatherisalwaysatLebedeff’s;buthehasgoneoutjustnow。I
daresayLebedeffwillbecominginheredirectly;hehasbeenlookingforyou;Idon’tknowwhathewants。Shallwelethiminornot,ifyouareasleep?I’mgoingtohaveanap,too。By-the-
by,suchacuriousthinghappened。Burdovskywokemeatseven,andImetmyfatherjustoutsidetheroom,sodrunk,hedidn’tevenknowme。Hestoodbeforemelikealog,andwhenherecoveredhimself,askedhurriedlyhowHippolytewas。’Yes,’hesaid,whenItoldhim,’that’sallverywell,butIREALLYcametowarnyouthatyoumustbeverycarefulwhatyousaybeforeFerdishenko。’Doyoufollowme,prince?"
"Yes。Isitreallyso?However,it’sallthesametous,ofcourse。"
"Ofcourseitis;wearenotasecretsociety;andthatbeingthecase,itisallthemorecuriousthatthegeneralshouldhavebeenonhiswaytowakemeupinordertotellmethis。"
"Ferdishenkohasgone,yousay?"
"Yes,hewentatseveno’clock。Hecameintotheroomonhiswayout;Iwaswatchingjustthen。Hesaidhewasgoingtospend’therestofthenight’atWilkin’s;there’satipsyfellow,afriendofhis,ofthatname。Well,I’moff。Oh,here’sLebedeffhimself!
Theprincewantstogotosleep,LukianTimofeyovitch,soyoumayjustgoawayagain。"
"Onemoment,mydearprince,justone。Imustabsolutelyspeaktoyouaboutsomethingwhichismostgrave,"saidLebedeff,mysteriouslyandsolemnly,enteringtheroomwithabowandlookingextremelyimportant。Hehadbutjustreturned,andcarriedhishatinhishand。Helookedpreoccupiedandmostunusuallydignified。
Theprincebeggedhimtotakeachair。
"Ihearyouhavecalledtwice;Isupposeyouarestillworriedaboutyesterday’saffair。"
"What,aboutthatboy,youmean?Ohdearno,yesterdaymyideaswerealittle——well——mixed。Today,Iassureyou,Ishallnotopposeintheslightestdegreeanysuggestionsitmaypleaseyoutomake。"
"What’supwithyouthismorning,Lebedeff?Youlooksoimportantanddignified,andyouchooseyourwordssocarefully,"saidtheprince,smiling。
"NicolaiArdalionovitch!"saidLebedeff,inamostamiabletoneofvoice,addressingtheboy。"AsIhaveacommunicationtomaketotheprincewhichconcernsonlymyself——"
"Ofcourse,ofcourse,notmyaffair。Allright,"saidColia,andawayhewent。
"Ilovethatboyforhisperception,"saidLebedeff,lookingafterhim。"Mydearprince,"hecontinued,"Ihavehadaterriblemisfortune,eitherlastnightorearlythismorning。Icannottelltheexacttime。"
"Whatisit?"
"Ihavelostfourhundredroublesoutofmysidepocket!They’regone!"saidLebedeff,withasoursmile。
"You’velostfourhundredroubles?Oh!I’msorryforthat。"
"Yes,itisseriousforapoormanwholivesbyhistoil。"
"Ofcourse,ofcourse!Howwasit?"
"Oh,thewineistoblame,ofcourse。Iconfesstoyou,prince,asIwouldtoProvidenceitself。YesterdayIreceivedfourhundredroublesfromadebtorataboutfiveintheafternoon,andcamedownherebytrain。Ihadmypurseinmypocket。WhenI
changed,Iputthemoneyintothepocketofmyplainclothes,intendingtokeepitbyme,asIexpectedtohaveanapplicantforitintheevening。"
"It’struethen,Lebedeff,thatyouadvertisetolendmoneyongoldorsilverarticles?"
"Yes,throughanagent。Myownnamedoesn’tappear。Ihavealargefamily,yousee,andatasmallpercentage——"
"Quiteso,quiteso。Ionlyaskedforinformation——excusethequestion。Goon。"
"Well,meanwhilethatsickboywasbroughthere,andthoseguestscamein,andwehadtea,and——well,wemademerry——tomyruin!
Hearingofyourbirthdayafterwards,andexcitedwiththecircumstancesoftheevening,Iranupstairsandchangedmyplainclothesoncemoreformyuniform[CivilServiceclerksinRussiawearuniform。]——youmusthavenoticedIhadmyuniformonalltheevening?Well,Iforgotthemoneyinthepocketofmyoldcoat——
youknowwhenGodwillruinamanhefirstofallbereaveshimofhissenses——anditwasonlythismorningathalf-pastseventhatIwokeupandgrabbedatmycoatpocket,firstthing。Thepocketwasempty——thepursegone,andnotatracetobefound!"
"Dearme!Thisisveryunpleasant!"
"Unpleasant!Indeeditis。Youhavefoundaveryappropriateexpression,"saidLebedeff,politely,butwithsarcasm。
"Butwhat’stobedone?It’saseriousmatter,"saidtheprince,thoughtfully。"Don’tyouthinkyoumayhavedroppeditoutofyourpocketwhilstintoxicated?"
"Certainly。Anythingispossiblewhenoneisintoxicated,asyouneatlyexpressit,prince。Butconsider——ifI,intoxicatedornot,droppedanobjectoutofmypocketontotheground,thatobjectoughttoremainontheground。Whereistheobject,then?"
"Didn’tyouputitawayinsomedrawer,perhaps?"
"I’velookedeverywhere,andturnedouteverything。"
"Iconfessthisdisturbsmeagooddeal。Someonemusthavepickeditup,then。"
"Ortakenitoutofmypocket——twoalternatives。"
"Itisverydistressing,becauseWHO——?That’sthequestion!"
"Mostundoubtedly,excellentprince,youhavehitit——thatistheveryquestion。Howwonderfullyyouexpresstheexactsituationinafewwords!"
"Come,come,Lebedeff,nosarcasm!It’saserious——"
"Sarcasm!"criedLebedeff,wringinghishands。
"Allright,allright,I’mnotangry。I’monlyputoutaboutthis。Whomdoyoususpect?"
"Thatisaverydifficultandcomplicatedquestion。Icannotsuspecttheservant,forshewasinthekitchenthewholeevening,nordoIsuspectanyofmychildren。"
"Ishouldthinknot。Goon。"
"Thenitmustbeoneoftheguests。"
"Issuchathingpossible?"
"Absolutelyandutterlyimpossible——andyet,soitmustbe。ButonethingIamsureof,ifitbeatheft,itwascommitted,notintheeveningwhenwewerealltogether,buteitheratnightorearlyinthemorning;therefore,byoneofthosewhoslepthere。
BurdovskyandColiaIexcept,ofcourse。Theydidnotevencomeintomyroom。"
"Yes,oreveniftheyhad!Butwhodidsleepwithyou?""Fourofus,includingmyself,intworooms。Thegeneral,myself,Keller,andFerdishenko。Oneofusfouritmusthavebeen。Idon’tsuspectmyself,thoughsuchcaseshavebeenknown。"
"Oh!DOgoon,Lebedeff!Don’tdragitoutso。"
"Well,therearethreeleft,then——Kellerfirstly。Heisadrunkardtobeginwith,andaliberalinthesenseofotherpeople’spockets,otherwisewithmoreoftheancientknightabouthimthanofthemodernliberal。Hewaswiththesickmanatfirst,butcameoverafterwardsbecausetherewasnoplacetoliedownintheroomandthefloorwassohard。"
"Yoususpecthim?"
"IDIDsuspecthim。WhenIwokeupathalf-pastsevenandtoremyhairindespairformylossandcarelessness,Iawokethegeneral,whowassleepingthesleepofinnocencenearme。TakingintoconsiderationthesuddendisappearanceofFerdishenko,whichwassuspiciousinitself,wedecidedtosearchKeller,whowaslyingtheresleepinglikeatop。Well,wesearchedhisclothesthoroughly,andnotafarthingdidwefind;infact,hispocketsallhadholesinthem。Wefoundadirtyhandkerchief,andalove-
letterfromsomescullery-maid。Thegeneraldecidedthathewasinnocent。Weawokehimforfurtherinquiries,andhadthegreatestdifficultyinmakinghimunderstandwhatwasup。Heopenedhismouthandstared——helookedsostupidandsoabsurdlyinnocent。Itwasn’tKeller。"
"Oh,I’msoglad!"saidtheprince,joyfully。"Iwassoafraid。"
"Afraid!Thenyouhadsomegroundsforsupposinghemightbetheculprit?"saidLebedeff,frowning。
"Ohno——notabit!ItwasfoolishofmetosayIwasafraid!
Don’trepeatitplease,Lebedeff,don’ttellanyoneIsaidthat!"
"Mydearprince!yourwordslieinthelowestdepthofmyheart——
itistheirtomb!"saidLebedeff,solemnly,pressinghishattotheregionofhisheart。
"Thanks;verywell。ThenIsupposeit’sFerdishenko;thatis,I
mean,yoususpectFerdishenko?"
"Whomelse?"saidLebedeff,softly,gazingintentlyintotheprincesface。
"Ofcourse——quiteso,whomelse?Butwhataretheproofs?"
"Wehaveevidence。Inthefirstplace,hismysteriousdisappearanceatseveno’clock,orevenearlier。"
"Iknow,Coliatoldmethathehadsaidhewasoffto——Iforgetthename,somefriendofhis,tofinishthenight。"
"H’m!thenColiahasspokentoyoualready?"
"Notaboutthetheft。"
"Hedoesnotknowofit;Ihavekeptitasecret。Verywell,FerdishenkowentofftoWilkin’s。Thatisnotsocuriousinitself,butheretheevidenceopensoutfurther。Helefthisaddress,yousee,whenhewent。Nowprince,consider,whydidheleavehisaddress?WhydoyousupposehewentoutofhiswaytotellColiathathehadgonetoWilkin’s?WhocaredtoknowthathewasgoingtoWilkin’s?No,no!prince,thisisfinesse,thieves’finesse!Thisisasgoodassaying,’There,howcanIbeathiefwhenIleavemyaddress?I’mnotconcealingmymovementsasathiefwould。’Doyouunderstand,prince?"
"Ohyes,butthatisnotenough。"
"Secondproof。Thescentturnsouttobefalse,andtheaddressgivenisasham。Anhourafter——thatisatabouteight,IwenttoWilkin’smyself,andtherewasnotraceofFerdishenko。Themaiddidtellme,certainly,thatanhourorsosincesomeonehadbeenhammeringatthedoor,andhadsmashedthebell;shesaidshewouldnotopenthedoorbecauseshedidn’twanttowakehermaster;probablyshewastoolazytogetupherself。Suchphenomenaaremetwithoccasionally!"
"Butisthatallyourevidence?Itisnotenough!"
"Well,prince,whomarewetosuspect,then?Consider!"saidLebedeffwithalmostservileamiability,smilingattheprince。
Therewasalookofcunninginhiseyes,however。
"Youshouldsearchyourroomandallthecupboardsagain,"saidtheprince,afteramomentortwoofsilentreflection。
"ButIhavedoneso,mydearprince!"saidLebedeff,moresweetlythanever。
"H’m!whymustyouneedsgoupandchangeyourcoatlikethat?"
askedtheprince,bangingthetablewithhisfist,inannoyance。
"Oh,don’tbesoworriedonmyaccount,prince!IassureyouIamnotworthit!Atleast,notIalone。ButIseeyouaresufferingonbehalfofthecriminaltoo,forwretchedFerdishenko,infact!"
"Ofcourseyouhavegivenmeadisagreeableenoughthingtothinkabout,"saidtheprince,irritably,"butwhatareyougoingtodo,sinceyouaresosureitwasFerdishenko?"
"ButwhoelseCOULDitbe,myverydearprince?"repeatedLebedeff,assweetassugaragain。"Ifyoudon’twishmetosuspectMr。Burdovsky?"
"Ofcoursenot。"
"Northegeneral?Ha,ha,ha!"
"Nonsense!"saidtheprince,angrily,turningrounduponhim。
"Quiteso,nonsense!Ha,ha,ha!dearme!Hedidamuseme,didthegeneral!WewentoffonthehotscenttoWilkin’stogether,youknow;butImustfirstobservethatthegeneralwasevenmorethunderstruckthanImyselfthismorning,whenIawokehimafterdiscoveringthetheft;somuchsothathisveryfacechanged——hegrewredandthenpale,andatlengthflewintoaparoxysmofsuchnoblewraththatIassureyouIwasquitesurprised!Heisamostgenerous-heartedman!Hetellsliesbythethousands,I
know,butitismerelyaweakness;heisamanofthehighestfeelings;asimple-mindedmantoo,andamanwhocarriestheconvictionofinnocenceinhisveryappearance。Ilovethatman,sir;Imayhavetoldyousobefore;itisaweaknessofmine。
Well——hesuddenlystoppedinthemiddleoftheroad,openedouthiscoatandbaredhisbreast。"Searchme,"hesays,"yousearchedKeller;whydon’tyousearchmetoo?Itisonlyfair!"
sayshe。Andallthewhilehislegsandhandsweretremblingwithanger,andheaswhiteasasheetallover!SoIsaidtohim,"Nonsense,general;ifanybodybutyourselfhadsaidthattome,I’dhavetakenmyhead,myownhead,andputitonalargedishandcarrieditroundtoanyonewhosuspectedyou;andIshouldhavesaid:’There,youseethathead?It’smyhead,andI’llgobailwiththatheadforhim!Yes,andwalkthroughthefireforhim,too。There,’saysI,’that’showI’danswerforyou,general!’Thenheembracedme,inthemiddleofthestreet,andhuggedmesotightcryingovermeallthewhilethatIcoughedfittochoke!’Youaretheonefriendlefttomeamidallmymisfortunes,’sayshe。Oh,he’samanofsentiment,that!Hewentontotellmeastoryofhowhehadbeenaccused,orsuspected,ofstealingfivehundredthousandroublesonce,asayoungman;
andhow,theverynextday,hehadrushedintoaburning,blazinghouseandsavedtheverycountwhosuspectedhim,andNinaAlexandrovnawhowasthenayounggirl,fromafierydeath。Thecountembracedhim,andthatwashowhecametomarryNinaAlexandrovna,hesaid。Asforthemoney,itwasfoundamongtheruinsnextdayinanEnglishironboxwithasecretlock;ithadgotunderthefloorsomehow,andifithadnotbeenforthefireitwouldneverhavebeenfound!Thewholethingis,ofcourse,anabsolutefabrication,thoughwhenhespokeofNinaAlexandrovnahewept!She’sagrandwoman,isNinaAlexandrovna,thoughsheisveryangrywithme!"
"Areyouacquaintedwithher?"
"Well,hardlyatall。IwishIwere,ifonlyforthesakeofjustifyingmyselfinhereyes。NinaAlexandrovnahasagrudgeagainstmefor,asshethinks,encouragingherhusbandindrinking;whereasinrealityInotonlydonotencouragehim,butIactuallykeephimoutofharm’sway,andoutofbadcompany。
Besides,he’smyfriend,prince,sothatIshallnotlosesightofhim,again。Wherehegoes,Igo。He’squitegivenupvisitingthecaptain’swidow,thoughsometimeshethinkssadlyofher,especiallyinthemorning,whenhe’sputtingonhisboots。I
don’tknowwhyit’satthattime。Buthehasnomoney,andit’snousehisgoingtoseeherwithout。Hasheborrowedanymoneyfromyou,prince?"
"No,hehasnot。"
"Ah,he’sashamedto!HeMEANTtoaskyou,Iknow,forhesaidso。Isupposehethinksthatasyougavehimsomeonceyouremember,youwouldprobablyrefuseifheaskedyouagain。"
"Doyouevergivehimmoney?"
"Prince!Money!WhyIwouldgivethatmannotonlymymoney,butmyverylife,ifhewantedit。Well,perhapsthat’sexaggeration;
notlife,we’llsay,butsomeillness,aboilorabadcough,oranythingofthatsort,Iwouldstandwithpleasure,forhissake;
forIconsiderhimagreatmanfallen——money,indeed!"
"H’m,thenyouDOgivehimmoney?"
"N-no,Ihavenevergivenhimmoney,andheknowswellthatI
willnevergivehimany;becauseIamanxioustokeephimoutofintemperateways。Heisgoingtotownwithmenow;foryoumustknowIamofftoPetersburgafterFerdishenko,whilethescentishot;I’mcertainheisthere。Ishallletthegeneralgooneway,whileIgotheother;wehavesoarrangedmattersinordertopopoutuponFerdishenko,yousee,fromdifferentsides。ButIamgoingtofollowthatnaughtyoldgeneralandcatchhim,Iknowwhere,atacertainwidow’shouse;forIthinkitwillbeagoodlesson,toputhimtoshamebycatchinghimwiththewidow。"
"Oh,Lebedeff,don’t,don’tmakeanyscandalaboutit!"saidtheprince,muchagitated,andspeakinginalowvoice。
"Notfortheworld,notfortheworld!Imerelywishtomakehimashamedofhimself。Oh,prince,greatthoughthismisfortunebetomyself,Icannothelpthinkingofhismorals!Ihaveagreatfavourtoaskofyou,esteemedprince;Iconfessthatitisthechiefobjectofmyvisit。YouknowtheIvolgins,youhaveevenlivedintheirhouse;soifyouwouldlendmeyourhelp,honouredprince,inthegeneral’sowninterestandforhisgood。"
Lebedeffclaspedhishandsinsupplication。
"Whathelpdoyouwantfromme?YoumaybecertainthatIammostanxioustounderstandyou,Lebedeff。"
"Ifeltsureofthat,orIshouldnothavecometoyou。WemightmanageitwiththehelpofNinaAlexandrovna,sothathemightbecloselywatchedinhisownhouse。UnfortunatelyIamnotonterms……otherwise……butNicolaiArdalionovitch,whoadoresyouwithallhisyouthfulsoul,mighthelp,too。"
"No,no!HeavenforbidthatweshouldbringNinaAlexandrovnaintothisbusiness!OrColia,either。ButperhapsIhavenotyetquiteunderstoodyou,Lebedeff?"
Lebedeffmadeanimpatientmovement。
"Butthereisnothingtounderstand!Sympathyandtenderness,thatisall——thatisallourpoorinvalidrequires!Youwillpermitmetoconsiderhimaninvalid?"
"Yes,itshowsdelicacyandintelligenceonyourpart。"
"Iwillexplainmyideabyapracticalexample,tomakeitclearer。Youknowthesortofmanheis。Atpresenthisonlyfailingisthatheiscrazyaboutthatcaptain’swidow,andhecannotgotoherwithoutmoney,andImeantocatchhimatherhousetoday——forhisowngood;butsupposingitwasnotonlythewidow,butthathehadcommittedarealcrime,oratleastsomeverydishonourableactionofwhichheis,ofcourse,incapable,Irepeatthateveninthatcase,ifheweretreatedwithwhatI
maycallgeneroustenderness,onecouldgetatthewholetruth,forheisverysoft-hearted!Believeme,hewouldbetrayhimselfbeforefivedayswereout;hewouldburstintotears,andmakeacleanbreastofthematter;especiallyifmanagedwithtact,andifyouandhisfamilywatchedhiseverystep,sotospeak。Oh,mydearprince,"Lebedeffaddedmostemphatically,"Idonotpositivelyassertthathehas……Iamready,asthesayingis,toshedmylastdropofbloodforhimthisinstant;butyouwilladmitthatdebauchery,drunkenness,andthecaptain’swidow,allthesetogethermayleadhimveryfar。"
"Iam,ofcourse,quitereadytoaddmyeffortstoyoursinsuchacase,"saidtheprince,rising;"butIconfess,Lebedeff,thatIamterriblyperplexed。Tellme,doyoustillthink……
plainly,yousayyourselfthatyoususpectMr。Ferdishenko?"
Lebedeffclaspedhishandsoncemore。
"Why,whoelsecouldIpossiblysuspect?Whoelse,mostoutspokenprince?"hereplied,withanunctuoussmile。
Muishkinfrowned,androsefromhisseat。
"Yousee,Lebedeff,amistakeherewouldbeadreadfulthing。
ThisFerdishenko,Iwouldnotsayawordagainsthim,ofcourse;
but,whoknows?Perhapsitreallywashe?Imeanhereallydoesseemtobeamorelikelymanthan……thananyother。"
Lebedeffstrainedhiseyesandearstotakeinwhattheprincewassaying。Thelatterwasfrowningmoreandmore,andwalkingexcitedlyupanddown,tryingnottolookatLebedeff。
"Yousee,"hesaid,"IwasgiventounderstandthatFerdishenkowasthatsortofman,——thatonecan’tsayeverythingbeforehim。
Onehastotakecarenottosaytoomuch,youunderstand?Isaythistoprovethathereallyis,sotospeak,morelikelytohavedonethisthananyoneelse,eh?Youunderstand?Theimportantthingis,nottomakeamistake。"
"AndwhotoldyouthisaboutFerdishenko?"
"Oh,Iwastold。OfcourseIdon’taltogetherbelieveit。IamverysorrythatIshouldhavehadtosaythis,becauseIassureyouIdon’tbelieveitmyself;itisallnonsense,ofcourse。Itwasstupidofmetosayanythingaboutit。"
"Yousee,itisveryimportant,itismostimportanttoknowwhereyougotthisreportfrom,"saidLebedeff,excitedly。Hehadrisenfromhisseat,andwastryingtokeepstepwiththeprince,runningafterhim,upanddown。"Becauselookhere,prince,I
don’tmindtellingyounowthatasweweregoingalongtoWilkin’sthismorning,aftertellingmewhatyouknowaboutthefire,andsavingthecountandallthat,thegeneralwaspleasedtodropcertainhintstothesameeffectaboutFerdishenko,butsovaguelyandclumsilythatIthoughtbettertoputafewquestionstohimonthematter,withtheresultthatIfoundthewholethingwasaninventionofhisexcellency’sownmind。Ofcourse,heonlylieswiththebestintentions;still,helies。
But,suchbeingthecase,wherecouldyouhaveheardthesamereport?Itwastheinspirationofthemomentwithhim,youunderstand,sowhocouldhavetoldYOU?Itisanimportantquestion,yousee!"
"ItwasColiatoldme,andhisfathertoldHIMataboutsixthismorning。Theymetatthethreshold,whenColiawasleavingtheroomforsomethingorother。"TheprincetoldLebedeffallthatColiahadmadeknowntohimself,indetail。
"Therenow,that’swhatwemaycallSCENT!"saidLebedeff,rubbinghishandsandlaughingsilently。"Ithoughtitmustbeso,yousee。Thegeneralinterruptedhisinnocentslumbers,atsixo’clock,inordertogoandwakehisbelovedson,andwarnhimofthedreadfuldangerofcompanionshipwithFerdishenko。
Dearme!whatadreadfullydangerousmanFerdishenkomustbe,andwhattouchingpaternalsolicitude,onthepartofhisexcellency,ha!ha!ha!"
"Listen,Lebedeff,"begantheprince,quiteoverwhelmed;"DOactquietly——don’tmakeascandal,Lebedeff,Iaskyou——Ientreatyou!Noonemustknow——NOONE,mind!Inthatcaseonly,Iwillhelpyou。"
"Beassured,mosthonourable,mostworthyofprinces——beassuredthatthewholemattershallbeburiedwithinmyheart!"criedLebedeff,inaparoxysmofexaltation。"I’dgiveeverydropofmyblood……Illustriousprince,Iamapoorwretchinsoulandspirit,butasktheveriestscoundrelwhetherhewouldprefertodealwithonelikehimself,orwithanoble-heartedmanlikeyou,andthereisnodoubtastohischoice!He’llanswerthatheprefersthenoble-heartedman——andthereyouhavethetriumphofvirtue!Aurevoir,honouredprince!YouandItogether——softly!
softly!"
X。
THEprinceunderstoodatlastwhyheshiveredwithdreadeverytimehethoughtofthethreelettersinhispocket,andwhyhehadputoffreadingthemuntiltheevening。
Whenhefellintoaheavysleeponthesofaontheverandah,withouthavinghadthecouragetoopenasingleoneofthethreeenvelopes,heagaindreamedapainfuldream,andoncemorethatpoor,"sinful"womanappearedtohim。Againshegazedathimwithtearssparklingonherlonglashes,andbeckonedhimafterher;
andagainheawoke,asbefore,withthepictureofherfacehauntinghim。
Helongedtogetupandgotoheratonce——butheCOULDNOT。Atlength,almostindespair,heunfoldedtheletters,andbegantoreadthem。
Theseletters,too,werelikeadream。Wesometimeshavestrange,impossibledreams,contrarytoallthelawsofnature。Whenweawakewerememberthemandwonderattheirstrangeness。Youremember,perhaps,thatyouwereinfullpossessionofyourreasonduringthissuccessionoffantasticimages;eventhatyouactedwithextraordinarylogicandcunningwhilesurroundedbymurdererswhohidtheirintentionsandmadegreatdemonstrationsoffriendship,whilewaitingforanopportunitytocutyourthroat。Yourememberhowyouescapedthembysomeingeniousstratagem;thenyoudoubtediftheywerereallydeceived,orwhethertheywereonlypretendingnottoknowyourhiding-place;
thenyouthoughtofanotherplanandhoodwinkedthemonceagain。
Yourememberallthisquiteclearly,buthowisitthatyourreasoncalmlyacceptedallthemanifestabsurditiesandimpossibilitiesthatcrowdedintoyourdream?Oneofthemurdererssuddenlychangedintoawomanbeforeyourveryeyes;
thenthewomanwastransformedintoahideous,cunninglittledwarf;andyoubelievedit,andaccepteditallalmostasamatterofcourse——whileatthesametimeyourintelligenceseemedunusuallykeen,andaccomplishedmiraclesofcunning,sagacity,andlogic!Whyisitthatwhenyouawaketotheworldofrealitiesyounearlyalwaysfeel,sometimesveryvividly,thatthevanisheddreamhascarriedwithitsomeenigmawhichyouhavefailedtosolve?Yousmileattheextravaganceofyourdream,andyetyoufeelthatthistissueofabsurditycontainedsomerealidea,somethingthatbelongstoyourtruelife,——somethingthatexists,andhasalwaysexisted,inyourheart。Yousearchyourdreamforsomeprophecythatyouwereexpecting。Ithasleftadeepimpressionuponyou,joyfulorcruel,butwhatitmeans,orwhathasbeenpredictedtoyouinit,youcanneitherunderstandnorremember。
Thereadingoftheselettersproducedsomesucheffectupontheprince。Hefelt,beforeheevenopenedtheenvelopes,thattheveryfactoftheirexistencewaslikeanightmare。Howcouldsheeverhavemadeuphermindtowritetoher?heaskedhimself。Howcouldshewriteaboutthatatall?Andhowcouldsuchawildideahaveenteredherhead?Andyet,thestrangestpartofthematterwas,thatwhilehereadtheletters,hehimselfalmostbelievedinthepossibility,andeveninthejustification,oftheideahehadthoughtsowild。Ofcourseitwasamaddream,anightmare,andyettherewassomethingcruellyrealaboutit。Forhourshewashauntedbywhathehadread。Severalpassagesreturnedagainandagaintohismind,andashebroodedoverthem,hefeltinclinedtosaytohimselfthathehadforeseenandknownallthatwaswrittenhere;itevenseemedtohimthathehadreadthewholeofthissometimeorother,long,longago;andallthathadtormentedandgrievedhimuptonowwastobefoundintheseold,longsinceread,letters。
"Whenyouopenthisletter"sothefirstbegan,"lookfirstatthesignature。Thesignaturewilltellyouall,sothatIneedexplainnothing,norattempttojustifymyself。WereIinanywayonafootingwithyou,youmightbeoffendedatmyaudacity;butwhoamI,andwhoareyou?Weareatsuchextremes,andIamsofarremovedfromyou,thatIcouldnotoffendyouifIwishedtodoso。"
Fartheron,inanotherplace,shewrote:"Donotconsidermywordsasthesicklyecstasiesofadiseasedmind,butyouare,inmyopinion——perfection!Ihaveseenyou——Iseeyoueveryday。I
donotjudgeyou;IhavenotweighedyouinthescalesofReasonandfoundyouPerfection——itissimplyanarticleoffaith。ButI
mustconfessonesinagainstyou——Iloveyou。Oneshouldnotloveperfection。Oneshouldonlylookonitasperfection——yetIaminlovewithyou。Thoughloveequalizes,donotfear。Ihavenotloweredyoutomylevel,eveninmymostsecretthoughts。Ihavewritten’Donotfear,’asifyoucouldfear。IwouldkissyourfootprintsifIcould;but,oh!Iamnotputtingmyselfonalevelwithyou!——Lookatthesignature——quick,lookatthesignature!"
"However,observe"shewroteinanotheroftheletters,"thatalthoughIcoupleyouwithhim,yetIhavenotonceaskedyouwhetheryoulovehim。Hefellinlovewithyou,thoughhesawyoubutonce。Hespokeofyouasof’thelight。’Thesearehisownwords——Iheardhimusethem。ButIunderstoodwithouthissayingitthatyouwereallthatlightistohim。Ilivednearhimforawholemonth,andIunderstoodthenthatyou,too,mustlovehim。
Ithinkofyouandhimasone。"
"Whatwasthematteryesterday?"shewroteonanothersheet。"I
passedbyyou,andyouseemedtometoBLUSH。Perhapsitwasonlymyfancy。IfIweretobringyoutothemostloathsomeden,andshowyoutherevelationofundisguisedvice——youshouldnotblush。Youcanneverfeelthesenseofpersonalaffront。Youmayhateallwhoaremean,orbase,orunworthy——butnotforyourself——onlyforthosewhomtheywrong。NoonecanwrongYOU。
Doyouknow,Ithinkyououghttoloveme——foryouarethesameinmyeyesasinhis-youareaslight。Anangelcannothate,perhapscannotlove,either。Ioftenaskmyself——isitpossibletoloveeverybody?Indeeditisnot;itisnotinnature。
Abstractloveofhumanityisnearlyalwaysloveofself。Butyouaredifferent。Youcannothelplovingall,sinceyoucancomparewithnone,andareaboveallpersonaloffenceoranger。Oh!howbitteritwouldbetometoknowthatyoufeltangerorshameonmyaccount,forthatwouldbeyourfall——youwouldbecomecomparableatoncewithsuchasme。
"Yesterday,afterseeingyou,Iwenthomeandthoughtoutapicture。
"ArtistsalwaysdrawtheSaviourasanactorinoneoftheGospelstories。Ishoulddodifferently。IshouldrepresentChristalone——thedisciplesdidleaveHimaloneoccasionally。IshouldpaintonelittlechildleftwithHim。ThischildhasbeenplayingaboutnearHim,andhadprobablyjustbeentellingtheSavioursomethinginitsprettybabyprattle。Christhadlistenedtoit,butwasnowmusing——onehandreposingonthechild’sbrighthead。
Hiseyeshaveafar-awayexpression。Thought,greatastheUniverse,isinthem——Hisfaceissad。ThelittleoneleansitselbowuponChrist’sknee,andwithitscheekrestingonitshand,gazesupatHim,ponderingaschildrensometimesdoponder。Thesunissetting。Thereyouhavemypicture。
"Youareinnocent——andinyourinnocenceliesallyourperfection——oh,rememberthat!Whatismypassiontoyou?——youareminenow;Ishallbenearyouallmylife——Ishallnotlivelong!"
Atlength,inthelastletterofall,hefound:
"ForHeaven’ssake,don’tmisunderstandme!DonotthinkthatI
humiliatemyselfbywritingthustoyou,orthatIbelongtothatclassofpeoplewhotakeasatisfactioninhumiliatingthemselves——frompride。Ihavemyconsolation,thoughitwouldbedifficulttoexplainit——butIdonothumiliatemyself。
"WhydoIwishtouniteyoutwo?Foryoursakesormyown?Formyownsake,naturally。Alltheproblemsofmylifewouldthusbesolved;Ihavethoughtsoforalongtime。IknowthatoncewhenyoursisterAdelaidasawmyportraitshesaidthatsuchbeautycouldoverthrowtheworld。ButIhaverenouncedtheworld。YouthinkitstrangethatIshouldsayso,foryousawmedeckedwithlaceanddiamonds,inthecompanyofdrunkardsandwastrels。Takenonoticeofthat;IknowthatIhavealmostceasedtoexist。Godknowswhatitisdwellingwithinmenow——itisnotmyself。Icanseeiteverydayintwodreadfuleyeswhicharealwayslookingatme,evenwhennotpresent。Theseeyesaresilentnow,theysaynothing;butIknowtheirsecret。Hishouseisgloomy,andthereisasecretinit。Iamconvincedthatinsomeboxhehasarazorhidden,tiedroundwithsilk,justliketheonethatMoscowmurdererhad。Thismanalsolivedwithhismother,andhadarazorhiddenaway,tiedroundwithwhitesilk,andwiththisrazorheintendedtocutathroat。
"AllthewhileIwasintheirhouseIfeltsurethatsomewherebeneaththefloortherewashiddenawaysomedreadfulcorpse,wrappedinoil-cloth,perhapsburiedtherebyhisfather,whoknows?JustasintheMoscowcase。Icouldhaveshownyoutheveryspot!
"Heisalwayssilent,butIknowwellthathelovesmesomuchthathemusthateme。Myweddingandyoursaretobeonthesameday;soIhavearrangedwithhim。Ihavenosecretsfromhim。I
wouldkillhimfromveryfright,buthewillkillmefirst。Hehasjustburstoutlaughing,andsaysthatIamraving。HeknowsIamwritingtoyou。"
Therewasmuchmoreofthisdeliriouswanderingintheletters——
oneofthemwasverylong。
Atlasttheprincecameoutofthedark,gloomypark,inwhichhehadwanderedaboutforhoursjustasyesterday。Thebrightnightseemedtohimtobelighterthanever。"Itmustbequiteearly,"
hethought。Hehadforgottenhiswatch。Therewasasoundofdistantmusicsomewhere。"Ah,"hethought,"theVauxhall!Theywon’tbetheretoday,ofcourse!"Atthismomenthenoticedthathewasclosetotheirhouse;hehadfeltthathemustgravitatetothisspoteventually,and,withabeatingheart,hemountedtheverandahsteps。
Noonemethim;theverandahwasempty,andnearlypitchdark。Heopenedthedoorintotheroom,butit,too,wasdarkandempty。
Hestoodinthemiddleoftheroominperplexity。Suddenlythedooropened,andincameAlexandra,candleinhand。Seeingtheprinceshestoppedbeforehiminsurprise,lookingathimquestioningly。
Itwasclearthatshehadbeenmerelypassingthroughtheroomfromdoortodoor,andhadnothadtheremotestnotionthatshewouldmeetanyone。
"Howdidyoucomehere?"sheasked,atlast。
"I-I——camein——"
"Mammaisnotverywell,norisAglaya。Adelaidahasgonetobed,andIamjustgoing。Wewerealonethewholeevening。FatherandPrinceS。havegonetotown。"
"Ihavecometoyou——now——to——"
"Doyouknowwhattimeitis?"
"N——no!"
"Half-pasttwelve。Wearealwaysinbedbyone。"
"I-Ithoughtitwashalf-pastnine!"
"Nevermind!"shelaughed,"butwhydidn’tyoucomeearlier?
Perhapsyouwereexpected!"
"Ithought"hestammered,makingforthedoor。
"Aurevoir!Ishallamusethemallwiththisstorytomorrow!"
Hewalkedalongtheroadtowardshisownhouse。Hisheartwasbeating,histhoughtswereconfused,everythingaroundseemedtobepartofadream。
Andsuddenly,justastwicealreadyhehadawakedfromsleepwiththesamevision,thatveryapparitionnowseemedtoriseupbeforehim。Thewomanappearedtostepoutfromthepark,andstandinthepathinfrontofhim,asthoughshehadbeenwaitingforhimthere。
Heshudderedandstopped;sheseizedhishandandpresseditfrenziedly。
No,thiswasnoapparition!
Thereshestoodatlast,facetofacewithhim,forthefirsttimesincetheirparting。
Shesaidsomething,buthelookedsilentlybackather。Hisheartachedwithanguish。Oh!neverwouldhebanishtherecollectionofthismeetingwithher,andheneverremembereditbutwiththesamepainandagonyofmind。
Shewentonherkneesbeforehim——thereintheopenroad——likeamadwoman。Heretreatedastep,butshecaughthishandandkissedit,and,justasinhisdream,thetearsweresparklingonherlong,beautifullashes。
"Getup!"hesaid,inafrightenedwhisper,raisingher。"Getupatonce!"
"Areyouhappy——areyouhappy?"sheasked。"Saythisoneword。
Areyouhappynow?Today,thismoment?Haveyoujustbeenwithher?Whatdidshesay?"
Shedidnotrisefromherknees;shewouldnotlistentohim;sheputherquestionshurriedly,asthoughshewerepursued。
"Iamgoingawaytomorrow,asyoubademe——Iwon’twrite——sothatthisisthelasttimeIshallseeyou,thelasttime!ThisisreallytheLASTTIME!"
"Oh,becalm——becalm!Getup!"heentreated,indespair。
Shegazedthirstilyathimandclutchedhishands。
"Good-bye!"shesaidatlast,androseandlefthim,veryquickly。
TheprincenoticedthatRogojinhadsuddenlyappearedatherside,andhadtakenherarmandwasleadingheraway。
"Waitaminute,prince,"shoutedthelatter,ashewent。"Ishallbebackinfiveminutes。"
Hereappearedinfiveminutesashehadsaid。Theprincewaswaitingforhim。
"I’veputherinthecarriage,"hesaid;"ithasbeenwaitingroundthecornertheresinceteno’clock。SheexpectedthatyouwouldbewithTHEMalltheevening。Itoldherexactlywhatyouwroteme。Shewon’twritetothegirlanymore,shepromises;andtomorrowshewillbeoff,asyouwish。Shedesiredtoseeyouforthelasttime,althoughyourefused,sowe’vebeensittingandwaitingonthatbenchtillyoushouldpassonyourwayhome。"
"Didshebringyouwithherofherownaccord?"
"Ofcourseshedid!"saidRogojin,showinghisteeth;"andIsawformyselfwhatIknewbefore。You’vereadherletters,I
suppose?"
"Didyoureadthem?"askedtheprince,struckbythethought。
"Ofcourse——sheshowedthemtomeherself。Youarethinkingoftherazor,eh?Ha,ha,ha!"
"Oh,sheismad!"criedtheprince,wringinghishands。"Whoknows?Perhapssheisnotsomadafterall,"saidRogojin,softly,asthoughthinkingaloud。
Theprincemadenoreply。
"Well,good-bye,"saidRogojin。"I’mofftomorrowtoo,youknow。
Remembermekindly!By-the-by,"headded,turningroundsharplyagain,"didyouanswerherquestionjustnow?Areyouhappy,ornot?"
"No,no,no!"criedtheprince,withunspeakablesadness。
"Ha,ha!Ineversupposedyouwouldsay’yes,’"criedRogojin,laughingsardonically。
Andhedisappeared,withoutlookingroundagain。
PARTIV
I。
AWEEKhadelapsedsincetherendezvousofourtwofriendsonthegreenbenchinthepark,when,onefinemorningatabouthalf-
pastteno’clock,VarvaraArdalionovna,otherwiseMrs。Ptitsin,whohadbeenouttovisitafriend,returnedhomeinastateofconsiderablementaldepression。
Therearecertainpeopleofwhomitisdifficulttosayanythingwhichwillatoncethrowthemintorelief——inotherwords,describethemgraphicallyintheirtypicalcharacteristics。Thesearetheywhoaregenerallyknownas"commonplacepeople,"andthisclasscomprises,ofcourse,theimmensemajorityofmankind。
Authors,asarule,attempttoselectandportraytypesrarelymetwithintheirentirety,butthesetypesareneverthelessmorerealthanreallifeitself。
"Podkoleosin"[AcharacterinGogol’scomedy,TheWedding。]wasperhapsanexaggeration,buthewasbynomeansanon-existentcharacter;onthecontrary,howmanyintelligentpeople,afterhearingofthisPodkoleosinfromGogol,immediatelybegantofindthatscoresoftheirfriendswereexactlylikehim!Theyknew,perhaps,beforeGogoltoldthem,thattheirfriendswerelikePodkoleosin,buttheydidnotknowwhatnametogivethem。Inreallife,youngfellowsseldomjumpoutofthewindowjustbeforetheirweddings,becausesuchafeat,nottospeakofitsotheraspects,mustbeadecidedlyunpleasantmodeofescape;andyetthereareplentyofbridegrooms,intelligentfellowstoo,whowouldbereadytoconfessthemselvesPodkoleosinsinthedepthsoftheirconsciousness,justbeforemarriage。Nordoeseveryhusbandfeelboundtorepeatateverystep,"Tul’asvoulu,GeorgesDandin!"likeanothertypicalpersonage;andyethowmanymillionsandbillionsofGeorgesDandinsthereareinreallifewhofeelinclinedtoutterthissoul-drawncryaftertheirhoneymoon,ifnotthedayafterthewedding!Therefore,withoutenteringintoanymoreseriousexaminationofthequestion,I
willcontentmyselfwithremarkingthatinreallifetypicalcharactersare"watereddown,"sotospeak;andalltheseDandinsandPodkoleosinsactuallyexistamonguseveryday,butinadilutedform。Iwilljustadd,however,thatGeorgesDandinmighthaveexistedexactlyasMolierepresentedhim,andprobablydoesexistnowandthen,thoughrarely;andsoIwillendthisscientificexamination,whichisbeginningtolooklikeanewspapercriticism。Butforallthis,thequestionremains,——
whatarethenoveliststodowithcommonplacepeople,andhowaretheytobepresentedtothereaderinsuchaformastobeintheleastdegreeinteresting?Theycannotbeleftoutaltogether,forcommonplacepeoplemeetoneateveryturnoflife,andtoleavethemoutwouldbetodestroythewholerealityandprobabilityofthestory。Tofillanovelwithtypicalcharactersonly,orwithmerelystrangeanduncommonpeople,wouldrenderthebookunrealandimprobable,andwouldverylikelydestroytheinterest。Inmyopinion,thedutyofthenovelististoseekoutpointsofinterestandinstructioneveninthecharactersofcommonplacepeople。
Forinstance,whenthewholeessenceofanordinaryperson’snatureliesinhisperpetualandunchangeablecommonplaceness;
andwheninspiteofallhisendeavourstodosomethingoutofthecommon,thispersonends,eventually,byremaininginhisunbrokenlineofroutine。Ithinksuchanindividualreallydoesbecomeatypeofhisown——atypeofcommonplacenesswhichwillnotfortheworld,ifitcanhelpit,becontented,butstrainsandyearnstobesomethingoriginalandindependent,withouttheslightestpossibilityofbeingso。Tothisclassofcommonplacepeoplebelongseveralcharactersinthisnovel;——
characterswhich——Iadmit——Ihavenotdrawnveryvividlyuptonowformyreader’sbenefit。
Suchwere,forinstance,VarvaraArdalionovnaPtitsin,herhusband,andherbrother,Gania。
Thereisnothingsoannoyingastobefairlyrich,ofafairlygoodfamily,pleasingpresence,averageeducation,tobe"notstupid,"kind-hearted,andyettohavenotalentatall,nooriginality,notasingleideaofone’sown——tobe,infact,"justlikeeveryoneelse。"
Ofsuchpeopletherearecountlessnumbersinthisworld——farmoreeventhanappear。Theycanbedividedintotwoclassesasallmencan——thatis,thoseoflimitedintellect,andthosewhoaremuchcleverer。Theformeroftheseclassesisthehappier。
Toacommonplacemanoflimitedintellect,forinstance,nothingissimplerthantoimaginehimselfanoriginalcharacter,andtorevelinthatbeliefwithouttheslightestmisgiving。
Manyofouryoungwomenhavethoughtfittocuttheirhairshort,putonbluespectacles,andcallthemselvesNihilists。Bydoingthistheyhavebeenabletopersuadethemselves,withoutfurthertrouble,thattheyhaveacquirednewconvictionsoftheirown。
Somemenhavebutfeltsomelittlequalmofkindnesstowardstheirfellow-men,andthefacthasbeenquiteenoughtopersuadethemthattheystandaloneinthevanofenlightenmentandthatnoonehassuchhumanitarianfeelingsasthey。Othershavebuttoreadanideaofsomebodyelse’s,andtheycanimmediatelyassimilateitandbelievethatitwasachildoftheirownbrain。
The"impudenceofignorance,"ifImayusetheexpression,isdevelopedtoawonderfulextentinsuchcases;——unlikelyasitappears,itismetwithateveryturn。
ThisconfidenceofastupidmaninhisowntalentshasbeenwonderfullydepictedbyGogolintheamazingcharacterofPirogoff。Pirogoffhasnottheslightestdoubtofhisowngenius,——nay,ofhisSUPERIORITYofgenius,——socertainisheofitthatheneverquestionsit。HowmanyPirogoffshavetherenotbeenamongourwriters——scholars——propagandists?Isay"havebeen,"butindeedthereareplentyofthematthisveryday。
Ourfriend,Gania,belongedtotheotherclass——tothe"muchcleverer"persons,thoughhewasfromheadtofootpermeatedandsaturatedwiththelongingtobeoriginal。Thisclass,asIhavesaidabove,isfarlesshappy。Forthe"clevercommonplace"
person,thoughhemaypossiblyimaginehimselfamanofgeniusandoriginality,nonethelesshaswithinhisheartthedeathlesswormofsuspicionanddoubt;andthisdoubtsometimesbringsaclevermantodespair。Asarule,however,nothingtragichappens;——hisliverbecomesalittledamagedinthecourseoftime,nothingmoreserious。Suchmendonotgiveuptheiraspirationsafteroriginalitywithoutaseverestruggle,——andtherehavebeenmenwho,thoughgoodfellowsinthemselves,andevenbenefactorstohumanity,havesunktothelevelofbasecriminalsforthesakeoforiginality。
Ganiawasabeginner,asitwere,uponthisroad。Adeepandunchangeableconsciousnessofhisownlackoftalent,combinedwithavastlongingtobeabletopersuadehimselfthathewasoriginal,hadrankledinhisheart,evenfromchildhood。
Heseemedtohavebeenbornwithoverwroughtnerves,andinhispassionatedesiretoexcel,hewasoftenledtothebrinkofsomerashstep;andyet,havingresolveduponsuchastep,whenthemomentarrived,heinvariablyprovedtoosensibletotakeit。Hewasready,inthesameway,todoabaseactioninordertoobtainhiswished-forobject;andyet,whenthemomentcametodoit,hefoundthathewastoohonestforanygreatbaseness。Notthatheobjectedtoactsofpettymeanness——hewasalwaysreadyforTHEM。Helookedwithhateandloathingonthepovertyanddownfallofhisfamily,andtreatedhismotherwithhaughtycontempt,althoughheknewthathiswholefuturedependedonhercharacterandreputation。
Aglayahadsimplyfrightenedhim;yethedidnotgiveupallthoughtsofher——thoughheneverseriouslyhopedthatshewouldcondescendtohim。Atthetimeofhis"adventure"withNastasiaPhilipovnahehadcometotheconclusionthatmoneywashisonlyhope——moneyshoulddoallforhim。
AtthemomentwhenhelostAglaya,andafterthescenewithNastasia,hehadfeltsolowinhisowneyesthatheactuallybroughtthemoneybacktotheprince。Ofthisreturningofthemoneygiventohimbyamadwomanwhohadreceiveditfromamadman,hehadoftenrepentedsince——thoughheneverceasedtobeproudofhisaction。DuringtheshorttimethatMuishkinremainedinPetersburgGaniahadhadtimetocometohatehimforhissympathy,thoughtheprincetoldhimthatitwas"noteveryonewhowouldhaveactedsonobly"astoreturnthemoney。Hehadlongpondered,too,overhisrelationswithAglaya,andhadpersuadedhimselfthatwithsuchastrange,childish,innocentcharacterashers,thingsmighthaveendedverydifferently。
Remorsethenseizedhim;hethrewuphispost,andburiedhimselfinself-tormentandreproach。
HelivedatPtitsin’s,andopenlyshowedcontemptforthelatter,thoughhealwayslistenedtohisadvice,andwassensibleenoughtoaskforitwhenhewantedit。GavrilaArdalionovitchwasangrywithPtitsinbecausethelatterdidnotcaretobecomeaRothschild。"IfyouaretobeaJew,"hesaid,"doitproperly——
squeezepeoplerightandleft,showsomecharacter;betheKingoftheJewswhileyouareaboutit。"
Ptitsinwasquietandnoteasilyoffended——heonlylaughed。ButononeoccasionheexplainedseriouslytoGaniathathewasnoJew,thathedidnothingdishonest,thathecouldnothelpthemarketpriceofmoney,that,thankstohisaccuratehabits,hehadalreadyagoodfootingandwasrespected,andthathisbusinesswasflourishing。
"Ishan’teverbeaRothschild,andthereisnoreasonwhyI
should,"headded,smiling;"butIshallhaveahouseintheLiteynaya,perhapstwo,andthatwillbeenoughforme。""WhoknowsbutwhatImayhavethree!"heconcludedtohimself;butthisdream,cherishedinwardly,heneverconfidedtoasoul。
Naturelovesandfavourssuchpeople。Ptitsinwillcertainlyhavehisreward,notthreehouses,butfour,preciselybecausefromchildhooduphehadrealizedthathewouldneverbeaRothschild。
ThatwillbethelimitofPtitsin’sfortune,and,comewhatmay,hewillneverhavemorethanfourhouses。
VarvaraArdalionovnawasnotlikeherbrother。Shetoo,hadpassionatedesires,buttheywerepersistentratherthanimpetuous。Herplanswereaswiseashermethodsofcarryingthemout。Nodoubtshealsobelongedtothecategoryofordinarypeoplewhodreamofbeingoriginal,butshesoondiscoveredthatshehadnotagrainoftrueoriginality,andshedidnotletittroublehertoomuch。Perhapsacertainkindofpridecametoherhelp。ShemadeherfirstconcessiontothedemandsofpracticallifewithgreatresolutionwhensheconsentedtomarryPtitsin。
However,whenshemarriedshedidnotsaytoherself,"Nevermindameanactionifitleadstotheendinview,"asherbrotherwouldcertainlyhavesaidinsuchacase;itisquiteprobablethathemayhavesaiditwhenheexpressedhiselder-brotherlysatisfactionatherdecision。Farfromthis;VarvaraArdalionovnadidnotmarryuntilshefeltconvincedthatherfuturehusbandwasunassuming,agreeable,almostcultured,andthatnothingonearthwouldtempthimtoareallydishonourabledeed。Astosmallmeannesses,suchtriflesdidnottroubleher。Indeed,whoisfreefromthem?Itisabsurdtoexpecttheideal!Besides,sheknewthathermarriagewouldprovidearefugeforallherfamily。
SeeingGaniaunhappy,shewasanxioustohelphim,inspiteoftheirformerdisputesandmisunderstandings。Ptitsin,inafriendlyway,wouldpresshisbrother-in-lawtoenterthearmy。
"Youknow,"hesaidsometimes,jokingly,"youdespisegeneralsandgeneraldom,butyouwillseethat’they’willallendbybeinggeneralsintheirturn。Youwillseeitifyoulivelongenough!"
"ButwhyshouldtheysupposethatIdespisegenerals?"Ganiathoughtsarcasticallytohimself。
Toserveherbrother’sinterests,VarvaraArdalionovnawasconstantlyattheEpanchins’house,helpedbythefactthatinchildhoodsheandGaniahadplayedwithGeneralIvanFedorovitch’sdaughters。Itwouldhavebeeninconsistentwithhercharacterifinthesevisitsshehadbeenpursuingachimera;herprojectwasnotchimericalatall;shewasbuildingonafirmbasis——onherknowledgeofthecharacteroftheEpanchinfamily,especiallyAglaya,whomshestudiedclosely。AllVarvara’seffortsweredirectedtowardsbringingAglayaandGaniatogether。
Perhapssheachievedsomeresult;perhaps,also,shemadethemistakeofdependingtoomuchuponherbrother,andexpectingmorefromhimthanhewouldeverbecapableofgiving。Howeverthismaybe,hermanoeuvreswereskilfulenough。ForweeksatatimeshewouldnevermentionGania。Herattitudewasmodestbutdignified,andshewasalwaysextremelytruthfulandsincere。
Examiningthedepthsofherconscience,shefoundnothingtoreproachherselfwith,andthisstillfurtherstrengthenedherinherdesigns。ButVarvaraArdalionovnasometimesremarkedthatshefeltspiteful;thattherewasagooddealofvanityinher,perhapsevenofwoundedvanity。Shenoticedthisatcertaintimesmorethanatothers,andespeciallyafterhervisitstotheEpanchins。
Today,asIhavesaid,shereturnedfromtheirhousewithaheavyfeelingofdejection。Therewasasensationofbitterness,asortofmockingcontempt,mingledwithit。
Arrivedatherownhouse,Variaheardaconsiderablecommotiongoingonintheupperstorey,anddistinguishedthevoicesofherfatherandbrother。OnenteringthesalonshefoundGaniapacingupanddownatfranticspeed,palewithrageandalmosttearinghishair。Shefrowned,andsubsidedontothesofawithatiredair,andwithouttakingthetroubletoremoveherhat。Sheverywellknewthatifshekeptquietandaskedherbrothernothingabouthisreasonfortearingupanddowntheroom,hiswrathwouldfalluponherhead。Soshehastenedtoputthequestion:
"Theoldstory,eh?"
"Oldstory?No!Heavenknowswhat’supnow——Idon’t!Fatherhassimplygonemad;mother’sinfloodsoftears。Uponmyword,Varia,Imustkickhimoutofthehouse;orelsegomyself,"headded,probablyrememberingthathecouldnotwellturnpeopleoutofahousewhichwasnothisown。
"Youmustmakeallowances,"murmuredVaria。
"Makeallowances?Forwhom?Him——theoldblackguard?No,no,Varia——thatwon’tdo!Itwon’tdo,Itellyou!Andlookattheswaggeroftheman!He’salltoblamehimself,andyetheputsonsomuch’side’thatyou’dthink——myword!——’It’stoomuchtroubletogothroughthegate,youmustbreakthefenceforme!’
That’sthesortofairheputson;butwhat’sthematterwithyou,Varia?Whatacuriousexpressionyouhave!"
"I’mallright,"saidVaria,inatonethatsoundedasthoughshewereallwrong。
Ganialookedmoreintentlyather。
"You’vebeenTHERE?"heasked,suddenly。
"Yes。"
"Didyoufindoutanything?"
"Nothingunexpected。Idiscoveredthatit’salltrue。Myhusbandwaswiserthaneitherofus。Justashesuspectedfromthebeginning,soithasfallenout。Whereishe?"
"Out。Well——whathashappened?——goon。"
"Theprinceisformallyengagedtoher——that’ssettled。Theeldersisterstoldmeaboutit。Aglayahasagreed。Theydon’tattempttoconcealitanylonger;youknowhowmysteriousandsecrettheyhaveallbeenuptonow。Adelaida’sweddingisputoffagain,sothatbothcanbemarriedononeday。Isn’tthatdelightfullyromantic?Somebodyoughttowriteapoemonit。Sitdownandwriteanodeinsteadoftearingupanddownlikethat。ThiseveningPrincessBielokonskiistoarrive;shecomesjustintime——theyhaveapartytonight。HeistobepresentedtooldBielokonski,thoughIbelieveheknowsheralready;probablytheengagementwillbeopenlyannounced。Theyareonlyafraidthathemayknocksomethingdown,ortripoversomethingwhenhecomesintotheroom。Itwouldbejustlikehim。"
Ganialistenedattentively,buttohissister’sastonishmenthewasbynomeanssoimpressedbythisnewswhichshould,shethought,havebeensoimportanttohimasshehadexpected。
"Well,itwasclearenoughallalong,"hesaid,afteramoment’sreflection。"Sothat’stheend,"headded,withadisagreeablesmile,continuingtowalkupanddowntheroom,butmuchslowerthanbefore,andglancingslylyintohissister’sface。
"It’sagoodthingthatyoutakeitphilosophically,atallevents,"saidVaria。"I’mreallyverygladofit。"
"Yes,it’soffourhands——offYOURS,Ishouldsay。"
"IthinkIhaveservedyoufaithfully。IneverevenaskedyouwhathappinessyouexpectedtofindwithAglaya。"
"DidIeverexpecttofindhappinesswithAglaya?"
"Come,come,don’toverdoyourphilosophy。Ofcourseyoudid。Nowit’sallover,andagoodthing,too;pairoffoolsthatwehavebeen!IconfessIhaveneverbeenabletolookatitseriously。I
busiedmyselfinitforyoursake,thinkingthattherewasnoknowingwhatmighthappenwithafunnygirllikethattodealwith。Therewereninetytoonechancesagainstit。TothismomentIcan’tmakeoutwhyyouwishedforit。"
"H’m!now,Isuppose,youandyourhusbandwillneverwearyofeggingmeontoworkagain。You’llbeginyourlecturesaboutperseveranceandstrengthofwill,andallthat。Iknowitallbyheart,"saidGania,laughing。
"He’sgotsomenewideainhishead,"thoughtVaria。"Aretheypleasedoverthere——theparents?"askedGania,suddenly。
"N——no,Idon’tthinktheyare。Youcanjudgeforyourself。I
thinkthegeneralispleasedenough;hermotherisalittleuneasy。ShealwaysloathedtheideaoftheprinceasaHUSBAND;
everybodyknowsthat。"
"Ofcourse,naturally。Thebridegroomisanimpossibleandridiculousone。Imean,hasSHEgivenherformalconsent?"
"Shehasnotsaid’no,’uptonow,andthat’sall。Itwassuretobesowithher。Youknowwhatsheislike。Youknowhowabsurdlyshysheis。Yourememberhowsheusedtohideinacupboardasachild,soastoavoidseeingvisitors,forhoursatatime。Sheisjustthesamenow;but,doyouknow,Ithinkthereissomethingseriousinthematter,evenfromherside;Ifeelit,somehow。Shelaughsattheprince,theysay,frommorntonightinordertohideherrealfeelings;butyoumaybesureshefindsoccasiontosaysomethingorothertohimonthesly,forhehimselfisinastateofradianthappiness。Hewalksintheclouds;theysayheisextremelyfunnyjustnow;Ihearditfromthemselves。Theyseemedtobelaughingatmeintheirsleeves——
thoseeldergirls——Idon’tknowwhy。"
Ganiahadbeguntofrown,andprobablyVariaaddedthislastsentenceinordertoprobehisthought。However,atthismoment,thenoisebeganagainupstairs。
"I’llturnhimout!"shoutedGania,gladoftheopportunityofventinghisvexation。"Ishalljustturnhimout——wecan’thavethis。"
"Yes,andthenhe’llgoabouttheplaceanddisgraceusashedidyesterday。"
"How’ashedidyesterday’?Whatdoyoumean?Whatdidhedoyesterday?"askedGania,inalarm。
"Why,goodnessme,don’tyouknow?"Variastoppedshort。
"What?Youdon’tmeantosaythathewentthereyesterday!"criedGania,flushingredwithshameandanger。"Goodheavens,Varia!
Speak!Youhavejustbeenthere。WAShethereornot,QUICK?"AndGaniarushedforthedoor。Variafollowedandcaughthimbybothhands。
"Whatareyoudoing?Whereareyougoingto?Youcan’tlethimgonow;ifyoudohe’llgoanddosomethingworse。"
"Whatdidhedothere?Whatdidhesay?""Theycouldn’ttellmethemselves;theycouldn’tmakeheadortailofit;buthefrightenedthemall。Hecametoseethegeneral,whowasnotathome;soheaskedforLizabethaProkofievna。Firstofall,hebeggedherforsomeplace,orsituation,forworkofsomekind,andthenhebegantocomplainaboutUS,aboutmeandmyhusband,andyou,especiallyYOU;hesaidalotofthings。"
"Oh!couldn’tyoufindout?"mutteredGania,tremblinghysterically。
"No——nothingmorethanthat。Why,theycouldn’tunderstandhimthemselves;andverylikelydidn’ttellmeall。"
Ganiaseizedhisheadwithbothhandsandtotteredtothewindow;
Variasatdownattheotherwindow。
"Funnygirl,Aglaya,"sheobserved,afterapause。"Whensheleftmeshesaid,’Givemyspecialandpersonalrespectstoyourparents;Ishallcertainlyfindanopportunitytoseeyourfatheroneday,’andsoseriousoverit。She’sastrangecreature。"
"Wasn’tshejoking?Shewasspeakingsarcastically!""Notabitofit;that’sjustthestrangepartofit。"
"Doessheknowaboutfather,doyouthink——ornot?"
"ThattheydoNOTknowaboutitinthehouseisquitecertain,therestofthem,Imean;butyouhavegivenmeanidea。Aglayaperhapsknows。Shealone,though,ifanyone;forthesisterswereasastonishedasIwastohearherspeaksoseriously。Ifsheknows,theprincemusthavetoldher。"
"Oh!it’snotagreatmattertoguesswhotoldher。Athief!A
thiefinourfamily,andtheheadofthefamily,too!"
"Oh!nonsense!"criedVaria,angrily。"Thatwasnothingbutadrunkard’stale。Nonsense!Why,whoinventedthewholething
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