ITwasinthemonthofMay1813thatIwassounluckyastofallatlastintothehandsoftheenemy。MyknowledgeoftheEnglishlanguagehadmarkedmeoutforacertainemployment。ThoughI
cannotconceiveasoldierrefusingtoincurtherisk,yettobehangedforaspyisadisgustingbusiness;andIwasrelievedtobeheldaprisonerofwar。IntotheCastleofEdinburgh,standinginthemidstofthatcityonthesummitofanextraordinaryrock,I
wascastwithseveralhundredfellow-sufferers,allprivateslikemyself,andthemorepartofthem,byanaccident,veryignorant,plainfellows。MyEnglish,whichhadbroughtmeintothatscrape,nowhelpedmeverymateriallytobearit。Ihadathousandadvantages。Iwasoftencalledtoplaythepartofaninterpreter,whetherofordersorcomplaints,andthusbroughtinrelations,sometimesofmirth,sometimesalmostoffriendship,withtheofficersincharge。Ayounglieutenantsingledmeouttobehisadversaryatchess,agameinwhichIwasextremelyproficient,andwouldrewardmeformygambitswithexcellentcigars。ThemajorofthebattaliontooklessonsofFrenchfrommewhileatbreakfast,andwassometimessoobligingastohavemejoinhimatthemeal。
Chevenixwashisname。Hewasstiffasadrum-majorandselfishasanEnglishman,butafairlyconscientiouspupilandafairlyuprightman。LittledidIsupposethathisramrodbodyandfrozenfacewould,intheend,stepinbetweenmeandallmydearestwishes;thatuponthisprecise,regular,icysoldier-manmyfortunesshouldsonearlyshipwreck!Ineverliked,butyetI
trustedhim;andthoughitmayseembutatrifle,Ifoundhissnuff-boxwiththebeaninitcomeverywelcome。
Foritisstrangehowgrownmenandseasonedsoldierscangobackinlife;sothatafterbutalittlewhileinprison,whichisafterallthenextthingtobeinginthenursery,theygrowabsorbedinthemostpitiful,childishinterests,andasugarbiscuitorapinchofsnuffbecomethingstofollowafterandschemefor!
Wemadebutapoorshowofprisoners。Theofficershadbeenallofferedtheirparole,andhadtakenit。Theylivedmostlyinsuburbsofthecity,lodgingwithmodestfamilies,andenjoyedtheirfreedomandsupportedthealmostcontinualeviltidingsoftheEmperorasbesttheymight。ItchancedIwastheonlygentlemanamongtheprivateswhoremained。AgreatpartwereignorantItalians,ofaregimentthathadsufferedheavilyinCatalonia。Therestweremerediggersofthesoil,treadersofgrapesorhewersofwood,whohadbeensuddenlyandviolentlypreferredtothegloriousstateofsoldiers。Wehadbuttheoneinterestincommon:eachofuswhohadanyskillwithhisfingerspassedthehoursofhiscaptivityinthemakingoflittletoysandARTICLESOFPARIS;andtheprisonwasdailyvisitedatcertainhoursbyaconcourseofpeopleofthecountry,cometoexultoverourdistress,or-itismoretoleranttosuppose-theirownvicarioustriumph。Somemovedamonguswithadecencyofshameorsympathy。Otherswerethemostoffensivepersonagesintheworld,gapedatusasifwehadbeenbaboons,soughttoevangeliseustotheirrustic,northernreligion,asthoughwehadbeensavages,ortortureduswithintelligenceofdisasterstothearmsofFrance。
Good,bad,andindifferent,therewasonealleviationtotheannoyanceofthesevisitors;foritwasthepracticeofalmostalltopurchasesomespecimenofourrudehandiwork。Thisled,amongsttheprisoners,toastrongspiritofcompetition。Somewereneatofhand,andthegeniusoftheFrenchbeingalwaysdistinguished
couldplaceuponsalelittlemiraclesofdexterityandtaste。Somehadamoreengagingappearance;finefeatureswerefoundtodoaswellasfinemerchandise,andanairofyouthinparticularasitappealedtothesentimentofpityinourvisitorstobeasourceofprofit。Othersagainenjoyedsomeacquaintancewiththelanguage,andwereabletorecommendthemoreagreeablytopurchaserssuchtriflesastheyhadtosell。TothefirstoftheseadvantagesIcouldlaynoclaim,formyfingerswereallthumbs。
SomeatleastoftheothersIpossessed;andfindingmuchentertainmentinourcommerce,Ididnotsuffermyadvantagestorust。Ihaveneverdespisedthesocialarts,inwhichitisanationalboastthateveryFrenchmanshouldexcel。Fortheapproachofparticularsortsofvisitors,Ihadaparticularmannerofaddress,andevenofappearance,whichIcouldreadilyassumeandchangeontheoccasionrising。Ineverlostanopportunitytoflattereitherthepersonofmyvisitor,ifitshouldbealady,or,ifitshouldbeaman,thegreatnessofhiscountryinwar。
Andincasemycomplimentsshouldmisstheiraim,Iwasalwaysreadytocovermyretreatwithsomeagreeablepleasantry,whichwouldoftenearnmethenameofan”oddity”ora”drollfellow。”
Inthisway,althoughIwassoleft-handedatoy-maker,Imadeouttoberatherasuccessfulmerchant;andfoundmeanstoprocuremanylittledelicaciesandalleviations,suchaschildrenorprisonersdesire。
Iamscarcelydrawingtheportraitofaverymelancholyman。Itisnotindeedmycharacter;andIhad,inacomparisonwithmycomrades,manyreasonsforcontent。Inthefirstplace,Ihadnofamily:Iwasanorphanandabachelor;neitherwifenorchildawaitedmeinFrance。Inthesecond,IhadneverwhollyforgottheemotionswithwhichIfirstfoundmyselfaprisoner;andalthoughamilitaryprisonbenotaltogetheragardenofdelights,itisstillpreferabletoagallows。Inthethird,Iamalmostashamedtosayit,butIfoundacertainpleasureinourplaceofresidence:beinganobsoleteandreallymediaevalfortress,highplacedandcommandingextraordinaryprospects,notonlyoversea,mountain,andchampaignbutactuallyoverthethoroughfaresofacapitalcity,whichwecouldseeblackenedbydaywiththemovingcrowdoftheinhabitants,andatnightshiningwithlamps。Andlastly,althoughIwasnotinsensibletotherestraintsofprisonorthescantinessofourrations,IrememberedIhadsometimeseatenquiteasillinSpain,andhadtomountguardandmarchperhapsadozenleaguesintothebargain。Thefirstofmytroubles,indeed,wasthecostumewewereobligedtowear。ThereisahorriblepracticeinEnglandtotrickoutinridiculousuniforms,andasitweretobrandinmass,notonlyconvictsbutmilitaryprisoners,andeventhechildrenincharityschools。Ithinksomemalignantgeniushadfoundhismasterpieceofironyinthedresswhichwewerecondemnedtowear:jacket,waistcoat,andtrousersofasulphurormustardyellow,andashirtorblue-and-whitestripedcotton。Itwasconspicuous,itwascheap,itpointedusouttolaughter-we,whowereoldsoldiers,usedtoarms,andsomeofusshowingnoblescars,-likeasetoflugubriouszaniesatafair。TheoldnameofthatrockonwhichourprisonstoodwasIhaveheardsincethenthePAINTEDHILL。Well,nowitwasallpaintedabrightyellowwithourcostumes;andthedressofthesoldierswhoguardedusbeingofcoursetheessentialBritishredrag,wemadeuptogethertheelementsofalivelypictureofhell。Ihaveagainandagainlookedrounduponmyfellow-prisoners,andfeltmyangerrise,andchokedupontears,tobeholdthemthusparodied。Themorepart,asIhavesaid,werepeasants,somewhatbetteredperhapsbythedrill-sergeant,butforallthatungainly,loutishfellows,withnomorethanamerebarrack-roomsmartnessofaddress:indeed,youcouldhaveseenourarmynowheremorediscreditablyrepresentedthaninthisCastleofEdinburgh。AndIusedtoseemyselfinfancy,andblush。Itseemedthatmymoreelegantcarriagewouldbutpointtheinsultofthetravesty。AndIrememberedthedayswhenIworethecoarsebuthonourablecoatofasoldier;andrememberedfurtherbackhowmanyofthenoble,thefair,andthegracioushadtakenadelighttotendmychildhood……ButI
mustnotrecallthesetenderandsorrowfulmemoriestwice;theirplaceisfurtheron,andIamnowuponanotherbusiness。TheperfidyoftheBritannicGovernmentstoodnowheremoreopenlyconfessedthaninoneparticularofourdiscipline:thatwewereshavedtwiceintheweek。Toamanwhohaslovedallhislifetobefreshshaven,canamoreirritatingindignitybedevised?
MondayandThursdaywerethedays。TaketheThursday,andconceivethepictureImustpresentbySundayevening!AndSaturday,whichwasalmostasbad,wasthegreatdayforvisitors。
Thosewhocametoourmarketwereofallqualities,menandwomen,theleanandthestout,theplainandthefairlypretty。Sure,ifpeopleatallunderstoodthepowerofbeauty,therewouldbenoprayersaddressedexcepttoVenus;andthemereprivilegeofbeholdingacomelywomanisworthpayingfor。Ourvisitors,uponthewhole,werenotmuchtoboastof;andyet,sittinginacornerandverymuchashamedofmyselfandmyabsurdappearance,Ihaveagainandagaintastedthefinest,therarest,andthemostetherealpleasuresinaglanceofaneyethatIshouldneverseeagain-andneverwantedto。Theflowerofthehedgerowandthestarinheavensatisfyanddelightus:howmuchmorethelookofthatexquisitebeingwhowascreatedtobearandrear,tomaddenandrejoice,mankind!
Therewasoneyoungladyinparticular,abouteighteenornineteen,tall,ofagallantcarriage,andwithaprofusionofhairinwhichthesunfoundthreadsofgold。AssoonasshecameinthecourtyardandshewasaratherfrequentvisitoritseemedIwasawareofit。Shehadanairofangeliccandour,yetofahighspirit;shesteppedlikeaDiana,everymovementwasnobleandfree。Onedaytherewasastrongeastwind;thebannerwasstrainingattheflagstaff;belowusthesmokeofthecitychimneysblewhitherandthitherinathousandcrazyvariations;andawayoutontheForthwecouldseetheshipslyingdowntoitandscudding。Iwasthinkingwhataviledayitwas,whensheappeared。Herhairblewinthewindwithchangesofcolour;hergarmentsmouldedherwiththeaccuracyofsculpture;theendsofhershawlflutteredaboutherearandwerecaughtinagainwithaninimitabledeftness。Youhaveseenapoolonagustyday,howitsuddenlysparklesandflasheslikeathingalive?Sothislady”sfacehadbecomeanimatedandcoloured;andasIsawherstanding,somewhatinclined,herlipsparted,adivinetroubleinhereyes,I
couldhaveclappedmyhandsinapplause,andwasreadytoacclaimheragenuinedaughterofthewinds。Whatputitinmyhead,I
knownot:perhapsbecauseitwasaThursdayandIwasnewfromtherazor;butIdeterminedtoengageherattentionnolaterthanthatday。ShewasapproachingthatpartofthecourtinwhichIsatwithmymerchandise,whenIobservedherhandkerchieftoescapefromherhandsandfalltotheground;thenextmomentthewindhadtakenitupandcarrieditwithinmyreach。Iwasonfootatonce:
Ihadforgotmymustard-colouredclothes,Ihadforgottheprivatesoldierandhissalute。Bowingdeeply,Iofferedhertheslipofcambric。”Madam”saidI,”yourhandkerchief。Thewindbroughtitme。”
Imethereyesfully。”Ithankyou,sir”saidshe。”Thewindbroughtitme”Irepeated。”MayInottakeitforanomen?YouhaveanEnglishproverb,“It”sanillwindthatblowsnobodygood。”””Well”shesaid,withasmile,”“Onegoodturndeservesanother。”
Iwillseewhatyouhave。”
Shefollowedmetowheremywareswerespreadoutunderleeofapieceofcannon。”Alas,mademoiselle!”saidI,”Iamnoveryperfectcraftsman。
Thisissupposedtobeahouse,andyouseethechimneysareawry。
Youmaycallthisaboxifyouareveryindulgent;butseewheremytoolslipped!Yes,Iamafraidyoumaygofromonetoanother,andfindaflawineverything。FAILURESFORSALEshouldbeonmysignboard。Idonotkeepashop;IkeepaHumorousMuseum。”I
castasmilingglanceaboutmydisplay,andthenather,andinstantlybecamegrave。”Strange,isitnot”Iadded,”thatagrownmanandasoldiershouldbeengageduponsuchtrash,andasadheartproduceanythingsofunnytolookat?”
AnunpleasantvoicesummonedheratthismomentbythenameofFlora,andshemadeahastypurchaseandrejoinedherparty。
Afewdaysaftershecameagain。ButImustfirsttellyouhowshecametobesofrequent。HerauntwasoneofthoseterribleBritisholdmaids,ofwhichtheworldhasheardmuch;andhavingnothingwhatevertodo,andawordortwoofFrench,shehadtakenwhatshecalledanINTERESTINTHEFRENCHPRISONERS。Abig,bustling,boldoldlady,sheflouncedaboutourmarket-placewithinsufferableairsofpatronageandcondescension。Shebought,indeed,withliberality,buthermannerofstudyingusthroughaquizzing-glass,andplayingciceronetoherfollowers,acquittedusofanygratitude。Shehadatailbehindherofheavy,obsequiousoldgentlemen,ordull,gigglingmisses,towhomsheappearedtobeanoracle。”Thisonecanreallycarveprettily:ishenotaquizwithhisbigwhiskers?”shewouldsay。”Andthisone”indicatingmyselfwithhergoldeye-glass,”is,Iassureyou,quiteanoddity。”Theoddity,youmaybecertain,groundhisteeth。Shehadawayofstandinginourmidst,noddingaround,andaddressingusinwhatsheimaginedtobeFrench:”BIENNE,HOMMES!CAVA
BIENNE?”Itookthefreedomtoreplyinthesamelingo:BIENNE,FEMME!CAVACOUCI-COUCITOUTD”MEME,LABOURGEOISE!”Andatthat,whenwehadalllaughedwithalittlemoreheartinessthanwasentirelycivil,”Itoldyouhewasquiteanoddity!”sayssheintriumph。Needlesstosay,thesepassageswerebeforeIhadremarkedtheniece。
Theauntcameonthedayinquestionwithafollowingrathermorethanusuallylarge,whichshemanoeuvredtoandfroaboutthemarketandlecturedtoatrathermorethanusuallength,andwithratherlessthanheraccustomedtact。Ikeptmyeyesdown,buttheywereeverfixedinthesamedirection,quiteinvain。Theauntcameandwent,andpulledusout,andshowedusoff,likecagedmonkeys;buttheniecekeptherselfontheoutskirtsofthecrowdandontheoppositesideofthecourtyard,anddepartedatlastasshehadcome,withoutasign。CloselyasIhadwatchedher,Icouldnotsayhereyeshadeverrestedonmeforaninstant;
andmyheartwasoverwhelmedwithbitternessandblackness。Itoreoutherdetestedimage;IfeltIwasdonewithherforever;I
laughedatmyselfsavagely,becauseIhadthoughttoplease;whenI
laydownatnightsleepforsookme,andIlay,androlled,andgloatedonhercharms,andcursedherinsensibility,forhalfthenight。HowtrivialIthoughther!andhowtrivialhersex!AmanmightbeanangeloranApollo,andamustard-colouredcoatwouldwhollyblindthemtohismerits。Iwasaprisoner,aslave,acontemnedanddespicablebeing,thebuttofhersniggeringcountrymen。Iwouldtakethelesson:noprouddaughterofmyfoesshouldhavethechancetomockatmeagain;noneinthefutureshouldhavethechancetothinkIhadlookedatherwithadmiration。Youcannotimagineanyoneofamoreresoluteandindependentspirit,orwhosebosomwasmorewhollymailedwithpatrioticarrogance,thanI。BeforeIdroppedasleep,IhadrememberedalltheinfamiesofBritain,anddebitedtheminanoverwhelmingcolumntoFlora。
Thenextday,asIsatinmyplace,Ibecameconscioustherewassomeonestandingnear;andbehold,itwasherself!Ikeptmyseat,atfirstintheconfusionofmymind,lateronfrompolicy;
andshestood,andleanedalittleoverme,asinpity。Shewasverystillandtimid;hervoicewaslow。DidIsufferinmycaptivity?sheaskedme。HadItocomplainofanyhardship?”Mademoiselle,Ihavenotlearnedtocomplain”saidI。”IamasoldierofNapoleon。”
Shesighed。”AtleastyoumustregretLAFRANCE”saidshe,andcolouredalittleasshepronouncedthewords,whichshedidwithaprettystrangenessofaccent。”WhatamItosay?”Ireplied。”Ifyouwerecarriedfromthiscountry,forwhichyouseemsowhollysuited,wheretheveryrainsandwindsseemtobecomeyoulikeornaments,wouldyouregret,doyouthink?Wemustsurelyallregret!thesontohismother,themantohiscountry;thesearenativefeelings。””Youhaveamother?”sheasked。”Inheaven,mademoiselle”Ianswered。”She,andmyfatheralso,wentbythesameroadtoheavenassomanyothersofthefairandbrave:theyfollowedtheirqueenuponthescaffold。So,yousee,I
amnotsomuchtobepitiedinmyprison”Icontinued:”therearenonetowaitforme;Iamaloneintheworld。”Tisadifferentcase,forinstance,withyonpoorfellowintheclothcap。Hisbedisnexttomine,andinthenightIhearhimsobbingtohimself。
Hehasatendercharacter,fulloftenderandprettysentiments;
andinthedarkatnight,andsometimesbydaywhenhecangetmeapartwithhim,helamentsamotherandasweetheart。Doyouknowwhatmadehimtakemeforaconfidant?”
Shepartedherlipswithalook,butdidnotspeak。Thelookburnedallthroughmewithasuddenvitalheat。”BecauseIhadonceseen,inmarchingby,thebelfryofhisvillage!”Icontinued。”Thecircumstanceisquaintenough。Itseemstobindupintoonethewholebundleofthosehumaninstinctsthatmakelifebeautiful,andpeopleandplacesdear-andfromwhichitwouldseemIamcutoff!”
Irestedmychinonmykneeandlookedbeforemeontheground。I
hadbeentalkinguntilthentoholdher;butIwasnownotsorrysheshouldgo:animpressionisathingsodelicatetoproduceandsoeasytooverthrow!Presentlysheseemedtomakeaneffort。”Iwilltakethistoy”shesaid,laidafive-and-sixpennypieceinmyhand,andwasgoneereIcouldthankher。
Iretiredtoaplaceapartneartherampartsandbehindagun。Thebeauty,theexpressionofhereyes,thetearthathadtrembledthere,thecompassioninhervoice,andakindofwildelegancethatconsecratedthefreedomofhermovements,allcombinedtoenslavemyimaginationandinflamemyheart。Whathadshesaid?
Nothingtosignify;buthereyeshadmetmine,andthefiretheyhadkindledburnedinextinguishablyinmyveins。Ilovedher;andIdidnotfeartohope。TwiceIhadspokenwithher;andinbothinterviewsIhadbeenwellinspired,Ihadengagedhersympathies,Ihadfoundwordsthatshemustremember,thatwouldringinherearsatnightuponherbed。WhatmatteredifIwerehalfshavedandmyclothesacaricature?Iwasstillaman,andIhaddrawnmyimageonhermemory。Iwasstillaman,and,asItrembledtorealise,shewasstillawoman。Manywaterscannotquenchlove;
andlove,whichisthelawoftheworld,wasonmyside。Iclosedmyeyes,andshespranguponthebackgroundofthedarkness,morebeautifulthaninlife。”Ah!”thoughtI,”andyoutoo,mydear,youtoomustcarryawaywithyouapicture,thatyouarestilltobeholdagainandstilltoembellish。Inthedarknessofnight,inthestreetsbyday,stillyouaretohavemyvoiceandface,whispering,makingloveforme,encroachingonyourshyheart。Shyasyourheartis,ITislodgedthere-Iamlodgedthere;letthehoursdotheiroffice-lettimecontinuetodrawmeeverinmorelively,everinmoreinsidiouscolours。”AndthenIhadavisionofmyself,andburstoutlaughing。
Alikelything,indeed,thatabeggar-man,aprivatesoldier,aprisonerinayellowtravesty,wastoawaketheinterestofthisfairgirl!Iwouldnotdespair;butIsawthegamemustbeplayedfineandclose。Itmustbemypolicytoholdmyselfbeforeher,alwaysinapatheticorpleasingattitude;nevertoalarmorstartleher;tokeepmyownsecretlockedinmybosomlikeastoryofdisgrace,andlethersifshecouldbeinducedtohaveone
growatitsownrate;tomovejustsofast,andnotbyahair”s-
breadthanyfaster,thantheinclinationofherheart。Iwastheman,andyetIwaspassive,tiedbythefootinprison。Icouldnotgotoher;Imustcastaspelluponherateachvisit,sothatsheshouldreturntome;andthiswasamatterofnicemanagement。
Ihaddoneitthelasttime-itseemedimpossiblesheshouldnotcomeagainafterourinterview;andforthenextIhadspeedilyripenedafreshplan。Aprisoner,ifhehasonegreatdisabilityforalover,hasyetoneconsiderableadvantage:thereisnothingtodistracthim,andhecanspendallhishoursripeninghisloveandpreparingitsmanifestations。Ihadbeenthensomedaysuponapieceofcarving,-nolessthantheemblemofScotland,theLionRampant。ThisIproceededtofinishwithwhatskillIwaspossessedof;andwhenatlastIcoulddonomoretoitand,youmaybesure,wasalreadyregrettingIhaddonesomuch,addedonthebasethefollowingdedication-
ALABELLEFLORA
LEPRISONNIERRECONNAISSANT
A。D。ST。Y。D。K。
Iputmyheartintothecarvingoftheseletters。Whatwasdonewithsomuchardour,itseemedscarcepossiblethatanyshouldbeholdwithindifference;andtheinitialswouldatleastsuggesttohermynoblebirth。Ithoughtitbettertosuggest:Ifeltthatmysterywasmystock-in-trade;thecontrastbetweenmyrankandmanners,betweenmyspeechandmyclothing,andthefactthatshecouldonlythinkofmebyacombinationofletters,mustalltendtoincreaseherinterestandengageherheart。
Thisdone,therewasnothingleftformebuttowaitandtohope。
Andthereisnothingfurtherfrommycharacter:inloveandinwar,Iamallfortheforwardmovement;andthesedaysofwaitingmademypurgatory。ItisafactthatIlovedheragreatdealbetterattheendofthem,forlovecomes,likebread,fromaperpetualrehandling。Andbesides,Iwasfallenintoapanicoffear。How,ifshecamenomore,howwasItocontinuetoenduremyemptydays?
howwasItofallbackandfindmyinterestinthemajor”slessons,thelieutenant”schess,inatwopennysaleinthemarket,orahalfpennyadditiontotheprisonfare?
Dayswentby,andweeks;Ihadnotthecouragetocalculate,andto-dayIhavenotthecouragetoremember;butatlastshewasthere。AtlastIsawherapproachmeinthecompanyofaboyaboutherownage,andwhomIdivinedatoncetobeherbrother。
Iroseandbowedinsilence。”Thisismybrother,Mr。RonaldGilchrist”saidshe。”Ihavetoldhimofyoursufferings。Heissosorryforyou!””ItismorethanIhavetherighttoask”Ireplied;”butamonggentlefolkthesegeneroussentimentsarenatural。IfyourbrotherandIweretomeetinthefield,weshouldmeetliketigers;butwhenheseesmeheredisarmedandhelpless,heforgetshisanimosity。”Atwhich,asIhadventuredtoexpect,thisbeardlesschampioncolouredtotheearsforpleasure。”Ah,mydearyounglady”Icontinued,”therearemanyofyourcountrymenlanguishinginmycountry,evenasIdohere。IcanbuthopethereisfoundsomeFrenchladytoconveytoeachofthemthepricelessconsolationofhersympathy。Youhavegivenmealms;andmorethanalms-hope;andwhileyouwereabsentIwasnotforgetful。SuffermetobeabletotellmyselfthatIhaveatleasttriedtomakeareturn;andfortheprisoner”ssakedeigntoacceptthistrifle。”
Sosaying,Iofferedhermylion,whichshetook,lookedatinsomeembarrassment,andthen,catchingsightofthededication,brokeoutwithacry。”Why,howdidyouknowmyname?”sheexclaimed。”Whennamesaresoappropriate,theyshouldbeeasilyguessed”
saidI,bowing。”Butindeed,therewasnomagicinthematter。A
ladycalledyoubynameonthedayIfoundyourhandkerchief,andI
wasquicktoremarkandcherishit。””Itisvery,verybeautiful”saidshe,”andIshallbealwaysproudoftheinscription-Come,Ronald,wemustbegoing。”Shebowedtomeasaladybowstoherequal,andpassedonIcouldhaveswornwithaheightenedcolour。
Iwasoverjoyed:myinnocentrusehadsucceeded;shehadtakenmygiftwithoutahintofpayment,andshewouldscarcesleepinpeacetillshehadmadeituptome。Nogreenhorninmattersoftheheart,IwasbesidesawarethatIhadnowaresidentambassadoratthecourtofmylady。Thelionmightbeillchiselled;itwasmine。Myhandshadmadeandheldit;myknife-or,tospeakmorebythemark,myrustynail-hadtracedthoseletters;andsimpleasthewordswere,theywouldkeeprepeatingtoherthatIwasgratefulandthatIfoundherfair。Theboyhadlookedlikeagawky,andblushedatacompliment;Icouldseebesidesthatheregardedmewithconsiderablesuspicion;yethemadesomanlyafigureofalad,thatIcouldnotwithholdfromhimmysympathy。
Andasfortheimpulsethathadmadeherbringandintroducehim,I
couldnotsufficientlyadmireit。Itseemedtomefinerthanwit,andmoretenderthanacaress。Itsaidplainaslanguage,”IdonotandIcannotknowyou。Hereismybrother-youcanknowhim;
thisisthewaytome-followit。”
CHAPTERII-ATALEOFAPAIROFSCISSORS
IWASstillplungedinthesethoughtswhenthebellwasrungthatdischargedourvisitorsintothestreet。Ourlittlemarketwasnosoonerclosedthanweweresummonedtothedistribution,andreceivedourrations,whichwewerethenallowedtoeataccordingtofancyinanypartofourquarters。
Ihavesaidtheconductofsomeofourvisitorswasunbearablyoffensive;itwaspossiblymoresothantheydreamed-asthesight-seersatamenageriemayoffendinathousandways,andquitewithoutmeaningit,thenobleandunfortunateanimalsbehindthebars;andthereisnodoubtbutsomeofmycompatriotsweresusceptiblebeyondreason。Someoftheseoldwhiskerandos,originallypeasants,trainedsinceboyhoodinvictoriousarmies,andaccustomedtomoveamongsubjectandtremblingpopulations,couldillbrooktheirchangeofcircumstance。TherewasonemanofthenameofGoguelat,abruteofthefirstwater,whohadenjoyednotouchofcivilisationbeyondthemilitarydiscipline,andhadrisenbyanextremeheroismofbraverytoagradeforwhichhewasotherwiseunfitted-thatofMARECHALDESLOGISinthe22ndoftheline。Insofarasabrutecanbeagoodsoldier,hewasagoodsoldier;theCrosswasonhisbreast,andgallantlyearned;butinallthingsoutsidehislineofdutythemanwasnootherthanabrawling,bruisingignorantpillaroflowpothouses。Asagentlemanbybirth,andascholarbytasteandeducation,Iwasthetypeofallthatheleastunderstoodandmostdetested;andthemereviewofourvisitorswouldleavehimdailyinatransportofannoyance,whichhewouldmakehastetowreakonthenearestvictim,andtoooftenonmyself。
Itwassonow。Ourrationswerescarceservedout,andIhadjustwithdrawnintoacorneroftheyard,whenIperceivedhimdrawingnear。Heworeanairofhatefulmirth;asetofyoungfools,amongwhomhepassedforawit,followedhimwithlooksofexpectation;
andIsawIwasabouttobetheobjectofsomeofhisinsufferablepleasantries。Hetookaplacebesideme,spreadouthisrations,dranktomederisivelyfromhismeasureofprisonbeer,andbegan。
Whathesaiditwouldbeimpossibletoprint;buthisadmirers,whobelievedtheirwittohavesurpassedhimself,actuallyrolledamongthegravel。Formypart,IthoughtatfirstIshouldhavedied。I
hadnotdreamedthewretchwassoobservant;buthatesharpenstheears,andhehadcountedourinterviewsandactuallyknewFlorabyhername。Graduallymycoolnessreturnedtome,accompaniedbyavolumeoflivingangerthatsurprisedmyself。”Areyounearlydone?”Iasked。”Becauseifyouare,Iamabouttosayawordortwomyself。””Oh,fairplay!”saidhe。”Turnabout!TheMarquisofCarabastothetribune。””Verywell”saidI。”IhavetoinformyouthatIamagentleman。
Youdonotknowwhatthatmeans,hey?Well,Iwilltellyou。Itisacomicalsortofanimal;springsfromanotherstrangesetofcreaturestheycallancestors;and,incommonwithtoadsandothervermin,hasathingthathecallsfeelings。Thelionisagentleman;hewillnottouchcarrion。Iamagentleman,andI
cannotbeartosoilmyfingerswithsuchalumpofdirt。Sitstill,PhilippeGoguelat!sitstillanddonotsayaword,orI
shallknowyouareacoward;theeyesofourguardsareuponus。
Hereisyourhealth!”saidI,andpledgedhimintheprisonbeer。”Youhavechosentospeakinacertainwayofayoungchild”I
continued,”whomightbeyourdaughter,andwhowasgivingalmstomeandsomeothersofusmendicants。IftheEmperor”-saluting-”ifmyEmperorcouldhearyou,hewouldpluckofftheCrossfromyourgrossbody。Icannotdothat;IcannottakeawaywhatHisMajestyhasgiven;butonethingIpromiseyou-Ipromiseyou,Goguelat,youshallbedeadto-night。”
Ihadbornesomuchfromhiminthepast,Ibelievehethoughttherewasnoendtomyforbearance,andhewasatfirstamazed。
ButIhavethepleasuretothinkthatsomeofmyexpressionshadpiercedthroughhisthickhide;andbesides,thebrutewastrulyaheroofvalour,andlovedfightingforitself。Whateverthecause,atleast,hehadsoonpulledhimselftogether,andtookthethingtodohimjusticehandsomely。”AndIpromiseyou,bythedevil”shorns,thatyoushallhavethechance!”saidhe,andpledgedmeagain;andagainIdidhimscrupuloushonour。
Thenewsofthisdefiancespreadfromprisonertoprisonerwiththespeedofwings;everyfacewasseentobeilluminatedlikethoseofthespectatorsatahorse-race;andindeedyoumustfirsthavetastedtheactivelifeofasoldier,andthenmoulderedforawhileinthetediumofajail,inordertounderstand,perhapseventoexcuse,thedelightofourcompanions。GoguelatandIsleptinthesamesquad,whichgreatlysimplifiedthebusiness;andacommitteeofhonourwasaccordinglyformedofourshed-mates。Theychoseforpresidentasergeant-majorinthe4thDragoons,agreybeardofthearmy,anexcellentmilitarysubject,andagoodman。Hetookthemostseriousviewofhisfunctions,visitedusboth,andreportedourrepliestothecommittee。Minewasofadecentfirmness。I
toldhimtheyoungladyofwhomGoguelathadspokenhadonseveraloccasionsgivenmealms。Iremindedhimthat,ifwewerenowreducedtoholdoutourhandsandsellpill-boxesforcharity,itwassomethingverynewforsoldiersoftheEmpire。Wehadallseenbanditsstandingatacornerofawoodtrucklingforcopperhalfpence,andaftertheirbenefactorsweregonespittingoutinjuriesandcurses。”But”saidI,”Itrustthatnoneofuswillfallsolow。AsaFrenchmanandasoldier,Iowethatyoungchildgratitude,andamboundtoprotecthercharacter,andtosupportthatofthearmy。Youaremyelderandmysuperior:tellmeifI
amnotright。”
Hewasaquiet-manneredoldfellow,andpattedmewiththreefingersontheback。”C”ESTBIEN,MONENFANT”sayshe,andreturnedtohiscommittee。
Goguelatwasnomoreaccommodatingthanmyself。”Idonotlikeapologiesnorthosethatmakethem”washisonlyanswer。Andthereremainednothingbuttoarrangethedetailsofthemeeting。
Sofarasregardsplaceandtimewehadnochoice;wemustsettlethedisputeatnight,inthedark,afteraroundhadpassedby,andintheopenmiddleoftheshedunderwhichweslept。Thequestionofarmswasmoreobscure。Wehadagoodmanytools,indeed,whichweemployedinthemanufactureofourtoys;buttheywerenoneofthemsuitedforasinglecombatbetweencivilisedmen,and,beingnondescript,itwasfoundextremelyhardtoequalisethechancesofthecombatants。Atlengthapairofscissorswasunscrewed;andacoupleoftoughwandsbeingfoundinacornerofthecourtyard,onebladeofthescissorswaslashedsolidlytoeachwithresinedtwine-thetwinecomingIknownotwhence,buttheresinfromthegreenpillarsoftheshed,whichstillsweatedfromtheaxe。Itwasastrangethingtofeelinone”shandthisweapon,whichwasnoheavierthanariding-rod,andwhichitwasdifficulttosupposewouldprovemoredangerous。Ageneraloathwasadministeredandtaken,thatnooneshouldinterfereintheduelnorsupposeittoresultseriouslybetraythenameofthesurvivor。Andwiththat,allbeingthenready,wecomposedourselvestoawaitthemoment。
Theeveningfellcloudy;notastarwastobeseenwhenthefirstroundofthenightpassedthroughourshedandwoundoffalongtheramparts;andaswetookourplaces,wecouldstillhear,overthemurmursofthesurroundingcity,thesentrieschallengingitsfurtherpassage。Leclos,thesergeant-major,setusinourstations,engagedourwands,andleftus。Toavoidblood-stainedclothing,myadversaryandIhadstrippedtotheshoes;andthechillofthenightenvelopedourbodieslikeawetsheet。Themanwasbetteratfencingthanmyself;hewasvastlytallerthanI,beingofastaturealmostgigantic,andproportionatelystrong。Intheinkyblacknessoftheshed,itwasimpossibletoseehiseyes;
andfromthesupplenessofthewands,Ididnotliketotrusttoaparade。Imadeupmymindaccordinglytoprofit,ifImight,bymydefect;andassoonasthesignalshouldbegiven,tothrowmyselfdownandlungeatthesamemoment。Itwastoplaymylifeupononecard:shouldInotmortallywoundhim,nodefencewouldbeleftme;
whatwasyetmoreappalling,Ithusrantheriskofbringingmyownfaceagainsthisscissorwiththedoubleforceofourassaults,andmyfaceandeyesarenotthatpartofmethatIwouldthemostreadilyexpose。”ALLEZ!”saidthesergeant-major。
Bothlungedinthesamemomentwithanequalfury,andbutformymanoeuvrebothhadcertainlybeenspitted。Asitwas,hedidnomorethanstrikemyshoulder,whilemyscissorplungedbelowthegirdleintoamortalpart;andthatgreatbulkofaman,fallingfromhiswholeheight,knockedmeimmediatelysenseless。
WhenIcametomyselfIwaslaidinmyownsleeping-place,andcouldmakeoutinthedarknesstheoutlineofperhapsadozenheadscrowdedaroundme。Isatup。”Whatisit?”Iexclaimed。”Hush!”saidthesergeant-major。”BlessedbeGod,alliswell。”I
felthimclaspmyhand,andthereweretearsinhisvoice。””Tisbutascratch,mychild;hereispapa,whoistakinggoodcareofyou。Yourshoulderisboundup;wehavedressedyouinyourclothesagain,anditwillallbewell。”
AtthisIbegantoremember。”AndGoguelat?”Igasped。”Hecannotbeartobemoved;hehashisbellyful;”tisabadbusiness”saidthesergeant-major。
Theideaofhavingkilledamanwithsuchaninstrumentashalfapairofscissorsseemedtoturnmystomach。IamsureImighthavekilledadozenwithafirelock,asabre,abayonet,oranyacceptedweapon,andbeenvisitedbynosuchsicknessofremorse。Andtothisfeelingeveryunusualcircumstanceofourrencounter,thedarknessinwhichwehadfought,ournakedness,eventheresinonthetwine,appearedtocontribute。Irantomyfallenadversary,kneeledbyhim,andcouldonlysobhisname。
Hebademecomposemyself。”Youhavegivenmethekeyofthefields,comrade”saidhe。”SANSRANCUNE!”
Atthismyhorrorredoubled。HerehadwetwoexpatriatedFrenchmenengagedinanill-regulatedcombatlikethebattlesofbeasts。
Herewashe,whohadbeenallhislifesogreataruffian,dyinginaforeignlandofthisignobleinjury,andmeetingdeathwithsomethingofthespiritofaBayard。Iinsistedthattheguardsshouldbesummonedandadoctorbrought。”Itmaystillbepossibletosavehim”Icried。
Thesergeant-majorremindedmeofourengagement。”Ifyouhadbeenwounded”saidhe,”youmusthavelaintheretillthepatrolcamebyandfoundyou。IthappenstobeGoguelat-andsomusthe!
Come,child,timetogotoby-by。”AndasIstillresisted,”Champdivers!”hesaid,”thisisweakness。Youpainme。””Ay,offtoyourbedswithyou!”saidGoguelat,andnamedusinacompanywithoneofhisjovialgrossepithets。
Accordinglythesquadlaydowninthedarkandsimulated,whattheycertainlywerefarfromexperiencing,sleep。Itwasnotyetlate。
Thecity,fromfarbelow,andallaroundus,sentupasoundofwheelsandfeetandlivelyvoices。Yetawhile,andthecurtainofthecloudwasrentacross,andinthespaceofskybetweentheeavesoftheshedandtheirregularoutlineoftherampartsamultitudeofstarsappeared。Meantime,inthemidstofuslayGoguelat,andcouldnotalwayswithholdhimselffromgroaning。
Weheardtheroundfaroff;hearditdrawslowlynearer。Lastofall,itturnedthecornerandmovedintoourfieldofvision:twofileofmenandacorporalwithalantern,whichheswungtoandfro,soastocastitslightintherecessesoftheyardsandsheds。”Hullo!”criedthecorporal,pausingashecamebyGoguelat。
Hestoopedwithhislantern。Allourheartswereflying。”Whatdevil”sworkisthis?”hecried,andwithastartlingvoicesummonedtheguard。
Wewereallafootupontheinstant;morelanternsandsoldierscrowdedinfrontoftheshed;anofficerelbowedhiswayin。Inthemidstwasthebignakedbody,soiledwithblood。Someonehadcoveredhimwithhisblanket;butashelaythereinagony,hehadpartlythrownitoff。”Thisismurder!”criedtheofficer。”Youwildbeasts,youwillhearofthisto-morrow。”
AsGoguelatwasraisedandlaiduponastretcher,hecriedtousacheerfulandblasphemousfarewell。
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GOESOUT
THEREwasneveranytalkofarecovery,andnotimewaslostingettingtheman”sdeposition。Hegavebuttheoneaccountofit:
thathehadcommittedsuicidebecausehewassickofseeingsomanyEnglishmen。Thedoctorvoweditwasimpossible,thenatureanddirectionofthewoundforbiddingit。Goguelatrepliedthathewasmoreingeniousthantheotherthoughtfor,andhadproppeduptheweaponinthegroundandfallenonthepoint-”justlikeNebuchadnezzar”headded,winkingtotheassistants。Thedoctor,whowasalittle,spruce,ruddymanofanimpatienttemper,pishedandpshawedandsworeoverhispatient。”Nothingtobemadeofhim!”hecried。”Aperfectheathen。Ifwecouldonlyfindtheweapon!”Buttheweaponhadceasedtoexist。Alittleresinedtwinewasperhapsblowingaboutinthecastlegutters;somebitsofbrokenstickmayhavetrailedincorners;andbehold,inthepleasantairofthemorning,adandyprisonertrimminghisnailswithapairofscissors!
Findingthewoundedmansofirm,youmaybesuretheauthoritiesdidnotleavetherestofusinpeace。Nostonewasleftunturned。
Wewerehadinagainandagaintobeexamined,nowsingly,nowintwosandthrees。Wewerethreatenedwithallsortsofimpossibleseveritiesandtemptedwithallmannerofimprobablerewards。I
supposeIwasfivetimesinterrogated,andcameofffromeachwithflyingcolours。IamlikeoldSouvaroff,Icannotunderstandasoldierbeingtakenabackbyanyquestion;heshouldanswer,ashemarchesonthefire,withaninstantbrisknessandgaiety。Imayhavebeenshortofbread,goldorgrace;Iwasneveryetfoundwantinginananswer。Mycomrades,iftheywerenotallsoready,werenoneofthemlessstaunch;andImaysayhereatoncethattheinquirycametonothingatthetime,andthedeathofGoguelatremainedamysteryoftheprison。SuchweretheveteransofFrance!AndyetIshouldbedisingenuousifIdidnotownthiswasacaseapart;inordinarycircumstances,someonemighthavestumbledorbeenintimidatedintoanadmission;andwhatboundustogetherwithaclosenessbeyondthatofmerecomradeswasasecrettowhichwewereallcommittedandadesigninwhichallwereequallyengaged。Noneedtoinquireastoitsnature:thereisonlyonedesire,andonlyonekindofdesign,thatbloomsinprisons。Andthefactthatourtunnelwasneardonesupportedandinspiredus。
Icameoffinpublic,asIhavesaid,withflyingcolours;thesittingsofthecourtofinquirydiedawaylikeatunethatnoonelistensto;andyetIwasunmasked-I,whommyveryadversarydefended,asgoodasconfessed,asgoodastoldthenatureofthequarrel,andbysodoingpreparedformyselfinthefutureamostanxious,disagreeableadventure。Itwasthethirdmorningaftertheduel,andGoguelatwasstillinlife,whenthetimecameroundformetogiveMajorChevenixalesson。Iwasfondofthisoccupation;notthathepaidmemuch-nomore,indeed,thaneighteenpenceamonth,thecustomaryfigure,beingamiserinthegrain;butbecauseIlikedhisbreakfastsandtosomeextent
himself。Atleast,hewasamanofeducation;andoftheotherswithwhomIhadanyopportunityofspeech,thosethatwouldnothaveheldabookupsidedownwouldhavetornthepagesoutforpipe-
lights。ForImustrepeatagainthatourbodyofprisonerswasexceptional:therewasinEdinburghCastlenoneofthateducationalbusynessthatdistinguishedsomeoftheotherprisons,sothatmenenteredthemunabletoread,andleftthemfitforhighemployments。Chevenixwashandsome,andsurprisinglyyoungtobeamajor:sixfeetinhisstockings,wellsetup,withregularfeaturesandverycleargreyeyes。Itwasimpossibletopickafaultinhim,andyetthesum-totalwasdispleasing。Perhapshewastooclean;heseemedtobearaboutwithhimthesmellofsoap。
Cleanlinessisgood,butIcannotbearaman”snailstoseemjapanned。Andcertainlyhewastooself-possessedandcold。Therewasnoneofthefireofyouth,noneoftheswiftnessofthesoldier,inthisyoungofficer。Hiskindnesswascold,andcruelcold;hisdeliberationexasperating。Andperhapsitwasfromthischaracter,whichisverymuchtheoppositeofmyown,thateveninthesedays,whenhewasofservicetome,Iapproachedhimwithsuspicionandreserve。
Ilookedoverhisexerciseintheusualform,andmarkedsixfaults。”H”m。Six”sayshe,lookingatthepaper。”Veryannoying!Icannevergetitright。””Oh,butyoumakeexcellentprogress!”Isaid。Iwouldnotdiscouragehim,youunderstand,buthewascongenitallyunabletolearnFrench。Somefire,Ithink,isneedful,andhehadquenchedhisfireinsoapsuds。
Heputtheexercisedown,leanedhischinuponhishand,andlookedatmewithclear,severeeyes。”Ithinkwemusthavealittletalk”saidhe。”Iamentirelyatyourdisposition”Ireplied;butIquaked,forI
knewwhatsubjecttoexpect。”Youhavebeensometimegivingmetheselessons”hewenton,”andIamtemptedtothinkratherwellofyou。Ibelieveyouareagentleman。””Ihavethathonour,sir”saidI。”Youhaveseenmeforthesameperiod。IdonotknowhowIstrikeyou;butperhapsyouwillbepreparedtobelievethatIalsoamamanofhonour”saidhe。”Irequirenoassurances;thethingismanifest”andIbowed。”Verywell,then”saidhe。”WhataboutthisGoguelat?””Youheardmeyesterdaybeforethecourt”Ibegan。”Iwasawakenedonly-””Ohyes;I“heardyouyesterdaybeforethecourt,“nodoubt”heinterrupted,”andIrememberperfectlythatyouwere“awakenedonly。”Icouldrepeatthemostofitbyrote,indeed。ButdoyousupposethatIbelievedyouforamoment?””NeitherwouldyoubelievemeifIweretorepeatithere”saidI。”Imaybewrong-weshallsoonsee”sayshe;”butmyimpressionisthatyouwillnot“repeatithere。”Myimpressionisthatyouhavecomeintothisroom,andthatyouwilltellmesomethingbeforeyougoout。”
Ishruggedmyshoulders。”Letmeexplain”hecontinued。”Yourevidence,ofcourse,isnonsense。Iputitby,andthecourtputitby。””Mycomplimentsandthanks!”saidI。”YouMUSTknow-that”stheshortandthelong”heproceeded。”AllofyouinshedBareboundtoknow。AndIwanttoaskyouwhereisthecommon-senseofkeepingupthisfarce,andmaintainingthiscock-and-bullstorybetweenfriends。Come,come,mygoodfellow,ownyourselfbeaten,andlaughatityourself。””Well,Ihearyou,goahead”saidI。”Youputyourheartinit。”
Hecrossedhislegsslowly。”Icanverywellunderstand”hebegan,”thatprecautionshavehadtobetaken。Idaresayanoathwasadministered。Icancomprehendthatperfectly。”Hewaswatchingmeallthetimewithhiscold,brighteyes。”AndIcancomprehendthat,aboutanaffairofhonour,youwouldbeveryparticulartokeepit。””Aboutanaffairofhonour?”Irepeated,likeamanquitepuzzled。”Itwasnotanaffairofhonour,then?”heasked。”Whatwasnot?Idonotfollow”saidI。
Hegavenosignofimpatience;simplysatawhilesilent,andbeganagaininthesameplacidandgood-naturedvoice:”ThecourtandI
wereatoneinsettingasideyourevidence。Itcouldnotdeceiveachild。Buttherewasadifferencebetweenmyselfandtheotherofficers,becauseIKNEWMYMANandtheydidnot。Theysawinyouacommonsoldier,andIknewyouforagentleman。Tothemyourevidencewasaleashoflies,whichtheyyawnedtohearyoutelling。Now,Iwasaskingmyself,howfarwillagentlemango?
Notsurelysofarastohelphushamurderup?Sothat-whenI
heardyoutellhowyouknewnothingofthematter,andwereonlyawakenedbythecorporal,andalltherestofit-Itranslatedyourstatementsintosomethingelse。Now,Champdivers”hecried,springinguplivelyandcomingtowardsmewithanimation,”Iamgoingtotellyouwhatthatwas,andyouaregoingtohelpmetoseejusticedone:how,Idon”tknow,forofcourseyouareunderoath-butsomehow。MarkwhatI”mgoingtosay。”
Atthatmomenthelaidaheavy,hardgripuponmyshoulder;andwhetherhesaidanythingmoreorcametoafullstopatonce,IamsureIcouldnottellyoutothisday。For,asthedevilwouldhaveit,theshoulderhelaidholdofwastheoneGoguelathadpinked。Thewoundwasbutascratch;itwashealingwiththefirstintention;butintheclutchofMajorChevenixitgavemeagony。
Myheadswam;thesweatpouredoffmyface;Imusthavegrowndeadlypale。
Heremovedhishandassuddenlyashehadlaiditthere。”Whatiswrongwithyou?”saidhe。”Itisnothing”saidI。”Aqualm。Ithasgoneby。””Areyousure?”saidhe。”Youareaswhiteasasheet。””Ohno,Iassureyou!Nothingwhatever。Iammyownmanagain”I
said,thoughIcouldscarcecommandmytongue。”Well,shallIgoonagain?”sayshe。”Canyoufollowme?””Oh,byallmeans!”saidI,andmoppedmystreamingfaceuponmysleeve,foryoumaybesureinthosedaysIhadnohandkerchief。”Ifyouaresureyoucanfollowme。Thatwasaverysuddenandsharpseizure”hesaiddoubtfully。”Butifyouaresure,allright,andheregoes。Anaffairofhonouramongyoufellowswould,naturally,bealittledifficulttocarryout,perhapsitwouldbeimpossibletohaveitwhollyregular。Andyetaduelmightbeveryirregularinform,and,underthepeculiarcircumstancesofthecase,loyalenoughineffect。Doyoutakeme?Now,asagentlemanandasoldier。”
Hishandroseagainatthewordsandhoveredoverme。Icouldbearnomore,andwincedawayfromhim。”No”Icried,”notthat。Donotputyourhanduponmyshoulder。Icannotbearit。Itisrheumatism”Imadehastetoadd。”Myshoulderisinflamedandverypainful。”
Hereturnedtohischairanddeliberatelylightedacigar。”Iamsorryaboutyourshoulder”hesaidatlast。”Letmesendforthedoctor。””Notintheleast”saidI。”Itisatrifle。Iamquiteusedtoit。Itdoesnottroublemeinthesmallest。Atanyrate,Idon”tbelieveindoctors。””Allright”saidhe,andsatandsmokedagoodwhileinasilencewhichIwouldhavegivenanythingtobreak。”Well”hebeganpresently,”Ibelievethereisnothingleftformetolearn。I
presumeImaysaythatIknowall。””Aboutwhat?”saidIboldly。”AboutGoguelat”saidhe。”Ibegyourpardon。Icannotconceive”saidI。”Oh”saysthemajor,”themanfellinaduel,andbyyourhand!I
amnotaninfant。””Bynomeans”saidI。”Butyouseemtometobeagooddealofatheorist。””Shallwetestit?”heasked。”Thedoctoriscloseby。Ifthereisnotanopenwoundonyourshoulder,Iamwrong。Ifthereis-”
Hewavedhishand。”ButIadviseyoutothinktwice。Thereisadeuceofanastydrawbacktotheexperiment-thatwhatmighthaveremainedprivatebetweenustwobecomespublicproperty。””Oh,well!”saidI,withalaugh,”anythingratherthanadoctor!
Icannotbearthebreed。”
Hislastwordshadagooddealrelievedme,butIwasstillfarfromcomfortable。
MajorChevenixsmokedawhile,lookingnowathiscigarash,nowatme。”I”masoldiermyself”hesayspresently,”andI”vebeenoutinmytimeandhitmyman。Idon”twanttorunanyoneintoacornerforanaffairthatwasatallnecessaryorcorrect。Atthesametime,Iwanttoknowthatmuch,andI”lltakeyourwordofhonourforit。Otherwise,Ishallbeverysorry,butthedoctormustbecalledin。””Ineitheradmitanythingnordenyanything”Ireturned。”Butifthisformofwordswillsufficeyou,hereiswhatIsay:Igiveyoumyparole,asagentlemanandasoldier,therehasnothingtakenplaceamongstusprisonersthatwasnothonourableastheday。””Allright”sayshe。”ThatwasallIwanted。Youcangonow,Champdivers。”
AndasIwasgoingoutheadded,withalaugh:”Bythebye,Ioughttoapologise:IhadnoideaIwasapplyingthetorture!”
Thesameafternoonthedoctorcameintothecourtyardwithapieceofpaperinhishand。Heseemedhotandangry,andhadcertainlynomindtobepolite。”Here!”hecried。”WhichofyoufellowsknowsanyEnglish?Oh!”-
spyingme-”thereyouare,what”syourname!YOU”LLdo。Tellthesefellowsthattheotherfellow”sdying。He”sbooked;nousetalking;Iexpecthe”llgobyevening。AndtellthemIdon”tenvythefeelingsofthefellowwhospikedhim。Tellthemthatfirst。”
Ididso。”Thenyoucantell”em”heresumed,”thatthefellow,Goggle-
what”shisname?-wantstoseesomeofthembeforehegetshismarchingorders。IfIgotitright,hewantstokissorembraceyou,orsomesickeningstuff。Gotthat?Thenhere”salisthe”shadwritten,andyou”dbetterreaditouttothem-Ican”tmakeheadortailofyourbeastlynames-andtheycananswerPRESENT,andfallinagainstthatwall。”
ItwaswithasingularmovementofincongruousfeelingsthatIreadthefirstnameonthelist。Ihadnowishtolookagainonmyownhandiwork;myfleshrecoiledfromtheidea;andhowcouldIbesurewhatreceptionhedesignedtogiveme?Thecurewasinmyownhand;Icouldpassthatfirstnameover-thedoctorwouldnotknow-andImightstayaway。Buttothesubsequentgreatgladnessofmyheart,Ididnotdwellforaninstantonthethought,walkedovertothedesignatedwall,facedabout,readoutthename”Champdivers”andansweredmyselfwiththeword”Present。”
Thereweresomehalfdozenonthelist,alltold;andassoonasweweremustered,thedoctorledthewaytothehospital,andwefollowedafter,likeafatigueparty,insinglefile。Atthedoorhepaused,toldus”thefellow”wouldseeeachofusalone,and,assoonasIhadexplainedthat,sentmebymyselfintotheward。Itwasasmallroom,whitewashed;asouthwindowstoodopenonavastdepthofairandaspaciousanddistantprospect;andfromdeepbelow,intheGrassmarketthevoicesofhawkerscameupclearandfaraway。Hardby,onalittlebed,layGoguelat。Thesunburnhadnotyetfadedfromhisface,andthestampofdeathwasalreadythere。Therewassomethingwildandunmannishinhissmile,thattookmebythethroat;onlydeathandloveknoworhaveeverseenit。Andwhenhespoke,itseemedtoshamehiscoarsetalk。
Heheldouthisarmsasiftoembraceme。Idrewnearwithincredibleshrinkings,andsurrenderedmyselftohisarmswithoverwhelmingdisgust。Butheonlydrewmyeardowntohislips。”Trustme”hewhispered。”JESUISBONBOUGRE,MOI。I”lltakeittohellwithme,andtellthedevil。”
WhyshouldIgoontoreproducehisgrossnessandtrivialities?
Allthathethought,atthathour,wasevennoble,thoughhecouldnotclotheitotherwisethaninthelanguageofabrutalfarce。
Presentlyhebademecallthedoctor;andwhenthatofficerhadcomein,raisedalittleupinhisbed,pointedfirsttohimselfandthentome,whostoodweepingbyhisside,andseveraltimesrepeatedtheexpression,”Frinds-frinds-damfrinds。”
Tomygreatsurprise,thedoctorappearedverymuchaffected。Henoddedhislittlebob-wiggedheadatus,andsaidrepeatedly,”Allright,Johnny-mecomprong。”
ThenGoguelatshookhandswithme,embracedmeagain,andIwentoutoftheroomsobbinglikeaninfant。
HowoftenhaveInotseenit,thatthemostunpardonablefellowsmakethehappiestexits!Itisafatewemaywellenvythem。
Goguelatwasdetestedinlife;inthelastthreedays,byhisadmirablestaunchnessandconsideration,hewoneveryheart;andwhenwordwentabouttheprisonthesameeveningthathewasnomore,thevoiceofconversationbecamehushedasinahouseofmourning。
FormyselfIwaslikeamandistracted;Icannotthinkwhatailedme:whenIawokethefollowingday,nothingremainedofit;butthatnightIwasfilledwithagloomyfuryofthenerves。Ihadkilledhim;hehaddonehisutmosttoprotectme;Ihadseenhimwiththatawfulsmile。Andsoillogicalanduselessisthissentimentofremorse,thatIwasready,atawordoralook,toquarrelwithsomebodyelse。Ipresumethedispositionofmymindwasimprintedonmyface;andwhen,alittleafter,Iovertook,salutedandaddressedthedoctor,helookedonmewithcommiserationandsurprise。
Ihadaskedhimifitwastrue。”Yes”hesaid,”thefellow”sgone。””Didhesuffermuch?”Iasked。”Devilabit;passedawaylikealamb”saidhe。Helookedonmealittle,andIsawhishandgotohisfob。”Here,takethat!nosenseinfretting”hesaid,and,puttingasilvertwo-penny-bitinmyhand,heleftme。
Ishouldhavehadthattwopennyframedtohanguponthewall,foritwastheman”soneactofcharityinallmyknowledgeofhim。
Insteadofthat,Istoodlookingatitinmyhandandlaughedoutbitterly,asIrealisedhismistake;thenwenttotheramparts,andflungitfarintotheairlikebloodmoney。Thenightwasfalling;
throughanembrasureandacrossthegardenedvalleyIsawthelamplightershastingalongPrincesStreetwithladderandlamp,andlookedonmoodily。AsIwassostandingahandwaslaiduponmyshoulder,andIturnedabout。ItwasMajorChevenix,dressedfortheevening,andhisneckclothreallyadmirablyfolded。Ineverdeniedthemancoulddress。”Ah!”saidhe,”Ithoughtitwasyou,Champdivers。Sohe”sgone?”
Inodded。”Come,come”saidhe,”youmustcheerup。Ofcourseit”sverydistressing,verypainfulandallthat。Butdoyouknow,itain”tsuchabadthingeitherforyouorme?WhatwithhisdeathandyourvisittohimIamentirelyreassured。”
SoIwastoowemylifetoGoguelatateverypoint。”Ihadrathernotdiscussit”saidI。”Well”saidhe,”onewordmore,andI”llagreetoburythesubject。Whatdidyoufightabout?””Oh,whatdomeneverfightabout?”Icried。”Alady?”saidhe。
Ishruggedmyshoulders。”Deuceyoudid!”saidhe。”Ishouldscarcehavethoughtitofhim。”
Andatthismyill-humourbrokefairlyoutinwords。”He!”I
cried。”Heneverdaredtoaddressher-onlytolookatherandvomithisvileinsults!Shemayhavegivenhimsixpence:ifshedid,itmaytakehimtoheavenyet!”
AtthisIbecameawareofhiseyessetuponmewithaconsideringlook,andbroughtupsharply。”Well,well”saidhe。”Goodnighttoyou,Champdivers。Cometomeatbreakfast-timeto-morrow,andwe”lltalkofothersubjects。”
Ifullyadmittheman”sconductwasnotbad:inwritingitdownsolongaftertheeventsIcanevenseethatitwasgood。
CHAPTERIV-ST。IVESGETSABUNDLEOFBANKNOTES
IWASsurprisedonemorning,shortlyafter,tofindmyselftheobjectofmarkedconsiderationbyacivilianandastranger。Thiswasamanofthemiddleage;hehadafaceofamulberrycolour,roundblackeyes,comicaltuftedeyebrows,andaprotuberantforehead;andwasdressedinclothesofaQuakerishcut。Inspiteofhisplainness,hehadthatinscrutableairofamanwell-to-doinhisaffairs。Iconceivedhehadbeensomewhileobservingmefromadistance,forasparrowsatbetwixtusquiteunalarmedonthebreechofapieceofcannon。Sosoonasoureyesmet,hedrewnearandaddressedmeintheFrenchlanguage,whichhespokewithagoodfluencybutanabominableaccent。”IhavethepleasureofaddressingMonsieurleVicomteAnnedeKeroualdeSaint-Yves?”saidhe。”Well”saidI,”Idonotcallmyselfallthat;butIhavearightto,ifIchose。InthemeanwhileIcallmyselfplainChampdivers,atyourdisposal。Itwasmymother”sname,andgoodtogosoldieringwith。””Ithinknotquite”saidhe;”forifIrememberrightly,yourmotheralsohadtheparticle。HernamewasFlorimondedeChampdivers。””Rightagain!”saidI,”andIamextremelypleasedtomeetagentlemansowellinformedinmyquarterings。IsmonsieurBornhimself?”ThisIsaidwithagreatairofassumption,partlytoconcealthedegreeofcuriositywithwhichmyvisitorhadinspiredme,andinpartbecauseitstruckmeashighlyincongruousandcomicalinmyprisongarbandonthelipsofaprivatesoldier。
Heseemedtothinksotoo,forhelaughed。”No,sir”hereturned,speakingthistimeinEnglish;”Iamnot“BORN,“asyoucallit,andmustcontentmyselfwithDYING,ofwhichIamequallysusceptiblewiththebestofyou。MynameisMr。Romaine-DanielRomaine-asolicitorofLondonCity,atyourservice;and,whatwillperhapsinterestyoumore,Iamhereattherequestofyourgreat-uncle,theCount。””What!”Icried,”doesM。deKeroualdeSt-Yvesremembertheexistenceofsuchapersonasmyself,andwillhedeigntocountkinshipwithasoldierofNapoleon?””YouspeakEnglishwell”observedmyvisitor。”Ithasbeenasecondlanguagetomefromachild”saidI。”IhadanEnglishnurse;myfatherspokeEnglishwithme;andIwasfinishedbyacountrymanofyoursandadearfriendofmine,aMr。
Vicary。”
Astrongexpressionofinterestcameintothelawyer”sface。”What!”hecried,”youknewpoorVicary?””Formorethanayear”saidI;”andsharedhishiding-placeformanymonths。””AndIwashisclerk,andhavesucceededhiminbusiness”saidhe。”Excellentman!ItwasontheaffairsofM。deKeroualthathewenttothataccursedcountry,fromwhichhewasneverdestinedtoreturn。Doyouchancetoknowhisend,sir?””Iamsorry”saidI,”Ido。Heperishedmiserablyatthehandsofagangofbanditti,suchaswecallCHAUFFEURS。Inaword,hewastortured,anddiedofit。See”Iadded,kickingoffoneshoe,forIhadnostockings;”Iwasnomorethanachild,andseehowtheyhadbeguntotreatmyself。”
Helookedatthemarkofmyoldburnwithacertainshrinking。”Beastlypeople!”Iheardhimmuttertohimself。”TheEnglishmaysaysowithagoodgrace”Iobservedpolitely。
SuchspeecheswerethecoininwhichIpaidmywayamongthiscredulousrace。Ninetypercent。ofourvisitorswouldhaveacceptedtheremarkasnaturalinitselfandcreditabletomypowersofjudgment,butitappearedmylawyerwasmoreacute。”Youarenotentirelyafool,Iperceive”saidhe。”No”saidI;”notwholly。””Andyetitiswelltobewareoftheironicalmood”hecontinued。”Itisadangerousinstrument。Yourgreat-unclehas,Ibelieve,practiseditverymuch,untilitisnowbecomeaproblemwhathemeans。””Andthatbringsmebacktowhatyouwilladmitisamostnaturalinquiry”saidI。”TowhatdoIowethepleasureofthisvisit?
howdidyourecogniseme?andhowdidyouknowIwashere?”
Carefullseparatinghiscoatskirts,thelawyertookaseatbesidemeontheedgeoftheflags。
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