Womenaresoromantic,andtheirimaginationsaresoeasilytouched!
Yes,herepliedbitterly。butthetroubleisthatIhavenotlostmyarm。
Istarted。Hespokebitterly,yetcalmly。Iawaitedhisexplanationingreatsuspense。
Tohavelostmyarminbattle,orevenbyanaccident,wouldperhapshavelentmeacharminwoman’seyes。But,asIsaid,myarmhangsbymyside——withered,unpresentable。
Ibreathedagain。Hecontinuedinthesametone,andwithoutnoticingmylooks。
Butitisnotthiswhichbanishesme。Woman’slovemightbehopedfor,hadIfarworseinfirmities。Thecauseliesdeeper。Itliesinmyhistory。Awallofgranitehasgrownupbetweenmeandthesex。
But,mydearfellow,doyou——wounded,asIpresumetoguess,bysomeunworthywoman——extendthefaultofonetothewholesex?Doyoudespairoffindinganothertrue,becauseafirstwasfalse?
Theyareallfalse,heexclaimedwithenergy。Not,perhaps,allfalsefrominherentviciousness,thoughmanyarethat,butfalsebecausetheirinherentweaknessrendersthemincapableoftruth。
Oh!Iknowthecatalogueoftheirgoodqualities。Theyareoftenpitiful,self-devoting,generous。buttheyaresobyfitsandstarts,justastheyarecruel,remorseless,exacting,byfitsandstarts。Theyhavenoconstancy——theyaretooweaktobeconstanteveninevil。theirmindsareallimpressions。theiractionsarealltheissueofimmediatepromptings。Swayedbythefleetingimpulsesofthehour,theyhaveonlyonepersistent,calculablemotiveonwhichreliancecanalwaysbeplaced——thatmotiveisvanity。youarealwayssureofthemthere。Itisfromvanitytheyaregood——fromvanitytheyareevil。theirdevotionandtheirdesertionequallyvanity。Iknowthem。Tometheyhavedisclosedtheshallowsoftheirnatures。God!howIhavesufferedfromthem!
Adeep,lowexclamation,halfsob,halfcurse,closedhistirade。
Heremainedsilentforafewminutes,lookingonthefloor,then,suddenlyturninghiseyesuponme,said:
WereyoueverinHeidelberg?
Never。
Ithoughtallyourcountrymenwentthere?Thenyouwillneverhaveheardanythingofmystory。ShallItellyouhowmyyouthwasblighted?Willyoucaretolisten?
Itwouldinterestmemuch。
Ihadreachedtheageofseven-and-twenty,hebegan,withouthavingonceknowneventhevaguestirringsofthepassionoflove。
Iadmiredmanywomen,andcourtedtheadmirationofthemall。butI
wasasyetnotonlyheart-whole,but,touseyourShakespeare’sphrase,Cupidhadnottappedmeontheshoulder。
Thisdetailisnotunimportantinmystory。Youmaypossiblyhaveobservedthatinthosepassionatenatureswhichreservetheirforce,anddonotfritterawaytheirfeelingsinscatteredflirtationsortriviallove-affairs,thereisavelocityandmomentum,whenthemovementofpassionisonceexcited,greatlytranscendingallthatiseverfeltbyexpansiveandexpressivenatures。Slowtobemoved,whentheydomoveitiswiththewholemassoftheheart。Soitwaswithme。Ipurchasedmyimmunityfromearlierentanglementsbythepriceofmywholelife。IamnotwhatIwas。Betweenmypastandpresentselfthereisagulf。thatgulfisdark,stormy,andprofound。Onthefarsidestandsayouthofhope,energy,ambition,anduncloudedhappiness,withgreatcapacitiesforloving。onthissideablightedmanhood,withnoprospectsbutsufferingandstorm。
Hepaused。Withaneffortheseemedtomasterthesuggestionswhichcrowdeduponhismemory,andcontinuedhisnarrativeinanequabletone。
IhadbeenforseveralweeksatHeidelberg。OneofmyintimatecompanionswasKestner,thearchitect,andheonedayproposedtointroducemetohissister-in-law,Ottilie,ofwhomhehadrepeatedlyspokentomeintermsofgreataffectionandesteem。
Wewent,andweweremostcordiallyreceived。OttiliejustifiedKestner’spraises。Pretty,butnotstrikinglyso——clever,butnotobtrusivelyso。hersoftdarkeyeswerefrankandwinning。hermannerwasgentleandretiring,withthatdashofsentimentalismwhichseemsnativetoallGermangirls,butwithoutanyoftheridiculousextravagancetoooftenseeninthem。IlikedherallthemorebecauseIwasperfectlyatmyeasewithher,andthiswasrarelythecaseinmyrelationstoyoungwomen。Idon’tenjoytheirsociety。
Youleapatoncetotheconclusionthatwefellinlove。Yourconclusionisprecipitate。Seeinghercontinually,Igrewtoadmireandrespecther。butthesignificantsmiles,winks,andhintsoffriends,pointingunmistakablyatasupposedunderstandingexistingbetweenus,onlymadememoreseriouslyexaminethestateofmyfeelings,andassuredmethatIwasnotinlove。ItistruethatIfeltaserenepleasureinhersociety,andthatwhenawayfromhersheoccupiedmuchofmythoughts。ItistruethatIoftenthoughtofherasawife。andinthesemeditationssheappearedasoneeminentlycalculatedtomakeahappyhome。ButitisnolesstruethatduringatemporaryabsenceofhersofafewweeksIfeltnosortofuneasiness,noyearningforherpresence,novacancyinmylife。Iknew,therefore,thatitwasnotlovewhichIfelt。
Somuchformyfeelings。Whatofhers?Theyseemedverylikemyown。Thatsheadmiredme,andwaspleasedtobewithme,wascertain。ThatshehadaparticleoffieryloveformeIdidnot,couldnotbelieve。Anditwasprobablythisverysenseofhercalmnesswhichkeptmyfeelingsquiet。Forloveisaflamewhichoftencanbekindledonlybycontactwithflame。Certainlythisissoinproud,reservednatures,whicharechilledbyanycontactwithtemperaturenothigherthantheirown。
Onherreturn,however,fromthatabsenceIhavementioned,Iwasnotalittleflutteredbyanobviouschangeinhermanner。animpressionwhichsubsequentmeetingsonlyservedtoconfirm。
Althoughstillveryquiet,hermannerhadbecomemoretender,andithadthatdeliciousshynesswhichisthemostexquisiteofflatteries,asitisoneofthemostenchantingofgraces。Isawhertrembleslightlybeneathmyvoice,andblushbeneathmygaze。
Therewasnomistakingthesesigns。Itwasclearthatshelovedme。anditwasnolessclearthatI,takingfireatthisdiscovery,wasmyselfrapidlyfallinginlove。Iwillnotkeepyoufrommystorybyidlereflections。Takeanothercigar。Heroseandpacedupanddowntheroominsilence。
VII
AGALMA
AtthisjuncturetherearrivedfromParisthewomantowhomthegreatsorrowofmylifeisdue。Afatalistmightreadinherappearanceatthisparticularmomentthesignsofaprearrangeddoom。Afewweekslater,andherarrivalwouldhavebeenharmless。
Ishouldhavebeenshieldedfromallexternalinfluencebytheabsorbingforceoflove。But,alas!thiswasnottobe。Myfatehadtakenanotherdirection。Thewomanhadarrivedwhoseshadowwastodarkentherestofmyexistence。ThatwomanwasAgalmaLiebenstein。
Howisitthattheheadwhichwecanonlyseesurroundedwithahalo,orashadow,whenthesplendorsofachievementortheinfamyofshameinstructoureyes,isbytheuninstructedeyeobservedaswhollyvulgar?Weallprofesstobephysiognomists。howisitwearesolamentablymistakeninourjudgments?Herewasawomaninwhommyignoranteyessawnothingatallremarkableexceptgoldenhairofunusualbeauty。WhenIsaygolden,Iamnotspeakingloosely。Idonotmeanredorflaxenhair,buthairactuallyresemblingburnishedgoldmorethananythingelse。Itsripplesonherbrowcaughtthelightlikeacoronet。Thiswasheronebeauty,anditwassuperb。Fortherest,herfeatureswerecharacterless。
Herfigurewastallandfull。notgraceful,butsweepinglyimposing。AtfirstInoticednothingaboutherexceptthebraidedsplendorofherglorioushair。
Herose,andwentintohisbedroom,fromwhichhereturnedwithasmalltrinket-boxinhishand。Thishelaidopenonthetable,disclosingalongstrandofexquisitefairhairlyingonacushionofdark-bluevelvet。
Lookatthat,hesaid。Mightitnothavebeencutfromanangel’shead?
Itiscertainlywonderful。
ItmusthavebeenhairlikethiswhichcrownedtheinfamousheadofLucreziaBorgia,hesaid,bitterly。She,too,hadgoldenhair。buthersmusthavebeenofpalertint,likehernature。
Heresumedhisseat,and,fixinghiseyesuponthelock,continued:
ShewasoneofOttilie’sfriends——dearfriends,theycalledeachother,——whichmeantthattheykissedeachotherprofusely,andtoldeachotheralltheirsecrets,orasmuchasthelyingnatureofthesexpermittedandsuggested。Itis,ofcourse,impossibleformetodisentanglemypresentknowledgefrommypastimpressionssoastogiveyouacleardescriptionofwhatIthenthoughtofAgalma。
Enoughthat,asamatteroffact,Idistinctlyremembernottohaveadmiredher,andtohavetoldOttilieso。andwhenOttilie,insurpriseatmyinsensibility,assuredmethatmenwereingeneralwonderfullycharmedwithherthough,forherpart,shehadneverunderstoodwhy,Ianswered,andansweredsincerely,thatitmightbetruewiththelessrefinedorderofmen,butmenoftastewouldcertainlyberatherrepelledfromher。
Thisopinionofmine,orsomereportofit,reachedAgalma。
Itmayhavebeentheproximatecauseofmysorrows。Withoutthisstimulustohervanity,shemighthaveleftmeundisturbed。I
don’tknow。AllIknowis,thatovermanymenAgalmaexercisedgreatinfluence,andthatovermesheexercisedthespelloffascination。Nootherwordwillexplainherinfluence。foritwasnotbasedonexcellencessuchasthemindcouldrecognizetobeattractions。itwasbasedonamysteriouspersonalpower,somethingawfulinitsmysteriousness,asalldemoniacpowersare。OnesourceofherinfluenceovermenIthinkIcanexplain:sheatoncecaptivatedandrepelledthem。Byartfulappealstotheirvanity,shemadetheminterestedinherandinheropinionofthem,andyetkeptherselfinaccessiblebyapridewhichwasthemorefascinatingbecauseitalwaysseemedabouttogiveway。Herinstinctfastenedupontheweakpointinthosesheapproached。Thismadeherseductivetomen,becausesheflatteredtheirweakpoints。andhatefultowomen,becauseshefloutedanddisclosedtheirweakpoints。
Herinfluenceovermebeganinthefollowingway。Oneday,atapicnic,havingbeenledbyherintoaconversationrespectingtherelativeinferiorityofthefeminineintellect,Iwasforcedtospeakrathermoreearnestlythanusual,whensuddenlysheturnedtomeandexclaimedinalowervoice:
’Iamwillingtocreditanythingyousay。onlypraydon’tcontinuetalkingtomesoearnestly。’
’Whynot?’Iasked,surprised。
Shelookedatmewithpeculiarsignificance,butremainedsilent。
’MayIaskwhynot?’Iasked。
’Because,ifyoudo,somebodymaybejealous。’Therewasalaughingdefianceinhereyeasshespoke。
’Andpray,whohasarighttobejealousofme?’
’Oh!youknowwellenough。’
Itwastrue。Ididknow。andsheknewthatIknewit。TomyshamebeitsaidthatIwasweakenoughtoyieldtoanequivocationwhichInowseetohavebeendisloyal,butwhichIthenpretendedtohavebeennomorethandelicacytoOttilie。As,inpointoffact,therehadneverbeenawordpassedbetweenusrespectingourmutualfeelings,Iconsideredmyselfboundinhonortoassumethattherewasnothingtacitlyacknowledged。
Piquedbyhertoneandlook,Idisavowedtheexistenceofanyclaimsuponmyattention。andtoprovethesincerityofmywords,I
persistedinaddressingmyattentionstoher。OnceortwiceI
fanciedIcaughtflyingglances,inwhichsomeofthecompanycriticisedmyconduct,andOttiliealsoseemedtomeunusuallyquiet。Buthermanner,thoughquiet,wasuntroubledandunchanged。
Italkedlesstoherthanusual,partlybecauseItalkedsomuchtoAgalma,andpartlybecauseIfeltthatAgalma’seyeswereonus。
Butnoshadowof’temper’orreservedarkenedourinterchangeofspeech。
Onourwayback,IknownotwhatdevilpromptedmetoaskAgalmawhethershehadreallybeeninearnestinherformerallusionto’somebody。’
’Yes,’shesaid,’Iwasinearnestthen。’
’Andnow?’
’NowIhavedoubts。Imayhavebeenmisinformed。It’snoconcernofmine,anyway。butIhadbeengiventounderstand。However,I
admitthatmyowneyeshavenotconfirmedwhatmyearsheard。’
Thisspeechwasirritatingontwoseparategrounds。Itimpliedthatpeopleweretalkingfreelyofmyattachment,which,untilI
hadformallyacknowledgedit,Iresentedasanimpertinence。anditimpliedthat,frompersonalobservation,AgalmadoubtedOttilie’sfeelingsforme。Thisalarmedmyquick-retreatingpride!I,too,begantodoubt。Onceletlooseonthatfield,imaginationsoonsawshapesenoughtoconfirmanydoubt。Ottilie’smannercertainlyhadseemedlesstender——nay,somewhatindifferent——duringthelastfewdays。Hadthearrivalofthatheavylout,hercousin,anythingtodowiththischange?
Nottowearyyoubyrecallingalltheunfoldingstagesofthismiserablestorywiththeminutenessofdetailwhichmyownmemorymorbidlylingerson,Iwillhurrytothecatastrophe。IgrewmoreandmoredoubtfuloftheexistenceinOttilie’smindofanyfeelingstrongerthanfriendshipforme。andasthisdoubtstrengthened,therearosetheflatteringsuspicionthatIwasbecominganobjectofgreaterinteresttoAgalma,whohadquitechangedhertonetowardsme,andhadbecomeseriousinherspeechandmanner。Weekspassed。Ottiliehadfallenfromherpedestal,andhadtakenherplaceamongagreeableacquaintances。OnedayIsuddenlylearnedthatOttiliewasengagedtohercousin。
YouwillnotwonderthatAgalma,whobeforethishadexercisedgreatfascinationoverme,nowdoublybecameanobjectofthemosttenderinterest。Ifellmadlyinlove。HithertoIhadneverknownthatpassion。MyfeelingforOttilieIsawwasbuttheinarticulatestammeringsofthemightyvoicewhichnowsoundedthroughtthedepthsofmynature。Thephrase,madlyinlove,isnoexaggeration。madnessaloneknowssuchafeverofthebrain,suchatumultoftheheart。Itwasnotthatreasonwasoverpowered。onthecontrary,reasonwasintenselyactive,butactivewiththatlogicofflameswhichlightsupthevisionofmaniacs。
Although,ofcourse,mypassionwasbuttooevidenttoeveryone,Idreadeditsprematureavowal,lestIshouldloseher。andalmostequallydreadeddelay,lestIshouldsufferfromthatalso。AtlengththeavowalwasextortedfrommebyjealousyofabrilliantPole——Korinski——whohadrecentlyappearedinourcircle,andwasobviouslycastingmeintheshadebyhissuperioradvantagesofnovelty,ofpersonalattraction,andofaromantichistory。Sheacceptedme。andnow,foratime,Iwasthehappiestofmortals。
Thefeverofthelastfewweekswasabating。itgaveplacetoadeeptideofhopefuljoy。CouldIhavediedthen!CouldIhaveevendiedshortlyafterwards,whenIknewthedeliciousmysteryofajealousynottooabsorbing!Foryoumustknowthatmyhappinesswasbrief。Jealousy,towhichallpassionofadeepandexactingpowerisinevitablyallied,soonbegantodisturbmycontent。
Agalmahadnotenderness。Shepermittedcaresses,neverreturnedthem。Shewasreadyenoughtolistentoallmyplansforthefuture,solongastherecitalmovedamiddetailsoffortuneandherpositioninsociety——thatis,solongashervanitywasinterested。butIbegantoobservewithpainthatherthoughtsneverrestedontenderdomesticitiesandpoeticanticipations。
Thisvexedmemoreandmore。Theveryspellwhichsheexercisedovermemadeherwantoftendernessmoreintolerable。Iyearnedforherlove——forsomesympathywiththevehementpassionwhichwasburningwithinme。andshewasasmarble。
YouwillnotbesurprisedtohearthatIreproachedherbitterlyforherindifference。Thatistheinvariableandfatalfollyoflovers——theyseemtoimaginethataheartcanbescoldedintotenderness!Tomyreproachessheatfirstansweredimpatientlythattheywereunjust。thatitwasnotherfaultifhernaturewaslessexpansivethanmine。andthatitwasinsultingtobetoldshewasindifferenttothemanwhomshehadconsentedtomarry。Latersheansweredmyreproacheswithhaughtydefiance,onedayintimatingthatifIreallythoughtwhatIsaid,andrepentedourengagement,itwouldbemostprudentforustoseparateereitwastoolate。Thisquietedmeforawhile。Butitbroughtnobalmtomywounds。
Andnowfreshtortureswereadded。KorinskibecamequitemarkedinhisattentionstoAgalma。Theseshereceivedwithevidentdelight。somuchso,thatIsawbytheglancesofothersthattheywerescandalizedatit。andthis,ofcourse,increasedmypain。Myrenewedreproachesonlymadehermannercoldertome。toKorinskiitbecamewhatIwouldgladlyhaveseentowardsmyself。
Thestressandagitationofthosedaysweretoomuchforme。I
fellill,andforsevenweekslayutterlyprostrate。Onrecovering,thisnotewashandedtome。ItwasfromAgalma。
Bourgonefhereheldouttomeacrumpledletter,andmotionedthatIshouldopenitandread。Itranthus:
Ihavethoughtmuchofwhatyouhavesooftensaid,thatitwouldbeforthehappinessofbothifourunfortunateengagementweresetaside。ThatyouhavearealaffectionformeIbelieve,andbeassuredthatIoncehadarealaffectionforyou。not,perhaps,thepassionatelovewhichanaturesoexactingasyoursdemands,andwhichIearnestlyhopeitmayonedayfind,butagenuineaffectionnevertheless,whichwouldhavemademeproudtoshareyourlot。
Butitwouldbeuncandidinmetopretendthatthisnowexists。
Yourincessantjealousy,theangryfeelingsexcitedbyyourreproaches,thefretfulirritationinwhichforsometimewehavelivedtogether,hascompletelykilledwhatloveIhad,andInolongerfeelpreparedtoriskthehappinessofbothofusbyamarriage。Whatyousaidtheothernightconvincesmethatitisevenyourdesireourengagementshouldcease。Itiscertainlymine。Letustrytothinkkindlyofeachotherandmeetagainasfriends。
AGALMALIEBENSTEIN。
WhenIhadreadthisandreturnedittohim,hesaid:
YouseethatthiswaswrittenonthedayIwastakenill。WhethersheknewthatIwashelplessIknownot。Atanyrate,sheneversenttoinquireafterme。ShewentofftoParis。Korinskifollowedher。and——asIquicklylearnedongoingoncemoreintosociety——
theyweremarried!Didyouever,inthewholecourseofyourexperience,hearofsuchheartlessconduct?
Bourgonefaskedthiswithaferocitywhichquitestartledme。I
didnotanswerhim。for,intruth,IcouldnotseethatAgalmahadbeenverymuchtoblame,evenashetoldthestory,andfeltsurethatcouldIhaveheardherversionitwouldhavewornaverydifferentaspect。Thatshewascold,anddisappointedhim,mightbetrueenough,buttherewasnocrime。andIperfectlyunderstoodhowthoroughlyodioushemusthavemadehimselftoherbyhisexactionsandreproaches。Iunderstoodthis,perhaps,allthebetter,becauseinthecourseofhisnarrativeBourgonefhadrevealedtomeaspectsofhisnaturewhichweresomewhatrepulsive。
EspeciallywasIstruckwithhismorbidvanity,andhisreadinesstoimputelowmotivestoothers。Thisunpleasantviewofhischaracter——acharacterinmanyrespectssoadmirableforitsgenerosityandrefinement——wasdeepenedashewenton,insteadofawaitingmyreplytohisquestion。
Forawrongsomeasureless,youwillnaturallyaskwhatmeasurelessrevengeIsought。
Theideahadnotoccurredtome。indeedIcouldseenowrong,andthisnotionofrevengewassomewhatstartlinginsuchacase。
Idebateditlong,hecontinued。IfeltthatsinceIwaspreventedfromarrestinganyoftheeviltomyself,Icouldatleastmaturemyplansforanadequatedischargeofjustretributionsonher。Itrevealstheimpotenceresultingfromthetrammelsofmoderncivilization,thatwhilethepossibilitiesofwrongareinfinite,theopeningsforvengeancearefewandcontemptible。Onlywhenamanisthrownuponthenecessitiesofthis’wildjustice’doeshediscoverhowdifficultvengeancereallyis。HadAgalmabeenmywife,Icouldhavewreakedmywrathuponher,withassurancethatsomeofthetorturesheinflictedonmewastofallonher。NothavingthispowerwhatwasItodo?Killher?Thatwouldhaveaffordedonemomentofexquisitesatisfaction——buttoheritwouldhavebeensimplydeath——andI
wantedtokilltheheart。
Heseemedworkingwithaninsanepassion,sothatIregardedhimwithdisgust,mingledwithsomedoubtsastowhathorrorshewasabouttorelate。
Myplanwaschosen。Theonlywaytoreachherheartwastostrikethroughherhusband。ForseveralhoursdailyIpractisedwiththepistol,until——inspiteofonlyhavingalefthand——Iacquiredfatalskill。Butthiswasnotenough。Firingatamarkissimplework。Firingataman——especiallyoneholdingapistolpointedatyou——isaltogetherdifferent。Ihadtoooftenheardof’crackshots’missingtheirmen,torelyconfidentlyonmyskillintheshootinggallery。Itwasnecessarythatmyeyeandhandshouldbeeducatedtofamiliaritywiththerealobject。Partofthecausewhyduelistsmisstheirmanisfromthetrepidationoffear。Iwaswithoutfear。AtnomomentinmylifehaveIbeenafraid。andthechanceofbeingshotbyKorinskiIcountedasnothing。Theothercauseisunfamiliaritywiththemark。ThisIsecuredmyselfagainstbygettingalayfigureofKorinski’sheight,dressingittoresemblehim,placingapistolinitshand,andthenpractisingatthismarkinthewoods。AfterashorttimeIcouldsendabulletthroughthethoraxwithouttakingmorethanahastyglanceatthefigure。
Thusprepared,IstartedforParis。Butyouwillfeelformewhenyoulearnthatmyhungryheartwasbaffledofitsvengeance,andbaffledforever。Agalmahadbeencarriedoffbyscarletfever。
KorinskihadleftParis,andIfeltnostrongpromptingstofollowhim,andwreakonhimafutilevengeance。ItwasonHERmywrathhadbeenconcentrated,andIgnashedmyteethatthethoughtthatshehadescapedme。
Mystoryisended。Themonthsofgloomydepressionwhichsucceeded,nowthatIwasnolongersustainedbythehopeofvengeance,Ineednotspeakof。Myexistencewasdesolate,andevennowthedesolationcontinuesoverthewholeregionoftheemotions。Icarryadeadheartwithinme。
VIII
ASECONDVICTIM
Bourgonef’sstoryhasbeennarratedwithsomefullness,thoughinlessdetailthanhetoldit,inorderthatthereadermayunderstanditsrealbearingsonMYstory。Withoutit,themotiveswhichimpelledthestrangepertinacityofmypursuitwouldhavebeenunintelligible。Ihavesaidthataverydisagreeableimpressionremainedonmymindrespectingcertainaspectsofhischaracter,andIfeltsomewhatashamedofmyimperfectsagacityinhavinguptothisperiodbeenentirelyblindtothoseaspects。Thetruthis,everyhumanbeingisamystery,andremainssotothelast。Wefancyweknowacharacter。weformadistinctconceptionofit。foryearsthatconceptionremainsunmodified,andsuddenlythestrainofsomeemergency,oftheincidentalstimulusofnewcircumstances,revealsqualitiesnotsimplyunexpected,butflatlycontradictoryofourpreviousconception。Wejudgeofamanbytheanglehesubtendstooureye——onlythusCANwejudgeofhim。andthisangledependsontherelationhisqualitiesandcircumstancesbeartoourinterestsandsympathies。Bourgonefhadcharmedmeintellectually。morallyIhadnevercomeclosertohimthaninthesympathiesofpublicquestionsandabstracttheories。Hisstoryhaddisclosedhiddendepths。
Myoldsuspicionsreappeared,andaconversationwehadtwodaysafterwardshelpedtostrengthenthem。
WehadgoneonavisittoSchwanthaler,thesculptor,athistinylittlecastleofSchwaneck,afewmilesfromMunich。Theartistwasoutforawalk,butwewereinvitedtocomeinandawaithisreturn,whichwouldbeshortly。andmeanwhileBourgonefundertooktoshowmeoverthecastle,interestingasabitofmodernGothic,realizingonadiminutivescaleayouthfuldreamofthesculptor’s。
Whenoursurveywascompleted——anditdidnottakelong——wesatatoneofthewindowsandenjoyedamagnificentprospect。Itiscurious,saidBourgonef,tobeshutuphereinthisimitationofmedievalmasonry,whereeverydetailspeaksofthedeadpast,andtothinkoftheeventsnowgoingoninPariswhichmustfindimitatorsalloverEurope,andwhichopentothemindsuchvistasofthefuture。WhatagrotesqueanachronismisthisGothiccastle,builtinthesameageasthatwhichseesareformingpope!
Yes。butisnotthereformingpopehimselfananachronism?
AsaCatholic,herehesmiled,intimatingthathisorthodoxywasnotverystringent,Icannotadmitthat。asaProtestant,youmustadmitthatiftheremustbeapope,hemustinthesedaysbeareformer,or——giveuphistemporalpower。NotthatIlookonPioNonoasmorethanaprecursor。hemaybreakground,andpointtheway,butheisnotthemantoleadEuropeoutofitspresentsloughofdespond,andundertheheadshipoftheChurchfoundanewandlastingrepublic。WewantaHildebrand,onewhowillbetothenineteenthcenturyasGregorywastotheeleventh。
Doyoubelieveinsuchapossibility?DoyouthinktheRomanpontiffcaneveragainswaythedestiniesofEurope?
IcanhardlysayIbelieveit。yetIseethepossibilityofsuchanopeningiftherightmanweretoarise。ButIfearhewillnotarise。orifheshould,theConclavewillstiflehim。Yetthereisbutonealternative:eitherEuropemustoncemorejoininacrusadewithapopeatthehead,oritmusthoisttheredflag。Thereisnootherissue。
Heavenpreserveusfromboth!AndIthinkweshallbepreservedfromthePopebytherottennessoftheChurch。fromthedrapeaurougebytheindignationandhorrorofallhonestmen。YouseehowtheProvisionalGovernmenthasresistedtheinsaneattemptofthefanaticstomaketheredflagacceptedasthenationalbanner?
Yes。anditistheonethingwhichdashesmypleasureinthenewrevolution。ItistheoneactofweaknesswhichtheGovernmenthasexhibited。aconcessionwhichwillbefatalunlessitbehappilysetasidebytheenergeticpartyofaction。
Anactofweakness?sayratheranactofstrength。Aconcession?
sayrathertherepudiationofanarchy,theassertionoflawandjustice。
Notabit。Itwasconcessiontothefearsofthetimid,andtothevanityoftheFrenchpeople。ThetricolorisaFrenchflag——
notthebannerofhumanity。ItisbecausethetricolorhasbeenidentifiedwiththevictoriesofFrancethatitappealstothevanityofthevainestofpeople。Theyforgetthatitistheflagofarevolutionwhichfailed,andofanempirewhichwasoneperpetualoutragetohumanity。Whereastheredisnew。itisthesymbolofanenergetic,thorough-goingcreed。Ifitcarriesterrorwithit,somuchthebetter。Thetyrantsandthetimidshouldbemadetotremble。
Ihadnoideayouweresobloodthirsty,saidI,laughingathisvehemence。
Iamnotbloodthirstyatall。Iamonlylogicalandconsistent。
Thereisamassofsophistrycurrentintheworldwhichsickensme。
PeopletalkofRobespierreandSt。Just,twoofthemostvirtuousmenthateverlived——andofDominicandTorquemada,twoofthemostsingle-minded——asiftheywerecruelandbloodthirsty,whereastheywereonlyconvinced。
Isitfromloveofparadoxthatyoudefendthesetigers?
Tigers,again——howthosebeastsarecalumniated!
Hesaidthiswithaseriousnesswhichwasirresistiblycomic。I
shoutedwithlaughter。buthecontinuedgravely:
YouthinkIamjoking。Butletmeaskyouwhyyouconsiderthetigermorebloodthirstythanyourself?Hespringsuponhisfood——
youbuyyoursfromthebutcher。Hecannotlivewithoutanimalfood:itisaprimalnecessity,andheobeystheordainedinstinct。
Youcanliveonvegetables。yetyouslaughterbeastsofthefieldandbirdsoftheairorbuythemwhenslaughtered,andconsideryourselfamodelofvirtue。Thetigeronlykillshisfoodorhisenemies。younotonlykillboth,butyoukilloneanimaltomakegravyforanother!ThetigerislessbloodthirstythantheChristian!
Idon’tknowhowmuchofthattiradeismeanttobeserious。buttowaivethequestionofthetiger’smorality,doyoureally——I
willnotsaysympathize,——butjustifyRobespierre,Dominic,St。
Just,andtherestofthefanaticswhohavewadedtotheirendsthroughblood。
HewhowillstheEND,willstheMEANS。
Adevil’smaxim。
Butatruth。Whatthefoolishworldshrinksatasbloodthirstinessandcrueltyisveryoftenmereforceandconstancyofintellect。Itisnotthatfanaticsthirstforblood——farfromit,——buttheythirstforthetriumphoftheircause。Whateverobstacleliesontheirpathmustberemoved。ifatorrentofbloodistheonlythingthatwillsweepitaway——thetorrentmustsweep。
Andsweepwithitallthesentimentsofpity,mercy,charity,love?
No。thesesentimentsmaygiveasadnesstothenecessity。theymakethedeedasacrifice,buttheycannotpreventthesoulfromseeingtheaimtowhichittends。
Thisisdetestabledoctrine!Itisthesophismwhichhasdestroyedfamilies,devastatedcities,andretardedthemoralprogressoftheworldmorethananythingelse。Nosingleactofinjusticeiseverdoneonthisearthbutittendstoperpetuatethereignofiniquity。Bythefeelingsitcallsforthitkeepsupthenativesavageryoftheheart。Itbreedsinjustice,partlybyhardeningthemindsofthosewhoassent,andpartlybyexcitingthepassionofrevengeinthosewhoresist。
Youarewrong。Thegreatdrag-chainonthecarofprogressisthefalteringinconsistencyofman。Weaknessismorecruelthansternness。Sentimentismoredestructivethanlogic。
ThearrivalofSchwanthalerwastimely,formyindignationwasrising。Thesculptorreceiveduswithgreatcordiality,andinthepleasureofthesubsequenthourIgotovertosomeextenttheirritationBourgonef’stalkhadexcited。
ThenextdayIleftMunichfortheTyrol。MypartingwithBourgonefwasmanydegreeslessfriendlythanitwouldhavebeenaweekbefore。Ihadnowishtoseehimagain,andthereforegavehimnoaddressorinvitationincaseheshouldcometoEngland。AsIrolledawayintheMalleposte,mybusythoughtsreviewedallthedetailsofouracquaintance,andthefartherIwascarriedfromhispresence,themoreobtrusivebecamethesuspicionswhichconnectedhimwiththemurderofLieschenLehfeldt。How,oruponwhatmotive,wasindeedanuttermystery。HehadnotmentionedthenameofLehfeldt。HehadnotmentionedhavingbeforebeenatNuremberg。
AtHeidelbergthetragedyoccurred——orwasHeidelbergonlyamask?
ItoccurredtomethathehadfirstascertainedthatIhadneverbeenatHeidelbergbeforeheplacedthesceneofhisstorythere。
Thoughtssuchasthesetormentedme。Imagine,then,thehorrorwithwhichIheard,soonaftermyarrivalatSalzburg,thatamurderhadbeencommittedatGrosshesslohe——oneoftheprettyenvironsofMunichmuchresortedtobyholidayfolk——correspondinginallessentialfeatureswiththemurderatNuremberg!Inbothcasesthevictimwasyoungandpretty。Inbothcasesshewasfoundquietlylyingontheground,stabbedtotheheart,withoutanyothertracesofviolence。Inbothcasesshewasabetrothedbride,andthemotiveoftheunknownassassinamystery。
Suchacorrespondenceintheessentialfeaturesinevitablysuggestedanappallingmysteryofunityinthesecrimes,——eitherasthecrimesofoneman,committedundersomeimpulseofmotivelessmalignityandthirstforinnocentblood——orastheequallyappallingeffectofIMITATIONactingcontagiouslyuponacriminalimagination。ofwhichcontagiontherehavebeen,unfortunately,toomanyexamples——horriblecrimespromptingcertainweakandfeverishimaginations,bytheveryhorrortheyinspire,firsttodwellon,andfinallytorealizetheirimitations。
Itwasthislatterhypothesiswhichfoundgeneralacceptance。
Indeeditwastheonlyonewhichresteduponanygroundofexperience。Thedisastrousinfluenceofimitation,especiallyunderthefascinationofhorror,waswellknown。Theideaofanydiabolicalmalicemovingonemantopassfromcitytocity,andtherequietlysingleouthisvictims——bothofthem,bytheveryhypothesis,unrelatedtohim,bothofthemattheepochoftheirlives,whenThebosom’slordsitslightlyonitsthrone,
whenthepeaceoftheheartisassured,andthefutureisradiantlybeckoningtothem,——thatanymanshouldchoosesuchvictimsforsuchcrimeswastoopreposterousanidealongtobeentertained。
Unlessthemanweremad,theideawasinconceivable。andevenamonomaniacmustbetrayhimselfinsuchacourse,becausehewouldnecessarilyconceivehimselftobeaccomplishingsomesupremeactofjustice。
ItwasthusIargued。andindeedIshouldmuchhavepreferredtobelievethatonemaniacwereinvolved,ratherthanthecontagionofcrime,——sinceonemaniacmustinevitablybesoondetected。whereastherewerenoassignablelimitstothecontagionofimitation。AndthisitwaswhichsoprofoundlyagitatedGermansociety。Ineveryfamilyinwhichtherehappenedtobeabride,vaguetremorscouldnotbeallayed。andtheabsolutepowerlessnesswhichresultedfromtheutteruncertaintyastothequarterinwhichthisdreadedphantommightnextappear,justifiedandintensifiedthosetremors。
Againstsuchanapparitiontherewasnoconceivablesafeguard。
Fromacitystrickenwiththeplague,fromadistrictsostricken,flightispossible,andtherearetheresourcesofmedicalaid。
Butfromamoralplaguelikethis,whatescapewaspossible?
Sopassionateandprofoundbecametheterror,thatIbegantosharetheopinionwhichIheardexpressed,regrettingthewidespreadpublicityofthemodernpress,since,withmanyundeniablebenefits,itcarriedalsothefatalcurseofdistributingthroughhouseholds,andkeepingconstantlyundertheexcitementofdiscussion,imagesofcrimeandhorrorwhichwouldtendtoperpetuateandextendtheexcessesofindividualpassion。Themeredwellinglongonsuchatopicasthiswasfraughtwithevil。
ThisandmoreIhearddiscussedasIhurriedbacktoMunich。ToMunich?Yes。thitherIwaspostingwithallspeed。Notashadowofdoubtnowremainedinmymind。Iknewtheassassin,andwasresolvedtotrackandconvicthim。DonotsupposethatTHIStimeI
wasledawaybythevagrantactivityofmyconstructiveimagination。Ihadsomethinglikepositiveproof。NosoonerhadI
learnedthatthemurderhadbeencommittedatGrosshesslohe,thanmythoughtsatoncecarriedmetoanowmemorablevisitIhadmadethereincompanywithBourgonefandtwoyoungBavarians。Atthehotelwherewedined,wewerewaitedonbythenieceofthelandlord,agirlofremarkablebeauty,whonaturallyexcitedtheattentionoffouryoungmen,andfurnishedthemwithatopicofconversation。OneoftheBavarianshadtoldusthatshewouldonedaybeperhapsoneofthewealthiestwomeninthecountry,forshewasengagedtobemarriedtoayoungfarmerwhohadrecentlyfoundhimself,byarapidsuccessionofdeaths,soleheirtoagreatbrewer,whosewealthwasknowntobeenormous。
AtthismomentSophieenteredbringingwine,andIsawBourgonefslowlyturnhiseyesuponherwithalookwhichthenwasmysterioustome,butwhichnowspoketooplainlyitsdreadfulmeaning。
Whatisthereinalook,youwillsay?Perhapsnothing。oritmaybeeverything。Tomyunsuspecting,unenlightenedperception,Bourgonef’sgazewassimplythemelancholyandhalf-curiousgazewhichsuchamanmightbesupposedtocastuponayoungwomanwhohadbeenmadethetopicofaninterestingdiscourse。Buttomymind,enlightenedastohischaracter,andinstructedastohispeculiarfeelingsarisingfromhisownstory,thegazewaschargedwithhorror。Itmarkedavictim。Thewholesuccessionofeventsrosebeforemeinvividdistinctness。theseparatedetailsofsuspiciongatheredintounity。
GreataswasBourgonef’scommandoverhisfeatures,hecouldnotconcealuneasinessaswellassurpriseatmyappearanceatthetabled’hoteinMunich。Ishookhandswithhim,puttingonasfriendlyamaskasIcould,andrepliedtohisquestionaboutmysuddenreturnbyattributingittounexpectedintelligencereceivedatSalzburg。
Nothingserious,Ihope?
Well,I’mafraiditwillproveveryserious,Isaid。Butweshallsee。MeanwhilemyvisittotheTyrolmustbegivenuporpostponed。
Doyouremainhere,then?
Idon’tknowwhatmymovementswillbe。
ThusIhadpreparedhimforanyreserveorstrangenessinmymanner。andIhadconcealedfromhimthecourseofmymovements。
foratwhatevercost,Iwasresolvedtofollowhimandbringhimtojustice。
Buthow?EvidenceIhadnonethatcouldsatisfyanyoneelse,howeverconvincingitmightbetomyownmind。NordidthereseemanyevidenceforthcomingfromGrosshesslohe。Sophie’sbodyhadbeenfoundintheafternoonlyingasifasleepinoneoftheby-
pathsofthewood。Nomarksofastruggle。notracesofthemurderer。Heraffiancedlover,whowasatAugsburg,onhearingofherfate,hurriedtoGrosshesslohe,butcouldthrownolightonthemurder,couldgivenohintastoapossiblemotiveforthedeed。
Butthisentireabsenceofevidence,orevengroundofsuspicion,onlymadeMYcasethestronger。ItwasthemotivelessmalignityofthedeedwhichfasteneditonBourgonef。orrather,itwastheabsenceofanyknownmotiveelsewherewhichassuredmethatIhaddetectedthemotiveinhim。
ShouldIcommunicatemyconvictiontothepolice?ItwaspossiblethatImightimpressthemwithatleastsufficientsuspiciontowarranthisexamination——andinthatcasethetruthmightbeelicited。foramongthemanybarbaritiesandiniquitiesofthecriminalprocedureinContinentalStateswhichoftenpressheavilyontheinnocent,thereisthiscompensatingadvantage,thatthepressureontheguiltyistenfoldheavier。Iftheinnocentareoftenunjustlypunished——imprisonedandmaltreatedbeforetheirinnocencecanbeestablished——theguiltyseldomescape。InEnglandwegivethecriminalnotonlyeverychanceofescape,butmanyadvantages。Theloveoffair-playiscarriedtoexcess。Itseemsattimesasifthewholearrangementsofourprocedurewereestablishedwithaviewtogivingacriminalnotonlythebenefitofeverydoubt,butofeveryloopholethroughwhichhecanslip。
Insteadofthis,theContinentalproceduregoesontheprincipleofclosingupeveryloophole,andofinventingendlesstrapsintowhichtheaccusedmayfall。Wewarntheaccusednottosayanythingthatmaybeprejudicialtohim。Theyentanglehimincontradictionsandconfessionswhichdisclosehisguilt。
Knowingthis,Ithoughtitverylikelythat,howeverartfulBourgonefmightbe,asevereexaminationmightextortfromhimsufficientconfirmationofmysuspiciontowarrantfurtherprocedure。ButknowingalsothatTHISresortwasopentomewhenallothershadfailed,Iresolvedtowaitandwatch。
IX
FINALE
Twodayspassed,andnothingoccurred。Mywatchingseemedhopeless,andIresolvedtotrytheeffectofadisguisedinterrogatory。Itmighthelptoconfirmmyalreadysettledconviction,ifitdidnotelicitanynewevidence。
SeatedinBourgonef’sroom,intheoldplace,eachwithacigar,andchattingasofoldonpublicaffairs,Igraduallyapproachedthesubjectoftherecentmurder。
Isitnotstrange,Isaid,thatboththesecrimesshouldhavehappenedwhilewewerecasuallystayinginbothplaces?
Perhapswearethecriminals,hereplied,laughing。Ishiveredslightlyatthisaudacity。Helaughedashespoke,buttherewasahard,metallic,andalmostdefianttoneinhisvoicewhichexasperatedme。
Perhapsweare,Ianswered,quietly。Helookedfullatme。butI
wasprepared,andmyfacetoldnothing。Iadded,asinexplanation,Thecrimebeingapparentlycontagious,wemayhavebroughttheinfectionfromNuremberg。
Doyoubelieveinthathypothesisofimitation?
Idon’tknowwhattobelieve。Doyoubelieveintherebeingonlyonemurderer?Itseemssuchapreposterousidea。Wemustsupposehim,atanyrate,tobeamaniac。
Notnecessarily。Indeedthereseemstohavebeentoomuchartfulcontrivanceinbothaffairs,notonlyintheselectionofthevictims,butintheexecutionoftheschemes。Cunningasmaniacsoftenaretheyarestillmaniacs,andbetraythemselves。
Ifnotamaniac,saidI,hopingtopiquehim,hemustbeamanofstupendousandpitiablevanity,——perhapsoneofyourconstant-
mindedfriends,whomyourefusetocallbloodthirsty。
Constant-minded,perhaps。butwhypitiablyvain?
Why?Becauseonlyadiseasedatrocityofimagination,stimulatinganatureessentiallybaseandweakinitsdesiretomakeitselfconspicuous,wouldorcouldsuggestsuchthings。Thesillyyouthwho’firedtheEphesiandome,’thevainidiotwhosetfiretoYorkMinster,themiserableFrenchmenwhohavecommittedmurderandsuicidewithaviewofmakingtheirexitstrikingfromaworldinwhichtheirappearancehadbeencontemptible,wouldallsinkintoinsignificancebesidethetoweringinfamyofbasenesswhich——forthemereloveofproducinganeffectonthemindsofmen,andthusdrawingtheirattentionuponhim,whichotherwisewouldneverhavemarkedhimatall——couldschemeandexecutecrimessohorribleandinexcusable。Incommoncharitytohumannature,letussupposethewretchismad。becauseotherwisehismiserablevanitywouldbetooloathsome。Ispokewithwarmthandbitterness,whichincreasedasIperceivedhimwincingunderthedegradationofmycontempt。
IfhismotiveWEREvanity,hesaid,nodoubtitwouldbehorrible。butmayitnothavebeenrevenge?
Revenge!Iexclaimed。what!oninnocentwomen?
Youassumetheirinnocence。
GoodGod!doyouknowanythingtothecontrary?
NotI。Butasweareconjecturing,Imayaswellconjectureittohavebeenthedesiretoproduceastartlingeffect。
Howdoyoujustifyyourconjecture?
Simplyenough。Wehavetosupposeamotive。letussayitwasrevenge,andseewhetherthatwillfurnishaclue。
Butitcan’t。Thetwovictimswerewhollyunconnectedwitheachotherbyanyintermediateacquaintances,consequentlytherecanhavebeennocommonwrongorcommonenmityinexistencetofurnishfoodforvengeance。
Thatmaybeso。itmayalsobethattheavengermadethemvicariousvictims。
Howso?
Itishumannature。Didyoueverobserveathwartedchildstrikinginitsangertheunoffendingnurse,destroyingitstoystodischargeitswrath?Didyoueverseeaschoolboy,unabletowreakhisangeronthebiggerboywhohasjuststruckhim,turnagainstthenearestsmallerboyandbeathim?Didyoueverknowaschoolmaster,angeredbyoneoftheboy’sparents,venthispent-upspleenupontheunoffendingclass?Didyoueverseeasubalternpunishedbecauseanofficerhadbeenreprimanded?Thesearefamiliarexamplesofvicariousvengeance。Whenthesoulisstungtofury,itmustsolaceitselfbythedischargeofthatfury——itmustrelieveitspainbythesightofpaininothers。Wearesoconstituted。Weneedsympathyaboveallthings。Injoywecannotbeartoseeothersindistress。indistressweseethejoyofotherswithdismalenvywhichsharpensourpain。Thatishumannature。
And,Iexclaimed,carriedawaybymyindignation,yousupposethatthesightofthesetwohappygirls,beamingwiththequietjoyofbrides,wastorturetosomemiserablewretchwhohadlosthisbride。
Ihadgonetoofar。Hiseyeslookedintomine。Ireadinhisthathedivinedthewholedriftofmysuspicion——theallusionmadetohimself。Thereoftenpassesintoalookmorethanwordscanventuretoexpress。Inthatlookhereadthathewasdiscovered,andIreadthathehadrecognizedit。Withperfectcalmness,butwithametallicringinhisvoicewhichwasliketheclashofswords,hesaid:
IdidnotsaythatIsupposedthis。butaswewereonthewidefieldofconjecture——utterlywithoutevidenceonewayortheother,havingnoclueeithertothemanorhismotives——Idrewfromthegeneralprinciplesofhumannatureaconclusionwhichwasjustasplausible——orabsurdifyoulike——astheconclusionthatthemotivemusthavebeenvanity。
Asyousay,weareutterlywithoutevidence,andconjecturedriftsaimlesslyfromonethingtoanother。Afterall,themostplausibleexplanationisthatofacontagionofimitation。
Isaidthisinordertocovermypreviousimprudence。Hewasnotdeceived——thoughforafewmomentsIfanciedhewas——butreplied:
Iamnotpersuadedofthateither。Thewholethingisamystery,andIshallstayheresometimeinthehopeofseeingitclearedup。Meanwhile,forasubjectofconjecture,letmeshowyousomethingonwhichyouringenuitymayprofitablybeemployed。
Heroseandpassedintohisbedroom。Iheardhimunlockingandrummagingthedrawers,andwassilentlyreproachingmyselfformywantofcautioninhavingspokenasIhaddone,thoughitwasnowbeyondalldoubtthathewasthemurderer,andthathismotivehadbeenrightlyguessed。butwiththisself-reproachtherewasmingledaself-gratulationatthewayIhadgotoutofthedifficulty,asI
fancied。
Hereturned,andashesatdownInoticedthatthelowerpartofhissurtoutwasopen。Healwaysworealongfroggedandbraidedcoatreachingtotheknees——asInowknow,forthepurposeofconcealingthearmwhichhungashesaid,witheredathisside。
Thetwolastfasteningswerenowundone。
Heheldinhishandatinychainmadeofverydelicatewire。Thishegaveme,saying:
Nowwhatwouldyouconjecturethattobe?
Haditcomeintomyhandswithoutanyremark,Ishouldhavesaiditwassimplyaveryexquisitebitofironwork。butyourquestionpointstosomethingmoreoutoftheway。
ItISiron-work,hesaid。
CouldIbedeceived?Athirdfasteningofhissurtoutwasundone!
Ihadseenbuttwoamomentago。
AndwhatamItoconjecture?Iasked。
Wherethatironcamefrom?ItwasNOTfromamine。Ilookedatitagain,andexamineditattentively。Onraisingmyeyesininquiry——fortunatelywithanexpressionofsurprise,sincewhatmetmyeyeswouldhavestartledacoolerman——Isawthefourthfasteningundone!
Youlooksurprised,hecontinued,andwillbemoresurprisedwhenItellyouthattheironinyourhandsoncefloatedinthecirculationofaman。Itismadefromhumanblood。
Humanblood!Imurmured。
Hewentonexpoundingthephysiologicalwondersoftheblood,——howitcarried,dissolvedinitscurrents,aproportionofironandearths。howthisironwasextractedbychemistsandexhibitedasacuriosity。andhowthischainhadbeenmanufacturedfromsuchextracts。Iheardeveryword,butmythoughtswerehurryingtoandfrointheagitationofasuprememoment。Thattherewasadaggerunderneaththatcoat——thatinafewmomentsitwouldflashforth——
thatadeath-strugglewasathand,——Iknewwell。Mysafetydependedonpresenceofmind。Thatincalculablerapiditywithwhich,incriticalmoments,themindsurveysalltheopeningsandresourcesofanemergency,hadassuredmethattherewasnoweaponwithinreach——thatbeforeIcouldgiveanalarmthetigerwouldbeatmythroat,andthatmyonlychancewastokeepmyeyesfixeduponhim,readytospringonhimthemomentthenextfasteningwasundone,andbeforehecouldusehisarm。
Atlasttheideaoccurredtome,thatas,withawildbeast,safetyliesinattackinghimjustbeforeheattacksyou,sowiththisbeastmybestchancewasaudacity。Lookingsteadilyintohisface,Isaidslowly:
Andyouwouldliketohavesuchachainmadefrommyblood。I
roseasIspoke。Heremainedsitting,butwasevidentlytakenaback。
Whatdoyoumean?hesaid。
Imean,saidI,sternly,thatyourcoatisunfastened,andthatifanotherfasteningisloosenedinmypresence,Ifellyoutotheearth。
You’reafool!heexclaimed。
Imovedtowardsthedoor,keepingmyeyefixeduponhimashesatpaleandglaringatme。
YOUareafool,Isaid——andworse,ifyoustir。
Atthismoment,Iknownotbywhatsense,asifIhadeyesatthebackofmyhead,Iwasawareofsomeonemovingbehindme,yetI
darednotlookaside。Suddenlytwomightyfoldsofdarknessseemedtoenvelopmelikearms。Apowerfulscentascendedmynostrils。
Therewasaringinginmyears,abeatingatmyheart。Darknesscameon,deeperanddeeper,likehugewaves。Iseemedgrowingtogiganticstature。Thewavesrolledonfasterandfaster。Theringingbecamearoaring。Thebeatingbecameathrobbing。Lightsflashedacrossthedarkness。Formsmovedbeforeme。Oncamethewaveshurryinglikeatide,andIsankdeeperanddeeperintothismightyseaofdarkness。Thenallwassilent。Consciousnesswasstill……
HowlongIremainedunconscious,Icannottell。Butitmusthavebeensomeconsiderabletime。Whenconsciousnessoncemorebegantodawnwithinme,Ifoundmyselflyingonabedsurroundedbyagroupofeager,watchingfaces,andbecameawareofaconfusedmurmurofwhisperinggoingonaroundme。ErLebtheliveswerethewordswhichgreetedmyopeningeyes——wordswhichIrecognizedascomingfrommylandlord。
Ihadhadaverynarrowescape。AnothermomentandIshouldnothavelivedtotellthetale。ThedaggerthathadalreadyimmolatedtwoofBourgonef’sobjectsofvengeancewouldhavebeeninmybreast。Asitwas,attheverymomentwhentheterribleIvanhadthrownhisarmsaroundmeandwasstiflingmewithchloroform,oneoftheservantsofthehotel,alarmedorattractedbycuriosityatthesoundofhighwordswithintheroom,hadventuredtoopenthedoortoseewhatwasgoingon。Thealarmhadbeengiven,andBourgonefhadbeenarrestedandhandedovertothepolice。Ivan,however,haddisappeared。norwerethepoliceeverabletofindhim。Thismatteredcomparativelylittle。Ivanwithouthismasterwasnomoreredoubtablethananyothernoxiousanimal。Asanaccomplice,asaninstrumenttoexecutethewillofamanlikeBourgonef,hewasadangertosociety。Thedirectingintelligencewithdrawn,hesanktothelevelofthebrute。Iwasnotuneasy,therefore,athishavingescaped。Sufficientformethattherealcriminal,themindthathadconceivedanddirectedthosefearfulmurders,wasatlastinthehandsofjustice。IfeltthatmytaskhadbeenfullyaccomplishedwhenBourgonef’sheadfellonthescaffold。
TheClosedCabinetI
ItwaswithalittlealarmandagooddealofpleasurableexcitementthatIlookedforwardtomyfirstgrown-upvisittoMervynGrange。Ihadbeenthereseveraltimesasachild,butneversinceIwastwelveyearsold,andnowIwasovereighteen。
WewereallofusveryproudofourcousinstheMervyns:itisnoteverybodythatcanclaimkinshipwithafamilywhoareinfullandadmittedpossessionofasecret,acurse,andamysteriouscabinet,inadditiontotheusualsurplusageofhorrorssuppliedinsuchcasesbypopularimagination。SomedeclaredthataMervynofthedaysofHenryVIIIhadbeencursedbyaninjuredabbotfromthefootofthegallows。OthersaffirmedthatadissipatedMervynoftheGeorgianerawasstillplayingcardsforhissoulinsomeremoteregionoftheGrange。Therewerestoriesofwhiteladiesandblackimps,ofbloodstainedpassagesandmagicstones。We,proudofourmoreintimateacquaintancewiththefamily,naturallygavenocredencetothesewildinventions。TheMervyns,indeed,followedtheacceptedprecedentinsuchcases,andgreatlydislikedanyreferencetothereputedmysterybeingmadeintheirpresence。
withtheinevitableresultthattherewasnosubjectsopertinaciouslydiscussedbytheirfriendsintheirabsence。Myfather’ssisterhadmarriedthelateBaronet,SirHenryMervyn,andwealwaysfeltthatsheoughttohavebeenthemeansofimpartingtousaverycompleteknowledgeofthefamilysecret。Butinthisconnectionsheundoubtedlyfailedofherduty。Weknewthattherehadbeenaterribletragedyinthefamilysometwoorthreehundredyearsago——thatapeculiarlywickedownerofMervyn,whoflourishedinthelatterpartofthesixteenthcentury,hadbeenmurderedbyhiswifewhosubsequentlycommittedsuicide。Weknewthatthemysteriouscursehadsomeconnectionwiththiscrime,butwhatthecurseexactlywaswehadneverbeenabletodiscover。Thehistoryofthefamilysincethattimehadindeedinonesensebeenfullofmisfortune。Notineverysense。Acoalminehadbeendiscoveredinonepartoftheestate,andapopulouscityhadgrownoverthecornerofanotherpart。andtheMervynsofto-day,inspiteoftheusualpercentageofextravagantheirsandpoliticalmistakes,werethreetimesasrichastheirancestorshadbeen。Butstilltheirstorywasfullofbloodshedandshame,oftalesofduelsandsuicides,brokenheartsandbrokenhonor。Onlythesecalamitiesseemedtohavelittleornorelationtoeachother,andwhattheprecisecursewasthatwassupposedtoconnectoraccountforthemwecouldnotlearn。Whenshefirstmarried,myauntwastoldnothingaboutit。Lateroninlife,whenmyfatheraskedherforthestory,shebeggedhimtotalkuponapleasantersubject。andbeingunluckilyamanofmuchcourtesyandlittlecuriosity,hecompliedwithherrequest。This,however,wastheonlypartoftheghostlytraditionsofherhusband’shomeuponwhichshewassoreticent。Thehauntedchamber,forinstance——which,ofcourse,existedattheGrange——shetreatedwiththegreatestcontempt。
Variousfriendsandrelationshadsleptinitatdifferenttimes,andnoapproachtoanykindofauthenticatedghost-story,evenofthemosttrivialdescription,hadtheybeenabletosupply。Itsonlyclaimtorespect,indeed,wasthatitcontainedthefamousMervyncabinet,afascinatingpuzzleofwhichIwillspeaklater,butwhichcertainlyhadnothinghauntingorhorribleaboutitsappearance。
Myuncle’sfamilyconsistedofthreesons。Theeldest,George,thepresentbaronet,wasnowinhisthirties,married,andwithchildrenofhisown。Thesecond,Jack,wastheblack-sheepofthefamily。HehadbeenintheGuards,but,aboutfiveyearsback,hadgotintosomeverydisgracefulscrape,andhadbeenobligedtoleavethecountry。Thesorrowandtheshameofthishadkilledhisunhappymother,andherhusbandhadnotlongafterwardsfollowedhertothegrave。Alan,theyoungestson,probablybecausehewasthenearesttousinage,hadbeenourspecialfavoriteinearlieryears。GeorgewasgrownupbeforeIhadwellleftthenursery,andhishot,quicktemperhadalwayskeptusyoungsterssomewhatinaweofhim。JackwasfouryearsolderthanAlan,and,besides,hisprofessionhad,inaway,cuthisboyhoodshort。Whenmyuncleandauntwereabroad,astheyfrequentlywereformonthstogetheronaccountofherhealth,itwasAlan,chiefly,whohadtospendhisholidayswithus,bothasschool-boyandasundergraduate。Andabrighter,sweeter-temperedcomrade,oronepossessedofmorediversifiedtalentsfortheinventionofgamesorthetellingofstories,itwouldhavebeendifficulttofind。
ForfiveyearstogethernowourancientcustomofanannualvisittoMervynhadbeenbroken。Firsttherehadbeentheseclusionofmourningformyaunt,andayearlaterformyuncle。thenGeorgeandhiswife,Lucy,——shewasaconnectionofourownonourmother’sside,andveryintimatewithusall,——hadbeenawayfornearlytwoyearsonavoyageroundtheworld。andsincethensicknessinourownfamilyhadkeptusinourturnagooddealabroad。SothatIhadnotseenmycousinssinceallthecalamitieswhichhadbefallenthemintheinterval,andasIsteamednorthwardsIwonderedagooddealastothechangesIshouldfind。
IwastohavecomeoutthatyearinLondon,butill-healthhadpreventedme。andasasortofconsolationLucyhadkindlyaskedmetospendafortnightatMervyn,andbepresentatashooting-party,whichwastoassemblethereinthefirstweekofOctober。
Ihadstartedearly,andtherewasstillanhouroftheshortautumndayleftwhenIdescendedatthelittlewaysidestation,fromwhichasix-miledrivebroughtmetotheGrange。AdrearydriveIfoundit——theround,gray,treelessoutlineofthefellsstretchingaroundmeoneverysidebeneaththeleaden,changelesssky。ThenighthadnearlyfallenaswedrovealongthenarrowvalleyinwhichtheGrangestood:itwastoodarktoseetheautumntintsofthewoodswhichclothedandbrighteneditssides,almosttoodarktodistinguishtheoldtower,——DameAlice’stowerasitwascalled,——whichstoodsomehalfamilefartheronatitshead。
ButthelightshonebrightlyfromtheGrangewindows,andallfeelingofdrearinessdepartedasIdroveuptothedoor。Leavingmaidandboxestotheirfate,Iranupthestepsintotheold,well-rememberedhall,andwasinformedbythedignifiedman-servantthatherladyshipandtheteawereawaitingmeinthemorning-room。
IfoundthattherewasnobodystayinginthehouseexceptAlan,whowasfinishingthelongvacationthere:hehadbeencalledtotheBaracoupleofyearsbefore。Theguestswerenottoarriveforanotherweek,sothatIhadplentyofopportunityintheintervaltomakeupforlosttimewithmycousins。Ibeganmyobservationsthateveningaswesatdowntodinner,acozypartyoffour。Lucywasquiteunchanged——pretty,foolish,andgentleasever。Georgeshowedthefullfiveyears’increaseofage,andseemedtohaveacquiredasomewhatpainfulcontrolofhistemper。Insteadoftheoldpetulantoutbursts,therewasattimesanairofnervous,irritableself-restraint,whichIfoundthelesspleasantofthetwo。ButitwasinAlanthatthemoststrikingalterationappeared。IfeltitthemomentIshookhandswithhim,andtheimpressiondeepenedthateveningwitheveryhour。Itoldmyselfthatitwasonlythenaturaldifferencebetweenboyandman,betweentwentyandtwenty-five,butIdon’tthinkthatIbelievedit。Superficiallythechangewasnotgreat。Theslight-built,gracefulfigure。thedeepgrayeyes,toosmallforbeauty。theclear-cutfeatures,thedelicate,sensitivelips,closeshavennow,astheyhadbeenhairlessthen,——allwereasIrememberedthem。
Butthefacewaspalerandthinnerthanithadbeen,andtherewerelinesroundtheeyesandatthecornersofthemouthwhichwerenomorenaturaltotwenty-fivethantheywouldhavebeentotwenty。
Theoldcharmindeed——thesweetfriendlinessofmanner,whichwashisownpeculiarpossession——wasstillthere。Hetalkedandlaughedalmostasmuchasformerly,butthetalkwasmanufacturedforourentertainment,andthelaughtercamefromhisheadandnotfromhisheart。Anditwaswhenhewastakingnopartintheconversationthatthechangeshowedmost。Thentheface,onwhichintheoldtimeeverypassingemotionhadexpresseditselfinaconstant,livingcurrent,becamecoldandimpassive——withoutinterest,andwithoutdesire。ItwasatsuchtimesthatIknewmostcertainlythatherewassomethingwhichhadbeenlivingandwasdead。Wasitonlyhisboyhood?ThisquestionIwasunabletoanswer。
Still,inspiteofall,thatweekwasoneofthehappiestinmylife。Thebrotherswerebothmenofenoughabilityandcultivationtobepleasanttalkers,andLucycouldperformadequatelythepartofconversationalaccompanist,which,sociallyspeaking,isallthatisrequiredofawoman。Themealsandeveningspassedquicklyandagreeably。themorningsIspentinunendinggossipswithLucy,oringameswiththechildren,twobrightboysoffiveandsixyearsold。Buttheafternoonswerethebestpartoftheday。
Georgewasathoroughsquireinallhistastesandhabits,andeveryafternoonhiswifedutifullyaccompaniedhimroundfarmsandcoverts,inspectingnewbuildings,trudgingalonghalf-maderoads,ormarkingunoffendingtreesfordestruction。ThenAlanandI
wouldridebythehourtogetherovermoorandmeadowland,oftenpickingourwayhomewardsdowntheglen-sidelongaftertheautumneveningshadclosedin。DuringtheseridesIhadglimpsesmanyatimeintodepthsinAlan’snatureofwhichIdoubtwhetherintheolddayshehadhimselfbeenaware。Tomecertainlytheywereasarevelation。Aprevailingsadness,occasionallyapainfultoneofbitterness,characterizedthesemoreseriousmoodsofhis,butIdonotthinkthat,attheendofthatweek,Iwould,ifIcould,havechangedtheman,whomIwaslearningtorevereandtopity,forthelight-heartedplaymatewhomIfeltwaslosttomeforever。
II
Theonlyfeatureofthefamilylifewhichjarredonmewastheattitudeofthetwobrotherstowardsthechildren。Ididnotnoticethismuchatfirst,andatalltimesitwasathingtobefeltratherthantobeseen。Georgehimselfneverseemedquiteateasewiththem。Theboyswerestrongandwellgrown,healthyinmindandbody。andonewouldhavethoughtthattheexistenceoftwosuchrepresentativestocarryonhisnameandinherithisfortunewouldhavebeentheverycrownofprideandhappinesstotheirfather。Butitwasnotso。Lucyindeedwasdevotedtothem,andinallpracticalmattersnoonecouldhavebeenkindertothemthanwasGeorge。Theywerefreeofthewholehouse,andeveryindulgencethatmoneycouldbuyforthemtheyhad。Ineverheardhimgivethemaharshword。Buttherewassomethingwrong。A
constraintintheirpresence,areliefintheirabsence,anevidentdislikeofdiscussingthemandtheiraffairs,atotalwantofthatenjoymentofloveandpossessionwhichinsuchacaseonemighthaveexpectedtofind。Alan’sstateofmindwasevenmoremarked。
NeverdidIhearhimwillinglyaddresshisnephews,orinanywayalludetotheirexistence。Ishouldhavesaidthathesimplyignoredit,butfortheheavygloomwhichalwaysoverspreadhisspiritsintheircompany,andfortheglanceswhichhewouldnowandagaincastintheirdirection——glancesfullofsomehiddenpainfulemotion,thoughofwhatnatureitwouldhavebeenhardtodefine。Indeed,Alan’sattitudetowardsherchildrenIsoonfoundtobetheonlysourceoffrictionbetweenLucyandthisotherwisemuch-lovedmemberofherhusband’sfamily。Iaskedheronedaywhytheboysneverappearedatluncheon。
Oh,theycomewhenAlanisaway,sheanswered。buttheyseemtoannoyhimsomuchthatGeorgethinksitisbettertokeepthemoutofsightwhenheishere。Itisverytiresome。IknowthatitisthefashiontosaythatGeorgehasgotthetemperofthefamily。
butIassureyouthatAlan’snervousmoodsandfanciesaremuchmoredifficulttolivewith。
Thatwasonthemorning——aFridayitwas——ofthelastdaywhichweweretospendalone。Theguestsweretoarrivesoonaftertea。andIthinkthatwiththeknowledgeoftheirapproachAlanandI
prolongedourridethatafternoonbeyonditsusuallimits。Wewereonourwayhome,anditwasalreadydusk,whenaturnofthepathbroughtusfacetofacewiththeoldruinedtower,ofwhichIhavealreadyspokenasstandingattheheadofthevalley。IhadnotbeencloseuptoityetduringthisvisitatMervyn。Ithadbeenaveryfavoritehauntofoursaschildren,andpartlyonthataccount,partlyperhapsinordertodeferthedreadedcloseofourridetothelastpossiblemoment,Iproposedaninspectionofit。
Theonlyportionoftheoldbuildingleftstandinginanykindofentiretywastworooms,oneabovetheother。Thetowerroom,levelwiththebottomofthemoat,wasdarkanddamp,anditwastheupperone,reachedbyalittleoutsidestaircase,whichhadbeenourrendezvousofold。Alanshowednodispositiontoenter,andsaidthathewouldstayoutsideandholdmyhorse,soIdismountedandranupalone。
Theroomseemedinnowaychanged。Amerestoneshell,litteredwithfragmentsofwoodandmortar。TherewastheroughwoodenblockonwhichAlanusedtositwhilehefirstfrighteneduswithbogey-stories,andthencalmedourexcitednervesbyrapidsalliesofwildnonsense。Therewastheplankfrombehindwhich,erectedasabarrieracrossthedoorway,hewoulddefendthecastleagainstourunitedassault,peltinguswithfir-conesandsodsofearth。