CHAPTERXXI
AnAncientCastle——Clementine——TheFairPenitent——Lodi——AMutualPassionThemanorialcastleofthelittletownofSt。Angeloisavastandancientbuilding,datingbackatleasteightcenturies,butdevoidofregularity,andnotindicatingthedateofitserectionbythestyleofitsarchitecture。Thegroundfloorconsistsofinnumerablesmallrooms,afewlargeandloftyapartments,andanimmensehall。Thewalls,whicharefullofchinksandcrannies,areofthatimmensethicknesswhichprovesthatourancestorsbuiltfortheirremotedescendants,andnotinourmodernfashion;
forwearebeginningtobuildintheEnglishstyle,thatis,barelyforonegeneration。Thestonestairshadbeentroddenbysomanyfeetthatonehadtobeverycarefulingoingupordown。
Thefloorwasallofbricks,andasithadbeenrenewedatvariousepochswithbricksofdiverscoloursitformedakindofmosaic,notverypleasanttolookupon。Thewindowswereofapiecewiththerest;theyhadnoglassinthem,andthesasheshavinginmanyinstancesgivenwaytheywerealwaysopen;shutterswereutterlyunknownthere。Happilythewantofglasswasnotmuchfeltinthegenialclimateofthecountry。Theceilingswereconspicuousbytheirabsence,buttherewereheavybeams,thehauntsofbats,owls,andotherbirds,andlightornamentwassuppliedbythenumerousspiders’webs。
InthisgreatGothicpalace——forpalaceitwasratherthancastle,forithadnotowersorotherattributesoffeudalism,excepttheenormouscoat—of—armswhichcrownedthegateway——inthispalace,I
say,thememorialoftheancientgloriesoftheCountsA————B————,whichtheylovedbetterthanthefinestmodernhouse,therewerethreesetsofroomsbetterkeptthantherest。Heredweltthemasters,ofwhomtherewerethree;theCountA————B————,myfriend,CountAmbrose,whoalwayslivedthere,andathird,anofficerintheSpanishWalloonGuards。Ioccupiedtheapartmentofthelastnamed。ButImustdescribethewelcomeIreceived。
CountAmbrosereceivedmeatthegateofthecastleasifIhadbeensomehighandpuissantprince。Thedoorstoodwideopenonbothsides,butIdidnottaketoomuchpridetomyselfonthisaccount,astheyweresooldthatitwasimpossibletoshutthem。
Thenoblecountwhoheldhiscapinhishand,andwasdecentlybutnegligentlydressed,thoughhewasonlyfortyyearsold,toldmewithhigh—bornmodestythathisbrotherhaddonewrongtobringmeheretoseetheirmiserableplace,whereIshouldfindnoneofthoseluxuriestowhichIhadbeenaccustomed,buthepromisedmeagoodold—fashionedMilanesewelcomeinstead。ThisisaphraseofwhichtheMilaneseareveryfond,butastheyputitintopracticeitbecomesthemwell。Theyaregenerallymostworthyandhospitablepeople,andcontrastfavourablywiththePiedmonteseandGenoese。
TheworthyAmbroseintroducedmetohiscountessandhistwosisters—in—law,oneofwhomwasanexquisitebeauty,ratherdeficientinmanner,butthiswasnodoubtduetothefactthattheysawnopolishedcompanywhatever。Theotherwasathoroughlyordinarywoman,neitherprettynorugly,ofatypewhichisplentifulalltheworldover。ThecountesslookedlikeaMadonna;
herfeatureshadsomethingangelicaboutthemintheirdignityandopenness。ShecamefromLodi,andhadonlybeenmarriedtwoyears。Thethreesisterswereveryyoung,verynoble,andverypoor。WhilewewereatdinnerCountAmbrosetoldmethathehadmarriedapoorwomanbecausehethoughtmoreofgoodnessthanriches。
"Shemakesmehappy,"headded;"andthoughshebroughtmenodower,Iseemtobearicherman,forshehastaughtmetolookoneverythingwedon’tpossessasasuperfluity。"
"There,indeed,"saidI,"youhavethetruephilosophyofanhonestman。"
Thecountess,delightedatherhusband’spraiseandmyapproval,smiledlovinglyathim,andtookaprettybabyfromthenurse’sarmsandoffereditheralabasterbreast。Thisistheprivilegeofanursingmother;naturetellsherthatbydoingsoshedoesnothingagainstmodesty。Herbosom,feedingthehelpless,arousesnootherfeelingsthanthoseofrespect。Iconfess,however,thatthesightmighthaveproducedatenderersentimentinme;itwasexquisitelybeautiful,andIamsurethatifRaphaelhadbeheldithisMadonnawouldhavebeenstillmorelovely。
Thedinnerwasexcellent,withtheexceptionofthemadedishes,whichweredetestable。Soup,beef,freshsaltedpork,sausages,mortadella,milkdishes,vegetables,game,mascarponcheese,preservedfruits——allweredelicious;butthecounthavingtoldhisbrotherthatIwasagreatgourmand,theworthyAmbrosehadfeltithisdutytogivemesomeragouts,whichwereasbadascanwellbeimagined。Ihadtotastethem,outofpoliteness;butI
madeupmymindthatIwoulddosonomore。AfterdinnerItookmyhostapart,andspewedhimthatwithtenplaincourseshistablewouldbedelicateandexcellent,andthathehadnoneedofintroducinganyragouts。FromthattimeIhadachoicedinnereveryday。
Thereweresixofusattable,andwealltalkedandlaughedwiththeexceptionofthefairClementine。Thiswastheyoungcountesswhohadalreadymadeanimpressiononme。Sheonlyspokewhenshewasobligedtodoso,andherwordswerealwaysaccompaniedwithablush;butasIhadnootherwayofgettingasightofherbeautifuleyes,Iaskedheragoodmanyquestions。However,sheblushedsoterriblythatIthoughtImustbedistressingher,andIleftherinpeace,hopingtobecomebetteracquaintedwithher。
AtlastIwastakentomyapartmentandleftthere。Thewindowswereglazedandcurtainedasinthediningroom,butClairmontcameandtoldmethathecouldnotunpackmytrunksastherewerenolockstoanythingandshouldnotcaretotaketheresponsibility。
Ithoughthewasright,andIwenttoaskmyfriendaboutit。
"There’snotalockorakey,"saidhe,"inthewholecastle,exceptinthecellar,buteverythingissafeforallthat。TherearenorobbersatSt。Angelo,andifthereweretheywouldnotdaretocomehere。"
"Idaresay,mydearcount,butyouknow’itismybusinesstosupposerobberseverywhere。Myownvaletmighttaketheopportunityofrobbingme,andyouseeIshouldhavetokeepsilenceifIwererobbed。"
"Quiteso,Ifeeltheforceofyourargument。Tomorrowmorningalocksmithshallputlocksandkeystoyourdoors,andyouwillbetheonlypersoninthecastlewhoisproofagainstthieves。"
ImighthaverepliedinthewordsofJuvenal,’Cantabitvacuuscoramlatroneviator’,butIshouldhavemortifiedhim。ItoldClairmonttoleavemytrunksalonetillnextday,andIwentoutwithCountA————B————andhissisters—in—lawtotakeawalkinthetown。
CountAmbroseandhisbetter—halfstayedinthecastle;thegoodmotherwouldneverleavehernursling。Clementinewaseighteen,hermarriedsisterbeingfouryearsolder。Shetookmyarm,andmyfriendofferedhistoEleanore。
"Wewillgoandseethebeautifulpenitent,"saidthecount。
Iaskedhimwhothebeautifulpenitentwas,andheanswered,withouttroublinghimselfabouthissisters—in—law,"ShewasonceaLaisofMilan,andenjoyedsuchareputationforbeautythatnotonlyalltheflowerofMilanbutpeoplefromtheneighbouringtownswereatherfeet。Herhall—doorwasopenedandshutahundredtimesinaday,andeventhenshewasnotabletosatisfythedesiresaroused。Atlastanendcametowhattheoldandthedevoutcalledascandal。CountFirmian,amanoflearningandwit,wenttoVienna,andonhisdeparturereceivedorderstohavehershutupinaconvent。OuraugustMarieTheresecannotpardonmercenarybeauty,andthecounthadnochoicebuttohavethefairsinnerimprisoned。Shewastoldthatshehaddoneamiss,anddealtwickedly;shewasobligedtomakeageneralconfession,andwascondemnedtoalife—longpenanceinthisconvent。ShewasabsolvedbyCardinalPozzobonelli,ArchbishopofMilan,andhethenconfirmedher,changingthenameofTherese,whichshehadreceivedatthebaptismalfont,toMaryMagdalen,thusshewingherhowsheshouldsavehersoulbyfollowingtheexampleofhernewpatroness,whosewantonnesshadhithertobeenherpattern。
"Ourfamilyarethepatronsofthisconvent,whichisdevotedtopenitents。Itissituatedinaninaccessiblespot,andtheinmatesareinthechargeofakindmother—superior,whodoesherbesttosoftenthemanifoldausteritiesoftheirexistences。Theyonlyworkandpray,andseenoonebesidestheirconfessor,whosaysmasseveryday。Wearetheonlypersonswhomthesuperioresswouldadmit,aslongassomeofourfamilyarepresentshealwaysletthembringwhomtheylike。"
Thisstorytouchedmeandbroughttearstomyeyes。PoorMaryMagdalen!Cruelempress!IthinkIhavenotedinanotherpassagethesourceofherausterevirtue。
Whenwewereannouncedthemother—superiorcametomeetus,andtookusintoalargehall,whereIsoonmadeoutthefamouspenitentamongstfiveorsixothergirls,whowerepenitentslikeherself,butIpresumefortriflingoffences,astheywereallugly。Assoonasthepoorwomensawustheyceasedworking,andstooduprespectfully。Inspiteoftheseveresimplicityofherdress,Theresemadeagreatimpressiononme。Whatbeauty!Whatmajestybroughtlow!Withmyprofaneeyes,insteadoflookingtotheenormityoftheoffencesforwhichshewassufferingsocruelly,Isawbeforemeapictureofinnocence——ahumbledVenus。
Herfineeyeswerefixedontheground,butwhatwasmysurprise,when,suddenlylookingatme,sheexclaimed,——
"OmyGod!whatdoIsee?HolyMary,cometomyaid!Begone,dreadfulsinner,thoughthoudeservesttobeheremorethanI。
Scoundrel!"
Ididnotfeelinclinedtolaugh。Herunfortunateposition,andthesingularapostropheshehadaddressedtome,piercedmetotheheart。Themother—superiorhastenedtosay,——
"Donotbeoffended,sir,thepoorgirlhasbecomemad,andunlessshereallyhasrecognizedyou……"
"Thatisimpossible,madam,Ihaveneverseenherbefore。"
"Ofcoursenot,butyoumustforgiveher,asshehaslosttheuseofherreason"
"MaybetheLordhasmadeherthusinmercy。"
Asamatteroffact,Isawmoresensethanmadnessinthisoutburst,foritmusthavebeenverygrievousforthepoorgirltohavetoencountermyidlecuriosity,intheplaceofherpenitence。Iwasdeeplymoved,andinspiteofmyselfabigtearrolleddownmyface。Thecount,whohadknownher,laughed,butI
beggedhimtorestrainhimself。
Amomentafter,thepoorwretchbeganagain。Sheravedagainstmemadly,andbeggedthemother—superiortosendmeaway,asIhadcometheretodamnher。
Thegoodladychidherwithallatruemother’sgentleness,andtoldhertoleavetheroom,addingthatallwhocamethereonlydesiredthatsheshouldbesavedeternally。Shewassternenough,however,toadd,thatnoonehadbeenagreatersinnerthanshe,andthepoorMagdalenwentoutweepingbitterly。
IfithadbeenmyfortunetoenterMilanattheheadofavictoriousarmy,thefirstthingIshouldhavedonewouldbehesettingfreeofthispoorcaptive,andiftheabbesshadresistedshewouldhavefelttheweightofmywhip。
WhenMagdalenwasgone,themother—superiortoldusthatthepoorgirlhadmanygoodqualities,andifGodwilledthatsheshouldkeepsomeparticleofsenseshedidnotdoubtherbecomingasaintlikeherpatroness。
"Shehasbeggedme,"sheadded,"totakedownthepicturesofSt。
LouisdeGonzagaandSt。Antonyfromthechapelwallbecauseshesaystheydistractherfearfully。Ihavethoughtitmydutytoyieldtoherrequest,inspiteofourconfessor,whosaysit’sallnonsense。"
Theconfessorwasarudechurl。Ididnotexactlytelltheabbessthat,butIsaidenoughforacleverwomanasshewastograspmymeaning。
Weleftthesorrowfulplaceinsadnessandsilence,cursingthesovereignwhohadmadesuchilluseofherpower。
If,asourholyreligionmaintains,thereisafuturelifebeforeusall,MarieTheresecertainlydeservesdamnation,ifonlytheoppressionsshehasusedtowardsthosepoorwomenwhoselifeiswretchedenoughatthebest。PoorMaryMagdalenhadgonemadandsufferedthetormentsofthedamnedbecausenaturehadgivenhertwoofherbestgifts——beauty,andanexcellentheart。Youwillsayshehadabusedthem,butforafaultwhichisonlyacrimebeforeGod,shouldafellow—creatureandagreatersinnerhavecondemnedhertosuchafearfuldoom?Idefyanyreasonablemantoanswerintheaffirmative。
OnourwaybacktothecastleClementine,whowasonmyarm,laughedtoherselfonceortwice。Ifeltcurioustoknowwhatshewaslaughingat,andsaid,——
"MayIaskyou,faircountess,whyyoulaughthustoyourself?"
"Forgiveme;Iwasnotamusedatthepoorgirl’srecognizingyou,forthatmusthavebeenamistake,butIcannothelplaughingwhenIthinkofyourfaceatherwordy’YouaremoredeservingofimprisonmentthanI。’"
"Perhapsyouthinkshewasright。"
"I?Notatall。Buthowisitthatsheattackedyouandnotmybrother—in—law?"
"ProbablybecauseshethoughtIlookedagreatersinnerthanhe。"
"That,Isuppose,musthavebeenthereason。Oneshouldneverheedthetalkofmadpeople。"
"Youaresarcastic,butItakeitallingoodpart。PerhapsIamasgreatasinnerasIlook;butbeautyshouldbemercifultome,foritisbybeautythatIamledastray。"
"Iwondertheempressdoesnotshutupmenaswellaswomen。"
"Perhapsshehopestoseethemallatherfeetwhentherearenomoregirlslefttoamusethem。"
"Thatisajest。Youshouldrathersaythatshecannotforgiveherownsexthelackofavirtuewhichsheexercisessoeminently,andwhichissoeasilyobserved。"
"Ihavenothingtoallegeagainsttheempress’svirtue,butwithyourleaveIbegtoentertainverystrongdoubtsastothepossibilityofthegeneralexerciseofthatvirtuewhichwecallcontinence。"
"Nodoubteveryonethinksbyhisownstandard。Amanmaybepraisedfortemperanceinwhomtemperanceisnomerit。Whatiseasytoyoumaybehardtome,and’viceversa’。Bothofusmayberight。"
ThisinterestingconversationmademecompareClementinetothefairmarchionessatMilan,buttherewasthisdifferencebetweenthem:Mdlle。Q————spokewithanairofgravityandimportance,whereasClementineexpoundedhersystemwithgreatsimplicityandanutterindifferenceofmanner。Ithoughtherobservationssoacuteandherutterancesoperfectandartistic,thatIfeltashamedofhavingmisjudgedheratdinner。Hersilence,andtheblushwhichmountedtoherfacewhenanyoneaskedheraquestion,hadmademesuspectbothconfusionandpovertyinherideas,fortimidityisoftenanotherwordforstupidity;buttheconversationIhavejustreportedmademefeelthatIhadmadeagreatmistake。
Themarchioness,beingolderandhavingseenmoreoftheworld,wasmoreskilledinargument;butClementinehadtwiceeludedmyquestionswiththeutmostskill,andIfeltobligedtoawardherthepalm。
Whenwegotbacktothecastlewefoundaladywithhersonanddaughter,andanotherrelationofthecount’s,ayoungabbe,whomIfoundmostobjectionable。
Hewasapitilesstalker,andonthepretenceofhavingseenmeatMilanhetooktheopportunityofflatteringmeinadisgustingmanner。Besides,hemadesheep’seyesatClementine,andIdidnotliketheideaofhavingafellowlikethatforarival。I
saidverydrylythatIdidnotrememberhimatall;buthewasnotamanofdelicatefeeling,andthisdidnotdisconcerthimintheleast。HesatdownbesideClementine,andtakingherhandtoldherthatshemustaddmetothelongcatalogueofhervictims。
Shecoulddonothingelsebutlaughatsillytalkofthiskind;I
knewit,butthatlaughofhersdispleasedme。Iwouldhavehadhersay——Idonotknowwhat,butsomethingbitingandsarcastic。
Notatall;theimpertinentfellowwhisperedsomethinginherear,andsheansweredinthesameway。ThiswasmorethanIcouldbear。Somequestionorotherwasbeingdiscussed,andtheabbeaskedformyopinion。IdonotrememberwhatIanswered,butI
knowthatIgavehimabitterreplyinthehopeofputtinghiminabadtemperandreducinghimtosilence。Buthewasabattlecharger,andusedtotrumpet,fife,andgun;nothingputhimout。
HeappealedtoClementine,andIhadthemortificationofhearingheropiniongiven,thoughwithablush,inhisfavour。Thefopwassatisfied,andkissedtheyoungcountess’shandwithanairoffatuoushappiness。Thiswastoomuch;andIcursedtheabbeandClementine,too。Irosefrommyseatandwenttothewindow。
Thewindowisagreatblessingtoanimpatientman,whomtherulesofpolitenessinsomedegreeconstrain。Hecanturnhisbackonbores,withouttheirbeingabletochargehimwitchdirectrudeness;butpeopleknowwhathemeans,andthatsootheshisfeelings。
Ihavenotedthistriflingcircumstanceonlytopointouthowbadtemperblindsitsvictims。ThepoorabbevexedmebecausehemadehimselfagreeabletoClementine,withwhomIwasalreadyinlovewithoutknowingit。Isawinhimarival,butfarfromendeavouringtooffendme,hehaddonehisbesttopleaseme;andIshouldhavetakenaccountofhisgoodwill。ButundersuchcircumstancesIalwaysgavewaytoillhumour,andnowIamtoooldtobegincuringmyself。Idon’tthinkIneeddoso,forifI
amilltemperedthecompanypolitelypassmeover。Mymisfortuneobligesmetosubmit。
Clementinehadconqueredmeinthespaceofafewhours。True,I
wasaninflammablesubject,buthithertonobeautyhadcommittedsuchravagesuponmeinsoshortatime。Ididnotdoubtofsuccess,andIconfessthattherewasacertainamountofvanityinthisassurance;butatthesametimeIwasmodest,forIknewthatattheslightestsliptheenterprisewouldmiscarry。ThusI
regardedtheabbeasawasptobecrushedasspeedilyaspossible。
Iwasalsoavictimtothatmosthorribleofpassions,jealousy;
itseemedtomethatifClementinewasnotinlovewiththisman—
monkey,shewasextremelyindulgenttohim;andwiththisideaI
conceivedahorribleplanofrevengingmywrongsonher。Loveisthegodofnature,butthisgodis,afterall,onlyaspoiltchild。Weknowallhisfolliesandfrailties,butwestilladorehim。
Myfriendthecount,whowassurprised,Isuppose,toseemecontemplatingtheprospectforsuchalongtime,cameuptomeandaskedmeifIwantedanything。
"Iamthinkingsomematterover,"saidI,"andImustgoandwriteoneortwolettersinmyroomtillitistimeforsupper。"
"Youwon’tleaveussurely?"saidhe。
"Clementine,helpmetokeepM。deSeingalt;youmustmakehimpostponehisletter—writing。"
"Butmydearbrother,"saidthecharminggirl,"ifM。deSeingalthasbusinesstodo,itwouldberudeofmetotryandpreventhisdoingit。"
Thoughwhatshesaidwasperfectlyreasonable,itstungmetothequick;whenoneisinanillhumour,everythingisfuelforthefire。ButtheabbesaidpleasantlythatIhadmuchbettercomeandmakeabankatfaro,andaseverythingechoedthissuggestionIhadtogivein。
Thecardswerebroughtin,andvariouscolouredcountershandedround,andIsatdownputtingthirtyducatsbeforeme。Thiswasaverylargesumforacompanywhoonlyplayedforamusement’ssake;
fifteencounterswerevaluedonlyatasequin。CountessAmbrosesatatmyrighthand,andtheabbeatmyleft。Asiftheyhadlaidaplottovexandannoyme,Clementinehadmaderoomforhim。
Itookamereaccidentforastudiedimpertinence,andtoldthepoormanthatIneverdealtunlessIhadaladyoneachsideofme,andneverbyanychancewithapriestbesideme。
"Doyouthinkitwouldbringyouillluck?"
"Idon’tlikebirdsofillomen。"
Atthishegotup,andClementinetookhisplace。
Attheendofthreehours,supperwasannounced。Everybodyhadwonfrommeexcepttheabbe;thepoordevilhadlostcounterstotheextentoftwentysequins。
Asarelationtheabbestayedtosupper,buttheladyandherchildrenwereaskedinvaintodoso。
Theabbelookedwretched,whichmademeinagoodtemper,andinclinedmetobepleasant。IproceededtoflirtwithClementine,andbymakingherreplytothenumerousquestionsIasked,Igaveheranopportunityofdisplayingherwit,andIcouldseethatshewasgrateful。Iwasoncemoremyself,andItookpityoftheabbe,andspoketohimpolitely,askinghimhisopiniononsometopic。
"Iwasnotlistening,"saidhe,"butIhopeyouwillgivememyrevengeaftersupper。"
"AftersupperIshallbegoingtobed,butyoushallhaveyourrevenge,andasmuchasyoulikeofit,tomorrow,providedthatourcharminghostesseslikeplaying。Ihopetheluckwillbeinyourfavour。"
Aftersupperthepoorabbewentsadlyaway,andthecounttookmetomyroom,tellingmethatIcouldsleepsecurelyinspiteofthelackofkeysforhissisters—in—lawwhowerelodgedclosebywerenobetteroff。
Iwasastonishedanddelightedatthetrustheputinme,andatthereallymagnificenthospitality(itmustberememberedallthingsarerelative)withwhichIhadbeentreatedinthecastle。
ItoldClairmonttobequickaboutputtingmyhairincurl—papers,forIwastiredandinneedofrest,buthewasonlyhalf—waythroughtheoperationwhenIwasagreeablysurprisedbytheapparitionofClementine。
"Sir,"saidshe,"aswehaven’tgotamaidtolookafteryourlinen,Ihavecometobegyoutoletmeundertakethatoffice。"
"You!mydearcountess?"
"Yes,I,sir,andIhopeyouwillmakenoobjection。Itwillbeapleasuretome,andIhopetoyouaswell。Letmehavetheshirtyouaregoingtowearto—morrow,andsaynomoreaboutit。"
"Verygood,itshallbeasyouplease。"
IhelpedClairmonttocarrymylinentrunkintoherroom,andadded,——
"EverydayIwantashirt,acollar,afront,apairofdrawers,apairofstocking,andtwohandkerchiefs;butIdon’tmindwhichyoutake,andleavethechoicetoyouasthemistress,asIwishyouwereindeedandtruth。IshallsleepahappiersleepthanJovehimself。Farewell,dearHebe!"
HersisterEleanorewasalreadyinbed,andbeggedpardonforherposition。ItoldClairmonttogotothecountdirectly,andinformhimthatIhadchangedmymindaboutthelocks。ShouldI
beafraidformypoorpropertieswhentheselivingtreasureswereconfinedtomesofrankly?Ishouldhavebeenafraidofoffendingthem。
Ihadanexcellentbed,andIsleptwonderfully。ClairmontwasdoingmyhairwhenmyyouthfulHebepresentedherselfwithabasketinherhands。ShewishedmegooddayandsaidshehopedI
wouldbecontentedwithherhandiwork。Igazedatherdelightedly,notraceoffalseshameappearedonherfeatures。
Theblushonhercheekswasawitnessofthepleasuresheexperiencedinbeinguseful——apleasurewhichisunknowntothosewhosecurseistheirpride,thecharacteristicoffoolsandupstarts。IkissedherhandandtoldherthatIhadneverseenlinensonicelydone。
JustthenthecountcameinandthankedClementineforattendingonme。Iapprovedofthat,butheaccompaniedhisthankswithakisswhichwaswellreceived,andthisIdidnotapproveofatall。Butyouwillsaytheywerebrother—in—lawandsister—in—law?
Justso,butIwasjealousallthesame。Natureisallwise,anditwasnaturethatmademejealous。Whenonelovesandhasnotasyetgainedpossession,jealousyisinevitable;theheartmustfearlestthatwhichitlongsforsobecarriedawaybyanother。
Thecounttookanotefromhispocketandbeggedmetoreadit。
Itcamefromhiscousintheabbe,whobeggedthecounttoapologizetomeforhimifhewasunabletopaythetwentysequinshehadlosttomeinthepropertime,butthathewoulddischargehisdebtinthecourseoftheweek。
"Verygood!Tellhimthathecanpaywhenhelikes,butwarnhimnottoplaythisevening。Iwillnottakehisbets。"
"Butyouwouldhavenoobjectiontohispuntingwithreadymoney。"
"CertainlyIshould,unlesshepaysmefirst,otherwisehewouldbepuntingwithmymoney。Ofcourseit’sameretrifle,andI
hopehewon’ttroublehimselfintheleastorputhimselftoanyinconveniencetopayit。"
"Iamafraidhewillbemortified。"
"Somuchthebetter,"saidClementine;"whatdidheplayfor,whenheknewthathecouldnotpayhisdebtsifheincurredany?Itwillbealessontohim。"
Thisoutburstwasbalmtomyheart。Suchisman——amereselfishegotist,whenpassionmoveshim。
Thecountmadenoreply,butleftusalone。
"MydearClementine,tellmefranklywhethertheratheruncivilwayinwhichIhavetreatedtheabbehaspainedyou。Iamgoingtogiveyoutwentysequins,doyousendthemtohim,andto—nighthecanpaymehonourably,andmakeagoodfigure。Ipromiseyounooneshallknowaboutit。"
"Thankyou,butthehonouroftheabbeisnotdearenoughtomeformetoacceptyouroffer。Thelessonwilldohimgood。
Alittleshamewillteachhimthathemustmendhisways。"
"Youwillseehewon’tcomethisevening。"
"Thatmaybe,butdoyouthinkIshallcare?"
"Well——yes,Ididthinkso。"
"Becausewejokedtogether,Isuppose。Heisahare—brainedfellow,towhomIdonotgivetwothoughtsintheyear。"
"Ipityhim,asheartilyasIcongratulateanyoneofwhomyoudothink。"
"Maybethereisnosuchperson"
"What!Youhavenotyetmetamanworthyofyourregard?"
"Manyworthyofregard,butnoneoflove。"
"Thenyouhaveneverbeeninlove?"
"Never。"
"Yourheartisempty?"
"Youmakemelaugh。Isithappiness,isitunhappiness?Whocansay。Ifitbehappiness,Iamglad,andifitbeunhappiness,I
donotcare,forIdonotfeelittobeso。"
"Nevertheless,itisamisfortune,andyouwillknowittohavebeensoonthedayinwhichyoulove。"
"AndifIbecomeunhappythroughlove,shallInotpronouncemyemptinessofhearttohavebeenhappiness。"
"Iconfessyouwouldberight,butIamsurelovewouldmakeyouhappy。"
"Idonotknow。Tobehappyonemustliveinperfectagreement;
thatisnoeasymatter,andIbelieveittobeharderstillwhenthebondislifelong。"
"Iagree,butGodsentusintotheworldthatwemightruntherisk"
"Toamanitmaybeanecessityandadelight,butagirlisboundbystricterlaws。"
"Innaturethenecessityisthesamethoughtheresultsaredifferent,andthe,lawsyouspeakofarelaiddownbysociety。"
Thecountcameinatthispointandwasastonishedtoseeusbothtogether。
"Iwishyouwouldfallinlovewithoneanother,"saidhe。
"Youwishtoseeusunhappy,doyou?"saidshe。
"Whatdoyoumeanbythat?"Icried。
"Ishouldbeunhappywithaninconstantlover,andyouwouldbeunhappytoo,foryouwouldfeelbitterremorseforhavingdestroyedmypeaceofmind。"
Afterthisshediscreetlyfled。
Iremainedstillasifshehadpetrifiedme,butthecountwhoneverweariedhimselfwithtoomuchthinking,exclaimed,"Clementineisrathertooromantic;shewillgetoverit,however;
sheisyoungyet。"
Wewenttobidgooddaytothecountess,whomwefoundsucklingherbaby。
"Doyouknow,mydearsister,"saidthecount,"thatthechevalierhereisinlovewithClementine,andsheseemsinclinedtopayhimbackinhisowncoin?"
Thecountesssmiledandsaid,——
"Ihopeasuitablematchlikethatmaymakeusrelations。"
Thereissomethingmagicalabouttheword"marriage。"
Whatthecountesssaidpleasedmeextremely,andIrepliedwithabowofthemostgraciouscharacter。
Wewenttopayacallontheladywhohadcometothecastlethedaybefore。Therewasacanonregularthere,whoafteragreatmanypolitespeechesinpraiseofmycountry,whichheknewonlyfrombooks,askedmeofwhatorderwasthecrossIcarriedonmybreast。
Ireplied,withakindofboastfulmodesty,thatitwasapeculiarmarkofthefavouroftheHolyFather,thePope,whohadfreelymademeaknightoftheOrderofSt。JohnLateran,andaprothonotary—apostolic。
Thismonkhadstayedathomefarfromtheworld,orelsehewouldnothaveaskedmesuchaquestion。However,farfromthinkinghewasoffendingme,hethoughthewashonouringmebygivingmeanopportunityoftalkingofmyownmerit。
AtLondon,thegreatestpossiblerudenessistoaskanyonewhathisreligionis,anditissomethingthesameinGermany;anAnabaptistisbynomeansreadytoconfesshiscreed。Andinfactthebestplanisnevertoaskanyquestionswhatever,notevenifamanhaschangeforalouis。
Clementinewasdelightfulatdinner。Sherepliedwittilyandgracefullytoallthequestionswhichwereaddressedtoher。
True,whatshesaidwaslostonthemajorityofherauditors——forwitcannotstandbeforestupidity——butIenjoyedhertalkimmensely。AsshekeptfillingupmyglassIreproachedher,andthisgaverisetothefollowinglittledialoguewhichcompletedmyconquest。
"Youhavenorighttocomplain,"saidshe,"Hebe’sdutyistokeepthecupofthechiefofthegodsalwaysfull。"
"Verygood;butyouknowJupitersentheraway。"
"Yes,butIknowwhy。Iwilltakecarenottostumbleinthesameway;andnoGanymedeshalltakemyplaceforalikecause。"
"Youareverywise。Jupiterwaswrong,andhenceforthIwillbeHercules。Willthatpleaseyou,fairHebe?"
"No;becausehedidnotmarryhertillafterherdeath。"
"True,again。IwillbeIolasthen,for……"
"Bequiet。Iolaswasold。"
"True;butsowasIyesterday。Youhavemademeyoungagain。"
"Iamveryglad,dearIolas;butrememberwhatIdidwhenheleftme。"
"Andwhatdidyoudo?Idonotremember。"
"Ididnotbelieveawordhesaid。"
"Youcanbelieve。"
"ItookawaythegiftIhadmade。"
Atthesewordsthischarminggirl’sfacewassufferedwithblushes。IfIhadtouchedherwithmyhand,sureitwouldhavebeenonfire;buttheraysthatdartedfromhereyesfrozemyheart。
Philosophers,benotangryifItalkoffreezingrays。Itisnomiracle,butaverynaturalphenomenon,whichishappeningeveryday。Agreatlove,whichelevatesaman’swholenature,isastrongflamebornoutofagreatcold,suchasIthenfeltforamoment;itwouldhavekilledmeifithadlastedlonger。
ThesuperiormannerinwhichClementinehadappliedthestoryofHebeconvincedmenotonlythatshehadaprofoundknowledgeofmythology,butalsothatshehadakeenandfar—reachingintellect。Shehadgivenmemorethanaglimpseofherlearning;
shehadletmeguessthatIinterestedher,andthatshethoughtofme。
Theseideas,enteringaheartwhichisalreadywarm,speedilysetallthesensesinflames。Inamomentalldoubtwaslaidtorest;
Clementinelovedme,andIwassurethatweshouldbehappy。
Clementineslippedawayfromthetabletocalmherself,andthusI
hadtimetoescapefrommyastonishment。
"Praywherewasthatyoungladyeducated?"Isaidtothecountess。
"Inthecountry。Shewasalwayspresentwhenmybrotherhadhislessons,butthetutor,Sardini,nevertookanynoticeofher,anditwasonlyshewhogainedanything;mybrotheronlyyawned。
Clementineusedtomakemymotherlaugh,andpuzzletheoldtutorsadlysometimes。"
"Sardiniwroteandpublishedsomepoemswhicharenotbad;butnobodyreadsthem,becausetheyaresofullofmythology。"
"Quiteso。Clementinepossessesamanuscriptwithwhichhepresentedher,containinganumberofmythologicaltalesverified。
Tryandmakehershewyouherbooksandtheversessheusedtowrite;shewon’tshewthemtoanyofus。"
Iwasinagreatstateofadmiration。WhenshereturnedI
complimentedheruponheracquirements,andsaidthatasIwasagreatloverofliteraturemyselfIshouldbedelightedifshewouldshewmeherverses。
"Ishouldbeashamed。Ihadtogiveovermystudiestwoyearsago,whenmysistermarriedandwecametolivehere,whereweonlyseehonestfolkswhotalkaboutthestable,theharvest,andtheweather。YouarethefirstpersonIhaveseenwhohastalkedtomeaboutliterature。IfouroldSardinihadcomewithusI
shouldhavegoneonlearning,butmysisterdidnotcaretohavehimhere。"
"ButmydearClementine,"saidthecountess,"whatdoyouthinkmyhusbandcouldhavedonewithanoldmanofeightywhosesoleaccomplishmentsareweighingthewind,writingverses,andtalkingmythology?"
"Hewouldhavebeenusefulenough,"saidthehusband,"ifhecouldhavemanagedtheestate,butthehonestoldmanwillnotbelieveintheexistenceofrascals。Heissolearnedthatheisquitestupid。"
"Goodheavens!"criedClementine。"Sardinistupid?Itiscertainlyeasytodeceivehim,butthatisbecauseheissonoble。
Iloveamanwhoiseasilydeceived,buttheycallmesilly。"
"Notatall,mydearsister,"saidthecountess。"Onthecontrary,thereiswisdominallyousay,butitiswisdomoutofplaceinawoman;themistressofahouseholddoesnotwanttoknowanythingaboutliterature,poetry,orphilosophy,andwhenitcomestomarryingyouIamverymuchafraidthatyourtasteforthiskindofthingwillstandinyourway。"
"Iknowit,andIamexpectingtodieamaid;notthatitismuchcomplimenttothemen。"
Toknowallthatsuchadialoguemeantforme,thereadermustimaginehimselfmostpassionatelyinlove。Ithoughtmyselfunfortunate。Icouldhavegivenherahundredthousandcrowns,andIwouldhavemarriedherthatmoment。ShetoldmethatSardiniwasatMilan,veryoldandill。
"Haveyoubeentoseehim?"Iasked。
"IhaveneverbeentoMilan。"
"Isitpossible?Itisnotfarfromhere。"
"Distanceisrelative,youknow。"
Thiswasbeautifullyexpressed。Ittoldmewithoutanyfalseshamethatshecouldnotaffordtogo,andIwaspleasedbyherfrankness。ButinthestateofmindIwasinIshouldhavebeenpleasedwithanythingshechosetodo。Therearemomentsinaman’slifewhenthewomanhelovescanmakeanythingofhim。
Ispoketoherinamannerthataffectedhersothatshetookmeintoaclosetnexttoherroomtoshewmeherbooks。Therewereonlythirtyinall,buttheywerechosen,althoughsomewhatelementary。AwomanlikeClementineneededsomethingmore。
"Doyouknow,mydearHebe,thatyouwantmorebooks?"
"Ihaveoftensuspectedit,dearIolas,withoutbeingabletosayexactlywhatIwant。"
AfterspendinganhouringlancingoverSardini’sworks,Ibeggedhertospewmeherown。
"No,"saidshe,"theyaretoobad。"
"Iexpectso;butthegoodwilloutweighthebad。"
"Idon’tthinkso。"
"Oh,yes!youneedn’tbeafraid。Iwillforgivethebadgrammar,badstyle,absurdimages,faultymethod,andeventheversesthatwon’tscan。"
"That’stoomuch,Iolas;Hebedoesn’tneedsovastapardonasallthat。Here,sir,thesearemyscribblings;siftthefaultsandthedefaults。Readwhatyouwill。"
Iwasdelightedthatmyschemeofwoundinghervanityhadsucceeded,andIbeganbyreadingaloudananacreontic,addingtoitsbeautiesbythemodulationofmyvoice,andkeenlyenjoyingherpleasureatfindingherworksofair。WhenIimprovedalinebysometriflingchangeshenoticedit,forshefollowedmewithhereyes;butfarfrombeinghumiliated,shewaspleasedwithmycorrections。Thepicturewasstillhers,shethought,thoughwithmyskilledbrushIbroughtoutthelightsanddarkenedtheshadows,andshewascharmedtoseethatmypleasurewasasgreatorgreaterthanhers。Thereadingcontinuedfortwohours。Itwasaspiritualandpure,butamostintenselyvoluptuous,enjoyment。Happy,andthricehappy,ifwehadgonenofarther;
butloveisatraitorwholaughsatuswhenwethinktoplaywithhimwithoutfallingintohisnets。Shallamantouchhotcoalsandescapetheburning?
Thecountessinterruptedus,andbeggedustojointhecompany。
Clementinehastenedtoputeverythingback,andthankedmeforthehappinessIhadgivenher。Thepleasureshefeltsheweditselfinherblushes,andwhenshecameintothedrawing—roomshewasaskedifshehadbeenfighting,whichmadeherblushstillmore。
Thefaro—tablewasready,butbeforesittingdownItoldClairmonttogetmefourgoodhorsesforthefollowingday。IwantedtogotoLodiandbackbydinnertime。
Everybodyplayedasbefore,theabbeexcepted,andhe,tomyhugedelight,didnotputinanappearanceatall,buthisplacewassuppliedbyacanon,whopuntedaducatatatimeandhadapileofducatsbeforehim。Thismademeincreasemybank,andwhenthegamewasover,Iwasgladtoseethateverybodyhadwonexceptthecanon,buthislosseshadnotspoilthistemper。
NextdayIstartedforLodiatday—breakwithouttellinganybodywhereIwasgoing,andboughtallthebooksIjudgednecessaryforClementine,whoonlyknewItalian。Iboughtnumeroustranslation,whichIwassurprisedtofindatLodi,whichhithertohadbeenonlyfamousinmymindforitscheese,usuallycalledParmesan。
ThischeeseismadeatLodiandnotatParma,andIdidnotfailtomakeanentrytothateffectunderthearticle"Parmesan"inmy"DictionaryofCheeses,"aworkwhichIwasobligedtoabandonasbeyondmypowers,asRousseauwasobligedtoabandonhis"DictionaryofBotany。"ThisgreatbuteccentricindividualwasthenknownunderthepseudonymofRenaud,theBotanist。’Quisquehistrioniamexercet’。ButRousseau,greatmanthoughhewas,wastotallydeficientinhumour。
IconceivedtheideaofgivingabanquetatLodithedayafternext,andaprojectofthiskindnotcallingformuchdeliberationIwentforthwithtothebesthoteltomakethenecessaryarrangements。Iorderedachoicedinnerfortwelve,paidtheearnestmoney,andmadethehostpromisethateverythingshouldbeofthebest。
WhenIgotbacktoSt。Angelo,IhadasackfullofbookscarriedintoClementine’sroom。Shewaspetrified。Thereweremorethanonehundredvolumes,poets,historians,geographers,philosophers,scientists——nothingwasforgotten。Ihadalsoselectedsomegoodnovels,translatedfromtheSpanish,English,andFrench,forwehavenogoodnovelsinItalian。
ThisadmissiondoesnotprovebyanymeansthatItalianliteratureissurpassedbythatofanyothercountry。Italyhaslittletoenvyinotherliteratures,andhasnumerousmasterpieces,whichareunequalledthewholeworldover。WherewillyoufindaworthycompaniontotheOrlandoFurioso?Thereisnone,andthisgreatworkisincapableoftransalation。ThefinestandtruestpanegyricofAriostowaswrittenbyVoltairewhenhewassixty。
Ifhehadnotmadethisapologyfortherashjudgementofhisyouthfuldays,hewouldnothaveenjoyed,inItalyatallevents,thatimmortalitywhichissojustlyhisdue。Thirty—sixyearsagoItoldhimasmuch,andhetookmeatmyword。Hewasafraid,andheactedwisely。
IfIhaveanyreaders,Iasktheirpardonforthesedigressions。
TheymustrememberthattheseMemoirswerewritteninmyoldage,andtheoldarealwaysgarrulous。Thetimewillcometothemalso,andthentheywillunderstandthatiftheagedrepeatthemselves,itisbecausetheyliveinaworldofmemories,withoutapresentandwithoutafuture。
Iwillnowreturntomynarrative,whichIhavekeptsteadilyinview。
Clementinegazedfrommetothebooks,andfromthebookstome。
Shewonderedandadmired,andcouldscarcelybelievethistreasurebelongedtoher。Atlastshecollectedherself,andsaidinatonefullofgratitude,——
"YouhavecometoSt。Angelotomakemehappy。"
Suchasayingmakesamanintoagod。Heissurethatshewhospeaksthuswilldoallinherpowertomakeareturnforthehappinesswhichshehasbeengiven。
Thereissomethingsupremelylovelyintheexpressionofgratefulnessonthefaceofthebeingoneloves。IfyouhavenotexperiencedthefeelingsIdescribe,dearreader,Ipityyou,andamforcedtoconcludethatyoumusthavebeeneitherawkwardormiserly,andthereforeunworthyoflove。
Clementineatescarcelyanythingatdinner,andafterwardsretiredtoherroomwhereIsoonjoinedher。Weamusedourselvesbyputtingthebooksinorder,andshesentforacarpentertomakeabookcasewithalockandkey。
"Itwillbemypleasuretoreadthesebooks,"saidshe,"whenyouhaveleftus。"
Intheeveningshewasluckywiththecards,andindelightfulspirits。IaskedthemalltodinewithmeatLodi,butasthedinnerwasfortwelvetheCountessAmbrosesaidshewouldbeabletofindthetwoguestswhowerewantedatLodi,andthecanonsaidhewouldtaketheladyfriendwithhertwochildren。
Thenextdaywasoneofhappyquiet,andIspentitwithoutleavingthecastle,beingengagedininstructingmyHebeonthenatureofthesphere,andinpreparingherforthebeautiesofWolf。Ipresentedherwithmycaseofmathematicalinstruments,whichseemedtoherinvaluable。
Iburnedwithpassionforthischarminggirl;butwouldIhavedonesoinhertasteforliteratureandsciencehadnotbeenbackedupbyherpersonalcharms?Isuspectnot。Ilikeadishpleasingtothepalate,butifitisnotpleasingtotheeyeaswell,Idonottasteitbutputdownasbad。Thesurfaceisalwaysthefirsttointerest,closeexaminationcomesafterwards。
Themanwhoconfineshimselftosuperficialcharms,issuperficialhimself,butwiththemalllovebegins,exceptthatwhichrisesintherealmoffancy,andthisnearlyalwaysfallsbeforethereality。
WhenIwenttobed,stillthinkingofClementine,Ibegantoreflectseriously,andIwasastonishedtofindthatduringallthehourswehadspenttogethershehadnotcausedtheslightestsensualfeelingtoariseinme。Nevertheless,Icouldnotassignthereasontofear,nortoshynesswhichisunknowntome,nortofalseshame,nortowhatiscalledafeelingofduty。Itwascertainlynotvirtue,forIdonotcarryvirtuesofarasthat。
Thenwhatwasit?Ididnottiremyselfbypursuingthequestion。
IfeltquitesurethatthePlatonicstagemustsooncometoanend,andIwassorry,butmysorrowwasvirtueinextremis。Thefinethingswereadtogetherinterestedussostronglythatwedidnotthinkoflove,norofthepleasurewetookineachother’scompany;butasthesayinggoes,thedevillostnothingbyus。
Whenintellectentersonthefield,thehearthastoyield;virtuetriumphs,butthebattlemustnotlastforlong。Ourconquestsmadeustoosure,butthisfeelingofsecuritywasaColossuswhosefeetwereofclay;weknewthatwelovedbutwerenotsurethatwewerebeloved。ButwhenthisbecamemanifesttheColossusmustfalltotheground。
ThisdangeroustrustmademegotoherroomtotellhersomethingaboutourjourneytoLodi,thecarriageswerealreadywaiting。
Shewasstillasleep,butmysteponthefloormadeherawakewithastart。Ididnoteventhinkitnecessarytoapologize。ShetoldmethatTasso’sAmintahadinterestedhertosuchanextentthatshehadreadittillshefellasleep。
"ThePastorFidowillpleaseyoustillmore。"
"Isitmorebeautiful?"
"Notexactly。"
"Thenwhydoyousayitwillpleasememore?"
"Becauseitcharmstheheart。Itappealstooursoftestfeelings,andseducesus——andweloveseduction。"
"Itisaseducer,then?"
"No,notaseducer;butseductive,likeyou。"
"That’sagooddistinction。Iwillreaditthisevening。NowI
amgoingtodress。"
SheputonherclothesinseemingoblivionthatIwasaman,butwithoutshewinganysightsthatcouldbecalledindecent。
NeverthelessitstruckmethatifshehadthoughtIwasinlovewithher,shewouldhavebeenmorereserved,forassheputonherchemise,lacedhercorset,fastenedhergartersaboveherknee,anddrewonherboots,IsawglimpsesofbeautywhichaffectedmesostronglythatIwasobligedtogooutbeforeshewasreadytoquenchtheflamesshehadkindledinmysenses。
ItookthecountessandClementineinmycarriage,andsatonthebracketseatholdingthebabyonmyknee。Mytwofaircompanionslaughedmerrily,forIheldthechildasiftothemannerborn。
Whenwehadtraversedhalfthedistancethebabydemandednourishment,andthecharmingmotherhastenedtouncoverasphereoverwhichmyeyesrovedwithdelight,notatalltoherdispleasure。Thechildleftitsmother’sbosomsatisfied,andatthesightoftheliquorwhichflowedsoabundantlyIexclaimed,——
"Itmustnotbelost,madam;allowmetosipnectarwhichwillelevatemetotherankofthegods。Donotbeafraidofmyteeth。"Ihadsometeethinthosedays。
Thesmilingcountessmadenoopposition,andIproceededtocarryoutmydesign,whiletheladieslaughedthatmagiclaughwhichnotpaintercanportray。ThedivineHomeristheonlypoetwhohassucceededindelineatingitinthoselinesinwhichhedescribesAndromachewiththeyoungAstyanaxinherarms,whenHectorisleavinghertoreturntothebattle。
IaskedClementineifshehadthecouragetograntmeasimilarfavour。
"Certainly,"saidshe,"ifIhadanymilk。"
"Youhavethesourceofthemilk;Iwillseetotherest。"
Atthisthegirl’sfacesuffusedwithsuchaviolentblushthatI
wassorryIhadspoken;however,Ichangedtheconversation,anditsoonpassedaway。OurspiritsweresohighthatwhenthetimecameforustogetdownattheinnatLodi,wecouldscarcelybelieveitpossible,soswiftlyhadthetimegoneby。
Thecountesssentamessagetoaladyfriendofhers,begginghertodinewithus,andtobringhersister;whileIdispatchedClairmonttoastationer’s,whereheboughtmeabeautifulmoroccocasewithlockandkey,containingpaper,pens,sealing—wax,ink—
well,paperknife,seal,andinfact,everythingnecessaryforwriting。ItwasapresentImeanttogiveClementinebeforedinner。Itwasdelightfultowatchhersurpriseandpleasure,andtoreadgratitudesolegiblywritteninherbeautifuleyes。Thereisnotawomanintheworldwhocannotbeovercomebybeingmadegrateful。Itisthebestandsurestwaytogeton,butitmustbeskilfullyused。Thecountess’sfriendcameandbroughthersister,agirlwhowasdazzlinglybeautiful。Iwasgreatlystruckwithher,butjustthenVenusherselfcouldnothavedethronedClementinefromherplaceinmyaffections。Afterthefriendshadkissedeachother,andexpressedtheirjoyatmeeting,Iwasintroduced,andinsocomplimentaryamannerthatIfeltobligedtoturnitoffwithajest。
Thedinnerwassumptuousanddelicious。Atdesserttwoself—
invitedguestscamein,thelady’shusbandandthesister’slover,buttheywerewelcome,foritwasacaseofthemorethemerrier。
Afterthemeal,inaccordancewiththerequestofthecompany,I
madeabankatfaro,andafterthreehours’playIwasdelightedtofindmyselfalosertotheextentoffortysequins。ItwastheselittlelossesattherighttimewhichgavemethereputationofbeingthefinestgamesterinEurope。
Thelady’sloverwasnamedVigi,andIaskedhimifhewasdescendedfromtheauthorofthethirteenthbookofthe"AEneid。"
Hesaidhewas,andthatinhonourofhisancestorhehadtranslatedthepoemintoItalianverse。Iexpressedmyselfcuriousastohisversion,andhepromisedtobringitmeintwodays’time。Icomplimentedhimonbelongingtosuchanobleandancientfamily;MaffeoVigiflourishedatthebeginningofthefifteenthcentury。
Westartedintheevening,andlessthantwohourswegothome。
ThemoonwhichshonebrightlyuponuspreventedmemakinganyattemptsonClementine,whohadputupherfeetinorderthatshemightbeabletoholdherlittlenephewwithmoreease。TheprettymothercouldnothelpthankingmewarmlyforthepleasureI
hadgiventhem;Iwasauniversalfavouritewiththemall。
Wedidnotfeelinclinedtoeatanysupper,andthereforeretiredtoourapartments;andIaccompaniedClementine,whotoldmethatshewasashamedatnotknowinganythingaboutthe"AEneid。"
"Vigiwillbringhistranslationofthethirteenthbook,andI
shallnotknowawordaboutit。"
IcomfortedherbytellingherthatwewouldreadthefinetranslationbyAnnibaleCarothatverynight。Itwasamongstherbooks,asalsotheversionbyAnguilara,Ovid’sMetamorphoses,andMarchetti’sLucreece。
"ButIwantedtoreadthePastorFido。"
"Weareinahurry;wemustreadthatanothertime。"
"Iwillfollowyouradviceinallthings,mydearIolas。"
"Thatwillmakemehappy,dearestHebe。"
WespentthenightinreadingthatmagnificenttranslationinItalianblankverse,butthereadingwasofteninterruptedbymypupil’slaughterwhenwecametosomeratherticklishpassage。
Shewashighlyamusedbytheaccountofthechancewhichgave’AEneasanopportunityofprovinghisloveforDidoinaveryinconvenientplace,andstillmore,whenDido,complainingofthesonofPriam’streachery,says,——
"Imightstillpardonyouif,beforeabandoningme,youhadleftmealittleAEneastoplayaboutthesehalls。"
Clementinehadcausetobeamused,forthereproachhassomethinglaughableinit;buthowisitthatonedoesnotfeelinclinedtosmileinreadingtheLatin—’SiquismihiparvulusaulaluderetAEneas?’。ThereasonmustbesoughtforinthegraveanddignifiednatureoftheLatintongue。
Wedidnotfinishourreadingtillday—break。
"Whatanight!"exclaimedClementine,withasigh。
"Ithasbeenoneofgreatpleasuretome,hasitnottoyou?"
"Ihaveenjoyeditbecauseyouhave。"
"Andifyouhadbeenreadingbyyourself?"
"Itwouldhavestillbeenapleasure,butamuchsmallerone。I
loveyourintellecttodistraction,Clementine,buttellme,doyouthinkitpossibletolovetheintellectwithoutlovingthatwhichcontainsit?"
"No,forwithoutthebodythespiritwouldvanishaway。"
"IconcludefromthatthatIamdeeplyinlovewithyou,andthatIcannotpasssixorsevenhoursinyourcompanywithoutlongingtokissyou。"
"Certainly,butweresistthesedesiresbecausewehavedutiestoperform,whichwouldriseupagainstusifweleftthemundone。"
"Trueagain,butifyourdispositionatallresemblesminethisconstraintmustbeverypainfultoyou。"
"PerhapsIfeelitasmuchasyoudo,butitismybeliefthatitisonlyhardtowithstandtemptationatfirst。Bydegreesonegetsaccustomedtolovingwithoutrunninganyriskandwithouteffort。Oursenses,atfirstsosharpset,endbybecomingblunted,andwhenthisisthecasewemayspendhoursanddaysinsafety,untroubledbydesire。"
"IhavemydoubtsasfarasIamconcerned,butweshallsee。
Goodnight,fairHebe。"
"Goodnight,mygoodIolas,mayyousleepwell!"
"Mysleepwillbehauntedbyvisionsofyou。"
CHAPTERXXII
OurExcursion——PartingFromClementine——ILeaveMilanWithCroce’sMistressMyArrivalAtGenoaTheancients,whosefancywassofertileinallegory,usedtofigureInnocenceasplayingwithaserpentorwithasharparrow。
Theseoldsageshadmadeadeepstudyofthehumanheart;andwhateverdiscoveriesmodernsciencemayhavemade,theoldsymbolsmaystillbeprofitablystudiedbythosewhowishtogainadeepinsightintotheworkingofman’smind。
Iwenttobed,andafterhavingdismissedClairmontIbegantoreflectonmyrelationswithClementine,whoseemedtohavebeenmadetoshineinaspherefromwhich,inspiteofherhighbirth,herintelligence,andherrarebeauty,herwantoffortunekeptherapart。Ismiledtomyselfatherdoctrines,whichwereasmuchastosaythatthebestwayofcuringappetitewastoplaceaseriesofappetisingdishesbeforeahungryman,forbiddinghimtotouchthem。NeverthelessIcouldbutapprovethewordswhichshehadutteredwithsuchanairofinnocence——thatifoneresistsdesires,thereisnodangerofonebeinghumiliatedbygivingwaytothem。
Thishumiliationwouldarisefromafeelingofduty,andshehonouredmebysupposingthatIhadashighprinciplesasherself。
Butatthesametimethemotiveofself—esteemwasalsopresent,andIdeterminednottodoanythingwhichwoulddeprivemeofherconfidence。
Asmaybeimagined,Ididnotawaketillverylatethenextmorning,andwhenIrangmybellClementinecamein,lookingverypleased,andholdingacopyofthePastorFidoinherhand。Shewishedmegoodday,andsaidshehadreadthefirstact,andthatshethoughtitverybeautiful,andtoldmetogetupthatwemightreadthesecondtogetherbeforedinner。
"MayIriseinyourpresence?"
"Whynot?Amanhasneedofverylittlecaretoobservethelawsofdecency。"
"Thenpleasegivemethatshirt。"
Sheproceededtounfoldit,andthenputitovermyhead,smilingallthetime。
"Iwilldothesameforyouatthefirstopportunity,"saidI。
Sheblushedandanswered,"It’snotnearlysofarfromyoutomeasitisfrommetoyou。"
"DivineHebe,thatisbeyondmyunderstanding。YouspeakliketheCumaeansibyls,orasifyouwererenderingoraclesatyourtempleinCorinth。"
"HadHebeatempleatCorinth?Sardinineversaidso。"
"ButApollodorussaysso。Itwasanasylumaswellasatemple。
Butcomebacktothepoint,andpraydonoteludeit。Whatyousaidisopposedtoallthelawsofgeometry。Thedistancefromyoutomeoughttobepreciselythesameasfrommetoyou。"
"Perhaps,then,Ihavesaidastupidthing。"
"Notatall,Hebe,youhaveanideawhichmayberightorwrong,butIwanttobringitout。Come,tellme。"
"Well,then,thetwodistancesdifferfromeachotherwithrespecttotheascentanddescent,orfall,ifyoulike。Arenotallbodiesinclinedtoobeythelawsofgravitationunlesstheyareheldbackbyasuperiorforce?"
"Certainly。"
"Andisitnotthecasethatnobodiesmoveinanupwarddirectionunlesstheyareimpelled?"
"Quitetrue。"
"ThenyoumustconfessthatsinceIamshorterthanyouIshouldhavetoascendtoattainyou,andascensionisalwaysaneffort;
whileifyouwishtoattainme,youhaveonlytoletyourselfgo,whichisnoeffortwhatever。Thusitisnoriskatallforyoutoletmeputonyourshirt,butitwouldbeagreatriskformeifI
allowedyoutodothesameserviceforme。Imightbeoverwhelmedbyyourtoorapiddescentonme。Areyoupersuaded?"
"Persuadedisnottheword,fairHebe。Iamravishedinanecstacyofadmiration。Neverwasparadoxsofinelymaintained。I
mightcavilandcontestit,butIprefertokeepsilencetoadmireandadore。"
"Thankyou,dearIolas,butIwantnofavour。Tellmehowyoucoulddisprovemyargument?"
"Ishouldattackitonthepointofheight。YouknowyouwouldnotletmechangeyourchemiseevenifIwereadwarf。"
"Ah,dearIolas!wecannotdeceiveeachother。WouldthatHeavenhaddestinedmetobemarriedtoamanlikeyou!"
"Alas!whyamInotworthyofaspiringtosuchaposition?"
Idonotknowwheretheconversationwouldhavelandedus,butjustthenthecountesscametotellusthatdinnerwaswaiting,addingthatshewasgladtoseewelovedoneanother。
"Madly,"saidClementine,"butwearediscreet。"
"Ifyouarediscreet,youcannotlovemadly。"
"True,countess,"saidI,"forthemadnessofloveandwisdomcannotdwelltogether。Ishouldrathersaywearereasonable,forthemindmaybegravewhiletheheart’sgay。"
Wedinedmerrilytogether,thenweplayedatcards,andintheeveningwefinishedreadingthePastorFido。WhenwewerediscussingthebeautiesofthisdelightfulworkClementineaskedmeifthethirteenthbookofthe"AEneid"wasfine。
"Mydearcountess,itisquiteworthless;andIonlypraisedittoflatterthedescendantoftheauthor。However,thesamewritermadeapoemonthetricksofcountryfolk,whichisbynomeansdevoidofmerit。Butyouaresleepy,andIampreventingyoufromundressing。"
"Notatall。"
Shetookoffherclothesinamomentwiththegreatestcoolness,anddidnotindulgemylicentiousgazeintheleast。Shegotintobed,andIsatbesideher;whereuponshesatupagain,andhersisterturnedherbackuponus。ThePastorFidowasonhernight—
table,andopeningthebookIproceededtoreadthepassagewhereMirtillodescribesthesweetnessofthekissAmaryllishadgivenhim,attuningmyvoicetothesentimentofthelines。ClementineseemedasmuchaffectedasIwas,andIfastenedmylipsonhers。
Whathappiness!Shedrewinthebalmofmylipswithdelight,andappearedtobefreefromalarm,soIwasabouttoclaspherinmyarmswhenshepushedmeawaywiththeutmostgentleness,beggingmetospareher。
Thiswasmodestyatbay。Ibeggedherpardon,andtakingherhandbreathedoutuponitalltheecstasyofmylips。
"Youaretrembling,"saidshe,inavoicethatdidbutincreasetheamoroustumultofmyheart。
"Yes,dearestcountess,andIassureyouItrembleforfearofyou。Goodnight,Iamgoing;andmyprayermustbethatImayloveyouless。"
"Whyso?Tolovelessistobegintohate。DoasIdo,andpraythatyourlovemaygrowandlikewisethestrengthtoresistit。"
Iwenttobedillpleasedwithmyself。IdidnotknowwhetherI
hadgonetoofarornotfarenough;butwhatdiditmatter?Onethingwascertain,IwassorryforwhatIhaddone,andthatwasalwaysathoughtwhichpainedme。
InClementineIsawawomanworthyofthedeepestloveandthegreatestrespect,andIknewnothowIcouldceasetoloveher,noryethowIcouldcontinuelovingherwithouttherewardwhicheveryfaithfulloverhopestowin。
"Ifshelovesme,"Isaidtomyself,"shecannotrefuseme,butitismyparttobegandpray,andeventopushhertoanextremity,thatshemayfindanexcuseforherdefeat。Alover’sdutyistoobligethewomanhelovestosurrenderatdiscretion,andlovealwaysabsolveshimforsodoing。"
Accordingtothisargument,whichIcolouredtosuitmypassions,Clementinecouldnotrefusemeunlessshedidnotloveme,andI
determinedtoputhertotheproof。IwasstrengthenedinthisresolvebythewishtofreemyselffromthestateofexcitementI
wasin,andIwassurethatifshecontinuedobdurateIshouldsoongetcured。ButatthesametimeIshudderedatthethought;
theidea,ofmynolongerlovingClementineseemedtomeanimpossibilityandacruelty。
AfteratroublednightIroseearlyandwenttowishhergoodmorning。Shewasstillasleep,buthersisterEleanorewasdressing。
"Mysister,"saidshe,"readtillthreeo’clockthismorning。Nowthatshehassomanybooks,sheisgettingquitemadoverthem。
Letusplayatrickonher;getintothebedbesideher;itwillbeamusingtoseehersurprisewhenshewakesup。"
"Butdoyouthinkshewilltakeitasajoke?"
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