"Themidwife,"Iadded,"isabsolutelyunknowntome。Sheismostlikelyanabandonedwoman,whowithherworthycompanionwantstocheatmeofmymoney。"
"Ishouldbedelightedtothinkso,"heanswered,"butadmittingthefact,seehowchancefavoursher,andmakesitamostdifficultthingforyoutoproveyourinnocence。
"Theyoungladydisappearedthreemonthsago。Shewasknowntobeyourintimatefriend,youcalleduponheratallhours;youspentaconsiderabletimewithherthedaybeforeshedisappeared,andnooneknowswhathasbecomeofher;buteveryone’ssuspicionspointatyou,andpaidspiesarecontinuallydoggingyoursteps。Themidwifesentmearequisitionyesterdaybyhercounsel,Vauversin。ShesaysthatthepregnantladyyoubroughttoherhouseisthesamewhomMadameX。
C。V。issearchingfor。Shealsosaysthatyoubothworeblackdominoes,andthepolicehaveascertainedthatyouwerebothattheballinblackdominoesonthesamenightasthatonwhichthemidwifesaysyoucametoherhouse;youarealsoknowntohavelefttheball—
roomtogether。Allthis,itistrue,doesnotconstitutefullproofofyourguilt,butitmakesonetrembleforyourinnocence。"
"WhatcausehaveItotremble?"
"Whatcause!Whyafalsewitness,easilyenoughhiredforalittlemoney,mightswearwithimpunitythathesawyoucomefromtheoperatogether;andacoachmaninthesamewaymightswearhehadtakenyoutothemidwife’s。InthatcaseIshouldbecompelledtoorderyourarrestandexamination,withaviewtoascertainthenameofthepersonwhomyoutookwithyou。Doyourealizethatyouareaccusedofprocuringabortion;thatthreemonthshavegonebywithoutthelady’sretreathavingbeendiscovered;thatsheissaidtobedead。
Doyourealize,inshort,whataveryseriouschargemurderis?"
"Certainly;butifIdieinnocent,youwillhavecondemnedmewrongly,andwillbemoretobepitiedthanI。"
"Yes,yes,butthatwouldn’tmakeyourcaseanybetter。Youmaybesure,however,thatIwillnotcondemnaninnocentman;butIamafraidthatyouwillbealongtimeinprisonbeforeyousucceedinprovingyourinnocence。Tobebrief,youseethatintwenty—fourhoursthecaselooksverybad,andinthecourseofaweekitmightlookverymuchworse。Myinterestwasarousedinyourfavourbytheevidentabsurdityoftheaccusations,butitistheothercircumstancesaboutthecasewhichmakeitaseriousoneforyou。I
canpartlyunderstandthecircumstances,andthefeelingsofloveandhonourwhichbidyoubesilent。Ihavespokentoyou,andIhopeyouwillhavenoreserveswithme。Iwillspareyoualltheunpleasantcircumstanceswhichthreatenyou,believing,asIdo,thatyouareinnocent。Tellmeall,andbesurethatthelady’shonourwillnotsuffer;butif,ontheotherhand,youareunfortunatelyguiltyofthecrimeslaidtoyourcharge,Iadviseyoutobeprudent,andtotakestepswhichitisnotmybusinesstosuggest。IwarnyouthatinthreeorfourdaysIshallciteyoutothebarofthecourt,andthatyouwillthenfindinmeonlythejudge——just,certainly,butsevereandimpartial。"
Iwaspetrified;forthesewordsshewedmemydangerinallitsnakedness。IsawhowIshouldesteemthisworthyman’sgoodoffices,andsaidtohiminquiteanothertone,thatinnocentasIwas,IsawthatmybestcoursewastothrowmyselfonhiskindnessrespectingMdlle。X。C。V。,whohadcommittednocrime,butwouldloseherreputationbythisunhappybusiness。
"Iknowwheresheis,"Iadded,"andImaytellyouthatshewouldneverhavelefthermotherifshehadnotendeavouredtoforceherintoamarriagesheabhorred"
"Well,butthemanisnowmarried;letherreturntohermother’shouse,andyouwillbesafe,unlessthemidwifepersistsinmaintainingthatyouincitedhertoprocureabortion。"
"Thereisnoabortioninthematter;butotherreasonspreventherreturningtoherfamily。Icantellyounomorewithoutobtainingtheconsentofanotherparty。IfIsucceedindoingsoIshallbeabletothrowthedesiredlightonthequestion。Bekindenoughtogivemeasecondhearingonthedayafterto—morrow。"
"Iunderstand。Ishallbedelightedtohearwhatyouhavetosay。
Ithankandcongratulateyou。Farewell!"
Iwasonthebrinkoftheprecipice,butIwasdeterminedtoleavethekingdomratherthanbetraythehonourofmypoordearsweetheart。
Ifithadbeenpossible,Iwouldgladlyhaveputanendtothecasewithmoney;butitwastoolate。IwassurethatFarsettihadthechiefhandinallthistrouble,thathewascontinuallyonmytrack,andthathepaidthespiesmentionedbyM。deSartine。HeitwaswhohadsetVauversin,thebarrister,afterme,andIhadnodoubtthathewoulddoallinhispowertoruinme。
IfeltthatmyonlycoursewastotellthewholestorytoM。deSartine,buttodothatIrequiredMadameduRumain’spermission。
CHAPTERIX
MyExaminationIGivetheClerkThreeHundredLouis——TheMidwifeandCartel—BajacImprisoned——Mdlle。X。C。V。IsBroughttoBedofaSonandObligesHerMothertoMakeMeAmends——TheSuitAgainstMeIsQuashed——Mdlle。X。C。V。GoesWithHerMothertoBrusselsandFromThencetoVenice,WhereSheBecomesaGreatLady——MyWork—girls——
MadameBaret——IAmRobbed,PutinPrison,andSetatLibertyAgain——
IGotoHolland——Helvetius’"Esprit"——PiccolominiThedayaftermyinterviewwithM。deSartineIwaitedonMadameduRumainatanearlyhour。ConsideringtheurgencyofthecaseItookthelibertyofrousingherfromherslumbers,andassoonasshewasreadytoreceivemeItoldherall。
"Therecanbenohesitationinthematter,"saidthisdelightfulwoman。"WemustmakeaconfidantofM。deSartine,andIwillspeaktohimmyselfto—daywithoutfail。"
Forthwithshewenttoherdeskandwrotetothecriminallieutenantaskinghimtoseeheratthreeo’clockintheafternoon。Inlessthananhourtheservantreturnedwithanoteinwhichhesaidhewouldexpecther。WeagreedthatIshouldcomeagainintheevening,whenshewouldtellmetheresultofherinterview。
Iwenttothehouseatfiveo’clock,andhadonlyafewminutestowait。
"Ihaveconcealednothing,"saidshe;"heknowsthatsheisontheeveofherconfinement,andthatyouarenotthefather,whichspeakshighlyforyourgenerosity。Itoldhimthatassoonastheconfinementwasover,andtheyoungladyhadrecoveredherhealth,shewouldreturntohermother,thoughshewouldmakenoconfession,andthatthechildshouldbewelllookedafter。Youhavenownothingtofear,andcancalmyourself;butasthecasemustgoonyouwillbecitedbeforethecourtthedayafterto—morrow。Iadviseyoutoseetheclerkofthecourtonsomepretextorother,andtomakehimacceptasumofmoney。"
Iwassummonedtoappear,andIappeared。IsawM。deSartine,’sedentemprotribunali’。Attheendofthesittinghetoldmethathewasobligedtoremandme,andthatduringmyremandImustnotleaveParisorgetmarried,asallmycivilrightswereinsuspensependingthedecision。Ipromisedtofollowhiscommands。
IacknowledgedinmyexaminationthatIwasattheballinablackdominoonthenightnamedinmyaccusation,butIdeniedeverythingelse。AsforMdlle。X。C。V。,IsaidthatneitherInoranyoneofherfamilyhadanysuspicionthatshewaswithchild。
RecollectingthatIwasanalien,andthatthiscircumstancemightmakeVauversincallformyarrest,onthepleathatImightflythekingdom,Ithoughtthemomentopportuneformakinginterestwiththeclerkofthecourt,andIaccordinglypaidhimavisit。Aftertellinghimofmyfears,Islippedintohishandapacketofthreehundredlouis,forwhichIdidnotaskforareceipt,sayingthattheyweretodefrayexpensesifIweremulctedincosts。Headvisedmetorequirethemidwifetogivebailforherappearance,andItoldmyattorneytodoso;but,fourdaysafter,thefollowingincidenttookplace:
IwaswalkingintheTempleGardens,whenIwasaccostedbyaSavoyard,whogavemeanoteinwhichIwasinformedthatsomebodyinanalley,fiftypacesoff,wantedtospeaktome。"Eitheraloveaffairorachallenge,"Isaidtomyself,"let’ssee。"Istoppedmycarriage,whichwasfollowingme,andwenttotheplace。
IcannotsayhowsurprisedIwastoseethewretchedCartel—Bajacstandingbeforeme。"Ihaveonlyawordtosay,"saidhe,whenhesawme。"Wewillnotbeoverheardhere。Themidwifeisquitesurethatyouarethemanwhobroughtapregnantladytoher,butsheisvexedthatyouareaccusedofmakingawaywithher。Giveherahundredlouis;shewillthendeclaretothecourtthatshehasbeenmistaken,andyourtroublewillbeended。Youneednotpaythemoneytillshehasmadeherdeclaration;wewilltakeyourwordforit。
ComewithmeandtalkitoverwithVauversin。IamsurehewillpersuadeyoutodoasIsuggest。Iknowwheretofindhim,followmeatsomedistance。"
Ihadlistenedtohiminsilence,andIwasdelightedtoseethattherascalswerebetrayingthemselves。"Verygood,"saidItothefellow,"yougoon,andIwillfollow。"IwentafterhimtothethirdfloorofahouseintheRueauxOurs,whereIfoundVauversinthebarrister。NosoonerhadIarrivedthanhewenttobusinesswithoutanyprefatoryremarks。
"Themidwife,"hesaid,"willcallonyouwithawitnessapparentlywiththeintentionofmaintainingtoyourfacethatyouareherman;
butshewon’tbeabletorecognizeyou。Shewillthenproceedwiththewitnesstothecourt,andwilldeclarethatshehasmadeamistake,andthecriminallieutenantwillforthwithputanendtotheproceedings。Youwillthusbecertainofgainingyourcaseagainstthelady’smother。"
Ithoughttheplanwellconceived,andsaidthattheywouldfindmeattheTempleanydayuptonoon。
"Butthemidwifewantsahundredlouisbadly。"
"Youmeanthattheworthywomanratesherperjuryatthatprice。
Well,nevermind,Iwillpaythemoney,andyoumaytrusttomyword;
butIcan’tdosobeforeshehastakenoathtohermistakebeforethecourt。"
"Verygood,butyoumustfirstgivemetwenty—fivelouistoreimbursemeformycostsandfees。"
"Certainly,ifyouwillgivemeaformalreceiptforthemoney。"
Hehesitatedatfirst,butaftertalkingitoverthemoneyprovedtoostrongabait,andhewroteoutthereceiptandIgavehimthetwenty—fivelouis。Hethankedme,andsaidthatthoughMadameX。C。
V。washisclient,hewouldletmeknowconfidentiallyhowbesttoputastoptotheproceedings。IthankedhimwithasmuchgratitudeasifIhadreallyintendedtomakeuseofhisservices,andIlefttowriteandtellM。deSartinewhathadtakenplace。
ThreedaysafterwardsIwastoldthatamanandwomanwantedtoseeme。Iwentdownandaskedthewomanwhatshewanted。
"IwanttospeaktoM。Casanova。"
"Iamhe。"
"ThenIhavemadeamistake,forwhichIhopeyouwillforgiveme。"
Hercompanionsmiled,andtheywentoff。
ThesamedayMadameduRumainhadaletterfromtheabbesstellingherthatheryoungfriendhadgivenbirthtoafineboy,whohadbeensentawaytoaplacewherehewouldbewelllookedafter。Shestatedthattheyoungladycouldnotleavetheconventforthenextsixweeks,attheendofwhichtimeshecouldreturntohermotherwithacertificatewhichwouldprotectherfromallannoyance。
Soonafterthemidwifewasputinsolitaryconfinement,Castel—BajacwassenttoTheBicetre,andVauversin’snamewasstruckofftherolls。ThesuitinstitutedagainstmebyMadameX。C。V。wentontillherdaughterreappeared,butIknewthatIhadnothingtofear。
ThegirlreturnedtohermotherabouttheendofAugustarmedwithacertificatefromtheabbess,whosaidshehadbeenunderherprotectionforfourmonths,duringwhichtimeshehadneverlefttheconventorseenanypersonsfromoutside。Thiswasperfectlytrue,buttheabbessaddedthatheronlyreasonforhergoingbacktoherfamilywasthatshehadnothingmoretodreadfromtheattentionsofM。delaPopeliniere,andinthistheabbesslied。
Mdlle。X。C。V。profitedbythedelightofhermotherinseeingheragainsafeandsound,andmadeherwaitonM。deSartinewiththeabbess’scertificate,stopallproceedingsagainstme,andwithdrawallthechargesshehadmade。HerdaughtertoldherthatifIlikedImightclaimdamagesforlibel,andthatifshedidnotwishtoinjureherreputationshewouldsaynothingmoreaboutwhathadhappened。
Themotherwrotemealetterofthemostsatisfactorycharacter,whichIhadregisteredincourt,thusputtinganendtotheprosecution。InmyturnIwrotetocongratulateherontherecoveryofherdaughter,butIneversetfootinherhouseagain,toavoidanydisagreeablesceneswithFarsetti。
Mdlle。X。C。V。couldnotstayanylongerinParis,wherehertalewasknowntoeveryone,andFarsettitookhertoBrusselswithhersisterMadelaine。Sometimeafter,hermotherfollowedher,andtheythenwentontoVenice,andthereinthreeyears’timeshebecameagreatlady。FifteenyearsafterwardsIsawheragain,andshewasawidow,happyenoughapparently,andenjoyingagreatreputationonaccountofherrank,wit,andsocialqualities,butourconnectionwasneverrenewed。
InfouryearsthereaderwillhearmoreofCastel—Bajac。Towardstheendofthesameyear(1759),beforeIwenttoHolland,Ispentseveralhundredfrancstoobtainthereleaseofthemidwife。
Ilivedlikeaprince,andmenmighthavethoughtmehappy,butIwasnot。TheenormousexpensesIincurred,myloveofspendingmoney,andmagnificentpleasures,warnedme,inspiteofmyself,thattherewererocksahead。Mybusinesswouldhavekeptmegoingforalongtime,ifcustomhadnotbeenparalyzedbythewar;butasitwas,I,likeeverybodyelse,experiencedtheeffectofbadtimes。Mywarehousecontainedfourhundredpiecesofstuffswithdesignsonthem,butasIcouldnothopetodisposeofthembeforethepeace,andaspeaceseemedalongwayoff,Iwasthreatenedwithruin。
WiththisfearIwrotetoEsthertogetherfathertogivemetheremainderofmymoney,tosendmeasharpclerk,andtojoininmyspeculation。M。d’O————saidthatifIwouldsetupinHollandhewouldbecomeresponsibleforeverythingandgivemehalfprofits,butIlikedParistoowelltoagreetosogoodanoffer。Iwassorryforitafterwards。
Ispentagooddealofmoneyatmyprivatehouse,butthechiefexpenseofmylife,whichwasunknowntoothersbutwhichwasruiningme,wasincurredinconnectionwiththegirlswhoworkedinmyestablishment。Withmycomplexionandmypronouncedlikingforvariety,ascoreofgirls,nearlyallofthemprettyandseductive,asmostParisgirlsare,wasareefonwhichmyvirtuemadeshipwreckeveryday。Curiosityhadagooddealtodowithit,andtheyprofitedbymyimpatiencetotakepossessionbysellingtheirfavoursdearly。Theyallfollowedtheexampleofthefirstfavourite,andeveryoneclaimedinturnanestablishment,furniture,money,andjewels;andIknewtoolittleofthevalueofmoneytocarehowmuchtheyasked。Myfancyneverlastedlongerthanaweek,andoftenwanedinthreeorfourdays,andthelastcomeralwaysappearedthemostworthyofmyattentions。
AssoonasIhadmadeanewchoiceIsawnomoreofmyoldloves,butIcontinuedtoprovideforthem,andthatwithagooddealofmoney。
Madamed’Urfe,whothoughtIwasrich,gavemenotrouble。Imadeherhappybyusingmyoracletosecondthemagicalceremoniesofwhichshegrewfondereveryday,althoughsheneverattainedheraim。
ManonBaletti,however,grievedmesorelybyherjealousyandherwell—foundedreproaches。Shewouldnotunderstand——andIdidnotwonderatit——howIcouldputoffmarryingherifIreallylovedher。
Sheaccusedmeofdeceivingher。Hermotherdiedofconsumptioninourarms。Silviahadwonmytruefriendship。Ilookeduponherasamostworthywoman,whosekindnessofheartandpurityoflifedeservedtheesteemofall。Istayedinthefamilyforthreedaysafterherdeath,sincerelysympathizingwiththemintheiraffliction。
Afewdaysafterwards,myfriendTirettalosthismistressthroughagrievousillness。Fourdaysbeforeherdeath,perceivingthatshewasnearherend,shewilledtoconsecratetoGodthatwhichmancouldhavenolonger,anddismissedherloverwiththegiftofavaluablejewelandapurseoftwohundredlouis。Tirettamarchedoffandcameandtoldmethesadnews。IgothimalodgingneartheTemple,andamonthafter,approvinghisideatotryhisfortuneinIndia,IgavehimaletterofintroductiontoM。d’O————,ofAmsterdam;andinthecourseofaweekthisgentlemangothimapostasclerk,andshippedhimaboardoneofthecompany’sshipswhichwasboundforBatavia。Ifhehadbehavedwellhemighthavebecomearichman,buthegotinvolvedinsomeconspiracyandhadtofly,andafterwardsexperiencedmanyvicissitudesoffortune。IheardfromoneofhisrelationsthathewasinBengalin1788,ingoodcircumstances,butunabletorealizehispropertyandsoreturntohisnativecountry。Idonotknowwhatbecameofhimeventually。
InthebeginningofNovemberanofficialbelongingtotheDucd’Elbeuf’shouseholdcametomyestablishmenttobuyaweddingdressforhisdaughter。Iwasdazzledwithherbeauty。Shechoseafinesatin,andherprettyfacelightedupwhensheheardherfathersayhedidnotthinkitwastoomuch;butshelookedquitepiteouswhensheheardtheclerktellherfatherthathewouldhavetobuythewholepiece,astheycouldnotcutit。IfeltthatImustgivein,andtoavoidmakinganexceptioninherfavourIbeatahastyretreatintomyprivateroom。IwishIhadgoneoutofthehouse,asI
shouldhavesavedagooddealofmoney;butwhatpleasureshouldI
havealsolost!Inherdespairthecharminggirlbeggedthemanagertotakehertome,andhedarednotrefusetodoso。Shecamein;
twobigtearsfallingdownhercheeksanddimmingtheardourofhergaze。
"Oh,sir!"shebegan,"youarerich,doyoubuythepieceandletmehaveenoughforadress,whichwillmakemehappy。"
Ilookedatherfatherandsawheworeanapologeticair,asifdeprecatingtheboldnessofhischild。
"Ilikeyoursimplicity,"Isaidtoher,"andsinceitwillmakeyouhappy,youshallhavethedress。"
Sheranuptome,threwherarmsroundmyneckandkissedme,whileherworthyfatherwasdyingwithlaughter。Herkissesputthelaststroketomybewitchment。Afterhehadpaidforthedress,herfathersaid,"IamgoingtogetthislittlemadcapmarriednextSunday;therewillbeasupperandaball,andweshallbedelightedifyouwillhonouruswithyourpresence。MynameisGilbert。IamcomptrolleroftheDucd’Elbeuf’shousehold。"
Ipromisedtobeatthewedding,andtheyoungladygaveaskipofjoywhichmademethinkherprettierthanever。
OnSundayIrepairedtothehouse,butIcouldneithereatnordrink。
ThefairMdlle。GilbertkeptmeinakindofenchantmentwhichlastedwhileIwasincompanywithherfriends,forwhomIdidnotcare。
Theywereallofficialsinnoblemen’shouses,withtheirwivesanddaughters,whoallapedthemannersoftheirbettersinthemostridiculousway;nobodyknewmeandIwasknowntonobody,andIcutasorryfigureamongstthemall,forinacompanyofthissortthewittiestmanisthegreatestfool。Everybodycrackedhisjoketothebride,sheansweredeverybody,andpeoplelaughedatnothing。
Herhusband,athinandmelancholyman,witharatherfoolishexpression,wasdelightedathiswife’skeepingeverybodyamused。
AlthoughIwasinlovewithher,Ipitiedratherthanenviedhim。
Iguessedthathehadmarriedformonetaryconsiderations,andIknewprettywellwhatkindofahead—dresshishandsome,fierywifewouldgiveherhusband,whowasplain—featured,andseemednottobeawareofhiswife’sbeauty。Iwasseizedwiththedesireofaskinghersomequestions,andshegavemetheopportunitybycomingtositnexttomeafteraquadrille。Shethankedmeagainformykindness,andsaidthatthebeautifuldressIhadsuppliedhadwonhermanycompliments。
"Allthesame,"Isaid,"Iknowyouarelongingtotakeitoff。I
knowwhatloveisandhowimpatientitmakesone。"
"It’sveryfunnythateveryonepersistsinthinkingthatIaminlove,thoughIsawM。Baretforthefirsttimeonlyaweekago。
BeforethenIwasabsolutelyunconsciousofhisexistence。"
"Butwhyareyougettingmarriedinsuchahurrywithoutwaitingtillyouknowhimbetter?"
"Becausemyfatherdoeseverythinginahurry。"
"Isupposeyourhusbandisaveryrichman?"
"No,buthemaybecomerich。WearegoingtoopenashopforsilkstockingsatthecorneroftheRueSt。HonoreandtheRuedesProuveres,andIhopethatyouwilldealwithus,aswewouldserveyouwiththebest。"
"Ishallcertainlydoso——nay,Iwillbeyourfirstcustomer,ifI
havetowaitatthedoor。"
"Youarekind!M。Baret,"saidshetoherhusband,whowasstandingcloseby,"thisgentlemanpromisestobeourfirstcustomer。"
"Thegentlemanisverygood,"saidthehusband,"andIamsurehewillbesatisfied,asmystockingsaregenuinesilk。"
NextTuesdayatday—breakIbegantodanceattendanceatthecorneroftheRuedesProuveres,andwaitedtheretilltheservantcameouttotakedowntheshutters。Iwentinandthegirlaskedmemybusiness。
"Iwanttobuysomestockings,"wasmyanswer。
"Masterandmistressarestillinbed,soyouhadbettercomelateron。"
"No,Iwillwaithere。Stopaminute,"saidI,givinghersixfrancs,"goandgetmesomecoffee;Iwilldrinkitintheshop。"
"Imightgoandgetyousomecoffee,butIamnotsosillyastoleaveyouintheshopbyyourself。"
"YouareafraidImightstealsomething!"
"Well,onedoeshearofsuchthingsbeingdone,andIdon’tknowyoufromAdam。"
"Verygood;butIshallstayhereallthesame。"
BeforelongBaretcamedownandscoldedthepoorgirlfornothavingtoldhimofmypresence。"Goandtellmywifetocome,"saidhe,ashebeganopeningpacketsofstockingsformetochoosefrom。Hekeptstockings,vests,andsilkdrawers,andIturnedonepacketoverafteranother,lookingatthemallandnotfixingonanythingtillI
sawhiswifecomingdownasfreshasaroseandasbrightasalily。
Shesmiledatmeinthemostseductivemanner,apologizedforthedisorderofherdress,andthankedmeforkeepingmyword。
"Ineverbreakmyword,"Isaid,"especiallywhensuchacharmingladyisconcerned!"
MadameBaretwasseventeen,ofamoderateheight,andanexquisitefigure;withoutbeingclassicallybeautiful,aRaphaelcouldnotwishtodepictamoreenticingface。Hereyeswerelargeandbrilliant。
Herdroopingeyelids,whichgavehersomodestandyetsovoluptuousanappearance,theever—smilingmouth,hersplendidteeth,thedazzlingwhitenessofhercomplexion,thepleasingairwithwhichshelistenedtowhatwasbeingsaid,hersilveryvoice,thesweetnessandsparklingvivacityofhermanner,herlackofconceit,orratherherunconsciousnessofthepowerofhercharms—infine,everythingaboutthismasterpieceofnaturemademewonderandadmire;whileshe,bychanceorvilemonetaryconsiderations,wasinthepowerofBaret,who,paleandsickly,thoughtagooddealmoreofhisstockingsthanofthetreasuremarriagehadgivenhim——atreasureofwhichhewasallunworthy,sincehecouldnotseeitsbeautynortasteitssweetness。
Ichosestockingsandveststotheamountoftwenty—fivelouis,andI
paidthepricewithouttryingtocheapenthem。Isawthefaceofthefairshopwomanlightup,andIauguredwellformysuccess,thoughI
couldnotexpecttodomuchwhilethehoneymoonlasted。ItoldtheservantthatIwouldgivehersixfrancsifshewouldbringthepackettomyhouse,andsoIleftthem。
NextSundayBaretcamehimselfwithmypurchases。Igavehimsixfrancstohandovertohisservant,buthehintedthathewasnottooproudtokeepthemhimself。Iwasdisgustedatthispettygreed,andathismeannessindeprivinghismaidofthesixfrancsafterhavingmadeagoodprofitinwhathehadsoldme;butIwantedtostandwellwithhim,andIwasnotsorrytofindsosimpleawayofthrowingdustintohiseyes。SowhileIresolvedthattheservantshouldnotbealoserIgavethehusbandagoodreceptionthatImightthebettermouldhimtomypurpose。Ihadbreakfastbroughttohim,askingwhyhehadnotbroughthiswife。
"Shewantedmetotakeher,"saidhe,"butIwasafraidyoumightbeoffended。"
"Notatall,Ishouldhavebeendelighted。Ithinkyourwifeacharmingwoman。"
"Youareverykindtosayso;butshe’syoung,she’syoung。"
"Idon’tthinkthat’sanyobjection;andifshecaresforthewalk,bringherwithyouanothertime。"Hesaidheshouldbeverypleasedtodoso。
WhenIpassedbytheshopinmycarriageIblewkissestoherwithmyhand,butIdidnotstopasIdidnotwantanymorestockings。
Indeed,Ishouldhavebeenboredwiththecrowdoffopswithwhichtheshopwasalwaysfull。Shebegantobeatopicofconversationinthetown;thePalaisRoyalwasfullofher;andIwasgladtohearthatshekepttoherselfasifshehadricherpreyinview。Thattoldmethatnoonepossessedhersofar,andIhopedthatImightbethepreymyself;Iwasquitewillingtobecaptured。
Somedaysafter,shesawmycarriagecoming,andbeckonedtomeasI
passed。Igotout,andherhusbandwithmanyapologiestoldmethathewantedmetobethefirsttoseeanewfashioninbreecheshehadjustgotin。Thebreecheswereparti—coloured,andnomanoffashionwouldbeseenwithoutthem。Theywereodd—lookingthings,butbecameawell—madeyoungman。Astheyhadtofitexactly,Itoldhimtomeasuremeforsixpairs,offeringtopayinadvance。"Wehavetheminallsizes,"saidhe,"gouptomywife’sroomandtrysomeon。"
ItwasagoodopportunityandIaccepted,especiallywhenIheardhimtellhiswifetogoandhelpme。Iwentupstairs,shefollowing,andIbegantoundress,apologizingfordoingsobeforeher。
"IwillfancyIamyourvalet,"saidshe,"andIwillhelpyou。"
Ididnotmakeanydifficulties,andaftertakingoffmyshoesIgavehermybreeches,takingcare,however,tokeeponmydrawers,lesthermodestyshouldreceivetoosevereashock。Thisdoneshetookapairofbreeches,drewthemonme,tookthemoff,andtriedonothers,andallthiswithoutanyimproprietyoneitherside;forI
haddeterminedtobehavewithdiscretiontilltheopportunitycametobeindiscreet。Shedecidedthatfourpairsfittedmeadmirably,and,notwishingtocontradicther,Igaveherthesixteenlouissheasked,andtoldherIshouldbedelightedifshewouldbringthemherselfatanytimewhenshewasatleisure。Shecamedownstairsquiteproudofherknowledgeofbusiness,andBaretsaidthatnextSundayheandhiswifewouldhavethehonourofbringingmemypurchase。
"Ishallbecharmed,M。Baret,"saidI,"especiallyifyouwillstaytodinner。"
Heansweredthathavinganimportantengagementfortwoo’clockhecouldonlyacceptontheconditionthatIwouldlethimgoatthattime,andhewouldreturnataboutfivetofetchhiswife。Ifoundtheplanvastlytomytaste,butIknewhowtoconcealmyjoy;andI
quietlysaidthatthoughIshouldlosethepleasureofhissociety,hewasfreetogowhenheliked,especiallyasIhadnottogooutmyselfbeforesix。
IlookedforwardtotheSunday,andthetradesmanandhiswifedidnotfailme。Assoonastheyarrived,Itoldmyservanttosay"Notathome"fortherestoftheday,andasIwasimpatienttoknowwhatwouldhappenintheafternoonIhaddinnerservedatanearlyhour。
Thedisheswereexquisite,andthewinesdelicious。Thegoodmanatemuchanddrankdeeply,indeedtosuchanextentthatincommonpolitenessIwasobligedtoremindhimthathehadanimportantappointmentattwo。Hiswitsbeingsharpenedwithchampagne,thehappythoughtoccurredtohimtotellhiswifetogohomebyherself,ifhewerekeptlaterthanfive;andIhastenedtoaddthatIwouldtakeherhomemyselfinmycarriage。Hethankedme,andIsoothedhisuneasinessaboutbeingpunctualtohisappointmentbytellinghimthatacoachwaswaiting,andthatthefarehadbeenpaid。Hewentoff,andIfoundmyselfalonewithmyjewel,whomIwascertainofpossessingtillsixo’clock。
AssoonasIheardthehalldoorshutonthekindhusband,Isaidtohiswife,"Youaretobecongratulatedonhavingsuchakindhusband;withamanlikethatyourhappinessisassured。"
"Itiseasytosayhappiness,butenjoyingitisadifferentthing。
Myhusband’shealthissodelicatethatIcanonlyconsidermyselfashisnurse;andthenhecontractedheavydebtstosetupinbusinesswhichobligeustoobservethestrictesteconomy。Wecamehereonfoottosavethetwenty—foursons。Wecouldliveontheprofitsofthebusiness,iftherewerenodebts,butasitiseverythinggoestopaytheinterest,andoursalesarenotlargeenoughtocovereverything。"
"Butyouhaveplentyofcustomers,forwheneverIpassIseetheshopfullofpeople。"
"Thesecustomersyouseeareidlers,crackersofbadjokes,andprofligates,whocomeandmakemyheadachewiththeirjests。Theyhavenotapennytoblessthemselveswith,andwedarenotletthemoutofoursightforfearoftheirhandswandering。Ifwehadcaredtogivethemcredit,ourshopwouldhavebeenemptiedlongago。Iamrudetothem,inthehopesthattheymayleavemealone,butit’sofnouse。Theirimpudenceisastonishing。WhenmyhusbandisinI
retreattomyroom,butheisoftenaway,andthenIamobligedtoputupwiththem。Andthescarcityofmoneypreventsusfromdoingmuchbusiness,butweareobligedtopayourworkmenallthesame。
AsfarasIcansee,weshallbeobligedtodismissthem,asweshallsoonhavetomeetseveralbills。NextSaturdaywehavegottopaysixhundredfrancs,andwehaveonlygottwohundred。"
"Iamsurprisedatyourhavingallthisworryintheseearlydaysofyourmarriage。Isupposeyourfatherknewaboutyourhusband’scircumstances;howaboutyourdowry?"
"Mydowryofsixthousandfrancshasserved,mostofit,tostocktheshopandtopayourdebts。Wehavegoodswhichwouldpayourdebtsthreetimesover;butinbadtimescapitalsunkiscapitaldead。"
"Iamsorrytohearallthis,asifpeaceisnotmadeyoursituationwillbecomeworse,forasyougoonyourneedswillbecomegreater。"
"Yes,forwhenmyhusbandisbetterwemayhavechildren。"
"What!Doyoumeantosayhishealthpreventshimfrommakingyouamother?Ican’tbelieveit。"
"Idon’tseehowIcanbeamotherwhoamstillamaid;notthatI
caremuchaboutthematter。"
"Ishouldn’thavebelievedit!Howcanamannotintheagonyofdeathfeelillbesideyou?Hemustbedead。"
"Well,heisnotexactlydead,buthedoesn’tshewmanysignsoflife。"
Thispieceofwitmademelaugh,andundercoverofmyapplauseI
embracedherwithoutexperiencingmuchresistance。Thefirstkisswaslikeanelectricspark;itfiredmyimaginationandIincreasedmyattentionstillshebecameassubmissiveasalamb。
"Iwillhelpyou,dearest,tomeetthebillonSaturday;"andsosayingIdrewhergentlyintoaclosetwhereasoftdivanformedasuitablealtarforthecompletionofanamoroussacrifice。
Iwasenchantedtofindhersubmissivetomycaressesandmyinquisitiveness,butshesurprisedmegreatlywhen,asIplacedmyselfinreadinessfortheconsummationoftheact,andwasalreadyintheproperposturebetweenthetwocolumns,shemovedinsuchawayastohindermyadvance。Ithoughtatfirstthatitwasonlyoneofthosedevicesintendedtomakethefinalvictorymoresweetbyputtingdifficultiesintheway;but,findingthatherresistancewasgenuine,Iexclaimed,"HowwasItoexpectarefusallikethisatamomentwhenIthoughtI
sawmyardoursreflectedinyoureyes?"
"Youreyesdidnotdeceiveyou;butwhatwouldmyhusbandsayifhefoundmeotherwisethanasGodhasmademe?"
"Hecan’thaveleftyouuntouched!"
"Hereallyhasdoneso。Youcanseeforyourselfifyoulike。CanI,then,givetoyouwhatappertainstothegeniusofthemarriage—
bed。"
"Youareright,myangel;thisfruitmustbekeptforamouthunworthytotasteit。Ipityandadoreyou。Cometomyarms,abandonyourselftomylove,andfearnothing。Thefruitshallnotbedamaged;Iwillbuttastetheoutersurfaceandleavenotracebehind。"
Wepassedthreehoursintriflingtogetherinamannercalculatedtoinflameourpassionsdespitethelibationswhichwenowandagainpouredforth。IwasconsoledbyherswearingtobemineassoonasBarethadgoodgroundsforthinkingthatshewashis,and,aftertakingherontheBoulevards,Ileftheratherdoor,withapresentoftwenty—fiveLouis。
IwasinlovewithherasIhadneverbeenbefore,andIpassedtheshopthreeorfourtimesaday,goingroundandround,tothewrathofmycoachman,whogotsickoftellingmethatIwasruiningmyhorses。IwashappytoseeherwatchforthemomentthatIpassed,andwaftmeakissbyputtingherprettyfingerstohermouth。
Wehadagreedthatsheshouldnotmakemeasigntoleavemycoachtillherhusbandhadforcedapassage。Atlastthisday,soardentlydesiredandsolongwaitedfor,arrived。Thesignwasgiven,andI
stoppedthecoachandshecameoutand,standingonthestep,toldmetogoandwaitforheratthechurchdoorofSt。Germainl’Auxerrois。
Iwascurioustoknowwhattheresultswouldbe,andhadnotbeenattheplaceappointedmorethanaquarterofanhourwhenshecametowardsme,herheadmuffledinahood。Shegotintothecarriageand,sayingthatshewantedtomakesomepurchases,beggedmetotakehertotheshops。
Ihadbusinessofmyown,andpressingbusinesstoo,butwhocanrefusetheBelovedObjectanything?ItoldthecoachmantodrivetothePlaceDauphine,andIpreparedtoloosenmypurse—strings,asI
hadafeelingshewasgoingtotreatmeasafriend。Inpointoffactsheleftfewshopsunvisited,goingfromjewelstoprettytriflesandtoysofdifferentkinds,andfromthesetodressesofthelatestfashion,whichtheydisplayedbeforeher,addressingherasprincess,andsayingthatthiswouldbecomeheradmirably。Shelookedatme,andsaiditmustbeconfessedthatitwasveryprettyandthatshewouldlikeitifitwerenotsodear。Iwasawillingdupe,andassuredherthatifshelikedititcouldnotbetoodear,andthatIwouldpay。
Whilemysweetheartwasthuschoosingonetrifleafteranothermyill—luckbroughtaboutanincidentwhichplacedmeinafearfulsituationfouryearsafterwards。Thechainofeventsisendless。
Iperceivedatmylefthandaprettygirloftwelveorthirteen,withanoldanduglywomanwhowasdisparagingapairofear—ringswhichthegirlhadinherhands,andonwhichshehadevidentlysetherheart:shelookedsadatnotbeingabletobuythem。Iheardhersaytotheoldwomanthattheywouldmakeherhappy,butshesnatchedthemfromthegirl’shandsandtoldherto,comeaway。
"Icanletyouhaveacheaperpairandalmostasfine,"saidtheshopwoman,buttheyoungladysaidshedidnot;careaboutit,andwasgettingreadytogo,makingaprofoundreverencetomyprincessBaret。
She,nodoubtflatteredbythissignofrespectwentuptoher,calledherlittlequeen,toldhershewasasfairasaMaymorning,andaskedtheoldwomanhername,"SheisMdlle。deBoulainvilier,myniece。"
"Howcanyoubesohard—hearted,"saidItotheaunt,"astorefuseyourcharmingnieceatoywhichwouldmakeherhappy?Allowmetomakeherapresentofthem。"
SosayingIputtheear—ringsinthegirl’shands,whilesheblushedandlookedatherauntasiftoaskherpermission。
"Youmayhavetheear—rings,"saidshe,"asthisgentlemanhasbeenkindenoughtogiveyousuchapresent,andyoushouldgivehimakissbywayofthanks。"
"Theear—rings,"saidtheshopwoman,"willbeonlythreelouis。"
Hereupontheaffairtookacomicturn;theoldwomangotintoarageandsaid,"Howcanyoubesuchacheat?Youtoldmetheywereonlytwolouis。"
"Nay,madam,Iaskedthree。"
"That’salie,andIshallnotallowyoutorobthisgentleman。
Niece,putthoseear—ringsdown;lettheshopwomankeepthem。"
Sofarallwaswellenough;buttheoldauntspoilteverythingbysayingthatifIlikedtogiveherniecethethreelouisshecouldgetherapairtwiceasgoodatanothershop。Itwasallthesametome,soIsmilinglyputthethreelouisinfrontoftheyounglady,whostillhadtheear—ringsinherhands。Theshop—woman,whowasonthelook—out,pocketedthemoney,sayingthatthebargainwasmade,thatthethreelouisbelongedtoherandtheear—ringstotheyounglady。
"Youareacheat,"criedouttheenragedoldwoman。
"Andyouareanoldb————d,"answeredtheshop—woman,"Iknowyouwell。"Acrowdbegantogatherinfrontoftheshop,hearingthecriesofthetwoharpies。Foreseeingagooddealofunpleasantness,Itooktheauntbythearmandledhergentlyaway。Theniece,whowasquitecontentwiththeear—rings,anddidnotcarewhethertheycostthreelouisortwo,followedher。Weshallhearofthemagaininduecourse。
MydearBarethavingmademewasteascoreoflouis,whichherpoorhusbandwouldhaveregrettedmuchmorethanmyself,wegotintothecarriageagain,andItookhertothechurchdoorfromwhichwehadstarted。OnthewayshetoldmeshewascomingtostopafewdayswithmeatLittlePoland,andthatitwasherhusbandwhowouldaskmefortheinvitation。
"Whenwillhedothat?"
"To—morrow,ifyougobytheshop。Comeandbuysomestockings;I
shallhaveabadheadache,andBaretwillspeaktoyou。"
ItmaybeimaginedthatItookcaretocallthenextday,andasI
didnotseehiswifeintheshopIaskedinafriendlywayafterherhealth。
"Sheisillinbed,"hereplied;"shewantsalittlecountryair。"
"Ifyouhavenotfixedforanyplace,IshallbehappytoputyouupatLittlePoland。"
Herepliedbyasmileofdelight。
"Iwillgoandurgehertocomemyself;inthemeanwhile,M。Baret,willyoupackmeupadozenpairsofstockings?"
Iwentupstairsandfoundtheinvalidinbed,andlaughinginspiteofherimaginaryheadache。"Thebusinessisdone,"saidI,"youwillsoonhearofit。"AsIhadsaid,thehusbandcameupstairswithmystockingsandtoldherthatIhadbeengoodenoughtogiveheraroominmyhouse。Thecraftylittlecreaturethankedme,assuringherhusbandthatthefreshairwouldsooncureher。
"Youshallbewelllookedafter,"saidI,"butyoumustexcusemeifIdonotkeepyoucompany——Ihavetoattendtomybusiness。
M。Baretwillbeabletocomeandsleepwithyoueverynight,andstartearlyenoughinthemorningtobeintimefortheopeningofhisshop。"
Aftermanycomplimentshadbeeninterchanged,Baretdecidedonhavinghissisterstayinthehousewhilehiswifewasaway,andasItookleaveIsaidthat,Ishouldgiveordersfortheirreceptionthatveryevening,incaseIwasoutwhentheycame。
NextdayIstayedouttillaftermidnight,andthecooktoldmethattheweddedcouplehadmadeagoodsupperandhadgonetobed。I
warnedherthatIshouldbediningathomeeveryday,andthatI
shouldnotseemycompany。
ThefollowingdayIwasupbetimes,andonenquiringifthehusbandhadrisenIlearntthathehadgotupatday—breakandwouldnotbebacktillsupper—time。Thewifewasstillasleep。Ithoughtwithreasonshewasnotasleepforme,andIwenttopayhermyfirstvisit。Inpointoffactshewasawake,andItookaforetasteofgreaterjoysbyathousandkisses,whichshereturnedwithinterest。
WejestedattheexpenseoftheworthymanwhohadtrustedmewithajewelofwhichIwasabouttomakesuchgooduse,andwecongratulatedeachotherontheprospectofaweek’smutualpleasures。
"Come,mydear,"saidI,"getupandputonafewclothesandwewilltakebreakfastinmyroom。"
Shedidnotmakeanelaboratetoilette;acottondressinggown,aprettylacecap,alawnkerchief,thatwasall,buthowthesimpledresswaslightedbytherosesofhercheeks!Wewerequickoverourbreakfast,wewereinahurry,andwhenwehaddoneIshutthedoorandwegaveourselvesovertotheenjoymentofourbliss。
SurprisedtofindherinthesameconditioninwhichIhadlefther,ItoldherIhadhoped……butshe,withoutgivingmetimetofinishthephrase,said,"Myjewel,Baretthinks,orpretendstothink,thathehasdonehisdutyasahusband;butheisnohandatthebusiness,andIamdisposedtoputmyselfinyourhands,andthentherewillbenodoubtofmycondition。"
"Weshallthus,mysweet,bedoinghimaservice,andtheserviceshallbewelldone。"
AsIsaidthesewordsIwasonthethresholdofthetemple,andI
openedthedoorinamannerthatoverthrewallobstacles。Alittlescreamandthenseveralsighsannouncedthecompletionofthesacrifice,and,totellthetruth,thealtaroflovewascoveredwiththebloodofthevictim。Afterthenecessaryablutionsthepriestoncemorebeganhispiouswork,whilethevictimgrowingboldersoprovokedhisragethatitwasnottillthefourthmactationthatwerestedandputoffourjousttoanotherseason。Wesworeathousandtimestoloveeachotherandtoremainconstant,andwemaypossiblyhavebeensincere,aswewereinourecstasyofpleasure。
Weonlyseparatedtodress;thenaftertakingaturninthegardenwedinedtogether,surethatinasumptuousrepast,washeddownbythechoicestwines,weshouldfindstrengthtoreanimateourdesiresandtolullthemtosleepinbliss。
Atdessert,asIwaspouringchampagneintoherglass,Iaskedherhowwithsuchafierytemperamentshehadmanagedtopreservehervirtue?
"Cupid,"saidI,"mighthavegatheredthefruitthatHymencouldnottaste。Youareseventeen,andthepearhasbeenripefortwoyearsatleast。"
"Verytrue,butIhaveneverhadalover。"
"Never?"
"Ihavebeencourted,buttonoeffect。Myheartwaseversilent。
PossiblymyfatherthoughtotherwisewhenIbeggedhim,amonthago,togetmemarriedsoon。"
"Verylikely,butasyouwerenotinlove,whywereyouinsuchahurry?"
"IknewthattheDucd’Elbeufwouldsoonbecomingtotown,andthatifhefoundmestillsinglehewouldobligemetobecomethewifeofamanIdetest,whowouldhavemeatanyprice。"
"Whoisthismanforwhomyouhavesuchanaversion?"
"Heisoneoftheduke’spets,amonsterwhosleepswithhismaster。"
"Really!Ididnotknowthedukehadsuchtastes。"
"Ohyes;heiseighty—four,andhethinkshimselfawoman;hesayshemusthaveahusband。"
"Thatisveryfunny。Andisthisaspiranttoyourhandahandsomeman?"
"Ithinkhimhorrible;buteverybodyelsethinksheisafineman。"
ThecharmingBaretspentaweekwithme,andeachdaywerenewedthecombatinwhichwewerealwaysconquerorsandalwaysconquered。I
haveseenfewwomenasprettyandseductive,andnonewhoseskinwasmoreexquisitelysoftandfair。Herbreathwasaromatic,andthismadeherkissesmostsweet。Herneckwasexquisitelyshaped,andthetwoglobes,tippedwithcoral,wereashardasmarble。Theexquisitecurvesofherfigurewouldhavedefiedtheskilloftheablestpainter。Iexperiencedanineffablejoyincontemplatingher,andinthemidstofmyhappinessIcalledmyselfunhappybecauseIcouldnotsatisfyallthedesireswhichhercharmsarousedinme。Thefriezewhichcrownedhercolumnswascomposedoflinksofpalegoldoftheutmostfineness,andmyfingersstroveinvaintogivethemanotherdirectiontothatwhichnaturehadgiventhem。Shecouldeasilyhavebeentaughtthoselivelyyetgracefulmovementswhichdoublethepleasure;naturehaddoneherpartinthatdirection,andIdonotthinkamoreexpertmistressintheartoflovecouldbefound。
Eachofuslookedforwardtothedayofherdeparturewithequalgrief,andouronlyconsolationlayinthehopeofmeetingagain,andoften。Threedaysaftershewentaway,Iwenttoseeher,moreinlovethanever,andIgavehertwonotesoffivethousandfrancsapiece。Herhusbandmighthavehissuspicions,buthewastoohappyatbeingenabledtopayhisdebtsandtokeephisshopopentosayanythingunpleasant。Manyhusbandsbesideshimselfthinkthemselvesluckytohavesuchproductivewives。
InthebeginningofNovemberIsoldsharesforfiftythousandfrancstoamannamedGamier,livingintheRueduMail,givinguptohimathirdpartofthematerialsinmywarehouse,andacceptingamanagerchosenbyhimandpaidbythecompany。ThreedaysaftersigningthedeedIreceivedthemoney;butinthenightthedoctor,mywarehouseman,emptiedthetillandabsconded。Ihavealwaysthoughtthatthisrobberycouldnothavebeeneffectedwithouttheconnivanceofthepainter。Thislosswasaseriousblowtome,asmyaffairsweregettingintoanembroiledcondition;and,forafinishingtouchtomymisfortunes,Gamierhadmeservedwithasummonstorepayhimthefiftythousandfrancs。MyanswerwasthatIwasnotliable,thathismanagerhadbeenappointed,theagreementandsaleoftheshareswasvalid,andthathebeingoneofthecompanywouldhavetoshareintheloss。Ashepersistedinhisclaim,Iwasadvisedtogotolaw,butGamierdeclaredtheagreementnullandvoid,accusingmeinanindirectmannerofhavingappropriatedthemoneywhichIhadsaidwasstolen。Iwouldwillinglyhavegivenhimagoodthrashing,buthewasanoldman,andthatcoursewouldnothavemendedmatters,soIkeptmytemper。Themerchantwhohadgivensuretyforthedoctorwasnottobefound;hehadbecomebankrupt。Garnierhadallmystockseized,andsequestratedmyhorses,carriages,andallmyprivateproperty。
Whilethesetroubleswereharassingme,Idismissedallmywork—
girls,whohadalwaysbeenagreatexpense,andreplacedthemwithworkmenandsomeofmyservants。Thepainterstillretainedhisposition,whichwasanassuredone,ashealwayspaidhimselfoutofthesales。
Myattorneywasanhonestman——ararebirdamongstlawyers——butmycounsel,whokepttellingmethatthecasewouldsoonbedecided,wasarascal。Whilethedecisionwaspending,Garnierservedmewithawrittopaythesumclaimed。Itookittomycounsel,whopromisedtoappealthesameday,whichhedidnotdo,whileheappropriatedtohisownusethemoneyassignedbymeforthecostsofanactionwhich,iftherehadbeenjusticeinFrance,Ishouldcertainlyhavegained。Twoothersummonseswereissuedagainstme,andbeforeI
knewwhatwasgoingonawarrantwasissuedformyarrest。Iwasseizedateighto’clockinthemorning,asIwasdrivingalongtheRueSt。Denis。Thesergeantofpolicesatbesideme,asecondgotupbesidethecoachman,andathirdstationedhimselfatthebackofthecoach,andinthisstatewedrovetoFortl’Eveque。
Assoonasthepolicehadhandedmeovertothegaoler,heinformedmethatbypaymentofthefiftythousandfrancs,orbygivinggoodbail,Imightinstantlyregainmyfreedom。
"Forthemoment,"saidI,"Icanneithercommandmoneynorbail。"
"Verygood,thenyouwillstayinprison。"
Thegaolertookmetoadecent—lookingroom,andItoldhimIhadonlybeenservedwithonewrit。
"Verylikely,"answeredhe,"itoftenhappenslikethat;butitisratherdifficulttoprove。"
"Bringmewritingmaterials,andhaveatrustymessengeratmydisposal。"
Iwrotetomycounsel,myattorney,toMadamed’Urfe,andtoallmyfriends,includingmybrother,whowasjustmarried。Theattorneycalledimmediately,butthebarristercontentedhimselfwithwritingtotheeffectthatashehadputinanappealmyseizurewasillegal,andthatdamagesmightberecovered。Heendedbybeggingmetogivehimafreehand,andtohavepatienceforafewdays。
ManonBalettisentherbrotherwithherdiamondearrings。MadameduRumaindispatchedherbarrister——amanofrarehonesty——tome,andwroteafriendlynoteinwhichshesaidthatifIwantedfivehundredlouisIshouldhavethemto—morrow。Mybrotherneitherwrotenorcametoseeme。AstodearMadamed’Urfeshesenttosaythatshewouldexpectmeatdinner。Ithoughtshehadgonemad,asIcouldnotthinkshewasmakingfunofme。
Ateleveno’clockmyroomwasfullofpeople。PoorBarethadcomeweeping,andofferingmeallhisshopheld。Iwastouchedbytheworthyman’skindness。AtlastIwastoldthataladyinacoachwantedtoseeme。Iwaited,butnobodycame。InmyimpatienceI
calledtheturnkey,whotoldmethat,afterquestioningtheclerkoftheprison,shehadgoneawayagain。FromthedescriptionIwasgivenIhadnodifficultyinidentifyingtheladywithMadamed’Urfe。
Tofindmyselfdeprivedofmylibertywasadisagreeableshocktome。
IthoughtofTheLeads,andthoughmypresentsituationwasnottobecomparedwiththat,IcursedmyfateasIforesawthatmyimprisonmentwoulddamagemyreputation。Ihadthirtythousandfrancsinhardcashandjewelstomorethandoublethatamount,butI
couldnotdecideonmakingsuchasacrifice,inspiteoftheadvicegivenbyMadameduRumain’sbarrister,whowouldhavemegotoutofprisonatanycost。
"Allyouhavetodo,"saidthebarrister,"istodeposithalfthesumdemandedwhichIwillgivetotheclerkofthecourt,andinashorttimeIcanpromiseadecisioninyourfavourandtherestorationofyourmoney。"
Wewerediscussingthematter,whenthegaolerentered,andsaid,verypolitely,"Sir,youareafreemanagain,andaladyiswaitingforyouatthedoorinhercarriage"
IcalledLeDuc,myman,andtoldhimtogoandseewhotheladywas。
HereturnedwiththeinformationthatitwasMadamed’Urfe。Imademybowtoeverybody,andafterfourverydisagreeablehoursofimprisonment,Ifoundmyselffreeagainandsittinginasplendidcoach。
Madamed’Urfereceivedmewithdignifiedkindness,andajudgewhowasinthecarriageapologizedforhiscountry,wherestrangerswereexposedtosuchinsults。IthankedMadamed’Urfeinafewwords,tellingherthatIwasgladtobecomeherdebtor,butthatitwasGarnierwhobenefitedbyhergenerosity。Sherepliedwithapleasantsmilethatshewasnotsosureofthat,andthatwewouldtalkitoveratdinner。ShewantedmetogoandwalkintheTuileriesandthePalaisRoyal,toconvincepeoplethatthereportofmyimprisonmenthadbeenfalse。Ithoughttheadviceexcellent,andasIsetoutIpromisedtobewithherattwoo’clock。
AfterskewingmyselfatthetwoprincipalwalksofParis,amusingmyselfbytheastonishmentdepictedoncertainfaceswellknowntome,Iwentandreturnedtheear—ringstomydearManon,whogaveanastonishedbutahappycrywhenshesawme。Ithankedhertenderlyfortheproofshehadgivenmeofherattachment,andsaidthatIhadbeenarrestedbyaplotforwhichIwouldmaketheplotterspaydear。
AfterpromisingtospendtheeveningwiththemIwenttoMadamed’Urfe’s。
Thisgoodlady,whosefoibleiswellknowntomyreaders,mademelaughwhenshesaidthathergeniushadtoldherthatIhadgotmyselfarrestedtobetalkedabout,forreasonswhichwereknownonlytomyself。
"AssoonasIwasinformedofyourarrest,"saidshe,"IwenttotheFortl’Eveque,andonlearningfromtheclerkwhattheaffairwasabout,Idepositedbondstobailyouout。Ifyouarenotinapositiontohavejusticedoneyou,GamierwillhavetoreckonwithmebeforehetakesthemoneyIhavedeposited。Butyourfirststepshouldbetocommenceacriminalprosecutionagainstyourcounsel,whohasnotonlyfailedtoputinyourappealbuthasrobbedanddeceivedyou。"
Ileftherintheevening,assuringherthatinafewdaysherbailshouldbereturnedtoher;andwenttotheFrenchandItalianplaysinsuccession,takingcaretorendermyselfconspicuousthatmyreappearancemightbecomplete。AfterwardsIwenttosupwithManonBaletti,whowastoohappytohavehadanopportunityofspewingheraffectionforme;andherjoywasfullwhenItoldherthatIwasgoingtogiveupbusiness,forshethoughtthatmyseragliowastheonlyobstacletomymarriagewithher。
ThenextdaywaspassedwithMadameduRumain。Ifeltthatmyobligationstoherweregreat,whileshe,inthegoodnessofherheart,waspersuadedthatshecouldmakenoadequatereturntomefortheoracleswithwhichIfurnishedher,andbyfollowingwhichshewassafelyguidedthroughtheperplexitiesoflife。Icannotunderstandhowshe,whosewitwaskeen,andwhosejudgmentonothersubjectswasofthesoundestkind,couldbeliabletosuchfolly。I
wassorrywhenIreflectedthatIcouldnotundeceiveher,andgladwhenIreflectedthattothisdeceitofminethekindnessshehadshewnmewaschieflydue。
MyimprisonmentdisgustedmewithParis,andmademeconceiveahatredofthelaw,whichIfeelnow。Ifoundmyselfentangledinadoublemazeofknavery——Garnierwasmyfoe,andsowasmyowncounsel。EverytimeIwenttoplead,tospendmymoneyamongstlawyers,andtowastethetimebettergiventopleasure,IfeltasifIwasgoingtoexecution。Inthisperturbedkindoflife,socontrarytomyinclinations,Iresolvedtosettoworkinearnesttomakemyfortune,sothatImightbecomeindependentandfreetoenjoylifeaccordingtomytastes。IdecidedinthefirstplacethatI
wouldcutmyselffreeofallthatboundmetoParis,makeasecondjourneyintoHollandtoreplenishmypurseandinvestmymoneyinayearlyincomefortwolives,andfromthenceforthlivefreefromcare。Thetwoliveswerethoseofmywifeandmyself;mywifewouldbeManonBaletti,andwhenItoldhermyplansshewouldhavethoughtthemdelightfulifIhadbegunbymarryingher。
ThefirstthingIdidwastogiveupLittlePoland。Ithendrewthetwenty—fourthousandfrancswhichweremysuretyforkeepingalotteryofficeintheRueSt。Denis。ThusIgotridofmyridiculousofficeoflotteryreceiver,andaftergettingmyclerkmarriedI
handedovertheofficetohim;inshort,Imadehisfortune。A
friendofhiswife’swashissurety;suchthingsoftenhappen。
IdidnotliketoleaveMadamed’UrfeinvolvedinatroublesomesuitwithGamier,soIwenttoVersaillestoseetheAbbedelaVille,agreatfriendofhis,andbeggedhimtoinduceGamiertomakeacomposition。
Theabbesawthathisfriendwasinthewrong,andsowasallthemorewillingtohelpme;andafewdaysafterwardshewrotetometogoandseehim,assuringmethatIshouldfindhiminclinedtoarrangemattersinafriendlymanner。
GamierwasatRuelle,wherehehadahousewhichcosthimfourhundredthousandfrancs——afineestateforamanwhohadmadehismoneyasanarmycontractorduringthelastwar。Hewasrich,buthewassounfortunateastobestillfondofwomenattheageofseventy,whilehisimpotencedebarredhimfromtheproperenjoymentoftheirsociety。Ifoundhimincompanywiththreeyoungladies,allofwhomwerepretty,and(asIheardafterwards)ofgoodfamilies;buttheywerepoor,andtheirnecessitiesforcedthemtosubmittoadisgustingintercoursewiththeoldprofligate。Istayedtodinnerandadmiredtheproprietyandmodestyoftheirbehaviourinspiteofthehumiliationwhichaccompaniespoverty。Afterdinner,Gamierwenttosleep,andleftmetoentertainthesegirlswhomI
wouldwillinglyhaverescuedfromtheirunfortunatesituationifI
hadbeenable。AfterGamierwoke,wewentintohisstudytotalkoverourbusiness。
Atfirsthemaintainedhisclaimtenaciously,andseemedunwillingtoyieldaninch;butwhenItoldhimthatIwasleavingParisinafewdays,hesawthatashecouldnotkeepme,Madamed’Urfemighttakethesuitoverandcarryitontoinfinity,andthathemightloseitatlast。Thatmadehimthinkitover,andheaskedmetostayinhishouseforthenight。Thenextday,afterbreakfast,hesaid,——
"Ihavemadeupmymind:Iwillhavetwenty—fivethousandfrancs,orkeepthematterbeforethecourtstillmydyingday。"
IansweredthathewouldfindthesuminthehandsofMadamed’Urfe’ssolicitor,andthathecouldreceiveitassoonashehadgivenreplevyonthebailattheFortl’Eveque。
IcouldnotpersuadeMadamed’UrfethatIhadactedwiselyincomingtoanarrangementtillIhadtoldherthatmygeniushadcommandedmenottoleaveParisbeforemyaffairsweresettled,sothatnoonemightbeabletoaccusemeofhavinggoneawaytoavoidcreditorswhoseclaimsIcouldnotsatisfy。
ThreeorfourdaysafterwardsIwenttotakeleaveofM。deChoiseul,whopromisedtoinstructM。d’Afritoaidmeinnegotiatingaloanatfivepercent。eitherwiththeStates—Generaloraprivatecompany。
"Youcantelleveryone,"saidhe,"thatpeaceiscertaintobemadeinthecourseofthewinter,andIwilltakecarethatyoushallhavewhatisduetoyouonyourreturntoFrance。"
M。deChoiseuldeceivedme,forheknewverywellthatpeacewouldnotbemade;butIhadnodefiniteproject,andIrepentedofhavinggivenM。deBoulognemyconfidence,andalsoofhavingdoneanythingfortheGovernment,therewardofwhichwasnotimmediateandcertain。
Isoldmyhorses,mycarriages,myfurniture;Iwentbailformybrotherwhohadcontracteddebtshewassureofpaying,ashehadseveralpicturesontheeaselwhichhehadbeenorderedtopaintbysomeofhisrichandnoblepatrons。ItookleaveofManon,whomI
leftinfloodsoftears,thoughIsworewiththeutmostsinceritytocomebacksoonandmarryher。
Atlastallmypreparationswerefinished,andIleftPariswithahundredthousandfrancsinbillsofexchangeandjewelstothesameamount。Iwasaloneinmypost—chaise,LeDucprecedingmeonhorseback,whichtherascalpreferredtobeingshutupinacarriage。
ThisLeDucofminewasaSpaniard,agedeighteen,asharpfellow,whomIvaluedhighly,especiallybecausehedidmyhairbetterthananyoneelse。Ineverrefusedhimapleasurewhichalittlemoneywouldbuy。BesideshimIhadagoodSwissservant,whoservedasmycourier。
Itwasthe1stofDecember,1759,andtheairwasfrosty,butIwasfortifiedagainsttheinclemencyoftheseason。Iwasabletoreadcomfortably,andItookHelvetius’s"Esprit,"whichIhadneverhadtimetoreadbefore。AfterperusingitIwasequallyastonishedatthesensationitcreatedandatthestupidityoftheHighCourtwhichcondemnedit。Ofcoursethatexaltedbodywaslargelyinfluencedbythekingandtheclergy,andbetweenthemallnoeffortwassparedtoruinHelvetius,agood—heartedmanwithmorewitthanhisbook。I
sawnothingnoveleitherinthehistoricalpartrelatingtothemoralsofnations(inwhichHelvetiusdismissesusastriflers),orinthepositionthatmoralityisdependentonthereason。Allthathesayshasbeensaidoverandoveragain,andBlaisePascalwentmuchfarther,buthewrotemoreskilfullyandbetterineverywaythanHelvetius,who,wishingtoremaininFrance,wasobligedtoretract。Hepreferredaquietlifetohishonourandhisphilosophy。
Hiswifehadanoblersoulthanhe,asshewantedtosellalltheyhad,andtotakerefugeinHollandratherthansubmittotheshameofarecantation。PerhapsHelvetiuswouldhavefollowedthenobleadviceofhiswifeifhehadforeseenthatthismonstrousrecantationwouldmakehisbookintoafraud;forhehadtoconfessthathehadwrittenwithoutduereflection,thathewasmoreinjestthanearnest,andthathisargumentsweremeresophisms。Butmanymenofkeenintellectshadnotwaitedforhimtorecantbeforeexposingthiswretchedsystemofhis。Andadmittingthatwhatevermandoesisdoneforhisowninterest,doesitfollowthatgratitudeisafolly,andvirtueandviceidentical?Areavillainandamanofhonourtobeweighedinthesamebalance?Ifsuchadreadfulsystemwerenotabsurd,virtuewouldbemerehypocrisy;andifbyanypossibilityitweretrue,itoughttobeproscribedbygeneralconsent,sinceitwouldleadtogeneralruinandcorruption。
ItmighthavebeenprovedtoHelvetiusthatthepropositionsthatthefirstmotiveisalwaysself—interest,andthatweshouldalwaysconsultourowninterestfirst,arefallacious。Itisastrangethingthatsovirtuousamanwouldnotadmittheexistenceofvirtue。
Itisanamusingsuggestionthatheonlypublishedhisbookoutofmodesty,butthatwouldhavecontradictedhisownsystem。Butifitwereso,wasitwelldonetorenderhimselfcontemptibletoescapetheimputationofpride?Modestyisonlyavirtuewhenitisnatural;ifitisputon,ormerelytheresultoftraining,itisdetestable。Thegreatd’AlembertwasthemosttrulymodestmanI
haveeverseen。
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