Mydeskwasopen,andallmypaperswereonatablewhereIwasaccustomedtowrite。
"Takethem,"saidI,totheagentofthedreadfulTribunal,pointingtothepaperswhichcoveredthetable。Hefilledabagwiththem,andgaveittooneofthesbirri,andthentoldmethatImustalsogiveuptheboundmanuscriptswhichIhadinmypossession。Ishewedhimwheretheywere,andthisincidentopenedmyeyes。Isawnow,clearlyenough,thatIhadbeenbetrayedbythewretchManuzzi。Thebookswere,"TheKeyofSolomontheKing,""TheZecorben,"a"Picatrix,"abookof"InstructionsonthePlanetaryHours,"andthenecessaryincantationsforconversingwithdemonsofallsorts。
ThosewhowereawarethatIpossessedthesebookstookmeforanexpertmagician,andIwasnotsorrytohavesuchareputation。
Messer—Grandetookalsothebooksonthetablebymybed,suchasPetrarch,Ariosto,Horace。"TheMilitary’Philosopher"(amanuscriptwhichMathildehadgivenme),"ThePorterofChartreux,"and"TheAretin,"whichManuzzihadalsodenounced,forMesser—Grandeaskedmeforitbyname。Thisspy,Manuzzi,hadalltheappearanceofanhonestman——averynecessaryqualificationforhisprofession。HissonmadehisfortuneinPolandbymarryingaladynamedOpeska,whom,astheysay,hekilled。,thoughIhaveneverhadanypositiveproofonthematter,andamwillingtostretchChristiancharitytotheextentofbelievinghewasinnocent,althoughhewasquitecapableofsuchacrime。
WhileMesser—Grandewasthusrummagingamongmymanuscripts,booksandletters,Iwasdressingmyselfinanabsent—mindedmanner,neitherhurryingmyselfnorthereverse。Imademytoilette,shavedmyself,andcombedmyhair;puttingonmechanicallyalacedshirtandmyholidaysuitwithoutsayingaword,andwithoutMesser—Grande——whodidnotletmeescapehissightforaninstant——complainingthatI
wasdressingmyselfasifIweregoingtoawedding。
AsIwentoutIwassurprisedtoseeabandoffortymen—at—armsintheante—room。Theyhaddonemethehonourofthinkingallthesemennecessaryformyarrest,though,accordingtotheaxiom’NeHerculesquidemcontraduos’,twowouldhavebeenenough。ItiscuriousthatinLondon,whereeveryoneisbrave,onlyonemanisneededtoarrestanother,whereasinmydearnativeland,wherecowardiceprevails,thirtyarerequired。Thereasonis,perhaps,thatthecowardontheoffensiveismoreafraidthanthecowardonthedefensive,andthusamanusuallycowardlyistransformedforthemomentintoamanofcourage。ItiscertainthatatVeniceoneoftenseesaman。
defendinghimselfagainsttwentysbirri,andfinallyescapingafterbeatingthemsoundly。IrememberoncehelpingafriendofmineatParistoescapefromthehandsoffortybum—bailiffs,andweputthewholevileroutofthemtoflight。
Messer—Grandemademegetintoagondola,andsatdownnearmewithanescortoffourmen。Whenwecametoourdestinationheofferedmecoffee,whichIrefused;andhethenshutmeupinaroom。Ipassedthesefourhoursinsleep,wakingupeveryquarterofanhourtopasswater——anextraordinaryoccurrence,asIwasnotatallsubjecttostranguary;theheatwasgreat,andIhadnotsuppedtheeveningbefore。Ihavenoticedatothertimesthatsurpriseatadeedofoppressionactsonmeasapowerfulnarcotic,butIfoundoutatthetimeIspeakofthatgreatsurpriseisalsoadiuretic。Imakethisdiscoveryovertothedoctors,itispossiblethatsomelearnedmanmaymakeuseofittosolacetheillsofhumanity。IrememberlaughingveryheartilyatPraguesixyearsago,onlearningthatsomethin—skinnedladies,onreadingmyflightfromTheLeads,whichwaspublishedatthatdate,tookgreatoffenceattheaboveaccount,whichtheythoughtIshouldhavedonewelltoleaveout。Ishouldhaveleftitout,perhaps,inspeakingtoalady,butthepublicisnotaprettywomanwhomIamintentoncajoling,myonlyaimistobeinstructive。Indeed,IseenoimproprietyinthecircumstanceIhavenarrated,whichisascommontomenandwomenaseatinganddrinking;
andifthereisanythinginittoshocktoosensitivenerves,itisthatweresembleinthisrespectthecowsandpigs。
Itisprobablethatjustasmyoverwhelmedsoulgavesignsofitsfailingstrengthbythelossofthethinkingfaculty,somybodydistilledagreatpartofthosefluidswhichbytheircontinualcirculationsetthethinkingfacultyinmotion。Thusasuddenshockmightcauseinstantaneousdeath,andsendonetoParadisebyacutmuchtooshort。
Incourseoftimethecaptainofthemen—at—armscametotellmethathewasunderorderstotakemeundertheLeads。WithoutawordI
followedhim。Wewentbygondola,andafterathousandturningsamongthesmallcanalswegotintotheGrandCanal,andlandedattheprisonquay。AfterclimbingseveralflightsofstairswecrossedaclosedbridgewhichformsthecommunicationbetweentheprisonsandtheDoge’spalace,crossingthecanalcalledRiodiPalazzo。Ontheothersideofthisbridgethereisagallerywhichwetraversed。Wethencrossedoneroom,andenteredanother,wheresatanindividualinthedressofanoble,who,afterlookingfixedlyatme,said,"Equello,metteteloindeposito:"
ThismanwasthesecretaryoftheInquisitors,theprudentDominicCavalli,whowasapparentlyashamedtospeakVenetianinmypresenceashepronouncedmydoomintheTuscanlanguage。
Messer—GrandethenmademeovertothewardenofTheLeads,whostoodbywithanenormousbunchofkeys,andaccompaniedbytwoguards,mademeclimbtwoshortflightsofstairs,atthetopofwhichfollowedapassageandthenanothergallery,attheendofwhichheopenedadoor,andIfoundmyselfinadirtygarret,thirty—sixfeetlongbytwelvebroad,badlylightedbyawindowhighupintheroof。
Ithoughtthisgarretwasmyprison,butIwasmistaken;for,takinganenormouskey,thegaoleropenedathickdoorlinedwithiron,threeandahalffeethigh,witharoundholeinthemiddle,eightinchesindiameter,justasIwaslookingintentlyatanironmachine。Thismachinewaslikeahorseshoe,aninchthickandaboutfiveinchesacrossfromoneendtotheother。Iwasthinkingwhatcouldbetheusetowhichthishorribleinstrumentwasput,whenthegaolersaid,withasmile,"Isee,sir,thatyouwishtoknowwhatthatisfor,andasithappensIcansatisfyyourcuriosity。Whentheirexcellenciesgiveordersthatanyoneistobestrangled,heismadetositdownonastool,thebackturnedtothiscollar,andhisheadissoplacedthatthecollargoesroundonehalfoftheneck。Asilkband,whichgoesroundtheotherhalf,passesthroughthishole,andthetwoendsareconnectedwiththeaxleofawheelwhichisturnedbysomeoneuntiltheprisonergivesuptheghost,fortheconfessor,Godbethanked!
neverleaveshimtillheisdead。"
"Allthissoundsveryingenious,andIshouldthinkthatitisyouwhohavethehonourofturningthewheel。"
Hemadenoanswer,andsigningtometoenter,whichIdidbybendingdouble,heshutmeup,andafterwardsaskedmethroughthegratedholewhatIwouldliketoeat。
"Ihaven’tthoughtanythingaboutityet,"Ianswered。Andhewentaway,lockingallthedoorscarefullybehindhim。
Stunnedwithgrief,Ileantmyelbowsonthetopofthegrating。Itwascrossed,bysixironbarsaninchthick,whichformedsixteensquareholes。Thisopeningwouldhavelightedmycell,ifasquarebeamsupportingtheroofwhichjoinedthewallbelowthewindowhadnotinterceptedwhatlittlelightcameintothathorridgarret。
Aftermakingthetourofmysadabode,myheadlowered,asthecellwasnotmorethanfiveandahalffeethigh,Ifoundbygropingalongthatitformedthree—quartersofasquareoftwelvefeet。Thefourthquarterwasakindofrecess,whichwouldhaveheldabed;buttherewasneitherbed,nortable,norchair,noranyfurniturewhatever,exceptabucket——theuseofwhichmaybeguessed,andabenchfixedinthewallafootwideandfourfeetfromtheground。OnitI
placedmycloak,myfinesuit,andmyhattrimmedwithSpanishpaintandadornedwithabeautifulwhitefeather。Theheatwasgreat,andmyinstinctmademegomechanicallytothegrating,theonlyplacewhereIcouldleanonmyelbows。Icouldnotseethewindow,butI
sawthelightinthegarret,andratsofafearfulsize,whichwalkedunconcernedlyaboutit;thesehorriblecreaturescomingcloseundermygratingwithoutshewingtheslightestfear。AtthesightoftheseIhastenedtocloseuptheroundholeinthemiddleofthedoorwithaninsideshutter,foravisitfromoneoftheratswouldhavefrozenmyblood。Ipassedeighthoursinsilenceandwithoutstirring,myarmsallthetimecrossedonthetopofthegrating。
Atlasttheclockrousedmefrommyreverie,andIbegantofeelrestlessthatnoonecametogivemeanythingtoeatortobringmeabedwhereontosleep。Ithoughttheymightatleastletmehaveachairandsomebreadandwater。Ihadnoappetite,certainly;butweremygaolerstoguessasmuch?AndneverinmylifehadIbeensothirsty。Iwasquitesure,however,thatsomebodywouldcomebeforethecloseoftheday;butwhenIheardeighto’clockstrikeIbecamefurious,knockingatthedoor,stampingmyfeet,frettingandfuming,andaccompanyingthisuselesshubbubwithloudcries。Aftermorethananhourofthiswildexercise,seeingnoone,withouttheslightestreasontothinkIcouldbeheard,andshroudedindarkness,Ishutthegratingforfearoftherats,andthrewmyselfatfulllengthuponthefloor。Socrueladesertionseemedtomeunnatural,andIcametotheconclusionthattheInquisitorshadswornmydeath。
MyinvestigationastowhatIhaddonetodeservesuchafatewasnotalongone,forinthemostscrupulousexaminationofmyconductI
couldfindnocrimes。Iwas,itistrue,aprofligate,agambler,aboldtalker,amanwhothoughtoflittlebesidesenjoyingthispresentlife,butinallthattherewasnooffenceagainstthestate。
Nevertheless,findingmyselftreatedasacriminal,rageanddespairmademeexpressmyselfagainstthehorribledespotismwhichoppressedmeinamannerwhichIwillleavemyreaderstoguess,butwhichI
willnotrepeathere。Butnotwithstandingmybriefandanxiety,thehungerwhichbegantomakeitselffelt,andthethirstwhichtormentedme,andthehardnessoftheboardsonwhichIlay,didnotpreventexhaustednaturefromreassertingherrights;Ifellasleep。
Mystrongconstitutionwasinneedofsleep;andinayoungandhealthysubjectthisimperiousnecessitysilencesallothers,andinthiswayaboveallissleeprightlytermedthebenefactorofman。
Theclockstrikingmidnightawokeme。Howsadistheawakingwhenitmakesoneregretone’semptydreams。IcouldscarcelybelievethatI
hadspentthreepainlesshours。AsIlayonmyleftside,I
stretchedoutmyrighthandtogetmyhandkerchief,whichI
rememberedputtingonthatside。Ifeltaboutforit,when——heavens!
whatwasmysurprisetofeelanotherhandascoldasice。Thefrightsentanelectricshockthroughme,andmyhairbegantostandonend。
NeverhadIbeensoalarmed,norshouldIhavepreviouslythoughtmyselfcapableofexperiencingsuchterror。Ipassedthreeorfourminutesinakindofswoon,notonlymotionlessbutincapableofthinking。AsIgotbackmysensesbydegrees,ItriedtomakemyselfbelievethatthehandIfanciedIhadtouchedwasamerecreatureofmydisorderedimagination;andwiththisideaIstretchedoutmyhandagain,andagainwiththesameresult。Benumbedwithfright,I
utteredapiercingcry,and,droppingthehandIheld,Idrewbackmyarm,tremblingallover:
Soon,asIgotalittlecalmerandmorecapableofreasoning,I
concludedthatacorpsehadbeenplacedbesidemewhilstIslept,forIwascertainitwasnottherewhenIlaydown。
"This,"saidI,"isthebodyofsomestrangledwretch,andtheywouldthuswarnmeofthefatewhichisinstoreforme。"
Thethoughtmaddenedme;andmyfeargivingplacetorage,forthethirdtimeIstretchedmyarmtowardstheicyhand,seizingittomakecertainofthefactinallitsatrocity,andwishingtogetup,Iroseuponmyleftelbow,andfoundthatIhadgotholdofmyotherhand。Deadenedbytheweightofmybodyandthehardnessoftheboards,ithadlostwarmth,motion,andallsensation。
Inspiteofthehumorousfeaturesinthisincident,itdidnotcheermeup,but,onthecontrary,inspiredmewiththedarkestfancies。I
sawthatIwasinaplacewhere,ifthefalseappearedtrue,thetruthmightappearfalse,whereunderstandingwasbereavedofhalfitsprerogatives,wheretheimaginationbecomingaffectedwouldeithermakethereasonavictimtoemptyhopesortodarkdespair。I
resolvedtobeonmyguard;andforthefirsttimeinmylife,attheageofthirty,Icalledphilosophytomyassistance。Ihadwithinmealltheseedsofphilosophy,butsofarIhadhadnoneedforit。
Iamconvincedthatmostmendiewithouteverhavingthought,inthepropersenseoftheword,notsomuchforwantofwitorofgoodsense,butratherbecausetheshocknecessarytothereasoningfacultyinitsinceptionhasneveroccurredtothemtoliftthemoutoftheirdailyhabits。
AfterwhatIhadexperienced,Icouldthinkofsleepnomore,andtogetupwouldhavebeenuselessasIcouldnotstandupright,soI
tooktheonlysensiblecourseandremainedseated。Isatthustillfouro’clockinthemorning,thesunwouldriseatfive,andIlongedtoseetheday,forapresentimentwhichIheldinfallibletoldmethatitwouldsetmeagainatliberty。Iwasconsumedwithadesireforrevenge,nordidIconcealitfrommyself。Isawmyselfattheheadofthepeople,abouttoexterminatetheGovernmentwhichhadoppressedme;Imassacredallthearistocratswithoutpity;allmustbeshatteredandbroughttothedust。Iwasdelirious;Iknewtheauthorsofmymisfortune,andinmyfancyIdestroyedthem。I
restoredthenaturalrightcommontoallmenofbeingobedientonlytothelaw,andofbeingtriedonlybytheirpeersandbylawstowhichtheyhaveagreed—inshort,IbuiltcastlesinSpain。Suchismanwhenhehasbecomethepreyofadevouringpassion。Hedoesnotsuspectthattheprinciplewhichmoveshimisnotreasonbutwrath,itsgreatestenemy。
IwaitedforalesstimethanIhadexpected,andthusIbecamealittlemorequiet。Athalf—pastfourthedeadlysilenceoftheplace——thishelloftheliving——wasbrokenbytheshriekofboltsbeingshotbackinthepassagesleadingtomycell。
"Haveyouhadtimeyettothinkaboutwhatyouwilltaketoeat?"
saidtheharshvoiceofmygaolerfromthewicket。
Oneisluckywhentheinsolenceofawretchlikethisonlyshewsitselfintheguiseofjesting。IansweredthatIshouldlikesomericesoup,apieceofboiledbeef,aroast,bread,wine,andwater。
Isawthattheloutwasastonishednottohearthelamentationsheexpected。HewentawayandcamebackagaininaquarterofanhourtosaythathewasastonishedIdidnotrequireabedandthenecessarypiecesoffurniture,"for"saidhe,"ifyouflatteryourselfthatyouareonlyhereforanight,youareverymuchmistaken。"
"Thenbringmewhateveryouthinknecessary。"
"WhereshallIgoforit?Hereisapencilandpaper;writeitdown。"
Iskewedhimbywritingwheretogoformyshirts,stockings,andclothesofallsorts,abed,table,chair,thebookswhichMesser—
Grandehadconfiscated,paper,pens,andsoforth。Onmyreadingoutthelisttohim(theloutdidnotknowhowtoread)hecried,"Scratchout,"saidhe,"scratchoutbooks,paper,pens,looking—
glassandrazors,forallthatisforbiddenfruithere,andthengivemesomemoneytogetyourdinner。"IhadthreesequinssoIgavehimone,andhewentoff。Hespentanhourinthepassagesengaged,asI
learntafterwards,inattendingonsevenotherprisonerswhowereimprisonedincellsplacedfarapartfromeachothertopreventallcommunication。
Aboutnoonthegaolerreappearedfollowedbyfiveguards,whosedutyitwastoservethestateprisoners。Heopened:thecelldoortobringinmydinnerandthefurnitureIhadaskedfor。Thebedwasplacedintherecess;mydinnerwaslaidoutonasmalltable,andI
hadtoeatwithanivoryspoonhehadprocuredoutofthemoneyIhadgivenhim;allforks,knives,andedgedtoolsbeingforbidden。
"Tellmewhatyouwouldlikeforto—morrow,"saidhe,"forIcanonlycomehereonceadayatsunrise。TheLordHighSecretaryhastoldmetoinformyouthathewillsendyousomesuitablebooks,butthoseyouwishforareforbidden。"
"Thankhimforhiskindnessinputtingmebymyself。"
"Iwilldoso,butyoumakeamistakeinjestingthus。"
"Idon’tjestatall,forIthinktrulythatitismuchbettertobealonethantominglewiththescoundrelswhoaredoubtlesshere。"
"What,sir!scoundrels?Notatall,notatall。Theyareonlyrespectablepeoplehere,who,forreasonsknowntotheirexcellenciesalone,havetobesequesteredfromsociety。Youhavebeenputbyyourselfasanadditionalpunishment,andyouwantmetothankthesecretaryonthataccount?"
"Iwasnotawareofthat。"
Thefoolwasright,andIsoonfounditout。Idiscoveredthatamanimprisonedbyhimselfcanhavenooccupations。Aloneinagloomycellwhereheonlyseesthefellowwhobringshisfoodonceaday,wherehecannotwalkupright,heisthemostwretchedofmen。Hewouldliketobeinhell,ifhebelievesinit,forthesakeofthecompany。SostrongafeelingisthisthatIgottodesirethecompanyofamurderer,ofonestrickenwiththeplague,orofabear。
Thelonelinessbehindtheprisonbarsisterrible,butitmustbelearntbyexperiencetobeunderstood,andsuchanexperienceIwouldnotwisheventomyenemies。Toamanoflettersinmysituation,paperandinkwouldtakeawaynine—tenthsofthetorture,butthewretcheswhopersecutedmedidnotdreamofgrantingmesuchanalleviationofmymisery。
Afterthegaolerhadgone,Isetmytablenearthegratingforthesakeofthelight,andsatdowntodinner,butIcouldonlyswallowafewspoonfulsofsoup。Havingfastedfornearlyforty—eighthours,itwasnotsurprisingthatIfeltill。Ipassedthedayquietlyenoughseatedonmysofa,andproposingmyselftoreadthe"suitablebooks"whichtheyhadbeengoodenoughtopromiseme。Ididnotshutmyeyesthewholenight,keptawakebythehideousnoisemadebytherats,andbythedeafeningchimeoftheclockofSt。Mark’s,whichseemedtobestrikinginmyroom。Thisdoublevexationwasnotmychieftrouble,andIdaresaymanyofmyreaderswillguesswhatIamgoingtospeakof—namely,themyriadsoffleaswhichheldhighholidayoverme。Thesesmallinsectsdrankmybloodwithunutterablevoracity,theirincessantbitesgavemespasmodicconvulsionsandpoisonedmyblood。
Atday—break,Lawrence(suchwasthegaoler’sname)cametomycellandhadmybedmade,andtheroomsweptandcleansed,andoneoftheguardsgavemewaterwherewithtowashmyself。Iwantedtotakeawalkinthegarret,butLawrencetoldmethatwasforbidden。HegavemetwothickbookswhichIforboretoopen,notbeingquitesureofrepressingthewrathwithwhichtheymightinspireme,andwhichthespywouldhaveinfalliblyreportedtohismasters。Afterleavingmemyfodderandtwocutlemonshewentaway。
AssoonasIwasaloneIatemysoupinahurry,soastotakeithot,andthenIdrewasnearasIcouldtothelightwithoneofthebooks,andwasdelightedtofindthatIcouldseetoread。Ilookedatthetitle,andread,"TheMysticalCityofSisterMaryofJesus,ofAgrada。"Ihadneverheardofit。TheotherbookwasbyaJesuitnamedCaravita。Thisfellow,ahypocriteliketherestofthem,hadinventedanewcultofthe"AdorationoftheSacredHeartofourLordJesusChrist。"This,accordingtotheauthor,wasthepartofourDivineRedeemer,whichaboveallothersshouldbeadoredacuriousideaofabesottedignoramus,withwhichIgotdisgustedatthefirstpage,fortomythinkingtheheartisnomoreworthyapartthanthelungs,stomach;oranyotheroftheinwards。The"MysticalCity"
ratherinterestedme。
IreadinitthewildconceptionsofaSpanishnun,devouttosuperstition,melancholy,shutinbyconventwalls,andswayedbytheignoranceandbigotryofherconfessors。Allthesegrotesque,monstrous,andfantasticvisionsofhersweredignifiedwiththenameofrevelations。Theloverandbosom—friendoftheHolyVirgin,shehadreceivedinstructionsfromGodHimselftowritethelifeofHisdivinemother;thenecessaryinformationwasfurnishedherbytheHolyGhost。
ThislifeofMarybegan,notwiththedayofherbirth,butwithherimmaculateconceptioninthewombofAnne,hermother。ThisSisterMaryofAgradawastheheadofaFranciscanconventfoundedbyherselfinherownhouse。Aftertellingindetailallthedeedsofherdivineheroinewhilstinhermother’swomb,sheinformsusthatattheageofthreeshesweptandcleansedthehousewiththeassistanceofninehundredservants,allofwhomwereangelswhomGodhadplacedatherdisposal,underthecommandofMichael,whocameandwentbetweenGodandherselftoconducttheirmutualcorrespondence。
Whatstrikesthejudiciousreaderofthebookistheevidentbeliefofthemorethanfanaticalwriterthatnothingisduetoherinvention;everythingistoldingoodfaithandwithfullbelief。
Theworkcontainsthedreamsofavisionary,who,withoutvanitybutinebriatedwiththeideaofGod,thinkstorevealonlytheinspirationsoftheDivineSpirit。
ThebookwaspublishedwiththepermissionoftheveryholyandveryhorribleInquisition。Icouldnotrecoverfrommyastonishment!Farfromitsstirringupinmybreastaholyandsimplezealofreligion,itinclinedmetotreatallthemysticaldogmasoftheFaithasfabulous。
Suchworksmayhavedangerousresults;forexample,amoresusceptiblereaderthanmyself,oronemoreinclinedtobelieveinthemarvellous,runstheriskofbecomingasgreatavisionaryasthepoornunherself。
Theneedofdoingsomethingmademespendaweekoverthismasterpieceofmadness,theproductofahyper—exaltedbrain。Itookcaretosaynothingtothegaoleraboutthisfinework,butIbegantofeeltheeffectsofreadingit。AssoonasIwentofftosleepI
experiencedthediseasewhichSisterMaryofAgradahadcommunicatedtomymindweakenedbymelancholy,wantofpropernourishmentandexercise,badair,andthehorribleuncertaintyofmyfate。ThewildnessofmydreamsmademelaughwhenIrecalledtheminmywakingmoments。IfIhadpossessedthenecessarymaterialsIwouldhavewrittenmyvisionsdown,andImightpossiblyhaveproducedinmycellastillmadderworkthantheonechosenwithsuchinsightbyCavalli。
Thissetmethinkinghowmistakenistheopinionwhichmakeshumanintellectanabsoluteforce;itismerelyrelative,andhewhostudieshimselfcarefullywillfindonlyweakness。Iperceivedthatthoughmenrarelybecomemad,stillsuchaneventiswellwithintheboundsofpossibility,forourreasoningfacultiesarelikepowder,which,thoughitcatchesfireeasily,willnevercatchfireatallwithoutaspark。ThebookoftheSpanishnunhasallthepropertiesnecessarytomakeamancrack—brained;butforthepoisontotakeeffecthemustbeisolated,putundertheLeads,anddeprivedofallotheremployments。
InNovember,1767,asIwasgoingfromPampelunatoMadrid,mycoachman,AndreaCapello,stoppedforustodineinatownofOldCastille。SodismalanddrearyaplacedidIfinditthatIaskeditsname。HowIlaughedwhenIwastoldthatitwasAgrada!
"Here,then,"Isaidtomyself,"didthatsaintlylunaticproducethatmasterpiecewhichbutforM。CavalliIshouldneverhaveknown。"
Anoldpriest,whohadthehighestpossibleopinionofmethemomentIbegantoaskhimaboutthistruthfulhistorianofthemotherofChrist,shewedmetheveryplacewhereshehadwrittenit,andassuredmethatthefather,mother,sister,andinshortallthekindredoftheblessedbiographer,hadbeengreatsaintsintheirgeneration。Hetoldme,andspoketruly,thattheSpaniardshadsolicitedhercanonizationatRome,withthatofthevenerablePalafox。This"MysticalCity,"perhaps,gaveFatherMalagridatheideaofwritingthelifeofSt。Anne,written,also,atthedictationoftheHolyGhost,butthepoordevilofaJesuithadtosuffermartyrdomforit——anadditionalreasonforhiscanonization,ifthehorriblesocietyevercomestolifeagain,andattainstheuniversalpowerwhichisitssecretaim。
AttheendofeightorninedaysIfoundmyselfmoneyless。Lawrenceaskedmeforsome,butIhadnotgotit。
"WherecanIgetsome?"
"Nowhere。"
Whatdispleasedthisignorantandgossipingfellowaboutmewasmysilenceandmylaconicmanneroftalking。
NextdayhetoldmethattheTribunalhadassignedmefiftysousperdiemofwhichhewouldhavetotakecharge,butthathewouldgivemeanaccountofhisexpenditureeverymonth,andthathewouldspendthesurplusonwhatIliked。
"GetmetheLeydenGazettetwiceaweek。"
"Ican’tdothat,becauseitisnotallowedbytheauthorities。"
Sixty—fivelivresamonthwasmorethanIwanted,sinceIcouldnoteatmorethanIdid:thegreatheatandthewantofpropernourishmenthadweakenedme。Itwasinthedog—days;thestrengthofthesun’sraysupontheleadoftheroofmademycelllikeastove,sothatthestreamsofperspirationwhichrolledoffmypoorbodyasIsatquitenakedonmysofa—chairwettedthefloortorightandleftofme。
Ihadbeeninthishell—on—earthforfifteendayswithoutanysecretionfromthebowels。Attheendofthisalmostincredibletimenaturere—assertedherself,andIthoughtmylasthourwascome。Thehaemorrhoidalveinswereswollentosuchanextentthatthepressureonthemgavemealmostunbearableagony。TothisfataltimeIowetheinceptionofthatsadinfirmityofwhichIhaveneverbeenabletocompletelycuremyself。Therecurrenceofthesamepains,thoughnotsoacute,remindmeofthecause,anddonotmakemyremembranceofitanythemoreagreeable。ThisdiseasegotmecomplimentsinRussiawhenIwastheretenyearslater,andIfounditinsuchesteemthatIdidnotdaretocomplain。ThesamekindofthinghappenedtomeatConstantinople,whenIwascomplainingofacoldintheheadinthepresenceofaTurk,whowasthinking,Icouldsee,thatadogofaChristianwasnotworthyofsuchablessing。
ThesamedayIsickenedwithahighfeverandkeptmybed。IsaidnothingtoLawrenceaboutit,butthedayafter,onfindingmydinneruntouched,heaskedmehowIwas。
"Verywell。"
"Thatcan’tbe,sir,asyouhaveeatennothing。Youareill,andyouwillexperiencethegenerosityoftheTribunalwhowillprovideyou,withoutfeeorcharge,withaphysician,surgeon,andallnecessarymedicines。"
Hewentout,returningafterthreehourswithoutguards,holdingacandleinhishand,andfollowedbyagrave—lookingpersonage;thiswasthedoctor。Iwasintheheightofthefever,whichhadnotleftmeforthreedays。Hecameuptomeandbegantoaskmequestions,butItoldhimthatwithmyconfessorandmydoctorIwouldonlyspeakapart。ThedoctortoldLawrencetoleavetheroom,butontherefusalofthatArgustodoso,hewentawaysayingthatIwasdangerouslyill,possiblyuntodeath。ForthisIhoped,formylifeasithadbecomewasnolongermychiefestgood。Iwassomewhatgladalsotothinkthatmypitilesspersecutorsmight,onhearingofmycondition,beforcedtoreflectonthecrueltyofthetreatmenttowhichtheyhadsubjectedme。
FourhoursafterwardsIheardthenoiseofboltsoncemore,andthedoctorcameinholdingthecandlehimself。Lawrenceremainedoutside。IhadbecomesoweakthatIexperiencedagratefulrestfulness。Kindlynaturedoesnotsufferamanseriouslyilltofeelweary。Iwasdelightedtohearthatmyinfamousturnkeywasoutside,forsincehisexplanationoftheironcollarIhadlookedanhimwithloathing。
InaquarterofanhourIhadtoldthedoctorall。
"Ifwewanttogetwell,"saidhe,"wemustnotbemelancholy。"
"Writemetheprescription,andtakeittotheonlyapothecarywhocanmakeitup。M。Cavalliisthebaddoctorwhoexhibited’TheHeartofJesus,’and’TireMysticalCity。’"
"Thosetwopreparationsarequitecapableofhavingbroughtonthefeverandthehaemorrhoids。Iwillnotforsakeyou"
Aftermakingmealargejugoflemonade,andtellingthetodrinkfrequently,hewentaway。Isleptsoundly,dreamingfantasticdreams。
InhemorningthedoctorcameagainwithLawrenceandasurgeon,whobledme。Thedoctorleftmesomemedicinewhichhetoldmetotakeintheevening,andabottleofsoap。"Ihaveobtainedleave,"saidhe,"foryoutomoveintothegarretwheretheheatisless,andtheairbetterthanhere。"
"Ideclinethefavour,asIabominatetherats,whichyouknownothingabout,andwhichwouldcertainlygetintomybed。"
"Whatapity!ItoldM。Cavallithathehadalmostkilledyouwithhisbooks,andhehascommissionedmetotakethemback,andtogiveyouBoethius;andhereitis。"
"Iammuchobligedtoyou。IlikeitbetterthanSeneca,andIamsureitwilldomegood。"
"Iamleavingyouaverynecessaryinstrument,andsomebarleywaterforyoutorefreshyourselfwith。"
Hevisitedmefourtimes,andpulledmethrough;myconstitutiondidtherest,andmyappetitereturned。AtthebeginningofSeptemberI
foundmyself,onthewhole,verywell,sufferingfromnoactualillsexcepttheheat,thevermin,andweariness,forIcouldnotbealwaysreadingBoethius。
OnedayLawrencetoldmethatImightgooutofmycelltowashmyselfwhilstthebedwasbeingmadeandtheroomswept。Itookadvantageofthefavourtowalkupanddownforthetenminutestakenbytheseoperations,andasIwalkedhardtheratswerealarmedanddarednotshewthemselves。OnthesamedayLawrencegavemeanaccountofmymoney,andbroughthimselfinasmydebtortotheamountofthirtylivres,whichhowever,Icouldnotputintomypocket。Ileftthemoneyinhishands,tellinghimtolayitoutonmassesonmybehalf,feelingsurethathewouldmakequiteadifferentuseofit,andhethankedmeinatonethatpersuadedmehewouldbehisownpriest。Igavehimthemoneyeverymonth,andI
neversawapriest’sreceipt。Lawrencewaswisetocelebratethesacrificeatthetavern;themoneywasusefultosomeoneatallevents。
Ilivedfromdaytoday,persuadingmyselfeverynightthatthenextdayIshouldbeatliberty;butasIwaseachdaydeceived,IdecidedinmypoorbrainthatIshouldbesetfreewithoutfailonthe1stofOctober,onwhichdaythenewInquisitorsbegintheirtermofoffice。
Accordingtothistheory,myimprisonmentwouldlastaslongastheauthorityofthepresentInquisitors,andthuswasexplainedthefactthatIhadseennothingofthesecretary,whowouldotherwisehaveundoubtedlycometointerrogate,examine,andconvictmeofmycrimes,andfinallytoannouncemydoom。Allthisappearedtomeunanswerable,becauseitseemednatural,butitwasfallaciousundertheLeads,wherenothingisdoneafterthenaturalorder。IimaginedtheInquisitorsmusthavediscoveredmyinnocenceandthewrongtheyhaddoneme,andthattheyonlykeptmeinprisonforform’ssake,andtoprotecttheirreputefromthestainofcommittinginjustice;
henceIconcludedthattheywouldgivememyfreedomwhentheylaiddowntheirtyrannicalauthority。MymindwassocomposedandquietthatIfeltasifIcouldforgivethem,andforgetthewrongthattheyhaddoneme。"Howcantheyleavemeheretothemercyoftheirsuccessors,"Ithought,"towhomtheycannotleaveanyevidencecapableofcondemningme?"Icouldnotbelievethatmysentencehadbeenpronouncedandconfirmed,withoutmybeingtoldofit,orofthereasonsbywhichmyjudgeshadbeenactuated。IwassocertainthatIhadrightonmyside,thatIreasonedaccordingly;butthiswasnottheattitudeIshouldhaveassumedtowardsacourtwhichstandsalooffromallthecourtsintheworldforitsunboundedabsolutism。Toproveanyoneguilty,itisonlynecessaryfortheInquisitorstoproceedagainsthim;sothereisnoneedtospeaktohim,andwhenheiscondemneditwouldbeuselesstoannouncetotheprisonerhissentence,ashisconsentisnotrequired,andtheyprefertoleavethepoorwretchthefeelingofhope;andcertainly,ifheweretoldthewholeprocess,imprisonmentwouldnotbeshortenedbyanhour。
Thewisemantellsnooneofhisbusiness,andthebusinessoftheTribunalofVeniceisonlytojudgeandtodoom。Theguiltypartyisnotrequiredtohaveanyshareinthematter;heislikeanail,whichtobedrivenintoawallneedsonlytobestruck。
ToacertainextentIwasacquaintedwiththewaysoftheColossuswhichwascrushingmeunderfoot,buttherearethingsonearthwhichonecanonlytrulyunderstandbyexperience。Ifamongstmyreadersthereareanywhothinksuchlawsunjust,Iforgivethem,asIknowtheyhaveastronglikenesstoinjustice;butletmetellthemthattheyarealsonecessary,asatribunalliketheVenetiancouldnotsubsistwithoutthem。Thosewhomaintaintheselawsinfullvigouraresenators,chosenfromamongstthefittestforthatoffice,andwithareputationforhonourandvirtue。
ThelastdayofSeptemberIpassedasleeplessnight,andwasonthornstoseethedawnappear,sosurewasIthatthatdaywouldmakemefree。Thereignofthosevillainswhohadmademeacaptivedrewtoaclose;butthedawnappeared,Lawrencecameasusual,andtoldmenothingnew。ForfiveorsixdaysIhoveredbetweenrageanddespair,andthenIimaginedthatforsomereasonswhichtomewereunfathomabletheyhaddecidedtokeepmeprisonerfortheremainderofmydays。Thisawfulideaonlymademelaugh,forIknewthatitwasinmypowertoremainaslavefornolongtime,butonlytillI
shouldtakeitintomyownhandstobreakmyprison。IknewthatI
shouldescapeordie:’Deliberatamorteferocior’。
InthebeginningofNovemberIseriouslyformedtheplanofforciblyescapingfromaplacewhereIwasforciblykept。Ibegantorackmybrainstofindawayofcarryingtheideaintoexecution,andI
conceivedahundredschemes,eachonebolderthantheother,butanewplanalwaysmademegiveuptheoneIwasonthepointofaccepting。
WhileIwasimmersedinthistoilsomeseaofthought,aneventhappenedwhichbroughthometomethesadstateofmindIwasin。
Iwasstandingupinthegarretlookingtowardsthetop,andmyglancefellonthegreatbeam,notshakingbutturningonitsrightside,andthen,byslowandinterruptedmovementintheoppositedirection,turningagainandreplacingitselfinitsoriginalposition。AsIlostmybalanceatthesametime,Iknewitwastheshockofanearthquake。Lawrenceandtheguards,whojustthencameoutofmyroom,saidthattheytoo,hadfelttheearthtremble。InsuchdespairwasIthatthisincidentmademefeelajoywhichIkepttomyself,sayingnothing。Fourorfivesecondsafterthesamemovementoccurred,andIcouldnotrefrainfromsaying,"Another,OmyGod!butstronger。"
Theguards,terrifiedwithwhattheythoughttheimpiousravingsofadesperatemadman,fledinhorror。
Aftertheyweregone,asIwasponderingthematterover,IfoundthatIlookedupontheoverthrowoftheDoge’spalaceasoneoftheeventswhichmightleadtoliberty;themightypile,asitfell,mightthrowmesafeandsound,andconsequentlyfree,onSt。Mark’sPlace,orattheworstitcouldonlycrushmebeneathitsruins。
SituatedasIwas,libertyreckonsforall,andlifefornothing,orratherforverylittle。ThusinthedepthsofmysoulIbegantogrowmad。
ThisearthquakeshockwastheresultofthosewhichatthesametimedestroyedLisbon。
CHAPTERXXVII
VariousAdventures——MyCompanions——IPreparetoEscape——ChangeofCellTomakethereaderunderstandhowImanagedtoescapefromaplaceliketheLeads,Imustexplainthenatureofthelocality。
TheLeads,usedfortheconfinementofstateprisoners,areinfacttheloftsoftheducalpalace,andtaketheirnamefromthelargeplatesofleadwithwhichtheroofiscovered。Onecanonlyreachthemthroughthegatesofthepalace,theprisonbuildings,orbythebridgeofwhichIhavespokencalledtheBridgeofSighs。ItisimpossibletoreachthecellswithoutpassingthroughthehallwheretheStateInquisitorsholdtheirmeetings,andtheirsecretaryhasthesolechargeofthekey,whichheonlygivestothegaolerforashorttimeintheearlymorningwhilstheisattendingtotheprisoners。Thisisdoneatday—break,becauseotherwisetheguardsastheycameandwentwouldbeinthewayofthosewhohavetodowiththeCouncilofTen,astheCouncilmeetseverydayinahallcalledTheBussola,whichtheguardshavetocrosseverytimetheygototheLeads。
Theprisonsareundertheroofontwosidesofthepalace;threetothewest(minebeingamongthenumber)andfourtotheeast。Onthewesttherooflooksintothecourtofthepalace,andontheeaststraightontothecanalcalledRiodiPalazzo。Onthissidethecellsarewelllighted,andonecanstandupstraight,whichisnotthecaseintheprisonwhereIwas,whichwasdistinguishedbythenameof’Trave’,onaccountoftheenormousbeamwhichdeprivedmeoflight。ThefloorofmycellwasdirectlyovertheceilingoftheInquisitors’hall,wheretheycommonlymetonlyatnightafterthesittingoftheCouncilofTenofwhichthewholethreearemembers。
AsIknewmygroundandthehabitsoftheInquisitorsperfectlywell,theonlywaytoescape——theonlywayatleastwhichIdeemedlikelytosucceed——wastomakeaholeinthefloorofmycell;buttodothistoolsmustbeobtained——adifficulttaskinaplacewhereallcommunicationwiththeoutsideworldwasforbidden,whereneitherlettersnorvisitswereallowed。Tobribeaguardagooddealofmoneywouldbenecessary,andIhadnone。Andsupposingthatthegaolerandhistwoguardsallowedthemselvestobestrangled——formyhandsweremyonlyweapons——therewasalwaysathirdguardondutyatthedoorofthepassage,whichhelockedandwouldnotopentillhisfellowwhowishedtopassthroughgavehimthepassword。Inspiteofallthesedifficultiesmyonlythoughtwashowtoescape,andasBoethiusgavemenohintsonthispointIreadhimnomore,andasI
wascertainthatthedifficultywasonlytobesolvedbystressofthinkingIcenteredallmythoughtsonthisoneobject。
Ithasalwaysbeenmyopinionthatwhenamansetshimselfdeterminedlytodosomething,andthinksofnoughtbuthisdesign,hemustsucceeddespitealldifficultiesinhispath:suchanonemaymakehimselfPopeorGrandVizier,hemayoverturnanancientlineofkings——providedthatheknowshowtoseizeonhisopportunity,andbeamanofwitandpertinacity。Tosucceedonemustcountonbeingfortunateanddespiseallillsuccess,butitisamostdifficultoperation。
TowardsthemiddleofNovember,LawrencetoldmethatMesser—Grandehadaprisonerinhishandswhomthenewsecretary,Businello,hadorderedtobeplacedintheworstcell,andwhoconsequentlywasgoingtosharemine。Hetoldmethatonthesecretary’sremindinghimthatIlookeduponitasafavourtobeleftalone,heansweredthatIhadgrownwiserinthefourmonthsofmyimprisonment。Iwasnotsorrytohearthenewsorthattherewasanewsecretary。ThisM。PierreBusinellowasaworthymanwhomIknewatParis。HeafterwardswenttoLondonasambassadoroftheRepublic。
IntheafternoonIheardthenoiseofthebolts,andpresentlyLawrenceandtwoguardsenteredleadinginayoungmanwhowasweepingbitterly;andaftertakingoffhishandcuffstheyshuthimupwithme,andwentoutwithoutsayingaword。Iwaslyingonmybed,andhecouldnotseeme。Iwasamusedathisastonishment。Being,fortunatelyforhimself,sevenoreightinchesshorterthanI,hewasabletostandupright,andhebegantoinspectmyarm—chair,whichhedoubtlessthoughtwasmeantforhisownuse。GlancingattheledgeabovethegratinghesawBoethius,tookitup,openedit,andputitdownwithakindofpassion,probablybecausebeinginLatinitwasofnousetohim。Continuinghisinspectionofthecellhewenttotheleft,andgropingaboutwasmuchsurprisedtofindclothes。Heapproachedtherecess,andstretchingouthishandhetouchedme,andimmediatelybeggedmypardoninarespectfulmanner。Iaskedhimtositdownandwewerefriends。
"Whoareyou?"saidI。
"IamMaggiorin,ofVicenza。Myfather,whowasacoachman,keptmeatschooltillIwaseleven,bywhichtimeIhadlearnttoreadandwrite;Iwasafterwardsapprenticedtoabarber,whereIlearntmybusinessthoroughly。AfterthatIbecamevalettotheCountofX———。
Ihadbeenintheserviceofthenoblemanfortwoyearswhenhisdaughtercamefromtheconvent。Itwasmydutytodoherhair,andbydegreesIfellinlovewithher,andinspiredherwithareciprocalpassion。Afterhavingswornathousandtimestoexistonlyforoneanother,wegaveourselvesuptothetaskofshewingeachothermarksofouraffection,theresultofwhichwasthatthestateoftheyoungcountessdiscoveredall。Anoldanddevotedservantwasthefirsttofindoutourconnectionandtheconditionofmymistress,andshetoldherthatshefeltindutyboundtotellherfather,butmysweetheartsucceededinmakingherpromisetobesilent,sayingthatinthecourseoftheweeksheherselfwouldtellhimthroughherconfessor。Sheinformedmeofallthis,andinsteadofgoingtoconfessionwepreparedforflight。Shehadlaidhandsonagoodsumofmoneyandsomediamondswhichhadbelongedtohermother,andweweretosetoutforMilanto—night。Butto—daythecountcalledmeafterdinner,andgivingmealetter,hetoldmetostartatonceandtodeliveritwithmyownhandtothepersontowhomitwasaddressedatVenice。HespoketomesokindlyandquietlythatIhadnottheslightestsuspicionofthefateinstoreforme。Iwenttogetmycloak,saidgood—byetomylittlewife,tellingherthatIshouldsoonreturn。SeeingdeeperbelowthesurfacethanI,andperchancehavingapresentimentofmymisfortune,shewassickatheart。Icamehereinhothaste,andtookcaretodeliverthefatalletter。Theymademewaitforananswer,andinthemeantimeIwenttoaninn;butasIcameoutIwasarrestedandputintheguard—room,whereIwaskepttilltheybroughtmehere。I
suppose,sir,Imightconsidertheyoungcountessasmywife?"
"Youmakeamistake。"
"Butnature————"
"Nature,whenamanlistenstoherandnothingelse,takeshimfromonefollytoanother,tillsheputshimundertheLeads。"
"IamundertheLeads,then,amI?"
"AsIam。"
Thepooryoungmanshedsomebittertears。Hewasawell—madelad,open,honest,andamorousbeyondwords。Isecretlypardonedthecountess,andcondemnedthecountforexposinghisdaughtertosuchtemptation。Ashepherdwhoshutsupthewolfinthefoldshouldnotcomplainifhisflockbedevoured。Inallhistearsandlamentationshethoughtnotofhimselfbutalwaysofhissweetheart。Hethoughtthatthegaolerwouldreturnandbringhimsomefoodandabed;butI
undeceivedhim,andofferedhimashareofwhatIhad。Hisheart,however,wastoofullforhimtoeat。IntheeveningIgavehimmymattress,onwhichhepassedthenight,forthoughhelookedneatandcleanenoughIdidnotcaretohavehimtosleepwithme,dreadingtheresultsofalover’sdreams。Heneitherunderstoodhowwronglyhehadacted,norhowthecountwasconstrainedtopunishhimpubliclyasacloaktothehonourofhisdaughterandhishouse。
Thenextdayhewasgivenamattressandadinnertothevalueoffifteensous,whichtheTribunalhadassignedtohim,eitherasafavouroracharity,forthewordjusticewouldnotbeappropriateinspeakingofthisterriblebody。Itoldthegaolerthatmydinnerwouldsufficeforthetwoofus,andthathecouldemploytheyoungman’sallowanceinsayingmassesinhisusualmanner。Heagreedwillingly,andhavingtoldhimthathewasluckytobeinmycompany,hesaidthatwecouldwalkinthegarretforhalfanhour。Ifoundthiswalkanexcellentthingformyhealthandmyplanofescape,which,however,Icouldnotcarryoutforelevenmonthsafterwards。
Attheendofthisresortofrats,Isawanumberofoldpiecesoffurniturethrownonthegroundtotherightandleftoftwogreatchests,andinfrontofalargepileofpaperssewnupintoseparatevolumes。Ihelpedmyselftoadozenofthemforthesakeofthereading,andIfoundthemtobeaccountsoftrials,andverydiverting;forIwasallowedtoreadthesepapers,whichhadoncecontainedsuchsecrets。Ifoundsomecuriousrepliestothejudges’
questionsrespectingtheseductionofmaidens,gallantriescarriedalittletoofarbypersonsemployedingirls’schools,factsrelatingtoconfessorswhohadabusedtheirpenitents,schoolmastersconvictedofpederastywiththeirpupils,andguardianswhohadseducedtheirwards。Someofthepapersdatingtwoorthreecenturiesback,inwhichthestyleandthemannersillustratedgavemeconsiderableentertainment。AmongthepiecesoffurnitureonthefloorIsawawarming—pan,akettle,afire—shovel,apairoftongs,someoldcandle—sticks,someearthenwarepots,andevenasyringe。FromthisIconcludedthatsomeprisonerofdistinctionhadbeenallowedtomakeuseofthesearticles。Butwhatinterestedmemostwasastraightironbarasthickasmythumb,andaboutafootandahalflong。However,Ilefteverythingasitwas,asmyplanshadnotbeensufficientlyripenedbytimeformetoappropriateanyobjectinparticular。
Onedaytowardstheendofthemonthmycompanionwastakenaway,andLawrencetoldmethathehadbeencondemnedtotheprisonsknownasTheFours,whicharewithinthesamewallsastheordinaryprisons,butbelongtotheStateInquisitors。Thoseconfinedinthemhavetheprivilegeofbeingabletocallthegaolerwhentheylike。Theprisonsaregloomy,butthereisanoillampinthemidstwhichgivesthenecessarylight,andthereisnofearoffireaseverythingismadeofmarble。Iheard,alongtimeafter,thattheunfortunateMaggiorinwasthereforfiveyears,andwasafterwardssenttoCerigoforten。Idonotknowwhetherheevercamefromthere。Hehadkeptmegoodcompany,andthisIdiscoveredassoonashewasgone,forinafewdaysIbecameasmelancholyasbefore。Fortunately,Iwasstillallowedmywalkinthegarret,andIbegantoexamineitscontentswithmoreminuteness。Oneofthechestswasfulloffinepaper,piecesofcardboard,uncutpens,andclewsofpackthread;theotherwasfasteneddown。Apieceofpolishedblackmarble,aninchthick,sixincheslong,andthreebroad,attractedmyattention,andIpossessedmyselfofitwithoutknowingwhatIwasgoingtodowithit,andIsecreteditinmycell,coveringitupwithmyshirts。
AweekafterMaggiorinhadgone,LawrencetoldmethatinallprobabilityIshouldsoongetanothercompanion。ThisfellowLawrence,whoatbottomwasameregabblingfool,begantogetuneasyatmyneveraskinghimanyquestions。Thisfondnessforgossipwasnotaltogetherappropriatetohisoffice,butwhereisonetofindbeingsabsolutelyvile?Therearesuchpersons,buthappilytheyarefewandfarbetween,andarenottobesoughtforinthelowerorders。Thusmygaolerfoundhimselfunabletoholdhistongue,andthoughtthatthereasonIaskednoquestionsmustbethatIthoughthimincapableofansweringthem;andfeelinghurtatthis,andwishingtoprovetomethatImadeamistake,hebegantogossipwithoutbeingsolicited。
"Ibelieveyouwilloftenhavevisitors,"saidhe,"astheothersixcellshaveeachtwoprisoners,whoarenotlikelytobesenttotheFours。"Imadehimnoreply,buthewenton,inafewseconds,"TheysendtotheFoursallsortsofpeopleaftertheyhavebeensentenced,thoughtheyknownothingofthat。TheprisonerswhomIhavechargeofundertheLeadsarelikeyourself,personsofnote,andareonlyguiltyofdeedsofwhichtheinquisitivemustknownothing。Ifyouknew,sir,whatsortofpeoplesharedyourfate,youwouldbeastonished,It’struethatyouarecalledamanofparts;butyouwillpardonme……Youknowthatallmenofpartsaretreatedwellhere。Youtakeme,Isee。Fiftysousaday,that’ssomething。Theygivethreelivrestoacitizen,fourtoagentleman,andeighttoaforeigncount。Ioughttoknow,Ithink,aseverythinggoesthroughmyhands。"
Hethencommencedtosinghisownpraises,whichconsistedofnegativeclauses。
"I’mnothief,nortraitor,norgreedy,normalicious,norbrutal,asallmypredecessorswere,andwhenIhavedrunkapintoverandaboveIamallthebetterforit。IfmyfatherhadsentmetoschoolI
shouldhavelearnttoreadandwrite,andImightbeMesser—Grandeto—day,butthat’snotmyfault。M。AndreDiedohasahighopinionofme。Mywife,whocooksforyoueveryday,andisonlytwenty—
four,goestoseehimwhenshewill,andhewillhavehercomeinwithoutceremony,evenifhebeinbed,andthat’smorethanhe’lldoforasenator。Ipromiseyouyouwillbealwayshavingthenew—
comersinyourcell,butneverforanylengthoftime,forassoonasthesecretaryhasgotwhathewantstoknowfromthem,hesendsthemtotheirplace——totheFours,tosomefort,ortotheLevant;
andiftheybeforeignerstheyaresentacrossthefrontier,forourGovernmentdoesnotholditselfmasterofthesubjectsofotherprinces,iftheybenotinitsservice。TheclemencyoftheCourtisbeyondcompare;there’snotanotherintheworldthattreatsitsprisonerssowell。Theysayit’scrueltodisallowwritingandvisitors;butthat’sfoolish,forwhatarewritingandcompanybutwasteoftime?Youwilltellmethatyouhavenothingtodo,butwecan’tsayasmuch。"
Suchwas,almostwordforword,thefirstharanguewithwhichthefellowhonouredme,andImustsayIfounditamusing。Isawthatifthemanhadbeenlessofafoolhewouldmostcertainlyhavebeenmoreofascoundrel。
Thenextdaybroughtmeanewmessmate,whowastreatedasMaggiorinhadbeen,andIthusfounditnecessarytobuyanotherivoryspoon,forasthenewcomersweregivennothingonthefirstdayoftheirimprisonmentIhadtodoallthehonoursofthecell。
Mynewmatemademealowbow,formybeard,nowfourincheslong,wasstillmoreimposingthanmyfigure。Lawrenceoftenlentmescissorstocutmynails,buthewasforbidden,underpainofveryheavypunishment,toletmetouchmybeard。Iknewnotthereasonofthisorder,butIendedbybecomingusedtomybeardasonegetsusedtoeverything。
Thenew—comerwasamanofaboutfifty,approachingmysize,alittlebent,thin,withalargemouth,andverybadteeth。Hehadsmallgreyeyeshiddenunderthickeyebrowsofaredcolour,whichmadehimlooklikeanowl;andthispicturewassetoffbyasmallblackwig,whichexhaledadisagreeableodourofoil,andbyadressofcoarsegreycloth。Heacceptedmyofferofdinner,butwasreserved,andsaidnotawordthewholeday,andIwasalsosilent,thinkinghewouldsoonrecovertheuseofhistongue,ashedidthenextday。
Earlyinthemorninghewasgivenabedandabagfulloflinen。Thegaoleraskedhim,ashehadaskedme,whathewouldhavefordinner,andformoneytopayforit。
"Ihavenomoney。"
"What!amoneyedmanlikeyouhavenomoney?"
"Ihaven’tasou。"
"Verygood;inthatcaseIwillgetyousomearmybiscuitandwater,accordingtoinstructions。"
Hewentout,andreturneddirectlyafterwardswithapoundandahalfofbiscuit,andapitcher,whichhesetbeforetheprisoner,andthenwentaway。
LeftalonewiththisphantomIheardasigh,andmypitymademebreakthesilence。
"Don’tsigh,sir,youshallsharemydinner。ButIthinkyouhavemadeagreatmistakeincomingherewithoutmoney。"
"Ihavesome,butitdoesnotdotoletthoseharpiesknowofit:"
"Andsoyoucondemnyourselftobreadandwater。Trulyawiseproceeding!Doyouknowthereasonofyourimprisonment?"
"Yes,sir,andIwillendeavourinafewwordstoinformyouofit。"
"MynameisSqualdoNobili。Myfatherwasacountrymanwhohadmetaughtreadingandwriting,andathisdeathleftmehiscottageandthesmallpatchofgroundbelongingtoit。IlivedinFriuli,aboutaday’sjourneyfromtheMarshesofUdine。AsatorrentcalledCornooftendamagedmylittleproperty,IdeterminedtosellitandtosetupinVenice,whichIdidtenyearsago。Ibroughtwithmeeightthousandlivresinfairsequins,andknowingthatinthishappycommonwealthallmenenjoyedtheblessingsofliberty,IbelievedthatbyutilizingmycapitalImightmakealittleincome,andI
begantolendmoney,onsecurity。Relyingonmythrift,myjudgment,andmy,knowledgeoftheworld,Ichosethisbusinessinpreferencetoallothers。IrentedasmallhouseintheneighbourhoodoftheRoyalCanal,andhavingfurnisheditIlivedthereincomfortbymyself;andinthecourseoftwoyearsIfoundIhadmadeaprofitoftenthousandlivres,thoughIhadexpendedtwothousandonhouseholdexpensesasIwishedtoliveincomfort。InthisfashionIsawmyselfinafairwayofmakingarespectablefortuneintime;butone,day,havinglentaJewtwosequinsuponsomebooks,Ifoundoneamongstthemcalled"LaSagesse,"byCharron。ItwasthenIfoundouthowgoodathingitistobeabletoread,forthisbook,whichyou,sir,maynothaveread,containsallthatamanneedknow——
purginghimofalltheprejudicesofhischildhood。WithCharrongood—byetohellandalltheemptyterrorsofafuturelife;one’seyesareopened,oneknowsthewaytobliss,onebecomeswiseindeed。
Doyou,sir,getthisbook,andpaynoheedtothosefoolishpersonswhowouldtellyouthistreasureisnottobeapproached。"
Thiscuriousdiscoursemademeknowmyman。AstoCharron,IhadreadthebookthoughIdidnotknowithadbeentranslatedintoItalian。TheauthorwhowasagreatadmirerofMontaignethoughttosurpasshismodel,buttoiledinvain。Heisnotmuchreaddespitetheprohibitiontoreadhisworks,whichshouldhavegiventhemsomepopularity。HehadtheimpudencetogivehisbookthetitleofoneofSolomon’streatises——acircumstancewhichdoesnotsaymuchforhismodesty。Mycompanionwentonasfollows:
"SetfreebyCharronfromanyscruplesIstillmighthave,andfromthosefalseideassohardtoridone’sselfof,Ipushedmybusinessinsuchsort,thatattheendofsixyearsIcouldlaymyhandontenthousandsequins。Thereisnoneedforyoutobeastonishedatthat,asinthiswealthycitygambling,debauchery,andidlenesssetalltheworldawryandincontinualneedofmoney;sodothewisegatherwhatthefooldrops。
"ThreeyearsagoacertainCountSerimancameandaskedmetotakefromhimfivehundredsequins,toputtheminmybusiness,andtogivehimhalfprofits。AllheaskedforwasanobligationinwhichI
promisedtoreturnhimthewholesumondemand。AttheendofayearIsenthimseventy—fivesequins,whichmadefifteenpercent。onhismoney;hegavemeareceiptforit,butwasillpleased。Hewaswrong,forIwasinnoneedofmoney,andhadnotusedhisforbusinesspurposes。Attheendofthesecondyear,outofpuregenerosity,Isenthimthesameamount;butwecametoaquarrelandhedemandedthereturnofthefivehundredsequins。’Certainly,’I
said,’butImustdeductthehundredandfiftyyouhavealreadyreceived。’Enragedatthisheservedmewithawritforthepaymentofthewholesum。Acleverlawyerundertookmydefenceandwasabletogainmetwoyears。ThreemonthsagoIwasspokentoastoanagreement,andIrefusedtohearofit,butfearingviolenceIwenttotheAbbeJustiniani,theSpanishambassador’ssecretary,andforasmallsumheletmeahouseintheprecinctsoftheEmbassy,whereoneissafefromsurprises。IwasquitewillingtoletCountSerimanhavehismoney,butIclaimedareductionofahundredsequinsonaccountofthecostsofthelawsuit。Aweekagothelawyersonbothsidescametome。Ishewedthemapurseoftwohundredandfiftysequins,andtoldthemtheymighttakeit,butnotapennymore。
Theywentawaywithoutsayingaword,bothwearinganill—pleasedair,ofwhichItooknonotice。ThreedaysagotheAbbeJustinianitoldmethattheambassadorhadthoughtfittogivepermissiontotheStateInquisitorstosendtheirmenatoncetomyhousetomakesearchtherein。Ithoughtthethingimpossibleundertheshelterofaforeignambassador,andinsteadoftakingtheusualprecautions,I
waitedtheapproachofthemen—at—arms,onlyputtingmymoneyinaplaceofsafety。AtdaybreakMesser—Grandecametothehouse,andaskedmeforthreehundredandfiftysequins,andonmytellinghimthatIhadn’tafarthingheseizedme,andhereIam。"
Ishuddered,lessathavingsuchaninfamouscompanionthanathisevidentlyconsideringmeashisequal,forifhehadthoughtofmeinanyotherlighthewouldcertainlynothavetoldmethislongtale,doubtlessinthebeliefthatIshouldtakehispart。InallthefollyaboutCharronwithwhichhetormentedmeinthethreedaysweweretogether,IfoundbybitterexperiencethetruthoftheItalianproverb:’Guardatidacoluichenonhalettocheunlibrosolo’。ByreadingtheworkofthemisguidedpriesthehadbecomeanAtheist,andofthishemadehisboastallthedaylong。IntheafternoonLawrencecametotellhimtocomeandspeakwiththesecretary。Hedressedhimselfhastily,andinsteadofhisownshoeshetookminewithoutmyseeinghim。Hecamebackinhalfanhourintears,andtookoutofhisshoestwopursescontainingthreehundredandfiftysequins,and,thegaolergoingbefore,hewenttotakethemtothesecretary。Afewmomentsafterwardshereturned,andtakinghiscloakwentaway。Lawrencetoldmethathehadbeensetatliberty。
Ithought,andwithgoodreason,that,tomakehimacknowledgehisdebtandpayit,thesecretaryhadthreatenedhimwiththetorture;
andifitwereonlyusedinsimilarcases,I,whodetesttheprincipleoftorture,wouldbethefirsttoproclaimitsutility。
OnNewYear’sDay,1733,Ireceivedmypresents。Lawrencebroughtmeadressing—gownlinedwithfoxskin,acoverletofwaddedsilk,andabear—skinbagformetoputmylegsin,whichIwelcomedgladly,forthecoldnesswasunbearableastheheatinAugust。LawrencetoldmethatImightspendtotheamountofsixsequinsamonth,thatImighthavewhatbooksIliked,andtakeinthenewspaper,andthatthispresentcamefromM。deBragadin。Iaskedhimforapencil,andI
wroteuponascrapofpaper:"IamgratefulforthekindnessoftheTribunalandthegoodnessofM。deBragadin。"
Themanwhowouldknowwhatweremyfeelingsatallthismusthavebeeninasimilarsituationtomyown。InthefirstgushoffeelingIforgavemyoppressors,andwasonthepointofgivinguptheideaofescape;soeasilyshallyoumoveamanthatyouhavebroughtlowandoverwhelmedwithmisfortune。LawrencetoldmethatM。deBragadinhadcomebeforethethreeInquisitors,andthatonhisknees,andwithtearsinhiseyes,hehadentreatedthemtolethimgivemethismarkofhisaffectionifIwerestillinthelandoftheliving;theInquisitorsweremoved,andwerenotabletorefusehisrequest。
IwrotedownwithoutdelaythenamesofthebooksIwanted。
Onefinemorning,asIwaswalkinginthegarret,myeyesfellontheironbarIhavementioned,andIsawthatitmightveryeasilybemadeintoadefensiveoroffensiveweapon。Itookpossessionofit,andhavinghiddenitundermydressing—gownIconveyeditintomycell。AssoonasIwasalone,Itookthepieceofblackmarble,andIfoundthatIhadtomyhandanexcellentwhetstone;forbyrubbingthebarwiththestoneIobtainedaverygoodedge。
MyinterestrousedinthisworkinwhichIwasbutanapprentice,andinthefashioninwhichIseemedlikelytobecomepossessedofaninstrumenttotallyprohibitedundertheLeads,impelled,perhaps,alsobymyvanitytomakeaweaponwithoutanyofthenecessarytools,andincitedbymyverydifficulties(forIworkedawaytilldarkwithoutanythingtoholdmywhetstoneexceptmylefthand,andwithoutadropofoiltosoftentheiron),Imadeupmymindtopersevereinmydifficulttask。Mysalivaservedmeinthesteadofoil,andItoiledeightdaystoproduceeightedgesterminatinginasharppoint,theedgesbeinganinchandahalfinlength。Mybarthussharpenedformedaneight—sideddagger,andwouldhavedonejusticetoafirst—ratecutler。NoonecanimaginethetoilandtroubleIhadtobear,northepatiencerequiredtofinishthisdifficulttaskwithoutanyothertoolsthanaloosepieceofstone。
Iputmyself,infact,toakindoftortureunknowntothetyrantsofallages。MyrightarmhadbecomesostiffthatIcouldhardlymoveit;thepalmofmyhandwascoveredwithalargescar,theresultofthenumerousblisterscausedbythehardnessandthelengthofthework。NoonewouldguessthesufferingsIunderwenttobringmyworktocompletion。
ProudofwhatIhaddone,withoutthinkingwhatuseIcouldmakeofmyweapon,myfirstcarewastohideitinsuchamanneraswoulddefyaminutesearch。Afterthinkingoverathousandplans,toallofwhichtherewassomeobjection,Icastmyeyesonmyarm—chair,andthereIcontrivedtohideitsoastobesecurefromallsuspicion。ThusdidProvidenceaidmetocontriveawonderfulandalmostinconceivableplanofescape。Iconfesstoafeelingofvanity,notbecauseIeventuallysucceeded——forIowedsomethingtogoodluck——butbecauseIwasbraveenoughtoundertakesuchaschemeinspiteofthedifficultieswhichmighthaveruinedmyplansandpreventedmyeverattainingliberty。
AfterthinkingforthreeorfourdaysastowhatIshoulddowiththebarIhadmadeintoanedgedtool,asthickasawalking—stickandtwentyincheslong,Ideterminedthatthebestplanwouldbetomakeaholeinthefloorundermybed。
IwassurethattheroombelowmycellwasnootherthantheoneinwhichIhadseenM。Cavalli。Iknewthatthisroomwasopenedeverymorning,andIfeltpersuadedthat,afterIhadmademyhole,Icouldeasilyletmyselfdownwithmysheets,whichIwouldmakeintoaropeandfastentomybed。Oncethere,Iwouldhideunderthetableofthecourt,andinthemorning,whenthedoorwasopened,Icouldescapeandgettoaplaceofsafetybeforeanyonecouldfollowme。I
thoughtitpossiblethatasentrymightbeplacedinthehall,butmyshortpikeoughttosoonridmeofhim。Thefloormightbeofdoubleorevenoftriplethickness,andthisthoughtpuzzledme;forinthatcasehowwasItopreventtheguardsweepingouttheroomthroughoutthetwomonthsmyworkmightlast。IfIforbadethemtodoso,I
mightrousesuspicion;allthemoreas,tofreemyselfofthefleas,Ihadrequestedthemtosweepoutthecelleveryday,andinsweepingtheywouldsoondiscoverwhatIwasabout。Imustfindsomewayoutofthisdifficulty。
Ibeganbyforbiddingthemtosweep,withoutgivinganyreason。A
weekafter,LawrenceaskedmewhyIdidso。Itoldhimbecauseofthedustwhichmightmakemecoughviolentlyandgivemesomefatalinjury。
"Iwillmakethemwaterthefloor,"saidhe。
"Thatwouldbeworse,Lawrence,forthedampmightcauseaplethora。"
InthismannerIobtainedaweek’srespite,butattheendofthat。
timetheloutgaveordersthatmycellshouldbeswept。Hehadthebedcarriedoutintothegarret,andonpretenceofhavingthesweepingdonewithgreatercare,helightedacandle。Thisletmeknowthattherascalwassuspiciousofsomething;butIwascraftyenoughtotakenonoticeofhim,andsofarfromgivingupmyplea,I
onlythoughthowIcouldputitongoodtrain。NextmorningI
prickedmyfingerandcoveredmyhandkerchiefwiththeblood,andthenawaitedLawrenceinbed。AssoonashecameItoldhimthatI
hadcoughedsoviolentlyastobreakablood—vessel,whichhadmademebringupallthebloodhesaw。"Getmeadoctor。"Thedoctorcame,orderedmetobebled,andwrotemeaprescription。ItoldhimitwasLawrence’sfault,ashehadpersistedinhavingtheroomswept。Thedoctorblamedhimfordoingso,andjustasifIhadaskedhimhetoldusofayoungmanwhohaddiedfromthesamecause,andsaidthattherewasnothingmoredangerousthanbreathingindust。Lawrencecalledallthegodstowitnessthathehadonlyhadtheroomsweptformysake,andpromiseditshouldnothappenagain。
Ilaughedtomyself,forthedoctorcouldnothaveplayedhispartbetterifIhadgivenhimtheword。Theguardswhowerethereweredelighted,andsaidtheywouldtakecareonlytosweepthecellsofthoseprisonerswhohadangeredthem。
Whenthedoctorwasgone,Lawrencebeggedmypardon,andassuredmethatalltheotherprisonerswereingoodhealthalthoughtheircellsweresweptoutregularly。
"Butwhatthedoctorsaysisworthconsidering,"saidhe,"andI
shalltellthemallaboutit,forIlookuponthemasmychildren。"
Theblood—lettingdidmegood,asitmademesleep,andrelievedmeofthespasmswithwhichIwassometimestroubled。Ihadregainedmyappetiteandwasgettingbackmystrengtheveryday,butthetimetosetaboutmyworkwasnotyetcome;itwasstilltoocold,andI
couldnotholdthebarforanylengthoftimewithoutmyhandbecomingstiff。Myschemerequiredmuchthought。IhadtoexerciseboldnessandforesighttoridmyselfoftroubleswhichchancemightbringtopassorwhichIcouldforesee。ThesituationofamanwhohadtoactasIhad,isanunhappyone,butinriskingallforallhalfitsbitternessvanishes。
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