AsIhadnothingparticulartodo,IwenttoaFrenchbooksellerinwhoseshopImadetheacquaintanceofawittyhunchback,andImustsaythatahunchbackwithoutwitisaragaavis;Ihavefounditsoinallcountries。Ofcourseitisnotwitwhichgivesthehump,for,thankGod,allwittymenarenothumpbacked,butwemaywellsaythatasageneralrulethehumpgiveswit,fortheverysmallnumberofhunchbackswhohavelittleornowitonlyconfirmstherule:TheoneIwasalludingtojustnowwascalledDubois—Chateleraux。Hewasaskilfulengraver,anddirectoroftheMintofParmafortheInfante,althoughthatprincecouldnotboastofsuchaninstitution。
Ispentanhourwiththewittyhunchback,whoshewedmeseveralofhisengravings,andIreturnedtothehotelwhereIfoundtheHungarianwaitingtoseeHenriette。Hedidnotknowthatshewouldthatmorningreceiveusintheattireofhersex。Thedoorwasthrownopen,andabeautiful,charmingwomanmetuswithacourtesyfullofgrace,whichnolongerremindedusofthestiffnessorofthetoogreatfreedomwhichbelongtothemilitarycostume。Hersuddenappearancecertainlyastonishedus,andwedidnotknowwhattosayorwhattodo。Sheinvitedustobeseated,lookedatthecaptaininafriendlymanner,andpressedmyhandwiththewarmestaffection,butwithoutgivingwayanymoretothatoutwardfamiliaritywhichayoungofficercanassume,butwhichdoesnotsuitawell—educatedlady。Hernobleandmodestbearingsooncompelledmetoputmyselfinunisonwithher,andIdidsowithoutdifficulty,forshewasnotactingapart,andthewayinwhichshehadresumedhernaturalcharactermadeiteasyformetofollowheronthatground。
Iwasgazingatherwithadmiration,and,urgedbyafeelingwhichI
didnottaketimetoanalyze,Itookherhandtokissitwithrespect,but,withoutgivingmeanopportunityofraisingittomylips,sheofferedmeherlovelymouth。Neverdidakisstastesodelicious。
"AmInotthenalwaysthesame?"saidshetome,withdeepfeeling。
"No,heavenlycreature,anditissotruethatyouarenolongerthesameinmyeyesthatIcouldnotnowuseanyfamiliaritytowardsyou。
Youarenolongerthewitty,freeyoungofficerwhotoldMadameQueriniaboutthegameofPharaoh,endaboutthedepositsmadetoyourbankbythecaptaininsoniggardlyamannerthattheywerehardlyworthmentioning。"
"Itisverytruethat,wearingthecostumeofmysex,Ishouldneverdaretouttersuchwords。Yet,dearestfriend,itdoesnotpreventmybeingyourHenriette——thatHenriettewhohasinherlifebeenguiltyofthreeescapades,thelastofwhichwouldhaveutterlyruinedmeifithadnotbeenforyou,butwhichIcalladelightfulerror,sinceithasbeenthecauseofmyknowingyou。"
ThosewordsmovedmesodeeplythatIwasonthepointofthrowingmyselfatherfeet,toentreathertoforgivemefornothavingshewnhermorerespect,butHenriette,whosawthestateinwhichIwas,andwhowantedtoputanendtothepatheticscene,begantoshakeourpoorcaptain,whosatasmotionlessasastatue,andasifhehadbeenpetrified。Hefeltashamedathavingtreatedsuchawomanasanadventuress,forheknewthatwhathenowsawwasnotanillusion。
Hekeptlookingatherwithgreatconfusion,andbowingmostrespectfully,asifhewantedtoatoneforhispastconducttowardsher。AsforHenriette,sheseemedtosaytohim,butwithouttheshadowofareproach;
"Iamgladthatyouthinkmeworthmorethantensequins。"
Wesatdowntodinner,andfromthatmomentshedidthehonoursofthetablewiththeperfecteaseofapersonwhoisaccustomedtofulfilthatdifficultduty。Shetreatedmelikeabelovedhusband,andthecaptainlikearespectedfriend。ThepoorHungarianbeggedmetotellherthatifhehadseenher,asshewasnow,inCivitaVecchia,whenshecameoutofthetartan,heshouldneverhavedreamedofdispatchinghisciceronetoherroom。
"Oh!tellhimthatIdonotdoubtit。Butisitnotstrangethatapoorlittlefemaledressshouldcommandmorerespectthanthegarbofanofficer?"
"Praydonotabusetheofficer’scostume,foritistoitthatIamindebtedformyhappiness。"
"Yes,"shesaid,withalovingsmile,"asIoweminetothesbirriofCesena。"
Weremainedforalongtimeatthetable,andourdelightfulconversationturneduponnoothertopicthanourmutualfelicity。
Ifithadnotbeenfortheuneasinessofthepoorcaptain,whichatlaststruckus,weshouldneverhaveputastopeithertothedinnerorto,ourcharmingprattle。
CHAPTERII
IEngageaBoxattheOpera,inSpiteofHenriette’sReluctance——
M。DuboisPaysUsaVisitandDineswithUs;MyDarlingPlaysHimaTrick——HenrietteArguesonHappiness——WeCallonDubois,andMyWifeDisplaysHerMarvellousTalent——M。DutillotTheCourtgivesaSplendidEntertainmentintheDucalGardens——AFatalMeeting——IHaveanInterviewwithM。D’Antoine,theFavouriteoftheInfanteofSpainThehappinessIwasenjoyingwastoocompletetolastlong。Iwasfatedtoloseit,butImustnotanticipateevents。MadamedeFrance,wifeoftheInfanteDonPhilip,havingarrivedinParma,theoperahousewasopened,andIengagedaprivatebox,tellingHenriettethatIintendedtotakehertothetheatreeverynight。
Shehadseveraltimesconfessedthatshehadagreatpassionformusic,andIhadnodoubtthatshewouldbepleasedwithmyproposal。
ShehadneveryetseenanItalianopera,andIfeltcertainthatshewishedtoascertainwhethertheItalianmusicdeserveditsuniversalfame。ButIwasindeedsurprisedwhensheexclaimed,"What,dearest!Youwishtogoeveryeveningtotheopera?"
"Ithink,mylove,that,ifwedidnotgo,weshouldgivesomeexcuseforscandal—mongerstogossip。Yet,shouldyounotlikeit,youknowthatthereisnoneedforustogo。Donotthinkofme,forIpreferourpleasantchatinthisroomtotheheavenlyconcertoftheseraphs。"
"Iampassionatelyfondofmusic,darling,butIcannothelptremblingattheideaofgoingout。"
"Ifyoutremble,Imustshudder,butweoughttogototheoperaorleaveParma。LetusgotoLondonortoanyotherplace。Giveyourorders,Iamreadytodoanythingyoulike。"
"Well,takeaprivateboxaslittleexposedaspossible。"
"Howkindyouare!"
TheboxIhadengagedwasinthesecondtier,butthetheatrebeingsmallitwasdifficultforaprettywomantoescapeobservation。
Itoldherso。
"Idonotthinkthereisanydanger,"sheanswered;"forIhavenotseenthenameofanypersonofmyacquaintanceinthelistofforeignerswhichyougavemetoread。"
ThusdidHenriettegototheopera。Ihadtakencarethatourboxshouldnotbelightedup。Itwasanopera—buffa,themusicofBurellanowasexcellent,andthesingerswereverygood。
Henriettemadenouseofheropera—glassexcepttolookonthestage,andnobodypaidanyattentiontous。Asshehadbeengreatlypleasedwiththefinaleofthesecondact,Ipromisedtogetitforher,andIaskedDuboistoprocureitforme。Thinkingthatshecouldplaytheharpsichord,Iofferedtogetone,butshetoldmethatshehadnevertouchedthatinstrument。
OnthenightofthefourthorfifthperformanceM。Duboiscametoourbox,andasIdidnotwishtointroducehimtomyfriend,IonlyaskedwhatIcoulddoforhim。HethenhandedmethemusicIhadbeggedhimtopurchaseforme,andIpaidhimwhatithadcost,offeringhimmybestthanks。Aswewerejustoppositetheducalbox,Iaskedhim,forthesakeofsayingsomething,whetherhehadengravedtheportraitsoftheirhighnesses。Heansweredthathehadalreadyengravedtwomedals,andIgavehimanorderforboth,ingold。Hepromisedtoletmehavethem,andleftthebox。Henriettehadnotevenlookedathim,andthatwasaccordingtoallestablishedrules,asIhadnotintroducedhim,butthenextmorninghewasannouncedaswewereatdinner。M。delaHaye,whowasdiningwithus,complimentedusuponhavingmadetheacquaintanceofDubois,andintroducedhimtohispupilthemomenthecameintotheroom。ItwasthenrightforHenriettetowelcomehim,whichshedidmostgracefully。
Aftershehadthankedhimforthe’partizione’,shebeggedhewouldgethersomeothermusic,andtheartistacceptedherrequestasafavourgrantedtohim。
"Sir,"saidDuboistome,"Ihavetakenthelibertyofbringingthemedalsyouwishedtohave;heretheyare。"
OnoneweretheportraitsoftheInfanteandhiswife,ontheotherwasengravedonlytheheadofDonPhilip。Theywerebothbeautifullyengraved,andweexpressedourjustadmiration。"Theworkmanshipisbeyondallprice,"saidHenriette,"butthegoldcanbebarteredforothergold。""Madam,"answeredthemodestartist,"themedalsweightsixteensequins。"Shegavehimtheamountimmediately,andinvitedhimtocallagainatdinner—time。Coffeewasjustbroughtinatthatmoment,andsheaskedhimtotakeitwithus。Beforesweeteninghiscup,sheenquiredwhetherhelikedhiscoffeeverysweet。
"Yourtaste,madam,"answeredthehunchback,gallantly,"issuretobemine。"
"ThenyouhaveguessedthatIalwaysdrinkcoffeewithoutsugar。I
amgladwehavethattasteincommon。"
Andshegracefullyofferedhimthecupofcoffeewithoutsugar。ShethenhelpedDelaHayeandme,notforgettingtoputplentyofsugarinourcups,andshepouredoutoneforherselfexactlyliketheoneshehandedtoDubois。Itwasmuchadoformenottolaugh,formymischievousFrench—woman,wholikedhercoffeeintheParisianfashion,thatistosayverysweet,wassippingthebitterbeveragewithanairofdelightwhichcompelledthedirectoroftheMinttosmileundertheinfliction。Butthecunninghunchbackwasevenwithher;acceptingthepenaltyofhisfoolishcompliment,andpraisingthegoodqualityofthecoffee,heboldlydeclaredthatitwastheonlywaytotastethedeliciousaromaofthepreciousberry。
WhenDuboisandDelaHayehadleftus,webothlaughedatthetrick。
"But,"saidItoHenriette,"youwillbethefirstvictimofyourmischief,forwheneverhedineswithus,youmustkeepupthejoke,inordernottobetrayyourself。"
"Oh!Icaneasilycontrivetodrinkmycoffeewellsweetened,andtomakehimdrainthebittercup。"
Attheendofonemonth,HenriettecouldspeakItalianfluently,anditwasowingmoretotheconstantpracticeshehadeverydaywithmycousinJeanneton,whoactedashermaid,thantothelessonsofProfessordelaHaye。Thelessonsonlytaughthertherules,andpracticeisnecessarytoacquirealanguage。Ihaveexperienceditmyself。IlearnedmoreFrenchduringthetooshortperiodthatI
spentsohappilywithmycharmingHenriettethaninallthelessonsI
hadtakenfromDalacqua。
Wehadattendedtheoperatwentytimeswithoutmakinganyacquaintance,andourlifewasindeedsupremelyhappy。IneverwentoutwithoutHenriette,andalwaysinacarriage;weneverreceivedanyone,andnobodyknewus。Duboiswastheonlyperson,sincethedepartureofthegoodHungarian,whosometimesdinedwithus;IdonotreckonDelaHaye,whowasadailyguestatourtable。Duboisfeltgreatcuriosityaboutus,buthewascunninganddidnotshewhiscuriosity;wewerereservedwithoutaffectation,andhisinquisitivenesswasatfault。OnedayhementionedtousthatthecourtoftheInfanteofParmawasverybrilliantsincethearrivalofMadamedeFrance,andthatthereweremanyforeignersofbothsexesinthecity。Then,turningtowardsHenriette,hesaidtoher;
"Mostoftheforeignladieswhomwehavehereareunknowntous。"
"Verylikely,manyofthemwouldnotshewthemselvesiftheywereknown。"
"Verylikely,madam,asyousay,butIcanassureyouthat,eveniftheirbeautyandtherichnessoftheirtoiletmadethemconspicuous,oursovereignswishforfreedom。Istillhope,madam,thatweshallhavethehappinessofseeingyouatthecourtoftheduke。"
"Idonotthinkso,for,inmyopinion,itissuperlativelyridiculousforaladytogotothecourtwithoutbeingpresented,particularlyifshehasarighttobeso。"
Thelastwords,onwhichHenriettehadlaidalittlemorestressthanuponthefirstpartofheranswer,struckourlittlehunchbackdumb,andmyfriend,improvingheropportunity,changedthesubjectofconversation。
Whenhehadgoneweenjoyedthecheckshehadthusgiventotheinquisitivenessofourguest,butItoldHenriettethat,ingoodconscience,sheoughttoforgiveallthosewhomsherenderedcurious,because……shecutmywordsshortbycoveringmewithlovingkisses。
Thussupremelyhappy,andfindinginoneanotherconstantsatisfaction,wewouldlaughatthosemorosephilosopherswhodenythatcompletehappinesscanbefoundonearth。
"Whatdotheymean,darling——thosecrazyfools——bysayingthathappinessisnotlasting,andhowdotheyunderstandthatword?Iftheymeaneverlasting,immortal,unintermitting,ofcoursetheyareright,butthelifeofmannotbeingsuch,happiness,asanaturalconsequence,cannotbesucheither。Otherwise,everyhappinessislastingfortheveryreasonthatitdoesexist,andtobelastingitrequiresonlytoexist。Butifbycompletefelicitytheyunderstandaseriesofvariedandnever—interruptedpleasures,theyarewrong,because,byallowingaftereachpleasurethecalmwhichoughttofollowtheenjoymentofit,wehavetimetorealizehappinessinitsreality。Inotherwordsthosenecessaryperiodsofreposeareasourceoftrueenjoyment,because,thankstothem,weenjoythedelightofrecollectionwhichincreasestwofoldtherealityofhappiness。Mancanbehappyonlywheninhisownmindherealizeshishappiness,andcalmisnecessarytogivefullplaytohismind;
thereforewithoutcalmmanwouldtrulyneverbecompletelyhappy,andpleasure,inordertobefelt,mustceasetobeactive。Thenwhatdotheymeanbythatwordlasting?
"Everydaywereachamomentwhenwelongforsleep,and,althoughitbetheverylikenessofnon—existence,cananyonedenythatsleepisapleasure?No,atleastitseemstomethatitcannotbedeniedwithconsistency,for,themomentitcomestous,wegiveitthepreferenceoverallotherpleasures,andwearegratefultoitonlyafterithasleftus。
"Thosewhosaythatnoonecanbehappythroughoutlifespeaklikewisefrivolously。Philosophyteachesthesecretofsecuringthathappiness,providedoneisfreefrombodilysufferings。Afelicitywhichwouldthuslastthroughoutlifecouldbecomparedtoanosegayformedofathousandflowerssobeautifully,soskillfullyblendedtogether,thatitwouldlookonesingleflower。Whyshoulditbeimpossibleforustospendherethewholeofourlifeaswehavespentthelastmonth,alwaysingoodhealth,alwayslovingoneanother,withouteverfeelinganyotherwantoranyweariness?Then,tocrownthathappiness,whichwouldcertainlybeimmense,allthatwouldbewantedwouldbetodietogether,inanadvancedage,speakingtothelastmomentofourpleasantrecollections。Surelythatfelicitywouldhavebeenlasting。Deathwouldnotinterruptit,fordeathwouldendit。Wecouldnot,eventhen,supposeourselvesunhappyunlesswedreadedunhappinessafterdeath,andsuchanideastrikesmeasabsurd,foritisacontradictionoftheideaofanalmightyandfatherlytenderness。"
ItwasthusthatmybelovedHenriettewouldoftenmakemespenddelightfulhours,talkingphilosophicsentiment。HerlogicwasbetterthanthatofCiceroinhisTusculanDisputations,butsheadmittedthatsuchlastingfelicitycouldexistonlybetweentwobeingswholivedtogether,andlovedeachotherwithconstantaffection,healthyinmindandinbody,enlightened,sufficientlyrich,similarintastes,indisposition,andintemperament。Happyarethoseloverswho,whentheirsensesrequirerest,canfallbackupontheintellectualenjoymentsaffordedbythemind!Sweetsleepthencomes,andlastsuntilthebodyhasrecovereditsgeneralharmony。Onawaking,thesensesareagainactiveandalwaysreadytoresumetheiraction。
Theconditionsofexistenceareexactlythesameformanasfortheuniverse,Imightalmostsaythatbetweenthemthereisperfectidentity,forifwetaketheuniverseaway,mankindnolongerexists,andifwetakemankindaway,thereisnolongeranuniverse;whocouldrealizetheideaoftheexistenceofinorganicmatter?Now,withoutthatidea,’nihilest’,sincetheideaistheessenceofeverything,andsincemanalonehasideas。Besides,ifweabstractthespecies,wecannolongerimaginetheexistenceofmatter,andviceversa。
IderivedfromHenrietteasgreathappinessasthatcharmingwomanderivedfromme。Welovedoneanotherwithallthestrengthofourfaculties,andwewereeverythingtoeachother。ShewouldoftenrepeatthoseprettylinesofthegoodLa,Fontaine:
’Soyez—vousl’unal’autreunmondetoujoursbeau,Toujoursdivers,toujoursnouveau;
Tenez—vouslieudetout;comptezpourrienlereste。’
Andwedidnotfailtoputtheadviceintopractice,forneverdidaminuteofennuiorofweariness,neverdidtheslightesttrouble,disturbourbliss。
Thedayafterthecloseoftheopera,Dubois,whowasdiningwithus,saidthatonthefollowingdayhewasentertainingthetwofirstartists,’primocantatore’and’primacantatrice’,andaddedthat,ifwelikedtocome,wewouldhearsomeoftheirbestpieces,whichtheyweretosinginaloftyhallofhiscountry—houseparticularlyadaptedtothedisplayofthehumanvoice。Henriettethankedhimwarmly,butshesaidthat,herhealthbeingverydelicate,shecouldnotengageherselfbeforehand,andshespokeofotherthings。
Whenwewerealone,IaskedherwhyshehadrefusedthepleasureofferedbyDubois。
"Ishouldaccepthisinvitation,"sheanswered,"andwithdelight,ifIwerenotafraidofmeetingathishousesomepersonwhomightknowme,andwoulddestroythehappinessIamnowenjoyingwithyou。"
"Ifyouhaveanyfreshmotivefordreadingsuchanoccurrence,youarequiteright,butifitisonlyavague,groundlessfear,mylove,whyshouldyoudepriveyourselfofarealandinnocentpleasure?IfyouknewhowpleasedIamwhenIseeyouenjoyyourself,andparticularlywhenIwitnessyourecstacyinlisteningtofinemusic!"
"Well,darling,Idonotwanttoshewmyselflessbravethanyou。Wewillgoimmediatelyafterdinner。Theartistswillnotsingbefore。
Besides,ashedoesnotexpectus,heisnotlikelytohaveinvitedanypersoncurioustospeaktome。Wewillgowithoutgivinghimnoticeofourcoming,withoutbeingexpected,andasifwewantedtopayhimafriendlyvisit。Hetoldusthathewouldbeathiscountry—house,andCaudagnaknowswhereitis。"
Herreasonswereamixtureofprudenceandoflove,twofeelingswhichareseldomblendedtogether。Myanswerwastokissherwithasmuchadmirationastenderness,andthenextdayatfouro’clockintheafternoonwepaidourvisittoM。Dubois。Weweremuchsurprised,forwefoundhimalonewithaveryprettygirl,whomhepresentedtousashisniece。
"Iamdelightedtoseeyou,"hesaid,"butasIdidnotexpecttoseeyouIalteredmyarrangements,andinsteadofthedinnerIhadintendedtogiveIhaveinvitedmyfriendstosupper。Ihopeyouwillnotrefusemethehonourofyourcompany。Thetwovirtuosiwillsoonbehere。"
Wewerecompelledtoaccepthisinvitation。
"Willtherebemanyguests?"Ienquired。
"Youwillfindyourselvesinthemidstofpeopleworthyofyou,"heanswered,triumphantly。"IamonlysorrythatIhavenotinvitedanyladies。"
Thispoliteremark,whichwasintendedforHenriette,madeherdrophimacurtsy,whichsheaccompaniedwithasmile。Iwaspleasedtoreadcontentmentonhercountenance,but,alas!shewasconcealingthepainfulanxietywhichshefeltacutely。Hernoblemindrefusedtoshewanyuneasiness,andIcouldnotguessherinmostthoughtsbecauseIhadnoideathatshehadanythingtofear。
IshouldhavethoughtandacteddifferentlyifIhadknownallherhistory。InsteadofremaininginParmaIshouldhavegonewithhertoLondon,andIknownowthatshewouldhavebeendelightedtogothere。
Thetwoartistsarrivedsoonafterwards;theywerethe’primocantatore’Laschi,andthe’primadonna’Baglioni,thenaveryprettywoman。Theotherguestssoonfollowed;allofthemwereFrenchmenandSpaniardsofacertainage。Nointroductionstookplace,andI
readthetactofthewittyhunchbackintheomission,butasalltheguestsweremenusedtothemannersofthecourt,thatneglectofetiquettedidnotpreventthemfrompayingeveryhonourtomylovelyfriend,whoreceivedtheircomplimentswiththateaseandgoodbreedingwhichareknownonlyinFrance,andeventhereonlyinthehighestsociety,withtheexception,however,ofafewFrenchprovincesinwhichthenobility,wronglycalledgoodsociety,shewrathertooopenlythehaughtinesswhichischaracteristicofthatclass。
Theconcertbeganbyamagnificentsymphony,afterwhichLaschiandBaglionisangaduetwithgreattalentandmuchtaste。TheywerefollowedbyapupilofthecelebratedVandini,whoplayedaconcertoonthevioloncello,andwaswarmlyapplauded。
TheapplausehadnotyetceasedwhenHenriette,leavingherseat,wentuptotheyoungartist,andtoldhim,withmodestconfidence,asshetookthevioloncellofromhim,thatshecouldbringoutthebeautifultoneoftheinstrumentstillbetter。Iwasstruckwithamazement。Shetooktheyoungman’sseat,placedthevioloncellobetweenherknees,andbeggedtheleaderoftheorchestratobegintheconcertoagain。Thedeepestsilenceprevailed。Iwastremblingallover,andalmostfainting。FortunatelyeverylookwasfixeduponHenriette,andnobodythoughtofme。Norwasshelookingtowardsme,shewouldnothavethenventuredevenoneglance,forshewouldhavelostcourage,ifshehadraisedherbeautifuleyestomyface。
However,notseeingherdisposingherselftoplay,Iwasbeginningtoimaginethatshehadonlybeenindulginginajest,whenshesuddenlymadethestringsresound。MyheartwasbeatingwithsuchforcethatIthoughtIshoulddropdowndead。
Butletthereaderimaginemysituationwhen,theconcertobeingover,well—meritedapplauseburstfromeverypartoftheroom!Therapidchangefromextremefeartoexcessivepleasurebroughtonanexcitementwhichwaslikeaviolentfever。TheapplausedidnotseemtohaveanyeffectuponHenriette,who,withoutraisinghereyesfromthenoteswhichshesawforthefirsttime,playedsixpieceswiththegreatestperfection。Assherosefromherseat,shedidnotthanktheguestsfortheirapplause,but,addressingtheyoungartistwithaffability,shetoldhim,withasweetsmile,thatshehadneverplayedonafinerinstrument。Then,curtsyingtotheaudience,shesaid,"Ientreatyourforgivenessforamovementofvanitywhichhasmademeencroachonyourpatienceforhalfanhour。"
Thenobilityandgraceofthisremarkcompletelyupsetme,andIranouttoweeplikeachild,inthegardenwherenoonecouldseeme。
"Whoisshe,thisHenriette?"Isaidtomyself,myheartbeating,andmyeyesswimmingwithtearsofemotion,"whatisthistreasureIhaveinmypossession?"
MyhappinesswassoimmensethatIfeltmyselfunworthyofit。
Lostinthesethoughtswhichenhancedthepleasureofanytears,I
shouldhavestayedforalongtuneinthegardenifDuboishadnotcomeouttolookforme。Hefeltanxiousaboutme,owingtomysuddendisappearance,andIquietedhimbysayingthataslightgiddinesshadcompelledmetocomeouttobreathethefreshair。
Beforere—enteringtheroom,Ihadtimetodrymytears,butmyeyelidswerestillred。Henriette,however,wastheonlyonetotakenoticeofit,andshesaidtome,"Iknow,mydarling,whyyouwentintothegarden"
Sheknewmesowellthatshecouldeasilyguesstheimpressionmadeonmyheartbytheevening’soccurrence。
Duboishadinvitedthemostamiablenoblemenofthecourt,andhissupperwasdaintyandwellarranged。IwasseatedoppositeHenriettewhowas,asamatterofcourse,monopolizingthegeneralattention,butshewouldhavemetwiththesamesuccessifshehadbeensurroundedbyacircleofladieswhomshewouldcertainlyhavethrownintotheshadebyherbeauty,herwit,andthedistinctionofhermanners。Shewasthecharmofthatsupperbytheanimationsheimpartedtotheconversation。M。Duboissaidnothing,buthewasproudtohavesuchalovelyguestinhishouse。Shecontrivedtosayafewgraciouswordstoeveryone,andwasshrewdenoughnevertouttersomethingwittywithoutmakingmetakeashareinit。Onmyside,Iopenlyshewedmysubmissiveness,mydeference,andmyrespectforthatdivinity,butitwasallinvain。ShewantedeverybodytoknowthatIwasherlordandmaster。Shemighthavebeentakenformywife,butmybehaviourtoherrenderedsuchasuppositionimprobable。
TheconversationhavingfallenontherespectivemeritsoftheFrenchandSpanishnations,DuboiswasfoolishenoughtoaskHenriettetowhichshegavepreference。
Itwouldhavebeendifficulttoaskamoreindiscreetquestion,consideringthatthecompanywascomposedalmostentirelyofFrenchmenandSpaniardsinaboutequalproportion。YetmyHenrietteturnedthedifficultysocleverlythattheFrenchmenwouldhavelikedtobeSpaniards,and’viceversa’。Dubois,nothingdaunted,beggedhertosaywhatshethoughtoftheItalians。Thequestionmademetremble。AcertainM。delaCombe,whowasseatednearme,shookhisheadintokenofdisapprobation,butHenriettedidnottrytoeludethequestion。
"WhatcanIsayabouttheItalians,"sheanswered,"Iknowonlyone?
IfIamtojudgethemallfromthatonemyjudgmentmustcertainlybemostfavourabletothem,butonesingleexampleisnotsufficienttoestablishtherule。"
Itwasimpossibletogiveabetteranswer,butasmyreadersmaywellimagine,Ididnotappeartohaveheardit,andbeinganxioustopreventanymoreindiscreetquestionsfromDuboisIturnedtheconversationintoadifferentchannel。
Thesubjectofmusicwasdiscussed,andaSpaniardaskedHenriettewhethershecouldplayanyotherinstrumentbesidesthevioloncello。
"No,"sheanswered,"Ineverfeltanyinclinationforanyother。I
learnedthevioloncelloattheconventtopleasemymother,whocanplayitprettywell,andwithoutanorderfrommyfather,sanctionedbythebishop,theabbesswouldneverhavegivenmepermissiontopractiseit。"
"Whatobjectioncouldtheabbessmake?"
"ThatdevoutspouseofourLordpretendedthatIcouldnotplaythatinstrumentwithoutassuminganindecentposition。"
AtthistheSpanishguestsbittheirlips,buttheFrenchmenlaughedheartily,anddidnotsparetheirepigramsagainsttheover—
particularabbess。
Afterashortsilence,Henrietterose,andweallfollowedherexample。Itwasthesignalforbreakinguptheparty,andwesoontookourleave。
Ilongedtofindmyselfalonewiththeidolofmysoul。Iaskedherahundredquestionswithoutwaitingfortheanswers。
"Ah!youwereright,myownHenriette,whenyourefusedtogotothatconcert,foryouknewthatyouwouldraisemanyenemiesagainstme。Iamcertainthatallthosemenhateme,butwhatdoIcare?
Youaremyuniverse!Crueldarling,youalmostkilledmewithyourvioloncello,because,havingnoideaofyourbeingamusician,I
thoughtyouhadgonemad,andwhenIheardyouIwascompelledtoleavetheroominordertoweepundisturbed。Mytearsrelievedmyfearfuloppression。Oh!Ientreatyoutotellmewhatothertalentsyoupossess。Tellmecandidly,foryoumightkillmeifyoubroughtthemoutunexpectedly,asyouhavedonethisevening。"
"Ihavenootheraccomplishments,mybestbeloved。Ihaveemptiedmybagallatonce。NowyouknowyourHenrietteentirely。Hadyounotchancedtotellmeaboutamonthagothatyouhadnotasteformusic,IwouldhavetoldyouthatIcouldplaythevioloncelloremarkablywell,butifIhadmentionedsuchathing,Iknowyouwellenoughtobecertainthatyouwouldhaveboughtaninstrumentimmediately,andIcouldnot,dearest,findpleasureinanythingthatwouldwearyyou。"
Theverynextmorningshehadanexcellentvioloncello,and,farfromwearyingme,eachtimesheplayedshecausedmeanewandgreaterpleasure。Ibelievethatitwouldbeimpossibleeventoamandislikingmusicnottobecomepassionatelyfondofit,ifthatartwerepractisedtoperfectionbythewomanheadores。
The’voxhumana’ofthevioloncello;thekingofinstruments,wenttomyhearteverytimethatmybelovedHenrietteperformeduponit。SheknewIlovedtohearherplay,andeverydaysheaffordedmethatpleasure。HertalentdelightedmesomuchthatIproposedtohertogivesomeconcerts,butshewasprudentenoughtorefusemyproposal。
Butinspiteofallherprudencewehadnopowertohinderthedecreesoffate。
Thefatalhunchbackcamethedayafterhisfinesuppertothankusandtoreceiveourwell—meritedpraisesofhisconcert,hissupper,andthedistinctionofhisguests。
"Iforesee,madam,"hesaidtoHenriette,"allthedifficultyIshallhaveindefendingmyselfagainsttheprayersofallmyfriends,whowillbegofmetointroducethemtoyou。"
"Youneednothavemuchtroubleonthatscore:youknowthatInever,receiveanyone。"
Duboisdidnotagainventureuponspeakingofintroducinganyfriend。
OnthesamedayIreceivedaletterfromyoungCapitani,inwhichheinformedmethat,beingtheownerofSt。Peter’sknifeandsheath,hehadcalledonFranziawithtwolearnedmagicianswhohadpromisedtoraisethetreasureoutoftheearth,andthattohisgreatsurpriseFranziahadrefusedtoreceivehim:Heentreatedmetowritetotheworthyfellow,andtogotohimmyselfifIwantedtohavemyshareofthetreasure。IneednotsaythatIdidnotcomplywithhiswishes,butIcanvouchfortherealpleasureIfeltinfindingthatIhadsucceededinsavingthathonestandsimplefarmerfromtheimpostorswhowouldhaveruinedhim。
OnemonthwasgonesincethegreatsuppergivenbyDubois。Wehadpasseditinalltheenjoymentwhichcanbederivedbothfromthesensesandthemind,andneverhadonesingleinstantofwearinesscausedeitherofustobeguiltyofthatsadsymptomofmiserywhichiscalledayawn。Theonlypleasurewetookoutofdoorswasadriveoutsideofthecitywhentheweatherwasfine。Asweneverwalkedinthestreets,andneverfrequentedanypublicplace,noonehadsoughttomakeouracquaintance,oratleastnoonehadfoundanopportunityofdoingso,inspiteofallthecuriosityexcitedbyHenrietteamongstthepersonswhomwehadchancedtomeet,particularlyatthehouseofDubois。Henriettehadbecomemorecourageous,andImoreconfident,whenwefoundthatshehadnotbeenrecognizedbyanyoneeitheratthatsupperoratthetheatre。Sheonlydreadedpersonsbelongingtothehighnobility。
OnedayasweweredrivingoutsidetheGateofColorno,wemetthedukeandduchesswhowerereturningtoParma。Immediatelyaftertheircarriageanothervehicledrovealong,inwhichwasDuboiswithanoblemanunknowntous。Ourcarriagehadonlygoneafewyardsfromtheirswhenoneofourhorsesbrokedown。ThecompanionofDuboisimmediatelyorderedhiscoachmantostopinordertosendtoourassistance。Whilstthehorsewasraisedagain,hecamepolitelytoourcarriage,andpaidsomecivilcomplimenttoHenriette。
M。Dubois,alwaysashrewdcourtierandanxioustoshewoffattheexpenseofothers,lostnotimeinintroducinghimasM。Dutillot,theFrenchambassador。Mysweetheartgavetheconventionalbow。Thehorsebeingallrightagain,weproceededonourroadafterthankingthegentlemenfortheircourtesy。Suchanevery—dayoccurrencecouldnotbeexpectedtohaveanyseriousconsequences,butalas!themostimportanteventsareoftentheresultofverytriflingcircumstances!
Thenextday,Duboisbreakfastedwithus。HetoldusfranklythatM。Dutillothadbeendelightedatthefortunatechancewhichhadaffordedhimanopportunityofmakingouracquaintance,andthathehadentreatedhimtoaskourpermissiontocallonus。
"Onmadamoronme?"Iaskedatonce。
"Onboth。"
"Verywell,butoneatatime。Madam,asyouknow,hasherownroomandIhavemine。"
"Yes,buttheyaresoneareachother!"
"Granted,yetImusttellyouthat,asfarasIamconcerned,I
shouldhavemuchpleasureinwaitinguponhisexcellencyifheshouldeverwishtocommunicatewithme,andyouwillobligemebylettinghimknowit。Asformadam,sheishere,speaktoher,mydearM。
Dubois,forIamonlyherveryhumbleservant。"
Henrietteassumedanairofcheerfulpoliteness,andsaidtohim,"Sir,IbegyouwilloffermythankstoM。Dutillot,andenquirefromhimwhetherheknowsme。"
"Iamcertain,madam,"saidthehunchback,"thathedoesnot。"
"Youseehedoesnotknowme,andyethewishestocallonme。YoumustagreewithmethatifIacceptedhisvisitsIshouldgivehimasingularopinionofmycharacter。Begoodenoughtotellhimthat,althoughknowntonooneandknowingnoone,Iamnotanadventuress,andthereforeImustdeclinethehonourofhisvisits。"
Duboisfeltthathehadtakenafalsestep,andremainedsilent。Weneveraskedhimhowtheambassadorhadreceivedourrefusal。
Threeweeksafterthelastoccurrence,theducalcourtresidingthenatColorno,agreatentertainmentwasgiveninthegardenswhichweretobeilluminatedallnight。Everybodyhadpermissiontowalkaboutthegardens。Dubois,thefatalhunchbackappointedbydestiny,spokesomuchofthatfestival,thatwetookafancytoseeit。AlwaysthesamestoryofAdam’sapple。Duboisaccompaniedus。WewenttoColornothedaybeforetheentertainment,andputupataninn。
Intheeveningwewalkedthroughthegardens,inwhichwehappenedtomeettheducalfamilyandsuite。AccordingtotheetiquetteoftheFrenchcourt,MadamedeFrancewasthefirsttocurtsytoHenriette,withoutstopping。MyeyesfelluponagentlemanwalkingbythesideofDonLouis,whowaslookingatmyfriendveryattentively。Afewminutesafter,aswewereretracingoursteps,wecameacrossthesamegentlemanwho,afterbowingrespectfullytous,tookDuboisaside。Theyconversedtogetherforaquarterofanhour,followingusallthetime,andwewerepassingoutofthegardens,whenthegentleman,comingforward,andpolitelyapologizingtome,askedHenriettewhetherhehadthehonourtobeknowntoher。
"Idonotrecollecthavingeverhadthehonourofseeingyoubefore。"
"Thatisenough,madam,andIentreatyoutoforgiveme。"
DuboisinformedusthatthegentlemanwastheintimatefriendoftheInfanteDonLouis,andthat,believingheknewmadam,hehadbeggedtobeintroduced。DuboishadansweredthathernamewasD’Arci,andthat,ifhewasknowntothelady,herequirednointroduction。
M。d’AntoinesaidthatthenameofD’Arciwasunknowntohim,andthathewasafraidofmakingamistake。"Inthatstateofdoubt,"
addedDubois,"andwishingtoclearit,heintroducedhimself,butnowhemustseethathewasmistaken。"
Aftersupper,Henrietteappearedanxious。IaskedherwhethershehadonlypretendednottoknowM。d’Antoine。
"No,dearest,Icanassureyou。IknowhisnamewhichbelongstoanillustriousfamilyofProvence,butIhaveneverseenhimbefore。"
"Perhapshemayknowyou?"
"Hemighthaveseenme,butIamcertainthatheneverspoketome,orIwouldhaverecollectedhim。"
"Thatmeetingcausesmegreatanxiety,anditseemstohavetroubledyou。"
"Iconfessithasdisturbedmymind。"
"LetusleaveParmaatonceandproceedtoGenoa。WewillgotoVeniceassoonasmyaffairstherearesettled。"
"Yes,mydearfriend,weshallthenfeelmorecomfortable。ButIdonotthinkweneedbeinanyhurry。"
WereturnedtoParma,andtwodaysafterwardsmyservanthandedmealetter,sayingthatthefootmanwhohadbroughtitwaswaitingintheante—room。
"Thisletter,"IsaidtoHenriette,"troublesme。"
Shetookit,andaftershehadreadit——shegaveitbacktome,saying,"IthinkM。d’Antoineisamanofhonour,andIhopethatwemayhavenothingtofear。"
Theletterranas,follows:
"Eitheratyourhoteloratmyresidence,oratanyotherplaceyoumaywishtoappoint,Ientreatyou,sir,togivemeanopportunityofconversingwithyouonasubjectwhichmustbeofthegreatestimportancetoyou。
"Ihavethehonourtobe,etc。
"D’ANTOINE。"
ItwasaddressedM。Farusi。
"IthinkImustseehim,"Isaid,"butwhere?"
"Neitherherenorathisresidence,butintheducalgardens。Youranswermustnameonlytheplaceandthehourofthemeeting。"
IwrotetoM。d’AntoinethatIwouldseehimathalf—pastelevenintheducalgardens,onlyrequestinghimtoappointanotherhourincaseminewasnotconvenienttohim。
Idressedmyselfatonceinordertobeingoodtime,andmeanwhilewebothendeavoured,HenrietteandI,tokeepacheerfulcountenance,butwecouldnotsilenceoursadforebodings。IwasexacttomyappointmentandfoundM。d’Antoinewaitingforme。Assoonasweweretogether,hesaidtome,"Ihavebeencompelled,sir,tobegfromyouthefavourofaninterview,becauseIcouldnotimagineanysurerwaytogetthislettertoMadamed’Arci’shands。Ientreatyoutodeliverittoher,andtoexcusemeifIgiveityousealed。ShouldIbemistaken,myletterwillnotevenrequireananswer,butshouldIberight,Madamed’Arcialonecanjudgewhethersheoughttocommunicateittoyou。
Thatismyreasonforgivingittoyousealed。Ifyouaretrulyherfriend,thecontentsofthatlettermustbeasinterestingtoyouastoher。MayIhope,sir,thatyouwillbegoodenoughtodeliverittoher?"
"Sir,onmyhonourIwilldoit。"
Webowedrespectfullytoeachother,andpartedcompany。Ihurriedbacktothehotel。
CHAPTERIII
HenrietteReceivestheVisitofM。d’AntoineIAccompanyHerasFarasGenevaandThenILoseHer——ICrosstheSt。Bernard,andReturntoParma——ALetterfromHensiette——MyDespairDeLaHayeBecomesAttachedtoMe——UnpleasantAdventurewithanActressandItsConsequences——ITurnaThoroughBigot——Bavois——IMystifyaBraggingOfficer。
AssoonasIhadreachedourapartment,myheartburstingwithanxiety,IrepeatedtoHenrietteeverywordspokenbyM。d’Antoine,anddeliveredhisletterwhichcontainedfourpagesofwriting。Shereaditattentivelywithvisibleemotion,andthenshesaid,"Dearestfriend,donotbeoffended,butthehonouroftwofamiliesdoesnotallowofmyimpartingtoyouthecontentsofthisletter。I
amcompelledtoreceiveM。d’Antoine,whorepresentshimselfasbeingoneofmyrelatives。"
"Ah!"Iexclaimed,"thisisthebeginningoftheend!Whatadreadfulthought!Iamneartheendofafelicitywhichwastoogreattolast!WretchthatIhavebeen!WhydidItarrysolonginParma?Whatfatalblindness!Ofallthecitiesinthewholeworld,exceptFrance,ParmawastheonlyoneIhadtofear,anditisherethatIhavebroughtyou,whenIcouldhavetakenyouanywhereelse,foryouhadnowillbutmine!Iamallthemoreguiltythatyouneverconcealedyourfearsfromme。WhydidIintroducethatfatalDuboishere?OughtInottohaveguessedthathiscuriositywouldsoonerorlaterproveinjurioustous?AndyetIcannotcondemnthatcuriosity,foritis,alas!anaturalfeeling。IcanonlyaccusealltheperfectionswhichHeavenhasbestoweduponyou!——perfectionswhichhavecausedmyhappiness,andwhichwillplungemeinanabyssofdespair,for,alas!Iforeseeafutureoffearfulmisery。"
"Ientreatyou,dearest,toforeseenothing,andtocalmyourself。
Letusavailourselvesofallourreasoninordertoproveourselvessuperiortocircumstances,whatevertheymaybe。Icannotanswerthisletter,butyoumustwritetoM。d’Antoinetocallheretomorrowandtosenduphisname。"
"Alas!youcompelmetoperformapainfultask。"
"Youaremybest,myonlyfriend;Idemandnothing,Iimposenotaskuponyou,butcanyourefuseme?"
"No,never,nomatterwhatyouask。Disposeofme,Iamyoursinlifeanddeath。"
"Iknewwhatyouwouldanswer。YoumustbewithmewhenM。
d’Antoinecalls,butafterafewminutesgiventoetiquette,willyoufindsomepretexttogotoyourroom,andleaveusalone?
M。d’Antoineknowsallmyhistory;heknowsinwhatIhavedonewrong,inwhatIhavebeenright;asamanofhonour,asmyrelative,hemustsheltermefromallaffront。Heshallnotdoanythingagainstmywill,andifheattemptstodeviatefromtheconditionsI
willdictatetohim,IwillrefusetogotoFrance,Iwillfollowyouanywhere,anddevotetoyoutheremainderofmylife。Yet,mydarling,recollectthatsomefatalcircumstancesmaycompelustoconsiderourseparationasthewisestcoursetoadopt,thatwemusthusbandallourcouragetoadoptit,ifnecessary,andtoendeavournottobetoounhappy。
Haveconfidenceinme,andbequitecertainthatIshalltakecaretoreserveformyselfthesmallportionofhappinesswhichIcanbeallowedtoenjoywithoutthemanwhoalonehaswonallmydevotedlove。Youwillhave,Itrust,andIexpectitfromyourgeneroussoul,thesamecareofyourfuture,andIfeelcertainthatyoumustsucceed。Inthemeantime,letusdriveawayallthesadforebodingswhichmightdarkenthehourswehaveyetbeforeus。"
"Ah!whydidwenotgoawayimmediatelyafterwehadmetthataccursedfavouriteoftheInfante!"
"Wemighthavemademattersmuchworse;forinthatcaseM。d’Antoinemighthavemadeuphismindtogivemyfamilyaproofofhiszealbyinstitutingasearchtodiscoverourplaceofresidence,andIshouldthenhavebeenexposedtoviolentproceedingswhichyouwouldnothaveendured。Itwouldhavebeenfataltobothofus。"
Idideverythingsheaskedme。Fromthatmomentourlovebecamesad,andsadnessisadiseasewhichgivesthedeath—blowtoaffection。Wewouldoftenremainawholehouroppositeeachotherwithoutexchangingasingleword,andoursighswouldbeheardwhateverwedidtohushthem。
Thenextday,whenM。d’Antoinecalled,Ifollowedexactlytheinstructionsshehadgivenme,andforsixmortalhoursIremainedalone,pretendingtowrite。
Thedoorofmyroomwasopen,andalargelooking—glassallowedustoseeeachother。Theyspentthosesixhoursinwriting,occasionallystoppingtotalkofIdonotknowwhat,buttheirconversationwasevidentlyadecisiveone。ThereadercaneasilyrealizehowmuchI
sufferedduringthatlongtorture,forIcouldexpectnothingbutthetotalwreckofmyhappiness。
AssoonastheterribleM。d’Antoinehadtakenleaveofher,Henriettecametome,andobservingthathereyeswereredIheavedadeepsigh,butshetriedtosmile。
"Shallwegoawayto—morrow,dearest?"
"Oh!yes,Iamready。Wheredoyouwishmetotakeyou?"
"Anywhereyoulike,butwemustbehereinafortnight。"
"Here!Oh,fatalillusion!"
"Alas!itisso。IhavepromisedtobeheretoreceivetheanswertoaletterIhavejustwritten。Wehavenoviolentproceedingstofear,butIcannotbeartoremaininParma。"
"Ah!Icursethehourwhichbroughtustothiscity。WouldyouliketogotoMilan?"
"Yes。"
"Asweareunfortunatelycompelledtocomeback,wemayaswelltakewithusCaudagnaandhissister。"
"Asyouplease。"
"Letmearrangeeverything。Iwillorderacarriageforthem,andtheywilltakechargeofyourvioloncello。DoyounotthinkthatyououghttoletM。d’Antoineknowwherewearegoing?"
"No,itseemstome,onthecontrary,thatIneednotaccounttohimforanyofmyproceedings。Somuchtheworseforhimifheshould,evenforonemoment,doubtmyword。"
Thenextmorning,weleftParma,takingonlywhatwewantedforanabsenceofafortnight。WearrivedinMilanwithoutaccident,butbothverysad,andwespentthefollowingfifteendaysinconstanttete—a—tete,withoutspeakingtoanyone,exceptthelandlordofthehotelandtoadressmaker。IpresentedmybelovedHenriettewithamagnificentpelissemadeoflynxfur——apresentwhichsheprizedhighly。
Outofdelicacy,shehadneverenquiredaboutmymeans,andIfeltgratefultoherforthatreserve。Iwasverycarefultoconcealfromherthefactthatmypursewasgettingverylight。WhenwecamebacktoParmaIhadonlythreeorfourhundredsequins。
ThedayafterourreturnM。d’Antoineinvitedhimselftodinewithus,andafterwehaddrunkcoffee,IlefthimalonewithHenriette。
Theirinterviewwasaslongasthefirst,andourseparationwasdecided。Sheinformedmeofit,immediatelyafterthedepartureofM。d’Antoine,andforalongtimeweremainedfoldedineachother’sarms,silent,andblendingourbittertears。
"WhenshallIhavetopartfromyou,mybeloved,alas!toomuchbelovedone?"
"Becalm,dearest,onlywhenwereachGeneva,whitheryouaregoingtoaccompanyme。Willyoutrytofindmearespectablemaidbyto—morrow?ShewillaccompanymefromGenevatotheplacewhereIamboundtogo。"
"Oh!then,weshallspendafewdaysmoretogether!IknownoonebutDuboiswhomIcouldtrusttoprocureagoodfemme—de—chambre;
onlyIdonotwanthimtolearnfromherwhatyoumightnotwishhimtoknow。"
"Thatwillnotbethecase,forIwilltakeanothermaidassoonasI
aminFrance。"
Threedaysafterwards,Dubois,whohadgladlyundertakenthecommission,presentedtoHenrietteawomanalreadysomewhatadvancedinyears,prettywelldressedandrespectable—looking,who,beingpoor,wasgladofanopportunityofgoingbacktoFrance,hernativecountry。Herhusband,anoldmilitaryofficer,haddiedafewmonthsbefore,leavinghertotallyunprovidedfor。Henrietteengagedher,andtoldhertokeepherselfreadytostartwheneverM。Duboisshouldgivehernotice。Thedaybeforetheonefixedforourdeparture,M。
d’Antoinedinedwithus,and,beforetakingleaveofus,hegaveHenrietteasealedletterforGeneva。
WeleftParmalateintheevening,andstoppedonlytwohoursinTurin,inordertoengageamanservantwhoseserviceswerequiredasfarasGeneva。ThenextdayweascendedMontCenisinsedan—chairs,andwedescendedtotheNovalaiseinmountain—sledges。OnthefifthdaywereachedGeneva,andweputupattheHoteldesBalances。Thenextmorning,HenriettegavemealetterforthebankerTronchin,who,whenhehadreadit,toldmethathewouldcallhimselfatthehotel,andbringmeonethousandlouisd’or。
Icamebackandwesatdowntodinner。Wehadnotfinishedourmealwhenthebankerwasannounced。Hehadbroughtthethousandlouisd’or,andtoldHenriettethathewouldgivehertwomenwhomhecouldrecommendineveryway。
SheansweredthatshewouldleaveGenevaassoonasshehadthecarriagewhichhewastoprovideforher,accordingtotheletterI
haddeliveredtohim。Hepromisedthateverythingwouldbereadyforthefollowingday,andheleftus。Itwasindeedaterriblemoment!
Griefalmostbenumbedusboth。Weremainedmotionless,speechless,wrappedupinthemostprofounddespair。
IbrokethatsadsilencetotellherthatthecarriagewhichM。
Tronchinwouldprovidecouldnotpossiblybeascomfortableandassafeasmine,andIentreatedhertotakeit,assuringherthatbyacceptingitshewouldgivemealastproofofheraffection。
"Iwilltakeinexchange,mydearestlove,thecarriagesentbythebanker。"
"Iacceptthechange,darling,"sheanswered,"itwillbeagreatconsolationtopossesssomethingwhichhasbelongedtoyou。"
Asshesaidthesewords,sheslippedinmypocketfiverollscontainingeachonehundredlouisd’or——aslightconsolationformyheart,whichwasalmostbrokenbyourcruelseparation!Duringthelasttwenty—fourhourswecouldboastofnoothereloquencebutthatwhichfindsexpressionintears,insobs,andinthosehackneyedbutenergeticexclamations,whichtwohappyloversaresuretoaddresstoreason,wheninitssternnessitcompelsthemtopartfromoneanotherintheveryheightoftheirfelicity。Henriettedidnotendeavourtoluremewithanyhopeforthefuture,inordertoallaymysorrow!Farfromthat,shesaidtome,"Oncewearepartedbyfate,mybestandonlyfriend,neverenquireafterme,and,shouldchancethrowyouinmyway,donotappeartoknowme。"
ShegavemealetterforM。d’Antoine,withoutaskingmewhetherI
intendedtogobacktoParma,but,evenifsuchhadnotbeenmyintention,Ishouldhavedeterminedatonceuponreturningtothatcity。ShelikewiseentreatedmenottoleaveGenevauntilIhadreceivedaletterwhichshepromisedto,writetomefromthefirststageonherjourney。Shestartedatday—break,havingwithheramaid,afootmanontheboxofthecarriage,andbeingprecededbyacourieronhorseback。IfollowedherwithmyeyesaslongasI
could,seehercarriage,andIwasstillstandingonthesamespotlongaftermyeyeshadlostsightofit。AllmythoughtswerewrappedupinthebelovedobjectIhadlostforever。Theworldwasablank!
Iwentbacktomyroom,orderedthewaiternottodisturbmeuntilthereturnofthehorseswhichhaddrawnHenriette’scarriage,andI
laydownonmybedinthehopethatsleepwouldforatimesilenceagriefwhichtearscouldnotdrown。
ThepostillionwhohaddrivenHenriettedidnotreturntillthenextday;hehadgoneasfarasChatillon。HebroughtmealetterinwhichIfoundonesingleword:Adieu!HetoldmethattheyhadreachedChatillonwithoutaccident,andthattheladyhadimmediatelycontinuedherjourneytowardsLyons。AsIcouldnotleaveGenevauntilthefollowingday,Ispentaloneinmyroomsomeofthemostmelancholyhoursofmylife。IsawononeofthepanesofglassofawindowthesewordswhichshehadtracedwiththepointofadiamondI
hadgivenher:"YouwillforgetHenriette。"Thatprophecywasnotlikelytoaffordmeanyconsolation。Buthadsheattacheditsfullmeaningtotheword"forget?"No;shecouldonlymeanthattimewouldatlasthealthedeepwoundsofmyheart,andsheoughtnottohavemadeitdeeperbyleavingbehindherthosewordswhichsoundedlikeareproach。No,Ihavenotforgottenher,forevennow,whenmyheadiscoveredwithwhitehair,therecollectionofherisstillasourceofhappinessformyheart!WhenIthinkthatinmyoldageI
derivehappinessonlyfrommyrecollectionsofthepast,Ifindthatmylonglifemusthavecountedmorebrightthandarkdays,andofferingmythankstoGod,theGiverofall,Icongratulatemyself,andconfessthatlifeisagreatblessing。
ThenextdayIsetoffagainforItalywithaservantrecommendedbyM。Tronchin,andalthoughtheseasonwasnotfavourableItooktheroadoverMontSt。Bernard,whichIcrossedinthreedays,withsevenmulescarryingme,myservant,myluggage,andthecarriagesentbythebankertothebelovedwomannowforeverlosttome。Oneoftheadvantagesofagreatsorrowisthatnothingelseseemspainful。Itisasortofdespairwhichisnotwithoutsomesweetness。DuringthatjourneyIneverfelteitherhungerorthirst,orthecoldwhichissointenseinthatpartoftheAlpsthatthewholeofnatureseemstoturntoice,orthefatigueinseparablefromsuchadifficultanddangerousjourney。
IarrivedinParmainprettygoodhealth,andtookupmyquartersatasmallinn,inthehopethatinsuchaplaceIshouldnotmeetanyacquaintanceofmine。ButIwasmuchdisappointed,forIfoundinthatinnM。delaHaye,whohadaroomnexttomine。Surprisedatseeingme,hepaidmealongcompliment,tryingtomakemespeak,butIeludedhiscuriositybytellinghimthatIwastired,andthatwewouldseeeachotheragain。
OnthefollowingdayIcalleduponM。d’Antoine,anddeliveredtheletterwhichHenriettehadwrittentohim。Heopeneditinmypresence,andfindinganothertomyaddressenclosedinhis,hehandedittomewithoutreadingit,althoughitwasnotsealed。
Thinking,however,thatitmighthavebeenHenriette’sintentionthatheshouldreaditbecauseitwasopen,heaskedmypermissiontodoso,whichIgrantedwithpleasureassoonasIhadmyselfperusedit。
Hehandeditbacktomeafterhehadreadit,tellingmeveryfeelinglythatIcouldineverythingrelyuponhimanduponhisinfluenceandcredit。
HereisHenriette’sletter’ItisI,dearestandbestfriend,whohavebeencompelledtoabandonyou,butdonotletyourgriefbeincreasedbyanythoughtofmysorrow。Letusbewiseenoughtosupposethatwehavehadahappydream,andnottocomplainofdestiny,forneverdidsobeautifuladreamlastsolong!Letusbeproudoftheconsciousnessthatforthreemonthswegaveoneanotherthemostperfectfelicity。Fewhumanbeingscanboastofsomuch!Letusswearnevertoforgetoneanother,andtooftenrememberthehappyhoursofourlove,inordertorenewtheminoursouls,which,althoughdivided,willenjoythemasacutelyasifourheartswerebeatingoneagainsttheother。Donotmakeanyenquiriesaboutme,andifchanceshouldletyouknowwhoIam,forgetitforever。IfeelcertainthatyouwillbegladtohearthatIhavearrangedmyaffairssowellthatIshall,fortheremainderofmylife,beashappyasIcanpossiblybewithoutyou,dearfriend,bymyside。Idonotknowwhoyouare,butIamcertainthatnooneintheworldknowsyoubetterthanIdo。IshallnothaveanotherloveraslongasIlive,butIdonotwishyoutoimitateme。OnthecontraryIhopethatyouwillloveagain,andI
trustthatagoodfairywillbringalongyourpathanotherHenriette。
Farewell……farewell。"……
Imetthatadorablewomanfifteenyearslater;thereaderwillseewhereandhow,whenwecometothatperiodofmylife……
Iwentbacktomyroom,carelessofthefuture,brokendownbythedeepestofsorrows,Ilockedmyselfin,andwenttobed。IfeltsolowinspiritsthatIwasstunned。Lifewasnotaburden,butonlybecauseIdidnotgiveathoughttolife。InfactIwasinastateofcompleteapathy,moralandphysical。SixyearslaterIfoundmyselfinasimilarpredicament,butthattimelovewasnotthecauseofmysorrow;itwasthehorribleandtoofamousprisonofTheLeads,inVenice。
Iwasnotmuchbettereitherin1768,whenIwaslodgedintheprisonofBuenRetiro,inMadrid,butImustnotanticipateevents。
Attheendoftwenty—fourhours,myexhaustionwasverygreat,butI
didnotfindthesensationdisagreeable,and,inthestateofmindinwhichIwasthen,Iwaspleasedwiththeideathat,byincreasing,thatweaknesswouldatlastkillme。Iwasdelightedtoseethatnoonedisturbedmetooffermesomefood,andIcongratulatedmyselfuponhavingdismissedmyservant。Twenty—fourmorehourspassedby,andmyweaknessbecamecompleteinanition。
IwasinthatstatewhenDelaHayeknockedatmydoor。Iwouldnothaveansweredifhehadnotsaidthatsomeoneinsisteduponseeingme。Igotoutofbed,and,scarcelyabletostand,Iopenedmydoor,afterwhichIgotintobedagain。
"Thereisastrangerhere,"hesaid,"who,beinginwantofacarriage,offerstobuyyours"
"Idonotwanttosellit。"
"ExcusemeifIhavedisturbedyou,butyoulookill。"
"Yes,Iwishtobeleftalone。"
"Whatisthematterwithyou?"
Comingnearermybed,hetookmyhand,andfoundmypulseextremelylowandweak。
"Whatdidyoueatyesterday?"
"Ihaveeatennothing,thankGodIfortwodays。"
Guessingtherealstateofthings,DelaHayebecameanxious,andentreatedmetotakesomebroth。Hethrewsomuchkindness,somuchunction,intohisentreatiesthat,throughweaknessandweariness,I
allowedmyselftobepersuaded。Then,withoutevermentioningthenameofHenriette,hetreatedmetoasermonuponthelifetocome,uponthevanityofthethingsofthislifewhichwearefoolishenoughtoprefer,anduponthenecessityofrespectingourexistence,whichdoesnotbelongtous。
Iwaslisteningwithoutansweringoneword,but,afterall,Iwaslistening,andDelaHaye,perceivinghisadvantage,wouldnotleaveme,andordereddinner。Ihadneitherthewillnorthestrengthtoresist,andwhenthedinnerwasserved,Iatesomething。ThenDelaHavesawthathehadconquered,andfortheremainderofthedaydevotedhimselftoamusingmebyhischeerfulconversation。
Thenextdaythetableswereturned,foritwasIwhoinvitedhimtokeepmecompanyandtodinewithme。ItseemedtomethatIhadnotlostaparticleofmysadness,butlifeappearedtomeoncemorepreferabletodeath,and,thinkingthatIwasindebtedtohimforthepreservationofmylife,Imadeagreatfriendofhim。Myreaderswillseepresentlythatmyaffectionforhimwentveryfar,andtheywill,likeme,marvelatthecauseofthatfriendship,andatthemeansthroughwhichitwasbroughtabout。
Threeorfourdaysafterwards,Dubois,whohadbeeninformedofeverythingbyDelaHaye,calledonme,andpersuadedmetogoout。
Iwenttothetheatre,whereImadetheacquaintanceofseveralCorsicanofficers,whohadservedinFrance,intheRoyalItalianregiment。IalsometayoungmanfromSicily,namedPaterno,thewildestandmostheedlessfellowitwaspossibletosee。Hewasinlovewithanactresswhomadeafoolofhim。Heamusedmewiththeenumerationofallheradorablequalities,andofallthecrueltiesshewaspractisinguponhim,for,althoughshereceivedhimatallhours,sherepulsedhimharshlywheneverhetriedtostealtheslightestfavour。Inthemeantime,sheruinedhimbymakinghimpayconstantlyforexcellentdinnersandsuppers,whichwereeatenbyherfamily,butwhichdidnotadvancehimoneinchtowardsthefulfilmentofhiswishes。
Hesucceededatlastinexcitingmycuriosity。Iexaminedtheactressonthestage,andfindingthatshewasnotwithoutbeautyI
expressedawishtoknowher。Paternowasdelightedtointroducemetoher。
Ifoundthatshewasoftolerablyeasyvirtue,and,knowingthatshewasveryfarfromrollinginriches,Ihadnodoubtthatfifteenortwentysequinswouldbequitesufficienttomakehercompliant。I
communicatedmythoughtstoPaterno,buthelaughedandtoldmethat,ifIdaredtomakesuchapropositiontoher,shewouldcertainlyshutherdooragainstme。Henamedseveralofficerswhomshehadrefusedtoreceiveagain,becausetheyhadmadesimilaroffers。
"Yet,"addedtheyoungman,"Iwishyouwouldmaketheattempt,andtellmetheresultcandidly。"
Ifeltpiqued,andpromisedtodoit。
Ipaidheravisitinherdressing—roomatthetheatre,andasshehappenedduringourconversationtopraisethebeautyofmywatch,I
toldherthatshecouldeasilyobtainpossessionofit,andIsaidatwhatprice。Sheanswered,accordingtothecatechismofherprofession,thatanhonourablemanhadnorighttomakesuchanoffertoarespectablegirl。
"Iofferonlyoneducat,"saidI,"tothosewhoarenotrespectable。"
AndIlefther。
WhenItoldPaternowhathadoccurred,hefairlyjumpedforjoy,butIknewwhattothinkofitall,for’cosisonotutte’,andinspiteofallhisentreaties,Ideclinedtobepresentathissuppers,whichwerefarfromamusing,andgavethefamilyoftheactressanopportunityoflaughingatthepoorfoolwhowaspayingforthem。
Sevenoreightdaysafterwards,PaternotoldmethattheactresshadrelatedtheaffairtohimexactlyinthesamewordswhichIhadused,andshehadaddedthat,ifIhadceasedmyvisits,itwasonlybecauseIwasafraidofhertakingmeatmywordincaseIshouldrenewmyproposal。IcommissionedhimtotellherthatIwouldpayheranothervisit,nottorenewmyoffer,buttoshewmycontemptforanyproposalshemightmakemeherself。
Theheedlessfellowfulfilledhiscommissionsowellthattheactress,feelinginsulted,toldhimthatshedaredmetocallonher。
PerfectlydeterminedtoshewthatIdespisedher,Iwenttoherdressing—roomthesameevening,afterthesecondactofaplayinwhichshehadnottoappearagain。Shedismissedthosewhowerewithher,sayingthatshewantedtospeakwithme,and,aftershehadboltedthedoor,shesatdowngracefullyonmyknees,askingmewhetheritwastruethatIdespisedhersomuch。
Insuchapositionamanhasnotthecouragetoinsultawoman,and,insteadofanswering,Isettoworkatonce,withoutmeetingevenwiththatshowofresistancewhichsharpenstheappetite。Inspiteofthat,dupeasIalwayswasofafeelingtrulyabsurdwhenanintelligentmanhastodealwithsuchcreatures,Igavehertwentysequins,andIconfessthatitwaspayingdearlyforverysmartingregrets。WebothlaughedatthestupidityofPaterno,whodidnotseemtoknowhowsuchchallengesgenerallyend。
IsawtheunluckysonofSicilythenextmorning,andItoldhimthat,havingfoundtheactressverydull,Iwouldnotseeheragain。
Suchwastrulymyintention,butaveryimportantreason,whichnaturetookcaretoexplaintomethreedaysafterwards,compelledmetokeepmywordthroughamuchmoreseriousmotivethanasimpledislikeforthewoman。
However,althoughIwasdeeplygrievedtofindmyselfinsuchadisgracefulposition,IdidnotthinkIhadanyrighttocomplain。
Onthecontrary,Iconsideredthatmymisfortunetobeajustandwell—deservedpunishmentforhavingabandonedmyselftoaLais,afterIhadenjoyedthefelicityofpossessingawomanlikeHenriette。
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