首页 >出版文学> Saint’s Progress>第6章
  thisfairyprincessofachildalreadytohavesomeone!Hewonderedifshewentaboutaskingeveryonethesequestions,withthatsomeoneinherthoughts。Poorchild!Andquicklyhesaid:
  "Afterall,lookatme!Iwasoutthereayear,andhereIamwithonlyhalfagameleg;timeswerealotworse,then,too。IoftenwishIwerebackthere。Anything’sbetterthanLondonandtheWarOffice。"Butjustthenhesawthepadrecoming,andtookherhand。
  "Goodnight,MissPierson。Don’tworry。Thatdoesnogood,andthereisn’thalftheriskyouthink。"
  Herhandstirred,squeezedhisgratefully,asachild’swouldsqueeze。
  "Goodnight,"shemurmured;"thankyouawfully。"
  And,inthedarkcabagain,herememberedthinking:’Fancythatchild!Ajollyluckyboy,outthere!Toobad!Poorlittlefairyprincess!’
  PARTII
  I
  1
  Towashupisnotanexcitingoperation。TowashupinAugustbecameforNoelaprocesswhichtaxedherstrengthandenthusiasm。Shecombineditwithotherformsofinstructionintheartofnursing,hadverylittleleisure,andintheeveningsathomewouldoftenfallasleepcurledupinalargechintz—coveredchair。
  GeorgeandGratianhadlonggonebacktotheirrespectivehospitals,andsheandherfatherhadthehousetothemselves。ShereceivedmanylettersfromCyrilwhichshecarriedaboutwithherandreadonherwaytoandfromthehospital;andeveryotherdayshewrotetohim。Hewasnotyetinthefiringline;hislettersweredescriptiveofhismen,hisfood,orthenatives,orreminiscentofKestrel;hersdescriptiveofwashingup,orreminiscentofKestrel。Butinboththerewasalwayssomelittlewordofthelongingwithinthem。
  ItwastowardstheendofAugustwhenshehadtheletterwhichsaidthathehadbeenmovedup。Fromnowonhewouldbeinhourlydanger!
  Thateveningafterdinnershedidnotgotosleepinthechair,butsatundertheopenwindow,clenchingherhands,andreading"PrideandPrejudice"withoutunderstandingaword。Whileshewassoengagedherfathercameupandsaid:
  "CaptainFort,Nollie。Willyougivehimsomecoffee?I’mafraidI
  mustgoout。"
  Whenhehadgone,Noellookedathervisitordrinkinghiscoffee。Hehadbeenoutthere,too,andhewasalive;withonlyalittlelimp。
  Thevisitorsmiledandsaid:
  "Whatwereyouthinkingaboutwhenwecamein?"
  "Onlythewar。"
  "Anynewsofhim?"
  Noelfrowned,shehatedtoshowherfeelings。
  "Yes!he’sgonetotheFront。Won’tyouhaveacigarette?"
  "Thanks。Willyou?"
  "Iwantoneawfully。Ithinksittingstillandwaitingismoredreadfulthananythingintheworld。"
  "Except,knowingthatothersarewaiting。WhenIwasoutthereI
  usedtoworryhorriblyovermymother。Shewasillatthetime。Thecruelestthinginwaristheanxietyofpeopleabouteachother——
  nothingtouchesthat。"
  ThewordsexactlysummedupNoel’shourlythought。Hesaidnicethings,thismanwiththelonglegsandthethinbrownbumpyface!
  "IwishIwereaman,"shesaid,"Ithinkwomenhavemuchtheworsttimeinthewar。Isyourmotherold?"Butofcourseshewasoldwhyhewasoldhimself!
  "ShediedlastChristmas。"
  "Oh!I’msosorry!"
  "Youlostyourmotherwhenyouwereababe,didn’tyou?"
  "Yes。That’sherportrait。"Attheendoftheroom,hangingonastripofblackvelvetwasapastel,veryfaintincolouring,asthoughfaded,ofayoungwoman,withaneager,sweetface,darkeyes,andbentalittleforward,asifquestioningherpainter。Fortwentuptoit。
  "It’snotabitlikeyou。Butshemusthavebeenaverysweetwoman。"
  "It’sasortofpresenceintheroom。IwishIwerelikeher!"
  Fortturned。"No,"hesaid;"no。Betterasyouare。Itwouldonlyhavespoiledacompletething。"
  "Shewasgood。"
  "Andaren’tyou?"
  "Oh!no。Igetadevil。"
  "You!Why,you’reoutofafairy—tale!"
  "ItcomesfromDaddy——onlyhedoesn’tknow,becausehe’saperfectsaint;butIknowhe’shadadevilsomewhere,orhecouldn’tbethesaintheis。"
  "H’m!"saidFort。"That’sverydeep:andIbelieveit’strue——thesaintsdidhavedevils。"
  "PoorDaddy’sdevilhasbeendeadages。It’sbeenstarvedoutofhim,Ithink。"
  "Doesyourdevilevergetawaywithyou?"
  Noelfelthercheeksgrowingredunderhisstare,andsheturnedtothewindow:
  "Yes。It’sarealdevil。"
  VividlytherehadcomebeforeherthedarkAbbey,andthemoonbalancingoverthetopofthecrumblingwall,andthewhiteowlflyingacross。And,speakingtotheair,shesaid:
  "Itmakesyoudothingsthatyouwanttodo。"
  Shewonderedifhewouldlaugh——itsoundedsosilly。Buthedidnot。
  "Anddamntheconsequences?Iknow。It’sratherajollythingtohave。"
  Noelshookherhead。"Here’sDaddycomingback!"
  Fortheldouthishand。
  "Iwon’tstay。Goodnight;anddon’tworrytoomuch,willyou?"
  Hekeptherhandratheralongtime,andgaveitahardsqueeze。
  Don’tworry!Whatadvice!Ah!ifshecouldseeCyriljustforaminute!
  2
  InSeptember,1916,SaturdaystillcamebeforeSunday,inspiteofthewar。ForEdwardPiersonthisSaturdayhadbeenastrenuousday,andevennow,atnearlymidnight,hewasstillconninghisjust—
  completedsermon。
  Apatriotofpatriots,hehadoftenapassionatelongingtoresignhisparish,andgolikehiscurateforachaplainattheFront。Itseemedtohimthatpeoplemustthinkhislifeidleandshelteredanduseless。EvenintimesofpeacehehadbeensensitiveenoughtofeelthecolddraughtyblastswhichtheChurchencountersinamaterialage。Heknewthatninepeopleoutoftenlookedonhimassomethingofaparasite,withnorealworkintheworld。Andsincehewasnothingifnotconscientious,healwaysworkedhimselftothebone。
  To—dayhehadrisenathalf—pastsix,andafterhisbathandexercises,hadsatdowntohissermon——for,evennow,hewroteanewsermononceamonth,thoughhehadthefruitsoftwenty—sixyearstochoosefrom。True,thesenewsermonswererathercompiledthanwritten,because,bereftofhiscurate,hehadnottimeenoughforfreshthoughtonoldsubjects。AteighthehadbreakfastedwithNoel,beforeshewentofftoherhospital,whenceshewouldreturnateightintheevening。Ninetotenwashishourforseeingparishionerswhohadtroubles,orwantedhelporadvice,andhehadreceivedthreeto—daywhoallwantedhelp,whichhehadgiven。Fromtentoelevenhehadgonebacktohissermon,andhadspentfromeleventooneathischurch,attendingtosmallmatters,writingnotices,fixinghymns,holdingthedailyhalf—hourServiceinstitutedduringwartime,towhichbutfewevercame。Hehadhurriedbacktolunch,scampingitsothathemightgettohispianoforanhourofforgetfulness。Atthreehehadchristenedaverynoisybaby,andbeendetainedbyitsparentswhowishedforinformationonavarietyoftopics。Athalf—pastfourhehadsnatchedacupoftea,readingthepaper;andhadspentfromfivetosevenvisitingtwoParishClubs,andthosewhosewar—pensionmattershehadinhand,andfillingupformswhichwouldbekeptinofficialplacestillsuchtimeasthesystemshouldbechangedandafreshsetofformsissued。
  >Fromseventoeighthewasathomeagain,incasehisflockwantedtoseehim;to—dayfoursheephadcome,andgoneaway,hewasafraid,butlittlethewiser。Fromhalf—pasteighttohalf—pastninehehadspentinchoirpractice,becausetheorganistwasonhisholiday。
  Slowlyinthecooloftheeveninghehadwalkedhome,andfallenasleepinhischairongettingin。Atelevenhehadwokenwithastart,and,hardeninghisheart,hadgonebacktohissermon。Andnow,atnearlymidnight,itwasstilllessthantwentyminuteslong。
  Helightedoneofhisrarecigarettes,andletthoughtwander。Howbeautifulthosepalepinkroseswereinthatoldsilverbowl—likealittlestrangepoem,orapieceofDebussymusic,oraMathieuMarispicture—remindinghimoddlyofthewordLeila。WashewronginlettingNoelseesomuchofLeila?Butthenshewassoimproved——
  dearLeila!……Thepinkroseswerejustgoingtofall!Andyethowbeautiful!……Itwasquietto—night;hefeltverydrowsy……DidNolliestillthinkofthatyoungman,orhaditpassed?Shehadneverconfidedinhimsince!Afterthewar,itwouldbenicetotakehertoItaly,toallthelittletowns。TheywouldseetheAssisiofSt。Francis。TheLittleFlowersofSt。Francis。TheLittleFlowers!……Hishanddropped,thecigarettewentout。Hesleptwithhisfaceinshadow。Slowlyintothesilenceofhissleeplittlesinistersoundsintruded。Shortconcussions,dragginghimbackoutofthatdeepslumber。Hestartedup。Noelwasstandingatthedoor,inalongcoat。Shesaidinhercalmvoice:
  "Zeps,Daddy!"
  "Yes,mydear。Wherearethemaids?"
  AnIrishvoiceansweredfromthehall:"Here,sir;trustin’inGod;
  but’tisbetteronthegroundfloor。"
  Hesawahuddleofthreefigures,queerlycostumed,againstthestairs。
  "Yes,Yes,Bridgie;you’resafedownhere。"ThenhenoticedthatNoelwasgone。HefollowedheroutintotheSquare,alivewithfacesfaintlyluminousinthedarkness,andfoundheragainstthegardenrailings。
  "Youmustcomebackin,Nollie。"
  "Oh,no!Cyrilhasthiseveryday。"
  Hestoodbesideher;notloth,forexcitementhadbeguntostirhisblood。Theystayedthereforsomeminutes,strainingtheireyesforsightofanythingsavethelittlezaggedsplashesofburstingshrapnel,whilevoicesbuzzed,andmuttered:"Look!There!There!
  Thereitis!"
  ButtheseershadeyesofgreaterfaiththanPierson’s,forhesawnothing:Hetookherarmatlast,andledherin。Inthehallshebrokefromhim。
  "Let’sgoupontheroof,Daddy!"andranupstairs。
  Againhefollowed,mountingbyaladder,throughatrapdoorontotheroof。
  "It’ssplendiduphere!"shecried。
  Hecouldseehereyesblazing,andthought:’Howmychilddoesloveexcitement——it’salmostterrible!’
  Overthewide,dark,star—strewnskytravellingsearchlights,werelightingupthefewlittleclouds;thedomesandspiresrosefromamongthespread—outroofs,allfineandghostly。Thegunshadceasedfiring,asthoughpuzzled。Onedistantbangrumbledout。
  "Abomb!Oh!IfwecouldonlygetoneoftheZeps!"
  Afuriousoutburstoffiringfollowed,lastingperhapsaminute,thenceasedasifbymagic。Theysawtwosearchlightsconvergeandmeetrightoverhead。
  "It’saboveus!"murmuredNoel。
  Piersonputhisarmroundherwaist。’Shefeelsnofear!’hethought。Thesearch—lightsswitchedapart;andsuddenly,fromfaraway,cameaconfusionofweirdsounds。
  "Whatisit?They’recheering。Oh!Daddy,look!"Thereintheheavens,towardstheeast,hungadullredthing,lengtheningastheygazed。
  "They’vegotit。It’sonfire!Hurrah!"
  Throughthedarkfirmamentthatfieryorangeshapebegancantingdownward;andthecheeringswelledinasavagefrenzyofsound。AndPierson’sarmtightenedonherwaist。
  "ThankGod!"hemuttered。
  Thebrightoblongseemedtobreakandspread,tilteddownbelowtheleveloftheroofs;andsuddenlytheheavensflared,asifsomehugejugofcrimsonlighthadbeenflungoutonthem。SomethingturnedoverinPierson’sheart;heflunguphishandtohiseyes。
  "Thepoormeninit!"hesaid。"Howterrible!"
  Noel’svoiceanswered,hardandpitiless:
  "Theyneedn’thavecome。They’remurderers!"
  Yes,theyweremurderers——buthowterrible!Andhestoodquivering,withhishandspressedtohisface,tillthecheeringhaddiedoutintosilence。
  "Let’spray,Nollie!"hewhispered。"OGod,WhoinThygreatmercyhathdeliveredusfromperil,takeintoThykeepingthesoulsoftheseourenemies,consumedbyThywrathbeforeoureyes;giveusthepowertopitythem——menlikeourselves。"
  ButevenwhileheprayedhecouldseeNoel’sfaceflame—whiteinthedarkness;and,asthatglowintheskyfadedout,hefeltoncemorethethrilloftriumph。
  Theywentdowntotellthemaids,andforsometimeaftersatuptogether,talkingoverwhattheyhadseen,eatingbiscuitsanddrinkingmilk,whichtheywarmedonanetna。Itwasnearlytwoo’clockbeforetheywenttobed。Piersonfellasleepatonce,andneverturnedtillawakenedathalf—pastsixbyhisalarum。HehadHolyCommuniontoadministerateight,andhehurriedtogetearlytohischurchandseethatnothinguntowardhadhappenedtoit。Thereitstoodinthesunlight;tall,grey,quiet,unharmed,withbellgentlyringing。
  3
  AndatthathourCyrilMorland,undertheparapetofhistrench,tighteninghisbelt,waslookingathiswrist—watchforthehundredthtime,calculatingexactlywherehemeanttoputfootandhandforthegoingover:’Iabsolutelymustn’tletthosechapsgetinfrontofme,’hethought。Somanyyardsbeforethefirstlineoftrenches,somanyyardstothesecondline,andtherestop。Sohisrehearsalshadgone;itwastheperformancenow!Anotherminutebeforetheterrificracketofthedrum—fireshouldbecomethecurtain—fire,whichwouldadvancebeforethem。Heranhiseyedownthetrench。Themannexthimwaslickinghistwofirstfingers,asifhemightbegoingtobowlatcricket。Furtherdown,amanwasfeelinghisputtees。A
  voicesaid:"Wotpricetheorchestranah!"Hesawteethgleaminfacesburntalmostblack。Thenhelookedup;theskywasbluebeyondthebrownishfilmofdustraisedbythestrikingshells。Noel!
  Noel!Noel!……Hedughisfingersdeepintotheleftsideofhistunictillhecouldfeeltheoutlineofherphotographbetweenhisdispatch—caseandhisheart。Hisheartflutteredjustasitusedwhenhewasstretchedoutwithhandtouchingtheground,beforethestartofthe"hundredyards"atschool。Outofthecornerofhiseyehecaughttheflashofaman’s"briquet"lightingacigarette。Allrightforthosechaps,butnotforhim;hewantedallhisbreath——
  thisrifle,andkitwerehandicapenough!Twodaysagohehadbeenreadinginsomepaperhowmenfeltjustbeforeanattack。Andnowheknew。Hejustfeltnervous。Ifonlythemomentwouldcome,andgetitselfover!Forallthethoughthegavetotheenemytheremighthavebeennone——nothingbutshellsandbullets,withlivesoftheirown。Heheardthewhistle;hisfootwasonthespothehadmarkeddown;hishandwherehehadseenit;hecalledout:"Now,boys!"Hisheadwasoverthetop,hisbodyover;hewasconsciousofsomeonefalling,andtwomenneckandneckbesidehim。Nottotryandrun,nottobreakoutofawalk;togosteady,andyetkeepahead!D——ntheseholes!Abullettorethroughhissleeve,grazinghisarm——ared—hotsensation,likethetouchofaniron。ABritishshellfromcloseoverhisheadburstsixtyyardsahead;hestumbled,fellflat,pickedhimselfup。Threeaheadofhimnow!Hewalkedfaster,anddrewalongside。Twoofthemfell。’Whatluck!’hethought;andgrippinghisrifleharder,pitchedheadlongintoadeclivity。Deadbodieslaythere!ThefirstGermantrenchline,andnothingaliveinit,nothingtocleanup,nothingofitleft!Hestopped,gettinghiswind;watchingthemenpantingandstumblingin。Theroarofthegunswaslouderthaneveragain,barragingthesecondline。Sofar,good!Andherewashiscaptain!
  "Ready,boys?On,then!"
  Thistimehemovedmoreslowlystill,overterriblegoing,allholesandhummocks。Halfconsciouslyhetookcoverallhecould。Theairwasalivewiththewhistlefrommachine—gunfirestormingacrosszigzagfashion—aliveitwaswithbullets,dust,andsmoke。’HowshallItellher?’hethought。Therewouldbenothingtotellbutjustasortofjaggedbrownsensation。Hekepthiseyessteadilybeforehim,notwantingtoseethemenfalling,notwantinganythingtodiverthimfromgettingthere。Hefeltthefaintfanningofthepassingbullets。Thesecondlinemustbeclosenow。Whydidn’tthatbarragelift?Wasthisnewdodgeoffiringtillthelastsecondgoingtodothemin?Anotherhundredyardsandhewouldbebangintoit。Heflunghimselfflatandwaited;lookingathiswrist—watchhenotedthathisarmwassoakedwithblood。Hethought:’Awound!NowIshallgohome。ThankGod!Oh,Noel!’Thepassingbulletswhirledabovehim;hecouldhearthemeventhroughthescreechandthunderoftheshell—fire。’Thebeastlythings!’hethought:Avoicebesidehimgaspedout:
  "It’slifted,sir。"
  Hecalled:"Comeon,boys!"andwentforward,stooping。Abulletstruckhisrifle。Theshockmadehimstaggerandsentanelectricshockspinninguphisarm。’Luckagain!’hethought。’Nowforit!
  Ihaven’tseenaGermanyet!’Heleapedforward,spunround,flunguphisarms,andfellonhisback,shotthroughandthrough……
  Thepositionwasconsolidated,astheysay,andinthedarknessstretcher—bearerswereoutoverthehalf—mile。Likewill—o’—the—
  wisps,withtheirshadedlanterns,theymoved,hourafterhour,slowlyquarteringtheblackhoneycombwhichlaybehindthenewBritishline。Nowandtheninthelightofsomestar—shelltheirfiguresweredisclosed,bendingandraisingtheformsofthewounded,orwieldingpickandshovel。
  "Officer。"
  "Dead?"
  "Sure。"
  "Search。"
  >Fromtheshadedlantern,loweredtojustabovethebody,ayellowishglarefellonfaceandbreast。Thehandsofthesearchermovedinthatlittlepooloflight。Thebearerwhowastakingnotesbentdown。
  "Anotherboy,"hesaid。"Thatallhehas?"
  Thesearcherraisedhimself。
  "Justthose,andaphoto。"
  "Dispatch—case;poundloose;cigarette—case;wristwatch;photo。
  Let’sseeit。"
  Thesearcherplacedthephotointhepooloflight。Thetinyfaceofagirlstaredupatthem,unmoved,fromitsshorthair。
  "Noel,"saidthesearcher,reading。
  "H’m!Takecareofit。Stickitinhiscase。Comeon!"
  Thepooloflightdissolved,anddarknessforevercoveredCyrilMorland。
  II
  WhenthosefourtooktheirseatsintheGrandCircleatQueen’sHalltheprogrammewasalreadyatthesecondnumber,which,inspiteofalltheeffortsofpatriotism,wasofGermanorigin——aBrandenburgconcertobyBach。Morecuriousstill,itwasencored。Piersondidnotapplaud,hewastoofargoneinpleasure,andsatwitharaptsmileonhisface,obliviousofhissurroundings。Heremainedthusremovedfrommortaljoysandsorrowstillthelastapplausehaddiedaway,andLeila’svoicesaidinhisear:
  "Isn’titawonderfulaudience,Edward?Lookatallthatkhaki。
  Who’dhavethoughtthoseyoungmencaredformusic——goodmusic——
  Germanmusic,too?"
  Piersonlookeddownatthepatientmassofstandingfiguresinstrawhatsandmilitarycaps,withfacesturnedalloneway,andsighed。
  "IwishIcouldgetanaudiencelikethatinmychurch。"
  AsmilecreptoutatthecornerofLeila’slips。Shewasthinking:
  ’Ah!YourChurchisoutofdate,mydear,andsoareyou!YourChurch,withitssmellofmouldandincense,itsstained—glass,andnarrowedlengthanddroningorgan。PoorEdward,sooutoftheworld!’Butsheonlypressedhisarm,andwhispered:
  "LookatNoel!"
  ThegirlwastalkingtoJimmyFort。Hercheeksweregushed,andshelookedprettierthanPiersonhadseenherlookforalongtimenow,eversinceKestrel,indeed。HeheardLeilasigh。
  "Doesshegetnewsofherboy?DoyourememberthatMayWeek,Edward?Wewereveryyoungthen;evenyouwereyoung。Thatwassuchaprettylittleletteryouwroteme。Icanseeyoustill—wanderinginyourdressclothesalongtheriver,amongthe’holy’cows。"
  Buthereyesslidroundagain,watchingherotherneighbourandthegirl。AviolinisthadbeguntoplaytheCesarFranckSonata。ItwasPierson’sfavouritepieceofmusic,bringinghim,asitwere,aviewofheaven,ofdevotionalblueairwheredevoutstarswereshininginasunlitnoon,aboveecstatictreesandwaterswhereecstaticswanswereswimming。
  "Queerworld,Mr。Pierson!Fancythoseboyshavingtogobacktobarracklifeafterlisteningtothat!,What’syourfeeling?Arewemovingbacktotheapes?DidwetouchtopnotewiththatSonata?"
  Piersonturnedandcontemplatedhisquestionershrewdly。
  "No,CaptainFort,Idonotthinkwearemovingbacktotheapes;ifweevercamefromthem。Thoseboyshavethesoulsofheroes!"
  "Iknowthat,sir,perhapsbetterthanyoudo。"
  "Ah!yes,"saidPiersonhumbly,"Iforgot,ofcourse。"Buthestilllookedathisneighbourdoubtfully。ThisCaptainFort,whowasafriendofLeila’s,andwhohadtwicebeentoseethem,puzzledhim。
  Hehadafrankface,afrankvoice,butqueeropinions,orsoitseemedto,Pierson—littlebitsofMoslemism,littlebitsofthebackwoods,andtheveldt;queerunexpectedcynicisms,allsortsofsideviewsonEnglandhadlodgedinhim,andhedidnothidethem。
  Theycamefromhimlikebullets,inthatfrankvoice,anddrilledlittleholesinthelistener。Thosecriticalsayingsflewsomuchmorepoignantlyfromonewhohadbeenthroughthesameeducationalmillashimself,thaniftheyhadmerelycomefromsomeroughdiamond,someartist,someforeigner,evenfromadoctorlikeGeorge。
  Andtheyalwaysmadehimuncomfortable,likethetouchofapricklyleaf;theydidnotamusehim。CertainlyEdwardPiersonshrankfromtheroughtouchesofaknock—aboutphilosophy。Afterall,itwasbutnaturalthatheshould。
  HeandNoelleftafterthefirstpartoftheconcert,partingfromtheothertwoatthedoor。Heslippedhishandthroughherarm;and,followingoutthosethoughtsofhisintheconcert—hall,asked:
  "DoyoulikeCaptainFort,Nollie?"
  "Yes;he’saniceman。"
  "Heseemsaniceman,certainly;hehasanicesmile,butstrangeviews,I’mafraid。"
  "HethinkstheGermansarenotmuchworsethanweare;hesaysthatagoodmanyofusarebulliestoo。"
  "Yes,thatisthesortofthingImean。"
  "Butarewe,Daddy?"
  "Surelynot。"
  "ApolicemanItalkedtooncesaidthesame。CaptainFortsaysthatveryfewmencanstandhavingpowerputintotheirhandswithoutbeingspoiled。Hetoldmesomedreadfulstories。Hesayswehavenoimagination,sothatweoftendothingswithoutseeinghowbrutaltheyare。"
  "We’renotperfect,Nollie;butonthewholeIthinkwe’reakindpeople。"
  Noelwassilentamoment,thensaidsuddenly:
  "Kindpeopleoftenthinkothersarekindtoo,whentheyreallyaren’t。CaptainFortdoesn’tmakethatmistake。"
  "Ithinkhe’salittlecynical,andalittledangerous。"
  "Areallpeopledangerouswhodon’tthinklikeothers,Daddy?"
  Pierson,incapableofmockery,wasnotincapableofseeingwhenhewasbeingmocked。Helookedathisdaughterwithasmile。
  "Notquitesobadasthat,Nollie;butMr。Fortiscertainlysubversive。Ithinkperhapshehasseentoomanyqueersidesoflife。"
  "Ilikehimthebetterforthat。"
  "Well,well,"Piersonansweredabsently。HehadworktodoinpreparationforaConfirmationClass,andsoughthisstudyongettingin。
  Noelwenttothedining—roomtodrinkherhotmilk。Thecurtainswerenotdrawn,andbrightmoonlightwascomingin。Withoutlightingup,shesettheetnagoing,andstoodlookingatthemoon—fullforthesecondtimesincesheandCyrilhadwaitedforitintheAbbey。
  Andpressingherhandstoherbreast,sheshivered。Ifonlyshecouldsummonhimfromthemoonlightoutthere;ifonlyshewereawitch—couldseehim,knowwherehewas,whatdoing!Forafortnightnowshehadreceivednoletter。Everydaysincehehadleftshehadreadthecasualtylists,withthesuperstitiousfeelingthattodosowouldkeephimoutofthem。ShetookuptheTimes。Therewasjustenoughlight,andshereadtherollofhonour——tillthemoonshoneinonher,lyingonthefloor,withthedroppedjournal……
  Butshewasproud,andsoontookgrieftoherroom,asonthatnightafterhelefther,shehadtakenlove。Nosignbetrayedtothehouseherdisaster;thejournalonthefloor,andthesmelloftheburntmilkwhichhadboiledover,revealednothing。Afterall,shewasbutoneofathousandheartswhichspentthatmoonlitnightinagony。
  Eachnight,yearin,yearout,athousandfaceswereburiedinpillowstosmotherthatfirstawfulsenseofdesolation,andgropeforthesecretspirit—placewherebereavedsoulsgo,toreceivesomefeebletouchofhealingfromknowledgeofeachother’strouble