"Youhavecome,monsieur,frommyfriendMongenod?"hesaid。
"Yes,"repliedErnest,growingtimidwhenhesawbeforehimafaceassombreasOthello’s。"MynameisErnestdeLaBriere,relatedtothefamilyofthelatecabinetminister,andhisprivatesecretaryduringhistermofoffice。Onhisdismissal,hisExcellencyputmeintheCourtofClaims,towhichIamlegalcounsel,andwhereImaypossiblysucceedaschief——"
"AndhowdoesallthisconcernMademoiselledeLaBastie?"askedthecount。
"Monsieur,Iloveher;andIhavetheunhoped—forhappinessofbeinglovedbyher。Hearme,monsieur,"criedErnest,checkingaviolentmovementonthepartoftheangryfather。"Ihavethestrangestconfessiontomaketoyou,ashamefuloneforamanofhonor;buttheworstpunishmentofmyconduct,naturalenoughinitself,isnotthetellingofittoyou;no,Ifearthedaughterevenmorethanthefather。"
Ernestthenrelatedsimply,andwiththenoblenessthatcomesofsincerity,allthefactsofhislittledrama,notomittingthetwentyormoreletters,whichhehadbroughtwithhim,northeinterviewwhichhehadjusthadwithCanalis。WhenMonsieurMignonhadfinishedreadingtheletters,theunfortunatelover,paleandsuppliant,actuallytrembledunderthefieryglanceoftheProvencal。
"Monsieur,"saidthelatter,"inthiswholematterthereisbutoneerror,butthatiscardinal。Mydaughterwillnothavesixmillions;
attheutmost,shewillhaveamarriageportionoftwohundredthousandfrancs,andverydoubtfulexpectations。"
"Ah,monsieur!"criedErnest,risingandgraspingMonsieurMignon’shand;"youtakealoadfrommybreast。Nothingcannowhindermyhappiness。Ihavefriends,influence;IshallcertainlybechiefoftheCourtofClaims。HadMademoiselleMignonnomorethantenthousandfrancs,ifIhadeventomakeasettlementonher,sheshouldstillbemywife;andtomakeherhappyasyou,monsieur,havemadeyourwifehappy,tobetoyouarealson(forIhavenofather),arethedeepestdesiresofmyheart。"
CharlesMignonsteppedbackthreepacesandfixeduponLaBrierealookwhichenteredtheeyesoftheyoungmanasadaggerentersitssheath;hestoodsilentamoment,recognizingtheabsolutecandor,thepuretruthfulnessofthatopennatureinthelightoftheyoungman’sinspiredeyes。"Isfateatlastwearyofpursuingme?"heaskedhimself。"AmItofindinthisyoungmanthepearlofsons—in—law?"Hewalkedupanddowntheroominstrongagitation。
"Monsieur,"hesaidatlast,"youareboundtosubmitwhollytothejudgmentwhichyouhavecomeheretoseek,otherwiseyouarenowplayingafarce。"
"Oh,monsieur!"
"Listentome,"saidthefather,nailingLaBrierewherehestoodwithaglance。"Ishallbeneitherharsh,norhard,norunjust。Youshallhavetheadvantagesandthedisadvantagesofthefalsepositioninwhichyouhaveplacedyourself。Mydaughterbelievesthatshelovesoneofthegreatpoetsoftheday,whosefameisreallythatwhichhasattractedher。Well,I,herfather,intendtogivehertheopportunitytochoosebetweenthecelebritywhichhasbeenabeacontoher,andthepoorrealitywhichtheironyoffatehasflungatherfeet。OughtshenottochoosebetweenCanalisandyourself?IrelyuponyourhonornottorepeatwhatIhavetoldyouastothestateofmyaffairs。Youmayeachcome,ImeanyouandyourfriendtheBarondeCanalis,toHavreforthelasttwoweeksofOctober。Myhousewillbeopentobothofyou,andmydaughtermusthaveanopportunitytostudyyou。Youmustyourselfbringyourrival,andnotdisabusehimastothefoolishtaleshewillhearaboutthewealthoftheComtedeLaBastie。IgotoHavreto—morrow,andIshallexpectyouthreedayslater。Adieu,monsieur。"
PoorLaBrierewentbacktoCanaliswithadraggingstep。Thepoet,meantime,lefttohimself,hadgivenwaytoacurrentofthoughtoutofwhichhadcomethatsecondaryimpulsewhichMonsieurdeTalleyrandvaluedsomuch。Thefirstimpulseisthevoiceofnature,thesecondthatofsociety。
"Agirlworthsixmillions,"hethoughttohimself,"andmyeyeswerenotabletoseethatgoldshininginthedarkness!WithsuchafortuneIcouldbepeerofFrance,count,marquis,ambassador。I’verepliedtomiddle—classwomenandsillywomen,andcraftycreatureswhowantedautographs;I’vetiredmyselftodeathwithmasked—ballintrigues,——attheverymomentwhenGodwassendingmeasoulofprice,anangelwithgoldenwings!Bah!I’llmakeapoemonit,andperhapsthechancewillcomeagain。Heavens!theluckofthatlittleLaBriere,——struttingaboutinmylustre——plagiarism!I’mthecastandhe’stobethestatue,ishe?ItistheoldfableofBertrandandRaton。Sixmillions,abeauty,aMignondeLaBastie,anaristocraticdivinitylovingpoetryandthepoet!AndI,whoshowedmymuscleasmanoftheworld,whodidthoseAlcideexercisestosilencebymoralforcethechampionofphysicalforce,thatoldsoldierwithaheart,thatfriendofthisveryyounggirl,whomhe’llnowgoandtellthatIhaveaheartofiron!——I,toplayNapoleonwhenIoughttohavebeenseraphic!Goodheavens!True,Ishallhavemyfriend。Friendshipisabeautifulthing。Ihavekepthim,butatwhataprice!Sixmillions,that’sthecostofit;wecan’thavemanyfriendsifwepayallthatforthem。"
LaBriereenteredtheroomasCanalisreachedthispointinhismeditations。Hewasgloompersonified。
"Well,what’sthematter?"saidCanalis。
"ThefatherexactsthathisdaughtershallchoosebetweenthetwoCanalis——"
"Poorboy!"criedthepoet,laughing,"he’sacleverfellow,thatfather。"
"IhavepledgedmyhonorthatIwilltakeyoutoHavre,"saidLaBriere,piteously。
"Mydearfellow,"saidCanalis,"ifitisaquestionofyourhonoryoumaycountonme。I’llaskforleaveofabsenceforamonth。"
"Modesteissobeautiful!"exclaimedLaBriere,inadespairingtone。
"Youwillcrushmeoutofsight。Iwonderedallalongthatfateshouldbesokindtome;Iknewitwasallamistake。"
"Bah!wewillseeaboutthat,"saidCanaliswithinhumangaiety。
Thatevening,afterdinner,CharlesMignonandDumay,wereflying,byvirtueofthreefrancstoeachpostilion,fromParistoHavre。Thefatherhadeasedthewatch—dog’smindastoModesteandherloveaffairs;theguardwasrelieved,andButscha’sinnocenceestablished。
"Itisallforthebest,myoldDumay,"saidthecount,whohadbeenmakingcertaininquiriesofMongenodrespectingCanalisandLaBriere。
"Wearegoingtohavetwoactorsforonepart!"hecriedgaily。
Nevertheless,herequestedhisoldcomradetobeabsolutelysilentaboutthecomedywhichwasnowtobeplayedattheChalet,——acomedyitmightbe,butalsoagentlepunishment,or,ifyoupreferit,alessongivenbythefathertothedaughter。
ThetwofriendskeptupalongconversationallthewayfromParistoHavre,whichputthecolonelinpossessionofthefactsrelatingtohisfamilyduringthepastfouryears,andinformingDumaythatDesplein,thegreatsurgeon,wascomingtoHavreattheendofthepresentmonthtoexaminethecataractonMadameMignon’seyes,anddecideifitwerepossibletorestorehersight。
Afewmomentsbeforethebreakfast—hourattheChalet,theclackingofapostilion’swhipapprisedthefamilythatthetwosoldierswerearriving;onlyafather’sjoyatreturningafterlongabsencecouldbeheraldedwithsuchclatter,anditbroughtallthewomentothegardengate。Thereismanyafatherandmanyachild——perhapsmorefathersthanchildren——whowillunderstandthedelightsofsuchanarrival,andthathappyfactshowsthatliteraturehasnoneedtodepictit。
Perhapsallgentleandtenderemotionsarebeyondtherangeofliterature。
Notawordthatcouldtroublethepeaceofthefamilywasutteredonthisjoyfulday。Trucewastacitlyestablishedbetweenfather,mother,andchildastotheso—calledmysteriouslovewhichhadpaledModeste’scheeks,——forthiswasthefirstdayshehadleftherbedsinceDumay’sdepartureforParis。Thecolonel,withthecharmingdelicacyofatruesoldier,neverlefthiswife’ssidenorreleasedherhand;buthewatchedModestewithdelight,andwasneverwearyofnotingherrefined,elegant,andpoeticbeauty。Isitnotbysuchseemingtriflesthatwerecognizeamanoffeeling?Modeste,whofearedtointerruptthesubduedjoyofthehusbandandwifekeptatalittledistance,comingfromtimetotimetokissherfather’sforehead,andwhenshekisseditovermuchsheseemedtomeanthatshewaskissingitfortwo,——forBettinaandherself。
"Oh,mydarling,Iunderstandyou,"saidthecolonel,pressingherhandassheassailedhimwithkisses。
"Hush!"whisperedtheyounggirl,glancingathermother。
Dumay’sratherslyandpregnantsilencemadeModestesomewhatuneasyastotheupshotofhisjourneytoParis。Shelookedathimfurtivelyeverynowandthen,withoutbeingabletogetbeneathhisepidermis。
Thecolonel,likeaprudentfather,wantedtostudythecharacterofhisonlydaughter,andaboveallconsulthiswife,beforeenteringonaconferenceuponwhichthehappinessofthewholefamilydepended。
"To—morrow,mypreciouschild,"hesaidastheypartedforthenight,"getupearly,andwewillgoandtakeawalkontheseashore。Wehavetotalkaboutyourpoems,MademoiselledeLaBastie。"
Hislastwords,accompaniedbyasmile,whichreappearedlikeanechoonDumay’slips,wereallthatgaveModesteanyclewtowhatwascoming;butitwasenoughtocalmheruneasinessandkeepherawakefarintothenightwithherheadfullofsuppositions;this,however,didnotpreventherfrombeingdressedandreadyinthemorninglongbeforethecolonel。
"Youknowall,mykindpapa?"shesaidassoonastheywereontheroadtothebeach。
"Iknowall,andagooddealmorethanyoudo,"hereplied。
Afterthatremarkfatheranddaughterwentsomelittlewayinsilence。
"Explaintome,mychild,howithappensthatagirlwhomhermotheridolizescouldhavetakensuchanimportantstepastowritetoastrangerwithoutconsultingher。"
"Oh,papa!becausemammawouldneverhaveallowedit。"
"Anddoyouthink,mydaughter,thatthatwasproper?Thoughyouhavebeeneducatingyourmindinthisfatalway,howisitthatyourgoodsenseandyourintellectdidnot,indefaultofmodesty,stepinandshowyouthatbyactingasyoudidyouwerethrowingyourselfataman’shead。Tothinkthatmydaughter,myonlyremainingchild,shouldlackprideanddelicacy!Oh,Modeste,youmadeyourfatherpasstwohoursinhellwhenheheardofit;for,afterall,yourconducthasbeenthesameasBettina’swithouttheexcuseofaheart’sseduction;
youwereacoquetteincoldblood,andthatsortofcoquetryishead—
love,theworstviceofFrenchwomen。"
"I,withoutpride!"saidModeste,weeping;"butHEhasnotyetseenme。"
"HEknowsyourname。"
"Ididnottellittohimtillmyeyeshadvindicatedthecorrespondence,lastingthreemonths,duringwhichoursoulshadspokentoeachother。"
"Oh,mydearmisguidedangel,youhavemixedupaspeciesofreasonwithafollythathascompromisedyourownhappinessandthatofyourfamily。"
"But,afterall,papa,happinessistheabsolutionofmytemerity,"
shesaid,pouting。
"Oh!yourconductistemerity,isit?"
"Atemeritythatmymotherpractisedbeforeme,"sheretortedquickly。
"Rebelliouschild!yourmotherafterseeingmeataballtoldherfather,whoadoredher,thatshethoughtshecouldbehappywithme。
Behonest,Modeste;isthereanylikenessbetweenalovehastilyconceived,Iadmit,butundertheeyesofafather,andyourmadactionofwritingtoastranger?"
"Astranger,papa?sayratheroneofourgreatestpoets,whosecharacterandwhoselifeareexposedtothestrongestlightofday,todetraction,tocalumny,——amanrobedinfame,andtowhom,mydearfather,Iwasamereliteraryanddramaticpersonage,oneofShakespeare’swomen,untilthemomentwhenIwishedtoknowifthemanhimselfwereasbeautifulashissoul。"
"GoodGod!mypoorchild,youareturningmarriageintopoetry。Butif,fromtimeimmemorial,girlshavebeencloisteredinthebosomoftheirfamilies,ifGod,ifsociallawsputthemunderthesternyokeofparentalsanction,itis,markmywords,tosparethemthemisfortunesthatthisverypoetrywhichcharmsanddazzlesyou,andwhichyouarethereforeunabletojudgeof,wouldentailuponthem。
Poetryisindeedoneofthepleasuresoflife,butitisnotlifeitself。"
"Papa,thatisasuitstillpendingbeforetheCourtofFacts;thestruggleisforevergoingonbetweenourheartsandtheclaimsoffamily。"
"Alasforthechildthatfindsherhappinessinresistingthem,"saidthecolonel,gravely。"In1813Isawoneofmycomrades,theMarquisd’Aiglemont,marryhiscousinagainstthewishesofherfather,andthepairhavesincepaiddearfortheobstinacywhichtheyounggirltookforlove。Thefamilymustbesovereigninmarriage。"
"Mypoethastoldmeallthat,"sheanswered。"HeplayedOrgonforsometime;andhewasbraveenoughtodisparagethepersonallivesofpoets。"
"Ihavereadyourletters,"saidCharlesMignon,withtheflickerofamalicioussmileonhislipsthatmadeModesteveryuneasy,"andI
oughttoremarkthatyourlastepistlewasscarcelypermissibleinanywoman,evenaJulied’Etanges。GoodGod!whatharmnovelsdo!"
"Weshouldlivethem,mydearfather,whetherpeoplewrotethemornot;Ithinkitisbettertoreadthem。TherearenotsomanyadventuresinthesedaysastherewereunderLouisXIV。andLouisXV。,andsotheypublishfewernovels。Besides,ifyouhavereadthoseletters,youmustknowthatIhavechosenthemostangelicsoul,themoststernlyuprightmanforyourson—in—law,andyoumusthaveseenthatweloveoneanotheratleastasmuchasyouandmammaloveeachother。Well,Iadmitthatitwasnotallexactlyconventional;Idid,ifyouWILLhavemesayso,wrong——"
"Ihavereadyourletters,"saidherfather,interruptingher,"andI
knowexactlyhowfaryourloverjustifiedyouinyourowneyesforaproceedingwhichmightbepermissibleinsomewomanwhounderstoodlife,andwhowasledawaybystrongpassion,butwhichinayounggirloftwentywasamonstrouspieceofwrong—doing。"
"Yes,wrong—doingforcommonplacepeople,forthenarrow—mindedGobenheims,whomeasurelifewithasquarerule。Pleaseletuskeeptotheartisticandpoeticlife,papa。Weyounggirlshaveonlytwowaystoact;wemustletamanknowwelovehimbymincingandsimpering,orwemustgotohimfrankly。Isn’tthelastwaygrandandnoble?WeFrenchgirlsaredeliveredoverbyourfamilieslikesomuchmerchandise,atsixtydays’sight,sometimesthirty,likeMademoiselleVilquin;butinEngland,andSwitzerland,andGermany,theyfollowverymuchtheplanIhaveadopted。Nowwhathaveyougottosaytothat?AmInothalfGerman?"
"Child!"criedthecolonel,lookingather;"thesupremacyofFrancecomesfromhersoundcommon—sense,fromthelogictowhichhernoblelanguageconstrainshermind。Franceisthereasonofthewholeworld。
EnglandandGermanyareromanticintheirmarriagecustoms,——thougheventherenoblefamiliesfollowourcustoms。Youcertainlydonotmeantodenythatyourparents,whoknowlife,whoareresponsibleforyoursoulandforyourhappiness,havenorighttoguardyoufromthestumbling—blocksthatareinyourway?Goodheavens!"hecontinued,speakinghalftohimself,"isittheirfault,orisitours?Oughtwetoholdourchildrenunderanironyoke?Mustwebepunishedforthetendernessthatleadsustomakethemhappy,andteachesourheartshowtodoso?"
Modestewatchedherfatheroutofthecornerofhereyeasshelistenedtothisspeciesofinvocation,utteredinabrokenvoice。
"Wasitwrong,"shesaid,"inagirlwhoseheartwasfree,tochooseforherhusbandnotonlyacharmingcompanion,butamanofnoblegenius,borntoanhonorableposition,agentleman;theequalofmyself,agentlewoman?"
"Youlovehim?"askedherfather。
"Father!"shesaid,layingherheaduponhisbreast,"wouldyouseemedie?"
"Enough!"saidtheoldsoldier。"Iseeyourloveisinextinguishable。"
"Yes,inextinguishable。"
"Cannothingchangeit?"
"Nothing。"
"Nocircumstances,notreachery,nobetrayal?Youmeanthatyouwilllovehiminspiteofeverything,becauseofhispersonalattractions?
EventhoughheprovedaD’Estourny,wouldyoulovehimstill?"
"Oh,myfather!youdonotknowyourdaughter。CouldIloveacoward,amanwithouthonor,withoutfaith?"
"Butsupposehehaddeceivedyou?"
"He?thathonest,candidsoul,halfmelancholy?Youarejoking,father,orelseyouhavenevermethim。"
"Butyouseenowthatyourloveisnotinextinguishable,asyouchosetocallit。Ihavealreadymadeyouadmitthatcircumstancescouldalteryourpoem;don’tyounowseethatfathersaregoodforsomething?"
"Youwanttogivemealecture,papa;itispositivelyl’AmidesEnfantsoveragain。"
"Poordeceivedgirl,"saidherfather,sternly;"itisnolectureofmine,Icountfornothinginit;indeed,Iamonlytryingtosoftentheblow。"
"Father,don’tplaytrickswithmylife,"exclaimedModeste,turningpale。
"Then,mydaughter,summonallyourcourage。Itisyouwhohavebeenplayingtrickswithyourlife,andlifeisnowtrickingyou。"
Modestelookedatherfatherinstupidamazement。
"Supposethatyoungmanwhomyoulove,whomyousawfourdaysagoatchurchinHavre,wasadeceiver?"
"Never!"shecried;"thatnoblehead,thatpalefacefullofpoetry——"
"——wasalie,"saidthecolonelinterruptingher。"HewasnomoreMonsieurdeCanalisthanIamthatsailoroverthereputtingouttosea。"
"Doyouknowwhatyouarekillinginme?"shesaidinalowvoice。
"Comfortyourself,mychild;thoughaccidenthasputthepunishmentofyourfaultintothefaultitself,theharmdoneisnotirreparable。
Theyoungmanwhomyouhaveseen,andwithwhomyouexchangedheartsbycorrespondence,isaloyalandhonorablefellow;hecametomeandconfidedeverything。Helovesyou,andIhavenoobjectiontohimasason—in—law。"
"IfheisnotCanalis,whoishethen?"saidModesteinachangedvoice。
"Thesecretary;hisnameisErnestdeLaBriere。Heisnotanobleman;
butheisoneofthoseplainmenwithfixedprinciplesandsoundmoralitywhosatisfyparents。However,thatisnotthepoint;youhaveseenhimandnothingcanchangeyourheart;youhavechosenhim,comprehendhissoul,itisasbeautifulashehimself。"
ThecountwasinterruptedbyaheavysighfromModeste。Thepoorgirlsatwithhereyesfixedonthesea,paleandrigidasdeath,asifapistolshothadstruckherinthosefatalwords,APLAINMAN,WITH
FIXEDPRINCIPLESANDSOUNDMORALITY。
"Deceived!"shesaidatlast。
"Likeyourpoorsister,butlessfatally。"
"Letusgohome,father,"shesaid,risingfromthehillockonwhichtheyweresitting。"Papa,hearme,IswearbeforeGodtoobeyyourwishes,whatevertheymaybe,intheAFFAIRofmymarriage。"
"Thenyoudon’tlovehimanylonger?"askedherfather。
"Ilovedanhonestman,withnofalsehoodonhisface,uprightasyourself,incapableofdisguisinghimselflikeanactor,withthepaintofanotherman’sgloryonhischeeks。"
"Yousaidnothingcouldchangeyou";remarkedthecolonel,ironically。
"Ah,donottriflewithme!"sheexclaimed,claspingherhandsandlookingatherfatherindistressfulanxiety;"don’tyouseethatyouarewringingmyheartanddestroyingmybeliefswithyourjokes。"
"Godforbid!Ihavetoldyoutheexacttruth。"
"Youareverykind,father,"shesaidafterapause,andwithasortofsolemnity。
"Hehaskeptyourletters,"resumedthecolonel;"nowsupposetherashcaressesofyoursoulhadfallenintothehandsofoneofthosepoetswho,asDumaysays,lighttheircigarswiththem?"
"Oh!——youaregoingtoofar。"
"Canalistoldhimso。"
"HasDumayseenCanalis?"
"Yes,"answeredherfather。
Thetwowalkedalonginsilence。
"SothatiswhythatGENTLEMAN,"resumedModeste,"toldmesomuchharmofpoetsandpoetry;nowonderthelittlesecretarysaid——Why,"
sheadded,interruptingherself,"hisvirtues,hisnoblequalities,hisfinesentimentsarenothingbutanepistolarytheft!Themanwhostealsgloryandanamemayverylikely——"
"——breaklocks,stealpurses,andcutpeople’sthroatsonthehighway,"criedthecolonel。"Ah,youyounggirls,that’sjustlikeyou,——withyourperemptoryopinionsandyourignoranceoflife。Amanwhooncedeceivesawomanwasbornunderthescaffoldonwhichheoughttodie。"
ThisridiculestoppedModeste’seffervescenceforamomentandleast,andagaintherewassilence。
"Mychild,"saidthecolonel,presently,"meninsociety,asinnatureeverywhere,aremadetowintheheartsofwomen,andwomenmustdefendthemselves。Youhavechosentoinverttheparts。Wasthatwise?
Everythingisfalseinafalseposition。Thefirstwrong—doingwasyours。No,amanisnotamonsterbecauseheseekstopleaseawoman;
itisourrighttowinherbyaggressionwithallitsconsequences,shortofcrimeandcowardice。Amanmayhavemanyvirtuesevenifhedoesdeceiveawoman;ifhedeceivesher,itisbecausehefindsherwantinginsomeofthetreasuresthathesoughtinher。Nonebutaqueen,anactress,orawomanplacedsofaraboveamanthatsheseemstohimaqueen,cangotohimofherselfwithoutincurringblame——andforayounggirltodoit!Why,sheisfalsetoallthatGodhasgivenherthatissacredandlovelyandnoble,——nomatterwithwhatgraceorwhatpoetryorwhatprecautionsshesurroundsherfault。"
"Toseekthemasterandfindtheservant!"shesaidbitterly,"oh!I
canneverrecoverfromit!"
"Nonsense!MonsieurErnestdeLaBriereis,tomythinking,fullytheequaloftheBarondeCanalis。Hewasprivatesecretaryofacabinetminister,andheisnowcounselfortheCourtofClaims;hehasaheart,andheadoresyou,but——heDOESNOTWRITEVERSES。No,Iadmit,heisnotapoet;butforallthathemayhaveaheartfullofpoetry。
Atanyrate,mydeargirl,"addedherfather,asModestemadeagestureofdisgust,"youaretoseebothofthem,theshamandthetrueCanalis——"
"Oh,papa!——"
"Didyounotswearjustnowtoobeymeineverything,evenintheAFFAIRofyourmarriage?Well,Iallowyoutochoosewhichofthetwoyoulikebestforahusband。Youhavebegunbyapoem,youshallfinishwithabucolic,andtryifyoucandiscovertherealcharacterofthesegentlemenhere,inthecountry,onafewhuntingorfishingexcursions。"
Modestebowedherheadandwalkedhomewithherfather,listeningtowhathesaidbutreplyingonlyinmonosyllables。
CHAPTERXVI
DISENCHANTED
Thepoorgirlhadfallenhumiliatedfromthealpshehadscaledinsearchofhereagle’snest,intothemudoftheswampbelow,where(tousethepoeticlanguageofanauthorofourday)"afterfeelingthesolesofherfeettootendertotreadthebrokenglassofreality,Imagination——whichinthatdelicatebosomunitedthewholeofwomanhood,fromtheviolet—hiddenreveriesofachasteyounggirltothepassionatedesiresofthesex——hadledherintoenchantedgardenswhere,oh,bittersight!shenowsaw,springingfromtheground,notthesublimeflowerofherfancy,butthehairy,twistedlimbsoftheblackmandragora。"Modestesuddenlyfoundherselfbroughtdownfromthemysticheightsofherlovetoastraight,flatroadborderedwithditches,——inshortthework—daypathofcommonlife。Whatardent,aspiringsoulwouldnothavebeenbruisedandbrokenbysuchafall?
Whosefeetweretheseatwhichshehadshedherthoughts?TheModestewhore—enteredtheChaletwasnomoretheModestewhohadleftittwohoursearlierthananactressinthestreetislikeanactressontheboards。Shefellintoastateofnumbdepressionthatwaspitifultosee。Thesunwasdarkened,natureveileditself,eventheflowersnolongerspoketoher。Likeallyounggirlswithatendencytoextremes,shedranktoodeeplyofthecupofdisillusion。Shefoughtagainstreality,andwouldnotbendhernecktotheyokeoffamilyandconventions;itwas,shefelt,tooheavy,toohard,toocrushing。Shewouldnotlistentotheconsolationsofherfatherandmother,andtastedasortofsavagepleasureinlettinghersoulsuffertotheutmost。
"PoorButschawasright,"shesaidoneevening。
Thewordsindicatethedistanceshetravelledinashortspaceoftimeandingloomysadnessacrossthebarrenplainofreality。Sadness,whencausedbytheovergrowthofhope,isadisease,——sometimesafatalone。ItwouldbenomeanobjectforphysiologytosearchoutinwhatwaysandbywhatmeansThoughtproducesthesameinternaldisorganizationaspoison;andhowitisthatdespairaffectstheappetite,destroysthepylorus,andchangesallthephysicalconditionsofthestrongestlife。SuchwasthecasewithModeste。Inthreeshortdaysshebecametheimageofmorbidmelancholy;shedidnotsing,shecouldnotbemadetosmile。CharlesMignon,becominguneasyatthenon—arrivalofthetwofriends,thoughtofgoingtofetchthem,when,ontheeveningofthefifthday,hereceivednewsoftheirmovementsthroughLatournelle。
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