首页 >出版文学> THE SOUL OF NICHOLAS SNYDERS, OR THE MISER OF ZAND>第2章
  Involuntarilyhestretchedhishandstowardsit,feltapangofgriefwhenitvanished,leavingonlythegreylight。Hedrewtherustybolts,flungopenthegreatdoor。Astrangeworldlaybeforehim,anewworldoflightsandshadows,thatwooedhimwiththeirbeauty——aworldoflow,softvoicesthatcalledtohim。Therecametohimagainthatbittersenseofhavingbeenrobbed。
  "Icouldhavebeensohappyalltheseyears,"murmuredoldNicholastohimself。"ItisjustthelittletownIcouldhaveloved——soquaint,soquiet,sohomelike。Imighthavehadfriends,oldcronies,childrenofmyownmaybe——"
  AvisionofthesleepingChristinaflashedbeforehiseyes。Shehadcometohimachild,feelingonlygratitudetowardshim。Hadhehadeyeswithwhichtoseeher,allthingsmighthavebeendifferent。
  Wasittoolate?Heisnotsoold——notsoveryold。Newlifeisinhisveins。ShestilllovesJan,butthatwastheJanofyesterday。
  Inthefuture,Jan’severywordanddeedwillbepromptedbytheevilsoulthatwasoncethesoulofNicholasSnyders——thatNicholasSnydersrememberswell。Cananywomanlovethat,letthecasebeashandsomeasyouwill?
  Oughthe,asanhonestman,tokeepthesoulhehadwonfromJanbywhatmightbecalledatrick?Yes,ithadbeenafairbargain,andJanhadtakenhisprice。Besides,itwasnotasifJanhadfashionedhisownsoul;thesethingsarechance。Whyshouldonemanbegivengold,andanotherbegivenparchedpeas?HehasasmuchrighttoJan’ssoulasJaneverhad。Heiswiser,hecandomoregoodwithit。
  ItwasJan’ssoulthatlovedChristina;letJan’ssoulwinherifitcan。AndJan’ssoul,listeningtotheargument,couldnotthinkofawordtoofferinopposition。
  ChristinawasstillasleepwhenNicholasre—enteredthekitchen。Helightedthefireandcookedthebreakfastandthenarousedhergently。
  TherewasnodoubtitwasChristina。ThemomenthereyesrestedonoldNicholas,therecamebacktoherthefrightenedrabbitlookthathadalwaysirritatedhim。Itirritatedhimnow,buttheirritationwasagainsthimself。
  "YouweresleepingsosoundlywhenIcameinlastnight——"Christinacommenced。
  "Andyouwereafraidtowakeme,"Nicholasinterruptedher。"Youthoughttheoldcurmudgeonwouldbecross。Listen,Christina。Youpaidoffyesterdaythelastdebtyourfatherowed。Itwastoanoldsailor——Ihadnotbeenabletofindhimbefore。Notacentmoredoyouowe,andthereremainstoyou,outofyourwages,ahundredflorins。Itisyourswheneveryouliketoaskmeforit。"
  Christinacouldnotunderstand,neitherthennorduringthedaysthatfollowed;nordidNicholasenlightenher。ForthesoulofJanhadenteredintoaverywiseoldman,whoknewthatthebestwaytolivedownthepastistoliveboldlythepresent。AllthatChristinacouldbesureofwasthattheoldNicholasSnydershadmysteriouslyvanished,thatinhisplaceremainedanewNicholas,wholookedatherwithkindlyeyes——frankandhonest,compellingconfidence。ThoughNicholasneversaidso,itcametoChristinathatsheherself,hersweetexample,herennoblinginfluenceitwasthathadwroughtthiswondrouschange。AndtoChristinatheexplanationseemednotimpossible——seemedevenpleasing。
  Thesightofhislittereddeskwashatefultohim。Startingearlyinthemorning,Nicholaswoulddisappearfortheentireday,returningintheeveningtiredbutcheerful,bringingwithhimflowersthatChristinalaughedat,tellinghimtheywereweeds。Butwhatmatterednames?ToNicholastheywerebeautiful。InZandamthechildrenranfromhim,thedogsbarkedafterhim。SoNicholas,escapingthroughbyways,wouldwanderfarintothecountry。Childreninthevillagesaroundcametoknowakindoldfellowwholovedtolinger,hishandsrestingonhisstaff,watchingtheirplay,listeningtotheirlaughter;whoseamplepocketswerestorehousesofgoodthings。Theirelders,passingby,wouldwhispertooneanotherhowlikehewasinfeaturestowickedoldNick,themiserofZandam,andwouldwonderwherehecamefrom。Norwasitonlythefacesofthechildrenthattaughthislipstosmile。Ittroubledhimatfirsttofindtheworldsofullofmarvellouslyprettygirls——ofprettywomenalso,allmoreorlesslovable。Itbewilderedhim。Untilhefoundthat,notwithstanding,Christinaremainedalwaysinhisthoughtstheprettiest,themostlovableofthemall。Theneveryprettyfacerejoicedhim:itremindedhimofChristina。
  Onhisreturnthesecondday,Christinahadmethimwithsadnessinhereyes。FarmerBeerstraater,anoldfriendofherfather’s,hadcalledtoseeNicholas;notfindingNicholas,hadtalkedalittlewithChristina。Ahardheartedcreditorwasturninghimoutofhisfarm。
  ChristinapretendednottoknowthatthecreditorwasNicholashimself,butmarvelledthatsuchwickedmencouldbe。Nicholassaidnothing,butthenextdayFarmerBeerstraaterhadcalledagain,allsmiles,blessings,andgreatwonder。
  "Butwhatcanhavecometohim?"repeatedFarmerBeerstraateroverandover。
  ChristinahadsmiledandansweredthatperhapsthegoodGodhadtouchedhisheart;butthoughttoherselfthatperhapsithadbeenthegoodinfluenceofanother。Thetaleflew。Christinafoundherselfbesiegedoneveryhand,and,findingherintercessionsinvariablysuccessful,grewdaybydaymorepleasedwithherself,andbyconsequencemorepleasedwithNicholasSnyders。ForNicholaswasacunningoldgentleman。Jan’ssoulinhimtookdelightinundoingtheevilthesoulofNicholashadwrought。ButthebrainofNicholasSnydersthatremainedtohimwhispered:"Letthelittlemaidthinkitisallherdoing。"
  ThenewsreachedtheearsofDameToelast。ThesameeveningsawherseatedintheinglenookoppositeNicholasSnyders,whosmokedandseemedbored。
  "Youaremakingafoolofyourself,NicholasSnyders,"theDametoldhim。"Everybodyislaughingatyou。"
  "Ihadrathertheylaughedthancursedme,"growledNicholas。
  "Haveyouforgottenallthathaspassedbetweenus?"demandedtheDame。
  "WishIcould,"sighedNicholas。
  "Atyourage——"commencedtheDame。
  "IamfeelingyoungerthanIeverfeltinallmylife,"Nicholasinterruptedher。
  "Youdon’tlookit,"commentedtheDame。
  "Whatdolooksmatter?"snappedNicholas。"Itisthesoulofamanthatistherealman。"
  "Theycountforsomething,astheworldgoes,"explainedtheDame。
  "Why,ifIlikedtofollowyourexampleandmakeafoolofmyself,thereareyoungmen,fineyoungmen,handsomeyoungmen——"
  "Don’tletmestandinyourway,"interposedNicholasquickly。"Asyousay,IamoldandIhaveadevilofatemper。TheremustbemanybettermenthanIam,menmoreworthyofyou。"
  "Idon’tsaytherearenot,"returnedtheDame:"butnobodymoresuitable。Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。Ihaven’tlostmywits,NicholasSnyders,ifyouhave。Whenyouareyourselfagain——"
  NicholasSnyderssprangtohisfeet。"Iammyself,"hecried,"andintendtoremainmyself!WhodaressayIamnotmyself?"
  "Ido,"retortedtheDamewithexasperatingcoolness。"NicholasSnydersisnothimselfwhenatthebiddingofapretty—faceddollheflingshismoneyoutofthewindowwithbothhands。Heisacreaturebewitched,andIamsorryforhim。She’llfoolyouforthesakeofherfriendstillyouhaven’tacentleft,andthenshe’lllaughatyou。Whenyouareyourself,NicholasSnyders,youwillbecrazywithyourself——rememberthat。"AndDameToelastmarchedoutandslammedthedoorbehindher。
  "Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。"Thephrasekeptringinginhisears。Hithertohisnew—foundhappinesshadfilledhislife,leavingnoroomforthought。ButtheoldDame’swordshadsowntheseedofreflection。
  WasChristinafoolinghim?Thethoughtwasimpossible。Neveroncehadshepleadedforherself,neveronceforJan。TheevilthoughtwasthecreatureofDameToelast’sevilmind。Christinalovedhim。Herfacebrightenedathiscoming。Thefearofhimhadgoneoutofher;aprettytyrannyhadreplacedit。Butwasitthelovethathesought?
  Jan’ssoulinoldNick’sbodywasyoungandardent。ItdesiredChristinanotasadaughter,butasawife。CoulditwinherinspiteofoldNick’sbody?ThesoulofJanwasanimpatientsoul。Bettertoknowthantodoubt。
  "Donotlightthecandles;letustalkalittlebythelightofthefireonly,"saidNicholas。AndChristina,smiling,drewherchairtowardstheblaze。ButNicholassatintheshadow。
  "Yougrowmorebeautifuleveryday,Christina,"saidNicholas——
  "sweeterandmorewomanly。Hewillbeahappymanwhocallsyouwife。"
  ThesmilepassedfromChristina’sface。"Ishallnevermarry,"sheanswered。"Neverisalongword,littleone。"
  "Atruewomandoesnotmarrythemanshedoesnotlove。"
  "Butmayshenotmarrythemanshedoes?"smiledNicholas。
  "Sometimesshemaynot,"Christinaexplained。
  "Andwhenisthat?"
  Christina’sfacewasturnedaway。"Whenhehasceasedtoloveher。"
  ThesoulinoldNick’sbodyleaptwithjoy。"Heisnotworthyofyou,Christina。Hisnewfortunehaschangedhim。Isitnotso?Hethinksonlyofmoney。Itisasthoughthesoulofamiserhadenteredintohim。HewouldmarryevenDameToelastforthesakeofhergold—bagsandherbroadlandsandhermanymills,ifonlyshewouldhavehim。
  Cannotyouforgethim?"
  "Ishallneverforgethim。Ishallneverloveanotherman。Itrytohideit;andoftenIamcontenttofindthereissomuchintheworldthatIcando。Butmyheartisbreaking。"Sheroseand,kneelingbesidehim,claspedherhandsaroundhim。"Iamgladyouhaveletmetellyou,"shesaid。"ButforyouIcouldnothaveborneit。Youaresogoodtome。"
  Foranswerhestrokedwithhiswitheredhandthegoldenhairthatfelldisorderedabouthiswitheredknees。Sheraisedhereyestohim;theywerefilledwithtears,butsmiling。
  "Icannotunderstand,"shesaid。"Ithinksometimesthatyouandhemusthavechangedsouls。Heishardandmeanandcruel,asyouusedtobe。"Shelaughed,andthearmsaroundhimtightenedforamoment。
  "Andnowyouarekindandtenderandgreat,asoncehewas。ItisasifthegoodGodhadtakenawaymyloverfrommetogivetomeafather。"
  "Listentome,Christina,"hesaid。"Itisthesoulthatistheman,notthebody。Couldyounotlovemeformynewsoul?"
  "ButIdoloveyou,"answeredChristina,smilingthroughhertears。
  "Couldyouasahusband?"Thefirelightfelluponherface。
  Nicholas,holdingitbetweenhiswitheredhands,lookedintoitlongandhard;andreadingwhathereadthere,laiditbackagainsthisbreastandsootheditwithhiswitheredhand。
  "Iwasjesting,littleone,"hesaid。"Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。Andso,inspiteofall,youstillloveJan?"
  "Ilovehim,"answeredChristina。"Icannothelpit。"
  "Andifhewould,youwouldmarryhim,lethissoulbewhatitmay?"
  "Ilovehim,"answeredChristina。"Icannothelpit。"
  OldNicholassatalonebeforethedyingfire。Isitthesoulorthebodythatistherealman?Theanswerwasnotsosimpleashehadthoughtit。
  "ChristinalovedJan"——soNicholasmumbledtothedyingfire——"whenhehadthesoulofJan。Sheloveshimstill,thoughhehasthesoulofNicholasSnyders。WhenIaskedherifshecouldloveme,itwasterrorIreadinhereyes,thoughJan’ssoulisnowinme;shedivinedit。ItmustbethebodythatistherealJan,therealNicholas。IfthesoulofChristinaenteredintothebodyofDameToelast,shouldI
  turnfromChristina,fromhergoldenhair,herfathomlesseyes,heraskinglips,todesiretheshrivelledcarcassofDameToelast?No;I
  shouldstillshudderatthethoughtofher。YetwhenIhadthesoulofNicholasSnyders,Ididnotloatheher,whileChristinawasnaughttome。Itmustbewiththesoulthatwelove,elseJanwouldstillloveChristinaandIshouldbeMiserNick。YethereamIlovingChristina,usingNicholasSnyders’brainandgoldtothwartNicholasSnyders’everyscheme,doingeverythingthatIknowwillmakehimmadwhenhecomesbackintohisownbody;whileJancaresnolongerforChristina,wouldmarryDameToelastforherbroadlands,hermanymills。Clearlyitisthesoulthatistherealman。ThenoughtInottobeglad,thinkingIamgoingbackintomyownbody,knowingthatI
  shallwedChristina?ButIamnotglad;Iamverymiserable。IshallnotgowithJan’ssoul,Ifeelit;myownsoulwillcomebacktome。
  Ishallbeagainthehard,cruel,meanoldmanIwasbefore,onlynowIshallbepoorandhelpless。Thefolkswilllaughatme,andIshallcursethem,powerlesstodothemevil。EvenDameToelastwillnotwantmewhenshelearnsall。AndyetImustdothisthing。SolongasJan’ssoulisinme,IloveChristinabetterthanmyself。Imustdothisforhersake。Iloveher——Icannothelpit。"
  OldNicholasrose,tookfromtheplace,whereamonthbeforehehadhiddenit,thesilverflaskofcunningworkmanship。
  "Justtwomoreglassfulsleft,"musedNicholas,ashegentlyshooktheflaskagainsthisear。Helaiditonthedeskbeforehim,thenopenedonceagaintheoldgreenledger,fortherestillremainedworktobedone。
  HewokeChristinaearly。"Taketheseletters,Christina,"hecommanded。"Whenyouhavedeliveredthemall,butnotbefore,gotoJan;tellhimIamwaitingheretoseehimonamatterofbusiness。"
  Hekissedherandseemedlothtolethergo。
  "Ishallonlybealittlewhile,"smiledChristina。
  "Allpartingstakebutalittlewhile,"heanswered。
  OldNicholashadforeseenthetroublehewouldhave。Janwascontent,hadnodesiretobeagainasentimentalyoungfool,eagertosaddlehimselfwithapennilesswife。Janhadotherdreams。
  "Drink,man,drink!"criedNicholasimpatiently,"beforeIamtemptedtochangemymind。Christina,providedyoumarryher,istherichestbrideinZandam。Thereisthedeed;readit;andreadquickly。"
  ThenJanconsented,andthetwomendrank。Andtherepassedabreathbetweenthemasbefore;andJanwithhishandscoveredhiseyesamoment。
  Itwasapity,perhaps,thathedidso,forinthatmomentNicholassnatchedatthedeedthatlaybesideJanonthedesk。Thenextinstantitwasblazinginthefire。
  "Notsopoorasyouthought!"camethecroakingvoiceofNicholas。
  "Notsopoorasyouthought!Icanbuildagain,Icanbuildagain!"
  Andthecreature,laughinghideously,dancedwithitswitheredarmsspreadoutbeforetheblaze,lestJanshouldseektorescueChristina’sburningdowrybeforeitwasdestroyed。
  JandidnottellChristina。InspiteofallJancouldsay,shewouldgoback。NicholasSnydersdroveherfromthedoorwithcurses。Shecouldnotunderstand。TheonlythingclearwasthatJanhadcomebacktoher。
  "’Twasastrangemadnessthatseizeduponme,"Janexplained。"Letthegoodseabreezesbringushealth。"
  SofromthedeckofJan’sshiptheywatchedoldZandamtillitvanishedintoair。
  Christinacriedalittleatthethoughtofneverseeingitagain;butJancomfortedherandlaternewfaceshidtheold。
  AndoldNicholasmarriedDameToelast,but,happily,livedtodoevilonlyforafewyearslonger。
  Longafter,JantoldChristinathewholestory,butitsoundedveryimprobable,andChristina——though,ofcourse,shedidnotsayso——didnotquitebelieveit,butthoughtJanwastryingtoexplainawaythatstrangemonthofhislifeduringwhichhehadwooedDameToelast。YetitcertainlywasstrangethatNicholas,forthesameshortmonth,hadbeensodifferentfromhisusualself。
  "Perhaps,"thoughtChristina,"ifIhadnottoldhimIlovedJan,hewouldnothavegonebacktohisoldways。Pooroldgentleman!Nodoubtitwasdespair。"