humour。
"Ah,then,yousawthatwonderfullady?"
"Wonderfulshewasindeed。Isawherafterwards,too,sittingontheterraceinthestarlight。Iimagineshewasnotalone。"
"No,indeed,Iwaswithher——fornearlyanhour。ThenIwalkedhomewithher。"
"Ah!Anddidyougoin?"
"No,shesaiditwastoolatetoaskme;thoughsheremarkedthatinageneralwayshedidnotstanduponceremony。"
"Shedidherselfinjustice。Whenitcametolosingyourmoneyforyou,shemadeyouinsist。"
"Ah,younoticedthattoo?"criedPickering,stillquiteunconfused。
"Ifeltasifthewholetablewerestaringatme;buthermannerwassograciousandreassuringthatIsupposedshewasdoingnothingunusual。Sheconfessed,however,afterwards,thatsheisveryeccentric。Theworldbegantocallherso,shesaid,beforesheeverdreamedofit,andatlastfindingthatshehadthereputation,inspiteofherself,sheresolvedtoenjoyitsprivileges。Now,shedoeswhatshechooses。"
"Inotherwords,sheisaladywithnoreputationtolose!"
Pickeringseemedpuzzled;hesmiledalittle。"Isnotthatwhatyousayofbadwomen?"
"Ofsome——ofthosewhoarefoundout。"
"Well,"hesaid,stillsmiling,"IhavenotyetfoundoutMadameBlumenthal。"
"Ifthat’shername,Isupposeshe’sGerman。"
"Yes;butshespeaksEnglishsowellthatyouwouldn’tknowit。Sheisveryclever。Herhusbandisdead。"
Ilaughedinvoluntarilyattheconjunctionofthesefacts,andPickering’sclearglanceseemedtoquestionmymirth。"Youhavebeensobluntlyfrankwithme,"Isaid,"thatItoomustbefrank。Tellme,ifyoucan,whetherthiscleverMadameBlumenthal,whosehusbandisdead,hasgivenapointtoyourdesireforasuspensionofcommunicationwithSmyrna。"
Heseemedtopondermyquestion,unshrinkingly。"Ithinknot,"hesaid,atlast。"Ihavehadthedesireforthreemonths;IhaveknownMadameBlumenthalforlessthantwenty—fourhours。"
"Verytrue。Butwhenyoufoundthisletterofyoursonyourplaceatbreakfast,didyouseemforamomenttoseeMadameBlumenthalsittingopposite?"
"Opposite?"
"Opposite,mydearfellow,oranywhereintheneighbourhood。Inaword,doessheinterestyou?"
"Verymuch!"hecried,joyously。
"Amen!"Ianswered,jumpingupwithalaugh。"Andnow,ifwearetoseetheworldinamonth,thereisnotimetolose。LetusbeginwiththeHardtwald。"
Pickeringrose,andwestrolledawayintotheforest,talkingoflighterthings。Atlastwereachedtheedgeofthewood,satdownonafallenlog,andlookedoutacrossanintervalofmeadowatthelongwoodedwavesoftheTaunus。WhatmyfriendwasthinkingofIcan’tsay;Iwasmeditatingonhisqueerbiography,andlettingmywondermentwanderawaytoSmyrna。SuddenlyIrememberedthathepossessedaportraitoftheyounggirlwhowaswaitingforhimthereinawhite—walledgarden。Iaskedhimifhehaditwithhim。Hesaidnothing,butgravelytookouthispocket—bookanddrewforthasmallphotograph。Itrepresented,asthepoetsays,asimplemaideninherflower——aslightyounggirl,withacertainchildishroundnessofcontour。Therewasnoeaseinherposture;shewasstanding,stifflyandshyly,forherlikeness;sheworeashort—waistedwhitedress;herarmshungathersidesandherhandswereclaspedinfront;herheadwasbentdownwardalittle,andherdarkeyesfixed。
Butherawkwardnesswasasprettyasthatofsomeangularseraphinamediaevalcarving,andinhertimidgazethereseemedtolurkthequestioninggleamofchildhood。"Whatisthisfor?"hercharmingeyesappearedtoask;"whyhaveIbeendressedupforthisceremonyinawhitefrockandamberbeads?"
"Graciouspowers!"Isaidtomyself;"whatanenchantingthingisinnocence!"
"Thatportraitwastakenayearandahalfago,"saidPickering,asifwithanefforttobeperfectlyjust。"Bythistime,Isuppose,shelooksalittlewiser。"
"Notmuch,Ihope,"Isaid,asIgaveitback。"Sheisverysweet!"
"Yes,poorgirl,sheisverysweet——nodoubt!"Andheputthethingawaywithoutlookingatit。
Weweresilentforsomemoments。Atlast,abruptly——"Mydearfellow,"Isaid,"IshouldtakesomesatisfactioninseeingyouimmediatelyleaveHomburg。"
"Immediately?"
"To—day——assoonasyoucangetready。"
Helookedatme,surprised,andlittlebylittleheblushed。"ThereissomethingIhavenottoldyou,"hesaid;"somethingthatyoursayingthatMadameBlumenthalhasnoreputationtolosehasmademehalfafraidtotellyou。"
"IthinkIcanguessit。MadameBlumenthalhasaskedyoutocomeandplayhergameforheragain。"
"Notatall!"criedPickering,withasmileoftriumph。"Shesaysthatshemeanstoplaynomoreforthepresent。Shehasaskedmetocomeandtaketeawithherthisevening。"
"Ah,then,"Isaid,verygravely,"ofcourseyoucan’tleaveHomburg。"
Heanswerednothing,butlookedaskanceatme,asifhewereexpectingmetolaugh。"Urgeitstrongly,"hesaidinamoment。
"Sayit’smyduty——thatIMUST。"
Ididn’tquiteunderstandhim,but,featheringtheshaftwithaharmlessexpletive,ItoldhimthatunlesshefollowedmyadviceI
wouldneverspeaktohimagain。
Hegotup,stoodbeforeme,andstruckthegroundwithhisstick。
"Good!"hecried;"Iwantedanoccasiontobreakarule——toleapabarrier。Hereitis。Istay!"
Imadehimamockbowforhisenergy。"That’sveryfine,"Isaid;
"butnow,toputyouinapropermoodforMadameBlumenthal’stea,wewillgoandlistentothebandplaySchubertunderthelindens。"Andwewalkedbackthroughthewoods。
IwenttoseePickeringthenextday,athisinn,andonknocking,asdirected,athisdoor,wassurprisedtohearthesoundofaloudvoicewithin。Myknockremainedunnoticed,soIpresentlyintroducedmyself。Ifoundnocompany,butIdiscoveredmyfriendwalkingupanddowntheroomandapparentlydeclaimingtohimselffromalittlevolumeboundinwhitevellum。Hegreetedmeheartily,threwhisbookonthetable,andsaidthathewastakingaGermanlesson。
"Andwhoisyourteacher?"Iasked,glancingatthebook。
Heratheravoidedmeetingmyeye,asheanswered,afteraninstant’sdelay,"MadameBlumenthal。"
"Indeed!Hasshewrittenagrammar?"
"It’snotagrammar;it’satragedy。"Andhehandedmethebook。
Iopenedit,andbeheld,indelicatetype,withaverylargemargin,anHistorischesTrauerspielinfiveacts,entitled"Cleopatra。"
Therewereagreatmanymarginalcorrectionsandannotations,apparentlyfromtheauthor’shand;thespeecheswereverylong,andtherewasaninordinatenumberofsoliloquiesbytheheroine。Oneofthem,Iremember,towardstheendoftheplay,beganinthisfashion—
"What,afterall,islifebutsensation,andsensationbutdeception?——realitythatpalesbeforethelightofone’sdreamsasOctavia’sdullbeautyfadesbesidemine?Butletmebelieveinsomeintenserbliss,andseekitinthearmsofdeath!"
"Itseemsdecidedlypassionate,"Isaid。"Hasthetragedyeverbeenacted?"
"Neverinpublic;butMadameBlumenthaltellsmethatshehaditplayedatherownhouseinBerlin,andthatsheherselfundertookthepartoftheheroine。"
Pickering’sunworldlylifehadnotbeenofasorttosharpenhisperceptionoftheridiculous,butitseemedtomeanunmistakablesignofhisbeingunderthecharm,thatthisinformationwasverysoberlyoffered。Hewaspreoccupied,hewasirresponsivetomyexperimentalobservationsonvulgartopics——thehotweather,theinn,theadventofAdelinaPatti。Atlast,utteringhisthoughts,heannouncedthatMadameBlumenthalhadprovedtobeanextraordinarilyinterestingwoman。HeseemedtohavequiteforgottenourlongtalkintheHartwaldt,andbetrayednosenseofthisbeingaconfessionthathehadtakenhisplungeandwasfloatingwiththecurrent。HeonlyrememberedthatIhadspokenslightinglyofthelady,andhenowhintedthatitbehovedmetoamendmyopinion。Ihadreceivedthedaybeforesostronganimpressionofasortofspiritualfastidiousnessinmyfriend’snature,thatonhearingnowthestrikingofanewhour,asitwere,inhisconsciousness,andobservinghowtheechoesofthepastwereimmediatelyquenchedinitsmusic,Isaidtomyselfthatithadcertainlytakenadelicatehandtowindupthatfinemachine。NodoubtMadameBlumenthalwasacleverwoman。ItisagoodGermancustomatHomburgtospendthehourprecedingdinnerinlisteningtotheorchestraintheKurgarten;
MozartandBeethoven,fororganismsinwhichtheinterfusionofsoulandsenseispeculiarlymysterious,areavigorousstimulustotheappetite。PickeringandIconformed,aswehaddonethedaybefore,tothefashion,andwhenwewereseatedunderthetrees,hebegantoexpatiateonhisfriend’smerits。
"Idon’tknowwhethersheiseccentricornot,"hesaid;"tomeeveryoneseemseccentric,andit’snotforme,yetawhile,tomeasurepeoplebymynarrowprecedents。Ineversawagamingtableinmylifebefore,andsupposedthatagamblerwasofnecessitysomeduskyvillainwithanevileye。InGermany,saysMadameBlumenthal,peopleplayatrouletteastheyplayatbilliards,andherownvenerablemotheroriginallytaughthertherulesofthegame。Itisarecognisedsourceofsubsistencefordecentpeoplewithsmallmeans。
ButIconfessMadameBlumenthalmightdoworsethingsthanplayatroulette,andyetmakethemharmoniousandbeautiful。Ihaveneverbeeninthehabitofthinkingpositivebeautythemostexcellentthinginawoman。Ihavealwayssaidtomyselfthatifmyheartwereevertobecaptureditwouldbebyasortofgeneralgrace——asweetnessofmotionandtone——onwhichonecouldcountforsoothingimpressions,asonecountsonamusicalinstrumentthatisperfectlyintune。MadameBlumenthalhasit——thisgracethatsoothesandsatisfies;anditseemsthemoreperfectthatitkeepsorderandharmonyinacharacterreallypassionatelyardentandactive。Withhereagernatureandherinnumerableaccomplishmentsnothingwouldbeeasierthanthatsheshouldseemrestlessandaggressive。Youwillknowher,andIleaveyoutojudgewhethershedoesseemso!Shehaseverygift,andculturehasdoneeverythingforeach。WhatgoesoninhermindIofcoursecan’tsay;whatreachestheobserver——theadmirer——issimplyasortoffragrantemanationofintelligenceandsympathy。"
"MadameBlumenthal,"Isaid,smiling,"mightbetheloveliestwomanintheworld,andyoutheobjectofherchoicestfavours,andyetwhatIshouldmostenvyyouwouldbe,notyourpeerlessfriend,butyourbeautifulimagination。"
"That’sapolitewayofcallingmeafool,"saidPickering。"Youareasceptic,acynic,asatirist!IhopeIshallbealongtimecomingtothat。"
"Youwillmakethejourneyfastifyoutravelbyexpresstrains。Butpraytellme,haveyouventuredtointimatetoMadameBlumenthalyourhighopinionofher?"
"Idon’tknowwhatImayhavesaid。Shelistensevenbetterthanshetalks,andIthinkitpossibleImayhavemadeherlistentoagreatdealofnonsense。ForafterthefirstfewwordsIexchangedwithherIwasconsciousofanextraordinaryevaporationofallmyolddiffidence。Ihave,intruth,Isuppose,"headdedinamoment,"owingtomypeculiarcircumstances,agreataccumulatedfundofunutteredthingsofallsortstogetridof。Lastevening,sittingtherebeforethatcharmingwoman,theycameswarmingtomylips。
VerylikelyIpouredthemallout。Ihaveasenseofhavingenshroudedmyselfinasortofmistoftalk,andofseeingherlovelyeyesshiningthroughitoppositetome,likefog—lampsatsea。"Andhere,ifIrememberrightly,Pickeringbrokeoffintoanardentparenthesis,anddeclaredthatMadameBlumenthal’seyeshadsomethinginthemthathehadneverseeninanyothers。"Itwasajumbleofcruditiesandinanities,"hewenton;"theymusthaveseemedtohergreatrubbish;butIfeltthewiserandthestronger,somehow,forhavingfiredoffallmyguns——theycouldhurtnobodynowiftheyhit—
—andIimagineImighthavegonefarwithoutfindinganotherwomaninwhomsuchanexhibitionwouldhaveprovokedsolittleofmerecoldamusement。"
"MadameBlumenthal,onthecontrary,"Isurmised,"enteredintoyoursituationwithwarmth。"
"Exactlyso——thegreatest!Shehasfeltandsuffered,andnowsheunderstands!"
"Shetoldyou,Iimagine,thatsheunderstoodyouasifshehadmadeyou,andsheofferedtobeyourguide,philosopher,andfriend。"
"Shespoketome,"Pickeringanswered,afterapause,"asIhadneverbeenspokentobefore,andsheofferedme,formally,alltheofficesofawoman’sfriendship。"
"Whichyouasformallyaccepted?"
"Toyouthescenesoundsabsurd,Isuppose,butallowmetosayI
don’tcare!"Pickeringspokewithanairofgenialdefiancewhichwasthemostinoffensivethingintheworld。"Iwasverymuchmoved;
Iwas,infact,verymuchexcited。Itriedtosaysomething,butI
couldn’t;Ihadhadplentytosaybefore,butnowIstammeredandbungled,andatlastIboltedoutoftheroom。"
"Meanwhileshehaddroppedhertragedyintoyourpocket!"
"Notatall。Ihadseenitonthetablebeforeshecamein。
AfterwardsshekindlyofferedtoreadGermanaloudwithme,fortheaccent,twoorthreetimesaweek。’Whatshallwebeginwith?’sheasked。’Withthis!’Isaid,andheldupthebook。Andsheletmetakeittolookitover。"
Iwasneitheracynicnorasatirist,butevenifIhadbeen,ImighthavebeendisarmedbyPickering’sassurance,beforeweparted,thatMadameBlumenthalwishedtoknowmeandexpectedhimtointroduceme。
Amongthefoolishthingswhich,accordingtohisownaccount,hehaduttered,weresomegenerouswordsinmypraise,towhichshehadcivillyreplied。IconfessIwascurioustoseeher,butIbeggedthattheintroductionshouldnotbeimmediate,forIwishedtoletPickeringworkouthisdestinyalone。ForsomedaysIsawlittleofhim,thoughwemetattheKursaalandstrolledoccasionallyinthepark。Iwatched,inspiteofmydesiretolethimalone,forthesignsandportentsoftheworld’sactionuponhim——ofthatportionoftheworld,inespecial,ofwhichMadameBlumenthalhadconstitutedherselftheagent。Heseemedveryhappy,andgavemeinadozenwaysanimpressionofincreasedself—confidenceandmaturity。Hismindwasadmirablyactive,andalways,afteraquarterofanhour’stalkwithhim,Iaskedmyselfwhatexperiencecouldreallydo,thatinnocencehadnotdone,tomakeitbrightandfine。Iwasstruckwithhisdeepenjoymentofthewholespectacleofforeignlife——itsnovelty,itspicturesqueness,itslightandshade——andwiththeinfinitefreedomwithwhichhefelthecouldgoandcomeandroveandlingerandobserveitall。Itwasanexpansion,anawakening,acomingtomoralmanhood。EachtimeImethimhespokealittlelessofMadameBlumenthal;butheletmeknowgenerallythathesawheroften,andcontinuedtoadmireher。Iwasforcedtoadmittomyself,inspiteofpreconceptions,thatifshewerereallytherulingstarofthishappyseason,shemustbeaverysuperiorwoman。Pickeringhadtheairofaningenuousyoungphilosophersittingatthefeetofanausteremuse,andnotofasentimentalspendthriftdanglingaboutsomesupremeincarnationoflevity。
CHAPTERII。
MadameBlumenthalseemed,forthetime,tohaveabjuredtheKursaal,andInevercaughtaglimpseofher。Heryoungfriend,apparently,wasaninterestingstudy,andthestudiousmindprefersseclusion。
Shereappeared,however,atlast,oneeveningattheopera,wherefrommychairIperceivedherinabox,lookingextremelypretty。
AdelinaPattiwassinging,andaftertherisingofthecurtainIwasoccupiedwiththestage;butonlookingroundwhenitfellfortheentr’acte,Isawthattheauthoressof"Cleopatra"hadbeenjoinedbyheryoungadmirer。Hewassittingalittlebehindher,leaningforward,lookingoverhershoulderandlistening,whileshe,slowlymovingherfantoandfroandlettinghereyewanderoverthehouse,wasapparentlytalkingofthispersonandthat。Nodoubtshewassayingsharpthings;butPickeringwasnotlaughing;hiseyeswerefollowinghercovertindications;hismouthwashalfopen,asitalwayswaswhenhewasinterested;helookedintenselyserious。I
wasgladthat,havingherbacktohim,shewasunabletoseehowhelooked。Itseemedthepropermomenttopresentmyselfandmakehermybow;butjustasIwasabouttoleavemyplaceagentleman,whominamomentIperceivedtobeanoldacquaintance,cametooccupythenextchair。Recognitionandmutualgreetingsfollowed,andIwasforcedtopostponemyvisittoMadameBlumenthal。Iwasnotsorry,foritverysoonoccurredtomethatNiedermeyerwouldbejustthemantogivemeafairproseversionofPickering’slyrictributestohisfriend。HewasanAustrianbybirth,andhadformerlylivedaboutEuropeagreatdealinaseriesofsmalldiplomaticposts。
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