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第30章

  `What'sthematter?'hesaidagain,whenshewasquieter。Butsheonlypressedherfacefurtherintohisshoulder,inpain,likeachildthatcannottell。
  `Whatisit,then?'heasked。Suddenlyshebrokeaway,wipedhereyes,regainedhercomposure,andwentandsatinachair。
  `Fatherhitme,'sheannounced,sittingbunchedup,ratherlikearuffledbird,hereyesverybright。
  `Whatfor?'hesaid。
  Shelookedaway,andwouldnotanswer。Therewasapitifulrednessabouthersensitivenostrils,andherquiveringlips。
  `Why?'herepeated,inhisstrange,soft,penetratingvoice。
  Shelookedroundathim,ratherdefiantly。
  `BecauseIsaidIwasgoingtobemarriedtomorrow,andhebulliedme。'
  `Whydidhebullyyou?'
  Hermouthdroppedagain,sherememberedthesceneoncemore,thetearscameup。
  `BecauseIsaidhedidn'tcare——andhedoesn't,it'sonlyhisdomineeringnessthat'shurt——'shesaid,hermouthpulledawrybyherweeping,allthetimeshespoke,sothathealmostsmiled,itseemedsochildish。Yetitwasnotchildish,itwasamortalconflict,adeepwound。
  `Itisn'tquitetrue,'hesaid。`Andevenso,youshouldn'tsayit。'
  `Itistrue——itistrue,'shewept,`andIwon'tbebulliedbyhispretendingit'slove——whenitisn't——hedoesn'tcare,howcanhe——no,hecan't——'
  Hesatinsilence。Shemovedhimbeyondhimself。
  `Thenyoushouldn'trousehim,ifhecan't,'repliedBirkinquietly。
  `AndIhavelovedhim,Ihave,'shewept。`I'velovedhimalways,andhe'salwaysdonethistome,hehas——'
  `It'sbeenaloveofopposition,then,'hesaid。`Nevermind——itwillbeallright。It'snothingdesperate。'
  `Yes,'shewept,`itis,itis。'
  `Why?'
  `Ishallneverseehimagain——'
  `Notimmediately。Don'tcry,youhadtobreakwithhim,ithadtobe——don'tcry。'
  Hewentovertoherandkissedherfine,fragilehair,touchingherwetcheeksgently。
  `Don'tcry,'herepeated,`don'tcryanymore。'
  Heheldherheadcloseagainsthim,verycloseandquiet。
  Atlastshewasstill。Thenshelookedup,hereyeswideandfrightened。
  `don'tyouwantme?'sheasked。
  `Wantyou?'Hisdarkened,steadyeyespuzzledheranddidnotgiveherplay。
  `DoyouwishIhadn'tcome?'sheasked,anxiousnowagainforfearshemightbeoutofplace。
  `No,'hesaid。`Iwishtherehadn'tbeentheviolence——somuchugliness——butperhapsitwasinevitable。'
  Shewatchedhiminsilence。Heseemeddeadened。
  `ButwhereshallIstay?'sheasked,feelinghumiliated。
  Hethoughtforamoment。
  `Here,withme,'hesaid。`We'remarriedasmuchtodayasweshallbetomorrow。'
  `But——'
  `I'lltellMrsVarley,'hesaid。`Nevermindnow。'
  Hesatlookingather。Shecouldfeelhisdarkenedsteadyeyeslookingatherallthetime。Itmadeheralittlebitfrightened。Shepushedherhairoffherforeheadnervously。
  `DoIlookugly?'shesaid。
  Andsheblewhernoseagain。
  Asmallsmilecameroundhiseyes。
  `No,'hesaid,`fortunately。'
  Andhewentacrosstoher,andgatheredherlikeabelonginginhisarms。Shewassotenderlybeautiful,hecouldnotbeartoseeher,hecouldonlybeartohideheragainsthimself。Now;washedallcleanbyhertears,shewasnewandfraillikeaflowerjustunfolded,aflowersonew,sotender,somadeperfectbyinnerlight,thathecouldnotbeartolookather,hemusthideheragainsthimself,coverhiseyesagainsther。Shehadtheperfectcandourofcreation,somethingtranslucentandsimple,likearadiant,shiningflowerthatmomentunfoldedinprimalblessedness。
  Shewassonew,sowonder—clear,soundimmed。Andhewassoold,sosteepedinheavymemories。Hersoulwasnew,undefinedandglimmeringwiththeunseen。Andhissoulwasdarkandgloomy,ithadonlyonegrainoflivinghope,likeagrainofmustardseed。Butthisonelivinggraininhimmatchedtheperfectyouthinher。
  `Iloveyou,'hewhisperedashekissedher,andtrembledwithpurehope,likeamanwhoisbornagaintoawonderful,livelyhopefarexceedingtheboundsofdeath。
  Shecouldnotknowhowmuchitmeanttohim,howmuchhemeantbythefewwords。Almostchildish,shewantedproof,andstatement,evenover—statement,foreverythingseemedstilluncertain,unfixedtoher。
  Butthepassionofgratitudewithwhichhereceivedherintohissoul,theextreme,unthinkablegladnessofknowinghimselflivingandfittounitewithher,he,whowassonearlydead,whowassoneartobeinggonewiththerestofhisracedowntheslopeofmechanicaldeath,couldneverbeunderstoodbyher。Heworshippedherasageworshipsyouth,hegloriedinher,because,inhisonegrainoffaith,hewasyoungasshe,hewasherpropermate。Thismarriagewithherwashisresurrectionandhislife。
  Allthisshecouldnotknow。Shewantedtobemademuchof,tobeadored。
  Therewereinfinitedistancesofsilencebetweenthem。Howcouldhetellheroftheimmanenceofherbeauty,thatwasnotform,orweight,orcolour,butsomethinglikeastrange,goldenlight!Howcouldheknowhimselfwhatherbeautylayin,forhim。Hesaid`Yournoseisbeautiful,yourchinisadorable。'Butitsoundedlikelies,andshewasdisappointed,hurt。
  Evenwhenhesaid,whisperingwithtruth,`Iloveyou,Iloveyou,'itwasnottherealtruth。Itwassomethingbeyondlove,suchagladnessofhavingsurpassedoneself,ofhavingtranscendedtheoldexistence。Howcouldhesay"I"whenhewassomethingnewandunknown,nothimselfatall?ThisI,thisoldformulaoftheage,wasadeadletter。
  Inthenew,superfinebliss,apeacesupersedingknowledge,therewasnoIandyou,therewasonlythethird,unrealisedwonder,thewonderofexistingnotasoneself,butinaconsummationofmybeingandofherbeinginanewone,anew,paradisalunitregainedfromtheduality。NorcanIsay`Iloveyou,'whenIhaveceasedtobe,andyouhaveceasedtobe:
  wearebothcaughtupandtranscendedintoanewonenesswhereeverythingissilent,becausethereisnothingtoanswer,allisperfectandatone。
  Speechtravelsbetweentheseparateparts。ButintheperfectOnethereisperfectsilenceofbliss。
  Theyweremarriedbylawonthenextday,andshedidashebadeher,shewrotetoherfatherandmother。Hermotherreplied,notherfather。
  Shedidnotgobacktoschool。ShestayedwithBirkininhisrooms,orattheMill,movingwithhimashemoved。Butshedidnotseeanybody,saveGudrunandGerald。Shewasallstrangeandwonderingasyet,butrelievedasbydawn。
  GeraldsattalkingtoheroneafternooninthewarmstudydownattheMill。Ruperthadnotyetcomehome。
  `Youarehappy?'Geraldaskedher,withasmile。
  `Veryhappy!'shecried,shrinkingalittleinherbrightness。
  `Yes,onecanseeit。'
  `Canone?'criedUrsulainsurprise。
  Helookedupatherwithacommunicativesmile。
  `Ohyes,plainly。'
  Shewaspleased。Shemeditatedamoment。
  `AndcanyouseethatRupertishappyaswell?'
  Heloweredhiseyelids,andlookedaside。
  `Ohyes,'hesaid。
  `Really!'
  `Ohyes。'
  Hewasveryquiet,asifitweresomethingnottobetalkedaboutbyhim。Heseemedsad。
  Shewasverysensitivetosuggestion。Sheaskedthequestionhewantedhertoask。
  `Whydon'tyoubehappyaswell?'shesaid。`Youcouldbejustthesame。'
  Hepausedamoment。
  `WithGudrun?'heasked。
  `Yes!'shecried,hereyesglowing。Buttherewasastrangetension,anemphasis,asiftheywereassertingtheirwishes,againstthetruth。
  `YouthinkGudrunwouldhaveme,andweshouldbehappy?'hesaid。
  `Yes,I'msure!'shecried。
  Hereyeswereroundwithdelight。Yetunderneathshewasconstrained,sheknewherowninsistence。
  `Oh,I'msoglad,'sheadded。
  Hesmiled。
  `Whatmakesyouglad?'hesaid。
  `Forhersake,'shereplied。`I'msureyou'd——you'retherightmanforher。'
  `Youare?'hesaid。`Anddoyouthinkshewouldagreewithyou?'
  `Ohyes!'sheexclaimedhastily。Then,uponreconsideration,veryuneasy:
  `ThoughGudrunisn'tsoverysimple,isshe?Onedoesn'tknowherinfiveminutes,doesone?She'snotlikemeinthat。'Shelaughedathimwithherstrange,open,dazzledface。
  `Youthinkshe'snotmuchlikeyou?'Geraldasked。
  Sheknittedherbrows。
  `Oh,inmanywayssheis。ButIneverknowwhatshewilldowhenanythingnewcomes。'
  `Youdon't?'saidGerald。Hewassilentforsomemoments。Thenhemovedtentatively。`Iwasgoingtoaskher,inanycase,togoawaywithmeatChristmas,'hesaid,inaverysmall,cautiousvoice。
  `Goawaywithyou?Foratime,youmean?'
  `Aslongasshelikes,'hesaid,withadeprecatingmovement。
  Theywerebothsilentforsomeminutes。
  `Ofcourse,'saidUrsulaatlast,`shemightjustbewillingtorushintomarriage。Youcansee。'
  `Yes,'smiledGerald。`Icansee。Butincaseshewon't——doyouthinkshewouldgoabroadwithmeforafewdays——orforafortnight?'
  `Ohyes,'saidUrsula。`I'daskher。'
  `Doyouthinkwemightallgotogether?'
  `Allofus?'AgainUrsula'sfacelightedup。`Itwouldberatherfun,don'tyouthink?'
  `Greatfun,'hesaid。
  `Andthenyoucouldsee,'saidUrsula。
  `What?'
  `Howthingswent。Ithinkitisbesttotakethehoneymoonbeforethewedding——don'tyou?'
  Shewaspleasedwiththismot。Helaughed。
  `Incertaincases,'hesaid。`I'dratheritweresoinmyowncase。'
  `Wouldyou!'exclaimedUrsula。Thendoubtingly,`Yes,perhapsyou'reright。Oneshouldpleaseoneself。'
  Birkincameinalittlelater,andUrsulatoldhimwhathadbeensaid。
  `Gudrun!'exclaimedBirkin。`She'sabornmistress,justasGeraldisabornlover——amantentitre。Ifassomebodysaysallwomenareeitherwivesormistresses,thenGudrunisamistress。'
  `Andallmeneitherloversorhusbands,'criedUrsula。`Butwhynotboth?'
  `Theoneexcludestheother,'helaughed。
  `ThenIwantalover,'criedUrsula。
  `Noyoudon't,'hesaid。
  `ButIdo,'shewailed。
  Hekissedher,andlaughed。
  ItwastwodaysafterthisthatUrsulawastogotofetchherthingsfromthehouseinBeldover。Theremovalhadtakenplace,thefamilyhadgone。GudrunhadroomsinWilleyGreen。
  Ursulahadnotseenherparentssincehermarriage。Sheweptovertherupture,yetwhatwasthegoodofmakingitup!Goodornotgood,shecouldnotgotothem。SoherthingshadbeenleftbehindandsheandGudrunweretowalkoverforthem,intheafternoon。
  Itwasawintryafternoon,withredinthesky,whentheyarrivedatthehouse。Thewindowsweredarkandblank,alreadytheplacewasfrightening。
  Astark,voidentrance—hallstruckachilltotheheartsofthegirls。
  `Idon'tbelieveIdarehavecomeinalone,'saidUrsula。`Itfrightensme。'
  `Ursula!'criedGudrun。`Isn'titamazing!Canyoubelieveyoulivedinthisplaceandneverfeltit?HowIlivedhereadaywithoutdyingofterror,Icannotconceive!'
  Theylookedinthebigdining—room。Itwasagood—sizedroom,butnowacellwouldhavebeenlovelier。Thelargebaywindowswerenaked,thefloorwasstripped,andaborderofdarkpolishwentroundthetractofpaleboarding。
  Inthefadedwallpaperweredarkpatcheswherefurniturehadstood,wherepictureshadhung。Thesenseofwalls,dry,thin,flimsy—seemingwalls,andaflimsyflooring,palewithitsartificialblackedges,wasneutralisingtothemind。Everythingwasnulltothesenses,therewasenclosurewithoutsubstance,forthewallsweredryandpapery。Whereweretheystanding,onearth,orsuspendedinsomecardboardbox?Inthehearthwasburntpaper,andscrapsofhalf—burntpaper。
  `Imaginethatwepassedourdayshere!'saidUrsula。
  `Iknow,'criedGudrun。`Itistooappalling。Whatmustwebelike,ifwearethecontentsofthis!'
  `Vile!'saidUrsula。`Itreallyis。'
  Andsherecognisedhalf—burntcoversof`Vogue'——half—burntrepresentationsofwomeningowns——lyingunderthegrate。
  Theywenttothedrawing—room。Anotherpieceofshut—inair;withoutweightorsubstance,onlyasenseofintolerablepaperyimprisonmentinnothingness。Thekitchendidlookmoresubstantial,becauseofthered—tiledfloorandthestove,butitwascoldandhorrid。
  Thetwogirlstrampedhollowlyupthebarestairs。Everysoundreechoedundertheirhearts。Theytrampeddownthebarecorridor。AgainstthewallofUrsula'sbedroomwereherthings——atrunk,awork—basket,somebooks,loosecoats,ahat—box,standingdesolateintheuniversalemptinessofthedusk。
  `Acheerfulsight,aren'tthey?'saidUrsula,lookingdownatherforsakenpossessions。
  `Verycheerful,'saidGudrun。
  Thetwogirlssetto,carryingeverythingdowntothefrontdoor。Againandagaintheymadethehollow,re—echoingtransit。Thewholeplaceseemedtoresoundaboutthemwithanoiseofhollow,emptyfutility。Inthedistancetheempty,invisibleroomssentforthavibrationalmostofobscenity。
  Theyalmostfledwiththelastarticles,intotheout—of—door。
  Butitwascold。TheywerewaitingforBirkin,whowascomingwiththecar。Theywentindoorsagain,andupstairstotheirparents'frontbedroom,whosewindowslookeddownontheroad,andacrossthecountryattheblack—barredsunset,blackandredbarred,withoutlight。
  Theysatdowninthewindow—seat,towait。Bothgirlswerelookingovertheroom。Itwasvoid,withameaninglessnessthatwasalmostdreadful。
  `Really,'saidUrsula,`thisroomcouldn'tbesacred,couldit?'
  Gudrunlookedoveritwithsloweyes。
  `Impossible,'shereplied。
  `WhenIthinkoftheirlives——father'sandmother's,theirlove,andtheirmarriage,andallofuschildren,andourbringing—up——wouldyouhavesuchalife,Prune?'
  `Iwouldn't,Ursula。'
  `Itallseemssonothing——theirtwolives——there'snomeaninginit。Really,iftheyhadnotmet,andnotmarried,andnotlivedtogether——itwouldn'thavemattered,wouldit?'
  `Ofcourse——youcan'ttell,'saidGudrun。
  `No。ButifIthoughtmylifewasgoingtobelikeit——Prune,'shecaughtGudrun'sarm,`Ishouldrun。'
  Gudrunwassilentforafewmoments。
  `Asamatteroffact,onecannotcontemplatetheordinarylife——onecannotcontemplateit,'repliedGudrun。`Withyou,Ursula,itisquitedifferent。Youwillbeoutofitall,withBirkin。He'saspecialcase。
  Butwiththeordinaryman,whohashislifefixedinoneplace,marriageisjustimpossible。Theremaybe,andthereare,thousandsofwomenwhowantit,andcouldconceiveofnothingelse。Buttheverythoughtofitsendsmemad。Onemustbefree,aboveall,onemustbefree。
  Onemayforfeiteverythingelse,butonemustbefree——onemustnotbecome7,PinchbeckStreet——orSomersetDrive——orShortlands。Nomanwillbesufficienttomakethatgood——noman!Tomarry,onemusthaveafreelance,ornothing,acomrade—in—arms,aGlckstritter。Amanwithapositioninthesocialworld——well,itisjustimpossible,impossible!'
  `Whatalovelyword——aGlckstritter!'saidUrsula。`Somuchnicerthanasoldieroffortune。'
  `Yes,isn'tit?'saidGudrun。`I'dtilttheworldwithaGlcksritter。
  Butahome,anestablishment!Ursula,whatwoulditmean?——think!'
  `Iknow,'saidUrsula。`We'vehadonehome——that'senoughforme。'
  `Quiteenough,'saidGudrun。
  `Thelittlegreyhomeinthewest,'quotedUrsulaironically。
  `Doesn'titsoundgrey,too,'saidGudrungrimly。
  Theywereinterruptedbythesoundofthecar。TherewasBirkin。Ursulawassurprisedthatshefeltsolitup,thatshebecamesuddenlysofreefromtheproblemsofgreyhomesinthewest。
  Theyheardhisheelsclickonthehallpavementbelow。
  `Hello!'hecalled,hisvoiceechoingalivethroughthehouse。Ursulasmiledtoherself。Hewasfrightenedoftheplacetoo。
  `Hello!Hereweare,'shecalleddownstairs。Andtheyheardhimquicklyrunningup。
  `Thisisaghostlysituation,'hesaid。
  `Thesehousesdon'thaveghosts——they'veneverhadanypersonality,andonlyaplacewithpersonalitycanhaveaghost,'saidGudrun。
  `Isupposeso。Areyoubothweepingoverthepast?'
  `Weare,'saidGudrun,grimly。
  Ursulalaughed。
  `Notweepingthatit'sgone,butweepingthatiteverwas,'shesaid。
  `Oh,'hereplied,relieved。
  Hesatdownforamoment。Therewassomethinginhispresence,Ursulathought,lambentandalive。Itmadeeventheimpertinentstructureofthisnullhousedisappear。
  `Gudrunsaysshecouldnotbeartobemarriedandputintoahouse,'
  saidUrsulameaningful——theyknewthisreferredtoGerald。
  Hewassilentforsomemoments。
  `Well,'hesaid,`ifyouknowbeforehandyoucouldn'tstandit,you'resafe。'
  `Quite!'saidGudrun。
  `Whydoeseverywomanthinkheraiminlifeistohaveahubbyandalittlegreyhomeinthewest?Whyisthisthegoaloflife?Whyshoulditbe?'saidUrsula。
  `Ilfautavoirlerespectdesesbtises,'saidBirkin。
  `Butyouneedn'thavetherespectforthebetisebeforeyou'vecommittedit,'laughedUrsula。
  `Ahthen,desbetisesdupapa?'
  `Etdelamaman,'addedGudrunsatirically。
  `Etdesvoisins,'saidUrsula。
  Theyalllaughed,androse。Itwasgettingdark。Theycarriedthethingstothecar。Gudrunlockedthedooroftheemptyhouse。Birkinhadlightedthelampsoftheautomobile。Itallseemedveryhappy,asiftheyweresettingout。
  `DoyoumindstoppingatCoulsons。Ihavetoleavethekeythere,'saidGudrun。
  `Right,'saidBirkin,andtheymovedoff。
  Theystoppedinthemainstreet。Theshopswerejustlighted,thelastminerswerepassinghomealongthecauseways,half—visibleshadowsintheirgreypit—dirt,movingthroughtheblueair。Buttheirfeetrangharshlyinmanifoldsound,alongthepavement。
  HowpleasedGudrunwastocomeoutoftheshop,andenterthecar,andbeborneswiftlyawayintothedownhillofpalpabledusk,withUrsulaandBirkin!Whatanadventurelifeseemedatthismoment!Howdeeply,howsuddenlysheenviedUrsula!Lifeforherwassoquick,andanopendoor——sorecklessasifnotonlythisworld,buttheworldthatwasgoneandtheworldtocomewerenothingtoher。Ah,ifshecouldbejustlikethat,itwouldbeperfect。
  Foralways,exceptinhermomentsofexcitement,shefeltawantwithinherself。Shewasunsure。Shehadfeltthatnow,atlast,inGerald'sstrongandviolentlove,shewaslivingfullyandfinally。ButwhenshecomparedherselfwithUrsula,alreadyhersoulwasjealous,unsatisfied。Shewasnotsatisfied——shewasnevertobesatisfied。
  Whatwassheshortofnow?Itwasmarriage——itwasthewonderfulstabilityofmarriage。Shedidwantit,lethersaywhatshemight。Shehadbeenlying。Theoldideaofmarriagewasrightevennow——marriageandthehome。Yethermouthgavealittlegrimaceatthewords。ShethoughtofGeraldandShortlands——marriageandthehome!Ahwell,letitrest!Hemeantagreatdealtoher——but——!Perhapsitwasnotinhertomarry。
  Shewasoneoflife'soutcasts,oneofthedriftinglivesthathavenoroot。No,noitcouldnotbeso。Shesuddenlyconjureduparosyroom,withherselfinabeautifulgown,andahandsomemanineveningdresswhoheldherinhisarmsinthefirelight,andkissedher。Thispicturesheentitled`Home。'ItwouldhavedonefortheRoyalAcademy。
  `Comewithustotea——do,'saidUrsula,astheyrannearertothecottageofWilleyGreen。
  `Thanksawfully——butImustgoin——'saidGudrun。ShewantedverymuchtogoonwithUrsulaandBirkin。
  Thatseemedlikelifeindeedtoher。Yetacertainperversitywouldnotlether。
  `Docome——yes,itwouldbesonice,'pleadedUrsula。
  `I'mawfullysorry——Ishouldloveto——butIcan't——really——'
  Shedescendedfromthecarintremblinghaste。
  `Can'tyoureally!'cameUrsula'sregretfulvoice。
  `No,reallyIcan't,'respondedGudrun'spathetic,chagrinedwordsoutofthedusk。
  `Allright,areyou?'calledBirkin。
  `Quite!'saidGudrun。`Good—night!'
  `Good—night,'theycalled。
  `Comewheneveryoulike,weshallbeglad,'calledBirkin。
  `Thankyouverymuch,'calledGudrun,inthestrange,twangingvoiceoflonelychagrinthatwasverypuzzlingtohim。Sheturnedawaytohercottagegate,andtheydroveon。Butimmediatelyshestoodtowatchthem,asthecarranvagueintothedistance。Andasshewentupthepathtoherstrangehouse,herheartwasfullofincomprehensiblebitterness。
  Inherparlourwasalong—caseclock,andinsertedintoitsdialwasaruddy,round,slant—eyed,joyous—paintedface,thatwaggedoverwiththemostridiculousoglewhentheclockticked,andbackagainwiththesameabsurdglad—eyeatthenexttick。Allthetimetheabsurdsmooth,brown—ruddyfacegaveheranobtrusive`glad—eye。'Shestoodforminutes,watchingit,tillasortofmaddeneddisgustovercameher,andshelaughedatherselfhollowly。Andstillitrocked,andgavehertheglad—eyefromoneside,thenfromtheother,fromoneside,thenfromtheother。Ah,howunhappyshewas!Inthemidstofhermostactivehappiness,ah,howunhappyshewas!Sheglancedatthetable。Gooseberryjam,andthesamehome—madecakewithtoomuchsodainit!Still,gooseberryjamwasgood,andonesorarelygotit。
  AlltheeveningshewantedtogototheMill。Butshecoldlyrefusedtoallowherself。Shewentthenextafternooninstead。ShewashappytofindUrsulaalone。Itwasalovely,intimatesecludedatmosphere。Theytalkedendlesslyanddelightedly。`Aren'tyoufearfullyhappyhere?'
  saidGudruntohersisterglancingatherownbrighteyesinthemirror。
  Shealwaysenvied,almostwithresentment,thestrangepositivefullnessthatsubsistedintheatmospherearoundUrsulaandBirkin。
  Howreallybeautifullythisroomisdone,'shesaidaloud。`Thishardplaitedmatting——whatalovelycolouritis,thecolourofcoollight!'
  Anditseemedtoherperfect。
  `Ursula,'shesaidatlength,inavoiceofquestionanddetachment,`didyouknowthatGeraldCrichhadsuggestedourgoingawayalltogetheratChristmas?'
  `Yes,he'sspokentoRupert。'
  AdeepflushdyedGudrun'scheek。Shewassilentamoment,asiftakenaback,andnotknowingwhattosay。
  `Butdon'tyouthing,'shesaidatlast,`itisamazinglycool!'
  Ursulalaughed。
  `Ilikehimforit,'shesaid。
  Gudrunwassilent。Itwasevidentthat,whilstshewasalmostmortifiedbyGerald'stakingthelibertyofmakingsuchasuggestiontoBirkin,yettheideaitselfattractedherstrongly。
  `There'sratherlovelysimplicityaboutGerald,Ithink,'saidUrsula,`sodefiant,somehow!Oh,Ithinkhe'sverylovable。'
  Gudrundidnotreplyforsomemoments。Shehadstilltogetoverthefeelingofinsultatthelibertytakenwithherfreedom。
  `WhatdidRupertsay——doyouknow?'sheasked。