`That'sdoneit!'shesaid。
Sheputherhandonthearmofhercare—worn,sallowfather,andfrothingherlightdraperies,proceededovertheeternalredcarpet。Herfather,muteandyellowish,hisblackbeardmakinghimlookmorecareworn,mountedthestepsstiffly,asifhisspiritwereabsent;butthelaughingmistofthebridewentalongwithhimundiminished。
Andnobridegroomhadarrived!Itwasintolerableforher。Ursula,herheartstrainedwithanxiety,waswatchingthehillbeyond;thewhite,descendingroad,thatshouldgivesightofhim。Therewasacarriage。Itwasrunning。
Ithadjustcomeintosight。Yes,itwashe。Ursulaturnedtowardsthebrideandthepeople,and,fromherplaceofvantage,gaveaninarticulatecry。Shewantedtowarnthemthathewascoming。Buthercrywasinarticulateandinaudible,andsheflusheddeeply,betweenherdesireandherwincingconfusion。
Thecarriagerattleddownthehill,anddrewnear。Therewasashoutfromthepeople。Thebride,whohadjustreachedthetopofthesteps,turnedroundgailytoseewhatwasthecommotion。Shesawaconfusionamongthepeople,acabpullingup,andherloverdroppingoutofthecarriage,anddodgingamongthehorsesandintothecrowd。
`Tibs!Tibs!'shecriedinhersudden,mockingexcitement,standinghighonthepathinthesunlightandwavingherbouquet。He,dodgingwithhishatinhishand,hadnotheard。
`Tibs!'shecriedagain,lookingdowntohim。
Heglancedup,unaware,andsawthebrideandherfatherstandingonthepathabovehim。Aqueer,startledlookwentoverhisface。Hehesitatedforamoment。Thenhegatheredhimselftogetherforaleap,toovertakeher。
`Ah—h—h!'cameherstrange,intakencry,as,onthereflex,shestarted,turnedandfled,scuddingwithanunthinkableswiftbeatingofherwhitefeetandfrayingofherwhitegarments,towardsthechurch。Likeahoundtheyoungmanwasafterher,leapingthestepsandswingingpastherfather,hissupplehaunchesworkinglikethoseofahoundthatbearsdownonthequarry。
`Ay,afterher!'criedthevulgarwomenbelow,carriedsuddenlyintothesport。
She,herflowersshakenfromherlikefroth,wassteadyingherselftoturntheangleofthechurch。Sheglancedbehind,andwithawildcryoflaughterandchallenge,veered,poised,andwasgonebeyondthegreystonebuttress。Inanotherinstantthebridegroom,bentforwardasheran,hadcaughttheangleofthesilentstonewithhishand,andhadswunghimselfoutofsight,hissupple,strongloinsvanishinginpursuit。
Instantlycriesandexclamationsofexcitementburstfromthecrowdatthegate。AndthenUrsulanoticedagainthedark,ratherstoopingfigureofMrCrich,waitingsuspendedonthepath,watchingwithexpressionlessfacetheflighttothechurch。Itwasover,andheturnedroundtolookbehindhim,atthefigureofRupertBirkin,whoatoncecameforwardandjoinedhim。
`We'llbringuptherear,'saidBirkin,afaintsmileonhisface。
`Ay!'repliedthefatherlaconically。Andthetwomenturnedtogetherupthepath。
BirkinwasasthinasMrCrich,paleandill—looking。Hisfigurewasnarrowbutnicelymade。Hewentwithaslighttrailofonefoot,whichcameonlyfromself—consciousness。Althoughhewasdressedcorrectlyforhispart,yettherewasaninnateincongruitywhichcausedaslightridiculousnessinhisappearance。Hisnaturewascleverandseparate,hedidnotfitatallintheconventionaloccasion。Yethesubordinatedhimselftothecommonidea,travestiedhimself。
Heaffectedtobequiteordinary,perfectlyandmarvellouslycommonplace。
Andhediditsowell,takingthetoneofhissurroundings,adjustinghimselfquicklytohisinterlocutorandhiscircumstance,thatheachievedaverisimilitudeofordinarycommonplacenessthatusuallypropitiatedhisonlookersforthemoment,disarmedthemfromattackinghissingleness。
NowhespokequiteeasilyandpleasantlytoMrCrich,astheywalkedalongthepath;heplayedwithsituationslikeamanonatight—rope:butalwaysonatight—rope,pretendingnothingbutease。
`I'msorrywearesolate,'hewassaying。`Wecouldn'tfindabutton—hook,soittookusalongtimetobuttonourboots。Butyouweretothemoment。'
`Weareusuallytotime,'saidMrCrich。
`AndI'malwayslate,'saidBirkin。`ButtodayIwasreallypunctual,onlyaccidentallynotso。I'msorry。'
Thetwomenweregone,therewasnothingmoretosee,forthetime。
UrsulawasleftthinkingaboutBirkin。Hepiquedher,attractedher,andannoyedher。
Shewantedtoknowhimmore。Shehadspokenwithhimonceortwice,butonlyinhisofficialcapacityasinspector。Shethoughtheseemedtoacknowledgesomekinshipbetweenherandhim,anatural,tacitunderstanding,ausingofthesamelanguage。Buttherehadbeennotimefortheunderstandingtodevelop。Andsomethingkeptherfromhim,aswellasattractedhertohim。Therewasacertainhostility,ahiddenultimatereserveinhim,coldandinaccessible。
Yetshewantedtoknowhim。
`WhatdoyouthinkofRupertBirkin?'sheasked,alittlereluctantly,ofGudrun。Shedidnotwanttodiscusshim。
`WhatdoIthinkofRupertBirkin?'repeatedGudrun。`Ithinkhe'sattractive——decidedlyattractive。WhatIcan'tstandabouthimishiswaywithotherpeople——hiswayoftreatinganylittlefoolasifshewerehisgreatestconsideration。Onefeelssoawfullysold,oneself。'
`Whydoeshedoit?'saidUrsula。
`Becausehehasnorealcriticalfaculty——ofpeople,atallevents,'
saidGudrun。`Itellyou,hetreatsanylittlefoolashetreatsmeoryou——andit'ssuchaninsult。'
`Oh,itis,'saidUrsula。`Onemustdiscriminate。'
`Onemustdiscriminate,'repeatedGudrun。`Buthe'sawonderfulchap,inotherrespects——amarvellouspersonality。Butyoucan'ttrusthim。'
`Yes,'saidUrsulavaguely。ShewasalwaysforcedtoassenttoGudrun'spronouncements,evenwhenshewasnotinaccordaltogether。
Thesisterssatsilent,waitingfortheweddingpartytocomeout。Gudrunwasimpatientoftalk。ShewantedtothinkaboutGeraldCrich。Shewantedtoseeifthestrongfeelingshehadgotfromhimwasreal。Shewantedtohaveherselfready。
Insidethechurch,theweddingwasgoingon。HermioneRoddicewasthinkingonlyofBirkin。Hestoodnearher。Sheseemedtogravitatephysicallytowardshim。Shewantedtostandtouchinghim。Shecouldhardlybesurehewasnearher,ifshedidnottouchhim。Yetshestoodsubjectedthroughtheweddingservice。
Shehadsufferedsobitterlywhenhedidnotcome,thatstillshewasdazed。Stillshewasgnawedasbyaneuralgia,tormentedbyhispotentialabsencefromher。Shehadawaitedhiminafaintdeliriumofnervoustorture。
Asshestoodbearingherselfpensively,theraptlookonherface,thatseemedspiritual,liketheangels,butwhichcamefromtorture,gaveheracertainpoignancythattorehisheartwithpity。Hesawherbowedhead,herraptface,thefaceofanalmostdemoniacalecstatic。Feelinghimlooking,sheliftedherfaceandsoughthiseyes,herownbeautifulgreyeyesflaringhimagreatsignal。Butheavoidedherlook,shesankherheadintormentandshame,thegnawingatherheartgoingon。Andhetoowastorturedwithshame,andultimatedislike,andwithacutepityforher,becausehedidnotwanttomeethereyes,hedidnotwanttoreceiveherflareofrecognition。
Thebrideandbridegroomweremarried,thepartywentintothevestry。
HermionecrowdedinvoluntarilyupagainstBirkin,totouchhim。Andheenduredit。
Outside,GudrunandUrsulalistenedfortheirfather'splayingontheorgan。Hewouldenjoyplayingaweddingmarch。Nowthemarriedpairwerecoming!Thebellswereringing,makingtheairshake。Ursulawonderedifthetreesandtheflowerscouldfeelthevibration,andwhattheythoughtofit,thisstrangemotionintheair。Thebridewasquitedemureonthearmofthebridegroom,whostaredupintotheskybeforehim,shuttingandopeninghiseyesunconsciously,asifhewereneitherherenorthere。
Helookedrathercomical,blinkingandtryingtobeinthescene,whenemotionallyhewasviolatedbyhisexposuretoacrowd。Helookedatypicalnavalofficer,manly,anduptohisduty。
BirkincamewithHermione。Shehadarapt,triumphantlook,likethefallenangelsrestored,yetstillsubtlydemoniacal,nowsheheldBirkinbythearm。Andhewasexpressionless,neutralised,possessedbyherasifitwerehisfate,withoutquestion。
GeraldCrichcame,fair,good—looking,healthy,withagreatreserveofenergy。Hewaserectandcomplete,therewasastrangestealthglisteningthroughhisamiable,almosthappyappearance。Gudrunrosesharplyandwentaway。Shecouldnotbearit。Shewantedtobealone,toknowthisstrange,sharpinoculationthathadchangedthewholetemperofherblood。
WomenInLove:Chapter2CHAPTERIIShortlandsTHEBRANGWENSwenthometoBeldover,thewedding—partygatheredatShortlands,theCriches'home。
Itwasalong,lowoldhouse,asortofmanorfarm,thatspreadalongthetopofaslopejustbeyondthenarrowlittlelakeofWilleyWater。Shortlandslookedacrossaslopingmeadowthatmightbeapark,becauseofthelarge,solitarytreesthatstoodhereandthere,acrossthewaterofthenarrowlake,atthewoodedhillthatsuccessfullyhidthecollieryvalleybeyond,butdidnotquitehidetherisingsmoke。Nevertheless,thescenewasruralandpicturesque,verypeaceful,andthehousehadacharmofitsown。
Itwascrowdednowwiththefamilyandtheweddingguests。Thefather,whowasnotwell,withdrewtorest。Geraldwashost。Hestoodinthehomelyentrancehall,friendlyandeasy,attendingtothemen。Heseemedtotakepleasureinhissocialfunctions,hesmiled,andwasabundantinhospitality。
Thewomenwanderedaboutinalittleconfusion,chasedhitherandthitherbythethreemarrieddaughtersofthehouse。Allthewhiletherecouldbeheardthecharacteristic,imperiousvoiceofoneCrichwomanoranothercalling`Helen,comehereaminute,'`Marjory,Iwantyou——here。'`Oh,Isay,MrsWitham——。'Therewasagreatrustlingofskirts,swiftglimpsesofsmartly—dressedwomen,achilddancedthroughthehallandbackagain,amaidservantcameandwenthurriedly。
Meanwhilethemenstoodincalmlittlegroups,chatting,smoking,pretendingtopaynoheedtotherustlinganimationofthewomen'sworld。Buttheycouldnotreallytalk,becauseoftheglassyravelofwomen'sexcited,coldlaughterandrunningvoices。Theywaited,uneasy,suspended,ratherbored。ButGeraldremainedasifgenialandhappy,unawarethathewaswaitingorunoccupied,knowinghimselftheverypivotoftheoccasion。
SuddenlyMrsCrichcamenoiselesslyintotheroom,peeringaboutwithherstrong,clearface。Shewasstillwearingherhat,andhersaccoatofbluesilk。
`Whatisit,mother?'saidGerald。
`Nothing,nothing!'sheansweredvaguely。AndshewentstraighttowardsBirkin,whowastalkingtoaCrichbrother—in—law。
`Howdoyoudo,MrBirkin,'shesaid,inherlowvoice,thatseemedtotakenocountofherguests。Sheheldoutherhandtohim。
`OhMrsCrich,'repliedBirkin,inhisreadily—changingvoice,`Icouldn'tcometoyoubefore。'
`Idon'tknowhalfthepeoplehere,'shesaid,inherlowvoice。Herson—in—lawmoveduneasilyaway。
`Andyoudon'tlikestrangers?'laughedBirkin。`Imyselfcanneverseewhyoneshouldtakeaccountofpeople,justbecausetheyhappentobeintheroomwithone:whyshouldIknowtheyarethere?'
`Whyindeed,whyindeed!'saidMrsCrich,inherlow,tensevoice。`Exceptthattheyarethere。Idon'tknowpeoplewhomIfindinthehouse。Thechildrenintroducethemtome——"Mother,thisisMrSo—and—so。"
Iamnofurther。WhathasMrSo—and—sotodowithhisownname?——andwhathaveItodowitheitherhimorhisname?'
ShelookedupatBirkin。Shestartledhim。Hewasflatteredtoothatshecametotalktohim,forshetookhardlyanynoticeofanybody。Helookeddownathertenseclearface,withitsheavyfeatures,buthewasafraidtolookintoherheavy—seeingblueeyes。Henoticedinsteadhowherhairloopedinslack,slovenlystrandsoverherratherbeautifulears,whichwerenotquiteclean。Neitherwasherneckperfectlyclean。Eveninthatheseemedtobelongtoher,ratherthantotherestofthecompany;
though,hethoughttohimself,hewasalwayswellwashed,atanyrateattheneckandears。
Hesmiledfaintly,thinkingthesethings。Yethewastense,feelingthatheandtheelderly,estrangedwomanwereconferringtogetherliketraitors,likeenemieswithinthecampoftheotherpeople。Heresembledadeer,thatthrowsoneearbackuponthetrailbehind,andoneearforward,toknowwhatisahead。
`Peopledon'treallymatter,'hesaid,ratherunwillingtocontinue。
Themotherlookedupathimwithsudden,darkinterrogation,asifdoubtinghissincerity。
`Howdoyoumean,matter?'sheaskedsharply。
`Notmanypeopleareanythingatall,'heanswered,forcedtogodeeperthanhewantedto。`Theyjingleandgiggle。Itwouldbemuchbetteriftheywerejustwipedout。Essentially,theydon'texist,theyaren'tthere。'
Shewatchedhimsteadilywhilehespoke。
`Butwedidn'timaginethem,'shesaidsharply。
`There'snothingtoimagine,that'swhytheydon'texist。'
`Well,'shesaid,`Iwouldhardlygoasfarasthat。Theretheyare,whethertheyexistorno。Itdoesn'trestwithmetodecideontheirexistence。
IonlyknowthatIcan'tbeexpectedtotakecountofthemall。Youcan'texpectmetoknowthem,justbecausetheyhappentobethere。AsfarasIgotheymightaswellnotbethere。'
`Exactly,'hereplied。
`Mightn'tthey?'sheaskedagain。
`Justaswell,'herepeated。Andtherewasalittlepause。
`Exceptthattheyarethere,andthat'sanuisance,'shesaid。
`Therearemysons—in—law,'shewenton,inasortofmonologue。`NowLaura'sgotmarried,there'sanother。AndIreallydon'tknowJohnfromJamesyet。
Theycomeuptomeandcallmemother。Iknowwhattheywillsay——"howareyou,mother?"Ioughttosay,"Iamnotyourmother,inanysense。"
Butwhatistheuse?Theretheyare。Ihavehadchildrenofmyown。IsupposeIknowthemfromanotherwoman'schildren。'
`Onewouldsupposeso,'hesaid。
Shelookedathim,somewhatsurprised,forgettingperhapsthatshewastalkingtohim。Andshelostherthread。
Shelookedroundtheroom,vaguely。Birkincouldnotguesswhatshewaslookingfor,norwhatshewasthinking。Evidentlyshenoticedhersons。
`Aremychildrenallthere?'sheaskedhimabruptly。
Helaughed,startled,afraidperhaps。
`Iscarcelyknowthem,exceptGerald,'hereplied。
`Gerald!'sheexclaimed。`He'sthemostwantingofthemall。You'dneverthinkit,tolookathimnow,wouldyou?'
`No,'saidBirkin。
Themotherlookedacrossathereldestson,staredathimheavilyforsometime。
`Ay,'shesaid,inanincomprehensiblemonosyllable,thatsoundedprofoundlycynical。Birkinfeltafraid,asifhedarednotrealise。AndMrsCrichmovedaway,forgettinghim。Butshereturnedonhertraces。
`Ishouldlikehimtohaveafriend,'shesaid。`Hehasneverhadafriend。'
Birkinlookeddownintohereyes,whichwereblue,andwatchingheavily。
Hecouldnotunderstandthem。`AmImybrother'skeeper?'hesaidtohimself,almostflippantly。
Thenheremembered,withaslightshock,thatthatwasCain'scry。AndGeraldwasCain,ifanybody。NotthathewasCain,either,althoughhehadslainhisbrother。Therewassuchathingaspureaccident,andtheconsequencesdidnotattachtoone,eventhoughonehadkilledone'sbrotherinsuchwise。Geraldasaboyhadaccidentallykilledhisbrother。Whatthen?Whyseektodrawabrandandacurseacrossthelifethathadcausedtheaccident?Amancanlivebyaccident,anddiebyaccident。Orcanhenot?Iseveryman'slifesubjecttopureaccident,isitonlytherace,thegenus,thespecies,thathasauniversalreference?Oristhisnottrue,istherenosuchthingaspureaccident?Haseverythingthathappensauniversalsignificance?Hasit?Birkin,ponderingashestoodthere,hadforgottenMrsCrich,asshehadforgottenhim。
Hedidnotbelievethattherewasanysuchthingasaccident。Itallhungtogether,inthedeepestsense。
Justashehaddecidedthis,oneoftheCrichdaughterscameup,saying:
`Won'tyoucomeandtakeyourhatoff,motherdear?Weshallbesittingdowntoeatinaminute,andit'saformaloccasion,darling,isn'tit?'
Shedrewherarmthroughhermother's,andtheywentaway。Birkinimmediatelywenttotalktothenearestman。
Thegongsoundedfortheluncheon。Themenlookedup,butnomovewasmadetothedining—room。Thewomenofthehouseseemednottofeelthatthesoundhadmeaningforthem。Fiveminutespassedby。Theelderlymanservant,Crowther,appearedinthedoorwayexasperatedly。HelookedwithappealatGerald。Thelattertookupalarge,curvedconchshell,thatlayonashelf,andwithoutreferencetoanybody,blewashatteringblast。Itwasastrangerousingnoise,thatmadetheheartbeat。Thesummonswasalmostmagical。Everybodycamerunning,asifatasignal。Andthenthecrowdinoneimpulsemovedtothedining—room。
Geraldwaitedamoment,forhissistertoplayhostess。Heknewhismotherwouldpaynoattentiontoherduties。Buthissistermerelycrowdedtoherseat。Thereforetheyoungman,slightlytoodictatorial,directedthegueststotheirplaces。
Therewasamoment'slull,aseverybodylookedattheborsd'oeuvresthatwerebeinghandedround。Andoutofthislull,agirlofthirteenorfourteen,withherlonghairdownherback,saidinacalm,self—possessedvoice:
`Gerald,youforgetfather,whenyoumakethatunearthlynoise。'
`DoI?'heanswered。Andthen,tothecompany,`Fatherislyingdown,heisnotquitewell。'
`Howishe,really?'calledoneofthemarrieddaughters,peepingroundtheimmenseweddingcakethattoweredupinthemiddleofthetablesheddingitsartificialflowers。
`Hehasnopain,buthefeelstired,'repliedWinifred,thegirlwiththehairdownherback。
Thewinewasfilled,andeverybodywastalkingboisterously。Atthefarendofthetablesatthemother,withherloosely—loopedhair。ShehadBirkinforaneighbour。Sometimessheglancedfiercelydowntherowsoffaces,bendingforwardsandstaringunceremoniously。AndshewouldsayinalowvoicetoBirkin:
`Whoisthatyoungman?'
`Idon'tknow,'Birkinanswereddiscreetly。
`HaveIseenhimbefore?'sheasked。
`Idon'tthinkso。Ihaven't,'hereplied。Andshewassatisfied。
Hereyesclosedwearily,apeacecameoverherface,shelookedlikeaqueeninrepose。Thenshestarted,alittlesocialsmilecameonherface,foramomentshelookedthepleasanthostess。Foramomentshebentgraciously,asifeveryonewerewelcomeanddelightful。Andthenimmediatelytheshadowcameback,asullen,eaglelookwasonherface,sheglancedfromunderherbrowslikeasinistercreatureatbay,hatingthemall。
`Mother,'calledDiana,ahandsomegirlalittleolderthanWinifred,`Imayhavewine,mayn'tI?'
`Yes,youmayhavewine,'repliedthemotherautomatically,forshewasperfectlyindifferenttothequestion。
AndDianabeckonedtothefootmantofillherglass。
`Geraldshouldn'tforbidme,'shesaidcalmly,tothecompanyatlarge。
`Allright,Di,'saidherbrotheramiably。Andsheglancedchallengeathimasshedrankfromherglass。
Therewasastrangefreedom,thatalmostamountedtoanarchy,inthehouse。Itwasratheraresistancetoauthority,thanliberty。Geraldhadsomecommand,bymereforceofpersonality,notbecauseofanygrantedposition。Therewasaqualityinhisvoice,amiablebutdominant,thatcowedtheothers,whowereallyoungerthanhe。
Hermionewashavingadiscussionwiththebridegroomaboutnationality。
`No,'shesaid,`Ithinkthattheappealtopatriotismisamistake。
Itislikeonehouseofbusinessrivallinganotherhouseofbusiness。'
`Wellyoucanhardlysaythat,canyou?'exclaimedGerald,whohadarealpassionfordiscussion。`Youcouldn'tcallaraceabusinessconcern,couldyou?——andnationalityroughlycorrespondstorace,Ithink。
Ithinkitismeantto。'
Therewasamoment'spause。GeraldandHermionewerealwaysstrangelybutpolitelyandevenlyinimical。
`Doyouthinkracecorrespondswithnationality?'sheaskedmusingly,withexpressionlessindecision。
Birkinknewshewaswaitingforhimtoparticipate。Anddutifullyhespokeup。
`IthinkGeraldisright——raceistheessentialelementinnationality,inEuropeatleast,'hesaid。
AgainHermionepaused,asiftoallowthisstatementtocool。Thenshesaidwithstrangeassumptionofauthority:
`Yes,butevenso,isthepatrioticappealanappealtotheracialinstinct?
Isitnotratheranappealtotheproprietoryinstinct,thecommercialinstinct?Andisn'tthiswhatwemeanbynationality?'
`Probably,'saidBirkin,whofeltthatsuchadiscussionwasoutofplaceandoutoftime。
ButGeraldwasnowonthescentofargument。
`Aracemayhaveitscommercialaspect,'hesaid。`Infactitmust。
Itislikeafamily。Youmustmakeprovision。Andtomakeprovisionyouhavegottostriveagainstotherfamilies,othernations。Idon'tseewhyyoushouldn't。'
AgainHermionemadeapause,domineeringandcold,beforeshereplied:
`Yes,Ithinkitisalwayswrongtoprovokeaspiritofrivalry。Itmakesbadblood。Andbadbloodaccumulates。'
`Butyoucan'tdoawaywiththespiritofemulationaltogether?'saidGerald。`Itisoneofthenecessaryincentivestoproductionandimprovement。'
`Yes,'cameHermione'ssaunteringresponse。`Ithinkyoucandoawaywithit。'
`Imustsay,'saidBirkin,`Idetestthespiritofemulation。'Hermionewasbitingapieceofbread,pullingitfrombetweenherteethwithherfingers,inaslow,slightlyderisivemovement。SheturnedtoBirkin。
`Youdohateit,yes,'shesaid,intimateandgratified。
`Detestit,'herepeated。
`Yes,'shemurmured,assuredandsatisfied。
`But,'Geraldinsisted,`youdon'tallowonemantotakeawayhisneighbour'sliving,sowhyshouldyouallowonenationtotakeawaythelivingfromanothernation?'
TherewasalongslowmurmurfromHermionebeforeshebrokeintospeech,sayingwithalaconicindifference:
`Itisnotalwaysaquestionofpossessions,isit?Itisnotallaquestionofgoods?'
Geraldwasnettledbythisimplicationofvulgarmaterialism。
`Yes,moreorless,'heretorted。`IfIgoandtakeaman'shatfromoffhishead,thathatbecomesasymbolofthatman'sliberty。Whenhefightsmeforhishat,heisfightingmeforhisliberty。'
Hermionewasnonplussed。
`Yes,'shesaid,irritated。`Butthatwayofarguingbyimaginaryinstancesisnotsupposedtobegenuine,isit?Amandoesnotcomeandtakemyhatfromoffmyhead,doeshe?'
`Onlybecausethelawpreventshim,'saidGerald。
`Notonly,'saidBirkin。`Ninety—ninemenoutofahundreddon'twantmyhat。'
`That'samatterofopinion,'saidGerald。
`Orthehat,'laughedthebridegroom。
`Andifhedoeswantmyhat,suchasitis,'saidBirkin,`why,surelyitisopentometodecide,whichisagreaterlosstome,myhat,ormylibertyasafreeandindifferentman。IfIamcompelledtoofferfight,Ilosethelatter。Itisaquestionwhichisworthmoretome,mypleasantlibertyofconduct,ormyhat。'
`Yes,'saidHermione,watchingBirkinstrangely。`Yes。'
`Butwouldyouletsomebodycomeandsnatchyourhatoffyourhead?'
thebrideaskedofHermione。
Thefaceofthetallstraightwomanturnedslowlyandasifdruggedtothisnewspeaker。
`No,'shereplied,inalowinhumantone,thatseemedtocontainachuckle。
`No,Ishouldn'tletanybodytakemyhatoffmyhead。'
`Howwouldyoupreventit?'askedGerald。
`Idon'tknow,'repliedHermioneslowly。`ProbablyIshouldkillhim。'
Therewasastrangechuckleinhertone,adangerousandconvincinghumourinherbearing。
`Ofcourse,'saidGerald,`IcanseeRupert'spoint。Itisaquestiontohimwhetherhishatorhispeaceofmindismoreimportant。'
`Peaceofbody,'saidBirkin。
`Well,asyoulikethere,'repliedGerald。`Buthowareyougoingtodecidethisforanation?'
`Heavenpreserveme,'laughedBirkin。
`Yes,butsupposeyouhaveto?'Geraldpersisted。
`Thenitisthesame。Ifthenationalcrown—pieceisanoldhat,thenthethievinggentmayhaveit。'
`Butcanthenationalorracialhatbeanoldhat?'insistedGerald。
`Prettywellboundtobe,Ibelieve,'saidBirkin。
`I'mnotsosure,'saidGerald。
`Idon'tagree,Rupert,'saidHermione。
`Allright,'saidBirkin。
`I'mallfortheoldnationalhat,'laughedGerald。
`Andafoolyoulookinit,'criedDiana,hispertsisterwhowasjustinherteens。
`Oh,we'requiteoutofourdepthswiththeseoldhats,'criedLauraCrich。`Dryupnow,Gerald。We'regoingtodrinktoasts。Letusdrinktoasts。
Toasts——glasses,glasses——nowthen,toasts!Speech!Speech!'
Birkin,thinkingaboutraceornationaldeath,watchedhisglassbeingfilledwithchampagne。Thebubblesbrokeattherim,themanwithdrew,andfeelingasuddenthirstatthesightofthefreshwine,Birkindrankuphisglass。Aqueerlittletensionintheroomrousedhim。Hefeltasharpconstraint。
`DidIdoitbyaccident,oronpurpose?'heaskedhimself。Andhedecidedthat,accordingtothevulgarphrase,hehaddoneit`accidentallyonpurpose。'
Helookedroundatthehiredfootman。Andthehiredfootmancame,withasilentstepofcoldservant—likedisapprobation。Birkindecidedthathedetestedtoasts,andfootmen,andassemblies,andmankindaltogether,inmostofitsaspects。Thenherosetomakeaspeech。Buthewassomehowdisgusted。
Atlengthitwasover,themeal。Severalmenstrolledoutintothegarden。
Therewasalawn,andflower—beds,andattheboundaryanironfenceshuttingoffthelittlefieldorpark。Theviewwaspleasant;ahighroadcurvingroundtheedgeofalowlake,underthetrees。Inthespringair,thewatergleamedandtheoppositewoodswerepurplishwithnewlife。CharmingJerseycattlecametothefence,breathinghoarselyfromtheirvelvetmuzzlesatthehumanbeings,expectingperhapsacrust。
Birkinleanedonthefence。Acowwasbreathingwethotnessonhishand。
`Prettycattle,verypretty,'saidMarshall,oneofthebrothers—in—law。
`Theygivethebestmilkyoucanhave。'
`Yes,'saidBirkin。
`Eh,mylittlebeauty,eh,mybeauty!'saidMarshall,inaqueerhighfalsettovoice,thatcausedtheothermantohaveconvulsionsoflaughterinhisstomach。
`Whowontherace,Lupton?'hecalledtothebridegroom,tohidethefactthathewaslaughing。
Thebridegroomtookhiscigarfromhismouth。
`Therace?'heexclaimed。Thenaratherthinsmilecameoverhisface。
Hedidnotwanttosayanythingabouttheflighttothechurchdoor。`Wegottheretogether。Atleastshetouchedfirst,butIhadmyhandonhershoulder。'
`What'sthis?'askedGerald。
Birkintoldhimabouttheraceofthebrideandthebridegroom。
`H'm!'saidGerald,indisapproval。`Whatmadeyoulatethen?'
`Luptonwouldtalkabouttheimmortalityofthesoul,'saidBirkin,`andthenhehadn'tgotabutton—hook。'
`OhGod!'criedMarshall。`Theimmortalityofthesoulonyourweddingday!Hadn'tyougotanythingbettertooccupyyourmind?'
`What'swrongwithit?'askedthebridegroom,aclean—shavennavalman,flushingsensitively。
`Soundsasifyouweregoingtobeexecutedinsteadofmarried。Theimmortalityofthesoul!'repeatedthebrother—in—law,withmostkillingemphasis。
Buthefellquiteflat。
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