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第2章

  `That'sdoneit!'shesaid。
  Sheputherhandonthearmofhercare—worn,sallowfather,andfrothingherlightdraperies,proceededovertheeternalredcarpet。Herfather,muteandyellowish,hisblackbeardmakinghimlookmorecareworn,mountedthestepsstiffly,asifhisspiritwereabsent;butthelaughingmistofthebridewentalongwithhimundiminished。
  Andnobridegroomhadarrived!Itwasintolerableforher。Ursula,herheartstrainedwithanxiety,waswatchingthehillbeyond;thewhite,descendingroad,thatshouldgivesightofhim。Therewasacarriage。Itwasrunning。
  Ithadjustcomeintosight。Yes,itwashe。Ursulaturnedtowardsthebrideandthepeople,and,fromherplaceofvantage,gaveaninarticulatecry。Shewantedtowarnthemthathewascoming。Buthercrywasinarticulateandinaudible,andsheflusheddeeply,betweenherdesireandherwincingconfusion。
  Thecarriagerattleddownthehill,anddrewnear。Therewasashoutfromthepeople。Thebride,whohadjustreachedthetopofthesteps,turnedroundgailytoseewhatwasthecommotion。Shesawaconfusionamongthepeople,acabpullingup,andherloverdroppingoutofthecarriage,anddodgingamongthehorsesandintothecrowd。
  `Tibs!Tibs!'shecriedinhersudden,mockingexcitement,standinghighonthepathinthesunlightandwavingherbouquet。He,dodgingwithhishatinhishand,hadnotheard。
  `Tibs!'shecriedagain,lookingdowntohim。
  Heglancedup,unaware,andsawthebrideandherfatherstandingonthepathabovehim。Aqueer,startledlookwentoverhisface。Hehesitatedforamoment。Thenhegatheredhimselftogetherforaleap,toovertakeher。
  `Ah—h—h!'cameherstrange,intakencry,as,onthereflex,shestarted,turnedandfled,scuddingwithanunthinkableswiftbeatingofherwhitefeetandfrayingofherwhitegarments,towardsthechurch。Likeahoundtheyoungmanwasafterher,leapingthestepsandswingingpastherfather,hissupplehaunchesworkinglikethoseofahoundthatbearsdownonthequarry。
  `Ay,afterher!'criedthevulgarwomenbelow,carriedsuddenlyintothesport。
  She,herflowersshakenfromherlikefroth,wassteadyingherselftoturntheangleofthechurch。Sheglancedbehind,andwithawildcryoflaughterandchallenge,veered,poised,andwasgonebeyondthegreystonebuttress。Inanotherinstantthebridegroom,bentforwardasheran,hadcaughttheangleofthesilentstonewithhishand,andhadswunghimselfoutofsight,hissupple,strongloinsvanishinginpursuit。
  Instantlycriesandexclamationsofexcitementburstfromthecrowdatthegate。AndthenUrsulanoticedagainthedark,ratherstoopingfigureofMrCrich,waitingsuspendedonthepath,watchingwithexpressionlessfacetheflighttothechurch。Itwasover,andheturnedroundtolookbehindhim,atthefigureofRupertBirkin,whoatoncecameforwardandjoinedhim。
  `We'llbringuptherear,'saidBirkin,afaintsmileonhisface。
  `Ay!'repliedthefatherlaconically。Andthetwomenturnedtogetherupthepath。
  BirkinwasasthinasMrCrich,paleandill—looking。Hisfigurewasnarrowbutnicelymade。Hewentwithaslighttrailofonefoot,whichcameonlyfromself—consciousness。Althoughhewasdressedcorrectlyforhispart,yettherewasaninnateincongruitywhichcausedaslightridiculousnessinhisappearance。Hisnaturewascleverandseparate,hedidnotfitatallintheconventionaloccasion。Yethesubordinatedhimselftothecommonidea,travestiedhimself。
  Heaffectedtobequiteordinary,perfectlyandmarvellouslycommonplace。
  Andhediditsowell,takingthetoneofhissurroundings,adjustinghimselfquicklytohisinterlocutorandhiscircumstance,thatheachievedaverisimilitudeofordinarycommonplacenessthatusuallypropitiatedhisonlookersforthemoment,disarmedthemfromattackinghissingleness。
  NowhespokequiteeasilyandpleasantlytoMrCrich,astheywalkedalongthepath;heplayedwithsituationslikeamanonatight—rope:butalwaysonatight—rope,pretendingnothingbutease。
  `I'msorrywearesolate,'hewassaying。`Wecouldn'tfindabutton—hook,soittookusalongtimetobuttonourboots。Butyouweretothemoment。'
  `Weareusuallytotime,'saidMrCrich。
  `AndI'malwayslate,'saidBirkin。`ButtodayIwasreallypunctual,onlyaccidentallynotso。I'msorry。'
  Thetwomenweregone,therewasnothingmoretosee,forthetime。
  UrsulawasleftthinkingaboutBirkin。Hepiquedher,attractedher,andannoyedher。
  Shewantedtoknowhimmore。Shehadspokenwithhimonceortwice,butonlyinhisofficialcapacityasinspector。Shethoughtheseemedtoacknowledgesomekinshipbetweenherandhim,anatural,tacitunderstanding,ausingofthesamelanguage。Buttherehadbeennotimefortheunderstandingtodevelop。Andsomethingkeptherfromhim,aswellasattractedhertohim。Therewasacertainhostility,ahiddenultimatereserveinhim,coldandinaccessible。
  Yetshewantedtoknowhim。
  `WhatdoyouthinkofRupertBirkin?'sheasked,alittlereluctantly,ofGudrun。Shedidnotwanttodiscusshim。
  `WhatdoIthinkofRupertBirkin?'repeatedGudrun。`Ithinkhe'sattractive——decidedlyattractive。WhatIcan'tstandabouthimishiswaywithotherpeople——hiswayoftreatinganylittlefoolasifshewerehisgreatestconsideration。Onefeelssoawfullysold,oneself。'
  `Whydoeshedoit?'saidUrsula。
  `Becausehehasnorealcriticalfaculty——ofpeople,atallevents,'
  saidGudrun。`Itellyou,hetreatsanylittlefoolashetreatsmeoryou——andit'ssuchaninsult。'
  `Oh,itis,'saidUrsula。`Onemustdiscriminate。'
  `Onemustdiscriminate,'repeatedGudrun。`Buthe'sawonderfulchap,inotherrespects——amarvellouspersonality。Butyoucan'ttrusthim。'
  `Yes,'saidUrsulavaguely。ShewasalwaysforcedtoassenttoGudrun'spronouncements,evenwhenshewasnotinaccordaltogether。
  Thesisterssatsilent,waitingfortheweddingpartytocomeout。Gudrunwasimpatientoftalk。ShewantedtothinkaboutGeraldCrich。Shewantedtoseeifthestrongfeelingshehadgotfromhimwasreal。Shewantedtohaveherselfready。
  Insidethechurch,theweddingwasgoingon。HermioneRoddicewasthinkingonlyofBirkin。Hestoodnearher。Sheseemedtogravitatephysicallytowardshim。Shewantedtostandtouchinghim。Shecouldhardlybesurehewasnearher,ifshedidnottouchhim。Yetshestoodsubjectedthroughtheweddingservice。
  Shehadsufferedsobitterlywhenhedidnotcome,thatstillshewasdazed。Stillshewasgnawedasbyaneuralgia,tormentedbyhispotentialabsencefromher。Shehadawaitedhiminafaintdeliriumofnervoustorture。
  Asshestoodbearingherselfpensively,theraptlookonherface,thatseemedspiritual,liketheangels,butwhichcamefromtorture,gaveheracertainpoignancythattorehisheartwithpity。Hesawherbowedhead,herraptface,thefaceofanalmostdemoniacalecstatic。Feelinghimlooking,sheliftedherfaceandsoughthiseyes,herownbeautifulgreyeyesflaringhimagreatsignal。Butheavoidedherlook,shesankherheadintormentandshame,thegnawingatherheartgoingon。Andhetoowastorturedwithshame,andultimatedislike,andwithacutepityforher,becausehedidnotwanttomeethereyes,hedidnotwanttoreceiveherflareofrecognition。
  Thebrideandbridegroomweremarried,thepartywentintothevestry。
  HermionecrowdedinvoluntarilyupagainstBirkin,totouchhim。Andheenduredit。
  Outside,GudrunandUrsulalistenedfortheirfather'splayingontheorgan。Hewouldenjoyplayingaweddingmarch。Nowthemarriedpairwerecoming!Thebellswereringing,makingtheairshake。Ursulawonderedifthetreesandtheflowerscouldfeelthevibration,andwhattheythoughtofit,thisstrangemotionintheair。Thebridewasquitedemureonthearmofthebridegroom,whostaredupintotheskybeforehim,shuttingandopeninghiseyesunconsciously,asifhewereneitherherenorthere。
  Helookedrathercomical,blinkingandtryingtobeinthescene,whenemotionallyhewasviolatedbyhisexposuretoacrowd。Helookedatypicalnavalofficer,manly,anduptohisduty。
  BirkincamewithHermione。Shehadarapt,triumphantlook,likethefallenangelsrestored,yetstillsubtlydemoniacal,nowsheheldBirkinbythearm。Andhewasexpressionless,neutralised,possessedbyherasifitwerehisfate,withoutquestion。
  GeraldCrichcame,fair,good—looking,healthy,withagreatreserveofenergy。Hewaserectandcomplete,therewasastrangestealthglisteningthroughhisamiable,almosthappyappearance。Gudrunrosesharplyandwentaway。Shecouldnotbearit。Shewantedtobealone,toknowthisstrange,sharpinoculationthathadchangedthewholetemperofherblood。
  WomenInLove:Chapter2CHAPTERIIShortlandsTHEBRANGWENSwenthometoBeldover,thewedding—partygatheredatShortlands,theCriches'home。
  Itwasalong,lowoldhouse,asortofmanorfarm,thatspreadalongthetopofaslopejustbeyondthenarrowlittlelakeofWilleyWater。Shortlandslookedacrossaslopingmeadowthatmightbeapark,becauseofthelarge,solitarytreesthatstoodhereandthere,acrossthewaterofthenarrowlake,atthewoodedhillthatsuccessfullyhidthecollieryvalleybeyond,butdidnotquitehidetherisingsmoke。Nevertheless,thescenewasruralandpicturesque,verypeaceful,andthehousehadacharmofitsown。
  Itwascrowdednowwiththefamilyandtheweddingguests。Thefather,whowasnotwell,withdrewtorest。Geraldwashost。Hestoodinthehomelyentrancehall,friendlyandeasy,attendingtothemen。Heseemedtotakepleasureinhissocialfunctions,hesmiled,andwasabundantinhospitality。
  Thewomenwanderedaboutinalittleconfusion,chasedhitherandthitherbythethreemarrieddaughtersofthehouse。Allthewhiletherecouldbeheardthecharacteristic,imperiousvoiceofoneCrichwomanoranothercalling`Helen,comehereaminute,'`Marjory,Iwantyou——here。'`Oh,Isay,MrsWitham——。'Therewasagreatrustlingofskirts,swiftglimpsesofsmartly—dressedwomen,achilddancedthroughthehallandbackagain,amaidservantcameandwenthurriedly。
  Meanwhilethemenstoodincalmlittlegroups,chatting,smoking,pretendingtopaynoheedtotherustlinganimationofthewomen'sworld。Buttheycouldnotreallytalk,becauseoftheglassyravelofwomen'sexcited,coldlaughterandrunningvoices。Theywaited,uneasy,suspended,ratherbored。ButGeraldremainedasifgenialandhappy,unawarethathewaswaitingorunoccupied,knowinghimselftheverypivotoftheoccasion。
  SuddenlyMrsCrichcamenoiselesslyintotheroom,peeringaboutwithherstrong,clearface。Shewasstillwearingherhat,andhersaccoatofbluesilk。
  `Whatisit,mother?'saidGerald。
  `Nothing,nothing!'sheansweredvaguely。AndshewentstraighttowardsBirkin,whowastalkingtoaCrichbrother—in—law。
  `Howdoyoudo,MrBirkin,'shesaid,inherlowvoice,thatseemedtotakenocountofherguests。Sheheldoutherhandtohim。
  `OhMrsCrich,'repliedBirkin,inhisreadily—changingvoice,`Icouldn'tcometoyoubefore。'
  `Idon'tknowhalfthepeoplehere,'shesaid,inherlowvoice。Herson—in—lawmoveduneasilyaway。
  `Andyoudon'tlikestrangers?'laughedBirkin。`Imyselfcanneverseewhyoneshouldtakeaccountofpeople,justbecausetheyhappentobeintheroomwithone:whyshouldIknowtheyarethere?'
  `Whyindeed,whyindeed!'saidMrsCrich,inherlow,tensevoice。`Exceptthattheyarethere。Idon'tknowpeoplewhomIfindinthehouse。Thechildrenintroducethemtome——"Mother,thisisMrSo—and—so。"
  Iamnofurther。WhathasMrSo—and—sotodowithhisownname?——andwhathaveItodowitheitherhimorhisname?'
  ShelookedupatBirkin。Shestartledhim。Hewasflatteredtoothatshecametotalktohim,forshetookhardlyanynoticeofanybody。Helookeddownathertenseclearface,withitsheavyfeatures,buthewasafraidtolookintoherheavy—seeingblueeyes。Henoticedinsteadhowherhairloopedinslack,slovenlystrandsoverherratherbeautifulears,whichwerenotquiteclean。Neitherwasherneckperfectlyclean。Eveninthatheseemedtobelongtoher,ratherthantotherestofthecompany;
  though,hethoughttohimself,hewasalwayswellwashed,atanyrateattheneckandears。
  Hesmiledfaintly,thinkingthesethings。Yethewastense,feelingthatheandtheelderly,estrangedwomanwereconferringtogetherliketraitors,likeenemieswithinthecampoftheotherpeople。Heresembledadeer,thatthrowsoneearbackuponthetrailbehind,andoneearforward,toknowwhatisahead。
  `Peopledon'treallymatter,'hesaid,ratherunwillingtocontinue。
  Themotherlookedupathimwithsudden,darkinterrogation,asifdoubtinghissincerity。
  `Howdoyoumean,matter?'sheaskedsharply。
  `Notmanypeopleareanythingatall,'heanswered,forcedtogodeeperthanhewantedto。`Theyjingleandgiggle。Itwouldbemuchbetteriftheywerejustwipedout。Essentially,theydon'texist,theyaren'tthere。'
  Shewatchedhimsteadilywhilehespoke。
  `Butwedidn'timaginethem,'shesaidsharply。
  `There'snothingtoimagine,that'swhytheydon'texist。'
  `Well,'shesaid,`Iwouldhardlygoasfarasthat。Theretheyare,whethertheyexistorno。Itdoesn'trestwithmetodecideontheirexistence。
  IonlyknowthatIcan'tbeexpectedtotakecountofthemall。Youcan'texpectmetoknowthem,justbecausetheyhappentobethere。AsfarasIgotheymightaswellnotbethere。'
  `Exactly,'hereplied。
  `Mightn'tthey?'sheaskedagain。
  `Justaswell,'herepeated。Andtherewasalittlepause。
  `Exceptthattheyarethere,andthat'sanuisance,'shesaid。
  `Therearemysons—in—law,'shewenton,inasortofmonologue。`NowLaura'sgotmarried,there'sanother。AndIreallydon'tknowJohnfromJamesyet。
  Theycomeuptomeandcallmemother。Iknowwhattheywillsay——"howareyou,mother?"Ioughttosay,"Iamnotyourmother,inanysense。"
  Butwhatistheuse?Theretheyare。Ihavehadchildrenofmyown。IsupposeIknowthemfromanotherwoman'schildren。'
  `Onewouldsupposeso,'hesaid。
  Shelookedathim,somewhatsurprised,forgettingperhapsthatshewastalkingtohim。Andshelostherthread。
  Shelookedroundtheroom,vaguely。Birkincouldnotguesswhatshewaslookingfor,norwhatshewasthinking。Evidentlyshenoticedhersons。
  `Aremychildrenallthere?'sheaskedhimabruptly。
  Helaughed,startled,afraidperhaps。
  `Iscarcelyknowthem,exceptGerald,'hereplied。
  `Gerald!'sheexclaimed。`He'sthemostwantingofthemall。You'dneverthinkit,tolookathimnow,wouldyou?'
  `No,'saidBirkin。
  Themotherlookedacrossathereldestson,staredathimheavilyforsometime。
  `Ay,'shesaid,inanincomprehensiblemonosyllable,thatsoundedprofoundlycynical。Birkinfeltafraid,asifhedarednotrealise。AndMrsCrichmovedaway,forgettinghim。Butshereturnedonhertraces。
  `Ishouldlikehimtohaveafriend,'shesaid。`Hehasneverhadafriend。'
  Birkinlookeddownintohereyes,whichwereblue,andwatchingheavily。
  Hecouldnotunderstandthem。`AmImybrother'skeeper?'hesaidtohimself,almostflippantly。
  Thenheremembered,withaslightshock,thatthatwasCain'scry。AndGeraldwasCain,ifanybody。NotthathewasCain,either,althoughhehadslainhisbrother。Therewassuchathingaspureaccident,andtheconsequencesdidnotattachtoone,eventhoughonehadkilledone'sbrotherinsuchwise。Geraldasaboyhadaccidentallykilledhisbrother。Whatthen?Whyseektodrawabrandandacurseacrossthelifethathadcausedtheaccident?Amancanlivebyaccident,anddiebyaccident。Orcanhenot?Iseveryman'slifesubjecttopureaccident,isitonlytherace,thegenus,thespecies,thathasauniversalreference?Oristhisnottrue,istherenosuchthingaspureaccident?Haseverythingthathappensauniversalsignificance?Hasit?Birkin,ponderingashestoodthere,hadforgottenMrsCrich,asshehadforgottenhim。
  Hedidnotbelievethattherewasanysuchthingasaccident。Itallhungtogether,inthedeepestsense。
  Justashehaddecidedthis,oneoftheCrichdaughterscameup,saying:
  `Won'tyoucomeandtakeyourhatoff,motherdear?Weshallbesittingdowntoeatinaminute,andit'saformaloccasion,darling,isn'tit?'
  Shedrewherarmthroughhermother's,andtheywentaway。Birkinimmediatelywenttotalktothenearestman。
  Thegongsoundedfortheluncheon。Themenlookedup,butnomovewasmadetothedining—room。Thewomenofthehouseseemednottofeelthatthesoundhadmeaningforthem。Fiveminutespassedby。Theelderlymanservant,Crowther,appearedinthedoorwayexasperatedly。HelookedwithappealatGerald。Thelattertookupalarge,curvedconchshell,thatlayonashelf,andwithoutreferencetoanybody,blewashatteringblast。Itwasastrangerousingnoise,thatmadetheheartbeat。Thesummonswasalmostmagical。Everybodycamerunning,asifatasignal。Andthenthecrowdinoneimpulsemovedtothedining—room。
  Geraldwaitedamoment,forhissistertoplayhostess。Heknewhismotherwouldpaynoattentiontoherduties。Buthissistermerelycrowdedtoherseat。Thereforetheyoungman,slightlytoodictatorial,directedthegueststotheirplaces。
  Therewasamoment'slull,aseverybodylookedattheborsd'oeuvresthatwerebeinghandedround。Andoutofthislull,agirlofthirteenorfourteen,withherlonghairdownherback,saidinacalm,self—possessedvoice:
  `Gerald,youforgetfather,whenyoumakethatunearthlynoise。'
  `DoI?'heanswered。Andthen,tothecompany,`Fatherislyingdown,heisnotquitewell。'
  `Howishe,really?'calledoneofthemarrieddaughters,peepingroundtheimmenseweddingcakethattoweredupinthemiddleofthetablesheddingitsartificialflowers。
  `Hehasnopain,buthefeelstired,'repliedWinifred,thegirlwiththehairdownherback。
  Thewinewasfilled,andeverybodywastalkingboisterously。Atthefarendofthetablesatthemother,withherloosely—loopedhair。ShehadBirkinforaneighbour。Sometimessheglancedfiercelydowntherowsoffaces,bendingforwardsandstaringunceremoniously。AndshewouldsayinalowvoicetoBirkin:
  `Whoisthatyoungman?'
  `Idon'tknow,'Birkinanswereddiscreetly。
  `HaveIseenhimbefore?'sheasked。
  `Idon'tthinkso。Ihaven't,'hereplied。Andshewassatisfied。
  Hereyesclosedwearily,apeacecameoverherface,shelookedlikeaqueeninrepose。Thenshestarted,alittlesocialsmilecameonherface,foramomentshelookedthepleasanthostess。Foramomentshebentgraciously,asifeveryonewerewelcomeanddelightful。Andthenimmediatelytheshadowcameback,asullen,eaglelookwasonherface,sheglancedfromunderherbrowslikeasinistercreatureatbay,hatingthemall。
  `Mother,'calledDiana,ahandsomegirlalittleolderthanWinifred,`Imayhavewine,mayn'tI?'
  `Yes,youmayhavewine,'repliedthemotherautomatically,forshewasperfectlyindifferenttothequestion。
  AndDianabeckonedtothefootmantofillherglass。
  `Geraldshouldn'tforbidme,'shesaidcalmly,tothecompanyatlarge。
  `Allright,Di,'saidherbrotheramiably。Andsheglancedchallengeathimasshedrankfromherglass。
  Therewasastrangefreedom,thatalmostamountedtoanarchy,inthehouse。Itwasratheraresistancetoauthority,thanliberty。Geraldhadsomecommand,bymereforceofpersonality,notbecauseofanygrantedposition。Therewasaqualityinhisvoice,amiablebutdominant,thatcowedtheothers,whowereallyoungerthanhe。
  Hermionewashavingadiscussionwiththebridegroomaboutnationality。
  `No,'shesaid,`Ithinkthattheappealtopatriotismisamistake。
  Itislikeonehouseofbusinessrivallinganotherhouseofbusiness。'
  `Wellyoucanhardlysaythat,canyou?'exclaimedGerald,whohadarealpassionfordiscussion。`Youcouldn'tcallaraceabusinessconcern,couldyou?——andnationalityroughlycorrespondstorace,Ithink。
  Ithinkitismeantto。'
  Therewasamoment'spause。GeraldandHermionewerealwaysstrangelybutpolitelyandevenlyinimical。
  `Doyouthinkracecorrespondswithnationality?'sheaskedmusingly,withexpressionlessindecision。
  Birkinknewshewaswaitingforhimtoparticipate。Anddutifullyhespokeup。
  `IthinkGeraldisright——raceistheessentialelementinnationality,inEuropeatleast,'hesaid。
  AgainHermionepaused,asiftoallowthisstatementtocool。Thenshesaidwithstrangeassumptionofauthority:
  `Yes,butevenso,isthepatrioticappealanappealtotheracialinstinct?
  Isitnotratheranappealtotheproprietoryinstinct,thecommercialinstinct?Andisn'tthiswhatwemeanbynationality?'
  `Probably,'saidBirkin,whofeltthatsuchadiscussionwasoutofplaceandoutoftime。
  ButGeraldwasnowonthescentofargument。
  `Aracemayhaveitscommercialaspect,'hesaid。`Infactitmust。
  Itislikeafamily。Youmustmakeprovision。Andtomakeprovisionyouhavegottostriveagainstotherfamilies,othernations。Idon'tseewhyyoushouldn't。'
  AgainHermionemadeapause,domineeringandcold,beforeshereplied:
  `Yes,Ithinkitisalwayswrongtoprovokeaspiritofrivalry。Itmakesbadblood。Andbadbloodaccumulates。'
  `Butyoucan'tdoawaywiththespiritofemulationaltogether?'saidGerald。`Itisoneofthenecessaryincentivestoproductionandimprovement。'
  `Yes,'cameHermione'ssaunteringresponse。`Ithinkyoucandoawaywithit。'
  `Imustsay,'saidBirkin,`Idetestthespiritofemulation。'Hermionewasbitingapieceofbread,pullingitfrombetweenherteethwithherfingers,inaslow,slightlyderisivemovement。SheturnedtoBirkin。
  `Youdohateit,yes,'shesaid,intimateandgratified。
  `Detestit,'herepeated。
  `Yes,'shemurmured,assuredandsatisfied。
  `But,'Geraldinsisted,`youdon'tallowonemantotakeawayhisneighbour'sliving,sowhyshouldyouallowonenationtotakeawaythelivingfromanothernation?'
  TherewasalongslowmurmurfromHermionebeforeshebrokeintospeech,sayingwithalaconicindifference:
  `Itisnotalwaysaquestionofpossessions,isit?Itisnotallaquestionofgoods?'
  Geraldwasnettledbythisimplicationofvulgarmaterialism。
  `Yes,moreorless,'heretorted。`IfIgoandtakeaman'shatfromoffhishead,thathatbecomesasymbolofthatman'sliberty。Whenhefightsmeforhishat,heisfightingmeforhisliberty。'
  Hermionewasnonplussed。
  `Yes,'shesaid,irritated。`Butthatwayofarguingbyimaginaryinstancesisnotsupposedtobegenuine,isit?Amandoesnotcomeandtakemyhatfromoffmyhead,doeshe?'
  `Onlybecausethelawpreventshim,'saidGerald。
  `Notonly,'saidBirkin。`Ninety—ninemenoutofahundreddon'twantmyhat。'
  `That'samatterofopinion,'saidGerald。
  `Orthehat,'laughedthebridegroom。
  `Andifhedoeswantmyhat,suchasitis,'saidBirkin,`why,surelyitisopentometodecide,whichisagreaterlosstome,myhat,ormylibertyasafreeandindifferentman。IfIamcompelledtoofferfight,Ilosethelatter。Itisaquestionwhichisworthmoretome,mypleasantlibertyofconduct,ormyhat。'
  `Yes,'saidHermione,watchingBirkinstrangely。`Yes。'
  `Butwouldyouletsomebodycomeandsnatchyourhatoffyourhead?'
  thebrideaskedofHermione。
  Thefaceofthetallstraightwomanturnedslowlyandasifdruggedtothisnewspeaker。
  `No,'shereplied,inalowinhumantone,thatseemedtocontainachuckle。
  `No,Ishouldn'tletanybodytakemyhatoffmyhead。'
  `Howwouldyoupreventit?'askedGerald。
  `Idon'tknow,'repliedHermioneslowly。`ProbablyIshouldkillhim。'
  Therewasastrangechuckleinhertone,adangerousandconvincinghumourinherbearing。
  `Ofcourse,'saidGerald,`IcanseeRupert'spoint。Itisaquestiontohimwhetherhishatorhispeaceofmindismoreimportant。'
  `Peaceofbody,'saidBirkin。
  `Well,asyoulikethere,'repliedGerald。`Buthowareyougoingtodecidethisforanation?'
  `Heavenpreserveme,'laughedBirkin。
  `Yes,butsupposeyouhaveto?'Geraldpersisted。
  `Thenitisthesame。Ifthenationalcrown—pieceisanoldhat,thenthethievinggentmayhaveit。'
  `Butcanthenationalorracialhatbeanoldhat?'insistedGerald。
  `Prettywellboundtobe,Ibelieve,'saidBirkin。
  `I'mnotsosure,'saidGerald。
  `Idon'tagree,Rupert,'saidHermione。
  `Allright,'saidBirkin。
  `I'mallfortheoldnationalhat,'laughedGerald。
  `Andafoolyoulookinit,'criedDiana,hispertsisterwhowasjustinherteens。
  `Oh,we'requiteoutofourdepthswiththeseoldhats,'criedLauraCrich。`Dryupnow,Gerald。We'regoingtodrinktoasts。Letusdrinktoasts。
  Toasts——glasses,glasses——nowthen,toasts!Speech!Speech!'
  Birkin,thinkingaboutraceornationaldeath,watchedhisglassbeingfilledwithchampagne。Thebubblesbrokeattherim,themanwithdrew,andfeelingasuddenthirstatthesightofthefreshwine,Birkindrankuphisglass。Aqueerlittletensionintheroomrousedhim。Hefeltasharpconstraint。
  `DidIdoitbyaccident,oronpurpose?'heaskedhimself。Andhedecidedthat,accordingtothevulgarphrase,hehaddoneit`accidentallyonpurpose。'
  Helookedroundatthehiredfootman。Andthehiredfootmancame,withasilentstepofcoldservant—likedisapprobation。Birkindecidedthathedetestedtoasts,andfootmen,andassemblies,andmankindaltogether,inmostofitsaspects。Thenherosetomakeaspeech。Buthewassomehowdisgusted。
  Atlengthitwasover,themeal。Severalmenstrolledoutintothegarden。
  Therewasalawn,andflower—beds,andattheboundaryanironfenceshuttingoffthelittlefieldorpark。Theviewwaspleasant;ahighroadcurvingroundtheedgeofalowlake,underthetrees。Inthespringair,thewatergleamedandtheoppositewoodswerepurplishwithnewlife。CharmingJerseycattlecametothefence,breathinghoarselyfromtheirvelvetmuzzlesatthehumanbeings,expectingperhapsacrust。
  Birkinleanedonthefence。Acowwasbreathingwethotnessonhishand。
  `Prettycattle,verypretty,'saidMarshall,oneofthebrothers—in—law。
  `Theygivethebestmilkyoucanhave。'
  `Yes,'saidBirkin。
  `Eh,mylittlebeauty,eh,mybeauty!'saidMarshall,inaqueerhighfalsettovoice,thatcausedtheothermantohaveconvulsionsoflaughterinhisstomach。
  `Whowontherace,Lupton?'hecalledtothebridegroom,tohidethefactthathewaslaughing。
  Thebridegroomtookhiscigarfromhismouth。
  `Therace?'heexclaimed。Thenaratherthinsmilecameoverhisface。
  Hedidnotwanttosayanythingabouttheflighttothechurchdoor。`Wegottheretogether。Atleastshetouchedfirst,butIhadmyhandonhershoulder。'
  `What'sthis?'askedGerald。
  Birkintoldhimabouttheraceofthebrideandthebridegroom。
  `H'm!'saidGerald,indisapproval。`Whatmadeyoulatethen?'
  `Luptonwouldtalkabouttheimmortalityofthesoul,'saidBirkin,`andthenhehadn'tgotabutton—hook。'
  `OhGod!'criedMarshall。`Theimmortalityofthesoulonyourweddingday!Hadn'tyougotanythingbettertooccupyyourmind?'
  `What'swrongwithit?'askedthebridegroom,aclean—shavennavalman,flushingsensitively。
  `Soundsasifyouweregoingtobeexecutedinsteadofmarried。Theimmortalityofthesoul!'repeatedthebrother—in—law,withmostkillingemphasis。
  Buthefellquiteflat。