Hisfacesupportedbyhishands,helookeddownupontheblueripplingocean,flashinghereandthere,intothesunlightinlong,glitteringlines。
Theboatwasstillinthedistance,makingherswiftsilentwaywithlongregularboundstothetenderthatlayintheoffing。
Hepburnfeltinsecure,asinanightmaredream,solongastheboatdidnotreachherimmediatedestination。Hiscontractedeyescouldseefourminutefiguresrowingwithceaselessmotion,andafifthsateatthehelm。Butheknewtherewasasixth,unseen,lying,boundandhelpless,atthebottomoftheboat;andhisfancykeptexpectingthismantostartupandbreakhisbonds,andovercomealltheothers,andreturntotheshorefreeandtriumphant。
ItwasbynofaultofHepburn'sthattheboatspedwellaway;thatshewasnowalongsidethetender,dancingonthewaves;nowemptiedofhercrew;nowhoisteduptoherplace。Nofaultofhis!andyetittookhimsometimebeforehecouldreasonhimselfintothebeliefthathismad,feverishwishesnotanhourbefore——hiswildprayertoberidofhisrival,ashehimselfhadscrambledonwardovertherocksalongsideofKinraid'spathonthesands——hadnotcompelledtheevent。
'Anyhow,'thoughthe,asheroseup,myprayerisgranted。Godbethanked!'
Oncemorehelookedouttowardstheship。Shehadspreadherbeautifulgreatsails,andwasstandingouttoseaintheglitteringpathofthedescendingsun。
Hesawthathehadbeendelayedonhisroad,andhadlingeredlong。
Heshookhisstiffenedlimbs,shoulderedhisknapsack,andpreparedtowalkontoHartlepoolasswiftlyashecould。
chapter19CHAPTERXIXANIMPORTANTMISSIONPhilipwastoolateforthecoachhehadhopedtogoby,buttherewasanotherthatleftatnight,andwhichreachedNewcastleintheforenoon,sothat,bythelossofanight'ssleep,hemightovertakehislosttime。
But,restlessandmiserable,hecouldnotstopinHartlepoollongerthantogetsomehastyfoodattheinnfromwhichthecoachstarted。Heacquaintedhimselfwiththenamesofthetownsthroughwhichitwouldpass,andtheinnsatwhichitwouldstop,andleftwordthatthecoachmanwastobeonthelook—outforhimandpickhimupatsomeoneoftheseplaces。
Hewasthoroughlywornoutbeforethishappened——toomuchtiredtogainanysleepinthecoach。WhenhereachedNewcastle,hewenttoengagehispassageinthenextLondon—boundsmack,andthendirectedhisstepstoRobinson's,intheSide,tomakealltheinquirieshecouldthinkofrespectingtheploughhisunclewantedtoknowabout。
Soitwasprettylateintheafternoon,indeedalmostevening,beforehearrivedatthesmallinnonthequay—side,whereheintendedtosleep。
Itwasbutaroughkindofplace,frequentedprincipallybysailors;hehadbeenrecommendedtoitbyDanielRobson,whohadknownitwellinformerdays。Theaccommodationinitwas,however,cleanandhomely,andthepeoplekeepingitwererespectableenoughintheirway。
StillHepburnwasratherrepelledbytheappearanceofthesailorswhosatedrinkinginthebar,andheasked,inalowvoice,iftherewasnotanotherroom。Thewomanstaredinsurprise,andonlyshookherhead。Hepburnwenttoaseparatetable,awayfromtheroaringfire,whichonthiscoldMarcheveningwasthegreatattraction,andcalledforfoodanddrink。
Thenseeingthattheothermenwereeyeinghimwiththesociableideaofspeakingtohim,heaskedforpenandinkandpaper,withtheintentionofdefeatingtheirpurposebypre—occupationonhispart。Butwhenthepapercame,thenewpen,theunusedthickenedink,hehesitatedlongbeforehebegantowrite;andatlastheslowlyputdownthewords,——
'DEARANDHONOUREDUNCLE,'————
Therewasapause;hismealwasbroughtandhastilyswallowed。Evenwhilehewaseatingit,hekeptoccasionallytouchingupthelettersofthesewords。Whenhehaddrunkaglassofalehebeganagaintowritefluentlythistime,forhewasgivinganaccountoftheplough。Thencameanotherlongstop;hewasweighinginhisownmindwhatheshouldsayaboutKinraid。
OncehethoughtforasecondofwritingtoSylviaherself,andtellingher————howmuch?Shemighttreasureupherlover'swordslikegrainsofgold,whiletheywerelighterthandustintheirmeaningtoPhilip'smind;
wordswhichsuchasthespecksioneerusedascounterstobeguileandleadastraysillywomen。Itwasforhimtoprovehisconstancybyaction;andthechancesofhisgivingsuchproofwereinfinitesimalinPhilip'sestimation。
ButshouldthelattermentionthebarefactofKinraid'simpressmenttoRobson?Thatwouldhavebeenthenaturalcourseofthings,rememberingthatthelasttimePhiliphadseeneither,theywereineachother'scompany。
TwentytimesheputhispentothepaperwiththeintentionofrelatingbrieflytheeventthathadbefallenKinraid;andasoftenhestopped,asthoughthefirstwordwouldbeirrevocable。Whilehethussatepeninhand,thinkinghimselfwiserthanconscience,andlookingonbeyondthenextstepwhichshebadehimtakeintoanindefinitefuture,hecaughtsomefragmentsofthesailors'talkattheotherendoftheroom,whichmadehimlistentotheirwords。TheywerespeakingofthatveryKinraid,thethoughtofwhomfilledhisownmindlikeanactualpresence。Inarough,carelesswaytheyspokeofthespecksioneer,withadmirationenoughforhispowersasasailorandharpooner;andfromthattheypassedontojestingmentionofhispoweramongstwomen,andoneortwogirls'nameswerespokenofinconnectionwithhim。HepburnsilentlyaddedAnnieCoulsonandSylviaRobsontothislist,andhischeeksturnedpalerashedidso。LongaftertheyhaddonespeakingaboutKinraid,aftertheyhadpaidtheirshot,andgoneaway,hesateinthesameattitude,thinkingbitterthoughts。
Thepeopleofthehousepreparedforbed。Theirsilentguesttooknoheedoftheirmutesigns。Atlengththelandlordspoketohim,andhestarted,gatheredhiswitstogetherwithaneffort,andpreparedtoretirewiththerest。Butbeforehedidso,hesignedanddirectedthelettertohisuncle,leavingitstillopen,however,incasesomesuddenfeelingshouldprompthimtoaddapostscript。Thelandlordvolunteeredtheinformationthattheletterhisguesthadbeenwritingmustbepostedearlythenextmorningifitwasgoingsouth;asthemailsinthatdirectiononlyleftNewcastleeveryotherday。
AllnightlongHepburnweariedhimselfwithpassionatetossings,promptedbystingingrecollection。Towardsmorninghefellintoadeadsoundsleep。
Hewasrousedbyahastyknockingatthedoor。Itwasbroadfulldaylight;
hehadoverslepthimself,andthesmackwasleavingbytheearlytide。
Hewasevennowsummonedonboard。Hedressed,waferedhisletter,andrushedwithittotheneighbouringpost—office;and,withoutcaringtotouchthebreakfastforwhichhepaid,heembarked。Onceonboard,heexperiencedthereliefwhichitalwaysistoanundecidedman,andgenerallyisatfirsttoanyonewhohasbeenpalteringwithduty,whencircumstancesdecideforhim。Inthefirstcase,itispleasanttoberelievedfromtheburdenofdecision;inthesecond,theresponsibilityseemstobeshiftedontoimpersonalevents。
AndsoPhilipsailedoutofthemouthoftheTyneontothegreatopensea。ItwouldbeaweekbeforethesmackreachedLondon,evenifshepursuedatolerablystraightcourse,butshehadtokeepasharplook—outafterpossibleimpressmentofhercrew;anditwasnotuntilaftermanydodgesandsomeadventuresthat,attheendofafortnightfromthetimeofhisleavingMonkshaven,PhilipfoundhimselfsafelyhousedinLondon,andreadytobeginthedelicatepieceofworkwhichwasgivenhimtodo。
Hefelthimselffullycapableofunravellingeachcluetoinformation,anddecidingonthevalueoftheknowledgesogained。ButduringtheleisureofthevoyagehehadwiselydeterminedtocommunicateeverythinghelearntaboutDickinson,inshort,everystephetookinthematter,bylettertohisemployers。Andthushismindbothinandoutofhislodgingsmighthaveappearedtohavebeenfullyoccupiedwiththeconcernsofothers。
Butthereweretimeswhenthemiserableluxuryofdwellinguponhisownaffairswashis——whenhelaydowninhisbedtillhefellintorestlesssleep——whenthepointtowhichhisstepstendedinhiswalkswasascertained。
Thenhegavehimselfuptomemory,andregretwhichoftendeepenedintodespair,andbutseldomwascheeredbyhope。
Hegrewsoimpatientoftheignoranceinwhichhewaskept——forinthosedaysofheavypostageanycorrespondencehemighthavehadonmereMonkshavenintelligencewasverylimitedastotheaffairsatHaytersbank,thathecutoutanadvertisementrespectingsomenewkindofplough,fromanewspaperthatlayinthechop—housewhereheusuallydined,andrisingearlythenextmorningheemployedthetimethusgainedingoingroundtotheshopwherethesenewploughsweresold。
ThatnighthewroteanotherlettertoDanielRobson,withalongaccountofthemeritsoftheimplementshehadthatdayseen。Withasickheartandahesitatinghand,hewoundupwithamessageofregardtohisauntandtoSylvia;anexpressionofregardwhichhedarednotmakeaswarmashewished,andwhich,consequently,fellbelowtheusualmarkattainedbysuchmessages,andwouldhaveappearedtoanyonewhoearedtothinkaboutitascoldandformal。
Whenthisletterwasdespatched,Hepburnbegantowonderwhathehadhopedforinwritingit。HeknewthatDanielcouldwrite——orratherthathecouldmakestrangehieroglyphics,themeaningofwhichpuzzledothersandoftenhimself;butthesepen—and—inksignswereseldomemployedbyRobson,andnever,sofarasPhilipknew,forthepurposeofletter—writing。
ButstillhecravedsofornewsofSylvia——evenforasightofpaperwhichshehadseen,andperhapstouched——thathethoughtallhistroubleabouttheplough(tosaynothingoftheone—and—twopencepostagewhichhehadprepaidinordertomakesureofhisletter'sreceptioninthefrugalhouseholdatHaytersbank)welllostforthemerechanceofhisuncle'scaringenoughfortheintelligencetowriteinreply,oreventogetsomefriendtowriteananswer;forinsuchcase,perhaps,Philipmightseehernamementionedinsomeway,eventhoughitwasonlythatshesentherdutytohim。
Butthepost—officewasdumb;nolettercamefromDanielRobson。Philipheard,itistrue,fromhisemployersprettyfrequentlyonbusiness;andhefeltsuretheywouldhavenamedit,ifanyillhadbefallenhisuncle'sfamily,fortheyknewoftherelationshipandofhisintimacythere。TheygenerallyendedtheirformalletterswithasformalasummaryofMonkshavennews;buttherewasneveramentionoftheRobsons,andthatofitselfwaswell,butitdidnotsoothePhilip'simpatientcuriosity。Hehadneverconfidedhisattachmenttohiscousintoanyone,itwasnothisway;buthesometimesthoughtthatifCoulsonhadnottakenhispresentappointmenttoaconfidentialpieceofemploymentsoill,hewouldhavewrittentohimandaskedhimtogouptoHaytersbankFarm,andlethimknowhowtheyallwere。
Allthistimehewastransactingtheaffaironwhichhehadbeensent,withgreatskill;and,indeed,inseveralways,hewasquietlylayingthefoundationforenlargingthebusinessinMonkshaven。Naturallygraveandquiet,andslowtospeak,heimpressedthosewhosawhimwiththeideaofgreaterageandexperiencethanhereallypossessed。Indeed,thosewhoencounteredhiminLondon,thoughthewasabsorbedinthebusinessofmoney—making。
YetbeforethetimecamewhenhecouldwindupaffairsandreturntoMonkshaven,hewouldhavegivenallhepossessedforaletterfromhisuncle,tellinghimsomethingaboutSylvia。ForhestillhopedtohearfromRobson,althoughheknewthathehopedagainstreason。Butweoftenconvinceourselvesbygoodargumentthatwhatwewishforneedneverhavebeenexpected;andthen,attheendofourreasoning,findthatwemighthavesavedourselvesthetrouble,forthatourwishesareuntouched,andareasstrongenemiestoourpeaceofmindasever。Hepburn'sbaulkedhopewastheMordecaisittinginHaman'sgate;allhissuccessinhiserrandtoLondon,hiswell—doinginworldlyaffairs,wastasteless,andgavehimnopleasure,becauseofthisblankandvoidofallintelligenceconcerningSylvia。
AndyethecamebackwithaletterfromtheFostersinhispocket,curt,yetexpressiveofdeepgratitudeforhisdiscreetservicesinLondon;andatanothertime——infact,ifPhilip'slifehadbeenordereddifferentlytowhatitwas——itmighthavegiventhismananotunworthypleasuretorememberthat,withoutapennyofhisown,simplybydiligence,honesty,andfaithfulquick—sightednessastotheinterestsofhismasters,hehadrisentoholdthepromiseofbeingtheirsuccessor,andtoberankedbythemasatrustedfriend。
AstheNewcastlesmacknearedtheshoreonhervoyagehome,HepburnlookedwistfullyoutforthefaintgrayoutlineofMonkshavenPrioryagainstthesky,andthewell—knowncliffs;asifthemassesofinanimatestonecouldtellhimanynewsofSylvia。
InthestreetsofShields,justafterlanding,heencounteredaneighbouroftheRobsons,andanacquaintanceofhisown。Bythishonestman,hewaswelcomedasagreattravelleriswelcomedonhisreturnfromalongvoyage,withmanyheartygoodshakesofthehand,muchrepetitionofkindwishes,andofferstotreathimtodrink。Yet,fromsomeinsurmountablefeeling,Philipavoidedallmentionofthefamilywhoweretheprincipalbondbetweenthehonestfarmerandhimself。Hedidnotknowwhy,buthecouldnotbeartheshockoffirsthearinghernameintheopenstreet,orintheroughpublic—house。Andthusheshrankfromtheintelligencehecravedtohear。
ThusheknewnomoreabouttheRobsonswhenhereturnedtoMonkshaven,thanhehaddoneonthedaywhenhehadlastseenthem;and,ofcourse,hisfirsttasktherewastogivealongvivavoceaccountofallhisLondonproceedingstothetwobrothersFoster,who,consideringthattheyhadheardtheresultofeverythingbyletter,seemedtotakeaninsatiableinterestindetails。
Hecouldhardlytellwhy,butevenwhenreleasedfromtheFosters'parlour,hewasunwillingtogotoHaytersbankFarm。Itwaslate,itistrue,butonaMayeveningevencountrypeoplekeepuptilleightornineo'clock。
PerhapsitwasbecauseHepburnwasstillinhistravel—staineddress;havinggonestraighttotheshoponhisarrivalinMonkshaven。Perhapsitwasbecause,ifhewentthisnightfortheshorthalf—hourinterveningbeforebed—time,hewouldhavenoexcuseforpayingalongervisitonthefollowingevening。Atanyrate,heproceededstraighttoAliceRose's,assoonashehadfinishedhisinterviewwithhisemployers。
BothHesterandCoulsonhadgivenhimtheirwelcomehomeintheshop,whichtheyhad,however,leftanhourortwobeforehim。
Yettheygavehimafreshgreeting,almostoneinwhichsurprisewasblended,whenhecametohislodgings。EvenAliceseemedgratifiedbyhisspendingthisfirsteveningwiththem,asifshehadthoughtitmighthavebeenotherwise。Wearythoughhewas,heexertedhimselftotalkandtorelatewhathehaddoneandseeninLondon,asfarashecouldwithoutbreakingconfidencewithhisemployers。Itwassomethingtoseethepleasurehegavetohisauditors,althoughtherewereseveralmixedfeelingsintheirmindstoproducetheexpressionofitwhichgratifiedhim。CoulsonwassorryforhisformerungenerousreceptionofthenewsthatPhilipwasgoingtoLondon;Hesterandhermothereachsecretlybegantofeelasifthiseveningwaslikemorehappyeveningsofold,beforetheRobsonscametoHaytersbankFarm;andwhoknowswhatfaintdelicioushopesthisresemblancemaynothavesuggested?
WhilePhilip,restlessandexcited,feelingthathecouldnotsleep,wasgladtopassawaythewakinghoursthatmustintervenebeforeto—morrownight,attimes,hetriedtomakethemtalkofwhathadhappenedinMonkshavenduringhisabsence,butallhadgoneoninaneventlessmanner,asfarashecouldgather;iftheyknewofanythingaffectingtheRobsons,theyavoidedspeakingofittohim;and,indeed,howlittlelikelyweretheyevertohaveheardtheirnameswhilehewasaway?
chapter20CHAPTERXXLOVEDANDLOSTPhilipwalkedtowardstheRobsons'farmlikeamaninadream,whohaseverythingaroundhimaccordingtohiswish,andyetisconsciousofasecretmysteriousinevitabledrawbacktohisenjoyment。Hepburndidnotcaretothinkwouldnotrealizewhatthisdrawback,whichneednothavebeenmysteriousinhiscase,was。
TheMayeveningwasgloriousinlightandshadow。Thecrimsonsunwarmedupthechillynorthernairtoasemblanceofpleasantheat。Thespringsightsandsoundswereallabout;thelambswerebleatingouttheirgentlewearinessbeforetheysanktorestbythesideoftheirmothers;thelinnetswerechirpingineverybushofgoldengorsethatgrewoutofthestonewalls;thelarkwassinginghergood—nightinthecloudlesssky,beforeshedroppeddowntohernestinthetendergreenwheat;allspokeofbroodingpeacebutPhilip'sheartwasnotatpeace。
Yethewasgoingtoproclaimhisgoodfortune。HismastershadthatdaypubliclyannouncedthatCoulsonandheweretobetheirsuccessors,andhehadnowarrivedatthatlonged—forpointinhisbusiness,whenhehadresolvedtoopenlyspeakofhislovetoSylvia,andmightopenlystrivetogainherlove。But,alasthefulfilmentofthatwishofhishadlaggedsadlybehind。Hewasplacedasfarashecould,eveninhismostsanguinemoments,havehopedtobeasregardedbusiness,butSylviawasasfarfromhisattainmentasever——nay,farther。StillthegreatobstaclewasremovedinKinraid'simpressment。Philiptookuponhimselftodecidethat,withsuchamanasthespecksioneer,absencewasequivalenttofaithlessforgetfulness。
HethoughtthathehadjustgroundsforthisdecisionintheaccounthehadheardofKinraid'sbehaviourtoAnnieCoulson;totheothernamelessyounggirl,hersuccessorinhisfickleheart;intheribaldtalkofthesailorsintheNewcastlepublic—house。ItwouldbewellforSylviaifshecouldforgetasquickly;and,topromotethisoblivion,thenameofherlovershouldneverbebroughtup,eitherinpraiseorblame。AndPhilipwouldbepatientandenduring;allthetimewatchingoverher,andlabouringtowinherreluctantlove。
Thereshewas!Hesawherashestoodatthetopofthelittlehill—pathleadingdowntotheRobsons'door。Shewasoutofdoors,inthegarden,which,atsomedistancefromthehouse,slopedupthebankontheoppositesideofthegully;muchtoofarofftobespokento——nottoofarofftobegazedatbyeyesthatcaressedhereverymovement。HowwellPhilipknewthatgarden;placedlongagobysometenantofthefarmonasouthernslope;
wailedinwithroughmoorlandstones;plantedwithberry—bushesforuse,andsouthernwoodandsweet—briarforsweetnessofsmell。WhentheRobsonshadfirstcometoHaytersbank,andSylviawasscarcelymorethanaprettychild,howwellherememberedhelpingherwiththearrangementofthisgarden;layingouthisfewsparepenceinhen—and—chickendaisiesatonetime,inflower—seedsatanother;againinarose—treeinapot。Heknewhowhisunaccustomedhandshadlabouredwiththespadeatformingalittleprimitivebridgeoverthebeckinthehollowbeforewinterstreamsshouldmakeittoodeepforfording;howhehadcutdownbranchesofthemountain—ashandcoveredthemover,yetdeckedwiththeirscarletberries,withsodsofgreenturf,beyondwhichthebrilliancycreptout;butnowitwasmonthsandyearssincehehadbeeninthatgarden,whichhadlostitscharmforSylvia,asshefoundthebleaksea—windscameupandblightedallendeavoursatcultivatingmorethanthemostusefulthings——pot—herbs,marigolds,potatoes,onions,andsuch—like。Whydidshetarrytherenow,standingquitemotionlessupbythehighestbitofwall,lookingoverthesea,withherhandshadinghereyes?Quitemotionless;asifshewereastonestatue。
Hebegantowishshewouldmove——wouldlookathim——butanywaythatshewouldmove,andnotstandgazingthusoverthatgreatdrearysea。
Hewentdownthepathwithanimpatientstep,andenteredthehouse—place。
Theresathisauntspinning,andapparentlyaswellasever。HecouldhearhisuncletalkingtoKesterintheneighbouringshippen;allwaswellinthehouse—hold。WhywasSylviastandinginthegardeninthatstrangequietway?
'Why,lad!thou'rtasightforsaireen!'saidhisaunt,asshestooduptowelcomehimback。'An'whendidsttacome,eh?——butthyunclewillbegladtoseethee,andtoheartheetalkaboutyonpleughs;he'sthoughtadealo'thyletters。I'llgocallhimin。'
'Notyet,'saidPhilip,stoppingherinherprogresstowardsthedoor。
'He'sbusytalkingtoKester。I'minnohastetobegone。Icanstayacoupleofhours。Sitdown,andtellmehowyouareyoursel'——andhowiverythingis。AndI'veadealtotellyou。'
'Tobesure——tobesure。Tothinkthou'sbeeninLunnonsin'Isawthee!——welltobesure!There'savasto'comingandgoingi'thisworld。Thou'llmindyonspecksioneerlad,himaswascousintot'Corneys——CharleyKinraid?'
Mindhim!Asifhecouldforgethim。
'Well!he'sdeadandgone。'
'Dead!Whotoldyou?Idon'tunderstand,'saidPhilip,instrangebewilderment。
CouldKinraidhavetriedtoescapeafterall,andbeenwounded,killedintheattempt?Ifnot,howshouldtheyknowhewasdead?Missinghemightbe,thoughhowthisshouldbeknownwasstrange,ashewassupposedtobesailingtotheGreenlandseas。Butdead!Whatdidtheymean?AtPhilip'sworstmomentofhatredhehadhardlydaredtowishhimdead。
'Dunnotyo'mentionitaforeourSylvie;weniverspeakonhimtoher,forshetakesitadealtoheart,thoughI'mthinkin'itwereagoodthingforher;forhe'dgotaholdofher——hehadonBessyCorney,too,ashermothertelledme;——notthatIiverletontothemasSylviafretsafterhim,sokeepacalmsough,mylad。It'sagirl'sfancy——justakindo'
calf—love;letitgoby;andit'swellforherhe'sdead,thoughit'shardtosaysoonadrownedman。'
'Drowned!'saidPhilip。'Howdoyo'know?'halfhopingthatthepoordrenchedswollenbodymighthavebeenfound,andthusallquestionsanddilemmassolved。Kinraidmighthavestruggledoverboardwithropesorhandcuffson,andsohavebeendrowned。
'Eh,lad!there'snomisdoubtin'it。Hewerethoughtadealonbyt'
captaino't'Urania;andwhenhenivercomebackont'daywhensheoughtfortohavesailed,hesenttoKinraid'speopleatCullercoats,andtheysenttoBrunton'si'Newcassel,andtheyknewhe'dbeenhere。
T'captainputoffsailingfortwoorthreedays,thathemightha'thatmuchlaw;butwhenheheardasKinraidwerenotatCorneys',buthadleft'ema'mostontoaweek,hewentofftothemnorthernseaswi't'nextbestspecksioneerhecouldfind。Forthere'snousespeakingillont'
dead;an'thoughIcouldn'tabearhiscomingforiveraboutt'house,hewereararegoodspecksioneer,asI'vebeentold。'
'Buthowdoyouknowhewasdrowned?'saidPhilip,feelingguiltilydisappointedathisaunt'sstory。
'Why,lad!I'ma'mostashamedtotellthee,Iweresoreputoutmysel';
butSylviaweresobroken—heartedlikeIcouldn'tcastituptoherasIshouldha'liked:th'sillylasshadgoneandgi'enhimabito'ribbon,asmanyaoneknowed,forithadbeenavastnoticedandadmiredthatevenin'
atth'Corneys'——NewYear'sEveIthinkitwere——andt'poorvainpeacockhadtieditonhishat,sothatwhent'tide————hist!there'sSylviecominginatt'back—door;neverleton,'andinaforcedmade—upvoicesheinquiredaloud,forhithertoshehadbeenspeakingalmostinawhisper,——
'AnddidsttaseeKingGeorgeanQueenCharlotte?'
Philipcouldnotanswer——didnothear。HissoulhadgoneouttomeetSylvia,whoenteredwithquietslownessquiteunlikeherformerself。Herfacewaswanandwhite;hergrayeyesseemedlarger,andfullofdumbtearlesssorrow;shecameuptoPhilip,asifhisbeingtheretouchedherwithnosurprise,andgavehimagentlegreetingasifhewereafamiliarindifferentpersonwhomshehadseenbutyesterday。Philip,whohadrecollectedthequarreltheyhadhad,andaboutKinraidtoo,theverylasttimetheyhadmet,hadexpectedsometraceofthisremembrancetolingerinherlooksandspeechtohim。Buttherewasnosuchsign;hergreatsorrowhadwipedawayallanger,almostallmemory。Hermotherlookedatheranxiously,andthensaidinthesamemannerofforcedcheerfulnesswhichshehadusedbefore,——
'Here'sPhilip,lass,a'fullo'Lunnon;callthyfatherin,anwe'llheara'aboutt'new—fangledpleughs。It'llberarean'niceasittingtogetheragain。'
Sylvia,silentanddocile,wentouttotheshippentoobeyhermother'swish。BellRobsonleantforwardtowardsPhilip,misinterpretingtheexpressiononhisface,whichwasguiltasmuchassympathy,andcheckedthepossiblerepentancewhichmighthaveurgedhimonatthatmomenttotellallheknew,bysaying,'Lad!it'sa'fort'best。Hewerenoanegoodenoughforher;andImisdoubtmehewereonlyplayin'wi'herashe'ddonebyothers。
Lethera—be,lethera—be;she'llcomeroundtobethankful。'
Robsonbustledinwithloudwelcome;allthelouderandmoretalkativebecausehe,likehiswife,assumedacheerfulmannerbeforeSylvia。Yethe,unlikehiswife,hadmanyasecretregretoverKinraid'sfate。Atfirst,whilemerelythefactofhisdisappearancewasknown,DanielRobsonhadhitonthetruth,andhadstucktohisopinionthatthecursedpress—gangwereatthebottomofit。Hehadbackedhiswordsbymanyanoath,andallthemorebecausehehadnotasinglereasontogivethatappliedtothepresentoccasion。Nooneonthelonelycoasthadremarkedanysignofthepresenceofthemen—of—war,orthetendersthataccompaniedthem,forthepurposeofimpressmentontheKing'sships。AtShields,andatthemouthoftheTyne,wheretheylayingreedywait,theownersoftheUraniahadcausedstrictsearchtobemadefortheirskilledandprotectedspecksioneer,butwithnosuccess。AllthispositiveevidenceincontradictiontoDanielRobson'sopiniononlymadehimclingtoitthemore;untilthedaywhenthehatwasfoundontheshorewithKinraid'snamewrittenoutlargeandfairintheinside,andthetell—talebitofribbonknottedintheband。ThenDaniel,byasuddenrevulsion,gaveupeveryhope;itneverenteredhismindthatitcouldhavefallenoffbyanyaccident。No!nowKinraidwasdeadanddrowned,anditwasabadjob,andthesooneritcouldbeforgottenthebetterforallparties;anditwaswellnooneknewhowfarithadgonewithSylvia,especiallynowsinceBessyCorneywascryinghereyesoutasifhehadbeenengagedtoher。
SoDanielsaidnothingtohiswifeaboutthemischiefthathadgoneoninherabsence,andneverspoketoSylviaabouttheaffair;onlyhewasmorethanusuallytendertoherinhisroughway,andthought,morning,noon,andnight,onwhathecoulddotogiveherpleasure,anddriveawayallrecollectionofherill—starredlove。
To—nighthewouldhavehersitbyhimwhilePhiliptoldhisstories,orheavilyansweredquestionsputtohim。Sylviasatonastoolbyherfather'sknee,holdingoneofhishandsinbothofhers;andpresentlyshelaiddownherheaduponthem,andPhilipsawhersadeyeslookingintotheflickeringfire—lightwithlongunwinkingstare,showingthatherthoughtswerefardistant。Hecouldhardlygoonwithhistalesofwhathehadseen,andwhatdone,hewassofullofpityforher。Yet,forallhispity,hehadnowresolvednevertosootheherwiththeknowledgeofwhatheknew,nortodeliverthemessage。sentbyherfalselover。Hefeltlikeamotherwithholdingsomethinginjuriousfromthefoolishwishofherplainingchild。
Buthewentawaywithoutbreathingawordofhisgoodfortuneinbusiness。
Thetellingofsuchkindofgoodfortuneseemedoutofplacethisnight,whenthethoughtofdeathandthelossoffriendsseemedtobroodoverthehousehold,andcastitsshadowthere,obscuringforthetimeallworldlythings。
Andsothegreatpieceofnewscameoutintheordinarycourseofgossip,toldbysomeMonkshavenfriendtoRobsonthenextmarket—day。FormonthsPhiliphadbeenlookingforwardtothesensationwhichtheintelligencewouldproduceinthefarmhousehold,asapreliminarytolayinghisgoodfortuneatSylvia'sfeet。Andtheyheardofit,andheaway,andallchanceofhismakinguseofitinthemannerhehadintendedvanishedforthepresent。
Danielwasalwayscuriousafterotherpeople'saffairs,andnowwasmorethaneverbentoncollectingscrapsofnewswhichmightpossiblyinterestSylvia,androuseheroutofthestateofindifferenceastoeverythingintowhichshehadfallen。PerhapshethoughtthathehadnotactedaltogetherwiselyinallowinghertoengageherselftoKinraid,forhewasamanapttojudgebyresults;andmoreoverhehadhadsomuchreasontorepentoftheencouragementwhichhehadgiventotheloverwhoseuntimelyendhadsodeeplyaffectedhisonlychild,thathewasmoreunwillingthaneverthathiswifeshouldknowofthelengthtowhichtheaffairhadgoneduringherabsence。HeevenurgedsecrecyuponSylviaasapersonalfavour;unwillingtoencounterthesilentblamewhichheopenlyaffectedtodespise。
'We'llnoanefretthymotherbylettin'onhowofthecameandwent。
She'll,maybe,bethinkin'hewereforspeakin'tothee,mypoorlass;
an'itwouldputheroutadeal,forshe'sawomanofasternmindtowardsmatteremony。Andshe'llbenoanesostrongtillsummer—weathercomes,andI'dbeloathtogiveheraughttoworrithersel'about。Sotheeandme'llkeepourowncounsel。'
'Iwishmotherhadbeenhere,thenshe'dha'knownall,withoutmytellingher。'
'Cheerup,lass;it'sbetterasitis。Thou'llgeto'eritsoonerforhavin'noonetoletonto。Amyselfamnoanegoingtospeakon'tagain。'
Nomorehedid;buttherewasastrangetendernessinhistoneswhenhespoketoher;ahalf—patheticwayofseekingafterher,ifbyanychanceshewasabsentforaminutefromtheplaceswhereheexpectedtofindher;
aconsiderationforher,aboutthistime,inhiswayofbringingbacktriflingpresents,orsmallpiecesofnewsthathethoughtmightinteresther,whichsankdeepintoherheart。
'Andwhatdunyo'thinka't'folksistalkin'oni'Monkshaven?'askedhe,almostbeforehehadtakenoffhiscoat,onthedaywhenhehadheardofPhilip'spromotionintheworld。'Why,missus,thynephew,PhilipHepburn,hasgothisnameupi'goldlettersfourinchlongo'erFosters'door!
HimandCoulsonhassetupshoptogether,andFostersisgoneout!'
'That'st'secretofhisjourneyt'Lunnon,'saidBell,moregratifiedthanshechosetoshow。
'Fourinchlongifthey'retheereatall!Iheerdonitatt'BayHorsefirst;butIthoughtyo'dniverbesatisfied'boutIseeditwi'myowneyes。TheydosayasGregoryJones,t'plumber,gotitdonei'York,forthatnoughtelsewouldsatisfyoldJeremiah。It'llbeamattero'somehundredsayeari'Philip'spocket。'
'There'llbeFostersi'th'background,asonemaysay,totaket'biggestshareont'profits,'saidBell。
'Ay,ay,that'sbutasitshouldbe,forIreckonthey'llha'tofindt'brassthefirst,mylass!'saidhe,turningtoSylvia。'A'mfaintotak'theeintot'townnextmarket—day,justfortheet'see't。A'llbuytheeabonnyribbonforthyhairouto't'cousin'sownshop。'
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