Theynowreturned。Shecastvexedlooksonthepassers-by。"Howstupidallthesepeopleseem,"shesaid。Thenraisinghereyestothecountenanceofhercompanion,sheadded:"You,too,likealltherest。"
M。deBelvignebowed。TurningaroundshesawthatthePrinceandtheChevalierhaddisappeared。Servigny,dejectedanddripping,ceasedplayingonthetrumpet,andwalkedwithagloomyairatthesideofthetwoweariedyoungmen,whoalsohadstoppedthedrumplaying。
Shebegantolaughdryly,saying:
"Youseemtohavehadenough;nevertheless,thatiswhatyoucallhavingagoodtime,isn'tit?Youcameforthat;Ihavegivenyouyourmoney'sworth。"
Thenshewalkedon,sayingnothingfurther;andsuddenlyBelvigneperceivedthatshewasweeping。Astounded,heinquired:
"Whatisthematter?"
Shemurmured:"Letmealone,itdoesnotconcernyou。"
Butheinsisted,likeafool:"Oh,Mademoiselle,come,whatisthematter,hasanyoneannoyedyou?"
Sherepeatedimpatiently:"Willyoukeepstill?"
Thensuddenly,nolongerabletoresistthedespairingsorrowwhichdrownedherheart,shebegantosobsoviolently,thatshecouldnolongerwalk。Shecoveredherfacewithherhands,pantingforbreath,chokedbytheviolenceofherdespair。
Belvignestoodstillatherside,quitebewildered,repeating:"I
don'tunderstandthisatall。"
ButServignybrusquelycameforward:"Letusgohome,Mam'zelle,sothatpeoplemaynotseeyouweepinginthestreet。Whydoyouperpetratefollieslikethatwhentheyonlymakeyousad?"
Andtakingherarmhedrewherforward。Butassoonastheyreachedtheirongateofthevillashebegantorun,crossedthegarden,andwentupstairs,andshutherselfinherroom。Shedidnotappearagainuntilthedinnerhour,verypaleandserious。Servignyhadboughtfromacountrystorekeeperaworkingman'scostume,withvelvetpantaloons,afloweredwaistcoatandablouse,andheadoptedthelocaldialect。Yvettewasinahurryforthemtofinish,feelinghercourageebbing。Assoonasthecoffeewasservedshewenttoherroomagain。
Sheheardthemerryvoicesbeneathherwindow。TheChevalierwasmakingequivocaljokes,foreignwitticisms,vulgarandclumsy。Shelistened,indespair。Servigny,justabittipsy,wasimitatingthecommonworkingman,callingtheMarquise"theMissus。"AndallofasuddenhesaidtoSaval:"Well,Boss?"Thatcausedagenerallaugh。
ThenYvettedecided。Shefirsttookasheetofpaperandwrote:
"Bougival,Sunday,nineo'clockintheevening。
"IdiesothatImaynotbecomeakeptwoman。
"YVETTE。"
Theninapostscript:
"Adieu,mydearmother,pardon。"
Shesealedtheenvelope,andaddressedittotheMarquiseObardi。
Thensherolledherlongchairnearthewindow,drewalittletablewithinreachofherhand,andplaceduponitthebigbottleofchloroformbesideahandfulofwadding。
Agreatrose-treecoveredwithflowers,climbingashighasherwindow,exhaledinthenightasoftandgentleperfume,inlightbreaths;andshestoodforamomentenjoyingit。Themoon,initsfirstquarter,wasfloatinginthedarksky,alittleraggedattheleft,andveiledattimesbyslightmists。
Yvettethought:"Iamgoingtodie!"Andherheart,swollenwithsobs,nearlybursting,almostsuffocatedher。Shefeltinheraneedofaskingmercyfromsomeone,ofbeingsaved,ofbeingloved。
ThevoiceofServignyarousedher。Hewastellinganimproperstory,whichwasconstantlyinterruptedbyburstsoflaughter。TheMarquiseherselflaughedlouderthantheothers。
"Thereisnobodylikehimfortellingthatsortofthing,"shesaid,laughing。
Yvettetookthebottle,uncorkedit,andpouredalittleoftheliquidonthecotton。Astrong,sweet,strangeodorarose;andasshebroughtthepieceofcottontoherlips,thefumesenteredherthroatandmadehercough。
Thenshuttinghermouth,shebegantoinhaleit。Shetookinlongbreathsofthisdeadlyvapor,closinghereyes,andforcingherselftostifleinhermindallthoughts,sothatshemightnotreflect,thatshemightknownothingmore。
Itseemedtoheratfirstthatherchestwasgrowinglarger,wasexpanding,andthathersoul,recentlyheavyandburdenedwithgrief,wasbecominglight,light,asiftheweightwhichoverwhelmedherwaslifted,waftedaway。Somethinglivelyandagreeablepenetratedeventotheextremitiesofherlimbs,eventothetipsofhertoesandfingersandenteredherflesh,asortofdreamyintoxication,ofsoftfever。Shesawthatthecottonwasdry,andshewasastonishedthatshewasnotalreadydead。Hersensesseemedmoreacute,moresubtle,morealert。Sheheardthelowestwhisperontheterrace。PrinceKravalowwastellinghowhehadkilledanAustriangeneralinaduel。
Then,furtheroff,inthefields,sheheardthenoiseofthenight,theoccasionalbarkingsofadog,theshortcryofthefrogs,thealmostimperceptiblerustlingoftheleaves。
Shetookthebottleagain,andsaturatedoncemorethelittlepieceofwadding;thenshebegantobreatheinthefumesagain。Forafewmomentsshefeltnothing;thenthatsoftandsoothingfeelingofcomfortwhichshehadexperiencedbeforeenvelopedher。
Twiceshepouredmorechloroformuponthecotton,eagernowforthatphysicalandmentalsensation,thatdreamytorpor,whichbewilderedhersoul。
Itseemedtoherthatshehadnomorebones,flesh,legs,orarms。
Thedrughadgentlytakenalltheseawayfromher,withoutherperceivingit。Thechloroformhaddrawnawayherbody,leavingheronlyhermind,moreawakened,moreactive,larger,andmorefreethanshehadeverfeltit。
Sherecalledathousandforgottenthings,littledetailsofherchildhood,trifleswhichhadgivenherpleasure。Endowedsuddenlywithanawakenedagility,hermindleapedtothemostdiverseideas,ranthroughathousandadventures,wanderedinthepast,andlostitselfinthehoped-foreventsofthefuture。Andherlivelyandcarelessthoughtshadasensuouscharm:sheexperiencedadivinepleasureindreamingthus。
Shestillheardthevoices,butshecouldnolongerdistinguishthewords,whichtoherseemedtohaveadifferentmeaning。Shewasinakindofstrangeandchangingfairyland。
Shewasonagreatboatwhichfloatedthroughabeautifulcountry,allcoveredwithflowers。Shesawpeopleontheshore,andthesepeoplespokeveryloudly;thenshewasagainonland,withoutaskinghow,andServigny,cladasaprince,cametoseekher,totakehertoabull-fight。
Thestreetswerefilledwithpassers-by,whoweretalking,andsheheardconversationswhichdidnotastonishher,asifshehadknownthepeople,forthroughherdreamyintoxication,shestillheardhermother'sfriendslaughingandtalkingontheterrace。
Theneverythingbecamevague。Thensheawakened,deliciouslybenumbed,andshecouldhardlyrememberwhathadhappened。
So,shewasnotyetdead。Butshefeltsocalm,insuchastateofphysicalcomfort,thatshewasnotinhastetofinishwithit——shewantedtomakethisexquisitedrowsinesslastforever。
Shebreathedslowlyandlookedatthemoon,oppositeher,abovethetrees。Somethinghadchangedinherspirit。Shenolongerthoughtasshehaddonejustnow。Thechloroformquietingherbodyandhersoulhadcalmedhergriefandlulledherdesiretodie。
Whyshouldshenotlive?Whyshouldshenotbeloved?Whyshouldshenotleadahappylife?Everythingappearedpossibletohernow,andeasyandcertain。Everythinginlifewassweet,everythingwascharming。Butasshewishedtodreamonstill,shepouredmoreofthedream-wateronthecottonandbegantobreatheitinagain,stoppingattimes,soasnottoabsorbtoomuchofitanddie。
Shelookedatthemoonandsawinitaface,awoman'sface。Shebegantoscornthecountryinthefancifulintoxicationofthedrug。
Thatfaceswunginthesky;thenitsang,itsangwithawell-knownvoicethealleluiaoflove。
ItwastheMarquise,whohadcomeinandseatedherselfatthepiano。
Yvettehadwingsnow。Shewasflyingthroughaclearnight,abovethewoodandstreams。Shewasflyingwithdelight,openingandclosingherwings,bornebythewindasbyacaress。Shemovedintheair,whichkissedherskin,andshewentsofast,sofast,thatshehadnotimetoseeanythingbeneathher,andshefoundherselfseatedonthebankofapondwithalineinherhand;shewasfishing。
Somethingpulledonthecord,andwhenshedrewitoutofthewater,itboreamagnificentpearlnecklace,whichshehadlongedforsometimeago。Shewasnotatallastonishedatthisdeed,andshelookedatServigny,whohadcometoherside——sheknewnothow。Hewasfishingalso,anddrewoutoftheriverawoodenhorse。
Thenshehadanewthefeelingofawaking,andsheheardsomeonecallingdownstairs。Hermotherhadsaid:
"Putoutthecandle。"ThenServigny'svoicerose,clearandjesting:
"Putoutyourcandle,Mam'zelleYvette。"
Andalltookupthechorus:"Mam'zelleYvette,putoutyourcandle。"
Sheagainpouredchloroformonthecotton,but,asshedidnotwanttodie,sheplaceditfarenoughfromherfacetobreathethefreshair,whileneverthelessherroomwasfilledwiththeasphyxiatingodorofthenarcotic,forsheknewthatsomeonewascoming,andtakingasuitableposture,aposeofthedead,shewaited。
TheMarquisesaid:"Iamalittleuneasy!Thatfoolishchildhasgonetosleepleavingthelightonhertable。IwillsendClemencetoputitout,andtoshutthebalconywindow,whichiswideopen。"
Andsoonthemaidrappedonthedoorcalling:"Mademoiselle,Mademoiselle!"Afteramoment'ssilence,sherepeated:
"Mademoiselle,MadametheMarquisebegsyoutoputoutyourcandleandshutthewindow。"
Clemencewaitedalittle,thenknockedlouder,andcried:
"Mademoiselle,Mademoiselle!"
AsYvettedidnotreply,theservantwentawayandreportedtotheMarquise:
"Mademoisellemusthavegonetosleep,herdoorisbolted,andI
couldnotawakenher。"
MadameObardimurmured:
"Butshemustnotstaylikethat,"
Then,atthesuggestionofServigny,theyallgatheredunderthewindow,shoutinginchorus:
"Hip!hip!hurrah!Mam'zelleYvette。"
Theirclamorroseinthecalmnight,throughthetransparentairbeneaththemoon,overthesleepingcountry;andtheyhearditdieawayinthedistancelikethesoundofadisappearingtrain。
AsYvettedidnotanswertheMarquisesaid:"Ionlyhopethatnothinghashappened。Iambeginningtobeafraid。"
ThenServigny,pluckingredrosesfromabigrosebushtrainedalongthewallandbudsnotyetopened,begantothrowthemintotheroomthroughthewindow。
Atthefirstrosethatfellatherside,Yvettestartedandalmostcriedout。Othersfelluponherdress,othersuponherhair,whileothersgoingoverherheadfelluponthebed,coveringitwitharainofflowers。
TheMarquise,inachokingvoice,cried:"Come,Yvette,answer。"
ThenServignydeclared:"Trulythisisnotnatural;Iamgoingtoclimbupbythebalcony。"
ButtheChevaliergrewindignant。
"Now,letmedoit,"hesaid。"ItisagreatfavorIask;itistoogoodameans,andtoogoodatimetoobtainarendezvous。"
Alltherest,whothoughttheyounggirlwasjoking,cried:"Weprotest!Heshallnotclimbup。"
ButtheMarquise,disturbed,repeated:"Andyetsomeonemustgoandsee。"
ThePrinceexclaimedwithadramaticgesture:
"ShefavorstheDuke,wearebetrayed。"
"Letustossacointoseewhoshallgoup,"saidtheChevalier。Hetookafive-francpiecefromhispocket,andbeganwiththePrince。
"Tail,"saidhe。Itwashead。
ThePrincetossedthecoininhisturnsayingtoSaval:"Call,Monsieur。"
Savalcalled"Head。"Itwastail。
ThePrincethengavealltheothersachance,andtheyalllost。
Servigny,whowasstandingoppositehim,exclaimedinhisinsolentway:"PARBLEU!heischeating!"
TheRussianputhishandonhisheartandheldoutthegoldpiecetohisrival,saying:"Tossityourself,mydearDuke。"
Servignytookitandspinningitup,said:"Head。"Itwastail。
Hebowedandpointingtothepillarofthebalconysaid:"Climbup,Prince。"ButthePrincelookedabouthimwithadisturbedair。
"Whatareyoulookingfor?"askedtheChevalier。
"Well,——I——would——like——aladder。"Agenerallaughfollowed。
Saval,advancing,said:"Wewillhelpyou。"
Heliftedhiminhisarms,asstrongasthoseofHercules,tellinghim:
"Nowclimbtothatbalcony。"
ThePrinceimmediatelyclungtoit,and。Savallettinghimgo,heswungthere,suspendedintheair,movinghislegsinemptyspace。
ThenServigny,seeinghisstrugglinglegswhichsoughtarestingplace,pulledthemdownwardwithallhisstrength;thehandslosttheirgripandthePrincefellinaheaponMonsieurdeBelvigne,whowascomingtoaidhim。"Whoseturnnext?"askedServigny。Nooneclaimedtheprivilege。
"Come,Belvigne,courage!"
"Thankyou,mydearboy,Iamthinkingofmybones。"
"Come,Chevalier,youmustbeusedtoscalingwalls。"
"Igivemyplacetoyou,mydearDuke。"
"Ha,ha,thatisjustwhatIexpected。"
Servigny,withakeeneye,turnedtothepillar。Thenwithaleap,clingingtothebalcony,hedrewhimselfuplikeagymnastandclimbedoverthebalustrade。
Allthespectators,gazingathim,applauded。Butheimmediatelyreappeared,calling:
"Come,quick!Come,quick!Yvetteisunconscious。"TheMarquiseutteredaloudcry,andrushedforthestairs。
Theyounggirl,hereyesclosed,pretendedtobedead。Hermotherentereddistracted,andthrewherselfuponher。
"Tellmewhatisthematterwithher,whatisthematterwithher?"
Servignypickedupthebottleofchloroformwhichhadfallenuponthefloor。
"Shehasdruggedherself,"saidhe。
Heplacedhiseartoherheart;thenheadded:
"Butsheisnotdead;wecanresuscitateher。Haveyouanyammonia?"
Themaid,bewildered,repeated:"Anywhat,Monsieur?"
"Anysmelling-salts。"
"Yes,Monsieur。""Bringthematonce,andleavethedooropentomakeadraftofair。"
TheMarquise,onherknees,wassobbing:"Yvette!Yvette,mydaughter,mydaughter,listen,answerme,Yvette,mychild。Oh,myGod!myGod!whathasshedone?"
Themen,frightened,movedaboutwithoutspeaking,bringingwater,towels,glasses,andvinegar。Someonesaid:"Sheoughttobeundressed。"AndtheMarquise,whohadlostherhead,triedtoundressherdaughter;butdidnotknowwhatshewasdoing。Herhandstrembledandfaltered,andshegroaned:
"Icannot,——Icannot——"
Themaidhadcomebackbringingadruggist'sbottlewhichServignyopenedandfromwhichhepouredouthalfuponahandkerchief。ThenheappliedittoYvette'snose,causinghertochoke。
"Good,shebreathes,"saidhe。"Itwillbenothing。"
Andhebathedhertemples,cheeks,andneckwiththepungentliquid。
Thenhemadeasigntothemaidtounlacethegirl,andwhenshehadnothingmoreonthanaskirtoverherchemise,heraisedherinhisarmsandcarriedhertothebed,quivering,movedbytheodorandcontactofherflesh。Thenshewasplacedinbed。Hearoseverypale。
"Shewillcometoherself,"hesaid,"itisnothing。"Forhehadheardherbreatheinacontinuousandregularway。ButseeingallthemenwiththeireyesfixedonYvetteinbed,hewasseizedwithajealousirritation,andadvancedtowardthem。"Gentlemen,"hesaid,"therearetoomanyofusinthisroom;bekindenoughtoleaveusalone,——MonsieurSavalandme——withtheMarquise。"
Hespokeinatonewhichwasdryandfullofauthority。
MadameObardihadgraspedherlover,andwithherheadupliftedtowardhimshecriedtohim:
"Saveher,oh,saveher!"
ButServignyturningaroundsawaletteronthetable。Heseizeditwitharapidmovement,andreadtheaddress。Heunderstoodandthought:"PerhapsitwouldbebetteriftheMarquiseshouldnotknowofthis,"andtearingopentheenvelope,hedevouredataglancethetwolinesitcontained:
"IdiesothatImaynotbecomeakeptwoman。"
"Yvette。"
"Adieu,mydearmother,pardon。"
"Thedevil!"hethought,"thiscallsforreflection。"Andhehidtheletterinhispocket。
Thenheapproachedthebed,andimmediatelythethoughtcametohimthattheyounggirlhadregainedconsciousnessbutthatshedarednotshowit,fromshame,fromhumiliation,andfromfearofquestioning。TheMarquisehadfallenonherkneesnow,andwasweeping,herheadonthe,footofthebed。Suddenlysheexclaimed:
"Adoctor,wemusthaveadoctor!"
ButServigny,whohadjustsaidsomethinginalowtonetoSaval,repliedtoher:"No,itisallover。Come,gooutaminute,justaminute,andIpromiseyouthatshewillkissyouwhenyoucomeback。"AndtheBaron,takingMadameObardibythearm,ledherfromtheroom。
ThenServigny,sitting-bythebed,tookYvette'shandandsaid:
"Mam'zelle,listentome。"
Shedidnotanswer。Shefeltsowell,sosoftandwarminbed,thatshewouldhavelikednevertomove,nevertospeak,andtolivelikethatforever。Aninfinitecomforthadencompassedher,acomfortthelikeofwhichshehadneverexperienced。
Themildnightaircominginbyvelvetybreathstouchedhertemplesinanexquisitealmostimperceptibleway。Itwasacaresslikeakissofthewind,likethesoftandrefreshingbreathofafanmadeofalltheleavesofthetreesandofalltheshadowsofthenight,ofthemistofrivers,andofalltheflowerstoo,fortherosestossedupfrombelowintoherroomanduponherbed,andtherosesclimbingatherbalcony,mingledtheirheavyperfumewiththehealthfulsavoroftheeveningbreeze。
Shedrankinthisairwhichwassogood,hereyesclosed,herheartreposingintheyetpervadingintoxicationofthedrug,andshehadnolongeratallthedesiretodie,butastrong,imperiouswishtolive,tobehappy——nomatterhow——tobeloved,yes,tobeloved。
Servignyrepeated:"Mam'zelleYvette,listentome。"
Andshedecidedtoopenhereyes。
Hecontinued,ashesawherreviving:"Come!Come!whatdoesthisnonsensemean?"
Shemurmured:"MypoorMuscade,Iwassounhappy。"
Hesqueezedherhand:"Andthatledyouintoaprettyscrape!Come,youmustpromisemenottotryitagain。"
Shedidnotreply,butnoddedherheadslightlywithanalmostimperceptiblesmile。Hedrewfromhispockettheletterwhichhehadfoundonthetable:
"HadIbettershowthistoyourmother?"
Sheshookherhead,no。Heknewnotwhatmoretosayforthesituationseemedtohimwithoutanoutlet。Sohemurmured"Mydearchild,everyonehashardthingstobear。IunderstandyoursorrowandIpromiseyou——"
Shestammered:"Youaregood。"
Theyweresilent。Helookedather。Shehadinherglancesomethingoftenderness,ofweakness;andsuddenlysheraisedbothherarms,asifshewoulddrawhimtoher;hebentoverher,feelingthatshecalledhim,andtheirlipsmet。
Foralongtimetheyremainedthus,theireyesclosed。
But,knowingthathewouldlosehishead,hedrewaway。Shesmiledathimnow,mosttenderly;and,withbothherhandsclingingtohisshoulders,sheheldhim。
"Iamgoingtocallyourmother,"hesaid。
Shemurmured:"Justasecondmore。Iamsohappy。"
Thenafterasilence,shesaidinatonesolowthatitcouldscarcelybeheard:"Willyoulovemeverymuch?Tellme!"
Hekneeledbesideherbed,andkissingthehandshehadgivenhim,said:"Iadoreyou。"Butsomeonewaswalkingnearthedoor。Hearosewithabound,andcalledinhisordinaryvoice,whichseemedneverthelessalittleironical:"Youmaycomein。Itisallrightnow。"
TheMarquisethrewherselfonherdaughter,withbotharmsopen,andclaspedherfrantically,coveringhercountenancewithtears,whileServignywithradiantsoulandquiveringbodywentoutuponthebalconytobreathethefreshairofthenight,hummingtohimselftheoldcouplet:
"Awomanchangethofthermind:
Yetfoolsstilltrustinwomankind。"
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