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第7章

  Theynowreturned。Shecastvexedlooksonthepassers-by。"Howstupidallthesepeopleseem,"shesaid。Thenraisinghereyestothecountenanceofhercompanion,sheadded:"You,too,likealltherest。"
  M。deBelvignebowed。TurningaroundshesawthatthePrinceandtheChevalierhaddisappeared。Servigny,dejectedanddripping,ceasedplayingonthetrumpet,andwalkedwithagloomyairatthesideofthetwoweariedyoungmen,whoalsohadstoppedthedrumplaying。
  Shebegantolaughdryly,saying:
  "Youseemtohavehadenough;nevertheless,thatiswhatyoucallhavingagoodtime,isn'tit?Youcameforthat;Ihavegivenyouyourmoney'sworth。"
  Thenshewalkedon,sayingnothingfurther;andsuddenlyBelvigneperceivedthatshewasweeping。Astounded,heinquired:
  "Whatisthematter?"
  Shemurmured:"Letmealone,itdoesnotconcernyou。"
  Butheinsisted,likeafool:"Oh,Mademoiselle,come,whatisthematter,hasanyoneannoyedyou?"
  Sherepeatedimpatiently:"Willyoukeepstill?"
  Thensuddenly,nolongerabletoresistthedespairingsorrowwhichdrownedherheart,shebegantosobsoviolently,thatshecouldnolongerwalk。Shecoveredherfacewithherhands,pantingforbreath,chokedbytheviolenceofherdespair。
  Belvignestoodstillatherside,quitebewildered,repeating:"I
  don'tunderstandthisatall。"
  ButServignybrusquelycameforward:"Letusgohome,Mam'zelle,sothatpeoplemaynotseeyouweepinginthestreet。Whydoyouperpetratefollieslikethatwhentheyonlymakeyousad?"
  Andtakingherarmhedrewherforward。Butassoonastheyreachedtheirongateofthevillashebegantorun,crossedthegarden,andwentupstairs,andshutherselfinherroom。Shedidnotappearagainuntilthedinnerhour,verypaleandserious。Servignyhadboughtfromacountrystorekeeperaworkingman'scostume,withvelvetpantaloons,afloweredwaistcoatandablouse,andheadoptedthelocaldialect。Yvettewasinahurryforthemtofinish,feelinghercourageebbing。Assoonasthecoffeewasservedshewenttoherroomagain。
  Sheheardthemerryvoicesbeneathherwindow。TheChevalierwasmakingequivocaljokes,foreignwitticisms,vulgarandclumsy。Shelistened,indespair。Servigny,justabittipsy,wasimitatingthecommonworkingman,callingtheMarquise"theMissus。"AndallofasuddenhesaidtoSaval:"Well,Boss?"Thatcausedagenerallaugh。
  ThenYvettedecided。Shefirsttookasheetofpaperandwrote:
  "Bougival,Sunday,nineo'clockintheevening。
  "IdiesothatImaynotbecomeakeptwoman。
  "YVETTE。"
  Theninapostscript:
  "Adieu,mydearmother,pardon。"
  Shesealedtheenvelope,andaddressedittotheMarquiseObardi。
  Thensherolledherlongchairnearthewindow,drewalittletablewithinreachofherhand,andplaceduponitthebigbottleofchloroformbesideahandfulofwadding。
  Agreatrose-treecoveredwithflowers,climbingashighasherwindow,exhaledinthenightasoftandgentleperfume,inlightbreaths;andshestoodforamomentenjoyingit。Themoon,initsfirstquarter,wasfloatinginthedarksky,alittleraggedattheleft,andveiledattimesbyslightmists。
  Yvettethought:"Iamgoingtodie!"Andherheart,swollenwithsobs,nearlybursting,almostsuffocatedher。Shefeltinheraneedofaskingmercyfromsomeone,ofbeingsaved,ofbeingloved。
  ThevoiceofServignyarousedher。Hewastellinganimproperstory,whichwasconstantlyinterruptedbyburstsoflaughter。TheMarquiseherselflaughedlouderthantheothers。
  "Thereisnobodylikehimfortellingthatsortofthing,"shesaid,laughing。
  Yvettetookthebottle,uncorkedit,andpouredalittleoftheliquidonthecotton。Astrong,sweet,strangeodorarose;andasshebroughtthepieceofcottontoherlips,thefumesenteredherthroatandmadehercough。
  Thenshuttinghermouth,shebegantoinhaleit。Shetookinlongbreathsofthisdeadlyvapor,closinghereyes,andforcingherselftostifleinhermindallthoughts,sothatshemightnotreflect,thatshemightknownothingmore。
  Itseemedtoheratfirstthatherchestwasgrowinglarger,wasexpanding,andthathersoul,recentlyheavyandburdenedwithgrief,wasbecominglight,light,asiftheweightwhichoverwhelmedherwaslifted,waftedaway。Somethinglivelyandagreeablepenetratedeventotheextremitiesofherlimbs,eventothetipsofhertoesandfingersandenteredherflesh,asortofdreamyintoxication,ofsoftfever。Shesawthatthecottonwasdry,andshewasastonishedthatshewasnotalreadydead。Hersensesseemedmoreacute,moresubtle,morealert。Sheheardthelowestwhisperontheterrace。PrinceKravalowwastellinghowhehadkilledanAustriangeneralinaduel。
  Then,furtheroff,inthefields,sheheardthenoiseofthenight,theoccasionalbarkingsofadog,theshortcryofthefrogs,thealmostimperceptiblerustlingoftheleaves。
  Shetookthebottleagain,andsaturatedoncemorethelittlepieceofwadding;thenshebegantobreatheinthefumesagain。Forafewmomentsshefeltnothing;thenthatsoftandsoothingfeelingofcomfortwhichshehadexperiencedbeforeenvelopedher。
  Twiceshepouredmorechloroformuponthecotton,eagernowforthatphysicalandmentalsensation,thatdreamytorpor,whichbewilderedhersoul。
  Itseemedtoherthatshehadnomorebones,flesh,legs,orarms。
  Thedrughadgentlytakenalltheseawayfromher,withoutherperceivingit。Thechloroformhaddrawnawayherbody,leavingheronlyhermind,moreawakened,moreactive,larger,andmorefreethanshehadeverfeltit。
  Sherecalledathousandforgottenthings,littledetailsofherchildhood,trifleswhichhadgivenherpleasure。Endowedsuddenlywithanawakenedagility,hermindleapedtothemostdiverseideas,ranthroughathousandadventures,wanderedinthepast,andlostitselfinthehoped-foreventsofthefuture。Andherlivelyandcarelessthoughtshadasensuouscharm:sheexperiencedadivinepleasureindreamingthus。
  Shestillheardthevoices,butshecouldnolongerdistinguishthewords,whichtoherseemedtohaveadifferentmeaning。Shewasinakindofstrangeandchangingfairyland。
  Shewasonagreatboatwhichfloatedthroughabeautifulcountry,allcoveredwithflowers。Shesawpeopleontheshore,andthesepeoplespokeveryloudly;thenshewasagainonland,withoutaskinghow,andServigny,cladasaprince,cametoseekher,totakehertoabull-fight。
  Thestreetswerefilledwithpassers-by,whoweretalking,andsheheardconversationswhichdidnotastonishher,asifshehadknownthepeople,forthroughherdreamyintoxication,shestillheardhermother'sfriendslaughingandtalkingontheterrace。
  Theneverythingbecamevague。Thensheawakened,deliciouslybenumbed,andshecouldhardlyrememberwhathadhappened。
  So,shewasnotyetdead。Butshefeltsocalm,insuchastateofphysicalcomfort,thatshewasnotinhastetofinishwithit——shewantedtomakethisexquisitedrowsinesslastforever。
  Shebreathedslowlyandlookedatthemoon,oppositeher,abovethetrees。Somethinghadchangedinherspirit。Shenolongerthoughtasshehaddonejustnow。Thechloroformquietingherbodyandhersoulhadcalmedhergriefandlulledherdesiretodie。
  Whyshouldshenotlive?Whyshouldshenotbeloved?Whyshouldshenotleadahappylife?Everythingappearedpossibletohernow,andeasyandcertain。Everythinginlifewassweet,everythingwascharming。Butasshewishedtodreamonstill,shepouredmoreofthedream-wateronthecottonandbegantobreatheitinagain,stoppingattimes,soasnottoabsorbtoomuchofitanddie。
  Shelookedatthemoonandsawinitaface,awoman'sface。Shebegantoscornthecountryinthefancifulintoxicationofthedrug。
  Thatfaceswunginthesky;thenitsang,itsangwithawell-knownvoicethealleluiaoflove。
  ItwastheMarquise,whohadcomeinandseatedherselfatthepiano。
  Yvettehadwingsnow。Shewasflyingthroughaclearnight,abovethewoodandstreams。Shewasflyingwithdelight,openingandclosingherwings,bornebythewindasbyacaress。Shemovedintheair,whichkissedherskin,andshewentsofast,sofast,thatshehadnotimetoseeanythingbeneathher,andshefoundherselfseatedonthebankofapondwithalineinherhand;shewasfishing。
  Somethingpulledonthecord,andwhenshedrewitoutofthewater,itboreamagnificentpearlnecklace,whichshehadlongedforsometimeago。Shewasnotatallastonishedatthisdeed,andshelookedatServigny,whohadcometoherside——sheknewnothow。Hewasfishingalso,anddrewoutoftheriverawoodenhorse。
  Thenshehadanewthefeelingofawaking,andsheheardsomeonecallingdownstairs。Hermotherhadsaid:
  "Putoutthecandle。"ThenServigny'svoicerose,clearandjesting:
  "Putoutyourcandle,Mam'zelleYvette。"
  Andalltookupthechorus:"Mam'zelleYvette,putoutyourcandle。"
  Sheagainpouredchloroformonthecotton,but,asshedidnotwanttodie,sheplaceditfarenoughfromherfacetobreathethefreshair,whileneverthelessherroomwasfilledwiththeasphyxiatingodorofthenarcotic,forsheknewthatsomeonewascoming,andtakingasuitableposture,aposeofthedead,shewaited。
  TheMarquisesaid:"Iamalittleuneasy!Thatfoolishchildhasgonetosleepleavingthelightonhertable。IwillsendClemencetoputitout,andtoshutthebalconywindow,whichiswideopen。"
  Andsoonthemaidrappedonthedoorcalling:"Mademoiselle,Mademoiselle!"Afteramoment'ssilence,sherepeated:
  "Mademoiselle,MadametheMarquisebegsyoutoputoutyourcandleandshutthewindow。"
  Clemencewaitedalittle,thenknockedlouder,andcried:
  "Mademoiselle,Mademoiselle!"
  AsYvettedidnotreply,theservantwentawayandreportedtotheMarquise:
  "Mademoisellemusthavegonetosleep,herdoorisbolted,andI
  couldnotawakenher。"
  MadameObardimurmured:
  "Butshemustnotstaylikethat,"
  Then,atthesuggestionofServigny,theyallgatheredunderthewindow,shoutinginchorus:
  "Hip!hip!hurrah!Mam'zelleYvette。"
  Theirclamorroseinthecalmnight,throughthetransparentairbeneaththemoon,overthesleepingcountry;andtheyhearditdieawayinthedistancelikethesoundofadisappearingtrain。
  AsYvettedidnotanswertheMarquisesaid:"Ionlyhopethatnothinghashappened。Iambeginningtobeafraid。"
  ThenServigny,pluckingredrosesfromabigrosebushtrainedalongthewallandbudsnotyetopened,begantothrowthemintotheroomthroughthewindow。
  Atthefirstrosethatfellatherside,Yvettestartedandalmostcriedout。Othersfelluponherdress,othersuponherhair,whileothersgoingoverherheadfelluponthebed,coveringitwitharainofflowers。
  TheMarquise,inachokingvoice,cried:"Come,Yvette,answer。"
  ThenServignydeclared:"Trulythisisnotnatural;Iamgoingtoclimbupbythebalcony。"
  ButtheChevaliergrewindignant。
  "Now,letmedoit,"hesaid。"ItisagreatfavorIask;itistoogoodameans,andtoogoodatimetoobtainarendezvous。"
  Alltherest,whothoughttheyounggirlwasjoking,cried:"Weprotest!Heshallnotclimbup。"
  ButtheMarquise,disturbed,repeated:"Andyetsomeonemustgoandsee。"
  ThePrinceexclaimedwithadramaticgesture:
  "ShefavorstheDuke,wearebetrayed。"
  "Letustossacointoseewhoshallgoup,"saidtheChevalier。Hetookafive-francpiecefromhispocket,andbeganwiththePrince。
  "Tail,"saidhe。Itwashead。
  ThePrincetossedthecoininhisturnsayingtoSaval:"Call,Monsieur。"
  Savalcalled"Head。"Itwastail。
  ThePrincethengavealltheothersachance,andtheyalllost。
  Servigny,whowasstandingoppositehim,exclaimedinhisinsolentway:"PARBLEU!heischeating!"
  TheRussianputhishandonhisheartandheldoutthegoldpiecetohisrival,saying:"Tossityourself,mydearDuke。"
  Servignytookitandspinningitup,said:"Head。"Itwastail。
  Hebowedandpointingtothepillarofthebalconysaid:"Climbup,Prince。"ButthePrincelookedabouthimwithadisturbedair。
  "Whatareyoulookingfor?"askedtheChevalier。
  "Well,——I——would——like——aladder。"Agenerallaughfollowed。
  Saval,advancing,said:"Wewillhelpyou。"
  Heliftedhiminhisarms,asstrongasthoseofHercules,tellinghim:
  "Nowclimbtothatbalcony。"
  ThePrinceimmediatelyclungtoit,and。Savallettinghimgo,heswungthere,suspendedintheair,movinghislegsinemptyspace。
  ThenServigny,seeinghisstrugglinglegswhichsoughtarestingplace,pulledthemdownwardwithallhisstrength;thehandslosttheirgripandthePrincefellinaheaponMonsieurdeBelvigne,whowascomingtoaidhim。"Whoseturnnext?"askedServigny。Nooneclaimedtheprivilege。
  "Come,Belvigne,courage!"
  "Thankyou,mydearboy,Iamthinkingofmybones。"
  "Come,Chevalier,youmustbeusedtoscalingwalls。"
  "Igivemyplacetoyou,mydearDuke。"
  "Ha,ha,thatisjustwhatIexpected。"
  Servigny,withakeeneye,turnedtothepillar。Thenwithaleap,clingingtothebalcony,hedrewhimselfuplikeagymnastandclimbedoverthebalustrade。
  Allthespectators,gazingathim,applauded。Butheimmediatelyreappeared,calling:
  "Come,quick!Come,quick!Yvetteisunconscious。"TheMarquiseutteredaloudcry,andrushedforthestairs。
  Theyounggirl,hereyesclosed,pretendedtobedead。Hermotherentereddistracted,andthrewherselfuponher。
  "Tellmewhatisthematterwithher,whatisthematterwithher?"
  Servignypickedupthebottleofchloroformwhichhadfallenuponthefloor。
  "Shehasdruggedherself,"saidhe。
  Heplacedhiseartoherheart;thenheadded:
  "Butsheisnotdead;wecanresuscitateher。Haveyouanyammonia?"
  Themaid,bewildered,repeated:"Anywhat,Monsieur?"
  "Anysmelling-salts。"
  "Yes,Monsieur。""Bringthematonce,andleavethedooropentomakeadraftofair。"
  TheMarquise,onherknees,wassobbing:"Yvette!Yvette,mydaughter,mydaughter,listen,answerme,Yvette,mychild。Oh,myGod!myGod!whathasshedone?"
  Themen,frightened,movedaboutwithoutspeaking,bringingwater,towels,glasses,andvinegar。Someonesaid:"Sheoughttobeundressed。"AndtheMarquise,whohadlostherhead,triedtoundressherdaughter;butdidnotknowwhatshewasdoing。Herhandstrembledandfaltered,andshegroaned:
  "Icannot,——Icannot——"
  Themaidhadcomebackbringingadruggist'sbottlewhichServignyopenedandfromwhichhepouredouthalfuponahandkerchief。ThenheappliedittoYvette'snose,causinghertochoke。
  "Good,shebreathes,"saidhe。"Itwillbenothing。"
  Andhebathedhertemples,cheeks,andneckwiththepungentliquid。
  Thenhemadeasigntothemaidtounlacethegirl,andwhenshehadnothingmoreonthanaskirtoverherchemise,heraisedherinhisarmsandcarriedhertothebed,quivering,movedbytheodorandcontactofherflesh。Thenshewasplacedinbed。Hearoseverypale。
  "Shewillcometoherself,"hesaid,"itisnothing。"Forhehadheardherbreatheinacontinuousandregularway。ButseeingallthemenwiththeireyesfixedonYvetteinbed,hewasseizedwithajealousirritation,andadvancedtowardthem。"Gentlemen,"hesaid,"therearetoomanyofusinthisroom;bekindenoughtoleaveusalone,——MonsieurSavalandme——withtheMarquise。"
  Hespokeinatonewhichwasdryandfullofauthority。
  MadameObardihadgraspedherlover,andwithherheadupliftedtowardhimshecriedtohim:
  "Saveher,oh,saveher!"
  ButServignyturningaroundsawaletteronthetable。Heseizeditwitharapidmovement,andreadtheaddress。Heunderstoodandthought:"PerhapsitwouldbebetteriftheMarquiseshouldnotknowofthis,"andtearingopentheenvelope,hedevouredataglancethetwolinesitcontained:
  "IdiesothatImaynotbecomeakeptwoman。"
  "Yvette。"
  "Adieu,mydearmother,pardon。"
  "Thedevil!"hethought,"thiscallsforreflection。"Andhehidtheletterinhispocket。
  Thenheapproachedthebed,andimmediatelythethoughtcametohimthattheyounggirlhadregainedconsciousnessbutthatshedarednotshowit,fromshame,fromhumiliation,andfromfearofquestioning。TheMarquisehadfallenonherkneesnow,andwasweeping,herheadonthe,footofthebed。Suddenlysheexclaimed:
  "Adoctor,wemusthaveadoctor!"
  ButServigny,whohadjustsaidsomethinginalowtonetoSaval,repliedtoher:"No,itisallover。Come,gooutaminute,justaminute,andIpromiseyouthatshewillkissyouwhenyoucomeback。"AndtheBaron,takingMadameObardibythearm,ledherfromtheroom。
  ThenServigny,sitting-bythebed,tookYvette'shandandsaid:
  "Mam'zelle,listentome。"
  Shedidnotanswer。Shefeltsowell,sosoftandwarminbed,thatshewouldhavelikednevertomove,nevertospeak,andtolivelikethatforever。Aninfinitecomforthadencompassedher,acomfortthelikeofwhichshehadneverexperienced。
  Themildnightaircominginbyvelvetybreathstouchedhertemplesinanexquisitealmostimperceptibleway。Itwasacaresslikeakissofthewind,likethesoftandrefreshingbreathofafanmadeofalltheleavesofthetreesandofalltheshadowsofthenight,ofthemistofrivers,andofalltheflowerstoo,fortherosestossedupfrombelowintoherroomanduponherbed,andtherosesclimbingatherbalcony,mingledtheirheavyperfumewiththehealthfulsavoroftheeveningbreeze。
  Shedrankinthisairwhichwassogood,hereyesclosed,herheartreposingintheyetpervadingintoxicationofthedrug,andshehadnolongeratallthedesiretodie,butastrong,imperiouswishtolive,tobehappy——nomatterhow——tobeloved,yes,tobeloved。
  Servignyrepeated:"Mam'zelleYvette,listentome。"
  Andshedecidedtoopenhereyes。
  Hecontinued,ashesawherreviving:"Come!Come!whatdoesthisnonsensemean?"
  Shemurmured:"MypoorMuscade,Iwassounhappy。"
  Hesqueezedherhand:"Andthatledyouintoaprettyscrape!Come,youmustpromisemenottotryitagain。"
  Shedidnotreply,butnoddedherheadslightlywithanalmostimperceptiblesmile。Hedrewfromhispockettheletterwhichhehadfoundonthetable:
  "HadIbettershowthistoyourmother?"
  Sheshookherhead,no。Heknewnotwhatmoretosayforthesituationseemedtohimwithoutanoutlet。Sohemurmured"Mydearchild,everyonehashardthingstobear。IunderstandyoursorrowandIpromiseyou——"
  Shestammered:"Youaregood。"
  Theyweresilent。Helookedather。Shehadinherglancesomethingoftenderness,ofweakness;andsuddenlysheraisedbothherarms,asifshewoulddrawhimtoher;hebentoverher,feelingthatshecalledhim,andtheirlipsmet。
  Foralongtimetheyremainedthus,theireyesclosed。
  But,knowingthathewouldlosehishead,hedrewaway。Shesmiledathimnow,mosttenderly;and,withbothherhandsclingingtohisshoulders,sheheldhim。
  "Iamgoingtocallyourmother,"hesaid。
  Shemurmured:"Justasecondmore。Iamsohappy。"
  Thenafterasilence,shesaidinatonesolowthatitcouldscarcelybeheard:"Willyoulovemeverymuch?Tellme!"
  Hekneeledbesideherbed,andkissingthehandshehadgivenhim,said:"Iadoreyou。"Butsomeonewaswalkingnearthedoor。Hearosewithabound,andcalledinhisordinaryvoice,whichseemedneverthelessalittleironical:"Youmaycomein。Itisallrightnow。"
  TheMarquisethrewherselfonherdaughter,withbotharmsopen,andclaspedherfrantically,coveringhercountenancewithtears,whileServignywithradiantsoulandquiveringbodywentoutuponthebalconytobreathethefreshairofthenight,hummingtohimselftheoldcouplet:
  "Awomanchangethofthermind:
  Yetfoolsstilltrustinwomankind。"