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第7章

  Itlookedasifithadbeenbuiltofdiscardedthings,scrapsandfragmentsofotherbuildings,puttogetherwithcareandpains,bysomeonewhohadtriedtomakethemostofcast-offmaterial。
  Therewassomethingpitifulandshamefacedaboutthehut。
  Itshrankanddroopedandfadedinitsbarrenfield,andseemedtoclingonlybysufferancetotheedgeofthesplendidcity。
  "This,"saidtheKeeperoftheGate,standingstillandspeakingwithalow,distinctvoice——"thisisyourmansion,JohnWeightman。"
  Analmostintolerableshockofgrievedwonderandindignationchokedthemanforamomentsothathecouldnotsayaword。
  Thenheturnedhisfaceawayfromthepoorlittlehutandbegantoremonstrateeagerlywithhiscompanion。
  "Surely,sir,"hestammered,"youmustbeinerroraboutthis。
  Thereissomethingwrong——someotherJohnWeightman——aconfusionofnames——thebookmustbemistaken。"
  "Thereisnomistake,"saidtheKeeperoftheGate,verycalmly;
  "hereisyourname,therecordofyourtitleandyourpossessionsinthisplace。"
  "Buthowcouldsuchahousebepreparedforme,"criedtheman,witharesentfultremorinhisvoice——"forme,aftermylongandfaithfulservice?Isthisasuitablemansionforonesowellknownanddevoted?Whyisitsopitifullysmallandmean?
  Whyhaveyounotbuiltitlargeandfair,liketheothers?"
  "Thatisallthematerialyousentus。"
  "What!"
  "Wehaveusedallthematerialthatyousentus,"repeatedtheKeeperoftheGate。
  "NowIknowthatyouaremistaken,"criedtheman,withgrowingearnestness,"forallmylifelongIhavebeendoingthingsthatmusthavesuppliedyouwithmaterial。HaveyounotheardthatIhavebuiltaschool-house;thewingofahospital;two——yes,three——smallchurches,andthegreaterpartofalargeone,thespireofSt。Petro——"
  TheKeeperoftheGateliftedhishand。
  "Wait,"hesaid;"weknowallthesethings。Theywerenotilldone。
  ButtheywereallmarkedandusedasfoundationforthenameandmansionofJohnWeightmanintheworld。Didyounotplanthemforthat?"
  "Yes,"answeredtheman,confusedandtakenaback,"IconfessthatIthoughtoftenoftheminthatway。Perhapsmyheartwassetuponthattoomuch。Butthereareotherthings——myendowmentforthecollege——mysteadyandliberalcontributionstoalltheestablishedcharities——mysupportofeveryrespectable——"
  "Wait,"saidtheKeeperoftheGateagain。"Werenotallthesecarefullyrecordedonearthwheretheywouldaddtoyourcredit?
  Theywerenotfoolishlydone。Verily,youhavehadyourrewardforthem。
  Wouldyoubepaidtwice?"
  "No,"criedtheman,withdeepeningdismay,"Idarenotclaimthat。
  IacknowledgethatIconsideredmyowninteresttoomuch。Butsurelynotaltogether。Youhavesaidthatthesethingswerenotfoolishlydone。
  Theyaccomplishedsomegoodintheworld。Doesnotthatcountforsomething?"
  "Yes,"answeredheKeeperoftheGate,"itcountsintheworld——whereyoucountedit。Butitdoesnotbelongtoyouhere。Wehavesavedandusedeverythingthatyousentus。Thisisthemansionpreparedforyou。"
  Ashespoke,hislookgrewdeeperandmoresearching,likeaflameoffire。
  JohnWeightmancouldnotendureit。Itseemedtostriphimnakedandwitherhim。Hesanktothegroundunderacrushingweightofshame,coveringhiseyeswithhishandsandcoweringfacedownwarduponthestones。Dimlythroughthetroubleofhismindhefelttheirhardnessandcoldness。
  "Tellme,then,"hecried,brokenly,"sincemylifehasbeensolittleworth,howcameIhereatall?"
  "ThroughthemercyoftheKing"——theanswerwaslikethesofttollingofabell。
  "AndhowhaveIearnedit?"hemurmured。
  "Itisneverearned;itisonlygiven,"cametheclear,lowreply。
  "ButhowhaveIfailedsowretchedly,"heasked,"inallthepurposeofmylife?WhatcouldIhavedonebetter?Whatisitthatcountshere?"
  "Onlythatwhichistrulygiven,"answeredthebell-likevoice。
  Onlythatgoodwhichisdonefortheloveofdoingit。
  Onlythoseplansinwhichthewelfareofothersisthemasterthought。
  Onlythoselaborsinwhichthesacrificeisgreaterthanthereward。
  Onlythosegiftsinwhichthegiverforgetshimself。"
  Themanlaysilent。Agreatweakness,anunspeakabledespondencyandhumiliationwereuponhim。ButthefaceoftheKeeperoftheGatewasinfinitelytenderashebentoverhim。
  "Thinkagain,JohnWeightman。Hastherebeennothinglikethatinyourlife?"
  "Nothing,"hesighed。"Ifthereeverweresuchthings,itmusthavebeenlongago——theywereallcrowdedout——Ihaveforgottenthem。"
  TherewasanineffablesmileonthefaceoftheKeeperoftheGate,andhishandmadethesignofthecrossoverthebowedheadashespokegently:
  "ThesearethethingsthattheKingneverforgets;andbecausetherewereafewoftheminyourlife,youhavealittleplacehere。"
  ThesenseofcoldnessandhardnessunderJohnWeightman'shandsgrewsharperandmoredistinct。Thefeelingofbodilywearinessandlassitudeweigheduponhim,buttherewasacalm,almostalightness,inhisheartashelistenedtothefadingvibrationsofthesilverybell-tones。Thechimneyclockonthemantelhadjustendedthelaststrokeofsevenasheliftedhisheadfromthetable。
  Thin,palestripsofthecitymorningwerefallingintotheroomthroughthenarrowpartingsoftheheavycurtains。
  Whatwasitthathadhappenedtohim?Hadhebeenill?Hadhediedandcometolifeagain?Orhadheonlyslept,andhadhissoulgonevisitingindreams?Hesatforsometime,motionless,notlost,butfindinghimselfinthought。Thenhetookanarrowbookfromthetabledrawer,wroteacheck,andtoreitout。
  Hewentslowlyupthestairs,knockedverysoftlyathisson'sdoor,and,hearingnoanswer,enteredwithoutnoise。Haroldwasasleep,hisbarearmthrownabovehishead,andhiseagerfacerelaxedinpeace。
  Hisfatherlookedathimamomentwithstrangelyshiningeyes,andthentiptoedquietlytothewriting-desk,foundapencilandasheetofpaper,andwroterapidly:
  "Mydearboy,hereiswhatyouaskedmefor;dowhatyoulikewithit,andaskformoreifyouneedit。IfyouarestillthinkingofthatworkwithGrenfell,we'lltalkitoverto-dayafterchurch。
  Iwanttoknowyourheartbetter;andifIhavemademistakes——"
  Aslightnoisemadehimturnhishead。Haroldwassittingupinbedwithwide-openeyes。
  "Father!"hecried,"isthatyou?"
  "Yes,myson,"answeredJohnWeightman;"I'vecomeback——ImeanI'vecomeup——no,Imeancomein——well,hereIam,andGodgiveusagoodChristmastogether。"