首页 >出版文学> Memoirs of Carwin the Biloquist>第1章
  ChapterI。
  Iwasthesecondsonofafarmer,whoseplaceofresidencewasawesterndistrictofPennsylvania。Myeldestbrotherseemedfittedbynaturefortheemploymenttowhichhewasdestined。Hiswishesneverledhimastrayfromthehay-stackandthefurrow。Hisideasneverrangedbeyondthesphereofhisvision,orsuggestedthepossibilitythatto-morrowcoulddifferfromto-day。Hecouldreadandwrite,becausehehadnoalternativebetweenlearningthelessonprescribedtohim,andpunishment。Hewasdiligent,aslongasfearurgedhimforward,buthisexertionsceasedwiththecessationofthismotive。Thelimitsofhisacquirementsconsistedinsigninghisname,andspellingoutachapterinthebible。
  Mycharacterwasthereverseofhis。Mythirstofknowledgewasaugmentedinproportionasitwassuppliedwithgratification。
  ThemoreIheardorread,themorerestlessandunconquerablemycuriositybecame。Mysenseswereperpetuallyalivetonovelty,myfancyteemedwithvisionsofthefuture,andmyattentionfasteneduponeverythingmysteriousorunknown。
  Myfatherintendedthatmyknowledgeshouldkeeppacewiththatofmybrother,butconceivedthatallbeyondthemerecapacitytowriteandreadwasuselessorpernicious。Hetookasmuchpainstokeepmewithintheselimits,astomaketheacquisitionsofmybrothercomeuptothem,buthiseffortswerenotequallysuccessfulinbothcases。Themostvigilantandjealousscrutinywasexertedinvain:Reproachesandblows,painfulprivationsandignominiouspenanceshadnopowertoslackenmyzealandabatemyperseverance。Hemightenjoinuponmethemostlaborioustasks,settheenvyofmybrothertowatchmeduringtheperformance,makethemostdiligentsearchaftermybooks,anddestroythemwithoutmercy,whentheywerefound;buthecouldnotoutrootmydarlingpropensity。Iexertedallmypowerstoeludehiswatchfulness。
  Censuresandstripesweresufficientlyunpleasingtomakemestrivetoavoidthem。Toeffectthisdesirableend,Iwasincessantlyemployedintheinventionofstratagemsandtheexecutionofexpedients。
  Mypassionwassurelynotdeservingofblame,andIhavefrequentlylamentedthehardshipstowhichitsubjectedme;yet,perhaps,theclaimswhichweremadeuponmyingenuityandfortitudewerenotwithoutbeneficialeffectsuponmycharacter。
  Thiscontentionlastedfromthesixthtothefourteenthyearofmyage。Myfather'soppositiontomyschemeswasincitedbyasincerethoughunenlighteneddesireformyhappiness。Thatallhiseffortsweresecretlyeludedorobstinatelyrepelled,wasasourceofthebitterestregret。Hehasoftenlamented,withtears,whathecalledmyincorrigibledepravity,andencouragedhimselftoperseverancebythenotionoftheruinthatwouldinevitablyovertakemeifIwereallowedtopersistinmypresentcareer。
  Perhapsthesufferingswhicharosetohimfromthedisappointment,wereequaltothosewhichheinflictedonme。
  Inmyfourteenthyear,eventshappenedwhichascertainedmyfuturedestiny。OneeveningIhadbeensenttobringcowsfromameadow,somemilesdistantfrommyfather'smansion。Mytimewaslimited,andIwasmenacedwithseverechastisementif,accordingtomycustom,Ishouldstaybeyondtheperiodassigned。
  Forsometimethesemenacesrunginmyears,andIwentonmywaywithspeed。Iarrivedatthemeadow,butthecattlehadbrokenthefenceandescaped。Itwasmydutytocarryhometheearliesttidingsofthisaccident,butthefirstsuggestionwastoexaminethecauseandmannerofthisescape。Thefieldwasboundedbycedarrailing。Fiveoftheserailswerelaidhorizontallyfromposttopost。Theupperonehadbeenbrokeninthemiddle,buttheresthadmerelybeendrawnoutoftheholesononeside,andrestedwiththeirendsontheground。Themeanswhichhadbeenusedforthisend,thereasonwhyoneonlywasbroken,andthatonetheuppermost,howapairofhornscouldbesomanagedastoeffectthatwhichthehandsofmanwouldhavefounddifficult,suppliedathemeofmeditation。
  Someaccidentrecalledmefromthisreverie,andremindedmehowmuchtimehadthusbeenconsumed。Iwasterrifiedattheconsequencesofmydelay,andsoughtwitheagernesshowtheymightbeobviated。IaskedmyselfiftherewerenotawaybackshorterthanthatbywhichIhadcome。Thebeatenroadwasrenderedcircuitousbyaprecipicethatprojectedintoaneighbouringstream,andclosedupapassagebywhichthelengthofthewaywouldhavebeendiminishedonehalf:atthefootofthecliffthewaterwasofconsiderabledepth,andagitatedbyaneddy。IcouldnotestimatethedangerwhichIshouldincurbyplungingintoit,butIwasresolvedtomaketheattempt。Ihavereasontothink,thatthisexperiment,ifithadbeentried,wouldhaveprovedfatal,andmyfather,whilehelamentedmyuntimelyfate,wouldhavebeenwhollyunconsciousthathisownunreasonabledemandshadoccasionedit。
  Iturnedmystepstowardsthespot。Toreachtheedgeofthestreamwasbynomeansaneasyundertaking,somanyabruptpointsandgloomyhollowswereinterposed。Ihadfrequentlyskirtedandpenetratedthistract,buthadneverbeensocompletelyentangledinthemazeasnow:henceIhadremainedunacquaintedwithanarrowpass,which,atthedistanceofanhundredyardsfromtheriver,wouldconductme,thoughnotwithoutdangerandtoil,totheoppositesideoftheridge。
  Thisglenwasnowdiscovered,andthisdiscoveryinducedmetochangemyplan。Ifapassagecouldbehereeffected,itwouldbeshorterandsaferthanthatwhichledthroughthestream,anditspracticabilitywastobeknownonlybyexperiment。Thepathwasnarrow,steep,andovershadowedbyrocks。Thesunwasnearlyset,andtheshadowofthecliffabove,obscuredthepassagealmostasmuchasmidnightwouldhavedone:Iwasaccustomedtodespisedangerwhenitpresenteditselfinasensibleform,but,byadefectcommonineveryone'seducation,goblinsandspectresweretometheobjectsofthemostviolentapprehensions。Thesewereunavoidablyconnectedwithsolitudeanddarkness,andwerepresenttomyfearswhenIenteredthisgloomyrecess。
  Theseterrorsarealwayslessenedbycallingtheattentionawaytosomeindifferentobject。Inowmadeuseofthisexpedient,andbegantoamusemyselfbyhallowingasloudasorgansofunusualcompassandvigourwouldenableme。Iutterredthewordswhichchancedtooccurtome,andrepeatedintheshrilltonesofaMohocksavage……"Cow!cow!comehome!home!"……Thesenoteswereofcoursereverberatedfromtherockswhichoneithersidetoweredaloft,buttheechowasconfusedandindistinct。
  Icontinued,forsometime,thustobeguiletheway,tillI
  reachedaspacemorethancommonlyabrupt,andwhichrequiredallmyattention。MyrudedittywassuspendedtillIhadsurmountedthisimpediment。InafewminutesIwasatleisuretorenewit。
  Afterfinishingthestrain,Ipaused。InafewsecondsavoiceasIthenimagined,utteredthesamecryfromthepointofarocksomehundredfeetbehindme;thesamewords,withequaldistinctnessanddeliberation,andinthesametone,appearedtobespoken。Iwasstartledbythisincident,andcastafearfulglancebehind,todiscoverbywhomitwasuttered。ThespotwhereIstoodwasburiedindusk,buttheeminenceswerestillinvestedwithaluminousandvividtwilight。Thespeaker,however,wasconcealedfrommyview。
  Ihadscarcelybeguntowonderatthisoccurrence,whenanewoccasionforwonder,wasaffordedme。Afewseconds,inlikemanner,elapsed,whenmydittywasagainrehearsed,withanolessperfectimitation,inadifferentquarterTothisquarterIeagerlyturnedmyeyes,butnoonewasvisible……Thestation,indeed,whichthisnewspeakerseemedtooccupy,wasinaccessibletomanorbeast。
  IfIweresurprizedatthissecondrepetitionofmywords,judgehowmuchmysurprisemusthavebeenaugmented,whenthesamecallswereathirdtimerepeated,andcomingstillinanewdirection。Fivetimeswasthisdittysuccessivelyresounded,atintervalsnearlyequal,alwaysfromanewquarter,andwithlittleabatementofitsoriginaldistinctnessandforce。
  Alittlereflectionwassufficienttoshewthatthiswasnomorethananechoofanextraordinarykind。Myterrorswerequicklysupplantedbydelight。Themotivestodispatchwereforgotten,andIamusedmyselfforanhour,withtalkingtothesecliffs:Iplacedmyselfinnewpositions,andexhaustedmylungsandmyinventioninnewclamours。
  ThepleasuresofthisnewdiscoverywereanamplecompensationfortheilltreatmentwhichIexpectedonmyreturn。BysomecapriceinmyfatherIescapedmerelywithafewreproaches。I
  seizedthefirstopportunityofagainvisitingthisrecess,andrepeatingmyamusement;time,andincessantrepetition,couldscarcelylessenitscharmsorexhaustthevarietyproducedbynewtonesandnewpositions。
  ThehoursinwhichIwasmostfreefrominterruptionandrestraintwerethoseofmoonlight。MybrotherandIoccupiedasmallroomabovethekitchen,disconnected,insomedegree,withtherestofthehouse。Itwastheruralcustomtoretireearlytobedandtoanticipatetherisingofthesun。Whenthemoonlightwasstrongenoughtopermitmetoread,itwasmycustomtoescapefrombed,andhiewithmybooktosomeneighbouringeminence,whereIwouldremainstretchedonthemossyrock,tillthesinkingorbecloudedmoon,forbademetocontinuemyemployment。Iwasindebtedforbookstoafriendlypersonintheneighbourhood,whosecompliancewithmysolicitationswaspromptedpartlybybenevolenceandpartlybyenmitytomyfather,whomhecouldnotmoreegregiouslyoffendthanbygratifyingmyperverseandperniciouscuriosity。
  InleavingmychamberIwasobligedtousetheutmostcautiontoavoidrousingmybrother,whosetemperdisposedhimtothwartmeintheleastofmygratifications。Mypurposewassurelylaudable,andyetonleavingthehouseandreturningtoit,Iwasobligedtousethevigilanceandcircumspectionofathief。
  OnenightIleftmybedwiththisview。Ipostedfirsttomyvocalglen,andthencescramblingupaneighbouringsteep,whichoverlookedawideextentofthisromanticcountry,gavemyselfuptocontemplation,andtheperusalofMilton'sComus。
  Myreflectionswerenaturallysuggestedbythesingularityofthisecho。Tohearmyownvoicespeakatadistancewouldhavebeenformerlyregardedasprodigious。Toheartoo,thatvoice,notutteredbyanother,bywhomitmighteasilybemimicked,butbymyself!Icannotnowrecollectthetransitionwhichledmetothenotionofsounds,similartothese,butproducedbyothermeansthanreverberation。CouldInotsodisposemyorgansastomakemyvoiceappearatadistance?
  FromspeculationIproceededtoexperiment。Theideaofadistantvoice,likemyown,wasintimatelypresenttomyfancy。I
  exertedmyselfwithamostardentdesire,andwithsomethinglikeapersuasionthatIshouldsucceed。Istartedwithsurprise,foritseemedasifsuccesshadcrownedmyattempts。Irepeatedtheeffort,butfailed。Acertainpositionoftheorganstookplaceonthefirstattempt,altogethernew,unexampledandasitwere,byaccident,forIcouldnotattainitonthesecondexperiment。
  YouwillnotwonderthatIexertedmyselfwithindefatigablezealtoregainwhathadonce,thoughforsoshortaspace,beeninmypower。Yourownearshavewitnessedthesuccessoftheseefforts。ByperpetualexertionIgaineditasecondtime,andnowwasadiligentobserverofthecircumstancesattendingit。
  GraduallyIsubjectedthesefinerandmoresubtlemotionstothecommandofmywill。Whatwasatfirstdifficult,byexerciseandhabit,wasrenderedeasy。Ilearnedtoaccommodatemyvoicetoallthevarietiesofdistanceanddirection。
  Itcannotbedeniedthatthisfacultyiswonderfulandrare,butwhenweconsiderthepossiblemodificationsofmuscularmotion,howfewoftheseareusuallyexerted,howimperfectlytheyaresubjectedtothewill,andyetthatthewilliscapableofbeingrenderedunlimitedandabsolute,willnotourwondercease?
  WehaveseenmenwhocouldhidetheirtonguessoperfectlythatevenanAnatomist,afterthemostaccurateinspectionthatalivingsubjectcouldadmit,hasaffirmedtheorgantobewanting,butthiswaseffectedbytheexertionofmusclesunknownandincredibletothegreaterpartofmankind。
  Theconcurrenceofteeth,palateandtongue,intheformationofspeechshouldseemtobeindispensable,andyetmenhavespokendistinctlythoughwantingatongue,andtowhom,therefore,teethandpalateweresuperfluous。Thetribeofmotionsrequisitetothisend,arewhollylatentandunknown,tothosewhopossessthatorgan。
  Imeannottobemoreexplicit。Ihavenoreasontosupposeapeculiarconformationoractivityinmyownorgans,orthatthepowerwhichIpossessmaynot,withsuitabledirectionsandbysteadyefforts,beobtainedbyothers,butIwilldonothingtofacilitatetheacquisition。Itisbyfar,tooliabletoperversionforagoodmantodesiretopossessit,ortoteachittoanother。
  Thereremainedbutonethingtorenderthisinstrumentaspowerfulinmyhandsasitwascapableofbeing。Frommychildhood,Iwasremarkablyskilfulatimitation。TherewerefewvoiceswhetherofmenorbirdsorbeastswhichIcouldnotimitatewithsuccess。Toaddmyancient,tomynewlyacquiredskill,totalkfromadistance,andatthesametime,intheaccentsofanother,wastheobjectofmyendeavours,andthisobject,afteracertainnumberoftrials,Ifinallyobtained。
  Inmypresentsituationeverythingthatdenotedintellectualexertionwasacrime,andexposedmetoinvectivesifnottostripes。Thiscircumstanceinducedmetobesilenttoallothers,onthesubjectofmydiscovery。But,addedtothis,wasaconfusedbelief,thatitmightbemade,insomewayinstrumentaltomyrelieffromthehardshipsandrestraintsofmypresentcondition。
  ForsometimeIwasnotawareofthemodeinwhichitmightberenderedsubservienttothisend。
  ChapterII。
  Myfather'ssisterwasanancientlady,residentinPhiladelphia,therelictofamerchant,whosedeceaselefthertheenjoymentofafrugalcompetence。Shewaswithoutchildren,andhadoftenexpressedherdesirethathernephewFrank,whomshealwaysconsideredasasprightlyandpromisinglad,shouldbeputunderhercare。Sheofferedtobeattheexpenseofmyeducation,andtobequeathtomeatherdeathherslenderpatrimony。
  Thisarrangementwasobstinatelyrejectedbymyfather,becauseitwasmerelyfosteringandgivingscopetopropensities,whichheconsideredashurtful,andbecausehisavaricedesiredthatthisinheritanceshouldfalltonoonebuthimself。Tome,itwasaschemeofravishingfelicity,andtobedebarredfromitwasasourceofanguishknowntofew。Ihadtoomuchexperienceofmyfather'spertinaciousnessevertohopeforachangeinhisviews;
  yettheblissoflivingwithmyaunt,inanewandbusyscene,andintheunboundedindulgenceofmyliterarypassion,continuallyoccupiedmythoughts:foralongtimethesethoughtswereproductiveonlyofdespondencyandtears。
  Timeonlyenchancedthedesirablenessofthisscheme;mynewfacultywouldnaturallyconnectitselfwiththesewishes,andthequestioncouldnotfailtooccurwhetheritmightnotaidmeintheexecutionofmyfavouriteplan。
  Athousandsuperstitioustaleswerecurrentinthefamily。
  Apparitionshadbeenseen,andvoiceshadbeenheardonamultitudeofoccasions。Myfatherwasaconfidentbelieverinsupernaturaltokens。Thevoiceofhiswife,whohadbeenmanyyearsdead,hadbeentwiceheardatmidnightwhisperingathispillow。I
  frequentlyaskedmyselfwhetheraschemefavourabletomyviewsmightnotbebuiltuponthesefoundations。Suppose(thoughtI)mymothershouldbemadetoenjoinuponhimcompliancewithmywishes?
  Thisideabredinmeatemporaryconsternation。Toimitatethevoiceofthedead,tocounterfeitacommissionfromheaven,boretheaspectofpresumptionandimpiety。Itseemedanoffencewhichcouldnotfailtodrawafteritthevengeanceofthedeity。
  Mywishesforatimeyieldedtomyfears,butthisschemeinproportionasImeditatedonit,becamemoreplausible;nootheroccurredtomesoeasyandsoefficacious。Iendeavouredtopersuademyselfthattheendproposed,was,inthehighestdegreepraiseworthy,andthattheexcellenceofmypurposewouldjustifythemeansemployedtoattainit。
  Myresolutionswere,foratime,attendedwithfluctuationsandmisgivings。Thesegraduallydisappeared,andmypurposebecamefirm;Iwasnexttodevisethemeansofeffectingmyviews,thisdidnotdemandanytediousdeliberation。Itwaseasytogainaccesstomyfather'schamberwithoutnoticeordetection,cautiousfootstepsandthesuppressionofbreathwouldplaceme,unsuspectedandunthoughtof,byhisbedside。ThewordsIshoulduse,andthemodeofutterancewerenoteasilysettled,buthavingatlengthselectedthese,Imademyselfbymuchpreviousrepetition,perfectlyfamiliarwiththeuseofthem。
  Iselectedablusteringandinclementnight,inwhichthedarknesswasaugmentedbyaveiloftheblackestclouds。Thebuildingweinhabitedwasslightinitsstructure,andfullofcrevicesthroughwhichthegalefoundeasyway,andwhistledinathousandcadences。Onthisnighttheelementalmusicwasremarkablysonorous,andwasminglednotunfrequentlywith~~thunderheardremote~~。
  Icouldnotdivestmyselfofsecretdread。Myheartfaulteredwithaconsciousnessofwrong。Heavenseemedtobepresentandtodisapprovemywork;Ilistenedtothethunderandthewind,astothesternvoiceofthisdisapprobation。Bigdropsstoodonmyforehead,andmytremorsalmostincapacitatedmefromproceeding。
  TheseimpedimentshoweverIsurmounted;Icreptupstairsatmidnight,andenteredmyfather'schamber。ThedarknesswasintenseandIsoughtwithoutstretchedhandsforhisbed。Thedarkness,addedtothetrepidationofmythoughts,disabledmefrommakingarightestimateofdistances:Iwasconsciousofthis,andwhenIadvancedwithintheroom,paused。
  IendeavouredtocomparetheprogressIhadmadewithmyknowledgeoftheroom,andgovernedbytheresultofthiscomparison,proceededcautiouslyandwithhandsstilloutstretchedinsearchofthefootofthebed。Atthismomentlightningflashedintotheroom:thebrightnessofthegleamwasdazzling,yetitaffordedmeanexactknowledgeofmysituation。Ihadmistakenmyway,anddiscoveredthatmykneesnearlytouchedthebedstead,andthatmyhandsatthenextstep,wouldhavetouchedmyfather'scheek。Hisclosedeyesandeverylineinhiscountenance,werepainted,asitwere,foraninstantonmysight。
  Theflashwasaccompaniedwithaburstofthunder,whosevehemencewasstunning。Ialwaysentertainedadreadofthunder,andnowrecoiled,overbornewithterror。NeverhadIwitnessedsoluminousagleamandsotremendousashock,yetmyfather'sslumberappearednottobedisturbedbyit。
  Istoodirresoluteandtrembling;toprosecutemypurposeinthisstateofmindwasimpossible。Iresolvedforthepresenttorelinquishit,andturnedwithaviewofexploringmywayoutofthechamber。Justthenalightseenthroughthewindow,caughtmyeye。Itwasatfirstweakbutspeedilyincreased;nosecondthoughtwasnecessarytoinformmethatthebarn,situatedatasmalldistancefromthehouse,andnewlystoredwithhay,wasinflames,inconsequenceofbeingstruckbythelightning。
  Myterroratthisspectaclemademecarelessofallconsequencesrelativetomyself。Irushedtothebedandthrowingmyselfonmyfather,awakenedhimbyloudcries。Thefamilywerespeedilyroused,andwerecompelledtoremainimpotentspectatorsofthedevastation。Fortunatelythewindblewinacontrarydirection,sothatourhabitationwasnotinjured。