TherewasnolatedinneratSomervilleVilla。Indeed,ladies,lefttothemselves,seldomdinelate。Natureisstronginthem,andtheyarehungriestwhenthesunishigh。Atseveno'clockZoeVizardwasseatedatherdesktryingtowritetoLordUxmoor。Shesighed,shemoaned,shebegan,anddroppedthepenandhidherface。Shebecamealmostwild;andinthatstatesheatlastdashedoffwhatfollows:
"DEARLORDUXMOOR——Forpity'ssake,forgivethemadwordsIsaidtoyoutoday。Itisimpossible。Icandonomorethanadmireandesteemyou。Myheartisgonefrommeforever。Prayforgiveme,thoughIdonotdeserveit;andneverseemenorlookatmeagain。Iaskpardonformyvacillation。Ithasbeendisgraceful;butithasended,andIwasunderagreaterror,whichIcannotexplaintoyou,whenIledyoutobelieveI
hadahearttogiveyou。Myeyesareopened。Ourpathslieasunder。Pray,prayforgiveme,ifitispossible。Iwillneverforgivemyself,norceasetoblessandrevereyou,whomIhaveusedsoill。
ZOEVIZARD。"
ThatdayUxmoordinedalonewithhismother,forawonder,andhetoldherhowMissVizardhadcomeround;hetoldheralsoaboutthebull,butsovilelythatshehardlycomprehendedhehadbeeninanydanger:theseencountersarerarelydescribedtothelife,exceptbyuswhoavoidthem——exceptonpaper。
LadyUxmoorwasmuchpleased。Shewasaproud,politiclady,andthiswasajudiciousunionoftwopowerfulhousesinthecounty,andonethatwouldalmostcommandtheelections。But,aboveall,sheknewherson'sheartwasinthematch,andshegavehimamother'ssympathy。
Assheretired,shekissedhimandsaid,"Whenyouarequitesureoftheprize,tellme,andIwillcalluponher。"
Beingalone,LordUxmoorlightedacigarandsmokeditinmeasurelesscontent。Theservantbroughthimanoteonasalver。Ithadcomebyhand。
Uxmooropeneditandreadeverywordstraightthrough,downto"ZoeVizard;"readit,andsatpetrified。
Hereaditagain。Hefeltasortofsicknesscomeoverhim。Heswallowedatumblerofport,awineherarelytouched;buthefeltworsenowthanafterthebullfight。Thisdone,heroseandstalkedlikeawoundedlionintothedrawing-room,whichwasonthesamefloor,andlaidtheletterbeforehismother。
"Youareawomantoo,"saidhe,alittlehelplessly。"Tellme——whatonearthdoesthismean?"
Thedowagerreaditslowlyandkeenly,andsaid,"Itmeans——anotherman。"
"Ah!"saidUxmoor,withasortofsnarl。
"Haveyouseenanyoneabouther?"
"No;notlately。AtVizardCourttherewas。Butthatisallovernow,I
conclude。ItwasaMr。Severne,anadventurer,afellowthatwascaughtoutinaliebeforeusall。VizardtellsmealadycameandclaimedhimbeforeMissVizard,andheranaway。"
"Anunworthyattachment,inshort?"
"Veryunworthy,ifitwasanattachmentatall。"
"WasheatVizardCourtwhenshedeclinedyourhand?"
"Yes。"
"Didheremain,afteryouwent?"
"Isupposeso。Yes,hemusthave。"
"Thenthewholethingisclear:thatmanhascomeforwardagainunexpectedly,orwritten,andshedismissesyou。Mydarling,thereisbutonethingforyoutodo。Leaveher,andthankherfortellingyouintime。Alesshonorablefoolwouldhavehiddenit,andthenwemighthavehadaCountessofUxmoorintheDivorceCourtsomedayorother。
"Ihadbettergoabroad,"saidUxmoor,withagroan。"Thiscountryispoisonedforme。"
"Go,byallmeans。LetJannewaypackupyourthingsto-morrow。"
"Ishouldliketokillthatfellowfirst。"
"Youwillnotevenwasteathoughtonhim,ifyouaremyson。"
"Youareright,mother。WhatamItosaytoher?"
"Notaword。"
"What,notanswerherletter?Itishumbleenough,Iamsure——poorsoul!
Mother,Iamwretched,butIamnotbitter,andmyrivalwillrevengeme。"
"Uxmoor,yourgoingabroadistheonlyanswersheshallhave。Thewisestman,inthesematters,whoeverlivedhasleftaruleofconducttoeverywell-bornman——arulewhich,believeme,iswisdomitself:
"Lebruitestpourlefat,laplainteestpourlesot;L'honnetehommetrompe';s'e'loigne,etneditmot。"
Youwillmakeatour,andnotsayawordtoMissVizard,good,bad,norindifferent。Iinsistuponthat。"
"Verywell。Thankyou,dearmother;youguideme,anddon'tletmemakeafoolofmyself,forIamterriblycutup。YouwillbetheonlyCountessofUxmoorinmyday。"
Thenhekneltatherfeet,andshekissedhisheadandcriedoverhim;
buthertearsonlymadethisproudladystronger。
Nextdayhestartedonhistravels。
Now,butforZoe,hewouldonnoaccounthaveleftEnglandjustthen;forhewasjustgoingtobuildmodelcottagesinhisownvillage,upondesignsofhisown,eachwithalittleplot,andapublicwarehouseorgranary,withdivisionsfortheirpotatoesandapples,etc。However,heturnedthisoverinhismindwhile。hewaspacking;heplacedcertainplansandpapersinhisdispatchbox,andtookhistickettoTaddington,insteadofgoingatoncetoLondon。FromTaddingtonhedroveovertoHillstokeandaskedforMissGale。TheytoldhimshewasfixedatVizardCourt。Thatvexedhim:hedidnotwanttomeetVizard。HethoughtitthepartofaJerrySneaktogoandhowltoabrotheragainsthissister。YetifVizardquestionedhim,howcouldheconcealtherewassomethingwrong?
However,hewentdowntoVizardCourt;butsaidtotheservantwhoopenedthedoor,"Iamratherinahurry,sir:doyouthinkyoucouldprocuremeafewminuteswithMissGale?YouneednottroubleMr。Vizard。"
"Yes,mylaud。Certainly,mylaud。Pleasestepinthemorning-room,mylaud。Mr。Vizardisout。"
Thatwasfortunate,andMissGalecamedowntohimdirectly。
FannytookthatopportunitytochatterandtellMademoiselleKloskingallaboutLordUxmoorandhispassionforZoe。"Andhewillhaveher,too,"
saidshe,boldly。
LordUxmoortoldMissGalehehadcalleduponbusiness。Hewasobligedtoleavehomeforatime,andwishedtoplacehisprojectsunderthecareofapersonwhocouldreallysympathizewiththem,andmakeadditionstothem,ifnecessary。"Men,"saidhe,"arealwaysmakingoversightsinmattersofdomesticcomfort:besides,youarefullofideas。Iwantyoutobeviceroywithfullpower,andactjustasyouwouldifthevillagebelongedtoyou。"
Rhodacoloredhighatthecompliment。
"Wells,cows,granary,realeducation——whatyoulike"saidhe。"Iknowyourmind。Beginabolishingthelowerordersintheonlywaytheycanbegotridof——byraisingthemincomfort,cleanliness,decency,andknowledge。ThenIshallnotbemissed。I'mgoingabroad。"
"Goingabroad?"
"Yes。Herearemyplans:alterthemforthebetterifyoucan。Alltheworktobedonebythevillagers。Weeklywages。Webuymaterials。Theywillbemorereconciledtoimproveddwellingswhentheybuildthemthemselves。Herearetheaddressesofthepeoplewhowillfurnishmoney。
Itwillentailtraveling;butmypeoplewillalwaysmeetyouatthestation,ifyoutelegraphfromTaddington。Youaccept?Athousandthanks。
IamafraidImustbeoff。"
Shewentintothehallwithhim,halfbewildered,andonlyatthedoorfoundtimetoaskafterZoeVizard。
"Alittlebetter,Ithink,thanwhenshecame。"
"Doessheknowyouaregoingabroad?"
"No;Idon'tthinkshedoes,yet。Itwassettledallinahurry。"
Heescapedfurtherquestioningbyhurryingaway。
MissGalewasstilllookingafterhim,whenInaKloskingcamedown,dressedforawalk,andleaninglightlyonMissDover'sarm。ThiswasbypreviousconsentofMissGale。
"Well,dear,"saidFanny,"whatdidhesaytoyou?"
"Somethingthathassurprisedandpuzzledmeverymuch。"Shethenrelatedthewholeconversation,withherusualprecision。
InaKloskingobservedquietlytoFannythatthisdidnotlooklikesuccessfulwooing。
"Idon'tknowthat,"saidFanny,stoutly。"Oh,MissGale,didyounotaskhimabouther?"
"CertainlyIdid;andhesaidshewasbetterthanwhenshefirstcame。"
"There!"saidFanny,triumphantly。
MissGalegaveheralittlepinch,andshedroppedthesubject。
Vizardreturned,andfoundMademoiselleKloskingwalkingonhisgravel。
Heofferedherhisarm,andwasahappyman,paradingherveryslowly,andsupportinghersteps,andpurringhiscongratulationsintoherear。
"SupposeIweretoinviteyoutodinner,whatwouldyousay?"
"IthinkIshouldsay,'To-morrow。'"
"Andaverygoodanswer,too。To-morrowshallbea_fete。"_
"Youspoilme?"
"Thatisimpossible。"
Itwasstrangetoseethemtogether;hesohappy,shesoapathetic,yetgracious。
Nextmorningcameabitofhumannature——aletterfromZoetoFanny,almostentirelyoccupiedwithpraisesofLordUxmoor。ShetoldthebullstorybetterthanIhave——ifpossible——and,inshort,madeUxmooraheroofromance。
Fannycarriedthisintriumphtotheotherladies,andreaditout。
"There!"saidshe。"Didn'tItellyou?"
Rhodareadtheletter,andownedherselfpuzzled。"Iamnot,then,"saidFanny:"theyareengaged——overthebull;likeEuropaandIforgotwho——andsoheisnotafraidtogoabroadnow。Thatisjustlikethemen。
Theycooldirectlythechaseisover。"
NowthetruthwasthatZoewastryingtosootheherconsciencewithelegantpraisesofthemanshehaddismissed,andfeltguilty。
InaKloskingsaidlittle。Shewaspuzzledtooatfirst。SheaskedtoseeZoe'shandwriting。Theletterwashandedtoher。Shestudiedthecharacters。"Itisagoodhand,"shesaid;"nothingmeanthere。"Andshegaveitback。
But,withaglance,shehadreadtheaddress,andlearnedthattheposttownwasBagley。
Allthatday,atintervals,shebroughtherpowerfulunderstandingtobearontheparadox;andthoughshehadnotthefactsandtheclewIhavegiventhereader,shecamenearthetruthinanessentialmatter。ShesatisfiedherselfthatLordUxmoorwasnotengagedtoZoeVizard。
Clearly,ifso,hewouldnotleaveEnglandformonths。Sheresolvedtoknowmore;andjustbeforedinnershewrotealinetoAshmead,andrequestedhimtocallonherimmediately。
ThatdayshedinedwithVizardandtheladies。ShesatatVizard'srighthand,andhetoldherhowproud,andhappyhewastoseeherthere。
Sheblushedfaintly,butmadenoreply。
Sheretiredsoonafterdinner。
AllnextdaysheexpectedAshmead。
Hedidnotcome。
ShedinedwithVizardnextday,andretiredtothedrawing-room。Thepianowasopened,andsheplayedoneortwoexquisitethings,andafterwardtriedhervoice,butonlyinscales,andsomewhattimidly,forMissGalewarnedhershemightloseitorspoilitifshestrainedthevocalchordwhileherwholesystemwasweak。
NextdayAshmeadcamewithapologies。
Hehadspentadayinthecathedraltownonbusiness。Hedidnottellherhowhehadspentthatday,goingaboutpuffingherasthegreatestsingerofsacredmusicintheworld,andpavingthewaytoherengagementatthenextfestival。Yetthesingle-heartedJosephhadreallyraisedthatcommercialsuperstructureuponthesentimentsshehadutteredonhisfirstvisittoVizardCourt。
Inanowheldaprivateconferencewithhim。"Ithink,"saidshe,"Ihaveheardyousayyouwereonceanactor。"
"Iwas,madam,andaverygoodone,too。"
_"Celavasansdire。_Ineverknewonethatwasnot。Atallevents,youcandisguiseyourself。"
"Anything,madam,fromGrandfatherWhiteheadtoaboyinapinafore。
Famousformymake-ups。"
"Iwishyoutowatchacertainhouse,andnotberecognizedbyapersonwhoknowsyou。"
"Well,madam,nothingis_infradig,_ifdoneforyou;nothingisdistastefulifdoneforyou。"
"Thankyou,myfriend。Ihavethoughtitwelltoputmyinstructionsonpaper。"
"Ay,thatisthebestway。"
Shehandedhimtheinstructions。Hereadthem,andhiseyessparkled。
"Ah,thisisacommissionIundertakewithpleasure,andI'llexecuteitwithzeal。"
Helefther,soonafter,tocarryouttheseinstructions,andthatveryeveninghewasinthewardrobeofthelittletheater,rummagingoutasuitablecostume,andalsoincloseconferencewiththewigmaker。
NextdayVizardhadhismother'ssablestakenoutandaired,anddroveMademoiselleKloskingintoTaddingtoninanopencarriage。Fannytoldhertheywerehismother'ssables,andnonetocomparewiththeminthecountry。
Onreturning,shetriedhervoicetotheharmoniuminherownantechamber,andfounditwasgainingstrength——likeherself。
MeantimeZoeVizardmetSeverneinthegarden,andtoldhimshehadwrittentoLordUxmoor,andhewouldnevervisitheragain。Butshedidnotmakelightofthesacrificethistime。Shehadsacrificedherownself-respectaswellasUxmoor's,andshewassullenandtearful。
Hehadtobeverywaryandpatient,orshewouldhavepartedwithhimtoo,andfledfrombothofthemtoherbrother。
Uxmoor'swoundedpridewouldhavebeensoothedcouldhehavebeenpresentatthefirstinterviewofthispair。HewouldhaveseenSevernetreatedwithahauteurandasortofsavagenesshehimselfwassafefrom,safeinherunshakenesteem。
Buttheworldismadeforthosewhocankeeptheirtemper,especiallythefemalepartoftheworld。
Sad,kind,andloving,butneverirritable,Severnesmootheddownandsoothedandcomfortedthewoundedgirl;and,seeinghertwoorthreetimesaday——forshewascompletelymistressofhertime——gothercompletelyintohispoweragain。
Uxmoordidnotreply。
Shehadmadeherselection。Lovebeckonedforward。Itwasuselesstolookback。
Lovewasomnipotent。Theybothbegantorecovertheirgoodlooksasifbymagic;andasSeverne'spassion,thoughwicked,wasearnest,nopoorbirdwasevermorecompletelyentangledbybird-limethanZoewascaughtbyEdwardSeverne。
TheirusualplaceofmeetingwastheshrubberyattachedtoSomervilleVilla。Thetrees,beingyoung,madealltheclosershade,andthegravel-walkmeandered,andshutthemoutfromview。
Severneusedtoenterthisshrubberybyalittlegateleadingfromthemeadow,andwaitunderthetreestillZoecametohim。Vizard'sadvertisementsalarmedhim,andheusedtoseethecoastclearbeforeheenteredtheshrubbery,andalsobeforeheleftit。Hewassoparticularinthisthat,observingonedayanoldmandodderingaboutwithabasket,hewouldnotgointillhehadtakenalookathim。Hefounditwasanancientwhite-hairedvillagergatheringmushrooms。Theoldfellowwassostiff,andhishandsotrembling,thatittookhimaboutaminutetogatherasinglefungus。
Togiveareasonforcominguptohim,Severnesaid,"Howoldareyou,oldman?"
"Ibeninety,measter,nextMartinmas-day。"
"Onlyninety?"saidourAdonis,contemptuously;"youlookahundredandninety。"
Hewouldhavebeenlesscontemptuoushadheknownthatthemushroomswerealltoad-stools,andthevillagecentenairewasMr。JosephAshmead,resuminghisoriginalarts,andplayingGrandfatherWhiteheadonthegreengrass。
CHAPTERXXV。
MADEMOISELLEKLOSKINGtoldVizardthetimedrewnearwhenshemustleavehishospitablehouse。
"Sayamonthhence,"saidhe。
Sheshookherhead。
"Ofcourseyouwillnotstaytogratifyme,"saidhe,halfsadly,halfbitterly。"Butyouwillhavetostayaweekortwolonger_parordonnancedume'decin。"_
"Myphysicianisreconciledtomygoing。Wemustallbowtonecessity。"
Thiswassaidtoofirmlytoadmitareply。"Theoldhousewillseemverydarkagainwheneveryoudogo,"saidVizard,plaintively。
"Itwillsoonbebrightenedbyherwhoisitstrueandlastinglight,"
wasthesteadyreply。
Adayortwopassedwithnothingtorecord,exceptthatVizardhungaboutInaKlosking,andbecame,ifpossible,moreenamoredofherandmoreunwillingtopartwithher。
Mr。Ashmeadarrivedoneafternoonaboutthreeo'clock,andwasmorethananhourwithher。Theyconversedveryearnestly,andwhenhewent,MissGalefoundheragitated。
"Thiswillnotdo,"saidshe。
"Itwillpass,myfriend,"saidIna。"Iwillsleep。"
Shelaidherselfdownandsleptthreehoursbeforedinner。
Shearoserefreshed,anddinedwiththelittleparty;andonretiringtothedrawing-room,sheinvitedVizardtojointhemathisconvenience。Hemadeithisconvenienceintenminutes。
Thensheopenedthepiano,playedanintroduction,andelectrifiedthemallbysingingtheleadingsonginSiebel。Shedidnotsingitsopowerfullyasinthetheater;shewouldnothavedonethatevenifshecould:butstillshesungitout,andnobly。Itseemedamiracletohearsuchsinginginaroom。
Vizardwasinraptures。
Theycooledsuddenlywhensheremindedhimwhathehadsaid,thatshemuststaytillshecouldsingSiebel'ssong。"Ikeeptotheletterofthecontract,"saidshe。"Myfriends,thisismylastnightatVizardCourt。"
"Pleasetryandshakethatresolution,"saidVizard,gravely,toMesdemoisellesDoverandGale。
"Theycannot,"saidIna。"Itismydestiny。Andyet,"saidshe,afterapause,"Iwouldnothaveyouremembermebythatflimsything。Letmesingyouasongyourmotherloved;letmeberememberedinthishouse,asasinger,bythat。"
ThenshesungHandel'ssong:
"WhatthoughItraceeachherbandflowerThatdecksthemorningdew?DidInotownJehovah'spower,HowvainwereallIknew。"
Shesungitwithamazingpurity,volume,grandeur,andpower;thelustersrangandshook,theheartswerethrilled,andtheverysoulsofthehearersravished。Sheherselfturnedalittlepaleinsingingit,andthetearsstoodinhereyes。
Thesonganditsinterpretationweresofarabovewhatpassesformusicthattheyallfeltcomplimentswouldbeanimpertinence。Theireyesandtheirlongdrawnbreathpaidthetruehomagetothatgreatmasterrightlyinterpreted——averyrareoccurrence。
"Ah!"saidshe;"thatwasthehandcouldbrandishGoliath'sspear。"
"Andthisishowyoureconcileustolosingyou,"saidVizard。"Youmightstay,atleast,tillyouhadgonethroughmypoormother'scollection。"
"Ah!IwishIcould。ButIcannot。Imustnot。MyFateforbidsit。"
"'Fate'and'destiny,'"saidVizard,"stuffandnonsense。Wemakeourowndestiny。Mineistobeeternallydisappointed,andhappinesssnatchedoutofmyhands。"
Hehadnosoonermadethisprettyspeechthanhewasashamedofit,andstalkedoutoftheroom,nottosayanymoreunwisethings。
ThisburstofspleenalarmedFannyDover。"There,"saidshe,"nowyoucannotgo。Heisveryangry。"
InaKloskingsaidshewassorryforthat;buthewastoojustamantobeangrywithherlong:thedaywouldcomewhenhewouldapproveherconduct。Herlipquiveredalittleasshesaidthis,andthewaterstoodinhereyes:andthiswasrememberedandunderstood,longafter,bothbyMissDoverandRhodaGale。
"WhendoesyourRoyalHighnessproposetostart?"inquiredRhodaGale,veryobsequiously,andjustalittlebitterly。
"To-morrowathalf-pastnineo'clock,dearfriend,"saidIna。
"Thenyouwillnotgowithoutme。YouwillgetthebetterofMr。Vizard,becauseheisonlyaman;butIamawoman,andhaveawillaswellasyou。Ifyoumakeajourneyto-morrow,Igowithyou。Denyme,andyoushan'tgoatall。"Hereyesflasheddefiance。
Inamovedonestep,tookRhoda'slittledefianthead,andkissedhercheek。"Sweetphysicianandkindfriend,ofcourseyoushallgowithme,ifyouwill,andbeagreatblessingtome。"
ThisreconciledMissGaletotheproceedings。Shepackedupacarpet-bag,andwasupearly,makingprovisionsofeverysortforherpatient'sjourney:airpillows,softwarmcoverings,medicaments,stimulants,etc。,inalittlebagslungacrosshershoulders。Thusfurnished,andequippedinauniformsuitofgrayclothandwideawakehat,shecutaverysprightlyandcommandingfigure,butmorelikeDianathanHebe。
TheKloskingcamedown,apaleJuno,intravelingcostume;andaquarterofanhourbeforethetimeapair-horseflywasatthedoorandMr。
Ashmeadinthehall。
Theladieswerebothready。
ButVizardhadnotappeared。
Thiscausedanuneasydiscussion。
"Hemustbeveryangry,"saidFanny,inahalfwhisper。
"Icannotgowhileheis,"sighedLaKlosking。"Thereisalimiteventomycourage。"
"Mr。Harris,"saidRhoda,"wouldyoumindtellingMr。Vizard?"
"Well,miss,"saidHarris,softly,"Ididstepinandtellhim。Whichhetoldmetogotothedevil,miss——ahobservationIneverknewhimtomakebefore。"
Thiswasnotencouraging。YettheKloskingquietlyinquiredwherehewas。
"Inthere,ma'am,"saidHarris。"Inhisstudy。"
MademoiselleKlosking,placedbetweentwoalternatives,decidedwithherusualresolution。Shewalkedimmediatelytothedoorandtappedatit;
then,scarcelywaitingforaninstant,openeditandwalkedinwithseemingfirmness,thoughherheartwasbeatingratherhigh。
Thepeopleoutsidelookedatoneanother。"Iwonderwhetherhewilltell_her_togotothedevil,"saidFanny,whowasgettingtiredofbeinggood。
"Nouse,"saidMissGale;"shedoesn'tknowtheroad。"
WhenLaKloskingenteredthestudy,Vizardwasseated,disconsolate,withtwopicturesbeforehim。Hisfacewasfullofpain,andLaKlosking'sheartsmoteher。Shemovedtowardhim,hangingherhead,andsaid,withinimitablesweetnessandtenderness,"Hereisaculpritcometotryandappeaseyou。"
Therecameatimethathecouldhardlythinkofthesewordsandherpenitent,submissivemannerwithdryeyes。Butjustthenhisblackdoghadbittenhim,andhesaid,sullenly,"Oh,nevermindme。Itwasalwaysso。Yoursexhavealwaysmademesmartfor——Ifflyingfrommyhousebeforeyouarehalfrecoveredgivesyouhalfthepleasureitgivesmepainandmortification,saynomoreaboutit。"
"Ah!whysayitgivesmepleasure?myfriend,youcannotreallythinkso。"
"Idon'tknowwhattothink。Youladiesareallriddles。"
"ThenImusttakeyouintomyconfidence,and,withsomereluctance,I
own,letyouknowwhyIleavethisdear,kindroofto-day。"
Vizard'sgenerositytookthealarm。"No,"said,"Iwillnotextortyourreasons。Itisashameofme。Yourbarewilloughttobelawinthishouse;andwhatreasonscouldreconcilemetolosingyousosuddenly?Youarethejoyofoureyes,thedelightofourears,theidolofallourhearts。Youwillleaveus,andtherewillbedarknessandgloom,insteadofsunshineandsong。Well,go;butyoucannotsoftentheblowwithreasons。"
MademoiselleKloskingflushed,andherbosomheaved;forthiswasastrongman,greatlymoved。Withinstinctivetact,shesawthebestwaytobringhimtohissenseswastogivehimagoodopeningtoretreat。
"Ah,monsieur,"saidshe,"youare_tropgrandseigneur。_Youentertainapoorwoundedsingerinachamberfewprincescanequal。Youplaceeverythingatherdisposal;suchaphysicianandnurseasnoqueencancommand;achoirtosingtoher;royalsablestokeepthewindfromher,andladiestowaitonher。Andwhenyouhavebroughtherbacktolife,yousaytoyourself,Sheisawoman;shewillnotbethoroughlycontentunlessyoutellhersheisadorable。So,outofpoliteness,youdescendtothelanguageofgallantry。Thiswasnotneeded。Idispensewiththatkindofcomfort。Ileaveyourhousebecauseitismyduty,andleaveityourgratefulservantandtruefriendtomylasthour。"
Shehadopenedthedoor,andVizardcouldnowescape。Hisobstinacyandhisheartwouldnotlethim。
"Donotfencewithme,"saidhe。"Leavethattoothers。Itisbeneathyou。Ifyouhadbeencontenttostay,Iwouldhavebeencontenttoshowmyheartbyhalves。Butwhenyouoffertoleaveme,youdrawfrommeanavowalIcannolongerrestrain,andyoumustandshalllistentoit。
WhenIsawyouonthestageatHomburg,Iadmiredyouandlovedyouthatverynight。ButIknewfromexperiencehowseldominwomenoutwardgracesgowiththevirtuesofthesoul。Idistrustedmyjudgment。IfearedyouandIfledyou。Butourdestinybroughtyouhere,andwhenIheldyou,paleandwounded,inmyveryarms,myheartseemedtogooutofmybosom。"
"Oh,nomore!nomore,pray!"criedMademoiselleKlosking。
Butthecurrentoflovewasnottobestemmed。"SincethatterriblehourIhavebeeninheaven,watchingyourgradualandsurerecovery;butyouhaverecoveredonlytoabandonme,andyourhurrytoleavemedrivesmetodesperation。No,Icannotpartwithyou。Youmustnotleaveme,eitherthisdayoranyday。Givemeyourhand,andstayhereforever,andbethequeenofmyheartandofmyhouse。"
ForsometimeLaKloskinghadlostherusualcomposure。Herbosomheavedtumultuously,andherhandstrembled。Butatthisdistinctproposalthewholewomanchanged。Shedrewherselfup,withherpalecheekflushingandhereyesglittering。
"What,sir?"saidshe。"Haveyoureadmesoill?DoyounotknowIwouldratherbethemeanestdrudgethatgoesonherkneesandscrubsyourfloors,thanbequeenofyourhouse,asyoucallit?Ah,Jesu,areallmenalike,then;thathewhomIhavesorevered,whosemother'ssongsI
havesungtohim,makesmeaproposaldishonorabletomeandtohimself?"
"Dishonorable!"criedVizard。"Why,whatcananymanoffertoanywomanmorehonorablethanIofferyou?Iofferyoumyheartandmyhand,andI
say,donotgo,mydarling。Stayhereforever,andbemyqueen,mygoddess,mywife!"
"YOURWIFE?"Shestaredwildlyathim。"Yourwife?AmIdreaming,orareyou?"
"Neither。DoyouthinkIcanbecontentwithlessthanthat?Ina,Iadoreyou。"
Sheputherhandtoherhead。"Iknownotwhoistoblameforthis,"saidshe,andshetrembledvisibly。
"I'lltaketheblame,"saidhe,gayly。
SaidIna,verygravely。"You,whodomethehonortooffermeyourname,haveyouaskedyourselfseriouslywhathasbeenthenatureofmyrelationwithEdwardSeverne?"
"No!"criedVizard,violently;"andIdonotmeanto。Iseeyoudespisehimnow;andIhavemyeyesandmysensestoguidemeinchoosingawife。
Ichooseyou——ifyouwillhaveme。"
Shelistened,thenturnedhermoisteyesfulluponhim,andsaidtohim,"Thisisthegreatesthonoreverbefellme。Icannottakeit。"
"Nottakeit?"
"No;butthatismymisfortune。Donotbemortified。Youhavenorivalinmyesteem。WhatshallIsay,myfriend?——atleastImaycallyouthat。IfIexplainnow,Ishallweepmuch,andlosemystrength。WhatshallIdo?
Ithink——yes,thatwillbebest——_youshallgowithmeto-day。"_
"Totheendoftheworld!"
"Somethingtellsmeyouwillknowall,andforgiveme。"
"ShallItakemybag?"
"Youmighttakeaneveningdressandsomelinen。"
"Verywell。Iwon'tkeepyouamoment,"saidhe,andwentupstairswithgreatalacrity。
Shewentintothehall,withhereyesbentontheground,andwasimmediatelypinnedbyRhodaGale,whosepiercingeye,andinquisitivefingeronherpulse,soondiscoveredthatshehadgonethroughatryingscene。"Thisisabadbeginningofanimprudentjourney,"saidshe:"I
haveagreatmindtocountermandthecarriage。"
"No,no,"saidIna;"Iwillsleepintherailwayandrecovermyself。"
Theladiesnowgotintothecarriage;Ashmeadinsistedongoinguponthebox;andVizardsoonappeared,andtookhisseatoppositeMissGaleandMademoiselleKlosking。Thelatterwhisperedherdoctress:"Itwouldbewiseofmenottospeakmuchatpresent。"LaGalecommunicatedthistoVizard,andtheydrovealongindeadsilence。Buttheywerenaturallycurioustoknowwheretheyweregoing;sotheyheldsomecommunicationwiththeireyes。TheyverysoonfoundtheyweregoingtoTaddingtonStation。
Thencameadoubt——weretheygoingupordown?
Thatwassoonresolved。
Mr。Ashmeadhadhiredasalooncarriageforthem,withcouchesandconveniences。
Theyenteredit;andMademoiselleKloskingsaidtoMissGale,"ItisnecessarythatIshouldsleep。"
"Youshall,"saidMissGale。
Whileshewasarrangingthepillowsandthings,LaKloskingsaidtoVizard,"Weartistslearntosleepwhenwehaveworktodo。WithoutitI
shouldnotbestrongenoughthisday。"Shesaidthisinahalf-apologetictone,asoneanxiousnottogivehimanyshadowofoffense。
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