I'lllookintothem:so,givinguptheargument,-Iwentstraighttomylodgings,putuphalfadozenshirtsandablackpairofsilkbreeches,-"thecoatIhaveon,"saidI,lookingatthesleeve,"willdo;"-tookaplaceintheDoverstage;andthepacketsailingatninethenextmorning,-bythreeIhadgotsatdowntomydinneruponafricaseedchicken,soincontestablyinFrance,thathadIdiedthatnightofanindigestion,thewholeworldcouldnothavesuspendedtheeffectsoftheDROITSD'AUBAINE;-myshirts,andblackpairofsilkbreeches,-portmanteauandall,musthavegonetotheKingofFrance;-eventhelittlepicturewhichIhavesolongworn,andsooftenhavetoldthee,Eliza,I
wouldcarrywithmeintomygrave,wouldhavebeentornfrommyneck!-Ungenerous!toseizeuponthewreckofanunwarypassenger,whomyoursubjectshadbeckonedtotheircoast!-Byheaven!Sire,itisnotwelldone;andmuchdoesitgrieveme,'tisthemonarchofapeoplesocivilizedandcourteous,andsorenownedforsentimentandfinefeelings,thatIhavetoreasonwith!
ButIhavescarcesetafootinyourdominions。
WHENIhadfishedmydinner,anddranktheKingofFrance'shealth,tosatisfymymindthatIborehimnospleen,but,onthecontrary,highhonourforthehumanityofhistemper,-Iroseupaninchtallerfortheaccommodation-
No-saidI-theBourbonisbynomeansacruelrace:theymaybemisled,likeotherpeople;butthereisamildnessintheirblood。AsIacknowledgedthis,Ifeltasuffusionofafinerkinduponmycheek-morewarmandfriendlytoman,thanwhatBurgundyatleastoftwolivresabottle,whichwassuchasIhadbeendrinkingcouldhaveproduced-
JustGod!saidI,kickingmyportmanteauaside,whatisthereinthisworld'sgoodswhichshouldsharpenourspirits,andmakesomanykind-heartedbrethrenofusfalloutsocruellyaswedobytheway?
Whenmanisatpeacewithman,howmuchlighterthanafeatheristheheaviestofmetalsinhishand!hepullsouthispurse,andholdingitairilyanduncompressed,looksroundhim,asifhesoughtforanobjecttoshareitwith-Indoingthis,Ifelteveryvesselinmyframedilate,-thearteriesbeatallcheerilytogether,andeverypowerwhichsustainedlife,performeditwithsolittlefriction,that'twouldhaveconfoundedthemostPHYSICAL
PRECIEUSEinFrance;withallhermaterialism,shecouldscarcehavecalledmeamachine-
I'mconfident,saidItomyself,Ishouldhaveoversethercreed。
Theaccessionofthatideacarriednature,atthattime,ashighasshecouldgo;-Iwasatpeacewiththeworldbefore,andthisfinish'dthetreatywithmyself——
Now,wasIKingofFrance,criedI-whatamomentforanorphantohavebegg'dhisfather'sportmanteauofme!
THEMONK。CALAIS。
IHADscarceutteredthewords,whenapoormonkoftheorderofSt。Franciscameintotheroomtobegsomethingforahisconvent。
Nomancarestohavehisvirtuesthesportofcontingencies-oronemanmaybegenerous,asanotherispuissant;-SEDNONQUOAD
HANC-orbeitasitmay,-forthereisnoregularreasoningupontheebbsandflowsofourhumours;theymaydependuponthesamecauses,foraughtIknow,whichinfluencethetidesthemselves:
'twouldoftbenodiscredittous,tosupposeitwasso:I'msureatleastformyself,thatinmanyacaseIshouldbemorehighlysatisfied,tohaveitsaidbytheworld,"Ihadhadanaffairwiththemoon,inwhichtherewasneithersinnorshame,"thanhaveitpassaltogetherasmyownactanddeed,whereintherewassomuchofboth-
But,bethisasitmay,-themomentIcastmyeyesuponhim,I
waspredeterminednottogivehimasinglesous;and,accordingly,Iputmypurseintomypocket-buttonedit-setmyselfalittlemoreuponmycentre,andadvancedupgravelytohim;therewassomething,Ifear,forbiddinginmylook:Ihavehisfigurethismomentbeforemyeyes,andthinktherewasthatinitwhichdeservedbetter。
Themonk,asIjudgedbythebreakinhistonsure,afewscatteredwhitehairsuponhistemples,beingallthatremainedofit,mightbeaboutseventy;-butfromhiseyes,andthatsortoffirewhichwasinthem,whichseemedmoretemper'dbycourtesythanyears,couldbenomorethansixty:-Truthmightliebetween-Hewascertainlysixty-five;andthegeneralairofhiscountenance,notwithstandingsomethingseem'dtohavebeenplanting-wrinklesinitbeforetheirtime,agreedtotheaccount。
ItwasoneofthoseheadswhichGuidohasoftenpainted,-mild,pale-penetrating,freefromallcommonplaceideasoffatcontentedignorancelookingdownwardsupontheearth;-itlook'dforwards;butlook'dasifitlook'datsomethingbeyondthisworld-Howoneofhisordercamebyit,heavenabove,wholetitfalluponamonk'sshouldersbestknows:butitwouldhavesuitedaBramin,andhadImetitupontheplainsofIndostan,Ihadreverencedit。
Therestofhisoutlinemaybegiveninafewstrokes;onemightputitintothehandsofanyonetodesign,for'twasneitherelegantnorotherwise,butascharacterandexpressionmadeitso:
itwasathin,spareform,somethingabovethecommonsize,ifitlostnotthedistinctionbyabendforwardinthefigure,-butitwastheattitudeofIntreaty;and,asitnowstandspresentedtomyimagination,itgainedmorethanitlostbyit。
Whenhehadenteredtheroomthreepaces,hestoodstill;andlayinghislefthanduponhisbreastaslenderwhitestaffwithwhichhejourney'dbeinginhisright-whenIhadgotcloseuptohim,heintroducedhimselfwiththelittlestoryofthewantsofhisconvent,andthepovertyofhisorder;-anddiditwithsosimpleagrace,-andsuchanairofdeprecationwasthereinthewholecastofhislookandfigure,-Iwasbewitch'dnottohavebeenstruckwithit-
Abetterreasonwas,Ihadpredeterminednottogivehimasinglesous。
THEMONK。CALAIS-
'Tisverytrue,saidI,replyingtoacastupwardswithhiseyes,withwhichhehadconcludedhisaddress;-'tisverytrue,-andheavenbetheirresourcewhohavenootherbutthecharityoftheworld,thestockofwhich,Ifear,isnowaysufficientforthemanyGREATCLAIMSwhicharehourlymadeuponit。
AsIpronouncedthewordsGREATCLAIMS,hegaveaslightglancewithhiseyedownwardsuponthesleeveofhistunic:-Ifeltthefullforceoftheappeal-Iacknowledgeit,saidI:-acoarsehabit,andthatbutonceinthreeyearswithmeagrediet,-arenogreatmatters;andthetruepointofpityis,astheycanbeearn'dintheworldwithsolittleindustry,thatyourordershouldwishtoprocurethembypressinguponafundwhichisthepropertyofthelame,theblind,theagedandtheinfirm;-thecaptivewholiesdowncountingoverandoveragainthedaysofhisafflictions,languishesalsoforhisshareofit;andhadyoubeenoftheORDER
OFMERCY,insteadoftheorderofSt。Francis,poorasIam,continuedI,pointingatmyportmanteau,fullcheerfullyshouldithavebeenopen'dtoyou,fortheransomoftheunfortunate-Themonkmademeabow-Butofallothers,resumedI,theunfortunateofourowncountry,surely,havethefirstrights;andIhaveleftthousandsindistressuponourownshore-Themonkgaveacordialwavewithhishead,-asmuchastosay,Nodoubtthereismiseryenoughineverycorneroftheworld,aswellaswithinourconvent-Butwedistinguish,saidI,layingmyhanduponthesleeveofhistunic,inreturnforhisappeal-wedistinguish,mygoodfather!
betwixtthosewhowishonlytoeatthebreadoftheirownlabour-
andthosewhoeatthebreadofotherpeople's,andhavenootherplaninlife,buttogetthroughitinslothandignorance,FORTHE
LOVEOFGOD。
ThepoorFranciscanmadenoreply:ahecticofamomentpass'dacrosshischeek,butcouldnottarry-Natureseemedtohavedonewithherresentmentsinhim;-heshowednone:-butlettinghisstafffallwithinhisarms,hepressedbothhishandswithresignationuponhisbreast,andretired。
THEMONK。CALAIS。
MYheartsmotemethemomentheshutthedoor-Psha!saidI,withanairofcarelessness,threeseveraltimes-butitwouldnotdo:
everyungracioussyllableIhadutter'dcrowdedbackintomyimagination:Ireflected,IhadnorightoverthepoorFranciscan,buttodenyhim;andthatthepunishmentofthatwasenoughtothedisappointed,withouttheadditionofunkindlanguage-I
consider'dhisgrayhairs-hiscourteousfigureseem'dtore-enterandgentlyaskmewhatinjuryhehaddoneme?-andwhyIcouldusehimthus?-Iwouldhavegiventwentylivresforanadvocate-I
havebehavedveryill,saidIwithinmyself;butIhaveonlyjustsetoutuponmytravels;andshalllearnbettermannersasIgetalong。
THEDESOBLIGEANT。CALAIS。
WHENamanisdiscontentedwithhimself,ithasoneadvantagehowever,thatitputshimintoanexcellentframeofmindformakingabargain。NowtherebeingnotravellingthroughFranceandItalywithoutachaise,-andnaturegenerallypromptingustothethingwearefittestfor,Iwalk'doutintothecoach-yardtobuyorhiresomethingofthatkindtomypurpose:anoldDESOBLIGEANT
inthefurthestcornerofthecourt,hitmyfancyatfirstsight,soIinstantlygotintoit,andfindingitintolerableharmonywithmyfeelings,IorderedthewaitertocallMonsieurDessein,themasterofthehotel:-butMonsieurDesseinbeinggonetovespers,andnotcaringtofacetheFranciscan,whomIsawontheoppositesideofthecourt,inconferencewithaladyjustarrivedattheinn,-Idrewthetaffetacurtainbetwixtus,andbeingdeterminedtowritemyjourney,ItookoutmypenandinkandwrotetheprefacetoitintheDESOBLIGEANT。
PREFACE。INTHEDESOBLIGEANT。
ITmusthavebeenobservedbymanyaperipateticphilosopher,Thatnaturehassetupbyherownunquestionableauthoritycertainboundariesandfencestocircumscribethediscontentofman;shehaseffectedherpurposeinthequietestandeasiestmannerbylayinghimunderalmostinsuperableobligationstoworkouthisease,andtosustainhissufferingsathome。Itisthereonlythatshehasprovidedhimwiththemostsuitableobjectstopartakeofhishappiness,andbearapartofthatburdenwhichinallcountriesandageshaseverbeentooheavyforonepairofshoulders。'Tistrue,weareenduedwithanimperfectpowerofspreadingourhappinesssometimesbeyondHERlimits,but'tissoordered,that,fromthewantoflanguages,connections,anddependencies,andfromthedifferenceineducation,customs,andhabits,welieundersomanyimpedimentsincommunicatingoursensationsoutofourownsphere,asoftenamounttoatotalimpossibility。
Itwillalwaysfollowfromhence,thatthebalanceofsentimentalcommerceisalwaysagainsttheexpatriatedadventurer:hemustbuywhathehaslittleoccasionfor,attheirownprice;-hisconversationwillseldombetakeninexchangefortheirswithoutalargediscount,-andthis,bytheby,eternallydrivinghimintothehandsofmoreequitablebrokers,forsuchconversationashecanfind,itrequiresnogreatspiritofdivinationtoguessathisparty-
Thisbringsmetomypoint;andnaturallyleadsmeifthesee-sawofthisDESOBLIGEANTwillbutletmegetonintotheefficientaswellasfinalcausesoftravelling-
Youridlepeoplethatleavetheirnativecountry,andgoabroadforsomereasonorreasonswhichmaybederivedfromoneofthesegeneralcauses:-
Infirmityofbody,Imbecilityofmind,orInevitablenecessity。
Thefirsttwoincludeallthosewhotravelbylandorbywater,labouringwithpride,curiosity,vanity,orspleen,subdividedandcombinedADINFINITUM。
Thethirdclassincludesthewholearmyofperegrinemartyrs;moreespeciallythosetravellerswhosetoutupontheirtravelswiththebenefitoftheclergy,eitherasdelinquentstravellingunderthedirectionofgovernorsrecommendedbythemagistrate;-oryounggentlementransportedbythecrueltyofparentsandguardians,andtravellingunderthedirectionofgovernorsrecommendedbyOxford,Aberdeen,andGlasgow。
Thereisafourthclass,buttheirnumberissosmallthattheywouldnotdeserveadistinction,wereitnotnecessaryinaworkofthisnaturetoobservethegreatestprecisionandnicety,toavoidaconfusionofcharacter。AndthesemenIspeakof,aresuchascrosstheseasandsojourninalandofstrangers,withaviewofsavingmoneyforvariousreasonsanduponvariouspretences:butastheymightalsosavethemselvesandothersagreatdealofunnecessarytroublebysavingtheirmoneyathome,-andastheirreasonsfortravellingaretheleastcomplexofanyotherspeciesofemigrants,IshalldistinguishthesegentlemenbythenameofSimpleTravellers。
ThusthewholecircleoftravellersmaybereducedtothefollowingHEADS:-
IdleTravellers,InquisitiveTravellers,LyingTravellers,ProudTravellers,VainTravellers,SpleneticTravellers。
Thenfollow:
TheTravellersofNecessity,TheDelinquentandFeloniousTraveller,TheUnfortunateandInnocentTraveller,TheSimpleTraveller,AndlastofallifyoupleaseTheSentimentalTraveller,meaningtherebymyselfwhohavetravell'd,andofwhichIamnowsittingdowntogiveanaccount,-asmuchoutofNECESSITY,andtheBESOIN
DEVOYAGER,asanyoneintheclass。
Iamwellaware,atthesametime,asbothmytravelsandobservationswillbealtogetherofadifferentcastfromanyofmyforerunners,thatImighthaveinsisteduponawholenitchentirelytomyself;-butIshouldbreakinupontheconfinesoftheVAIN
Traveller,inwishingtodrawattentiontowardsme,tillIhavesomebettergroundsforitthanthemereNOVELTYOFMYVEHICLE。
Itissufficientformyreader,ifhehasbeenatravellerhimself,thatwithstudyandreflectionhereuponhemaybeabletodeterminehisownplaceandrankinthecatalogue;-itwillbeonesteptowardsknowinghimself;asitisgreatoddsbutheretainssometinctureandresemblance,ofwhatheimbibedorcarriedout,tothepresenthour。
ThemanwhofirsttransplantedthegrapeofBurgundytotheCapeofGoodHopeobservehewasaDutchmanneverdreamtofdrinkingthesamewineattheCape,thatthesamegrapeproducedupontheFrenchmountains,-hewastoophlegmaticforthat-butundoubtedlyheexpectedtodrinksomesortofvinousliquor;butwhethergoodorbad,orindifferent,-heknewenoughofthisworldtoknow,thatitdidnotdependuponhischoice,butthatwhatisgenerallycalledCHOICE,wastodecidehissuccess:however,hehopedforthebest;andinthesehopes,byanintemperateconfidenceinthefortitudeofhishead,andthedepthofhisdiscretion,MYNHEER
mightpossiblyoverseebothinhisnewvineyard;andbydiscoveringhisnakedness,becomealaughingstocktohispeople。
EvensoitfareswiththePoorTraveller,sailingandpostingthroughthepoliterkingdomsoftheglobe,inpursuitofknowledgeandimprovements。
Knowledgeandimprovementsaretobegotbysailingandpostingforthatpurpose;butwhetherusefulknowledgeandrealimprovementsisallalottery;-andevenwheretheadventurerissuccessful,theacquiredstockmustbeusedwithcautionandsobriety,toturntoanyprofit:-but,asthechancesrunprodigiouslytheotherway,bothastotheacquisitionandapplication,Iamofopinion,Thatamanwouldactaswisely,ifhecouldprevailuponhimselftolivecontentedwithoutforeignknowledgeorforeignimprovements,especiallyifhelivesinacountrythathasnoabsolutewantofeither;-andindeed,muchgriefofhearthasitoftandmanyatimecostme,whenIhaveobservedhowmanyafoulsteptheInquisitiveTravellerhasmeasuredtoseesightsandlookintodiscoveries;allwhich,asSanchoPanzasaidtoDonQuixote,theymighthaveseendry-shodathome。Itisanagesofulloflight,thatthereisscarceacountryorcornerinEuropewhosebeamsarenotcrossedandinterchangedwithothers-Knowledgeinmostofitsbranches,andinmostaffairs,islikemusicinanItalianstreet,whereofthosemaypartakewhopaynothing-Butthereisnonationunderheaven-andGodismyrecordbeforewhosetribunalImustonedaycomeandgiveanaccountofthiswork-
thatIdonotspeakitvauntingly,-butthereisnonationunderheavenaboundingwithmorevarietyoflearning,-wherethesciencesmaybemorefitlywoo'd,ormoresurelywon,thanhere,-
whereartisencouraged,andwillsosoonrisehigh,-whereNaturetakeheraltogetherhassolittletoanswerfor,-and,tocloseall,wherethereismorewitandvarietyofcharactertofeedthemindwith:-Wherethen,mydearcountrymen,areyougoing?-
Weareonlylookingatthischaise,saidthey-Yourmostobedientservant,saidI,skippingoutofit,andpullingoffmyhat-Wewerewondering,saidoneofthem,who,IfoundwasanINQUISITIVE
TRAVELLER,-whatcouldoccasionitsmotion-'Twastheagitation,saidI,coolly,ofwritingapreface-Ineverheard,saidtheother,whowasaSIMPLETRAVELLER,ofaprefacewroteinaDESOBLIGEANT-Itwouldhavebeenbetter,saidI,inaVIS-A-VIS-
ASANENGLISHMANDOESNOTTRAVELTOSEEENGLISHMEN,Iretiredtomyroom。
CALAIS。
IPERCEIVEDthatsomethingdarken'dthepassagemorethanmyself,asIstepp'dalongittomyroom;itwaseffectuallyMons。Dessein,themasterofthehotel,whohadjustreturnedfromvespers,andwithhishatunderhisarm,wasmostcomplaisantlyfollowingme,toputmeinmindofmywants。IhadwrotemyselfprettywelloutofconceitwiththeDESOBLIGEANT,andMons。Desseinspeakingofit,withashrug,asifitwouldnowaysuitme,itimmediatelystruckmyfancythatitbelong'dtosomeINNOCENTTRAVELLER,who,onhisreturnhome,hadleftittoMons。Dessein'shonourtomakethemostof。FourmonthshadelapsedsinceithadfinisheditscareerofEuropeinthecornerofMons。Dessein'scoach-yard;andhavingsalliedoutfromthencebutavampt-upbusinessatthefirst,thoughithadbeentwicetakentopiecesonMountSennis,ithadnotprofitedmuchbyitsadventures,-butbynonesolittleasthestandingsomanymonthsunpitiedinthecornerofMons。Dessein'scoach-yard。Muchindeedwasnottobesaidforit,-butsomethingmight;-andwhenafewwordswillrescuemiseryoutofherdistress,Ihatethemanwhocanbeachurlofthem-
NowwasIthemasterofthishotel,saidI,layingthepointofmyfore-fingeronMons。Dessein'sbreast,IwouldinevitablymakeapointofgettingridofthisunfortunateDESOBLIGEANT;-itstandsswingingreproachesatyoueverytimeyoupassbyit。
MONDIEU!saidMons。Dessein,-Ihavenointerest-Excepttheinterest,saidI,whichmenofacertainturnofmindtake,Mons。
Dessein,intheirownsensations,-I'mpersuaded,toamanwhofeelsforothersaswellasforhimself,everyrainynight,disguiseitasyouwill,mustcastadampuponyourspirits:-Yousuffer,Mons。Dessein,asmuchasthemachine-
Ihavealwaysobserved,whenthereisasmuchSOURasSWEETinacompliment,thatanEnglishmaniseternallyatalosswithinhimself,whethertotakeit,orletitalone:aFrenchmanneveris:
Mons。Desseinmademeabow。
C'ESTBIENVRAI,saidhe-ButinthiscaseIshouldonlyexchangeonedisquietudeforanother,andwithloss:figuretoyourself,mydearSir,thatingivingyouachaisewhichwouldfalltopiecesbeforeyouhadgothalf-waytoParis,-figuretoyourselfhowmuchIshouldsuffer,ingivinganillimpressionofmyselftoamanofhonour,andlyingatthemercy,asImustdo,D'UNHOMMED'ESPRIT。
Thedosewasmadeupexactlyaftermyownprescription;soIcouldnothelptastingit,-and,returningMons。Desseinhisbow,withoutmorecasuistrywewalk'dtogethertowardshisRemise,totakeaviewofhismagazineofchaises。
INTHESTREET。CALAIS。
ITmustneedsbeahostilekindofaworld,whenthebuyerifitbebutofasorrypost-chaisecannotgoforthwiththesellerthereofintothestreettoterminatethedifferencebetwixtthem,butheinstantlyfallsintothesameframeofmind,andviewshisconventionistwiththesamesortofeye,asifhewasgoingalongwithhimtoHyde-parkcornertofightaduel。Formyownpart,beingbutapoorswordsman,andnowayamatchforMonsieurDessein,Ifelttherotationofallthemovementswithinme,towhichthesituationisincident;-IlookedatMonsieurDesseinthroughandthrough-eyedhimashewalk'dalonginprofile,-
then,ENFACE;-thoughtlikeaJew,-thenaTurk,-dislikedhiswig,-cursedhimbymygods,-wishedhimatthedevil——
Andisallthistobelightedupintheheartforabeggarlyaccountofthreeorfourlouisd'ors,whichisthemostIcanbeoverreachedin?-Basepassion!saidI,turningmyselfabout,asamannaturallydoesuponasuddenreverseofsentiment,-base,ungentlepassion!thyhandisagainsteveryman,andeveryman'shandagainstthee-Heavenforbid!saidshe,raisingherhanduptoherforehead,forIhadturnedfullinfrontupontheladywhomIhadseeninconferencewiththemonk:-shehadfollowedusunperceived-Heavenforbid,indeed!saidI,offeringhermyown;-
shehadablackpairofsilkgloves,openonlyatthethumbandtwofore-fingers,soaccepteditwithoutreserve,-andIledheruptothedooroftheRemise。
MonsieurDesseinhadDIABLEDthekeyabovefiftytimesbeforehehadfoundouthehadcomewithawrongoneinhishand:wewereasimpatientashimselftohaveitopened;andsoattentivetotheobstaclethatIcontinuedholdingherhandalmostwithoutknowingit:sothatMonsieurDesseinleftustogetherwithherhandinmine,andwithourfacesturnedtowardsthedooroftheRemise,andsaidhewouldbebackinfiveminutes。
Nowacolloquyoffiveminutes,insuchasituation,isworthoneofasmanyages,withyourfacesturnedtowardsthestreet:inthelattercase,'tisdrawnfromtheobjectsandoccurrenceswithout;-
whenyoureyesarefixeduponadeadblank,-youdrawpurelyfromyourselves。AsilenceofasinglemomentuponMons。Dessein'sleavingus,hadbeenfataltothesituation-shehadinfalliblyturnedabout;-soIbeguntheconversationinstantly——
ButwhatwerethetemptationsasIwritenottoapologizefortheweaknessesofmyheartinthistour,-buttogiveanaccountofthem-shallbedescribedwiththesamesimplicitywithwhichI
feltthem。
THEREMISEDOOR。CALAIS。
WHENItoldthereaderthatIdidnotcaretogetoutoftheDESOBLIGEANT,becauseIsawthemonkincloseconferencewithaladyjustarrivedattheinn-Itoldhimthetruth,-butIdidnottellhimthewholetruth;forIwasasfullasmuchrestrainedbytheappearanceandfigureoftheladyhewastalkingto。
Suspicioncrossedmybrainandsaid,hewastellingherwhathadpassed:somethingjarreduponitwithinme,-Iwishedhimathisconvent。
Whentheheartfliesoutbeforetheunderstanding,itsavesthejudgmentaworldofpains-Iwascertainshewasofabetterorderofbeings;-however,Ithoughtnomoreofher,butwentonandwrotemypreface。
Theimpressionreturneduponmyencounterwithherinthestreet;aguardedfranknesswithwhichshegavemeherhand,showed,I
thought,hergoodeducationandhergoodsense;andasIledheron,Ifeltapleasurableductilityabouther,whichspreadacalmnessoverallmyspirits——
GoodGod!howamanmightleadsuchacreatureasthisroundtheworldwithhim!-
Ihadnotyetseenherface-'twasnotmaterial:forthedrawingwasinstantlysetabout,andlongbeforewehadgottothedooroftheRemise,FANCYhadfinishedthewholehead,andpleasedherselfasmuchwithitsfittinghergoddess,asifshehaddivedintotheTiberforit;-butthouartaseduced,andaseducingslut;andalbeitthoucheatestusseventimesadaywiththypicturesandimages,yetwithsomanycharmsdostthoudoit,andthoudeckestoutthypicturesintheshapesofsomanyangelsoflight,'tisashametobreakwiththee。
WhenwehadgottothedooroftheRemise,shewithdrewherhandfromacrossherforehead,andletmeseetheoriginal:-itwasafaceofaboutsix-and-twenty,-ofacleartransparentbrown,simplysetoffwithoutrougeorpowder;-itwasnotcriticallyhandsome,buttherewasthatinit,which,intheframeofmindI
wasin,attachedmemuchmoretoit,-itwasinteresting:I
fancieditworethecharactersofawidow'dlook,andinthatstateofitsdeclension,whichhadpassedthetwofirstparoxysmsofsorrow,andwasquietlybeginningtoreconcileitselftoitsloss;-
butathousandotherdistressesmighthavetracedthesamelines;
Iwish'dtoknowwhattheyhadbeen-andwasreadytoinquire,hadthesameBONTONofconversationpermitted,asinthedaysofEsdras-"WHATAILELHTHEE?ANDWHYARTTHOUDISQUIETED?ANDWHY
ISTHYUNDERSTANDINGTROUBLED?"-Inaword,Ifeltbenevolenceforher;andresolv'dsomewayorothertothrowinmymiteofcourtesy,-ifnotofservice。
Suchweremytemptations;-andinthisdispositiontogivewaytothem,wasIleftalonewiththeladywithherhandinmine,andwithourfacesbothturnedclosertothedooroftheRemisethanwhatwasabsolutelynecessary。
THEREMISEDOOR。CALAIS。
THIScertainly,fairlady,saidI,raisingherhanduplittlelightlyasIbegan,mustbeoneofFortune'swhimsicaldoings;totaketwoutterstrangersbytheirhands,-ofdifferentsexes,andperhapsfromdifferentcornersoftheglobe,andinonemomentplacethemtogetherinsuchacordialsituationasFriendshipherselfcouldscarcehaveachievedforthem,hadsheprojecteditforamonth-
Andyourreflectionuponitshowshowmuch,Monsieur,shehasembarrassedyoubytheadventure-
Whenthesituationiswhatwewouldwish,nothingissoill-timedastohintatthecircumstanceswhichmakeitso:youthankFortune,continuedshe-youhadreason-theheartknewit,andwassatisfied;andwhobutanEnglishphilosopherwouldhavesentnoticeofittothebraintoreversethejudgment?
Insayingthis,shedisengagedherhandwithalookwhichIthoughtasufficientcommentaryuponthetext。
ItisamiserablepicturewhichIamgoingtogiveoftheweaknessofmyheart,byowning,thatitsufferedapain,whichworthieroccasionscouldnothaveinflicted-Iwasmortifiedwiththelossofherhand,andthemannerinwhichIhadlostitcarriedneitheroilnorwinetothewound:Ineverfeltthepainofasheepishinferioritysomiserablyinmylife。
Thetriumphsofatruefeminineheartareshortuponthesediscomfitures。Inaveryfewsecondsshelaidherhanduponthecuffofmycoat,inordertofinishherreply;so,somewayorother,Godknowshow,Iregainedmysituation-
Shehadnothingtoadd。
Iforthwithbegantomodeladifferentconversationforthelady,thinkingfromthespiritaswellasmoralofthis,thatIhadbeenmistakeninhercharacter;butuponturningherfacetowardsme,thespiritwhichhadanimatedthereplywasfled,-themusclesrelaxed,andIbeheldthesameunprotectedlookofdistresswhichfirstwonmetoherinterest:-melancholy!toseesuchsprightlinessthepreyofsorrow,-Ipitiedherfrommysoul;andthoughitmayseemridiculousenoughtoatorpidheart,-Icouldhavetakenherintomyarms,andcherishedher,thoughitwasintheopenstreet,withoutbrushing。
Thepulsationsofthearteriesalongmyfingerspressingacrosshers,toldherwhatwaspassingwithinme:shelookeddown-asilenceofsomemomentsfollowed。
Ifearinthisinterval,Imusthavemadesomeslighteffortstowardsaclosercompressionofherhand,fromasubtlesensationI
feltinthepalmofmyown,-notasifshewasgoingtowithdrawhers-butasifshethoughtaboutit;-andIhadinfalliblylostitasecondtime,hadnotinstinctmorethanreasondirectedmetothelastresourceinthesedangers,-toholditloosely,andinamannerasifIwaseverymomentgoingtoreleaseit,ofmyself;sosheletitcontinue,tillMonsieurDesseinreturnedwiththekey;
andinthemeantimeIsetmyselftoconsiderhowIshouldundotheillimpressionswhichthepoormonk'sstory,incasehehadtoldither,musthaveplantedinherbreastagainstme。
THESNUFFBOX。CALAIS。
THEgoodoldmonkwaswithinsixpacesofus,astheideaofhimcrossedmymind;andwasadvancingtowardsusalittleoutoftheline,asifuncertainwhetherheshouldbreakinuponusorno-