IfeltthatIwentpale,andthoughnat'rallyaboldspeaker,I
couldn'thardlysay,"Where'sNormandy?"
"Bolted。Withtheplate,"saidMr。Chops。
"Andt'otherone?"meaninghimasformerlyworethebishop'smitre。
"Bolted。Withthejewels,"saidMr。Chops。
Isatdownandlookedathim,andhestoodupandlookedatme。
"Magsman,"hesays,andheseemedtomyselftogetwiserashegothoarser;"Society,takeninthelump,isalldwarfs。AtthecourtofSt。James's,theywasalladoingmyoldbusiness——allagointhreetimesroundtheCairawan,intheholdcourt-suitsandproperties。Elsewheres,theywasmostof'emringintheirlittlebellsoutofmake-believes。Everywheres,thesarserwasagoinround。Magsman,thesarseristheuniwersalInstitution!"
Iperceived,youunderstand,thathewassouredbyhismisfortunes,andIfeltforMr。Chops。
"AstoFatLadies,"hesays,givinghisheadatremendiousoneaginthewall,"there'slotsofTHEMinSociety,andworsethantheoriginal。HERSwasaoutrageuponTaste——simplyaoutrageuponTaste——awakenincontempt——carryinitsownpunishmentintheformofaIndian。"Herehegivhimselfanothertremendiousone。"ButTHEIRS,Magsman,THEIRSismercenaryoutrages。LayinCashmeershawls,buybracelets,strew'emandalotof'andsomefansandthingsaboutyourrooms,letitbeknownthatyougiveawaylikewatertoallascometoadmire,andtheFatLadiesthatdon'texhibitforsomuchdownuponthedrum,willcomefromallthepintsofthecompasstoflockaboutyou,whateveryouare。They'lldrillholesinyour'art,Magsman,likeaCullender。Andwhenyou'venomorelefttogive,they'lllaughatyoutoyourface,andleaveyoutohaveyourbonespickeddrybyWulturs,likethedeadWildAssofthePrairiesthatyoudeservetobe!"Herehegivhimselfthemosttremendiousoneofall,anddropped。
Ithoughthewasgone。HisEdwassoheavy,andheknockeditsohard,andhefellsostoney,andthesassagerialdisturbanceinhimmusthavebeensoimmense,thatIthoughthewasgone。But,hesooncomeroundwithcare,andhesatuponthefloor,andhesaidtome,withwisdomcominoutofhiseyes,ifeveritcome:
"Magsman!Themostmaterialdifferencebetweenthetwostatesofexistencethroughwhichyourunhappyfriendhaspassed;"hereachedouthispoorlittlehand,andhistearsdroppeddownonthemoustachiowhichitwasacredittohimtohavedonehisbesttogrow,butitisnotinmortalstocommandsuccess,——"thedifferencethis。WhenIwasoutofSociety,Iwaspaidlightforbeingseen。
WhenIwentintoSociety,Ipaidheavyforbeingseen。Iprefertheformer,evenifIwasn'tforceduponit。Givemeoutthroughthetrumpet,intheholdway,to-morrow。"
Arterthat,heslidintothelineagainaseasyasifhehadbeeniledallover。Buttheorganwaskepfromhim,andnoallusionswasevermade,whenacompanywasin,tohisproperty。Hegotwisereveryday;hisviewsofSocietyandthePublicwasluminous,bewilderin,awful;andhisEdgotbiggerandbiggerashisWisdomexpandedit。
Hetookwell,andpulled'eminmostexcellentfornineweeks。Attheexpirationofthatperiod,whenhisEdwasasight,heexpressedoneevenin,thelastCompanyhavinbeenturnedout,andthedoorshut,awishtohavealittlemusic。
"Mr。Chops,"IsaidIneverdroppedthe"Mr。"withhim;theworldmightdoit,butnotme;"Mr。Chops,areyousureasyouareinastateofmindandbodytositupontheorgan?"
Hisanswerwasthis:"Toby,whennextmetwithonthetramp,I
forgiveherandtheIndian。AndIam。"
ItwaswithfearandtremblingthatIbegantoturnthehandle;buthesatlikealamb。Iwillbemybelieftomydyingday,thatIseehisEdexpandashesat;youmaythereforejudgehowgreathisthoughtswas。Hesatoutallthechanges,andthenhecomeoff。
"Toby,"hesays,withaquietsmile,"thelittlemanwillnowwalkthreetimesroundtheCairawan,andretirebehindthecurtain。"
Whenwecalledhiminthemorning,wefoundhimgoneintoamuchbetterSocietythanmineorPallMall's。IgivMr。Chopsascomfortableafuneralaslayinmypower,followedmyselfasChief,andhadtheGeorgetheFourthcanvasscarriedfirst,intheformofabanner。But,theHousewassodismalarterwards,thatIgivitup,andtooktotheWanagain。
"Idon'ttriumph,"saidJarber,foldingupthesecondmanuscript,andlookinghardatTrottle。"Idon'ttriumphoverthisworthycreature。Imerelyaskhimifheissatisfiednow?"
"Howcanhebeanythingelse?"Isaid,answeringforTrottle,whosatobstinatelysilent。"Thistime,Jarber,youhavenotonlyreadusadelightfullyamusingstory,butyouhavealsoansweredthequestionabouttheHouse。Ofcourseitstandsemptynow。Whowouldthinkoftakingitafterithadbeenturnedintoacaravan?"I
lookedatTrottle,asIsaidthoselastwords,andJarberwavedhishandindulgentlyinthesamedirection。
"Letthisexcellentpersonspeak,"saidJarber。"Youwereabouttosay,mygoodman?"-
"Ionlywishedtoask,sir,"saidTrottledoggedly,"ifyoucouldkindlyobligemewithadateortwoinconnectionwiththatlaststory?"
"Adate!"repeatedJarber。"Whatdoesthemanwantwithdates!"
"Ishouldbegladtoknow,withgreatrespect,"persistedTrottle,"ifthepersonnamedMagsmanwasthelasttenantwholivedintheHouse。It'smyopinion——ifImaybeexcusedforgivingit——thathemostdecidedlywasnot。"
Withthosewords,Trottlemadealowbow,andquietlylefttheroom。
ThereisnodenyingthatJarber,whenwewerelefttogether,lookedsadlydiscomposed。Hehadevidentlyforgottentoinquireaboutdates;and,inspiteofhismagnificenttalkabouthisseriesofdiscoveries,itwasquiteasplainthatthetwostorieshehadjustread,hadreallyandtrulyexhaustedhispresentstock。Ithoughtmyselfbound,incommongratitude,tohelphimoutofhisembarrassmentbyatimelysuggestion。SoIproposedthatheshouldcometoteaagain,onthenextMondayevening,thethirteenth,andshouldmakesuchinquiriesinthemeantime,asmightenablehimtodisposetriumphantlyofTrottle'sobjection。
Hegallantlykissedmyhand,madeaneatlittlespeechofacknowledgment,andtookhisleave。FortherestoftheweekI
wouldnotencourageTrottlebyallowinghimtorefertotheHouseatall。Isuspectedhewasmakinghisowninquiriesaboutdates,butI
putnoquestionstohim。
OnMondayevening,thethirteenth,thatdearunfortunateJarbercame,punctualtotheappointedtime。Helookedsoterriblyharassed,thathewasreallyquiteaspectacleoffeeblenessandfatigue。Isaw,ataglance,thatthequestionofdateshadgoneagainsthim,thatMr。MagsmanhadnotbeenthelasttenantoftheHouse,andthatthereasonofitsemptinesswasstilltoseek。
"WhatIhavegonethrough,"saidJarber,"wordsarenoteloquentenoughtotell。OSophonisba,Ihavebegunanotherseriesofdiscoveries!Acceptthelasttwoasstorieslaidonyourshrine;
andwaittoblamemeforleavingyourcuriosityunappeased,untilyouhaveheardNumberThree。"
NumberThreelookedlikeaveryshortmanuscript,andIsaidasmuch。Jarberexplainedtomethatweweretohavesomepoetrythistime。InthecourseofhisinvestigationshehadsteppedintotheCirculatingLibrary,toseekforinformationontheoneimportantsubject。AlltheLibrary-peopleknewabouttheHousewas,thatafemalerelativeofthelasttenant,astheybelieved,had,justafterthattenantleft,sentalittlemanuscriptpoemtothemwhichshedescribedasreferringtoeventsthathadactuallypassedintheHouse;andwhichshewantedtheproprietoroftheLibrarytopublish。Shehadwrittennoaddressonherletter;andtheproprietorhadkeptthemanuscriptreadytobegivenbacktoherthepublishingofpoemsnotbeinginhislinewhenshemightcallforit。Shehadnevercalledforit;andthepoemhadbeenlenttoJarber,athisexpressrequest,toreadtome。
Beforehebegan,IrangthebellforTrottle;beingdeterminedtohavehimpresentatthenewreading,asawholesomecheckonhisobstinacy。TomysurprisePeggyansweredthebell,andtoldme,thatTrottlehadsteppedoutwithoutsayingwhere。Iinstantlyfeltthestrongestpossibleconvictionthathewasathisoldtricks:
andthathissteppingoutintheevening,withoutleave,meant——
Philandering。
Controllingmyselfonmyvisitor'saccount,IdismissedPeggy,stifledmyindignation,andprepared,aspolitelyasmightbe,tolistentoJarber。
THREEEVENINGSINTHEHOUSE
NUMBERONE。
I。
Yes,itlook'ddarkanddrearyThatlongandnarrowstreet:
Onlythesoundoftherain,Andthetrampofpassingfeet,Thedullerglowofthefire,AndgatheringmistsofnightTomarkhowslowandwearyThelongday'scheerlessflight!
II。
Watchingthesullenfire,Hearingthedrearyrain,Dropafterdrop,rundownOnthedarkeningwindow-pane;
ChillwastheheartofBertha,Chillasthatwinterday,-
ForthestarofherlifehadrisenOnlytofadeaway。
III。
ThevoicethathadbeensostrongTobidthesnaredepart,Thetrueandearnestwill,Andthecalmandsteadfastheart,Werenowweigh'ddownbysorrow,Werequiveringnowwithpain;
Theclearpathnowseem'dclouded,Andallhergriefinvain。
IV。
Duty,Right,Truth,whopromisedTohelpandsavetheirown,Seem'dspreadingwidetheirpinionsToleavehertherealone。
So,turningfromthePresentTowell-knowndaysofyore,Shecall'donthemtostrengthenAndguardhersouloncemore。
V。
ShethoughthowinhergirlhoodHerlifewasgivenaway,ThesolemnpromisespokenShekeptsowellto-day;
HowtoherbrotherHerbertShehadbeenhelpandguide,Andhowhisartist-natureOnhercalmstrengthrelied。
VI。
Howthroughlife'sfretandturmoilThepassionandfireofartInhimwassoothedandquicken'dByhertruesisterheart;
HowfuturehopeshadalwaysBeenforhissakealone;
Andnow,whatstrangenewfeelingPossess'dherasitsown?
VII。
Herhome;eachflowerthatbreathedthere;
Thewind'ssigh,softandlow;
Eachtremblingsprayofivy;
Theriver'smurmuringflow;
Theshadowoftheforest;
Sunset,ortwilightdim;
Dearastheywere,weredearerByleavingthemforhim。
VIII。
AndeachyearasitfoundherInthedull,feverishtown,Sawselfstillmoreforgotten,AndselfishcarekeptdownBythecalmjoyofeveningThatbroughthimtoherside,Towarnhimwithwisecounsel,Orpraisewithtenderpride。
IX。
Herheart,herlife,herfuture,Hergenius,onlymeantAnotherthingtogivehim,Andbetherewithcontent。
To-day,whatwordshadstirr'dher,Hersoulcouldnotforget?
Whatdreamhadfill'dherspiritWithstrangeandwildregret?
X。
Toleavehimforanother:
Coulditindeedbeso?
CouldithavecostsuchanguishTobidthisvisiongo?
Wasthisherfaith?WasHerbertThesecondinherheart?
DiditneedallthisstruggleTobidadreamdepart?
XI。
Andyet,withinherspiritAfar-offlandwasseen;
Ahome,whichmighthaveheldher;
Alove,whichmighthavebeen;
AndLife:notthemerebeingOfdailyebbandflow,ButLifeitselfhadclaim'dher,Andshehadletitgo!
XII。
Withinherheartthereecho'dAgainthewell-knowntuneThatpromisedthisbrightfuture,Andask'dherforitsown:
Thenwordsofsorrow,brokenByhalf-reproachfulpain;
Andthenafarewell,spokenInwordsofcolddisdain。
XIII。
WherenowwasthesternpurposeThatnervedhersoulsolong?
Whencecamethewordssheutter'd,Sohard,socold,sostrong?
WhatrighthadshetobanishAhopethatGodhadgiven?
Whymustshechooseearth'sportion,AndturnasidefromHeaven?
XIV。
To-day!Wasitthismorning?
Ifthislong,fearfulstrifeWasbuttheworkofhours,Whatwouldbeyearsoflife?
WhydidacruelHeavenForsuchgreatsufferingcall?
Andwhy——O,stillmorecruel!-
Mustherownwordsdoall?
XV。
Didsherepent?OSorrow!
WhydowelingerstillTotakethylovingmessage,Anddothygentlewill?
See,hertearsfallmoreslowly;
Thepassionatemurmurscease,AndbackuponherspiritFlowstrength,andlove,andpeace。
XVI。
Thefireburnsmorebrightly,Therainhaspassedaway,HerbertwillseenoshadowUponhishometo-day;
OnlythatBerthagreetshimWithdoublytendercare,KissingafonderblessingDownonhisgoldenhair。
NUMBERTWO。
I。
Thestudioisdeserted,Paletteandbrushlaidby,Thesketchrestsontheeasel,Thepaintisscarcelydry;
AndSilence——whoseemsalwaysWithinherdepthstobearThenextsoundthatwillutter-
Nowholdsadumbdespair。
II。
SoBerthafeelsit:listeningWithbreathless,stonyfear,WaitingthedreadfulsummonsEachminutebringsmorenear:
Whentheyounglife,nowebbing,Shallfail,andpassawayIntothatmightyshadowWhoshroudsthehouseto-day。
III。
Butwhy——whenthesickchamberIsontheupperfloor-
WhydaresnotBerthaenterWithintheclose-shutdoor?
Ifhe——herall——herBrother,Liesdyinginthatgloom,WhatstrangemysteriouspowerHassentherfromtheroom?
IV。
Itisnotoneweek'sanguishThatcanhavechangedherso;
Joyhasnotdiedherelately,Struckdownbyonequickblow;
ButcruelmonthshaveneededTheirlongrelentlesschain,ToteachthatshrinkingmannerOfhelpless,hopelesspain。
V。
ThestrugglewasscarceoverLastChristmasEvehadbrought:
ThefibresstillwerequiveringOftheonewoundedthought,WhenHerbert——who,unconscious,Hadguessednoinwardstrife-
Badeher,inprideandpleasure,Welcomehisfairyoungwife。
VI。
Badeherrejoice,andsmiling,Althoughhiseyesweredim,Thank'dGodhethuscouldpayherThecareshegavetohim。
ThisfreshbrightlifewouldbringherAnewandjoyousfate-
OBertha,checkthemurmurThatcries,Toolate!toolate!
VII。
Toolate!CouldshehaveknownitAfewshortweeksbefore,Thathislifewascompleted,Andneedinghersnomore,Shemight——Osadrepining!
What"mighthavebeen,"forget;
"Itwasnot,"shouldsufficeusTostiflevainregret。
VIII。
Heneededhernolonger,Eachdayitgrewmoreplain;
Firstwithastartledwonder,Thenwithawonderingpain。
Love:why,hiswifebestgaveit;
Comfort:durstBerthaspeak?
Counsel:whenquickresentmentFlush'dontheyoungwife'scheek。
IX。
NomorelongtalksbyfirelightOfchildishtimeslongpast,AnddreamsoffuturegreatnessWhichhemustreachatlast;
Dreams,whereherpurerinstinctWithtruthunerringtoldWherewastheworthlessgilding,Andwhererefinedgold。
X。
Slowly,butsurelyever,Dora'spoorjealouspride,Whichshecall'dloveforHerbert,DroveBerthafromhisside;
And,spiteofnervouseffortTosharetheiralter'dlife,ShefeltachecktoHerbert,Aburdentohiswife。
XI。
Thiswastheleast;forBerthaFear'd,dreaded,KNEWatlength,HowmuchhisnatureowedherOftruth,andpower,andstrength;
Andwatch'dthedailyfailingOfallhisnoblerpart:
Lowaims,weakpurpose,tellingInlower,weakerart。
XII。
Andnow,whenheisdying,ThelastwordsshecouldhearMustnotbehers,butgivenThebrideofoneshortyear。
Thelastcareisanother's;
ThelastprayermustnotbeTheonetheylearnttogetherBesidetheirmother'sknee。
XIII。
Summon'datlast:shekissesTheclay-coldstiffeninghand;
And,readingpleadingeffortsTomakeherunderstand,Answers,withsolemnpromise,Inclearbuttremblingtone,ToDora'slifehenceforwardShewilldevoteherown。
XIV。
Nowallisover。BerthaDaresnotremaintoweep,ButsoothesthefrightenedDoraIntoasobbingsleep。
Thepoorweakchildwillneedher:
O,whocandarecomplain,WhenGodsendsanewDutyTocomforteachnewPain!
NUMBERTHREE。
I。
TheHouseisalldesertedInthedimeveninggloom,OnlyonefigurepassesSlowlyfromroomtoroom;
And,pausingateachdoorway,SeemsgatheringupagainWithinherhearttherelicsOfbygonejoyandpain。
II。
ThereisanearnestlongingInthosewhoonwardgaze,LookingwithwearypatienceTowardsthecomingdays。
Thereisadeeperlonging,Moresad,morestrong,morekeen:
Thoseknowitwholookbackward,Andyearnforwhathasbeen。
III。
Ateveryhearthshepauses,Toucheseachwell-knownchair;
Gazesfromeverywindow,Lingersoneverystair。
WhathavethesemonthsbroughtBerthaNowonemoreyearispast?
ThisChristmasEveshalltellus,Thethirdoneandthelast。
IV。
Thewilful,waywardDora,Inthosefirstweeksofgrief,CouldseekandfindinBerthaStrength,soothing,andrelief。
AndBertha——lastsadcomfortTruewoman-heartcantake-
HadsomethingstilltosufferAnddoforHerbert'ssake。
V。
Spring,withherwesternbreezes,FromIndianislandsboreToBerthanewsthatLeonardWouldseekhishomeoncemore。
Whatwasit——joy,orsorrow?
Whatwerethey——hopes,orfears?
Thatflush'dhercheekswithcrimson,Andfill'dhereyeswithtears?
VI。
Hecame。AndwhosokindlyCouldaskandhearhertellHerbert'slasthours;forLeonardHadknownandlovedhimwell。
Dailyhecame;andBertha,Poorwearheart,atlength,Weigh'ddownbyother'sweakness,Couldrestuponhisstrength。
VII。
YetnotthevoiceofLeonardCouldhertruecarebeguile,Thatturn'dtowatch,rejoicing,Dora'srevivingsmile。
So,fromthatlittlehouseholdTheworstgloompass'daway,TheonebrighthourofeveningLitupthelivelongday。
VIII。
Dayspassed。ThegoldensummerInsuddenheatboredownItsblue,bright,glowingsweetnessUponthescorchingtown。
AndsightsandsoundsofcountryCameinthewarmsofttuneSungbythehoney'dbreezesBorneonthewingsofJune。
IX。
Onetwilighthour,butearlierThanusual,BerthathoughtSheknewthefreshsweetfragranceOfflowersthatLeonardbrought;
Throughopen'ddoorsandwindowsItstoleupthroughthegloom,AndwithappealingsweetnessDrewBerthafromherroom。
X。
Yes,hewasthere;andpausingJustneartheopen'ddoor,Tocheckherheart'squickbeating,Sheheard——andpausedstillmore-
HislowvoiceDora'sanswers-
Hispleading——Yes,sheknewThetone——thewords——theaccents:
Sheoncehadheardthemtoo。
XI。
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