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第5章

  IfeltthatIwentpale,andthoughnat'rallyaboldspeaker,I
  couldn'thardlysay,"Where'sNormandy?"
  "Bolted。Withtheplate,"saidMr。Chops。
  "Andt'otherone?"meaninghimasformerlyworethebishop'smitre。
  "Bolted。Withthejewels,"saidMr。Chops。
  Isatdownandlookedathim,andhestoodupandlookedatme。
  "Magsman,"hesays,andheseemedtomyselftogetwiserashegothoarser;"Society,takeninthelump,isalldwarfs。AtthecourtofSt。James's,theywasalladoingmyoldbusiness——allagointhreetimesroundtheCairawan,intheholdcourt-suitsandproperties。Elsewheres,theywasmostof'emringintheirlittlebellsoutofmake-believes。Everywheres,thesarserwasagoinround。Magsman,thesarseristheuniwersalInstitution!"
  Iperceived,youunderstand,thathewassouredbyhismisfortunes,andIfeltforMr。Chops。
  "AstoFatLadies,"hesays,givinghisheadatremendiousoneaginthewall,"there'slotsofTHEMinSociety,andworsethantheoriginal。HERSwasaoutrageuponTaste——simplyaoutrageuponTaste——awakenincontempt——carryinitsownpunishmentintheformofaIndian。"Herehegivhimselfanothertremendiousone。"ButTHEIRS,Magsman,THEIRSismercenaryoutrages。LayinCashmeershawls,buybracelets,strew'emandalotof'andsomefansandthingsaboutyourrooms,letitbeknownthatyougiveawaylikewatertoallascometoadmire,andtheFatLadiesthatdon'texhibitforsomuchdownuponthedrum,willcomefromallthepintsofthecompasstoflockaboutyou,whateveryouare。They'lldrillholesinyour'art,Magsman,likeaCullender。Andwhenyou'venomorelefttogive,they'lllaughatyoutoyourface,andleaveyoutohaveyourbonespickeddrybyWulturs,likethedeadWildAssofthePrairiesthatyoudeservetobe!"Herehegivhimselfthemosttremendiousoneofall,anddropped。
  Ithoughthewasgone。HisEdwassoheavy,andheknockeditsohard,andhefellsostoney,andthesassagerialdisturbanceinhimmusthavebeensoimmense,thatIthoughthewasgone。But,hesooncomeroundwithcare,andhesatuponthefloor,andhesaidtome,withwisdomcominoutofhiseyes,ifeveritcome:
  "Magsman!Themostmaterialdifferencebetweenthetwostatesofexistencethroughwhichyourunhappyfriendhaspassed;"hereachedouthispoorlittlehand,andhistearsdroppeddownonthemoustachiowhichitwasacredittohimtohavedonehisbesttogrow,butitisnotinmortalstocommandsuccess,——"thedifferencethis。WhenIwasoutofSociety,Iwaspaidlightforbeingseen。
  WhenIwentintoSociety,Ipaidheavyforbeingseen。Iprefertheformer,evenifIwasn'tforceduponit。Givemeoutthroughthetrumpet,intheholdway,to-morrow。"
  Arterthat,heslidintothelineagainaseasyasifhehadbeeniledallover。Buttheorganwaskepfromhim,andnoallusionswasevermade,whenacompanywasin,tohisproperty。Hegotwisereveryday;hisviewsofSocietyandthePublicwasluminous,bewilderin,awful;andhisEdgotbiggerandbiggerashisWisdomexpandedit。
  Hetookwell,andpulled'eminmostexcellentfornineweeks。Attheexpirationofthatperiod,whenhisEdwasasight,heexpressedoneevenin,thelastCompanyhavinbeenturnedout,andthedoorshut,awishtohavealittlemusic。
  "Mr。Chops,"IsaidIneverdroppedthe"Mr。"withhim;theworldmightdoit,butnotme;"Mr。Chops,areyousureasyouareinastateofmindandbodytositupontheorgan?"
  Hisanswerwasthis:"Toby,whennextmetwithonthetramp,I
  forgiveherandtheIndian。AndIam。"
  ItwaswithfearandtremblingthatIbegantoturnthehandle;buthesatlikealamb。Iwillbemybelieftomydyingday,thatIseehisEdexpandashesat;youmaythereforejudgehowgreathisthoughtswas。Hesatoutallthechanges,andthenhecomeoff。
  "Toby,"hesays,withaquietsmile,"thelittlemanwillnowwalkthreetimesroundtheCairawan,andretirebehindthecurtain。"
  Whenwecalledhiminthemorning,wefoundhimgoneintoamuchbetterSocietythanmineorPallMall's。IgivMr。Chopsascomfortableafuneralaslayinmypower,followedmyselfasChief,andhadtheGeorgetheFourthcanvasscarriedfirst,intheformofabanner。But,theHousewassodismalarterwards,thatIgivitup,andtooktotheWanagain。
  "Idon'ttriumph,"saidJarber,foldingupthesecondmanuscript,andlookinghardatTrottle。"Idon'ttriumphoverthisworthycreature。Imerelyaskhimifheissatisfiednow?"
  "Howcanhebeanythingelse?"Isaid,answeringforTrottle,whosatobstinatelysilent。"Thistime,Jarber,youhavenotonlyreadusadelightfullyamusingstory,butyouhavealsoansweredthequestionabouttheHouse。Ofcourseitstandsemptynow。Whowouldthinkoftakingitafterithadbeenturnedintoacaravan?"I
  lookedatTrottle,asIsaidthoselastwords,andJarberwavedhishandindulgentlyinthesamedirection。
  "Letthisexcellentpersonspeak,"saidJarber。"Youwereabouttosay,mygoodman?"-
  "Ionlywishedtoask,sir,"saidTrottledoggedly,"ifyoucouldkindlyobligemewithadateortwoinconnectionwiththatlaststory?"
  "Adate!"repeatedJarber。"Whatdoesthemanwantwithdates!"
  "Ishouldbegladtoknow,withgreatrespect,"persistedTrottle,"ifthepersonnamedMagsmanwasthelasttenantwholivedintheHouse。It'smyopinion——ifImaybeexcusedforgivingit——thathemostdecidedlywasnot。"
  Withthosewords,Trottlemadealowbow,andquietlylefttheroom。
  ThereisnodenyingthatJarber,whenwewerelefttogether,lookedsadlydiscomposed。Hehadevidentlyforgottentoinquireaboutdates;and,inspiteofhismagnificenttalkabouthisseriesofdiscoveries,itwasquiteasplainthatthetwostorieshehadjustread,hadreallyandtrulyexhaustedhispresentstock。Ithoughtmyselfbound,incommongratitude,tohelphimoutofhisembarrassmentbyatimelysuggestion。SoIproposedthatheshouldcometoteaagain,onthenextMondayevening,thethirteenth,andshouldmakesuchinquiriesinthemeantime,asmightenablehimtodisposetriumphantlyofTrottle'sobjection。
  Hegallantlykissedmyhand,madeaneatlittlespeechofacknowledgment,andtookhisleave。FortherestoftheweekI
  wouldnotencourageTrottlebyallowinghimtorefertotheHouseatall。Isuspectedhewasmakinghisowninquiriesaboutdates,butI
  putnoquestionstohim。
  OnMondayevening,thethirteenth,thatdearunfortunateJarbercame,punctualtotheappointedtime。Helookedsoterriblyharassed,thathewasreallyquiteaspectacleoffeeblenessandfatigue。Isaw,ataglance,thatthequestionofdateshadgoneagainsthim,thatMr。MagsmanhadnotbeenthelasttenantoftheHouse,andthatthereasonofitsemptinesswasstilltoseek。
  "WhatIhavegonethrough,"saidJarber,"wordsarenoteloquentenoughtotell。OSophonisba,Ihavebegunanotherseriesofdiscoveries!Acceptthelasttwoasstorieslaidonyourshrine;
  andwaittoblamemeforleavingyourcuriosityunappeased,untilyouhaveheardNumberThree。"
  NumberThreelookedlikeaveryshortmanuscript,andIsaidasmuch。Jarberexplainedtomethatweweretohavesomepoetrythistime。InthecourseofhisinvestigationshehadsteppedintotheCirculatingLibrary,toseekforinformationontheoneimportantsubject。AlltheLibrary-peopleknewabouttheHousewas,thatafemalerelativeofthelasttenant,astheybelieved,had,justafterthattenantleft,sentalittlemanuscriptpoemtothemwhichshedescribedasreferringtoeventsthathadactuallypassedintheHouse;andwhichshewantedtheproprietoroftheLibrarytopublish。Shehadwrittennoaddressonherletter;andtheproprietorhadkeptthemanuscriptreadytobegivenbacktoherthepublishingofpoemsnotbeinginhislinewhenshemightcallforit。Shehadnevercalledforit;andthepoemhadbeenlenttoJarber,athisexpressrequest,toreadtome。
  Beforehebegan,IrangthebellforTrottle;beingdeterminedtohavehimpresentatthenewreading,asawholesomecheckonhisobstinacy。TomysurprisePeggyansweredthebell,andtoldme,thatTrottlehadsteppedoutwithoutsayingwhere。Iinstantlyfeltthestrongestpossibleconvictionthathewasathisoldtricks:
  andthathissteppingoutintheevening,withoutleave,meant——
  Philandering。
  Controllingmyselfonmyvisitor'saccount,IdismissedPeggy,stifledmyindignation,andprepared,aspolitelyasmightbe,tolistentoJarber。
  THREEEVENINGSINTHEHOUSE
  NUMBERONE。
  I。
  Yes,itlook'ddarkanddrearyThatlongandnarrowstreet:
  Onlythesoundoftherain,Andthetrampofpassingfeet,Thedullerglowofthefire,AndgatheringmistsofnightTomarkhowslowandwearyThelongday'scheerlessflight!
  II。
  Watchingthesullenfire,Hearingthedrearyrain,Dropafterdrop,rundownOnthedarkeningwindow-pane;
  ChillwastheheartofBertha,Chillasthatwinterday,-
  ForthestarofherlifehadrisenOnlytofadeaway。
  III。
  ThevoicethathadbeensostrongTobidthesnaredepart,Thetrueandearnestwill,Andthecalmandsteadfastheart,Werenowweigh'ddownbysorrow,Werequiveringnowwithpain;
  Theclearpathnowseem'dclouded,Andallhergriefinvain。
  IV。
  Duty,Right,Truth,whopromisedTohelpandsavetheirown,Seem'dspreadingwidetheirpinionsToleavehertherealone。
  So,turningfromthePresentTowell-knowndaysofyore,Shecall'donthemtostrengthenAndguardhersouloncemore。
  V。
  ShethoughthowinhergirlhoodHerlifewasgivenaway,ThesolemnpromisespokenShekeptsowellto-day;
  HowtoherbrotherHerbertShehadbeenhelpandguide,Andhowhisartist-natureOnhercalmstrengthrelied。
  VI。
  Howthroughlife'sfretandturmoilThepassionandfireofartInhimwassoothedandquicken'dByhertruesisterheart;
  HowfuturehopeshadalwaysBeenforhissakealone;
  Andnow,whatstrangenewfeelingPossess'dherasitsown?
  VII。
  Herhome;eachflowerthatbreathedthere;
  Thewind'ssigh,softandlow;
  Eachtremblingsprayofivy;
  Theriver'smurmuringflow;
  Theshadowoftheforest;
  Sunset,ortwilightdim;
  Dearastheywere,weredearerByleavingthemforhim。
  VIII。
  AndeachyearasitfoundherInthedull,feverishtown,Sawselfstillmoreforgotten,AndselfishcarekeptdownBythecalmjoyofeveningThatbroughthimtoherside,Towarnhimwithwisecounsel,Orpraisewithtenderpride。
  IX。
  Herheart,herlife,herfuture,Hergenius,onlymeantAnotherthingtogivehim,Andbetherewithcontent。
  To-day,whatwordshadstirr'dher,Hersoulcouldnotforget?
  Whatdreamhadfill'dherspiritWithstrangeandwildregret?
  X。
  Toleavehimforanother:
  Coulditindeedbeso?
  CouldithavecostsuchanguishTobidthisvisiongo?
  Wasthisherfaith?WasHerbertThesecondinherheart?
  DiditneedallthisstruggleTobidadreamdepart?
  XI。
  Andyet,withinherspiritAfar-offlandwasseen;
  Ahome,whichmighthaveheldher;
  Alove,whichmighthavebeen;
  AndLife:notthemerebeingOfdailyebbandflow,ButLifeitselfhadclaim'dher,Andshehadletitgo!
  XII。
  Withinherheartthereecho'dAgainthewell-knowntuneThatpromisedthisbrightfuture,Andask'dherforitsown:
  Thenwordsofsorrow,brokenByhalf-reproachfulpain;
  Andthenafarewell,spokenInwordsofcolddisdain。
  XIII。
  WherenowwasthesternpurposeThatnervedhersoulsolong?
  Whencecamethewordssheutter'd,Sohard,socold,sostrong?
  WhatrighthadshetobanishAhopethatGodhadgiven?
  Whymustshechooseearth'sportion,AndturnasidefromHeaven?
  XIV。
  To-day!Wasitthismorning?
  Ifthislong,fearfulstrifeWasbuttheworkofhours,Whatwouldbeyearsoflife?
  WhydidacruelHeavenForsuchgreatsufferingcall?
  Andwhy——O,stillmorecruel!-
  Mustherownwordsdoall?
  XV。
  Didsherepent?OSorrow!
  WhydowelingerstillTotakethylovingmessage,Anddothygentlewill?
  See,hertearsfallmoreslowly;
  Thepassionatemurmurscease,AndbackuponherspiritFlowstrength,andlove,andpeace。
  XVI。
  Thefireburnsmorebrightly,Therainhaspassedaway,HerbertwillseenoshadowUponhishometo-day;
  OnlythatBerthagreetshimWithdoublytendercare,KissingafonderblessingDownonhisgoldenhair。
  NUMBERTWO。
  I。
  Thestudioisdeserted,Paletteandbrushlaidby,Thesketchrestsontheeasel,Thepaintisscarcelydry;
  AndSilence——whoseemsalwaysWithinherdepthstobearThenextsoundthatwillutter-
  Nowholdsadumbdespair。
  II。
  SoBerthafeelsit:listeningWithbreathless,stonyfear,WaitingthedreadfulsummonsEachminutebringsmorenear:
  Whentheyounglife,nowebbing,Shallfail,andpassawayIntothatmightyshadowWhoshroudsthehouseto-day。
  III。
  Butwhy——whenthesickchamberIsontheupperfloor-
  WhydaresnotBerthaenterWithintheclose-shutdoor?
  Ifhe——herall——herBrother,Liesdyinginthatgloom,WhatstrangemysteriouspowerHassentherfromtheroom?
  IV。
  Itisnotoneweek'sanguishThatcanhavechangedherso;
  Joyhasnotdiedherelately,Struckdownbyonequickblow;
  ButcruelmonthshaveneededTheirlongrelentlesschain,ToteachthatshrinkingmannerOfhelpless,hopelesspain。
  V。
  ThestrugglewasscarceoverLastChristmasEvehadbrought:
  ThefibresstillwerequiveringOftheonewoundedthought,WhenHerbert——who,unconscious,Hadguessednoinwardstrife-
  Badeher,inprideandpleasure,Welcomehisfairyoungwife。
  VI。
  Badeherrejoice,andsmiling,Althoughhiseyesweredim,Thank'dGodhethuscouldpayherThecareshegavetohim。
  ThisfreshbrightlifewouldbringherAnewandjoyousfate-
  OBertha,checkthemurmurThatcries,Toolate!toolate!
  VII。
  Toolate!CouldshehaveknownitAfewshortweeksbefore,Thathislifewascompleted,Andneedinghersnomore,Shemight——Osadrepining!
  What"mighthavebeen,"forget;
  "Itwasnot,"shouldsufficeusTostiflevainregret。
  VIII。
  Heneededhernolonger,Eachdayitgrewmoreplain;
  Firstwithastartledwonder,Thenwithawonderingpain。
  Love:why,hiswifebestgaveit;
  Comfort:durstBerthaspeak?
  Counsel:whenquickresentmentFlush'dontheyoungwife'scheek。
  IX。
  NomorelongtalksbyfirelightOfchildishtimeslongpast,AnddreamsoffuturegreatnessWhichhemustreachatlast;
  Dreams,whereherpurerinstinctWithtruthunerringtoldWherewastheworthlessgilding,Andwhererefinedgold。
  X。
  Slowly,butsurelyever,Dora'spoorjealouspride,Whichshecall'dloveforHerbert,DroveBerthafromhisside;
  And,spiteofnervouseffortTosharetheiralter'dlife,ShefeltachecktoHerbert,Aburdentohiswife。
  XI。
  Thiswastheleast;forBerthaFear'd,dreaded,KNEWatlength,HowmuchhisnatureowedherOftruth,andpower,andstrength;
  Andwatch'dthedailyfailingOfallhisnoblerpart:
  Lowaims,weakpurpose,tellingInlower,weakerart。
  XII。
  Andnow,whenheisdying,ThelastwordsshecouldhearMustnotbehers,butgivenThebrideofoneshortyear。
  Thelastcareisanother's;
  ThelastprayermustnotbeTheonetheylearnttogetherBesidetheirmother'sknee。
  XIII。
  Summon'datlast:shekissesTheclay-coldstiffeninghand;
  And,readingpleadingeffortsTomakeherunderstand,Answers,withsolemnpromise,Inclearbuttremblingtone,ToDora'slifehenceforwardShewilldevoteherown。
  XIV。
  Nowallisover。BerthaDaresnotremaintoweep,ButsoothesthefrightenedDoraIntoasobbingsleep。
  Thepoorweakchildwillneedher:
  O,whocandarecomplain,WhenGodsendsanewDutyTocomforteachnewPain!
  NUMBERTHREE。
  I。
  TheHouseisalldesertedInthedimeveninggloom,OnlyonefigurepassesSlowlyfromroomtoroom;
  And,pausingateachdoorway,SeemsgatheringupagainWithinherhearttherelicsOfbygonejoyandpain。
  II。
  ThereisanearnestlongingInthosewhoonwardgaze,LookingwithwearypatienceTowardsthecomingdays。
  Thereisadeeperlonging,Moresad,morestrong,morekeen:
  Thoseknowitwholookbackward,Andyearnforwhathasbeen。
  III。
  Ateveryhearthshepauses,Toucheseachwell-knownchair;
  Gazesfromeverywindow,Lingersoneverystair。
  WhathavethesemonthsbroughtBerthaNowonemoreyearispast?
  ThisChristmasEveshalltellus,Thethirdoneandthelast。
  IV。
  Thewilful,waywardDora,Inthosefirstweeksofgrief,CouldseekandfindinBerthaStrength,soothing,andrelief。
  AndBertha——lastsadcomfortTruewoman-heartcantake-
  HadsomethingstilltosufferAnddoforHerbert'ssake。
  V。
  Spring,withherwesternbreezes,FromIndianislandsboreToBerthanewsthatLeonardWouldseekhishomeoncemore。
  Whatwasit——joy,orsorrow?
  Whatwerethey——hopes,orfears?
  Thatflush'dhercheekswithcrimson,Andfill'dhereyeswithtears?
  VI。
  Hecame。AndwhosokindlyCouldaskandhearhertellHerbert'slasthours;forLeonardHadknownandlovedhimwell。
  Dailyhecame;andBertha,Poorwearheart,atlength,Weigh'ddownbyother'sweakness,Couldrestuponhisstrength。
  VII。
  YetnotthevoiceofLeonardCouldhertruecarebeguile,Thatturn'dtowatch,rejoicing,Dora'srevivingsmile。
  So,fromthatlittlehouseholdTheworstgloompass'daway,TheonebrighthourofeveningLitupthelivelongday。
  VIII。
  Dayspassed。ThegoldensummerInsuddenheatboredownItsblue,bright,glowingsweetnessUponthescorchingtown。
  AndsightsandsoundsofcountryCameinthewarmsofttuneSungbythehoney'dbreezesBorneonthewingsofJune。
  IX。
  Onetwilighthour,butearlierThanusual,BerthathoughtSheknewthefreshsweetfragranceOfflowersthatLeonardbrought;
  Throughopen'ddoorsandwindowsItstoleupthroughthegloom,AndwithappealingsweetnessDrewBerthafromherroom。
  X。
  Yes,hewasthere;andpausingJustneartheopen'ddoor,Tocheckherheart'squickbeating,Sheheard——andpausedstillmore-
  HislowvoiceDora'sanswers-
  Hispleading——Yes,sheknewThetone——thewords——theaccents:
  Sheoncehadheardthemtoo。
  XI。