1。VI。ONTHEBRINK
MissBencombwasleavingthehotelfortherailway,whichwasquitenearathand,andhadonlyrecentlybeenopened,asifonpurposeforthisevent。AtJocelyn’ssuggestionshewroteamessagetoinformherfatherthatshehadgonetoheraunt’s,withaviewtoallayinganxietyanddeterringpursuit。Theywalkedtogethertotheplatformandbadeeachothergood-bye;eachobtainedaticketindependently,andJocelyngothisluggagefromthecloak-room。
Ontheplatformtheyencounteredeachotheragain,andtherewasalightintheirglancesateachotherwhichsaid,asbyaflash-
telegraph:’Weareboundforthesametown,whynotenterthesamecompartment?’
Theydid。
Shetookacornerseat,withherbacktotheengine;hesatopposite。
Theguardlookedin,thoughttheywerelovers,anddidnotshowothertravellersintothatcompartment。Theytalkedonstrictlyordinarymatters;whatshethoughthedidnotknow,butateverystoppingstationhedreadedintrusion。BeforetheywerehalfwaytoLondontheeventhehadjustbeguntorealizewasapatentfact。TheBelovedwasagainembodied;shefilledeveryfibreandcurveofthiswoman’sform。
DrawingnearthegreatLondonstationwaslikedrawingnearDoomsday。
Howshouldheleaveherintheturmoilofacrowdedcitystreet?Sheseemedquiteunpreparedfortherattleofthescene。Heaskedherwhereherauntlived。
’Bayswater,’saidMissBencomb。
Hecalledacab,andproposedthatsheshouldshareittilltheyarrivedatheraunt’s,whoseresidencelaynotmuchoutofthewaytohisown。Tryashewouldhecouldnotascertainifsheunderstoodhisfeelings,butsheassentedtohisofferandenteredthevehicle。
’Weareoldfriends,’hesaid,astheydroveonward。
’Indeed,weare,’sheanswered,withoutsmiling。
’Buthereditarilywearemortalenemies,dearJuliet。’
’Yes——Whatdidyousay?’
’IsaidJuliet。’
Shelaughedinahalf-proudway,andmurmured:’Yourfatherismyfather’senemy,andmyfatherismine。Yes,itisso。’Andthentheireyescaughteachother’sglance。’Myqueenlydarling!’heburstout;
’insteadofgoingtoyouraunt’s,willyoucomeandmarryme?’
Aflushcoveredherover,whichseemedakintoaflushofrage。Itwasnotexactlythat,butshewasexcited。Shedidnotanswer,andhefearedhehadmortallyoffendedherdignity。Perhapsshehadonlymadeuseofhimasaconvenientaidtoherintentions。However,hewenton——
’Yourfatherwouldnotbeabletoreclaimyouthen!Afterall,thisisnotsoprecipitateasitseems。Youknowallaboutme,myhistory,myprospects。Iknowallaboutyou。Ourfamilieshavebeenneighboursonthatisleforhundredsofyears,thoughyouarenowsuchaLondonproduct。’
’WillyoueverbeaRoyalAcademician?’sheaskedmusingly,herexcitementhavingcalmeddown。
’Ihopetobe——IWILLbe,ifyouwillbemywife。’
Hiscompanionlookedathimlong。
’Thinkwhatashortwayoutofyourdifficultythiswouldbe,’hecontinued。’Nobotheraboutaunts,nofetchinghomebyanangryfather。’
Itseemedtodecideher。Sheyieldedtohisembrace。
’Howlongwillittaketomarry?’MissBencombaskedby-and-by,withobviousself-repression。
’Wecoulddoitto-morrow。IcouldgettoDoctors’Commonsbynoonto-
day,andthelicencewouldbereadybyto-morrowmorning。’
’Iwon’tgotomyaunt’s,Iwillbeanindependentwoman!IhavebeenreprimandedasifIwereachildofsix。I’llbeyourwifeifitisaseasyasyousay。’
Theystoppedthecabwhiletheyheldaconsultation。PierstonhadroomsandastudiointheneighbourhoodofCampdenHill;butitwouldbehardlydesirabletotakeherthithertilltheyweremarried。Theydecidedtogotoanhotel。
Changingtheirdirection,therefore,theywentbacktotheStrand,andsoonensconcedthemselvesinoneofthevenerableoldtavernsofCoventGarden,aprecinctwhichinthosedayswasfrequentedbyWest-countrypeople。Jocelynthenleftherandproceededonhiserrandeastward。
Itwasaboutthreeo’clockwhen,havingarrangedallpreliminariesnecessitatedbythissuddenchangeoffront,hebeganstrollingslowlyback;hefeltbewildered,andtowalkwasarelief。Gazingoccasionallyintothisshopwindowandthat,hecalledahansomasbyaninspiration,anddirectedthedriverto’MellstockGardens。’
Arrivedhere,herangthebellofastudio,andinaminuteortwoitwasansweredbyayoungmaninshirt-sleeves,abouthisownage,withagreatsmearedpaletteonhisleftthumb。
’O,you,Pierston!Ithoughtyouwereinthecountry。Comein。I’mawfullygladofthis。IamhereintownfinishingoffapaintingforanAmerican,whowantstotakeitbackwithhim。’
Pierstonfollowedhisfriendintothepainting-room,whereaprettyyoungwomanwassittingsewing。Atasignalfromthepaintershedisappearedwithoutspeaking。
’Icanseefromyourfaceyouhavesomethingtosay;sowe’llhaveitalltoourselves。Youareinsometrouble?What’llyoudrink?’
’Oh!itdoesn’tmatterwhat,sothatitisalcoholinsomeshapeorform……Now,Somers,youmustjustlistentome,forIHAVE
somethingtotell。’
Pierstonhadsatdowninanarm-chair,andSomershadresumedhispainting。WhenaservanthadbroughtinbrandytosoothePierston’snerves,andsodatotakeofftheinjuriouseffectsofthebrandy,andmilktotakeoffthedepletingeffectsofthesoda,Jocelynbeganhisnarrative,addressingitrathertoSomers’sGothicchimneypiece,andSomers’sGothicclock,andSomers’sGothicrugs,thantoSomershimself,whostoodathispicturealittlebehindhisfriend。
’BeforeItellyouwhathashappenedtome,’Pierstonsaid,’IwanttoletyouknowthemannerofmanIam。’
’Lord——Iknowalready。’
’No,youdon’t。Itisasortofthingonedoesn’tliketotalkof。I
lieawakeatnightthinkingaboutit。’
’No!’saidSomers,withmoresympathy,seeingthathisfriendwasreallytroubled。
’Iamunderacuriouscurse,orinfluence。Iamposed,puzzledandperplexedbythelegerdemainofacreature——adeityrather;byAphrodite,asapoetwouldputit,asIshouldputitmyselfinmarble……ButIforget——thisisnottobeadeprecatorywail,butadefence——asortofApologiaprovitamea。’
’That’sbetter。Fireaway!’
1。VII。HEREARLIERINCARNATIONS
’You,Somers,arenot,Iknow,oneofthosewhocontinuetoindulgeintheworld-wide,fondsuperstitionthattheBelovedOneofanymanalways,orevenusually,carestoremaininonecorporealnookorshellforanygreatlengthoftime,howevermuchhemaywishhertodoso。
IfIamwrong,andyoudostillholdtothatancienterror——well,mystorywillseemratherqueer。’
’SupposeyousaytheBelovedofsomemen,notofanyman。’
’Allright——I’llsayoneman,thismanonly,ifyouaresoparticular。
Weareastrange,visionaryracedownwhereIcomefrom,andperhapsthataccountsforit。TheBelovedofthisoneman,then,hashadmanyincarnations——toomanytodescribeindetail。Eachshape,orembodiment,hasbeenatemporaryresidenceonly,whichshehasentered,livedinawhile,andmadeherexitfrom,leavingthesubstance,sofarasIhavebeenconcerned,acorpse,worseluck!Now,thereisnospiritualisticnonsenseinthis——itissimplefact,putintheplainformthattheconventionalpublicareafraidof。Somuchfortheprinciple。’
’Good。Goon。’
’Well;thefirstembodimentofheroccurred,sonearlyasIcanrecollect,whenIwasabouttheageofnine。Hervehiclewasalittleblue-eyedgirlofeightorso,oneofafamilyofeleven,withflaxenhairabouthershoulders,whichattemptedtocurl,butignominiouslyfailed,hanginglikechimney-crooksonly。Thisdefectusedrathertotroubleme;andwas,Ibelieve,oneofthemainreasonsofmyBeloved’sdeparturefromthattenement。Icannotrememberwithanyexactnesswhenthedepartureoccurred。IknowitwasafterIhadkissedmylittlefriendinagarden-seatonahotnoontide,underablueginghamumbrella,whichwehadopenedoverusaswesat,thatpassersthroughEastQuarriersmightnotobserveourmarksofaffection,forgettingthatourscreenmustattractmoreattentionthanourpersons。
’Whenthewholedreamcametoanendthroughherfatherleavingtheisland,IthoughtmyWell-Belovedhadgoneforever(beingthenintheunpractisedconditionofAdamatsightofthefirstsunset)。Butshehadnot。Laurahadgoneforever,butnotmyBeloved。
’ForsomemonthsafterIhaddonecryingfortheflaxen-hairededitionofher,myLovedidnotreappear。Thenshecamesuddenly,unexpectedly,inasituationIshouldneverhavepredicted。IwasstandingonthekerbstoneofthepavementinBudmouth-Regis,outsidethePreparatorySchool,lookingacrosstowardsthesea,whenamiddle-
agedgentlemanonhorseback,andbesidehimayounglady,alsomounted,passeddownthestreet。Thegirlturnedherhead,and——possiblybecauseIwasgapingatherinawkwardadmiration,orsmilingmyself——
smiledatme。Havingriddenafewpaces,shelookedroundagainandsmiled。
’Itwasenough,morethanenough,tosetmeonfire。Iunderstoodinamomenttheinformationconveyedtomebymyemotion——theWell-Belovedhadreappeared。Thissecondforminwhichithadpleasedhertotakeupherabodewasquiteagrownyoungwoman’s,darkerincomplexionthanthefirst。Herhair,alsoworninaknot,wasofanordinarybrown,andso,Ithink,werehereyes,butthenicetiesofherfeatureswerenottobegatheredsocursorily。However,theresatmycovetedone,re-embodied;and,biddingmyschoolmatesahastyfarewellassoonasI
coulddosowithoutsuspicion,IhurriedalongtheEsplanadeinthedirectionsheandherfatherhadridden。Buttheyhadputtheirhorsestoacanter,andIcouldnotseewhichwaytheyhadgone。InthegreatestmiseryIturneddownasidestreet,butwassoonelevatedtoastateofexcitementbyseeingthesamepairgallopingtowardsme。
Flushinguptomyhair,Istoppedandheroicallyfacedherasshepassed。Shesmiledagain,but,alas!uponmyLove’scheektherewasnoblushofpassionforme。’
Pierstonpaused,anddrankfromhisglass,ashelivedforabriefmomentinthescenehehadconjuredup。Somersreservedhiscomments,andJocelyncontinued——
’ThatafternoonIidledaboutthestreets,lookingforherinvain。
WhenInextsawoneoftheboyswhohadbeenwithmeatherfirstpassingIstealthilyremindedhimoftheincident,andaskedifheknewtheriders。
’"Oyes,"hesaid。"ThatwasColonelTargeandhisdaughterElsie。"
’"Howolddoyouthinksheis?"saidI,asenseofdisparityinouragesdisturbingmymind。
’"O——nineteen,Ithinktheysay。She’sgoingtobemarriedthedayafterto-morrowtoCaptainPopp,ofthe501st,andtheyareorderedofftoIndiaatonce。"
’ThegriefwhichIexperiencedatthisintelligencewassuchthatatduskIwentawaytotheedgeoftheharbour,intendingtoputanendtomyselfthereandthen。ButIhadbeentoldthatcrabshadbeenfoundclingingtothedeadfacesofpersonswhohadfalleninthereabout,leisurelyeatingthem,andtheideaofsuchanunpleasantcontingencydeterredme。IshouldstatethatthemarriageofmyBelovedconcernedmelittle;itwasherdeparturethatbrokemyheart。Ineversawheragain。
’ThoughIhadalreadylearntthattheabsenceofthecorporealmatterdidnotinvolvetheabsenceoftheinformingspirit,Icouldscarcebringmyselftobelievethatinthiscaseitwaspossibleforhertoreturntomyviewwithouttheformshehadlastinhabited。
’Butshedid。
’Itwasnot,however,tillafteragoodspaceoftime,duringwhichI
passedthroughthatbearishageinboys,theirearlyteens,whengirlsaretheirespecialcontempt。Iwasaboutseventeen,andwassittingoneeveningoveracupofteainaconfectioner’sattheverysamewatering-place,whenoppositemealadytookherseatwithalittlegirl。Welookedateachotherawhile,thechildmadeadvances,tillI
said:"She’sagoodlittlething。"
’Theladyassented,andmadeafurtherremark。
’"Shehasthesoftfineeyesofhermother,"saidI。
’"Doyouthinkhereyesaregood?"asksthelady,asifshehadnotheardwhatshehadheardmost——thelastthreewordsofmyopinion。
’"Yes——forcopies,"saidI,regardingher。
’Afterthiswegotonverywell。Sheinformedmethatherhusbandhadgoneoutinayacht,andIsaiditwasapityhedidn’ttakeherwithhimfortheairing。Shegraduallydisclosedherselfinthecharacterofadesertedyoungwife,andlateronImetherinthestreetwithoutthechild。Shewasgoingtothelanding-stagetomeetherhusband,soshetoldme;butshedidnotknowtheway。
’Iofferedtoshowher,anddidso。Iwillnotgointoparticulars,butIafterwardssawherseveraltimes,andsoondiscoveredthattheBeloved(astowhosewhereaboutsIhadbeenatfaultsolong)lurkedhere。Thoughwhyshehadchosenthistantalizingsituationofaninaccessiblematron’sformwhensomanyothersoffered,itwasbeyondmetodiscover。Thewholeaffairendedinnocentlyenough,whentheladyleftthetownwithherhusbandandchild:sheseemedtoregardouracquaintanceasaflirtation;yetitwasanythingbutaflirtationforme!
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’WhyshouldItelltherestofthetantalizingtale!Afterthis,theWell-Belovedputherselfinevidencewithgreaterandgreaterfrequency,anditwouldbeimpossibleformetogiveyoudetailsofhervariousincarnations。Shecameninetimesinthecourseofthetwoorthreeensuingyears。Fourtimesshemasqueradedasabrunette,twiceasapale-hairedcreature,andtwoorthreetimesunderacomplexionneitherlightnordark。Sometimesshewasatall,finegirl,butmoreoften,Ithink,shepreferredtoslipintotheskinofalitheairybeing,ofnogreatstature。IgrewsoaccustomedtotheseexitsandentrancesthatIresignedmyselftothemquitepassively,talkedtoher,kissedher,correspondedwithher,achedforher,ineachofherseveralguises。Soitwentonuntilamonthago。AndthenforthefirsttimeIwaspuzzled。Sheeitherhad,orshehadnot,enteredthepersonofAviceCaro,ayounggirlIhadknownfrominfancy。Uponthewhole,Ihavedecidedthat,afterall,shedidnotentertheformofAviceCaro,becauseIretainsogreatarespectforherstill。’
PierstonheregaveinbriefthehistoryofhisrevivedcomradeshipwithAvice,thevergeoftheengagementtowhichtheyhadreached,anditsunexpectedrupturebyhim,merelythroughhismeetingwithawomanintowhomtheWell-Belovedunmistakablymovedunderhisveryeyes——bynameMissMarciaBencomb。Hedescribedtheirspontaneousdecisiontomarryoffhand;andthenheputittoSomerswhetherheoughttomarryornot——
heroranybodyelse——insuchcircumstances。
’Certainlynot,’saidSomers。’Though,ifanybody,littleAvice。Butnotevenher。Youarelikeothermen,onlyratherworse。Essentially,allmenarefickle,likeyou;butnotwithsuchperceptiveness。’
’Surelyfickleisnottheword?Ficklenessmeansgettingwearyofathingwhilethethingremainsthesame。ButIhavealwaysbeenfaithfultotheelusivecreaturewhomIhaveneverbeenabletogetafirmholdof,unlessIhavedonesonow。Andletmetellyouthatherflittingfromeachtoeachindividualhasbeenanythingbutapleasureforme——certainlynotawantongameofmyinstigation。Toseethecreaturewhohashithertobeenperfect,divine,loseunderyourverygazethedivinitywhichhasinformedher,growcommonplace,turnfromflametoashes,fromaradiantvitalitytoarelic,isanythingbutapleasureforanyman,andhasbeennothinglessthanarackingspectacletomysight。Eachmournfulemptiedshapestandseverafterlikethenestofsomebeautifulbirdfromwhichtheinhabitanthasdepartedandleftittofillwithsnow。IhavebeenabsolutelymiserablewhenIhavelookedinafaceforherIusedtoseethere,andcouldseehertherenomore。’
’Yououghtnottomarry,’repeatedSomers。
’PerhapsIoughtn’tto!ThoughpoorMarciawillbecompromised,I’mafraid,ifIdon’t……WasInotrightinsayingIamaccursedinthisthing?Fortunatelynobodybutmyselfhassufferedonaccountofittillnow。Knowingwhattoexpect,Ihaveseldomventuredonacloseacquaintancewithanywoman,infearofprematurelydrivingawaythedearoneinher;who,however,hasintimegoneoffjustthesame。’
Pierstonsoonaftertookhisleave。Afriend’sadviceonsuchasubjectweighslittle。HequicklyreturnedtoMissBencomb。
Shewasdifferentnow。Anxietyhadvisiblybroughtherdownanotchortwo,undoneafewdegreesofthathaughtycurlwhichherlipcouldoccasionallyassume。’Howlongyouhavebeenaway!’shesaidwithashowofimpatience。
’Nevermind,darling。Itisallarranged,’saidhe。’Weshallbeabletomarryinafewdays。’
’Notto-morrow?’
’Wecan’tto-morrow。Wehavenotbeenherequitelongenough。’
’ButhowdidthepeopleatDoctors’Commonsknowthat?’
’Well——Iforgotthatresidence,realorassumed,wasnecessary,andunfortunatelyadmittedthatwehadonlyjustarrived。’
’Ohowstupid!Butitcan’tbehelpednow。Ithink,dear,Ishouldhaveknownbetter,however!’
1。VIII。’TOOLIKETHELIGHTNING’
Theylivedonatthehotelsomedayslonger,eyedcuriouslybythechambermaids,andburstinuponeverynowandthenbythewaitersasifaccidentally。Whentheywerewalkingtogether,mostlyinbackstreetsforfearofbeingrecognized,Marciawasoftensilent,andherimperiousfacelookedgloomy。
’Dummy!’hesaidplayfully,ononeoftheseoccasions。
’IamvexedthatbyyouradmissionsatDoctors’Commonsyoupreventedthemgivingyouthelicenceatonce!Itisnotnice,mylivingonwithyoulikethis!’
’Butwearegoingtomarry,dear!’
’Yes,’shemurmured,andfellintoreverieagain。’Whatasuddenresolveitwasofours!’shecontinued。’IwishIcouldgetmyfatherandmother’sconsenttoourmarriage……Aswecan’tcompleteitforanotherdayortwo,alettermightbesenttothemandtheiranswerreceived?Ihaveamindtowrite。’
Pierstonexpressedhisdoubtsofthewisdomofthiscourse,whichseemedtomakeherdesireitthemore,andtheresultwasatiffbetweenthem。’Sinceweareobligedtodelayit,Iwon’tmarrywithouttheirconsent!’shecriedatlastpassionately。
’Verywellthen,dear。Write,’hesaid。
Whentheywereagainindoors,shesatdowntoanote,butafterawhilethrewasideherpendespairingly。’No:Icannotdoit!’shesaid。’I
can’tbendmypridetosuchajob。WillYOUwriteforme,Jocelyn?’
’I?Idon’tseewhyIshouldbetheone,particularlyasIthinkitpremature。’
’ButyouhavenotquarrelledwithmyfatherasIhavedone。’
’Wellno。Butthereisalong-standingantagonism,whichwouldmakeitoddinmetobethewriter。Waittillwearemarried,andthenIwillwrite。Nottillthen。’
’ThenIsupposeImust。Youdon’tknowmyfather。Hemightforgivememarryingintoanyotherfamilywithouthisknowledge,buthethinksyourssuchameanone,andsoresentsthetraderivalry,thathewouldneverpardontillthedayofhisdeathmybecomingaPierstonsecretly。
Ididn’tseeitatfirst。’
ThisremarkcausedanunpleasantjaronthemindofPierston。DespitehisindependentartisticpositioninLondon,hewasstaunchtothesimpleoldparentwhohadstubbornlyheldoutforsomanyyearsagainstBencomb’sencroachingtrade,andwhosemoneyhadeducatedandmaintainedJocelynasanart-studentinthebestschools。Sohebeggedhertosaynomoreabouthismeanfamily,andshesilentlyresumedherletter,givinganaddressatapost-officethattheirquartersmightnotbediscovered,atleastjustyet。
Noreplycamebyreturnofpost;but,ratherominously,somelettersforMarciathathadarrivedatherfather’ssinceherdepartureweresentoninsilencetotheaddressgiven。Sheopenedthemonebyone,tillonreadingthelast,sheexclaimed,’Goodgracious!’andburstintolaughter。
’Whatisit?’askedPierston。
Marciabegantoreadtheletteraloud。Itcamefromafaithfulloverofhers,ayouthfulJerseygentleman,whostatedthathewassoongoingtostartforEnglandtoclaimhisdarling,accordingtoherplightedword。
Shewashalfrisible,halfconcerned。’WhatshallIdo?’shesaid。
’Do?Mydeargirl,itseemstomethatthereisonlyonethingtodo,andthataveryobviousthing。Tellhimassoonaspossiblethatyouarejustonthepointofmarriage。’
Marciathereuponwroteoutareplytothateffect,Jocelynhelpinghertoshapethephrasesasgentlyaspossible。
’Irepeat’(herletterconcluded)’thatIhadquiteforgotten!Iamdeeplysorry;butthatisthetruth。Ihavetoldmyintendedhusbandeverything,andheislookingovermyshoulderasIwrite。’
SaidJocelynwhenhesawthissetdown:’Youmightleaveoutthelastfewwords。Theyareratheranextrastabforthepoorboy。’
’Stab?Itisnotthat,dear。Whydoeshewanttocomebotheringme?
Jocelyn,yououghttobeveryproudthatIhaveputyouinmyletteratall。YousaidyesterdaythatIwasconceitedindeclaringImighthavemarriedthatscience-manItoldyouof。Butnowyouseetherewasyetanotheravailable。’
He,gloomily:’Well,Idon’tcaretohearaboutthat。Tomymindthissortofthingisdecidedlyunpleasant,thoughyoutreatitsolightly。’
’Well,’shepouted,’Ihaveonlydonehalfwhatyouhavedone!’
’What’sthat?’
’Ihaveonlyprovedfalsethroughforgetfulness,butyouhavewhileremembering!’
’Oyes;ofcourseyoucanuseAviceCaroasaretort。Butdon’tvexmeabouther,andmakemedosuchanunexpectedthingasregretthefalseness。’
Sheshuthermouthtight,andherfaceflushed。
Thenextmorningtheredidcomeananswertotheletteraskingherparents’consenttoherunionwithhim;buttoMarcia’samazementherfathertookalinequiteotherthantheoneshehadexpectedhimtotake。Whethershehadcompromisedherselforwhethershehadnotseemedaquestionforthefutureratherthanthepresentwithhim,anativeislander,bornwhenoldislandmarriageviewsprevailedinfamilies;hewasfixedinhisdisapprovalofhermarriagewithahatedPierston。Hedidnotconsent;hewouldnotsaymoretillhecouldseeher:ifshehadanysenseatallshewould,ifstillunmarried,returntothehomefromwhichshehadevidentlybeenenticed。Hewouldthenseewhathecoulddoforherinthedesperatecircumstancesshehadmadeforherself;otherwisehewoulddonothing。
Pierstoncouldnothelpbeingsarcasticatherfather’sevidentlylowestimateofhimandhisbelongings;andMarciatookumbrageathissarcasms。
’Iamtheonedeservingofsatireifanybody!’shesaid。’IbegintofeelIwasafoolishgirltorunawayfromafatherforsuchatrumperyreasonasalittlescoldingbecauseIhadexceededmyallowance。’
’Iadvisedyoutogoback,Marcie。’
’Inasortofway:notintherighttone。Youspokemostcontemptuouslyofmyfather’shonestyasamerchant。’
’Icouldn’tspeakotherwiseofhimthanIdid,I’mafraid,knowingwhat——’。
’Whathaveyoutosayagainsthim?’
’Nothing——toyou,Marcie,beyondwhatismatterofcommonnotoriety。
Everybodyknowsthatatonetimehemadeitthebusinessofhislifetoruinmyfather;andthewayhealludestomeinthatlettershowsthathisenmitystillcontinues。’
’Thatmiserruinedbyanopen-handedmanlikemyfather!’saidshe。
’Itislikeyourpeople’smisrepresentationstosaythat!’
Marcia’seyesflashed,andherfaceburntwithanangryheat,theenhancedbeautywhichthiswarmthmighthavebroughtbeingkilledbytherectilinearsternnessofcountenancethatcametherewith。
’Marcia——thistemperistooexasperating!Icouldgiveyoueverystepoftheproceedingindetail——anybodycould——thegettingthequarriesonebyone,andeverything,myfatheronlyholdinghisownbythemostdesperatecourage。Thereisnoblinkingfacts。Ourparents’relationsareanuglyfactinthecircumstancesofustwopeoplewhowanttomarry,andwearejustbeginningtoperceiveit;andhowwearegoingtogetoveritIcannottell。’
Shesaidsteadily:’Idon’tthinkweshallgetoveritatall!’
’Wemaynot——wemaynot——altogether,’Pierstonmurmured,ashegazedatthefinepictureofscornpresentedbyhisJuno’sclassicalfaceanddarkeyes。
’Unlessyoubegmypardonforhavingbehavedso!’
Pierstoncouldnotquitebringhimselftoseethathehadbehavedbadlytohistooimperiouslady,anddeclinedtoaskforgivenessforwhathehadnotdone。
Shethereuponlefttheroom。Laterinthedayshere-enteredandbrokeasilencebysayingbitterly:’Ishowedtemperjustnow,asyoutoldme。Butthingshavecauses,anditisperhapsamistakethatyoushouldhavedesertedAviceforme。InsteadofweddingRosaline,RomeomustneedsgoelopingwithJuliet。ItwasafortunatethingfortheaffectionsofthosetwoVeroneseloversthattheydiedwhentheydid。
Inashorttimetheenmityoftheirfamilieswouldhaveprovedafruitfulsourceofdissension;Julietwouldhavegonebacktoherpeople,hetohis;thesubjectwouldhavesplitthemasmuchasitsplitsus。’
Pierstonlaughedalittle。ButMarciawaspainfullyserious,ashefoundattea-time,whenshesaidthatsincehisrefusaltobegherpardonshehadbeenthinkingoverthematter,andhadresolvedtogotoheraunt’safterall——atanyratetillherfathercouldbeinducedtoagreetotheirunion。Pierstonwasaschilledbythisresolveofhersashewassurprisedatherindependenceincircumstanceswhichusuallymakewomenthereverse。Butheputnoobstaclesinherway,and,withakissstrangelycoldaftertheirrecentardour,theRomeoofthefreestoneMontagueswentoutofthehotel,toavoideventheappearanceofcoercinghisJulietoftherivalhouse。Whenhereturnedshewasgone。
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Acorrespondencebeganbetweenthesetoo-hastilypledgedones;anditwascarriedonintermsofseriousreasoningupontheirawkwardsituationonaccountofthefamilyfeud。Theysawtheirrecentloveaswhatitwas:
’Toorash,toounadvised,toosudden;
Toolikethelightning……’
Theysawitwithaneyewhosecalmness,coldness,and,itmustbeadded,wisdom,didnotpromisewellfortheirreunion。
TheirdebateswereclinchedbyafinalletterfromMarcia,sentfromnootherplacethanherrecentlylefthomeintheIsle。Sheinformedhimthatherfatherhadappearedsuddenlyatheraunt’s,andhadinducedhertogohomewithhim。Shehadtoldherfatherallthecircumstancesoftheirelopement,andwhatmereaccidentshadcausedit:hehadpersuadedheronwhatshehadalmostbeenconvincedofbytheirdisagreement,thatallthoughtoftheirmarriageshouldbeatleastpostponedforthepresent;anyawkwardnessandevenscandalbeingbetterthanthattheyshouldimmediatelyunitethemselvesforlifeonthestrengthofatwoorthreedays’resultlesspassion,andbethewretchedvictimsofasituationtheycouldneverchange。
Pierstonsawplainlyenoughthatheowedittoherfatherbeingabornislander,withalltheancientislandnotionsofmatrimonylyingunderneathhisacquiredconventions,thatthestone-merchantdidnotimmediatelyinsistupontheusualremedyforadaughter’sprecipitancyinsuchcases,butpreferredtoawaitissues。
ButtheyoungmanstillthoughtthatMarciaherself,whenhertemperhadquitecooled,andshewasmoreconsciousofherrealposition,wouldreturntohim,inspiteofthefamilyhostility。Therewasnosocialreasonagainstsuchastep。Inbirththepairwereaboutononeplane;andthoughMarcia’sfamilyhadgainedastartintheaccumulationofwealth,andinthebeginningsofsocialdistinction,whichlentcolourtothefeelingthattheadvantagesofthematchwouldbemainlyononeside,Pierstonwasasculptorwhomightrisetofame;
sothatpotentiallytheirmarriagecouldnotbeconsideredinauspiciousforawomanwho,beyondbeingtheprobableheiresstoaconsiderablefortune,hadnoexceptionalopportunities。
Thus,thoughdisillusioned,hefeltboundinhonourtoremainoncallathisLondonaddressaslongastherewastheslightestchanceofMarcia’sreappearance,orofthearrivalofsomemessagerequestinghimtojoinher,thattheymight,afterall,gotothealtartogether。Yetinthenightheseemedtohearsardonicvoices,andlaughterinthewindatthisdevelopmentofhislittleromance,andduringtheslowandcolourlessdayshehadtositandbeholdthemournfuldepartureofhisWell-Belovedfromtheformhehadlatelycherished,tillshehadalmostvanishedaway。TheexactmomentofhercompletewithdrawalPierstonknewnot,butnotmanylinesofherwerelongerdiscernibleinMarcia’srememberedcontours,normanysoundsofherinMarcia’srecalledaccents。Theiracquaintance,thoughsofervid,hadbeentoobriefforsuchlingering。
Therecameatimewhenhelearnt,throughatrustworthychannel,twopiecesofnewsaffectinghimself。OnewasthemarriageofAviceCarowithhercousin,theotherthattheBencombshadstartedonatourroundtheworld,whichwastoincludeavisittoarelationofMr。
Bencomb’swhowasabankerinSanFrancisco。Sinceretiringfromhisformerlargebusinessthestonemerchanthadnotknownwhattodowithhisleisure,andfindingthattravelbenefitedhishealthhehaddecidedtoindulgehimselfthus。Althoughhewasnotsoinformed,PierstonconcludedthatMarciahaddiscoveredthatnothingwaslikelytohappenasaconsequenceoftheirelopement,andthatshehadaccompaniedherparents。Hewasmorethaneverstruckwithwhatthissignified——herfather’sobstinateantagonismtoherunionwithoneofhisbloodandname。
1。IX。FAMILIARPHENOMENAINTHEDISTANCE
BydegreesPierstonbegantotraceagainthecustomarylinesofhisexistence;andhisprofessionoccupiedhimmuchasofold。Thenextyearortwoonlyoncebroughthimtidings,throughsomeresidentsathisformerhome,ofthemovementsoftheBencombs。TheextendedvoyageofMarcia’sparentshadgiventhemquiteazestforotherscenesandcountries;anditwassaidthatherfather,amanstillinvigoroushealthexceptatbriefintervals,wasutilizingtheoutlookwhichhiscosmopolitanismaffordedhimbyinvestingcapitalinforeignundertakings。Whathehadsupposedturnedouttobetrue;Marciawaswiththem;nonecessityforjoininghimhadarisen;andthustheseparationofhimselfandhisnearlymarriedwifebycommonconsentwaslikelytobeapermanentone。
Itseemedasifhewouldscarceeveragaindiscoverthecarnatedwelling-placeofthehauntingminionofhisimagination。HavinggonesoneartomatrimonywithMarciaastoapplyforalicence,hehadfeltforalongwhilemorallyboundtoherbytheincipientcontract,andwouldnotintentionallylookabouthiminsearchofthevanishedIdeality。ThusduringthefirstyearofMissBencomb’sabsence,whenabsolutelyboundtokeepfaithwiththeelusiveone’slateincarnationifsheshouldreturntoclaimhim,thismanoftheoddfancywouldsometimestrembleatthethoughtofwhatwouldbecomeofhissolemnintentionifthePhantomweresuddenlytodiscloseherselfinanunexpectedquarter,andseducehimbeforehewasaware。Onceortwiceheimaginedthathesawherinthedistance——attheendofastreet,onthefarsandsofashore,inawindow,inameadow,attheoppositesideofarailwaystation;buthedeterminedlyturnedonhisheel,andwalkedtheotherway。
DuringthemanyuneventfulseasonsthatfollowedMarcia’sstrokeofindependence(forwhichhewasnotwithoutasecretadmirationattimes),Jocelynthrewintoplasticcreationsthatever-bubblingspringofemotionwhich,withoutsomeconduitintospace,willsurgeupwardsandruinallbutthegreatestmen。Itwasprobablyowingtothis,certainlynotonaccountofanycareoranxietyforsucharesult,thathewassuccessfulinhisart,successfulbyaseeminglysuddenspurt,whichcarriedhimatoneboundoverthehindrancesofyears。
Heprosperedwithouteffort。HewasA。R。A。
Butrecognitionsofthissort,socialdistinctions,whichhehadoncecovetedsokeenly,seemedtohavenoutilityforhimnow。Bytheaccidentofbeingabachelor,hewasfloatinginsocietywithoutanysoul-anchorageorshrinethathecouldcallhisown;and,forwantofadomesticcentreroundwhichhonoursmightcrystallize,theydispersedimpalpablywithoutaccumulatingandaddingweighttohismaterialwell-
being。
Hewouldhavegoneonworkingwithhischiselwithjustasmuchzestifhiscreationshadbeendoomedtomeetnomortaleyebuthisown。Thisindifferencetothepopularreceptionofhisdream-figureslenthimacuriousartisticaplombthatcarriedhimthroughthegustsofopinionwithoutsufferingthemtodisturbhisinherentbias。
Thestudyofbeautywashisonlyjoyforyearsonward。Inthestreetshewouldobserveaface,orafractionofaface,whichseemedtoexpresstoahair’s-breadthinmutablefleshwhathewasatthatmomentwishingtoexpressindurableshape。Hewoulddodgeandfollowtheownerlikeadetective;inomnibus,incab,insteam-boat,throughcrowds,intoshops,churches,theatres,public-houses,andslums——
mostly,whenatclosequarters,tobedisappointedforhispains。
Intheseprofessionalbeauty-chaseshesometimescasthiseyeacrosstheThamestothewharvesonthesouthside,andtothatparticularonewhereathisfather’stonsoffreestoneweredailylandedfromtheketchesofthesouthcoast。Hecouldoccasionallydiscernthewhiteblockslyingthere,vastcubessopersistentlynibbledbyhisparentfromhisislandrockintheEnglishChannel,thatitseemedasifintimeitwouldbenibbledallaway。
Onethingitpassedhimtounderstand:onwhatfieldofobservationthepoetsandphilosophersbasedtheirassumptionthatthepassionoflovewasintensestinyouthandburntlowerasmaturityadvanced。Itwaspossiblybecauseofhisutterdomesticlonelinessthat,duringtheproductiveintervalwhichfollowedthefirstyearsofMarcia’sdeparture,whenhewasdriftingalongfromfive-and-twentytoeight-
and-thirty,Pierstonoccasionallylovedwithanardour——though,itistrue,alsowithaself-control——unknowntohimwhenhewasgreeninjudgment。
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Hiswhimsicalisle-bredfancyhadgrowntobesuchanemotionthattheWell-Beloved——nowagainvisible——wasalwaysexistingsomewherenearhim。Formonthshewouldfindheronthestageofatheatre:thenshewouldflitaway,leavingthepoor,emptycarcasethathadlodgedhertomummonasbestitcouldwithouther——asorrylayfiguretohiseyes,heapedwithimperfectionsandsulliedwithcommonplace。Shewouldreappear,itmightbe,inanatfirstunnoticedlady,metatsomefashionableeveningparty,exhibition,bazaar,ordinner;toflitfromher,inturn,afterafewmonths,andstandasagracefulshop-girlatsomelargedraperywarehouseintowhichhehadstrayedonanunaccustomederrand。Thenshewouldforsakethisfigureandrediscloseherselfintheguiseofsomepopularauthoress,piano-player,orfiddleress,atwhoseshrinehewouldworshipforperhapsatwelvemonth。
Onceshewasadancing-girlattheRoyalMoorishPalaceofVarieties,thoughduringherwholecontinuanceatthatestablishmentheneveronceexchangedawordwithher,nordidshefirstorlasteverdreamofhisexistence。Heknewthataten-minutes’conversationinthewingswiththesubstancewouldsendtheelusivehaunterscurryingfearfullyawayintosomeotherevenlessaccessiblemask-figure。
Shewasablonde,abrunette,tall,petite,svelte,straight-featured,full,curvilinear。Onlyonequalityremainedunalterable:herinstabilityoftenure。InBorne’sphrase,nothingwaspermanentinherbutchange。
’Itisodd,’hesaidtohimself,’thatthisexperienceofmine,oridiosyncrasy,orwhateveritis,whichwouldbesheerwasteoftimeforothermen,createssoberbusinessforme。’Forallthesedreamshetranslatedintoplaster,andfoundthatbythemhewashittingapublictastehehadneverdeliberatelyaimedat,andmostlydespised。Hewas,inshort,indangerofdriftingawayfromasolidartisticreputationtoapopularitywhichmightpossiblybeasbriefasitwouldbebrilliantandexciting。
’Youwillbecaughtsomeday,myfriend,’Somerswouldoccasionallyobservetohim。’Idon’tmeantosayentangledinanythingdiscreditable,forIadmitthatyouareinpracticeasidealasintheory。Imeantheprocesswillbereversed。Somewoman,whoseWell-
Belovedflitsaboutasyoursdoesnow,willcatchyoureye,andyou’llsticktoherlikealimpet,whileshefollowsherPhantomandleavesyoutoacheasyouwill。’
’Youmayberight;butIthinkyouarewrong,’saidPierston。’Asfleshshediesdaily,liketheApostle’scorporealself;becausewhenI
grapplewiththerealityshe’snolongerinit,sothatIcannotsticktooneincarnationifIwould。’
’Waittillyouareolder,’saidSomers。
PARTSECOND——AYOUNGMANOFFORTY
’SinceLovewillneedsthatIshalllove,OfveryforceImustagree:
AndsincenochancemayitremoveInwealthandinadversityIshallalwaymyselfapplyToserveandsufferpatiently。’
——SirT。Wyatt。
2。I。THEOLDPHANTOMBECOMESDISTINCT
InthecourseoftheselongyearsPierston’sartisticemotionswereabruptlysuspendedbythenewsofhisfather’ssuddendeathatSandbourne,whitherthestone-merchanthadgoneforachangeofairbytheadviceofhisphysician。
Mr。Pierston,senior,itmustbeadmitted,hadbeensomethingmiserlyinhishomelife,asMarciahadsorashlyremindedhisson。ButhehadneverstintedJocelyn。Hehadbeenratherahardtaskmaster,thoughasapaymastertrustworthy;aready-moneyman,justandungenerous。Toeveryone’ssurprise,thecapitalhehadaccumulatedinthestonetradewasoflargeamountforabusinesssounostentatiouslycarriedon——muchlargerthanJocelynhadeverregardedaspossible。Whilethesonhadbeenmodellingandchippinghisephemeralfanciesintoperennialshapes,thefatherhadbeenpersistentlychisellingforhalfacenturyatthecrudeoriginalmatterofthoseshapes,thestern,isolatedrockintheChannel;andbytheaidofhiscranesandpulleys,histrolleysandhisboats,hadsentoffhisspoiltoallpartsofGreatBritain。
WhenJocelynhadwoundupeverythinganddisposedofthebusiness,asrecommendedbyhisfather’swill,hefoundhimselfenabledtoaddabouteightythousandpoundstothetwelvethousandwhichhealreadypossessedfromprofessionalandothersources。
Afterarrangingforthesaleofsomefreeholdpropertiesintheislandotherthanquarries——forhedidnotintendtoresidethere——hereturnedtotown。HeoftenwonderedwhathadbecomeofMarcia。Hehadpromisednevertotroubleher;norforawholetwentyyearshadhedoneso;
thoughhehadoftensighedforherasafriendofsterlingcommonsenseinpracticaldifficulties。
Herparentswere,hebelieved,dead;andshe,heknew,hadnevergonebacktotheisle。Possiblyshehadformedsomenewtieabroad,andhadmadeitnexttoimpossibletodiscoverherbyheroldname。
Areposefultimeensued。Almosthisfirstentryintosocietyafterhisfather’sdeathoccurredoneevening,when,forwantofknowingwhatbettertodo,herespondedtoaninvitationsentbyoneofthefewladiesofrankwhomhenumberedamonghisfriends,andsetoutinacabforthesquarewhereinshelivedduringthreeorfourmonthsoftheyear。
Thehansomturnedthecorner,andheobtainedarakingviewofthehousesalongthenorthside,ofwhichherswasone,withthefamiliarlinkmanatthedoor。TherewereChineselanterns,too,onthebalcony。
Heperceivedinamomentthatthecustomary’smallandearly’receptionhadresolveditselfonthisoccasionintosomethingverylikegreatandlate。Herememberedthattherehadjustbeenapoliticalcrisis,whichaccountedfortheenlargementoftheCountessofChannelcliffe’sassembly;forherswasoneoftheneutralornon-politicalhousesatwhichpartypoliticsaremorefreelyagitatedthanattheprofessedlypartygatherings。
TherewassuchastringofcarriagesthatPierstondidnotwaittotakehisturnatthedoor,butunobtrusivelyalightedsomeyardsoffandwalkedforward。Hehadtopauseamomentbehindthewallofspectatorswhichbarredhisway,andashepausedsomeladiesinwhitecloakscrossedfromtheircarriagestothedooronthecarpetlaidforthepurpose。Hehadnotseentheirfaces,nothingofthembutvagueforms,andyethewassuddenlyseizedwithapresentiment。Itsgistwasthathemightbegoingtore-encountertheWell-Belovedthatnight:afterherrecentlonghidingshemeanttoreappearandintoxicatehim。Thatliquidsparkleofhereye,thatlingualmusic,thatturnofthehead,howwellheknewitall,despitethemanysuperficialchanges,andhowinstantlyhewouldrecognizeitunderwhatevercomplexion,contour,accent,height,orcarriagethatitmightchoosetomasquerade!
Pierston’sotherconjecture,thatthenightwastobealivelypoliticalone,receivedconfirmationassoonashereachedthehall,whereasimmerofexcitementwasperceptibleassurplusoroverflowfromabovedownthestaircase——afeaturewhichhehadalwaysnoticedtobepresentwhenanyclimaxorsensationhadbeenreachedintheworldofpartyandfaction。
’Andwherehaveyoubeenkeepingyourselfsolong,youngman?’saidhishostessarchly,whenhehadshakenhandswithher。(Pierstonwasalwaysregardedasayoungman,thoughhewasnowaboutforty。)’O
yes,ofcourse,Iremember,’sheadded,lookingseriousinamomentatthoughtofhisloss。TheCountesswasawomanwithagood-naturedmannervergingonthatoft-claimedfemininequality,humour,andwasquicklysympathetic。
Shethenbegantotellhimofascandalinthepoliticalsidetowhichshenominallybelonged,onethathadcomeoutofthepresentcrisis;
andthat,asforherself,shehadsworntoabjurepoliticsforeveronaccountofit,sothathewastoregardherforthwithasamoreneutralhouseholderthanever。Bythistimesomemorepeoplehadsurgedupstairs,andPierstonpreparedtomoveon。
’Youarelookingforsomebody——Icanseethat,’saidshe。
’Yes——alady,’saidPierston。
’Tellmehername,andI’lltrytothinkifshe’shere。’
’Icannot;Idon’tknowit,’hesaid。
’Indeed!Whatisshelike?’
’Icannotdescribeher,notevenhercomplexionordress。’
LadyChannelcliffelookedapout,asifshethoughthewereteasingher,andhemovedoninthecurrent。Thefactwasthat,foramoment,PierstonfanciedhehadmadethesensationaldiscoverythattheOnehewasinsearchoflurkedinthepersonoftheveryhostesshehadconversedwith,whowascharmingalways,andparticularlycharmingto-
night;hewasjustfeelinganincipientconsternationatthepossibilityofsuchajade’strickinhisBeloved,whohadoncebeforechosentoembodyherselfasamarriedwoman,though,happily,atthattimewithnoseriousresults。However,hefeltthathehadbeenmistaken,andthatthefancyhadbeensolelyowingtothehighlychargedelectricconditioninwhichhehadarrivedbyreasonofhisrecentisolation。
Thewholesetofroomsformedonegreatutteranceoftheopinionsofthehour。Thegodsofpartywerepresentwiththeirembattledseraphim,butthebrilliancyofmannerandforminthehandlingofpublicquestionswasonlylessconspicuousthanthepaucityoforiginalideas。Noprinciplesofwisegovernmenthadplaceinanymind,abluntandjollypersonalismastotheInsandOutsanimatingall。ButJocelyn’sinterestdidnotruninthisstream:hewaslikeastoneinapurlingbrook,waitingforsomepeculiarfloatingobjecttobebroughttowardshimandtostickuponhismentalsurface。
Thuslookingforthenextnewversionofthefairfigure,hedidnotconsideratthemoment,thoughhehaddonesoatothertimes,thatthispresentimentofmeetingherwas,ofallpresentiments,justthesortofonetoworkoutitsownfulfilment。
HelookedforherintheknotofpersonsgatheredroundapastPrimeMinisterwhowasstandinginthemiddleofthelargestroomdiscoursinginthegenial,almostjovial,mannernaturaltohimatthesetimes。
Thetwoorthreeladiesforminghisaudiencehadbeenjoinedbyanotherinblackandwhite,anditwasonherthatPierston’sattentionwasdirected,aswellasthegreatstatesman’s,whosefirstsheergazeather,expressing’Whoareyou?’almostaudibly,changedintoaninterested,listeninglookasthefewwordsshespokewereuttered——fortheMinisterdifferedfrommanyofhisstandinginbeingextremelycarefulnottointerruptatimidspeaker,givingwayinaninstantifanybodyelsebeganwithhim。Nobodyknewbetterthanhimselfthatallmaylearn,andhismannerwasthatofanunconceitedmanwhocouldcatchanideareadily,evenifhecouldnotundertaketocreateone。