CONTENTS
THESCHOOLMISTRESS
ANERVOUSBREAKDOWN
MISERY
CHAMPAGNE
AFTERTHETHEATRE
ALADY’SSTORY
INEXILE
THECATTLE-DEALERS
SORROW
ONOFFICIALDUTY
THEFIRST-CLASSPASSENGER
ATRAGICACTOR
ATRANSGRESSION
SMALLFRY
THEREQUIEM
INTHECOACH-HOUSE
PANICFEARS
THEBET
THEHEAD-GARDENER’SSTORY
THEBEAUTIES
THESHOEMAKERANDTHEDEVIL
THESCHOOLMISTRESS
AThalf-pasteighttheydroveoutofthetown。
Thehighroadwasdry,alovelyAprilsunwasshiningwarmly,butthesnowwasstilllyingintheditchesandinthewoods。Winter,dark,long,andspiteful,washardlyover;springhadcomeallofasudden。Butneitherthewarmthnorthelanguidtransparentwoods,warmedbythebreathofspring,northeblackflocksofbirdsflyingoverthehugepuddlesthatwerelikelakes,northemarvelousfathomlesssky,intowhichitseemedonewouldhavegoneawaysojoyfully,presentedanythingneworinterestingtoMaryaVassilyevnawhowassittinginthecart。Forthirteenyearsshehadbeenschoolmistress,andtherewasnoreckoninghowmanytimesduringallthoseyearsshehadbeentothetownforhersalary;andwhetheritwerespringasnow,orarainyautumnevening,orwinter,itwasallthesametoher,andshealways——
invariably——longedforonethingonly,togettotheendofherjourneyasquicklyascouldbe。
Shefeltasthoughshehadbeenlivinginthatpartofthecountryforagesandages,forahundredyears,anditseemedtoherthatshekneweverystone,everytreeontheroadfromthetowntoherschool。Herpastwashere,herpresentwashere,andshecouldimaginenootherfuturethantheschool,theroadtothetownandbackagain,andagaintheschoolandagaintheroad……
Shehadgotoutofthehabitofthinkingofherpastbeforeshebecameaschoolmistress,andhadalmostforgottenit。Shehadoncehadafatherandmother;theyhadlivedinMoscowinabigflatneartheRedGate,butofallthatlifetherewasleftinhermemoryonlysomethingvagueandfluidlikeadream。Herfatherhaddiedwhenshewastenyearsold,andhermotherhaddiedsoonafter……Shehadabrother,anofficer;atfirsttheyusedtowritetoeachother,thenherbrotherhadgivenupansweringherletters,hehadgotoutofthewayofwriting。Ofheroldbelongings,allthatwasleftwasaphotographofhermother,butithadgrowndimfromthedampnessoftheschool,andnownothingcouldbeseenbutthehairandtheeyebrows。
Whentheyhaddrivenacoupleofmiles,oldSemyon,whowasdriving,turnedroundandsaid:
"Theyhavecaughtagovernmentclerkinthetown。Theyhavetakenhimaway。ThestoryisthatwithsomeGermanshekilledAlexeyev,theMayor,inMoscow。"
"Whotoldyouthat?"
"Theywerereadingitinthepaper,inIvanIonov’stavern。"
Andagaintheyweresilentforalongtime。MaryaVassilyevnathoughtofherschool,oftheexaminationthatwascomingsoon,andofthegirlandfourboysshewassendingupforit。Andjustasshewasthinkingabouttheexamination,shewasovertakenbyaneighboringlandownercalledHanovinacarriagewithfourhorses,theverymanwhohadbeenexaminerinherschooltheyearbefore。Whenhecameuptoherherecognizedherandbowed。
"Good-morning,"hesaidtoher。"Youaredrivinghome,I
suppose。"
ThisHanov,amanoffortywithalistlessexpressionandafacethatshowedsignsofwear,wasbeginningtolookold,butwasstillhandsomeandadmiredbywomen。Helivedinhisbighomesteadalone,andwasnotintheservice;andpeopleusedtosayofhimthathedidnothingathomebutwalkupanddowntheroomwhistling,orplaychesswithhisoldfootman。Peoplesaid,too,thathedrankheavily。Andindeedattheexaminationtheyearbeforetheverypapershebroughtwithhimsmeltofwineandscent。Hehadbeendressedallinnewclothesonthatoccasion,andMaryaVassilyevnathoughthimveryattractive,andallthewhileshesatbesidehimshehadfeltembarrassed。Shewasaccustomedtoseefrigidandsensibleexaminersattheschool,whilethisonedidnotrememberasingleprayer,orknowwhattoaskquestionsabout,andwasexceedinglycourteousanddelicate,givingnothingbutthehighestmarks。
"IamgoingtovisitBakvist,"hewenton,addressingMaryaVassilyevna,"butIamtoldheisnotathome。"
Theyturnedoffthehighroadintoaby-roadtothevillage,HanovleadingthewayandSemyonfollowing。Thefourhorsesmovedatawalkingpace,witheffortdraggingtheheavycarriagethroughthemud。Semyontackedfromsidetoside,keepingtotheedgeoftheroad,atonetimethroughasnowdrift,atanotherthroughapool,oftenjumpingoutofthecartandhelpingthehorse。MaryaVassilyevnawasstillthinkingabouttheschool,wonderingwhetherthearithmeticquestionsattheexaminationwouldbedifficultoreasy。AndshefeltannoyedwiththeZemstvoboardatwhichshehadfoundnoonethedaybefore。Howunbusiness-like!
Hereshehadbeenaskingthemforthelasttwoyearstodismissthewatchman,whodidnothing,wasrudetoher,andhittheschoolboys;butnoonepaidanyattention。Itwashardtofindthepresidentattheoffice,andwhenonedidfindhimhewouldsaywithtearsinhiseyesthathehadn’tamomenttospare;theinspectorvisitedtheschoolatmostonceinthreeyears,andknewnothingwhateverabouthiswork,ashehadbeenintheExciseDutiesDepartment,andhadreceivedthepostofschoolinspectorthroughinfluence。TheSchoolCouncilmetveryrarely,andtherewasnoknowingwhereitmet;theschoolguardianwasanalmostilliteratepeasant,theheadofatanningbusiness,unintelligent,rude,andagreatfriendofthewatchman’s——andgoodnessknowstowhomshecouldappealwithcomplaintsorinquiries……
"Hereallyishandsome,"shethought,glancingatHanov。
Theroadgrewworseandworse……Theydroveintothewood。
Heretherewasnoroomtoturnround,thewheelssankdeeplyin,watersplashedandgurgledthroughthem,andsharptwigsstruckthemintheface。
"Whataroad!"saidHanov,andhelaughed。
Theschoolmistresslookedathimandcouldnotunderstandwhythisqueermanlivedhere。Whatcouldhismoney,hisinterestingappearance,hisrefinedbearingdoforhimhere,inthismud,inthisGod-forsaken,drearyplace?Hegotnospecialadvantagesoutoflife,andhere,likeSemyon,wasdrivingatajog-trotonanappallingroadandenduringthesamediscomforts。WhylivehereifonecouldliveinPetersburgorabroad?Andonewouldhavethoughtitwouldbenothingforarichmanlikehimtomakeagoodroadinsteadofthisbadone,toavoidenduringthismiseryandseeingthedespaironthefacesofhiscoachmanandSemyon;butheonlylaughed,andapparentlydidnotmind,andwantednobetterlife。Hewaskind,soft,naive,andhedidnotunderstandthiscoarselife,justasattheexaminationhedidnotknowtheprayers。Hesubscribednothingtotheschoolsbutglobes,andgenuinelyregardedhimselfasausefulpersonandaprominentworkerinthecauseofpopulareducation。Andwhatusewerehisglobeshere?
"Holdon,Vassilyevna!"saidSemyon。
Thecartlurchedviolentlyandwasonthepointofupsetting;
somethingheavyrolledontoMaryaVassilyevna’sfeet——itwasherparcelofpurchases。Therewasasteepascentuphillthroughtheclay;hereinthewindingditchesrivuletsweregurgling。
Thewaterseemedtohavegnawedawaytheroad;andhowcouldonegetalonghere!Thehorsesbreathedhard。Hanovgotoutofhiscarriageandwalkedatthesideoftheroadinhislongovercoat。
Hewashot。
"Whataroad!"hesaid,andlaughedagain。"Itwouldsoonsmashupone’scarriage。"
"Nobodyobligesyoutodriveaboutinsuchweather,"saidSemyonsurlily。"Youshouldstayathome。"
"Iamdullathome,grandfather。Idon’tlikestayingathome。"
BesideoldSemyonhelookedgracefulandvigorous,butyetinhiswalktherewassomethingjustperceptiblewhichbetrayedinhimabeingalreadytouchedbydecay,weak,andontheroadtoruin。
Andallatoncetherewasawhiffofspiritsinthewood。MaryaVassilyevnawasfilledwithdreadandpityforthismangoingtohisruinfornovisiblecauseorreason,anditcameintohermindthatifshehadbeenhiswifeorsistershewouldhavedevotedherwholelifetosavinghimfromruin。Hiswife!Lifewassoorderedthatherehewaslivinginhisgreathousealone,andshewaslivinginaGod-forsakenvillagealone,andyetforsomereasonthemerethoughtthatheandshemightbeclosetooneanotherandequalsseemedimpossibleandabsurd。Inreality,lifewasarrangedandhumanrelationswerecomplicatedsoutterlybeyondallunderstandingthatwhenonethoughtaboutitonefeltuncannyandone’sheartsank。
"Anditisbeyondallunderstanding,"shethought,"whyGodgivesbeauty,thisgraciousness,andsad,sweeteyestoweak,unlucky,uselesspeople——whytheyaresocharming。"
"Herewemustturnofftotheright,"saidHanov,gettingintohiscarriage。"Good-by!Iwishyouallthingsgood!"
Andagainshethoughtofherpupils,oftheexamination,ofthewatchman,oftheSchoolCouncil;andwhenthewindbroughtthesoundoftheretreatingcarriagethesethoughtsweremingledwithothers。Shelongedtothinkofbeautifuleyes,oflove,ofthehappinesswhichwouldneverbe……
Hiswife?Itwascoldinthemorning,therewasnoonetoheatthestove,thewatchmandisappeared;thechildrencameinassoonasitwaslight,bringinginsnowandmudandmakinganoise:itwasallsoinconvenient,socomfortless。Herabodeconsistedofonelittleroomandthekitchencloseby。Herheadachedeverydayafterherwork,andafterdinnershehadheart-burn。Shehadtocollectmoneyfromtheschool-childrenforwoodandforthewatchman,andtogiveittotheschoolguardian,andthentoentreathim——thatoverfed,insolentpeasant——forGod’ssaketosendherwood。Andatnightshedreamedofexaminations,peasants,snowdrifts。Andthislifewasmakinghergrowoldandcoarse,makingherugly,angular,andawkward,asthoughsheweremadeoflead。Shewasalwaysafraid,andshewouldgetupfromherseatandnotventuretositdowninthepresenceofamemberoftheZemstvoortheschoolguardian。Andsheusedformal,deferentialexpressionswhenshespokeofanyoneofthem。Andnoonethoughtherattractive,andlifewaspassingdrearily,withoutaffection,withoutfriendlysympathy,withoutinterestingacquaintances。Howawfulitwouldhavebeeninherpositionifshehadfalleninlove!
"Holdon,Vassilyevna!"
Againasharpascentuphill……
Shehadbecomeaschoolmistressfromnecessity,withoutfeelinganyvocationforit;andshehadneverthoughtofavocation,ofservingthecauseofenlightenment;anditalwaysseemedtoherthatwhatwasmostimportantinherworkwasnotthechildren,norenlightenment,buttheexaminations。Andwhattimehadsheforthinkingofvocation,ofservingthecauseofenlightenment?
Teachers,badlypaiddoctors,andtheirassistants,withtheirterriblyhardwork,havenoteventhecomfortofthinkingthattheyareservinganideaorthepeople,astheirheadsarealwaysstuffedwiththoughtsoftheirdailybread,ofwoodforthefire,ofbadroads,ofillnesses。Itisahard-working,anuninterestinglife,andonlysilent,patientcart-horseslikeMaryVassilyevnacouldputupwithitforlong;
thelively,nervous,impressionablepeoplewhotalkedaboutvocationandservingtheideaweresoonwearyofitandgaveupthework。
Semyonkeptpickingoutthedriestandshortestway,firstbyameadow,thenbythebacksofthevillagehuts;butinoneplacethepeasantswouldnotletthempass,inanotheritwasthepriest’slandandtheycouldnotcrossit,inanotherIvanIonovhadboughtaplotfromthelandownerandhaddugaditchroundit。Theykepthavingtoturnback。
TheyreachedNizhneyeGorodistche。Nearthetavernonthedung-strewnearth,wherethesnowwasstilllying,therestoodwagonsthathadbroughtgreatbottlesofcrudesulphuricacid。
Therewereagreatmanypeopleinthetavern,alldrivers,andtherewasasmellofvodka,tobacco,andsheepskins。Therewasaloudnoiseofconversationandthebangingoftheswing-door。
Throughthewall,withoutceasingforamoment,camethesoundofaconcertinabeingplayedintheshop。MaryaVassilyevnasatdownanddranksometea,whileatthenexttablepeasantsweredrinkingvodkaandbeer,perspiringfromtheteatheyhadjustswallowedandthestiflingfumesofthetavern。
"Isay,Kuzma!"voiceskeptshoutinginconfusion。"Whatthere!"
"TheLordblessus!""IvanDementyitch,Icantellyouthat!"
"Lookout,oldman!"
Alittlepock-markedmanwithablackbeard,whowasquitedrunk,wassuddenlysurprisedbysomethingandbeganusingbadlanguage。
"Whatareyouswearingat,youthere?"Semyon,whowassittingsomewayoff,respondedangrily。"Don’tyouseetheyounglady?"
"Theyounglady!"someonemimickedinanothercorner。
"Swinishcrow!"
"Wemeantnothing……"saidthelittlemaninconfusion。"Ibegyourpardon。Wepaywithourmoneyandtheyoungladywithhers。
Good-morning!"
"Good-morning,"answeredtheschoolmistress。
"Andwethankyoumostfeelingly。"
MaryaVassilyevnadrankherteawithsatisfaction,andshe,too,beganturningredlikethepeasants,andfelltothinkingagainaboutfirewood,aboutthewatchman……
"Stay,oldman,"sheheardfromthenexttable,"it’stheschoolmistressfromVyazovye……Weknowher;she’sagoodyounglady。"
"She’sallright!"
Theswing-doorwascontinuallybanging,somecomingin,othersgoingout。MaryaVassilyevnasaton,thinkingallthetimeofthesamethings,whiletheconcertinawentonplayingandplaying。
Thepatchesofsunshinehadbeenonthefloor,thentheypassedtothecounter,tothewall,anddisappearedaltogether;
sobythesunitwaspastmidday。Thepeasantsatthenexttableweregettingreadytogo。Thelittleman,somewhatunsteadily,wentuptoMaryaVassilyevnaandheldouthishandtoher;
followinghisexample,theothersshookhands,too,atparting,andwentoutoneafteranother,andtheswing-doorsqueakedandslammedninetimes。
"Vassilyevna,getready,"Semyoncalledtoher。
Theysetoff。Andagaintheywentatawalkingpace。
"AlittlewhilebacktheywerebuildingaschoolhereintheirNizhneyeGorodistche,"saidSemyon,turninground。"Itwasawickedthingthatwasdone!"
"Why,what?"
"Theysaythepresidentputathousandinhispocket,andtheschoolguardiananotherthousandinhis,andtheteacherfivehundred。"
"Thewholeschoolonlycostathousand。It’swrongtoslanderpeople,grandfather。That’sallnonsense。"
"Idon’tknow,……Ionlytellyouwhatfolkssay。"
ButitwasclearthatSemyondidnotbelievetheschoolmistress。
Thepeasantsdidnotbelieveher。Theyalwaysthoughtshereceivedtoolargeasalary,twenty-oneroublesamonth(fivewouldhavebeenenough),andthatofthemoneythatshecollectedfromthechildrenforthefirewoodandthewatchmanthegreaterpartshekeptforherself。Theguardianthoughtthesameasthepeasants,andhehimselfmadeaprofitoffthefirewoodandreceivedpaymentsfromthepeasantsforbeingaguardian——
withouttheknowledgeoftheauthorities。
Theforest,thankGod!wasbehindthem,andnowitwouldbeflat,opengroundallthewaytoVyazovye,andtherewasnotfartogonow。Theyhadtocrosstheriverandthentherailwayline,andthenVyazovyewasinsight。
"Whereareyoudriving?"MaryaVassilyevnaaskedSemyon。"Taketheroadtotherighttothebridge。"
"Why,wecangothiswayaswell。It’snotdeepenoughtomatter。"
"Mindyoudon’tdrownthehorse。"
"What?"
"Look,Hanovisdrivingtothebridge,"saidMaryaVassilyevna,seeingthefourhorsesfarawaytotheright。"Itishe,I
think。"
"Itis。Sohedidn’tfindBakvistathome。Whatapig-headedfellowheis。Lordhavemercyuponus!He’sdrivenoverthere,andwhatfor?It’sfullytwomilesnearerthisway。"
Theyreachedtheriver。Inthesummeritwasalittlestreameasilycrossedbywading。ItusuallydriedupinAugust,butnow,afterthespringfloods,itwasariverfortyfeetinbreadth,rapid,muddy,andcold;onthebankandrightuptothewatertherewerefreshtracksofwheels,soithadbeencrossedhere。
"Goon!"shoutedSemyonangrilyandanxiously,tuggingviolentlyatthereinsandjerkinghiselbowsasabirddoesitswings。"Goon!"
Thehorsewentonintothewateruptohisbellyandstopped,butatoncewentonagainwithaneffort,andMaryaVassilyevnawasawareofakeenchillinessinherfeet。
"Goon!"she,too,shouted,gettingup。"Goon!"
Theygotoutonthebank。
"Nicemessitis,Lordhavemercyuponus!"mutteredSemyon,settingstraighttheharness。"It’saperfectplaguewiththisZemstvo……"
Hershoesandgolosheswerefullofwater,thelowerpartofherdressandofhercoatandonesleevewerewetanddripping:thesugarandflourhadgotwet,andthatwasworstofall,andMaryaVassilyevnacouldonlyclaspherhandsindespairandsay:
Oh,Semyon,Semyon!Howtiresomeyouarereally!……"
Thebarrierwasdownattherailwaycrossing。Atrainwascomingoutofthestation。MaryaVassilyevnastoodatthecrossingwaitingtillitshouldpass,andshiveringalloverwithcold。
Vyazovyewasinsightnow,andtheschoolwiththegreenroof,andthechurchwithitscrossesflashingintheeveningsun:andthestationwindowsflashedtoo,andapinksmokerosefromtheengine……anditseemedtoherthateverythingwastremblingwithcold。
Herewasthetrain;thewindowsreflectedthegleaminglightlikethecrossesonthechurch:itmadehereyesachetolookatthem。
Onthelittleplatformbetweentwofirst-classcarriagesaladywasstanding,andMaryaVassilyevnaglancedatherasshepassed。Hermother!Whataresemblance!Hermotherhadhadjustsuchluxurianthair,justsuchabrowandbendofthehead。Andwithamazingdistinctness,forthefirsttimeinthosethirteenyears,thererosebeforehermindavividpictureofhermother,herfather,herbrother,theirflatinMoscow,theaquariumwithlittlefish,everythingtothetiniestdetail;sheheardthesoundofthepiano,herfather’svoice;shefeltasshehadbeenthen,young,good-looking,well-dressed,inabrightwarmroomamongherownpeople。Afeelingofjoyandhappinesssuddenlycameoverher,shepressedherhandstohertemplesinanecstacy,andcalledsoftly,beseechingly:
"Mother!"
Andshebegancrying,shedidnotknowwhy。JustatthatinstantHanovdroveupwithhisteamoffourhorses,andseeinghimsheimaginedhappinesssuchasshehadneverhad,andsmiledandnoddedtohimasanequalandafriend,anditseemedtoherthatherhappiness,hertriumph,wasglowingintheskyandonallsides,inthewindowsandonthetrees。Herfatherandmotherhadneverdied,shehadneverbeenaschoolmistress,itwasalong,tedious,strangedream,andnowshehadawakened……
"Vassilyevna,getin!"
Andatonceitallvanished。Thebarrierwasslowlyraised。MaryaVassilyevna,shiveringandnumbwithcold,gotintothecart。Thecarriagewiththefourhorsescrossedtherailwayline;Semyonfollowedit。Thesignalmantookoffhiscap。
"AndhereisVyazovye。Hereweare。"
ANERVOUSBREAKDOWN
AMEDICALstudentcalledMayer,andapupiloftheMoscowSchoolofPainting,Sculpture,andArchitecturecalledRybnikov,wentoneeveningtoseetheirfriendVassilyev,alawstudent,andsuggestedthatheshouldgowiththemtoS。Street。ForalongtimeVassilyevwouldnotconsenttogo,butintheendheputonhisgreatcoatandwentwiththem。
Heknewnothingoffallenwomenexceptbyhearsayandfrombooks,andhehadneverinhislifebeeninthehousesinwhichtheylive。Heknewthatthereareimmoralwomenwho,underthepressureoffatalcircumstances——environment,badeducation,poverty,andsoon——areforcedtoselltheirhonorformoney。
Theyknownothingofpurelove,havenochildren,havenocivilrights;theirmothersandsistersweepoverthemasthoughtheyweredead,sciencetreatsofthemasanevil,menaddressthemwithcontemptuousfamiliarity。Butinspiteofallthat,theydonotlosethesemblanceandimageofGod。Theyallacknowledgetheirsinandhopeforsalvation。Ofthemeansthatleadtosalvationtheycanavailthemselvestothefullestextent。
Society,itistrue,willnotforgivepeopletheirpast,butinthesightofGodSt。MaryofEgyptisnolowerthantheothersaints。WhenithadhappenedtoVassilyevinthestreettorecognizeafallenwomanassuch,byherdressorhermanners,ortoseeapictureofoneinacomicpaper,healwaysrememberedastoryhehadonceread:ayoungman,pureandself-sacrificing,lovesafallenwomanandurgeshertobecomehiswife;she,consideringherselfunworthyofsuchhappiness,takespoison。
VassilyevlivedinoneofthesidestreetsturningoutofTverskoyBoulevard。Whenhecameoutofthehousewithhistwofriendsitwasabouteleveno’clock。Thefirstsnowhadnotlongfallen,andallnaturewasunderthespellofthefreshsnow。
Therewasthesmellofsnowintheair,thesnowcrunchedsoftlyunderthefeet;theearth,theroofs,thetrees,theseatsontheboulevard,everythingwassoft,white,young,andthismadethehouseslookquitedifferentfromthedaybefore;thestreetlampsburnedmorebrightly,theairwasmoretransparent,thecarriagesrumbledwithadeepernote,andwiththefresh,light,frostyairafeelingstirredinthesoulakintothewhite,youthful,featherysnow。"Againstmywillanunknownforce,"
hummedthemedicalstudentinhisagreeabletenor,"hasledmetothesemournfulshores。"
"Beholdthemill……"theartistsecondedhim,"inruinsnow……"
"Beholdthemill……inruinsnow,"themedicalstudentrepeated,raisinghiseyebrowsandshakinghisheadmournfully。
Hepaused,rubbedhisforehead,tryingtorememberthewords,andthensangaloud,sowellthatpassers-bylookedround:
"HereinolddayswhenIwasfree,Love,free,unfettered,greetedme。"
Thethreeofthemwentintoarestaurantand,withouttakingofftheirgreatcoats,drankacoupleofglassesofvodkaeach。Beforedrinkingthesecondglass,Vassilyevnoticedabitofcorkinhisvodka,raisedtheglasstohiseyes,andgazedintoitforalongtime,screwinguphisshortsightedeyes。Themedicalstudentdidnotunderstandhisexpression,andsaid:
"Come,whylookatit?Nophilosophizing,please。Vodkaisgivenustobedrunk,sturgeontobeeaten,womentobevisited,snowtobewalkedupon。Foroneeveninganywaylivelikeahumanbeing!"
"ButIhaven’tsaidanything……"saidVassilyev,laughing。"AmIrefusingto?"
Therewasawarmthinsidehimfromthevodka。Helookedwithsoftenedfeelingsathisfriends,admiredthemandenviedthem。
Inthesestrong,healthy,cheerfulpeoplehowwonderfullybalancedeverythingis,howfinishedandsmoothiseverythingintheirmindsandsouls!Theysing,andhaveapassionforthetheatre,anddraw,andtalkagreatdeal,anddrink,andtheydon’thaveheadachesthedayafter;theyarebothpoeticalanddebauched,bothsoftandhard;theycanwork,too,andbeindignant,andlaughwithoutreason,andtalknonsense;theyarewarm,honest,self-sacrificing,andasmenareinnowayinferiortohimself,Vassilyev,whowatchedovereverystephetookandeverywordheuttered,whowasfastidiousandcautious,andreadytoraiseeverytrifletothelevelofaproblem。Andhelongedforoneeveningtoliveashisfriendsdid,toopenout,tolethimselfloosefromhisowncontrol。Ifvodkahadtobedrunk,hewoulddrinkit,thoughhisheadwouldbesplittingnextmorning。Ifheweretakentothewomenhewouldgo。Hewouldlaugh,playthefool,gailyrespondtothepassingadvancesofstrangersinthestreet……
Hewentoutoftherestaurantlaughing。Helikedhisfriends——
oneinacrushedbroad-brimmedhat,withanaffectationofartisticuntidiness;theotherinasealskincap,amannotpoor,thoughheaffectedtobelongtotheBohemiaoflearning。Helikedthesnow,thepalestreetlamps,thesharpblacktracksleftinthefirstsnowbythefeetofthepassers-by。Helikedtheair,andespeciallythatlimpid,tender,naive,asitwerevirginaltone,whichcanbeseeninnatureonlytwiceintheyear——wheneverythingiscoveredwithsnow,andinspringonbrightdaysandmoonlighteveningswhentheicebreaksontheriver。
"Againstmywillanunknownforce,Hasledmetothesemournfulshores,"
hehummedinanundertone。
Andthetuneforsomereasonhauntedhimandhisfriendsalltheway,andallthreeofthemhummeditmechanically,notintimewithoneanother。
Vassilyev’simaginationwaspicturinghow,inanothertenminutes,heandhisfriendswouldknockatadoor;howbylittledarkpassagesanddarkroomstheywouldstealintothewomen;
how,takingadvantageofthedarkness,hewouldstrikeamatch,wouldlightupandseethefaceofamartyrandaguiltysmile。
Theunknown,fairordark,wouldcertainlyhaveherhairdownandbewearingawhitedressing-jacket;shewouldbepanic-strickenbythelight,wouldbefearfullyconfused,andwouldsay:"ForGod’ssake,whatareyoudoing!Putitout!"Itwouldallbedreadful,butinterestingandnew。
II
ThefriendsturnedoutofTrubnoySquareintoGratchevka,andsoonreachedthesidestreetwhichVassilyevonlyknewbyreputation。Seeingtworowsofhouseswithbrightlylightedwindowsandwide-opendoors,andhearinggaystrainsofpianosandviolins,soundswhichfloatedoutfromeverydoorandmingledinastrangechaos,asthoughanunseenorchestraweretuningupinthedarknessabovetheroofs,Vassilyevwassurprisedandsaid:
"Whatalotofhouses!"
"That’snothing,"saidthemedicalstudent。"InLondontherearetentimesasmany。Thereareaboutahundredthousandsuchwomenthere。"
Thecabmenweresittingontheirboxesascalmlyandindifferentlyasinanyothersidestreet;thesamepassers-bywerewalkingalongthepavementasinotherstreets。Noonewashurrying,noonewashidinghisfaceinhiscoat-collar,nooneshookhisheadreproachfully……Andinthisindifferencetothenoisychaosofpianosandviolins,tothebrightwindowsandwide-opendoors,therewasafeelingofsomethingveryopen,insolent,reckless,anddevil-may-care。Probablyitwasasgayandnoisyattheslave-marketsintheirday,andpeople’sfacesandmovementsshowedthesameindifference。
"Letusbeginfromthebeginning,"saidtheartist。
Thefriendswentintoanarrowpassagelightedbyalampwithareflector。Whentheyopenedthedooramaninablackcoat,withanunshavenfacelikeaflunkey’s,andsleepy-lookingeyes,gotuplazilyfromayellowsofainthehall。Theplacesmeltlikealaundrywithanodorofvinegarinaddition。Adoorfromthehallledintoabrightlylightedroom。Themedicalstudentandtheartiststoppedatthisdoorand,craningtheirnecks,peepedintotheroom。
"Buonasera,signori,rigolleto——hugenotti——traviata!"begantheartist,withatheatricalbow。
"Havanna——tarakano——pistoleto!"saidthemedicalstudent,pressinghiscaptohisbreastandbowinglow。
Vassilyevwasstandingbehindthem。Hewouldhavelikedtomakeatheatricalbowandsaysomethingsilly,too,butheonlysmiled,feltanawkwardnessthatwaslikeshame,andwaitedimpatientlyforwhatwouldhappennext。
Alittlefairgirlofseventeenoreighteen,withshorthair,inashortlight-bluefrockwithabunchofwhiteribbononherbosom,appearedinthedoorway。
"Whydoyoustandatthedoor?"shesaid。"Takeoffyourcoatsandcomeintothedrawing-room。"
Themedicalstudentandtheartist,stilltalkingItalian,wentintothedrawing-room。Vassilyevfollowedthemirresolutely。
"Gentlemen,takeoffyourcoats!"theflunkeysaidsternly;"youcan’tgoinlikethat。"
Inthedrawing-roomtherewas,besidesthegirl,anotherwoman,verystoutandtall,withaforeignfaceandbarearms。Shewassittingnearthepiano,layingoutagameofpatienceonherlap。
Shetooknonoticewhateverofthevisitors。
"Wherearetheotheryoungladies?"askedthemedicalstudent。
"Theyarehavingtheirtea,"saidthefairgirl。"Stepan,"shecalled,"goandtelltheyoungladiessomestudentshavecome!"
Alittlelaterathirdyoungladycameintotheroom。Shewaswearingabrightreddresswithbluestripes。Herfacewaspaintedthicklyandunskillfully,herbrowwashiddenunderherhair,andtherewasanunblinking,frightenedstareinhereyes。
Asshecamein,shebeganatoncesingingsomesonginacoarse,powerfulcontralto。Afterherafourthappeared,andafterherafifth……
InallthisVassilyevsawnothingneworinteresting。Itseemedtohimthatthatroom,thepiano,thelooking-glassinitscheapgiltframe,thebunchofwhiteribbon,thedresswiththebluestripes,andtheblankindifferentfaces,hehadseenbeforeandmorethanonce。Ofthedarkness,thesilence,thesecrecy,theguiltysmile,ofallthathehadexpectedtomeethereandhaddreaded,hesawnotrace。
Everythingwasordinary,prosaic,anduninteresting。Onlyonethingfaintlystirredhiscuriosity——theterrible,asitwereintentionallydesigned,badtastewhichwasvisibleinthecornices,intheabsurdpictures,inthedresses,inthebunchofribbons。Therewassomethingcharacteristicandpeculiarinthisbadtaste。
"Howpoorandstupiditallis!"thoughtVassilyev。"WhatisthereinallthistrumperyIseenowthatcantemptanormalmanandexcitehimtocommitthehorriblesinofbuyingahumanbeingforarouble?Iunderstandanysinforthesakeofsplendor,beauty,grace,passion,taste;butwhatistherehere?Whatistherehereworthsinningfor?But……onemustn’tthink!"
"Beardy,treatmetosomeporter!"saidthefairgirl,addressinghim。
Vassilyevwasatonceovercomewithconfusion。
"Withpleasure,"hesaid,bowingpolitely。"Onlyexcuseme,madam,I……Iwon’tdrinkwithyou。Idon’tdrink。
Fiveminuteslaterthefriendswentoffintoanotherhouse。
"Whydidyouaskforporter?"saidthemedicalstudentangrily。
"Whatamillionaire!Youhavethrownawaysixroublesfornoreasonwhatever——simplywaste!"
"Ifshewantsit,whynotletherhavethepleasure?"saidVassilyev,justifyinghimself。
"Youdidnotgivepleasuretoher,buttothe’Madam。’Theyaretoldtoaskthevisitorstostandthemtreatbecauseitisaprofittothekeeper。"
"Beholdthemill……"hummedtheartist,"inruinsnow……"
Goingintothenexthouse,thefriendsstoppedinthehallanddidnotgointothedrawing-room。Here,asinthefirsthouse,afigureinablackcoat,withasleepyfacelikeaflunkey’s,gotupfromasofainthehall。Lookingatthisflunkey,athisfaceandhisshabbyblackcoat,Vassilyevthought:"WhatmustanordinarysimpleRussianhavegonethroughbeforefateflunghimdownasaflunkeyhere?Wherehadhebeenbeforeandwhathadhedone?Whatwasawaitinghim?Washemarried?Wherewashismother,anddidsheknowthathewasaservanthere?"
AndVassilyevcouldnothelpparticularlynoticingtheflunkeyineachhouse。Inoneofthehouses——hethoughtitwasthefourth——therewasalittlespare,frail-lookingflunkeywithawatch-chainonhiswaistcoat。Hewasreadinganewspaper,andtooknonoticeofthemwhentheywentin。LookingathisfaceVassilyev,forsomereason,thoughtthatamanwithsuchafacemightsteal,mightmurder,mightbearfalsewitness。Butthefacewasreallyinteresting:abigforehead,grayeyes,alittleflattenednose,thincompressedlips,andablanklystupidandatthesametimeinsolentexpressionlikethatofayoungharrierovertakingahare。Vassilyevthoughtitwouldbenicetotouchthisman’shair,toseewhetheritwassoftorcoarse。Itmustbecoarselikeadog’s。
III
Havingdrunktwoglassesofporter,theartistbecamesuddenlytipsyandgrewunnaturallylively。
"Let’sgotoanother!"hesaidperemptorily,wavinghishands。"I
willtakeyoutothebestone。"
Whenhehadbroughthisfriendstothehousewhichinhisopinionwasthebest,hedeclaredhisfirmintentionofdancingaquadrille。Themedicalstudentgrumbledsomethingabouttheirhavingtopaythemusiciansarouble,butagreedtobehis_vis-a-vis_。Theybegandancing。
Itwasjustasnastyinthebesthouseasintheworst。Heretherewerejustthesamelooking-glassesandpictures,thesamestylesofcoiffureanddress。Lookingroundatthefurnishingoftheroomsandthecostumes,Vassilyevrealizedthatthiswasnotlackoftaste,butsomethingthatmightbecalledthetaste,andeventhestyle,ofS。Street,whichcouldnotbefoundelsewhere——somethingintentionalinitsugliness,notaccidental,butelaboratedinthecourseofyears。Afterhehadbeenineighthouseshewasnolongersurprisedatthecolorofthedresses,atthelongtrains,thegaudyribbons,thesailordresses,andthethickpurplishrougeonthecheeks;hesawthatitallhadtobelikethis,thatifasingleoneofthewomenhadbeendressedlikeahumanbeing,oriftherehadbeenonedecentengravingonthewall,thegeneraltoneofthewholestreetwouldhavesuffered。
"Howunskillfullytheysellthemselves!"hethought。"Howcantheyfailtounderstandthatviceisonlyalluringwhenitisbeautifulandhidden,whenitwearsthemaskofvirtue?Modestblackdresses,palefaces,mournfulsmiles,anddarknesswouldbefarmoreeffectivethanthisclumsytawdriness。Stupidthings!
Iftheydon’tunderstanditofthemselves,theirvisitorsmightsurelyhavetaughtthem……"
AyoungladyinaPolishdressedgedwithwhitefurcameuptohimandsatdownbesidehim。
"Younicedarkman,whyaren’tyoudancing?"sheasked。"Whyareyousodull?"
"Becauseitisdull。"
"TreatmetosomeLafitte。Thenitwon’tbedull。"
Vassilyevmadenoanswer。Hewassilentforalittle,andthenasked:
"Whattimedoyougettosleep?"
"Atsixo’clock。"
"Andwhattimedoyougetup?"
"Sometimesattwoandsometimesatthree。"
"Andwhatdoyoudowhenyougetup?"
"Wehavecoffee,andatsixo’clockwehavedinner。"
"Andwhatdoyouhavefordinner?"
"Usuallysoup,beefsteak,anddessert。Ourmadamkeepsthegirlswell。Butwhydoyouaskallthis?"
"Oh,justtotalk……"
Vassilyevlongedtotalktotheyoungladyaboutmanythings。Hefeltanintensedesiretofindoutwhereshecamefrom,whetherherparentswereliving,andwhethertheyknewthatshewashere;
howshehadcomeintothishouse;whethershewerecheerfulandsatisfied,orsadandoppressedbygloomythoughts;whethershehopedsomedaytogetoutofherpresentposition……Buthecouldnotthinkhowtobeginorinwhatshapetoputhisquestionssoasnottoseemimpertinent。Hethoughtforalongtime,andasked:
"Howoldareyou?"
"Eighty,"theyoungladyjested,lookingwithalaughattheanticsoftheartistashedanced。
Allatoncesheburstoutlaughingatsomething,andutteredalongcynicalsentenceloudenoughtobeheardbyeveryone。
Vassilyevwasaghast,andnotknowinghowtolook,gaveaconstrainedsmile。Hewastheonlyonewhosmiled;alltheothers,hisfriends,themusicians,thewomen,didnotevenglancetowardshisneighbor,butseemednottohaveheardher。
"StandmesomeLafitte,"hisneighborsaidagain。
Vassilyevfeltarepulsionforherwhitefurandforhervoice,andwalkedawayfromher。Itseemedtohimhotandstifling,andhisheartbeganthrobbingslowlybutviolently,likeahammer——
one!two!three!
"Letusgoaway!"hesaid,pullingtheartistbyhissleeve。
"Waitalittle;letmefinish。"
Whiletheartistandthemedicalstudentwerefinishingthequadrille,toavoidlookingatthewomen,Vassilyevscrutinizedthemusicians。Arespectable-lookingoldmaninspectacles,ratherlikeMarshalBazaine,wasplayingthepiano;ayoungmanwithafairbeard,dressedinthelatestfashion,wasplayingtheviolin。Theyoungmanhadafacethatdidnotlookstupidnorexhausted,butintelligent,youthful,andfresh。Hewasdressedfancifullyandwithtaste;heplayedwithfeeling。Itwasamysteryhowheandtherespectable-lookingoldmanhadcomehere。Howwasittheywerenotashamedtosithere?Whatweretheythinkingaboutwhentheylookedatthewomen?
Iftheviolinandthepianohadbeenplayedbymeninrags,lookinghungry,gloomy,drunken,withdissipatedorstupidfaces,thenonecouldhaveunderstoodtheirpresence,perhaps。Asitwas,Vassilyevcouldnotunderstanditatall。Herecalledthestoryofthefallenwomanhehadonceread,andhethoughtnowthatthathumanfigurewiththeguiltysmilehadnothingincommonwithwhathewasseeingnow。Itseemedtohimthathewasseeingnotfallenwomen,butsomedifferentworldquiteapart,alientohimandincomprehensible;ifhehadseenthisworldbeforeonthestage,orreadofitinabook,hewouldnothavebelievedinit……
Thewomanwiththewhitefurburstoutlaughingagainandutteredaloathsomesentenceinaloudvoice。Afeelingofdisgusttookpossessionofhim。Heflushedcrimsonandwentoutoftheroom。
"Waitaminute,wearecomingtoo!"theartistshoutedtohim。
IV
"Whileweweredancing,"saidthemedicalstudent,astheyallthreewentoutintothestreet,"Ihadaconversationwithmypartner。Wetalkedaboutherfirstromance。He,thehero,wasanaccountantatSmolenskwithawifeandfivechildren。Shewasseventeen,andshelivedwithherpapaandmamma,whosoldsoapandcandles。"
"Howdidhewinherheart?"askedVassilyev。
"Byspendingfiftyroublesonunderclothesforher。Whatnext!"
"Soheknewhowtogethispartner’sstoryoutofher,"thoughtVassilyevaboutthemedicalstudent。"ButIdon’tknowhowto。"
"Isay,Iamgoinghome!"hesaid。
"Whatfor?"
"BecauseIdon’tknowhowtobehavehere。Besides,Iambored,disgusted。Whatisthereamusinginit?Iftheywerehumanbeings——buttheyaresavagesandanimals。Iamgoing;doasyoulike。"
"Come,Grisha,Grigory,darling……"saidtheartistinatearfulvoice,huggingVassilyev,"comealong!Let’sgotoonemoretogetheranddamnationtakethem!……Pleasedo,Grisha!"
TheypersuadedVassilyevandledhimupastaircase。Inthecarpetandthegiltbanisters,intheporterwhoopenedthedoor,andinthepanelsthatdecoratedthehall,thesameS。Streetstylewasapparent,butcarriedtoagreaterperfection,moreimposing。
"Ireallywillgohome!"saidVassilyevashewastakingoffhiscoat。
"Come,come,dearboy,"saidtheartist,andhekissedhimontheneck。"Don’tbetiresome……Gri-gri,beagoodcomrade!Wecametogether,wewillgobacktogether。Whatabeastyouare,really!"
"Icanwaitforyouinthestreet。Ithinkit’sloathsome,really!"
"Come,come,Grisha……Ifitisloathsome,youcanobserveit!Doyouunderstand?Youcanobserve!"
"Onemusttakeanobjectiveviewofthings,"saidthemedicalstudentgravely。