首页 >出版文学> The Schoolmistress and Other Stories>第1章
  CONTENTS
  THESCHOOLMISTRESS
  ANERVOUSBREAKDOWN
  MISERY
  CHAMPAGNE
  AFTERTHETHEATRE
  ALADY’SSTORY
  INEXILE
  THECATTLE-DEALERS
  SORROW
  ONOFFICIALDUTY
  THEFIRST-CLASSPASSENGER
  ATRAGICACTOR
  ATRANSGRESSION
  SMALLFRY
  THEREQUIEM
  INTHECOACH-HOUSE
  PANICFEARS
  THEBET
  THEHEAD-GARDENER’SSTORY
  THEBEAUTIES
  THESHOEMAKERANDTHEDEVIL
  THESCHOOLMISTRESS
  AThalf-pasteighttheydroveoutofthetown。
  Thehighroadwasdry,alovelyAprilsunwasshiningwarmly,butthesnowwasstilllyingintheditchesandinthewoods。Winter,dark,long,andspiteful,washardlyover;springhadcomeallofasudden。Butneitherthewarmthnorthelanguidtransparentwoods,warmedbythebreathofspring,northeblackflocksofbirdsflyingoverthehugepuddlesthatwerelikelakes,northemarvelousfathomlesssky,intowhichitseemedonewouldhavegoneawaysojoyfully,presentedanythingneworinterestingtoMaryaVassilyevnawhowassittinginthecart。Forthirteenyearsshehadbeenschoolmistress,andtherewasnoreckoninghowmanytimesduringallthoseyearsshehadbeentothetownforhersalary;andwhetheritwerespringasnow,orarainyautumnevening,orwinter,itwasallthesametoher,andshealways——
  invariably——longedforonethingonly,togettotheendofherjourneyasquicklyascouldbe。
  Shefeltasthoughshehadbeenlivinginthatpartofthecountryforagesandages,forahundredyears,anditseemedtoherthatshekneweverystone,everytreeontheroadfromthetowntoherschool。Herpastwashere,herpresentwashere,andshecouldimaginenootherfuturethantheschool,theroadtothetownandbackagain,andagaintheschoolandagaintheroad……
  Shehadgotoutofthehabitofthinkingofherpastbeforeshebecameaschoolmistress,andhadalmostforgottenit。Shehadoncehadafatherandmother;theyhadlivedinMoscowinabigflatneartheRedGate,butofallthatlifetherewasleftinhermemoryonlysomethingvagueandfluidlikeadream。Herfatherhaddiedwhenshewastenyearsold,andhermotherhaddiedsoonafter……Shehadabrother,anofficer;atfirsttheyusedtowritetoeachother,thenherbrotherhadgivenupansweringherletters,hehadgotoutofthewayofwriting。Ofheroldbelongings,allthatwasleftwasaphotographofhermother,butithadgrowndimfromthedampnessoftheschool,andnownothingcouldbeseenbutthehairandtheeyebrows。
  Whentheyhaddrivenacoupleofmiles,oldSemyon,whowasdriving,turnedroundandsaid:
  "Theyhavecaughtagovernmentclerkinthetown。Theyhavetakenhimaway。ThestoryisthatwithsomeGermanshekilledAlexeyev,theMayor,inMoscow。"
  "Whotoldyouthat?"
  "Theywerereadingitinthepaper,inIvanIonov’stavern。"
  Andagaintheyweresilentforalongtime。MaryaVassilyevnathoughtofherschool,oftheexaminationthatwascomingsoon,andofthegirlandfourboysshewassendingupforit。Andjustasshewasthinkingabouttheexamination,shewasovertakenbyaneighboringlandownercalledHanovinacarriagewithfourhorses,theverymanwhohadbeenexaminerinherschooltheyearbefore。Whenhecameuptoherherecognizedherandbowed。
  "Good-morning,"hesaidtoher。"Youaredrivinghome,I
  suppose。"
  ThisHanov,amanoffortywithalistlessexpressionandafacethatshowedsignsofwear,wasbeginningtolookold,butwasstillhandsomeandadmiredbywomen。Helivedinhisbighomesteadalone,andwasnotintheservice;andpeopleusedtosayofhimthathedidnothingathomebutwalkupanddowntheroomwhistling,orplaychesswithhisoldfootman。Peoplesaid,too,thathedrankheavily。Andindeedattheexaminationtheyearbeforetheverypapershebroughtwithhimsmeltofwineandscent。Hehadbeendressedallinnewclothesonthatoccasion,andMaryaVassilyevnathoughthimveryattractive,andallthewhileshesatbesidehimshehadfeltembarrassed。Shewasaccustomedtoseefrigidandsensibleexaminersattheschool,whilethisonedidnotrememberasingleprayer,orknowwhattoaskquestionsabout,andwasexceedinglycourteousanddelicate,givingnothingbutthehighestmarks。
  "IamgoingtovisitBakvist,"hewenton,addressingMaryaVassilyevna,"butIamtoldheisnotathome。"
  Theyturnedoffthehighroadintoaby-roadtothevillage,HanovleadingthewayandSemyonfollowing。Thefourhorsesmovedatawalkingpace,witheffortdraggingtheheavycarriagethroughthemud。Semyontackedfromsidetoside,keepingtotheedgeoftheroad,atonetimethroughasnowdrift,atanotherthroughapool,oftenjumpingoutofthecartandhelpingthehorse。MaryaVassilyevnawasstillthinkingabouttheschool,wonderingwhetherthearithmeticquestionsattheexaminationwouldbedifficultoreasy。AndshefeltannoyedwiththeZemstvoboardatwhichshehadfoundnoonethedaybefore。Howunbusiness-like!
  Hereshehadbeenaskingthemforthelasttwoyearstodismissthewatchman,whodidnothing,wasrudetoher,andhittheschoolboys;butnoonepaidanyattention。Itwashardtofindthepresidentattheoffice,andwhenonedidfindhimhewouldsaywithtearsinhiseyesthathehadn’tamomenttospare;theinspectorvisitedtheschoolatmostonceinthreeyears,andknewnothingwhateverabouthiswork,ashehadbeenintheExciseDutiesDepartment,andhadreceivedthepostofschoolinspectorthroughinfluence。TheSchoolCouncilmetveryrarely,andtherewasnoknowingwhereitmet;theschoolguardianwasanalmostilliteratepeasant,theheadofatanningbusiness,unintelligent,rude,andagreatfriendofthewatchman’s——andgoodnessknowstowhomshecouldappealwithcomplaintsorinquiries……
  "Hereallyishandsome,"shethought,glancingatHanov。
  Theroadgrewworseandworse……Theydroveintothewood。
  Heretherewasnoroomtoturnround,thewheelssankdeeplyin,watersplashedandgurgledthroughthem,andsharptwigsstruckthemintheface。
  "Whataroad!"saidHanov,andhelaughed。
  Theschoolmistresslookedathimandcouldnotunderstandwhythisqueermanlivedhere。Whatcouldhismoney,hisinterestingappearance,hisrefinedbearingdoforhimhere,inthismud,inthisGod-forsaken,drearyplace?Hegotnospecialadvantagesoutoflife,andhere,likeSemyon,wasdrivingatajog-trotonanappallingroadandenduringthesamediscomforts。WhylivehereifonecouldliveinPetersburgorabroad?Andonewouldhavethoughtitwouldbenothingforarichmanlikehimtomakeagoodroadinsteadofthisbadone,toavoidenduringthismiseryandseeingthedespaironthefacesofhiscoachmanandSemyon;butheonlylaughed,andapparentlydidnotmind,andwantednobetterlife。Hewaskind,soft,naive,andhedidnotunderstandthiscoarselife,justasattheexaminationhedidnotknowtheprayers。Hesubscribednothingtotheschoolsbutglobes,andgenuinelyregardedhimselfasausefulpersonandaprominentworkerinthecauseofpopulareducation。Andwhatusewerehisglobeshere?
  "Holdon,Vassilyevna!"saidSemyon。
  Thecartlurchedviolentlyandwasonthepointofupsetting;
  somethingheavyrolledontoMaryaVassilyevna’sfeet——itwasherparcelofpurchases。Therewasasteepascentuphillthroughtheclay;hereinthewindingditchesrivuletsweregurgling。
  Thewaterseemedtohavegnawedawaytheroad;andhowcouldonegetalonghere!Thehorsesbreathedhard。Hanovgotoutofhiscarriageandwalkedatthesideoftheroadinhislongovercoat。
  Hewashot。
  "Whataroad!"hesaid,andlaughedagain。"Itwouldsoonsmashupone’scarriage。"
  "Nobodyobligesyoutodriveaboutinsuchweather,"saidSemyonsurlily。"Youshouldstayathome。"
  "Iamdullathome,grandfather。Idon’tlikestayingathome。"
  BesideoldSemyonhelookedgracefulandvigorous,butyetinhiswalktherewassomethingjustperceptiblewhichbetrayedinhimabeingalreadytouchedbydecay,weak,andontheroadtoruin。
  Andallatoncetherewasawhiffofspiritsinthewood。MaryaVassilyevnawasfilledwithdreadandpityforthismangoingtohisruinfornovisiblecauseorreason,anditcameintohermindthatifshehadbeenhiswifeorsistershewouldhavedevotedherwholelifetosavinghimfromruin。Hiswife!Lifewassoorderedthatherehewaslivinginhisgreathousealone,andshewaslivinginaGod-forsakenvillagealone,andyetforsomereasonthemerethoughtthatheandshemightbeclosetooneanotherandequalsseemedimpossibleandabsurd。Inreality,lifewasarrangedandhumanrelationswerecomplicatedsoutterlybeyondallunderstandingthatwhenonethoughtaboutitonefeltuncannyandone’sheartsank。
  "Anditisbeyondallunderstanding,"shethought,"whyGodgivesbeauty,thisgraciousness,andsad,sweeteyestoweak,unlucky,uselesspeople——whytheyaresocharming。"
  "Herewemustturnofftotheright,"saidHanov,gettingintohiscarriage。"Good-by!Iwishyouallthingsgood!"
  Andagainshethoughtofherpupils,oftheexamination,ofthewatchman,oftheSchoolCouncil;andwhenthewindbroughtthesoundoftheretreatingcarriagethesethoughtsweremingledwithothers。Shelongedtothinkofbeautifuleyes,oflove,ofthehappinesswhichwouldneverbe……
  Hiswife?Itwascoldinthemorning,therewasnoonetoheatthestove,thewatchmandisappeared;thechildrencameinassoonasitwaslight,bringinginsnowandmudandmakinganoise:itwasallsoinconvenient,socomfortless。Herabodeconsistedofonelittleroomandthekitchencloseby。Herheadachedeverydayafterherwork,andafterdinnershehadheart-burn。Shehadtocollectmoneyfromtheschool-childrenforwoodandforthewatchman,andtogiveittotheschoolguardian,andthentoentreathim——thatoverfed,insolentpeasant——forGod’ssaketosendherwood。Andatnightshedreamedofexaminations,peasants,snowdrifts。Andthislifewasmakinghergrowoldandcoarse,makingherugly,angular,andawkward,asthoughsheweremadeoflead。Shewasalwaysafraid,andshewouldgetupfromherseatandnotventuretositdowninthepresenceofamemberoftheZemstvoortheschoolguardian。Andsheusedformal,deferentialexpressionswhenshespokeofanyoneofthem。Andnoonethoughtherattractive,andlifewaspassingdrearily,withoutaffection,withoutfriendlysympathy,withoutinterestingacquaintances。Howawfulitwouldhavebeeninherpositionifshehadfalleninlove!
  "Holdon,Vassilyevna!"
  Againasharpascentuphill……
  Shehadbecomeaschoolmistressfromnecessity,withoutfeelinganyvocationforit;andshehadneverthoughtofavocation,ofservingthecauseofenlightenment;anditalwaysseemedtoherthatwhatwasmostimportantinherworkwasnotthechildren,norenlightenment,buttheexaminations。Andwhattimehadsheforthinkingofvocation,ofservingthecauseofenlightenment?
  Teachers,badlypaiddoctors,andtheirassistants,withtheirterriblyhardwork,havenoteventhecomfortofthinkingthattheyareservinganideaorthepeople,astheirheadsarealwaysstuffedwiththoughtsoftheirdailybread,ofwoodforthefire,ofbadroads,ofillnesses。Itisahard-working,anuninterestinglife,andonlysilent,patientcart-horseslikeMaryVassilyevnacouldputupwithitforlong;
  thelively,nervous,impressionablepeoplewhotalkedaboutvocationandservingtheideaweresoonwearyofitandgaveupthework。
  Semyonkeptpickingoutthedriestandshortestway,firstbyameadow,thenbythebacksofthevillagehuts;butinoneplacethepeasantswouldnotletthempass,inanotheritwasthepriest’slandandtheycouldnotcrossit,inanotherIvanIonovhadboughtaplotfromthelandownerandhaddugaditchroundit。Theykepthavingtoturnback。
  TheyreachedNizhneyeGorodistche。Nearthetavernonthedung-strewnearth,wherethesnowwasstilllying,therestoodwagonsthathadbroughtgreatbottlesofcrudesulphuricacid。
  Therewereagreatmanypeopleinthetavern,alldrivers,andtherewasasmellofvodka,tobacco,andsheepskins。Therewasaloudnoiseofconversationandthebangingoftheswing-door。
  Throughthewall,withoutceasingforamoment,camethesoundofaconcertinabeingplayedintheshop。MaryaVassilyevnasatdownanddranksometea,whileatthenexttablepeasantsweredrinkingvodkaandbeer,perspiringfromtheteatheyhadjustswallowedandthestiflingfumesofthetavern。
  "Isay,Kuzma!"voiceskeptshoutinginconfusion。"Whatthere!"
  "TheLordblessus!""IvanDementyitch,Icantellyouthat!"
  "Lookout,oldman!"
  Alittlepock-markedmanwithablackbeard,whowasquitedrunk,wassuddenlysurprisedbysomethingandbeganusingbadlanguage。
  "Whatareyouswearingat,youthere?"Semyon,whowassittingsomewayoff,respondedangrily。"Don’tyouseetheyounglady?"
  "Theyounglady!"someonemimickedinanothercorner。
  "Swinishcrow!"
  "Wemeantnothing……"saidthelittlemaninconfusion。"Ibegyourpardon。Wepaywithourmoneyandtheyoungladywithhers。
  Good-morning!"
  "Good-morning,"answeredtheschoolmistress。
  "Andwethankyoumostfeelingly。"
  MaryaVassilyevnadrankherteawithsatisfaction,andshe,too,beganturningredlikethepeasants,andfelltothinkingagainaboutfirewood,aboutthewatchman……
  "Stay,oldman,"sheheardfromthenexttable,"it’stheschoolmistressfromVyazovye……Weknowher;she’sagoodyounglady。"
  "She’sallright!"
  Theswing-doorwascontinuallybanging,somecomingin,othersgoingout。MaryaVassilyevnasaton,thinkingallthetimeofthesamethings,whiletheconcertinawentonplayingandplaying。
  Thepatchesofsunshinehadbeenonthefloor,thentheypassedtothecounter,tothewall,anddisappearedaltogether;
  sobythesunitwaspastmidday。Thepeasantsatthenexttableweregettingreadytogo。Thelittleman,somewhatunsteadily,wentuptoMaryaVassilyevnaandheldouthishandtoher;
  followinghisexample,theothersshookhands,too,atparting,andwentoutoneafteranother,andtheswing-doorsqueakedandslammedninetimes。
  "Vassilyevna,getready,"Semyoncalledtoher。
  Theysetoff。Andagaintheywentatawalkingpace。
  "AlittlewhilebacktheywerebuildingaschoolhereintheirNizhneyeGorodistche,"saidSemyon,turninground。"Itwasawickedthingthatwasdone!"
  "Why,what?"
  "Theysaythepresidentputathousandinhispocket,andtheschoolguardiananotherthousandinhis,andtheteacherfivehundred。"
  "Thewholeschoolonlycostathousand。It’swrongtoslanderpeople,grandfather。That’sallnonsense。"
  "Idon’tknow,……Ionlytellyouwhatfolkssay。"
  ButitwasclearthatSemyondidnotbelievetheschoolmistress。
  Thepeasantsdidnotbelieveher。Theyalwaysthoughtshereceivedtoolargeasalary,twenty-oneroublesamonth(fivewouldhavebeenenough),andthatofthemoneythatshecollectedfromthechildrenforthefirewoodandthewatchmanthegreaterpartshekeptforherself。Theguardianthoughtthesameasthepeasants,andhehimselfmadeaprofitoffthefirewoodandreceivedpaymentsfromthepeasantsforbeingaguardian——
  withouttheknowledgeoftheauthorities。
  Theforest,thankGod!wasbehindthem,andnowitwouldbeflat,opengroundallthewaytoVyazovye,andtherewasnotfartogonow。Theyhadtocrosstheriverandthentherailwayline,andthenVyazovyewasinsight。
  "Whereareyoudriving?"MaryaVassilyevnaaskedSemyon。"Taketheroadtotherighttothebridge。"
  "Why,wecangothiswayaswell。It’snotdeepenoughtomatter。"
  "Mindyoudon’tdrownthehorse。"
  "What?"
  "Look,Hanovisdrivingtothebridge,"saidMaryaVassilyevna,seeingthefourhorsesfarawaytotheright。"Itishe,I
  think。"
  "Itis。Sohedidn’tfindBakvistathome。Whatapig-headedfellowheis。Lordhavemercyuponus!He’sdrivenoverthere,andwhatfor?It’sfullytwomilesnearerthisway。"
  Theyreachedtheriver。Inthesummeritwasalittlestreameasilycrossedbywading。ItusuallydriedupinAugust,butnow,afterthespringfloods,itwasariverfortyfeetinbreadth,rapid,muddy,andcold;onthebankandrightuptothewatertherewerefreshtracksofwheels,soithadbeencrossedhere。
  "Goon!"shoutedSemyonangrilyandanxiously,tuggingviolentlyatthereinsandjerkinghiselbowsasabirddoesitswings。"Goon!"
  Thehorsewentonintothewateruptohisbellyandstopped,butatoncewentonagainwithaneffort,andMaryaVassilyevnawasawareofakeenchillinessinherfeet。
  "Goon!"she,too,shouted,gettingup。"Goon!"
  Theygotoutonthebank。
  "Nicemessitis,Lordhavemercyuponus!"mutteredSemyon,settingstraighttheharness。"It’saperfectplaguewiththisZemstvo……"
  Hershoesandgolosheswerefullofwater,thelowerpartofherdressandofhercoatandonesleevewerewetanddripping:thesugarandflourhadgotwet,andthatwasworstofall,andMaryaVassilyevnacouldonlyclaspherhandsindespairandsay:
  Oh,Semyon,Semyon!Howtiresomeyouarereally!……"
  Thebarrierwasdownattherailwaycrossing。Atrainwascomingoutofthestation。MaryaVassilyevnastoodatthecrossingwaitingtillitshouldpass,andshiveringalloverwithcold。
  Vyazovyewasinsightnow,andtheschoolwiththegreenroof,andthechurchwithitscrossesflashingintheeveningsun:andthestationwindowsflashedtoo,andapinksmokerosefromtheengine……anditseemedtoherthateverythingwastremblingwithcold。
  Herewasthetrain;thewindowsreflectedthegleaminglightlikethecrossesonthechurch:itmadehereyesachetolookatthem。
  Onthelittleplatformbetweentwofirst-classcarriagesaladywasstanding,andMaryaVassilyevnaglancedatherasshepassed。Hermother!Whataresemblance!Hermotherhadhadjustsuchluxurianthair,justsuchabrowandbendofthehead。Andwithamazingdistinctness,forthefirsttimeinthosethirteenyears,thererosebeforehermindavividpictureofhermother,herfather,herbrother,theirflatinMoscow,theaquariumwithlittlefish,everythingtothetiniestdetail;sheheardthesoundofthepiano,herfather’svoice;shefeltasshehadbeenthen,young,good-looking,well-dressed,inabrightwarmroomamongherownpeople。Afeelingofjoyandhappinesssuddenlycameoverher,shepressedherhandstohertemplesinanecstacy,andcalledsoftly,beseechingly:
  "Mother!"
  Andshebegancrying,shedidnotknowwhy。JustatthatinstantHanovdroveupwithhisteamoffourhorses,andseeinghimsheimaginedhappinesssuchasshehadneverhad,andsmiledandnoddedtohimasanequalandafriend,anditseemedtoherthatherhappiness,hertriumph,wasglowingintheskyandonallsides,inthewindowsandonthetrees。Herfatherandmotherhadneverdied,shehadneverbeenaschoolmistress,itwasalong,tedious,strangedream,andnowshehadawakened……
  "Vassilyevna,getin!"
  Andatonceitallvanished。Thebarrierwasslowlyraised。MaryaVassilyevna,shiveringandnumbwithcold,gotintothecart。Thecarriagewiththefourhorsescrossedtherailwayline;Semyonfollowedit。Thesignalmantookoffhiscap。
  "AndhereisVyazovye。Hereweare。"
  ANERVOUSBREAKDOWN
  AMEDICALstudentcalledMayer,andapupiloftheMoscowSchoolofPainting,Sculpture,andArchitecturecalledRybnikov,wentoneeveningtoseetheirfriendVassilyev,alawstudent,andsuggestedthatheshouldgowiththemtoS。Street。ForalongtimeVassilyevwouldnotconsenttogo,butintheendheputonhisgreatcoatandwentwiththem。
  Heknewnothingoffallenwomenexceptbyhearsayandfrombooks,andhehadneverinhislifebeeninthehousesinwhichtheylive。Heknewthatthereareimmoralwomenwho,underthepressureoffatalcircumstances——environment,badeducation,poverty,andsoon——areforcedtoselltheirhonorformoney。
  Theyknownothingofpurelove,havenochildren,havenocivilrights;theirmothersandsistersweepoverthemasthoughtheyweredead,sciencetreatsofthemasanevil,menaddressthemwithcontemptuousfamiliarity。Butinspiteofallthat,theydonotlosethesemblanceandimageofGod。Theyallacknowledgetheirsinandhopeforsalvation。Ofthemeansthatleadtosalvationtheycanavailthemselvestothefullestextent。
  Society,itistrue,willnotforgivepeopletheirpast,butinthesightofGodSt。MaryofEgyptisnolowerthantheothersaints。WhenithadhappenedtoVassilyevinthestreettorecognizeafallenwomanassuch,byherdressorhermanners,ortoseeapictureofoneinacomicpaper,healwaysrememberedastoryhehadonceread:ayoungman,pureandself-sacrificing,lovesafallenwomanandurgeshertobecomehiswife;she,consideringherselfunworthyofsuchhappiness,takespoison。
  VassilyevlivedinoneofthesidestreetsturningoutofTverskoyBoulevard。Whenhecameoutofthehousewithhistwofriendsitwasabouteleveno’clock。Thefirstsnowhadnotlongfallen,andallnaturewasunderthespellofthefreshsnow。
  Therewasthesmellofsnowintheair,thesnowcrunchedsoftlyunderthefeet;theearth,theroofs,thetrees,theseatsontheboulevard,everythingwassoft,white,young,andthismadethehouseslookquitedifferentfromthedaybefore;thestreetlampsburnedmorebrightly,theairwasmoretransparent,thecarriagesrumbledwithadeepernote,andwiththefresh,light,frostyairafeelingstirredinthesoulakintothewhite,youthful,featherysnow。"Againstmywillanunknownforce,"
  hummedthemedicalstudentinhisagreeabletenor,"hasledmetothesemournfulshores。"
  "Beholdthemill……"theartistsecondedhim,"inruinsnow……"
  "Beholdthemill……inruinsnow,"themedicalstudentrepeated,raisinghiseyebrowsandshakinghisheadmournfully。
  Hepaused,rubbedhisforehead,tryingtorememberthewords,andthensangaloud,sowellthatpassers-bylookedround:
  "HereinolddayswhenIwasfree,Love,free,unfettered,greetedme。"
  Thethreeofthemwentintoarestaurantand,withouttakingofftheirgreatcoats,drankacoupleofglassesofvodkaeach。Beforedrinkingthesecondglass,Vassilyevnoticedabitofcorkinhisvodka,raisedtheglasstohiseyes,andgazedintoitforalongtime,screwinguphisshortsightedeyes。Themedicalstudentdidnotunderstandhisexpression,andsaid:
  "Come,whylookatit?Nophilosophizing,please。Vodkaisgivenustobedrunk,sturgeontobeeaten,womentobevisited,snowtobewalkedupon。Foroneeveninganywaylivelikeahumanbeing!"
  "ButIhaven’tsaidanything……"saidVassilyev,laughing。"AmIrefusingto?"
  Therewasawarmthinsidehimfromthevodka。Helookedwithsoftenedfeelingsathisfriends,admiredthemandenviedthem。
  Inthesestrong,healthy,cheerfulpeoplehowwonderfullybalancedeverythingis,howfinishedandsmoothiseverythingintheirmindsandsouls!Theysing,andhaveapassionforthetheatre,anddraw,andtalkagreatdeal,anddrink,andtheydon’thaveheadachesthedayafter;theyarebothpoeticalanddebauched,bothsoftandhard;theycanwork,too,andbeindignant,andlaughwithoutreason,andtalknonsense;theyarewarm,honest,self-sacrificing,andasmenareinnowayinferiortohimself,Vassilyev,whowatchedovereverystephetookandeverywordheuttered,whowasfastidiousandcautious,andreadytoraiseeverytrifletothelevelofaproblem。Andhelongedforoneeveningtoliveashisfriendsdid,toopenout,tolethimselfloosefromhisowncontrol。Ifvodkahadtobedrunk,hewoulddrinkit,thoughhisheadwouldbesplittingnextmorning。Ifheweretakentothewomenhewouldgo。Hewouldlaugh,playthefool,gailyrespondtothepassingadvancesofstrangersinthestreet……
  Hewentoutoftherestaurantlaughing。Helikedhisfriends——
  oneinacrushedbroad-brimmedhat,withanaffectationofartisticuntidiness;theotherinasealskincap,amannotpoor,thoughheaffectedtobelongtotheBohemiaoflearning。Helikedthesnow,thepalestreetlamps,thesharpblacktracksleftinthefirstsnowbythefeetofthepassers-by。Helikedtheair,andespeciallythatlimpid,tender,naive,asitwerevirginaltone,whichcanbeseeninnatureonlytwiceintheyear——wheneverythingiscoveredwithsnow,andinspringonbrightdaysandmoonlighteveningswhentheicebreaksontheriver。
  "Againstmywillanunknownforce,Hasledmetothesemournfulshores,"
  hehummedinanundertone。
  Andthetuneforsomereasonhauntedhimandhisfriendsalltheway,andallthreeofthemhummeditmechanically,notintimewithoneanother。
  Vassilyev’simaginationwaspicturinghow,inanothertenminutes,heandhisfriendswouldknockatadoor;howbylittledarkpassagesanddarkroomstheywouldstealintothewomen;
  how,takingadvantageofthedarkness,hewouldstrikeamatch,wouldlightupandseethefaceofamartyrandaguiltysmile。
  Theunknown,fairordark,wouldcertainlyhaveherhairdownandbewearingawhitedressing-jacket;shewouldbepanic-strickenbythelight,wouldbefearfullyconfused,andwouldsay:"ForGod’ssake,whatareyoudoing!Putitout!"Itwouldallbedreadful,butinterestingandnew。
  II
  ThefriendsturnedoutofTrubnoySquareintoGratchevka,andsoonreachedthesidestreetwhichVassilyevonlyknewbyreputation。Seeingtworowsofhouseswithbrightlylightedwindowsandwide-opendoors,andhearinggaystrainsofpianosandviolins,soundswhichfloatedoutfromeverydoorandmingledinastrangechaos,asthoughanunseenorchestraweretuningupinthedarknessabovetheroofs,Vassilyevwassurprisedandsaid:
  "Whatalotofhouses!"
  "That’snothing,"saidthemedicalstudent。"InLondontherearetentimesasmany。Thereareaboutahundredthousandsuchwomenthere。"
  Thecabmenweresittingontheirboxesascalmlyandindifferentlyasinanyothersidestreet;thesamepassers-bywerewalkingalongthepavementasinotherstreets。Noonewashurrying,noonewashidinghisfaceinhiscoat-collar,nooneshookhisheadreproachfully……Andinthisindifferencetothenoisychaosofpianosandviolins,tothebrightwindowsandwide-opendoors,therewasafeelingofsomethingveryopen,insolent,reckless,anddevil-may-care。Probablyitwasasgayandnoisyattheslave-marketsintheirday,andpeople’sfacesandmovementsshowedthesameindifference。
  "Letusbeginfromthebeginning,"saidtheartist。
  Thefriendswentintoanarrowpassagelightedbyalampwithareflector。Whentheyopenedthedooramaninablackcoat,withanunshavenfacelikeaflunkey’s,andsleepy-lookingeyes,gotuplazilyfromayellowsofainthehall。Theplacesmeltlikealaundrywithanodorofvinegarinaddition。Adoorfromthehallledintoabrightlylightedroom。Themedicalstudentandtheartiststoppedatthisdoorand,craningtheirnecks,peepedintotheroom。
  "Buonasera,signori,rigolleto——hugenotti——traviata!"begantheartist,withatheatricalbow。
  "Havanna——tarakano——pistoleto!"saidthemedicalstudent,pressinghiscaptohisbreastandbowinglow。
  Vassilyevwasstandingbehindthem。Hewouldhavelikedtomakeatheatricalbowandsaysomethingsilly,too,butheonlysmiled,feltanawkwardnessthatwaslikeshame,andwaitedimpatientlyforwhatwouldhappennext。
  Alittlefairgirlofseventeenoreighteen,withshorthair,inashortlight-bluefrockwithabunchofwhiteribbononherbosom,appearedinthedoorway。
  "Whydoyoustandatthedoor?"shesaid。"Takeoffyourcoatsandcomeintothedrawing-room。"
  Themedicalstudentandtheartist,stilltalkingItalian,wentintothedrawing-room。Vassilyevfollowedthemirresolutely。
  "Gentlemen,takeoffyourcoats!"theflunkeysaidsternly;"youcan’tgoinlikethat。"
  Inthedrawing-roomtherewas,besidesthegirl,anotherwoman,verystoutandtall,withaforeignfaceandbarearms。Shewassittingnearthepiano,layingoutagameofpatienceonherlap。
  Shetooknonoticewhateverofthevisitors。
  "Wherearetheotheryoungladies?"askedthemedicalstudent。
  "Theyarehavingtheirtea,"saidthefairgirl。"Stepan,"shecalled,"goandtelltheyoungladiessomestudentshavecome!"
  Alittlelaterathirdyoungladycameintotheroom。Shewaswearingabrightreddresswithbluestripes。Herfacewaspaintedthicklyandunskillfully,herbrowwashiddenunderherhair,andtherewasanunblinking,frightenedstareinhereyes。
  Asshecamein,shebeganatoncesingingsomesonginacoarse,powerfulcontralto。Afterherafourthappeared,andafterherafifth……
  InallthisVassilyevsawnothingneworinteresting。Itseemedtohimthatthatroom,thepiano,thelooking-glassinitscheapgiltframe,thebunchofwhiteribbon,thedresswiththebluestripes,andtheblankindifferentfaces,hehadseenbeforeandmorethanonce。Ofthedarkness,thesilence,thesecrecy,theguiltysmile,ofallthathehadexpectedtomeethereandhaddreaded,hesawnotrace。
  Everythingwasordinary,prosaic,anduninteresting。Onlyonethingfaintlystirredhiscuriosity——theterrible,asitwereintentionallydesigned,badtastewhichwasvisibleinthecornices,intheabsurdpictures,inthedresses,inthebunchofribbons。Therewassomethingcharacteristicandpeculiarinthisbadtaste。
  "Howpoorandstupiditallis!"thoughtVassilyev。"WhatisthereinallthistrumperyIseenowthatcantemptanormalmanandexcitehimtocommitthehorriblesinofbuyingahumanbeingforarouble?Iunderstandanysinforthesakeofsplendor,beauty,grace,passion,taste;butwhatistherehere?Whatistherehereworthsinningfor?But……onemustn’tthink!"
  "Beardy,treatmetosomeporter!"saidthefairgirl,addressinghim。
  Vassilyevwasatonceovercomewithconfusion。
  "Withpleasure,"hesaid,bowingpolitely。"Onlyexcuseme,madam,I……Iwon’tdrinkwithyou。Idon’tdrink。
  Fiveminuteslaterthefriendswentoffintoanotherhouse。
  "Whydidyouaskforporter?"saidthemedicalstudentangrily。
  "Whatamillionaire!Youhavethrownawaysixroublesfornoreasonwhatever——simplywaste!"
  "Ifshewantsit,whynotletherhavethepleasure?"saidVassilyev,justifyinghimself。
  "Youdidnotgivepleasuretoher,buttothe’Madam。’Theyaretoldtoaskthevisitorstostandthemtreatbecauseitisaprofittothekeeper。"
  "Beholdthemill……"hummedtheartist,"inruinsnow……"
  Goingintothenexthouse,thefriendsstoppedinthehallanddidnotgointothedrawing-room。Here,asinthefirsthouse,afigureinablackcoat,withasleepyfacelikeaflunkey’s,gotupfromasofainthehall。Lookingatthisflunkey,athisfaceandhisshabbyblackcoat,Vassilyevthought:"WhatmustanordinarysimpleRussianhavegonethroughbeforefateflunghimdownasaflunkeyhere?Wherehadhebeenbeforeandwhathadhedone?Whatwasawaitinghim?Washemarried?Wherewashismother,anddidsheknowthathewasaservanthere?"
  AndVassilyevcouldnothelpparticularlynoticingtheflunkeyineachhouse。Inoneofthehouses——hethoughtitwasthefourth——therewasalittlespare,frail-lookingflunkeywithawatch-chainonhiswaistcoat。Hewasreadinganewspaper,andtooknonoticeofthemwhentheywentin。LookingathisfaceVassilyev,forsomereason,thoughtthatamanwithsuchafacemightsteal,mightmurder,mightbearfalsewitness。Butthefacewasreallyinteresting:abigforehead,grayeyes,alittleflattenednose,thincompressedlips,andablanklystupidandatthesametimeinsolentexpressionlikethatofayoungharrierovertakingahare。Vassilyevthoughtitwouldbenicetotouchthisman’shair,toseewhetheritwassoftorcoarse。Itmustbecoarselikeadog’s。
  III
  Havingdrunktwoglassesofporter,theartistbecamesuddenlytipsyandgrewunnaturallylively。
  "Let’sgotoanother!"hesaidperemptorily,wavinghishands。"I
  willtakeyoutothebestone。"
  Whenhehadbroughthisfriendstothehousewhichinhisopinionwasthebest,hedeclaredhisfirmintentionofdancingaquadrille。Themedicalstudentgrumbledsomethingabouttheirhavingtopaythemusiciansarouble,butagreedtobehis_vis-a-vis_。Theybegandancing。
  Itwasjustasnastyinthebesthouseasintheworst。Heretherewerejustthesamelooking-glassesandpictures,thesamestylesofcoiffureanddress。Lookingroundatthefurnishingoftheroomsandthecostumes,Vassilyevrealizedthatthiswasnotlackoftaste,butsomethingthatmightbecalledthetaste,andeventhestyle,ofS。Street,whichcouldnotbefoundelsewhere——somethingintentionalinitsugliness,notaccidental,butelaboratedinthecourseofyears。Afterhehadbeenineighthouseshewasnolongersurprisedatthecolorofthedresses,atthelongtrains,thegaudyribbons,thesailordresses,andthethickpurplishrougeonthecheeks;hesawthatitallhadtobelikethis,thatifasingleoneofthewomenhadbeendressedlikeahumanbeing,oriftherehadbeenonedecentengravingonthewall,thegeneraltoneofthewholestreetwouldhavesuffered。
  "Howunskillfullytheysellthemselves!"hethought。"Howcantheyfailtounderstandthatviceisonlyalluringwhenitisbeautifulandhidden,whenitwearsthemaskofvirtue?Modestblackdresses,palefaces,mournfulsmiles,anddarknesswouldbefarmoreeffectivethanthisclumsytawdriness。Stupidthings!
  Iftheydon’tunderstanditofthemselves,theirvisitorsmightsurelyhavetaughtthem……"
  AyoungladyinaPolishdressedgedwithwhitefurcameuptohimandsatdownbesidehim。
  "Younicedarkman,whyaren’tyoudancing?"sheasked。"Whyareyousodull?"
  "Becauseitisdull。"
  "TreatmetosomeLafitte。Thenitwon’tbedull。"
  Vassilyevmadenoanswer。Hewassilentforalittle,andthenasked:
  "Whattimedoyougettosleep?"
  "Atsixo’clock。"
  "Andwhattimedoyougetup?"
  "Sometimesattwoandsometimesatthree。"
  "Andwhatdoyoudowhenyougetup?"
  "Wehavecoffee,andatsixo’clockwehavedinner。"
  "Andwhatdoyouhavefordinner?"
  "Usuallysoup,beefsteak,anddessert。Ourmadamkeepsthegirlswell。Butwhydoyouaskallthis?"
  "Oh,justtotalk……"
  Vassilyevlongedtotalktotheyoungladyaboutmanythings。Hefeltanintensedesiretofindoutwhereshecamefrom,whetherherparentswereliving,andwhethertheyknewthatshewashere;
  howshehadcomeintothishouse;whethershewerecheerfulandsatisfied,orsadandoppressedbygloomythoughts;whethershehopedsomedaytogetoutofherpresentposition……Buthecouldnotthinkhowtobeginorinwhatshapetoputhisquestionssoasnottoseemimpertinent。Hethoughtforalongtime,andasked:
  "Howoldareyou?"
  "Eighty,"theyoungladyjested,lookingwithalaughattheanticsoftheartistashedanced。
  Allatoncesheburstoutlaughingatsomething,andutteredalongcynicalsentenceloudenoughtobeheardbyeveryone。
  Vassilyevwasaghast,andnotknowinghowtolook,gaveaconstrainedsmile。Hewastheonlyonewhosmiled;alltheothers,hisfriends,themusicians,thewomen,didnotevenglancetowardshisneighbor,butseemednottohaveheardher。
  "StandmesomeLafitte,"hisneighborsaidagain。
  Vassilyevfeltarepulsionforherwhitefurandforhervoice,andwalkedawayfromher。Itseemedtohimhotandstifling,andhisheartbeganthrobbingslowlybutviolently,likeahammer——
  one!two!three!
  "Letusgoaway!"hesaid,pullingtheartistbyhissleeve。
  "Waitalittle;letmefinish。"
  Whiletheartistandthemedicalstudentwerefinishingthequadrille,toavoidlookingatthewomen,Vassilyevscrutinizedthemusicians。Arespectable-lookingoldmaninspectacles,ratherlikeMarshalBazaine,wasplayingthepiano;ayoungmanwithafairbeard,dressedinthelatestfashion,wasplayingtheviolin。Theyoungmanhadafacethatdidnotlookstupidnorexhausted,butintelligent,youthful,andfresh。Hewasdressedfancifullyandwithtaste;heplayedwithfeeling。Itwasamysteryhowheandtherespectable-lookingoldmanhadcomehere。Howwasittheywerenotashamedtosithere?Whatweretheythinkingaboutwhentheylookedatthewomen?
  Iftheviolinandthepianohadbeenplayedbymeninrags,lookinghungry,gloomy,drunken,withdissipatedorstupidfaces,thenonecouldhaveunderstoodtheirpresence,perhaps。Asitwas,Vassilyevcouldnotunderstanditatall。Herecalledthestoryofthefallenwomanhehadonceread,andhethoughtnowthatthathumanfigurewiththeguiltysmilehadnothingincommonwithwhathewasseeingnow。Itseemedtohimthathewasseeingnotfallenwomen,butsomedifferentworldquiteapart,alientohimandincomprehensible;ifhehadseenthisworldbeforeonthestage,orreadofitinabook,hewouldnothavebelievedinit……
  Thewomanwiththewhitefurburstoutlaughingagainandutteredaloathsomesentenceinaloudvoice。Afeelingofdisgusttookpossessionofhim。Heflushedcrimsonandwentoutoftheroom。
  "Waitaminute,wearecomingtoo!"theartistshoutedtohim。
  IV
  "Whileweweredancing,"saidthemedicalstudent,astheyallthreewentoutintothestreet,"Ihadaconversationwithmypartner。Wetalkedaboutherfirstromance。He,thehero,wasanaccountantatSmolenskwithawifeandfivechildren。Shewasseventeen,andshelivedwithherpapaandmamma,whosoldsoapandcandles。"
  "Howdidhewinherheart?"askedVassilyev。
  "Byspendingfiftyroublesonunderclothesforher。Whatnext!"
  "Soheknewhowtogethispartner’sstoryoutofher,"thoughtVassilyevaboutthemedicalstudent。"ButIdon’tknowhowto。"
  "Isay,Iamgoinghome!"hesaid。
  "Whatfor?"
  "BecauseIdon’tknowhowtobehavehere。Besides,Iambored,disgusted。Whatisthereamusinginit?Iftheywerehumanbeings——buttheyaresavagesandanimals。Iamgoing;doasyoulike。"
  "Come,Grisha,Grigory,darling……"saidtheartistinatearfulvoice,huggingVassilyev,"comealong!Let’sgotoonemoretogetheranddamnationtakethem!……Pleasedo,Grisha!"
  TheypersuadedVassilyevandledhimupastaircase。Inthecarpetandthegiltbanisters,intheporterwhoopenedthedoor,andinthepanelsthatdecoratedthehall,thesameS。Streetstylewasapparent,butcarriedtoagreaterperfection,moreimposing。
  "Ireallywillgohome!"saidVassilyevashewastakingoffhiscoat。
  "Come,come,dearboy,"saidtheartist,andhekissedhimontheneck。"Don’tbetiresome……Gri-gri,beagoodcomrade!Wecametogether,wewillgobacktogether。Whatabeastyouare,really!"
  "Icanwaitforyouinthestreet。Ithinkit’sloathsome,really!"
  "Come,come,Grisha……Ifitisloathsome,youcanobserveit!Doyouunderstand?Youcanobserve!"
  "Onemusttakeanobjectiveviewofthings,"saidthemedicalstudentgravely。