Wegotbackintotheboat.Thenightwasdark,verydark.Isawclearly,however,thathehadcaughtherbythewaist,andthattheywerehuggingeachotheragainandagain.
Itwasafrightfulcatastrophe.Ourescapadewasdiscovered,withtheresultthatPerePiquedentwasdismissed.Andmyfather,inafitofanger,sentmetofinishmycourseofphilosophyatRibaudet’sschool.
SixmonthslaterItookmydegreeofBachelorofArts.ThenIwenttostudylawinParis,anddidnotreturntomynativetowntilltwoyearslater.
AtthecorneroftheRuedeSerpentashopcaughtmyeye.Overthedoorwerethewords:"ColonialProducts——Piquedent";thenunderneath,soastoenlightenthemostignorant:"Grocery."
Iexclaimed:
"’Quantummutatusabillo!’"
Piquedentraisedhishead,lefthisfemalecustomer,andrushedtowardmewithoutstretchedhands.
"Ah!myyoungfriend,myyoungfriend,hereyouare!Whatluck!whatluck!"
Abeautifulwoman,veryplump,abruptlyleftthecashier’sdeskandflungherselfonmybreast.Ihadsomedifficultyinrecognizingher,shehadgrownsostout.
Iasked:
"Sothenyou’redoingwell?"
Piquedenthadgonebacktoweighthegroceries.
"Oh!verywell,verywell,verywell.Ihavemadethreethousandfrancsclearthisyear!"
"AndwhataboutLatin,MonsieurPiquedent?"
"Oh,goodheavens!Latin,Latin,Latin——youseeitdoesnotkeepthepotboiling!"
AMEETING
Itwasnothingbutanaccident,anaccidentpureandsimple.Onthatparticulareveningtheprincess’roomswereopen,andastheyappeareddarkafterthebrilliantlylightedparlors,Barond’Etraille,whowastiredofstanding,inadvertentlywanderedintoanemptybedroom.
Helookedroundforachairinwhichtohaveadoze,ashewassurehiswifewouldnotleavebeforedaylight.Assoonashebecameaccustomedtothelightoftheroomhedistinguishedthebigbedwithitsazure—and—
goldhangings,inthemiddleofthegreatroom,lookinglikeacatafalqueinwhichlovewasburied,fortheprincesswasnolongeryoung.Behindit,alargebrightsurfacelookedlikealakeseenatadistance.Itwasalargemirror,discreetlycoveredwithdarkdrapery,thatwasveryrarelyletdown,andseemedtolookatthebed,whichwasitsaccomplice.
Onemightalmostfancythatithadreminiscences,andthatonemightseeinitcharmingfemaleformsandthegentlemovementoflovingarms.
Thebaronstoodstillforamoment,smiling,almostexperiencinganemotiononthethresholdofthischamberdedicatedtolove.Butsuddenlysomethingappearedinthelooking—glass,asifthephantomswhichhehadevokedhadrisenupbeforehim.Amanandawomanwhohadbeensittingonalowcouchconcealedintheshadowhadarisen,andthepolishedsurface,reflectingtheirfigures,showedthattheywerekissingeachotherbeforeseparating.
Barond’EtraillerecognizedhiswifeandtheMarquisdeCervigne.Heturnedandwentawaylikeamanwhoisfullymasterofhimself,andwaitedtillitwasdaybeforetakingawaythebaroness;buthehadnolongeranythoughtsofsleeping.
Assoonastheywerealonehesaid:
"Madame,IsawyoujustnowinPrincessedeRaynes’room;Ineedsaynomore,andIamnotfondeitherofreproaches,actsofviolence,orofridicule.AsIwishtoavoidallsuchthings,weshallseparatewithoutanyscandal.Ourlawyerswillsettleyourpositionaccordingtomyorders.Youwillbefreetoliveasyoupleasewhenyouarenolongerundermyroof;but,asyouwillcontinuetobearmyname,ImustwarnyouthatshouldanyscandalariseIshallshowmyselfinflexible."
Shetriedtospeak,buthestoppedher,bowed,andlefttheroom.
Hewasmoreastonishedandsadthanunhappy.Hehadlovedherdearlyduringthefirstperiodoftheirmarriedlife;buthisardorhadcooled,andnowheoftenamusedhimselfelsewhere,eitherinatheatreorinsociety,thoughhealwayspreservedacertainlikingforthebaroness.
Shewasveryyoung,hardlyfour—and—twenty,small,slight——tooslight——
andveryfair.ShewasatrueParisiandoll:clever,spoiled,elegant,coquettish,witty,withmorecharmthanrealbeauty.Heusedtosayfamiliarlytohisbrother,whenspeakingofher:
"Mywifeischarming,attractive,but——thereisnothingtolayholdof.
Sheislikeaglassofchampagnethatisallfroth;whenyougettothewineitisverygood,butthereistoolittleofit,unfortunately."
Hewalkedupanddowntheroomingreatagitation,thinkingofathousandthings.Atonemomenthewasfurious,andfeltinclinedtogivethemarquisagoodthrashing,ortoslaphisfacepublicly,intheclub.
Buthedecidedthatwouldnotdo,itwouldnotbegoodform;hewouldbelaughedat,andnothisrival,andthisthoughtwoundedhisvanity.
Sohewenttobed,butcouldnotsleep.ParisknewinafewdaysthattheBaronandBaronessd’Etraillehadagreedtoanamicableseparationonaccountofincompatibilityoftemper.Noonesuspectedanything,noonelaughed,andnoonewasastonished.
Thebaron,however,toavoidmeetinghiswife,travelledforayear,thenspentthesummerattheseaside,andtheautumninshooting,returningtoParisforthewinter.Hedidnotmeetthebaronessonce.
Hedidnotevenknowwhatpeoplesaidabouther.Inanycase,shetookcaretorespectappearances,andthatwasallheaskedfor.
Hebecamedreadfullybored,travelledagain,restoredhisoldcastleofVillebosc,whichtookhimtwoyears;thenforoverayearheentertainedfriendsthere,tillatlast,tiredofalltheseso—calledpleasures,hereturnedtohismansionintheRuedeLille,justsixyearsaftertheseparation.
Hewasnowforty—five,withagoodcropofgrayhair,ratherstout,andwiththatmelancholylookcharacteristicofthosewhohavebeenhandsome,soughtafter,andliked,butwhoaredeteriorating,daily.
AmonthafterhisreturntoParis,hetookcoldoncomingoutofhisclub,andhadsuchabadcoughthathismedicalmanorderedhimtoNicefortherestofthewinter.
HereachedthestationonlyafewminutesbeforethedepartureofthetrainonMondayevening,andhadbarelytimetogetintoacarriage,withonlyoneotheroccupant,whowassittinginacornersowrappedinfursandcloaksthathecouldnotevenmakeoutwhetheritwasamanorawoman,asnothingofthefigurecouldbeseen.Whenheperceivedthathecouldnotfindout,heputonhistravellingcap,rolledhimselfupinhisrugs,andstretchedoutcomfortablytosleep.
Hedidnotwakeuntilthedaywasbreaking,andlookedatonceathisfellow—traveller,whohadnotstirredallnight,andseemedstilltobesoundasleep.
M.d’Etraillemadeuseoftheopportunitytobrushhishairandhisbeard,andtotrytofreshenhimselfupalittlegenerally,foranight’straveldoesnotimproveone’sappearancewhenonehasattainedacertainage.
Agreatpoethassaid:
"Whenweareyoung,ourmorningsaretriumphant!"
Thenwewakeupwithacoolskin,abrighteye,andglossyhair.
Asonegrowsolderonewakesupinaverydifferentcondition.Dulleyes,red,swollencheeks,drylips,hairandbearddisarranged,impartanold,fatigued,worn—outlooktotheface.
Thebaronopenedhistravellingcase,andimprovedhislooksasmuchaspossible.
Theenginewhistled,thetrainstopped,andhisneighbormoved.Nodoubthewasawake.Theystartedoffagain,andthenaslantingrayofsunlightshoneintothecarriageandonthesleeper,whomovedagain,shookhimself,andthenhisfacecouldbeseen.
Itwasayoung,fair,pretty,plumpwoman,andthebaronlookedatherinamazement.Hedidnotknowwhattothink.Hecouldreallyhaveswornthatitwashiswife,butwonderfullychangedforthebetter:stouter——
whyshehadgrownasstoutashewas,onlyitsuitedhermuchbetterthanitdidhim.
Shelookedathimcalmly,didnotseemtorecognizehim,andthenslowlylaidasideherwraps.Shehadthatquietassuranceofawomanwhoissureofherself,whofeelsthatonawakingsheisinherfullbeautyandfreshness.
Thebaronwasreallybewildered.Wasithiswife,orelseaslikeherasanysistercouldbe?Nothavingseenherforsixyears,hemightbemistaken.
Sheyawned,andthisgesturebetrayedher.Sheturnedandlookedathimagain,calmly,indifferently,asifshescarcelysawhim,andthenlookedoutofthewindowagain.
Hewasupsetanddreadfullyperplexed,andkeptlookingathersideways.
Yes;itwassurelyhiswife.Howcouldhepossiblyhavedoubtedit?
Therecouldcertainlynotbetwonoseslikethat,andathousandrecollectionsflashedthroughhismind.Hefelttheoldfeelingoftheintoxicationoflovestealingoverhim,andhecalledtomindthesweetodorofherskin,hersmilewhensheputherarmsontohisshoulders,thesoftintonationsofhervoice,allhergraceful,coaxingways.
Buthowshehadchangedandimproved!Itwassheandyetnotshe.Sheseemedriper,moredeveloped,moreofawoman,moreseductive,moredesirable,adorablydesirable.
Andthisstrange,unknownwoman,whomhehadaccidentallymetinarailwaycarriage,belongedtohim;hehadonlytosaytoher:
"Iinsistuponit."
Hehadformerlysleptinherarms,existedonlyinherlove,andnowhehadfoundheragaincertainly,butsochangedthathescarcelyknewher.
Itwasanother,andyetitwassheherself.Itwassomeonewhohadbeenbornandhadformedandgrownsincehehadlefther.Itwasshe,indeed;
shewhomhehadloved,butwhowasnowaltered,withamoreassuredsmileandgreaterself—possession.Thereweretwowomeninone,minglingagreatpartofwhatwasnewandunknownwithmanysweetrecollectionsofthepast.Therewassomethingsingular,disturbing,excitingaboutit——akindofmysteryofloveinwhichtherefloatedadeliciousconfusion.
Itwashiswifeinanewbodyandinnewfleshwhichlipshadneverpressed.
Andhethoughtthatinafewyearsnearlyeverythingchangesinus;onlytheoutlinecanberecognized,andsometimeseventhatdisappears.
Theblood,thehair,theskin,allchangesandisrenewed,andwhenpeoplehavenotseeneachotherforalongtime,whentheymeettheyfindeachothertotallydifferentbeings,althoughtheyarethesameandbearthesamename.
Andtheheartalsocanchange.Ideasmaybemodifiedandrenewed,sothatinfortyyearsoflifewemay,bygradualandconstanttransformations,becomefourorfivetotallynewanddifferentbeings.
Hedweltonthisthoughttillittroubledhim;ithadfirsttakenpossessionofhimwhenhesurprisedherintheprincess’room.Hewasnottheleastangry;itwasnotthesamewomanthathewaslookingat——
thatthin,excitablelittledollofthosedays.
Whatwashetodo?Howshouldheaddressher?andwhatcouldhesaytoher?Hadsherecognizedhim?
Thetrainstoppedagain.Hegotup,bowed,and,said:"Bertha,doyouwantanythingIcouldbringyou?"
Shelookedathimfromheadtofoot,andanswered,withoutshowingtheslightestsurprise,orconfusion,oranger,butwiththemostperfectindifference:
"Idonotwantanything———thankyou."
Hegotoutandwalkedupanddowntheplatformalittleinordertorecoverhimself,and,asitwere,torecoverhissensesafterafall.
Whatshouldhedonow?Ifhegotintoanothercarriageitwouldlookasifhewererunningaway.Shouldhebepoliteorimportunate?Thatwouldlookasifhewereaskingforforgiveness.Shouldhespeakasifhewerehermaster?Hewouldlooklikeafool,and,besides,hereallyhadnorighttodoso.
Hegotinagainandtookhisplace.
Duringhisabsenceshehadhastilyarrangedherdressandhair,andwasnowlyingstretchedoutontheseat,radiant,andwithoutshowinganyemotion.
Heturnedtoher,andsaid:"MydearBertha,sincethissingularchancehasbroughtuptogetherafteraseparationofsixyears——aquitefriendlyseparation——arewetocontinuetolookuponeachotherasirreconcilableenemies?Weareshutuptogether,tete—d—tete,whichissomuchthebetterorsomuchtheworse.Iamnotgoingtogetintoanothercarriage,sodon’tyouthinkitispreferabletotalkasfriendstilltheendofourjourney?"
Sheanswered,quitecalmlyagain:
"Justasyouplease."
Thenhesuddenlystopped,reallynotknowingwhattosay;butashehadplentyofassurance,hesatdownonthemiddleseat,andsaid:
"Well,IseeImustpaymycourttoyou;somuchthebetter.Itis,however,reallyapleasure,foryouarecharming.Youcannotimaginehowyouhaveimprovedinthelastsixyears.IdonotknowanywomanwhocouldgivemethatdelightfulsensationwhichIexperiencedjustnowwhenyouemergedfromyourwraps.Ireallycouldnothavethoughtsuchachangepossible."
Withoutmovingherheadorlookingathim,shesaid:"Icannotsaythesamewithregardtoyou;youhavecertainlydeterioratedagreatdeal."
Hegotredandconfused,andthen,withasmileofresignation,hesaid:
"Youareratherhard."
"Why?"washerreply."Iamonlystatingfacts.Idon’tsupposeyouintendtooffermeyourlove?Itmust,therefore,beamatterofperfectindifferencetoyouwhatIthinkaboutyou.ButIseeitisapainfulsubject,soletustalkofsomethingelse.WhathaveyoubeendoingsinceIlastsawyou?"
Hefeltratheroutofcountenance,andstammered:
"I?Ihavetravelled,donesomeshooting,andgrownold,asyousee.
Andyou?"
Shesaid,quitecalmly:"Ihavetakencareofappearances,asyouorderedme."
Hewasverynearlysayingsomethingbrutal,buthecheckedhimself;andkissedhiswife’shand:
"AndIthankyou,"hesaid.
Shewassurprised.Hewasindeeddiplomatic,andalwaysmasterofhimself.
Hewenton:"Asyouhaveaccededtomyfirstrequest,shallwenowtalkwithoutanybitterness?"
Shemadealittlemovementofsurprise.
"Bitterness?Idon’tfeelany;youareacompletestrangertome;Iamonlytryingtokeepupadifficultconversation."
Hewasstilllookingather,fascinatedinspiteofherharshness,andhefeltseizedwithabrutalBeside,thedesireofthemaster.
Perceivingthatshehadhurthisfeelings,shesaid:
"Howoldareyounow?Ithoughtyouwereyoungerthanyoulook."
"Iamforty—five";andthenheadded:"IforgottoaskafterPrincessedeRaynes.Areyoustillintimatewithher?"
Shelookedathimasifshehatedhim:
"Yes,Icertainlyam.Sheisverywell,thankyou."
Theyremainedsittingsidebyside,agitatedandirritated.Suddenlyhesaid:
"MydearBertha,Ihavechangedmymind.Youaremywife,andIexpectyoutocomewithmeto—day.Youhave,Ithink,improvedbothmorallyandphysically,andIamgoingtotakeyoubackagain.Iamyourhusband,anditismyrighttodoso."
Shewasstupefied,andlookedathim,tryingtodivinehisthoughts;buthisfacewasresoluteandimpenetrable.
"Iamverysorry,"shesaid,"butIhavemadeotherengagements."
"Somuchtheworseforyou,"washisreply."Thelawgivesmethepower,andImeantouseit."
TheywerenearingMarseilles,andthetrainwhistledandslackenedspeed.
Thebaronessrose,carefullyrolledupherwraps,andthen,turningtoherhusband,said:
"MydearRaymond,donotmakeabaduseofthistete—atetewhichIhadcarefullyprepared.Iwishedtotakeprecautions,accordingtoyouradvice,sothatImighthavenothingtofearfromyouorfromotherpeople,whatevermighthappen.YouaregoingtoNice,areyounot?"
"Ishallgowhereveryougo."
"Notatall;justlistentome,andIamsurethatyouwillleavemeinpeace.Inafewmoments,whenwegettothestation,youwillseethePrincessedeRaynesandComtesseHenriotwaitingformewiththeirhusbands.Iwishedthemtoseeas,andtoknowthatwehadspentthenighttogetherintherailwaycarriage.Don’tbealarmed;theywilltelliteverywhereasamostsurprisingfact.
"ItoldyoujustnowthatIhadmostcarefullyfollowedyouradviceandsavedappearances.Anythingelsedoesnotmatter,doesit?Well,inordertodoso,Iwishedtobeseenwithyou.Youtoldmecarefullytoavoidanyscandal,andIamavoidingit,for,Iamafraid——Iamafraid——"
Shewaitedtillthetrainhadquitestopped,andasherfriendsranuptoopenthecarriagedoor,shesaid:
"Iamafraid"——hesitating——"thatthereisanotherreason——jesuisenceinte."
Theprincessstretchedoutherarmstoembraceher,——andthebaronesssaid,paintingtothebaron,whowasdumbwithastonishment,andwastryingtogetatthetruth:
"YoudonotrecognizeRaymond?Hehascertainlychangedagooddeal,andheagreedtocomewithmesothatImightnottravelalone.Wetakelittletripslikethisoccasionally,likegoodfriendswhocannotlivetogether.Wearegoingtoseparatehere;hehashadenoughofmealready."
Sheputoutherhand,whichhetookmechanically,andthenshejumpedoutontotheplatformamongherfriends,whowerewaitingforher.
Thebaronhastilyshutthecarriagedoor,forhewastoomuchdisturbedtosayawordorcometoanydetermination.Heheardhiswife’svoiceandtheirmerrylaughterastheywentaway.
Heneversawheragain,nordidheeverdiscoverwhethershehadtoldhimalieorwasspeakingthetruth.
THEBLINDMAN
Howisitthatthesunlightgivesussuchjoy?Whydoesthisradiancewhenitfallsontheearthfilluswiththejoyofliving?Thewholeskyisblue,thefieldsaregreen,thehousesallwhite,andourenchantedeyesdrinkinthosebrightcolorswhichbringdelighttooursouls.Andthentherespringsupinourheartsadesiretodance,torun,tosing,ahappylightnessofthought,asortofenlargedtenderness;wefeelalongingtoembracethesun.
Theblind,astheysitinthedoorways,impassiveintheireternaldarkness,remainascalmaseverinthemidstofthisfreshgaiety,and,notunderstandingwhatistakingplacearoundthem,theycontinuallychecktheirdogsastheyattempttoplay.
When,atthecloseoftheday,theyarereturninghomeonthearmofayoungbrotheroralittlesister,ifthechildsays:"Itwasaveryfineday!"theotheranswers:"Icouldnoticethatitwasfine.Loulouwouldn’tkeepquiet."
Iknewoneofthesemenwhoselifewasoneofthemostcruelmartyrdomsthatcouldpossiblybeconceived.
Hewasapeasant,thesonofaNormanfarmer.Aslongashisfatherandmotherlived,hewasmoreorlesstakencareof;hesufferedlittlesavefromhishorribleinfirmity;butassoonastheoldpeopleweregone,anatrociouslifeofmiserycommencedforhim.Dependentonasisterofhis,everybodyinthefarmhousetreatedhimasabeggarwhoiseatingthebreadofstrangers.Ateverymealtheveryfoodheswallowedwasmadeasubjectofreproachagainsthim;hewascalledadrone,aclown,andalthoughhisbrother—in—lawhadtakenpossessionofhisportionoftheinheritance,hewashelpedgrudginglytosoup,gettingjustenoughtosavehimfromstarving.
Hisfacewasverypaleandhistwobigwhiteeyeslookedlikewafers.
Heremainedunmovedatalltheinsultshurledathim,soreservedthatonecouldnottellwhetherhefeltthem.
Moreover,hehadneverknownanytenderness,hismotherhavingalwaystreatedhimunkindlyandcaringverylittleforhim;forincountryplacesuselesspersonsareconsideredanuisance,andthepeasantswouldbegladtokilltheinfirmoftheirspecies,aspoultrydo.
Assoonashefinishedhissouphewentandsatoutsidethedoorinsummerandinwinterbesidethefireside,anddidnotstiragainalltheevening.Hemadenogesture,nomovement;onlyhiseyelids,quiveringfromsomenervousaffection,felldownsometimesoverhiswhite,sightlessorbs.Hadheanyintellect,anythinkingfaculty,anyconsciousnessofhisownexistence?Nobodycaredtoinquire.
Forsomeyearsthingswentoninthisfashion.Buthisincapacityforworkaswellashisimpassivenesseventuallyexasperatedhisrelatives,andhebecamealaughingstock,asortofbuttformerriment,apreytotheinbornferocity,tothesavagegaietyofthebruteswhosurroundedhim.
Itiseasytoimagineallthecruelpracticaljokesinspiredbyhisblindness.And,inordertohavesomefuninreturnforfeedinghim,theynowconvertedhismealsintohoursofpleasurefortheneighborsandofpunishmentforthehelplesscreaturehimself.
Thepeasantsfromthenearesthousescametothisentertainment;itwastalkedaboutfromdoortodoor,andeverydaythekitchenofthefarmhousewasfullofpeople.Sometimestheyplacedbeforehisplate,whenhewasbeginningtoeathissoup,somecatordog.Theanimalinstinctivelyperceivedtheman’sinfirmity,and,softlyapproaching,commencedeatingnoiselessly,lappingupthesoupdaintily;and,whentheylappedthefoodrathernoisily,rousingthepoorfellow’sattention,theywouldprudentlyscamperawaytoavoidtheblowofthespoondirectedatrandombytheblindman!
Thenthespectatorsrangedalongthewallwouldburstoutlaughing,nudgeeachotherandstamptheirfeetonthefloor.Andhe,withouteverutteringaword,wouldcontinueeatingwithhisrighthand,whilestretchingouthislefttoprotecthisplate.
Anothertimetheymadehimchewcorks,bitsofwood,leavesorevenfilth,whichhewasunabletodistinguish.
Afterthistheygottiredevenofthesepracticaljokes,andthebrother—
in—law,angryathavingtosupporthimalways,struckhim,cuffedhimincessantly,laughingathisfutileeffortstowardofforreturntheblows.Thencameanewpleasure——thepleasureofsmackinghisface.Andtheplough—men,theservantgirlsandeveneverypassingvagabondwereeverymomentgivinghimcuffs,whichcausedhiseyelashestotwitchspasmodically.Hedidnotknowwheretohidehimselfandremainedwithhisarmsalwaysheldouttoguardagainstpeoplecomingtooclosetohim.
Atlasthewasforcedtobeg.
Hewasplacedsomewhereonthehigh—roadonmarket—days,andassoonasheheardthesoundoffootstepsortherollingofavehicle,hereachedouthishat,stammering:
"Charity,ifyouplease!"
Butthepeasantisnotlavish,andforwholeweekshedidnotbringbackasou.
Thenhebecamethevictimoffurious,pitilesshatred.Andthisishowhedied.
Onewinterthegroundwascoveredwithsnow,anditwasfreezinghard.
Hisbrother—in—lawledhimonemorningagreatdistancealongthehighroadinorderthathemightsolicitalms.Theblindmanwasleftthereallday;andwhennightcameon,thebrother—in—lawtoldthepeopleofhishousethathecouldfindnotraceofthemendicant.Thenheadded:
"Pooh!bestnotbotherabouthim!Hewascoldandgotsomeonetotakehimaway.Neverfear!he’snotlost.He’llturnupsoonenoughtomorrowtoeatthesoup."
Nextdayhedidnotcomeback.
Afterlonghoursofwaiting,stiffenedwiththecold,feelingthathewasdying,theblindmanbegantowalk.Beingunabletofindhiswayalongtheroad,owingtoitsthickcoatingofice,hewentonatrandom,fallingintoditches,gettingupagain,withoututteringasound,hissoleobjectbeingtofindsomehousewherehecouldtakeshelter.
But,bydegrees,thedescendingsnowmadeanumbnessstealoverhim,andhisfeeblelimbsbeingincapableofcarryinghimfarther,hesatdowninthemiddleofanopenfield.Hedidnotgetupagain.
Thewhiteflakeswhichfellcontinuouslyburiedhim,sothathisbody,quitestiffandstark,disappearedundertheincessantaccumulationoftheirrapidlythickeningmass,andnothingwaslefttoindicatetheplacewherehelay.
Hisrelativesmadeapretenceofinquiringabouthimandsearchingforhimforaboutaweek.Theyevenmadeashowofweeping.
Thewinterwassevere,andthethawdidnotsetinquickly.Now,oneSunday,ontheirwaytomass,thefarmersnoticedagreatflightofcrows,whowerewhirlingincessantlyabovetheopenfield,andthendescendinglikeashowerofblackrainatthesamespot,evergoingandcoming.
Thefollowingweekthesegloomybirdswerestillthere.Therewasacrowdofthemupintheair,asiftheyhadgatheredfromallcornersofthehorizon,andtheyswoopeddownwithagreatcawingintotheshiningsnow,whichtheycoveredlikeblackpatches,andinwhichtheykeptpeckingobstinately.Ayoungfellowwenttoseewhattheyweredoinganddiscoveredthebodyoftheblindman,alreadyhalfdevoured,mangled.
Hiswaneyeshaddisappeared,peckedoutbythelong,voraciousbeaks.
AndIcanneverfeelthegladradianceofsunlitdayswithoutsadlyrememberingandponderingoverthefateofthebeggarwhowassuchanoutcastinlife—thathishorribledeathwasarelieftoallwhohadknownhim.
INDISCRETION
Theyhadlovedeachotherbeforemarriagewithapureandloftylove.
Theyhadfirstmetonthesea—shore.Hehadthoughtthisyounggirlcharming,asshepassedbywithherlight—coloredparasolandherdaintydressamidthemarinelandscapeagainstthehorizon.Hehadlovedher,blondandslender,inthesesurroundingsofblueoceanandspacioussky.
Hecouldnotdistinguishthetendernesswhichthisbuddingwomanawokeinhimfromthevagueandpowerfulemotionwhichthefreshsaltairandthegrandsceneryofsurfandsunshineandwavesarousedinhissoul.
She,ontheotherhand,hadlovedhimbecausehecourtedher,becausehewasyoung,rich,kind,andattentive.Shehadlovedhimbecauseitisnaturalforyounggirlstolovemenwhowhispersweetnothingstothem.
So,forthreemonths,theyhadlivedsidebyside,andhandinhand.
Thegreetingwhichtheyexchangedinthemorningbeforethebath,inthefreshnessofthemorning,orintheeveningonthesand,underthestars,inthewarmthofacalmnight,whisperedlow,verylow,alreadyhadtheflavorofkisses,thoughtheirlipshadnevermet.
Eachdreamedoftheotheratnight,eachthoughtoftheotheronawaking,and,withoutyethavingvoicedtheirsentiments,eachlongerfortheother,bodyandsoul.
Aftermarriagetheirlovedescendedtoearth.Itwasatfirstatireless,sensuouspassion,thenexaltedtendernesscomposedoftangiblepoetry,morerefinedcaresses,andnewandfoolishinventions.Everyglanceandgesturewasanexpressionofpassion.
But,littlebylittle,withoutevennoticingit,theybegantogettiredofeachother.Lovewasstillstrong,buttheyhadnothingmoretorevealtoeachother,nothingmoretolearnfromeachother,nonewtaleofendearment,nounexpectedoutburst,nonewwayofexpressingthewell—
known,oft—repeatedverb.
Theytried,however,torekindlethedwindlingflameofthefirstlove.
Everydaytheytriedsomenewtrickordesperateattempttobringbacktotheirheartstheuncooledardoroftheirfirstdaysofmarriedlife.
Theytriedmoonlightwalksunderthetrees,inthesweetwarmthofthesummerevenings:thepoetryofmist—coveredbeaches;theexcitementofpublicfestivals.
OnemorningHenriettesaidtoPaul:
"Willyoutakemetoacafefordinner?"
"Certainly,dearie."
"Tosomewell—knowncafe?"
"Ofcourse!"
Helookedatherwithaquestioningglance,seeingthatshewasthinkingofsomethingwhichshedidnotwishtotell.
Shewenton:
"Youknow,oneofthosecafes——oh,howcanIexplainmyself?——asportycafe!"
Hesmiled:"Ofcourse,Iunderstand——youmeaninoneofthecafeswhicharecommonlycalledbohemian."
"Yes,that’sit.Buttakemetooneofthebigplaces,onewhereyouareknown,onewhereyouhavealreadysupped——no——dined——well,youknow——I———
—I——oh!Iwillneverdaresayit!"
"Goahead,dearie.Littlesecretsshouldnolongerexistbetweenus."
"No,Idarenot."
"Goon;don’tbeprudish.Tellme."
"Well,I——I——Iwanttobetakenforyoursweetheart——there!andIwanttheboys,whodonotknowthatyouaremarried,totakemeforsuch;andyoutoo——IwantyoutothinkthatIamyoursweetheartforonehour,inthatplacewhichmustholdsomanymemoriesforyou.There!AndIwillplaythatIamyoursweetheart.It’sawful,Iknow——Iamabominablyashamed,Iamasredasapeony.Don’tlookatme!"
Helaughed,greatlyamused,andanswered:
"Allright,wewillgoto—nighttoaveryswellplacewhereIamwellknown."
Towardseveno’clocktheywentupthestairsofoneofthebigcafesontheBoulevard,he,smiling,withthelookofaconqueror,she,timid,veiled,delighted.Theywereimmediatelyshowntooneoftheluxuriousprivatedining—rooms,furnishedwithfourlargearm—chairsandaredplushcouch.Theheadwaiterenteredandbroughtthemthemenu.Paulhandedittohiswife.
"Whatdoyouwanttoeat?"
"Idon’tcare;orderwhateverisgood."
Afterhandinghiscoattothewaiter,heordereddinnerandchampagne.
Thewaiterlookedattheyoungwomanandsmiled.Hetooktheorderandmurmured:
"WillMonsieurPaulhavehischampagnesweetordry?"
"Dry,verydry."
Henriettewaspleasedtohearthatthismanknewherhusband’sname.
Theysatonthecouch,sidebyside,andbegantoeat.
Tencandleslightedtheroomandwerereflectedinthemirrorsallaroundthem,whichseemedtoincreasethebrilliancyathousand—fold.
Henriettedrankglassafterglassinordertokeepuphercourage,althoughshefeltdizzyafterthefirstfewglasses.Paul,excitedbythememorieswhichreturnedtohim,keptkissinghiswife’shands.Hiseyesweresparkling.
Shewasfeelingstrangelyexcitedinthisnewplace,restless,pleased,alittleguilty,butfulloflife.Twowaiters,serious,silent,accustomedtoseeingandforgettingeverything,toenteringtheroomonlywhenitwasnecessaryandtoleavingitwhentheyfelttheywereintruding,weresilentlyflittinghitherandthither.
Towardthemiddleofthedinner,Henriettewaswellundertheinfluenceofchampagne.Shewasprattlingalongfearlessly,hercheeksflushed,hereyesglistening.
"Come,Paul;tellmeeverything."
"What,sweetheart?"
"Idon’tdaretellyou."
"Goon!"
"Haveyoulovedmanywomenbeforeme?"
Hehesitated,alittleperplexed,notknowingwhetherheshouldhidehisadventuresorboastofthem.
Shecontinued:
"Oh!pleasetellme.Howmanyhaveyouloved?"
"Afew."
"Howmany?"
"Idon’tknow.Howdoyouexpectmetoknowsuchthings?"
"Haven’tyoucountedthem?"
"Ofcoursenot."
"Thenyoumusthavelovedagoodmany!"
"Perhaps."
"Abouthowmany?Justtellmeabouthowmany."
"ButIdon’tknow,dearest.Someyearsagoodmany,andsomeyearsonlyafew."
"Howmanyayear,didyousay?"
"Sometimestwentyorthirty,sometimesonlyfourorfive."
"Oh!thatmakesmorethanahundredinall!"
"Yes,justabout."
"Oh!Ithinkthatisdreadful!"
"Whydreadful?"
"Becauseit’sdreadfulwhenyouthinkofit——allthosewomen——andalways——alwaysthesamething.Oh!it’sdreadful,justthesame——morethanahundredwomen!"
Hewassurprisedthatsheshouldthinkthatdreadful,andanswered,withtheairofsuperioritywhichmentakewithwomenwhentheywishtomakethemunderstandthattheyhavesaidsomethingfoolish:
"That’sfunny!Ifitisdreadfultohaveahundredwomen,it’sdreadfultohaveone."
"Oh,no,notatall!"
"Whynot?"
"Becausewithonewomanyouhavearealbondoflovewhichattachesyoutoher,whilewithahundredwomenit’snotthesameatall.Thereisnoreallove.Idon’tunderstandhowamancanassociatewithsuchwomen."
"Buttheyareallright."
"No,theycan’tbe!"
"Yes,theyare!"
"Oh,stop;youdisgustme!"
"Butthen,whydidyouaskmehowmanysweetheartsIhadhad?"
"Because————"
"That’snoreason!"
"Whatwerethey—actresses,littleshop—girls,orsocietywomen?"
"Afewofeach."
"Itmusthavebeenrathermonotonoustowardthelast."
"Oh,no;it’samusingtochange."
Sheremainedthoughtful,staringatherchampagneglass.Itwasfull——
shedrankitinonegulp;thenputtingitbackonthetable,shethrewherarmsaroundherhusband’sneckandmurmuredinhisear:
"Oh!howIloveyou,sweetheart!howIloveyou!"
Hethrewhisarmsaroundherinapassionateembrace.Awaiter,whowasjustentering,backedout,closingthedoordiscreetly.Inaboutfiveminutestheheadwaitercameback,solemnanddignified,bringingthefruitfordessert.Shewasoncemoreholdingbetweenherfingersafullglass,andgazingintotheamberliquidasthoughseekingunknownthings.
Shemurmuredinadreamyvoice:
"Yes,itmustbefun!"
AFAMILYAFFAIR
ThesmallengineattachedtotheNeuillysteam—tramwhistledasitpassedthePorteMaillottowarnallobstaclestogetoutofitswayandpuffedlikeapersonoutofbreathasitsentoutitssteam,itspistonsmovingrapidlywithanoiseasofironlegsrunning.ThetrainwasgoingalongthebroadavenuethatendsattheSeine.ThesultryheatatthecloseofaJulydaylayoverthewholecity,andfromtheroad,althoughtherewasnotabreathofwindstirring,therearoseawhite,chalky,suffocating,warmdust,whichadheredtothemoistskin,filledtheeyesandgotintothelungs.Peoplestoodinthedoorwaysoftheirhousestotryandgetabreathofair.
Thewindowsofthesteam—tramwereopenandthecurtainsflutteredinthewind.Therewereveryfewpassengersinside,becauseonwarmdayspeoplepreferredtheoutsideortheplatforms.Theyconsistedofstoutwomeninpeculiarcostumes,ofthoseshopkeepers’wivesfromthesuburbs,whomadeupforthedistinguishedlookswhichtheydidnotpossessbyill—assumeddignity;ofmentiredfromoffice—work,withyellowfaces,stoopedshoulders,andwithoneshoulderhigherthantheother,inconsequenceof,theirlonghoursofwritingatadesk.Theiruneasyandmelancholyfacesalsospokeofdomestictroubles,ofconstantwantofmoney,disappointedhopes,fortheyallbelongedtothearmyofpoor,threadbaredevilswhovegetateeconomicallyincheap,plasteredhouseswithatinypieceofneglectedgardenontheoutskirtsofParis,inthemidstofthosefieldswherenightsoilisdeposited.
Ashort,corpulentman,withapuffyface,dressedallinblackandwearingadecorationinhisbuttonhole,wastalkingtoatall,thinman,dressedinadirty,whitelinensuit,thecoatallunbuttoned,withawhitePanamahatonhishead.Theformerspokesoslowlyandhesitatinglythatitoccasionallyalmostseemedasifhestammered;hewasMonsieurCaravan,chiefclerkintheAdmiralty.Theother,whohadformerlybeensurgeononboardamerchantship,hadsetupinpracticeinCourbevoie,whereheappliedthevagueremnantsofmedicalknowledgewhichhehadretainedafteranadventurouslife,tothewretchedpopulationofthatdistrict.HisnamewasChenet,andstrangerumorswerecurrentastohismorality.
MonsieurCaravanhadalwaysledthenormallifeofamaninaGovernmentoffice.Forthelastthirtyyearshehadinvariablygonethesamewaytohisofficeeverymorning,andhadmetthesamemengoingtobusinessatthesametime,andnearlyonthesamespot,andhereturnedhomeeveryeveningbythesameroad,andagainmetthesamefaceswhichhehadseengrowingold.Everymorning,afterbuyinghispennypaperatthecorneroftheFaubourgSaintHonore,heboughttworolls,andthenwenttohisoffice,likeaculpritwhoisgivinghimselfuptojustice,andgottohisdeskasquicklyaspossible,alwaysfeelinguneasy;asthoughhewereexpectingarebukeforsomeneglectofdutyofwhichhemighthavebeenguilty.
Nothinghadeveroccurredtochangethemonotonousorderofhisexistence,fornoeventaffectedhimexcepttheworkofhisoffice,perquisites,gratuities,andpromotion.Heneverspokeofanythingbutofhisduties,eitherattheoffice,orathome——hehadmarriedtheportionlessdaughterofoneofhiscolleagues.Hismind,whichwasinastateofatrophyfromhisdepressingdailywork,hadnootherthoughts,hopesordreamsthansuchasrelatedtotheoffice,andtherewasaconstantsourceofbitternessthatspoilteverypleasurethathemighthavehad,andthatwastheemploymentofsomanynavalofficials,tinsmiths,astheywerecalledbecauseoftheirsilver—laceasfirst—
classclerks;andeveryeveningatdinnerhediscussedthematterhotlywithhiswife,whosharedhisangryfeelings,andprovedtotheirownsatisfactionthatitwasineverywayunjusttogiveplacesinParistomenwhooughtproperlytohavebeenemployedinthenavy.
Hewasoldnow,andhadscarcelynoticedhowhislifewaspassing,forschoolhadmerelybeenexchangedfortheofficewithoutanyintermediatetransition,andtheushers,atwhomhehadformerlytrembled,werereplacedbyhischiefs,ofwhomhewasterriblyafraid.Whenhehadtogointotheroomsoftheseofficialdespots,itmadehimtremblefromheadtofoot,andthatconstantfearhadgivenhimaveryawkwardmannerintheirpresence,ahumbledemeanor,andakindofnervousstammering.
HeknewnothingmoreaboutParisthanablindmanmightknowwhowasledtothesamespotbyhisdogeveryday;andifhereadtheaccountofanyuncommoneventsorscandalsinhispennypaper,theyappearedtohimlikefantastictales,whichsomepressmanhadmadeupoutofhisownhead,inordertoamusetheinferioremployees.Hedidnotreadthepoliticalnews,whichhispaperfrequentlyalteredasthecausewhichsubsidizeditmightrequire,forhewasnotfondofinnovations,andwhenhewentthroughtheAvenueoftheChamps—Elyseeseveryevening,helookedatthesurgingcrowdofpedestrians,andatthestreamofcarriages,asatravellermightwhohaslosthiswayinastrangecountry.
Ashehadcompletedhisthirtyyearsofobligatoryservicethatyear,onthefirstofJanuary,hehadhadthecrossoftheLegionofHonorbestoweduponhim,which,inthesemi—militarypublicoffices,isarecompenseforthemiserableslavery——theofficialphraseis,loyalservices——ofunfortunateconvictswhoarerivetedtotheirdesk.Thatunexpecteddignitygavehimahighandnewideaofhisowncapacities,andaltogetherchangedhim.Heimmediatelyleftoffwearinglighttrousersandfancywaistcoats,andworeblacktrousersandlongcoats,onwhichhisribbon,whichwasverybroad,showedoffbetter.Hegotshavedeverymorning,manicuredhisnailsmorecarefully,changedhislineneverytwodays,fromalegitimatesenseofwhatwasproper,andoutofrespectforthenationalOrder,ofwhichheformedapart,andfromthatdayhewasanotherCaravan,scrupulouslyclean,majesticandcondescending.
Athome,hesaid,"mycross,"ateverymoment,andhehadbecomesoproudofit,thathecouldnotbeartoseemenwearinganyotherribbonintheirbutton—holes.Hebecameespeciallyangryonseeingstrangeorders:
"WhichnobodyoughttobeallowedtowearinFrance,"andheboreChenetaparticulargrudge,ashemethimonatram—careveryevening,wearingadecorationofonekindoranother,white,blue,orange,orgreen.
Theconversationofthetwomen,fromtheArcdeTriomphetoNeuilly,wasalwaysthesame,andonthatdaytheydiscussed,firstofall,variouslocalabuseswhichdisgustedthemboth,andtheMayorofNeuillyreceivedhisfullshareoftheircensure.Then,asinvariablyhappensinthecompanyofmedicalmanCaravanbegantoenlargeonthechapterofillness,asinthatmanner,hehopedtoobtainalittlegratuitousadvice,ifhewascarefulnottoshowhishand.Hismotherhadbeencausinghimnolittleanxietyforsometime;shehadfrequentandprolongedfaintingfits,and,althoughshewasninety,shewouldnottakecareofherself.
Caravangrewquitetender—heartedwhenhementionedhergreatage,andmorethanonceaskedDoctorChenet,emphasizingtheworddoctor——althoughhewasnotfullyqualified,beingonlyanOffcierdeSante——whetherhehadoftenmetanyoneasoldasthat.Andherubbedhishandswithpleasure;not,perhaps,thathecaredverymuchaboutseeingthegoodwomanlastforeverhereonearth,butbecausethelongdurationofhismother’slifewas,asitwereanearnestofoldageforhimself,andhecontinued:
"Inmyfamily,welastlong,andIamsurethat,unlessImeetwithanaccident,IshallnotdieuntilIamveryold."
Thedoctorlookedathimwithpity,andglancedforamomentathisneighbor’sredface,hisshort,thickneck,his"corporation,"asChenetcalledittohimself,histwofat,flabbylegs,andtheapoplecticrotundityoftheoldofficial;andraisingthewhitePanamahatfromhishead,hesaidwithasnigger:
"Iamnotsosureofthat,oldfellow;yourmotherisastoughasnails,andIshouldsaythatyourlifeisnotaverygoodone."
ThisratherupsetCaravan,whodidnotspeakagainuntilthetramputthemdownattheirdestination,wherethetwofriendsgotout,andChenetaskedhisfriendtohaveaglassofvermouthattheCafeduGlobe,opposite,whichbothofthemwereinthehabitoffrequenting.Theproprietor,whowasafriendoftheirs,heldouttothemtwofingers,whichtheyshookacrossthebottlesofthecounter;andthentheyjoinedthreeoftheirfriends,whowereplayingdominoes,andwhohadbeentheresincemidday.Theyexchangedcordialgreetings,withtheusualquestion:
"Anythingnew?"Andthenthethreeplayerscontinuedtheirgame,andheldouttheirhandswithoutlookingup,whentheotherswishedthem"Good—night,"andthentheybothwenthometodinner.
Caravanlivedinasmalltwo—storyhouseinCourbevaie,nearwheretheroadsmeet;thegroundfloorwasoccupiedbyahair—dresser.Twobedrooms,adining—roomandakitchen,formedthewholeoftheirapartments,andMadameCaravanspentnearlyherwholetimeincleaningthemup,whileherdaughter,Marie—Louise,whowastwelve,andherson,Phillip—Auguste,wererunningaboutwithallthelittle,dirty,mischievousbratsoftheneighborhood,andplayinginthegutter.
Caravanhadinstalledhismother,whoseavaricewasnotoriousintheneighborhood,andwhowasterriblythin,intheroomabovethem.Shewasalwayscross,andsheneverpassedadaywithoutquarrelingandflyingintofurioustempers.Shewouldapostrophizetheneighbors,whowerestandingattheirowndoors,thecoster—mongers,thestreet—sweepers,andthestreet—boys,inthemostviolentlanguage;andthelatter,tohavetheirrevenge,usedtofollowheratadistancewhenshewentout,andcalloutrudethingsafterher.
AlittleservantfromNormandy,whowasincrediblygiddyandthoughtless,performedthehouseholdwork,andsleptonthesecondfloorinthesameroomastheoldwoman,forfearofanythinghappeningtoherinthenight.
WhenCaravangotin,hiswife,whosufferedfromachronicpassionforcleaning,waspolishingupthemahoganychairsthatwerescatteredabouttheroomwithapieceofflannel.Shealwaysworecottongloves,andadornedherheadwithacapornamentedwithmanycoloredribbons,whichwasalwaystiltedoveroneear;andwheneveranyonecaughtherpolishing,sweeping,orwashing,sheusedtosay:
"Iamnotrich;everythingisverysimpleinmyhouse,butcleanlinessismyluxury,andthatisworthquiteasmuchasanyother."
Asshewasgiftedwithsound,obstinate,practicalcommonsense,sheledherhusbandineverything.Everyeveningduringdinner,andafterwardswhentheywereintheirroom,theytalkedoverthebusinessoftheofficeforalongtime,andalthoughshewastwentyyearsyoungerthanhewas,heconfidedeverythingtoherasifshetookthelead,andfollowedheradviceineverymatter.
Shehadneverbeenpretty,andnowshehadgrownugly;inadditiontothat,shewasshortandthin,whilehercarelessandtastelesswayofdressingherselfconcealedherfewsmallfeminineattractions,whichmighthavebeenbroughtoutifshehadpossessedanytasteindress.
Herskirtswerealwaysawry,andshefrequentlyscratchedherself,nomatteronwhatpartofherperson,totallyindifferentastowhomightseeher,andsopersistently,thatanyonewhosawhermightthinkthatshewassufferingfromsomethingliketheitch.Theonlyadornmentsthatsheallowedherselfweresilkribbons,whichshehadingreatprofusion,andofvariouscolorsmixedtogether,inthepretentiouscapswhichsheworeathome.
Assoonasshesawherhusbandsheroseandsaid,asshekissedhiswhiskers:
"DidyourememberPotin,mydear?"
Hefellintoachair,inconsternation,forthatwasthefourthtimeonwhichhehadforgottenacommissionthathehadpromisedtodoforher.
"Itisafatality,"hesaid;"itisnogoodformetothinkofitalldaylong,forIamsuretoforgetitintheevening."
Butasheseemedreallysoverysorry,shemerelysaid,quietly:
"Youwillthinkofitto—morrow,Idaresay.Anythingnewattheoffice?"
"Yes,agreatpieceofnews;anothertinsmithhasbeenappointedsecondchiefclerk."Shebecameveryserious,andsaid:
"SohesucceedsRamon;thiswastheverypostthatIwantedyoutohave.
AndwhataboutRamon?"
"Heretiresonhispension."
Shebecamefurious,hercapsliddownonhershoulder,andshecontinued:
"Thereisnothingmoretobedoneinthatshopnow.Andwhatisthenameofthenewcommissioner?"
"Bonassot."
ShetookuptheNavalYearBook,whichshealwayskeptcloseathand,andlookedhimup.
"’Bonassot—Toulon.Bornin1851.StudentCommissionerin1871.Sub—
Commissionerin1875.’Hashebeentosea?"shecontinued.AtthatquestionCaravan’slooksclearedup,andhelaugheduntilhissidesshook.
"AsmuchasBalin——asmuchasBaffin,hischief."Andheaddedanoldofficejoke,andlaughedmorethanever:
"ItwouldnotevendotosendthembywatertoinspectthePoint—du—Jour,fortheywouldbesickonthepennysteamboatsontheSeine."
Butsheremainedasseriousasifshehadnotheardhim,andthenshesaidinalowvoice,asshescratchedherchin:
"IfweonlyhadaDeputytofallbackupon.WhentheChamberhearseverythingthatisgoingonattheAdmiralty,theMinisterwillbeturnedout————,Shewasinterruptedbyaterriblenoiseonthestairs.Marie—LouiseandPhilippe—Auguste,whohadjustcomeinfromthegutter,wereslappingeachotherallthewayupstairs.Theirmotherrushedatthemfuriously,andtakingeachofthembyanarmshedraggedthemintotheroom,shakingthemvigorously;butassoonastheysawtheirfather,theyrusheduptohim,andhekissedthemaffectionately,andtakingoneofthemoneachknee,begantotalktothem.
Philippe—Augustewasanugly,ill—kemptlittlebrat,dirtyfromheadtofoot,withthefaceofanidiot,andMarie—Louisewasalreadylikehermother——spokelikeher,repeatedherwords,andevenimitatedhermovements.Shealsoaskedhimwhethertherewasanythingfreshattheoffice,andherepliedmerrily:
"Yourfriend,Ramon,whocomesanddineshereeverySunday,isgoingtoleaveus,littleone.Thereisanewsecondhead—clerk."
Shelookedatherfather,andwithaprecociouschild’spity,shesaid:
"Anothermanhasbeenputoveryourheadagain."
Hestoppedlaughing,anddidnotreply,andinordertocreateadiversion,hesaid,addressinghiswife,whowascleaningthewindows:
"Howismamma,upstairs?"
MadameCaravanleftoffrubbing,turnedround.pulledhercapup,asithadfallenquiteontoherback,andsaidwithtremblinglips:
"Ah!yes;letustalkaboutyourmother,forshehasmadeaprettyscene.Justimagine:ashorttimeagoMadameLebaudin,thehairdresser’swife,cameupstairstoborrowapacketofstarchofme,and,asIwasnotathome,yourmotherchasedheroutasthoughshewereabeggar;butI
gaveittotheoldwoman.Shepretendednottohear,asshealwaysdoeswhenonetellsherunpleasanttruths,butsheisnomoredeafthanIam,asyouknow.Itisallasham,andtheproofofitis,thatshewentuptoherownroomimmediately,withoutsayingaword."
Caravan,embarrassed,didnotutteraword,andatthatmomentthelittleservantcameintoannouncedinner.Inordertolethismotherknow,hetookabroom—handle,whichalwaysstoodinacorner,andrappedloudlyontheceilingthreetimes,andthentheywentintothedining—room.MadameCaravan,junior,helpedthesoup,andwaitedfortheoldwoman,butshedidnotcome,andasthesoupwasgettingcold,theybegantoeatslowly,andwhentheirplateswereempty,theywaitedagain,andMadameCaravan,whowasfurious,attackedherhusband:
"Shedoesitonpurpose,youknowthataswellasIdo.Butyoualwaysupholdher."
Notknowingwhichsidetotake,hesentMarie—Louisetofetchhergrandmother,andhesatmotionless,withhiseyescastdown,whilehiswifetappedherglassangrilywithherknife.Inaboutaminute,thedoorflewopensuddenly,andthechildcameinagain,outofbreathandverypale,andsaidhurriedly:
"Grandmammahasfallenonthefloor."
Caravanjumpedup,threwhistable—napkindown,andrushedupstairs,whilehiswife,whothoughtitwassometrickofhermother—in—law’s,followedmoreslowly,shrugginghershoulders,asiftoexpressherdoubt.Whentheygotupstairs,however,theyfoundtheoldwomanlyingatfulllengthinthemiddleoftheroom;andwhentheyturnedherover,theysawthatshewasinsensibleandmotionless,whileherskinlookedmorewrinkledandyellowthanusual,hereyeswereclosed,herteethclenched,andherthinbodywasstiff.
Caravankneltdownbyher,andbegantomoan.
"Mypoormother!mypoormother!"hesaid.ButtheotherMadameCaravansaid:
"Bah!Shehasonlyfaintedagain,thatisall,andshehasdoneittopreventusfromdiningcomfortably,youmaybesureofthat."
Theyputheronthebed,undressedhercompletely,andCaravan,hiswife,andtheservantbegantorubher;but,inspiteoftheirefforts,shedidnotrecoverconsciousness,sotheysentRosalie,theservant,tofetchDoctorChenet.Helivedalongwayoff,onthequay,goingtowardsSuresnes,andsoitwasaconsiderabletimebeforehearrived.Hecameatlast,however,and,afterhavinglookedattheoldwoman,feltherpulse,andlistenedforaheartbeat,hesaid:"Itisallover."
Caravanthrewhimselfonthebody,sobbingviolently;hekissedhismother’srigidface,andweptsothatgreattearsfellonthedeadwoman’sfacelikedropsofwater,and,naturally,MadameCaravan,junior,showedadecorousamountofgrief,andutteredfeeblemoansasshestoodbehindherhusband,whilesherubbedhereyesvigorously.
But,suddenly,Caravanraisedhimselfup,withhisthinhairindisorder,and,lookingveryuglyinhisgrief,said:
"But——areyousure,doctor?Areyouquitesure?"
Thedoctorstoopedoverthebody,and,handlingitwithprofessionaldexterity,asashopkeepermightdo,whenshowingoffhisgoods,hesaid:
"See,mydearfriend,lookathereye."
Heraisedtheeyelid,andtheoldwoman’seyeappearedaltogetherunaltered,unless,perhaps,thepupilwasratherlarger,andCaravanfeltasevereshockatthesight.ThenMonsieurChenettookherthinarm,forcedthefingersopen,andsaid,angrily,asifhehadbeencontradicted:
"Justlookatherhand;Inevermakeamistake,youmaybequitesureofthat."
Caravanfellonthebed,andalmostbellowed,whilehiswife,stillwhimpering,didwhatwasnecessary.
Shebroughtthenight—table,onwhichshespreadatowelandplacedfourwaxcandlesonit,whichshelighted;thenshetookasprigofbox,whichwashangingoverthechimneyglass,andputitbetweenthefourcandles,inaplate,whichshefilledwithcleanwater,asshehadnoholywater.
But,afteramoment’srapidreflection,shethrewapinchofsaltintothewater,nodoubtthinkingshewasperformingsomesortofactofconsecrationbydoingthat,andwhenshehadfinished,sheremainedstandingmotionless,andthedoctor,whohadbeenhelpingher,whisperedtoher:
"WemusttakeCaravanaway."
Shenoddedassent,and,goinguptoherhusband,whowasstillonhisknees,sobbing,sheraisedhimupbyonearm,whileChenettookhimbytheother.
Theyputhimintoachair,andhiswifekissedhisforehead,andthenbegantolecturehim.Chenetenforcedherwordsandpreachedfirmness,courage,andresignation——theverythingswhicharealwayswantinginsuchoverwhelmingmisfortunes——andthenbothofthemtookhimbythearmsagainandledhimout.
Hewascryinglikeagreatchild,withconvulsivesobs;hisarmshangingdown,andhislegsweak,andhewentdownstairswithoutknowingwhathewasdoing,andmovinghisfeetmechanically.Theyputhimintothechairwhichhealwaysoccupiedatdinner,infrontofhisemptysoupplate.
Andtherehesat,withoutmoving,hiseyesfixedonhisglass,andsostupefiedwithgrief,thathecouldnoteventhink.
Inacorner,MadameCaravanwastalkingwiththedoctorandaskingwhatthenecessaryformalitieswere,asshewantedtoobtainpracticalinformation.Atlast,MonsieurChenet,whoappearedtobewaitingforsomething,tookuphishatandpreparedtogo,sayingthathehadnotdinedyet;whereuponsheexclaimed:
"What!youhavenotdined?Why,stayhere,doctor;don’tgo.Youshallhavewhateverwehave,for,ofcourse,youunderstandthatwedonotfaresumptuously."Hemadeexcusesandrefused,butshepersisted,andsaid:
"Youreallymuststay;attimeslikethis,peopleliketohavefriendsnearthem,and,besidesthat,perhapsyouwillbeabletopersuademyhusbandtotakesomenourishment;hemustkeepuphisstrength."
Thedoctorbowed,and,puttingdownhishat,hesaid:
"Inthatcase,Iwillacceptyourinvitation,madame."
ShegaveRosalie,whoseemedtohavelostherhead,someorders,andthensatdown,"topretendtoeat,"asshesaid,"tokeepthedoctorcompany."
Thesoupwasbroughtinagain,andMonsieurChenettooktwohelpings.
Thentherecameadishoftripe,whichexhaledasmellofonions,andwhichMadameCaravanmadeuphermindtotaste.
"Itisexcellent,"thedoctorsaid,atwhichshesmiled,and,turningtoherhusband,shesaid:
"Dotakealittle,mypoorAlfred,onlyjusttoputsomethinginyourstomach.Rememberthatyouhavegottopassthenightwatchingbyher!"
Heheldouthisplate,docilely,justashewouldhavegonetobed,ifhehadbeentoldto,obeyingherineverything,withoutresistanceandwithoutreflection,andheate;thedoctorhelpedhimselfthreetimes,whileMadameCaravan,fromtimetotime,fishedoutalargepieceattheendofherfork,andswalloweditwithasortofstudiedindifference.
Whenasaladbowlfullofmacaroniwasbroughtin,thedoctorsaid:
"ByJove!ThatiswhatIamveryfondof."Andthistime,MadameCaravanhelpedeverybody.Sheevenfilledthesaucersthatwerebeingscrapedbythechildren,who,beinglefttothemselves,hadbeendrinkingwinewithoutanywater,andwerenowkickingeachotherunderthetable.
ChenetrememberedthatRossini,thecomposer,hadbeenveryfondofthatItaliandish,andsuddenlyheexclaimed:
"Why!thatrhymes,andonecouldbeginsomelineslikethis:
TheMaestroRossiniWasfondofmacaroni."
Nobodylistenedtohim,however.MadameCaravan,whohadsuddenlygrownthoughtful,wasthinkingofalltheprobableconsequencesoftheevent,whileherhusbandmadebreadpellets,whichheputonthetable—cloth,andlookedatwithafixed,idioticstare.Ashewasdevouredbythirst,hewascontinuallyraisinghisglassfullofwinetohislips,andtheconsequencewasthathismind,whichhadbeenupsetbytheshockandgrief,seemedtobecomevague,andhisideasdancedaboutasdigestioncommenced.
Thedoctor,who,meanwhile,hadbeendrinkingawaysteadily,wasgettingvisiblydrunk,andMadameCaravanherselffeltthereactionwhichfollowsallnervousshocks,andwasagitatedandexcited,and,althoughshehaddrunknothingbutwater,herheadfeltratherconfused.
Presently,Chenetbegantorelatestoriesofdeaththatappearedcomicaltohim.ForinthatsuburbofParis,thatisfullofpeoplefromtheprovinces,onefindsthatindifferencetowardsdeathwhichallpeasantsshow,wereiteventheirownfatherormother;thatwantofrespect,thatunconsciousbrutalitywhichissocommoninthecountry,andsorareinParis,andhesaid:
"Why,IwassentforlastweektotheRueduPuteaux,andwhenIwent,I
foundthepatientdeadandthewholefamilycalmlysittingbesidethebedfinishingabottleofaniseedcordial,whichhadbeenboughtthenightbeforetosatisfythedyingman’sfancy."
ButMadameCaravanwasnotlistening;shewascontinuallythinkingoftheinheritance,andCaravanwasincapableofunderstandinganythingfurther.
Coffeewaspresentlyserved,andithadbeenmadeverystrongtogivethemcourage.Aseverycupwaswellflavoredwithcognac,itmadealltheirfacesred,andconfusedtheirideasstillmore.Tomakemattersstillworse,Chenetsuddenlyseizedthebrandybottleandpouredout"adropforeachofthemjusttowashtheirmouthsoutwith,"ashetermedit,andthen,withoutspeakinganymore,overcomeinspiteofthemselves,bythatfeelingofanimalcomfortwhichalcoholaffordsafterdinner,theyslowlysippedthesweetcognac,whichformedayellowishsyrupatthebottomoftheircups.
Thechildrenhadfallenasleep,andRosaliecarriedthemofftobed.
Caravan,mechanicallyobeyingthatwishtoforgetoneselfwhichpossessesallunhappypersons,helpedhimselftobrandyagainseveraltimes,andhisdulleyesgrewbright.Atlastthedoctorrosetogo,andseizinghisfriend’sarm,hesaid:
"Comewithme;alittlefreshairwilldoyougood.Whenoneisintrouble,onemustnotremaininonespot."
Theotherobeyedmechanically,putonhishat,tookhisstick,andwentout,andbothofthemwalkedarm—in—armtowardstheSeine,inthestarlightnight.
Theairwaswarmandsweet,forallthegardensintheneighborhoodwerefullofflowersatthisseasonoftheyear,andtheirfragrance,whichisscarcelyperceptibleduringtheday,seemedtoawakenattheapproachofnight,andmingledwiththelightbreezeswhichblewupontheminthedarkness.
Thebroadavenuewithitstworowsofgaslamps,thatextendedasfarastheArcdeTriomphe,wasdesertedandsilent,buttherewasthedistantroarofParis,whichseemedtohaveareddishvaporhangingoverit.
Itwasakindofcontinualrumbling,whichwasattimesansweredbythewhistleofatraininthedistance,travellingatfullspeedtotheocean,throughtheprovinces.
Thefreshaironthefacesofthetwomenratherovercamethematfirst,madethedoctorlosehisequilibriumalittle,andincreasedCaravan’sgiddiness,fromwhichhehadsufferedsincedinner.Hewalkedasifhewereinadream;histhoughtswereparalyzed,althoughhefeltnogreatgrief,forhewasinastateofmentaltorporthatpreventedhimfromsuffering,andheevenfeltasenseofreliefwhichwasincreasedbythemildnessofthenight.