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第6章

  Thislineofthoughtheabandonedquickly,however;itcoulddonogood.Butwhatcoulddogood,heaskedhimself.Whatcouldhedo?
  Withblindingforcecametheanswer:hecoulddonothing.Billycaredforhim.Billyhadsaid"yes."Billyexpectedtobehiswife.Asifhecouldsaytohernow:"Ibegyourpardon,but’twasallamistake._I_didnotaskyoutomarryme."
  VeryvaliantlythenWilliamsummonedhiswitsandtriedtoacthispart.Hetoldhimself,too,thatitwouldnotbeahardone;thathelovedBillydearly,andthathewouldtrytomakeherhappy.Hewincedalittleatthisthought,forherememberedsuddenlyhowoldhewas——asifhe,athisage,wereafitmatchforagirloftwenty—one!
  AndthenhelookedatBilly.Thegirlwasplainlynervous.Therewasadeepflushonhercheeksandabrilliantsparkleinhereyes.
  Shewastalkingrapidly——almostincoherentlyattimes——andhervoicewastremulous.Frequentlittleembarrassedlaughspunctuatedhersentences,andherfingerstoyedwitheverythingthatcamewithinreach.Sometimebeforeshehadsprungtoherfeetandhadturnedontheelectriclights;andwhenshecamebackshehadnottakenheroldpositionatWilliam’sside,buthadseatedherselfinachairnearby.Allofwhich,accordingtoWilliam’seyes,meantthemaidenlyshynessofagirlwhohasjustsaid"yes"tothemansheloves.
  Williamwenthomethatnightinadaze.Tohimselfhesaidthathehadgoneoutinsearchofadaughter,andhadcomebackwithawife.
  CHAPTERXXXVII
  "WILLIAM’SBROTHER"
  Itwasdecidedthatforthepresent,theengagementshouldnotbeknownoutsidethefamily.Theweddingwouldnottakeplaceimmediately,Williamsaid,anditwasjustaswelltokeepthemattertothemselvesuntilplanswerealittlemoredefinite.
  Themembersofthefamilyweretoldatonce.AuntHannahsaid"Oh,mygriefandconscience!"threetimes,andmademattersscarcelybetterbyaddingapologetically:"Oh,ofcourseit’sallright,it’sallright,only——"Shedidnotfinishhersentence,andWilliam,whohadtoldherthenews,didnotknowwhetherhewouldhavebeenmoreorlesspleasedifshehadfinishedit.
  Cyrilreceivedtheinformationmoodily,andlapsedatonceintoafitofabstractionfromwhichherousedhimselfhardlyenoughtoofferperfunctorycongratulationsandbestwishes.
  BillywasalittlepuzzledatCyril’sbehavior.ShehadbeensureforsometimethatCyrilhadceasedtocarespeciallyforher,evenifheeverdidfancythathelovedher.Shehadhopedtokeephimforafriend,butoflateshehadbeenforcedtoquestionevenhisfriendliness.Hehad,infact,gonebackalmosttohisoldreserveandtaciturnaloofness.
  FromtheWest,inresponsetoWilliam’snewsoftheengagement,cameacordiallypleasednoteinKate’sscrawlinghandwriting.
  Kate,indeed,seemedtobetheonlymemberofthefamilywhowasgenuinelydelightedwiththecomingmarriage.AstoBertram——
  Bertramappearedtohaveagedyearsinasinglenight,sodrawnandwhitewashisfacethemorningafterWilliamhadtoldhimhisplans.
  WilliamhaddreadedmostofalltotellBertram.HewasverysurethatBertramhimselfcaredforBilly;anditwasdoublyhardbecauseinWilliam’sownmindwasastrongconvictionthattheyoungermanwasdecidedlytheoneforher.Realizing,however,thatBertrammustbetold,WilliamchoseatimeforthetellingwhenBertramwassmokinginhisdeninthetwilight,withhisfacehalfhiddenfromsight.
  Bertramsaidlittle——verylittle,thatnight;butinthemorninghewentstraighttoBilly.
  Billywasshocked.Shehadneverseenthesmiling,self—reliant,debonairBertramlikethis.
  "Billy,isthistrue?"hedemanded.ThedullmiseryinhisvoicetoldBillythatheknewtheanswerbeforeheaskedthequestion.
  "Yes,yes;but,Bertram,please——pleasedon’ttakeitlikethis!"
  sheimplored.
  "Howwouldyouhavemetakeit?"
  "Why,just——justsensibly.YouknowItoldyouthat——thattheothernevercouldbe——never."
  "IknowYOUsaidso;butI——believedotherwise."
  "ButItoldyou——Ididnotloveyou——thatway."
  Bertramwinced.Herosetohisfeetabruptly.
  "Iknowyoudid,Billy.I’mafool,ofcourse,tothinkthatI
  couldever——changeit.Ishouldn’thavecomehere,either,thismorning.ButI——hadto.Good—by!"Hisface,asheheldouthishand,wastragicwithrenunciation.
  "Why,Bertram,youaren’tgoing——now——likethis!"criedthegirl.
  "You’vejustcome!"
  Themanturnedalmostimpatiently.
  "AnddoyouthinkIcanstay——likethis?Billy,won’tyousaygood—by?"heaskedinasoftervoice,againwithoutstretchedhand.
  Billyshookherhead.Sheignoredthehand,andresolutelybackedaway.
  "No,notlikethat.Youareangrywithme,"shegrieved.
  "Besides,youmakeitsoundasif——ifyouweregoingaway."
  "Iamgoingaway."
  "Bertram!"TherewasterroraswellasdismayinBilly’svoice.
  Againthemanturnedsharply.
  "Billy,whyareyoumakingthisthingsohardforme?"heaskedindespair."Can’tyouseethatImustgo?"
  "Indeed,Ican’t.Andyoumustn’tgo,either.Thereisn’tanyreasonwhyyoushould,"urgedBilly,talkingveryfast,andworkingherfingersnervously."Thingsarejustthesameastheywerebefore——foryou.I’mjustgoingtomarryWilliam,butIwasn’tevergoingtomarryyou,sothatdoesn’tchangethingsanyforyou.
  Don’tyousee?Why,Bertram,youmustn’tgoaway!Therewon’tbeanybodyleft.Cyril’sgoingnextweek,youknow;andifyougotherewon’tbeanybodyleftbutWilliamandme.Bertram,youmustn’tgo;don’tyousee?Ishouldfeellostwithout——you!"
  Billywasalmostcryingnow.
  Bertramlookedupquickly.Anoddchangehadcometohisface.
  ForamomenthegazedsilentlyintoBilly’sagitatedcountenance;
  thenheaskedinalowvoice:
  "Billy,didyouthinkthatafteryouandWilliamweremarriedI
  shouldstillcontinuetoliveat——theStrata?"
  "Why,ofcourseyouwill!"criedthegirl,indignantly."Why,Bertram,you’llbemybrotherthen——myrealbrother;andoneoftheverychiefestthingsI’manticipatingwhenIgotheretoliveisthegoodtimesyouandIwillhavetogetherwhenI’mWilliam’swife!"
  Bertramdrewinhisbreathaudibly,andcaughthislowerlipbetweenhisteeth.Withanabruptmovementheturnedhisbackandwalkedtothewindow.Forafullminutehestayedthere,watchedbytheamazed,displeasedeyesofthegirl.WhenhecamebackhesatdownquietlyinthechairfacingBilly.Hiscountenancewasgraveandhiseyeswerealittletroubled;butthehaggardlookofmiserywasquitegone.
  "Billy,"hebegangently,"youmustforgivemysayingthis,but——
  areyouquitesureyou——loveWilliam?"
  Billyflushedwithanger.
  "Youhavenorighttoasksuchaquestion.OfcourseIloveWilliam."
  "Ofcourseyoudo——weallloveWilliam.Williamis,infact,amostlovableman.ButWilliam’swifeshould,perhaps,lovehimalittledifferentlyfrom——allofus."
  "Andshewill,certainly,"retortedthegirl,withaquickliftingofherchin."Bertram,Idon’tthinkyouhaveanyrightto——tomakesuchinsinuations."
  "AndIwon’tmakethemanymore,"repliedBertram,gravely."I
  justwantedyoutomakesurethatyou——knew."
  "Ishallmakesure,andIshallknow,"saidBilly,firmly——sofirmlythatitsoundedalmostasifsheweretryingtoconvinceherselfaswellasothers.
  Therewasalongpause,thenthemanaskeddiffidently:
  "Andsoyouareverysurethat——thatyouwantmeto——stay?"
  "IndeedIdo!Besides,——don’tyouremember?——thereareallmypeopletobeentertained.Theymustbetakentoplaces,andgivenmotorridesandpicnics.Youtoldmelastweekthatyou’dlovetohelpme;but,ofcourse,ifyoudon’twantto——"
  "ButIdowantto,"criedBertram,heartily,agleamoftheoldcheerfulnessspringingtohiseyes."I’mdyingto!"
  Thegirllookedupwithquickdistrust.Foramomentsheeyedhimwithbentbrows.Tohermindhehadgonebacktohisoldairy,hopefullight—heartedness.Hewasoncemore"onlyBertram."Shehesitated,thensaidwithsterndecision:
  "Bertram,youknowIwantyou,andyoumustknowthatI’mdelightedtohaveyoudropthissillynotionofgoingaway.Butifthisquickchangemeansthatyouarestayingwithanyideathat——that_I_shallchange,then——thenyoumustgo.ButifyouwillstayasWILLIAM’SBROTHERthen——I’llbemorethangladtohaveyou."
  "I’llstay——asWilliam’sbrother,"agreedBertram;andBillydidnotnoticethequickindrawingofhisbreathnorthecloseshuttingofhislipsafterthewordswerespoken.
  CHAPTERXXXVIII
  THEENGAGEMENTOFTWO
  BythemiddleofJulytheroutineofBilly’sdayswaswellestablished.Mariehadbeenforaweekawelcomeadditiontothefamily,andshewasprovingtobeofinvaluableaidinentertainingBilly’sguests.Theoverworkedwidowandthelittlelodging—housekeeperfromtheWestEndwereenjoyingBilly’shospitalitynow;andjusttolookattheirbeamingcountenanceswasaninspiration,Billysaid.
  Cyrilhadgoneabroad.AuntHannahwasspendingaweekattheNorthShorewithfriends.Bertram,truetohispromise,wasplayingthegallanttoBilly’sguests;andsoassiduouswasheinhisattentionsthatBillyatlastremonstratedwithhim.
  "ButIdidn’tmeanthemtotakeALLyourtime,"sheprotested.
  "Don’ttheylikeit?Dotheyseetoomuchofme?"hedemanded.
  "No,no!Theyloveit,ofcourse.Youmustknowthat.Nobodyelsecouldgivesuchbeautifultimesasyou’vegivenus.Butit’syourselfI’mthinkingof.You’regivingupallyourtime.
  Besides,Ididn’tmeantokeepyouhereallsummer,ofcourse.Youalwaysgoawaysome,youknow,foravacation."
  "ButI’mhavingavacationhere,doingthis,"laughedBertram.
  "I’msureI’mgettingseaairdowntothebeachesandmountainairouttotheBlueHills.Andasforexcitement——ifyoucanfindanythingmorewildlyexcitingthanitwasyesterdaywhenMissMarieandItookthewidowandthespinsterladyontheRoller—coaster——
  justshowittome;that’sall!"
  Billylaughed.
  "Theytoldmeaboutit——Marieinparticular.Shesaidyouwerelovelytothem,andletthemdoeverysinglethingtheywantedto;
  andthathalfanhouraftertheygottheretheywereliketwochildrenletoutofschool.Dearme,IwishI’dgone.IneverstayathomethatIdon’tmisssomething,"shefinishedregretfully.
  Bertramshruggedhisshoulders.
  "Ifit’sRoller—coastersandChute—the—chutesthatyouwant,I
  fancyyou’llgetenoughbeforetheweekisout,"hesighedlaughingly."Theysaidthey’dliketogothereto—morrow,please,whenIaskedthemwhatweshoulddonext.Whatsurprisesmeisthattheylikesuchthings——suchhair—raisingthings.WhenIfirstsawthem,black—gownedandstiff—backed,sittinginyourlittleroomhere,IthoughtIshouldneverdareofferthemanythingmorewildlyexcitingthanachurchserviceoralectureonpsychology,withperhapsabandconcerthintedat,providedthebandcouldbeproperlyinstructedbeforehandastotempoandselections.Butnow——really,Billy,whydoyousupposetheyhavetakensuchafancytothesekiddishstunts——thosetwostaidwomen?"
  Billylaughed,buthereyessoftened.
  "Idon’tknowunlessit’sbecausealltheirlivesthey’vebeentiedtosuchdeadmonotonythatjusttheexhilarationofmotionisblisstothem.Butyouwon’talwayshavetoriskyourneckandyourtemperinthisfashion,Bertram.NextweekmylittlecouplefromSouthBostoncomes.Sheadorespicturesandstuffedanimals.
  You’llhavetodothemuseumswithher.Thenthere’slittlecrippledTommy——he’llbeperfectlycontentedifyou’llputhimdownwherehecanhearthebandplay.Andallyou’llhavetodowhenthatonestopsistopilothimtothenextone.ThisISgoodofyou,Bertram,andIdothankyouforit,"finishedBilly,fervently,justasMarie,thewidow,andthe"spinsterlady"enteredtheroom.
  Billytoldherselfthesedaysthatshewasveryhappy——veryhappyindeed.Wasshenotengagedtoagoodman,anddidshenotalsohaveitinherpowertomakethelongsummerdaysapleasuretomanypeople?Thefactthatshehadtotellherselfthatshewashappyinordertoconvinceherselfthatshewasso,didnotoccurtoBilly——yet.
  NotlongafterMariearrived,Billytoldheroftheengagement.
  Williamwasatthehouseveryfrequently,andowingtotheintimacyofMarie’srelationshipwiththefamilyBillydecidedtotellherhowmattersstood.Marie’sreceptionofthenewswassomewhatsurprising.Firstshelookedfrightened.
  "ToWilliam?——youareengagedtoWilliam?"
  "Why——yes."
  "ButIthought——surelyitwas——don’tyoumean——Mr.Cyril?"
  "No,Idon’t,"laughedBilly."AndcertainlyIoughttoknow."
  "Andyoudon’t——careforhim?"
  "Ihopenot——ifI’mgoingtomarryWilliam."
  SolightwasBilly’svoiceandmannerthatMariedaredonemorequestion.
  "Andhe——doesn’tcare——foryou?"
  "Ihopenot——ifWilliamisgoingtomarryme,"laughedBillyagain.
  "Oh—h!"breathedMarie,withanoddintonationofrelief."ThenI’mglad——soglad!AndIhopeyou’llbevery,veryhappy,dear."
  BillylookedintoMarie’sglowingfaceandwaspleased:thereseemedtobesofew,soveryfewfacesintowhichshehadlookedandfoundentireapprobationofherengagementtoWilliam.
  BillysawagreatdealofWilliamnow.Hewasalwayskindandconsiderate,andhetriedtohelpherentertainherguests;butBilly,gratefulasshewastohimforhisefforts,wasrelievedwhenheresignedhisplacetoBertram.Bertramdid,indeed,knowsomuchbetterhowtodoit.Williamtriedtohelpher,too,abouttraininghervinesandrosebushes;butofcourse,eveninthis,hecouldnotbeexpectedtoshowquitetheinterestthatBertrammanifestedineverygreenshootandopeningbud,forhehadnothelpedherplantthem,asBertramhad.
  Billywasalittletroubledsometimes,thatshedidnotfeelmoreateasewithWilliam.Shethoughtitnaturalthatsheshouldfeelalittlediffidentwithhim,inthefaceofhissuddenchangefroman"uncle"toanacceptedlover;butshedidnotseewhysheshouldbeafraidofhim——yetshewas.Sheownedthattoherselfunhappily.
  Andhewassogood!——sheownedthat,too.Heseemednottohaveathoughtintheworldbutforhercomfortandhappiness;andtherewasnoendtothetactfullittlethingshewasalwaysdoingforherpleasure.Heseemed,also,tohavedivinedthatshedidnotliketobekissedandcaressed;andonlyoccasionallydidhekissher,andthenitwasmerelyasortoffatherlysaluteonherforehead——forwhichconsiderationBillywasgrateful:Billydecidedthatshewouldnotliketobekissedonthelips.
  AftersomedaysofpuzzlingoverthematterBillyconcludedthatitwasself—consciousnessthatcausedallthetrouble.WithWilliamshewasself—conscious.IfshecouldonlyforgetthatshewassomedaytobeWilliam’swife,theolddelightfulcomradeshipwouldreturn,andshewouldbeateaseagainwithhim.Intime,aftershehadbecomeaccustomedtotheideaofmarriage,itwouldnotsoconfuseher,ofcourse.Shelovedhimdearly,andshewantedtomakehimhappy;butforthepresent——justwhileshewas"gettingusedtothings"——shewouldtrytoforget,sometimes,thatshewasgoingtobeWilliam’swife.
  Billywashappiernow.Shewasalwayshappieraftershehadthoughtthingsouttoherownsatisfaction.Sheturnedwithnewzesttotheentertainmentofherguests;andwithBertramsheplannedmanydelightfultripsfortheirpleasure.Bertramwasagreatcomforttoherthesedays.Never,inwordorlook,couldsheseethatheoversteppedtherolewhichhehadpromisedtoplay——
  William’sbrother.
  Billywentbacktohermusic,too.Anewmelodywasrunningthroughherhead,andshelongedtoputitonpaper.Alreadyherfirstlittle"GroupofSongs"hadfoundfriends,andBilly,toaverymodestextent,wasbeginningtotastethesweetsoffame.
  Thus,byalltheseinterests,didBillytry"togetusedtothings."
  CHAPTERXXXIX
  ALITTLEPIECEOFPAPER
  OfallBilly’sguests,Mariewasveryplainlythehappiest.Shewasapermanentguest,itistrue,whiletheotherscameforonlyaweekortwoatatime;butitwasnotthis,Billydecided,thathadbroughtsobrilliantasparkletoMarie’seyes,sojoyousalaughtoherlips.Thejoyousnesswasallthemorenoticeable,becauseheretoforeMarie,whileverysweet,hadbeenalsosad.Herbigblueeyeshadalwayscarriedahauntingshadow,andherstephadlackedthespringbelongingtoyouthandhappiness.Certainly,Billyhadneverseenherlikethisbefore.
  "Verily,Marie,"sheteasedoneday,"haveyoufoundanexhaustlesssupplyofstockingstomend,oranever—donepuddingtomake——
  which?"
  "Why?Whatdoyoumean?"
  "Oh,nothing.Iwasonlywonderingjustwhathadbroughtthatnewlighttoyoureyes."
  "Isthereanewlight?"
  "Therecertainlyis."
  "ItmustbebecauseI’msohappy,then,"sighedMarie;"becauseyou’resogoodtome."
  "Isthatall?"
  "Isn’tthatenough?"Marie’stonewasevasive.
  "No."Billyshookherheadmischievously."Marie,whatisit?"
  "It’snothing——really,it’snothing,"protestedMarie,hurryingoutoftheroomwithanervouslaugh.
  Billyfrowned.Shewassuspiciousbefore;shewassurenow.Inlessthantwelvehours’timecameheropportunity.ShewasaloneagainwithMarie.
  "Marie,whoishe?"sheaskedabruptly.
  "He?Who?"
  "Themanwhoistowearthestockingsandeatthepudding."
  Thelittlemusicteacherflushedveryred,butshemanagedtodisplaysomethingthatmightpassforsurprise.
  "BILLY!"
  "Come,dear,"coaxedBilly,winningly."Tellmeaboutit.I’msointerested!"
  "Butthereisn’tanythingtotell——reallythereisn’t."
  "Whoishe?"
  "Heisn’tanybody——thatis,hedoesn’tknowhe’sanybody,"amendedMarie.
  Billylaughedsoftly.
  "Oh,doesn’the!Hasn’theevershown——thathecared?"
  "No;thatis——perhapshehas,onlyIthoughtthen——thatitwas——
  anothergirl."
  "Anothergirl!Sothere’sanothergirlinthecase?"
  "Yes.Imean,no,"correctedMarie,suddenlybeginningtorealizewhatshewassaying."Really,itwasn’tanything——itisn’tanything!"sheprotested.
  "Hm—m,"murmuredBilly,archly."Oh,I’mgettingonsome!Hedidshow,once,thathecared;butyouthoughtitwasanothergirl,andyoucoldlylookedtheotherway.Now,thereISN’Tanyothergirl,youfind,and——Marie,tellmetherest!"
  Marieshookherheademphatically,andpulledherselfgentlyawayfromBilly’sgrasp.
  "No,no,please!"shebegged."Itreallyisn’tanything.I’msureI’mimaginingitall!"shecried,assheranaway.
  Duringthedaysthatfollowed,BillyspeculatednotalittleonMarie’shalf—toldstory,andwonderedinterestedlywhothemanmightbe.ShequestionedMarieonceagain,butthegirlwouldtellnothingmore;and,indeed,Billywassooccupiedwithherownperplexitiesthatshehadlittletimeforthoseofotherpeople.
  ToherselfBillywasforcedtoownthatshewasnot"gettingusedtothings."Shewasstillself—consciouswithWilliam;shecouldnotforgetthatshewasonedaytobehiswife.Shecouldnotbringbackthedearoldfreedomofcomradeshipwithhim.
  Billywasalarmednow.Shehadbeguntoaskherselfsearchingquestions.Whatshouldshedoifnever,nevershouldshegetusedtotheideaofmarryingWilliam?Howcouldshemarryhimifhewasstill"UncleWilliam,"andneverherdearloverinhereyes?Whyhadshenotbeenwiseenoughandbraveenoughtotellhiminthefirstplacethatshewasnotatallsurethatshelovedhim,butthatshewouldtrytodoso?Thenwhenshehadtried——asshehadnow——andfailed,shecouldhavetoldhimhonestlythetruth,anditwouldnothavebeensogreatashocktohimasitmustbenow,ifsheshouldtellhim.
  Billyhadremorsefullycometotheconclusionthatshecouldneverloveanymanwellenoughtomarryhim,whenonedaysosmallathingasapieceofpaperflutteredintohervision,andshowedherthefallacyofthatidea.
  Itwasahalf—sheetofnotepaper,anditblewfromMarie’sbalconytothelawnbelow.Billyfoundittherelater,andasshepickedituphereyesfellonasinglenameinMarie’shandwritinginscribedhalfadozentimesasifthewriterhadmusinglyaccompaniedherthoughtswithherpen;andthenamewas,"MarieHenshaw."
  ForamomentBillystaredatthenameperplexedly——theninaflashcametheremembranceofMarie’swords;andBillybreathed:
  "Henshaw!——theman——BERTRAM!"
  Billydroppedthepaperthenandfled.Inherownroom,behindlockeddoors,shesatdowntothink.
  Bertram!ItwasheforwhomMariecared——HERBertram!AndthenitcametoBillywithstaggeringforcethathewasnotHERBertramatall.HenevercouldbeherBertramnow.Hewas——Marie’s.
  Billywasfrightenedthen,sofiercewasthisstrangenewsomethingthatrosewithinher——thisoverpoweringsomethingthatseemedtoblotoutalltheworld,andleaveonly——Bertram.Sheknewthen,thatithadalwaysbeenBertramtowhomshehadturned,thoughshehadbeenblindtothecauseofthatturning.Alwaysherplanshadincludedhim.Alwaysshehadbeenthehappiestinhispresence;
  neverhadshepicturedhimanywhereelsebutatherside.
  Certainlyneverhadshepicturedhimasthedevotedloverofanotherwoman!Andshehadnotknownwhatitallmeant——
  poorblindchildthatshewas!
  VeryresolutelynowBillysetherselftolookingmatterssquarelyintheface.Sheunderstooditquitewell.AllsummerMarieandBertramhadbeenthrowntogether.NowonderMariehadfalleninlovewithBertram,andthathe——BillythoughtshecomprehendednowwhyBertramhadfounditsoeasyforthelastfewweekstobeWilliam’sbrother.She,ofcourse,hadbeenthe"othergirl"whomMariehadoncefearedthatthemanloved.Itwasallsoclear——sowoefullyclear!
  WithanachingheartBillyaskedherselfwhatnowwastobedone.
  Forherself,turnwhicheverwayshecould,shecouldseenothingbutunhappiness.Shedetermined,therefore,withSpartanfortitude,thattonooneelsewouldshebringequalunhappiness.
  Shewouldbesilent.BertramandMarielovedeachother.Thatmatterwassettled.AstoWilliam——BillythoughtofthestoryWilliamhadtoldherofhislonelylife,——ofthepleahehadmadetoher;andherheartached.Whateverhappened,Williammustbemadehappy.Williammustnotbetold.HerpromisetoWilliammustbekept.
  CHAPTERXL
  WILLIAMPAYSAVISIT
  BeforeSeptemberpassedallBilly’sfriendssaidthathersummer’sself—appointedtaskhadbeentoohardforher.Innootherwaycouldtheyaccountforthesadchangethathadcometoher.
  UndeniablyBillylookedreallyill.Alwaysslender,shewasshadow—likenow.Hereyeshadfoundagainthewistfulappealofhergirlhood,onlynowtheycarriedsomethingthatwasalmostfear,aswell.Therose—flushhadgonefromhercheeks,andpatheticlittlehollowshadappeared,makingtheroundyoungchinbelowlookalmostpointed.CertainlyBillydidseemtobeill.
  LateinSeptemberWilliamwentWestonbusiness.Incidentallyhecalledtoseehissister,Kate.
  "Well,andhowiseverybody?"askedKate,cheerily,afterthegreetingswereover.
  Williamsighed.
  "Well,’everybody,’tome,Kate,isprettybadlyoff.We’reworriedaboutBilly."
  "Billy!Youdon’tmeanshe’ssick?Why,she’salwaysbeenthepictureofhealth!"
  "Iknowshehas;butsheisn’tnow."
  "What’sthetrouble?"
  "That’swhatwedon’tknow."
  "You’vehadthedoctor?"
  "Ofcourse;twoorthreeofthem——thoughmuchagainstBilly’swill.
  But——theydidn’thelpus."
  "Whatdidtheysay?"
  "Theycouldfindnothingexceptperhapsalittletemporarystomachtrouble,orsomethingofthatkind,whichtheyallagreedwasnojustcauseforherpresentcondition."
  "Butwhatdidtheysayitwas?"
  "Why,theysaiditseemedlikenervousness,orasifsomethingwastroublingher.Theyaskedifsheweren’tundersomesortofstrain."
  "Well,isshe?Doesanythingtroubleher?"
  "NotthatIknowof.Anyhow,ifthereisanything,noneofuscanfindoutwhatitis."
  Katefrowned.Shethrewaquicklookintoherbrother’sface.
  "William,"shebeganhesitatingly,"forgiveme,but——Billyisquitehappyin——herengagement,Isuppose."
  Themanflushedpainfully,andsighed.
  "I’vethoughtofthat,ofcourse.Infact,itwasthefirstthingIdidthinkof.Ievenbegantowatchherratherclosely,andonceI——questionedheralittle."
  "Whatdidshesay?"
  "SheseemedsofrightenedanddistressedthatIdidn’tsaymuchmyself.Icouldn’t.Ihadbutjustbegunwhenhereyesfilledwithtears,andsheaskedmeinafrightenedlittlevoiceifshehaddoneanythingtodispleaseme,anythingtomakemeunhappy;andsheseemedsoanxiousandgrievedanddismayedthatIshouldevenquestionher,thatIhadtostop."
  "Whathasshedonethissummer?Wherehasshebeen?"
  "Shehasn’tbeenanywhere.Didn’tIwriteyou?She’skeptopenhouseforalotofherlessfortunatefriends——asortofvacationhome,youknow;and——andImustsayshe’sgiventhemaworldofhappiness,too."
  "Butwasn’tthathardforher?"
  "Itdidn’tseemtobe.Sheappearedtoenjoyitimmensely,particularlyatfirst.Ofcourseshehadplentyofhelp,andthatwonderfullittleMissHawthornhasbeenahostinherself.They’reallgonenow,anyway,exceptMissHawthorn."
  "ButBillymusthavehadthecareandtheexcitement."
  "Perhaps——toacertainextent.Thoughnotmuch,afterall.YouseeBertram,too,hasgivenuphissummertothem,andhasbeenplayingthedevotedescorttothewholebunch.Indeed,forthelastfewweeksofit,sinceBillybegantoseemsoill,heandMissHawthornhaveschemedtotakeallthecarefromBilly,andtheyhavedonethewholethingtogether."
  "ButwhatHASBillydonetomakeherlikethis?"
  "Idon’tknow.She’sdonelotsforme,inallsortsofways——
  cataloguingmycurios,youknow,andgoingwithmetohuntupthings.Infact,sheseemsthehappiestwhensheISdoingsomethingforme.It’scometobeasortofmaniawithher,I’mafraid——todosomethingforme.Kate,I’mreallyworried.Whatdoyousupposeisthematter?"
  Kateshookherhead.Thepuzzledfrownhadcomebacktoherface.
  "Ican’timagine,"shebeganslowly."Ofcourse,whenItoldheryoulovedherand——"
  "Whenyoutoldherwha—at?"explodedtheusuallylow—voicedWilliam,withsuddensharpness.
  "WhenItoldherthatyoulovedher,William.Yousee,I——"
  Williamsprangtohisfeet.
  "ToldherthatIlovedher!"hecried,aghast."Goodheavens,Kate,doyoumeantosaythatYOUtoldherTHAT."
  "Why,y—yes."
  "AndmayIaskwhereyougotyourinformation?"
  "Why,WilliamHenshaw,whataquestion!Igotitfromyourself,ofcourse,"defendedKate.
  "FromME!"William’sfaceexpressedsheeramazement.
  "Certainly;onthatdrivewhenIwasEastinJune,"returnedKate,withdignity."YOUevidentlyhaveforgottenit,butIhavenot.
  Youtoldmeveryfranklyhowmuchyouthoughtofher,andhowyoulongedtohaveherbacktherewithyou,butthatshedidn’tseemtobereadytocome.Iwassorryforyou,andIwantedtodosomethingtohelp,particularlyasitmighthavebeenmyfault,partly,thatshewentaway,inthefirstplace."
  Williamliftedhishead.
  "Whatdoyoumean?"
  "Why,nothing,onlythatI——Itoldheralittleofhow——howupsettingherarrivalhadbeentoeverything,andofhowmuchyouhaddoneforher,andputyourselfout.Isaiditsoshe’dappreciatethings,ofcourse,butshetookitquitedifferentlyfromwhatIhadintendedsheshouldtakeit,andseemedquitecutupaboutit.Thenshewentawayinthatwily,impulsivefashion."
  Williambithislip,buthedidnotspeak.Katewasplungingonfeverishly,andinthefaceofthegreaterrevelationheletthelesseronedrop.
  "Andsothat’swhyIwasparticularlyanxioustobringthingsaroundrightagain,"continuedKate."Andthat’swhyIspoke.I
  thoughtI’dseenhowthingswere,andonthedriveIsaidso.TheniswhenIadvisedyoutospeaktoBilly;butyoudeclaredthatBillywasn’tready,andthatyoucouldn’tmakeagirlmarryagainstherwill.NOWdon’tyourecollectit?"
  AgreatlightofunderstandingbrokeoverWilliam’sface.Hestartedtospeak,butsomethingevidentlystayedthewordsonhislips.Withcontrolleddeliberationheturnedandsatdown.Thenhesaid:
  "Kate,willyoukindlytellmejustwhatyouDIDdo?"
  "Why,Ididn’tdosoverymuch.Ijusttriedtohelp,that’sall.
  AfterItalkedwithyou,andadvisedyoutoaskBillyrightawaytomarryyou,Iwenttoher.Ithoughtshecaredforyoualready,anyway;butIjustwantedtotellherhowverymuchitwastoyou,andsosortofpavetheway.AndnowcomesthepartthatIstartedtotellyoualittlewhileagowhenyoucaughtmeupsosharply.I
  wasgoingtosaythatwhenItoldBillythis,sheappearedtobesurprised,andalmostfrightened.Yousee,shehadn’tknownyoucaredforher,afterall,andsoIhadachancetohelpandmakeitplaintoherhowyoudidloveher,sothatwhenyouspokeeverythingwouldbeallright.There,that’sall.YouseeIdidn’tdosoverymuch."
  "’Soverymuch’!"groanedWilliam,startingtohisfeet."GreatScott!"
  "Why,William,whatdoyoumean?Whereareyougoing?"
  "I’mgoing——to——Billy,"retortedWilliamwithslowdistinctness.
  "AndI’mgoingtotrytogetthere——before——you——CAN!"Andwiththisextraordinaryshot——forWilliam——heleftthehouse.
  WilliamwenttoBillyasfastassteamcouldcarryhim.Hefoundherinherlittledrawing—roomlistlesslywatchingwithAuntHannahthegameofchessthatBertramandMariewereplaying.
  "Billy,youpoor,dearchild,comehere,"hesaidabruptly,assoonastheexcitementofhisunexpectedarrivalhadpassed."Iwanttotalktoyou."Andheledthewaytotheverandawhichheknewwouldbesilentanddeserted.
  "Totalkto——me?"murmuredBilly,asshewonderinglycametohisside,astartledquestioninginherwidedarkeyes.
  CHAPTERXLI
  THECROOKEDMADESTRAIGHT
  Williamdidnotre—enterthehouseafterhistalkwithBillyontheveranda.
  "Iwillgodownthestepsandaroundbytherosegardentothestreet,dear,"hesaid."I’drathernotgoinnow.Justmakemyadieus,please,andsaythatIcouldn’tstayanylonger.Andnow——
  good—by."Hiseyesastheylookeddownather,weremoistandverytender.Hislipstrembledalittle,buttheysmiled,andtherewasalookofnew—bornpeaceandjoyonhisface.
  Billy,too,wassmiling,thoughwistfully.Thefrightenedquestioninghadgonefromhereyes,leavingonlyinfinitetenderness.
  "Youaresureit——itisallright——now?"shestammered.
  "Verysure,littlegirl;andit’sthefirsttimeithasbeenrightforweeks.Billy,thatwasverydearofyou,andIloveyouforit;butthinkhownear——howperilouslynearyoucametolifelongmisery!"
  "ButIthought——youwantedme——somuch,"shesmiledshyly.
  "AndIdid,andIdo——foradaughter.Youdon’tdoubtthatNOW?"
  "No,oh,no,"laughedBilly,softly;andtoherfacecameahappylookofreliefasshefinished:"AndI’llbesogladtobe——thedaughter!"
  Forsomeminutesafterthemanhadgone,Billystoodbythestepswherehehadlefther.ShewasstilltherewhenBertramcametotheverandadoorandspoketoher.
  "Billy,IsawWilliamgobythewindow,soIknewyouwerealone.
  MayIspeaktoyou?"
  Thegirlturnedwithastart.
  "Why,ofcourse!Whatisit?——butIthoughtyouwereplaying.
  WhereisMarie?"
  "Thegameisfinished;besides——Billy,whyareyoualwaysaskingmelatelywhereMarieis,asifIwereherkeeper,orshemine?"hedemanded,withatouchofnervousirritation.
  "Why,nothing,Bertram,"smiledBilly,alittlewearily;"onlythatyouwereplayingtogetherafewminutesago,andIwonderedwhereshehadgone."
  "’Afewminutesago’!"echoedBertramwithsuddenbitterness.
  "Evidentlythetimepassedswiftlywithyou,Billy.WilliamwasouthereMOREthananhour."
  "Why——Bertram!"
  "Yes,Iknow.I’venobusinesstosaythat,ofcourse,"sighedtheman;"but,Billy,that’swhyIcameout——becauseImustspeaktoyouthisonce.Won’tyoucomeandsitdown,please?"heimploreddespairingly.
  "Why,Bertram,"murmuredBillyagain,faintly,assheturnedtowardthevine—shadedcornerandsatdown.Hereyeswerestartled.A
  swiftcolorhadcometohercheeks.
  "Billy,"begantheman,inasternlycontrolledvoice,"pleaseletmespeakthisonce,anddon’ttrytostopme.Youmaythink,foramoment,thatit’sdisloyaltoWilliamifyoulisten;butitisn’t.
  There’sthismuchduetome——thatyouletmespeaknow.Billy,I
  can’tstandit.I’vetried,butit’snouse.I’vegottogoaway,andit’srightthatIshould.I’mnottheonlyonethatthinksso,either.Mariedoes,too."
  "MARIE!"
  "Yes.Italkeditalloverwithher.She’sknownforalongtimehowit’sbeenwithme;howIcared——foryou."
  "Marie!You’vetoldMariethat?"gaspedBilly.
  "Yes.Surelyyoudon’tmindMarie’sknowing,"wentonBertram,dejectedly."Andshe’sbeensogoodtome,andtriedto——helpme."
  BertramwasnotlookingatBillynow.Ifhehadbeenhewouldhaveseentheincredulousjoycomeintoherface.Hiseyesweremoodilyfixedonthefloor.
  "Andso,Billy,I’vecometotellyou.I’mgoingaway,"hecontinued,afteramoment."I’vegottogo.Ithoughtonce,whenIfirsttalkedwithyouofWilliam,thatyoudidn’tknowyourownheart;thatyoudidn’treallycareforhim.Iwasevenfoolenoughtothinkthat——thatitwouldbeItowhomyou’dturn——someday.
  AndsoIstayed.ButIstayedhonorably,Billy!YOUknowthat!
  YouknowthatIhaven’tonceforgotten——notonce,thatIwasonlyWilliam’sbrother.IpromisedyouI’dbethat——andIhavebeen;
  haven’tI?"
  Billynoddedsilently.Herfacewasturnedaway.
  "But,Billy,Ican’tdoitanylonger.I’vegottoaskformypromiseback,andthen,ofcourse,Ican’tstay."
  "Butyou——youdon’thavetogo——away,"murmuredthegirl,faintly.
  Bertramsprangtohisfeet.Hisfacewaswhite.
  "Billy,"hecried,standingtallandstraightbeforeher,"Billy,I
  loveeverytouchofyourhand,everyglanceofyoureye,everywordthatfallsfromyourlips.DoyouthinkIcanstay——now?Iwantmypromiseback!WhenI’mnolongerWilliam’sbrother——thenI’llgo!"
  "Butyoudon’thavetohaveitback——thatis,youdon’thavetohaveitatall,"stammeredBilly,flushingadorably.She,too,wasonherfeetnow.
  "Billy,whatdoyoumean?"
  "Don’tyousee?I——IHAVEturned,"shefalteredbreathlessly,holdingoutbothherhands.
  Eventhen,inspiteofthegreatlightthatleapedtohiseyes,Bertramadvancedonlyasinglestep.
  "But——William?"hequestioned,unbelievingly.
  "ItWASamistake,justasyouthought.Weknownow——bothofus.
  Wedon’teitherofuscarefortheother——thatway.And——Bertram,IthinkitHASbeenyou——allthetime,onlyIdidn’tknow!"
  "Billy,Billy!"chokedBertraminavoiceshakenwithemotion.Heopenedhisarmsthen,wide——andBillywalkedstraightintothem.
  CHAPTERXLII
  THE"ENDOFTHESTORY"
  ItwastwodaysafterBilly’snewhappinesshadcometoherthatCyrilcamehome.HewentverysoontoseeBilly.
  Thegirlwassurprisedatthechangeinhisappearance.Hehadgrownthinandhaggardlooking,andhiseyesweresomber.Hemovedrestlesslyabouttheroomforatime,finallyseatinghimselfatthepianoandlettinghisfingersslipfromonemournfullittlemelodytoanother.Then,withadiscordantcrash,heturned.
  "Billy,doyouthinkanygirlwouldmarry——me?"hedemanded.
  "Why,Cyril!"
  "There,now,pleasedon’tbeginthat,"hebeggedfretfully."I
  realize,ofcourse,thatI’maveryunlikelysubjectformatrimony.
  Youmademeunderstandthatclearlyenoughlastwinter!"
  "Last——winter?"
  Cyrilraisedhiseyebrows.
  "Oh,Icametoyouforalittleencouragement,andtomakeaconfession,"hesaid."Imadetheconfession——butIdidn’tgettheencouragement."
  Billychangedcolor.Shethoughtsheknewwhathemeant,butatthesametimeshecouldn’tunderstandwhyheshouldwishtorefertothatconversationnow.
  "A——confession?"sherepeated,hesitatingly.
  "Yes.ItoldyouthatI’dbeguntodoubtmybeingsuchawoman—
  hater,afterall.IintimatedthatYOU’Dbegunthesofteningprocess,andthatthenI’dfoundacertainotheryoungwomanwhohad——well,whohadkeptupthegoodwork."
  "Oh!"criedBillysuddenly,withapeculiarintonation."Oh—h!"
  Thenshelaughedsoftly.
  "Well,thatwastheconfession,"resumedCyril."ThenIcameoutflat—footedandsaidthatIwantedtomarryher——butthereiswhereIdidn’tgettheencouragement!"
  "Indeed!I’mafraidIwasn’tveryconsiderate,"stammeredBilly.
  "No,youweren’t,"agreedCyril,moodily."Ididn’tknowbutnow——"
  hisvoicesoftenedalittle——"withthisnewhappinessofyoursandBertram’sthat——youmightfindalittleencouragementforme."
  "AndIwill,"criedBilly,promptly."Tellmeabouther."
  "Idid——lastwinter,"reproachedtheman,"andyouweresureIwasdeceivingmyself.YoudrewthegloomiestsortofpictureofthemiseryIwouldtakewithawife."
  "Idid?"Billywaslaughingverymerrilynow.
  "Yes.Yousaidshe’dalwaysbetalkingandlaughingwhenIwantedtobequiet,andthatshe’dwanttodragmeouttopartiesandplayswhenIwantedtostayathome;and——oh,lotsofthings.I
  triedtomakeitcleartoyouthat——thatthislittlewomanwasn’tthatsort.ButIcouldn’t,"finishedCyril,gloomily.
  "Butofcoursesheisn’t,"declaredBilly,withquicksympathy.
  "I——Ididn’tknow——WHAT——Iwas——talkingabout,"sheaddedwithemphaticdistinctness.ThenshesmiledtothinkhowlittleCyrilknewhowverytruethosewordswere."Tellmeabouther,"shebeggedagain."Iknowshemustbeverylovelyandbrilliant,andofcourseawonderfulmusician.YOUcouldn’tchooseanyoneelse!"
  TohersurpriseCyrilturnedabruptlyandbegantoplayagain.A
  nervouslittlestaccatoscherzofellfromhisfingers,butitdroppedalmostatonceintoaquietermelody,andendedwithsomethingthatsoundedverymuchlikethelaststrainof"Home,SweetHome."Thenhewheeledaboutonthepianostool.
  "Billy,that’sexactlywhereyou’rewrong——IDON’Twantthatkindofwife.Idon’twantabrilliantone,and——now,Billy,thissoundslikehorribleheresy,Iknow,butit’strue——Idon’tcarewhethershecanplay,ornot;butIshouldpreferthatsheshouldn’tplay——much!"
  "Why,CyrilHenshaw!——andyou,withyourmusic!Asifyoucouldbecontentedwithawomanlikethat!"
  "Oh,Iwanthertolikemusic,ofcourse,"modifiedCyril;"butI
  don’tcaretohaveherMAKEit.Billy,doyouknow?You’lllaugh,ofcourse,butmypictureofawifeisalwaysonething:aroomwithatableandashadedlamp,andalittlewomanbesideitwiththelightonherhair,andagreat,basketofsewingbesideher.
  YouseeIAMdomestic!"hefinishedalittledefiantly.
  "Ishouldsayyouwere,"laughedBilly."Andhaveyoufoundher?——
  thislittlewomanwhoistodonothingbutsitandsewinthecircleoftheshadedlamp?"
  "Yes,I’vefoundher,butI’mnotatallsureshe’sfoundme.
  That’swhereIwantyourhelp.Oh,Idon’tmean,ofcourse,"headded,"thatshe’sgottositunderthatlampallthetime.It’sonlythat——thatIhopeshelikesthatsortofthing."
  "And——doesshe?"
  "Yes;thatis,Ithinkshedoes,"smiledCyril."Anyhow,shetoldmeoncethat——thatthethingsshelikedbesttodoinalltheworldweretomendstockingsandtomakepuddings."
  Billysprangtoherfeetwithalittlecry.Now,indeed,hadCyrilkepthispromiseandmade"manythingsclear"toher.
  "Cyril,comehere,"shecriedtremulously,leadingthewaytotheopenverandadoor.ThenextmomentCyrilwaslookingacrossthelawntothelittlesummerhouseinthemidstofBilly’srosegarden.
  InfullviewwithinthesummerhousesatMarie——sewing.
  "Go,Cyril;she’swaitingforyou,"smiledBilly,mistily."Thelight’sonlythesun,tobesure,andmaybethereisn’tawholebasketofsewingthere.But——SHE’Sthere!"
  "You’ve——guessed,then!"breathedCyril.
  "I’venotguessed——Iknow.And——it’sallright."
  "Youmean——?"OnlyCyril’spleadingeyesfinishedthequestion.
  "Yes,I’msureshedoes,"noddedBilly.Andthensheaddedunderherbreathasthemanpassedswiftlydownthesteps:"’MarieHenshaw’indeed!So’twasCyrilallthetime——andneverBertram——
  whowastheinspirationofthatbitofpapergive—away!"
  WhensheturnedbackintotheroomshecamefacetofacewithBertram.
  "Ispoke,dear,butyoudidn’thear,"hesaid,ashehurriedforwardwithoutstretchedhands.
  "Bertram,"greetedBilly,withsurprisingirrelevance,"’andtheyalllivedhappilyeverafter’——theyDID!Isn’tthatalwaystheendingtothestory——alovestory?"
  "Ofcourse,"saidBertramwithemphasis;——"OURlovestory!"
  "Andtheirs,"supplementedBilly,softly;butBertramdidnothearthat.