首页 >出版文学> Indian Summer of a Forsyte>第63章
  ”Doyoustillthinkthatinanycaseshecan’thaveanother?””Onecan’tbeabsolutelysure,butit’smostunlikely。””She’sstrong,”saidSoames;”we’lltaketherisk。”Thedoctorlookedathimverygravely。”It’sonyourshoulders,”
  hesaid;”withmyownwife,Icouldn’t。”
  Soames’chinjerkedupasifsomeonehadhithim。”AmIofanyuseupthere?”heasked。”No;keepaway。””Ishallbeinmypicture-gallery,then;youknowwhere。”
  Thedoctornodded,andwentupstairs。
  Soamescontinuedtostand,listening。’Bythistimeto-morrow,’hethought,’Imayhaveherdeathonmyhands。’No!itwasunfair——
  monstrous,toputitthatway!Sullennessdroppedonhimagain,andhewentuptothegallery。Hestoodatthewindow。Thewindwasinthenorth;itwascold,clear;verybluesky,heavyraggedwhitecloudschasingacross;theriverblue,too,throughthescreenofgoldeningtrees;thewoodsallrichwithcolour,glowing,burnished-anearlyautumn。Ifitwerehisownlife,wouldhebetakingthatrisk?’Butshe’dtaketheriskoflosingme,’hethought,’soonerthanloseherchild!Shedoesn’treallyloveme!’
  Whatcouldoneexpect——agirlandFrench?Theonethingreallyvitaltothemboth,vitaltotheirmarriageandtheirfutures,wasachild!’I’vebeenthroughalotforthis,’hethought,’I’llholdon——holdon。There’sachanceofkeepingboth——achance!’
  Onekepttillthingsweretaken——onenaturallykept!Hebeganwalkingroundthegallery。Hehadmadeonepurchaselatelywhichheknewwasafortuneinitself,andhehaltedbeforeit——agirlwithdullgoldhairwhichlookedlikefilamentsofmetalgazingatalittlegoldenmonstershewasholdinginherhand。Evenatthistorturedmomenthecouldjustfeeltheextraordinarynatureofthebargainhehadmade——admirethequalityofthetable,thefloor,thechair,thegirl’sfigure,theabsorbedexpressiononherface,thedullgoldfilamentsofherhair,thebrightgoldofthelittlemonster。Collectingpictures;growingricher,richer!Whatuse,if……!Heturnedhisbackabruptlyonthepicture,andwenttothewindow。Someofhisdoveshadflownupfromtheirperchesroundthedovecot,andwerestretchingtheirwingsinthewind。Intheclearsharpsunlighttheirwhitenessalmostflashed。Theyflewfar,makingaflung-uphieroglyphicagainstthesky。Annettefedthedoves;itwasprettytoseeher。Theytookitoutofherhand;
  theyknewshewasmatter-of-fact。Achokingsensationcameintohisthroat。Shewouldnot——couldnoddie!Shewastoo——toosensible;andshewasstrong,reallystrong,likehermother,inspiteofherfairprettinessItwasalreadygrowingdarkwhenatlastheopenedthedoor,andstoodlistening。Notasound!Amilkytwilightcreptaboutthestairwayandthelandingsbelow。Hehadturnedbackwhenasoundcaughthisear。Peeringdown,hesawablackshapemoving,andhisheartstoodstill。Whatwasit?Death?TheshapeofDeathcomingfromherdoor?No!onlyamaidwithoutcaporapron。Shecametothefootofhisflightofstairsandsaidbreathlessly:”Thedoctorwantstoseeyou,sir。”
  Herandown。Shestoodflatagainstthewalltolethimpass,andsaid:”Oh,Sir!it’sover。””Over?”saidSoames,withasortofmenace;”whatd’youmean?””It’sborn,sir。”
  Hedashedupthefourstepsinfrontofhim,andcamesuddenlyonthedoctorinthedimpassage。Themanwaswipinghisbrow。”Well?”hesaid;”quick!””Bothliving;it’sallright,Ithink。”
  Soamesstoodquitestill,coveringhiseyes。”Icongratulateyou,”heheardthedoctorsay;”itwastouchandgo。”
  Soamesletfallthehandwhichwascoveringhisface。”Thanks,”hesaid;”thanksverymuch。Whatisit?””Daughter——luckily;asonwouldhavekilledher——thehead。”
  Adaughter!”Theutmostcareofboth,”heheartsthedoctorsay,”andweshalldo。Whendoesthemothercome?””To-night,betweennineandten,Ihope。””I’llstaytillthen。Doyouwanttoseethem?””Notnow,”saidSoames;”beforeyougo。I’llhavedinnersentuptoyou。”Andhewentdownstairs。
  Reliefunspeakable,andyet——adaughter!Itseemedtohimunfair。
  Tohavetakenthatrisk——tohavebeenthroughthisagony——andwhatagony!——foradaughter!Hestoodbeforetheblazingfireofwoodlogsinthehall,touchingitwithhistoeandtryingtoreadjusthimself。’Myfather!’hethought。Abitterdisappointment,nodisguisingit!Onenevergotallonewantedinthislife!Andtherewasnoother——atleast,iftherewas,itwasnouse!
  Whilehewasstandingthere,atelegramwasbroughthim。”Comeupatonce,yourfathersinkingfast——
  MOTHER。”
  Hereaditwithachokingsensation。Onewouldhavethoughthecouldn’tfeelanythingaftertheselasthours,buthefeltthis。
  Half-pastseven,atrainfromReadingatnine,andmadame’strain,ifshehadcaughtit,cameinateight-forty——hewouldmeetthat,andgoon。Heorderedthecarriage,atesomedinnermechanically,andwentupstairs。Thedoctorcameouttohim。”They’resleeping。””Iwon’tgoin,”saidSoameswithrelief。”Myfather’sdying;I
  haveto——goup。Isitallright?”
  Thedoctor’sfaceexpressedakindofdoubtingadmiration。’Iftheywereallasunemotional’hemighthavebeensaying。”Yes,Ithinkyoumaygowithaneasymind。You’llbedownsoon?””To-morrow,”saidSoames。”Here’stheaddress。”
  Thedoctorseemedtohoveronthevergeofsympathy。”Good-night!”saidSoamesabruptly,andturnedaway。Heputonhisfurcoat。Death!Itwasachillybusiness。Hesmokedacigaretteinthecarriage——oneofhisrarecigarettes。Thenightwaswindyandflewonblackwings;thecarriagelightshadtosearchouttheway。Hisfather!Thatold,oldman!Acomfortlessnight——todie!
  TheLondontraincameinjustashereachedthestation,andMadameLamotte,substantial,dark-clothed,veryyellowinthelamplight,cametowardstheexitwithadressing-bag。”Thisallyouhave?”askedSoames。”Butyes;Ihadnotthetime。Howismylittleone?””Doingwell——both。Agirl!””Agirl!Whatjoy!Ihadafrightfulcrossing!”
  Herblackbulk,solid,unreducedbythefrightfulcrossing,climbedintothebrougham。”Andyou,moncher?””Myfather’sdying,”saidSoamesbetweenhisteeth。”I’mgoingup。
  GivemylovetoAnnette。””Tiens!”murmuredMadameLamotte;”quelmalheur!”
  Soamestookhishatoff,andmovedtowardshistrain。’TheFrench!’hethought。
  CHAPTERXIII
  JAMESISTOLD
  Asimplecold,caughtintheroomwithdoublewindows,wheretheairandthepeoplewhosawhimwerefiltered,asitwere,theroomhehadnotleftsincethemiddleofSeptember——andJameswasindeepwaters。Alittlecold,passinghislittlestrengthandflyingquicklytohislungs。”Hemustn’tcatchcold,”thedoctorhaddeclared,andhehadgoneandcaughtit。Whenhefirstfeltitinhisthroathehadsaidtohisnurse——forhehadonenow——”There,I
  knewhowitwouldbe,airingtheroomlikethat!”Forawholedayhewashighlynervousabouthimselfandwentinadvanceofallprecautionsandremedies;drawingeverybreathwithextremecareandhavinghistemperaturetakeneveryhour。Emilywasnotalarmed。
  Butnextmorningwhenshewentinthenursewhispered:”Hewon’thavehistemperaturetaken。”
  Emilycrossedtothesideofthebedwherehewaslying,andsaidsoftly,”Howdoyoufeel,James?”holdingthethermometertohislips。Jameslookedupather。”What’sthegoodofthat?”hemurmuredhuskily;”Idon’twanttoknow。”
  Thenshewasalarmed。Hebreathedwithdifficulty,helookedterriblyfrail,white,withfaintreddiscolorations。Shehad’hadtrouble’withhim,Goodnessknew;buthewasJames,hadbeenJamesfornearlyfiftyyears;shecouldn’trememberorimaginelifewithoutJames——James,behindallhisfussiness,hispessimism,hiscrustyshell,deeplyaffectionate,reallykindandgeneroustothemall!