首页 >出版文学> Indian Summer of a Forsyte>第55章
  HisboywasseldomabsentfromJolyon’smindinthedayswhichfollowedthefirstwalkwithIreneinRichmondPark。Nofurthernewshadcome;enquiriesattheWarOfficeelicitednothing;norcouldheexpecttohearfromJuneandHollyforthreeweeksatleast。InthesedayshefelthowinsufficientwerehismemoriesofJolly,andwhatanamateurofafatherhehadbeen。Therewasnotasinglememoryinwhichangerplayedapart;notonereconciliation,becausetherehadneverbeenarupture;noroneheart-to-heartconfidence,notevenwhenJolly’smotherdied。
  Nothingbuthalf-ironicalaffection。Hehadbeentooafraidofcommittinghimselfinanydirection,forfearoflosinghisliberty,orinterferingwiththatofhisboy。
  OnlyinIrene’spresencehadherelief,highlycomplicatedbytheever-growingperceptionofhowdividedhewasbetweenherandhisson。WithJollywasboundupallthatsenseofcontinuityandsocialcreedofwhichhehaddrunkdeeplyinhisyouthandagainduringhisboy’spublicschoolandvarsitylife——allthatsenseofnotgoingbackonwhatfatherandsonexpectedofeachother。WithIrenewasboundupallhisdelightinbeautyandinNature。Andheseemedtoknowlessandlesswhichwasthestrongerwithinhim。
  >Fromsuchsentimentalparalysishewasrudelyawakened,however,oneafternoon,justashewasstartingofftoRichmond,byayoungmanwithabicycleandafaceoddlyfamiliar,whocameforwardfaintlysmiling。”Mr。JolyonForsyte?Thankyou!”PlacinganenvelopeinJolyon’shandhewheeledoffthepathandrodeaway。Bewildered,Jolyonopenedit。”AdmiraltyProbateandDivorce,Forsytev。ForsyteandForsyte!”
  Asensationofshameanddisgustwasfollowedbytheinstantreaction’Why,here’stheverythingyouwant,andyoudon’tlikeit!’Butshemusthavehadonetoo;andhemustgotoheratonce。
  Heturnedthingsoverashewentalong。Itwasanironicalbusi-
  ness。For,whatevertheScripturessaidabouttheheart,ittookmorethanmerelongingstosatisfythelaw。Theycouldperfectlywelldefendthissuit,oratleastingoodfaithtryto。ButtheideaofdoingsorevoltedJolyon。Ifnotherloverindeedhewasindesire,andheknewthatshewasreadytocometohim。Herfacehadtoldhimso。Notthatheexaggeratedherfeelingforhim。Shehadhadhergrandpassion,andhecouldnotexpectanotherfromherathisage。Butshehadtrustinhim,affectionforhim,andmustfeelthathewouldbearefuge。Surelyshewouldnotaskhimtodefendthesuit,knowingthatheadoredher!ThankHeavenshehadnotthatmaddeningBritishconscientiousnesswhichrefusedhappinessforthesakeofrefusing!Shemustrejoiceatthischanceofbeingfreeafterseventeenyearsofdeathinlife!Astopublicity,thefatwasinthefire!Todefendthesuitwouldnottakeawaytheslur。JolyonhadalltheproperfeelingofaForsytewhoseprivacyisthreatened:IfhewastobehungbytheLaw,byallmeansletitbeforasheep!Moreoverthenotionofstandinginawitnessboxandswearingtothetruththatnogesture,notevenawordoflovehadpassedbetweenthemseemedtohimmoredegradingthantotakethetacitstigmaofbeinganadulterer——moretrulydegrading,consideringthefeelinginhisheart,andjustasbadandpainfulforhischildren。Thethoughtofexplainingaway,ifhecould,beforeajudgeandtwelveaverageEnglishmen,theirmeetingsinParis,andthewalksinRichmondPark,horrifiedhim。
  Thebrutalityandhypocriticalcensoriousnessofthewholeprocess;
  theprobabilitythattheywouldnotbebelieved——themerevisionofher,whomhelookedonastheembodimentofNatureandofBeauty,standingtherebeforeallthosesuspicious,gloatingeyeswashideoustohim。No,no!TodefendasuitonlymadeaLondonholiday,andsoldthenewspapers。AthousandtimesbetteracceptwhatSoamesandthegodshadsent!
  ’Besides,’hethoughthonestly,’whoknowswhether,evenformyboy’ssake,Icouldhavestoodthisstateofthingsmuchlonger?
  Anyway,herneckwillbeoutofchanceryatlast!’Thusabsorbed,hewashardlyconsciousoftheheavyheat。Theskyhadbecomeovercast,purplishwithlittlestreaksofwhite。Aheavyheat-dropplashedalittlestarpatterninthedustoftheroadasheenteredthePark。’Phew!’hethought,’thunder!Ihopeshe’snotcometomeetme;there’saduckingupthere!’ButatthatveryminutehesawIrenecomingtowardstheGate。’WemustscuttlebacktoRobinHill,’hethought。
  ThestormhadpassedoverthePoultryatfouro’clock,bringingwelcomedistractiontotheclerksineveryoffice。Soameswasdrinkingacupofteawhenanotewasbroughtintohim:”DEARSIR,Forsytev。ForsyteandForsyte”Inaccordancewithyourinstructions,webegtoinformyouthatwepersonallyservedtherespondentandco-respondentinthissuitto-day,atRichmond,andRobinHill,respectively。”Faithfullyyours,”LINKMANANDLAVER。”
  ForsomeminutesSoamesstaredatthatnote。Eversincehehadgiventhoseinstructionshehadbeentemptedtoannulthem。Itwassoscandalous,suchageneraldisgrace!Theevidence,too,whathehadheardofit,hadneverseemedtohimconclusive;somehow,hebelievedlessandlessthatthosetwohadgonealllengths。Butthis,ofcourse,woulddrivethemtoit;andhesufferedfromthethought。Thatfellowtohaveherlove,wherehehadfailed!Wasittoolate?Nowthattheyhadbeenbroughtupsharpbyserviceofthispetition,hadhenotaleverwithwhichhecouldforcethemapart?’ButifIdon’tactatonce,’hethought,’itwillbetoolate,nowthey’vehadthisthing。I’llgoandseehim;I’llgodown!’
  And,sickwithnervousanxiety,hesentoutforoneofthe’new-fangled’motor-cabs。Itmighttakealongtimetorunthatfellowtoground,andGoodnessknewwhatdecisiontheymightcometoaftersuchashock!’IfIwereatheatricalass,’hethought,’IsupposeIshouldbetakingahorse-whiporapistolorsomething!’Hetookinsteadabundleofpapersinthecaseof’MagentieversusWake,’intendingtoreadthemonthewaydown。Hedidnotevenopenthem,butsatquitestill,joltedandjarred,unconsciousofthedraughtdownthebackofhisneck,orthesmellofpetrol。Hemustbeguidedbythefellow’sattitude;thegreatthingwastokeephishead!
  LondonhadalreadybeguntodisgorgeitsworkersashenearedPutneyBridge;theant-heapwasonthemoveoutwards。Whatalotofants,allwithalivingtoget,holdingonbytheireyelidsinthegreatscramble!PerhapsforthefirsttimeinhislifeSoamesthought:’IcouldletgoifIliked!Nothingcouldtouchme;I
  couldsnapmyfingers,liveasIwished——enjoymyself!’No!Onecouldnotliveashehadandjustdropitall——settledowninCapua,tospendthemoneyandreputationhehadmade。Aman’slifewaswhathepossessedandsoughttopossess。Onlyfoolsthoughtotherwise——fools,andsocialists,andlibertines!
  Thecabwaspassingvillasnow,goingagreatpace。’Fifteenmilesanhour,Ishouldthink!’hemused;’this’lltakepeopleoutoftowntolive!’andhethoughtofitsbearingontheportionsofLondonownedbyhisfather——hehimselfhadnevertakentothatformofinvestment,thegamblerinhimhavingalltheoutletneededinhispictures。Andthecabspedon,downthehillpastWimbledonCommon。Thisinterview!Surelyamanoffifty-twowithgrown-upchildren,andhungontheline,wouldnotbereckless。’Hewon’twanttodisgracethefamily,’hethought;’hewasasfondofhisfatherasIamofmine,andtheywerebrothers。Thatwomanbringsdestruction——whatisitinher?I’veneverknown。’Thecabbranchedoff,alongthesideofawood,andheheardalatecuckoocalling,almostthefirsthehadheardthatyear。Hewasnowalmostoppositethesitehehadoriginallychosenforhishouse,andwhichhadbeensounceremoniouslyrejectedbyBosinneyinfavourofhisownchoice。Hebeganpassinghishandkerchiefoverhisfaceandhands,takingdeepbreathstogivehimsteadiness。
  ’Keepone’shead,’hethought,’keepone’shead!’
  Thecabturnedinatthedrivewhichmighthavebeenhisown,andthesoundofmusicmethim。Hehadforgottenthefellow’sdaughters。”Imaybeoutagaindirectly,”hesaidtothedriver,”orImaybekeptsometime”;andherangthebell。
  Followingthemaidthroughthecurtainsintotheinnerhall,hefeltrelievedthattheimpactofthismeetingwouldbebrokenbyJuneorHolly,whicheverwasplayinginthere,sothatwithcompletesurprisehesawIreneatthepiano,andJolyonsittinginanarmchairlistening。Theybothstoodup。BloodsurgedintoSoames’brain,andallhisresolutiontobeguidedbythisorthatlefthimutterly。Thelookof’hisfarmerforbears——doggedForsytesdownbythesea,from’SuperiorDosset’back-grinnedoutofhisface。”Verypretty!”hesaid。
  Heheardthefellowmurmur:”Thisishardlytheplace——we’llgotothestudy,ifyoudon’tmind。”Andtheybothpassedhimthroughthecurtainopening。Inthelittleroomtowhichhefollowedthem,Irenestoodbytheopenwindow,andthe’fellow’closetoherbyabigchair。Soamespulledthedoortobehindhimwithaslam;thesoundcarriedhimbackallthoseyearstothedaywhenhehadshutoutJolyon——shuthimoutformeddlingwithhisaffairs。”Well,”hesaid,”whathaveyoutosayforyourselves?”
  Thefellowhadtheeffronterytosmile。”Whatwehavereceivedto-dayhastakenawayyourrighttoask。I
  shouldimagineyouwillbegladtohaveyourneckoutofchancery。””Oh!”saidSoames;”youthinkso!IcametotellyouthatI’lldivorceherwitheverycircumstanceofdisgracetoyouboth,unlessyousweartokeepclearofeachotherfromnowon。”
  Hewasastonishedathisfluency,becausehismindwasstammeringandhishandstwitching。Neitherofthemanswered;buttheirfacesseemedtohimasifcontemptuous。”Well,”hesaid;”you——Irene?”
  Herlipsmoved,butJolyonlaidhishandonherarm。”Letheralone!”saidSoamesfuriously。”Irene,willyouswearit?””No。””Oh!andyou?””Stillless。””Sothenyou’reguilty,areyou?”