首页 >出版文学> Indian Summer of a Forsyte>第49章
  ’He’snotthesame,’shethought。Hewouldneverbequitethesameagain!Butwhatwouldhebe?”Allright!”hesaid,andwenttowardsthedoor。Heevenmoveddifferently,likeamanwhohaslostillusionanddoubtswhetheritisworthwhiletomoveatall。
  Whenhewasgone,andsheheardthewaterinthebathrunning,sheputoutacompletesetofgarmentsonthebedinhisdressing-room,thenwentdownstairsandfetchedupthebiscuitboxandwhisky。
  Puttingonhercoatagain,andlisteningamomentatthebathroomdoor,shewentdownandout。Inthestreetshehesitated。Pastseveno’clock!WouldSoamesbeathisCluboratParkLane?Sheturnedtowardsthelatter。Back!
  Soameshadalwaysfearedit——shehadsometimeshopedit……Back!
  Solikehim——clownthathewas——withthis:’Hereweareagain!’tomakefoolsofthemall——oftheLaw,ofSoames,ofherself!
  YettohavedonewiththeLaw,nottohavethatmurkycloudhangingoverherandthechildren!Whatarelief!Ah!buthowtoaccepthisreturn?That’woman’hadravagedhim,takenfromhimpassionsuchashehadneverbestowedonherself,suchasshehadnotthoughthimcapableof。Therewasthesting!Thatselfish,blatant’clown’ofhers,whomsheherselfhadneverreallystirred,hadbeensweptandungarnishedbyanotherwoman!Insulting!Tooinsulting!Notright,notdecenttotakehimback!Andyetshehadaskedforhim;theLawperhapswouldmakehernow!Hewasasmuchherhusbandasever——shehadputherselfoutofcourt!Andallhewanted,nodoubt,wasmoney——tokeephimincigarsandlavender-water!Thatscent!’Afterall,I’mnotold,’shethought,’notoldyet!’Butthatwomanwhohadreducedhimtothosewords:’I’vebeenthroughit。I’vebeenfrightened——
  frightened,Freddie!’Shenearedherfather’shouse,driventhiswayandthat,whileallthetimetheForsyteundertowwasdrawinghertodeepconclusionthatafterallhewasherproperty,tobeheldagainstarobbingworld。AndsoshecametoJames’。”Mr。Soames?Inhisroom?I’llgoup;don’tsayI’mhere。”
  Herbrotherwasdressing。Shefoundhimbeforeamirror,tyingablackbowwithanairofdespisingitsends。”Hullo!”hesaid,contemplatingherintheglass;”what’swrong?””Monty!”saidWinifredstonily。
  Soamesspunround。”What!””Back!””Hoist,”mutteredSoames,”withourownpetard。Whythedeucedidn’tyouletmetrycruelty?Ialwaysknewitwastoomuchriskthisway。””Oh!Don’ttalkaboutthat!WhatshallIdo?”
  Soamesanswered,withadeep,deepsound。”Well?”saidWinifredimpatiently。”Whathashetosayforhimself?””Nothing。Oneofhisbootsissplitacrossthetoe。”
  Soamesstaredather。”Ah!”hesaid,”ofcourse!Onhisbeamends。So——itbeginsagain!
  This’llaboutfinishfather。””Can’twekeepitfromhim?””Impossible。Hehasanuncannyflairforanythingthat’sworrying。”
  Andhebrooded,withfingershookedintohisbluesilkbraces。”Thereoughttobesomewayinlaw,”hemuttered,”tomakehimsafe。””No,”criedWinifred,”Iwon’tbemadeafoolofagain;I’dsoonerputupwithhim。”
  Thetwostaredateachother。Theirheartswerefulloffeeling,buttheycouldgiveitnoexpression——Forsytesthattheywere。”Wheredidyouleavehim?””Inthebath,”andWinifredgavealittlebitterlaugh。”Theonlythinghe’sbroughtbackislavender-water。””Steady!”saidSoames,”you’rethoroughlyupset。I’llgobackwithyou。””What’stheuse?””Weoughttomaketermswithhim。””Terms!It’llalwaysbethesame。Whenherecovers——cardsandbetting,drinkand……!”Shewassilent,rememberingthelookonherhusband’sface。Theburntchild——theburntchild。Perhaps……!”Recovers?”repliedSoames:”Isheill?””No;burntout;that’sall。”
  Soamestookhiswaistcoatfromachairandputiton,hetookhiscoatandgotintoit,hescentedhishandkerchiefwitheau-de-
  Cologne,threadedhiswatch-chain,andsaid:”Wehaven’tanyluck。”
  AndinthemidstofherowntroubleWinifredwassorryforhim,asifinthatlittlesayinghehadrevealeddeeptroubleofhisown。”I’dliketoseemother,”shesaid。”She’llbewithfatherintheirroom。Comedownquietlytothestudy。I’llgether。”
  Winifredstoledowntothelittledarkstudy,chieflyremarkableforaCanalettotoodoubtfultobeplacedelsewhere,andafinecollectionofLawReportsunopenedformanyyears。Hereshestood,withherbacktomaroon-colouredcurtainsclose-drawn,staringattheemptygrate,tillhermothercameinfollowedbySoames。”Oh!mypoordear!”saidEmily:”Howmiserableyoulookinhere!
  Thisistoobadofhim,really!”
  Asafamilytheyhadsoguardedthemselvesfromtheexpressionofallunfashionableemotionthatitwasimpossibletogoupandgiveherdaughteragoodhug。Buttherewascomfortinhercushionedvoice,andherstilldimpledshouldersundersomerareblacklace。
  Summoningprideandthedesirenottodistresshermother,Winifredsaidinhermostoff-handvoice:”It’sallright,Mother;nogoodfussing。””Idon’tsee,”saidEmily,lookingatSoames,”whyWinifredshouldn’ttellhimthatshe’llprosecutehimifhedoesn’tkeepoffthepremises。Hetookherpearls;andifhe’snotbroughtthemback,that’squiteenough。”
  Winifredsmiled。Theywouldallplungeaboutwithsuggestionsofthisandthat,butsheknewalreadywhatshewouldbedoing,andthatwas——nothing。Thefeelingthat,afterall,shehadwonasortofvictory,retainedherproperty,waseverymomentgaininggroundinher。No!ifshewantedtopunishhim,shecoulddoitathomewithouttheworldknowing。”Well,”saidEmily,”comeintothediningroomcomfortably——youmuststayandhavedinnerwithus。Leaveittometotellyourfather。”And,asWinifredmovedtowardsthedoor,sheturnedoutthelight。Nottillthendidtheyseethedisasterinthecorridor。
  There,attractedbylightfromaroomneverlighted,Jameswasstandingwithhisduncolouredcamel-hairshawlfoldedabouthim,sothathisarmswerenotfreeandhissilveredheadlookedcutofffromhisfashionablytrouseredlegsasifbyanexpanseofdesert。
  Hestood,inimitablystork-like,withanexpressionasifhesawbeforehimafrogtoolargetoswallow。”What’sallthis?”hesaid。”Tellyourfather?Younevertellmeanything。”
  ThemomentfoundEmilywithoutreply。ItwasWinifredwhowentuptohim,and,layingonehandoneachofhisswathed,helplessarms,said:”Monty’snotgonebankrupt,Father。He’sonlycomeback。”
  Theyallthreeexpectedsomethingserioustohappen,andweregladshehadkeptthatgripofhisarms,buttheydidnotknowthedepthofrootinthatshadowyoldForsyte。Somethingwryoccurredabouthisshavenmouthandchin,somethingscratchybetweenthoselongsilverywhiskers。Thenhesaidwithasortofdignity:”He’llbethedeathofme。Iknewhowitwouldbe。””Youmustn’tworry,Father,”saidWinifredcalmly。”Imeantomakehimbehave。””Ah!”saidJames。”Here,takethisthingoff,I’mhot。”Theyunwoundtheshawl。Heturned,andwalkedfirmlytothedining-
  room。”Idon’twantanysoup,”hesaidtoWarmson,andsatdowninhischair。Theyallsatdowntoo,Winifredstillinherhat,whileWarmsonlaidthefourthplace。Whenhelefttheroom,Jamessaid:”What’shebroughtback?””Nothing,Father。”
  Jamesconcentratedhiseyesonhisownimageinatablespoon。”Divorce!”hemuttered;”rubbish!WhatwasIabout?IoughttohavepaidhimanallowancetostayoutofEngland。Soamesyougoandproposeittohim。”
  ItseemedsorightandsimpleasuggestionthatevenWinifredwassurprisedwhenshesaid:”No,I’llkeephimnowhe’sback;hemustjustbehave——that’sall。”
  Theyalllookedather。IthadalwaysbeenknownthatWinifredhadpluck。”Outthere!”saidJameselliptically,”whoknowswhatcut-throats!
  Youlookforhisrevolver!Don’tgotobedwithout。YououghttohaveWarmsontosleepinthehouse。I’llseehimmyselftomorrow。”
  Theyweretouchedbythisdeclaration,andEmilysaidcomfortably:”That’sright,James,wewon’thaveanynonsense。””Ah!”mutteredJamesdarkly,”Ican’ttell。”
  TheadventofWarmsonwithfishdivertedconversation。
  When,directlyafterdinner,Winifredwentovertokissherfathergood-night,helookedupwitheyessofullofquestionanddistressthatsheputallthecomfortshecouldintohervoice。”It’sallright,Daddy,dear;don’tworry。Ishan’tneedanyone——
  he’squitebland。Ishallonlybeupsetifyouworry。Good-night,blessyou!”
  Jamesrepeatedthewords,”Blessyou!”asifhedidnotquiteknowwhattheymeant,andhiseyesfollowedhertothedoor。
  Shereachedhomebeforenine,andwentstraightupstairs。