ButJolly,inhisbedroomnarrowasaghost,laywithahandbeneathhischeekanddreamedhewaswithValinoneboat,rowingaraceagainsthim,whilehisfatherwascallingfromthetowpath:
’Two!Getyourhandsawaythere,blessyou!’
CHAPTERII
SOAMESPUTSITTOTHETOUCH
OfallthoseradiantfirmswhichemblazonwiththeirwindowstheWestEndofLondon,GavesandCortegalwereconsideredbySoamesthemost’attractive’wordjustcomingintofashion。HehadneverhadhisUncleSwithin’stasteinpreciousstones,andtheabandonmentbyIrenewhenshelefthishousein1887ofalltheglitteringthingshehadgivenherhaddisgustedhimwiththisformofinvest-ment。Buthestillknewadiamondwhenhesawone,andduringtheweekbeforeherbirthdayhehadtakenoccasion,onhiswayintothePoultryorhiswayouttherefrom,todallyalittlebeforethegreaterjewellerswhereonegot,ifnotone’smoney’sworth,atleastacertaincachetwiththegoods。
ConstantcogitationsincehisdrivewithJolyonhadconvincedhimmoreandmoreofthesupremeimportanceofthismomentinhislife,thesupremeneedfortakingstepsandthosenotwrong。And,alongsidethedryandreasonedsensethatitwasnoworneverwithhisself-preservation,noworneverifheweretorangehimselfandfoundafamily,wentthesecreturgeofhissensesrousedbythesightofherwhohadoncebeenapassionatelydesiredwife,andtheconvictionthatitwasasinagainstcommonsenseandthedecentsecrecyofForsytestowastethewifehehad。
InanopiniononWinifred’scase,Dreamer,Q。C——hewouldmuchhavepreferredWaterbuck,buttheyhadmadehimajudgesolateinthedayastorousetheusualsuspicionofapoliticaljob——hadadvisedthattheyshouldgoforwardandobtainrestitutionofconjugalrights,apointwhichtoSoameshadneverbeenindoubt。
Whentheyhadobtainedadecreetothateffecttheymustwaittoseeifitwasobeyed。Ifnot,itwouldconstitutelegaldesertion,andtheyshouldobtainevidenceofmisconductandfiletheirpetitionfordivorce。AllofwhichSoamesknewperfectlywell。
Theyhadmarkedhimtenandone。Thissimplicityinhissister’scaseonlymadehimthemoredesperateaboutthedifficultyinhisown。Everything,infact,wasdrivinghimtowardsthesimplesolutionofIrene’sreturn。Ifitwerestillagainstthegrainwithher,hadhenotfeelingstosubdue,injurytoforgive,paintoforget?Heatleasthadneverinjuredher,andthiswasaworldofcompromise!Hecouldofferhersomuchmorethanshehadnow。Hewouldbepreparedtomakealiberalsettlementonherwhichcouldnotbeupset。Heoftenscrutinisedhisimageinthesedays。HehadneverbeenapeacocklikethatfellowDartie,orfanciedhimselfawoman’sman,buthehadacertainbeliefinhisownappearance——notunjustly,foritwaswell-coupledandpreserved,neat,healthy,pale,unblemishedbydrinkorexcessofanykind。
TheForsytejawandtheconcentrationofhisfacewere,inhiseyes,virtues。Sofarashecouldtelltherewasnofeatureofhimwhichneedinspiredislike。
Thoughtsandyearnings,withwhichonelivesdaily,becomenatural,eveniffar-fetchedintheirinception。Ifhecouldonlygivetangibleproofenoughofhisdeterminationtoletbygonesbebygones,andtodoallinhispowertopleaseher,whyshouldshenotcomebacktohim?
HeenteredGavesandCortegal’stherefore,onthemorningofNovemberthe9th,tobuyacertaindiamondbrooch。”Fourtwenty-fiveanddirtcheap,sir,atthemoney。It’salady’sbrooch。”Therewasthatinhismoodwhichmadehimacceptwithoutdemur。AndhewentonintothePoultrywiththeflatgreenmoroccocaseinhisbreastpocket。Severaltimesthatdayheopenedittolookatthesevensoftshiningstonesintheirvelvetovalnest。”Iftheladydoesn’tlikeit,sir,happytoexchangeitanytime。
Butthere’snofearofthat。”Ifonlytherewerenot!Hegotthroughavastamountofwork,onlysootherofthenervesheknew。
AcablegramcamewhilehewasintheofficewithdetailsfromtheagentinBuenosAires,andthenameandaddressofastewardesswhowouldbepreparedtosweartowhatwasnecessary。ItwasatimelyspurtoSoames,withhisrooteddistasteforthewashingofdirtylineninpublic。AndwhenhesetforthbyUndergroundtoVictoriaStationhereceivedafreshimpetustowardstherenewalofhismarriedlifefromtheaccountinhiseveningpaperofafashionabledivorcesuit。ThehominginstinctofalltrueForsytesinanxietyandtrouble,thecorporatetendencywhichkeptthemstrongandsolid,madehimchoosetodineatParkLane。Heneithercouldnorwouldbreathawordtohispeopleofhisintention——tooreticentandproud——butthethoughtthatatleasttheywouldbegladiftheyknew,andwishhimluck,washeartening。
Jameswasinlugubriousmood,forthefirewhichtheimpudenceofKruger’sultimatumhadlitinhimhadbeencold-wateredbythepoorsuccessofthelastmonth,andtheexhortationstoeffortinTheTimes。Hedidn’tknowwhereitwouldend。SoamessoughttocheerhimbythecontinualuseofthewordBuller。ButJamescouldn’ttell!TherewasColley——andhegotstuckonthathill,andthisLadysmithwasdowninahollow,andaltogetheritlookedtohima’prettykettleoffish’;hethoughttheyoughttobesendingthesailors——theywerethechaps,theydidalotofgoodintheCrimea。
Soamesshiftedthegroundofconsolation。WinifredhadheardfromValthattherehadbeena’rag’andabonfireonGuyFawkesDayatOxford,andthathehadescapeddetectionbyblackinghisface。”Ah!”Jamesmuttered,”he’sacleverlittlechap。”Butheshookhisheadshortlyafterwardsandremarkedthathedidn’tknowwhatwouldbecomeofhim,andlookingwistfullyathisson,murmuredonthatSoameshadneverhadaboy。Hewouldhavelikedagrandsonofhisownname。Andnow——well,thereitwas!
Soamesflinched。Hehadnotexpectedsuchachallengetodisclosethesecretinhisheart。AndEmily,whosawhimwince,said:”Nonsense,James;don’ttalklikethat!”
ButJames,notlookinganyoneintheface,mutteredon。TherewereRogerandNicholasandJolyon;theyallhadgrandsons。AndSwithinandTimothyhadnevermarried。Hehaddonehisbest;buthewouldsoonbegonenow。And,asthoughhehadutteredwordsofprofoundconsolation,hewassilent,eatingbrainswithaforkandapieceofbread,andswallowingthebread。
Soamesexcusedhimselfdirectlyafterdinner。Itwasnotreallycold,butheputonhisfurcoat,whichservedtofortifyhimagainstthefitsofnervousshiveringtowhichhehadbeensubjectallday。Subconsciously,heknewthathelookedbetterthusthaninanordinaryblackovercoat。Then,feelingthemoroccocaseflatagainsthisheart,hesalliedforth。Hewasnosmoker,buthelitacigarette,andsmokeditgingerlyashewalkedalong。HemovedslowlydowntheRowtowardsKnightsbridge,timinghimselftogettoChelseaatnine-fifteen。Whatdidshedowithherselfeveningaftereveninginthatlittlehole?Howmysteriouswomenwere!Onelivedalongsideandknewnothingofthem。WhatcouldshehaveseeninthatfellowBosinneytosendhermad?Fortherewasmadnessafterallinwhatshehaddone——crazymoonstruckmadness,inwhichallsenseofvalueshadbeenlost,andherlifeandhisliferuined!Andforamomenthewasfilledwithasortofexaltation,asthoughhewereamanreadofinastorywho,possessedbytheChristianspirit,wouldrestoretoheralltheprizesofexistence,forgivingandforgetting,andbecomingthegodfatherofherfuture。UnderatreeoppositeKnightsbridgeBarracks,wherethemoon-lightstruckdownclearandwhite,hetookoutoncemorethemoroccocase,andletthebeamsdrawcolourfromthosestones。
Yes,theywereofthefirstwater!But,atthehardclosingsnapofthecase,anothercoldshiverranthroughhisnerves;andhewalkedonfaster,clenchinghisglovedhandsinthepocketsofhiscoat,almosthopingshewouldnotbein。Thethoughtofhowmysteriousshewasagainbesethim。Diningalonetherenightafternight——inaneveningdress,too,asifsheweremakingbelievetobeinsociety!Playingthepiano——toherself!Notevenadogorcat,sofarashehadseen。AndthatremindedhimsuddenlyofthemarehekeptforstationworkatMapledurham。Ifeverhewenttothestable,thereshewasquitealone,halfasleep,andyet,onherhomejourneysgoingmorefreelythanonherwayout,asiflongingtobebackandlonelyinherstable!’Iwouldtreatherwell,’hethoughtincoherently。’Iwouldbeverycareful。’AndallthatcapacityforhomelifeofwhichamockingFateseemedforevertohavedeprivedhimswelledsuddenlyinSoames,sothathedreameddreamsoppositeSouthKensingtonStation。IntheKing’sRoadamancameslitheringoutofapublichouseplayingaconcertina。Soameswatchedhimforamomentdancecrazilyonthepavementtohisowndrawlingjaggedsounds,thencrossedovertoavoidcontactwiththispieceofdrunkenfoolery。Anightinthelock-up!Whatassespeoplewere!Butthemanhadnoticedhismovementofavoidance,andstreamsofgenialblasphemyfollowedhimacrossthestreet。
’Ihopethey’llrunhimin,’thoughtSoamesviciously。’Tohaveruffianslikethatabout,withwomenoutalone!’Awoman’sfigureinfronthadinducedthisthought。Herwalkseemedoddlyfamiliar,andwhensheturnedthecornerforwhichhewasbound,hisheartbeganto,beat。Hehastenedontothecornertomakecertain。
Yes!ItwasIrene;hecouldnotmistakeherwalkinthatlittledrabstreet。Shethreadedtwomoreturnings,andfromthelastcornerhesawherenterherblockofflats。Tomakesureofhernow,heranthosefewpaces,hurriedupthestairs,andcaughtherstandingatherdoor。Heheardthelatchkeyinthelock,andreachedhersidejustassheturnedround,startled,intheopendoorway。”Don’tbealarmed,”hesaid,breathless。”Ihappenedtoseeyou。
Letmecomeinaminute。”
Shehadputherhanduptoherbreast,herfacewascolourless,hereyeswidenedbyalarm。Thenseemingtomasterherself,sheinclinedherhead,andsaid:”Verywell。”
Soamesclosedthedoor。He,too,hadneedtorecover,andwhenshehadpassedintothesitting-room,waitedafullminute,takingdeepbreathstostillthebeatingofhisheart。Atthismoment,sofraughtwiththefuture,totakeoutthatmoroccocaseseemedcrude。Yet,nottotakeitoutlefthimtherebeforeherwithnopreliminaryexcuseforcoming。Andinthisdilemmahewasseizedwithimpatienceatallthisparaphernaliaofexcuseandjustification。Thiswasascene——itcouldbenothingelse,andhemustfaceit。Heheardhervoice,uncomfortably,patheticallysoft:”Whyhaveyoucomeagain?Didn’tyouunderstandthatIwouldratheryoudidnot?”
Henoticedherclothes——adarkbrownvelvetcorduroy,asableboa,asmallroundtoqueofthesame。Theysuitedheradmirably。Shehadmoneytosparefordress,evidently!Hesaidabruptly:”It’syourbirthday。Ibroughtyouthis,”andheheldouttoherthegreenmoroccocase。”Oh!No-no!”
Soamespressedtheclasp;thesevenstonesgleamedoutonthepalegreyvelvet。