首页 >出版文学> Indian Summer of a Forsyte>第4章
  Thisdogseemstohavetakenafancytoyou。”
  ForBalthasar,feelingthatshewasabouttoleave,wasrubbinghissideagainstherleg。Goingoutundertheporchwithher,hesaid:”He’llgetyouupinanhourandaquarter。Takethisforyourprotegees,”andheslippedachequeforfiftypoundsintoherhand。
  Hesawherbrightenedeyes,andheardhermurmur:”OhUncleJolyon!”andarealthrobofpleasurewentthroughhim。Thatmeantoneortwopoorcreatureshelpedalittle,anditmeantthatshewouldcomeagain。Heputhishandinatthewindowandgraspedhersoncemore。Thecarriagerolledaway。Hestoodlookingatthemoonandtheshadowsofthetrees,andthought:’Asweetnight!She……!’
  II
  Twodaysofrain,andsummersetinblandandsunny。OldJolyonwalkedandtalkedwithHolly。Atfirsthefelttallerandfullofanewvigour;thenhefeltrestless。Almosteveryafternoontheywouldenterthecoppice,andwalkasfarasthelog。’Well,she’snotthere!’hewouldthink,’ofcoursenot!’Andhewouldfeelalittleshorter,anddraghisfeetwalkingupthehillhome,withhishandclappedtohisleftside。Nowandthenthethoughtwouldmoveinhim:’Didshecome——ordidIdreamit?’andhewouldstareatspace,whilethedogBalthasarstaredathim。Ofcourseshewouldnotcomeagain!HeopenedthelettersfromSpainwithlessexcitement。TheywerenotreturningtillJuly;hefelt,oddly,thathecouldbearit。Everydayatdinnerhescreweduphiseyesandlookedatwhereshehadsat。Shewasnotthere,soheunscrewedhiseyesagain。
  Ontheseventhafternoonhethought:’Imustgoupandgetsomeboots。’HeorderedBeacon,andsetout。PassingfromPutneytowardsHydeParkhereflected:’ImightaswellgotoChelseaandseeher。’Andhecalledout:”Justdrivemetowhereyoutookthatladytheothernight。”Thecoachmanturnedhisbroadredface,andhisjuicylipsanswered:”Theladyingrey,sir?””Yes,theladyingrey。”Whatotherladieswerethere!Stodgychap!
  Thecarriagestoppedbeforeasmallthree-storiedblockofflats,standingalittlebackfromtheriver。WithapractisedeyeoldJolyonsawthattheywerecheap。’Ishouldthinkaboutsixtypoundayear,’hemused;andentering,helookedatthename-board。Thename’Forsyte’wasnotonit,butagainst’FirstFloor,FlatC’
  werethewords:’Mrs。IreneHeron。’Ah!Shehadtakenhermaidennameagain!Andsomehowthispleasedhim。Hewentupstairsslowly,feelinghissidealittle。Hestoodamoment,beforeringing,tolosethefeelingofdragandflutteringthere。Shewouldnotbein!AndthenBoots!Thethoughtwasblack。Whatdidhewantwithbootsathisage?Hecouldnotwearoutallthosehehad。”Yourmistressathome?””Yes,sir。””SayMr。JolyonForsyte。””Yes,sir,willyoucomethisway?”
  OldJolyonfollowedaverylittlemaid——notmorethansixteenonewouldsay——intoaverysmalldrawing-roomwherethesun-blindsweredrawn。Itheldacottagepianoandlittleelsesaveavaguefragranceandgoodtaste。’Hestoodinthemiddle,withhistophatinhishand,andthought:’Iexpectshe’sverybadlyoff!’
  Therewasamirrorabovethefireplace,andhesawhimselfreflected。Anold-lookingchap!Heheardarustle,andturnedround。Shewassoclosethathismoustachealmostbrushedherforehead,justunderherhair。”Iwasdrivingup,”hesaid。”ThoughtI’dlookinonyou,andaskyouhowyougotuptheothernight。”
  And,seeinghersmile,hefeltsuddenlyrelieved。Shewasreallygladtoseehim,perhaps。”WouldyouliketoputonyourhatandcomeforadriveinthePark?”
  Butwhileshewasgonetoputherhaton,hefrowned。ThePark!
  JamesandEmily!Mrs。Nicholas,orsomeothermemberofhispreciousfamilywouldbethereverylikely,prancingupanddown。
  Andtheywouldgoandwagtheirtonguesabouthavingseenhimwithher,afterwards。Betternot!HedidnotwishtorevivetheechoesofthepastonForsyte’Change。’Heremovedawhitehairfromthelapelofhisclosely-buttoned-upfrockcoat,andpassedhishandoverhischeeks,moustache,andsquarechin。Itfeltveryhollowthereunderthecheekbones。Hehadnotbeeneatingmuchlately——hehadbettergetthatlittlewhippersnapperwhoattendedHollytogivehimatonic。Butshehadcomebackandwhentheywereinthecarriage,hesaid:”SupposewegoandsitinKensingtonGardensinstead?”andaddedwithatwinkle:”Noprancingupanddownthere,”asifshehadbeeninthesecretofhisthoughts。
  Leavingthecarriage,theyenteredthoseselectprecincts,andstrolledtowardsthewater。”You’vegonebacktoyourmaidenname,Isee,”hesaid:”I’mnotsorry。”
  Sheslippedherhandunderhisarm:”HasJuneforgivenme,UncleJolyon?”
  Heansweredgently:”Yes——yes;ofcourse,whynot?””Andhaveyou?””I?IforgaveyouassoonasIsawhowthelandreallylay。”Andperhapshehad;hisinstincthadalwaysbeentoforgivethebeautiful。
  Shedrewadeepbreath。”Ineverregretted——Icouldn’t。Didyoueverloveverydeeply,UncleJolyon?”
  AtthatstrangequestionoldJolyonstaredbeforehim。Hadhe?Hedidnotseemtorememberthatheeverhad。Buthedidnotliketosaythistotheyoungwomanwhosehandwastouchinghisarm,whoselifewassuspended,asitwere,bymemoryofatragiclove。Andhethought:’IfIhadmetyouwhenIwasyoungI——Imighthavemadeafoolofmyself,perhaps。’Andalongingtoescapeingeneralitiesbesethim。”Love’saqueerthing,”hesaid,”fatalthingoften。ItwastheGreeks——wasn’tit?——madeloveintoagoddess;theywereright,I
  daresay,butthentheylivedintheGoldenAge。””Philadoredthem。”
  Phil!Thewordjarredhim,forsuddenly——withhispowertoseeallroundathing,heperceivedwhyshewasputtingupwithhimlikethis。Shewantedtotalkaboutherlover!Well!Ifitwasanypleasuretoher!Andhesaid:”Ah!Therewasabitofthesculptorinhim,Ifancy。””Yes。Helovedbalanceandsymmetry;helovedthewhole-heartedwaytheGreeksgavethemselvestoart。”
  Balance!Thechaphadnobalanceatall,ifheremembered;asforsymmetry——clean-builtenoughhewas,nodoubt;butthosequeereyesofhis,andhighcheek-bones——Symmetry?”You’reoftheGoldenAge,too,UncleJolyon。
  OldJolyonlookedroundather。Wasshechaffinghim?No,hereyesweresoftasvelvet。Wassheflatteringhim?Butifso,why?
  Therewasnothingtobehadoutofanoldchaplikehim。”Philthoughtso。Heusedtosay:’ButIcannevertellhimthatI
  admirehim。”’
  Ah!Thereitwasagain。Herdeadlover;herdesiretotalkofhim!
  Andhepressedherarm,halfresentfulofthosememories,halfgrateful,asifherecognisedwhatalinktheywerebetweenherselfandhim。”Hewasaverytalentedyoungfellow,”hemurmured。”It’shot;I
  feeltheheatnowadays。Let’ssitdown。”
  Theytooktwochairsbeneathachestnuttreewhosebroadleavescoveredthemfromthepeacefulgloryoftheafternoon。Apleasuretositthereandwatchher,andfeelthatshelikedtobewithhim。
  Andthewishtoincreasethatliking,ifhecould,madehimgoon:”IexpectheshowedyouasideofhimIneversaw。He’dbeathisbestwithyou。Hisideasofartwerealittlenew——tome”——hehadstiffedtheword’fangled。’”Yes:butheusedtosayyouhadarealsenseofbeauty。”OldJolyonthought:’Thedevilhedid!’butansweredwithatwinkle:”Well,Ihave,orIshouldn’tbesittingherewithyou。”Shewasfascinatingwhenshesmiledwithhereyes,likethat!”Hethoughtyouhadoneofthoseheartsthatnevergrowold。Philhadrealinsight。”
  Hewasnottakeninbythisflatteryspokenoutofthepast,outofalongingtotalkofherdeadlover——notabit;andyetitwasprecioustohear,becauseshepleasedhiseyesandheartwhichquitetrue!——hadnevergrownold。Wasthatbecause——unlikeherandherdeadlover,hehadneverlovedtodesperation,hadalwayskepthisbalance,hissenseofsymmetry。Well!Ithadlefthimpower,ateighty-four,toadmirebeauty。Andhethought,’IfIwereapainterorasculptor!ButI’manoldchap。Makehaywhilethesunshines。’
  Acouplewitharmsentwinedcrossedonthegrassbeforethem,attheedgeoftheshadowfromtheirtree。Thesunlightfellcruellyontheirpale,squashed,unkemptyoungfaces。”We’reanuglylot!”
  saidoldJolyonsuddenly。”Itamazesmetoseehow——lovetriumphsoverthat。””Lovetriumphsovereverything!””Theyoungthinkso,”hemuttered。”Lovehasnoage,nolimit;andnodeath。”