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第6章

  “I’llgladlyhelpyouallIcan,“saidmymother。
  “Thanky!“saidMrs。Freshett。“Iknowedyouwould。Josiahhesaystome,`Don’tyoubeapin’nobody。’`Josiah,’saysI,`ittakesaprettysmartwomaninthisworldtorealizewhatshedoesn’tknow。NowIknowwhatIknow,wellenough,butallI
  knowisliketokeepmean’mychildreninalogcabinan’onlogcabinwaystotheendofourtime。Youain’tevengottheremainsofthecabinyoustartedinforacowshed。’SaysI,`Josiah,MissStantonknowshowtogetoutofacabinan’intoagrandbigpalace,fitfuraqueenwoman。She’saridin’inashinin’kerridge,’stidofaspringwagon。Shegoesabroaddressedso’syoumenallstandstarin’likecabbageheads。Allherngotochurch,an’Sunday-school,an’college,an’comeoutonthetopoftheheap。ShedoesjestwhatI’dliketoifI
  knowedhow。An’sheain’tcome-uppetyonemorsel。’IfIwastostrikeacrostfieldstothemstuck-upPryors,I’dgetthedoorslammedinmyfaceif’twasthemissus,asneerif’twastheman,an’atbestanodcoldasanicebergif’twasthegirl。Themaswanttocallherkind`Princess,’andencourageherinbeingmorestuckup’anshewasborntobe,can,buttomymindaPrincessisapersonwhothinksofsomeonebesidesherselfonceinawhile。“
  “Idon’tfindthePryorseasytobecomeacquaintedwith,“saidmother。“Ihavenevermetthewoman;Iknowthemanveryslightly;hehasbeenhereonbusinessonceortwice,butthegirlseemsasifshewouldbenice,ifoneknewher。“
  “Well,Iwouldn’thaves’posedshewasyourkind,“saidMrs。
  Freshett。“Ifsheis,Iwon’topenmyheadagainstheranymore。
  Anyway,itwasthegrave-kiversIcomeabout。“
  “Justwhatisit,Mrs。Freshett?“askedmother。
  “It’stwomensellin’apatentironkiverfortoprotectthegravesofyourdeadfromthesunan’therain。“
  “Whowantsthegravesoftheirdeadprotectedfromthesunandtherain?“demandedmymothersharply。
  “IsaidtoJosiah,`Idon’tknowhowshe’llfeelaboutit,butI
  can’tdomorethanask。’“
  “Dotheycarryasample?Whatisitlike?“
  “Jestthelen’than’widthofagrave。Theygotfrombabytosix-footersizes。Theyarecastironlikethebottomofacookstoveontheunderside,butatoptheyarepolishedsotheyshinesomethin’beautiful。Youcangettheminasolidpiece,orwithaholeinthecentreaboutthesizeofamilkcrocktosetflowersthrough。Theycometentothegrave,an’theyaremightystylishlookin’things。Ihavebeensavin’allIcouldskimpfrombutter,an’eggs,togetSamanthaaorgan;butsaysItoher:`Youaregettin’allIcandoforyoueveryday;therelaysyourpoorbrother’atain’thadafingerliftedforhimsincehewastooksosuddenhewasgonebeforeIknowedhewasgoin’。’I
  nevercangetoverHenrybein’tookthewayhewas,soIsays:
  `IfthiswouldbeanicethingtohaveforHenry’sgrave,andtheneighboursaregoin’tohavethemfortheirn,lookstomelikesomeoftheorganmoneywillhavetogo,an’we’llmakeituplater。’Idon’t’lowforHenrytobeslightedbekaseheridhimselftodeathtryingtomakeapresidentoutofhispa’sgin’ral。“
  “Younevertoldmehowyoulostyourson,“saidmother,feelingsobadlyshewipedoneofmyeyesfullofoil。
  “Lawnow,didn’tI?“inquiredMrs。Freshett。“WellmebbythatisbekaseIain’thadachancetotellyoumuchofanythin’,yourbein’alwayssobusylike,an’menotwantin’towearoutmywelcome。Itwaslikethis:Allendurin’thewarHenryan’medidthebestwecouldwithoutpaathome,butbythetimeitwasover,Henrywasmostaman。Seemedasifwhenhegothome,hispawasalltiredoutandgladtosetdownan’rest,butHenrywasafiretobeupan’goin’。Hispafilledhimsofullo’Grant,itwasrunnin’outofhisears。ComethesecondruntheGin’ralmade,peeredlikeHenrysetoutto’lecthimallbyhisself。Heworeeveryhorseontheplaceout,ridin’torallies。Sometimeshewasgonethreedaysatastretch。He’dgitoneplacean’hearofarallyontenmilesorsofurder,an’blestifhedidn’trideplumacrostthestate’forehegotthroughwithonetrip。HesetoutinJuly,andheridrightstraightthroughtoNovember,nighontoeverydayofhislife。Hegotwhite,an’thin,an’narvous,fromlossofsleepan’lackoffood,an’hispagotrestless,saidHenrywastakin’the’lectionmoreserious’anheevertookthewar。Lastfewdaysbeforevotin’wascoldan’rawan’Henryridconstant。’Lectiondayhecouldn’tvote,forhelackedayearofbein’o’age,an’heridinwithahardchill,an’whiteasaghost,an’hesays:`Ma,’sayshe,`I’ve’lectedGrant,butI’malltuckeredout。Putmetobedan’kivermewarm。’“
  IforgotthestinginmyeyeswatchingMrs。Freshett。ShewasthelargestwomanIknew,andstrongasmostmen。Herhairwasblackandglisteny,hereyesblack,hercheeksred,herskinaclear,evendarktint。Shewashandsome,shewashonest,andshewasinearnestovereverything。Therewassomethingabouther,orherfamily,thathadtobetoldinwhispers,andsomeoftheneighbourswouldhavenothingtodowithher。ButmothersaidMrs。Freshettwasdoingtheverybestsheknew,andforthesakeofthat,andofherchildren,anyonewhowouldn’thelpherwasnotaChristian,andnottobeaChristianwastheveryworstthingthatcouldhappentoyou。Istaredathersteadily。Shetalkedstraightalong,sorapidlyyouscarcelycouldkeepupwiththewords;youcouldn’tifyouwantedtothinkaboutthemanybetween。Therewasnotaquiverinhervoice,butfromhereyesthererolled,steadily,thebiggest,roundesttearsIeversaw。
  Theyrandownhercheeks,formedastreaminthefirstgrooveofherdoublechin,overflowedit,anddrippeddrop,drop,adropatatime,onthebreastofherstifflystarchedcalicodress,andfromthereshottoherknees。
  “’Twa’n’tnotimeatall’tilhewaschokin’an’burnin’redwithfever,an’hispaandme,stoutaswebe,couldn’tholdhimdownnorkeephimkivered。Hewasspeechifyin’tobeatanythin’youeverheard。Hispasaidhewasrepeatin’whathe’dheardsaidbyeverybigstumpspeakerfromGreeleytoLogan。Whenhegotsohoarsewecouldn’ttellwhathesaidanymore,hejestmouthedit,an’atlasthedroppedbackandlaidlikehewaspinnedtothesheets,an’Ithoughthewasrestin’,but’twa’n’tanhour’tilhewasgone。“
  SuddenlyMrs。Freshettliftedherapron,coveredherfaceandsobbeduntilherbroadshouldersshook。
  “Ohyoupoorsoul!“saidmymother。“I’msosorryforyou!“
  “Ineverknowedhewasa-goin’untilhewasgone,“shesaid。“HewastheonlyoneofmineIeverlost,an’Ithoughtitwouldjestlaymeout。Icouldn’t’a’stooditatallifIhadn’t’a’
  knowedhewassaved。IwellknowmyHenrywentstraighttoHeaven。WhyMissStanton,herizrightupinbedatthelast,andclearandstronghejestyelledit:`HurrahfurGrant!’“
  Mymother’sfingerstightenedinmyhairuntilIthoughtshewouldpulloutalot,andIcouldfeelherkneesstiffen。Leonjustwhooped。Mothersprangupandrantothedoor。
  “Leon!“shecried。Thentherewasaslam。“Whatintheworldisthematter?“sheasked。
  “Steppedoutofthetubrightonthesoap,anditthrewmedown,“
  explainedLeon。
  “Formercysake,becareful!“saidmymother,andshutthedoor。
  Itwasn’taminutebeforetheknobturnedanditopenedagainalittle。
  Ineversawmother’sfacelooksoqueer,butatlastshesaidsoftly:“Youwerethinkingofthegravecoverforhim?“
  “Yes,butIwantedtoaskyoubeforeIboundmyself。Iheardyoulosttwowhenthescarletfeverwasragin’an’I’mgoin’todojestwhatyoudo。Ifyouhavekivers,Iwill。Ifyoudon’tlikethemwhenyouseehowbrightandshinytheyare,Iwon’tgetanyeither。“
  “Icantellyouwithoutseeingthem,Mrs。Freshett,“saidmymother,wrappingastrandofhairaroundthetinsotightI
  slippedupmyfingerstofeelwhethermyneckwasn’tlikeabuck-
  eyehulllooks,anditwas。“Idon’twantanycoverforthegravesofmydeadbutgrassandflowers,andskyandclouds。I
  liketheraintofallonthem,andthesuntoshine,sothatthegrassandflowerswillgrow。IfyouaresatisfiedthatthesoulofHenryissafeinHeaven,thatisallthatisnecessary。
  Layingaslabofironontopofearthsixfeetabovehisbodywillmakenodifferencetohim。Ifheissingingwiththeangels,byallmeanssaveyourmoneyfortheorgan。“
  “Idon’tknowaboutthesingin’,butI’dstakemylastredcenthe’sstillhollerin’furGrant。Iwaskindo’tookwiththeidea;thethingswassoshinyandscillopedattheedges,peeredlikeitwaspayin’considerablerespecttothedeadtokiverthemthat-a-way。“
  “Whatgoodwoulditdo?“askedmother。“Thesunshiningontheironwouldmakeitsohotitwouldburnanyfloweryoutriedtoplantintheopening;thewatercouldn’treachtheroots,andallthatfellontheslabwouldrunoffandmakeitthatmuchwetterattheedges。Theironwouldsoonrustandgrowdreadfullyuglylyingunderwintersnow。Thereisnothingatallinit,saveamethodtoworkonthefeelingsoftheliving,andgetthemtopaytheirmoneyforsomethingthatwouldn’taffecttheirdeadaparticle。“
  “’Twouldbeapoorideaforme,“saidMrs。Freshett。“IsaidtothementhatIwantedtohonourHenryallIcould,butwithmybulk,I’dhevallIcoulddo,comeJedgmentDay,tobustmybox,an’heaveuptheclods,withouthavin’tohistupapieceofironan’klimfromunderit。“
  MotherstiffenedandLeonslippedagain。HecouldhavemoreaccidentsthananyboyIeverknew。ButitwasonlyafewminutesuntilhecametomotherandgaveheraBibletomarktheverseshehadtolearntoreciteatSunday-schoolnextday。
  Mothercouldn’ttakethetimewhenshehadcompany,sosheaskedifheweren’tbigenoughtopickouttenproperversesandlearnthembyhimself,andhesaidofcoursehewas。HetookhisBibleandheandMayandIsatonthebackstepsandstudiedourverses。HeandMayweresobigtheyhadten;butIhadonlytwo,andminewerenotverylong。Leongiggledhalfthetimehewasstudying。Ihaven’tfoundanythingsoveryfunnyintheBible。
  Everyfewminuteshewouldwhispertohimself:“THAT’SAGOOD
  ONE!“
  HetookthebookandheardMaydohersuntilshehadthemperfectly,thenhewentandsatonthebackfencewithhisbookandstudiedasIneverbeforehadseenhim。Mrs。Freshettstayedsolongmotherhadnotimetohearhim,buthetoldherhehadthemalllearnedsohecouldrepeatthemwithoutamistake。
  Nextmorningmotherwasbusy,soshehadnotimethen。Father,Shelley,andIrodeonthefrontseat,mother,May,andSallyontheback,whiletheboysstartedearlyandwalked。
  Whenwereachedthetopofthehill,theroadwaslinedwithcarriages,wagons,springwagons,andsaddlehorses。Fatherfoundaplaceforourteamandwewentdownthewalkbetweenthehitchingrackandthecemeteryfence。Motheropenedthegateandkneltbesidetwosmallgravescoveredwithgrass,shadedbyyellowrosebushes,andmarkedwithlittlewhitestones。Shelaidsomeflowersoneachandwipedthedustfromthecarvedletterswithherhandkerchief。Thelittlesisterswhohadscarletfeverandwhoopingcoughlaythere。Motherwasstillaminuteandthenshesaidsoftly:“`TheLordhasgivenandtheLordhastakenaway。BlessedbethenameoftheLord。’“
  Shewasverypalewhenshecametous,buthereyeswerebrightandshesmiledassheputherarmsaroundasmanyofusasshecouldreach。
  “Whatabeautifulhorse!“saidSally。“Lookatthatsaddleandbridle!ThePryorgirlishere。“
  “Whyshouldshecome?“askedShelley。
  “Toshowherfineclothesandqueenitoverus!“
  “Children,children!“saidmother。“`Judgenot!’Thisisahouseofworship。TheLordmaybedrawingherinHisownway。
  ItisforustohelpHimbybeingkindandmakingherwelcome。“
  Atthechurchdoorwepartedandsatwithourteachers,butforthefirsttimeasIwentdowntheaisleIwasnotthinkingofmylinendress,mypatentleatherslippers,andmyprettycurls。Itsuddenlyseemedcheaptometotwistmyhairwhenitwasstraightasashingle,andcutmyheadontin。IftheLordhadwantedmetohavecurls,myhairwouldhavebeenlikeSally’s。Seemedtomeherstriedtoseeintowhatbigsoftcurlsitcouldroll。Maysaidourswassostraightitbentbacktheotherway。Anyway,I
  madeupmymindtotalkitoverwithfatherandalwayswearbraidsafterthat,ifIcouldgethimtocoaxmothertoletme。
  Ourchurchwasquitenewanditwasbeautiful。Allthecasingswereoiledwood,andthewallshadjustalittleyellowinthelastskincoatingusedtomakethemsmooth,sotheywereacreamycolour,andtheblindswereyellow。Thewindowswerewideopenandthewinddriftedthrough,whilethebirdssangasmuchastheyeverdoinAugust,amongthetreesandbushesofthecemetery。Everyonehadplantedsomanyflowersofallkindsonthegravesyoucouldscentsweetodours。Oftenabig,black-
  striped,brownbutterflycamesailinginthroughoneofthewindows,followedthedraftacrosstheroom,andoutofanother。
  Iwasthinkingsomethingfunny:itwasaboutwhatthePrincesshadsaidofotherpeople,andwhetherherswereworse。IlookedatmyfathersittingincalmdignityinhisSundaysuitandthoughthimquiteasfineandhandsomeasmotherdid。EverySabbathheworethesamesuit,hesatinthesamespot,heworshippedtheLordinhiscalm,earnestway。Theministerschanged,butfatherwasasmuchapartoftheserviceastheBibleonthedeskorthecommuniontable。Iwonderedifpeoplesaidthingsabouthim,andiftheydid,whattheywere。Ineverhadheard。Twistinginmyseat,onebyoneIstudiedthefacesonthemen’sside,andthenthewomen。Itwasamightygood-
  lookingcrowd。Somehadfinerclothesthanothers——thatisalwaystheway——butasaruleeveryonewasclean,neat,andgoodtosee。Fromsomeyouscarcelycouldturnaway。TherewasWidowFall。ShewasFrench,fromVirginia,andshetalkedlikelittletinklynotesofmusic。Ijustlovedtohearher,andshewalkedlikehigh-uproyalty。Herdresswasalwaysblack,withwhitebandsattheneckandsleeves,blackrustlysilk,andhereyesandhairwerelikethedress。Therewasalittleredonhercheeksandlips,andherfacewasalwaysgraveuntilshesawyoudirectlybeforeher,andthenshesmiledthesweetestsmile。