Igotmydrinkatthespring,fatherofferedtostopattheriffle,butIwasenjoyingtheridesomuch,andIcouldalwayswadeathome,althoughourcreekwasnotsobeautifulasEnyard’s,butforcommonwadingitwoulddo;wewentthroughthenarrows,liketwoshakesofasheep’stail,thenwesettleddowntoaslowtrot,andwerehavingtheloveliestvisitpossible,wheninthebundleonmylap,Isawtheendofsomethingthatinterestedme。Mr。AgnewalwaysmadeourmailintoarollwiththeAdvocateandtheAgriculturistontheoutside,andbecauseeveryonewassoanxiousabouttheirletters,andsomeofthemmeantsomuch,Ifeltgrownandimportantwhileholdingthepackage。
IwasgrippingittightwhenInoticedtheendofonelettermuchwiderandfatterthananyIeverhadseen,sowhenfatherwasnotlookingIbeganpushingitalittleatoneend,andpullingitattheother,toworkitup,untilIcouldreadtheaddress。IgotitoutsofarIthoughteveryminutehe’dnotice,andtellmenottodothat,butIcouldonlyseeStanton。AllofuswereStanton,soitmightbeforme,forthatmatter。Jerrymightbesendingmepictures,orabook,hedidsometimes,buttherewasanexcitingthingaboutit。Besidesbeingfatterthanitlookedrightattheend,itwasplasteredwithstamps——lotsofthem,enoughtohavebroughtitcleararoundtheworld。Ipushedthatendback,pulledouttheother,andtookonegoodlook。Ialmostfellfromthecarriage。Igrabbedfather’sarmandcried:
“Stop!Stopthisteamquick。StopthemandseeifIcanread。“
“Areyoucrazy,child?“askedfather,buthecheckedthehorses。
“No,butyouaregoingtobeinaminute,“Isaid。“Lookatthat!“
Iyankedtheletterfromthebundle,andhelditover。ITHOUGHT
Icouldread,butIwastooscaredtobesure。Ithoughtitsaidinbig,strong,upstandingletters,MissShelleyStanton,Groveville,Indiana。Andintheuppercorner,Blackburn,YeatsandPAGET,CounsellorsofLaw,37to39StateSt。,Chicago。I
putmyfingeronthePaget,andlookedintofather’sface。Iwasnofoolafterall。HewasnotabitsurerthatHEcouldreadthanIwas,fromthedazedwayhestared。
“Yousee!“Isaid。
“ItsaysPaget!“hesaid,likehewouldcomenearerbelieving;itifheheardhimselfpronouncetheword。
“ITHOUGHTitsaid`Paget,’“Igasped,“butIwantedtoknowifyouthoughtsotoo。“
“Yes,it’sPagetplainenough,“saidfather,butheactedliketherewaseverypossibilitythatitmightchangetoJonesanyminute。“Itsays`Paget,’plainasprint。“
“Father!“Icried,clutchinghisarm,“father,seehowfatitis!
Theremustbepagesandpages!Father,itwouldn’ttakeallthattotellherhedidn’tlikeher,andheneverwantedtoseeheragain。Wouldit,father?“
“Itdoesn’tseemprobable,“saidfather。
“Fatherdon’tyouthinkitmeansthere’sbeensomebigmistake,andittakessomuchtotellhowitcanbefixed?“
“Itseemsreasonable。“
Igrippedhimtighter,andmaybeshookhimalittle。
“Father!“Icried。“Father,doesn’titjustlookHURRY,allover?Can’tyouspeedupalittle?Theyhavealldaytocooloff。Ohfather,won’tyouspeedalittle?“
“ThatIwill!“saidfather。“Getatighthold,andprayGoditisgoodwordwecarry。“
“ButIprayedtheonebigprayertogetthis,“Isaid。“Itwouldn’tbesentifitwasn’tgood。ThethingtodonowistothanktheLordfor`allhislovingkindnesses,’likemothersaid。
Drivefather!Makethemgo!“
Atfirstheonlytouchedthemup;Icouldn’tseethatweweregettinghomesofast;butinaminuteacornfieldpassedlikeastreak,apieceofwoodsflewbyadarkblur,abridgeneverhadtimetorattle,andwebegantorockfromsidetosidealittle。
ThenIgrippedthetopsupportswithonehand,themailwiththeother,andhungonfordearlife。Itookonegoodlookatfather。
Hisfeetwereonthebrace,hisfacewasclear,evenwhite,hiseyessteely,andhenevermovedamuscle。WhenJothoughtitwasfunny,thathewaslooseinthepasture,andkickedupalittlebehind,fathergavehimasharpcutwiththewhipandsaid:
“Steadyboy!Getalongthere!“
Sometimeshesaid,“Aye,aye!Easy!“butheneverstoppedamite。Wewhizzedpastthechurchandcemetery,andscarcelytouchedtheBigHill。Peoplerantotheirdoors,eventotheyards,andIwassuretheythoughtwewerehavingarunaway,butwewerenot。Fatherbegantostopatthelanegate,hepulledallthewaypastthegarden,anditwasasmuchashecoulddotogetthemsloweddownsothatIcouldjumpoutbythetimewereachedthehitchingrack。Hetiedthem,andfollowedmeintothehouseinsteadofgoingtothebarn。Iranaheadcalling:
“Shelley!WhereisShelley?“
“Whatinthisworldhashappened,child?“askedmother,catchingmyarm。
“Herletterhascome!HerPagetletter!Theoneyoulookedforuntilyougaveup。It’scomeatlast!Oh,whereisshe?“
“Becalmer,child,you’llfrightenher,“saidmother。
Maysnatchedtheletterfrommyfingersandbegantoreadallthatwasonitaloud。Iburstoutcrying。
“Makehergivethatback!“Isobbedtofather。“It’smine!I
foundit。Father,makeherletmetakeit!“
“Giveittoher!“saidfather。“Iratherfeelthatitisherrighttodeliverit。“
Maypasseditback,butshelookedsodisappointed,thatbyhowshefeltIknewhowmuchIwantedtotakeitmyself;soIreachedmyhandtoherandsaid:“Youcancomealong!We’llbothtakeit!Ohwhereisshe?“
“Shewentdownintheorchard,“saidmother。“Ithinkprobablyshe’sgonebackwhereshewastheotherday。“
Gee,butweran!Andthereshewas!Aswecameup,sheheardusandturned。
“Shelley!“Icried。“Here’syourletter!Everythingisallright!He’scoming,Shelley!Lookquick,andseewhen!Motherwillwanttobeginbakingrightaway!“
Shelleylookedatme,andsaidcoolly:“PaddyRyan!What’sthematter?“
“Yourletter!“Icried,shovingitrightagainstherhands。
“YourletterfromRobert!FromthePagetman,youknow!Itoldyouhewascoming!Hurry,andseewhen!“
Shetookit,andsattherestaringatit,somuchlikefather,thatitmademethinkofhim,soIsawthatshewasgoingtohavetocomearoundtoitaswedid,andthatonecouldn’thurryher。
Shejusthadtotakehertimetosenseit。
“ShallIopenitforyou?“Iasked,merelytomakeherseethatitwastimeshewasdoingitherself。
Blestifshedidn’treachittowardme!——sortofwoodenlike。I
stuckmyfingerundertheflap,gaveitaripacrossandemptiedwhatwasinsideintoherlap。BetthereweresixorsevenlettersinqueeryellowenvelopesIneverbeforehadseenanylike,andonthemwasthename,RobertPaget,whileinonecorneritsaid,“ReturnedDeadLetter“;alsotherewasaloosefoldedwhitesheet。Shesatstaringattheheap,touchingone,another,andrepeating“RobertPaget?“asshepickedeachupinturn。
“Whatdoyousupposeitmeans?“sheaskedMay。Mayexaminedthem。
“Youmustreadtheloosesheet,“sheadvised。“Nodoubtthatwillexplain。“
ButShelleynevertouchedit。Shehandledthoselettersandstaredatthem。Fatherandmothercamethroughtheorchardandstoodtogetherbehindus,sofatherkneltdownatlast,reachedacrossShelley’sshoulder,pickedoneupandlookedatit。
“Haveyougoodword,dear?“askedmotherofShelley。
“Why,Idon’tunderstandatall,“saidShelley。“Justlookatallthesequeerletters,addressedtoMr。Paget。Whyshouldtheybesenttome?Imustn’topenthem。They’renotmine。Theremustbesomemistake。“
“TheseareDEADLETTERS,“saidfather。“They’vebeenwrittentoyou,couldn’tbedelivered,andsoweresenttotheDeadLetterOfficeatWashington,whichreturnedthemtothewriter,andunopenedhehasforwardedthemoncemoretoyou。You’veheardofdeadletters,haven’tyou?“
“Isupposeso,“saidShelley。“Idon’trememberjustnow;buttherecouldn’tbeabettername。They’vecomemightynearkillingme。“
“Ifyou’donlyreadthatnote!“urgedMay,puttingitrightintoherfingers。
Shelleystillsatthere。
“I’mafraidofit,“shesaidexactlylikeI’dhavespokeniftherehadbeenabigrattlesnakecomingrightatme,whenI’dnothingathandtobruiseit。
LaddieandLeoncamefromthebarn。Theyhadheardmecalling,seenMayandmerun,andthenfatherandmothercomingdown,sotheywalkedover。
“What’sup?“askedLeon。“HasUncleLevi’swillbeendiscovered,anddoesmothergethisMexicanmines?“
“Whathaveyougot,Shelley?“askedLaddie,kneelingbesideher,andpickinguponeoftheyellowletters。
“Ihardlyknow,“saidShelley。
“Ibroughtherabigletterwithallthoselittleonesandanoteinit,andtheyarefromthePagetman,“Iexplainedtohim。
“Butshewon’tevenreadthenote,andseewhathewrites。Shesaysshe’safraid。“
“Poorchild!Nowonder!“saidLaddie,sittingbesideherandputtinghisarmaroundher。“SupposeIreaditforyou。MayI?“
“Yes,“saidShelley。“Youreadit。Readitoutloud。Idon’tcare。“
Sheleanedagainsthim,whileheunfoldedthewhitesheet。
“Umph!“hesaid。“ThisDOESlookbadforyou。Itbegins:`MyowndarlingGirl。’“
“Letmesee!“criedShelley,suddenlystraightening,andreachingherhand。
Laddieheldthepagetowardher,butsheonlylooked,shedidn’toffertotouchit。
“`MyowndarlingGirl:’“repeatedLaddietenderly,makingitmeanjustallhepossiblycould,becausehefeltsodreadfullysorryforher——“`OnmyreturntoChicago,fromthetriptoEnglandI
havesooftentoldyouIintendedtomakesometimesoon——’“
“Didhe?“askedmother。
“Yes,“answeredShelley。“Hecouldn’ttalkaboutmuchelse。Itwashisfirstcase。Itwasforafriendofhiswhohadbeenrobbedofeverythingintheworld;honour,relatives,home,andmoney。IfRobertwonit,hegotallthatbackforhisfriendandenoughforhimself——thathecould——ahomeofhisown,youknow!
Readon,Laddie!“
“`IwashorrifiedtofindonmydeskeveryletterIhadwrittenyouduringmyabsencereturnedtomefromtheDeadLetterOffice,asyousee。’“
“Goodgracious!“criedmother,pickinguponeandclutchingittightasifshemeanttoseethatitdidn’tgetawayagain。
“Goon!“criedShelley。
“`Iamenclosingsomeofthemastheycamebacktome,inproofofmystatement。Idroveatoncetoyourboardingplaceandfoundyouhadnotbeenthereforweeks,andyourlandladywasdistinctlycrabbed。ThenIwenttothecollege,onlytofindthatyouhadfallenillandgonetoyourhome。Thatthrewmeintotorments,andallthatkeepsmefromtakingthefirsttrainisthethoughtthatperhapsyourefusedtoaccepttheseletters,forsomereason。Shelley,youdidnot,didyou?Thereissomemistakesomewhere,istherenot——’“
“Onewouldbeledtothinkso,“saidfathersternly。“Seemsasifhemighthavemanagedsomeway——“
“Don’tyoublamehim!“criedShelley。“Can’tyouseeit’sallmyfault?He’dbeencomingregularly,andtheothergirlsenviedme;thenhejustdisappeared,andtherewasnowordoranything,andtheylaughedandwhispereduntilIcouldn’tendureit;soI
movedinwithPeter’scousin,asIwroteyou;butthatleftMrs。
Fleetwithanemptyroominthemiddleoftheterm,anditmadeherhoppingmad。Ibetanythingshewouldn’tgivethepostmanmynewaddress,topaymeback。Ileftit,ofcourse。ButifI’dbeenhalfawoman,andhadtheconfidenceIshouldhavehadinmyselfandinhim——OhhowI’vesuffered,andpunishedallofyou——!“
“Neveryoumindaboutthat,“saidmother,strokingShelley’shair。“Likelythereisn’tmuchinChicagotogiveagirlwhoneverhadbeenawayfromherfamilybefore,`confidence’inherselforanyoneelse。Asforhim——justdisappearinglikethat,withoutawordorevenaline——GoonLaddie!“
“`Surely,youknewthatIwasonlywaitingtheoutcomeofthistriptotellyouhowdearlyIloveyou。Surely,youencouragedmeinthinkingyoucaredformealittle,Shelley。Onlyalittlewilldotobeginwith——’“
“Yousee,IDIDhavesomethingtogoon!“criedShelley,wipinghereyesandstraighteningup。
“`Nodoubtyoumisunderstoodandresentedmygoingwithoutcomingtoexplain,andbidyougood-byeinperson,butShelley,_I_
SIMPLYDAREDNOT。Yousee,itwasthisway:IgotacableaboutthecaseIwasalwaystalkingof,andtheonlymanwhocouldgivethetestimonyIMUSTHAVEwasdying!’“
“Forland’ssake!Thepoorboy!“criedmother,pattingShelley’sshoulder。
“`Anhour’sdelaymightmeanthelossofeverythingintheworldtome,evenyou。ForifIlostanytime,andthemanescapedme,therewasnohopeofwinningmycase,andeverything,evenyou,asIsaidbefore,dependedonhim——’“
“GoodLord!Imeanland!“criedLeon。
“`IfIcouldcatchthetraininanhour,IcouldtakeaboatatNewYork,andgostraightthroughwithnolossoftime。SoI
wroteyouanotethatprobablysaidmorethanIwouldhaveventuredinperson,andpaidaboytodeliverit。’“
“Keptthemoneyandtoreupthenote,Ibet!“saidMay。
“`Iwroteonthetrain,butfoundaftersailingthatIhadrushedsoIhadfailedtopostitinNewYork。Ikeptonwritingeverydayontheboat,andmailedyousixatLiverpool。AllthetimeI
havewrittenfrequently;therearemanymoreherethatthisenvelopewillnothold,thatIshallsaveuntilIhearfromyou。’“
“Well,well!“saidfather。
“`Shelley,Ibeatdeath,reachedmyman,gotthetestimonyIhadtohave,andwonmycase。’“
“Glory!“criedmother。“PraisetheLord!“
“`ThenIscouredEngland,andpartofthecontinent,huntingsomeinterestedparties;andwhenIwassolongfindingthem,andstillnowordcamefromyou,Idecidedtocomebackandgetyou,ifyouwouldcomewithme,andgoonwiththeworktogether。’“
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