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第50章

  Igotmydrinkatthespring,fatherofferedtostopattheriffle,butIwasenjoyingtheridesomuch,andIcouldalwayswadeathome,althoughourcreekwasnotsobeautifulasEnyard’s,butforcommonwadingitwoulddo;wewentthroughthenarrows,liketwoshakesofasheep’stail,thenwesettleddowntoaslowtrot,andwerehavingtheloveliestvisitpossible,wheninthebundleonmylap,Isawtheendofsomethingthatinterestedme。Mr。AgnewalwaysmadeourmailintoarollwiththeAdvocateandtheAgriculturistontheoutside,andbecauseeveryonewassoanxiousabouttheirletters,andsomeofthemmeantsomuch,Ifeltgrownandimportantwhileholdingthepackage。
  IwasgrippingittightwhenInoticedtheendofonelettermuchwiderandfatterthananyIeverhadseen,sowhenfatherwasnotlookingIbeganpushingitalittleatoneend,andpullingitattheother,toworkitup,untilIcouldreadtheaddress。IgotitoutsofarIthoughteveryminutehe’dnotice,andtellmenottodothat,butIcouldonlyseeStanton。AllofuswereStanton,soitmightbeforme,forthatmatter。Jerrymightbesendingmepictures,orabook,hedidsometimes,buttherewasanexcitingthingaboutit。Besidesbeingfatterthanitlookedrightattheend,itwasplasteredwithstamps——lotsofthem,enoughtohavebroughtitcleararoundtheworld。Ipushedthatendback,pulledouttheother,andtookonegoodlook。Ialmostfellfromthecarriage。Igrabbedfather’sarmandcried:
  “Stop!Stopthisteamquick。StopthemandseeifIcanread。“
  “Areyoucrazy,child?“askedfather,buthecheckedthehorses。
  “No,butyouaregoingtobeinaminute,“Isaid。“Lookatthat!“
  Iyankedtheletterfromthebundle,andhelditover。ITHOUGHT
  Icouldread,butIwastooscaredtobesure。Ithoughtitsaidinbig,strong,upstandingletters,MissShelleyStanton,Groveville,Indiana。Andintheuppercorner,Blackburn,YeatsandPAGET,CounsellorsofLaw,37to39StateSt。,Chicago。I
  putmyfingeronthePaget,andlookedintofather’sface。Iwasnofoolafterall。HewasnotabitsurerthatHEcouldreadthanIwas,fromthedazedwayhestared。
  “Yousee!“Isaid。
  “ItsaysPaget!“hesaid,likehewouldcomenearerbelieving;itifheheardhimselfpronouncetheword。
  “ITHOUGHTitsaid`Paget,’“Igasped,“butIwantedtoknowifyouthoughtsotoo。“
  “Yes,it’sPagetplainenough,“saidfather,butheactedliketherewaseverypossibilitythatitmightchangetoJonesanyminute。“Itsays`Paget,’plainasprint。“
  “Father!“Icried,clutchinghisarm,“father,seehowfatitis!
  Theremustbepagesandpages!Father,itwouldn’ttakeallthattotellherhedidn’tlikeher,andheneverwantedtoseeheragain。Wouldit,father?“
  “Itdoesn’tseemprobable,“saidfather。
  “Fatherdon’tyouthinkitmeansthere’sbeensomebigmistake,andittakessomuchtotellhowitcanbefixed?“
  “Itseemsreasonable。“
  Igrippedhimtighter,andmaybeshookhimalittle。
  “Father!“Icried。“Father,doesn’titjustlookHURRY,allover?Can’tyouspeedupalittle?Theyhavealldaytocooloff。Ohfather,won’tyouspeedalittle?“
  “ThatIwill!“saidfather。“Getatighthold,andprayGoditisgoodwordwecarry。“
  “ButIprayedtheonebigprayertogetthis,“Isaid。“Itwouldn’tbesentifitwasn’tgood。ThethingtodonowistothanktheLordfor`allhislovingkindnesses,’likemothersaid。
  Drivefather!Makethemgo!“
  Atfirstheonlytouchedthemup;Icouldn’tseethatweweregettinghomesofast;butinaminuteacornfieldpassedlikeastreak,apieceofwoodsflewbyadarkblur,abridgeneverhadtimetorattle,andwebegantorockfromsidetosidealittle。
  ThenIgrippedthetopsupportswithonehand,themailwiththeother,andhungonfordearlife。Itookonegoodlookatfather。
  Hisfeetwereonthebrace,hisfacewasclear,evenwhite,hiseyessteely,andhenevermovedamuscle。WhenJothoughtitwasfunny,thathewaslooseinthepasture,andkickedupalittlebehind,fathergavehimasharpcutwiththewhipandsaid:
  “Steadyboy!Getalongthere!“
  Sometimeshesaid,“Aye,aye!Easy!“butheneverstoppedamite。Wewhizzedpastthechurchandcemetery,andscarcelytouchedtheBigHill。Peoplerantotheirdoors,eventotheyards,andIwassuretheythoughtwewerehavingarunaway,butwewerenot。Fatherbegantostopatthelanegate,hepulledallthewaypastthegarden,anditwasasmuchashecoulddotogetthemsloweddownsothatIcouldjumpoutbythetimewereachedthehitchingrack。Hetiedthem,andfollowedmeintothehouseinsteadofgoingtothebarn。Iranaheadcalling:
  “Shelley!WhereisShelley?“
  “Whatinthisworldhashappened,child?“askedmother,catchingmyarm。
  “Herletterhascome!HerPagetletter!Theoneyoulookedforuntilyougaveup。It’scomeatlast!Oh,whereisshe?“
  “Becalmer,child,you’llfrightenher,“saidmother。
  Maysnatchedtheletterfrommyfingersandbegantoreadallthatwasonitaloud。Iburstoutcrying。
  “Makehergivethatback!“Isobbedtofather。“It’smine!I
  foundit。Father,makeherletmetakeit!“
  “Giveittoher!“saidfather。“Iratherfeelthatitisherrighttodeliverit。“
  Maypasseditback,butshelookedsodisappointed,thatbyhowshefeltIknewhowmuchIwantedtotakeitmyself;soIreachedmyhandtoherandsaid:“Youcancomealong!We’llbothtakeit!Ohwhereisshe?“
  “Shewentdownintheorchard,“saidmother。“Ithinkprobablyshe’sgonebackwhereshewastheotherday。“
  Gee,butweran!Andthereshewas!Aswecameup,sheheardusandturned。
  “Shelley!“Icried。“Here’syourletter!Everythingisallright!He’scoming,Shelley!Lookquick,andseewhen!Motherwillwanttobeginbakingrightaway!“
  Shelleylookedatme,andsaidcoolly:“PaddyRyan!What’sthematter?“
  “Yourletter!“Icried,shovingitrightagainstherhands。
  “YourletterfromRobert!FromthePagetman,youknow!Itoldyouhewascoming!Hurry,andseewhen!“
  Shetookit,andsattherestaringatit,somuchlikefather,thatitmademethinkofhim,soIsawthatshewasgoingtohavetocomearoundtoitaswedid,andthatonecouldn’thurryher。
  Shejusthadtotakehertimetosenseit。
  “ShallIopenitforyou?“Iasked,merelytomakeherseethatitwastimeshewasdoingitherself。
  Blestifshedidn’treachittowardme!——sortofwoodenlike。I
  stuckmyfingerundertheflap,gaveitaripacrossandemptiedwhatwasinsideintoherlap。BetthereweresixorsevenlettersinqueeryellowenvelopesIneverbeforehadseenanylike,andonthemwasthename,RobertPaget,whileinonecorneritsaid,“ReturnedDeadLetter“;alsotherewasaloosefoldedwhitesheet。Shesatstaringattheheap,touchingone,another,andrepeating“RobertPaget?“asshepickedeachupinturn。
  “Whatdoyousupposeitmeans?“sheaskedMay。Mayexaminedthem。
  “Youmustreadtheloosesheet,“sheadvised。“Nodoubtthatwillexplain。“
  ButShelleynevertouchedit。Shehandledthoselettersandstaredatthem。Fatherandmothercamethroughtheorchardandstoodtogetherbehindus,sofatherkneltdownatlast,reachedacrossShelley’sshoulder,pickedoneupandlookedatit。
  “Haveyougoodword,dear?“askedmotherofShelley。
  “Why,Idon’tunderstandatall,“saidShelley。“Justlookatallthesequeerletters,addressedtoMr。Paget。Whyshouldtheybesenttome?Imustn’topenthem。They’renotmine。Theremustbesomemistake。“
  “TheseareDEADLETTERS,“saidfather。“They’vebeenwrittentoyou,couldn’tbedelivered,andsoweresenttotheDeadLetterOfficeatWashington,whichreturnedthemtothewriter,andunopenedhehasforwardedthemoncemoretoyou。You’veheardofdeadletters,haven’tyou?“
  “Isupposeso,“saidShelley。“Idon’trememberjustnow;buttherecouldn’tbeabettername。They’vecomemightynearkillingme。“
  “Ifyou’donlyreadthatnote!“urgedMay,puttingitrightintoherfingers。
  Shelleystillsatthere。
  “I’mafraidofit,“shesaidexactlylikeI’dhavespokeniftherehadbeenabigrattlesnakecomingrightatme,whenI’dnothingathandtobruiseit。
  LaddieandLeoncamefromthebarn。Theyhadheardmecalling,seenMayandmerun,andthenfatherandmothercomingdown,sotheywalkedover。
  “What’sup?“askedLeon。“HasUncleLevi’swillbeendiscovered,anddoesmothergethisMexicanmines?“
  “Whathaveyougot,Shelley?“askedLaddie,kneelingbesideher,andpickinguponeoftheyellowletters。
  “Ihardlyknow,“saidShelley。
  “Ibroughtherabigletterwithallthoselittleonesandanoteinit,andtheyarefromthePagetman,“Iexplainedtohim。
  “Butshewon’tevenreadthenote,andseewhathewrites。Shesaysshe’safraid。“
  “Poorchild!Nowonder!“saidLaddie,sittingbesideherandputtinghisarmaroundher。“SupposeIreaditforyou。MayI?“
  “Yes,“saidShelley。“Youreadit。Readitoutloud。Idon’tcare。“
  Sheleanedagainsthim,whileheunfoldedthewhitesheet。
  “Umph!“hesaid。“ThisDOESlookbadforyou。Itbegins:`MyowndarlingGirl。’“
  “Letmesee!“criedShelley,suddenlystraightening,andreachingherhand。
  Laddieheldthepagetowardher,butsheonlylooked,shedidn’toffertotouchit。
  “`MyowndarlingGirl:’“repeatedLaddietenderly,makingitmeanjustallhepossiblycould,becausehefeltsodreadfullysorryforher——“`OnmyreturntoChicago,fromthetriptoEnglandI
  havesooftentoldyouIintendedtomakesometimesoon——’“
  “Didhe?“askedmother。
  “Yes,“answeredShelley。“Hecouldn’ttalkaboutmuchelse。Itwashisfirstcase。Itwasforafriendofhiswhohadbeenrobbedofeverythingintheworld;honour,relatives,home,andmoney。IfRobertwonit,hegotallthatbackforhisfriendandenoughforhimself——thathecould——ahomeofhisown,youknow!
  Readon,Laddie!“
  “`IwashorrifiedtofindonmydeskeveryletterIhadwrittenyouduringmyabsencereturnedtomefromtheDeadLetterOffice,asyousee。’“
  “Goodgracious!“criedmother,pickinguponeandclutchingittightasifshemeanttoseethatitdidn’tgetawayagain。
  “Goon!“criedShelley。
  “`Iamenclosingsomeofthemastheycamebacktome,inproofofmystatement。Idroveatoncetoyourboardingplaceandfoundyouhadnotbeenthereforweeks,andyourlandladywasdistinctlycrabbed。ThenIwenttothecollege,onlytofindthatyouhadfallenillandgonetoyourhome。Thatthrewmeintotorments,andallthatkeepsmefromtakingthefirsttrainisthethoughtthatperhapsyourefusedtoaccepttheseletters,forsomereason。Shelley,youdidnot,didyou?Thereissomemistakesomewhere,istherenot——’“
  “Onewouldbeledtothinkso,“saidfathersternly。“Seemsasifhemighthavemanagedsomeway——“
  “Don’tyoublamehim!“criedShelley。“Can’tyouseeit’sallmyfault?He’dbeencomingregularly,andtheothergirlsenviedme;thenhejustdisappeared,andtherewasnowordoranything,andtheylaughedandwhispereduntilIcouldn’tendureit;soI
  movedinwithPeter’scousin,asIwroteyou;butthatleftMrs。
  Fleetwithanemptyroominthemiddleoftheterm,anditmadeherhoppingmad。Ibetanythingshewouldn’tgivethepostmanmynewaddress,topaymeback。Ileftit,ofcourse。ButifI’dbeenhalfawoman,andhadtheconfidenceIshouldhavehadinmyselfandinhim——OhhowI’vesuffered,andpunishedallofyou——!“
  “Neveryoumindaboutthat,“saidmother,strokingShelley’shair。“Likelythereisn’tmuchinChicagotogiveagirlwhoneverhadbeenawayfromherfamilybefore,`confidence’inherselforanyoneelse。Asforhim——justdisappearinglikethat,withoutawordorevenaline——GoonLaddie!“
  “`Surely,youknewthatIwasonlywaitingtheoutcomeofthistriptotellyouhowdearlyIloveyou。Surely,youencouragedmeinthinkingyoucaredformealittle,Shelley。Onlyalittlewilldotobeginwith——’“
  “Yousee,IDIDhavesomethingtogoon!“criedShelley,wipinghereyesandstraighteningup。
  “`Nodoubtyoumisunderstoodandresentedmygoingwithoutcomingtoexplain,andbidyougood-byeinperson,butShelley,_I_
  SIMPLYDAREDNOT。Yousee,itwasthisway:IgotacableaboutthecaseIwasalwaystalkingof,andtheonlymanwhocouldgivethetestimonyIMUSTHAVEwasdying!’“
  “Forland’ssake!Thepoorboy!“criedmother,pattingShelley’sshoulder。
  “`Anhour’sdelaymightmeanthelossofeverythingintheworldtome,evenyou。ForifIlostanytime,andthemanescapedme,therewasnohopeofwinningmycase,andeverything,evenyou,asIsaidbefore,dependedonhim——’“
  “GoodLord!Imeanland!“criedLeon。
  “`IfIcouldcatchthetraininanhour,IcouldtakeaboatatNewYork,andgostraightthroughwithnolossoftime。SoI
  wroteyouanotethatprobablysaidmorethanIwouldhaveventuredinperson,andpaidaboytodeliverit。’“
  “Keptthemoneyandtoreupthenote,Ibet!“saidMay。
  “`Iwroteonthetrain,butfoundaftersailingthatIhadrushedsoIhadfailedtopostitinNewYork。Ikeptonwritingeverydayontheboat,andmailedyousixatLiverpool。AllthetimeI
  havewrittenfrequently;therearemanymoreherethatthisenvelopewillnothold,thatIshallsaveuntilIhearfromyou。’“
  “Well,well!“saidfather。
  “`Shelley,Ibeatdeath,reachedmyman,gotthetestimonyIhadtohave,andwonmycase。’“
  “Glory!“criedmother。“PraisetheLord!“
  “`ThenIscouredEngland,andpartofthecontinent,huntingsomeinterestedparties;andwhenIwassolongfindingthem,andstillnowordcamefromyou,Idecidedtocomebackandgetyou,ifyouwouldcomewithme,andgoonwiththeworktogether。’“