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第48章

  Thenhekissedme,andTHATwassettled。SoIwonderedwhenyoulongedforanythingsohardyoureallyfeltitwasworthbotheringGodabout,whetherthequickestwaytogetitwastoaskHimforit,ortotrytoputalotofloveintotheheartofsomepersonwhocoulddowhatyouwanted。IdecideditallwentbacktoGodthough,formostofthetimeprobablywewouldn’tknowwhotherightonewastotrytoawakenlovein。IwasmightysurenoneofuseverdreamedLaddiecouldwalkovertoPryors’,andcomebackwiththathorse,inawayperfectlysatisfactorytoeveryone,slickasaneel。
  YoushouldhaveseenLeonfollowingaroundafterLaddie,tryingtodothingsforhim,takingonhisworktogivehimmoretimewiththehorses,gettingupearlytofinishhisownstunts,sohecouldgoovertoPryors’andhelp。Mothersaidithaddonemoretomakeamanofhimthananythingthateverhappened。IthelpedShelley,too。Somethingseemedtobreakinher,whenshecriedsowithLeon,becausehewasintrouble。ThenhewassocrazytoshowoffhishorsehehadShelleyrideupanddownthelane,whileheranalongandled,soshegotalotofexercise,anditmadehergoodandhungry。Ifyoudon’tthinkbythistimethatmymotherwasthebeatenestwomanalive,I’llproveittoyou。
  Whenthesupperbellrangtherewasstrawberrypreservesinsteadoftheapplebutter,biscuit,friedchicken,andmashedpotatoes。
  Shemusthaveslappedthosechickensintotheskilletbeforetheyknewtheirheadswereoff。WhenShelleycametothetable,forthefirsttimesinceshe’dbeenhome,hadpinkinhercheeks,andtalkedsome,andatetoo,motherforgotherownsupper。Shefumbledoverherplate,butscarcelytouchedeventhelivers,andthosedeliciouslittlekidneysinthetailpiecelikeLeonandI
  hadatSally’swedding。Whenwefinished,anditwastimeforhertogivethesignaltoarise,noonehadaskedtobeexcused,shesaid:“LetushaveawordwiththeMostHigh。“Thenshebowedherhead,soallofusdidtoo。“OLord,wepraiseTheeforallThytendermercies,andallThylovingkindness。Amen!“
  Ofcoursefatheralwaysaskedtheblessingtobeginwith,andmostlyitwasthesameone,andthatwasallatmealtime,butthiswasalittleextrathatmothercouldn’tevenwaituntilnighttotelltheAlmighty,shewassopleasedwithHim。MaybeI
  haven’ttoldeverythingabouther,afterall。Fathermusthavethoughtthatwaslovelyofher;hesurelyfeltashappyasshedid,toseeShelleybetter,forhehuggedandkissedheroverandover,finishingathernecklikehealwaysdid,andthenIbe-
  hanged,ifhedidn’thugandkisseverylastoneofus——tight,eventheboys。Shelleyheheldlongandclose,andpattedheralittlewhenhelethergo。Itmademewonderiftherestofusdidn’tgetours,sohe’dhaveachanceatherwithouthernoticingit。Onethingwasperfectlyclear。Ifshamecametous,theyweregoingtoloveher,andsticktighttoherrightstraightthroughit。
  Nowthateverythingwasclearedupso,Shelleyseemedalittlemorelikeherselfeveryday,althoughitwasbadenoughyet;I
  thoughtImightaswellhurryuptheendalittle,andstopthetroublecompletely,soIbeganwatchingforachancetoaskher。
  ButIwantedtogetherawayoffalone,sonoonewouldseeifsheslappedme。Ididn’tknowhowlongI’dhavetowait。I
  triedcoaxinghertotheorchardtoseeabluebird’snest,butsheaskedifbluebirdswerebuildinganydifferentthatyear,andIhadtoadmittheywerenot。ThenItriedtheblue-eyedMarybed,butshesaidshesupposeditwasstillundertheclingpeachtree,andtheflower,twowhitepetalsup,twobluedown,andsoitwas。JustasIwasbeginningtothinkI’dhavetotakethattotheLordinprayer,Igotmychancebyaccident。
  MayandCandacewereforevergoingsnakehunting。Youwouldthinkanyonewithcommonsensewouldleavethemaloneandbegladofthechance,butnoindeed!Theywentnearlyeverydayassoonasthenoonworkwasfinished,andstayeduntiltimetogetsupper。Theydidhaveheapsoffunandwildexcitement。Maywasgentle,andtenderwitheverythingelseonearth;soI’sposeshehadarighttobruisetheserpentwithherheel——reallysheusedsticksandstones——ifshewantedto。IaskedherhowsheCOULD,andshesaidtherewasaplaceintheBiblethattoldhowasnakecoaxedEvetoeatanapple,thattheLordhadtoldhershemustn’ttouch;andsoshegotusintomostofthetroubletherewasintheworld。MaysaiditwasallthefaultoftheSNAKEtobeginwith,andshemeanttopayupeveryoneshecouldfind,becauseshehadnoneoftheapple,andlotsofthetrouble。
  CandacecriedsomuchbecauseFrederickSwartzhadbeenlaidinthetomb,thatmotherwaspleasedtohavehercheerup,evenenoughtogosnakehunting。
  ThatafternoonMehitabelHeastyhadcometovisitMay,soshewentalong,andIfollowed。Theypokedaroundthedriftwoodatthefloodgatebehindthebarn,andweregivinguptheplace。
  Candacehadcrossedthecreekandwascomingback,andMayhadstarted,whenshesawatinylittleoneandchasedit。Wedidn’tknowthenthatitwasagoodthingtohavesnakestoeatmoles,fieldmice,andotherpeststhatbotheryourcrops;theBiblehadnomercyonthematall,sowewerenotsavingoursnakes;andanywaywehadmorethanweneeded,whilesomeofthemweretoobigtobesafetokeep,andafewpoisonascouldbe。Maybegantobruisetheserpent,whenoutofthedriftwoodwheretheyhadn’tfoundanythingcameitsmammy,agreatbigblacksnake,maddestyoueversaw,withitspappyrightafterher,madasevertoo。CandacescreamedatMaytolookbehindher,butMaywasbusywiththesnakeanddidn’tlookquickenough,sotheoldmammystruckrightinherback。ShejustcaughtinthehemofMay’sskirt,andherteethstuckinthegoods——youknowhowasnake’steethturnback——soshecouldn’tletgo。Maytookonelookandraceddownthebanktothecrossing,throughthewater,andtowardus,withthesnakedraggingandtwisting,andtryingherbesttogetaway。MaywasscreamingateveryjumpforCandace,andMehitabelwasflyingupanddowncrying:“Ohthere’ssnakesinmyshoes!There’ssnakesinmyshoes!“
  ThatwasafairsampleofhowmuchsenseaHeastyeverhad。IttookallMehitabel’sshoescoulddotoholdherfeet,forafteronewentbarefootallweek,andneverputonshoesexceptonSundayorforavisit,thefeetbecamesospreadout,shoeshadalltheycoulddotomanagethem,andthenmostlytheypincheduntiltheymadeonesquirm。Butshejumpedandsaidthat,whileMayranandscreamed,andCandacegrippedherbighickorystickandtoldMaytostandstill。Thenshebruisedthatserpentwithherwholefoot,forshestoodonit,andswattedituntilshebrokeitsneck。Thensheturnedreadyfortheotherone,butwhenitsawwhathappenedtoitsmate,itdecidedtogoback。
  Evensnakes,itdoesn’tseemrighttobreakupfamilieslikethat;sobythetimeCandacegotthemammykilled,loosefromMay’shem,andstretchedoutwiththebackup,soshewouldn’tmakeitrain,whenCandacewasn’tsurethatfatherwantedrain,I
  hadenough。IwentdownthecreekuntilIwasbelowtheorchard,thenIcrossed,passedthecowslipbed,climbedthehillandfence,andstoppedtothinkwhatIwoulddofirst;andthereonlyafewfeetawaywasShelley。Shewassittingintheshade,herkneesdrawnup,herhandsclaspedaroundthem,staringstraightbeforeheracrossthemeadowatnothinginparticular,thatI
  couldsee。ShejumpedasifIhadbeenasnakewhenshesawme,thenshesaid,“Oh,isityou?“likeshewashalfgladofit。Mychancehadcome。
  Iwenttoher,satclosebesideherandtriedsnugglingupalittle。Itworked。Sheputherarmaroundme,drewmetight,rubbedhercheekagainstmyheadandwesatthere。IwaswonderinghowintheworldIcouldaskher,andnotgetslapped。
  Iwasgrowingmosttoobigforthatslappingbusiness,anyway。
  Wesatthere;Iwaslookingacrossthemeadowasshedid,onlyI
  waswatchingeverythingthatwenton,sowhenIsawagrosbeakflyfromthewildgrapewhereShelleyhadputthecrockforsap,itmademethinkofherhair。Sheusedtoliketohavemeplaywithitsowell,she’dgivemepenniesifIdid。Igotup,andbeganpullingoutherpinscarefully。IknewIwasgettingastartbecauserightawaysheputupherhandtohelpme。
  “Icangetthem,“Isaidjustasflannel-mouthedaseverIcould,likeallofustalkedtohernow,soIgoteveryoneandneverpulledamite。WhenIreachedoverhershouldertodroptheminherlap,beingsocloseIkissedhercheek。ThenIshookdownherhair,spreaditout,liftedit,partedit,andheldupstrandstolettheaironherscalp。Sheshiveredandsaid:
  “Mercychild,howgoodthatdoesfeel!Myheadhasachedlatelyuntilit’sawonderthere’sahairleftonit。“
  SoIwaspleasingher。Ineverdidhandlehairsocarefully。I
  triedeverysinglethingitfeelsgoodtoyoutohavedonewithyourhair,rubbedherheadgently,andtocheerherupItoldheraboutMayandthesnake,andwhatfoolMehitabelhadsaid,andshecouldn’thelplaughing;soIhadherfeelingaboutasgoodasshecould,forthewaysheactuallyfelt,butstillIdidn’treallygetahead。Comerighttotheplacetodoit,thatwasnoveryeasyquestiontoaskaperson,whenyouwouldn’thurttheirfeelingsforanything;IwasbeginningtowonderifIwouldlosemychance,whenallatonceawayIcouldmanagepoppedintomymind。
  “Shelley,“Isaid,“theytoldyouaboutLaddieandthePrincess,didn’tthey?“
  Iknewtheyhad,butIhadtomakeabeginningsomeway。
  “Yes,“shesaid。“I’mgladofit!Ithinkshe’sprettyasapicture,andniceasshelooks。Laddiemayhavetohumphimselftosupporther,butifhecan’tgetherasfineclothesasshehas,herfolkscanhelphim。Theyseemtohaveplenty,andshe’stheironlychild。“
  “They’regoingto。IheardMr。PryoraskLaddieifhe’dbesounkindastoobjecttothemhavingthepleasureofgivingherthings。“
  “Well,thegreenhorndidn’tsayhewould!“
  “No。Hedidn’twanttoputhisnosetothegrindstonequitethatclose。Hesaiditwasbetweenthem。“
  “Ishouldthinkso!“
  “Shelley,there’saquestionI’vebeenwantingtoasksomeoneforquiteawhile。“
  “What?“
  “Why,this!Youknow,LaddiewasinlovewiththePrincess,likeyouarewhenyouwanttomarryfolks,foralong,longtime,beforehecouldbesurewhethershelovedhimback。“
  “Yes。“
  “Well,now,’sposesheneverhadlovedhim,wouldhehavehadanythingtobeashamedof?“
  “Ican’tseethathewould。Someonemuststartacourtship,ortherewouldbenomarrying,andit’sconcededtobetheplaceoftheman。No。Hemightbedisappointed,ordreadfullyhurt,buttherewouldbenoshameaboutit。“
  “Well,then,supposeshelovedhim,andwantedtomarryhim,andhehadn’tlovedher,orwantedher,wouldSHEhavehadanythingtobeashamedof?“
  “Idon’tthinkso!Ifshewasattractedbyhim,andthoughtshewouldlikehim,shewouldhavearighttogotoacertainextent,tofindoutifhecaredforher,andifhedidn’t,why,she’djusthavetogivehimup。Butanysensiblegirlwaitsforamantomaketheadvances,andplentyofthem,beforesheallowsherselfeventodreamoflovinghim,oratleast,Iwould。“
  NowIwasgettingsomewhere!
  “Ofcourseyouwould!“Isaid。“ThatwouldbetheWAYmotherwould,wouldn’tit?“
  “Surely!“
  “IfthatPagetmanyouusedtowriteabouthadseemedtobejustwhatyouliked,you’dhavewaitedtoknowifhewantedyou,beforeyoulovedhim,wouldn’tyou?“
  “Icertainlywould!“answeredShelley。“Oratleast,I’dhavewaiteduntilITHOUGHTsureasdeath,Iknew。Itseemsthatsometimesyoucanbefooledaboutthosethings。“
  “Butifyouthoughtsureyouknew,andthenfoundoutyouhadbeenmistaken,youwouldn’thaveanythingtobeASHAMEDof,wouldyou?“
  “Not-on-your-life-I-wouldn’t!“criedShelley,hammeringeachwordintoherrightkneewithherdoubledfist。“Whatareyoudrivingat,Blatherskite?Whathaveyougotintoyourhead?“
  “Ohjuststudyingaboutthings,“Isaid,whichwasexactlythetruth。“Sallygettingmarriedlastfall,andLaddiegoingtothis,juststartedmetowondering。“
  Fooledher,too!
  “Ohwell,there’snoharmdone,“shesaid。“Thesooneryougetthesemattersstraightenedout,thebetterableyouwillbetotakecareofyourself。Ifyouevergotoacity,you’llfindoutthatagirlneedsconsiderablecaretakenofher。“
  “Youcouldlookoutforyourself,Shelley?“
  “Well,Idon’tknowasImadesuchagloriousfistofit,“shesaid,“butatleast,asyousay,I’venothingtobeashamedof!“
  Ialmosthuggedherheadoff。
  “Ofcourseyouhaven’t!“Icried。“Ofcourseyouwouldn’thave!“
  Ijustkissedheroverandoverforjoy;Iwassogladmyhearthurtforfatherandmother。Shamehadnotcometothem!
  “Now,IguessI’llruntothehouseandgetacomb,“Itoldher。
  “Goon,“saidShelley。“Iknowyouaretired。“
  “I’mnotintheleast,“Isaid。“Don’tyourememberIalwaysuseacombwhenIfusswithyourhair?“
  “Itisbetter,“saidShelley。“Gogetone。“
  AsIgotuptostartItookalastlookather,andtherewassomethinginherfacethatIcouldn’tbear。Ikneltbesideher,andputbotharmsaroundherneck。
  “Shelley,it’sasecret,“Isaidinabreathlesshalfwhisper。
  “It’sagreat,bigsecret,butI’mgoingtotellyou。TwicenowI’vehadapowerfulprayerallreadytotry。It’sthekindwhereyougotothebarn,allalone,standonthattopbeambelowthehighestwindowandlooktowardtheeast。Youkeepperfectlystill,andjustthinkwithallyourmight,andyoulookawayoverwhereJesususedtobe,andwhentherightfeelingcomes,youpraythatprayerasifHestoodbeforeyou,anditwillcometrue。IKNOWitwillcometrue。ThereasonIknowisbecausetwicenowI’vebeenalmostreadytotryit,andwhatIintendedtoaskforhappenedbeforeIhadtime;soI’vesavedthatprayer;
  butShelley,shallIprayitaboutthePagetman,foryou?“
  Shegrippedme,andsheshookuntilshewasalltwistedup;youcouldhearherteethclick,shechilledso。Thetearsjustgushed,andshepulledmeupcloseandwhisperedrightinmyear:
  “Yes!“
  Itwasonlypretendaboutthecomb;whatIreallywantedwastogettofatherandmotherquick。Iknewhewasatthebarnandhewasgoingtobetoohappyforwordsinaminute。ButasIwentupthelane,Iwasn’tsurewhetherI’dratherprayaboutthatPagetmanorbruisehimwithmyheellikeaserpent。TheonlywayIcouldfixitwastorememberifShelleylovedhimso,hemustbemightynice。Fatherwasinthewagonshovellingcornfromittoaplatformwhereitwouldbehandytofeedthepigs,soIranandcalledhim,andputonefootonahubandraisedmyhands。Hepulledmeupandwhenhesawhowimportantitwas,hesatontheedgeofthebed,soItoldhim:“Father,youhaven’tgotathingintheworldtobeashamedofaboutShelley。“
  “PraisetheLord!“saidfatherlikeIknewhewould,butyoushouldhaveseenhisface。“Tellmeaboutit!“