couldtalk,forIwasgettingintoanawfulmess。“Youseeheknowsthatyouwanthimtobealawyer,andthathemustquitplowingbeforehecanbemorethanfriendswithyou。That’swhathe’splowingfor!Ifitwasn’tforthat,probablyhewouldn’t;
beplowingatall。Heaskedfathertolethim,andheborrowedmother’shorses,andhehookedtheflowersthroughthefence。
Everynightwhenhecomeshome,hekneelsbesidemotherandasksherifheis`repulsive,’andshetakeshiminherarmsandthetearsrolldownhercheeksandshesays:`Fatherhasfarmedallhislife,andyouknowhowrepulsiveheis。’“
Iventuredanupwardpeep。Iwasdoingbetter。Hertemperseemedtobecooling,butherfacewasajumble。Icouldn’tfindanyonethingonitthatwouldhelpme,soIjuststumbledaheadguessingatwhattosay。
“Hedidn’tWANTtodoit。HeperfectlyHATEDit。ThosefieldswerehisWaterloo。EveryfurrowwasaFIGHT,buthewasFORCED
toshowyou。“
“ExactlyWHATwashetryingtoshowme?“
“Icanthinkofthreethingshetoldme,“Ianswered。“Thatplowingcouldbesomanagedasnottodisfigurethelandscape——“
“Thedunce!“shesaid。
“Thathecouldplowordodirtierwork,andnotberepulsive——“
“Theidiot!“shesaid。
“Thatifhecameoverthere,andplowedrightunderyournose,whenyou’dtoldhimhemustn’t,orhecouldn’tbemorethanfriends;andwhenyouknewthathe’dmuchratherdieandbelaidbesidethelittlesistersupthereinthecemeterythantoNOTbemorethanfriends,why,you’dsee,ifhedidTHAT,hecouldn’thelpit,thathejustMUST。ThathewasFORCED——“
“Thesoldier!“shesaid。
“OhPrincess,hedidn’twantto!“Icried。“Hetellsmesecretshedoesn’tanyoneelse,unlessyou。Hetoldmehowhehatedit;
buthejusthadtodoit。“
“DoyouknowWHY?“
“Ofcourse!It’sthewayhe’sMADE!Fatherislikethat!Hehaschancestoliveincities,makebigbusinessdeals,andgotothelegislatureatIndianapolis;I’veseenhislettersfromhisfriendOliverP。Morton,ourGovernor,youknow;they’reinhischesttillnow;butfathercan’tdoit,becauseheismadesohestaysathomeandworksforus,andthisfarm,andtownship,andcountywherehebelongs。Hesaysifallmenwilldothatthemillenniumwillcometo-morrow。I’sposeyouknowwhatthemillenniumis?“
“Ido!“saidthePrincess。“ButIdon’tknowwhatyourfatherandhisfriendOliverP。MortonhavetodowithLaddie。“
“Why,everythingonearth!Laddieisfather’sson,yousee,andheismadelikefather。Noneofourotherboysis。Notoneofthemlovesland。Leonisgoingawayasquickaseverhefinishescollege;butthemoreyoueducateLaddie,thebetterhelikestomakethingsgrow,themorehelovestomaketheworldbeautiful,tobekindtoeveryone,togentleanimals——why,thebiggestfightheeverhad,themanhewhipped’tilhemostcouldn’tbringhimbackagain,wasonewhokickedhishorseinthestomach。
Gee,Ithoughthe’dkilledhim!Laddiedidtooforawhile,butheonlysaidthemandeservedit。“
“Andsohedid!“criedthePrincessangrily。“Howbeastly!“
“That’sonereasonLaddiestickssoclosetoland。Hesayshedoesn’tmeetnearlysomanytwo-leggedbeastsinthecountry。
Almosteverytimehegoestotownheeithergetsintoafightorheseessomethingthatmakeshimfightingmad。Princess,youthinkthisbeautiful,don’tyou?“
Ijustpointedanywhere。Alltheworldwasinitthatmorning。
Youcouldn’tlookrightorleftandnotseelovelyplaces,hearmusic,andsmellflowers。
“Yes!Itisaltogetherwonderful!“shesaid。
“Wouldyouliketoliveamongthisallyourlife,andhaveyourplansmadetofixyouaplaceevennicer,andthenbeforcedtoleaveitandgotoalittleroominthecity,andmakeallthemoneyyouearnedoffofhowmuchothermenfightoverbusiness,andlandandsuchperfectlyawfulthings,thattheyalwayshavetobewhisperedwhenJerrytellsaboutthem?Wouldyou?“
“Youlittledunce!“shecried。
“IknowI’mafool。IknowI’mnottellingyouasinglethingI
should!MaybeI’mhurtingLaddiefarmorethanI’mhelpinghim,andifIam,IwishIwoulddiebeforeIseehim;butoh!
Princess,I’mtryingwithallmymighttomakeyouunderstandhowhefeels。HeWANTStodoeveryleastthingyou’dlikehimto。
Hewill,almostanythingelseintheworld,hewouldthis——hewouldinaminute,buthejustCAN’T。Allofusknowhecan’t!
Ifyou’dlivedwithhimsincehewaslittleandalwayshadknownhim,youwouldn’taskhimto;youwouldn’twanthimto!Youdon’tknowwhatyou’redoing!Mothersaysyoudon’t!You’llkillhimifyousendhimtothecitytolive,youjustwill!Youaredoingitnow!He’sgettingthinnerandwhitereveryday。
Don’t!Ohpleasedon’tdoit!“
ThePrincesswaslookingattheworld。Shewasgazingatitsodazed-likesheseemedtobesurprisedatwhatshesaw。Sheactedasifshe’dneverreallyseenitbefore。Shelookedandshelooked。Sheeventurnedherhorseafullcircletoseeallofit,andshewentaroundslowly。Isteppedfromonefoottotheotherandsweat;butIkeptquietandletherlook。Atlastwhenshecamearound,sheglanceddownatme,andshewasallmelted,andlovelyasanyoneyoueversaw,exactlylikeShelleyatChristmas,andshesaid:“Idon’tthinkIeversawtheworldbefore。Idon’tknowthatI’msocrazyaboutacitymyself,andIperfectlyhatelawyers。Cometothingofit,alawyerhelpedworkruininourfamily,andIneverhavebelieved,Ineverwillbelieve——“
Shestoppedtalkingandbeganlookingagain。Igaveherallthetimesheneeded。Iwasjuststrainingtobewise,formothersaysittakestheverywisestpersonthereistoknowwhentotalk,andwhentokeepstill。AsIfiguredit,nowwasthetimenottosayanotherworduntilshemadeuphermindaboutwhatI
hadtoldheralready。IfPryorsdidn’tknowwhatwethoughtofthembythattime,itwasn’tmother’sfaultormine。Asshestudiedthingsovershekeptonlooking。Whatshesawseemedtobedoingheraworldofgood。Herfaceshowediteverysecondplainerandplainer。PrettysoonitbegantolooklikeshewasgoingtocomethroughasAmosHurddidwhenhewasredeemed。
Then,beforemyveryeyes,ithappened!Idon’tknowhowIeverheldontothepieorkeptfromshouting,“PraisetheLord!“asfatherdoesattheMeetingHousewhenheishappiest。Thensheleanedtowardmeallwavery,andshiningeyed,andbloomful,andsaid:“DidyoueverhurtLaddie’sfeelings,andmakehimangryandsad?“
“I’msureIneverdid,“Ianswered。
“Butsupposeyouhad!Whatwouldyoudo?“
“Do?Why,I’dgotohimontherun,andI’dtellhimIneverintendedtohurthisfeelings,andhowsorryIwas,andI’dgivehimtheverybestkissIcould。“
ThePrincessstrokedMaud’sneckalongtimeandthoughtwhileshestudiedourfarm,theirsbeyondit,andatthelast,thefarfieldwhereLaddiewasplowing。Shethought,andthought,andafraidtocheep,Istoodgrippingtheshingleandwaited。
Finallyshesaid:“ThelasttimeLaddiewasatourhouse,Isaidtohimthosethingsherepeatedtoyou。Hewentawayatonce,hurtanddisappointed。Now,ifyoulike,alongwithyourpreciouspie,youmaycarryhimthismessagefromme。YoumaytellhimthatIsaidIamsorry!“
Icouldhavecried“Glory!“anddancedandshoutedthereintheroad,butIdidn’t。Itwasnotimetolosemyhead。Thatwasallsofineandsplendid,asfarasitwent,butitdidn’tquitecoverthecase。Inevercouldhavedoneitformyself;butforLaddieIwouldventureanything,soIlookedherintheeyes,straightasadart,andsaid:“He’dwantthekisstoo,Princess!“
Youcouldseeherstiffeninthesaddleandherfingersgripthereins,butIkeptonstaringrightintohereyes。
“Icouldcomeup,youknow,“Ioffered。
Adullredflamedinhercheeksandherlipsclosedtight。Onesecondshesatverystill,thenadancinglightleapedsparklingintohereyes;aflockofdimpleschasedeachotheraroundherlipslikeswallowscirclingtheirhomingplaceattwilight。
“Whataboutthatwonderfulpie?“sheaskedme。
Irantothenearestfencecorner,andlaidtheshingleonthegnarledrootsofaJohnnyAppleseedappletree。ThenIsetonefootonthearchofthePrincess’instepandheldupmyhands。
OnesecondIthoughtshewouldnotliftme,thenextIwasonherlevelandherlipsmetmineinatouchlikevelvetwovenfromthreadsofflame。Thenwithaturnofherstoutlittlewrist,shedroppedme,andastreakwentupourroad。Nothingsoamazingandsoimportanteverhadhappenedtome。Itwasanoccasionthatdemandedsomethingunusual。Tocry,“PraisetheLord!“wasonlytorepeatanhourlyphraseatourhouse;thisdemandedsomethingoutoftheordinary,soIsaidjustexactlyasfatherdidthedaythebrownmarebalkedwiththelastloadofseedclover,whenabigstormwasbreaking——“JupiterAmmon!“
WhenIhadcalmeddownsoIcould,Iclimbedthefence,andreachedthroughacrackforthepie。AsIfollowedthecool,dampfurrow,andLaddie’swhistle,clearasthelark’sabovethewheat,thrilledme,Iwasalmostinsanewithjoy。Justjoy!
Purejoy!Ohwhatagoodworlditwas!——mostofthetime!Mostofthetime!Ofcourse,thereWEREPagetmeninit。Butanyway,THIScouldn’tbebeaten。IhadamessageforLaddiefromthePrincessthatwouldsendhimtotheseventhheaven,whereverthatwas;nooneatourhousespentanytimethinkingfartherthanthefirstone。Ihadherkiss,thatIdidn’tknowwhatwoulddotohim,andIalsohadabigpieceofjuicyrhubarbpienotyetentirelycold。Ifthatdidn’twipeoutthetroubleIhadmadeshowingtheoldcrestthing,nothingevercould。Ikneweventhen,thatmenwereprettyhardtosatisfy,butIwasquitecertainthatLaddiewouldbesatisfiedthatmorning。AsI
hurriedalongIwonderedwhetheritwouldbebettertogivehimmygiftfirst,orthePrincess’。Idecidedthatjoywouldkeep,whilethepiewascoldenough,withallthetimeIhadstopped;
andifItoldhimaboutherfirst,maybehewouldn’ttouchitatall,anditwasn’tsoeasyasitlookedtocarryittohimandneverevenoncestickinmyfingerforthetiniestlick——joywouldkeep;butIwasgoingtofeedhim;sowithshiningface,I
offeredthepieandstoodbacktoseejusthowhappyIcouldget。
“Mothersendit?“askedLaddie。
Peoplewerecuriousthatmorning,asifIhadahabitofstealingpie。Ionlytookpiecesofcutonesfromthecellarwhenmotherdidn’tcare。SoIexplainedagainthatCandacegaveittome,andIwasfreetobringit。
“OhIsee!“saidLaddie。
Afternearlytwoweeksofwork,thegrayshadsobereddownenoughtostandwithouttying;sohewoundthelinesaroundtheplowhandle,satonthebeam,andlaidasidehishat,havingafreshflowerintheband。Oncehestartedathing,hejustsimplywouldn’tgiveup。HeunbuttonedhisneckbanduntilIcouldseehisthroatwhereitwaswhitelikeawoman’s,tookouthisknifeandatethatpie。Ofcourseweknewbetterthantouseaknifeatthetable,buttherewasnootherwayinthefield。Heatethatpie,slowlyanddeliberately,andbetweenbiteshetalked。
Iwatchedhimwithawidegrin,wonderingwhatinthisworldheWOULDsay,inaminute。Idon’tthinkIeverhadquitesuchagoodtimeinallmylifebefore,andIneverexpecttoagain。Hewassaying:“Talkaboutnectarandambrosia!TalkaboutthefeastsofLucullus!TalkaboutfoodfortheGods!“
Iputonhishat,satonthegroundinfrontofhim,andwasthehappiestgirlintheworld,ofthatIamquitesure。Whenthelastmorselwasfinished,Laddielookedatmesteadily。
“Iwonder,“hesaid,“Iwonderifthere’sanothermanintheworldwhoisblestwithquitesuchaloving,unselfishlittlesisterasmine?“Thenheansweredhimself:“No!ByalltheGods,anthalf-Gods,Iswearit——No!“
ItwasgrandasaFourthofJulyorationorthemostexcitingpartwhentheBishopdedicatedourchurch。Icouldn’tholdinanothersecond,Icouldhearmyheartbeat。
“OhLaddie!“Ishouted,jumpingup,“thatpieisonlythebeginningofthegoodthingsIhavebroughtyou。Ihaveamessage,andagiftbesides,Laddie!“
“Amessageandagift?“Laddierepeated。“What!More?“
“TrulyIhaveamessageandagiftforyou,“Icried,“andLaddie——theyarefromthePrincess!“
Hiseyesraisedtominenow,andslowlyheturnedSabethany-like。
“FromthePrincess!“heexclaimed。“Amessageandagiftforme,LittleSister?YouneverwouldletLeonputyouuptoservemeatrick?“
Thathurt。HeshouldhaveKNOWNIwouldn’t,andbesides,“Leonfeelsjustasbadlyaboutthisasanyofus,“Isaid。“Haveyouforgottenheofferedtoplow,andletyoudotheclean,easywork?“
“Forgiveme!I’moveranxious,“saidLaddie,hisarmsreachingforme。“Goonandtellcarefully,andifyoutrulyloveme,don’tmakeamistake!“
Crowdingclose,myarmsaroundhisneck,hiscrisphairagainstmylips,Iwhisperedmystorysoftly,forthiswassuchafineandsplendidsecret,thatnoteventheshiningblackbirds,andthepertrobinsinthefurrowsweregoingtogettohearawordofit。BeforeIhadfinishedLaddiewasbreathingasFlosdoeswhenheracesherthelimit。Hesatmotionlessforalongtime,whileoverhisfaceslowlycreptabeautythatsurpassedthatofApolloinhisGreekbook。
“Andhergift?“
Itwasonlyabreath。
“Shehelpedmeup,andshesentyouthis,“Ianswered。
ThenIsetmylipsonhis,andheldthemthereasecond,tryingmylevelbesttogivehimherverykiss,butofcourseIcouldonlytry。
“Oh,Laddie,“Icried。“Hereyeswerelikewhenstarsshinedowninourwell!Hercheekswerelikemother’sdamaskroses!Shesmelledlikeflowers,andwhenherlipstouchedminelittlestickerswentalloverme!“
ThenLaddie’sarmsclosedaroundmeandIthoughtsureeveryboneinmybodywasgoingtobebroken;whenhefinishedtherewasn’tatraceofthatkissleftforme。RememberingitwouldbeallI’deverhave。ItmademeseewhatwouldhavehappenedtothePrincessifshehadbeenthere;anditwasanawfulpityforhertomissit,becausehe’dsoberdownalotbeforehereachedher,butIwassureasshootingthathewouldn’tbesocrazyastokissherhandsagain。Peterwasn’tapatchingtohim!
ThatnightLaddierodetoPryors’。WhenhebroughtFlostothegateyoucouldseetheshadowofyourfaceonhershiningflank;
hermaneandtailwerelikeravelledsilk,herhoofsbrightaspolishedhorn,andhermuzzlewascleanasaribbon。Ibrokeoneofthoserankgreensproutsfromthesnowballbushandbrushedawaytheflies,soshewouldn’tfret,stamp,andthrowdustonherself。ThenLaddiecame,freshfromatubbing,starchedlinen,dressedinhisnewridingsuit,andwearingtophatandgauntlets。HelookedtheveryhandsomestIeverhadseenhim;
andatthesametime,heseemedtremblingwithtenderness,andburstingwithpower。Goodnesssake!IbetthePrincesstookonegoodlookand“camedown“likeDavyCrockett’scoon。Motherwasonhisarmandshewalkedcleartothegatewithhim。
“LADDIE,AREYOUSUREENOUGHTOGO?“Iheardheraskhimwhisper-
like。
“SUREASDEATH!“Laddieanswered。
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