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第45章

  couldtalk,forIwasgettingintoanawfulmess。“Youseeheknowsthatyouwanthimtobealawyer,andthathemustquitplowingbeforehecanbemorethanfriendswithyou。That’swhathe’splowingfor!Ifitwasn’tforthat,probablyhewouldn’t;
  beplowingatall。Heaskedfathertolethim,andheborrowedmother’shorses,andhehookedtheflowersthroughthefence。
  Everynightwhenhecomeshome,hekneelsbesidemotherandasksherifheis`repulsive,’andshetakeshiminherarmsandthetearsrolldownhercheeksandshesays:`Fatherhasfarmedallhislife,andyouknowhowrepulsiveheis。’“
  Iventuredanupwardpeep。Iwasdoingbetter。Hertemperseemedtobecooling,butherfacewasajumble。Icouldn’tfindanyonethingonitthatwouldhelpme,soIjuststumbledaheadguessingatwhattosay。
  “Hedidn’tWANTtodoit。HeperfectlyHATEDit。ThosefieldswerehisWaterloo。EveryfurrowwasaFIGHT,buthewasFORCED
  toshowyou。“
  “ExactlyWHATwashetryingtoshowme?“
  “Icanthinkofthreethingshetoldme,“Ianswered。“Thatplowingcouldbesomanagedasnottodisfigurethelandscape——“
  “Thedunce!“shesaid。
  “Thathecouldplowordodirtierwork,andnotberepulsive——“
  “Theidiot!“shesaid。
  “Thatifhecameoverthere,andplowedrightunderyournose,whenyou’dtoldhimhemustn’t,orhecouldn’tbemorethanfriends;andwhenyouknewthathe’dmuchratherdieandbelaidbesidethelittlesistersupthereinthecemeterythantoNOTbemorethanfriends,why,you’dsee,ifhedidTHAT,hecouldn’thelpit,thathejustMUST。ThathewasFORCED——“
  “Thesoldier!“shesaid。
  “OhPrincess,hedidn’twantto!“Icried。“Hetellsmesecretshedoesn’tanyoneelse,unlessyou。Hetoldmehowhehatedit;
  buthejusthadtodoit。“
  “DoyouknowWHY?“
  “Ofcourse!It’sthewayhe’sMADE!Fatherislikethat!Hehaschancestoliveincities,makebigbusinessdeals,andgotothelegislatureatIndianapolis;I’veseenhislettersfromhisfriendOliverP。Morton,ourGovernor,youknow;they’reinhischesttillnow;butfathercan’tdoit,becauseheismadesohestaysathomeandworksforus,andthisfarm,andtownship,andcountywherehebelongs。Hesaysifallmenwilldothatthemillenniumwillcometo-morrow。I’sposeyouknowwhatthemillenniumis?“
  “Ido!“saidthePrincess。“ButIdon’tknowwhatyourfatherandhisfriendOliverP。MortonhavetodowithLaddie。“
  “Why,everythingonearth!Laddieisfather’sson,yousee,andheismadelikefather。Noneofourotherboysis。Notoneofthemlovesland。Leonisgoingawayasquickaseverhefinishescollege;butthemoreyoueducateLaddie,thebetterhelikestomakethingsgrow,themorehelovestomaketheworldbeautiful,tobekindtoeveryone,togentleanimals——why,thebiggestfightheeverhad,themanhewhipped’tilhemostcouldn’tbringhimbackagain,wasonewhokickedhishorseinthestomach。
  Gee,Ithoughthe’dkilledhim!Laddiedidtooforawhile,butheonlysaidthemandeservedit。“
  “Andsohedid!“criedthePrincessangrily。“Howbeastly!“
  “That’sonereasonLaddiestickssoclosetoland。Hesayshedoesn’tmeetnearlysomanytwo-leggedbeastsinthecountry。
  Almosteverytimehegoestotownheeithergetsintoafightorheseessomethingthatmakeshimfightingmad。Princess,youthinkthisbeautiful,don’tyou?“
  Ijustpointedanywhere。Alltheworldwasinitthatmorning。
  Youcouldn’tlookrightorleftandnotseelovelyplaces,hearmusic,andsmellflowers。
  “Yes!Itisaltogetherwonderful!“shesaid。
  “Wouldyouliketoliveamongthisallyourlife,andhaveyourplansmadetofixyouaplaceevennicer,andthenbeforcedtoleaveitandgotoalittleroominthecity,andmakeallthemoneyyouearnedoffofhowmuchothermenfightoverbusiness,andlandandsuchperfectlyawfulthings,thattheyalwayshavetobewhisperedwhenJerrytellsaboutthem?Wouldyou?“
  “Youlittledunce!“shecried。
  “IknowI’mafool。IknowI’mnottellingyouasinglethingI
  should!MaybeI’mhurtingLaddiefarmorethanI’mhelpinghim,andifIam,IwishIwoulddiebeforeIseehim;butoh!
  Princess,I’mtryingwithallmymighttomakeyouunderstandhowhefeels。HeWANTStodoeveryleastthingyou’dlikehimto。
  Hewill,almostanythingelseintheworld,hewouldthis——hewouldinaminute,buthejustCAN’T。Allofusknowhecan’t!
  Ifyou’dlivedwithhimsincehewaslittleandalwayshadknownhim,youwouldn’taskhimto;youwouldn’twanthimto!Youdon’tknowwhatyou’redoing!Mothersaysyoudon’t!You’llkillhimifyousendhimtothecitytolive,youjustwill!Youaredoingitnow!He’sgettingthinnerandwhitereveryday。
  Don’t!Ohpleasedon’tdoit!“
  ThePrincesswaslookingattheworld。Shewasgazingatitsodazed-likesheseemedtobesurprisedatwhatshesaw。Sheactedasifshe’dneverreallyseenitbefore。Shelookedandshelooked。Sheeventurnedherhorseafullcircletoseeallofit,andshewentaroundslowly。Isteppedfromonefoottotheotherandsweat;butIkeptquietandletherlook。Atlastwhenshecamearound,sheglanceddownatme,andshewasallmelted,andlovelyasanyoneyoueversaw,exactlylikeShelleyatChristmas,andshesaid:“Idon’tthinkIeversawtheworldbefore。Idon’tknowthatI’msocrazyaboutacitymyself,andIperfectlyhatelawyers。Cometothingofit,alawyerhelpedworkruininourfamily,andIneverhavebelieved,Ineverwillbelieve——“
  Shestoppedtalkingandbeganlookingagain。Igaveherallthetimesheneeded。Iwasjuststrainingtobewise,formothersaysittakestheverywisestpersonthereistoknowwhentotalk,andwhentokeepstill。AsIfiguredit,nowwasthetimenottosayanotherworduntilshemadeuphermindaboutwhatI
  hadtoldheralready。IfPryorsdidn’tknowwhatwethoughtofthembythattime,itwasn’tmother’sfaultormine。Asshestudiedthingsovershekeptonlooking。Whatshesawseemedtobedoingheraworldofgood。Herfaceshowediteverysecondplainerandplainer。PrettysoonitbegantolooklikeshewasgoingtocomethroughasAmosHurddidwhenhewasredeemed。
  Then,beforemyveryeyes,ithappened!Idon’tknowhowIeverheldontothepieorkeptfromshouting,“PraisetheLord!“asfatherdoesattheMeetingHousewhenheishappiest。Thensheleanedtowardmeallwavery,andshiningeyed,andbloomful,andsaid:“DidyoueverhurtLaddie’sfeelings,andmakehimangryandsad?“
  “I’msureIneverdid,“Ianswered。
  “Butsupposeyouhad!Whatwouldyoudo?“
  “Do?Why,I’dgotohimontherun,andI’dtellhimIneverintendedtohurthisfeelings,andhowsorryIwas,andI’dgivehimtheverybestkissIcould。“
  ThePrincessstrokedMaud’sneckalongtimeandthoughtwhileshestudiedourfarm,theirsbeyondit,andatthelast,thefarfieldwhereLaddiewasplowing。Shethought,andthought,andafraidtocheep,Istoodgrippingtheshingleandwaited。
  Finallyshesaid:“ThelasttimeLaddiewasatourhouse,Isaidtohimthosethingsherepeatedtoyou。Hewentawayatonce,hurtanddisappointed。Now,ifyoulike,alongwithyourpreciouspie,youmaycarryhimthismessagefromme。YoumaytellhimthatIsaidIamsorry!“
  Icouldhavecried“Glory!“anddancedandshoutedthereintheroad,butIdidn’t。Itwasnotimetolosemyhead。Thatwasallsofineandsplendid,asfarasitwent,butitdidn’tquitecoverthecase。Inevercouldhavedoneitformyself;butforLaddieIwouldventureanything,soIlookedherintheeyes,straightasadart,andsaid:“He’dwantthekisstoo,Princess!“
  Youcouldseeherstiffeninthesaddleandherfingersgripthereins,butIkeptonstaringrightintohereyes。
  “Icouldcomeup,youknow,“Ioffered。
  Adullredflamedinhercheeksandherlipsclosedtight。Onesecondshesatverystill,thenadancinglightleapedsparklingintohereyes;aflockofdimpleschasedeachotheraroundherlipslikeswallowscirclingtheirhomingplaceattwilight。
  “Whataboutthatwonderfulpie?“sheaskedme。
  Irantothenearestfencecorner,andlaidtheshingleonthegnarledrootsofaJohnnyAppleseedappletree。ThenIsetonefootonthearchofthePrincess’instepandheldupmyhands。
  OnesecondIthoughtshewouldnotliftme,thenextIwasonherlevelandherlipsmetmineinatouchlikevelvetwovenfromthreadsofflame。Thenwithaturnofherstoutlittlewrist,shedroppedme,andastreakwentupourroad。Nothingsoamazingandsoimportanteverhadhappenedtome。Itwasanoccasionthatdemandedsomethingunusual。Tocry,“PraisetheLord!“wasonlytorepeatanhourlyphraseatourhouse;thisdemandedsomethingoutoftheordinary,soIsaidjustexactlyasfatherdidthedaythebrownmarebalkedwiththelastloadofseedclover,whenabigstormwasbreaking——“JupiterAmmon!“
  WhenIhadcalmeddownsoIcould,Iclimbedthefence,andreachedthroughacrackforthepie。AsIfollowedthecool,dampfurrow,andLaddie’swhistle,clearasthelark’sabovethewheat,thrilledme,Iwasalmostinsanewithjoy。Justjoy!
  Purejoy!Ohwhatagoodworlditwas!——mostofthetime!Mostofthetime!Ofcourse,thereWEREPagetmeninit。Butanyway,THIScouldn’tbebeaten。IhadamessageforLaddiefromthePrincessthatwouldsendhimtotheseventhheaven,whereverthatwas;nooneatourhousespentanytimethinkingfartherthanthefirstone。Ihadherkiss,thatIdidn’tknowwhatwoulddotohim,andIalsohadabigpieceofjuicyrhubarbpienotyetentirelycold。Ifthatdidn’twipeoutthetroubleIhadmadeshowingtheoldcrestthing,nothingevercould。Ikneweventhen,thatmenwereprettyhardtosatisfy,butIwasquitecertainthatLaddiewouldbesatisfiedthatmorning。AsI
  hurriedalongIwonderedwhetheritwouldbebettertogivehimmygiftfirst,orthePrincess’。Idecidedthatjoywouldkeep,whilethepiewascoldenough,withallthetimeIhadstopped;
  andifItoldhimaboutherfirst,maybehewouldn’ttouchitatall,anditwasn’tsoeasyasitlookedtocarryittohimandneverevenoncestickinmyfingerforthetiniestlick——joywouldkeep;butIwasgoingtofeedhim;sowithshiningface,I
  offeredthepieandstoodbacktoseejusthowhappyIcouldget。
  “Mothersendit?“askedLaddie。
  Peoplewerecuriousthatmorning,asifIhadahabitofstealingpie。Ionlytookpiecesofcutonesfromthecellarwhenmotherdidn’tcare。SoIexplainedagainthatCandacegaveittome,andIwasfreetobringit。
  “OhIsee!“saidLaddie。
  Afternearlytwoweeksofwork,thegrayshadsobereddownenoughtostandwithouttying;sohewoundthelinesaroundtheplowhandle,satonthebeam,andlaidasidehishat,havingafreshflowerintheband。Oncehestartedathing,hejustsimplywouldn’tgiveup。HeunbuttonedhisneckbanduntilIcouldseehisthroatwhereitwaswhitelikeawoman’s,tookouthisknifeandatethatpie。Ofcourseweknewbetterthantouseaknifeatthetable,buttherewasnootherwayinthefield。Heatethatpie,slowlyanddeliberately,andbetweenbiteshetalked。
  Iwatchedhimwithawidegrin,wonderingwhatinthisworldheWOULDsay,inaminute。Idon’tthinkIeverhadquitesuchagoodtimeinallmylifebefore,andIneverexpecttoagain。Hewassaying:“Talkaboutnectarandambrosia!TalkaboutthefeastsofLucullus!TalkaboutfoodfortheGods!“
  Iputonhishat,satonthegroundinfrontofhim,andwasthehappiestgirlintheworld,ofthatIamquitesure。Whenthelastmorselwasfinished,Laddielookedatmesteadily。
  “Iwonder,“hesaid,“Iwonderifthere’sanothermanintheworldwhoisblestwithquitesuchaloving,unselfishlittlesisterasmine?“Thenheansweredhimself:“No!ByalltheGods,anthalf-Gods,Iswearit——No!“
  ItwasgrandasaFourthofJulyorationorthemostexcitingpartwhentheBishopdedicatedourchurch。Icouldn’tholdinanothersecond,Icouldhearmyheartbeat。
  “OhLaddie!“Ishouted,jumpingup,“thatpieisonlythebeginningofthegoodthingsIhavebroughtyou。Ihaveamessage,andagiftbesides,Laddie!“
  “Amessageandagift?“Laddierepeated。“What!More?“
  “TrulyIhaveamessageandagiftforyou,“Icried,“andLaddie——theyarefromthePrincess!“
  Hiseyesraisedtominenow,andslowlyheturnedSabethany-like。
  “FromthePrincess!“heexclaimed。“Amessageandagiftforme,LittleSister?YouneverwouldletLeonputyouuptoservemeatrick?“
  Thathurt。HeshouldhaveKNOWNIwouldn’t,andbesides,“Leonfeelsjustasbadlyaboutthisasanyofus,“Isaid。“Haveyouforgottenheofferedtoplow,andletyoudotheclean,easywork?“
  “Forgiveme!I’moveranxious,“saidLaddie,hisarmsreachingforme。“Goonandtellcarefully,andifyoutrulyloveme,don’tmakeamistake!“
  Crowdingclose,myarmsaroundhisneck,hiscrisphairagainstmylips,Iwhisperedmystorysoftly,forthiswassuchafineandsplendidsecret,thatnoteventheshiningblackbirds,andthepertrobinsinthefurrowsweregoingtogettohearawordofit。BeforeIhadfinishedLaddiewasbreathingasFlosdoeswhenheracesherthelimit。Hesatmotionlessforalongtime,whileoverhisfaceslowlycreptabeautythatsurpassedthatofApolloinhisGreekbook。
  “Andhergift?“
  Itwasonlyabreath。
  “Shehelpedmeup,andshesentyouthis,“Ianswered。
  ThenIsetmylipsonhis,andheldthemthereasecond,tryingmylevelbesttogivehimherverykiss,butofcourseIcouldonlytry。
  “Oh,Laddie,“Icried。“Hereyeswerelikewhenstarsshinedowninourwell!Hercheekswerelikemother’sdamaskroses!Shesmelledlikeflowers,andwhenherlipstouchedminelittlestickerswentalloverme!“
  ThenLaddie’sarmsclosedaroundmeandIthoughtsureeveryboneinmybodywasgoingtobebroken;whenhefinishedtherewasn’tatraceofthatkissleftforme。RememberingitwouldbeallI’deverhave。ItmademeseewhatwouldhavehappenedtothePrincessifshehadbeenthere;anditwasanawfulpityforhertomissit,becausehe’dsoberdownalotbeforehereachedher,butIwassureasshootingthathewouldn’tbesocrazyastokissherhandsagain。Peterwasn’tapatchingtohim!
  ThatnightLaddierodetoPryors’。WhenhebroughtFlostothegateyoucouldseetheshadowofyourfaceonhershiningflank;
  hermaneandtailwerelikeravelledsilk,herhoofsbrightaspolishedhorn,andhermuzzlewascleanasaribbon。Ibrokeoneofthoserankgreensproutsfromthesnowballbushandbrushedawaytheflies,soshewouldn’tfret,stamp,andthrowdustonherself。ThenLaddiecame,freshfromatubbing,starchedlinen,dressedinhisnewridingsuit,andwearingtophatandgauntlets。HelookedtheveryhandsomestIeverhadseenhim;
  andatthesametime,heseemedtremblingwithtenderness,andburstingwithpower。Goodnesssake!IbetthePrincesstookonegoodlookand“camedown“likeDavyCrockett’scoon。Motherwasonhisarmandshewalkedcleartothegatewithhim。
  “LADDIE,AREYOUSUREENOUGHTOGO?“Iheardheraskhimwhisper-
  like。
  “SUREASDEATH!“Laddieanswered。