“Iwishyoumighthaveseenthefigureyoucut!Thatfineteam,flowerbedecked,andthecontinuousconcert!“
“ButIdid!“criedLaddie。“Wehavemirrors。Thatsongcan’tbebeaten。Iknowthisteamisallright,andI’mnotdwarfedordisfigured。Thatwasthepageantofsummerpassinginreview。
Itrepresentedthetillingofthesoil;thesowingofseed,garneringtocomelater。Youbuycornandwheat,don’tyou?
Theyarevastlynecessary。Muchmoresothanthesettlingofquarrelsthatnevershouldhavetakenplace。Doyouthinkyourdaughterfoundthespectacleatallmoving?“
“Damnyou,sir,whatIshoulddo,istolaythiswhipacrossyourshoulders!“criedMr。Pryor。
Butifyouwillbelieveit,hewaslaughingagain。
“Ipreferthatyoudon’t,“saidLaddie,“oronRangereither。
Seehowhelikesbeinggentled。“
Thenhestraightenedanddrewadeepbreath。
“Mr。Pryor,“hesaid,“asmantoman,Ihavegotthistosaytoyou——andyoumayuseyourowndiscretionaboutrepeatingittoyourdaughter:IcanofferhersixfeetofassoundmanhoodasyoucanfindonGod’sfootstool。Ineverinmywholelifehavehadenoughimpurebloodinmybodytomakeevenonetinyeruptiononmyskin。Ineverhavebeenilladayinmylife。IneverhavetouchedawomansaveasIliftedandcaredformymother,andhers,ormysisters。Astomyfamilyandeducationshecanjudgeforherself。Iofferherthefirstandonlyloveofmyheart。Sheobjectstofarming,becauseshesaysitisdirty,offensivework。Therearepartsofitthataredirty。ThankGod,itonlysoilsthebody,andthatcanbewashed。Todelveandtodiveinto,andtostudyandtobroodoverthebiggerhalfofthelawbusinessofanycityistosteepyourbrainin,andsmirchyoursoulwith,suchdirtasIwoulddiebeforeI’dmakeanoccupationoftouching。Willyoukindlytellherthatwordforword,andthatIaskedyouto?“
Mr。PryorwasstandingbeforeIsawhimrise。Hesaidthoseawfulwordsagain,butbetweenthemhecried:“You’reright!
It’sthetruth!It’stheeternaltruth!“
“ItISthetruth,“saidLaddie。“I’veonlytovisittheoffices,andexaminethebusinessofthoseofmyfamilylivingbylaw,toKNOWthatit’sthetruth。Ofcoursethere’sanotherside!Therearetimeswhentherearegreatopportunitiestodogood;I
recognizethat。TosomethesemayseemtooverbalancethattowhichIobject。Iftheydo,allright。Iammerelydecidingformyself。Onceandforall,formeitisland。Itisborninmetoloveit,tohandleiteasily,togetthebestresultsfromstock。IamgoingtotaketheMerriweatherplaceadjoiningoursonthewest,andyoursonthesouth。Iintendtoleaseitfortenyears,withpurchaseprivilegeattheend,sothatifImakeofitwhatIplan,myworkwillnotbelosttome。Ihadthoughttofixuptheplaceandbeginfarming。IfMissPryorhasanyusewhateverforme,andprefersstock,thatisallrightwithme。
I’llgointothesamebusinessshefindssuitableforyou。Icanstartinasmallwayanddevelop。Icanaffordamaidforherfromthebeginning,butIcouldn’tclotheherasshehasbeenaccustomedtobeingdressed,forsometime。Iwoulddomybest,however。Iknowwhatstoremymothersetsbybeingwellgowned。
Andasahusband,Icanofferyourdaughteraslovingconsiderationaswomaneverreceivedatthehandsofman。
ProvidedbysomemiracleIcouldwinherconsent,wouldyouevenconsiderme,andsuchanarrangement?“
“Franklysir,“saidMr。Pryor,“IhavereachedtheplacewhereI
wouldbe——“wheneveryoucometoalongblacklinelikethat,itmeansthathejustroaredalotofwordsfatherneversaid,andneverwill——“gladto!Totellthetruth,thethingyouchoosetojestinglyrefertoas`tinware’——Ihopelatertoconvinceoftheindelicacyofsuchallusion——wouldplaceyouinEnglandonasociallevelaboveanyweeveroccupied,orcouldhopeto。Youreducationequalsours。Youareaphysicalspecimentobereckonedwith,andIbelievewhatyousayofyourself。There’ssomethingsocleanandmanlyaboutyou,itamountstoconfirmation。Awomanshouldsetherownvaluationonthat;andtheheightofitshouldcorrespondwithherknowledgeoftheworld。“
“Thankyou!“saidLaddie。“Youaremorethankind!morethangenerous!“
“AstothearrangementsyoucouldmakeforPamela,“saidMr。
Pryor,“she’sallwehave。Everythinggoestoher,ultimately。
Shehasherstipulatedallowancenow;whetherinmyhouseoryours,itwouldgowithher。Surelyyouwouldn’tbesocallousastoobjecttoourgivingheranythingthatwouldpleaseus!“
“WhyshouldI?“askedLaddie。“That’sonlynaturalonyourpart。
Yourchildisyourchild;nomatterwhereorwhatitis,youexpecttoexerciseacertainamountoflovingcareoverit。Myfatherandmotherconstantlysendthingstotheirchildrenabsentfromhome,andtheytakemuchpleasureindoingit。Thatisbetweenyouandyourdaughter,ofcourse。Ishouldn’tthinkofinterfering。Butinthemeantime,unlessMissPryorhasbeenconvertedtothebeautiesofplowingthroughmycontinuousperformanceofoveraweek,IstandnowexactlywhereIdidbefore,sofarassheisconcerned。IfyouandMrs。Pryorhavenoobjectiontome,ifyoufeelthatyoucouldthinkofme,orfindformeanyleastpartofason’splaceinyourhearts,I
believeIshouldknowhowtoappreciateit,andhowtogotoworktomakemyselfworthyofit。“
Mr。Pryorsatdownsosuddenly,therailalmostbroke。Ithoughtthetruthwas,thathehadhearttrouble,himself。Hestoppedup,chokedonthings,floppedaround,andturnedsowhite。I
supposehethoughtitwaswomanish,andasignofweakness。andsohedidn’ttell,butIbetanythingthathehadit——bad!
“I’lltrytomakethelittlefoolsee!“hesaid。
“Gently,gently!Youwon’thelpmeanyinthatmood,“saidLaddie。“ThechancesarethatMissPryorrepeatedwhatsheheardfromyoulongago,andwhatsheknowsyouthinkandfeel,unlessyou’vechangedrecently。“
“That’stheamountofit!“criedMr。Pryor。“AllmylifeI’vehadalotofbeastlynotionsinmyheadaboutrank,andclass,andheretheydon’tamounttoadamn!There’snoplaceforthem。
Thingsaredifferent。Yourmother,agrand,goodwoman,openedmyeyestomanythingsrecently,andIgetherviewpoint——
clearly,andIagreewithher,andwithyou,sir!——Iagreewithyou!“
“Iammorethanglad,“saidLaddie。“Youcertainlymakeafriendatcourt。Thankyouverymuch!“
“Andyouwillcome——?“
“TheinstantMissPryorgivesmetheslightestsignthatIamwanted,andwillbewelcomedbyher,I’llcomelikeaDakotablizzard!Floscanhumpherselfontimeforonce。“
“Butyouwon’tcomeuntilshedoes?“
“Manalive!Ican’t!“criedLaddie。“Yourdaughtersaidpositivelyexactlywhatshemeant。ItwasunexpectedandithitmesohardIdidn’ttrytoargue。Isimplytookheratherword,herveryexplicitword。“
“Fool!“criedMr。Pryor。“Thelastthingonearthanywomaneverwantsorexpectsisforamantotakeheratherword。“
“What?“criedLaddie。
“Shehadwhatshesaidinhermindofcourse,butwhatshewantedwastobearguedoutofit!Shewantedtobeconvinced!“
“Ithinknot!Shewasentirelytooconvincingherself,“saidLaddie。“It’smyguessthatshehasthoughtmattersover,andthathermindismadeup;butIwouldtakeitasamightybigfavourifyouwouldputthatlittlepieceofspecialpleadingsquarelyuptoher。Willyou?“
“Yes,“saidMr。Pryor,“Iwill。I’llkeepcoolanddomybest,butIamsounfortunateinmytemper。Icouldmanageslavesbetterthanwomen。ThistimeI’llbecalm,andreasonthingsoutwithher,orI’llblowoutmybrains。“
“Don’tyoudare!“laughedLaddie。“YouandIaregoingtogetmuchpleasure,comfortandprofitfromthisworld,nowthatwehavecometoanunderstanding。“
Mr。Pryoraroseandheldouthishand。Laddiegraspedittight,andtheystoodtherelookingstraightateachother,whilealarkonthefencepostclosebycried,“Springo’ye-ar!“atthem,overandover,buttheyneverpaidtheleastattention。
“Yousee,“saidMr。Pryor,“I’vebeenthinkingthingsoverdeeply,deeply!eversincetalkingwithyourmother。I’vecutmyselfofffromgoingbacktoEngland,bysacrificingmuchofmypropertyinhastydeparture,ifbyanypossibilityIshouldeverwanttoreturn,andthereisnone,nottheslightest!There’snodangerofanyonecrossingthesea,andpenetratingtothisparticularspotsofarinland;wewon’tbemolested!Andlately——lately,despitetherawness,andthenewness,thereissomethingaboutthelandthattakeshold,afterall。Ishoulddislikeleavingnow!Ifoundinwatchingsomerootsyourmothergaveme,thatIwantedthemtogrow,thatIverymuchhopedtheywoulddevelop,andbeautifyourplacewithflowers,asyoursis。
Ifindmyselfwatchingthem,watchingthemdaily,andoftener,andthereseemstobeasortofhomefeelingcreepingaroundmyheart。IwishPamelawouldlistentoreason!Iwishshewouldmarryyousoon!Iwishtherewouldbelittlechildren。Nothingelseonearthwouldcomesoclosetocomfortingmywife,andmealso。Nothing!Goahead,lad,plowaway!I’llputyourspecialpleadinguptothegirl。“
HeclaspedLaddie’shand,mountedandrodebacktothegatehehadenteredwhenhecame。Laddiesatontherail,soIclimbeddownbesidehim。Heputhisarmaroundme。
“DoIfeelanybetter?“heaskeddubiously。
“Ofcourseyoudo!“Isaidstoutly。“Youfeelwholeheaps,andstacks,andpilesbetter。Youhaven’tgothimtofightanymore,orMrs。Pryor。It’snowonlytoconvincethePrincessabouthowit’sallrighttoplow。“
“Smallmatter,that!“saidLaddie。“Andeasy!Justassimpleandeasy!“
“HaveyouaskedtheFairiestohelpyou?“
“Aye,aye,sir,“saidLaddie。“Alsothewinds,theflowers,thebirdsandthebees!Ihaveaskedeverythingonearthtohelpmeexceptyou,LittleSister。IwonderifIhavebeenmakingamistakethere?“
“Areyoumadatme,Laddie?“
“’Causeforwhy?“
“Abouttheoldcrestthing!“
“Forgetit!“laughedLaddie。“Ihave。Andanyway,inthelongrun,Imustbehonestenoughtoadmitthatitmayhavehelped。
ItseemstohavehaditsinfluencewithMr。Pryor,nodoubtitworkedthesameonMrs。Pryor,anditmaybethatitwasbecauseshehadsomuchmoretobankonthansheeverexpected,thatthePrincessfeltemboldenedtomakeherdemand。Itmaybe,youcan’ttell!Anyway,it’sveryevidentthatitdidnorealharm。
Andforgetmyjesting,Chicken。Amancan’talwayscrybecausetherearetearsinhisheart。Ithinkquiteasmuchofthatcrestasyoudo。Inthesumofhumanevents,itisabigthing。
NooneadmiresaCrusadermorethanI。Noonelikesagoodfightbetter。NoCrusadereverputupastifferbattlethanIhaveinthepastweekwhileworkinginthesefields。Everyinchofthemisbattlefield,everyfurrowaseparateconflict。GazeuponthesceneofmyWaterloo!WhenJunecoversitwithgreen,itwillwaveovertherestingplaceofmyslainheart!“
“OhLaddie!“Isobbed。“Thereyougoagain!Howcanyou?“
“Whoo-pee!“criedLaddie。“That’sthequestion!HowcanI?Gotto,LittleSister!There’snootherway。“
“No,“Iwasforcedtoadmit,“thereisn’t。Whatarewegoingtodonow?“
“Life-saver,we’llnowgotodinner,“saidLaddie。“Nothingexceptthepartnershipimpliedin`we’sustainsmenow。YOU’LL
FINDAWAYTOHELPMEOUT,WON’TYOU,LITTLESISTER?“
“OFCOURSEIWILL!“Ipromised,withouteverstoppingaminutetothinkwhatkindofajobthatwasgoingtobe。
Didyoueverwishwithallyourmightthatsomethingwouldhappen,andwaitforit,expectit,andlongforit,andnothingdid,untilitgrewsobad,itseemedasifyouhadtogoonanotherminuteyoucouldn’tbearit?NowIthoughtwhenMr。
Pryortalkedtoher,maybeshe’dsendforLaddiethatverysamenight;butsendnothing!Shedidn’tevenrideonourroadanymore。Ofcourseherfatherhadmadeabotchofit!BetIcouldhavetoldherLaddie’smessagestraighterthanhedid。Icouldthinkitover,andseeexactlyhowhe’ddo。He’dtalknicelyaboutoneminute,andthefirstwordshesaid,thathedidn’tlike,he’dberanting,andusingunsuitablewords。Justaslikeasnothetoldherthathe’dlayhiswhipacrosshershoulders,likehehadLaddie。Anyonecouldseethataslongasshewashisdaughter,shemightbeslightlyhandywithwhipsherself;atleastshewouldn’tbelikelytostandstillandtellhimtogoaheadandbeather。
SundayLaddiewenttoLucy’s。Hesaidhewashavingafamilyreunionontheinstallmentplan。Ofcoursewelaughed,butnoneofusmissedthelonglookhesenttowardPryors’ashemountedtostartintheoppositedirection。
Everythingwenton。Ididn’tseehowitcould,butitdid。Itevengotworse,foranotherlettercamefromShelleythatmademattersconcerninghernobrighter,andwhilenoneofustalkedaboutLaddie,allofusknewmightywellhowwefelt;andwhatwasmuchworse,howhefelt。FatherandmotherhadquitworryingaboutGod;especiallyfather。HeseemedtothinkthatGodandLaddiecouldbetrustedtotakecareofthePrincess,andIdon’tknowexactlywhatmotherthought。Nodoubtshesawshecouldn’thelpherself,andsoshedecideditwasuselesstostruggle。
Theplowingonthewestsidewasalmostfinished,andsomeoftheseedwasin。Laddiewentstraightaheadflower-trimmedandwhistlinguntilhisfacemusthaveachedasbadlyashisheart。
Inspiteofhowhardhetriedtolaugh,andkeepgoing,allofuscouldseethathefairlyhadtostickuphisheadandstretchhisnecklikethebluegoose,tomakethebitesgodown。Andyoucouldn’thelpseeingtheroundnessandthecolourgofromhisface,alittlemoreeveryday。My!butbeinginlove,whenyoucouldn’thavetheoneyouloved,wastheworstofall。IworemyselfalmostasthinasLaddie,huntingaFairytoaskifshe’dhelpmetomakethePrincessletLaddiegoonandplow,whenhewassocrazyaboutit。Iprayedbesidemybedeverynight,untiltheLordmusthavegrownsotiredHequitlisteningtome,forI
talkedrightupasimpressivelyasIknewhow,anditdidn’tdotheleastbitofgood。Ihadn’ttriedtheonebigprayertowardtheeastyet;butIwasjustabouttotheplacewhereIintendedtodoitsoon。
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