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第40章

  Motherlaughedon,andasshedidsoshedrewbackherhandsandstudiedthem。Thenshelookedathimagain,onepinkdimpleflashinghereandthere,alloverherface。
  “Well,tobeginattherootofthematter,“shesaid,“thatisanenormousbigwordthatyouareusinglightly。Anyoneinpetticoatsisnotalady——bynomeans!Aladymustbebornofunsulliedbloodforatleastthreegenerations,oneachsideofherhouse。Thinkforaminuteaboutwhereyouaregoingtofulfilthatcondition。Thenshemustbegentlebynature,andrearing。Shemustknowallthereistolearnfrombooks,havewideexperiencetocoverallemergencies,shemustbesteepedinsocialgraces,anddiplomaticbynature。Shemustriseunruffledtoanyemergency,neverwound,neveroffend,alwayshelpandheal,shemustbeperfectindeportment,virtue,wifehoodandmotherhood。Shemustbegraceful,pleasingandbeautiful。Shemusthavemuchleisuretoperfectherselfinlearning,gracesandarts——“
  “Madame,youdrawanimpossiblepicture!“criedMr。Pryor。
  “Idrawthepictureoftheonlywomanonearthtrulyentitledtobecalledalady。Youuseagoodwordlightly。Ihavetoldyouwhatittakestomakealady——nowlookatme!“
  Howshelaughed!Mr。Pryorlooked,buthedidn’tlaugh。
  “Morethaneveryouconvincemethatyouarealady,indeed,“hesaid。
  Motherwipedhereyes。
  “Mydearman!“shecried,“I’mthedaughterofaDutchmiller,wholivedonaPennsylvaniamountainstream。Thereneverwasaschoolanywherenearus,andfatherandmotheronlytaughtustowork。PaulStantontookagristthere,andsawme。Hemarriedme,andbroughtmehere。Hetaughtmetoreadandwrite。I
  learnedmylessonswithmyelderchildren。Hehasalwayskeptschoolinourhouse,everynightofhislife。Ourchildrensupposeditwasforthem;Iknewitwasquiteasmuchforme。
  WhileIsatatknittingorsewing,Ispelledoverthewordshegaveout。Iknownothingofmyancestors,savethattheycamefromthelowlandsofHolland,downwheretherewerecities,schools,andbusiness。Theywerewelleducated,buttheywouldnottakethetroubletoteachtheirchildren。AsIhavespokentoyou,myhusbandtaughtme。AllIknowIlearnfromhim,fromwhathereadsaloud,andplaceshetakesme。Iexistinatwenty-mileradius,butthroughhim,Iknowalllands,principalitiesandkingdoms,peoplesandcustoms。Ineedneverbeashamedtogo,orafraidtospeak,anywhere。“
  “Indeednot!“criedMr。Pryor。
  “Butwhenyouthinkontheessentialsofareallady——andthenpicturemepatching,withaFirstReaderproppedbeforeme;
  facingIndians,Gypsies,wildanimals——andtheyusedtobebadenough——why,ImindonetimeinOhiowhenourfirstbabywasonlyabletostandbesideachair,andthroughtheroughpuncheonflooracopperheadstuckupitsgleamofbronzygold,andshotitsdartingtonguewithinafootofherbareleg。Byallaccounts,aladywouldhavereachedforhersmellingsaltsandgracefullyfaintedaway;infact,aladyneverwouldhavebeeninsuchaplaceatall。ItwasmyjobtothrowthefirstthingI
  couldlaymyhandsonsostraightandtruethatIwouldbreakthatsnake’sneck,andsenditsdeadlyfangsawayfrommybaby。
  IdiditwithPaul’splane,andneatlytoo!ThenIhadtoputthebabyonthebedandtearupeverypieceofthefloortoseethatthesnakehadnotamateinhidingthere,forcopperheadsatthatseasonweregoingpairs。OnceIwasdriventofaceabigsquaw,andthreatenedthelifeofherbabywithared-hotpokerwhileshemenacedminewithahuntingknife。Thereisnotonecold,rough,hardexperienceofpioneerlifethatIhavenotendured。Shouldertoshoulder,andhearttoheart,I’vestoodbesidemyman,anddonewhathadtobedone,tobuildthishome,rearourchildren,saveourproperty。Many’sthenightIhaveshiveredinabarndoctoringsickcattleandhorseswecouldillaffordtolose。TimeandagainIhavehungonandbroughtthingsoutalive,afterthemengaveupandquit。Alady?Howfunny!“
  “Theamusementisallonyourpart,Madame。“
  “Soitseems!“saidmother。“Butyousee,Iknowsowellhowridiculousitis。WhenIthinkofthelifeawomanmustleadinordertobetrulyalady,whenIreviewthelifeIhavebeenforcedtolivetodomyshareinmakingthishome,andrearingthesechildren,thecontrastistoogreat。IthankGodforanypartIhavebeenabletotake。HadIlifetoliveover,IseenowwhereIcoulddomore;butneighbour,believeme,myhighestaspirationistobeaclean,thriftyhousekeeper,abountifulcook,afaithfulwife,asympatheticmother。Thatislifeworkforanywoman,andtobeagoodwomanisthegreatestthingonearth。Nevermindabouttheladies;ifyoucanhonestlysayofme,sheisagoodwoman,youhavepaidmethehighestpossibletribute。“
  “Ihavenothingtochange,inthefaceofyourargument,“saidMr。Pryor。“OurlovedQueenonherthroneisnofinerlady。“
  Thattimemotherdidn’tlaugh。Shelookedstraightathimaminuteandthenshesaid:“Well,foranEnglishman,asIknowthem,youhavesaidthelastword。Higherpraisethereisnone。
  Butbelieveme,Imakenosuchclaim。TobeagoodwifeandmotheristheendtowardwhichIaspire。Toholdtherespectandloveofmyhusbandisthegreatestobjectofmylife。“
  “Thenyouhavesucceeded。Youstandamonumenttowifehood;yourchildrenproveyourideaofmotherhood,“saidMr。Pryor。“Howinthisworldhaveyoumanagedit?ThemembersofyourfamilywhomIhaveseenarefine,interestingmenandwomen,educatedabovetheaverage。Itisnotidlecuriosity。Iamdeeplyinterestedinknowinghowsuchanendcametobeaccomplishedhereonthisfarm。Iwishyouwouldtellmejusthowyouhavegoneaboutschoolingyourchildren。“
  “Byeducatingourselvesbeforetheircoming,andwiththemafterward。Self-control,study,work,joyoflife,satisfactionwithwhatwehavehad,never-endingstrifetogohigher,andtodobetter——Dr。FennerlaughswhenItalkofthesethings。HesayshecantakealittlenakedHottentotfromthejungle,andeducateittothesamedegreethatIcanoneofmine。Idon’tknow;butifthesethingsdonothelpbeforebirth,atleasttheydonothinder;andafterward,youareinthegrooveinwhichyouwantyourchildrentorun。Withallourtwelvethereneverhasbeenonewhoatninemonthsofagedidnotstopcryingifitsfatherliftedhisfinger,ortappedhisfootandtolditto。
  Fromthestartwehaverigorouslyguardedourspeechandactionsbeforethem。Fromthefirsttinybabymyhusbandhastaughtallofthemtoread,writeandciphersome,beforetheywenttoschoolatall。Heisalwayswatching,observing,studying:theearth,thestars,growingthings;henevercomestoamealbuthehasseensomethingthathehasorwillstudyoutforallofus。
  Thereneverhasbeenonedayinourhomeonwhichhedidnotreadanewinterestingarticlefrombookorpaper;workoutabigproblem,ordiscusssomephaseofpolitics,religion,orwar。
  Sometimestherehasbeenalittleofallofitinoneday,alwaysreading,spelling,andmemoryexercisesatnight。HehasasisterwhotwiceinherlifehasrepeatedtheBibleasatestbeforeacommittee。He,himself,cangothroughtheNewTestamentandalloftheOldsavethebooksofthegenerations。
  Healwayssaysheconsidersitawasteofgraymattertolearnthem。Hehasbeenaschoolmaster,hishomehisschoolroom,hischildren,wifeandhelpershispupils;thecommonthingsoflifeashemeetsthemeveryday,thebooksfromwhichwelearn。
  “Iwasignorantatfirstofbookishsubjects,butinhisatmosphere,ifonewerenostudent,anddidn’teventrytokeepup,orforgeahead,theywouldabsorbmuchthroughassociation。
  Almostalwayshehasbeenontheschoolboardandselectedtheteachers;wehavemadeapointofkeepingthemhere,atgreatinconveniencetoourselves,inordertoknowasmuchofthemaspossible,andtohelpandguidethemintheirwork。Whenthechildrencouldlearnnomorehere,formostofthemwehavemanagedthehighschoolofGroveville,especiallyafterourdaughtermovedthere,andforeachofthemwehaveaddedatleasttwoyearsofcollege,musicschool,orwhateverthepeculiarbentofthechildseemedtodemand。
  “Beforeanydaughterhasleftourhomeforoneofherown,shehasbeentaughtallIknowofcleanlinessaboutahouse,cookery,sewing,tendingthesick,bathinganddressingthenewborn。Shehastobakebread,pie,cake,andcookanymeatorvegetablewehave。Shehashadherboltofmuslintomakeasshechoseforherbedding,andlinenforherunderclothing。Thequiltsshepiecedandtheblanketsshewovehavebeenhers。Allofthemhavebeenaswellprovidedforaswecouldafford。Theycanknit,darn,patch,tuck,hem,andembroider,setahenandplantagarden。Igoonavacationandleaveeachofthemtokeephouseforherfatheramonth,beforesheentersahomeofherown。Theyarestrong,healthygirls;Ihopeallofthemaremakingagoodshowingatbeingusefulwomen,andIknowtheyarehappy,sofaratleast。“
  “Wonderful!“saidMr。Pryor。
  “Fathertakestheboysinhandandtheymustgraduateinastraightfurrow,anevenfence,plantingandtendingcrops,trimmingandgraftingtrees,caringforstock,andhandlingplane,augerandchisel。Eachonemustselecthiswood,cure,fashion,andfithisownaxwithahandle,grindandswingitproperly,aswellascradle,scytheandsickle。Theymustbeabletoselectgoodseedgrain,boilsap,andcuremeat。Theymustknowanimals,theirdiseasesandtreatment,andwhentheyhavemasteredallhecanteachthem,anddoneeachthingproperly,theymaygofortheirtermatcollege,andmaketheirchoiceofaprofession。AsyetI’msorrytosaybutoneofthemhascomebacktotheland。“
  “YoumeanLaddie?“
  “Yes。“
  “Hehasdecidedtobeafarmer?“
  “Heisdeterminedtomakethesoilyieldhisliving。“
  “Iamsorry——sorryindeedtohearit,“saidMr。Pryor。“Hehasbrainandeducationtomakeabrilliantfigureatlaworstatesmanship;hewoulddowellintrade。“
  “Whatmakesyouthinkhewouldnotdowellonland?“
  “Wasted!“criedMr。Pryor。“Hewouldbewasted!“
  “Holdabit!“saidmother,herfaceflushingasitdidwhenshewasveryprovoked。“Myhusbandis,andalwayshasbeen,onland。
  Heisfarfrombeingwasted。Heisapowerinthiscommunity。
  Hehassonsincitiesinlawandintrade。Notoneofthemhasthefriends,andtheinfluenceonhistime,thathisfatherhas。
  Anydayhesaystheword,hecanstandinlegislativehalls,andtakeanyparthechoosesinpolitics。Heprefershishomeandfamily,andtheworkhedoeshere,butletmetellyou,nosonofhiseverhadhisinfluenceoropportunity,oreverwillhave。“
  “Allthisisnewstome,“saidMr。Pryor。
  “Youdidn’texpectustocomeover,forceourwayinandtellyou?“
  Itwashisturntoblushandhedid。
  “Laddiehasbeenatourhouseoften,“hesaid。“Hemighthavementioned——“
  Motherlaughed。Shewasthegayestthatmorning。
  “He`might,’butheneverwould。NeitherwouldIifyouhadn’tseemedtothinkthatthemenwhodothethingsMr。StantonREFUSEStodoaretheonesworthwhile。“
  “Hecouldaccomplishmuchinlegislativehalls。“
  “Hefiguresinthelarge。Hethinksthattobeacommissioner,travelhiscountyandmakeallofitthebestpossible,tostandinprimariesandchooseonlyworthymenforalloffices,isdoingamuchbiggerworkthantotakeoneplaceforhimself,andstriveonlyforthat。Besides,hereallyloveshisland,hishouse,andfamily。Hesaysnomanhasarighttobringtwelvechildrenintotheworldandnotseepersonallytorearingandeducatingthem。
  Hethinksthefarmandthechildrentoomuchforme,andhe’ssureheisdoingthebiggestthingforthecommunityatlarge,togoonashedoes。“
  “Perhapsso,“saidMr。Pryorslowly。“Heshouldknowbest。
  Perhapsheis。“
  “Imakenodoubt!“saidmother,liftingherheadproudly。“AndasLaddiefeelsandhasfittedhimself,IlooktoseehimgoheadandshouldersaboveanyothersonIhave。Tradeisnottheonlywaytoaccumulate。Lawisnottheonlypathtothelegislature。
  Comfort,independence,andfreedom,suchasweknowhere,isnotfoundinanycityIeverhavevisited。Wethinkwehavethebestoflife,andwearecontentonland。Wehavenotaccumulatedmuchmoney;wehavespentthousands;wehavehadabigfamilyforwhichtoprovide,andonaccountofthenewnessofthecountry,taxesalwayshavebeenheavy。Butwemakenocomplaint。Wearesatisfied。Wecouldhavebranchedoffintofiftydifferentthingsafterwehadafairstarthere。Wedidn’t,becausewepreferredlifeasweworkeditoutforourselves。Paulsayswhenheleavesthecity,andhishorses’hoofsstriketheroadbetweenourfields,healwaysliftshisheadhigher,squareshisshoulders,andfeelsamanamongmen。Toownland,andtoloveit,isawonderfulthing,Mr。Pryor。“
  Shemademethinkofsomething。EversinceIhadaddedtomyquillandarrowmoney,thegreatbiglotatEaster,fatherhadsharedhischesttillwithme。Thecheststoodinourroom,andinitlayhisweddingsuit,hiseverySundayclothes,hisbesthatwitharedsilkhandkerchiefinthecrown,abundleofpreciousnewspapershewassavingonaccountofrarethingsinthemhewantedforreference,andinthetillwasthewalletofreadymoneyhekeptinthehouseforunexpectedexpense,hisdeeds,insurancepapers,allhisparticularprivatepapers,thebunchesofleadpencils,slatepencils,andtheboxofpensfromwhichhesuppliedusforschool。SinceIhadgrownsorich,hehadgonepartnerswithme,andImightliftthelid,openthetillandtakeoutmylittlepursethatMayboughtfromthehucksterformylastbirthday。Iwasn’ttotouchathing,savemyown,andIneverdid;butIknewpreciouswellwhatwasthere。
  IfMr。Pryorthoughtmyfatherdidn’tamounttomuchbecausehelivedonland;ifitmadehimthinkmoreofhim,toknowthathecouldbeinthelegislatureifhechose,maybehe’dthinkstillmore——
  Iliftedthepapers,pickeditupcarefully,andslippingbackquietly,IlaiditonMr。Pryor’sknee。Hepickeditupandhelditaminute,untilhefinishedwhathewassayingtomother,andthenhelookedatit。Thenhelookedlongandhard。Thenhestraightenedupandlookedagain。
  “Godblessmysoul!“hecried。
  Youseewhenhewassoastonishedhedidn’tknowwhathewassaying,hecalledonGod,justasfathersayseveryonedoes。I
  tookasidelookatmother。Herfacewasalittleextraflushed,butshewasstillsmiling;soIknewshewasn’tangrywithme,thoughofcourseshewouldn’thaveshownthethingherself。Sheandfatherneverdid,exceptaseachofusgrewbigenoughtobetaughtabouttheCrusaders。Fathersaidhedidn’tcarethesnapofhisfingeraboutit,exceptasitstoodforhardihoodandbravery。ButMr。Pryorcared!Hecaredmorethanhecouldsay。
  Hestared,andstared,andoverandoverhewonderinglyrepeated:
  “Godblessmysoul!“
  “WheredidyougetthecrestoftheEarlofEastbrooke,themasterofStantonhouse?“hedemanded。“Stantonhouse!“herepeated。“Why——why,thename!It’sscarcelypossible,but——“
  “Butthereitis!“laughedmother。“Amerebaubleforshowandamountingtonothingonearthsaveasitstandsamarkforbravemenwhohavestriventoconquer。“