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第39章

  Thenshesteppedintothecarriage,andhewaitedasecond,quitelongenoughtoletherseethathewasperfectlywillingtosittherealldayifshewantedhimto,andthenheslowlyandcarefullydrovehome,ashealwaysdidwhenshewasinthecarriage。Timeswhenhehaduschildrenoutalone,hewentuntilyoucouldn’tseethespokesinthewheels。Hejustlovedto“speedup“onceinawhileonapieceoffineroadtoletusknowhowgoingfastfelt。
  Mothersattheretremblingalittle,smiling,misty-eyed。Iwasthinking,forIknewwhatthe“flyintheointment“was。ShehadaletterfromShelleyyesterday,andshesaidtherewasn’tareasononearthwhyfatherorLaddieshouldspendmoneytocometoChicago,shewouldsoonbehome,shewascountingthehours,andsheneverwantedtoleaveagain。Inthestartshedidn’twanttogoatall,unlessshecouldstaythreeyears,attheveryleast。Ofcourseitwasthatdreadfulman,whohadmadehersobeautifulandhappy,andthentakenawayallthejoy;howCOULDamandoit?Itwasthehardestthingtounderstand。
  Nextmorningmotherwasfeelingfine,theworldwaslovely,MissAmeliawasgone,Maywashometohelp,soshebeganhousecleaningbywashingallthecurtains。ShehadbeeninthekitchentoshowCandacehow。Ihadallmyworkdone,andwasmakingfriendswitharobinbroodinginmyveryowncatalpatree,whenMr。Pryorrodeup,tiedhishorse,andstartedtowardthegate。Iknewheandfatherhadquarrelled;thatis,fatherhadtoldhimhecouldn’tsay“Godwasamyth“inthishouse,andhe’dgonehomemadashops;soIknewitwouldbesomethingmightyimportantthatwasbringinghimback。Islidfromthetree,ranandopenedthegate,andledthewayupthewalk。Iopenedthefrontdoorandaskedhimin,andthenIdidthewrongthing。Ishouldhavetakenhishat,toldhimtobeseated,andsaidIwouldseeifI
  couldfindfather;Iknewwhattodo,andhowtodoit,butbecauseofthataboutGod,IwassoexcitedImadeamistake。I
  nevertookhishat,orofferedhimachair;Ijustboltedintothedining-room,lookingforfatherormother,andleftthedoorwideopen,sohethoughtthatwasn’ttheplacetosit,becauseI
  didn’tgivehimachair,andhefollowedme。TheinstantIsawmother’sface,IknewwhatIhaddone。Thedining-roomwasnoplaceforparticularcompanylikehim,andbringinghiminthatwaydidn’tgivehertimetosmoothherhair,pullshutherdressbandattheneck,putonhercollar,andshinygoldstonepin,herwhiteapron,andrubherlittleflannelrag,withriceflouronit,onhernosetotakeawaytheshine。Ihadmadeamessofit。
  Thereshecamerightinthedoor,justasshewasfromthetub。
  Herhairwasdampandcrinkledaroundherface,herneckbandhadbeencloseinstooping,soshehadunfastenedit,andtuckeditbackinalittleV-shapedplacetogiveherroomandair。Hercheekswerepink,hereyesbright,herlipsredasagirl’s,andherneckwassoftandwhite。TheV-shapedplaceshowedalittlespotlikebabyskin,rightwhereherneckwentintoherchest。
  Sureasfatherkissedherlips,healwaystippedbackherhead,bentlowerandkissedthatspottoo。Ihadseenhundredsofthemgothere,andIhadtrieditmyself,lotsoftimes,anditWAS
  thesweetestplace。SeeingwhatIhaddone,Istoppedbreathless。Youhavetobeatmosteverythingyouteachachildrightintoitproperlytokeepitfrommakingsuchabotchofthingsasthat。Ihardlydaredtopeepatmother,butwhenI
  did,shetookmybreathworsethanthemistakeIhadmade。
  Caught,shestoodherground。Sheneverpausedasecond。
  Straighttohimshewent,holdingoutherhand,andIcouldseethatitwasredandwarmfrompressingthelaceinthehotsuds。
  Asomethingflashedoverher,thatmadehermorebeautifulthanshewasinhersilkdressgoingtotowntohelpLucygiveaparty,andhervoicewassweetasthebubblingwarbleronthegardenfencewhenhewastryingtocoaxamateintotheprivetbushtonest。
  Motheraskedhimtobeseated,sohetookoneofthechairsnearesthim,andsatholdinghishatinonehand,hiswhipintheother。Motherdrewachairbesidethediningtable,droppedherhandsoneachother,andlookinginhiseyes,shesmiledathim。
  Itellthesamethingoveraboutpeople’slooks,butIhaven’ttoldofthissmileofmother’s;becauseIneversawexactlyhowitwas,orwhatitwoulddotopeople,untilthatmorning。ThenasIwatchedher——forhowshefeltdecidedwhatwouldhappentome,afterMr。PryorwasgoneIsawsomethingIneverhadnoticeduntilthatminute。Shecouldlaughalloverherface,beforeherlipsparteduntilherteethshowed。Shewasdoingitnow。Withawidesmilerunningfromcheektocheek,pushingupabigdimpleateachend,herlipsbarelytouching,hereyesdancing,shesatlookingathim。
  “ThisISthemostblessedseasonforwarminguptheheart,“shesaid。“Ifyouwantthehalfofmykingdom,askquickly。I’minthemoodtobestowit。“
  Howshelaughed!Hejusthadtoloosenupalittle,andsmileback,eventhoughitlookedprettystiff。
  “Well,I’llnottaxyousofar,“hesaid。“IonlywantMr。
  Stanton。“
  “Butheisthewholeofthekingdom,andtheKingtoboot!“shelaughed,dimpled,andflamedredder。
  Mr。Pryorstaredatherwonderingly。Youcouldevenseethewonder,likeitwassomethingyoucouldtakeholdof。Isupposehewonderedwhatcouldmakeawomansohappy,likethat。
  “Luckyman!“hesaid。“Allofusarenotsofortunate。“
  “Thenitmustbeyoudon’tcovettheplaceorthetitle,“saidmothermoresoberly。“Anywomanwillcrownthemanshemarries,ifhewillallowher。Paulwentfarther。Hecompelledit。“
  “Iwonderhow!“saidMr。Pryor,hiseyessteadilywatchingmother’sface。
  “Byneverfailinginamillionlittlethings,thattakenasawhole,makeuponemightybigthing,onwhichhestandsliketheRockofAges。“
  “Yettheytellmethatyouarethemotheroftwelvechildren,“hesaid,asifhemarvelledatsomething。
  “Yes!“criedmother,andthewordbrokerightthroughabubblinglaugh。“AmInotfortunateabovemostwomen?Wehadthegrieftolosetwolittledaughtersattheagesofeightandnine,alltheothersIhave,andIrejoiceinthem。“
  Shereachedout,laidahandonme,drewmetoher,andlightlytouchedmyarm,sendingmyspiritssky-high。Shewasn’tgoingtodoathingtome,notevenscold!Mr。PryorstaredatherlikeJacobHooddoesatLaddiewhenhebeginsrollingGreekbeforehim,soIguesswhatmothersaidmusthavebeenGreektoMr。
  Pryor。
  “IcametoseeMr。Stanton,“hesaidsuddenly,andcrosslikeasifhedidn’tbelieveawordshesaid,andhaddecidedshewastoofoolishtobotherwithanylonger;buthekeptonstaring。Hecouldn’tquitthat,nomatterhowcrosshewas。Thefunniestthingcameintomymind。Iwonderedwhatonearthhe’dhavedoneifshe’dgoneover,satonhislap,putherarmsaroundhisneck,tookhisfacebetweenherhandsandkissedhisforehead,eyes,lips,andtousledhishair,likeshedoesfatherandourboys。
  I’llbetallIgot,he’dhaveturnedtostonierstonethanSabethany。YoucouldseethatnooneeverservedHIMlikethatinallhisold,cold,hard,cross,mysterious,shut-inlife。I
  wascrazytoask,“Say,didanybodyeverkissyou?“butIhadsuchacloseescapebringinghiminwrong,Ithoughtitwouldbewisenottotakeanyriskssosoonafter。Itwasenoughtostandbesidemother,andheareverywordtheysaid。Whatwasmore,shewantedme,becauseshekeptherhandonmine,ortouchedmyaproneverylittlewhile。
  “I’msosorry!“shesaid。“Hewascalledtotownonbusiness。
  TheCountyCommissionersaresittingto-day。“
  “TheyaredecidingabouttheGrovevillebridge,andpike?“
  “Yes。Heisworkingsohardforthem。“
  “Thedevilyousay!Ibegpardon!ButitwasaboutthatIcame。
  I’mthreemilesfromthere,andI’mtaxedoversixtypoundsforit。“
  “Butyoucrossthebridgeeverytimeyougototown,andtraveltheroad。Grovevilleisquitearesortonaccountofthewaterandlovelycountry。Paulisveryanxioustohavetheworkcompletedbeforethesummerboarderscomefromsurroundingcities。Weareevenfartherfromitthanyou;butitwillcostusasmuch。“
  “Areyouinsane?“criedMr。Pryor,notatallpolitely;butyoucouldseethatmotherwasboundshewouldn’tbecomeprovokedaboutanything,forsheneverstoppedasteadybeamonhim。
  “Spendallthatmoneyforstrangerstolazyaroundonafewweeksandthengo!“
  “Butagoodbridgeandfineroadwilladdtotheirpleasure,andwhentheyleave,theimprovementsremain。Theywillbenefitusandourchildrenthroughalltheyearstocome。“
  “Talkabout`thelandofthefree’!“criedMr。Pryor。“Thisisatax-riddennation。It’sabeastlyoutrage!EversinceIcame,it’sbeennothingbutnoticeofoneassessmentafteranother。I
  won’tpayit!Iwon’tendureit。I’llmove!“
  Motherletgoofme,grippedherhandsprettytighttogetheronthetable,andshebegantotalk。
  “Asforfreedom——nomaneverwas,oris,orwillbefree,“shesaid,quiteasforciblyashecouldspeak。“Youprobablyknewwhenyoucameherethatyouwouldfindalandtax-riddenfromagreatcivilwarofyears’duration,andfromnewnessofvastterritorytobeopenedupandimproved。Youcertainlystudiedthesituation。“
  “`Studiedthesituation’!“Hiswhipbeatacrosshisknee。
  “`Studiedthesituation’!MyleavingEnglandwas——er——theresultofintolerableconditionsthere——inthenatureofflightfromthingsnottobeendured。IhadonlyavagueideaoftheStates。“
  “IfEnglandisintolerable,andtheUnitedStatesanoutrage,I
  don’tknowwhereinthisworldyou’llgo,“saidmothersoftly。
  Mr。Pryorstaredathersharply。
  “Madameispleasedtobefacetious,“hesaidsneeringly。
  Mother’shandsparted,andoneofthemstretchedacrossthetabletowardhim。
  “Forgiveme!“shecried。“Thatwasunkind。Iknowyouareindreadfultrouble。I’dgive——I’dalmostgivethisrighthandtocomfortyou。I’ddonearlyanythingtomakeyoufeelthatyouneedbearnoburdenalone;thatwe’dlovetohelpsupportyou。“
  “Ibelieveyouwould,“hesaidslowly,hiseyeswatchingheragain。“Ibelieveyouwould。Iwonderwhy!“
  “Allmenarebrothers,inthebroadersense,“saidmother,“andifyou’llforgiveme,yourfacebearsmarksofsufferingalmostamountingtotorture。“
  Shestretchedouttheotherhand。
  “Youcouldn’tpossiblyletushelpyou?“
  Slowlyheshookhishead。
  “Thinkagain!“urgedmother。“Atroublesharedishalfovertostartwith。Youlayapartofitonyourneighbours,andyourneighboursinthiscasewouldbeglad,gladindeed,toseeyoucare-freeandhappyasallmenshouldbe。“
  “We’llnotdiscussit,“hesaid。“Youcan’tpossiblyimaginetherootofmytrouble。“
  “Ishan’ttry!“saidmother。“Butletmetellyouthis:Idon’tcareifyouhavebetrayedyourcountry,blasphemedyourGod,orkilledyourownchild!Solong,asyou’realivingman,dailyapictureofsufferingbeforeme,you’reaburdenonmyheart。
  You’realoadonmyshoulders,withoutyourconsent。IhaveimploredGod,IshallneverceasetoimploreHim,untilyourbrowclears,yourheadislifted,andyourheartisatrest。Youcan’tpreventme!ThishourIshallgotomyclosetandbegHimtohavemercyonyourpoorsoul,andwhenHistimecomes,Hewill。Youcan’thelpyourself,oryouwouldhavedoneso,longago。Youmustacceptaid!Thismustend,ortherewillbetragedyinyourhouse。“
  “Madame,therehasbeen!“saidMr。Pryor,shakingashesat。
  “Irecognizethat,“saidmother。“Thequestioniswhetherwhathaspassedisnotenough。“
  “Yousimplycannotunderstand!“hesaid。
  “Mr。Pryor,“shesaid,“you’reinthepositionofamandoublybereft。Youarewithoutacountry,andwithoutaGod。Yourfacetellseverypasser-byhowyouareenjoyingthatkindoflife。
  Forgiveme,ifIspeakplainly。Iadmiresomethingsaboutyousomuch,Iamventuringpositiveunkindnesstotrytomakeyouseethatinshuttingoutyourneighboursyouwillsurelymakethemthinkmore,andworsethings,thanaretrue。Ihaven’tadoubtinmymindbutthatyourtroubleisnotonehalfsodreadfulasyouimaginewhilebroodingoverit。Wewillpassthat。Letmetellyouhowwefeelaboutthisroadmatter。YouseewedidourcourtinginPennsylvania,marriedandtriedOhio,andthencameonhere。Wetookthislandwhenitwasmostlywoods。Icouldpointyoutotheexactspotwherewestopped;wevisitedityesterday,lookeddownthehillandselectedtheplacewherewewouldsetthishouse,whenwecouldaffordtobuildit。
  Wemovedintothecabinthatwasonthelandfirst,laterbuiltalargerone,andfinallythishomeaswehadplannedit。Everyfruittree,bush,vine,andflowerweplanted。Hereourchildrenhavebeenborn,lived,loved,andleftus;someforthegraveyarddownyonder,someforhomesoftheirown。Alwayswehaveplannedandstriventotransformthisintothedearest,themostbeautifulspotonearth。Inmakingourhomethebestwecan,inimprovingourtownship,county,andstate,wearedoingoursharetowardupbuildingthisnation。“
  Shebeganattheabc’s,andgaveittohimstraight:thewholething,justaswesawit;andhelistened,asifhewereaprisoner,andsheajudgetellinghimwhathemustdotogainhisfreedom。Sheputinthebirdstokeepawaytheworms,thetreestobreakthewind,thecreekstosavethemoisture。Shewhangedhim,andshebangedhim,uponeside,anddowntheother。Shedidn’tstoptobemincy。Sheshotthingsathimlikeamantalkingtoanothermanwhohadplentyofsensebutnotaparticleofreason。Shegavehimthereason。Shetoldhimexactlywhy,andhow,andwhere,andalsojustWHAThemustdotofeelRIGHT
  towardhisneighbours,hisfamily,andhisGod。Nopreacherevertalkedhalfsowell。Yeaverily,shewasasinterestingastheBishophimself,andfarpleasantertolookat。Whensheranshortofbreath,andoutofwords,shereachedbothhandstowardhimagain。
  “OHDOPLEASETHINKOFTHESETHINGS!“shebegged。“DotrytobelievethatIamasensibleperson,andknowwhatIamtalkingabout。“
  “Madame,“saidMr。Pryor,“there’snodoubtinmymindbutyouarethemostwonderfulwomanIeverhavemet。SurelyIbelieveyou!SurelyIknowyourplanoflifeisthetrue,theonlyrightway。ItisonedegreeaddedtomyhumiliationthatthebanIamunderkeepsmefromfriendlyintercoursewithsogreatalady。“
  “`Lady’?“saidmymother,hereyeswidening。“`Lady’?Nowitisyouwhoareamused。“
  “Idon’tunderstand!“hesaid。“Certainlyyouarealady,averygreatlady。“
  “Goodness,graciousme!“criedmymother,laughinguntilherdimpleswouldhaveheldwater。“That’sthefirsttimeinallmylifeIwaseveraccusedofsuchathing。“
  “Again,Idonotcomprehend,“saidMr。Pryor,asifvexedaboutallhewouldendure。