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第31章

  IfIcouldhavepainted,I’dhavemadeapictureofShelleywithacircleoflightaboveherheadliketheoneoftheboyJesuswhereHetalkedwiththewisemeninthetemple。Iaskedfatherifhenoticedhowmuchprettierandnicershewas,andhesaidhedid。ThenIaskedhimifhethoughtnow,thatacitywassuchabadplacetolivein,andhesaidwhereshewashadnothingtodowithit,thesamethingwouldhappenhere,oranywhere,whenlife’sgreatestexperiencecametoagirl。Thatwasallhewouldsay,butfiguringitoutwaseasy。Thegreatestexperiencethathappenedtoourgirlswaswhentheymarried,likeSally,soitmeantthatShelleyhadgoneandfalleninlovewiththatlawyerman,andshelikedsittingonthesofawithhim,andnodoubtshefixedhisties。ButifanyonethoughtIwouldtellanythingI
  sawwhenhecametheywerebadlymistaken。
  Allofusrushedaroundlikewewerecrazy。Iffatherandmotherhadn’theldsteadyandkeptusdown,wemighthaveraisedtheroof。WewereallsogladaboutgettingLeonandthemoneyback;
  motherhadn’tbeensicksincethefishcuredher;thenewbluegoosewassoliketheonethathadburst,evenfathernevernoticedanydifference;allthechildrenwereeitherhomeorcoming,andafterwehadourgiftsandthebiggestdinnerweeverhad,Christmasnightallofuswouldgototheschoolhousetoseeourschooltrytospelldownthreeotherstowhomtheyhadsentsaucyinvitationstocomeandbebeaten。
  Mothersatinthedining-roombesidethekitchendoor,sothatshecouldwatchthebaking,brewing,pickling,andspicing。Ittookfourmentohandlethebacklog,whichInoticedfatherpronouncedeveryyear“justalittlethefinestweeverhad,“andLaddiestrungthehousewithbittersweet,evergreens,andthemostbeautifulspraysofmyrtlethatherakedfromunderthesnow。Fatherdrovetotowninthesleigh,andthelistofthingstobepurchasedmothergavehimasareminderwasalmostayardlong。
  TheminutetheyfinishedtheoutdoorworkLaddieandLeonbeganbringinginbasketsofapples,goldenbellflowers,greenpippins,whitewinterpearmains,RhodeIslandgreenings,andstripedrambosallcoveredwithhoarfrost,yetnotfrozen,andsofullofjuiceyouhadtobiteintothemcarefullyortheydrippedandoffendedmother。Thesetheywashedandcarriedtothecellarreadyforuse。
  Thentheycrackedbigdishesofnuts;andpoppedcornthatpoppedwiththemostresoundingpopsinallmyexperience——poppedatubful,andLaddiemeltedmaplesugarandpouredoveritandmadebigballsoffluffandsweetness。Hetookapanandfilleditwithgrains,selectedoneatatime,theverylargestandwhitest,andmadeanespecialball,inthemiddleofwhichheputalovelypinkcandyheartonwhichwasprintedinredletters:
  “Howcanthisheartbemine,yetyours,unlessourheartsareone?“Hewouldn’tletanyofthemseeitexceptme,andheonlyletmebecauseheknewI’dbedelighted。
  ItwasalmostduskwhenfathercamethroughthekitchenloadedwithbundlesandfoundCandaceandthegirlsstillcooking。
  Weweresoexcitedwecouldscarcelybegatheredaroundthesuppertable,andmothersaidwechattereduntilshecouldn’thearherselfthink。AfterawhileLaddielaiddownhisforkandlookedatourfather。
  “Haveyouanyobjectiontomyusingthesleighto-morrownight?“
  heasked。
  Fatherlookedatmother。
  “Hadyouplannedtouseit,mother?“
  Mothersaid:“No。IfIgo,I’llrideinthebigsledwithallofus。Itissuchalittleway,andtheroadsarelikeglass。“
  Sofathersaidpolitely,ashealwaysspoketous:“Thenitwillgivemegreatpleasureforyoutotakeit,myson。“
  ThatmadeLeonbanghisforkloudlyashedaredandsquirminhischair,forwellheknewthatifhehadasked,theanswerwouldhavebeendifferent。IfLaddietookthesleighhewouldharnesscarefully,drivefast,butreasonably,blankethishorse,comehomeattherighttime,andputeverythingexactlywherehefoundit。ButLeonwouldpitchtheharnessonsomeway,raceeverystep,neverthinkofhissteaminghorse,comehomewhentherewasnoonesowildashelefttoplayprankswith,andscattertheharnesseverywhere。HeknewourfatherwouldlovetotrusthimthesameashedidLaddie。Hewouldn’talwaysprovehimselftrustworthy,butheenviedLaddie。
  “Youthinkyou’lltakethePrincesstothespellingbee,don’tyou?“hesneered。
  “Imeantoaskher,“repliedLaddie。
  “Maybeyouthinkshe’llrideinouroldhomemade,hickorycheesebox,whenshecansailalloverthecountrylikeabirdinavelvet-linedcutterwitharealbuffalorobe。“
  Therewasaquickcatchinmother’sbreathandIfeltherhandonmychairtremble。Father’slipstightenedandafrownsettledonhisface,whileLaddiefairlyjumped。Hewentwhitetothelips,andonehanddroppedonthetable,palmup,thefingersclosingandunclosing,whilehiseyesturnedfirsttomother,andthentofather,indumbappeal。Weallknewthathewassuffering。Noonespoke,andLeonhavingshothisarrowstraighthome,sawaspeoplesooftendointhisworldthatthedamageofunkindwordscouldnoteasilyberepaired;sohegrewredinthefaceandsquirmeduncomfortably。
  AtlastLaddiedrewadeep,quiveringbreath。“Ineverthoughtofthat,“hesaid。“ShehasseemedhappytogowithmeseveraltimeswhenIaskedher,butofcourseshemightnotcaretorideinours,whenshehassuchafinesleighofherown。“
  Father’svoicefairlyboomeddownthelengthofthetable。
  “Yourmotheralwayshasfoundoursleighsuitable,“hesaid。
  Thefactwas,fatherwasrarelyproudofit。Hehadselectedthehickoryinourwoods,cutitandhauledittothemill,curedthelumber,andusedallhissparetimefortwowintersmakingit。
  Withtheexceptionofhavingtherunnersturnedatafactoryandiron-boundatasmithy,hehadcompleteditalonewithgreatcare,eventostainingitabeautifulcherrycolour,andfittingwhitesheepskinsintothebed。Wehadallwatchedhimandbeensoproudofit,andnowLeonwassneeringatit。Hemightjustaswellhaveundertakentolaughatfather’sweddingsuitortomakefunof“Clark’sCommentaries。“
  Laddieappealedtomother:“DoyouthinkI’dbetternotaskher?“
  Hespokewithaneffort。
  “Laddie,thatisthefirsttimeIeverheardyouproposetodoanyoneaninjustice,“shesaid。
  “Idon’tseehow,“saidLaddie。
  “Itisn’tgivingthePrincessanychanceatall,“repliedmother“You’vejustsaidthatshehasseemedpleasedtoaccompanyyoubefore,nowyouareproposingtocutheroutofwhatpromisestobethemostdelightfuleveningofthewinter,withoutevengivingherthechancetosaywhethershe’dgowithyouornot。Hassheevermadeyoufeelthatanythingyouofferedherorwantedtodoforherwasnotgoodenough?“
  “Never!“exclaimedLaddiefervently。
  “Untilshedoes,then,doyouthinkitwouldbequitemanlyandhonourabletomakedecisionsforher?Yousayyouneverthoughtofanythingexceptapleasanttimewithher;possiblyshefeelsthesame。Unlessshechanges,Iwouldscarcelyletaboy’sfoolishtonguedisturbherpleasure。Moreover,astothematterofwealth,yourfathermaybeasrichashers;buttheyhaveone,wehavemany。Ifwhatwespendonallourbroodcouldbeconfinedtoonechild,wecouldeasilyduplicateallherluxuries,andIthinkshehasthegoodsensetorealizethefactasquicklyasanyone。I’venodoubtshewouldgladlyexchangehalfshehasforthecompanionshipofasisterorabrotherinherlonelylife。“
  Laddieturnedtofather,andfather’ssmilewashappyagain。
  Motherwaslittlebutshewasmighty。WithonlyafewwordsshehadmadeLeonfeelhowunkindandfoolishhehadbeen,quietedLaddie’salarm,andsoothedthehurtfather’spridehadfeltinthathehadnotbeenabletofurnishherwithsofineaturnoutasPryorshad。
  Nextmorningwhentheexcitementofgiftsandgreetingswasover,andLaddie’smorningworkwasallfinished,hetookabeautifulvolumeofpoemsandhispopcornballandstartedacrossthefieldsduewest;allofusknewthathewasgoingtocallonandofferthemtothePrincess,andasktotakehertothespellingbee。IsupposeLaddiethoughthewastakingthattripalone,butreallyhewassurrounded。Iwatchedhimfromthewindow,andmyheartwentwithhim。Presentlyfatherwentandsatbesidemother’schair,andstrokingherhand,whisperedsoftly:“Pleasedon’tworry,littlemother。Itwillbeallright。Yourboywillcomehomehappy。“
  “Ihopeso,“sheanswered,“butIcan’thelpfeelingdreadfullynervous。IfthingsgowrongwithLaddie,itwillspoiltheday。“
  “IhavemuchfaithinthePrincess’goodcommonsense,“repliedfather,“andconsideringwhatitmeanstoLaddie,itwouldhurtmesoretoloseit。“
  Mothersatstill,butherlipsmovedsothatIknewshewasmakingsoftlittlewhisperedprayersforherbestlovedson。ButLaddie,plowingthroughthedrift,neverdreamedthatallofuswerewithhim。HewasalwaysbetterlookingthananyothermanI
  everhadseen,butwhen,twohourslater,hestampedintothekitchenhewassomuchhandsomerthanusual,thatIknewfromtheflushonhischeekandthelightinhiseye,thatthePrincesshadbeenkind,andbythepackageinhishand,thatshehadmadehimapresent。Hereallyhadtwo,abeautifulbookandanecktie。Iwonderedtomysoulifshegavehimthat,soshecouldfixit!Ididn’tbelieveshehadbegunonhistiesatthattime;butofcoursewhenhelovedherashedid,hewishedshewould。
  ItwastheveryjolliestChristmasweeverhad,butthedayseemedlong。Whennightcamewewereinapreciousbustle。Thewagonbedonbobs,filledwithhayandcovers,drawnbyNedandJo,wasbroughtupforthefamily,andthesleighmadespick-and-
  spananddrawnbyLaddie’sthoroughbred,stoodbesideit。Laddiehadfilledthekitchenovenwithbricksandhungupacomfortatfouro’clocktokeepthePrincesswarm。
  Becausehehadtodriveoutofthewaytobringher,Laddiewantedtostartearly;andwhenhecamedowndressedinhiscollegeclothes,andlookingthemanliestofmen,someofthefolksthoughtitfunnytoseehimcarefullyrakehishotbricksfromtheoven,andpintheminanoldredbreakfastshawl。I
  thoughtitwasfine,andIwhisperedtomother:“DoyousupposethatifLaddieevermarriesthePrincesshewillbegoodtoherasheistoyou?“
  Mothernoddedwithtear-dimmedeyes,butShelleysaid:“I’llwagerastrongyounggirllikethePrincesswilllaughatyouforbabyingoverher。“
  “Why?“inquiredLaddie。“Itisalongdriveandabitternight,andifyoufancythePrincesswilllaughatanythingIdo,whenI
  amdoingthebestIknowforhercomfort,youaremistaken。Atleast,thatistheimpressionshegavemethismorning。“
  Isawtheswiftglancemothershotatfather,andfatherlaiddownhispaperandsaid,whilehepretendedhisglassesneededpolishing:“Nowthereistherightsortofagirlforyou。Nofoolishnessabouther,whenshehaseverychance。HurrahforthePrincess!“
  Itwaseasytoseethatshewasn’tgoingtohavenearlysohardatimechangingfather’sopinionasshewouldmother’s。Itwasnotnearlyayearyet,andherehewaschangedalready。Laddiesaidgood-byetomother——heneverforgot——gathereduphiscomfortandbricks,andstartedforPryors’downrighthappy。Wewenttotheschoolhousealittlelater,allofusscoured,curled,starched,andwearingourverybestclothes。My!butitwasfine。Thereweremanylightsintheroomanditwashungwithgreens。Therewasacrowdeventhoughitwasearly。OnMissAmelia’stablewasavolumeofhistorythatwastheprize,andeveryonewaslookingandactingtheverybestheknewhow,althoughtherewerecaseswheretheydidn’tknowsoverymuch。
  OurShelleywasthehandsomestgirlthere,untilthePrincesscame,andthentheybothwere。ShelleyworeoneofhercityfrocksandaquiltedredsilkhoodthatwasoneofherChristmasgifts,andshelookedjustlikeahandsomedoll。Shemadeeverymalecreatureinthatroomfeelthatshewaspiningforhimalone。Mayhadagayplaidfrockandcurlsnearlyayardlong,andsohadI,butbothourfrocksandcurlswerehomemade;motherwouldhavethemonceinawhile;fatherandIcouldn’tstopher。
  Buttherewasnotasoultherewhodidn’thavesomesortofgifttorejoiceover,andlaughterandshoutsof“MerryChristmas!“
  filledtheroom。Itwasgrowinglateandtherewassometalkofchoosers,whenthedooropenedandinarushoffrostyairthePrincessandLaddieentered。Everyonestoppedshortandstared。
  Therewasgoodreason。ThePrincesslookedasifshehadaccidentallysteppedfromaframe。Shewasalwayslovelyandbeautifullydressed,butto-nightshewasprettierandfinerthaneverbefore。Youcouldfairlyheartheirteethclickassomeofthemostenviousofthosegirlscaughtsightofher,forshewaswearinganewhat!——ablackvelvetstorehat,fittingcloselyoverhercrown,witharimoftwistedvelvet,ascarletbird’swing,andabigsilverbuckle。Herdresswasofscarletclothcutinforms,anditfittedasifshehadbeenmeltedandpouredintoit。Itwasedgedaroundthethroat,wrists,andskirtwithnarrowbandsoffur,andsheworealoose,long,silk-linedcoatofthesamematerial,andworstofall,furs——furssuchaswehadheardwealthyandstylishcityladieswerewearing。Agoldenbrowncapethatreachedtoherelbows,withendsfallingtotheknees,finishedinthetailsofsomeanimal,andforherhandsamuffasbigasanailkeg。
  Now,therewasnotagirlinthatroom,exceptthePrincess,anshehadthoseclothes,whowouldn’thaveflirtedlikeapeacock,almostburstingwithpride;butbecausethePrincesshadthem,andtheydidn’t,theysatstolidandsullen,andcastglancesateachotherasiftheyweresaying:“Thestuck-upthing!“
  “Thinksshe’ssmart,don’tshe?“
  Manyofthemshouldhavegonetomeetherandmadeherwelcome,forshewasnotofourdistrictandreallytheirguest。Shelleydidgo,butInoticedshedidn’thurry。
  Thechoosersbeganatonce,andLaddiewasthefirstpersoncalledforourside,andthePrincessforthevisitors’。Everyoneintheroomwaschosenononesideortheother;evenmynamewascalled,butIonlysatstillandshookmyhead,forIverywellknewthatnooneexceptfatherwouldremembertopronounceeasyonesforme,andbesidesIwassobitterlydisappointedI
  couldscarcelyhavestoodup。Theyhadputmeinaseatnearthefire;thespellerslinedeitherwall,andagoodlynumberthatrefusedtospelloccupiedthemiddleseats。Icouldn’tgetaglimpseofLaddieorthehomefolks,orworstofall,ofmyidolizedPrincess。
  InevercouldbeartofindafaultwithLaddie,butIsadlyreflectedthathemightaswellhaveleftmeathome,ifIweretobeburiedwhereIcouldneitherhearnorseeathing。IwasjustwishingitwassummersoIcouldstealouttothecemetery,andhaveagoodvisitwiththebutterfliesthatalwaysswarmedaroundGeorgianaJaneTitcomb’sgraveatthecornerofthechurch。IneverknewGeorgianaJane,butherpeoplemusthavebeenveryfondofher,forhergravewasscarletwithgeraniums,andpinkwithrosesfromearliestspringuntilfrost,andthebrightcoloursattractedswarmsofbutterflies。IhadlearnedthatifIstuckafewblossomsinmyhair,rubbedsomesweetsmellingonesovermyhands,andkneltandkeptsoquietthatI