IfIcouldhavepainted,I’dhavemadeapictureofShelleywithacircleoflightaboveherheadliketheoneoftheboyJesuswhereHetalkedwiththewisemeninthetemple。Iaskedfatherifhenoticedhowmuchprettierandnicershewas,andhesaidhedid。ThenIaskedhimifhethoughtnow,thatacitywassuchabadplacetolivein,andhesaidwhereshewashadnothingtodowithit,thesamethingwouldhappenhere,oranywhere,whenlife’sgreatestexperiencecametoagirl。Thatwasallhewouldsay,butfiguringitoutwaseasy。Thegreatestexperiencethathappenedtoourgirlswaswhentheymarried,likeSally,soitmeantthatShelleyhadgoneandfalleninlovewiththatlawyerman,andshelikedsittingonthesofawithhim,andnodoubtshefixedhisties。ButifanyonethoughtIwouldtellanythingI
sawwhenhecametheywerebadlymistaken。
Allofusrushedaroundlikewewerecrazy。Iffatherandmotherhadn’theldsteadyandkeptusdown,wemighthaveraisedtheroof。WewereallsogladaboutgettingLeonandthemoneyback;
motherhadn’tbeensicksincethefishcuredher;thenewbluegoosewassoliketheonethathadburst,evenfathernevernoticedanydifference;allthechildrenwereeitherhomeorcoming,andafterwehadourgiftsandthebiggestdinnerweeverhad,Christmasnightallofuswouldgototheschoolhousetoseeourschooltrytospelldownthreeotherstowhomtheyhadsentsaucyinvitationstocomeandbebeaten。
Mothersatinthedining-roombesidethekitchendoor,sothatshecouldwatchthebaking,brewing,pickling,andspicing。Ittookfourmentohandlethebacklog,whichInoticedfatherpronouncedeveryyear“justalittlethefinestweeverhad,“andLaddiestrungthehousewithbittersweet,evergreens,andthemostbeautifulspraysofmyrtlethatherakedfromunderthesnow。Fatherdrovetotowninthesleigh,andthelistofthingstobepurchasedmothergavehimasareminderwasalmostayardlong。
TheminutetheyfinishedtheoutdoorworkLaddieandLeonbeganbringinginbasketsofapples,goldenbellflowers,greenpippins,whitewinterpearmains,RhodeIslandgreenings,andstripedrambosallcoveredwithhoarfrost,yetnotfrozen,andsofullofjuiceyouhadtobiteintothemcarefullyortheydrippedandoffendedmother。Thesetheywashedandcarriedtothecellarreadyforuse。
Thentheycrackedbigdishesofnuts;andpoppedcornthatpoppedwiththemostresoundingpopsinallmyexperience——poppedatubful,andLaddiemeltedmaplesugarandpouredoveritandmadebigballsoffluffandsweetness。Hetookapanandfilleditwithgrains,selectedoneatatime,theverylargestandwhitest,andmadeanespecialball,inthemiddleofwhichheputalovelypinkcandyheartonwhichwasprintedinredletters:
“Howcanthisheartbemine,yetyours,unlessourheartsareone?“Hewouldn’tletanyofthemseeitexceptme,andheonlyletmebecauseheknewI’dbedelighted。
ItwasalmostduskwhenfathercamethroughthekitchenloadedwithbundlesandfoundCandaceandthegirlsstillcooking。
Weweresoexcitedwecouldscarcelybegatheredaroundthesuppertable,andmothersaidwechattereduntilshecouldn’thearherselfthink。AfterawhileLaddielaiddownhisforkandlookedatourfather。
“Haveyouanyobjectiontomyusingthesleighto-morrownight?“
heasked。
Fatherlookedatmother。
“Hadyouplannedtouseit,mother?“
Mothersaid:“No。IfIgo,I’llrideinthebigsledwithallofus。Itissuchalittleway,andtheroadsarelikeglass。“
Sofathersaidpolitely,ashealwaysspoketous:“Thenitwillgivemegreatpleasureforyoutotakeit,myson。“
ThatmadeLeonbanghisforkloudlyashedaredandsquirminhischair,forwellheknewthatifhehadasked,theanswerwouldhavebeendifferent。IfLaddietookthesleighhewouldharnesscarefully,drivefast,butreasonably,blankethishorse,comehomeattherighttime,andputeverythingexactlywherehefoundit。ButLeonwouldpitchtheharnessonsomeway,raceeverystep,neverthinkofhissteaminghorse,comehomewhentherewasnoonesowildashelefttoplayprankswith,andscattertheharnesseverywhere。HeknewourfatherwouldlovetotrusthimthesameashedidLaddie。Hewouldn’talwaysprovehimselftrustworthy,butheenviedLaddie。
“Youthinkyou’lltakethePrincesstothespellingbee,don’tyou?“hesneered。
“Imeantoaskher,“repliedLaddie。
“Maybeyouthinkshe’llrideinouroldhomemade,hickorycheesebox,whenshecansailalloverthecountrylikeabirdinavelvet-linedcutterwitharealbuffalorobe。“
Therewasaquickcatchinmother’sbreathandIfeltherhandonmychairtremble。Father’slipstightenedandafrownsettledonhisface,whileLaddiefairlyjumped。Hewentwhitetothelips,andonehanddroppedonthetable,palmup,thefingersclosingandunclosing,whilehiseyesturnedfirsttomother,andthentofather,indumbappeal。Weallknewthathewassuffering。Noonespoke,andLeonhavingshothisarrowstraighthome,sawaspeoplesooftendointhisworldthatthedamageofunkindwordscouldnoteasilyberepaired;sohegrewredinthefaceandsquirmeduncomfortably。
AtlastLaddiedrewadeep,quiveringbreath。“Ineverthoughtofthat,“hesaid。“ShehasseemedhappytogowithmeseveraltimeswhenIaskedher,butofcourseshemightnotcaretorideinours,whenshehassuchafinesleighofherown。“
Father’svoicefairlyboomeddownthelengthofthetable。
“Yourmotheralwayshasfoundoursleighsuitable,“hesaid。
Thefactwas,fatherwasrarelyproudofit。Hehadselectedthehickoryinourwoods,cutitandhauledittothemill,curedthelumber,andusedallhissparetimefortwowintersmakingit。
Withtheexceptionofhavingtherunnersturnedatafactoryandiron-boundatasmithy,hehadcompleteditalonewithgreatcare,eventostainingitabeautifulcherrycolour,andfittingwhitesheepskinsintothebed。Wehadallwatchedhimandbeensoproudofit,andnowLeonwassneeringatit。Hemightjustaswellhaveundertakentolaughatfather’sweddingsuitortomakefunof“Clark’sCommentaries。“
Laddieappealedtomother:“DoyouthinkI’dbetternotaskher?“
Hespokewithaneffort。
“Laddie,thatisthefirsttimeIeverheardyouproposetodoanyoneaninjustice,“shesaid。
“Idon’tseehow,“saidLaddie。
“Itisn’tgivingthePrincessanychanceatall,“repliedmother“You’vejustsaidthatshehasseemedpleasedtoaccompanyyoubefore,nowyouareproposingtocutheroutofwhatpromisestobethemostdelightfuleveningofthewinter,withoutevengivingherthechancetosaywhethershe’dgowithyouornot。Hassheevermadeyoufeelthatanythingyouofferedherorwantedtodoforherwasnotgoodenough?“
“Never!“exclaimedLaddiefervently。
“Untilshedoes,then,doyouthinkitwouldbequitemanlyandhonourabletomakedecisionsforher?Yousayyouneverthoughtofanythingexceptapleasanttimewithher;possiblyshefeelsthesame。Unlessshechanges,Iwouldscarcelyletaboy’sfoolishtonguedisturbherpleasure。Moreover,astothematterofwealth,yourfathermaybeasrichashers;buttheyhaveone,wehavemany。Ifwhatwespendonallourbroodcouldbeconfinedtoonechild,wecouldeasilyduplicateallherluxuries,andIthinkshehasthegoodsensetorealizethefactasquicklyasanyone。I’venodoubtshewouldgladlyexchangehalfshehasforthecompanionshipofasisterorabrotherinherlonelylife。“
Laddieturnedtofather,andfather’ssmilewashappyagain。
Motherwaslittlebutshewasmighty。WithonlyafewwordsshehadmadeLeonfeelhowunkindandfoolishhehadbeen,quietedLaddie’salarm,andsoothedthehurtfather’spridehadfeltinthathehadnotbeenabletofurnishherwithsofineaturnoutasPryorshad。
Nextmorningwhentheexcitementofgiftsandgreetingswasover,andLaddie’smorningworkwasallfinished,hetookabeautifulvolumeofpoemsandhispopcornballandstartedacrossthefieldsduewest;allofusknewthathewasgoingtocallonandofferthemtothePrincess,andasktotakehertothespellingbee。IsupposeLaddiethoughthewastakingthattripalone,butreallyhewassurrounded。Iwatchedhimfromthewindow,andmyheartwentwithhim。Presentlyfatherwentandsatbesidemother’schair,andstrokingherhand,whisperedsoftly:“Pleasedon’tworry,littlemother。Itwillbeallright。Yourboywillcomehomehappy。“
“Ihopeso,“sheanswered,“butIcan’thelpfeelingdreadfullynervous。IfthingsgowrongwithLaddie,itwillspoiltheday。“
“IhavemuchfaithinthePrincess’goodcommonsense,“repliedfather,“andconsideringwhatitmeanstoLaddie,itwouldhurtmesoretoloseit。“
Mothersatstill,butherlipsmovedsothatIknewshewasmakingsoftlittlewhisperedprayersforherbestlovedson。ButLaddie,plowingthroughthedrift,neverdreamedthatallofuswerewithhim。HewasalwaysbetterlookingthananyothermanI
everhadseen,butwhen,twohourslater,hestampedintothekitchenhewassomuchhandsomerthanusual,thatIknewfromtheflushonhischeekandthelightinhiseye,thatthePrincesshadbeenkind,andbythepackageinhishand,thatshehadmadehimapresent。Hereallyhadtwo,abeautifulbookandanecktie。Iwonderedtomysoulifshegavehimthat,soshecouldfixit!Ididn’tbelieveshehadbegunonhistiesatthattime;butofcoursewhenhelovedherashedid,hewishedshewould。
ItwastheveryjolliestChristmasweeverhad,butthedayseemedlong。Whennightcamewewereinapreciousbustle。Thewagonbedonbobs,filledwithhayandcovers,drawnbyNedandJo,wasbroughtupforthefamily,andthesleighmadespick-and-
spananddrawnbyLaddie’sthoroughbred,stoodbesideit。Laddiehadfilledthekitchenovenwithbricksandhungupacomfortatfouro’clocktokeepthePrincesswarm。
Becausehehadtodriveoutofthewaytobringher,Laddiewantedtostartearly;andwhenhecamedowndressedinhiscollegeclothes,andlookingthemanliestofmen,someofthefolksthoughtitfunnytoseehimcarefullyrakehishotbricksfromtheoven,andpintheminanoldredbreakfastshawl。I
thoughtitwasfine,andIwhisperedtomother:“DoyousupposethatifLaddieevermarriesthePrincesshewillbegoodtoherasheistoyou?“
Mothernoddedwithtear-dimmedeyes,butShelleysaid:“I’llwagerastrongyounggirllikethePrincesswilllaughatyouforbabyingoverher。“
“Why?“inquiredLaddie。“Itisalongdriveandabitternight,andifyoufancythePrincesswilllaughatanythingIdo,whenI
amdoingthebestIknowforhercomfort,youaremistaken。Atleast,thatistheimpressionshegavemethismorning。“
Isawtheswiftglancemothershotatfather,andfatherlaiddownhispaperandsaid,whilehepretendedhisglassesneededpolishing:“Nowthereistherightsortofagirlforyou。Nofoolishnessabouther,whenshehaseverychance。HurrahforthePrincess!“
Itwaseasytoseethatshewasn’tgoingtohavenearlysohardatimechangingfather’sopinionasshewouldmother’s。Itwasnotnearlyayearyet,andherehewaschangedalready。Laddiesaidgood-byetomother——heneverforgot——gathereduphiscomfortandbricks,andstartedforPryors’downrighthappy。Wewenttotheschoolhousealittlelater,allofusscoured,curled,starched,andwearingourverybestclothes。My!butitwasfine。Thereweremanylightsintheroomanditwashungwithgreens。Therewasacrowdeventhoughitwasearly。OnMissAmelia’stablewasavolumeofhistorythatwastheprize,andeveryonewaslookingandactingtheverybestheknewhow,althoughtherewerecaseswheretheydidn’tknowsoverymuch。
OurShelleywasthehandsomestgirlthere,untilthePrincesscame,andthentheybothwere。ShelleyworeoneofhercityfrocksandaquiltedredsilkhoodthatwasoneofherChristmasgifts,andshelookedjustlikeahandsomedoll。Shemadeeverymalecreatureinthatroomfeelthatshewaspiningforhimalone。Mayhadagayplaidfrockandcurlsnearlyayardlong,andsohadI,butbothourfrocksandcurlswerehomemade;motherwouldhavethemonceinawhile;fatherandIcouldn’tstopher。
Buttherewasnotasoultherewhodidn’thavesomesortofgifttorejoiceover,andlaughterandshoutsof“MerryChristmas!“
filledtheroom。Itwasgrowinglateandtherewassometalkofchoosers,whenthedooropenedandinarushoffrostyairthePrincessandLaddieentered。Everyonestoppedshortandstared。
Therewasgoodreason。ThePrincesslookedasifshehadaccidentallysteppedfromaframe。Shewasalwayslovelyandbeautifullydressed,butto-nightshewasprettierandfinerthaneverbefore。Youcouldfairlyheartheirteethclickassomeofthemostenviousofthosegirlscaughtsightofher,forshewaswearinganewhat!——ablackvelvetstorehat,fittingcloselyoverhercrown,witharimoftwistedvelvet,ascarletbird’swing,andabigsilverbuckle。Herdresswasofscarletclothcutinforms,anditfittedasifshehadbeenmeltedandpouredintoit。Itwasedgedaroundthethroat,wrists,andskirtwithnarrowbandsoffur,andsheworealoose,long,silk-linedcoatofthesamematerial,andworstofall,furs——furssuchaswehadheardwealthyandstylishcityladieswerewearing。Agoldenbrowncapethatreachedtoherelbows,withendsfallingtotheknees,finishedinthetailsofsomeanimal,andforherhandsamuffasbigasanailkeg。
Now,therewasnotagirlinthatroom,exceptthePrincess,anshehadthoseclothes,whowouldn’thaveflirtedlikeapeacock,almostburstingwithpride;butbecausethePrincesshadthem,andtheydidn’t,theysatstolidandsullen,andcastglancesateachotherasiftheyweresaying:“Thestuck-upthing!“
“Thinksshe’ssmart,don’tshe?“
Manyofthemshouldhavegonetomeetherandmadeherwelcome,forshewasnotofourdistrictandreallytheirguest。Shelleydidgo,butInoticedshedidn’thurry。
Thechoosersbeganatonce,andLaddiewasthefirstpersoncalledforourside,andthePrincessforthevisitors’。Everyoneintheroomwaschosenononesideortheother;evenmynamewascalled,butIonlysatstillandshookmyhead,forIverywellknewthatnooneexceptfatherwouldremembertopronounceeasyonesforme,andbesidesIwassobitterlydisappointedI
couldscarcelyhavestoodup。Theyhadputmeinaseatnearthefire;thespellerslinedeitherwall,andagoodlynumberthatrefusedtospelloccupiedthemiddleseats。Icouldn’tgetaglimpseofLaddieorthehomefolks,orworstofall,ofmyidolizedPrincess。
InevercouldbeartofindafaultwithLaddie,butIsadlyreflectedthathemightaswellhaveleftmeathome,ifIweretobeburiedwhereIcouldneitherhearnorseeathing。IwasjustwishingitwassummersoIcouldstealouttothecemetery,andhaveagoodvisitwiththebutterfliesthatalwaysswarmedaroundGeorgianaJaneTitcomb’sgraveatthecornerofthechurch。IneverknewGeorgianaJane,butherpeoplemusthavebeenveryfondofher,forhergravewasscarletwithgeraniums,andpinkwithrosesfromearliestspringuntilfrost,andthebrightcoloursattractedswarmsofbutterflies。IhadlearnedthatifIstuckafewblossomsinmyhair,rubbedsomesweetsmellingonesovermyhands,andkneltandkeptsoquietthatI
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