ThenIroared;betIsoundedlikeBashan’sbull。
“DearLord!“saidLaddiedroppingthesheepandtakingmeinhiswetarms。“Tellme,Biddy!Tellmehowitis。“
ThenIforgotIwasaCrusader,andtoldhimallaboutitaswellasIcouldforchoking,andwhenIfinishedhebathedmyhotface,andhelpedmefromtheroots。ThenhewentandlookeddowntheholeIshowedhimandhecriedoutquicklike,andthrewhimselfonthegrass,andinasecondupcamethefish。Someonehadrolledabigstoneinthehole,sothefishwasallright,notevendeadyet,andLaddiesaiditwasthebiggestoneheeverhadseentakenfromthecreek。ThenhesaidifI’dforgivehimandallourfamily,forspoilingthekindofalifeIhadaperfectrighttolead,andifI’druntothehouseandgetabigbottlefromthemedicinecasequick,hewouldseetoitthatsomeplacewasfixedforthatsheepwhereitwouldneverbothermeagain。SoItookthefishandranasfastasIcould,butIsentMaybackwiththebottle,anddidthescalingmyself。Nooneatourhousecoulddoitbetter,forLaddietaughtmetherightwaylongago,whenIwassmall,andI’ddoneithundredsoftimes。
ThenIwenttoCandaceandsheputalittlebitofbutterandaspeckoflardinaskillet,andcookedthefishbrown。Shemadeasliceoftoastandboiledacupofwaterandcarriedittothedoor;thenshewentinandsetthetablebesidethebed,andI
tookinthetray,anddidn’tspilladrop。Motherneversaidaword;shejustreachedoutandbrokeoffatinyspeckandnibbledit,anditstayed;shetriedalittlebiggerpiece,andanother,andshesaid:“Takeoutthebones,Candace!“Sheateeveryscrapofthatfishlikethehungriesttravellerwhoevercametoourdoor,andthetoast,anddrankthehotwater。Thenshewentintoalongsleepandallofuswalkedtiptoe,andwhenshewakedupshewasbetter,andinafewdaysshecouldsitinherchairagain,andshebegangettingShelleyreadytogotomusicschool。
Ihavetotellyoutherest,too。Laddiemadetheramcomealive,andfathersolditthenextdayformorethanhepaidforit。HesaidhehopedI’dforgivehimfornothavingseenhowithadbeenbotheringme,andthatheneverwouldhavehaditontheplaceadayifhe’dknown。Thenexttimehewenttotownheboughtmeatrulylittlecanerod,arealfishingline,severalhooks,andaredbobbertoolovelytoputintothewater。I
thoughtIwasagreatpersonfromthefussallofthemmadeoverme,untilInoticedLaddieshrughisshoulders,andreachbackandrubone,andthenIremembered。
Iwentflying,andthankgoodness!heheldouthisarms。
“OhLaddie!Ineverdidit!“Icried。“Inever,neverdid!I
couldn’t!Laddie,Iloveyoubestofanyone;youknowIdo!“
“Ofcourseyoudidn’t!“saidLaddie。“MyLittleSisterwasn’tanywherearoundwhenthathappened。ThatwasapoorlittlegirlIneversawbefore,andshewasinsuchtroubleshedidn’tknowWHATshewasdoing。AndIhopeI’llneverseeheragain,“heended,twistinghisshoulder。Buthekissedmeandmadeitallright,andreallyIdidn’tdothat;Ijustsimplycouldn’thavestruckLaddie。
MarryingoffSallywaslittleworsethangettingShelleyreadyforschool。Shehadtohavethreesuitsofeverything,andanewdressofeachkind,andthreehats;hertrunkwouldn’tholdalltherewastoputinit;andfathersaidhenevercouldpaythebills。Hehadpromisedhertogo,andhedidn’tknowwhatinthisworldtodo;becauseheneverhadborrowedmoneyinhislife,andhecouldn’tbegin;forifhediedsuddenly,thatwouldleavemotherindebt,andtheymighttakethelandfromher。
Thatmeanthe’dspentwhathehadinthebankonSally’swedding,andallthatwasintheUndergroundStation,ormaybetheStationmoneywasn’this。
Justwhenhewasawfullybothered,mothersaidtonevermind,shebelievedshecouldfixit。Shesentallofusintotheorchardtopickthefineapplesthatdidn’tkeepwell,andfathermadethreetripstotowntosellthem。Shehadbigjarsoflardshewouldn’tneedbeforebutcheringtimecameagain,andshesolddriedapples,peaches,andraspberriesfromlastyear。Shegotlotsofmoneyforbarrelsoffeathersshe’dsavedtoimproveherfeatherbedsandpillows;shesaidshewouldseetothatlater。
Fatherwassotickledtogetthemoneytohelphimoutthathesaidhe’dgetherapairofthosewonderfulnewbluegeeselikePryorshad,thateveryonestoppedtolookat。Whentherewasnotquiteenoughyet,fromsomewheremotherbroughtoutmoneythatshe’dsavedforalongtime,frombutterandeggs,andchickens,andturkeys,andfruitandlard,andthingsthatbelongedtoher。Fatherhatedtouseittheworstway,butshesaidshe’dsaveditforanemergency,andnowseemedtobethetime。
Shesaidifthechildreallyhadtalent,sheshouldbeaboutdevelopingit,andwhiletherewouldbemanywhowouldhavefarfinerthingsthanShelley,stillshemeanthertohaveenoughthatshewouldn’tbetheworstlookingone,andsoashamedshecouldn’tkeephermindonherwork。Fathersaid,withherfaceitdidn’tmakeanydifferencewhatshewore,andmothersaidthatwasjustlikeaman;itmadeallthedifferenceintheworldwhatagirlwore。Fathersaidmaybeitdidtothegirl,andotherwomen;whathemeantwasthatitmadenonetoaman。Mothersaidthechiefaimandendofagirl’slifewasnotwrappedupinaman;andfathersaidmaybenotwithsomegirls,butitwouldbewithShelley:shewastooprettytoescape。IdowonderifI’mgoingtobetooprettytoescape,whenIputonlongdresses。
SometimesIlookintheglasstoseeifit’scoming,butIdon’tsupposeit’sanyuse。Mothersaysyoucan’ttellathingatthegrowingageabouthowagirlisgoingtolookateighteen。
Wheneverythingwasalmostready,Leoncameinonedayandsaid:
“Shelley,whataboutimprovingyourhair?Haveyoutriedyourwildgrapesapyet?“
Shelleysaid:“Why,goodnessme!We’vebeensobusygettingSallymarried,andmyclothesmade,Iforgotallaboutthat。
Haveyounoticedthecrockinpassing?Isthereanythinginit?“
“Itwasabouthalffull,oncewhenIwentby,“saidLeon。“I
haven’tseenitlately。“
“Dopleasebeadearandlook,whenyougoafterthecowsthisevening,“saidShelley。“Ifthere’sanythinginit,bringitup。“
“Doityourselfforwantofme,Theboyrepliedquitemanfully,“
quotedLeonfrom“TheLittleLordandtheFarmer。“Hewasalwaysteasing。
“Ithinkyou’remeanasdirtifyoudontbringit,“saidShelley。
Leongrinnedandyoushouldhaveheardthenasty,teasingwayhesaidmoreofthatsamepiece:
“Angerandpridearebothunwise,Vinegarnevercatchesflies——“
Iwonderedshedidn’tslaphim。Youcouldseeshewantedto。“I
cangetitmyself,“shesaidangrily。
“Whatwillyougivemetobringit?“askedLeon,whonevermissedachancetomakeabargain。
“Mygratefulthanks。Aretheynotaproperreward?“askedShelley。
“Thanksyourfoot!“saidLeon。“WillyoubringsomethingprettyfromChicagoforSusieFall’sChristmaspresent?“
Everyonelaughed,butLeonnevercared。HelikedSusiebestofanyofthegirls,andhewantedeveryonetoknowit。Hewentstraighttoherwheneverhehadachance,andhe’dalreadytoldhermothertokeepalltheotherboysaway,becausehemeanttomarryherwhenhegrewup,andWidowFallsaidthatwasfairenough,andshe’dsaveherforhim。SoShelleysaidshewouldgethimsomethingforSusie,andLeonbroughtthecrock。Shelleylookedatitsortofdubious-like,tippedit,andstaredatthedirtsettledinthebottom,andthenstuckinherfingerandtastedit。ShelookedatLeonwithaqueergrinandsaid:
“Smarty,smarty,thinkyou’resmart!“Shethrewthecreekwaterintotheswillbucket。Noonesaidaword,butLeonlookedmuchsillierthanshedid。AfterhewasgoneIaskedherifshewouldbringhimaChristmaspresentforSusieNOW,andshesaidsheoughttobringhimaprettyglassbottlelabelledperfume,withhartshorninit,andshewould,ifshethoughthe’dsmellitfirst。
Shelleyfeltbadlyaboutleavingmotherwhenshewasn’tverywell;butmothersaiditwasallright,shehadCandacetokeephouseandMayandme,andfather,andallofustotakecareofher,anditwouldbebestforShelleytogonowandworkhardasshecould,whileshehadthechance。Sooneafternoonfathertookhertrunktothedepotandboughttheticketsandgotthechecks,andthenextdayLaddiedrovetoGrovevillewithfatherandShelley,andshewasgone。Rightatthelast,shedidn’tseemtowanttoleavesobadly,butallofthemsaidshemust。
Peter’scousin,whohadgonelastyear,wastomeether,andhavearoomreadywheresheboardedifshecould,andifshecouldn’trightaway,thenthefirstonewholeft,Shelleywastohavetheplace,sothey’dbetogether。
Therewereeightofusleft,countingCandaceandMissAmelia,andyouwouldn’tthinkahousewitheightpeoplelivinginitwouldbeempty,butourswas。Everythingseemedtowilt。Therosesonthewindowblindsdidn’tlooksobrightastheyhad;
mothersaidtheonlywayshecouldgetalongwastokeeprightonworking。ShehelpedCandaceallshecould,butshecouldn’tbeonherfeetverymuch,soshesatalldaylongandpeeledpeachestodry,showedCandacehowtojelly,preserve,andspicethem,andpeeledapplesforbutterandtodry,quantitiesmorethanwecoulduse,butshesaidshealwayscouldsellsuchthings,andwiththebunchofustoeducateyet,we’dneedthemoney。
Whenitgrewcoldenoughtoshutthedoors,andhavefireatnight,firstthingaftersupperallofushelpedclearthetable,thenwetookourslatesandbooksandlearnedourlessonsforthenextday,andthenfatherlinedusagainstthewall,allinarowfromLaddiedown,andhepronouncedwords——easyonesthatdividedintosyllablesnicely,forme,harderforMay,andsoupuntilI
mightsitdown。ForLaddie,MayandLeonheusedthegeography,theBible,Roland’shistory,theChristianAdvocate,andtheAgriculturist。My,buthehadthemsotheycouldspell!Afterthat,asmemorytests,allofusrecitedourreadinglessonforthenextday,especiallythepoetrypieces。Iknewmostofthem,fromhearingthebigfolksrepeatthemsooftenandpractisetheproperwaytoreadthem。Icoulddo“Rienzi’sAddresstotheRomans,““Casablanca,““Gray’sElegy,“or“MarkAntony’sSpeech,“
butbestofall,Iliked“LinestoaWater-fowl。“Whenhewastired,ifitwerenotbedtimeyet,allofus,boystoo,sewedragsforcarpetandrugs。Laddiebraidedcornhusksforthekitchenandoutsidedoormats,andtheywerepretty,and“veryusefultoo,“likethedogthatgothisheadpattedinMcGuffey’sSecond。
Thentheypickedtheapples。Thesehadtobepickedbyhand,wrappedinsoftpaper,packedinbarrels,andshippedtoFortWayne。Wheretheycouldn’treachbyhand,theystoodonbarrelsorladders,andusedalonghandledpicker,soasnottobruisethefruit。Laddiehelpedwitheverythingthroughtheday,workedathisbooksatnight,andwheneverhesteppedoutsidehelookedinthedirectionofPryors’。Heclimbedtothetopmostlimbsofthetreeswithabigbasket,pickeditfullandletitdownwithalongpieceofclothesline。Ilovedtobeintheorchardwhentheywereworking;therewereplentyofsummerapplestoeatyet;
itwasfuntowatchthemen,andsometimesIcouldbeusefulbyhandingbasketsorheapingupapplestobeburiedforus。
Onenightfatherreadaboutamanwhohadbeenhangedforkillinganotherman,andtheycuthimdowntoosoon,sohecamealive,andtheyhadtohanghimover;andfathergotallworkedupaboutit。Hesaidthemanhadsuffereddeaththefirsttimeto“allintentsandpurposes,“sothatfulfilledtherequirementsofthelaw,andtheywerewrongwhentheyhangedhimagain。Laddiesaiditwasapieceofbunglingsureenough,butthelawsaidamanmustbe“hangedbyhisneckuntilhewasdead,“andifheweren’tdead,why,itwasplainhehadn’tfulfilledtherequirementsofthelaw,sotheywereforcedtohanghimagain。Fathersaidthatlawwaswrong;themannevershouldhavebeenhangedinthefirstplace。Theytalkedandargueduntilwewereallexcitedaboutit,andthenexteveningafterschoolLeonandIwerehelpingpickapples,andwhenfatherandLaddiewenttothebarnwithaloadwesatdowntorestandwethoughtaboutwhattheysaid。
“Gee,thatwastoughontheman!“saidLeon,“butIguessthelawisallright。Ofcoursehewouldn’twanttodie,andtwiceoveratthat,butIdon’tsupposethemanhekilledlikedtodieeither。Ithinkifyoutakealife,it’sallrighttogiveyourowntopayforit。“
“Leon,“Isaid,“sometimewhenyouarefightingAbsalomSaundersorLouWicks,justawful,ifyouhitthemtoohardonsometenderspotandkillthem,wouldyouwanttodietopayforit?“
“Iwouldn’twantto,butIguessI’dhaveto,“saidLeon。
“That’sthelaw,andit’sasgoodawaytomakeitasany。ButI’mnotgoingtokillanyone。I’vestudiedmyphysiologyhardtofindallthespotsthatwillkill。Ineverhitthembehindtheear,orinthepitofthestomach;Ijustblacktheireyes,bloodytheirsnoots,andswatthemonthechintofinishoffwith。“
“Well,supposetheydon’tstudytheirphysiologieslikeyoudo,andhitYOUinthewrongplace,andkillyou,wouldyouwantTHEM
hangedbytheneckuntiltheyweredead,topayforit?“
“Idon’tthinkI’dwantanythingifIweredead,“hesaid。“I
wonderhowitfeelstodie。NowTHATmanknew。I’dliketobehangedenoughtofindouthowitgoes,andthencomeback,andbragaboutit。Idon’tthinkithurtsmuch;IbelieveI’lltryit。“
SoLeontooktheropeLaddieloweredthebasketswith,andthrewitoverabiglimb。Thenherolledupabarrelandstoodonitandputmysunbonnetonwiththecrownoverhisface,forablackcap,andmadetheropeintoaslipnooseoverhishead,andtoldmetostandbackbytheappletreeandholdtheropetight,untilhesaidhewashangedenough。Thenhesteppedfromthebarrel。
Itjerkedmetowardhimaboutayard,ashecamedownsmash!onhisfeet。Iheldwithallmymight,buthewastooheavy——andfallingthatway。Sohewenttotryingtofixsomeotherplan,andItoldhimthesensiblethingtodowouldbeforhimtohangme,becausehe’dbestrongenoughtoholdmeandIcouldtellhimhowitfeltjustaswell。Sowefixedmeuplikewehadhim,andwhenLeongottheropestretched,hewrappedittwicearoundtheappletreesoitwouldn’tjerkhimasithadme,andwhenhesaid“Ready,“Isteppedfromthebarrel。ThelastthingIheardwasLeontellingmetosaywhenIwashangedenough。Iwassoheavy,theropestretched,andIwentdownuntilitalmosttoreoffmyhead,andIcouldn’tgetasinglebreath,soofcourseIdidn’ttellhim,andIcouldn’tgetonthebarrel,andmytonguewentout,andmychestswelledup,andmyearsroared,andIkickedandstruggled,andallthetimeIcouldhearLeonlaughing,andshoutingtokeepitup,thatIwasdyingfine;onlyhedidn’tknowthatIreallywas,andatlastIdidn’tfeelorknowanythingmore。
WhenIcameto,Iwaslyingonthegrass,whilefatherwaspumpingmyarms,andLaddiewaspouringcreekwateronmyfacefromhishat,andLeonwasrunningaroundincircles,clearcrazy。Iheardfathertellhimhe’dgivehimascutchinghe’dremembertothedayofhisdeath;butinasmuchasIhadtoldLeontodoit,IhadtograbfatherandholdtohimtightasIcould,untilIgotbreathenoughtoexplainhowithappened。EventhenIwasn’tsurewhathewasgoingtodo。
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