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第3章

  Ifsheeverworkedastroke,nooneknewit。Alldaylongshesatintheparlour,theverybestone,everyday;oronbenchesunderthetreeswithembroideryframesorbooks,someofthemfearful,big,difficultlookingones,orrodeoverthecountry。
  Sherodeinsunshineandsherodeinstorm,untilyouwouldthinkshecouldn’tseeherwaythroughhertangledblackhair。Sherodethroughsnowandinpouringrain,whenshecouldhavestayedoutofit,ifshehadwantedto。Shedidn’tseemtobeafraidofanythingonearthorinHeaven。Everyonethoughtshewaslikeherfatheranddidn’tbelievetherewasanyGod;sowhenshecameamongusatchurchoranypublicgathering,asshesometimesdid,peoplewereinnohurrytobefriendly,whileshelookedstraightaheadandneverspokeuntilshewasspokento,andthenshewaspreciseandcold,Itellyou。
  Mentookofftheirhats,gotoutoftheroadwhenshecamepoundingalong,andstaredafterherlike“be-addledmummies,“mymothersaid。Butthatwasallshe,oranyoneelse,couldsay。
  Theyoungfellowswerewildabouther,andiftheytriedtosidleuptoherinthehopethattheymightleadherhorseorgettoholdherfootwhenshemounted,theyalwayssawwhentheyreachedher,thatshewasn’tthere。
  Butshewashere!Ihadseenheronlyafewtimes,butthiswasthePryorgirl,justassureasIwouldhaveknownifithadbeenSally。WhatdazedmewasthatsheansweredineveryparticularthedescriptionLaddiehadgivenmeoftheQueen’sdaughter。Andworstofall,fromthedayshefirstcameamongus,movingsoproudandcold,blabbingoldHannahDoversaidshecarriedherselflikeaPrincess——asifHannahDoverknewHOWaPrincesscarriedherself!——everylivingsoul,myfathereven,hadcalledherthePrincess。AtfirstitwasbecauseshewasliketheythoughtaPrincesswouldbe,butlatertheydiditinmeanness,tomakefun。Aftertheyknewhername,theywereusedtocallingherthePrincess,sotheykeptitup,butsomeofthemweresecretlyproudofher;becauseshecouldlook,anddo,andbewhattheywouldhavegivenanythingto,andknewtheycouldn’ttosavethem。
  Iwasneverinsuchafixinallmylife。ShelookedmoreasLaddiehadsaidthePrincesswouldthanyouwouldhavethoughtanywomancould,butshewasPamelaPryor,nevertheless。EveryonecalledherthePrincess,butshecouldn’tmakerealityoutofthat。Shejustcouldn’tbetheFairyQueen’sdaughter;sothelettercouldn’tpossiblybeforher。
  Shehadnobusinessinourwoods;youcouldseethattheyhadplentyoftheirown。Shewentstraighttothedoorofthewillowroomandwalkedinasifshebelongedthere。WhatifshefoundthehollowandtookLaddie’sletter!FastasIcouldslipovertheleaves,Iwentback。Shewasonthemosscarpet,onherknees,andtheletterwasinherfingers。It’sagoodthingtohaveyourmannerssoundlythrashedintoyou。You’vegottobescaredstiffbeforeyouforgetthem。Iwasn’tsoafraidofherasIwouldhavebeenifIhadknownsheWAStheprincess,andhaveLaddiesletter,sheshouldnot。Whathadthekindofgirlshewas,fromahomelikehers,toteachanyonefromourhouseaboutmakingsunshine?Iwasatthewillowwallbythattimepeeringthrough,soIjustparteditalittleandsaid:“Pleaseputbackthatletterwhereyougotit。Itisn’tforyou。“
  Shekneltonthemosses,theletterinherhand,andherface,assheturnedtome,wasratherstartled;butwhenshesawmeshelaughed,andsaidinthesweetestvoiceIeverheard:“Areyousoverysureofthat?“
  “WellIoughttobe,“Isaid。“Iputitthere。“
  “MightIinquireforwhomyouputitthere?“
  “Noma’am!That’sasecret。“
  Youshouldhaveseenthelightflameinhereyes,thereddeepenonhercheeks,andthelittlecurloflaughterthatcurvedherlips。
  “Howinteresting!“shecried。“IwondernowifyouarenotLittleSister。“
  “IamtoLaddieandourfolks,“Isaid。“Youareastranger。“
  Allthedancinglightswentfromherface。Shelookedasifsheweregoingtocryunlessshehurriedupandswalloweditdownhardandfast。
  “Thatisquitetrue,“shesaid。“Iamastranger。Doyouknowthatbeingastrangeristhehardestthingthatcanhappentoanyoneinallthisworld?“
  “Thenwhydon’tyouopenyourdoors,inviteyourneighboursin,gotoseethem,andstopyourfatherfromsayingsuchdreadfulthings?“
  “Theyarenotmydoors,“shesaid,“andcouldyoukeepyourfatherfromsayinganythinghechooses?“
  Istoodandblinkedather。OfcourseIwouldn’tevendaretrythat。
  “I’msosorry,“wasallIcouldthinktosay。
  Icouldn’taskhertocometoourhouse。Iknewnoonewantedher。ButifIcouldn’tspeakfortheothers,surelyImightformyself。Iletgothewillowsandwenttothedoor。ThePrincessaroseandsatontheseatLaddiehadmadefortheQueen’sdaughter。Itwasanawfulpitytotellhersheshouldn’tsitthere,forIhadmydoubtsifthereal,truePrincesswouldbehalfaslovelywhenshecame——ifsheeverdid。SomewaythePrincess,whowasnotaPrincess,appearedsoreal,Icouldn’tkeepfrombecomingconfusedandforgettingthatshewasonlyjustPamelaPryor。AlreadythelovelylightshadgonefromherfaceuntilitmademesosadIwantedtocry,andIwasnoeasycry-
  babyeither。IfIcouldn’tofferfriendshipformyfamilyI
  wouldformyself。
  “YoumaycallmeLittleSister,ifyoulike,“Isaid。“Iwon’tbeastranger。“
  “Whyhowlovely!“criedthePrincess。
  Youshouldhaveseenthedancinglightsflybacktohereyes。
  Probablyyouwon’tbelievethis,butthefirstthingIknewIwasbesideheronthethrone,herarmwasaroundme,andit’sthegospeltruththatshehuggedmetight。IjusthadsenseenoughtoreachoverandpickLaddie’sletterfromherfingers,andthenIwasonherside。Idon’tknowwhatshedidtome,butallatonceIknewthatshewasdreadfullylonely;thatshehatedbeingastranger;thatshewassorryenoughtocrybecausetheirhousewasoneofmystery,andthatshewouldopenthedoorifshecould。
  “Ilikeyou,“Isaid,reachinguptotouchhercurls。
  IneverhadseenherthatIdidnotwantto。TheywerelikeI
  thoughttheywouldbe。FatherandLaddieandsomeofushadwavyhair,butherswascrisp——anditclungtoyourfingers,andwrappedaroundthemandseemedtotugatyourheartlikeitdoeswhenababygripsyou。Idrewawaymyhand,andthehairstretchedoutuntilitwaslongasanyofours,andthencurledupagain,andyoucouldseethatnotinshadstabbedintoherheadtomakethosecurls。Ibegantryingtosingleoutonehair。
  “Whatareyoudoing?“sheasked。
  “Iwanttoknowifonlyonehairisstrongenoughtodrawadrowningmanfromthewaterorstrangleanunhappyone,“Isaid。
  “Believeme,no!“criedthePrincess。“ItwouldtakeallIhave,wovenintoarope,todothat。“
  “Laddieknowscurlsthatjustonehairofthemisstrongenough,“
  Iboasted。
  “Iwondernow!“saidthePrincess。“IthinkhemusthavebeenmakingpoetryortellingFairytales。“
  “Hewastellingthetruth,“Iassuredher。“Fatherdoesn’tbelieveinFairies,andmotherlaughs,butLaddieandIknow。DoyoubelieveinFairies?“
  “OfcourseIdo!“shesaid。
  “ThenyouknowthatthisCOULDbeanEnchantedWood?“
  “Ihavefounditso,“saidthePrincess。
  “AndMAYBEthisisaMagicCarpet?“
  “ItsurelyisaMagicCarpet。“
  “AndyoumightbethedaughteroftheQueen?Youreyesare`moonlitpoolsofdarkness。’Ifonlyyourhairwerestronger,andyouknewaboutmakingsunshine!“
  “MaybeitisstrongerthanIthink。Itneverhasbeentested。
  PerhapsIdoknowaboutmakingsunshine。PossiblyIamastrueasthewoodandthecarpet。“
  Idrewawayandstaredather。ThelongerIlookedthemoreuncertainIbecame。MaybehermotherwastheQueen。Perhapsthatwasthemystery。Itmightbethereasonshedidn’twantthepeopletoseeher。MaybeshewassobusymakingsunshineforthePrincesstobringtoLaddiethatshehadnotimetosewcarpetrags,andtogotoquiltings,andfunerals,andmakevisits。Itwashardtoknowwhattothink。
  “Iwishyou’dtellmeplainoutifyouaretheQueen’sdaughter,“
  Isaid。“It’smostimportant。Youcan’thavethisletterunlessIKNOW。It’stheveryfirsttimeLaddieevertrustedmewithaletter,andIjustcan’tgiveittothewrongperson。“
  “Thenwhydon’tyouleaveitwherehetoldyou?“
  “Butyouhavegoneandfoundtheplace。Youstartedtotakeitonce;youwouldagain,soonasIleft。“
  “Lookmestraightintheeyes,LittleSister,“saidthePrincesssoftly。“AmIlikeapersonwhowouldtakeanythingthatdidn’tbelongtoher?“
  “No!“Isaidinstantly。
  “HowdoyouthinkIhappenedtocometothisplace?“
  “Maybeourwoodsareprettierthanyours。“
  “HowdoyouthinkIknewwheretheletterwas?“
  Ishookmyhead。
  “IfIshowyousomeothersexactlyliketheoneyouhavethere,thenwillyoubelievethatisforme?“
  “Yes,“Ianswered。
  Ibelieveditanyway。ItjustSEEMEDso,thebetteryouknewher。ThePrincessslippedherhandamongthefoldsofthetrailingpalegreenskirt,andfromahiddenpocketdrewotherlettersexactlyliketheoneIheld。SheopenedoneandranherfingeralongthetoplineandIread,“TothePrincess,“andthenshepointedtotheendinganditwasmerelysigned,“Laddie,“butallthewordswrittenbetweenwerehiswriting。SlowlyIhandedhertheletter。
  “Youdon’twantmetohaveit?“sheasked。
  “Yes,“Isaid。“IwantyoutohaveitifLaddiewroteitforyou——butmotherandfatherwon’t,notatall。“
  “Whatmakesyouthinkso?“sheaskedgently。
  “Don’tyouknowwhatpeoplesayaboutyou?“
  “Someofit,perhaps。“
  “Well?“
  “Doyouthinkitistrue?“
  “Notthatyou’restuckup,andhatefulandproud,notthatyoudon’twanttobeneighbourlywithotherpeople,no,Idon’tthinkthat。ButyourfathersaidinourhomethattherewasnoGod,andyouwouldn’tletmymotherinwhensheputonherbestdressandwentinthecarriage,andwantedtobefriends。Ihavetobelievethat。“
  “Yes,youcan’thelpbelievingthat,“saidthePrincess。
  “Thencan’tyouseewhyyou’llbelikelytoshowLaddiethewaytofindtrouble,insteadofsunshine?“
  “Icansee,“saidthePrincess。
  “OhPrincess,youwon’tdoit,willyou?“Icried。
  “Don’tyouthinksuchabigmanasLaddiecantakecareofhimself?“sheasked,andthedancinglightsthathadbeguntofadecameback。“Overthere,“shepointedthroughourwoodstowardthesouthwest,“livesamanyouknow。Whatdohisneighbourscallhim?“
  “Stiff-neckedJohnny,“Iansweredpromptly。
  “Andthemanwholivesnexthim?“
  “Pinch-fistWilliams。“
  Herfingerveeredtoanotherneighbour’s。
  “Thegirlsofthathouse?“
  “Giggle-headSmithsons。“
  “Whataboutthemanwholivesoverthere?“
  “Hebeatshiswife。“
  “Andthehousebeyond?“
  “Motherwhispersaboutthem。Idon’tknow。“
  “Andthewomanonthehill?“
  “Shedoesn’tdoanythingbutgussipandmakeeveryonetrouble。“
  “Exactly!“saidthePrincess。“Yetmostofthesepeoplecometoyourhouse,andyourfamilygoestotheirs。Doyousupposepeopletheyknownothingaboutaresomuchworsethantheseothers?“
  “IfyourfatherwilltakeitbackaboutGod,andyourmotherwillletpeoplein——mymotherandfatherbothwantedtobefriends,youknow。“
  “ThatIcan’tpossiblydo,“shesaid,“butmaybeIcouldchangetheirfeelingstowardme。“
  “Doit!“Icried。“Oh,I’djustloveyoutodoit!Iwishyouwouldcometoourhouseandbefriends。Sallyisprettyasyouare,onlyadifferentway,andIknowshe’dlikeyou,andsowouldShelley。IfLaddiewritesyoulettersandcomeshereaboutsunshine,ofcoursehe’dbedelightedifmotherknewyou;becausesheloveshimbestofanyofus。Shedependsonhimmostasmuchasfather。“