MissAmeliacaughtmyshouldersandshookmeashardasshecould;andsheprovedtobestrongerthanyoueverwouldhavethoughttolookather。
“Takeyourseat!“shecried。“Youarearude,untrainedchild!“
“Theydofight!“Iinsisted,asIheldmyheadhighandwalkedtomydesk。
Leonlaughedoutloud,andthatmadeeveryoneelse。MissAmeliahadsomuchtodoforafewminutesthatsheforgotme,andI
knownowwhyLeonstartedit,atleastpartly。Hesaidafterwarditwasthefunniestsightheeversaw。Mycheeksmartedandburned。Icouldscarcelykeepfromfeelingtolearnwhetheritwereswelling,butIwouldn’thaveshedatearorraisedmyhandforanythingyoucouldoffer。
RecesswascomingandIdidn’tknowwhattodo。IfIwenttotheplayground,allofthemwouldteaseme;andifIsatatmydeskMissAmeliawouldhaveanotherchanceatme。Thatwastoomuchtorisk,soIfollowedtheothersoutdoors,andohjoy!therecameLaddiedowntheroad。Hesetmeononeofthepostsofthehitchingrackbeforethechurch,andwithmyarmsaroundhisneck,Isobbedoutthewholestory。
“Shedidn’tunderstand,“saidLaddiequietly。“YoustayhereuntilIcomeback。I’llgoexplaintoheraboutthebirds。
Perhapsshehasn’twatchedthemascloselyasyouhave。“
Recesswasoverbeforehereturned。Hehadwethishandkerchiefatthewaterbucket,andnowhebathedmyfaceandeyes,straightenedmyhairwithhispocketcomb,andbeganunlacingmyshoes。
“Whatareyougoingtodo?“Iasked。“Imustwearthem。Allthegirlsdo。Onlytheboysarebarefoot。“
“Youareexcused,“answeredLaddie。“Three-fourthsofthedayisenoughtobeginon。MissAmeliasaysyoumaycomewithme。“
“Whereareyougoing?“
Laddiewasstrippingoffmystockingsashelookedintomyeyes,andsmiledapeculiarlittlesmile。
“OhLaddie!“Icried。“Willyoutakeme?Honest!“
Helaughedagainandthenherubbedmyfeet。
“Poorabusedfeet,“hesaid。“SometimesIwishshoeshadneverbeeninvented。“
“Theyfeelprettygoodwhenthere’sice。“
“Sotheydo!“saidLaddie。
Heswungmetotheground,andwecrossedtheroad,climbedthefence,andinaminuteourredbirdswampshuttheschoolhouseandcrossoldMissAmeliafromsight。ThenweturnedandstartedstraighttowardourBigWoods。Icouldscarcelykeepontheground。
“Howaretheothersgettingalong?“askedLaddie。
“She’scrossastwosticks,“Itoldhim。“JohnnyHoodhasn’tshotonepaperwad,andLeonhadn’tdoneathinguntilhelaughedaboutthebirds,andIguesshedidthattomakeherforgetme。“
“Good!“criedLaddie。“Ididn’tsupposetheboythoughtthatfar。“
“Oh,younevercantellbylookingathim,howfarLeonisthinking,“Isaid。
“That’sso,too,“saidLaddie。“Areyourfeetcomfortablenow?“
“Yes,butLaddie,isn’tmyfacemarked?“
“I’mafraiditisalittle,“saidLaddie。“We’llbatheitagainatthecreek。Wemustgetitfixedsomotherwon’tnotice。“
“WhatwillthePrincessthink?“
“Thatyoufell,perhaps,“saidLaddie。
“Dothetearsshow?“
“Notatall。Wewashedthemallaway。“
“DidIdowrong,Laddie?“
“Yes,Ithinkyoudid。“
“Butitwasn’ttrue,whatshesaid。“
“That’snotthepoint。“
WehadreachedthefenceoftheBigWoods。Heliftedmetothetoprailandexplained,whileIcombedhiswavinghairwithmyfingers。
“Shedidn’tstrikeyoubecausewhatyousaidwasnotso,foritwas。Sheknewinstantlyyouwereright,ifsheknowsanythingatallaboutoutdoors。Thisiswhatmadeherangry:itisherfirstday。Shewantedtomakeagoodimpressiononherpupils,toarousetheirinterest,andawakentheirrespect。Whenyouspoke,allofthemknewyouwereright,andshewaswrong;thatmadeherridiculous。Can’tyouseehowitmadeherlookandfeel?“
“Ididn’tnoticehowshelooked,butfromthewayshehitme,youcouldtellshefeltbadenough。“
“Shesurelydid,“saidLaddie,kissingmycheeksoftly。“Poorlittlewoman!Whataworldofthingsyouhavetolearn!“
“Shouldn’tIhavetoldherhowmistakenshewas?“
“Ifyouhadgonetoheralone,atrecessornoon,orto-night,probablyshewouldhavethankedyou。Thenshecouldhavecorrectedherselfatsomeconvenienttimeandkeptherdignity。“
“MustIaskherpardon?“
“Whatyoushoulddo,istoputyourselfinMissAmelia’splaceandtrytounderstandhowshefelt。Thenifyouthinkyouwouldn’thavelikedanyonetodotoyouwhatyoudidtoher,you’llknow。“
IhuggedLaddietightandthoughtfast——therewasnoneedtothinklongtoseehowitwas。
“IgottotellherIwaswrong,“Isaid。“Nowlet’sgototheEnchantedWoodandseeifwecanfindtheQueen’sdaughter。“
“Allright!“saidLaddie。
Heleapedthefence,swungmeover,andstartedtowardthepawpawthicket。Hedidn’tdomuchgoingaround。Hecrashedthroughandover;andsoonhebeganwhistlingtheloveliestlittledancytune。Itmadeyourheadwhirl,andyourtoestingle,andyouknewitwassingingthatwayinhisheart,andhewasjustlettingoutthemusic。Thatwaswhyitmadeyouwanttodanceandwhirl;itwassoalive。Butthatwasn’tthewayinanEnchantedWood。Ipulledhishand。
“Laddie!“Icautioned,“keepinthepath!You’llstepontheFairiesandcrushawholebandwithonefoot。NowondertheQueenmakesherdaughtergrowbigwhenshesendshertoyou。Ifyoumakesomuchnoise,someonewillhearyou,thenthiswon’tbeasecretanymore。“
Laddielaughed,buthesteppedcarefullyinthepathafterthat,andhesaid:“Therearetimes,LittleSister,whenIdon’tcarewhetherthissecretissecretanotherminuteornot。Secretsdon’tagreewithme。I’mtoobig,andbroad,andtoomuchofaman,togocreepingthroughthewoodswithasecret。Iprefertoprintitonabannerandrideuptheroadwavingit。“
“Like,——`Ayouthwhoboremidsnowandice,Abannerwithastrangedevice,’“Isaid。
“Thatwouldbe`abannerwithastrangedevice,’“laughestLaddie。“But,yes——somethinglike!“
“HaveyoutoldthePrincess?“
“Ihave!“Laddiefairlyshoutedit。
“DocsSHElikesecrets?“
“NomorethanIdo!“
“Thenwhy——?“
“Thereyougo!“saidLaddie。“Zeus,butthewomanisbeginningtomeasleoutalloveryou!Youknowaswellasanyonethatthere’ssomethingwrongatherhouse。Idon’tknowwhatitis;I
can’tevenmakeasensibleguessasyet,butit’sworsethantheneighboursthink。It’sathingthathasdrivenafamilyfromtheirhomecountry,underanamethatIhavedoubtsaboutbeingtheirs,andsentthemacrossanocean,`strangersinastrangeland,’asitsaysintheBible。It’ssomethingthatkeepsaculturedgentlemanandscholarragingupanddowntheroadsandoverthecountrylikeamadman。Itshutsawhite-faced,lovely,littlewomanfromherneighbours,butIhavepassedherwalkingtheroadatnightwithbothhandspressedagainstherheart。
SometimesittriesthePrincesspastenduranceandcontrol;andithashersowornandtiredstrugglingwithitthatsheiswillingtocarryanothersecret,ratherthantrytofindstrengthtodoanythingthatwouldmakemoretroubleforherfatherandmother。“
“Wouldittroublethemforhertoknowyou,Laddie?“
“Solongastheydon’tandwon’tbecomeacquaintedwithme,oranyone,ofcourseitwould。“
“Can’tyouforcethemtoknowyou?“
“ThatIcan!“saidLaddie。“Butyousee,IonlymetthePrincessashorttimeago,andtherewouldbenouseinraisingtrouble,unlessshewillmakemeherKnight!“
“Buthasn’tshe,Laddie?“
“Notintheverylittlestleast,“saidLaddie。“ForallIknow,sheismerelyusingmetohelppassalonelyhour。Yousee,peoplerearedinEnglandhaveideasofclass,thattwoorthreegenerationsspentherewashout。ThePrincessandherfamilyareoftheunwashedBritish。Father’speoplehavebeenherelongenoughtojudgeamanonhisownmerits。“
“YoumeanthePrincess’familywouldthinkyou’renotgoodenoughtobeherKnight?“
“Exactly!“
“Andweknowthatourfamilythinkstheyareinfidels,andwickedpeople;andthatifshewouldhaveyou,motherwouldbesickinbedoverit。OhLaddie!“
“Precisely!“
“Whatareyougoingtodo?“
“ThatImustfindout。“
“Whenitwillmakesomuchtrouble,whynotforgether,andgoonlikeyoudidbeforeshecame?Then,allofuswerehappy。Now,itmakesmeshivertothinkwhatwillhappen。“
“Metoo,“saidLaddie。“Butlookhere,LittleSister,rightinmyface。WillyoueverforgetthePrincess?“
“Never!“
“Thenhowcanyouaskmeto?“
“Ididn’tmeanforgether,exactly。Imeantnotcomehereanddothingsthatwillmakeeveryoneunhappy。“
“Oneminute,Chick-a-Biddy,“saidLaddie。Sometimeshecalledmethat,whenhelovedmetheverymostofall。Idon’tbelieveanyoneexceptmeeverheardhimdoit。“Letmeaskyouthis:doesourfatherloveourmother?“
“Loveher?“Icried。“Whyhejustloveshertodeath!Heturnssowhite,andhesuffersso,whenherpainistheworst。Loveher?Andshehim?Why,don’tyouremembertheotherdaywhenhetippedherheadagainsthimandkissedherthroatasheleftthetable;thatheaskedherifshe`lovedhimyet,’andshesaidrightbeforeallofus,`WhyPaul,Iloveyou,untilIscarcelycankeepmyfingersoffyou!’Laddie,isitlikethatwithyouandthePrincess?“
“Itiswithme,“saidLaddie。“NotwiththePrincess!Now,canIforgether?CanIkeepawayfromeventhechancetopassherontheroad?“
“No,“Isaid。“No,youcan’t,Laddie。Butcanyouevermakeherloveyou?“
“Ittakestimetofindthatout,“saidLaddie。“Ihavegottotry;soyoubeawomanandkeepmysecretalittlewhilelonger,untilIfindawayout,butdon’tbotheryourheadaboutit!“
“Ican’thelpbotheringmyhead,Laddie。Can’tyoumakeherunderstandthatGodisnotamyth?“
“I’mnonetoosurewhatIbelievemyself,“saidLaddie。“NotthatthereisnoGod——Idon’tmeanthat——butIsurelydon’tbelieveallfather’steachings。“
“IfyoubelieveGod,dootherlittlethingsmatter,Laddie?“
“Ithinknot,“saidLaddie,“elseHeavenwouldbeallMethodists。
AsforthePrincess,allshehasheardinherlifehasbeenagainsttherebeingaGod。Now,sheislearningsomethingontheotherside。Afterawhileshecanjudgeforherself。Itisforus,whoprofesstobeaChristianfamily,toprovetoherwhywebelieveinGod,andwhatHedoesforus。“
“Well,shewouldthinkHecoulddoagooddeal,ifsheknewhowmotherhatedaskinghertocometoourhouse;andyetshedidit,beautifullytoo,justtogiveherachancetoseethatverything。ButIalmostmadeherdoit。Idon’tbelievesheeverwouldalone,Laddie,oratleastnotforalongtimeyet。“
“Isawthat,andunderstooditperfectly,“saidLaddie。“Thankyou,LittleSister。“Hepickedmeupandhuggedmetight。“IfI
couldonlymakeyousee!“
“ButLaddie,Ido!I’mnotababy!Iknowhowpeopleloveandmakehomesforthemselves,likeSallyandPeteraregoingto。IfitiswithyouaboutthePrincessasitiswithfatherandmother,whyIdoknow。“
“Allright!Hereweare!“saidLaddie。
HepartedthewillowsandwesteppedontheMagicCarpet,andthatminutetheMagicworked。Iforgoteveryawful,solemn,troublousthingwehadbeentalkingabout,andlookedaroundwhileLaddiekneltandhuntedforaletter,andtherewasnone。
ThatmeantthePrincesswascoming,sowesatonthethronetowait。Wehadn’trememberedtobathemycheek,wehadbeensobusywhenwepassedthewater,andIdoubtifwewerethinkingmuchthen。Wejustwaited。Thewillowwallswavedgently,themosscarpetwasspottedwithlittlegoldpatchesofsunlight,intheshadeafewoftheredflowersstillbloomed,andbig,lazybumblebeeshummedaroundthem,orahummingbirdstoodonairbeforethem。Asortofgoldenthrobbingfilledthewoods,andmyheartbegantoleap,why,Idon’tknow;butI’msureLaddie’sdidtoo,forIlookedathimandhiseyeswereshiningasIneverhadseenthembefore,whilehischeekswerealittlered,andhewasbreathinglikewhenyou’vebeenrunning;thensuddenlyhisbodygrewtenseagainstmine,andthatmeantshewascoming。
Likethatfirstday,shecameslowlythroughthewoods,stoppinghereandtheretotouchthetrunkofatree,putbackabranch,orbendoveraflowerface。Brownasthewoodfloorwasherdress,andcardinalflowersblazedonherbreast,andthesamecolourshowedonhercheeksandlips。HereyeswerelikeLaddie’sforbrightness,andshewasbreathingthesameway。I
thoughtsuretherewasgoingtobesomethingtorememberalifetime——IwassoexcitedIcouldn’tstandstill。BeforeitcouldhappenLaddiewentandsaiditwasa“beautifulday,“andshesaid“itdidn’tshowinthewoods,butthepasturesneededrain。“Thenshekissedme。WellifIever!Isankonthethroneandsatthere。Theywentontalkinglikethat,untilitwastoodulltobear,soIslippedoutandwanderedawaytoseewhatIcouldfind。WhenIgrewtiredandwentback,LaddiewassittingontheMagicCarpetwithhisbackagainstthebeech,andthePrincesswasonthethronereadingfromalittlebook,readingsuchinterestingthingsthatIdecidedtolisten。Afterawhileshecametothis:
“Thouarematedwithaclown,Andthegrossnessofhisnature,willhaveweighttobeartheedown。“
Laddiethrewbackhishead,andhowhelaughed!ThePrincessputdownthebookandlookedathimsosurprised。
“Areyoureadingthattomebecauseyouthinkitappropriate?“
askedLaddie。
“Iamreadingitbecauseitisconcededtobeoneofthemostbeautifulpoemseverwritten,“saidthePrincess。
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