foundithadcaughthiseye。
“GoodLord!”Icried;“isTHATstillgoingon!”
Thatnightthelittleclergymanwatched,andinthesmallhoursheraisedafalsealarmthatmyunclewasdying,andmadeanextraordinaryfuss。Heraisedthehouse。Ishallneverforgetthatscene,Ithink,whichbeganwithatappingatmybedroomdoorjustafterIhadfallenasleep,andhisvoice——
“Ifyouwanttoseeyourunclebeforehegoes,youmustcomenow。”
ThestuffylittleroomwascrowdedwhenIreachedit,andlitbythreeflickeringcandles。IfeltIwasbackintheeighteenthcentury。Therelaymypooruncleamidstindescribablytumbledbedclothes,wearyoflifebeyondmeasure,wearyandrambling,andthelittleclergymantryingtoholdhishandandhisattention,andrepeatingoverandoveragain:
“Mr。Ponderevo,Mr。Ponderevo,itisallright。Itisallright。
OnlyBelieve!’Believeonme,andyeshallbesaved’!”
Closeathandwasthedoctorwithoneofthosecruelandidioticinjectionneedlesmodernscienceputsinthehandsofthesehalf-educatedyoungmen,keepingmyuncleflickeringlyalivefornoreasonwhatever。Thereligieusehoveredsleepilyinthebackgroundwithanoverdueandneglecteddose。Inaddition,thelandladyhadnotonlygotupherself,butrousedanagedcroneofamotherandapartiallyimbecilehusband,andtherewasalsoafattish,stolidmaningreyalpaca,withanairofimportance——whohewasandhowhegotthere,Idon’tknow。I
ratherfancythedoctorexplainedhimtomeinFrenchIdidnotunderstand。Andtheywereallthere,wearilynocturnal,hastilyandcarelesslydressed,intentuponthelifethatflickeredandsank,makingapublicandcuriousshowofitsgoing,queershapesofhumanbeingslitbythreeuncertaincandles,andeverysoulofthemkeenlyandavidlyresolvedtobeinatthedeath。Thedoctorstood,theotherswereallsittingonchairsthelandladyhadbroughtinandarrangedforthem。
Andmyunclespoilttheclimax,anddidnotdie。
Ireplacedthelittleclergymanonthechairbythebedside,andhehoveredabouttheroom。
“Ithink。”hewhisperedtomemysteriously,ashegaveplacetome,“Ibelieve——itiswellwithhim。”
IheardhimtryingtorenderthestockphrasesofLowChurchpietyintoFrenchforthebenefitofthestolidmaningreyalpaca。Thenheknockedaglassoffthetable,andscrabbledforthefragments。FromthefirstIdoubtedthetheoryofanimmediatedeath。Iconsultedthedoctorinurgentwhispers。I
turnedroundtogetchampagne,andnearlyfellovertheclergyman’slegs。HewasonhiskneesattheadditionalchairtheBasquelandladyhadgotonmyarrival,andhewasprayingaloud,“Oh,HeavenlyFather,havemercyonthisthyChild。”I
hustledhimupandoutoftheway,andinanotherminutehewasdownatanotherchairprayingagain,andbarringthepathofthereligieuse,whohadfoundmethecorkscrew。SomethingputintomyheadthattremendousblasphemyofCarlyle’sabout“thelastmewofadrowningkitten。”Hefoundathirdchairvacantpresently;itwasasifhewasplayingagame。
“GoodHeavens!”Isaid,“wemustclearthesepeopleout。”andwithacertainurgencyIdid。
Ihadatemporarylapseofmemory,andforgotallmyFrench。I
drovethemoutmainlybygesture,andopenedthewindow,totheuniversalhorror。Iintimatedthedeathscenewaspostponed,and,asamatteroffact,myuncledidnotdieuntilthenextnight。
Ididnotletthelittleclergymancomenearhimagain,andIwaswatchfulforanysignthathismindhadbeentroubled。Buthemadenone。Hetalkedonceabout“thatparsonchap。”
“Didn’tbotheryou?”Iasked。
“Wantedsomething。”hesaid。
Ikeptsilence,listeningkeenlytohismutterings。I
understoodhimtosay,“Theywantedtoomuch。”Hisfacepuckeredlikeachild’sgoingtocry。“Youcan’tgetasafesixpercent……”hesaid。Ihadforamomentawildsuspicionthatthoseurgenttalkshadnotbeenaltogetherspiritual,butthat,I
think,wasaquiteunworthyandunjustsuspicion。Thelittleclergymanwasassimpleandhonestastheday。Myunclewassimplygeneralisingabouthisclass。
Butitmayhavebeenthesetalksthatsetloosesomelongdormantstringofideasinmyuncle’sbrain,ideasthethingsofthisworldhadlongsuppressedandhiddenaltogether。Neartheendhesuddenlybecameclearmindedandlucid,albeitveryweak,andhisvoicewaslittle,butclear。
“George。”hesaid。
“I’mhere。”Isaid,“closebesideyou。”
“George。Youhavealwaysbeenresponsibleforthescience。
George。YouknowbetterthanIdo。Is——Isitproved?”
“Whatproved?”
“Eitherway?”
“Idon’tunderstand。”
“Deathendsall。Aftersomuch——Suchsplendidbeginnin’s。
Somewhere。Something。”
Istaredathimamazed。Hissunkeneyeswereverygrave。
“Whatdoyouexpect?”Isaidinwonder。
Hewouldnotanswer。“Aspirations。”hewhispered。Hefellintoabrokenmonologue,regardlessofme。“Trailingcloudsofglory。”
hesaid,and“first-ratepoet,first-rate。Georgewasalwayshard。Always。”
Foralongtimetherewassilence。
Thenhemadeagesturethathewishedtospeak。
“Seemstome,George“
Ibentmyheaddown,andhetriedtolifthishandtomyshoulder。Iraisedhimalittleonhispillows,andlistened。
“Itseemstome,George,always——theremustbesomethinginme——thatwon’tdie。”
Helookedatmeasthoughthedecisionrestedwithme。
“Ithink。”hesaid;“——something。”
Then,foramoment,hismindwandered。“Justalittlelink。”hewhisperedalmostpleadingly,andlayquitestill,butpresentlyhewasuneasyagain。
“Someotherworld“
“Perhaps。”Isaid。“Whoknows?”
“Someotherworld。”
“Notthesamescopeforenterprise。”Isaid。
“No。”
Hebecamesilent。Isatleaningdowntohim,andfollowingoutmyownthoughts,andpresentlythereligieuseresumedherperiodicconflictwiththewindowfastening。Foratimehestruggledforbreath。Itseemedsuchnonsensethatheshouldhavetosufferso——poorsillylittleman!
“George。”hewhispered,andhisweaklittlehandcameout。
“PERHAPS——“
Hesaidnomore,butIperceivedfromtheexpressionofhiseyesthathethoughtthequestionhadbeenput。
“Yes,Ithinkso;“Isaidstoutly。
“Aren’tyousure?”
“Oh——practicallysure。”saidI,andIthinkhetriedtosqueezemyhand。AndthereIsat,holdinghishandtight,andtryingtothinkwhatseedsofimmortalitycouldbefoundinallhisbeing,whatsortofghosttherewasinhimtowanderoutintothebleakimmensities。Queerfanciescametome。Helaystillforalongtime,saveforabriefstruggleorsoforbreathandeverandagainIwipedhismouthandlips。
Ifellintoapitofthought。Ididnotremarkatfirstthechangethatwascreepingoverhisface。Helaybackonhispillow,madeafaintzzzingsoundthatceased,andpresentlyandquitequietlyhedied——greatlycomfortedbymyassurance。Idonotknowwhenhedied。Hishandrelaxedinsensibly。Suddenly,withastart,withashock,Ifoundthathismouthhadfallenopen,andthathewasdead。
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