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第73章

  foundithadcaughthiseye。
  “GoodLord!”Icried;“isTHATstillgoingon!”
  Thatnightthelittleclergymanwatched,andinthesmallhoursheraisedafalsealarmthatmyunclewasdying,andmadeanextraordinaryfuss。Heraisedthehouse。Ishallneverforgetthatscene,Ithink,whichbeganwithatappingatmybedroomdoorjustafterIhadfallenasleep,andhisvoice——
  “Ifyouwanttoseeyourunclebeforehegoes,youmustcomenow。”
  ThestuffylittleroomwascrowdedwhenIreachedit,andlitbythreeflickeringcandles。IfeltIwasbackintheeighteenthcentury。Therelaymypooruncleamidstindescribablytumbledbedclothes,wearyoflifebeyondmeasure,wearyandrambling,andthelittleclergymantryingtoholdhishandandhisattention,andrepeatingoverandoveragain:
  “Mr。Ponderevo,Mr。Ponderevo,itisallright。Itisallright。
  OnlyBelieve!’Believeonme,andyeshallbesaved’!”
  Closeathandwasthedoctorwithoneofthosecruelandidioticinjectionneedlesmodernscienceputsinthehandsofthesehalf-educatedyoungmen,keepingmyuncleflickeringlyalivefornoreasonwhatever。Thereligieusehoveredsleepilyinthebackgroundwithanoverdueandneglecteddose。Inaddition,thelandladyhadnotonlygotupherself,butrousedanagedcroneofamotherandapartiallyimbecilehusband,andtherewasalsoafattish,stolidmaningreyalpaca,withanairofimportance——whohewasandhowhegotthere,Idon’tknow。I
  ratherfancythedoctorexplainedhimtomeinFrenchIdidnotunderstand。Andtheywereallthere,wearilynocturnal,hastilyandcarelesslydressed,intentuponthelifethatflickeredandsank,makingapublicandcuriousshowofitsgoing,queershapesofhumanbeingslitbythreeuncertaincandles,andeverysoulofthemkeenlyandavidlyresolvedtobeinatthedeath。Thedoctorstood,theotherswereallsittingonchairsthelandladyhadbroughtinandarrangedforthem。
  Andmyunclespoilttheclimax,anddidnotdie。
  Ireplacedthelittleclergymanonthechairbythebedside,andhehoveredabouttheroom。
  “Ithink。”hewhisperedtomemysteriously,ashegaveplacetome,“Ibelieve——itiswellwithhim。”
  IheardhimtryingtorenderthestockphrasesofLowChurchpietyintoFrenchforthebenefitofthestolidmaningreyalpaca。Thenheknockedaglassoffthetable,andscrabbledforthefragments。FromthefirstIdoubtedthetheoryofanimmediatedeath。Iconsultedthedoctorinurgentwhispers。I
  turnedroundtogetchampagne,andnearlyfellovertheclergyman’slegs。HewasonhiskneesattheadditionalchairtheBasquelandladyhadgotonmyarrival,andhewasprayingaloud,“Oh,HeavenlyFather,havemercyonthisthyChild。”I
  hustledhimupandoutoftheway,andinanotherminutehewasdownatanotherchairprayingagain,andbarringthepathofthereligieuse,whohadfoundmethecorkscrew。SomethingputintomyheadthattremendousblasphemyofCarlyle’sabout“thelastmewofadrowningkitten。”Hefoundathirdchairvacantpresently;itwasasifhewasplayingagame。
  “GoodHeavens!”Isaid,“wemustclearthesepeopleout。”andwithacertainurgencyIdid。
  Ihadatemporarylapseofmemory,andforgotallmyFrench。I
  drovethemoutmainlybygesture,andopenedthewindow,totheuniversalhorror。Iintimatedthedeathscenewaspostponed,and,asamatteroffact,myuncledidnotdieuntilthenextnight。
  Ididnotletthelittleclergymancomenearhimagain,andIwaswatchfulforanysignthathismindhadbeentroubled。Buthemadenone。Hetalkedonceabout“thatparsonchap。”
  “Didn’tbotheryou?”Iasked。
  “Wantedsomething。”hesaid。
  Ikeptsilence,listeningkeenlytohismutterings。I
  understoodhimtosay,“Theywantedtoomuch。”Hisfacepuckeredlikeachild’sgoingtocry。“Youcan’tgetasafesixpercent……”hesaid。Ihadforamomentawildsuspicionthatthoseurgenttalkshadnotbeenaltogetherspiritual,butthat,I
  think,wasaquiteunworthyandunjustsuspicion。Thelittleclergymanwasassimpleandhonestastheday。Myunclewassimplygeneralisingabouthisclass。
  Butitmayhavebeenthesetalksthatsetloosesomelongdormantstringofideasinmyuncle’sbrain,ideasthethingsofthisworldhadlongsuppressedandhiddenaltogether。Neartheendhesuddenlybecameclearmindedandlucid,albeitveryweak,andhisvoicewaslittle,butclear。
  “George。”hesaid。
  “I’mhere。”Isaid,“closebesideyou。”
  “George。Youhavealwaysbeenresponsibleforthescience。
  George。YouknowbetterthanIdo。Is——Isitproved?”
  “Whatproved?”
  “Eitherway?”
  “Idon’tunderstand。”
  “Deathendsall。Aftersomuch——Suchsplendidbeginnin’s。
  Somewhere。Something。”
  Istaredathimamazed。Hissunkeneyeswereverygrave。
  “Whatdoyouexpect?”Isaidinwonder。
  Hewouldnotanswer。“Aspirations。”hewhispered。Hefellintoabrokenmonologue,regardlessofme。“Trailingcloudsofglory。”
  hesaid,and“first-ratepoet,first-rate。Georgewasalwayshard。Always。”
  Foralongtimetherewassilence。
  Thenhemadeagesturethathewishedtospeak。
  “Seemstome,George“
  Ibentmyheaddown,andhetriedtolifthishandtomyshoulder。Iraisedhimalittleonhispillows,andlistened。
  “Itseemstome,George,always——theremustbesomethinginme——thatwon’tdie。”
  Helookedatmeasthoughthedecisionrestedwithme。
  “Ithink。”hesaid;“——something。”
  Then,foramoment,hismindwandered。“Justalittlelink。”hewhisperedalmostpleadingly,andlayquitestill,butpresentlyhewasuneasyagain。
  “Someotherworld“
  “Perhaps。”Isaid。“Whoknows?”
  “Someotherworld。”
  “Notthesamescopeforenterprise。”Isaid。
  “No。”
  Hebecamesilent。Isatleaningdowntohim,andfollowingoutmyownthoughts,andpresentlythereligieuseresumedherperiodicconflictwiththewindowfastening。Foratimehestruggledforbreath。Itseemedsuchnonsensethatheshouldhavetosufferso——poorsillylittleman!
  “George。”hewhispered,andhisweaklittlehandcameout。
  “PERHAPS——“
  Hesaidnomore,butIperceivedfromtheexpressionofhiseyesthathethoughtthequestionhadbeenput。
  “Yes,Ithinkso;“Isaidstoutly。
  “Aren’tyousure?”
  “Oh——practicallysure。”saidI,andIthinkhetriedtosqueezemyhand。AndthereIsat,holdinghishandtight,andtryingtothinkwhatseedsofimmortalitycouldbefoundinallhisbeing,whatsortofghosttherewasinhimtowanderoutintothebleakimmensities。Queerfanciescametome。Helaystillforalongtime,saveforabriefstruggleorsoforbreathandeverandagainIwipedhismouthandlips。
  Ifellintoapitofthought。Ididnotremarkatfirstthechangethatwascreepingoverhisface。Helaybackonhispillow,madeafaintzzzingsoundthatceased,andpresentlyandquitequietlyhedied——greatlycomfortedbymyassurance。Idonotknowwhenhedied。Hishandrelaxedinsensibly。Suddenly,withastart,withashock,Ifoundthathismouthhadfallenopen,andthathewasdead。