“I’mill。”hesaid,“I’mdamnablyill!Icanfeelitinmyskin!”
Then——itwashorribletome——hecried,“Ioughttobeinbed;I
oughttobeinbed。insteadofflyingabout。”andsuddenlyheburstintotears。
Istoodup。“Gotosleep,man!”Isaid,andtooktherugfromhim,andspreaditoutandrolledhimupinit。
“It’sallverywell。”heprotested;“I’mnotyoungenough——“
“Liftupyourhead。”Iinterrupted,andputhisknapsackunderit。
“They’llcatchushere,justasmuchasinaninn。”hegrumbledandthenlaystill。
Presently,afteralongtime,Iperceivedhewasasleep。Hisbreathcamewithpeculiarwheezings,andeverynowandagainhewouldcough。Iwasverystiffandtiredmyself,andperhapsI
dozed。Idon’tremember。Irememberonlysitting,asitseemed,nighinterminably,besidehim,toowearyeventothinkinthatsandydesolation。
Noonecamenearus;nocreature,notevenadog。Irousedmyselfatlast,feelingthatitwasvaintoseektoseemotherthanabnormal,andwithaneffortthatwaslikeliftingaskyoflead,wemadeourwaythroughthewearisomesandtoafarmhouse。ThereIfeignedevenamoreinsufficientFrenchthanIpossessnaturally,andletitappearthatwewerepedestriansfromBiarritzwhohadlostourwayalongtheshoreandgotbenighted。
Thisexplainedusprettywell,Ithought,andwegotmosthearteningcoffeeandacarttoalittleroadsidestation。Myunclegrewmoreandmoremanifestlyillwitheverystageofourjourney。IgothimtoBayonne,whereherefusedatfirsttoeat,andwasafterwardsverysick,andthentookhimshiveringandcollapsedupalittlebranchlinetoafrontierplacecalledLuzonGare。
Wefoundonehomelyinnwithtwosmallbedrooms,keptbyakindlyBasquewoman。Igothimtobed,andthatnightsharedhisroom,andafteranhourorsoofsleephewokeupinaragingfeverandwithawanderingmind,cursingNealandrepeatinglong,inaccuratelistsoffigures。Hewasmanifestlyacaseforadoctor,andinthemorningwegotonein。HewasayoungmanfromMontpelier,justbeginningtopractise,andverymysteriousandtechnicalandmodernandunhelpful。Hespokeofcoldandexposure,andlagrippeandpneumonia。Hegavemanyexplicitanddifficultdirections。Iperceiveditdevolveduponmetoorganisenursingandasick-room。Iinstalledareligieuseinthesecondbedroomoftheinn,andtookaroomformyselfintheinnofPortdeLuzon,aquarterofamileaway。
Andnowmystoryconvergesonwhat,inthatqueercornerofrefugeoutoftheworld,wasdestinedtobemyuncle’sdeathbed。
ThereisabackgroundofthePyrenees,ofbluehillsandsunlithouses,oftheoldcastleofLuzonandanoisycascadingriver,andforaforegroundthedim,stuffyroomwhosewindowsboththereligieuseandhostessconspiredtoshut,withitswaxedfloor,itsfour-posterbed,itscharacteristicallyFrenchchairsandfireplace,itschampagnebottlesanddirtybasinsandusedtowelsandpacketsofSomatoseonthetable。Andinthesicklyairoftheconfinedspaceinbehindthecurtainsofthebedlaymylittleuncle,withaneffectofbeingenthronedandsecluded,orsatup,orwrithedandtossedinhislastdealingsoflife。Onewentanddrewbacktheedgeofthecurtainsifonewantedtospeaktohimorlookathim。
Usuallyhewasproppedupagainstpillows,becausesohebreathedmoreeasily。Heslepthardlyatall。
Ihaveaconfusedmemoryofvigilsandmorningsandafternoonsspentbythatbedside,andhowthereligieusehoveredaboutme,andhowmeekandgoodandinefficientshewas,andhowhorriblyblackwerehernails。Otherfigurescomeandgo,andparticularlythedoctor,ayoungmanplumplyrococo,inbicyclingdress,withfinewaxenfeatures,alittlepointedbeard,andthelongblackfrizzyhairandhugetieofaminorpoet。Brightandclear-cutandirrelevantarememoriesoftheBasquehostessofmyuncle’sinnandofthefamilyofSpanishpeoplewhoentertainedmeandpreparedthemostamazinglyelaboratemealsforme,withsoupandsaladandchickenandremarkablesweets。
Theywereallverykindandsympatheticpeople,systematicallyso。Andconstantly,withoutattractingattention,Iwastryingtogetnewspapersfromhome。
Myuncleiscentraltoalltheseimpressions。
Ihavetriedtomakeyoupicturehim,timeaftertime,astheyoungmanoftheWimblehurstchemist’sshop,astheshabbyassistantinTottenhamCourtRoad,astheadventureroftheearlydaysofTono-Bungay,astheconfident,preposterousplutocrat。
AndnowIhavetotellofhimstrangelychangedundertheshadowofoncomingdeath,withhisskinlaxandyellowandglisteningwithsweat,hiseyeslargeandglassy,hiscountenanceunfamiliarthroughthegrowthofabeard,hisnosepinchedandthin。Neverhadhelookedsosmallasnow。Andhetalkedtomeinawhispering,strainedvoiceofgreatissues,ofwhyhislifehadbeen,andwhitherhewasgoing。Poorlittleman!thatlastphaseis,asitwere,disconnectedfromalltheotherphases。Itwasasifhecrawledoutfromtheruinsofhiscareer,andlookedabouthimbeforehedied。Forhehadquiteclear-mindedstatesintheintervalsofhisdelirium。
Heknewhewasalmostcertainlydying。Inawaythattooktheburthenofhiscaresoffhismind。TherewasnomoreNealtoface,nomoreflightsorevasions,nopunishments。
“Ithasbeenagreatcareer,George。”hesaid,“butIshallbegladtorest。Gladtorest!。Gladtorest。”
Hismindranratheruponhiscareer,andusually,Iamgladtorecall,withanoteofsatisfactionandapproval。Inhisdeliriousphaseshewouldmostoftenexaggeratethisself-satisfaction,andtalkofhissplendours。Hewouldpluckatthesheetandstarebeforehim,andwhisperhalf-audiblefragmentsofsentences。
“Whatisthisgreatplace,thesecloud-cappedtowers,theseanypinnacles?。Ilion。Sky-pointing。IlionHouse,theresidenceofoneofourgreatmerchantprinces。Terraceaboveterrace。Reachingtotheheavens。KingdomsCaesarneverknew。Agreatpoet,George。Zzzz。KingdomsCaesarneverknew。Underentirelynewmanagement。
“Greatness。Millions。Universities。Hestandsontheterrace——ontheupperterrace——directing——directing——bytheglobe——directing——thetrade。”
Itwashardattimestotellwhenhissanetalkceasedandhisdeliriumbegan。Thesecretspringsofhislife,thevainimaginationswererevealed。Isometimesthinkthatallthelifeofmansprawlsabed,carelessandunkempt,untilitmustneedsclotheandwashitselfandcomeforthseemlyinactandspeechfortheencounterwithone’sfellow-men。Isuspectthatallthingsunspokeninoursoulspartakesomewhatofthelaxityofdeliriumanddementia。Certainlyfromthoseslimy,tormentedlipsabovethebristlinggreybeardcamenothingbutdreamsanddisconnectedfancies。
SometimesheravedaboutNeal,threatenedNeal。“Whathashegotinvested?”hesaid。“Doeshethinkhecanescapeme?。IfI
followedhimup。Ruin。Ruin。Onewouldthink_I_hadtakenhismoney。”
Andsometimesherevertedtoourairshipflight。“It’stoolong,George,toolongandtoocold。I’mtoooldaman——tooold——forthissortofthing。Youknowyou’renotsaving——you’rekillingme。”
Towardstheenditbecameevidentouridentitywasdiscovered。I
foundthepress,andespeciallyBoom’ssectionofit,hadmadeasortofhueandcryforus,sentspecialcommissionerstohuntforus,andthoughnoneoftheseemissariesreachedusuntilmyunclewasdead,onefelttheforewashofthatstormofenergy。
ThethinggotintothepopularFrenchpress。Peoplebecamecuriousintheirmannertowardsus,andanumberoffreshfacesappearedabouttheweaklittlestrugglethatwentonintheclosenessbehindthecurtainsofthebed。Theyoungdoctorinsistedonconsultations,andamotor-carcameupfromBiarritz,andsuddenlyoddpeoplewithquestioningeyesbegantopokeinwithinquiriesandhelp。Thoughnothingwassaid,Icouldfeelthatwewerenolongerregardedassimplemiddle-classtourists;
aboutme,asIwent,Iperceivedalmostasthoughittrailedvisibly,theprestigeofFinanceandacriminalnotoriety。Localpersonagesofaplumpandprosperousqualityappearedintheinnmakinginquiries,theLuzonpriestbecamehelpful,peoplewatchedourwindow,andstaredatmeasIwenttoandfro;andthenwehadaraidfromalittleEnglishclergymanandhisamiable,capablewifeinseverelyAnglicanblacks,whoswoopeddownuponuslikevirtuousbutresolutevulturesfromtheadjacentvillageofSaintJeandePollack。
TheclergymanwasoneofthoseoddtypesthatoscillatebetweenremotecountrytownsinEnglandandtheconductofEnglishChurchservicesonmutualtermsinenterprisinghotelsabroad,atremulous,obstinatelittlebeingwithsporadichairsuponhisface,spectacles,aredbuttonnose,andagedblackraiment。Hewasevidentlyenormouslyimpressedbymyuncle’smonetarygreatness,andbyhisowninklingofouridentity,andheshoneandbrimmedoverwithtactandfussyhelpfulness。Hewaseagertosharethewatchingofthebedsidewithme,heprofferedserviceswithbothhands,andasIwasnowgettingintotouchwithaffairsinLondonagain,andtryingtodisentanglethegiganticdetailsofthesmashfromthepapersIhadsucceededingettingfromBiarritz,Iacceptedhisoffersprettygenerously,andbeganthestudiesinmodernfinancethatlaybeforeme。I
hadgotsooutoftouchwiththeoldtraditionsofreligionthatIoverlookedthemanifestpossibilityofhisattackingmypoor,sinkingvestigesofanunclewiththeologicalsolicitudes。Myattentionwascalledtothat,however,veryspeedilybyapolitebuturgentquarrelbetweenhimselfandtheBasquelandladyastothenecessityofherhangingacheapcrucifixintheshadowoverthebed,whereitmightcatchmyuncle’seye,where,indeed,I
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