AdayorsoafterwehadgottoworkuponthequapIfoundmyselfsosleeplessandmiserablethattheshipbecameunendurable。
JustbeforetherushofsunriseIborrowedPollack’sgun,walkeddowntheplanks,clamberedoverthequapheapsandprowledalongthebeach。Iwentperhapsamileandahalfthatdayandsomedistancebeyondtheruinsoftheoldstation。Ibecameinterestedinthedesolationaboutme,andfoundwhenIreturnedthatIwasabletosleepfornearlyanhour。Itwasdelightfultohavebeenaloneforsolong,——nocaptain,noPollack,noone。
AccordinglyIrepeatedthisexpeditionthenextmorningandthenextuntilitbecameacustomwithme。Therewaslittleformetodooncethediggingandwheelingwasorganised,andsotheseprowlingsofminegrewlongerandlonger,andpresentlyIbegantotakefoodwithme。
Ipushedthesewalksfarbeyondtheareadesolatedbythequap。
Ontheedgesofthatwasfirstazoneofstuntedvegetation,thenasortofswampyjunglethatwasdifficulttopenetrate,andthenthebeginningsoftheforest,asceneofhugetreestemsandtangledcreeperropesandrootsmingledwithoozymud。HereI
usedtoloafinastatebetweenbotanisingandreverie——alwaysveryanxioustoknowwhatwasupaboveinthesunlight——andhereitwasImurderedaman。
Itwasthemostunmeaningandpurposelessmurderimaginable。
EvenasIwritedownitswell-rememberedparticularstherecomesagainthesenseofitsstrangeness,itspointlessness,itsincompatibilitywithanyoftheneatanddefinitetheoriespeopleholdaboutlifeandthemeaningoftheworld。IdidthisthingandIwanttotellofmydoingit,butwhyIdiditandparticularlywhyIshouldbeheldresponsibleforitIcannotexplain。
ThatmorningIhadcomeuponatrackintheforest,andithadoccurredtomeasadisagreeableideathatthiswasahumanpathway。Ididn’twanttocomeuponanyhumanbeings。ThelessourexpeditionsawoftheAfricanpopulationthebetterforitsprospects。Thusfarwehadbeensingularlyfreefromnativepestering。SoIturnedbackandwasmakingmywayovermudandrootsanddeadfrondsandpetalsscatteredfromthegreenworldabovewhenabruptlyIsawmyvictim。
Ibecameawareofhimperhapsfortyfeetoffstandingquitestillandregardingme。
Hewasn’tbyanymeansaprettyfigure。Hewasveryblackandnakedexceptforadirtyloin-cloth,hislegswereill-shapedandhistoesspreadwideandtheupperedgeofhisclothandagirdleofstringcuthisclumsyabdomenintofolds。Hisforeheadwaslow,hisnoseveryflatandhislowerlipswollenandpurplish-red。Hishairwasshortandfuzzy,andabouthisneckwasastringandalittlepurseofskin。Hecarriedamusket,andapowder-flaskwasstuckinhisgirdle。Itwasacuriousconfrontation。ThereopposedtohimstoodI,alittlesoiled,perhaps,butstillaratherelaboratelycivilisedhumanbeing,born,bredandtrainedinavaguetradition。Inmyhandwasanunaccustomedgun。Andeachofuswasessentiallyateeming,vividbrain,tenselyexcitedbytheencounter,quiteunawareoftheother’smentalcontentorwhattodowithhim。
Hesteppedbackapaceorso,stumbledandturnedtorun。
“Stop。”Icried;“stop,youfool!”andstartedtorunafterhim,shoutingsuchthingsinEnglish。ButIwasnomatchforhimovertherootsandmud。
Ihadapreposterousidea。“Hemustn’tgetawayandtellthem!”
AndwiththatinstantlyIbroughtbothfeettogether,raisedmygun,aimedquitecoolly,drewthetriggercarefullyandshothimneatlyintheback。
Isaw,andsawwithaleapofpureexaltation,thesmashofmybulletbetweenhisshoulderblades。“Gothim。”saidI,droppingmygunanddownhefloppedanddiedwithoutagroan。“ByJove!”
Icriedwithnoteofsurprise,“I’vekilledhim!”Ilookedaboutmeandthenwentforwardcautiously,inamoodbetweencuriosityandastonishment,tolookatthismanwhosesoulIhadflungsounceremoniouslyoutofourcommonworld。Iwenttohim,notasonegoestosomethingonehasmadeordone,butasoneapproachessomethingfound。
Hewasfrightfullysmashedoutinfront;hemusthavediedintheinstant。Istoopedandraisedhimbyhisshoulderandrealisedthat。Idroppedhim,andstoodaboutandpeeredaboutmethroughthetrees。“Myword!”Isaid。Hewastheseconddeadhumanbeing——apart,Imean,fromsurgicalpropertiesandmummiesandcommonshowsofthatsort——thatIhaveeverseen。Istoodoverhimwondering,wonderingbeyondmeasure。
Apracticalideacameintothatconfusion。Hadanyoneheardthegun?
Ireloaded。
AfteratimeIfeltsecurer,andgavemymindagaintothedeadI
hadkilled。WhatmustIdo?
ItoccurredtomethatperhapsIoughttoburyhim。Atanyrate,Ioughttohidehim。Ireflectedcoolly,andthenputmygunwithineasyreachanddraggedhimbythearmtowardsaplacewherethemudseemedsoft,andthrusthimin。Hispowder-flaskslippedfromhisloin-cloth,andIwentbacktogetit。ThenI
pressedhimdownwiththebuttofmyrifle。
Afterwardsthisallseemedtomemosthorrible,butatthetimeitwasentirelyamatter-of-facttransaction。Ilookedroundforanyothervisibleevidenceofhisfate,lookedroundasonedoeswhenonepacksone’sportmanteauinanhotelbedroom。
WhenIgotmybearings,andcarefullyreturnedtowardstheship。
Ihadthemoodofgraveconcentrationofaboywhohaslapsedintopoaching。AndthebusinessonlybegantoassumeproperproportionsformeasIgotneartheship,toseemanyotherkindofthingthanthekillingofabirdorrabbit。
Inthenight,however,ittookonenormousandportentousforms。“ByGod!”Icriedsuddenly,startingwideawake;“butitwasmurder!”
Ilayafterthatwideawake,staringatmymemories。Insomeoddwaythesevisionsmixedupwithmydreamofinmyuncleinhisdespair。Theblackbodywhichsawnowdamagedandpartlyburied,butwhich,nevertheless,Inolongerfeltwasdeadbutacutelyaliveandperceiving,Imixedupwiththeochreousslashundermyuncle’sface。Itriedtodismissthishorribleobsessionfrommymind,butitprevailedoverallmyefforts。
Thenextdaywasutterlyblackwithmysenseofthatuglycreature’sbody。Iamtheleastsuperstitiousofmen,butitdrewme。ItdrewmebackintothosethicketstotheveryplacewhereIhadhiddenhim。
Someevilanddetestablebeasthadbeenathim,andhelaydisinterred。
MethodicallyIburiedhisswollenandmangledcarcassagain,andreturnedtotheshipforanothernightofdreams。NextdayforallthemorningIresistedtheimpulsetogotohim,andplayednapwithPollackwithmysecretgnawingatme,andintheeveningstartedtogoandwasnearbenighted。InevertoldasoulofthemofthisthingIhaddone。
NextdayIwentearly,andhehadgone,andtherewerehumanfootmarksanduglystainsroundthemuddyholefromwhichhehadbeendragged。
Ireturnedtotheship,disconcertedandperplexed。Thatdayitwasthemencameaft,withblisteredhandsandfaces,andsulleneyes。Whentheyproclaimed,throughEdwards,theirspokesman,“We’vehadenoughofthis,andwemeanit。”Iansweredveryreadily,“SohaveI。Let’sgo。”
Wewerenonetoosoon。Peoplehadbeenreconnoitringus,thetelegraphhadbeenatwork,andwewerenotfourhoursatseabeforeweranagainstthegunboatthathadbeensentdownthecoasttolookforusandthatwouldhavecaughtusbehindtheislandlikeabeastinatrap。Itwasanightofdrivingcloudthatgaveintermittentgleamsofmoonlight;(丁香书院小说)thewindandseawerestrongandwewererollingalongthroughadriftofrailsandmist。Suddenlytheworldwaswhitewithmoonshine。Thegunboatcameoutasalongdarkshapewallowingonthewatertotheeast。
ShesightedtheMaudMaryatonce,andfiredsomesortofpopguntoarrestus。
Themateturnedtome。
“ShallItellthecaptain?”
“Thecaptainbedamned“saidI,andwelethimsleepthroughtwohoursofchasetillarainstormswallowedusup。Thenwechangedourcourseandsailedrightacrossthem,andbymorningonlyhersmokewasshowing。
WewereclearofAfrica——andwiththebootyaboardIdidnotseewhatstoodbetweenusandhome。
ForthefirsttimesinceIhadfallensickintheThamesmyspiritsrose。Iwassea-sickandphysicallydisgusted,ofcourse,butIfeltkindlyinspiteofmyqualms。SofarasI
couldcalculatethenthesituationwassaved。IsawmyselfreturningtriumphantlyintotheThames,andnothingonearthtopreventoldCapern’sPerfectFilamentgoingonthemarketinfortnight。Ihadthemonopolyofelectriclampsbeneathmyfeet。
Iwasreleasedfromthespellofthatbloodstainedblackbodyallmixedupwithgrey-blackmud。IwasgoingbacktobathsanddecentfoodandaeronauticsandBeatrice。IwasgoingbacktoBeatriceandmyreallifeagain——outofthiswellintowhichI
hadfallen。Itwouldhaveneededsomethingmorethansea-sicknessandquapfevertopreventmyspiritsrising。
ItoldthecaptainthatIagreedwithhimthattheBritishwerethescumofEurope,thewestwarddriftofallthepeople,adisgustingrabble,andIlostthreepoundsbyattenuatedretailtoPollackatha’pennynapandeuchre。
Andthenyouknow,aswegotoutintotheAtlanticthissideofCapeVerde,theshipbegantogotopieces。Idon’tpretendforonemomenttounderstandwhathappened。ButIthinkGreiffenhagen’srecentworkontheeffectsofradiumuponligneoustissuedoesrathercarryoutmyideathatemanationsfromquaphaverapidrottingeffectuponwoodyfibre。
Fromthefirsttherehadbeenadifferentfeelabouttheship,andasthebigwindsandwavesbegantostrainhershecommencedleaking。Soonshewasleaking——notatanyparticularpoint,buteverywhere。Shedidnotspringaleak,Imean,butwatercameinfirstofallnearthedecayingedgesofherplanks,andthenthroughthem。
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