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第67章

  AdayorsoafterwehadgottoworkuponthequapIfoundmyselfsosleeplessandmiserablethattheshipbecameunendurable。
  JustbeforetherushofsunriseIborrowedPollack’sgun,walkeddowntheplanks,clamberedoverthequapheapsandprowledalongthebeach。Iwentperhapsamileandahalfthatdayandsomedistancebeyondtheruinsoftheoldstation。Ibecameinterestedinthedesolationaboutme,andfoundwhenIreturnedthatIwasabletosleepfornearlyanhour。Itwasdelightfultohavebeenaloneforsolong,——nocaptain,noPollack,noone。
  AccordinglyIrepeatedthisexpeditionthenextmorningandthenextuntilitbecameacustomwithme。Therewaslittleformetodooncethediggingandwheelingwasorganised,andsotheseprowlingsofminegrewlongerandlonger,andpresentlyIbegantotakefoodwithme。
  Ipushedthesewalksfarbeyondtheareadesolatedbythequap。
  Ontheedgesofthatwasfirstazoneofstuntedvegetation,thenasortofswampyjunglethatwasdifficulttopenetrate,andthenthebeginningsoftheforest,asceneofhugetreestemsandtangledcreeperropesandrootsmingledwithoozymud。HereI
  usedtoloafinastatebetweenbotanisingandreverie——alwaysveryanxioustoknowwhatwasupaboveinthesunlight——andhereitwasImurderedaman。
  Itwasthemostunmeaningandpurposelessmurderimaginable。
  EvenasIwritedownitswell-rememberedparticularstherecomesagainthesenseofitsstrangeness,itspointlessness,itsincompatibilitywithanyoftheneatanddefinitetheoriespeopleholdaboutlifeandthemeaningoftheworld。IdidthisthingandIwanttotellofmydoingit,butwhyIdiditandparticularlywhyIshouldbeheldresponsibleforitIcannotexplain。
  ThatmorningIhadcomeuponatrackintheforest,andithadoccurredtomeasadisagreeableideathatthiswasahumanpathway。Ididn’twanttocomeuponanyhumanbeings。ThelessourexpeditionsawoftheAfricanpopulationthebetterforitsprospects。Thusfarwehadbeensingularlyfreefromnativepestering。SoIturnedbackandwasmakingmywayovermudandrootsanddeadfrondsandpetalsscatteredfromthegreenworldabovewhenabruptlyIsawmyvictim。
  Ibecameawareofhimperhapsfortyfeetoffstandingquitestillandregardingme。
  Hewasn’tbyanymeansaprettyfigure。Hewasveryblackandnakedexceptforadirtyloin-cloth,hislegswereill-shapedandhistoesspreadwideandtheupperedgeofhisclothandagirdleofstringcuthisclumsyabdomenintofolds。Hisforeheadwaslow,hisnoseveryflatandhislowerlipswollenandpurplish-red。Hishairwasshortandfuzzy,andabouthisneckwasastringandalittlepurseofskin。Hecarriedamusket,andapowder-flaskwasstuckinhisgirdle。Itwasacuriousconfrontation。ThereopposedtohimstoodI,alittlesoiled,perhaps,butstillaratherelaboratelycivilisedhumanbeing,born,bredandtrainedinavaguetradition。Inmyhandwasanunaccustomedgun。Andeachofuswasessentiallyateeming,vividbrain,tenselyexcitedbytheencounter,quiteunawareoftheother’smentalcontentorwhattodowithhim。
  Hesteppedbackapaceorso,stumbledandturnedtorun。
  “Stop。”Icried;“stop,youfool!”andstartedtorunafterhim,shoutingsuchthingsinEnglish。ButIwasnomatchforhimovertherootsandmud。
  Ihadapreposterousidea。“Hemustn’tgetawayandtellthem!”
  AndwiththatinstantlyIbroughtbothfeettogether,raisedmygun,aimedquitecoolly,drewthetriggercarefullyandshothimneatlyintheback。
  Isaw,andsawwithaleapofpureexaltation,thesmashofmybulletbetweenhisshoulderblades。“Gothim。”saidI,droppingmygunanddownhefloppedanddiedwithoutagroan。“ByJove!”
  Icriedwithnoteofsurprise,“I’vekilledhim!”Ilookedaboutmeandthenwentforwardcautiously,inamoodbetweencuriosityandastonishment,tolookatthismanwhosesoulIhadflungsounceremoniouslyoutofourcommonworld。Iwenttohim,notasonegoestosomethingonehasmadeordone,butasoneapproachessomethingfound。
  Hewasfrightfullysmashedoutinfront;hemusthavediedintheinstant。Istoopedandraisedhimbyhisshoulderandrealisedthat。Idroppedhim,andstoodaboutandpeeredaboutmethroughthetrees。“Myword!”Isaid。Hewastheseconddeadhumanbeing——apart,Imean,fromsurgicalpropertiesandmummiesandcommonshowsofthatsort——thatIhaveeverseen。Istoodoverhimwondering,wonderingbeyondmeasure。
  Apracticalideacameintothatconfusion。Hadanyoneheardthegun?
  Ireloaded。
  AfteratimeIfeltsecurer,andgavemymindagaintothedeadI
  hadkilled。WhatmustIdo?
  ItoccurredtomethatperhapsIoughttoburyhim。Atanyrate,Ioughttohidehim。Ireflectedcoolly,andthenputmygunwithineasyreachanddraggedhimbythearmtowardsaplacewherethemudseemedsoft,andthrusthimin。Hispowder-flaskslippedfromhisloin-cloth,andIwentbacktogetit。ThenI
  pressedhimdownwiththebuttofmyrifle。
  Afterwardsthisallseemedtomemosthorrible,butatthetimeitwasentirelyamatter-of-facttransaction。Ilookedroundforanyothervisibleevidenceofhisfate,lookedroundasonedoeswhenonepacksone’sportmanteauinanhotelbedroom。
  WhenIgotmybearings,andcarefullyreturnedtowardstheship。
  Ihadthemoodofgraveconcentrationofaboywhohaslapsedintopoaching。AndthebusinessonlybegantoassumeproperproportionsformeasIgotneartheship,toseemanyotherkindofthingthanthekillingofabirdorrabbit。
  Inthenight,however,ittookonenormousandportentousforms。“ByGod!”Icriedsuddenly,startingwideawake;“butitwasmurder!”
  Ilayafterthatwideawake,staringatmymemories。Insomeoddwaythesevisionsmixedupwithmydreamofinmyuncleinhisdespair。Theblackbodywhichsawnowdamagedandpartlyburied,butwhich,nevertheless,Inolongerfeltwasdeadbutacutelyaliveandperceiving,Imixedupwiththeochreousslashundermyuncle’sface。Itriedtodismissthishorribleobsessionfrommymind,butitprevailedoverallmyefforts。
  Thenextdaywasutterlyblackwithmysenseofthatuglycreature’sbody。Iamtheleastsuperstitiousofmen,butitdrewme。ItdrewmebackintothosethicketstotheveryplacewhereIhadhiddenhim。
  Someevilanddetestablebeasthadbeenathim,andhelaydisinterred。
  MethodicallyIburiedhisswollenandmangledcarcassagain,andreturnedtotheshipforanothernightofdreams。NextdayforallthemorningIresistedtheimpulsetogotohim,andplayednapwithPollackwithmysecretgnawingatme,andintheeveningstartedtogoandwasnearbenighted。InevertoldasoulofthemofthisthingIhaddone。
  NextdayIwentearly,andhehadgone,andtherewerehumanfootmarksanduglystainsroundthemuddyholefromwhichhehadbeendragged。
  Ireturnedtotheship,disconcertedandperplexed。Thatdayitwasthemencameaft,withblisteredhandsandfaces,andsulleneyes。Whentheyproclaimed,throughEdwards,theirspokesman,“We’vehadenoughofthis,andwemeanit。”Iansweredveryreadily,“SohaveI。Let’sgo。”
  Wewerenonetoosoon。Peoplehadbeenreconnoitringus,thetelegraphhadbeenatwork,andwewerenotfourhoursatseabeforeweranagainstthegunboatthathadbeensentdownthecoasttolookforusandthatwouldhavecaughtusbehindtheislandlikeabeastinatrap。Itwasanightofdrivingcloudthatgaveintermittentgleamsofmoonlight;(丁香书院小说)thewindandseawerestrongandwewererollingalongthroughadriftofrailsandmist。Suddenlytheworldwaswhitewithmoonshine。Thegunboatcameoutasalongdarkshapewallowingonthewatertotheeast。
  ShesightedtheMaudMaryatonce,andfiredsomesortofpopguntoarrestus。
  Themateturnedtome。
  “ShallItellthecaptain?”
  “Thecaptainbedamned“saidI,andwelethimsleepthroughtwohoursofchasetillarainstormswallowedusup。Thenwechangedourcourseandsailedrightacrossthem,andbymorningonlyhersmokewasshowing。
  WewereclearofAfrica——andwiththebootyaboardIdidnotseewhatstoodbetweenusandhome。
  ForthefirsttimesinceIhadfallensickintheThamesmyspiritsrose。Iwassea-sickandphysicallydisgusted,ofcourse,butIfeltkindlyinspiteofmyqualms。SofarasI
  couldcalculatethenthesituationwassaved。IsawmyselfreturningtriumphantlyintotheThames,andnothingonearthtopreventoldCapern’sPerfectFilamentgoingonthemarketinfortnight。Ihadthemonopolyofelectriclampsbeneathmyfeet。
  Iwasreleasedfromthespellofthatbloodstainedblackbodyallmixedupwithgrey-blackmud。IwasgoingbacktobathsanddecentfoodandaeronauticsandBeatrice。IwasgoingbacktoBeatriceandmyreallifeagain——outofthiswellintowhichI
  hadfallen。Itwouldhaveneededsomethingmorethansea-sicknessandquapfevertopreventmyspiritsrising。
  ItoldthecaptainthatIagreedwithhimthattheBritishwerethescumofEurope,thewestwarddriftofallthepeople,adisgustingrabble,andIlostthreepoundsbyattenuatedretailtoPollackatha’pennynapandeuchre。
  Andthenyouknow,aswegotoutintotheAtlanticthissideofCapeVerde,theshipbegantogotopieces。Idon’tpretendforonemomenttounderstandwhathappened。ButIthinkGreiffenhagen’srecentworkontheeffectsofradiumuponligneoustissuedoesrathercarryoutmyideathatemanationsfromquaphaverapidrottingeffectuponwoodyfibre。
  Fromthefirsttherehadbeenadifferentfeelabouttheship,andasthebigwindsandwavesbegantostrainhershecommencedleaking。Soonshewasleaking——notatanyparticularpoint,buteverywhere。Shedidnotspringaleak,Imean,butwatercameinfirstofallnearthedecayingedgesofherplanks,andthenthroughthem。