ThenyoungGarvell,givingwaybeforemyslogging,stumbledandfelloverabigflint,andI,stillfollowingthetraditionofmyclassandschool,promptlyflungmyselfonhimtofinishhim。Wewerebusywitheachotheronthegroundwhenwebecameawareofadreadfulinterruption。
“Shutup,youFOOL!”saidArchie。
“Oh,LadyDrew!”IheardBeatricecry。“They’refighting!
They’refightingsomethingawful!”
Ilookedovermyshoulder。Archie’swishtogetupbecameirresistible,andmyresolvetogoonwithhimvanishedaltogether。
Ibecameawareofthetwooldladies,presencesofblackandpurplesilkandfurandshiningdarkthings;theyhadwalkedupthroughtheWarren,whilethehorsestookthehilleasily,andsohadcomeuponus。Beatricehadgonetothematoncewithanairoftakingrefuge,andstoodbesideandalittlebehindthem。Webothrosedejectedly。Thetwooldladieswereevidentlyquitedreadfullyshocked,andpeeringatuswiththeirpooroldeyes;
andneverhadIseensuchatremblementinLadyDrew’slorgnettes。
“You’veneverbeenfighting?“saidLadyDrew。
“Youhavebeenfighting。”
“Itwasn’tproperfighting。”snappedArchie,withaccusingeyesonme。
“It’sMrs。Ponderevo’sGeorge!”saidMissSomerville,soaddingaconvictionforingratitudetomyevidentsacrilege。
“HowcouldheDARE?”criedLadyDrew,becomingveryawful。
“Hebroketherules“saidArchie,sobbingforbreath。“I
slipped,and——hehitmewhileIwasdown。Hekneltonme。”
“HowcouldyouDARE?”saidLadyDrew。
Iproducedanexperiencedhandkerchiefrolledupintoatightball,andwipedthebloodfrommychin,butIofferednoexplanationofmydaring。Amongotherthingsthatpreventedthat,Iwastooshortofbreath。
“Hedidn’tfightfair。”sobbedArchie。
Beatrice,frombehindtheoldladies,regardedmeintentlyandwithouthostility。Iaminclinedtothinkthemodificationofmyfacethroughthedamagetomylipinterestedher。ItbecamedimlyapparenttomyconfusedintelligencethatImustnotsaythesetwohadbeenplayingwithme。Thatwouldnotbeaftertherulesoftheirgame。Iresolvedinthisdifficultsituationuponasulkysilence,andtotakewhateverconsequencesmightfollow。
ThepowersofjusticeinBladesovermadeanextraordinarymessofmycase。
IhaveregretfullytoadmitthattheHonourableBeatriceNormandydid,attheageoften,betrayme,abandonme,andliemostabominablyaboutme。Shewas,asamatteroffact,panic-strickenaboutme,consciencestrickentoo;sheboltedfromtheverythoughtofmybeingheraffiancedloverandsoforth,fromthefaintestmemoryofkissing;shewasindeedaltogetherdisgracefulandhumaninherbetrayal。Sheandherhalf-brotherliedinperfectconcord,andIwaspresentedasawantonassailantofmysocialbetters。TheywerewaitingaboutintheWarren,whenIcameupandspoketothem,etc。
Onthewhole,InowperceiveLadyDrew’sdecisionswere,inthelightoftheevidence,reasonableandmerciful。
Theywereconveyedtomebymymother,whowas,Ireallybelieve,evenmoreshockedbythegrossnessofmysocialinsubordinationthanLadyDrew。Shedilatedonherladyship’skindnessestome,ontheeffronteryandwickednessofmyprocedure,andsocameatlasttothetermsofmypenance。“YoumustgouptoyoungMr。
Garvell,andbeghispardon。”
“Iwon’tbeghispardon。”Isaid,speakingforthefirsttime。
Mymotherpaused,incredulous。
Ifoldedmyarmsonhertable-cloth,anddeliveredmywickedlittleultimatum。“Iwon’tbeghispardonnohow。”Isaid。
“See?”
“ThenyouwillhavetogoofftoyouruncleFrappatChatham。”
“Idon’tcarewhereIhavetogoorwhatIhavetodo,Iwon’tbeghispardon。”Isaid。
AndIdidn’t。
AfterthatIwasoneagainsttheworld。Perhapsinmymother’shearttherelurkedsomepityforme,butshedidnotshowit。
Shetookthesideoftheyounggentleman;shetriedhard,shetriedveryhard,tomakemesayIwassorryIhadstruckhim。
Sorry!
Icouldn’texplain。
SoIwentintoexileinthedog-carttoRedwoodstation,withJukesthecoachman,coldlysilent,drivingme,andallmypersonalbelongingsinasmallAmericanclothportmanteaubehind。
IfeltIhadmuchtoembitterme;thegamehadandthebeginningsoffairnessbyanystandardsIknew。ButthethingthatembitteredmemostwasthattheHonourableBeatriceNormandyshouldhaverepudiatedandfledfrommeasthoughIwassomesortofleper,andnotevenhavetakenachanceorso,togivemeagood-bye。Shemighthavedonethatanyhow!SupposingIhadtoldonher!Butthesonofaservantcountsasaservant。Shehadforgottenandnowremembered。
IsolacedmyselfwithsomeextraordinarydreamofcomingbacktoBladesover,stern,powerful,afterthefashionofCoriolanus。I
donotrecallthedetails,butIhavenodoubtIdisplayedgreatmagnanimity。
Well,anyhowIneversaidIwassorryforpoundingyoungGarvell,andIamnotsorrytothisday。
WhenIwasthusbanishedfromBladesoverHouse,asitwasthenthoughtforgoodandall,Iwassentbymymotherinavindictivespirit,firsttohercousinNicodemusFrapp,andthen,asafullyindenturedapprentice,tomyunclePonderevo。
IranawayfromthecareofmycousinNicodemusbacktoBladesoverHouse。
MycousinNicodemusFrappwasabakerinabackstreet——aslumrather——justoffthatmiserablenarrowmeanhighroadthatthreadsthoseexquisitebeads,RochesterandChatham。Hewas,I
mustadmit,ashocktome,muchdominatedbyayoung,plump,prolific,malingeringwife;abent,slow-moving,unwillingdarkmanwithflourinhishairandeyelashes,inthelinesofhisfaceandtheseamsofhiscoat。I’veneverhadachancetocorrectmyearlyimpressionofhim,andhestillremainsanalmostdreadfulmemory,asortofcaricatureofincompetentsimplicity。AsIrememberhim,indeed,hepresentedtheserviletraditionperfected。Hehadnoprideinhisperson;fineclothesanddressingupwasn’t“forthelikesof“him,sothathegothiswife,whowasnoartistatit,tocuthisblackhairatirregularintervals,andlethisnailsbecomedisagreeabletothefastidiouseye;hehadnoprideinhisbusinessnoranyinitiative;hisonlyvirtueswerenotdoingcertainthingsandhardwork。“Youruncle。”saidmymother——allgrown-upcousinswereunclesbycourtesyamongtheVictorianmiddle-class——“isn’tmuchtolookatortalkto,buthe’saGoodHard-WorkingMan。”
Therewasasortofbasehonourablenessabouttoil,howeverneedless,inthatsystemofinversion。Anotherpointofhonourwastoriseatorbeforedawn,andthenlaboriouslymuddleabout。
ItwasverydistinctlyimpressedonmymindthattheGoodHard-WorkingManwouldhavethoughtit“fal-lallish“toownapockethandkerchief。PooroldFrapp——dirtyandcrushedby,productof,Bladesover’smagnificence!Hemadenofightagainsttheworldatall,hewasflounderinginsmalldebtsthatwerenotsosmallbutthatfinallytheyoverwhelmedhim,whenevertherewasoccasionforanyexertionhiswifefellbackuponpainsandher“condition。”andGodsentthemmanychildren,mostofwhomdied,andso,bytheircomingandgoing,gaveadoubleexerciseinthevirtuesofsubmission。
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