AndatlastIcouldholdoutnolongeragainsttheseaccumulatingpressures。
Itookanarrogant,outrageouslinethatlefthernoloopholes;I
behavedasthoughwewerelivinginamelodrama。
“Youmustcomeandtalktome。”Iwrote,“orIwillcomeandtakeyou。Iwantyou——andthetimerunsaway。”
Wemetinarideintheupperplantations。ItmusthavebeenearlyinJanuary,fortherewassnowonthegroundandonthebranchesofthetrees。Wewalkedtoandfroforanhourormore,andfromthefirstIpitchedthekeyhighinromanceandmadeunderstandingsimpossible。Itwasourworsttimetogether。I
boastedlikeanactor,andshe,Iknownotwhy,wastiredandspiritless。
NowIthinkoverthattalkinthelightofallthathashappenedsince,IcanimaginehowshecametomefullofahumanappealI
wastoofoolishtolethermake。Idon’tknow。IconfessIhavenevercompletelyunderstoodBeatrice。IconfessIamstillperplexedatmanythingsshesaidanddid。Thatafternoon,anyhow,Iwasimpossible。Iposedandscolded。Iwas——Isaidit——for“takingtheUniversebythethroat!”
“Ifitwasonlythat。”shesaid,butthoughIheard,Ididnotheedher。
Atlastshegavewaytomeandtalkednomore。Insteadshelookedatme——asathingbeyondhercontrolling,butnonethelessinteresting——muchasshehadlookedatmefrombehindtheskirtsofLadyDrewintheWarrenwhenwewerechildrentogether。
OnceevenIthoughtshesmiledfaintly。
“Whatarethedifficulties“Icried。“there’snodifficultyI
willnotovercomeforyou!DoyourpeoplethinkI’mnoequalforyou?Whosaysit?Mydear,tellmetowinatitle!I’lldoitinfiveyears!。
“HereamIjustgrownamanatthesightofyou。Ihavewantedsomethingtofightfor。Letmefightforyou!。
“I’mrichwithoutintendingit。Letmemeanit,givemeanhonourableexcuseforit,andI’llputallthisrottenoldWarrenofEnglandatyourfeet!”
Isaidsuchthingsasthat。Iwritethemdownhereinalltheirresoundingbasepride。Isaidtheseemptyandfoolishthings,andtheyarepartofme。WhyshouldIstillclingtoprideandbeashamed?Ishoutedherdown。
Ipassedfromsuchmegalomaniatopettyaccusations。
“YouthinkCarnabyisabettermanthanI?”Isaid。
“No!”shecried,stungtospeech。“No!”
“Youthinkwe’reunsubstantial。You’velistenedtoalltheserumoursBoomhasstartedbecausewetalkedofanewspaperofourown。WhenyouarewithmeyouknowI’maman;whenyougetawayfrommeyouthinkI’macheatandacad。There’snotawordoftruthinthethingstheysayaboutus。I’vebeenslack。I’veleftthings。Butwehaveonlytoexertourselves。Youdonotknowhowwideandfarwehavespreadournets。Evennowwehaveacoup——anexpedition——inhand。Itwillputusonafooting。”。
HereyesaskedmutelyandaskedinvainthatIwouldceasetoboastoftheveryqualitiessheadmiredinme。
InthenightIcouldnotsleepforthinkingofthattalkandthevulgarthingsIhadsaidinit。Icouldnotunderstandthedriftmymindhadtaken。Iwasacutelydisgusted。Andmyunwonteddoubtsaboutmyselfspreadfromamerelypersonaldiscontenttoourfinancialposition。ItwasallverywelltotalkasIhaddoneofwealthandpowerandpeerages,butwhatdidIknownowadaysofmyuncle’sposition?SupposeinthemidstofsuchboastingandconfidencetherecamesometurnIdidnotsuspect,somerottennesshehadconcealedfromme?IresolvedIhadbeenplayingwithaeronauticslongenough;thatnextmorningIwouldgotohimandhavethingsclearbetweenus。
IcaughtanearlytrainandwentuptotheHardingham。
IwentuptotheHardinghamthroughadenseLondonfogtoseehowthingsreallystood。BeforeIhadtalkedtomyunclefortenminutesIfeltlikeamanwhohasjustawakenedinableak,inhospitableroomoutofagrandiosedream。
“Wegottomakeafightforit。”saidmyuncle。“Wegottofacethemusic!”
IrememberthatevenatthesightofhimIhadasenseofimpendingcalamity。Hesatundertheelectriclightwiththeshadowofhishairmakingbarsdownhisface。Helookedshrunken,andasthoughhisskinhadsuddenlygotlooseandyellow。Thedecorationsoftheroomseemedtohavelostfreshness,andoutsidetheblindswereup——therewasnotsomuchfogasadundarkness。Onesawthedingyoutlinesofthechimneysoppositequitedistinctly,andthenaskyofsuchbrownasonlyLondoncandisplay。
“Isawaplacard。”Isaid:“’MorePonderevity。’“
“That’sBoom。”hesaid。“Boomandhisdamnednewspapers。He’stryingtofightmedown。EversinceIofferedtobuytheDailyDecoratorhe’sbeenatme。AndhethinksconsolidatingDoUtcutdowntheads。Hewantseverything,damnhim!He’sgotnosenseofdealing。I’dliketobashhisface!”
“Well。”Isaid,“what’stobedone?”
“Keepgoing。”saidmyuncle。
“I’llsmashBoomyet。”hesaid,withsuddensavagery。
“Nothingelse?”Iasked。
“Wegottokeepgoing。There’sascareon。Didyounoticetherooms?Halfthepeopleouttherethismorningarereporters。
AndifItalktheytouchitup!。Theydidn’tusedtotouchthingsup!Nowtheyputincharactertouches——insultingyou。
Don’tknowwhatjournalism’scomingto。It’sallBoom’sdoing。”
HecursedLordBoomwithconsiderableimaginativevigour。
“Well。”saidI,“whatcanhedo?”
“Shoveusupagainsttime,George;makemoneytightforus。Webeenhandlingalotofmoney——andhetightensusup。”
“We’resound?”
“Oh,we’resound,George。Trustmeforthat!Butallthesame——
There’ssuchalotofimaginationinthesethings。We’resoundenough。That’snotit。”
Heblew。“DamnBoom!”hesaid,andhiseyesoverhisglassesmetminedefiantly。
“Wecan’t,Isuppose,runclosehauledforabitstopexpenditure?”
“Where?”
“Well,——CrestHill“
“What!”heshouted。“MestopCrestHillforBoom!”Hewavedafistasiftohithisinkpot,andcontrolledhimselfwithdifficulty。Hespokeatlastinareasonablevoice。“IfIdid。”
hesaid,“he’dkickupafuss。It’snogood,evenifIwantedto。Everybody’swatchingtheplace。IfIwastostopbuildingwe’dbedowninaweek。”
Hehadanidea。“IwishIcoulddosomethingtostartastrikeorsomething。Nosuchluck。Treatthoseworkmenasighttoowell。No,sinkorswim,CrestHillgoesonuntilwe’reunderwater。”
Ibegantoaskquestionsandirritatedhiminstantly。
“Oh,dashtheseexplanations,George!”hecried;“Youonlymakethingslookrottenerthantheyare。It’syourway。Itisn’tacaseoffigures。We’reallright——there’sonlyonethingwegottodo。”
“Yes?”
“Showvalue,George。That’swherethisquapcomesin;that’swhyIfellinsoreadilywithwhatyoubroughttomeweekbeforelast。Hereweare,wegotouroptionontheperfectfilament,andallwewant’scanadium。Nobodyknowsthere’smorecanadiumintheworldthanwillgoontheedgeofasixpenceexceptmeandyou。Nobodyhasanideetheperfectfilament’smorethanjustabitoftheorising。Fiftytonsofquapandwe’dturnthatbitoftheorisingintosomething。We’dmakethelamptradesitonitstailandhowl。We’dputEdiswanandallof’emintoaparcelwithourlastyear’strousersandahat,andswap’emoffforapotofgeraniums。See?We’ddoitthroughBusinessOrganisations,andthereyouare!See?Capern’sPatentFilament!
TheIdealandtheReal!George,we’lldoit!We’llbringitoff!Andthenwe’llgivesuchafacertoBoom,he’llthinkforfiftyyears。He’slayingupforourLondonandAfricanmeeting。
Lethim。Hecanturnthewholepaperontous。HesaystheBusinessOrganisationssharesaren’tworthfifty-twoandwequote’emateighty-four。Well,herewearegettin’readyforhim——loadingourgun。”
Hisposewastriumphant。
“Yes。”Isaid,“that’sallright。ButIcan’thelpthinkingwhereshouldwebeifwehadn’tjustbyaccidentgotCapern’sPerfectFilament。Because,youknowitwasanaccident——mybuyingupthat。”
Hecrumpleduphisnoseintoanexpressionofimpatientdistasteatmyunreasonableness。
“Andafterall,themeeting’sinJune,andyouhaven’tbeguntogetthequap!Afterall,we’vestillgottoloadourgun。”
“TheystartonToosday。”
“Havetheygotthebrig?”
“They’vegotabrig。”
“Gordon-Nasmyth!”Idoubted。
“Safeasabank。”hesaid。“MoreIseeofthatmanthemoreI
likehim。AllIwishiswe’dgotasteamerinsteadofasailingship“
“And。”Iwenton,“youseemtooverlookwhatusedtoweighwithusabit。ThiscanadiumsideofthebusinessandtheCapernchancehasrushedyouoffyourlegs。Afterall——it’sstealing,andinitswayaninternationaloutrage。They’vegottwogunboatsonthecoast。”
Ijumpedupandwentandstaredoutatthefog。
“And,byJove,it’saboutouronlychance!Ididn’tdream。”
Iturnedonhim。“I’vebeenupintheair。”Isaid。
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