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第61章

  AndatlastIcouldholdoutnolongeragainsttheseaccumulatingpressures。
  Itookanarrogant,outrageouslinethatlefthernoloopholes;I
  behavedasthoughwewerelivinginamelodrama。
  “Youmustcomeandtalktome。”Iwrote,“orIwillcomeandtakeyou。Iwantyou——andthetimerunsaway。”
  Wemetinarideintheupperplantations。ItmusthavebeenearlyinJanuary,fortherewassnowonthegroundandonthebranchesofthetrees。Wewalkedtoandfroforanhourormore,andfromthefirstIpitchedthekeyhighinromanceandmadeunderstandingsimpossible。Itwasourworsttimetogether。I
  boastedlikeanactor,andshe,Iknownotwhy,wastiredandspiritless。
  NowIthinkoverthattalkinthelightofallthathashappenedsince,IcanimaginehowshecametomefullofahumanappealI
  wastoofoolishtolethermake。Idon’tknow。IconfessIhavenevercompletelyunderstoodBeatrice。IconfessIamstillperplexedatmanythingsshesaidanddid。Thatafternoon,anyhow,Iwasimpossible。Iposedandscolded。Iwas——Isaidit——for“takingtheUniversebythethroat!”
  “Ifitwasonlythat。”shesaid,butthoughIheard,Ididnotheedher。
  Atlastshegavewaytomeandtalkednomore。Insteadshelookedatme——asathingbeyondhercontrolling,butnonethelessinteresting——muchasshehadlookedatmefrombehindtheskirtsofLadyDrewintheWarrenwhenwewerechildrentogether。
  OnceevenIthoughtshesmiledfaintly。
  “Whatarethedifficulties“Icried。“there’snodifficultyI
  willnotovercomeforyou!DoyourpeoplethinkI’mnoequalforyou?Whosaysit?Mydear,tellmetowinatitle!I’lldoitinfiveyears!。
  “HereamIjustgrownamanatthesightofyou。Ihavewantedsomethingtofightfor。Letmefightforyou!。
  “I’mrichwithoutintendingit。Letmemeanit,givemeanhonourableexcuseforit,andI’llputallthisrottenoldWarrenofEnglandatyourfeet!”
  Isaidsuchthingsasthat。Iwritethemdownhereinalltheirresoundingbasepride。Isaidtheseemptyandfoolishthings,andtheyarepartofme。WhyshouldIstillclingtoprideandbeashamed?Ishoutedherdown。
  Ipassedfromsuchmegalomaniatopettyaccusations。
  “YouthinkCarnabyisabettermanthanI?”Isaid。
  “No!”shecried,stungtospeech。“No!”
  “Youthinkwe’reunsubstantial。You’velistenedtoalltheserumoursBoomhasstartedbecausewetalkedofanewspaperofourown。WhenyouarewithmeyouknowI’maman;whenyougetawayfrommeyouthinkI’macheatandacad。There’snotawordoftruthinthethingstheysayaboutus。I’vebeenslack。I’veleftthings。Butwehaveonlytoexertourselves。Youdonotknowhowwideandfarwehavespreadournets。Evennowwehaveacoup——anexpedition——inhand。Itwillputusonafooting。”。
  HereyesaskedmutelyandaskedinvainthatIwouldceasetoboastoftheveryqualitiessheadmiredinme。
  InthenightIcouldnotsleepforthinkingofthattalkandthevulgarthingsIhadsaidinit。Icouldnotunderstandthedriftmymindhadtaken。Iwasacutelydisgusted。Andmyunwonteddoubtsaboutmyselfspreadfromamerelypersonaldiscontenttoourfinancialposition。ItwasallverywelltotalkasIhaddoneofwealthandpowerandpeerages,butwhatdidIknownowadaysofmyuncle’sposition?SupposeinthemidstofsuchboastingandconfidencetherecamesometurnIdidnotsuspect,somerottennesshehadconcealedfromme?IresolvedIhadbeenplayingwithaeronauticslongenough;thatnextmorningIwouldgotohimandhavethingsclearbetweenus。
  IcaughtanearlytrainandwentuptotheHardingham。
  IwentuptotheHardinghamthroughadenseLondonfogtoseehowthingsreallystood。BeforeIhadtalkedtomyunclefortenminutesIfeltlikeamanwhohasjustawakenedinableak,inhospitableroomoutofagrandiosedream。
  “Wegottomakeafightforit。”saidmyuncle。“Wegottofacethemusic!”
  IrememberthatevenatthesightofhimIhadasenseofimpendingcalamity。Hesatundertheelectriclightwiththeshadowofhishairmakingbarsdownhisface。Helookedshrunken,andasthoughhisskinhadsuddenlygotlooseandyellow。Thedecorationsoftheroomseemedtohavelostfreshness,andoutsidetheblindswereup——therewasnotsomuchfogasadundarkness。Onesawthedingyoutlinesofthechimneysoppositequitedistinctly,andthenaskyofsuchbrownasonlyLondoncandisplay。
  “Isawaplacard。”Isaid:“’MorePonderevity。’“
  “That’sBoom。”hesaid。“Boomandhisdamnednewspapers。He’stryingtofightmedown。EversinceIofferedtobuytheDailyDecoratorhe’sbeenatme。AndhethinksconsolidatingDoUtcutdowntheads。Hewantseverything,damnhim!He’sgotnosenseofdealing。I’dliketobashhisface!”
  “Well。”Isaid,“what’stobedone?”
  “Keepgoing。”saidmyuncle。
  “I’llsmashBoomyet。”hesaid,withsuddensavagery。
  “Nothingelse?”Iasked。
  “Wegottokeepgoing。There’sascareon。Didyounoticetherooms?Halfthepeopleouttherethismorningarereporters。
  AndifItalktheytouchitup!。Theydidn’tusedtotouchthingsup!Nowtheyputincharactertouches——insultingyou。
  Don’tknowwhatjournalism’scomingto。It’sallBoom’sdoing。”
  HecursedLordBoomwithconsiderableimaginativevigour。
  “Well。”saidI,“whatcanhedo?”
  “Shoveusupagainsttime,George;makemoneytightforus。Webeenhandlingalotofmoney——andhetightensusup。”
  “We’resound?”
  “Oh,we’resound,George。Trustmeforthat!Butallthesame——
  There’ssuchalotofimaginationinthesethings。We’resoundenough。That’snotit。”
  Heblew。“DamnBoom!”hesaid,andhiseyesoverhisglassesmetminedefiantly。
  “Wecan’t,Isuppose,runclosehauledforabitstopexpenditure?”
  “Where?”
  “Well,——CrestHill“
  “What!”heshouted。“MestopCrestHillforBoom!”Hewavedafistasiftohithisinkpot,andcontrolledhimselfwithdifficulty。Hespokeatlastinareasonablevoice。“IfIdid。”
  hesaid,“he’dkickupafuss。It’snogood,evenifIwantedto。Everybody’swatchingtheplace。IfIwastostopbuildingwe’dbedowninaweek。”
  Hehadanidea。“IwishIcoulddosomethingtostartastrikeorsomething。Nosuchluck。Treatthoseworkmenasighttoowell。No,sinkorswim,CrestHillgoesonuntilwe’reunderwater。”
  Ibegantoaskquestionsandirritatedhiminstantly。
  “Oh,dashtheseexplanations,George!”hecried;“Youonlymakethingslookrottenerthantheyare。It’syourway。Itisn’tacaseoffigures。We’reallright——there’sonlyonethingwegottodo。”
  “Yes?”
  “Showvalue,George。That’swherethisquapcomesin;that’swhyIfellinsoreadilywithwhatyoubroughttomeweekbeforelast。Hereweare,wegotouroptionontheperfectfilament,andallwewant’scanadium。Nobodyknowsthere’smorecanadiumintheworldthanwillgoontheedgeofasixpenceexceptmeandyou。Nobodyhasanideetheperfectfilament’smorethanjustabitoftheorising。Fiftytonsofquapandwe’dturnthatbitoftheorisingintosomething。We’dmakethelamptradesitonitstailandhowl。We’dputEdiswanandallof’emintoaparcelwithourlastyear’strousersandahat,andswap’emoffforapotofgeraniums。See?We’ddoitthroughBusinessOrganisations,andthereyouare!See?Capern’sPatentFilament!
  TheIdealandtheReal!George,we’lldoit!We’llbringitoff!Andthenwe’llgivesuchafacertoBoom,he’llthinkforfiftyyears。He’slayingupforourLondonandAfricanmeeting。
  Lethim。Hecanturnthewholepaperontous。HesaystheBusinessOrganisationssharesaren’tworthfifty-twoandwequote’emateighty-four。Well,herewearegettin’readyforhim——loadingourgun。”
  Hisposewastriumphant。
  “Yes。”Isaid,“that’sallright。ButIcan’thelpthinkingwhereshouldwebeifwehadn’tjustbyaccidentgotCapern’sPerfectFilament。Because,youknowitwasanaccident——mybuyingupthat。”
  Hecrumpleduphisnoseintoanexpressionofimpatientdistasteatmyunreasonableness。
  “Andafterall,themeeting’sinJune,andyouhaven’tbeguntogetthequap!Afterall,we’vestillgottoloadourgun。”
  “TheystartonToosday。”
  “Havetheygotthebrig?”
  “They’vegotabrig。”
  “Gordon-Nasmyth!”Idoubted。
  “Safeasabank。”hesaid。“MoreIseeofthatmanthemoreI
  likehim。AllIwishiswe’dgotasteamerinsteadofasailingship“
  “And。”Iwenton,“youseemtooverlookwhatusedtoweighwithusabit。ThiscanadiumsideofthebusinessandtheCapernchancehasrushedyouoffyourlegs。Afterall——it’sstealing,andinitswayaninternationaloutrage。They’vegottwogunboatsonthecoast。”
  Ijumpedupandwentandstaredoutatthefog。
  “And,byJove,it’saboutouronlychance!Ididn’tdream。”
  Iturnedonhim。“I’vebeenupintheair。”Isaid。