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  “DoyouthinkIwastooexactinginwantinghimtotellmeeverythingafterwewereengaged?”
  “No,Idon’tsaythat。Butsupposehehadputitofftillyouweremarried?”Agathablushedalittle,butnotpainfully,“Wouldithavebeensobad?Thenyoumighthavethoughtthathisflirtinguptothelastmomentinhisdesperationwasaverygoodjoke。Youwouldhaveunderstoodbetterjusthowitwas,anditmightevenhavemadeyoufonderofhim。Youmighthaveseenthathehadflirtedwithsomeoneelsebecausehewassoheart-brokenaboutyou。”
  “ThenyoubelievethatifIcouldhavewaitedtill——till——butwhenIhadfoundout,don’tyouseeIcouldn’twait?ItwouldhavebeenallverywellifIhadn’tknownittillthen。ButasIdidknowit。Don’tyousee?”
  “Yes,thatcertainlycomplicatedit。”Mrs。Marchadmitted。“ButIdon’tthink,ifhe’dbeenafalsenature,he’dhaveownedupashedid。Yousee,hedidn’ttrytodenyit;andthat’sagreatpointgained。”
  “Yes,thatistrue。”saidAgatha,withconviction。“Isawthatafterwards。Butyoudon’tthink,Mrs。March,thatIwasunjustor——orhasty?”
  “No,indeed!Youcouldn’thavedonedifferentlyunderthecircumstances。
  Youmaybesurehefeltthat——heissounselfishandgenerous——“Agathabegantoweepintoherhandkerchiefagain;Mrs。Marchcaressedherhand。
  “Anditwillcertainlycomerightifyoufeelasyoudo。”
  “No。”thegirlprotested。“Hecanneverforgiveme;it’sallover,everythingisover。Itwouldmakeverylittledifferencetome,whathappenednow——ifthesteamerbrokehershaft,oranything。ButifIcanonlybelieveIwasn’tunjust——“
  Mrs。Marchassuredheroncemorethatshehadbehavedwithabsoluteimpartiality;andsheprovedtoherbyaprocessofreasoningquiteirrefragablethatitwasonlyaquestionoftime,withwhichplacehadnothingtodo,whensheandBurnamyshouldcometogetheragain,andallshouldbemaderightbetweenthem。Thefactthatshedidnotknowwherehewas,anymorethanMrs。Marchherself,hadnothingtodowiththeresult;thatwasameredetail,whichwouldsettleitself。Sheclinchedherargumentbyconfessingthatherownengagementhadbeenbrokenoff,andthatithadsimplyreneweditself。Allyouhadtodowastokeepwillingit,andwaiting。Therewassomethingverymysteriousinit。
  “Andhowlongwasittill——“Agathafaltered。
  “Well,inoureaseitwastwoyears。”
  “Oh!”saidthegirl,butMrs。Marchhastenedtoreassureher。
  “Butourcasewasverypeculiar。Icouldseeafterwardsthatitneedn’thavebeentwomonths,ifIhadbeenwillingtoacknowledgeatoncethatI
  wasinthewrong。Iwaitedtillwemet。”
  “IfIfeltthatIwasinthewrong,Ishouldwrite。”saidAgatha。
  “Ishouldn’tcarewhathethoughtofmydoingit。”
  “Yes,thegreatthingistomakesurethatyouwerewrong。”
  Theyremainedtalkingsolong,thatMarchandthegeneralhadexhaustedallthetopicsofcommoninterest,andhadevengonethroughthosetheydidnotcarefor。Atlastthegeneralsaid,“I’mafraidmydaughterwilltireMrs。March。”
  “Oh,Idon’tthinkshe’lltiremywife。Butdoyouwanther?”
  “Well,whenyou’regoingdown。”
  “IthinkI’lltakeaturnaboutthedeck,andstartmycirculation。”saidMarch,andhedidsobeforehewentbelow。
  Hefoundhiswifeupanddressed,andwaitingprovisionallyonthesofa。
  “IthoughtImightaswellgotolunch。”shesaid,andthenshetoldhimaboutAgathaandBurnamy,andthemeansshehademployedtocomfortandencouragethegirl。“Andnow,dearest,IwantyoutofindoutwhereBurnamyis,andgivehimahint。Youwill,won’tyou!Ifyoucouldhaveseenhowunhappyshewas!”
  “Idon’tthinkIshouldhavecared,andI’mcertainlynotgoingtomeddle。IthinkBurnamyhasgotnomorethanhedeserved,andthathe’swellridofher。Ican’timagineabrokenengagementthatwouldmorecompletelymeetmyapproval。Asthecasestands,theyhavemyblessing。”
  “Don’tsaythat,dearest!Youknowyoudon’tmeanit。”
  “Ido;andIadviseyoutokeepyourhandsoff。You’vedoneallandmorethanyououghttopropitiateMissTriscoe。You’veofferedyourselfup,andyou’veofferedmeup——“
  “No,no,Basil!Imerelyusedyouasanillustrationofwhatmenwere——
  thebestofthem。”
  “AndIcan’tobserve。”hecontinued,“thatanyoneelsehasbeenconsideredinthematter。IsMissTriscoethesolesuffererbyBurnamy’sflirtation?Whatisthematterwithalittlecompassionforthepivotalgirl?”
  “Now,youknowyou’renotserious。”saidhiswife;andthoughhewouldnotadmitthis,hecouldnotbeseriouslysorryforthenewinterestwhichshetookintheaffair。Therewasnolongeranyquestionofchangingtheirstate-room。Underthetonicinfluenceoftheexcitementshedidnotgobacktoherberthafterlunch,andshewasuplaterafterdinnerthanhecouldhaveadvised。ShewasabsorbedinAgatha,butinherliberationfromherhypochondria,shebeganalsotomakeacomparativestudyoftheAmericanswells,inthelightofherlateexperiencewiththeGermanhighhotes。Itistruethatnoneoftheswellsgavehertheopportunityofexaminingthematcloserange,asthehighhoteshaddone。Theykepttotheir,state-roomsmostly,where,afterhethoughtshecouldbearit,Marchtoldherhownearhehadcometomakinghertheirequalbyanoutlayofsixhundreddollars。Shenowshudderedatthethought;butshecontendedthatintheirmagnificentexclusivenesstheycouldgivepointstoEuropeanprinces;andthatthisshowedagainhowwhenAmericansdidtrytodoathing,theybeattheworld。AgathaTriscoeknewwhotheywere,butshedidnotknowthem;
  theybelongedtoanotherkindofset;shespokeofthemas“richpeople。”
  andsheseemedcontenttokeepawayfromthemwithMrs。Marchandwiththeshy,silentoldwifeofMajorEltwin,towhomMarchsometimesfoundhertalking。
  HeneverfoundherfathertalkingwithMajorEltwin。GeneralTriscoehadhisownfriendsinthesmoking-room,whereheheldforthinacertaincorneronthechancesoftheapproachingelectioninNewYork,andmockedtheirincredulitywhenheprophesiedthesuccessofTammanyandthereturnoftheKing。MarchhimselfmuchpreferredMajorEltwintothegeneralandhisfriends;helivedbackinthetalkoftheOhioanintohisownyoungeryearsinIndiana,andhewasamusedandtouchedtofindhowmuchthemid-Westernlifeseemedstillthesameashehadknown。Theconditionshadchanged,butnotsomuchastheyhadchangedintheEastandthefartherWest。Thepicturethatthemajordrewoftheminhisownregionwasalluring;itmadeMarchhomesick;thoughheknewthatheshouldnevergobacktohisnativesection。Therewasthecomfortofkindinthemajor;andhehadaveinofphilosophy,sparebutsweet,whichMarchliked;helikedalsothemeeknesswhichhadcomethroughsorrowuponaspiritwhichhadoncebeenproud。
  Theyhadboththeelderlyman’shabitofearlyrising,andtheyusuallyfoundthemselvestogetherwaitingimpatientlyforthecupofcoffee,ingenuouslybad,whichtheyservedontheCupanianotearlierthanhalfpastsix,instrictobservanceofaruleofthelinediscouragingtopeopleoftheirhabits。Marchadmiredthevilenessofthedecoction,whichhesaidcouldnotbegotanywhereoutoftheBritishEmpire,andheaskedEltwinthefirstmorningifhehadnoticedhowinstantlyontheChannelboattheyhaddroppedtoitandtothesour,heavy,soddenBritishbread,fromthespiritedandairyContinentaltraditionofcoffeeandrolls。
  Themajorconfessedthathewasnogreathandtonoticesuchthings,andhesaidhesupposedthatifthelinehadneverlostapassenger,andgotyoutoNewYorkinsixdaysithadarighttofeedyouasitpleased;hesurmisedthatiftheycouldgettheirairingoutsidebeforetheytooktheircoffee,itwouldgivethecoffeeachancetotastebetter;andthiswaswhattheyafterwardsdid。Theymet,wellbuttonedandwellminedup,onthepromenadewhenitwasyetsoearlythattheywerenotatoncesureofeachotherinthetwilight,andwatchedthemorningplanetspaleeastandwestbeforethesunrose。Sometimestherewerenopalingplanetsandnorisingsun,andablacksea,ridgedwithwhite,tossedunderalowdarkskywithdimrifts。
  Onemorning,theysawthesunrisewithaserenityandmajestywhichitrarelyhasoutsideofthetheatre。Thedawnbeganoverthatseawhichwasliketherumpledcanvasimitationsoftheseaonthestage,underlongmauvecloudsbathedinsolemnlight。Abovethese,inthepaletendersky,twosilverstarshung,andthesteamer’ssmokedriftedacrossthemlikeathinduskyveil。Totherightabankofduncloudbegantoburncrimson,andtoburnbrightertillitwaslikealowhill-sidefullofgorgeousrugositiesfleecedwithadensedwarfishgrowthofautumnalshrubs。Thewholeeasternheavensoftenedandflushedthroughdiaphanousmists;thewestremainedalividmystery。Theeasternmassesandflakesofcloudbegantokindlekeenly;butthestarsshoneclearly,andthenonestar,tillthetawnypinkhidit。Allthezenithreddened,butstillthesundidnotshowexceptinthecolorofthebrilliantclouds。Atlasttheluridhorizonbegantoburnlikeaflame-shotsmoke,andafiercelybrightdiscedgepierceditslevel,andswiftlydefineditselfasthesun’sorb。
  ManythoughtswentthroughMarch’smind;someofthemweresad,butinsometherewasatouchofhopefulness。Itmighthavebeenthatbeautywhichconsoledhimforhisyears;somehowhefelthimself,ifnolongeryoung,apartoftheyoungimmortalframeofthings。Hisstatewasindefinable,buthelongedtohintatittohiscompanion。
  “Yes。”saidEltwin,withalongdeepsigh。“IfeelasifIcouldwalkoutthroughthatbrightnessandfindher。Ireckonthatsuchhopeswouldn’tbeallowedtolietous;thatsomanyagesofmencouldn’thavefooledthemselvesso。I’mgladI’veseenthis。”Hewassilentandtheybothremainedwatchingtherisingsuntilltheycouldnotbearitssplendor。“Now。”saidthemajor,“itmustbetimeforthatmud,asyoucallit。”Overtheircoffeeandcrackersattheendofthetablewhichtheyhadtothemselves,heresumed。“Iwasthinkingallthetime——
  weseemtothinkhalfadozenthingsatonce,andthiswasoneofthem