Sheturnedherface,andaskedsternly,“Whatisit?”
Thenhesaid,with,analmostequalseverity,“MissTriscoeisonboard。
MissTriscoe-and-her-father。Shewishestocomedownandseeyou。”
Mrs。Marchsatupandbegantotwistherhairintoshape。“AndBurnamy?”
“ThereisnoBurnamyphysically,orsofarasIcanmakeout,spiritually。Shedidn’tmentionhim,andItalkedatleastfiveminuteswithher。”
“Handmemydressing-sack。”saidMrs。March,“andpokethosethingsonthesofaundertheberth。Shutupthatwash-stand,andpullthecurtainacrossthathideouswindow。Stop!Throwthosetowelsintoyourberth。
Putmyshoes,andyourslippersintotheshoe-bagonthedoor。Slipthebrushesintothatotherbag。Beatthedentoutofthesofacushionthatyourheadhasmade。Now!”
“Then——thenyonwillseeher?”
“Seeher!”
Hervoicewassoterriblethathefledbeforeit,andhereturnedwithMissTriscoeinadreamlikesimultaneity。Heremembered,asheledthewayintohiscorridor,toapologizeforbringingherdownintoabasementroom。
“Oh,we’reinthebasement,too;itwasallwecouldget。”shesaidinwordsthatendedwithinthestate-roomheopenedtoher。Thenhewentbackandtookherchairandwrapsbesideherfather。
Heletthegeneralhimselfleadthewayuptohishealth,whichhewasnotslowinreaching,andwasnotquickinleaving。HeremindedMarchofthestatehehadseenhiminatWurzburg,andhesaidithadgonefrombadtoworsewithhim。AtWeimarhehadtakentohisbedandmerelyescapedfromitwithhislife。ThentheyhadtriedSchevleningenforaweek,where,hesaidinatoneofsomeinjury,theyhadratherthoughttheymightfindthem,theMarches。Theairhadbeenpoisontohim,andtheyhadcomeovertoEnglandwithsomenotionofBournemouth;butthedoctorinLondonhadthoughtnot,andurgedtheirgoinghome。“AllEuropeisdamp,youknow,anddarkasapocketinwinter。”heended。
TherehadbeennothingaboutBurnamy,andMarchdecidedthathemustwaittoseehiswifeifhewishedtoknowanything,whenthegeneral,whohadbeensilent,twistedhisheadtowardshim,andsaidwithoutregardtothecontext,“Itwascomplicated,atWeimar,bythatyoungmaninthemostdevilishway。DidmydaughterwritetoMrs。Marchabout——Wellitcametonothing,afterall;andIdon’tunderstandhow,tothisday。Idoubtiftheydo。Itwassomesortofquarrel,Isuppose。Iwasn’tconsultedinthemattereitherway。Itappearsthatparentsarenotconsultedinthesetriflingaffairs,nowadays。”Hehadmarriedhisdaughter’smotherinopendefianceofherfather;butintheglareofhisdaughter’swilfulnessthisfacthadwhitenedintopiousobedience。“IdaresayI
shallbetold,by-and-by,andshallbeexpectedtoapproveoftheresult。”
AfancypossessedMarchthatbyoperationoftemperamentallawsGeneralTriscoewasnomoresatisfiedwithBurnamy’sfinalrejectionthanwithhisacceptance。Iftheengagementwasevertoberenewed,itmightbeanotherthing;butasitstood,Marchdivinedacertainfavorfortheyoungmaninthegeneral’sattitude。Buttheaffairwasaltogethertoodelicateforcomment;thegeneral’saristocraticfranknessindealingwithitmighthavegonefartherifhisknowledgehadbeengreater;butinanycaseMarchdidnotseehowhecouldtouchit。Hecouldonlysay,HehadalwayslikedBurnamy,himself。
Hehadhisgoodqualities,thegeneralowned。Hedidnotprofesstounderstandtheyoungmenofourtime;butcertainlythefellowhadtheinstinctsofagentleman。Hehadnothingtosayagainsthim,unlessinthatbusinesswiththatman——whatwashisname?
“Stoller?”Marchprompted。“Idon’texcusehiminthat,butIdon’tblamehimsomuch,either。Ifpunishmentmeansatonement,hehadtheopportunityofmakingthatrightverysuddenly,andifpardonmeansexpunction,thenIdon’tseewhythatoffencehasn’tbeenprettywellwipedout。
“Thosethingsarenotsosimpleastheyusedtoseem。”saidthegeneral,withaseriousnessbeyondhiswontinthingsthatdidnotimmediatelyconcernhisowncomfortoradvantage。
InthemeantimeMrs。MarchandMissTriscoewerediscussinganotheroffenceofBurnamy’s。
“Itwasn’t。”saidthegirl,excitedly,afteraplungethroughalltheminorfactstotheheartofthematter,“thathehadn’taperfectrighttodoit,ifhethoughtIdidn’tcareforhim。IhadrefusedhimatCarlsbad,andIhadforbiddenhimtospeaktomeabout——onthesubject。
Butthatwasmerelytemporary,andheoughttohaveknownit。HeoughttohaveknownthatIcouldn’taccepthim,onthespurofthemoment,thatway;andwhenhehadcomeback,aftergoingawayindisgrace,beforehehaddoneanythingtojustifyhimself。Icouldn’thavekeptmyself-
respect;andasitwasIhadthegreatestdifficulty;andheoughttohaveseenit。Ofcoursehesaidafterwardsthathedidn’tseeit。Butwhen——whenIfoundoutthatSHEhadbeeninWeimar,andallthattime,whileIhadbeensufferinginCarlsbadandWurzburg,andlongingtoseehim——lethimknowhowIwasreallyfeeling——hewasflirtingwiththat——
thatgirl,thenIsawthathewasafalsenature,andIdeterminedtoputanendtoeverything。AndthatiswhatIdid;andIshallalwaysthinkI——didright——and——“
TherestwaslostinAgatha’shandkerchief,whichsheputuptohereyes。
Mrs。Marchwatchedherfromherpillowkeepingthegirl’sunoccupiedhandinherown,andsoftlypressingittillthestormwaspastsufficientlytoallowhertobeheard。
Thenshesaid,“Menareverystrange——thebestofthem。Andfromtheveryfactthathewasdisappointed,hewouldbeallthemoreapttorushintoaflirtationwithsomebodyelse。”
MissTriscoetookdownherhandkerchieffromafacethathadcertainlynotbeenbeautifiedbygrief。“Ididn’tblamehimfortheflirting;ornotsomuch。Itwashiskeepingitfrommeafterwards。Heoughttohavetoldmetheveryfirstinstantwewereengaged。Buthedidn’t。Heletitgoon,andifIhadn’thappenedonthatbouquetImightneverhaveknownanythingaboutit。ThatiswhatImeanby——afalsenature。
Iwouldn’thavemindedhisdeceivingme;buttoletmedeceivemyself——
Oh,itwastoomuch!”
Agathahidherfaceinherhandkerchiefagain。Shewasperchingontheedgeoftheberth,andMrs。Marchsaid,withaglance,whichshedidnotsee,towardthesofa,“I’mafraidthat’sratherahardseatforyou。
“Oh,no,thankyou!I’mperfectlycomfortable——Ilikeit——ifyoudon’tmind?”
Mrs。Marchpressedherhandforanswer,andafteranotherlittledelay,sighedandsaid,“Theyarenotlikeus,andwecannothelpit。Theyaremoretemporizing。”
“Howdoyoumean?”Agathaunmaskedagain。
“Theycanbeartokeepthingsbetterthanwecan,andtheytrusttotimetobringthemright,ortocomerightofthemselves。”
“Idon’tthinkMr。Marchwouldtrustthingstocomerightofthemselves!”
saidAgathainindignantaccusalofMrs。March’ssincerity。
“Ah,that’sjustwhathewoulddo,mydear,andhasdone,allalong;andIdon’tbelievewecouldhavelivedthroughwithoutit:weshouldhavequarrelledourselvesintothegrave!”
“Mrs。March!”
“Yes,indeed。Idon’tmeanthathewouldeverdeceiveme。Buthewouldletthingsgoon,andhopethatsomehowtheywouldcomerightwithoutanyfuss。”
“Doyoumeanthathewouldletanybodydeceivethemselves?”
“I’mafraidhewould——ifhethoughtitwouldcomeright。Itusedtobeaterribletrialtome;anditisyet,attimeswhenIdon’trememberthathemeansnothingbutgoodandkindnessbyit。OnlytheotherdayinAnsbach——howlongagoitseems!——heletapooroldwomangivehimherson’saddressinJerseyCity,andallowedhertobelievehewouldlookhimupwhenwegotbackandtellhimwehadseenher。Idon’tbelieve,unlessIkeeprightroundafterhim,aswesayinNewEngland,thathe’llevergoneartheman。”
Agathalookeddaunted,butshesaid,“Thatisaverydifferentthing。”
“Itisn’tadifferentkindofthing。Anditshowswhatmenare,——thesweetestandbestofthem,thatis。Theyareterriblyapttobe——easy-going。”
“ThenyouthinkIwasallwrong?”thegirlaskedinatremor。
“No,indeed!Youwereright,becauseyoureallyexpectedperfectionofhim。Youexpectedtheideal。Andthat’swhatmakesallthetrouble,inmarriedlife:weexpecttoomuchofeachother——weeachexpectmoreoftheotherthanwearewillingtogiveorcangive。IfIhadtobeginoveragain,Ishouldnotexpectanythingatall,andthenIshouldbesureofbeingradiantlyhappy。Butallthistalkingandallthiswritingaboutloveseemstoturnourbrains;weknowthatmenarenotperfect,evenatourcraziest,becausewomenarenot,butweexpectperfectionofthem;andtheyseemtoexpectitofus,poorthings!Ifwecouldkeeponafterweareinlovejustaswewerebeforewewereinlove,andtakenicethingsasfavorsandsurprises,aswedidinthebeginning!Butwegetmoreandmoregreedyandexacting——“