首页 >出版文学> Their Silver Wedding Journey>第76章
  Sheturnedherface,andaskedsternly,“Whatisit?”
  Thenhesaid,with,analmostequalseverity,“MissTriscoeisonboard。
  MissTriscoe-and-her-father。Shewishestocomedownandseeyou。”
  Mrs。Marchsatupandbegantotwistherhairintoshape。“AndBurnamy?”
  “ThereisnoBurnamyphysically,orsofarasIcanmakeout,spiritually。Shedidn’tmentionhim,andItalkedatleastfiveminuteswithher。”
  “Handmemydressing-sack。”saidMrs。March,“andpokethosethingsonthesofaundertheberth。Shutupthatwash-stand,andpullthecurtainacrossthathideouswindow。Stop!Throwthosetowelsintoyourberth。
  Putmyshoes,andyourslippersintotheshoe-bagonthedoor。Slipthebrushesintothatotherbag。Beatthedentoutofthesofacushionthatyourheadhasmade。Now!”
  “Then——thenyonwillseeher?”
  “Seeher!”
  Hervoicewassoterriblethathefledbeforeit,andhereturnedwithMissTriscoeinadreamlikesimultaneity。Heremembered,asheledthewayintohiscorridor,toapologizeforbringingherdownintoabasementroom。
  “Oh,we’reinthebasement,too;itwasallwecouldget。”shesaidinwordsthatendedwithinthestate-roomheopenedtoher。Thenhewentbackandtookherchairandwrapsbesideherfather。
  Heletthegeneralhimselfleadthewayuptohishealth,whichhewasnotslowinreaching,andwasnotquickinleaving。HeremindedMarchofthestatehehadseenhiminatWurzburg,andhesaidithadgonefrombadtoworsewithhim。AtWeimarhehadtakentohisbedandmerelyescapedfromitwithhislife。ThentheyhadtriedSchevleningenforaweek,where,hesaidinatoneofsomeinjury,theyhadratherthoughttheymightfindthem,theMarches。Theairhadbeenpoisontohim,andtheyhadcomeovertoEnglandwithsomenotionofBournemouth;butthedoctorinLondonhadthoughtnot,andurgedtheirgoinghome。“AllEuropeisdamp,youknow,anddarkasapocketinwinter。”heended。
  TherehadbeennothingaboutBurnamy,andMarchdecidedthathemustwaittoseehiswifeifhewishedtoknowanything,whenthegeneral,whohadbeensilent,twistedhisheadtowardshim,andsaidwithoutregardtothecontext,“Itwascomplicated,atWeimar,bythatyoungmaninthemostdevilishway。DidmydaughterwritetoMrs。Marchabout——Wellitcametonothing,afterall;andIdon’tunderstandhow,tothisday。Idoubtiftheydo。Itwassomesortofquarrel,Isuppose。Iwasn’tconsultedinthemattereitherway。Itappearsthatparentsarenotconsultedinthesetriflingaffairs,nowadays。”Hehadmarriedhisdaughter’smotherinopendefianceofherfather;butintheglareofhisdaughter’swilfulnessthisfacthadwhitenedintopiousobedience。“IdaresayI
  shallbetold,by-and-by,andshallbeexpectedtoapproveoftheresult。”
  AfancypossessedMarchthatbyoperationoftemperamentallawsGeneralTriscoewasnomoresatisfiedwithBurnamy’sfinalrejectionthanwithhisacceptance。Iftheengagementwasevertoberenewed,itmightbeanotherthing;butasitstood,Marchdivinedacertainfavorfortheyoungmaninthegeneral’sattitude。Buttheaffairwasaltogethertoodelicateforcomment;thegeneral’saristocraticfranknessindealingwithitmighthavegonefartherifhisknowledgehadbeengreater;butinanycaseMarchdidnotseehowhecouldtouchit。Hecouldonlysay,HehadalwayslikedBurnamy,himself。
  Hehadhisgoodqualities,thegeneralowned。Hedidnotprofesstounderstandtheyoungmenofourtime;butcertainlythefellowhadtheinstinctsofagentleman。Hehadnothingtosayagainsthim,unlessinthatbusinesswiththatman——whatwashisname?
  “Stoller?”Marchprompted。“Idon’texcusehiminthat,butIdon’tblamehimsomuch,either。Ifpunishmentmeansatonement,hehadtheopportunityofmakingthatrightverysuddenly,andifpardonmeansexpunction,thenIdon’tseewhythatoffencehasn’tbeenprettywellwipedout。
  “Thosethingsarenotsosimpleastheyusedtoseem。”saidthegeneral,withaseriousnessbeyondhiswontinthingsthatdidnotimmediatelyconcernhisowncomfortoradvantage。
  InthemeantimeMrs。MarchandMissTriscoewerediscussinganotheroffenceofBurnamy’s。
  “Itwasn’t。”saidthegirl,excitedly,afteraplungethroughalltheminorfactstotheheartofthematter,“thathehadn’taperfectrighttodoit,ifhethoughtIdidn’tcareforhim。IhadrefusedhimatCarlsbad,andIhadforbiddenhimtospeaktomeabout——onthesubject。
  Butthatwasmerelytemporary,andheoughttohaveknownit。HeoughttohaveknownthatIcouldn’taccepthim,onthespurofthemoment,thatway;andwhenhehadcomeback,aftergoingawayindisgrace,beforehehaddoneanythingtojustifyhimself。Icouldn’thavekeptmyself-
  respect;andasitwasIhadthegreatestdifficulty;andheoughttohaveseenit。Ofcoursehesaidafterwardsthathedidn’tseeit。Butwhen——whenIfoundoutthatSHEhadbeeninWeimar,andallthattime,whileIhadbeensufferinginCarlsbadandWurzburg,andlongingtoseehim——lethimknowhowIwasreallyfeeling——hewasflirtingwiththat——
  thatgirl,thenIsawthathewasafalsenature,andIdeterminedtoputanendtoeverything。AndthatiswhatIdid;andIshallalwaysthinkI——didright——and——“
  TherestwaslostinAgatha’shandkerchief,whichsheputuptohereyes。
  Mrs。Marchwatchedherfromherpillowkeepingthegirl’sunoccupiedhandinherown,andsoftlypressingittillthestormwaspastsufficientlytoallowhertobeheard。
  Thenshesaid,“Menareverystrange——thebestofthem。Andfromtheveryfactthathewasdisappointed,hewouldbeallthemoreapttorushintoaflirtationwithsomebodyelse。”
  MissTriscoetookdownherhandkerchieffromafacethathadcertainlynotbeenbeautifiedbygrief。“Ididn’tblamehimfortheflirting;ornotsomuch。Itwashiskeepingitfrommeafterwards。Heoughttohavetoldmetheveryfirstinstantwewereengaged。Buthedidn’t。Heletitgoon,andifIhadn’thappenedonthatbouquetImightneverhaveknownanythingaboutit。ThatiswhatImeanby——afalsenature。
  Iwouldn’thavemindedhisdeceivingme;buttoletmedeceivemyself——
  Oh,itwastoomuch!”
  Agathahidherfaceinherhandkerchiefagain。Shewasperchingontheedgeoftheberth,andMrs。Marchsaid,withaglance,whichshedidnotsee,towardthesofa,“I’mafraidthat’sratherahardseatforyou。
  “Oh,no,thankyou!I’mperfectlycomfortable——Ilikeit——ifyoudon’tmind?”
  Mrs。Marchpressedherhandforanswer,andafteranotherlittledelay,sighedandsaid,“Theyarenotlikeus,andwecannothelpit。Theyaremoretemporizing。”
  “Howdoyoumean?”Agathaunmaskedagain。
  “Theycanbeartokeepthingsbetterthanwecan,andtheytrusttotimetobringthemright,ortocomerightofthemselves。”
  “Idon’tthinkMr。Marchwouldtrustthingstocomerightofthemselves!”
  saidAgathainindignantaccusalofMrs。March’ssincerity。
  “Ah,that’sjustwhathewoulddo,mydear,andhasdone,allalong;andIdon’tbelievewecouldhavelivedthroughwithoutit:weshouldhavequarrelledourselvesintothegrave!”
  “Mrs。March!”
  “Yes,indeed。Idon’tmeanthathewouldeverdeceiveme。Buthewouldletthingsgoon,andhopethatsomehowtheywouldcomerightwithoutanyfuss。”
  “Doyoumeanthathewouldletanybodydeceivethemselves?”
  “I’mafraidhewould——ifhethoughtitwouldcomeright。Itusedtobeaterribletrialtome;anditisyet,attimeswhenIdon’trememberthathemeansnothingbutgoodandkindnessbyit。OnlytheotherdayinAnsbach——howlongagoitseems!——heletapooroldwomangivehimherson’saddressinJerseyCity,andallowedhertobelievehewouldlookhimupwhenwegotbackandtellhimwehadseenher。Idon’tbelieve,unlessIkeeprightroundafterhim,aswesayinNewEngland,thathe’llevergoneartheman。”
  Agathalookeddaunted,butshesaid,“Thatisaverydifferentthing。”
  “Itisn’tadifferentkindofthing。Anditshowswhatmenare,——thesweetestandbestofthem,thatis。Theyareterriblyapttobe——easy-going。”
  “ThenyouthinkIwasallwrong?”thegirlaskedinatremor。
  “No,indeed!Youwereright,becauseyoureallyexpectedperfectionofhim。Youexpectedtheideal。Andthat’swhatmakesallthetrouble,inmarriedlife:weexpecttoomuchofeachother——weeachexpectmoreoftheotherthanwearewillingtogiveorcangive。IfIhadtobeginoveragain,Ishouldnotexpectanythingatall,andthenIshouldbesureofbeingradiantlyhappy。Butallthistalkingandallthiswritingaboutloveseemstoturnourbrains;weknowthatmenarenotperfect,evenatourcraziest,becausewomenarenot,butweexpectperfectionofthem;andtheyseemtoexpectitofus,poorthings!Ifwecouldkeeponafterweareinlovejustaswewerebeforewewereinlove,andtakenicethingsasfavorsandsurprises,aswedidinthebeginning!Butwegetmoreandmoregreedyandexacting——“